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hannnsh · 2 days ago
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hc10 joel painting 🗻🌸
gouache on paper :3
hello everynyan, i busted out my paints and my rusty painting skills and came out with this badboy 🔥🔥🔥 that is cringe talk im sorry, anyways yea i have came back to my painting roots gosh its so good to paint again after MONTHS !!!
i can say im not thattttttt happy w this ??? pls dont come at me abt it lol its just me, but to be fair i did this in one go (i’ve been doing that a lot..) and until like 3 am 😭 i was planning on going in with some coloured pencils the next morning but i got lazy and scanned the thing and immediately sealed it in a bag LOL so some things like the flowers arent that polished so my bad 🙏🏻
there r some things i wish to improve on when doing this painting, mainly water bc hello what is that 😭 also it is my goal to paint/draw more landscapes during my break and the background for this one actually turned out well imo :J there r some things I wanna tweak but honestly im just happy with the outcome
dont focus on the anatomy it is a bit wrong and i have this problem called cant use references for the life of me .. it is very severe. so it looks a bit wonky lol
that is all for now, i do have a feww things to finish this month, hopefully i get to that since now i have time lols, and this is not a promise at ALL dont take my words seriously, but maybe if i have spare time i want to try and figure out how to open commissions :3 my problem mainly is idk how to get the money, since my currency is very different and idk how i can charge in us dollars or something and converting it into my currency 😔 but if anyone actually knows a thing or two maybe u can help me 🥹
see u all next time bubye
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alisnotanalien · 2 days ago
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The reason I have allergies is because it knows if I didn't have them, I would become an all-powerful being capable of downing a glass of milk and anything and everything near me, Mob psycho type destruction.
The universe knows a glass of milk would make my bones strong enough to liberate myself from this weak mortal shell I'm trapped in. I would have the ability to create wonderful things in an instant, anything. I would grow and grow, it wound potentially bring chaos into this current society, striking a stomach dropping sense of fear into the eyes of the greedy when I decide to bestow earths beauty and riches upon everyone equally. Returning earth into its original fruitful state, A heaven on earth really, while also having the power to destroy, wonderful though frightening. The stars themselves would collapse at the view of my true power, aside from this earth thing, I would have the ability to create, create new timelines, dimensions, things beyond humanities currents possible ideas and thoughts. Bringing an end to the suffering of all.
But no, I have to be restricted to soy milk, how I yearn for the taste of a grilled cheese, the ability to feel included with all you milk drinkers, with your strong bones. I am restricted, not because I have a ton of allergies for some reason, but because the universe shivers and shakes in fear of what I could have truly become by now. Thank you for reading my silly little thought.
im lying by the way, while I am truly allergic, i touched cheese once and started gagging, i dont know how you guys eat that, im not weird or anything but touching the texture of it made me wanna die i cant imagine putting it in my mouth and the idea of milk makes me wanna throw up, im not a vegan or anything I love myself a good couple asada o lengua tacos, but cheese makes me wanna die, also eggs make me throw up, i dont know where im going with this but thank you for listening to my ted talk this is my first day on tumblr <333
#cheese #milk #eggs #foodthought #idontknowhowtousehashtagsonherepleasehelpmeoutman
#food #allergies #powers #shitpost
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criminalminds4eva · 3 days ago
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✩ soft launching your relationship 🫀
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader
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yourusername im trying to learn chess but i dont think im getting the hang of it :)
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pengarcia youre actually so so pretty but who is that in the 5th picture omg i have so much questions ?!?!
yourusername @/pengarcia sorry i dont know what youre talking about my dearest penelope
drspencerreid i could always teach you :)
yourusername @/drspencerreid yes pls ❤️
pengarcia @/drspencerreid since when do YOU have instagram?
prentissemily @/drspencerreid spence???
derekhotstuffmorgan @/drspencerreid yea kid what?
jenniferj the flowers are so pretty just like you
yourusername @/jenniferj love you jj <3
ssaaronhotchner is that a picture of evidence files?
yourusername @/ssaaronhotchner uh, would you believe me if i said its for the aesthetic?
derekhotstuffmorgan @/yourusername GIRL not the aesthetic, you in troublee
yourusername 15m
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drspencerreid hello friends of instagram i have been told you have to post pictures here
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pengarcia im starting to notice something about 5th pictures on here and im not even the profiler
derekhotstuffmorgan @/pengarcia you know you might be onto something babygirl
pengarcia @/derekhotstuffmorgan i always am hot stuff
yourusername @/pengarcia @/derekhotstuffmorgan get a room! omg
yourusername so i get in trouble for posting evidence pictures but he doesnt for posting a silly pic of you @/ssaaronhotchner
ssaaronhotcner @/yourusername ….
drspencerreid @/yourusername sorry cant help im the favorite child
prentissemily @/drspencerreid you so are not
ssaaronhotcner @/prentissemily although you all act like children, jack is certanly my only child
pengarcia @/drspencerreid okay doctor sassy ❤️
jenniferj so i take it @/yourusername did take you up on the chess lessons huh? 😁
yourusername @/jenniferj i still have no idea what im doing
drspencerreid @/yourusername thats cause you pay zero attention to what im saying
yourusername @/drspencerreid sorry ❤️
derekhotstuffmorgan @/yourusername okay?
yourusername 20m
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a/n : hiiiii i was gone a long while sorry 😭 school, work, a small surgery and a little depression put me on a biggggg slump, this is small but if you guys like maybe pt2? jeje i swear i wont take as long to post again
feedback is always super welcome i hope you enjoy ⭐️
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bitchface24-7 · 2 days ago
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I dont know if this is a bit much buuuuut.. In your (canon) professional opinion what do you think Silco's top kinks would be :3
I've evolved from Olive Garden I know am in the local Chili's thinking about my baby girl crimelord :))
HIS KINKS - SILCO
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synopsis: literally just about Silco’s kinks, 18+ y'all
warnings: kinks obv, explicit sexual content, leave me alone its 2:51am I’m just in a brain rot mood, Grammarly as my beta
genre: m/f or m/m
p.s. Ahhh Melissa my love feral over Silco I see, don't worry me too. Many people love this man and the TRENCHES we were in for liking him back in S1… diabolical. Where was all this appreciation back then??
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YOUNG SILCO
Pretty boy to the MAX y'all, he was NOT doing shit in those mines. Maybe he went into tight crawl spaces and ensured the mine itself was safe for the other workers but he was NOT swinging a pickaxe. He was most definitely the eye-candy though.
With that in mind, my man loves praise!!! In all aspects, not only in the bedroom. Tell him he's smart, his ideas are good, he's funny, whatever comes to mind; he'd want to hear about it.
Like his hair pulled, there's a reason why it's so lushious and long.
Definitely a switch. When he gets jealous and possessive his more dominant traits come out, when he's had a rough day, he just wants to be taken care of.
Dirty talk galore, like omfg SHUT UP 😩
Very teasing. Like oops sorry didn't mean to put my hand between your thighs as we’re talking to our friends. My bad. Don't make a sound, wouldn't want them to know, right?
Likes taking his time with you when he's able but loves a good quickie. The Brothers and Sisters of Zaun are constantly on the move and working, it’s hard to find time for anything else.
This leads to semi-public sex, like if there's time, and there's an empty supply room or closet, get ready y'all. He's gonna rock your shit.
Very big on reciprocating. You go down on him, he'll go down on you
Likes marking you up with some hickeys and light bruises. Can't help but smirk whenever someone points them out and you try to hide them.
Likes noise. How loud can he make you get before you try to hide it? Even then, he's pinning your hands above your head so you can't muffle those sweet sounds. He's working hard, he wants to hear them.
Intercrural sex (thigh fucking) is a big one. His dick in between your thighs, you riding his thigh, anything that can get y'all of quick and easy.
Mutual masturbation. He wants to see how you look coming apart before y'all got together and kept imagining him in dirty ways.
Enjoys getting marked up himself.
Knows you've got a thing for his hands and uses it against you.
Same thing with his voice.
Overall very sweet, loving, but very fun!
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OLDER SILCO
Still very attractive but not in such a pretty way. Much more sharp and intimidating.
Much more into the BDSM scene compared to when he was younger. Leans much more into being dominant since it’s much harder to gain his trust, so it’s much harder to get him to be submissive (he still wants to be taken care of sometimes)
Bondage. His silk ties, handcuffs taken from enforcers, your own clothes. Sometimes Silco wants to pleasure you and isn't in the mood for you to touch him in return, and he knows passion overtakes critical thinking. So bondage works in his favour.
Spanking. Especially if you've been bad. You didn't listen to him, you made him look like a fool, you almost got hurt, you almost got killed. Its a physical form of being reprimanded. But if you beg sweetly enough he’ll do it when you're being good.
Marks. Oh my god the marks he leaves behind. Hickeys, bruises, rashes from the cuffs or ties, maybe even a little bit of knifeplay. He's always been possessive, he's always left his mark on you, but now it’s over the top.
Semi-public sex but this time it’s mainly his office and the windows overlooking Zaun. If people see, oh well. Now everyone will know for sure you're his.
Lingerie. Especially in his colours of red, black, gold, and white. Some days he tears it off, others he makes you keep it on. Doesn't matter if you're a man or a woman, it’s like opening a gift, and savouring the wrapper.
Overstimulation. You're done when he says you're done. Even if your legs are shaking and you're gasping for breath, he wont stop until HE’S satisfied.
Dirty talk again. A mix of degradation and praise. Coming off a bit teasing and snarky, but it makes goosebumps rise on your skin.
Medical play? I can see him getting aroused if you have to do the dose for his eye and you're WAY too close to him, you're sitting on his lap, he's smelling your signature scent, you're rubbing up on him, your chest is in his face. Y'all he's done for.
Still uses his hands and voice against you.
He enjoys smoking a cigar, looking over paperwork, as you suck his cock under his desk. On that note, also enjoys cockwarming.
He likes it when you're sweet, but adores it when you're bratty. He gets to put you in line.
Not a fan of the daddy kink, it makes him think of Jinx. He prefers Sir, even sometimes Boss in the right circumstances.
Overall the vibe is similar. He's still somewhat sweet, he does love you, and its still very fun. He's just hardcore traumatized now.
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Hope y'all enjoyed my interpretation of what Silco likes in the bedroom LMAO, if y'all have any ideas or want to freak out in the comments or reblogs, be my guest. I'm more than willing to do this for other characters as well ❤️
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satanxklaus · 3 days ago
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♥︎ 𝐛𝐨𝐲'𝐬 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐫 | oscar piastri x singer!reader smau
✦ pairing : oscar piastri x singer!reader | ex!pierre gasly x reader ✦ summary : in which y/n soft launces her relationship with an F1 driver, fails miserably, and ends up hard launching with a lyric from her breakup song ✦ content warning : profanity, use of y/n, hate towards y/n ✦ faceclaim : pinkpantheress, girlies from pinterest, pairings on pinterest
a/n: hey guys. it's been 6 months since i last posted (yikes) im so sorry about that. i've been busy with working at the hospital and uni to top it all of. so here's a new one, its quite a long one. lmk what u think. enjoy! xx
𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 | 𝐑𝐄𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐒
y/ninstagram ✔
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y/ninstagram ✔boys a liar pt.2 out now neowwww on youtube with the one n only @/icespice 😍💋
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icespice ✔ princess treatment onlyyy grr rahh 💅🏼
user13 mama an ice spice behind YOU 💜
lilymhe ✔ song of the year!! love it xx
⤷ y/ninstagram ✔ love u babes muachhh 😘
user12 was not expecting this collab at all omg
lando ✔ oi mate quite the music video 🔥🔥 liked by author
⤷ user17 ariana what are you doing here
user14 literally the worst collab ever. imagine your whole personality being about your ex. embarrassing 🤮🤮
⤷ user20 imagine ruining your own relationship and then getting mad when the person profits off of it. embarrassing 2x
user15 i'd literally kms if i fumbled a bad bitch like y/n😭😭 she's so cunt love her sm
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y/ninstagram posted a story
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user25 ⤷ OMG two lando post ??? ur not even hiding it girl 😏
⤷ lando ✔ so nice to have a fan at the paddock 🥰 ⤷ y/instagram ✔ wow fame changed you. suprised your head could fit into that ugly green helmet 🙄🙄 ⤷ lando ✔ leave my beautiful helmet alone u witch!!
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⤷ lilymhe ✔ girl .... ⤷ lilymhe ✔ not the papaya i'm expecting ⤷ y/ninstagram ✔ i stg he's my childhood bestfriend 😭that's so gross dont even try ⤷ lilymhe ✔ OH so what you're saying is oscar piastri has a chance 😬🧐 ⤷ y/ninstagram ✔ 🤫
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user48 ⤷ get away from himmmm
user9 ⤷ homie hopper 🤢🤢
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y/ninstagram ✔
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y/ninstagram ✔ one day, i just wanna hear you say, "i like you" 💗💘
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user20 mother is serving face at the paddock
user15 BODY IS TEA
user19 oscar in the likes,, pierre being messy again 👀👀
lando ✔ thx for the support babes 🧡
⤷ y/ninstagram ✔ log off for me ur so annoying ⤷ user10 bro bagged a baddie idk if i wanna be lando or y/n😭😭 ⤷ user27 are they dating?
user15 NOT PIERRE LIKING THIS PLS BE SERIOUS
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user81 ⤷ PAUSE who is that
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⤷ y/instagram ✔ OH so you're getting right into it huh ⤷ oscarpiastri ✔ i'm a man of my word, babe ⤷ y/instagram ✔ cheeky 😘
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⤷ lando ✔ damn you're fast, fast ⤷ oscarpiastri ✔ you're the one that gave me her number, mate
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user22 ⤷ oscar "private piastri" finally giving us crumbs??? HISTORIC
user11 ⤷ i have a feeling this is y/n.....🤔
user76 ⤷ if this isn't y/n, i'll eat my mclaren merch
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⤷ lilymhe ✔ bitch you are NOT slick 🤣🤣 ⤷ lilymhe ✔ ok miss "just instagram likes" ⤷ y/ninstagram ✔ omg kys 😭😫 ⤷ lilymhe ✔ just hard launch already. everybodyyy knows ⤷ y/ninstagram ✔ log awffff
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⤷ oscarpiastri ✔ i'm not getting that hoodie back, am i? 😌 ⤷ y/ninstagram ✔ what do u mean ?? it's literally mine ⤷ oscarpiastri ✔ haha what's mine is yours, darling 🧡
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user16 ⤷ SOFT LAUNCH?? girl we know thats oscar 😭😭
user11 ⤷ that hoodie is a big giveaway queen... but issokay love that for u
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y/ninstagram ✔ i'm obsessed with you in the way i can't believe 💗😍
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lando ✔ LMAO finally
⤷ user22 lando is living for the drama, i just know it ⤷ user15 so... wrong papaya then 💀
user15 oscarpiastri in the likes.. bro didn't even try to play it cool 💀💀💀
user19 not even a soft launch at this point 😭 this is a full press release
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oscarpiastri ✔ Not a liar 🏎🧡
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mclaren ✔ your honor i love them so much 🧡🥺
lando ✔ I'M FREE !! about damn time 😔😔
y/ninstagram ✔ took you long enough, piastri. love you <3 💋🧡
user55 this boy is not a liar, alright periodd
user33 oscar piastri, i owe you an apology, i wasn't familiar with your game🤩
lilymhe ✔ STREAM BOY'S A LIAR PT.2 FOR CLEAR SKIN AND HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP. CLAIM NOW!!
⤷ y/ninstagram ✔ I LUV U GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GIRL xx 💋 ⤷ lilymhe ✔ ugh im on my knees for u plsss ⤷ oscarpiastri ✔ thats funny cuz she's my gf ??? @/alex_albon come and get your girl please ⤷ alex_albon ✔ i need a vacation...
user16 THREW MY FOOD JUST TO GIVE YOU A STANDING OVATION 👏👏👏
user10 nooo a white man got to herr 😭😭
user37 imagine pierre seeing this rn. must be SICK to his stomach
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⚠ 𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 ⚠ : 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐩𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲. 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐝𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐝𝐨𝐞𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐢𝐧 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐟���.
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beyondsyntax · 1 day ago
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This is such a lie, Biden and Harris sent a trillion us dollars overseas to the other countries and they arent our friends theyve hijacked our country and im not even talking about the good people of Asia e-Europe Africa or anywhere else for that matter. Im talking not about their government officials. Im talking about the dark side that has taken over government positions and has weaseled their way to keep the good people under their evil thumb. Because theyre afraid of us. And its so hard to pick those people out because sometimes expression can be twisted based on symbolism and just because you dont understand the symbols in a video or way people are symbolically using imagery can either be enlightening or fear based. Its so hard to tell. The fact of the matter is that why put your faith in Kamala, or any politician. The one thing you should take away from this is stop relying on the government to fix your problems like some soap aprah "we lost time to throw in the towel". No. Get active and not in a way that makes people look like fools. But in a way that serves the truth for what it is, you dont have to be rude to do that. Just because you dont know something or are trying to protect the truth, I dont have to claw you down. Stand up straight, the only thing ill tell you is, no... thats not straight enough. Stand up taller. They sent not the Governments tax dollars overseas but ours. They raised inflation by printing out so much money groceries have more than doubled. Gas prices are extremely high and as soon as trump comes into office those people who didnt respect us actually are shaking hands with trump and are now under our level. Meaning we are reasoning with them and we arent threatening them but doing business with them. Sometimes when the business isnt being reciprocated and its serving everyone else but you you have to simply do business and if thats a threat to you maybe get yours under control so we dont have to send a trillion of our own dollars while our country is on the edge of the abyss because Joe Biden took us there and Kamala almost pushed us over. Because she sees no problem in joe biden taking our freedom. She sees no problem with forcing a vax from the government that you people have entirely too much faith in and now you see that what they were saying about it being terrible are true. They wouldnt even let you have your own freedom to speak up on it they silenced you. Do you think thats a little bit unfair? I dont, id take it further and say its treason against the people. Theres a war going on if you havent been aware of it, we had an open boarder with random people from all around the war come in and killing thousands of people and you really are so brainwashed from the false narrative that you cant even put all these little coincidences together. Its not a matter of being an idiot because anyone can be brainwashed, I know I am, probably to a major degree because we are so lied to. But all within reason. Its unreasonable to see these things, and let them go by as mere coincidences. And if you havent put together why all the states with it illegal to vote without a license was where trump won and the only state where he lost was where you didnt need an id, and he had a total victory with the popular vote and electoral college, dude, why do you even waste your time at all on this if you havent even looked into that at all? If you care, that doesnt mean youre wrong. No. I encourage you to continue caring and giving your concern to what matters. The world needs more caring people. But just be mindful that caring and just going off your emotions is more dangerous than trump will ever be because everyone follows your lead and does what they want based off of your own actions, so grow up because youre capable of that and be the bigger person you were meant to. No more being a kid, kids. The world needs all of us more than you could ever know.
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faunandfloraas · 1 day ago
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Everyone who wishes muscles on seungmin because they're dumb and shallow 🙏 hope you fall down a well 🙏
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armyyoftwoo · 2 days ago
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another caldre noncon fic but w/ sub andre, and bloodplay (requested by anon)
guys i hope u enjoy this its like 4500 words which is way longer than i usually do but i had fun w this request!! its also now uploades on ao3 if anyone cares
andre laughed. "she really said that?"
cal fiddled with a loose razor blade between his fingers, the cold metal glinting under the dull light of his bedroom lamp. "she's stupid. i mean, i like her 'n all, but rachels stupid. you're no crazier than me."
andre leaned against the wall, his eyes flicking over cal's cluttered room. "dunno. i guess she's right. i can be a bit much."
"you're just not everyones cup of tea, that's all," cal said, shrugging his shoulders, his eyes still focused on the razor blade. it spun in his hand, the light playing off its sharp edge. "i don't think you're too much."
"thanks, i guess." there was a hint of sarcasm in andre's voice. "but really, she has a point. well, not a point, but you know. i understand where shes coming from. i'm scarier- i don't mean to be, but i am."
cal looked up from his blade, his expression serious. "no, man, you're not. we're in this together. equal parts scary."
andre laughed. "cal, you are not fuckin scary. i mean, maybe with a gun in your hand, but other than that, you come across as kinda," he paused, searching for the right words, "meek."
hearing andre describe him as meek was almost laughable. calvin gabriel was not fuckin meek. cal's face twitched at the remark. "meek?" he echoed, his voice rising slightly. he felt a sudden surge of indignation. "is that what you think of me?"
andre, caught off guard by cal's reaction, raised his hands in a placating gesture. "hey, man, i didn't mean it like that. it's just... people don't look at you and think 'dangerous' right away."
cal's eyes narrowed as he studied the razor blade, his thumb tracing the edge with a practiced ease. "maybe i'm just good at hiding it," he murmured, his voice tight.
