#i dont love this one 100% but theres nothing else i can really do to it

[fiendishartist2]

this morning we found a boy. we asked the boy his name and he didn’t know, but he also didn’t care. identity was not of interest to him, since he was so busy being every possible thing except himself

[telesodalite]

I need to be weirder about the scavengers and cannibalism...

[squeiky]

Go tired of seeing "old hedgehog" designs of sonic and shadow with them just having greyed out quills and decided to do something about it

So yeah qpr sonadow (yeah shadow is 50+ fucking finally. Im considering giving him a cane. An asthetic or an actual one idk. Maybe both?)

Sonic grew his quills out (wanted a kind of longhair rockstar kinda hair thing idk if i achiebed i though. Also still unsure on what he'd wear so i just slapped on his sa2 beach costume and added sandals (and possibly socks).

(Oh and there a scar from the Mephiles blast on his stomach- as well as top surgery scars because of course he had top surgery its sonic)

(Oh and also the "old lady swagger" sonic is just him crossdessing/going lady mode because he always rocks the look )

Shadow styled/shortend his quills and i put him in a nice black collared sweater. He wears glasses because my guy has eye problems

(Btw. Im horrible at telling ppls ages so if they dont feel old then idk what to tell you guys i have no idea what aging is at this point)

Then, instead of simply making old yaoi i ended up getting obbessed (and happy) and started making everyone old

So next up was amy and Blaze. (Silver is here too)

I think theyre a little bit on the younger side of the old yaoi? I did consider the fact that some people age differently (some look older whilst others look younger) so Amy and Silver got the more "youthful-ish" complexion whilst Blaze and Espio got the more older one.

Thoughhh im still working on their design. I can always make older old lady Amy (now that i think about it i should 100% make Amy a granny looking buff woman because i feel like thats beautiful)

Either way amy and Blaze kept their uh.. "hair" short. Amy still wears supergirly clothes and Blaze wears more masculine type clothes nothing else.

Next is espilver

You cant sue me for making Silver a short king menace to society.

Not really much on design so far other than Silver is way more plump (pearshaped) now because life got better, and Espio is taller because what is he if not a tree?

Ask them how they met? It was at bowling. Why bowling? Its because thats less weird then "was investigating the multiple crimes husbando commited and ended up getting said yet-to-be husbando arrested, but after he got out we totally fucked"

Yeah

Oh, and because i couldnt choose, Espio is trans AND intersex! Yeah!

Also Amy is silvers ex (Silver has like.. 2 exes... Possibly more?)

And then theres everyone else who arent a "ship" persay:

So i call this the moreso young adult group with Tails, Charmy, Ray and Cream.

Tails (in college) and Charmy (not in college) obviously hang out and play videogames.

Cream, because when she was little she didnt get invited to fight deadlt monsters, grew up, and decided shes going to fight deadlt monsters. So i tried to make her a cool suit but idk.. it needs reworking cause the whole "secret agent" vibe works! But not the way i like.

Rouge is forever foxynand will continue to be the most attractive woman on planet earth no matter what age. Shes also still a meance to socitey and we will forever love the jewel thief (old) woman.

Knuckles doesnt cut his quills so those shits are LONG hes also old as well but idk what he'd wear

And yes Metal (also Chaos) is here too. Metal is a bit rusty (literally) but overall well kept and fancy. I think eggman would be dead by now, so i gave it a crown on its ears to symbolize how it took over i guess.

OKAY SHIPKIDS:

Blaze x Amy ( bio kid): Flare (was thinking "Spark" because of the love idea but idk yet)

Espio x Silver (bio-kid): Greybell

And then heres the fun part:

So Sonic and Shadow dont function like the others here, in that- while saving the world and whatnot, every so often they'd either find a kid following them (similarly to Amy and Tails back in the days) or save a kid during their whole adventure.

The first time this happened was just Luca (a black jaguar) who followed Sonic during one his little solo adventures and Sonic was like "do you have parents i can take u back too" and she was like "nah" so of course, after seriously looking for her parents through ppl with database accesses like tails and rouge, he was like "u wanna stay with me?" And Luca was like "YEAH!"

And then Sonic called Shadow like "Shadow do u want kids" and which he replied "what?" And then suddenly they adopted Luca. This is how it began.

Eventually, as one grew up, theyd find another, and then another and then well now they have like 11 kids in total.

Now, after ALL of this, they took a break and after that years worth of a break were like "wanna make a kid? Like for the challenge of having to that from scratch"

And sonic was like "what?"

So they hit up the labs and made a bio kid who is 2 months old and is the most hectic fucking thing theyve ever had to deal with so thanks for the prior 10 experinces (alas they do not compare to the mega menace)

[theninth09]

Oh Liam totally has PTSD 100% especially after season six, we even see more of it in the zoo when Liam literally sees Brett hurting him, and while we can argue that’s guilt I don’t actually believe that hasn’t happened before.

I think the fans and writers sometimes (not necessarily on purpose) excuse Liam’s mental instability and self-loathing/harm with stage fact he’s a werewolf, “oh, he literally just cut into his own palms so that they’re pouring blood… it’s fine he’s a werewolf he’ll heal”

There is nothing more beautiful to me than Theo and Liam seeing each other and understanding the other despite everyone else’s hesitation towards the two. Both no what it’s like to be feared and both are the exception to each other.

yup! tw isnt really the show for this, i guess, bc theres so much trauma they put the characters through and then just.. kinda forget about that? theres a lot of untouched potential with the storylines they start, for sure. and they love to play liams character off as the comedic relief, which i Hate. that scene in s5 where liam tells scott to punch him so he'll get angry??? haha funny and werewolf logic and whatever but how fucked up is that? liam offering himself as a punching bag, probably thinking hes useless if it wasnt for his anger? and this is in s5b so he feels horribly guilty about having tried to kill scott. sure, he needs to get angry so he'll get strong in that situation, but he 100% thought he deserved getting punched by scott.

and the zoo scene, oh boy. i personally do not think that that was just liam hallucinating something that never happened/that he was only projecting his guilt or whatever. that episode is named "triggers". theo, word for word, says: "something around here is triggering you." why would they focus that much on something TRIGGERING liam when its not something that actually happened to him. idk about you, but that makes zero sense to me. and its not like its out of line for bretts character to have done something like that. (personally hate when people erase this part of bretts character because it automatically takes away from liams character. like sorry that this random guy that you like for reasons unbeknownst to me is an asshole, at least own up to it and dont pretend he isnt as big of a dick as he canonically is.)