"look, cal, i know you've got your shit, but you're not like that. you're... you're nice, you know? sweet even," said andré, clearly trying to smooth over the tension that had suddenly coiled around them.
cal's gaze didn't waver from the razor blade. "sweet?" he echoed.
"yeah, you know, like how you take care of me. you're always looking out," said andré, desperatly trying to clarify his point.
"do you not think im capable, of like, anything serious?" cal glared up at andré, the razor blade now still in his hand, the anger bubbling just beneath the surface.
andre took a deep breath. "of course i think you're capable of serious shit. i mean, zero day is pretty serious, right?" he said, "i mean, you're just not scary to me, since i know you'd never hurt me." he offered a small, reassuring smile. it only served to piss cal of further- did andre not see cal as an equal? did he not understand that cal was just as dangerous, if not more so?
"just because i can control myself doesn't mean i'm not as dangerous as you," cal spat out, his grip tightening around the razor blade. "you think just 'cause i dont freak out every five minutes that i'm not in this just as deep?"
andre looked at cal, surprised by the sudden hostility. "cal, chill, i didn't mean it like that. we're on the same page, remember?" he tried to reassure him, glancing around the room for something to distact cal with to diffuse the situation.
cal's knuckles turned white around the razor blade. "you're always underestimating me," he hissed through gritted teeth. "i'm not just some weak-hearted pussy who's going along for the ride."
andre sighed heavily, his annoyance etched on his face. "i know you're not, okay? it's just that sometimes you seem so... i don't know, so not into it."
with a sudden burst of energy, cal sprang from his chair, the legs scraping against the floorboards with a sharp sound that made the hairs on the back of andré's neck stand on end. before he could react, cal was on top of him, pushing him onto the bed with a surprising strength that belied his smaller frame. andré's breath left his lungs in a whoosh as he stared up at his friend, anger flickering in his eyes.
it didn't take much wrestling around to get the blade held up to andres neck, the sharpness of it cold and unyielding. "cal, come on, man, that's enough joking," andre chuckled nervously, his eyes darting to the side, looking for an escape.
it felt nice to finally not have to pretend, cal thought as he straddled andré, the razor blade poised at his friend's neck. the mask of innocence had been slipping for a while now, and it was exhausting to maintain.
"cal, seriously, get off of me. this isn't funny." andres voice quivered as he stared into cal's cold, unblinking eyes. cal's grip on the razor blade was unyielding, his thumb poised just right to draw a crimson line. the room grew eerily quiet, the only sound the erratic thumping of their hearts.
as cal leaned in closer, the smell of sweat and metal filled the air. he felt something strange, something he hadn't anticipated - an unwelcome stirring in his pants. he realized, with a jolt of self-loathing and excitement, that he was hard. he almost pulled off of andre, worried that he'd call him out, make fun of him for it. but then it clicked. andre was in no place to laugh. he wouldn't dare. not with the blade so close to his neck, not with the look of absolute seriousness cal hoped he was conveying.
cal took a moment to admire the sight that was andre kriegman, sprawled out beneath him. andre's cheeks were flushed with exertion, his breathing rapid. his eyes darted around the room, looking for anything that might serve as a distraction from the cold steel against his skin. cal felt a twinge of pleasure at the power he held over him. he wondered if this is what it'd feel like when zero day rolled around. he hoped so.
with a sudden jerk, cal fumbled with the drawstring of andré's sweatpants, pulling them down to mid-thigh. andré's eyes widened in shock, his heart racing even faster. "cal, what the fuck are you doing?" he squeaked, his voice high with fear.
cal brought the razor blade down with a swiftness that belied his earlier clumsiness. andré's body convulsed, trying to squirm away, but the movement was ill-timed. the blade sliced through his skin, leaving a crimson trail in its wake. the pain was immediate and intense, like a bolt of lightning tearing through his leg. andre let out a strangled yelp, his eyes watering. the blood began to flow, staining the fabric of his underwear and pooling on the bed.
"fuck!" andré yelped, his voice a mix of shock and pain. his eyes darted from the blade to cal's face, searching for an explanation. but cal's expression remained eerily calm, his pupils dilated with excitement.
the razor blade hovered over andré's trembling thigh, the line of red already forming a gruesome pattern on his pale skin. "cal. cal, that really fucking hurt!" he panted, trying to push cal away with his hands, but the latter's grip was like steel. "why'd you do that? fuck, get off, i need to stop the bleeding!"
cal ignored the desperation in andré's voice, his own mind racing with a thrill he hadn't felt in a long time. "you tried to squirm away," he murmured, his voice devoid of its usual awkwardness. "i told you not to." he leaned in closer, his breath hot against andré's neck, and andre tensed up, his eyes never leaving the blade.
the room was filled with the scent of fear and blood, a heady mix that only served to excite cal further. he felt his own heart pounding in his chest, his pulse racing as he traced the blade along the fresh wound. he watched andré's eyes water, the pain clear on his face. of course he was already crying- it was almost funny how low andres pain tolerance was.
andres eyes darted down to cals crotch, and back up again. cal could tell he was about to freak out. he wasnt sure if he felt bad or not. sure, he hadnt meant for it to get to this point, yet here they were. andre looked at him with a mix of fear and anger, his breath coming in short, shallow gasps. "cal, stop it, you're scaring me," he managed to say, his voice trembling.
scaring him. cal was scaring him. and he could see it in andres eyes, the way they widened, the way the pupils dilated. it was a heady feeling, one that made his own pulse quicken. and his cock throb. he didn’t expect this. he didn’t plan for it. but as the blade hovered over the fresh wound, the power rushed through him, a high he hadn’t felt in ages. it was exhilarating.
swipe. a second cut. a line, straight and precise. andre's leg jerked again, the pain searing through him, his voice hoarse as he yelled out. "cal! what the fuck is wrong with you?"
cal just stared at him, the blade still in his hand, a strange look of fascination on his face. "i told you not to move," he said, his voice calm, almost detached.
andre was *shaking* now. cal considered getting off him, but the feeling was too good to let go. he'd never felt like this before. powerful, in control, alive. "cal, this isn't funny," andre repeated, his voice shaking as much as the rest of him.
but as cal went to readjust the blade, his hand slipped, a drop of sweat making the metal slick. he swiped it down again, but this time, it was his own finger that felt the bite of the blade. a line of red appeared, so thin it almost didn't look real. "fuck."
cal didn’t make any move to get off and grab a bandage, just stared at the crimson bead forming on his fingertip with a strange fascination. the pain was there, but it was distant, almost as if it were happening to someone else. he brought his finger to his mouth and tasted the coppery tang of his own blood. it was oddly comforting, familiar.
but andre was still there, his eyes wide with a mix of fear and disbelief. "cal, stop. please." his voice was shaking, his whole body tense. cal realized he'd gone too far. he had to regain control before andre freaked out completely.
but andre was already freaked out. and really, what was the harm in pushing things a little further?
andres body jolted, and his eyes squeezed shut when cal yanked down his boxers. when he recovered, he glanced nervously at cals crotch, then back to the blade, and then back to cal's face. "cal, man, i'm not...i'm not like that. you know i'm not." he stuttered, his heart racing, his face burning with embarrassment. "neither are you. i know that. so just...just get off me, okay?"
cal stared at him, his expression unreadable. he hadn't expected andré to react like this. but he had to admit, the fear in his voice was like music to his ears. "what do you mean, 'not like that'?" he hummed, the blade hovering over andré's exposed thigh.
andre's eyes snapped open, the desperation in them palpable. "i mean, we're friends, cal," he whispered, his voice trembling. "i don't wanna do... whatever you're trying to start here."
cal's gaze was transfixed on the sight of andré's bare skin, the softness of his thighs a stark contrast to the sharpness of the blade. he felt his grip on reality slipping, the line between playful banter and dark reality blurring into one. the warmth of andré's body beneath him was a stark reminder of his vulnerability, and cal's heart hammered in his chest as he realized the power he had. he slid the blade away from andré's skin, letting the metal graze his inner thigh, leaving a trail of goosebumps in its wake. andré's breath hitched, his eyes squeezed shut tightly as he waited for the next cut.
with a twisted smile, cal brought the razor back up, watching andré's muscles tense in anticipation of the pain. he didn't hesitate, slicing into the flesh again, this time creating an deeper slit. andré clamped a hand over his mouth. the warm, sticky blood began to seep out, the metallic scent filling the room, mixing with the salty tang of their sweat.
cal stopped when he realized andre was crying, his eyes wide and desperate. "quiet down," he murmured, his voice soothing despite the blade in his hand. "it's just a few styros, andre." he smiled, "it's not the end of the world."
andre's chest heaved, tears streaming down his face. "it hurts, cal," he whimpered. "stop."
cal looked at him, the blade still in his hand. and then, as if a switch had been flipped, his expression changed. he looked down at the blood, and then back at andre's tear-stained face. and then, something else took over. he looked down at his own crotch and paused, before pulling out his cock, the blood on his hand smearing onto the shaft. he stared at it, pulsing in the dim light of his room, and he knew what he wanted.
andre's eyes went wide, the fear turning to horror as he realized what cal was about to do. "no, no, no," he whispered, his voice shaking. "please, cal, don't. we're friends. fuck, we're partners. we're not supposed to—"
but cal was beyond listening. the blood had brought something to the surface, something primal and dark that had been festering within him for years. he leaned in, pressing the tip of his cock against andre's trembling thigh, the blood mixing with precum to create a slick mess. andré's eyes grew even wider, his breath coming in short, panicked gasps as he stared up at his best friend.
"cal," he whispered, his voice trembling. "please, man, this isn't right. we can't—"
but cal was in his own world now, his eyes glazed over as he leaned closer, the razor blade still poised in his hand. "just one more, andré," he cooed, his voice unnaturally gentle. "just one more and then i'll stop. i promise."
andre's eyes widened even further, his voice shaking as he begged, "no, cal, please. we don't need to do this." his words fell on deaf ears, though, as cal's grip on the blade tightened. he took a deep breath, his nostrils flaring with the scent of fear and blood.
with a twisted smile, cal brought the blade down again, aiming for a spot just below the first cut. but in his excitement, he applied too much pressure, and the blade sank deeper than he intended, hitting the layer of fat beneath the skin. andré's body arched off the bed with a muffled screech, his hand flying to the wound as if to hold in the pain. the sight of the deeper cut, the blood welling up and mixing with the fatty tissue, brought an unexpected rush of pleasure to cal's face.
the pain was searing, white-hot, and andré's eyes rolled back in his head. his breathing was ragged, his chest heaving with the effort to stay still. "oh god, oh god," he whimpered, his hand pressing hard against the wound.
cal's own breath was coming in short, sharp bursts now, his eyes locked onto the crimson mess he'd created. he was hard, painfully so, his cock pulsing with each beat of his racing heart. the blade was still in his hand, but it was no longer needed for the pain he sought to inflict. instead, he brought his hips down, grinding against andré's thigh in a desperate attempt to find relief.
andre let out a little shriek as cal began to grind his cock against his bleeding thigh. cal wondered if the neighbors could hear them, but the sound of his own pulse in his ears drowned out any other sounds. he pushed down harder, feeling the slickness of blood and precum mixing together, creating a strange sort of lubricant. he could feel andré's muscles tense under him, the tremors of pain and fear causing his thigh to quiver with each thrust.
"cal, stop," andré whispered, his voice barely audible. his hand was clamped over the deepest cut, trying to stem the flow of blood. "please, just get off me."
cal wasnt where he went wrong in life to have ended up in a situation like this. maybe it was all the weird porn he'd watched, the violent video games. maybe it was just that he'd been holding it in for too long, the anger and the pain. or maybe it was just because he was just fucked in the head. but as he felt andre's trembling thigh beneath him, the blood smearing against his own skin, he realized he didn't care. all he cared about was the power he felt in that moment, the absolute control he had over the other boy's body. it was a rush like nothing he'd ever felt before.
he pushed andres hand away from the deepest cut, the blood oozing out in a steady flow, revealing the yellow layer of fat beneath. it peeked out like a shy, grotesque sunflower, the edges of the wound gaping open. the sight of it made cal's stomach churn in a not entirely unpleasant way. he wondered what itd feel like to touch- to stick his finger inside and feel the squishy wetness, to see if he could make andre scream louder.
nothing was stopping him, he realized with a sudden, wild euphoria. he could do whatever he wanted, and andre wouldn't stop him. not with the blade in cals hand and the blood on his thigh. so he leaned down and kissed andre, hard, his teeth clicking against his teeth. andre's eyes went wide, and he tried to pull away, but cal's grip was too strong.
cal's tongue forced its way into andré's mouth, tasting the salt of his tears. andré's body went rigid, his whole being screaming in protest. he tried to push cal away, but his hands were too slick with blood to gain any purchase. cal's tongue danced around in andré's mouth, feeling the warmth and wetness, the taste of fear. it was exhilarating.
as cal pulled away, panting, a cruel smile played on his lips. "you know, andré," he said, his voice thick with lust and malice, "you're not so tough after all." he took a moment to appreciate the horror in andré's eyes before his hand moved down to the gaping wound on his thigh.
"cal, ohmygod, don't," andre's voice was barely a whisper as he watched cal's hand move towards the open wound. "please, man. i'm sorry for whatever i did to make you mad." his voice was shaking, his body trembling underneath cal.
but cal's mind was made up. he wanted to see how far he could take this. he pushed his finger into the wound, and andré's whole body convulsed. he let out a little whine, his eyes squeezing shut as cal explored the inside of his leg. cal looked back up just in time to see andre turn his head to the side and retch, vomit spilling out onto the comforter. the smell hit him, but he didn’t move, didn’t stop.
andre's body was shaking, his breath coming in hitches as he sobbed uncontrollably. tears and snot ran down his face, and cal felt a strange mix of pity and excitement. he'd never seen andre like this before. never seen the tough, angry kid break down so completely. it was...beautiful in a fucked up way.
cal pulled his finger out of the wound with a wet pop, the blood sticking to his skin. he brought it up to his mouth and sucked it clean, watching andré's reaction. his sobs grew louder, his body trembling as he tried to scoot away. but there was nowhere to go, not with the way cal had him pinned down.
and then, without warning, cal shifted his weight and ground his hips down, his cock rutting against andré's soft dick. the feeling was foreign, but it didn’t dull the excitement. andré's body went rigid, his eyes wide with shock and disgust. he tried to push cal away again, but his hands slipped on the blood-soaked comforter.
cal's eyes rolled back in his head as he felt the softness of andré's cock against his own, the horror of the situation lost in the haze of his newfound power. the warmth of andré's blood was like a siren's call, urging him onward. he moaned, his hips moving in a rhythmic pattern, the friction of skin on skin sending waves of pleasure through his body. andré's dick was hardening now, despite his fear, the body's involuntary response to stimulation.
cal buried his face in andres shoulder, his teeth digging into the soft flesh as he rutted against andre's hardening dick. andre's body was a taut bowstring of fear and disgust, but his traitorous body was responding to the pressure, his cock swelling with each desperate thrust. cal felt a little bit of pride at that, at his power to make andre react even when he didn't want to. he took andre's hand and guided it to his own cock, the stickiness of the blood making it even more slippery. "touch it," he breathed into andre's ear. "please, just touch it."
"i don't wanna," andre managed to choke out, his voice thick with fear and revulsion. "please, cal. 'm dont wanna touch it."
but cal's grip was firm, his hand wrapping around andres own, guiding it down to his cock. he felt andre's hand shake, but eventually, his friend's trembling fingers curled around his length, the blood on his hand making everything slippery and warm. it was a strange, almost comforting feeling.
cal groaned, his hips bucking up against andres hand. "that's it," he murmured. "just like that."
andre's hand was a clumsy mess, his grip too tight, his entire body trembling, but cal didn't mind. the mere fact that andre was touching him was all he needed. he continued to thrust against him, his breathing growing more ragged by the second.
and then, without any warning, it was over. cal's body went rigid, his hips jerking up once, twice, and then he came, spurting hot cum onto andre's stomach and chest. the suddenness of it took him by surprise, and he couldn't help but let out a little gasp of embarrassment. he pulled back, his face flushing, the blade finally slipping from his grasp to clatter onto the floor.
andre was crying now, his body a mess of blood and cum and vomit. he looked up at cal with a mix of anger and fear, his eyes glittering with unshed tears. "cal- cal, i need to stop the bleeding- theres, fuck, theres so much blood-"
cal paused, his breathing heavy, his mind racing. he looked down at the mess he had made, the blood and cum and vomit staining the comforter. he kind of regretted loosing control like that. atleast itd been andre, and not rachel, or someone like that.
it was weirdly hard to go back to his usual facade after that. it took him a moment to consider what to say, how to act. he opened his mouth, hesitating before finally speaking. "oh- oh my god, dude, fuck, i-i didn't mean to do that," cal said, his voice shaking with what he hoped was a convincing mix of horror and regret. he rolled off of andre, his legs feeling like jello. "i'm sorry, andre. i don't know what came over me. does it hurt?"
andre was a mess, his eyes wide and wild, his hand still clutching at his leg. "yes," he whispered, his voice shaking. "yes, it fucking hurts, what kind of question is that?"
cal swallowed hard, trying to push down the smugness that threatened to bubble up. he had to play this right. "i'm gonna help you up, okay? and we can get some bandages." he offered a hand to andre.
an hour later, they were sitting in the bathroom together, the water a murky red from the blood that had been washed away. andré's leg was bandaged up now, but he'd still yelp whenever cal accidentally bumped against it. cal on the other hand, was sitting on the edge, his legs in the water, sobbing into his hands.
he looked at andre through red rimmed eyes. "i'm sorry, 'dre. i'm sorry for everything. i'm just...i'm a monster," cal said, his voice cracking with each word. "i don't know what's wrong with me. i've never done anything like that before." his sobs grew louder, his body shaking with the force of his emotions. he hoped he looked remorsful enough.
andre stared at him, his expression unreadable. "you're not a monster, cal," he said softly, his voice thick with pain. "you're just...fucked up."
cal paused, for a second, before rememberimg his act. he took a deep breath, his chest heaving with fake sobs, his shoulders shaking. "i'm such a piece of shit," he choked out, his eyes squeezed shut. "i can't believe i did that to you, andre. i'm so sorry."
andre looked up, his eyes red and swollen from crying. he took a deep, shaky breath. "cal, man, it's okay," he murmured, reaching out a trembling hand to his friend. "it's not your fault. i know you didn't mean to."
cal grabbed his hand, clinging to it like a lifeline. "i really didn't. and i'm sorry. i'm just- i'm disgusting. you think im disgusting now, don't you?" he said, his voice cracking.
andre squeezed cal's hand back, the warmth of his touch surprisingly gentle. "no, man, you're not," he murmured, his voice thick with pain. "you just...you just had a moment. we all do." he took a deep, shaky breath. "please don't cry. i'm not mad at you. we're still friends."
cal leaned against the bathroom tiles, his shoulders shaking with his forced sobs. he whispered a silent 'thank you' to the heavens above, grateful that andre was so desperate for companionship that he would overlook what had just happened.
wiping his fake tears away, cal took a deep, shuddering breath, still trying to mimic the sound of someone genuinely upset. he sniffled, a bit too loudly, and then spoke, "andre, come on, man. you're hurt. let me help you 'outta the bath. i can take care of you." he hoped the mix of guilt and concern in his voice was enough to convince andré of his remorse.
andre looked at him with a mix of confusion and pain, but eventually, he nodded. what a gullible fuck, cal thought to himself, feeling a twinge of something close to admiration for the ease with which andré accepted his apology.
"i love you, man," cal said, his voice a little too high pitched.
"i love you too." andre replied, looking down. cal had to resist the urge to roll his eyes at the naive declaration.
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transdunbar · 3 days ago
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Fanfic recs?
oh boy, these might be a bit old because i haven't been really keeping up to date on reading fics BUT that doesn't mean they deserve any less love!! (also anon i dont really know what specifically youre looking for but you get what you get)
so obviously first place has to go to Green Zone by @chasing-chimeras, he's an amazing author and this is the fic that got me into thiam!!
next up is Tough Like Dandelions by one of my best friends (who i got to hang out with recently!!) @equallyloyalandlethal
Don't Forget to Breathe by snaeken is also one of my favorites!! as someone with a disability/chronic pain its always nice to see representation written in such an amazing way!
and honestly any fics by @eneiryu are gonna be amazing, but saw the shadow of the valley but the shadow was mine in particular is one that scratches the itches in my brain. their writing is phenomenal, please go read all of their fics.
All About Control made me cry a bit and i only didn't cry more because i was behind the scenes for the creative process, and @raekensarcher deserves all the love for it!!
and i am also a sucker for domestic thiam so Home by songbvrd is one that i keep coming back to when im having a hard time and need something fluffy and sweet :)
i can be your best yet (future favorite regret) by @gayholloway !! its short and sweet and well-written, and im trying to encourage lucas to write more because his fics are good
there is a beast in my heart and he won't let you leave alive by Quintessentia!! we all know im a sucker for coyote!theo (thin white lies) and this fic focuses on the more coyote-like traits that theo has! (also second chapter is smut, be warned)
and i wouldn't be an author without reccing one of my own fics: thin white lies is my first teen wolf fic, and is the first in a larger series called the art of scraping through where theo never left with the dread doctors and was involved in all of the earlier seasons of teen wolf!! im very proud of it :)
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miumura · 6 hours ago
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this reblog is so precious to me WHAT THE HECKKKK . like me receiving this lengthy of a reblog from the sweetest girl i know??? guys i literally do not deserve her 💔💔💔
words truly cannot express how grateful i am for this ☹️ FIRST OFF, i’ve already expressed this in her dms (🤫), but she absolutely did WONDERFUL with this long review like… this is everything a writer could ask for??? any reblog/hashtags can make anyone happy but having something like this just makes someone feel soooo overjoyed? like something so well put together for something that you spent so much time writing for 😞 it truly makes you feel seen and this girl never fails to do so ❤️‍🩹
so, spoilers ahead, like always! read beforehand if you please :] <3
also some are answered by numbers so that my comments / responses are basically directed to those (?) IT WILL MAKE SENSE WHEN YOU READ THIS… and the ones i didn’t number are more general ^^
FIRST AND FOREMOST, i do want to point out that i love how you not only highlighted jaehyun and reader, but also the other characters too as I LOVED PORTRAYING THEIR CHARACTER TOO!!! i believe they were important with the progression of jaehyun and reader !!! woonhak my silly bae (or lemme say, the main cupid 😛) , alongside with leehan being the silliest, taesan, sungho, and riwoo—the most helpful out if the bunch 😚! they all played a part in this so i’m glad you also mentioned them too !!!
3) AND YES!! jaehyun is absolutely the sweetest soul ever :’) just someone who is willing to make sacrifices simply for the other person ❤️‍🩹
4) LMAOOO DONT WORRY… it hit close to home for me too… just another fatez thing!!!
6) AND AWH im glad this was good for you !! this is the first time i’ve ever written an exes to lovers so im happy its up to par to your liking <3
AND YES, I TOTALLY AGREE WITH YOU!! with exes to lovers, there can be closure but also there’s that unspeakable energy that you COULD meet someone you used to (or still do) love and that is just 💔 SO MY ATTEMPT AT WRITING THIS WAS HOPEFULLY A GOOD PORTRAYAL OF THE POTENTIAL AWKWARDNESS (like you mentioned in number 7 !!)
8) I WANTED SOMEONE TO POINT THAT OUTTT ESP THE “he was only someone you had once wanted. now, he’s just a stranger with a familiar name” Ohhh i was so proud of that…
I ALSO LOVED HOW YOU POINTED OUT THE SUBTLE MOMENTS OF JAEHYUN AND READER STILL HAVING FEELINGS !! i threw some parts here and there to establish that… none of their love really left in the first place! i really like how as you continue to read, your theory gets even stronger/more supported HAHAH it really seems like you were invested and i love you for that </3
13) GOSHHHH YOURE SO SWEET. LILI IS THE GOAT FOR WRITING ALL OF THIS 😭💔😭💔 you make writing long fics feel so worth it for your commentary ❤️‍🩹
IM GLAD YOU FOUND THE MOMENTS I WANTED PEOPLE TO LAUGH (or at least… smile) AT !!! i tried inserting a new lighthearted moments for the fluff :3
SUNGHO OUR SAVIOR 👏👏 someone needs to help jaehyun realize his feelings little by little and i will say he did contribute!!! AND LEEHAN YESSS he’s just really a silly character in this….
WITH HEESEUNG SJSJS IM SO SORRY . the idea sparked in my head for jaeyn interactions sorry….. 😁!
24-26) AND YES THAT PART SPECIFICALLY I LOVED WRITING LIKE ACTUALLY…. not only does his actions speak volumes but also his words like?? i just love the comfort in small-but-also-kind-of-big actions so much :’) AND TO NOMINATE THIS FIC FOR ALL CATEGORIES ??? GOSHHH YOU FLATTER ME TOO MUCH 😞😞 tysm ml 😕😕❤️‍🩹 (and real, may this love find us all.)
I FELT SOOOO SINGLE WRITING THISSSS like with the scene of jaehyun comforting/reassuring her to the matching headbands to being on rides together 💔💔💔 Yeah reading the specific parts is making me re experience those emotions HAHAH . AND THE CLAY DATE SCENE UGHHH i loved that one so much.
43) YESSS the idea of having a safe space is so comforting ❤️‍🩹 and especially if you consider someone as one, it’s just 10x that feeling!!! i’ll forever be the riwoo to your jaehyun babes <3
THANK YOU SOSOSO MUCH FOR THIS REBLOG AGAIN :’) !!! i’m so happy that you selected so many parts and wrote your own thoughts about it ☹️ it just really shows you read it and i truly love you so much for that ❤️‍🩹 TO HAVE STUPID CUPID BE CONSIDERED AS ONE OF THE BEST MJAE FICS PLEASEEE my heart is so full already from this and you had to add this 😢 it’s overflowing!!!
me when im at the competition of being the sweetest person in the whole wide universe and galaxy included and lili is my opponent… Yeah i would take my loss right then and there.
i will reread this every time i feel down because i can guarantee you, this will make me feel soso much better. and i keep my word on that! THANK YOU SO MUCH MY LOVE AGAIN 🤍 please check out my luckycharmz works too because they are just amazing <3
STUPID CUPID! ─── JAEHYUN ONESHOT ✶
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𓊆 🪽 𓊇 CUPID’S HANDBOOK ✶ Nothing could've prepared Jaehyun for the moment you, his ex, walked through the doors of his matchmaking business, hoping to find someone new. As a Cupid undercover, he sees this as his chance to finally move on by setting you up with someone "better." Determined to prove he's over you, Jaehyun throws himself into the task—only for a small mishap with his powers to send everything spiraling out of control.
OR IN WHICH Instead of helping you find love, Jaehyun accidentally amplifies his own buried feelings—the very ones he swore he’d left behind. As he's desperately hoping his magic wears off before you notice, Jaehyun can’t help but worry that you’ll think he’s sabotaging your chances at love simply because he can’t let you go just yet.
MATCHMAKER & HIS CLIENT × cupid ! jaehyun x f ! reader
🗒️ › THE GUIDELINES ⟡ cupid au, exes2lovers, second chance, pining, slowburn(ish), fluff, angst ( ? ), crack
PRECAUTIONS ノ jaehyun absolutely being a nervous but almost lovesick mess 👍, playful bickering, a bit of jealousy?, teasing (#you’llfindthemainculprits), some denial and i believe that’s really it! ( FEAT. all of boynextdoor as CUPIDS! )
WORD COUNT ────── 25.9K+ ( 25907 WORDS ) !
𓊆 🗯️ 𓊇 CUPID’S RULES ✶ happy (late) valentines to you all ♡ !! this WAS supposed to be released on vday, but i lost track of time and was busy playing cupid for my friend so 😖 (rhin can confirm) special thank yous to alya, rhin, and lili !! alya & rhin my main people that i gave them sm updates (i know they were tired of me always saying my new wcs for this…) and lili being an amazing motivator for this as i was trying (more like stressing) to get this out as soon as possible… SO this fic definitely holds a special place in my heart & i hope you guys enjoy this as much as i did :] !! again, happy month of love ♡
🏹 ────── PLAYLIST LINKED IN ‘STUPID CUPID!’
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RULE #1: Remember and Follow the Cupid Handbooks
Being a Cupid comes with its perks—the ability to make people fall within seconds—but it also carries a weird curse: struggling to find love for yourself. It’s ironic, really. How could one in charge of creating love stories be so helpless when it comes to their own? 
So, if there’s one rule every Cupid should know, it’s to avoid getting tangled up in love themselves. 
Jaehyun knew that better than anyone. He didn’t spend countless nights studying Cupid Handbooks just to break the most clear but unspoken rule in the book. But, when constantly exposed to love—causing romantic connections and having soulmates find each other—could he really be blamed for wondering what it might feel like to fall too? 
Jaehyun hated the idea of him doing something so forbidden—he knew his limits, had always known them, and he has never been so set on keeping himself within them. But the more time he spent practicing his spells and shooting his heart arrows, the more he felt himself daydreaming. Even during his shifts, he kept catching himself drifting off to the thoughts of what he wanted in a relationship. 
His imagination that led to his hopeless scenarios had him wanting love. Not just any kind of love, though. 
Jaehyun wanted to find love the natural way. No use of his magic. No arrows. No shortcuts. It was interesting, given the fact his abilities could naturally make the person he wanted to fall for him. But with the amount of time he spent in this field, all he wants is to be able to feel things everyone else would’ve if no one interfered with their love life. 
He wanted something genuine. 
He wanted to experience all the little things—interlocking fingers and swinging arms during a late-night walk—and plan romantic gestures and dates that would leave someone speechless. He wanted to laugh until his cheeks hurt because of the joy someone else brought into his life—someone that he could call his partner. 
It was so human, really so simple. Yet for someone like him, it was out of bounds and strictly off-limits. His magic was meant for others, not himself. Still, the thought lingered, nestled deep within him.
Even though it seemed forbidden, Jaehyun couldn’t stop himself from wondering: wouldn’t it be worth it, just once, to know what it felt like? It could be a good experience, he told himself, a lesson in understanding what he had been helping others achieve for so long.
And against all odds—or perhaps because of them—his fantasies became his reality. For the first time, Jaehyun found himself in a relationship. His first one ever. Everything he had imagined, all the sweet little moments he dreamed of, unfolded before him. Late-night walks, planned romantic dates, and laughter that left his cheeks sore were everything he’d wished for.
It was perfect. Almost too perfect, as if the universe was teasing him with a fleeting glimpse of something he could never fully keep.
If only he had known how it would all end. If only someone had stepped in to shatter his hopeless fantasies before they took place. Maybe then he wouldn’t have fallen so hard.
Maybe then he wouldn’t have become the hopeless mess he is now.
It wasn’t that he regretted the relationship—not entirely. The memories were precious, the kind he would carry with him forever. But who could have guessed how much a first love could change a person? That those bubbly feelings he felt would be so short-lived and immediately replaced with nothing but guilt? 
Unless, of course, Jaehyun was just a hopeless romantic, unable to let go of his first love. Maybe that was his problem all along—he clung to the memory of it, replaying every moment like a song he couldn’t stop humming. Or maybe it was simply a part of the consequences of not following the Cupid’s rule—avoid getting tangled up in love. 
It’s as if once a Cupid gets out of love, that emptiness will forever stick, and yet there would be no attempt to fill it up again. Instead, it simply lingers over like a shadow that would never disappear. 
Even with his so-called tragic attempt at love, Jaehyun refuses to let it interfere with his performance as a Cupid. If anything, he tries to hide it, and it only fuels his dedication to helping others find what he couldn’t. It helped him so much to the point that he even opened his own matchmaking business in the human world—a thriving one at that. 
For Jaehyun, it’s much easier to act like the one who steps into someone’s life at just the “right” moment, soon setting them up with their perfect match disguised as a human. With him constantly surrounded by success and purpose, he was able to effortlessly complete his tasks at a quick pace and climb up the ranks. His undercover Cupid life was truly working in his favor. 
For once, it seems like everything was finally working for Jaehyun. 
And that was all he ever wanted. 
RULE #2: Help anyone — everyone deserves love. 
It was a typical day for Jaehyun if he was holed up in his office, scrolling through the reviews on his website. A satisfied grin tugged at his lips as he skimmed through the comments praising his flawless love advice and unmatched ability to set up the perfect soulmate-worthy dates. 
“Jaehyun!” Woonhak’s voice burst through the quiet room, startling Jaehyun to jolt upright, abandoning the relaxed posture he’d settled into moments before. “You’ve got new clients!” 
The door swung open, and in walked Woonhak, his assistant, with a stack of papers that balanced in his arms. He remained completely oblivious to the sharp glare Jaehyun shot his way, too caught up in his excitement—or perhaps too used to his expressions to care. 
“It would be better if you just entered the room without yelling like that,” Jaehyun muttered, watching as Woonhak approached his desk and plopped down the heavy stack of papers.
“You just get scared too easily,” Woonhak teased, dragging out the last word as if to further test Jaehyun’s patience. Despite the playful jab, his grin never faltered. He nudged the papers closer, clearly expecting Jaehyun to skim through them quickly so he could set up the appointments and get back to whatever mischief he had planned for the day.
Jaehyun chose to ignore his teasing, snatching up the papers and flipping through the stack as fast as he possibly could. Meanwhile, Woonhak let out a low whistle, tapping his fingers on his thighs as his eyes wandered around the room to fulfill his few minutes of boredom. 
With Jaehyun looking back at Woonhak every so often, his attention soon landed on the white wings peeking out from Woonhak’s back. 
“And hide those winds before someone walks in here and thinks you’re an odd person.” He pointed in their direction, giving it a small look. 
Woonhak immediately twisted his body, trying to get a glimpse of the wings, only to end up spinning in an awkward loop. Jaehyun let out a chuckle at the ridiculous sight, shaking his head before returning to the customer requests sprawled out in front of him.
“I had to help Taesan with his mission. Cut me some slack,” Woonhak huffed, hurriedly tucking his wings out of sight—even though it was just him and Jaehyun in the room.
“Besides,” he added, straightening up and crossing his arms, “I’d be diligent enough not to get caught looking like this in front of a human.”
Jaehyun raised his eyebrow, clearly unimpressed. “Uh-huh. Like you never had something like this happen on numerous occasions.” 
Woonhak opened his mouth to argue but quickly shut it, his lips pressing into a thin line as he suddenly remembered a few of the times that almost led him to exposing his true identity. 
“Just focus on looking through these so I can go back to work before someone calls for me again,” Woonhak grumbled under his breath, leaving Jaehyun unbothered to even hide the small smirk he had. 
“Yeah, yeah—” Jaehyun started, his words trailing off the moment his eyes landed on a familiar name.
L/N Y/N.
For a moment, the room felt smaller, and the papers in his hands suddenly heavier. He stared at your name, unable to move past it, as if seeing it in print made it all too real.
He almost felt as if he was being physically dragged down, feeling the weight of such a familiar yet unfamiliar name crush him. 
His heart felt like it was sinking. 
Snapping out of it, Jaehyun quickly slid the paper out of the stack, slipping it aside like it didn’t exist. But before he could fully hide it, Woonhak’s sharp eyes caught his movement.
Woonhak slid the paper back in front of Jaehyun, his eyes narrowing in confusion at Jaehyun’s sudden action. 
“What?”
“Uh, I don’t think I can take this applicant,” Jaehyun replied a little too quickly, pushing the paper aside once more. 
“What’s wrong with this one?” he pressed, sliding the paper back yet again and this time keeping his hands firmly placed on it. Woonhak couldn’t seem to let it go that easily. He leaned in, squinting as he tried to make the words on the page from his view. “See something that goes against our policies?” 
“It’s not that—” Jaehyun paused, the sudden thought of him technically being the one that went against Cupid’s "policies.”
Avoid getting tangled up in love. 
The same phrase that haunted him echoed in his head, almost threatening to bring him back to the phase where he felt everything was going wrong. But he quickly shook it off—he had to. Now wasn’t the time for him to dwell on his past actions. He needed an excuse—any excuse. 
His eyes darted to the description you’d provided at the bottom of the application, scanning the words as fast as he could.
“They just seem... bland?” he blurted out, scrambling for an explanation. “Like they don’t actually want our services. Feels like a waste of time, honestly.”
Woonhak tilted his head before flipping the paper around, finally taking the time to read it properly. He hummed softly, nodding as if he agreed, and Jaehyun let out the smallest sigh of relief—until Woonhak abruptly stopped.
His expression shifted, brows furrowing deeply as his eyes darted back and forth between the paper and Jaehyun. 
“Since when did you, out of all Cupids, opt out of helping a client find love?”
“I mean…you saw the paper yourself!” Jaehyun stammered, trying to say anything to seem valid with his reasoning. He could feel the heat rising to his face, and no matter how hard he tried to keep calm, his words kept fumbling. This was spiraling fast—faster than he wanted it to. Instead of seeming like the confident, professional Cupid he prided himself on being, Jaehyun felt like a deer caught in headlights.
“The Jaehyun I know wouldn’t turn anyone away,” he stated clearly, folding his arms. “So, you? The Cupid who preaches about ‘love being for everyone,’ rejecting a client because they seem odd with their reasoning?”
Jaehyun didn’t know what to say—matter of fact, he didn’t want to say it. He had no comeback—no witty excuse to hide behind. Honestly, how could he possibly explain the truth? That he didn’t follow the very rules designed to keep Cupids professional? 
How was he supposed to bring up the fact that he had a deeper connection to you than other humans? 
That it was what he’s been wanting to avoid even remembering for the longest time? 
Jaehyun’s stomach churned, the thought looming over him greater than before. With falling in love as a Cupid seems to go against their morals, Jaehyun would absolutely forbid himself from telling someone he had gone against it. 
No one could know. Not even Woonhak, one of the very few he trusted the most. 
Nothing could deter Jaehyun from believing that this guilt should be only carried by himself. Otherwise, who knows what could happen to him if the word got out that he did something “bad”? 
Because if they found out? Suspension would be the least of his problems. He could be stripped of his powers, exiled from this world, or worse—losing his powers as a Cupid. 
Regardless of what punishments there could be out there, Jaehyun was not planning on getting into any of them. 
Jaehyun clenched his jaw, forcing himself to hold Woonhak’s gaze. “Can I just say...the vibes are... off?” Jaehyun managed to murmur, putting on a hopefully convincing look. However, Jaehyun even thought he wouldn’t be convinced by his own excuse with Woonhak towering over him, trying to analyze his true intentions. 
“Is there something you don’t want to tell me?” his voice was still laced with suspicion; however it was softer than it was before. 
Jaehyun felt the weight of Woonhak’s stare, and for a split second, he debated keeping the truth buried. But the tension in the room was suffocating, and if he didn’t give Woonhak something—anything—it might only make things worse.
It could at least make him feel a bit better in this situation. 
“Okay…well,” Jaehyun began, his voice wavering as he struggled to find the right words. “It’s someone I used to know. Someone I—” He paused, catching himself before saying too much. “—someone I haven’t spoken to in a while. I just... I don’t want to mess things up for them.”
Woonhak tilted his head, his brows furrowing slightly, but he nodded as if to show he understood. “So it’s personal?”
“Kind of,” Jaehyun admitted, his gaze shifting down to the paper that now felt like it was burning a hole in his desk. “I just think it’d be better if someone else handled it.”
“Alright,” Woonhak finally said, stepping back slightly. Hearing that, Jaehyun could’ve sworn he let out a huge exhale of air he didn’t even realize he’d been holding.
Relief flooded through him, but it was short-lived. Woonhak reached out, gathering the stack of papers—including yours—and Jaehyun’s eyes lingered on them longer than he meant to.
That’s when it hit him.
You applied. You. To find someone new?
Before he could fully process it, Woonhak’s footsteps snapped him out of his spiral. He abruptly turned back before reaching the door, making Jaehyun’s shoulders tense up all over again.
“But if no one takes this application,” Woonhak said with a grin, “you’re going to have to handle it no matter what.”
Jaehyun’s eyes widened. “Wait, what?”
“She applied for you to help her, didn’t she?” Woonhak grinned, clearly enjoying the panic written all over Jaehyun’s face. “Cupid rules!” 
And before Jaehyun could even form a response, Woonhak was gone, shutting the door behind him within an instant. 
Jaehyun slumped back in his chair, running a hand through his hair as the words echoed in his head.