(^ i say, with theo as one of my favorite characters. im aware that hes an asshole. i do not care. im not pretending that he isnt.)

the brief focus on the warning sign about "dangerous animals" above the cage (reminder that this happened before liam was a werewolf) and liam begging scott, saying "they can't see me like this" and scott finishing "like a monster?" during his first full moon. yeah. liam has thought of himself as a monster long before he got bitten. that boy has serious self-worth issues and a bunch of trauma.

theo and liam helping each other through their trauma, recognizing the other's pain and seeing themselves in each other is so important to me. an aspect i love to focus on.

[sometimesilikeeatingrawcorn]

@original-character-championship

HERES WHY YOU SHOULD VOTE GOD ON THE ORIGINAL CHARACTER TUMBLR FIGHT.

I'M NOW GONNA GIVE YOU A LIST OF WHAT THINGS MAKE HIM LIKEABLE AND WHY HE SHOULD WIN.

1- HE'S A MAD SCIENTIST

A FUN THING ABOUT GOD IS THAT AFTER YEARS OF BEING TRAPPED IN A LOOP OF ENDLESS DEATH HE FOUND A FUN WAY TO PASS TIME, AND BY THAT I MEAN MAKING CREATURES IN THE LAB. TO THIS DAY HE HAS CREATED A WORM OFF A STRING, A FLUFF BALL, SOME SORT OF RECTANGLE AND! THE MOST IMPORTANT CREATION! HIS KID! LUCI!

HE ALSO HAS A HUSBAND, THEY MET IN THE WORMHOLE WHERE AN HOUR AFTER MEETING HIM HE GAVE HIS HUSBAND TOP SURGERY. THEY LOVE EACHOTHER VERY MUCH.

2- HES PATHETIC. AND I DONT MEAN IT IN THE "OOOU POOR GUY" WAY, HE IS PATHETIC, THE KIND OF SMOKES A BLUNT AND GETS SO SO SO SCARED. HE'S ALSO INCREDIBLY SHORT, BEING 5'2 AND ALMOST ALL (except two) OF HIS CREWMATES TOWER OVER HIM. MEANING HE ALSO GETS BULLIED.

3- SURPRISE! HES A FATHER OF TWO! TURNS OUT THAT HAVING ONE KID WASNT ENOUGH! NOW HES GOT A DEMIGOD CHILD THAT HE FOUND ON A POCKET DIMENTION.

-4 SURPRISE! HES GOT NO CHILDREN ANYMORE. (for a bit)

IT DOESNT MATTER HOW MUCH HE LOVES HIS FAMILY, HES BOUND TO LOOSE THEM ALL. FIRST HE LOSES HIS HUSBAND AND FIRST CHILD BY BEING TRANSPORTED TO ANOTHER WORMHOLE, HE'S GOT NO CHANCES OF TALKING TO THEM OR CONTACTING THEM ANYMORE. HE'S COMPLETELY ALONE AND WITH NO WAY OF KNOWING IF THEYRE DOING FINE. THATS WHEN HE GETS ATTACHED TO ONE OF HIS CREWMATES, AND EVEN IF IT MIGHT HAVE STARTED AS A WAY OF REPLACING HIS ORIGINAL CHILD HE ALSO STARTS TO THINK OF THEM AS HIS OWN. PROBLEM IS THAT THEY'RE STILL ON A DEATH SHIP, SO THIS ISNT GOING TO LAST, SK GETS THROWN OUT THE AIRLOCK, LEFT TO DIE ALONE IN SPACE WITH NO ONE TO COMFORT THEM. GOD FINDS THEM AND TRIES TO HELP BUT HES TOO LATE, THERES NOTHING HE CAN DO NOW.

5- WOMEN LOVE HIM! WHILE ON THE WORMHOLE HE MEETS A REALLY ATTRACTIVE WOMAN WHO HAS A VERY CLEAR CRUSH ON HIM! HE DOES NOT CARE, AT ALL, HE'S TOO BUSY THINKING ABOUT HIS HUSBAND. (art made by my friend)

6- MOVING SHIPS KIND OF AFFECTED HIM WHILE HE WAS ON THE ORIGINAL SHIP HE WAS COCKY, MEAN AND A BIT INSANE (he still is)! THIS ENTIRE DEMEANOR CHANGED THE SECOND HE MOVED SHIPS, NOW HES SCARED 24/7 ALL THE TIME. HE CRIES, HE WEEPS AND HE SINGS SONGS HE USED TO DEDICATE TO HIS HUSBAND TO PASS THE TIME.

7-HES FULLY HUMAN! HE MIGHT HAVE BEEN BORN OUT OF THE GROUND LIKE A POTATO BUT HES GENETICALLY 100% HUMAN, NOTHING ELSE IN THERE! NUH UH! 8- HES. HES GOT THE BIGGEST BREASTS ON THE ENTIRE SHIP (i'm being held at gunpoint)

10- HE CAN ALSO DO A CARTWHEEL! THINK OF THAT WHEN VOTING. (this is a lie, hes not flexible at all.) 11- HES GOT A GREAT MUSIC TASTE. GO LOOK AT HIS PERSONAL PLAYLIST OF THINGS HE WOULD LISTEN TO OR TO THE ONE THATS JUST HIM AS A CHARACTER OR TO HIS OLD ONE Complementary god jerma pose as a way to end the post.