She applied for you to help her. 
For the first time ever, Jaehyun had never felt a stronger urge to break Cupid’s rules.
Just for his own sake. 
RULE #3: Focus on the Present, Not the Past
It didn’t take long for Jaehyun to realize that Woonhak had only been joking and that no such rule actually existed. Honestly? He was relieved—especially after mustering up the courage to ask Riwoo a series of awkward and borderline ridiculous questions. Poor Riwoo had been forced to sit through Jaehyun’s rambling without even understanding why he was so worked up.
According to Riwoo, applications were simply sent and put on hold until someone willingly picked up the task. It didn’t have to be Jaehyun—thankfully. That small piece of information lifted a massive weight off his shoulders, allowing him to breathe easier for the first time since he’d seen your name on the paper.
And while the thought of leaving your application in someone else’s hands felt oddly conflicting, Jaehyun convinced himself it was for the best. You’d be taken care of soon, and he wouldn’t have to risk getting involved in your life again.
As cold as it might sound, Jaehyun knew his intentions were good. He wasn’t trying to be cruel—if anything, he was trying to protect you from not seeing him again, as maybe the sight of him could possibly hurt you too. 
That reassurance brought him an unexpected sense of peace, enough to push him back into focus. With his worries temporarily set aside, Jaehyun found himself performing better than he had in weeks, even earning a few more praises here and there.
It was more than enough for Jaehyun to be set right back on track. 
“Send the next client in,” Jaehyun spoke into the earpiece, his tone steady as he leaned back in his chair. He reached for a pen, idly tapping it against the surface of his desk while he waited.
“I’m on it,” Woonhak’s voice crackled through the line, followed by faint shuffling noises. Jaehyun could just barely make out Woonhak murmuring something to the next person in line, probably offering some last-minute reassurance before directing them inside.
Jaehyun straightened up as he heard the door creak open, forcing himself into professional mode. He plastered on a welcoming smile, just like he had practiced, ready to offer all the help he could give. 
“Welcome to—” he looked up, the grip on his pen faltering, nearly causing it to slip from his fingers. His lips slightly parted before continuing, “KOZ of Cupid.”
Out of all clients he could’ve seen today, why did it have to be you?
At first, you didn’t want to sign up for something like this. You preferred the more “natural” way of falling in love—the kind of story that felt straight out of a romance movie. Meeting someone in a cozy café, locking eyes with a stranger in a crowd, or stumbling upon someone at the wrong place but at the perfect time. That’s the kind of love you always dreamed about.
Although those kinds of wishes didn’t take you far within your love life. Those fleeting moments never seemed to lead to something more than casual, leaving you in a series of what-ifs and missed connections. So, here you were, making the decision you once swore you’d never make. 
But what you didn’t expect was seeing this. 
You froze the moment you stepped inside the office, your eyes locking with his as the realization sank in. Out of all the people who could’ve been behind this desk—out of all the Matchmakers people raved about—it just had to be him.
Your ex.
Well, maybe if you knew who he actually was prior to this, you would’ve probably avoided getting into this situation. 
Your body stiffened, your hand gripping the strap of your bag as if holding onto it could somehow ground you. He looked just as surprised as you, if not mortified. 
“Cupid MJ…?” you finally asked, your voice laced with disbelief as you eyed the nameplate on his desk. “That’s you?”
Jaehyun swallowed hard, his hand instinctively reaching up to rub the back of his neck. Despite having gone by the alias for what felt like an eternity, hearing it come out of your mouth suddenly made it sound ridiculous.
“Yeah…” he muttered, his voice softer than usual. “That’s me.”
“I see...” you trailed off awkwardly, already hating the steps you took to be caught in this kind of predicament. 
“Well, take a seat, won’t you?” Jaehyun finally broke the silence, gesturing toward the chair he’d carefully positioned in front of his desk. You nodded stiffly, your legs carrying you forward as if on autopilot, each step feeling heavier than the last.
You weren’t sure what shocked you more—seeing Jaehyun again after all this time or realizing he was now running a matchmaking business, posing as some kind of modern-day Cupid...now in charge of your love life. 
The only difference is that he's no longer a part of it—not in that kind of way. 
“It’s been a long…time since we last saw each other,” you managed to say as you took a seat. Your eyes fell into your lap, unable to meet his gaze face-to-face after all this time. It felt unnatural given how you two were practically strangers who used to be lovers, now meeting up together in the same room. “I didn’t know you were doing this kind of thing now.” 
Jaehyun wasn’t surprised by your reaction. He had expected this to throw you off—how could it not? After all, back then, he’d practically put his cupid duties on pause to be with you. He left it all in Riwoo’s hands just so he could experience what love felt like firsthand.
And for a while, it was perfect.
But now? Now, he was just a matchmaker, and you were just another client sitting across from his desk, needing his help. You two were not on boyfriend-girlfriend terms anymore, so Jaehyun had no choice but to snap out of it. 
“It has been,” he finally replied, forcing a polite smile despite the tightening in his chest. “I never would’ve expected to see you again—especially not here. And definitely not in this... field of love.”
You let out a small, nervous laugh, nodding your head. “Yeah, well…change of plans, I guess.”
Jaehyun also nodded, but his mind was already spiraling. Change of plans? To make things fair, he hasn’t seen you in a while—it’s been a good year or two of him avoiding crossing paths with you. 
“Getting back on topic, I assume you’ve already gone through our website?” Jaehyun asked, his tone shifting to something more professional as he turned his attention to the computer beside him. His fingers moved quickly over the keyboard, typing your name into the database.
“Well… could there be anything I missed besides setting up this appointment with you?” you asked, hoping your rushed application hadn’t left out anything important.
“It actually looks like you didn’t fill out the section about what you’re looking for in a future partner.” Jaehyun frowned slightly, refreshing the page a couple of times as if expecting the missing information to magically appear. “Huh. That’s odd…”
“There was a form for that?” you asked, genuine confusion lacing your voice.
Jaehyun hummed in response, his eyes still fixed on the screen. “Yeah. It’s part of the application process. You must’ve skipped over it.”
You sat back in your chair, trying to piece together the memory of filling out the form. “I probably did. I was kind of in a rush when I submitted it,” you admitted, already cringing at how careless you’d been. It was supposed to be something quick—just something to get your friends off your back about your ‘tragic’ love life. 
“Well, don’t worry about it.” Jaehyun reached for the drawer beside him, pulling out a clipboard and sliding a clean sheet of paper into the clip. “I have a physical copy you can fill out instead.”
He handed it to you along with a pen, prompting you to take it without hesitation. Your eyes quickly scanned the questions on the form, and almost immediately, you felt like you were being put on the spot. The questions were more personal than you expected—asking about values, expectations, and even deal-breakers—but you pushed through, determined to finish it as quickly as possible.
The silence in the room only made the process feel longer. You could feel Jaehyun’s occasional glances, though he tried to keep himself preoccupied with the computer screen in front of him. It was as if he was pretending not to notice how much effort you were putting into answering the questions—questions he already knew the answers to, at least back then.
After what felt like an eternity, you were able to finish the last question, settling the clipboard down with a soft thud. 
“All done?” 
“Yeah,” you replied, sliding the clipboard back across his desk. “Sorry, that took so long. Some of the questions were…very detailed.” 
Jaehyun let out a small laugh, picking up the clipboard and flipping through the pages to make sure you didn’t skip over anything accidentally. “It’s supposed to be thorough. The more detailed your responses are, the better we can find the match for you.”
You nodded, though the idea of him—or anyone—reading through your answers felt a bit humiliating. Even if you regretted it, there was really no coming back from this now. But Jaehyun’s silence couldn’t help but worry you, making your stomach churn. 
“Okay, it looks like you filled out everything,” he said, placing the clipboard down in front of him. “We should be able to get you set up with a match that fits what you’re looking for.” 
You didn’t have an answer, so you simply nodded, forcing a small, polite smile even as the tension in the room lingered.
“That’s all for today’s session,” Jaehyun said, leaning back slightly as if to signal the end of your meeting.
“Really? That’s it?” you asked in surprise. 
“Considering how you forgot to fill that part, I can’t do much more than make you wait until our next session to find you a match,” he replied. “I’ll have Cupid KW set up the next appointment for you when I’m all settled.” 
“Oh right…” Your voice barely rose above a murmur as you stood up, sliding the chair back under the desk carefully before you left. You hesitated at the door, your hand hovering over the handle before instinctively turning back to him.
“Thank you, Jaehyun—” You froze, quickly correcting yourself. “I mean, Cupid MJ.” The slip-up made you cringe internally—you certainly weren’t on the terms to be addressing him like that. You didn’t choose to stick around long enough to explain or even see his reaction. Instead, you hurriedly added, “Have a nice day,” before stepping out and pulling the door closed behind you.
Jaehyun barely managed a “You too,” but his voice was low, almost drowned out by the soft click of the door shutting. Letting out a quiet sigh, Jaehyun shifted his focus back to the clipboard you left behind, flipping through the pages filled with your handwriting.
Jaehyun? It was nice to hear that name from you again. But he hated how much he missed hearing it. 
It had been so long, and yet it still sounded so familiar—so warm, as if it provided a sense of comfort to him. It was as if he was transported back to the past, the time where he had known everything about you. 
He scanned through your answers carefully, noting every detail you had written down. As he continued to flip through the pages, he wore a faint, bitter smile, noticing how clear everything was. 
It was silly to think about reconnecting, wasn’t it? Silly to even let himself reminisce about what everything once was.
Everything you seem to want now—the qualities and expectations—no longer reflects who Jaehyun was. But what should he expect? That you would still want someone like him? 
He was only someone you had once wanted. 
Now, he’s just a stranger with a familiar name. 
RULE #4: Act Fast; a Client is Top Priority
“Where’s Woonhak?” Jaehyun suddenly asked, his eyes narrowing as Leehan walked in carrying a stack of papers instead of the usual face he expected to see every day.
“He told me Sungho called for him for the day,” Leehan replied, setting the papers down on Jaehyun’s desk with the same precision Woonhak typically would. “So, I took over his spot.”
Jaehyun barely held back a groan. Of course, Woonhak wouldn’t be here today. If he was, Jaehyun would’ve made sure he didn’t leave this office without a long lecture—or a few cuts and bruises, if Jaehyun felt like being dramatic. Technically, this entire mess was Woonhak’s fault—for lying and, even worse, allowing you in on the day Jaehyun could’ve least expected it.
It would’ve been easier if Jaehyun had some kind of warning. Just a heads-up that you’d be walking through those doors.
“So, these are the correct ones, right?” Jaehyun asked, forcing himself to focus as he looked through the papers.
“Yes, Woonhak taught me,” Leehan confirmed, glancing at him like he could already tell where Jaehyun’s mind was drifting. “And don’t worry. I’m only unlucky when it comes to using my powers, not simple tasks like these.”
Jaehyun let out a sharp exhale, giving Leehan a pointed look. “Let’s hope so.”
“You seem to have a lot on your mind,” Leehan said, tilting his head slightly as he studied Jaehyun’s expression.
“Me?” Jaehyun scoffed, feigning indifference as he leaned back in his chair. “I’m fine.”
“Sure,” Leehan replied, clearly unconvinced. “That’s why you’ve been staring at the same paper for the last five minutes.”
Jaehyun blinked, glancing down at the form in his hand. He hadn’t even realized he hadn’t turned the page.
“It’s nothing,” Jaehyun muttered, flipping the sheet over as if that would somehow prove his point.
Leehan didn’t look convinced, but he didn’t press further either. Instead, he slid another set of files across the desk.
“Well, whatever it is, try not to let it mess up your matchmaking,” Leehan said with a shrug. “Clients tend to notice when you’re distracted.”
Jaehyun let out a small, humorless laugh. “Funny to hear that from you, Leehan.”
“A few mishaps doesn’t mean I can’t read you clearly,” Leehan hummed, pausing briefly at the door. “You’re bad at hiding it.”
Jaehyun opened his mouth to retort, but Leehan was already gone, leaving him alone with nothing but the faint echo of his words.
His gaze soon shifted to the glowing computer screen, displaying one of your most compatible matches. The person seemed to perfectly align with the preferences you listed—which is a good thing—yet Jaehyun’s chest seemed to tighten the longer he stared at it. 
Jaehyun loves his job, and yet he can’t help but wonder how his situation became like this. 
It’s just funny how he has to be the one to set you up with someone else. 
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“You found me a match already?” you exclaimed, your eyes widening as Jaehyun quietly sipped his hot chocolate. He gave a small nod, barely looking up from the swirling steam rising from his cup.
“Yeah, it was easy to find some candidates,” he replied, his voice steady but his expression unreadable. He was bundled up in layers, his scarf wrapped snugly around his neck, yet he still seemed cold despite having been in the café for over ten minutes.
“Are you sure these are good ones?” you asked, trying not to sound doubtful but failing miserably. It wasn’t that you didn’t trust Jaehyun’s judgment—you did—but the process felt almost too fast. Weren’t matches supposed to take time? Shouldn’t there be more thought put into something like this?
“I don’t have good reviews under my website for no reason,” Jaehyun said with a small, proud smile as he set down his cup. He seemed confident, which seemed to reassure you. 
You pressed your lips together, unsure how to respond. Maybe you were overthinking this, or maybe it was just nerves. But a tiny part of you couldn’t help but wonder if Jaehyun was rushing this—if he was just trying to get it over with.
Would this—you—even matter to him? 
“Right,” you still managed to say while your thoughts spiraled, forcing a smile as you leaned back in your chair. “I guess I’ll just have to trust the expert, huh?”
“Speaking of me being an expert, your match should be appearing soon,” Jaehyun said casually, his words suddenly shifting the calm mood into something else. 
You blinked, caught completely off guard. “Wait—what?”
Before you could even process what he meant, Jaehyun stood up, eyes glued to his phone, as if this were the most natural thing in the world. “His name is Heeseung, by the way.”
“Heeseung?” you repeated, panic rising in your voice. “Jaehyun, wait!”
But he didn’t wait. He didn’t even turn back. 
It felt almost too familiar. 
Instead, he gave you a quick, dismissive wave before disappearing toward the café door.
You sat frozen in your chair, your heart pounding so hard you could feel it in your ears. 
A match. An actual, real match. And he was about to walk in any second now.
You glanced around nervously, suddenly hyperaware of every person in the café. You stared at everyone that walked in your direction, seemingly holding onto your breath. 
You didn’t even know who this guy looked like—this was practically a blind date. 
Your hands clenched around your cup. What were you even supposed to say?
You hadn’t been on a date in so long, and the fact that this one was unplanned made it feel so much worse. 
“Y/N, is it?”
The voice pulled you out of your spiraling thoughts. You looked up, meeting the gaze of the man standing in front of you.
It was Heeseung.
With you exchanging awkward greetings with Heeseung, it was obvious you weren’t the only one feeling nervous. His stiff smile and the way he shifted in his seat mirrored your own unease, but at least the tension was mutual.
Meanwhile, Jaehyun remained outside the café, positioned just far enough to avoid suspicion but close enough to keep an eye on the two of you. From his view, things seemed to be going well—or at least not terribly wrong.
Setting down the hot chocolate cup he had brought with him, it was time. Now came the moment Jaehyun had been waiting for. This was where his real work began—the part that set his matchmaking business apart from the rest.
Looking around to make sure the coast was clear, Jaehyun swiftly turned himself invisible, the faint shimmer of his form disappearing as he reached into his bag. Humming softly, his fingers brushed against each arrow, carefully inspecting for any marks or scratches. He settled for one of the newer arrows—the ones Woonhak brought in weeks ago. 
As his selected arrow radiated a faint glow of enchantment, Jaehyun was satisfied with his choice. He drew in a steady breath, positioning himself not too far from you two. Raising the bow, he aligned it to his target, Heeseung, who was sitting across from you. 
Adjusting his stance, Jaehyun closed one eye, lining up the perfect shot. The goal was simple—strike Heeseung’s heart and make him lovestruck. It was Cupid’s mission, after all.
With his grip steady, Jaehyun murmured a small incantation under his breath, the magic swirling gently around the arrow. This was the moment where everything would change—Heeseung would feel unexpectedly bubbly inside as his romantic feelings intensified. 
All he had to do was shoot. 
Just as Jaehyun was about to release the bowstring, a sudden, chaotic noise erupted behind him—a crash of metal and hurried footsteps disturbed him. Jaehyun flinched, his head immediately snapping toward the source of the sounds. In that split second, his grip faltered, the arrow slipping from his grasp. 
Before he could even react, the faint hum of magic pulsed through, a streak of shimmering pink light quickly disappearing into thin air. 
“You’ve got to be kidding me,” he muttered under his breath, a stream of barely audible curses following as he frantically looked around his surroundings for the arrow and the disturbance. Oddly enough, whatever—or whoever—caused the noise was nowhere within his sight, leaving him in silence. 
But there was no time for him to investigate. He had to shift his focus back to you and Heeseung, ignoring the strange feeling in his chest—possibly from the scare and the sudden aftermath of his mistake. 
That’s when the feeling seemed to hit him. 
Jaehyun’s eyes naturally gravitated to you, and suddenly, everything around him seemed to blur. His vision tunneled, examining the way there was suddenly almost a shimmering light that radiated from you. It seemed to grow brighter every time he noticed something about you—every second seemed precious to him. 
He tried blinking, but it only got worse, his eyes unable to peel away from you. 
It was odd. 
Did he... miss you that much? That it was only starting to really hit him now? 
But right now? He had to get over you. At this time, he couldn’t afford to get distracted—the mission was most important, after all. 
Clenching his jaw, Jaehyun forced himself to look away, reaching for another arrow to correct his mistake.
But the moment his gaze dropped, his breath hitched.
There, in the center of his shirt, was the pink stain—not on the ground, not on an arrow, but on him.
Panic bloomed in his chest, his pulse quickening by the second. The bow fell to the floor as his hands grasped at the fabric, pulling it to examine the stain more closely. The sparkly glow was enough to tell him everything he needed to know. 
“No, no, no-" Jaehyun muttered under his breath, frantically rubbing at the fabric. It was completely useless. The stain didn’t smear or lift, but instead, it shrank. 
It sunk deeper into the fibers of his shirt—no, into him. The glow started to dim with every passing second until it was no longer visible, leaving Jaehyun frozen, his fingers still gripping onto the fabric. 
Jaehyun swallowed hard, his eyes flicking back toward you. 
This wasn’t right.
The sound of your voice was faint but warm, making his pulse race even more despite him setting you on a date with Heeseung. 
This wasn’t supposed to happen. 
 The pounding of his heart was deafening, drowning out the noise around him. Jaehyun bolted from where he was, his footsteps quick but unsteady as he pressed a trembling hand against his chest.
What had he done?
RULE #5: Don’t Mess Around with Cupid Powers
Jaehyun couldn’t stop feeling the need to constantly pace around his room. His footsteps echoed softly against the wooden floor as he ran a hand through his hair for what felt like the hundredth time.
Your text message sat open on his phone screen, glowing back at him. It was nothing more than a casual update—how the date went and how Heeseung seemed nice—but it still managed to make him smile.
That was the problem.
Jaehyun’s fingers tightened around the phone as he muttered to himself, his words shaky but firm. “You’re her matchmaker, not her match.”
But no matter how many times he repeated it, the words fell flat. It was a reminder that couldn’t seem to get through in his head. His own logic wasn’t enough to drown out the emotions that had begun creeping in ever since that arrow misfired.
It was wrong. He knew it was wrong—especially now that your date with Heeseung seemed to go well. That should’ve been enough to push Jaehyun back into reality, but instead, it only made the ache in his chest worse.
“You called for me?”
The voice snapped Jaehyun out of his trance, and he practically lunged toward the door the moment he saw Sungho step inside. Relief flooded through him so intensely that he didn’t even think twice before grabbing Sungho by the arms, gripping him like a lifeline.
“Whoa—what’s up with you?” Sungho’s brows shot up, his eyes scanning Jaehyun’s disheveled appearance. His face was flushed, his hair was a mess, and he looked like he’d been running a marathon inside the room. “You look…weird.”
Jaehyun immediately let go, straightening his posture in an attempt to look normal. But his attempt was useless. His jittery hands and the way his eyes darted back and forth only made him look more suspicious.
“Would you mind helping me?” Jaehyun blurted out, his voice almost cracking.
Sungho crossed his arms, clearly unimpressed. “I mean, that’s literally why I’m here,” he replied, walking past Jaehyun and flopping onto the couch without hesitation. “You don’t usually act like this. What’s up with you?”
Jaehyun trailed behind him, struggling to keep himself composed as he hovered nervously by the couch. He hated how out of character this was for him—desperate and completely unfocused. He wanted it to stop, but the way his mind kept racing and his heart refused to calm down made it nearly impossible to pull himself together.
Jaehyun cleared his throat, his fingers nervously fidgeting with the hem of his sleeve. “So, uh... hypothetically speaking—emphasis on hypothetically,” he stressed, his eyes flickering toward Sungho as if silently begging for reassurance. “Is it possible for a Cupid to, you know… seriously mess up with their powers?”
Sungho raised an eyebrow, his expression shifting from mild curiosity to concern. “That depends,” he said slowly. “What kind of mistake are we talking about here?”
“Well…” Jaehyun hesitated, his voice trailing off before he forced himself to continue. “Like, let’s say something happened—not saying it did, but let’s say it could—where a Cupid accidentally misfired an arrow?”
Sungho hummed thoughtfully, leaning back against the couch. “I mean, it’s not unheard of. Look at Leehan, for example. The guy is completely unfortunate—broken arrows, broken couples, you name it. But his mistakes aren’t anything too difficult to fix.” 
‘Right, fixable. Totally,” Jaehyun nodded quickly, though his fingers continued to fidget against the fabric of his sleeves. “Right, right. But what if—again, hypothetically—a Cupid misfires their arrow on someone... that shouldn’t get hit?”
“Wait.” Sungho looked at Jaehyun, his gaze intensifying. “You did not—”
“I did not! Of course, I wouldn’t have!” Jaehyun cut in, his voice an octave higher than it usually was. “I mean, not exactly what you may think it is.” 
Sungho’s eyes widened as he sat himself up. “Jaehyun.” 
“Okay, okay!” Jaehyun caved, throwing his hands up in exasperation. “Maybe I might have accidentally—sort of—shot myself.”
Sungho’s jaw dropped.
 “You what?!”
“I didn’t mean to!” Jaehyun blurted out, panic seeping into his voice. “There was this loud noise, and I got scared, and my hand slipped, and bam! I suddenly see pink liquid on my shirt that just quickly disappeared!”
“Oh, you’ve got to be kidding me." Sungho dragged a hand to his mouth, visibly mortified that Jaehyun—out of all people—would get himself into a situation like this. “Turning your powers against yourself? Really?” 
“Was this why you asked me a bunch of questions about whether you had to take a client? Because it was about Y/N?”
Riwoo’s voice cut through the room, making both Sungho and Jaehyun jump—though it was Jaehyun who practically fled the couch with a yelp. His hand instinctively latched onto Sungho’s arm, eyes wide with panic as he spun around to face the unexpected intruder.
“Since when did you come in?!” Jaehyun demanded, pointing an accusatory finger at Riwoo, who looked thoroughly unimpressed.
Riwoo lifted the stack of files he carried as if the explanation was obvious. “Woonhak sent me,” he said, before casually walking over to Jaehyun’s desk to drop them off.
“Of course, Woonhak did,” Jaehyun muttered under his breath, rubbing his temples. “And you weren’t supposed to say that, Riwoo.”
“Oh,” Riwoo halted in his steps, soon turning to see Sungho with a puzzled look on his face. No matter how many times Sungho tried to think back on everything he remembered, the name wasn’t familiar to him at all. “I thought he knew.”
“What are we talking about—who is Y/N?” Sungho finally asked, almost as if it were excruciating while watching Jaehyun and Riwoo send each other odd but failed telepathy through the usage of their eyes and mumbling. 
“Jaehyun’s ex,” Riwoo quickly blurted out, leaving Jaehyun’s eyes widened in horror, his hand still in the air after shooting it up in an attempt to cover Riwoo’s mouth, but it was too late.
“Are you serious right now?” Jaehyun hissed, slowly dropping his hand in defeat. “I wouldn’t have told you about this if you were going to say it that easily.” 
“He had to know at one point—you can’t hide the fact that you tried to find love from us much longer,” Riwoo shrugged as he leaned against Jaehyun’s desk. “You could at least tell Sungho—he wouldn’t tell anybody... yet.” 
Next to him, Sungho sat in stunned silence, his mouth hanging open in shock. He blinked rapidly, his gaze darting between Riwoo and Jaehyun as if trying to process what he’d just heard.
“Y/N?” Sungho repeated, shaking his head as he pried Jaehyun’s arm off him. “So, you’re telling me, you managed to shoot yourself with your own arrow and ended up hopelessly in love with your ex again? That’s... really something else. Even for you.”
Jaehyun groaned, slumping back against the couch as he covered his face with both hands. “Don’t need to keep pushing it.”
Riwoo and Sungho exchanged a look, both struggling to suppress the fear but also the amusement threatening to creep onto their faces. It really was funny—at least to an extent.
After all, how could a Cupid be this careless? And not just careless—reckless. Jaehyun had managed to turn what should’ve been a simple matchmaking session into a full-blown catastrophe.
But what made it worse—what made it really ridiculous—was the fact that his eyes had landed on someone who was never supposed to be anything more than a client. Someone who had only walked through his doors looking for love and not to accidentally become the reason Cupid himself got caught up in this mess. 
“So, what did you feel when you saw her?” Sungho asked, making sure to check on his friend’s wellbeing. He had never been in this kind of situation before, so it wasn’t something he could instantly jump in and fix things like he usually would have. 
“It felt weird—it still does!” Jaehyun threw his hands up in the air. He paused, soon placing his hand on his chest as if he could physically do something to calm the irregular pounding of his heart. “Anything or everything that has to do with Y/N, it feels like—like I can’t think straight at all! It’s all about her!” 
“Were Cupid’s powers always this strong?” Riwoo questioned, eyebrows furrowed as he plopped onto the couch across from them. 
“I mean...” Sungho hesitated, leaning back as if running through possibilities in his head. “It could be different for humans—but he’s Cupid, after all. Who’s to say it wouldn’t affect him even worse than a human? What if it’s like... amplified?”
Jaehyun’s eyes widened, his panic rising again. “Amplified? Are you serious? So what—this could get even worse?”
“Well,” Riwoo started cautiously, “you did hit yourself with the arrow, so who knows what could possibly happen? Or how deep the arrow went? Nothing like this has happened before... or at least, not that we know of.” 
‘What am I supposed to do?” Jaehyun groaned, his thoughts completely all over the place. “She’s not just anyone; she’s my client! And I already set her up with someone else—who she seems to actually like, by the way! But I’m just here, losing my mind over something I really can’t control!” 
Sungho winced. “Well…”
“Please tell me this is fixable.” Jaehyun’s voice was muffled with his hands covering his face due to embarrassment. “There has to be something, or like, a time limit to these powers.” 
“That’s just something we have to figure out,” Riwoo said, trying to reassure him to the best of his abilities. “There has to be a way.”
Jaehyun really hoped Riwoo was right—he clung onto that hope. 
His phone had faintly buzzed with another notification, pulling his attention away. Unable to resist looking at it, he glanced to see another text from you lighting up the screen. A small smile tugged at the corners of his lips, but reality was able to hit him quickly, considering his surroundings. His expression fell flat, which soon followed up with him clearing his throat. 
Jaehyun shut off his phone and threw it onto the table, as if putting some distance between himself and his phone could help keep himself normal. Slumping back into the couch, his shoulders sank as if the situation was starting to weigh heavily on his shoulders. 
This timing couldn’t have been any worse. His powers should’ve been reserved for only those he was assigned with to help them find love, not for him to accidentally turn himself into some lovesick person. 
“This better not be permanent,” Jaehyun muttered, staring into the ceiling while dealing with the thought of how terrifying that could be if his powers were to stick around. 
“For your sake, hopefully not.” Sungho said. “Because if it is... you might just be stuck with trying to make your client yours.” 
RULE #6: Don’t Run Away from Your Mistakes; Fix It.
“I’m not seriously going to be facing her, right?” Jaehyun blurted out, his voice laced with sheer panic as he threw his hands up in surrender. After the long, exhausting talk he’d just had with Riwoo and Sungho a while ago, this was the last thing he expected to hear. Guide you? Through this whole process? While he’s acting like this?
He can tell Sungho wasn’t pleased either, given the resigned expression he wore while telling him the news. But, with Sungho only able to give him a stiff nod, it hit Jaehyun like a brick wall—it was painfully obvious that they’d run into a dead end. 
Jaehyun’s shoulders slumped. “Can’t you just... take over for me?” His tone shifted into desperation as he tried to wriggle out of the mess he’d created. The last thing he wanted was to make a complete fool of himself in front of you. Though he couldn’t quite figure out if it was because he feared he wanted to impress you—or if it was just the crippling fear of acting weird in front of an ex.
“For someone who basically memorized every word of Cupid’s Handbooks,” Sungho said, rubbing the back of his neck as if he were already exhausted by Jaehyun’s antics, “I really thought you’d know better.”
Jaehyun froze, dread washing over him. He didn’t even need to ask to know where this was heading.
“What’s Rule #10?” Sungho pressed, narrowing his eyes.
Jaehyun let out a defeated sigh, his shoulders sinking further as he muttered under his breath, “Once a client... always your client.”
The words were as clear as day, but Jaehyun couldn’t help but feel like remembering that was bittersome. With how many hours he spent cooped up in his room remembering each page, he’d probably have ended up questioning his qualifications if he hadn’t.
But at this moment? He wished he didn’t know it. He wished the rule didn’t exist at all. 
“This isn’t fair,” Jaehyun groaned as he started pacing back and forth. He pressed his hands against the sides of his face as if doing so could somehow shut out the situation looming over him.
“You wouldn’t even be in this mess if you hadn’t been so fixated on Y/N,” Sungho sighed once again, although he seemed clearly unbothered by Jaehyun’s rising panic despite his behavior moments ago. 
Jaehyun spun around, glaring. “I was not fixated on her!” His voice came out sharper than he intended, defensive in a way that only made Sungho raise his brows. “I was actually committed to my mission, y’know—doing my job.”
“Right.” Sungho crossed his arms, leaning back as he fixed Jaehyun with an unimpressed look. “Then maybe you could’ve aimed the arrow at her instead of him.”
Jaehyun froze mid-step, caught off guard by the observation. The words lingered in the air as if waiting to pounce, and Jaehyun hated how they made his stomach churn.
Sungho didn’t miss the hesitation. “But you didn’t. Instead, you aimed to make him love-sick over her—not the other way around.”
Jaehyun’s eyes narrowed, his pacing halting completely as he faced Sungho. “What exactly are you trying to imply?”
“Oh, I think you already know,” Sungho said, his voice pointed as his gaze locked onto Jaehyun’s.
“Well, if anything—” Jaehyun snapped, his voice tight as he shoved his hands into his pockets. “I don’t have any intentions like that! It’s over between us, and that should be pretty clear to you, given that I paired her up with someone else.”
“Sure, sure—it’s over,” Sungho says, not wanting to cause Jaehyun to be in another frenzy. He could feel his lip twitching, almost as if he wanted to smirk, but he chose to fight against it. There was no need to rile Jaehyun up, especially given the unfortunate circumstances. 
Sungho’s phone buzzed, and as he glanced down at the screen, his expression shifted. He pressed his lips into a thin line—a small but telling gesture that Jaehyun immediately picked up on. It was almost instinctual, his senses sharpening at the sight of Sungho’s hesitation.
“What is it?” Jaehyun demanded, his voice edged with suspicion.
Sungho hesitated, clearly weighing his words before finally speaking. “I know you really don’t want to do this,” he started cautiously, watching Jaehyun’s expression like it might shatter at any moment. "But... your next session with Y/N? It’s today.”
Jaehyun’s eyes widened in disbelief, and Sungho quickly added, “Or, well—actually, it’s not just today. It’s right now.”
“Right now?!” Jaehyun practically choked, taking a step back as if the words physically hit him. “You can’t be serious! No one said anything about it being this soon!”
Sungho grimaced, his grip tightening around his phone. “I just found out too, okay? Woonhak’s the one who sent the notice. He said something about needing to keep everything on schedule.”
“Schedule?” Jaehyun repeated, his voice rising. “I didn’t even agree to this schedule!”
Sungho crossed his arms, clearly unimpressed with Jaehyun’s outburst. “Well, suck it up, because she could walk in at any moment.” He gave Jaehyun a pointed look, then added, “But don’t worry—I’ll be here to make sure you don’t say anything weird.”
Jaehyun shot him a sharp glare. “Oh, that’s reassuring,” he muttered sarcastically, finally deciding to sit on the couch as his nerves threatened to continue to overwhelm him. “You’re acting like I’m incapable of handling this.”
“You’re barely capable of handling this,” Sungho shot back without missing a beat. “I mean, look at you right now! You’re one bad thought away from a meltdown, and we both know it.”
Just as Jaehyun was about to say anything to defend himself, the sound of knocking echoed through the room. Both he and Sungho immediately froze, their eyes snapping toward the door. 
Compared to Sungho, Jaehyun could’ve sworn he felt like he stopped breathing. Sungho was able to recover a little quicker, while Jaehyun seemed to be stuck in a trance. 
“I guess it’s time,” Sungho whispered as if you could potentially hear him from the opposite side, turning to give Jaehyun the look. 
Jaehyun’s eyes wavered. "Wait—what do I even say? What if... what if I mess up?” He whispered, and even with his voice being low, it was hard to ignore that he was frantic. 
“And didn’t you just say you’re perfectly capable of handling this?” 
"Well, that was before this happened!” Jaehyun whisper-yelled, his eyes looking back at the door after hearing the knocking again—this time, slightly louder than it was before. 
“Either way, you’re going to have to face her,” Sungho said, already moving toward the door. He reached for the doorknob, but before turning it, he glazed back at Jaehyun. “Like I said, I’ll handle it if things go wrong—just focus on being able to not do anything out of the ordinary.” 
Jaehyun groaned, running his hands through his hair as Sungho finally opened the door. The second he saw you standing there, greeting Sungho due to his sudden appearance, Jaehyun felt like the air had been knocked out of his lungs.
Quickly, he looked away, his gaze dropping to his hands as he fiddled nervously with his fingers, desperate to stop his thoughts from spiraling. 
This was going to be so much harder than he thought.
“Hi, Cupid MJ,” you greeted him with a bright expression as you stepped inside after Sungho had welcomed you in.
Jaehyun’s eyes flickered up at the sound of your voice, and despite every part of him screaming to stay composed, his lips almost instinctively curled into a smile. His eyes softened, crinkling at the corners in a way that felt far too natural—far too much.
“Hi, Y/N,” he replied, but the moment the words left his mouth, he froze. It sounded weird. Even to him, it sounded far too warm—too full of affection. 
His eyes widened slightly as he quickly brought a hand up to cover his mouth, as if that could somehow take back the tone he’d just used. His gaze darted nervously to Sungho, who was already staring at him with a raised eyebrow and the most frustratingly knowing look.
Jaehyun felt heat rush to his face as he let out a small, awkward cough, desperately trying to mask the slip-up. “Uh—take a seat,” he said, attempting to make his voice sound more neutral. 
“The date went well,” you said, your tone light as you took a seat. It was clear you were more than ready to lead the conversation—especially given Jaehyun’s stunned silence.
For a moment, he just blinked at you, his thoughts spiraling as he struggled to string together a proper response. It almost felt like the roles had reversed—him as the nervous client, fumbling and hopeless, while you sat there like the Cupid, who had quite literally struck him right in the heart.
“That’s… great,” Jaehyun finally managed to say, though his voice came out quieter than he’d hoped. He cleared his throat, trying to regain even a fraction of composure. “I mean, of course, it went well. I—I knew it would.”
You nodded, completely unaware that you were the one that was making him feel like his heart was about to burst out of his chest. 
"What happens now?" you asked, leaning in slightly as if searching for some kind of reassurance.
"Well," he began, clearing his throat. "You can continue spending more time with him since I received a positive response from him too." He paused briefly, gauging your expression before continuing. "Or, if you'd prefer, you can explore other matches—it’s entirely your pick."
You nodded slowly, your fingers absentmindedly brushing against the edge of the table. "I think I could do another day with him," you finally said, though there was an almost hesitant tone in your voice.
Jaehyun's stomach flipped. Was that hesitation good or bad?
"I mean," you added quickly, as if trying to fill the silence, "I’m not really sure about exploring other options just yet. What do you think?"
Jaehyun looked up at you, momentarily frozen as if the world around him had slowed down. He’d tried so hard to avoid this—to keep his emotions in check and his focus sharp—but the second his eyes locked with yours, all of that effort unraveled.
The soft pink hue that had surrounded you the first time he saw you seemed to return, blooming and spreading until it drowned out everything else. It wasn’t just a glow—it was a pull, one he felt himself leaning into despite knowing better.
"What do I think?” he finally managed, his voice quieter than usual, like he was afraid of saying the wrong thing.
“Yeah.” You tilted your head, waiting for his response, completely unaware of the turmoil raging inside him.
“I think...” he trails off, his heartbeat seemingly muffling the sound of his own voice to him. “I think I like–”
“What he means,” Sungho interrupted, sliding onto the seat next to Jaehyun as if to physically block him from saying anything reckless, “is that he thinks it’d be great for you to keep going out with Heeseung.”
Jaehyun flinched at the sudden pinch Sungho gave him, jolting him back to reality. He turned to glare at his friend, but Sungho’s pointed stare told him to pull it together.
You blinked, slightly taken aback by the abrupt response from Sungho rather than Jaehyun, but nodded anyway. “Oh…okay.”
“Right!” Jaehyun blurted out, sitting up straighter and forcing a strained smile. “I mean, Heeseung seems like a good match, and you said the first date went well, so another one makes sense, right?”
Your eyebrows slightly furrowed, confused by the sudden energy radiating from him. Even when you hesitated for a second, as if something about his words didn’t quite convince you, you decided to nod again. “I guess I could give it another try.”
Jaehyun forced a smile, an odd tightness in his chest that didn’t seem to disappear quickly. He should’ve felt relieved that he hadn’t slipped up—that he’d managed to steer you back toward Heeseung—but instead, he felt like he’d lost something.
“Great,” Sungho clapped his hands together, almost serving as a reminder to Jaehyun to focus. “We will be able to set you on another date soon, so please wait for our messages!” he said oddly cheerfully, though Jaehyun could tell it was mostly to smooth things over.
“Right,” Jaehyun added, his voice barely above a whisper.He bit his lip, forcing himself to look away from you after nearly confessing again. His heart wavered, almost betraying him, as he saw you turn your attention to Sungho, laughing at something he’d said.
You were smiling…because of Sungho.
“I’ll take care of the details,” Jaehyun suddenly interjected, clearing his throat loudly enough to grab both your and Sungho’s attention.
You blinked, surprised, but offered a small smile. “Oh, okay. I’ll leave it to you, then,” you replied, completely oblivious to the effect you were having on him. Just because of that small action of yours, his heart was practically close to actually bursting. 
Jaehyun gave a stiff nod, watching you turn to leave. The moment you stepped out, he found his gaze trailing after you, unable to pull his eyes away until the door finally clicked shut behind you.
“Geez, now you’re at the jealous stage of the love effect?” Sungho’s voice sliced through the lingering silence, pulling Jaehyun back to reality. He looked over to find his friend watching him with a knowing smirk, one brow raised. “That was pretty fast-paced."
“It’s not like I was trying to!” Jaehyun quickly snapped, his voice suddenly getting defensive. In frustration, he pointed at the door as he tried to find his words. “It’s because of—”
Before he could finish, the door abruptly swung open, revealing Woonhak, who stood there with a curious yet sunny expression. “How’d it go?” he asked, his gaze bouncing between Jaehyun and Sungho as if he’d walked in on something interesting.
Jaehyun groaned, throwing his hands up in exasperation before pointing aggressively at Woonhak, almost as if he were waiting for this moment. “It’s because of you!”
Woonhak blinked, confused. “Wait, what? Me?”
“Yes, you!” Jaehyun said, standing up from his chair and pointing with even more emphasis. “If it weren’t for—”
“Is this...my cue to go?” Woonhak interrupted, his confusion shifting into playful unease as he glanced between the two of them, already half-stepping back toward the hallway.
 Jaehyun let out a long, frustrated sigh, his eyes squeezing shut as he pinched the bridge of his nose. “No, it’s not your cue to go, because if you hadn’t accepted that application, I could’ve still been as capable and composed as I was before!”