[cosmical-flowers]

Danganronpa: Violent Voices AU

Journal Entry 9 + 10

Taglist: @luvizna, @hypn0sssss, @mutsuowo, @yumetomiko, @dexterityz, @transgender-eichi (If you would like to be tagged, send an ask!)

A/N: just according to keikaku (translators note: keikaku means plan) [Refference] ANYWAYS DBA SHALL DROP SOON I PROMISE + SORRY FOR LONG WAIT SCHOOL HAS BEEN ROUGH

Journal Entry 9

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I decided to hang out with Tomoya today. He seems very nice from the interview I conducted with him. As he is the ultimate lucky student, he’s mentioned before that he has amazing luck when it comes to certain things. As an example, he told me a story on how he randomly won tickets for a baseball game from a machine and went to go see a game with his friend. I usually photograph events like that as well, so I asked him what game it was and he told me it was between 2 local teams. Ironically, I ended up photographing that event. Small world, isn’t it? We ended up looking outside while we chatted about how our lives. 

The outside looks odd. There’s a large cage surrounding us, with thick bulletproof glass. We can confirm that it’s that safe because Monoshoji popped up and informed us about it. It’s like un-fun trivia! Wow, another piece of info about how we’re gonna escape here or die trying! Theres a fountain snd some other buildings outside but they’re locked. The robot thing mentioned that they were hidden away temporarily for “special reasons”. What does that even mean!? Tomoya was confused as well, and we had nothing to do other than try to escape, so we tried lockpicing the lock to a building while Monoshoji wasn’t looking. He grabbed a hairpin from his pocket and bent it straight. I guess this is what he did to get his ultimate, because after like 5 seconds it unlocked. The auditorium was unlocked for only a few minutes as I took photos of what it looked like, because quickly Monoshoji locked us out again and instructed us not to do it again or else we’ll be punished. We both agreed, but honestly we didn’t take him too seriously. We even took a photo inside the auditorium before it was locked.

[Attached is a photo of Mao and Tomoya. Tomoya seems to be standing on the stage right in the center, an overhead light illuminating him. Mao is smiling as he stood next to him.]

It was fun just doing random things with Tomoya. Perhaps next time we can unlock the area to the pool. Or maybe the playground? We should 100% hang out again.

Journal Entry 10

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The game has recently started and everything seems to be working smoothly. Nobody has harmed my adorable machine so far, so no intervention was needed. Unfortunately, people have tried to unlock areas they shouldn’t have done already. Besides that, everything else is great. Despair has creeped up among the people there. They unfortunately dont know that someone among the organization is with them. Our lovely mastermind. Im pretty sure nobody will figure out so soon.

…

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. This wasn’t meant to happen. How did [REDACTED INFORMATION] sneak into the game? Wasn’t he meant to be part of the last one? Why is he here again? He was meant to be leaving for good, they really sent him back? We have to make sure he is gone. I’ll make sure of it.

[letmeoutofthebasementt]

Thats why I would be so conflicted even if you think you could be xyz idols type its got to be so rare to genuinely meet them at the right time when they are in a non crowded environment and to not seem deluded either. I think you cannot force these thing if it dont happen it dont meant to be, but san situation seem really sad and tbh you shouldnt need 100s of others to feel happy in life but he got something going for him with his talents and that all that matters in the long run, if he do or dont date as we cant go around playing cupid so it shouldnt matter.

These idol groups get so popular that they reallt just have to either embrace it or accept it some way or other they simply not going to be seen nor treated as a normal being yet that doesnt mean they cant find genuine romance in their life. Nothing is impossible. Plus it not like it got to happen right this moment it could be next year he meet his fs or year after.

I would genuinely love san more than his money or name or image yet I realise I do not fit into that lifestyle of his thats why most their fs are probs already rich and famous, good for them yaknow. A lot of ppl still dont get the ins and outs of all that goes on again I would give san all my love and support... if I knew there werent going to be crazy knetz or dispatch or kq preventing it from going public in a healthy way. In fact with social media being this crazy I dont know why they would want it to be so public in the first place yet privacy will be rare for them and bts and many other group.

There still has to be more to life than fame and money. Anyway these just my observations! I wish more celebs could be like cillian murphey he perfect example imho of celeb who can still be in public but he have and keep private not everything has to be online for parasocial relationship, he just going about his life without needing to be kept up to date bruh didnt even know he was a meme.

Older idols said smth interesting how they had more rest time and less social media so they could solely focus on one task at hand yet puts into perspective how reliant society has become on a made up online world. I dont think internet fame is a legit thing its just something thats been made up. now every other person and their granny is an internet star so its hard to not want to fall into the trap of being constantly online even if u only use one platform like tumblr theres too many rabbit holes to go down. that includes kpop idols and their fs. we all need to yeet ourselves into space or something to get real break from constantly being connected online yet disconnected from ourselves.

I think if there were less online celebs then it would eventually inspire others to be less online but as most celebs are still online it only encourages all the wrong behaviour of their fans, or an overattachment to them, even if they do date in private, ppl still going to poke and dig or be a nosy mf or want to be their idols fs and so on. it never ending cycle. Yet I too find myself getting so interested in someone elses personal life bc it seem the current thing to be doing yaknow it a literal trend.

sorry for my long ramble.

I know it’s near impossible to meet an idol unless you have connections and even then it’s hard not to seem like a weirdo. But that’s also something that’s not new? Celebrities are kind of like our modern day aristocracy. Beneath the people elected to rule, yet wealthy enough to have immense sway. And you couldn’t just meet aristocracy.