The room fell into a heavy silence as nobody chose to speak up after that. Woonhak froze, glancing at Sungho with wide, pleading eyes, silently begging for backup. Sungho, on the other hand, looked like he had no clue what to do either to step in.
Before Sungho could even attempt to think of something to diffuse the situation, Jaehyun was already striding his way toward Woonhak. 
“Uh, Sungho?” Woonhak stammered, panic creeping into his voice as he instinctively began stepping back. Jaehyun’s footsteps grew faster, his expression dead set on making his point—whatever that point might be.
“Sungho!” Woonhak yelped, his voice rising as Jaehyun closed the distance between them, taking even more huge steps back. 
Realizing he was on his own, Woonhak made a split-second decision. “Help me!” he screamed, spinning on his heel and bolting toward the door.
“Get back here, Woonhak!”
Their footsteps echoed down the hallway, Woonhak’s panicked screams fading into the distance as Jaehyun’s determined shouts followed close behind.
Sungho quickly snapped out of his amused daze, only to burst into laughter at the absurdity of the situation. However, his grin vanished just as quickly as it appeared when a sudden realization hit him.
“Oh, crap. There could be other clients waiting!” he muttered, scrambling to his feet in a panic.
Without missing a beat, he darted toward the exit, slamming the door as he followed the trail of yelling that was growing fainter by the second.
“Jaehyun!” Sungho called out, his voice echoing through the hallway as he tried to catch up. “Leave Woonhak alone and get back here—this is just your fate!”
The sound of Woonhak’s panicked screams and Jaehyun’s relentless pursuit only made Sungho pick up his pace, muttering to himself between breaths. “Oh my, just accept your fate already!”
And no matter how much Jaehyun pleaded—to the Cupid Gods (if they even existed) or to the universe itself—for some miraculous way out of this fate, his prayers were met with nothing but silence. The crushing weight of disappointment settled on him, a constant reminder of just how trapped he was in this situation.
Now, only a few weeks later, here he was, hiding behind a newspaper in his hand, his breath held as he watched you sitting on a bench, waiting for your second date with Heeseung.
“Why am I even here?” Jaehyun mumbled to himself, his eyes still glued onto you from a safe distance. His tone was low, almost as if he were speaking to no one at all, but a hum of agreement quickly followed.
“I don’t know,” came the unenthusiastic reply from the person in front of him—Leehan, of all people. The sound of a crinkling newspaper accompanied his words, his fingers absently folding and unfolding the corner of the page.
“Matter of fact, why are you here?” Jaehyun whispered harshly, glaring at Leehan, who seemed entirely too relaxed for someone on the lookout, with his random sunglasses and his newspaper upside down. If anything, it would be obvious that Leehan could be up to something. 
Leehan leisurely lowered the newspaper he’d been pretending to read and set it down on the table in front of him, a small smirk playing at his lips. “Because Sungho and the others are busy with their own Cupid duties,” he began, crossing his arms over his chest as if he were getting ready for a sudden fit of frustration. “And Woonhak? Well, we all know you’d rip his head off if he even tried accompanying you. So, I have no choice but to be here with you.”
Jaehyun chose not to respond, letting out a heavy sigh as he rubbed his temples. Oddly enough, he has been able to keep his emotions in check since Leehan and the others have been around lately. They knew how far Jaehyun’s sudden love urges could progress, so they all took turns to be able to supervise both him and you. So, Jaehyun can’t even complain, as he would most likely be a nervous wreck around you.
But, if anything, he wasn’t the only nervous one. You were too, however, for entirely different reasons. Sitting just outside an amusement park—the chosen date spot for you and Heeseung—you fidgeted with your phone. The vibrant atmosphere around you was a stark contrast to the storm of emotions brewing inside. Laughter and excited chatter filled the air as families and couples hurried past you, their faces lit up with anticipation.
Could that be you and Heeseung? 
You couldn’t help but wonder if you’d have as much fun as everyone else seemed to be having. Would this date live up to your expectations? Or were you setting yourself up for disappointment?
Your gaze shifted from the bustling crowd back to your phone screen. No new messages. You checked the time again, your thumb hovering over the screen as if doing so would make a notification pop up.
This isn’t the first time you’ll be meeting Heeseung, but the idea of meeting him in person instead of texting was weird. You tried to calm down, forcing yourself to breathe deeply to steady the feeling of nerves coursing through you. This was supposed to be a fun hangout, and there was no point in thinking of useless questions. Yet, your feelings only continued to gnaw away at you, as with every passing minute, your uneasiness only heightened. 
You hated the thought of coming off as pushy, especially for something as delicate as a romantic date, but eventually, you found yourself sending follow-up texts.
The act itself felt humiliating, like you were clinging to something that might already be slipping through your fingers. Still, you had no choice. The silence on the other end was deafening.
But even after your attempts, there was nothing. No text. No call. 
Were you getting stood up? That thought finally hit you, and your heart couldn’t help but sink with an overwhelming heaviness. 
You swallowed back the lump forming in your throat, forcing yourself to sit straighter despite the weight in your chest. As much as you hated to admit it, the idea of Heeseung standing you up felt more and more like a reality with each passing second. 
Maybe love wasn’t meant for you at all. 
The world around you seemed to blur as your gaze dropped to your phone. For a moment, you stared at the empty message screen, your fingers trembling over the keyboard. It took everything in you to gather the courage to type out a text, but not to Heeseung this time.
Instead, you messaged Jaehyun.
"This date's a failure," you typed, hesitating before pressing send. 
You could only imagine how Jaehyun might feel reading such a message, especially considering the heaviness in your own chest. But should it really matter? He was a revolutionary matchmaker, after all, wasn’t he? There shouldn’t be anything that he couldn’t do, right? And yet, a strange pang of guilt crept into your thoughts. Why were you so concerned about how Jaehyun would react?
Even though you couldn’t fully understand your own emotions, one thing was clear—you still cared about him. Maybe a little too much. So, for just a split second, it didn’t seem unreasonable to think about his feelings over yours.
But with Jaehyun, your feelings were always his top priority. Well, they should be. 
The moment your message reached him, he immediately reacted, his lips pressing into a deep frown as he reread your words. Sitting beside him, Leehan noticed his sudden shift in mood and leaned closer; his curiosity piqued.
“What’s wrong?” Leehan asked, trying to peer over at Jaehyun’s screen. His own expression shifted as he caught a glimpse of the text, his eyes widening and his frown mirroring Jaehyun’s.
Jaehyun didn’t answer right away, his thoughts racing as he stared at your words. His chest tightened, a mixture of frustration and concern bubbling within him. You were upset—the thought of you feeling this way gnawed at him.
“I’ll handle it,” Jaehyun finally muttered, standing abruptly.
Leehan blinked up at him, startled. “Wait, what are you—”
But Jaehyun was already moving, his determination written all over his face. For the better or worse, he wasn’t going to let this ruin your day. 
“Y/N,” he called out as he jogged toward you, his voice cutting through the lively background noise from the amusement park. The sudden sound startled you, making you glance up from the message you’d been staring at. Seeing him right there—mere seconds after your text—felt both unnerving and oddly comforting.
It felt weird that someone—your ex, or better yet, simply just Cupid MJ—immediately came to your message. But you also felt a sense of gratitude, knowing that there was someone who would answer your message right away. 
At least someone cared enough to show up for you. 
“Jaehyun?” you managed to say, though your voice was shaky, caught between disbelief and relief. You quickly stuffed your phone in your pocket, trying to compose yourself. “How’d you get here so fast?”
He came to a stop in front of you, still catching his breath but managing to keep his gaze steady on you. “I was already here,” he admitted, a slight edge of hesitance in his voice. “I was waiting for you and Heeseung to meet... so I could leave.” He shifted his weight awkwardly. “But then I got your text message.”
“Oh,” you murmured, your voice barely above a whisper. “Makes sense.” The words felt bitter as they left your lips, as though admitting them aloud made everything sting a little more.
Your fingers found the zipper of your jacket, and you began to fiddle with it, keeping your eyes trained on the ground. Meeting Jaehyun’s gaze felt impossible at that moment. The last thing you wanted was for him, of all people, to witness you in this state.
This was definitely humiliating, and nothing could convince you otherwise. 
Jaehyun could see and feel the weight of your emotions, a pang of guilt washing over him. Deep down, he wondered if this was somehow his fault for pairing you with someone who let you down. Maybe Cupid’s systems weren’t as reliable as he once believed. 
“You don’t have to feel embarrassed about this.”
His voice was soft, almost compelling you to look up at him, but you resisted, shaking your head and letting out a dry laugh. “That’s easy for you to say.”
Jaehyun caught on to how your body hunched over, shoulders curling inward like you were trying to hide from him—or maybe from yourself. Your legs kicked back and forth in a restless rhythm, a nervous energy that you didn’t seem to notice.
He caught the way you bit your lip, a small inhale slipping through before you stopped yourself from speaking. It was like you were fighting against the words you wanted to say, the weight of everything you felt pressing down on you but refusing to come out.
“Y/N,” he sighed, feeling his own heartache seeing you try to hide your vulnerability. Without hesitation, he stepped closer, crouching down in front of you. His head tilted slightly to be within your eye view, his expression open and earnest.
You stopped your foot movements and perked your head up just a little, catching a glimpse of the sincere smile on his face. His posture was relaxed, his arms wrapped casually around his knees, but his eyes truly told a different story from his demeanor. 
“Seriously, this is just his fault. If Heeseung couldn’t see what he had right in front of him, that’s his loss. It’s never been yours.”
His words caught you off guard, pulling your attention to him fully.
You looked directly at him, taking a longer sight of Jaehyun crouched in front of you. His eyebrows were slightly raised, his gaze steady and warm as he waited for your response.  For a moment, the noise of the amusement park around you faded, leaving only the sincerity in his voice and the sweet expression on his face. 
That same smile of his lingered on his lips—a smile you hadn’t seen this close in so long.
And yet, somehow, it felt so familiar, like slipping you back into a memory you hadn’t realized you still hadn’t forgotten.
Without meaning to, you found yourself smiling back, the corners of your lips curving upward as if in reflex. It had been a while since someone made you feel this way—seen, heard, comforted without judgment. And it had been even longer since you’d seen Jaehyun look at you like this, with that quiet reassurance that seemed to say everything would be okay, even if you didn’t believe it yourself.
“You’re still good at this, you know,” you murmured, your voice soft as you broke the silence. Your head dipped slightly, your attention getting fixated on your knees once more. 
“Good at what?” he asked, tilting his head slightly again, his smile widening just a bit.
“Making people feel better,” you replied. You shifted your body upwards, now sitting properly after recollecting your thoughts, even if it were just for a little bit. “Even when they don’t think they can.”
“I do what I can,” Jaehyun’s smile faltered slightly, a crack in his otherwise composed exterior. Inside, his emotions churned slowly but steadily, threatening to unravel him. This moment felt too close—something he hadn’t noticed until now it was finally being pried open. It was almost as if pieces of him were slowly getting chipped away, each piece falling until only fragments remained. 
Fragments he wasn’t sure he’d ever be able to glue back together.
Maybe it was the potion amplifying his emotions, or maybe it was the weight of his own unresolved feelings, but a part of him wanted to do something—a push towards the thought he’s been trying to bury away. Even if some pieces were lost, maybe this was his chance to start over. 
To rebuild. 
“Speaking of which,” he said suddenly, breaking the moment before his thoughts could consume him any further, “let’s not waste the day.”
You blinked, staring at his outstretched hand toward you. “What?”
“I’m not letting you sit here feeling like this,” Jaehyun insisted, soon standing up from his crouching position, hand still extended out. “We’re at an amusement park. Let’s go have fun.”
You hesitated. It almost felt like this was wrong, and it went out of your boundaries. This was supposed to be a date with Heeseung, but now Jaehyun is here, standing in front of you, offering to practically fill his spot. So, what made this? 
It can’t be considered a date—maybe a hangout. But, still, a hangout with your ex? 
Your matchmaker? 
The more you tried to sort through the mess of emotions inside you, the harder it became to ignore the almost pleading look on Jaehyun’s face. His fingers wriggled slightly as he held his hand out awkwardly, his other fist tightly gripping the fabric of his pants. He looked nervous, almost unsure of himself, and the sight tugged at something in your chest. 
His reaction made it harder to turn him now. 
At the end of the day, don’t you deserve something, too? 
Slowly, tentatively, you reached out and took his hand. The warmth of his palm instantly engulfed yours, and you felt the faintest tremble in his fingers. Jaehyun’s hand twitched at the sudden contact, and for a moment, it seemed like he might completely malfunction. But instead, his grip tightened—not enough to hurt, but enough to remind you he was there, simply for you. 
“I promise this will be worth your time,” his voice shifted from awkwardness to a quiet sense of confidence, flashing another smile of his. 
Before you could respond, Jaehyun turned, still holding your hand as he began leading you toward the amusement park. His grip didn’t falter, firm yet gentle, as though he feared you might slip away at any moment.
This wasn’t how you expected your day to unfold. Yet here you were, side by side with Jaehyun, the buzz of the park surrounding you as colorful lights and cheerful chatter filled the air. You scanned your surroundings, taking in the endless rows of games, rides, and shops until something caught your eye.
Jaehyun had been busy glancing around, seemingly trying to pick out the perfect first stop, when he felt a soft tap on his arm. Turning toward you, he was met with the sight of your eager expression as you pointed toward one of the brightly decorated shops.
“We should go there first,” you said, tugging lightly at his shirt sleeves. “I’ve always wanted to buy one of those headband accessories.”
Jaehyun followed your gaze to the shop, where a variety of playful headbands adorned with animal ears and other silly headpieces were displayed. He chuckled softly, his usual calm demeanor melting into something more playful as he turned his head back to you. 
Oddly enough, he felt at ease when he was around you this time. 
“Really? That’s what you want to do first?” he teased, though the warmth in his tone betrayed how amused he was by your enthusiasm.
“Yes, really,” you said, rolling your eyes but unable to hide your smile. You were starting to warm up, abandoning the facade you had just a few moments prior. “Come on, it’ll be fun!”
Jaehyun shook his head, a small laugh escaping him as he allowed you to tug him toward the shop. “Alright, alright. Let’s go see which one suits you best,” he said, a glimmer of excitement in his eyes as the two of you stepped inside.
Once inside the shop, you immediately gravitated toward the section of animal headbands. The shelves brimmed with accessories of every kind, and your eyes widened as they trailed over each design. Jaehyun followed behind, initially glancing at the shelves, but his gaze kept drifting back to you. His eyes lingered on your focused expression, the way your lips slightly puckered as you hummed softly while contemplating your choices.
It was almost too endearing to watch, and Jaehyun had to suppress a laugh that threatened to escape. He knew if he let it slip, the potion's effects would surge, making it harder to keep himself in check.
As he tried to hold himself back, you picked up a headband and examined it closely, turning it over in your hands before moving on to another. Finally, you settled on a brown headband with floppy, oversized dog ears. With a satisfied grin, you turned to face Jaehyun.
The suddenness of your movement startled him slightly, his eyes darting from your face to the headband in your hands. You motioned with one hand for him to lower himself, confusing him for a moment. When you repeated the gesture, Jaehyun hesitantly leaned down, still unsure what you were planning.
Without a word, you placed the headband on his head, carefully adjusting it. Your fingers brushed through his hair, lingering briefly on the strands near his forehead as you fixed the headband into place.
Jaehyun could feel his ears getting hot, momentarily freezing up while his thoughts were in a swirl—a similar feeling from the first time he had the potion take its effects. 
He had to keep himself in check. 
“This is for me?” Jaehyun asked, straightening up once you finished. He rubbed the back of his neck, brushing his fingers against his burning ear in an attempt to compose himself. It didn’t look like you noticed as your attention was brought back to the headbands on display, only humming in response. 
“It looks good on you,” you responded, smiling, though your smile faltered for a moment as you instinctively retreated into your thoughts. Once again, you instinctively thought of Jaehyun first, an old habit of yours that never seemed to die when you were around him. 
Before your thoughts could drift any further, they were abruptly interrupted as you felt something soft being placed on your head. You turned quickly, catching Jaehyun’s startled expression as he tried to keep the headband he just placed on you. 
His eyes widened slightly, a chuckle escaping his lips as his hands instinctively reached out—one resting lightly on your shoulder to keep you still, the other adjusting the headband that had shifted due to your movement.
Once satisfied, he stepped back and pointed toward the mirror in front of you both. “Now we’re matching,” Jaehyun declared with a hint of pride, though his confident smile faltered into something more bashful as he caught sight of your reflection.
You glanced at the mirror, noticing how the two of you wore similar designs—yours a white version of the floppy-eared headband, while his was brown. 
It looked like a couple’s item. 
Regardless of that, the sight of you two standing side by side brought a small laugh out of you, and you found yourself smiling despite the earlier heaviness in your chest.
“You look good in it too,” Jaehyun said, his eyes meeting yours in the mirror. 
“I’ll admit, it’s kind of cute,” you said, tugging at the floppy ears. “Should we get these?” 
Jaehyun’s grin widened, and he nodded enthusiastically. Without another word, the two of you made your way to the checkout counter, the cashier giving a knowing smile as you both purchased your matching accessories.
With the headbands secured, it wasn’t long before you and Jaehyun were going through the amusement park, hopping from one ride to the next. From bumper cars that had you both laughing uncontrollably as you tried to hit each other to classic carnival games where Jaehyun insisted on winning you a plush toy—though he missed more than a few throws, making him utterly embarrassed. 
After he was able to win a mid-sized plush that he swore resembled you, you pointed at the rollercoaster ride you two somehow always managed to walk past. Jaehyun’s feet stood in place, not moving from what he stood on. 
You turned to look at him, whose fear and nervousness were clearly evident on his face—trying to hide it would be useless. 
Oddly enough, that expression was cute to you. 
“Are you scared?” 
“Me? Scared—” Jaehyun’s words get cut off after he turns silent while staring at the drop of the coaster, hearing the screams from the people—sending a sudden chill over his body. He gulped quietly, continuing on with his words, “I’m not scared.”
“Then, let’s go in line!” You grabbed onto his arm, getting a better grasp than before, considering how off guard he was by seeing the loops of the roller coaster. 
“Wait!” Jaehyun’s feet tried to remain in place on the ground, his arms flailing slightly during the process. His actions were clearly betraying his words, which you couldn’t help but chuckle. 
“Come on,” you coaxed, finally interlocking arms with Jaehyun to have a more successful chance of dragging him away. 
Jaehyun stumbled forward—not because of the force you put to move him into the line, but from the warmth from your body pressing into his arm
The once squirmy Jaehyun, who wanted nothing more than to teleport away from the situation, was now completely frozen, his gaze fixed ahead, yet his mind was undeniably tethered to you. He simply allowed you to drag him, as his thoughts always seemed to follow whenever you went. 
“Jaehyun?” Your voice finally broke through his daze after calling his name for the third—or maybe the fourth—time. It left you wondering curiously if he is really this scared of roller coasters. There was really no way for you to know beforehand this—you two never went on an amusement park date before. “Are you okay? We can always skip this if—”
“No, no, I’m—” Jaehyun quickly turned to reassure you, even if the expression on his face said otherwise. He truly wasn’t fine—far from it—but when he had a feeling you really wanted to go on this ride, he felt almost obligated to push back his fears. With the way your excitement seemed to glimmer in your eyes the first time, he could handle it, couldn’t he?
Though at this point, if there was anything he should be fearing, it was how dangerously close you two were. 
You two were practically face-to-face, which made Jaehyun feel his breath hitch in his throat. To make matters worse—or maybe better—you were still clinging onto his arm, your touch managing to keep him in place while simultaneously making his heart race out of control.
Jaehyun could see your lips moving, trying to say something, but your words didn’t reach him. It almost felt like you were mumbling when you truly weren’t. His eyes could only try to make sense of the movement of your lips, which was a complete struggle as everything seemed to blur into nothing but silence. 
With that given moment, it felt like everything intensified. It was as if the love arrow potion had decided to unleash its full power, breaking past every defense he’d built to suppress it. The sensation was overwhelming, almost suffocating, as if the arrow had pierced him all over again, but hitting him ten times harder than before. 
And then, without thinking, he muttered a single word.
“Pretty.”
The word slipped out before he could catch it, soft but clear enough that you froze for a moment. Your eyes widened slightly in surprise, and that was enough to snap Jaehyun back to reality.
Panic rushed through him, and he immediately stepped back, pulling himself out of your grasp as he waved his hands frantically.