And it’s not really about wanting it to be public. It’s about the fact that people are insane nowadays and need to calm tf down.

And it makes sense celebrities would be with other people who are rich and famous. There’s a lesser likelihood of being used, you’re at a similar place in life so there’s little power imbalance, you can relate to one another, you know they can keep up with your lifestyle, and they’ll understand certain things the average person can’t understand.

Again, celebrities are like modern day aristocracy, and you know for a fact aristocrats always married other aristocrats.

And while I think kpop idols should definitely distance themselves more from online platforms, I also understand why they don’t.

They can talk to fans, connect with them, promote music, etc. many groups wouldn’t have a lick of fame if they weren’t on the internet, or they’d be below nugu nugu groups. And I can admit that.

Social media has also helped with the spread of KPOP to the west, showing them to broader audiences. Nowadays, social media is important to an idol’s career

[edens-notesfromthegarden]

Is there any particular uncommon headcanons you have for gabriel, minos, and v1?

hmmm

well there's acespec minos for one, i talked about that in a recent thing! but I dont really have much else for him rn lol

gabriel... i do picture there being something underneath that... sometimes its human, sometimes its not, and sometimes theres nothing at all... do i wanna say gabriel can shapeshift as he grows more comfortable with being more than just the council's weapon and being who he wants to be? yes 100%

as for v1... god i love giving this thing human traits and ways to connect to humans despite its main purpose so i love writing that v1 is at least a polyglot in sign language. dont know howwwww uncommon that is but yeah. love that thang. let it experience emotions like guilt and shame and a lovely numerous amount of other things

[neutrallyobsessed]

I challenge you to make a tier list of your opinion on Ace Attorney ships >;)

Challenge accepted motherfucker >;))))

i did like 5 different lists cause not all them where complete enough to my tastes and then i found this MASSIVE tier list (with a lot of crack xdd) so i was able to do it, fortunally the nrmy week gave me some time to work on this and EVEN THEN some kinda obvious ones were missing so i had to edit them in from the other tierlists, plus stuff i made up lol

also, for it not be too long and mark very clearly my Heterosexual Bias, the list was divided in two, so let's start: (spoilers for investigations cause shih-na doest appear as shih-na)

The OTP category is very self-explanitory, so the second place is all other ships that i like and ship too just not as hard since i have OTPs for the characters already~~

Ohters I like and Im listening have varying degrees of crack but im still considering as potential ships to like seriously

the canon ships acting as a neutral divider, they are canon, you can't complain about that (or you can im just a tumblr post you can do what you want forever). if they arent higher is cause they are not as interesting or funny as the above ships, i still love them very much

then theres the absolute crack that i find amusing but couldnt take to ship it seriously and then ships that are either boring: too tame, lack spice, feel like avoiding being problematic was the priority instead of they'd be cute togheter; or ships that feel a bit too cruel for comfort and i percieve as no longer fun, but sad

this tier list didnt have ema/nahyuta but did have poly ships that included the three so there we go, the only het ships i dont like (2)

finally, the only gay ships i consider to be neat, silly funny friends-to-lovers not overly popular, very cool and epic

And now, the interesting one:

Rangu referenced and teased by canon joke ship goes first of course!

for real tho, there's friends to lovers OR rarepairs OR lawyer x assistant ships, being my go-to in het ships they'd rank higher here

Evil People In Love! What else can I say? When 2 people are down bad for each other and down for destroying everyone and everything whether for revenge or the lulz cause they're bad and they're doing it togheter it's just beautiful~!

anything crack or toxic in a funny way goes next

incest as a neutral divider since being gay is super normal thus uninteresting but adding the taboo incest spice that will NEVER be approved by society IRL will make me a bit more interested but like you know- neutrally

any boring crack or toxic in a unfunny way goes next

and finally we reach my real (yet still neutral) beef with the ace attorney shipping fandom, being the popular ships that get talked about ad nauseum and if you wanna talk about any other ship you get ignored at best or harrassed at worst. Overrated could be the perfect way to describe this ships as they're so oftenly rated over other ships when they're SO LAME AND BLAND AND BRING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. i am not criticizing originality, you know im unoriginal as well, but other fandoms have this something called ✨VARIETY✨ that EVEN IF the boring bland m/m ship still is number one ship of everyone and their grandmas, it'll still be in a relative equal number of fans and content (or directly opposite where Super Popular Ship has like 100 fans producing stuff and literally anything else has like <5, so you only have to block 1 or maybe 2 Super Popular Ships and then is smooth sailing full of variety~)

tl;dr they're annOyedTPs actually they're not bad, they are meh plus the over exposure can really grind someone's gears, second place being not AS popular thus annoying but still pretty much talked about and liked by many people as they are second places to ships in the normie zone

and finally finally what i actually dislike, shipping canonically het married characters with same-sex characters (and not in the funny way)(specially the gay best friend in love with their straight friend, my absolute belothed) or any flavor of enemies-to-lovers, whether it's a tame rivals-to-lovers or a legit hero x villian (stockholm syndrome can be fine but it depends on how its presented....or if it's... y'know funny) or same-age shipping where the characters maturity levels are SO DRASTICALLY DIFFERENT idk it feels kinda icky :////

In any case, i'm still answering asks for particular ships if y'all want a more in depth opinion ^w^

[magnoliamyrrh]

and yes. coming from dobrogea, a region of the balkans with a whole lot of shit but which thankfully by the grace of god is peaceful today for the most part, romanias most ethnically diverse and most peaceful region somehow (maybe the hot sun and the black sea salt make us calmer idk) does impact how i think about all this

dobrogea isnt diverse because of some happy story. the dacians and thracians were fighting over that bitch for thousands of bloody years, the dacians likely coming from the thracians (both of them likely setteling the land through warfare and mixing with whichever people were there before), both claiming its Only theirs when really both of their asses came from the caucasus or central asia further on, destroying each others history later on too to make it seem like its only theirs. I want to have no bloody arguments or conflicts with bulgarians over it. I love bulgarians, they are a beautiful people with a beautiful culture which is very mixed with our own, and I want dobrogea to be not one of ours but both of ours. It disgusts me that when part of dobrogea was "given back" to romania bulgarians were kicked out; peoples lives uprooted and romanians pulling hate crimes bc ofc they did, this always happens. The turks and the tatars arent in dobrogea because of some happy history, actually theyre there because they took over, killed plenty of people, estated rule, and also did that fun slavery ordeal. Guess what, I am disgusted by the communists kicking out so many tatars (even tho there were locals who tired to shelter them). I am disgusting by romanians, few as they are in dobrogea, who wanna go on about how the turks and tatars should leave. I am disgusted by romanians, when the land was gotten back, taking out their anger and doing hatecrimes on them. I was not raised like this. I know of the history, I was raised with the history and its pain, but i am disgusted by this nontheless - my family, and a lot of dobrogea nowadays, does not stand with this. The turks and tatars have been there long, god damn historical context and all, and theyre a beautiful people with a beautiful culture which is very mixed with ours, many of us are actually mixed too, and fucking damn it i want to hear nothing about how were the only ones who should be there. Same for the other many ethnicities in the area

somehow, somehow we have managed to reach a general state of coexistence. id like to keep it that way and see more of that

theres more examples but whatever. i dont want the hungarians out of northern romania and i want us to stop fucking bickering and fighting over god damned forsaken fucking ethnostates and centuries old conflicts.

I want it. To. Stop. i see where it goes. i see how it goes. In the balkans this does not end. We can all fucking sit around yelling about what was done to us by others, and everyone can point fingers at what everyone else did. There are almost no clean hands, borders have moved around since forever, theres about a million damn claims thrown around and in the grand context of everything everywhere and the sheer extent of ethnic and cultural mixing, its not anything thats gonna lead us anywhere but twoards more horror which is based on untrue historical claims of times when idk what place was 100% idk what people

One of our only hopes is to stop this. To stop the literal thousands upon thousands years old tribal wars. Enough. E n o u g h

Were stuck in "time is a flat circle" shit. Please, dear god, enough

[icarusredwings]

Just so you guys know someone responded to my fic once reminding me that I did not post the ending.

This is not rude because I DID write the ending, but I FORGOT to post it!!

SO I DID.

Let this be your reminder to ALWAYS leave a comment no matter how big how small or even just a smiley face!

I dont care if the fic is 15 years old, If I liked it, im commenting on it. If I didn't, I dont but I still leave kudos. Its only the respectful thing to do really.

Reminder that you are not owed ANYTHING so yes! Even the fics that you didn't entire like 100% deserve love!

People write content for YOU to read about YOUR favorite charaters for FREE in their SPARE time. Time they could be using to do something else and instead they decide to post and provide free content for you ungreatfuls to enjoy.

So please!! Enjoy!

"Ah man I wish there was more fics like this" THEN TELL THEM

"I really loved this fic but its 6 years old"

DONT CARE TELL THEM ANYWAY

My friend wrote fanfic all the time. Small little tidbits of their thoughts about dean x reader and such. Do I like dean x readers? No not exactly. He isn't my cup of tea romance wise, but I still liked and commented on ALL of their fics. Now that my friend has taken their life due to their abusive parents, i feel like commenting on their old work is the only way I can talk to them.

I found evidence suggesting that support from readers was one of the reasons they prolonged their life. Talking about how it made their week and feel cared about.

You never know how much a comment can mean to someone.

Before anyone asks I will not be giving out their fics because they'd constantly ask me to delete all their fics but I could never. They always said their writing was garbage but I disagree. So while I wont delete their legacy, I will try to keep it hushed to just their friends and supporters. And no, theres nothing I could have done, we were children an entire ocean apart. That is the harsh reality of long distance friends...

Fun Story to Share.

I got my (now 18-year-old) daughter into Ao3 back in 2021. I taught her she should always comment - even if the fic looks old or abandoned or whatever. She did.

Well - she got this email this morning:

The fic was written in 2014 and essentially abandoned.

Bethy read and reviewed in 2021 (and was actually the only person who had commented at all).

Today in 2025 - the final chapter was posted by the author and this was her reply to Bethy’s comment.

———

Never question whether a fic is too old to comment on.

[lou-blooms-bitch]

vent

sometimes i think i was supposed to die early and just never have a future. i feel like i truly was supposed to be dead by 15, my attemps at 13 and 14 shouldve worked, any of them shouldve worked. it just feels so fucked being like this because i never feel like i belong i always just feel like im a certain individual.. there has and only ever will be one of me kinda thing.

i feel like god doesnt want me and death doesnt either. i overdosed on mdma at 16 for christs sakes. there are so so so many times in my life where i have avoided death and its just like holy fucking shit are you kidding me right now ???? lad nothing can kill me i cant even kill myself like the fuck am i supposed to do

and then aswell i just feel like my past will forever haunt me and i know it only feels like that because i let it and obvs nobody thinks about you more than yourself but ive had some experiences that definitley make that feel like the complete opposite.