“Pretty—I mean, I’m pretty fine with us going on this ride!” he blurted out, his voice hurried and tinged with nervous laughter. His ears burned as he tried to salvage the situation, feeling utterly exposed. “After all, we’re only a few people away from entering, right?”
You simply nodded, your cheeks suddenly heating up, even if you didn’t mean to feel flustered in that way after letting him complete the sentence.
But is it really so wrong for you to feel that way? 
The silence felt heavy as you two awkwardly stood side by side, neither daring to exchange glances or words. Jaehyun was able to use that silence to be able to get himself to be composed again. His heartbeat was still going, not racing, and he didn't feel a burning sensation from his ears or face, leaving him calmer—or at least calmer than before. 
As Jaehyun finally arrived at the right state of mind, he now noticed the warmth of your touch had left him. For a fleeting moment, relief should’ve been his first reaction, but instead, it left behind an emptiness he hadn’t anticipated.
It was as if he missed it. 
“Next up in line!” the ride announcer called out, startling you both from your thoughts.
You turned to Jaehyun, catching the faint hesitation in his expression. But to your surprise, he started moving forward, almost as if he wanted to prove something—not just to you but maybe to himself.
And while you tried to keep your thoughts neutral, you couldn’t help but lean toward one explanation over the other. You wanted to believe that he was doing this for you. But that thought alone wasn’t good for you.
And it wasn’t good for you to have your mind wander to that possibility. 
Despite your inner turmoil, you found yourself seated in the middle of the ride. Jaehyun had suggested the spot, reasoning that it felt “safer” knowing there were people alive in front of him. His logic had been so ridiculous that you couldn’t help but laugh. You didn’t argue, though—you liked sitting in the middle anyway.
As the ride attendant double checked the seat restraint for you two, Jaehyun couldn’t help but ramble a bunch of questions that the attendant had no problem reassuring him about—and maybe letting out a chuckle or two. 
“That’s a lot of questions for someone who claims they’re not scared,” you teased, glancing at Jaehyun as he tightened his grip on the metal handles of the restraint.
“I’m not scared,” Jaehyun mumbled, but the stark contrast between his words and his appearance said otherwise. His knuckles were white from clutching the handle so hard, his lips had lost some color, and his eyes were wavering at every slight noise around him. 
“It’s better to be safe than sorry,” Jaehyun managed to say, chuckling nervously, almost as if he’s trying to reassure himself.
“It’s better to be safe than sorry,” Jaehyun managed to say, his voice shaky as he chuckled nervously, clearly trying—and failing—to convince himself more than you.
Even as he muttered words of self-reassurance, it all crumbled the moment the ride operator began counting down. Jaehyun’s face grew paler with every number, and before you knew it, he was whispering what sounded like a series of frantic prayers under his breath.
Seriously, it was almost humiliating for him—the amount of losses he had was overwhelming. His repeated failed attempts to win you a plushie that stumble earlier, and now, his current state as a nervous wreck after agreeing to ride something he clearly hated the idea of. How much more could he possibly embarrass himself?
You couldn’t help but feel even more endeared by this side of him. Watching his clumsy or frightened side of him felt oddly nostalgic. It reminded you of a time long ago, back when you had countless dates with him, watching him flounder when his nerves got the best of him. 
So, you couldn’t help but laugh at Jaehyun, whose eyes were already shut close when the ride finally started to move. 
It’s like you missed that sight of him. 
“Why are we still going up?” Jaehyun managed to say, his voice barely audible over the loud clanking of the roller coaster. His eyes darted open for a split second, only to snap shut again when he caught a glimpse of how high up you both were. From the ground earlier, it didn’t seem this terrifying, but now? 
“It will be fine, Jaehyun,” you said, almost as if you were attempting to cut through the amount of thoughts clouding in his mind. 
As much as Jaehyun wanted to believe your words, the way the ascent was getting higher—agonizingly slow—was making it hard for him to do so. 
“I seriously might pass out,” he muttered, his voice trembling as much as his hands.
“You won’t, Jaehyun.”
“And who are you to say that?” he shot back, his panic laced with disbelief.
“Because I’m here,” you said simply, glancing his way. “And as long as I’m okay, so will you.”
That sentence alone got Jaehyun to finally open his eyes again. Even with his fear gnawing at him, he found himself glancing to his side—where you were already looking at him. You two made eye contact, which led him to quickly forget about the fear pounding in his chest or the sweaty grip he had on the handles. But just as quickly, he broke eye contact, turning his head sharply to the front—only to regret it instantly. 
That was when he realized the cart had reached the top. 
Before he could even react, his stomach dropped along with the cart, and a startled scream was released from his throat, perfectly in sync with the other riders. Jaehyun panicked, his hands flailing desperately after he had accidentally let go of the restraint. His grip faltered as he tried to latch onto the restraint again, only for his fingers to slip against the slick metal after he went through the first loop of the roller coaster. 
And then, without thinking, he managed to hold onto something near him—your hand. Along with him, you also didn’t even notice. You were still screaming in excitement—between the thrill of the drop and the way Jaehyun’s screams were practically blowing out your eardrums, which made things only funnier. 
You were too caught up in the adrenaline to even register the fact his fingers were desperately latching onto yours. What felt like eternity finally stopped when the cart slowly returned back to its original position. The screeching yells also came to a stop, leaving everyone a moment to either catch their breaths or gush about how fun that ride was. 
That was certainly the situation between you two—Jaehyun trying breathing exercises as he felt like he forgot to breathe while you wore a beaming expression on your face. 
“That was…fun,” you started off excitedly, trailing off at the last word as you felt the hold on your hand tighten. Only then did you finally look down, seeing Jaehyun’s fingers still holding onto yours. 
Your eyes shot back up from your hands to his face, in which you only saw his side profile as he was still recovering from the ride.
“That was not... fun,” Jaehyun muttered, mirroring your tone as his own gaze finally dropped to where your hands remained linked. The moment he registered where his hand was placed, his mouth was only slightly gaped. His eyes lifted to meet yours, and for a second, you both wore the same startled expression.
The ride operator interferes before you two could say anything to each other. 
“Arms up, please.” 
His fingers slipped away from yours, leaving behind only a lost sense of warmth—something you didn’t notice until now. Jaehyun’s parted lips pressed shut as he turned to look straight ahead again, letting the ride’s restraint be lifted off of him. 
Neither of you spoke as you stepped off the ride and walked away from the station. It almost felt like déjà vu—just like earlier, when you two had stood in line together in awkward silence.
You decided to break it first. “I’m hungry,” you said, figuring food was a safe enough topic.
Jaehyun turned his head sharply, his previous dazed state replaced with exaggerated disbelief. “You’re seriously hungry after that ride?” he asked, his voice louder than necessary, as if to erase the lingering awkwardness. “I feel nauseated.”
You couldn’t help but laugh at his reaction. If nothing else, at least his dramatics had successfully lightened the mood.
After all, it wasn’t like he had meant to grab your hand—he was just terrified, and that was that. You weren’t particularly fazed by it though. If anything, you found it amusing how flustered he was.
“Alright, how about this?” you proposed, shooting him an easy smile. “We’ll take a break, grab some food, and then you get to pick the last ride.”
Jaehyun’s expression instantly shifted, the excitement returning to his eyes like a light switch had been flipped. He nodded eagerly, humming in approval. 
The two of you took your time wandering around, casually debating what to eat as you passed various food stands. There were plenty of tempting options, but eventually, you both settled on corn dogs, agreeing to share a funnel cake afterward. Decisions like these were effortless with Jaehyun—it was easy to compromise and even easier to enjoy the moment.
It didn’t take long for you to finish eating, to which the roles had reversed—Jaehyun was now dragging your arm around to find something to go on. It was getting dark out, so Jaehyun quickly picked a ride in no time. Jaehyun came to a sudden stop, his face lighting up as he pointed ahead. 
“We—or I—never got to ride one of these before,” he announced, staring in awe at the towering Ferris wheel in front of you.
You turned to look at him, only to be met with his best attempt at puppy-dog eyes, as if he needed to convince you.
You chuckled at his expression, simply nodding in agreement, as truthfully, you didn’t need much persuading.
You haven’t been on a ferris wheel yet either. 
The line wasn’t as long as compared to the roller coaster, so it led you two to instantly get into one of the pods, settling into your seats across from each other. 
As the Ferris wheel ascended, you exclaimed in awe as you stared at the things from ground level that were slowly getting smaller. You stared at the glowing lights from all the other rides and booths from above.
“It’s really beautiful, isn’t it?” Jaehyun murmured, his voice softer now, filled with genuine admiration. You hummed in agreement, unable to also look away from the outside view. 
That was, until you peered over at Jaehyun, watching his eyes dazzle with amazement while your eyes lingered on him, warmth suddenly pooling in your chest. 
“You know,” you started, leaning back against the cushioned seat, “I’m really thankful for you today.”
Jaehyun turned his head slowly, his gaze meeting yours as his smile grew wider. “Don’t be,” he said, almost shyly.
“No, like, seriously,” you insisted, your voice more animated. “I don’t think I would’ve had this much fun if I wasn’t with you.”
Jaehyun blinked, his lips pressing together as if holding back another smile. “Well,” he said after a beat, “I’m glad you felt comfortable enough with me.”
You exhaled a small laugh, shaking your head. “I’m even more glad that it was you I spent the day with.”
For a second, Jaehyun didn’t say anything—simply looking at you, his expression unreadable yet soft. However, with a soft chuckle, he leaned back as well, his eyes still lingering on you as if he were seeing something just as mesmerizing as the view outside. 
“Me too.” 
RULE #7: Don’t Leave your Clients Confused 
You didn’t know how to feel. 
From the day you met him again—to now—things had never felt more confusing than before. 
Especially ever since that day, it had never left your mind. Even if you wanted to push it aside, all it did was continue to linger, creeping into your thoughts when you least expected it. 
It wasn’t even supposed to be an actual date—let alone being a real one. Jaehyun had simply stepped in for Heeseung, who never showed up. And yet, at no point did Jaehyun feel like a replacement. Not when he showed up beside you, effortlessly easing the disappointment you had been trying to suppress. Not when he went out of his way to make you laugh, making the entire day feel lighthearted and effortless. Not even when he insisted on taking you home; his concern was so genuine that it made your chest tighten.
It felt almost too genuine. 
Everything about that day felt like it was supposed to be Jaehyun. If he wasn’t there, you wouldn’t have had that much fun with someone else. And that thought alone had your mind spiraling.
You were analyzing every little thing—the way he’s been looking at you these past few weeks, the way he was always caught in a trance when you spoke, and the way his smiles never seemed to leave his face whenever he was around you. 
And for those things, you thought about all kinds of possibilities. You even thought about all the what-ifs, trying to create explanations that made sense with his actions. 
Even with the amount of things you’d try to tell yourself with some made-up reasoning behind his actions, there were obviously some questions that you couldn’t answer. 
Some things were easy to reason with. Of course, Jaehyun had been nervous—he hadn’t seen you in a while, and being thrown into such an intimate setting would make anyone uneasy. Of course, he had been extra cheerful—he was just trying to lift your spirits after being ditched. It all made perfect sense.
At least, that’s what you told yourself.
But there were still questions you couldn’t answer. No matter how many times you tried to rationalize it, none of it added up.
Why did he make you feel this way?
And, more importantly—
What exactly were your feelings for Jaehyun?
Why were you feeling the very same feelings you once felt during your relationship with him? Why couldn’t you bring yourself to hate the fact that those feelings were stirring up again?
Why did you—against all logic—want to keep feeling this way?
It was undeniable that Jaehyun had the looks—one of the most attractive people you’ve ever known. But it wasn’t just his looks. He had a sweet personality—his kindness, his bubbly-like energy, and his effortless care for people without hesitation—those were the things that made him all seem perfect. 
Reuniting with him only brought back those flood of memories—the ones you claimed you managed to bury beneath stacks of paperwork and long hours from your job. 
He was, in every sense, the dream guy. 
And yet, feeling this way now almost made you feel guilty. After all, the two of you had chosen to part ways. You had told yourselves it was for the best—that your demanding work schedules had left little room for love. That drowning in responsibilities was easier than trying to hold onto something that was slipping away.
So you buried yourself in work. It was only fair, wasn’t it? If your career was the thing that had consumed your relationship, then it should consume you too.
Your routine always felt repetitive—the days had become a cycle of early commutes, endless tasks, and late nights hunched over your desk. The only real challenge was making it home before the last train filled up, securing a seat before exhaustion fully settled in. And when you did get home, there was always more work waiting. If you were lucky, you’d steal an hour of sleep before doing it all over again.
Some days felt more draining than others, but you had convinced yourself it was normal. This—this routine of working yourself to the bone—was normal.
So, why did Jaehyun’s presence disrupt the kind of lifestyle you had built for yourself?
You mindlessly stared at your laptop screen, your word count barely reaching a hundred. The blinking cursor taunted you, yet no matter how hard you tried to focus, your thoughts drifted elsewhere.
Even if you wanted to forget everything—just like you used to—the thought of him refused to leave your mind.
You let out a small huff, looking away from the document to grab the cup of water on your dining table. As you took a sip, your eyes wandered at the table, landing on your coat draped messily over the table. And right next to it...
The white dog ears headband.
The one Jaehyun picked out for you.
Because it suited you. 
You swallowed your water too fast, nearly choking as you hastily cleared your throat, the sudden clang of your cup hitting the table breaking the silence. Slowly, you steadied your movements, pushing the cup back to its original spot as if that could somehow fix the mess in your head.
But your eyes remained fixed on the headband. You reluctantly reach your hand over to grab it. Your fingers brushed against the soft fabric as you absentmindedly played with the ears, twisting them between your fingertips. And just like that, the memories came rushing back.
Just how could you help yourself?
How could you forget the way he smiled at you, saying the headband was perfect for you? The way he wore the other matching piece without hesitation? 
How could you forget his caring words and consistent reassurance, always checking to see if you were okay? How could you forget the warm grasp on your hand on the roller coaster? How could you forget the smile that adorned his face and how his laughter managed to fill up the entire place?
And most of all—the way his eyes held so much love.
How could you forget the way his eyes looked just like they were before? 
You quickly threw the headband back onto the table, covering your face with both hands. A muffled groan left your lips as you mumbled under your breath, shaking your head.
You truly had lost it.
You wanted to pull yourself together to shake off the overwhelming thoughts clouding your mind. But no matter how hard you tried, it felt as if you had been teleported back in time—except instead of drowning in paperwork, Jaehyun consumed every inch of your thoughts.
No matter what you could do, he just seemingly happened to be everywhere. He would always be lingering in your mind, in the little details of your day—in the spaces you swore only belonged to you. 
So, as much as you had vowed to immerse yourself in work, to not let anything deter you from your responsibilities, your fingers betrayed you. Instead of returning your focus to the laptop screen, you reached for your phone. 
You immediately looked in your photo album, looking over the pictures from that day—pictures of you and Jaehyun, candid moments he captured when you weren’t looking, and secret pictures you took whenever he just seemed too cute to not to. 
Without even trying to suppress it, a smile creeps onto your face. Your chest felt lighter, warmth spreading from inside out as you continued to scroll through the mountain of photos. 
That’s when you knew that you realized it. 
You couldn’t keep pretending. You couldn’t keep denying what had become so painfully obvious. There was no reasoning left to twist your feelings into something logical, no excuse that could explain away the way your heart reacted to him.
Jaehyun managed to do his thing—to strike an arrow directly through your heart, making you unable to even try to escape from it. 
Everyone had always said it. Jaehyun is an amazing cupid.
You just never expected to be his next target.
RULE #8: There’s Never No Solution 
Around Jaehyun’s business, words traveled fast. It was a given—he was the owner, after all. He was supposed to know everything before anyone else did.
Or at least, that was how it was supposed to go.
So why, instead of knowing the latest news firsthand, did he have to go find Taesan after Woonhak had suddenly burst into his office, practically breathless, only not to say much despite his excited appearance? 
"Wait—what's going on?" Jaehyun called out, eyebrows knitting together. He couldn’t even process Woonhak’s words, let alone even be able to process his sudden appearance. 
Woonhak merely grinned, shaking his head. "Taesan will tell you everything."
Jaehyun scowled. "That doesn't answer anything."
But Woonhak was already gone, leaving Jaehyun standing there, even more frustrated than before.
With an exasperated sigh, Jaehyun pushed aside the pile of paperwork he had been working on, knowing there was no point in trying to focus on it now. He had no choice but to go find Taesan himself—again.
It was never surprising. Taesan always had his own tasks, always busy with something, yet somehow, he never had a problem asking others to come to him whenever he had something to say.
It was just the way he was.
And Jaehyun was never bothered by it. But he still couldn’t help but feel the need to feel like something was up. Whatever this was about, he had a sinking feeling he wasn’t going to like it. 
"Jaehyun?" Taesan said, his eyes still glued to one of the drawers he was rummaging through, his ears picking up the distinct click of the door opening.
Jaehyun hummed as he shut the door behind him, his gaze sharpening as he watched Taesan absorb whatever task he was focused on. Jaehyun moved closer, hoping Taesan would be the one to break the silence, but Taesan stayed silent, his attention still fixed on whatever he was doing. Jaehyun couldn’t help but take a few slow steps forward, not wanting to interrupt but silently hoping the man would notice him first before the creeping awkwardness set in.
But, still, he was only faced with the sounds of shuffling while he stood there awkwardly, before finally breaking the uncomfortable silence. 
“So…” Jaehyun trails; his voice was hesitant as it was laced with confusion. “Mind explaining why Woonhak suddenly barged into my office just to tell me to find you?”
Taesan finally hummed in acknowledgement, still not looking up. “How do you feel?”
“How do I feel?” He scoffed lightly. “Come on, I need more than that.”
“Your arrow mishap,” Taesan finally said, now glancing up. It clicked in Jaehyun’s mind. Taesan was always the last to catch on, it seemed. “Is it still affecting you?”
Jaehyun sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. "Yeah. It hasn’t gotten any easier," he admitted, his mind drifting back to all the moments with you. Just being around you made his chest feel tight, like his heart was trying to beat out of his ribcage. But despite that, he couldn’t seem to stop wanting to be near you.
"The severity of it, I guess, depends on how close I am to the person I accidentally... fell in love with." He chuckled dryly, the words feeling strange on his tongue but undeniably true. “Unbelievable, isn’t it?”
“Not really,” Taesan shrugged, catching Jaehyun off guard.
Of all the reactions Jaehyun had gotten from his friends about his accidental self-inflicted arrow, this was by far the least expected. Every other time he brought it up—whether he wanted to or not—he was met with relentless teasing, concern, or a mix of both. 
But Taesan? He seemed not even the slightness fazed by it. 
Jaehyun wore a furrowed brow, crossing his arms as if that was going to give him the support that he needed. “Just a ‘not really’? You’re not going to... discipline me for it?” 
Taesan finally looked up from the drawer, tilting his head slightly as if Jaehyun had just asked a pointless question. “Why would it be a big deal?”
Jaehyun opened his mouth, then shut it, narrowing his eyes. “Are you serious? I’m a cupid, Taesan. We don’t fall in love. We make other people fall in love.”
“You make it sound like a forbidden rule,” Taesan chuckled.
“It basically is,” Jaehyun muttered, his gaze shifting onto the floor. 
"If you make it sound so forbidden," Taesan mused, his tone teasing. "Then what if I told you I could help you finally erase the effects of the bow?"
Jaehyun’s eyes widened in shock. His arms dropped to his sides before he rushed forward, slamming his hands onto Taesan’s desk with a force that made the other slightly flinch. It wasn’t often that Jaehyun lost his composure, but now, with his hands splayed against the desk and his breath slightly uneven, he looked more frantic than Taesan had ever seen him.
“What—how?” Jaehyun stammered, his words tumbled out hastily. His reaction alone made it clear just how unexpected this was. No one had ever offered a solution before, so hearing it now—from Taesan, of all people—felt almost too good to be true.
“I didn’t expect you to react like this,” Taesan said, leaning back slightly from Jaehyun, who was too close in his personal space to his liking. “But yes, I can help.” 
“How?” Jaehyun demanded, his voice barely above a whisper. His fingers were curled against the wood, almost as if he needed something to try to prove to him that he wasn’t dreaming. 
Taesan didn’t answer immediately—once again. Seriously, Jaehyun could feel like he could collapse with how long it seemed like he was taking to tell him these things. Instead, he reached into the drawer he had been rummaging through earlier, retrieving a small glass vial filled with a shimmering, purple liquid. 