people remember me as the trans kid, the freak bitch, the weirdo.. but they dont know me. they never have... fuck even i dont know myself and I AM ME ?!?!? but people will always look at me and see him but honestly he never really left. im definitley not trans i just had a deeply rooted hatred for my body and took that along with other similar factors i noticed, thought it was me being trans, blah bklah u get the gist im not trans but thoughht i was and socially transitioned and now people look at me and only ever see him. he was the result of years upon years of self hatred and self misunderstanding and quite literally BEING A KID !!!!!! but thats not me, HES not me and IM not him. but hes not him and im not me !!!!! NOTHING IN THIS WORLD IS WHAT IT IS ON THE SURFACE !!!!! theres alwaysw gonna be something laying beneath what we can see. and i was just another part of that fact. people see me as that weird emo trans kid with no friends and i can never change that, but what i can also never change is the years of damaged mental health i had to deal with as a fucking child a little baby.. nobocy fucking knew and i cant be mad at them for not knowinbg im not mad at them for not knowing its not their business to know or be in but still.. they made my life hell and made me scared of who i was and everyone else around me while i was ALREADY fighting the devil himself in my head SINCE EIGHT FUCKING YEARS OLD !!!!!!!! like they couldve had at least SOME consideration i beg... and then aswell this is 100% gonna sound awful but just stay with me now, most trans people STRUGGLE WITH THEIR MENTAL HEALTH !?!?!?!?!?! WHO WOULDVE GUESSED THAT SOMEONE WHO FEELS LIKE A PRISONER IN THEIR OWN BODY WANTS TO KILL THEMSELVES ?????? I SURE FUCKING WOULD HAVE ???????? fucking idiots i hate every single one of them bastards who hurt me in any way shape or form. genuinely couldnt care less if they died last week.

sorry that was like completley off topic but still on topic at the same time.. it was off topic but it was the space between off [ ] topic iykwim

anyways i feel like my past actions will forever haunt me and ill only ever be remembered as the weird trans kid. i dont want that. im not him and hes not me while i may be him and he may be me, i am not him and he is not me.

i have fears that in the future when i make something and a name for myself, people will only ever see him. yeah i can change my name again but i like my name. my names mikey like mikey madison, just two girls named mikey. although i would love love LOOOOVE to change my name again.. maybe like daytona i know its a beach shutup its cute. ooh or maybe like sylvia.. ive always thought sylvia silva if i became a singer lol, like lizzy grant type shit. i cant sing tho.. i definitley have it in me just my vocal training is non existent so

anyways.. its just alwyas felt like that since im so embarassed of my past i truly wasnt supposed to survive. like it feels like my life was supposed to be [happy kid-okay kid-suicidal kid-trans kid-suicide] and honestly i really do wish that i could go back in time and just do it in a guaranteed way of death, like a train or a bridge or something. and then aswell i could just never see a future for myself like, i never had any real aspirations when i was a kid and then as soon as i hit 10 i stopped trying cuz i was just like ykfw im done cant be arsed then at 11 i was convinced i wasnt making it past 15 so i really just stopped thinking about it completley as a whole.

like i just cant help but feel that i was destined to just be another childs death lost to the tapes of time.. i genuinely cannot think that i was supposed to live, i was never supposed to even be born. cant believe my slow headed ass was the fastest in my dads balls.. the one thing youre a winner in you fuckass are u kidding me ???

ugh whatever nothing i can do about it since im fucking invincible. may aswell just hope to get rich by 30 or we all know whats going in my mouth and it wont be a dick ill tell you that right now..

i feel like shotgun in the mouth has gotta be the quickest and least painful way to die.. people say drowning is nice but i just wouldnt be able. i feel like my bodies survival instincts would kick in and just not let me drown.

idk if i have anything else id like to add to this. i just really want to die ngl. i dont wanna have to do this for the rest of time until its mine. im tired, im fucking exhausted. whatever.. goodnight.

[birddog317]

Yap session

Death ball, a roblox game i play so much it appears in my dreams.

Im going to tell you what ive learned & my opinions on random shit.

None of this matters, but i wanna share.

ABILITY PACKS RANKED, my personal favorites.

Gazo, the first pack I got and my personal favorite. I like it because i get to blindfold others, its easy to use, and if you use fake ball in the correct situations [ mainly in mysterious chamber ] it can absolutely score you a win. I have this ability pack at level 100

Default, got say its so much easier when i'm focusing on less stuff. Sure, i die more but hey i have more fun. I have this ability pack at level 100

Senshu, fucking love this. Its a very creative pack, incredibly fun abilities. I enjoy playing as it, tho i am not skilled with it. I have this ability pack at level 34

Keilo, its killua for one. and also i love the freeze ball thing, its so useful in like all situations!!! I havent fully leveled it up so i can only give my opinion on the zap freeze and godspeed ability. I have this ability pack at level 40

Koju, love the character its modelled after, love the abilities. i am really confused on how to use them, am not in any way skilled with this pack. I was also confused on how to get it, beat the spirit boss twice but didnt get it. I had to wait to pull it from the spirit pack, which i learned on accident bc the game tells you to defeat the boss. Pulled it three times in one sitting bc i had a LOT of spirit gems to spend, ive got this ability pack at level 30

Jiro, i do kinda dislike it for the character its inspired by but the abilities are pretty fun! i enjoy playing as it, my only beef is who its made after. The game to find it is a very fun & creative idea too! I have this ability pack at 31

Lufus, its not as fun as keilo but i like the different things. one of my favorite things is the extendo arm, everything else i dont really care for. I have this ability pack at level 50

Saito, i like it as much as i like lufus, i only like the default ability so far [ which is uppercut ] but i also dont have everything fully unlocked so my opinion might change. I have this ability pack at level 34

Foxuro, not a huge fan but i dont have a problem with it. I like the character but get bored quick with the abilities. tho they are creative ones, just not my flavor. I have this ability pack at 31

Kameki, im bored of it. I dont really enjoy playing as it, and im also not skilled with it. I have this ability pack at level 34

FUCKING. TOROKAI. I HATE IT!!! its super cool, love the abilities. Its creative, i give it that. I FUCKING HATE PLAYING WITH IT!!! its legit just cause i struggle to see when im being aimed at when using fire since the fire gets in the way + is the same colour as the ball i think. I feel like i should love it, because it fits so well for me. I am half & half like the character its modeled after, love fire & ice abilities, love the two pack in one thing. I just for some reason hate playing with it.

I do not have gemtoki [ yet ]

GAME MAPS RANKED, my personal favorites.

TRICKY TOWER!!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH, its amazing. i love the maps with moving stuff, i like the scene/anime its based of, and theres AN AXE!!!

Mysterious chamber, dark, purple, cards. I love it, its got more moving components and is a very good map to play Gazo in!

Dark dimension, i like the moving stuff, i like the fact that its dark. is also a good map to play gazo in

Castle, LOVE IT! cannot play very well in it. Which is part of why i like it, moving walls is such a creative idea.

Baseplate, THERES NO CORNERS! i hate and love that fact, it is so fucking useful. nothing moves, its a baseplate. its dark, no eye ouch when i play it.

Ghoul arena, baseplate but special. I rank it in the same place as baseplate and like them for the same reasons.

Tournament arena, kinda a hater cause its boring & bright. I like to stand on the super tall things bc theyre good for tricks

THE BEACH. I fucking hate it, so much. its the main map ive played [ not by choice obvi ] its bright, and boring. the only part i like is the net because it moves. My beef has multiplied because of how much i see it.

PLAYING STYLES i've noticed, and my opinions.

Confrontational style, up in your face the type to up close battle you. My personal favorite to play and see, tho can be annoying. If you have your avatar move to face where you're looking i dont suggest this style, it makes you much easier to combat.

Wallflower style, the type to stand purely in corners. I love this style too, very useful. Its good to keep your eyes on everyone, but if you do it because youre not confident in your playing style/not comfty playing now because you're new it makes it only a little obvious. atleast to me, i tend to target the wall flowers when playing confrontational because they tend to be easier to defeat. Thats also because wall flowers seem to pay less attention bc theyre hit at less, if i target a confrontational person if theyre not new/not laggy im less likely to get easy hits.

New player style, running around everywhere, delayed reactions, cant handle hits from above. Everyone goes through this step, its obvious and makes you a very easy target.

I cant say anything about the chat as i play on console, but i did notice people always seem to avoid people as best as they can. Thats because its harder to react when the ball moves faster and youre way to close to someone, might not even see the ball turn red. They also avoid people they think are more skilled [ me to ] and heavy target the people they think are weaker [ me to ].

BOSSES, my opinions on them

Spirit boss, FUCKING LOVE. I've only beaten the spirit boss, hes difficult & creative and i love the idea of the guy so much

Mech boss, ALSO LOVE!!! havent beaten him, love his little laugh & the boss as a whole is super creative!

GAMEMODES RANKED, my personal favorites

Pro servers, if im focused right theyre much more comfortable to play even tho i do loose far more. Its less thought more button mashing

One life, love it. its another less thought mode but only because you only hit people once & feels more fun bc youre closer to death

Standard, cant hate it

Trading, its a cool place. I dont spend much time in the trading area as i only found use in it to get the senshu pack lol.

Never played ranked :3

[theastromind]

100% agree with that other ask though maybe ppl are so out of touch with their own reality due to social media that even the idols cant fully enjoy all they post for their own fans. fancalls etc etc. i feel like too much of it is abt them building so much recognition online they forget to really see that social media isnt the only place they can be recognised and i mean idols go viral for both good and "bad" things in seconds. it feels like thats all kpop has become abt lately. dumb arguments online, fanwars, not really actually seeing the good in sometning or someone and ppl tearing down actually innocent idols for no valid reason.

i mean u can go to youtube or tiktok and it takes seconds to find a new group then u go down their rabbit hole and find more stuff except its not all decent not sunshine and rainbows 24/7 but its like once someone deems something of an idol as bad when it isnt it takes the fun out of it then theres ones who actually do genuinely bad things and ppl ignore it like ehhh let him or her do crime or bullying lmao. even with idols who are seriously well loved sometimes im like ehhh I didnt like xyzs behaviour towards xyz member but ppl act like bullying doesnt occur in groups themselves or that fans online if u can even call them that bully idols for nothing and then something else is another whole thing. ugh i dont know how u can keep reacting and reacting without feeling tired of it? kpops meant to be enjoyable for idols and audiences but so much is competition sadly so much is still glossed over thats the issue. i still love the groups i love but i want to separate it from kpop as a whole. we used to habe many groups in the west in the 00s but it really seems ppl centre a lot of their attention around kpop only and not seeing enough variation due to how much kpop is everywhere these days, which is both good and bad depending how u view it.

I agree with you too honestly. Like I said earlier I had to step away from kpop for a while as it was really getting to my mental health as well. Like I just want to support them and their music, I don't need the drama. I mean I even saw online some fans saying 'I want to start hating on this kpop idol bc I'm bored' it was wild.

[savthemusic]

vent

i always feel bad for craving affection/love cuz ik i don't deserve it. ik its like a natural human craving to be loved and feel loved but ive been shown time and time again that its just not meant for me. idk if maybe im too stupid to finally get it though my head or just too ignorant by hoping theres still a chance someone could love me. in almost every "relationship" ive been in, ive mostly been the one in love and ive always felt like the other person just kept me around cuz they liked the attention cuz they never really showed it back. i can think of only one person that at least pretended like they felt the same but i kinda ruined that so its 100% my fault. but majority of the time i'll pour my heart out and in returned i get stomped on in return. so many people have just ghosted me to left me for someone else and at this point ive just come to terms that the issue is me. idk what ive done tho. ik im not attractive and its not like im funny or any of the things people actually want in a partner but i do love. i try my hardest to make everyone feel loved and i get nothing in return. im just sick of craving, sick of wanting something i'll never have. everyone talks about how much theyre in love and how much their partners love them back and how easy it is to find love. i just feel like everyone has someone except for me. and its fine cuz i dont need someone but it does hurt to have no one. i just dont get why i cant stop expecting something that'll never come. its like waiting for a package to come in the mail but theres actually nothing coming. i just dont wanna be alone anymore.

[ganondoodle]

just want to reiterate that i dont mean hes not allowed to be or do the things he does, he doesnt have to be a victim that is a poor traumatized lil boi or something, you dont HAVE to go with the opposite of what canon says about him, you can like him doing all the things he does in canon, in a way, well, good for him, he can do what he wants

but i just think its still good to remember that hes still a fictional character that does things a certain way bc the writers decided to and that some .. or alot of things (especially the nonsensical stuff...) might really just be an attempt to make sure hes still blatantly evil enough to label him the ultimate enemy, that his evil surpasses whatever else has happened, and that it is very intentional we never get to see another side of him lest we sympathize too much with him (which still happens, no matter what they do people will like him anyway) and forget we are supposed to view him as nothing more than a monster really

in the end im not trying police how anyone talks about him or views him, i just wanted to share how i view it since the whole "he actually is as selfish and violent as canon tells you" is very much a double edged sword, on one hand, yeah, theres people like that and he could be it and you can still like him just the way he is- on the other hand it also plays right into those tropes and i personally find it the most interesting to dismantle those (and find it a lil weird how quickly some are to reject even the idea of not 100% believing what canon tells you about him?)

(just to clarify, the people i mean that are all for his canon ways are those that still love him and are on his side essentially, cheering him on- not those fuckers who think he, or the gerudo in general, need to be even more blatantly horribly bc they are just not evil enough so they should kidnap people for reproduction or some shit)

saw a few posts talking about ganondorf and while i dont want to uh .. risk having to argue with strangers ... i cant shut up entirely (you know me)

(in my opinion that is probably missing alot or just not as well read as a lot of others since i really just say what i feel instead of knowing what im talking about-)

its kinda hard to really talk about him bc hes so .... steeped into tired old stereotypes and harmful tropes with intentionally so little else, if anything, that you almost always end up playing into them if you just take what canon tells you (and alot of people love defending it too :/ )

to what degree is it really his character and what is literally just some things that were decided he does to make it clear hes the one note evil guy, to justify whatever horror is done to him and overshadow/bury what anyone else has done, to not think about maybe he had a point bc look how much bad stuff he does! if you made him fight for the freedom/sovereignity of his own people against an oppressive hyrule he would be in the right- so ACTUALLY he opresses them violently and selfishly even WORSE and then wants to murder everyone tm that dont bow to him bc thats what evil people do! and hyrule is justified in taking them over in turn bc their rule wont opress them :)

its like a game of trying to one up whatever hyrule did with something more bad tm bc otherwise it gets hard to justify killing him over and over

im not saying hes not allowed to be prideful, selfish or violent of whatever, but you gotta know that all of that IS one of those ways that is supposed to make it clear how evil tm the desert guy is; it doesnt matter what hyrule has done bc look! ganondorf is so much worse! and im sure hyrule had their reasons :)

hes never actually allowed to interact with his own people, hes isolated/alienated from them and their culture constantly, hes their king yet he .... violently takes over "free" gerudo villages (what? what for?? what does "free" even mean? they werent following him? their king?? were they .. allied with hyrule, who are good tm, which means they were living in paradise aka "free"? (bc they are good ones tm bc they rejected their evil one in a hundred year man king ruling violently over only women .. *cough*)), yet hes never seen fighting alongside his own people (the most is them .. silently serving him in what, one scene??) and then he drops them the second he has evil MONSTERS to fight for him instead and orders them to kill every living thing or something bc thats obviously evil, he doesnt even care about his own people! how evil! why would he do that? idk, hes the sole, selfish violent evil man opressing his own people, who are all women! that what they do! and WE need to free them from HIM (and they should be thankful to us for it and try to attone for ever having birthed him in the first place) (or he is the reason tm why they suffered/were wiped out and he is literally the sole survivor of his people, bc he doesnt care about ANYONE but himself)

i dont mean he has to be a goody two shoes character (you can be an ass and still do good/be in the right btw) bc more often than not what that actually means is being allied with hyrule bc those are the designated good guys and being on their side makes you automatically good (eugh) but do you rly want to just ... play along with all the propaganda?

imo, aside from being obviously racist, thats also so boring? does selfish, violent evil man king with no people (bc hes not part of them or fighting for them, hes always presented as the worse oppressor) and nothing else to him that only wants to murder bc ... idk evil? sound interesting to you? (to the point that the ONLY time we were shown literally any sort of vunerabillity, end of ww, that theres people trying to argue he was trying to to manipulate you even there?? what for? why? are you trying to reject literally the one glimpse we are allowed into his perspective qoq)

why do alot of people reject the idea so much to consider he actually cared about them, how maybe that prideful and selfish look is just a facade, or even a fabrication? violence that had to be met with violence, not for any sort of selfish reasons, but for his people and was met with a fight he could not win yet kept fighting on, perhaps losing himself more and more in the process, or a lie told so often that it became reality, if someone has nothign left to lose, if all was taken from them, maybe even blamed on them, why not play into what you where made out to be, you cant convince them otherwise anyway its the reason hes never shown to have done a single nice thing, never seen non angry/smug smiling, how he has no one at his side unless he forced them, how he is not allowed to be human even a little bit, never shown being anything but a boring ass trope personified, hes less a character and more a big bundle of racist tropes that fights you at the end (sorry) while looking epic so trying to meaningfully analyze him just by what we are told and shown in canon will always fall kinda flat or end up playing righ into every shitty trope

that is my opinion :I