“You’re saying this is all I need?” Jaehyun tried to keep his voice steady, not wanting to seem ungrateful. In reality, he was more relieved than anything.
He doesn’t know how much longer he could be able to contain these kinds of feelings to himself around you. 
Taesan gave the vial a slow swirl, his eyes fixated on the shimmering liquid inside as if assessing its potency one last time before handing it over.
Jaehyun reached out with both hands, nearly freezing when the cold glass met his fingertips. Lifting it closer to his face, he examined it carefully another time. It looked like it was ordinary, purple medicine—except for the glitter swirling within. 
“What do I do with this?” he finally asked, tilting the vial slightly.
“Just drink it,” Taesan said simply. “The effects should wear off soon after.”
Jaehyun’s gaze flickered up, suspicion creeping in. “Where did you even get this?”
Taesan leaned back slightly, arms crossing over his chest. “You’re not the first cupid to fall victim to their own arrow,” he admitted. “It’s more common than you’d think. And well, you could say I’m the one who handles cases like these.”
Jaehyun blinked, momentarily stunned. The solution had been within reach this whole time. He could have come to Taesan from the start and spared himself the turmoil.
Taesan seemed to read his mind and smiled. “Before you start blaming anyone, I never told the others about this. We were never advised to.”
Jaehyun nodded quickly, accepting Taesan’s words before he could even begin to place blame elsewhere. Without hesitation, he popped open the cap and brought the vial to his lips, downing the liquid in one swift gulp.
The bitterness hit him immediately, a sharp, unpleasant aftertaste lingering on his tongue. He let out a hiss of dissatisfaction, grimacing as he swallowed the last drop.
Taesan extended his hand, prompting Jaehyun to toss the empty vial toward him. With ease, Taesan caught it, barely glancing up as he set it aside.
“How soon will it take effect?” Jaehyun asked, his voice edged with impatience. He wasn’t feeling anything yet, and for some reason, that made him uneasy. Shouldn’t there be some kind of reaction? A tingling sensation, a rush of warmth—something?
“It usually happens faster than you could even know it,” Taesan replied, his attention shifting back to the stack of files he had set aside earlier. “At least, that’s how it worked for the others. You shouldn’t be any different.”
Jaehyun frowned, glancing down at his hands as if expecting them to tremble or glow. Nothing.
"Don't worry, you're not supposed to feel any different from your normal self," Taesan reassured, catching a glimpse of Jaehyun flipping his hands over, inspecting them as if expecting some kind of glow or change.
Jaehyun sighed, shaking off his nerves. There was no reason to doubt Taesan—he had already taken the potion, after all. Now, he could only wait for it to take effect. Feeling a sense of relief, he quickly bid his goodbyes and stepped out of the office.
As he made his way back, his phone buzzed in his pocket. Pausing mid-step, he pulled it out, his eyes immediately landing on your contact name.
He paused momentarily, his mind going blank as he stared at his screen before it closed on its own due to inactivity. Quickly pressing the side button, he reopened his phone to click on the notification, ready to type a reply. 
He stopped in his steps to be able to formulate some sort of response—something that would keep the conversation going. The moment you replied, his heart reacted the same way it always did around you, a familiar warmth creeping in.
It felt… off.
He was supposed to be cured, wasn't he? He knew better that Taesan wasn’t the type to lie, and yet, here Jaehyun was, still feeling the rush of excitement and nerves just from texting you.
Maybe the potion just needed more time to kick in.
That had to be it.
After all, that was the only explanation he would take for why he was still so happy just to be talking to you. RULE #9: Love Never Leaves, It Sticks.
It felt strange to admit that you had completely overlooked the fact that Jaehyun was the one responsible for setting you up with a perfect match. And, to some extent, he also forgot about his duties too. 
The only reason was that Jaehyun had done his part—he had found potential matches for you, offering names, profiles, and possibilities. But every time, you declined. It left him puzzled, unsure of what to do.
Who would refuse Cupid’s advances to help them find their person? In fact, who was Cupid MJ to flat out give up their client’s journey to love without a proper explanation from the person he’s trying to set up himself? 
Letting you go wasn’t an option. That wasn’t how he was taught. He didn’t know how to handle a client who showed no interest in any of the matches he curated. His job wasn’t just about arranging dates—it was about guiding the client until they expressed their own satisfaction. Only then could he receive a review, and only then could he reach his quota.
So, with that in mind, Jaehyun found himself sticking around. Messaging you, calling when the opportunity arose—keeping the connection alive in whatever way he could. It was beginning to feel like something more than just a supposedly professional relationship, but still, he reasoned with himself: he was doing a good thing, right?
Now, as he anxiously paced around his room, debating what to wear before heading out to meet you, he reassured himself again.
This wasn’t a bad thing.
If anything, maybe he should embrace the fact that you had asked him to hang out. That had to mean something, right? If he was nervous, then surely you were too.
And you were.
You had been muttering to yourself all evening, standing up every few minutes to readjust the setup in your apartment. It made sense to have the hangout at your place—you had the materials for a clay-making session. The idea had come naturally after you both talked about those tiny clay figurines everyone seemed to be making lately. It was a casual, easy thing to do. A simple activity.
But despite that, you still felt a little jittery.
You weren’t sure what had come over you when you asked him to hang out, but after all those conversations—after all the moments spent talking to him—it only felt right.
A proper hangout.
Not by chance. Not by force.
Just... because you both wanted to.
You sat there, envisioning how the day would unfold, a giddy excitement bubbling within you. It wasn’t hard to acknowledge your feelings, not when they had been creeping up on you for some time now—lingering in the way you pushed through your workload just to have an excuse to text him, or how you found comfort in the soft tone of his voice over late-night calls.
The loud sound of the doorbell cut through your thoughts—two quick rings. Jaehyun was finally here. You shot up from your seat, hurriedly slipping into your slippers before making your way to the door. The lock clicked as you twisted the doorknob, revealing Jaehyun standing before you. He offered a small wave, his familiar smile tugging at the corners of his lips, leaving you to return the same gestures. 
Oddly enough, Jaehyun didn’t seem awkward—especially since it had been a while since he last visited your place. And yet, Jaehyun slipped off his shoes, quickly stepping into your place while you turned to shut and lock the door. 
Despite how long it had been since his last visit, Jaehyun didn’t seem hesitant or awkward. He stepped inside with ease, slipping off his shoes in one smooth motion as you closed the door behind him. His gaze swept across the space, taking in everything as if he were reacquainting himself with an old home.
Nothing had really changed. The furniture was still arranged the same, the decorations untouched, and the overall warmth of your apartment was just as he had remembered. Even after all this time, it still felt familiar.
It still felt like the place where you two once shared so many beautiful memories together. 
Jaehyun’s eyes eventually landed on the wall above your dining table, where a collection of paper prints hung neatly in contrast to the plain white walls. A flicker of recognition passed through his expression. Jaehyun remembers the prints—he was the one that had bought them for you. 
“You still kept these?” Jaehyun asked, his voice carrying a hint of surprise as he stepped closer to the prints on the wall. His fingers brushed lightly against one of them, careful not to accidentally make one of the papers drop. 
You blinked, following his glance, before letting out a hum of agreement. “Of course—why wouldn’t I?’
Jaehyun let out a soft chuckle, shaking his head. “I don’t know. It’s just been a while.”
You watched as he traced the edges of the prints, his expression unreadable. It was strange seeing him like this. It looked like he was facing nostalgia, or even seeming a little lost in thought. 
“They help make the room look brighter—you were also the one who insisted I put them up,” you reminded him, crossing your arms. “I didn’t really have a choice.”
Jaehyun let out a small laugh. “Right. I did, didn’t I?”
Shaking the thought away, you cleared your throat. “Come on, let’s get started before the clay dries out.”
Jaehyun turned to look at you, finally snapping out of his thoughts. “Right,” he said, smiling. “Let’s do this.”
You both quickly settled into your seats, Jaehyun wasting no time in tearing open the clay packages while you scrolled through your phone, looking for inspiration. The soft scent of fresh clay filled the air, adding to the cozy atmosphere of your apartment.
“What do you want to make?” you asked, glancing up from your screen.
Jaehyun furrowed his brows, rolling a small piece of clay between his fingers. "Hmm, good question,” he mused. “Maybe an animal? A dog—or maybe a penguin? They seem easy to make.”
“Who says we can’t do both?” You smiled, saving the pictures of the clay figures Jaehyun wants to make. “Now, help me look for other things we can make instead of just staring at the clay.” 
Jaehyun huffed out a small laugh but nodded, setting the clay down before pulling out his phone. “Alright, alright. Let’s find something else.” He scrolled through his screen while occasionally glancing at the clay in front of him, as if he were trying to picture how the tiny figures would come to life in his hands.
It didn’t take long for the two of you to settle on which figures to make, especially with how often you leaned in to peek at each other’s phones, exchanging suggestions and other ideas. After narrowing it down to five designs, you both got to work, grabbing and setting the clay blocks in front of you.
You pinched and pulled at the soft material, rolling it between your fingers as you alternated between glancing at the reference photo and shaping your piece, doing your best to replicate the details. Jaehyun was just as immersed, his brows furrowed in concentration as he mixed different clay colors together, determined to get the shades just right. His efforts paid off when he finally achieved the perfect one, a proud smile tugging at his lips—only to quickly fade when he realized he had made way more than he needed.
Turning his attention to you, he noticed how focused you were, carefully crafting the tiny eyes for your figure. Without hesitation, he split the excess clay in his hands, handing you the bigger portion before he returned to shaping the body of his figure.
You blinked at the generous chunk he had given you, glancing up at him with a raised brow. “You do know you just gave me the bigger piece, right?”
Jaehyun, still rolling his clay into shape, barely spared you a glance. “Yeah, but you’re better at this than me. You’ll probably make better use of it.”
You rolled your eyes but couldn’t hide your amusement as you both continued working. The silence that followed was comfortable, filled with the soft squish of clay and the occasional sighs of frustration when something didn’t turn out quite right. Every so often, one of you would mutter complaints under your breath, only for the other to snicker in response.
At one point, Jaehyun leaned back in his seat, holding up his tiny clay penguin with a smug grin. “Okay, not to brag, but I think I actually did a decent job.”
You squinted at it, leaning in before reaching over to poke its round head. “It’s actually really cute! But…” You tilted your head. “The eyes are a little wonky.”
Jaehyun gasped dramatically, pulling his penguin close to his chest as if shielding it from your words. “Are you hating on my penguin?” He scooted back slightly, placing a protective hand in front of it while wearing an exaggeratedly offended expression.
You burst into laughter at his antics, and he couldn’t hold back his own laughter either, setting the penguin down with a giggle.
“I’m not hating! At least yours is actually finished,” you pointed out, still rolling the orange clay between your fingers as you focused on shaping the penguin’s feet. The body was done, and you had already made the eyes, but you were carefully perfecting the details before assembling everything.
Jaehyun leaned forward, studying your half-finished creation. His eyes widened as he compared the two figures, placing his beside yours. “Okay, hold on—your penguin isn’t even complete yet, and it already looks better than mine. How did you do that?”
You shrugged, glancing between the picture on your phone and your clay figure. “I was just looking at the reference.”
Jaehyun let out a dramatic sigh and carefully picked up his penguin again. “This won’t do,” he muttered, setting it down in front of him as if he were analyzing all its flaws. “I need to make some improvements.”
You chuckled, smoothing out the rounded edges of the feet you were sculpting. “Jae, it looks fine,” you reassured him, glancing up with a small smile.
Jaehyun ignored your remark; his eyes locked on his creation as he smoothed out its uneven features. “Says the person who just called my penguin’s eyes wonky.”
You grinned, setting your now nearly finished figure down. “I meant it in a cute way.”
He shot you a look. “That’s just a nice way of saying it looks weird—if it’s even nice in the first place.”
You nudged him lightly, a small gesture of encouragement. “Well, I’m sure you’ll be able to make even better ones once we move on to the next ones.”
Jaehyun huffed but then smiled, rolling up his sleeves as if only now he was starting to get serious. And surprisingly, he did get better. 
The two of you got so caught up in sculpting that time slipped away unnoticed. What was supposed to be only five figures turned into more as you spent more time scrolling for more ideas, tapping on Jaehyun to recreate them. With that, you couldn’t help but chuckle at Jaehyun’s slightly lopsided creations, which always prompted a round of playful bickering. 
He’d always protest that that clay personally betrayed him, leaving you to only laugh harder as you shake your head to refute that point. Despite that, there were some clear improvements. Even if there were some pieces that seemed a little too round or flat, his figures did end up becoming more refined with the new details. 
At the end of it all—when you both finally checked the time—you realized just how long you'd been at it. The table was now covered with small, colorful clay creations, each one a testament to the hours spent laughing and sculpting.
Jaehyun, with a satisfied grin, began lining them up neatly, carefully placing each figure beside its matching pair. Once he was happy with the arrangement, he pulled out his phone and quickly snapped a picture, making sure to get every little detail. Without hesitation, he sent it to you. “There. Now we have proof of our masterpiece,” he said, turning his phone around to show you the image.
You smiled as you opened the message, admiring the tiny figures you both had worked so hard on. “They actually turned out really good,” you admitted, glancing over at him.
“I would hope so,” Jaehyun said with a chuckle, leaning back in his chair to stretch his arms behind his head. “After spending all that time making them.”
“Worth it, though,” you chuckled, tapping at your screen to save the photo. 
“What do we do with them?” Jaehyun asked, still remaining in his current posture. 
“I’ll keep them,” you announced, before suddenly gasping as a thought struck you.
Without another word, you grabbed as many clay figures as your hands could hold—careful not to squish them—and hurried across the room. Jaehyun turned in his seat, watching you with curiosity as you stopped in front of a shelf.
One of the shelves was completely empty, a perfect space for your new collection. You carefully placed the figures down, aligning them just as Jaehyun had arranged them earlier. Once they were neatly lined up, you turned to face him, grinning.
Jaehyun, who had been observing the whole thing with an amused expression, glanced between the shelf and you. “You’re really making a display out of them?” he chuckled, shaking his head.
Instead of answering, you quickly ran back to grab the remaining figures. This time, Jaehyun stood up, scooping up a few clay figures himself before trailing behind you to the shelf.
Once the last of the figures were placed neatly on the shelf, Jaehyun stepped back, arms crossed, as he admired the colorful lineup. He hummed in satisfaction, nodding approvingly before glancing at you.
"Are you actually going to keep these here?" he asked, raising a skeptical brow.
You scoffed, as if he had just asked the most absurd question. "Of course I am! We spent so much time on them—I can’t just take them apart like they were nothing."
Jaehyun smirked, tilting his head slightly. "Hmm, but how can I trust you on that? What if, the moment I leave, you take them down? Or even worse—" his voice dropped into a dramatic whisper, "What if you throw them away?"
“I would never!” You insisted. “You can visit again next time, and I promise the figures will still be here.”
Jaehyun’s lips curled into a grin. "Wait... was that you subtly inviting me to hang out again?"
"You started it," you muttered, quickly averting your gaze as you searched for a way to change the subject. Your eyes flickered to the clock, and you suddenly got a thought. "Do you want something to eat before you go? We completely forgot to eat anything."
“I would like that.”
Nodding, you grabbed your phone and sat back at the dining table, scrolling through a food delivery app. Meanwhile, Jaehyun found his gaze drifting back to the shelf, his fingers absentmindedly grazing the edge as he admired the tiny clay figures once more.
They weren’t perfect—not even close. Some were lopsided, others a little misshapen, but they held a charm he couldn’t ignore. Maybe it was because they were made with you.
And then his chest tightened.
That all-too-familiar pounding in his heart returned, an effect he swore he had rid himself of. Hadn't he? The supposed cure was meant to work, yet here he was, feeling the same way he always had around you.
Jaehyun’s eyes flickered back to you, his lips unconsciously curling at the sight of your focused expression, brows slightly furrowed as you scrolled through the menu.
Had the potion failed? Or... had his feelings never truly left in the first place?
The way he was feeling wasn’t perfect either—it was far from ideal. The pounding in his chest, the way his thoughts tangled whenever he looked at you—it was overwhelming, almost suffocating. A part of him felt like he needed to escape, to put distance between you and himself just to regain some sense of composure. Maybe if he ran far enough, he could recover. Maybe he could convince himself that this was nothing more than a lingering effect of something that should’ve faded by now.
But then there was you. There was always you. 
Just like the clay figures—no matter how imperfect or uneven—he found himself wanting to overlook the flaws, to overlook and accept the nagging feelings that were tugging at his chest. Because somehow, in the moments he spent with you, everything felt perfect enough. 
And that was everything he was looking for. 
To be in love. 
RULE #10: Once a Client, Always Your Client.
Jaehyun had always been strict when it came to rules, routines, and the careful structure he had built for himself. And yet, when it came to you, he found himself hesitating—not to break those rules, but to carve out quiet exceptions just for you.
It wasn’t that he hated the idea of being with you. What he hated was the feeling of being held back, restrained by reasons he couldn't quite grasp. Because the truth was, he did want those late-night walks, arms swinging side by side, fingers brushing in a way that sent warmth curling through his chest. He wanted to spend an entire day before an anniversary decorating, making sure everything was just right. He wanted to laugh until his stomach ached, gasping for air through tear-streaked laughter, unable to stop because being with you made everything that easy.
He wanted all of it.
And he wanted it only with you.
That was the reason why he kept going back—to chip away at the very walls he had built around himself. He went out of his way to text you, to meet you, to be near you. It felt effortless and natural—something that should’ve felt right. And yet, there was still that nagging thought, a lingering voice that was in the back of his mind telling him to stop. 
Was it fear? The fear of breaking Cupid’s rules, of stepping beyond the boundaries he was meant to uphold? Or was it the thought of being ridiculed, of being the one to fall instead of making others fall in love? 
Or was it the thought of having what he considered his true love slip away from him again? 
Whatever it was, it bothered him, clearly unshakable and noticeable—enough that Riwoo had to drop by, his concern written all over his face, just to check on him. 
Riwoo had always been Jaehyun's safe space—the one person he could confide in without hesitation, the one who always listened without judgement. He was the only one who knew at first—the one who confidently took over Jaehyun’s shifts just so he could be with you. So, seeing Jaehyun sprawled out on the couch, lost in thought, wasn’t just concerning for Riwoo—it was concerning for Jaehyun himself. 
He wasn’t the type to sit still like this, to let his feelings consume him so completely. But right now, it felt like that was all he could do. 
“What’s on your mind?” Riwoo sat back in one of the single-seat couches, his gaze never leaving Jaehyun, who looked like he’d checked out of the world entirely. He was slumped, his body unmoving, his eyes fixed on the ceiling as if he could stare through it into some distant place. It was as if he wasn’t really there at all.
Jaehyun finally broke the silence, his voice low. “A lot of things,” he murmured, his words barely audible.
Riwoo leaned forward, his expression softening. “Tell me one of them,” he said, his tone almost gentle—the kind of voice you use when you know someone seems to have a lot on their mind. “You know you can’t keep all of this to yourself, Jaehyun.”
Jaehyun let out a slow breath, his chest rising and falling as he remained fixated on the ceiling. His mind was a tangled mess, but if he had to pick just one thing—one thought that refused to leave him alone—he knew exactly what it was.
“It’s… about her,” he admitted, his voice quieter than usual.
Riwoo leaned forward slightly, resting his elbows on his knees. “I figured,” he said knowingly. “What about her?”
Jaehyun shut his eyes for a moment, as if doing so would somehow help him find the right words. “I keep going back to her,” he finally said, his voice laced with frustration. “Even when I tell myself I shouldn’t. Even when I know it goes against everything I’m supposed to stand for.”
“What’s so wrong about falling in love? Riwoo asked, his voice cutting through the heavy silence.
Jaehyun’s eyes fluttered open, slowly processing the question. It was a simple one, yet it felt like an unexpected weight. For as long as he could remember, love was something to be avoided—something that could jeopardize everything a Cupid was meant to do. Hearing Riwoo speak those words, however, felt strange—almost unsettling.
He had been taught his entire life that love wasn’t meant for someone like him.
Every Cupid should know to avoid getting tangled up in love themselves. 
“I should be helping people find love, not falling into it myself,” Jaehyun murmured. The very words that he held against himself finally started feeling heavy with the weight of the years of expectations he set for himself to follow. It didn’t feel right for him to be saying that now, especially given how and what he’s been doing. 
Riwoo’s chuckle interrupted his thoughts. “You make it seem like Cupids can’t find love either.”
Jaehyun paused, his brow furrowing. “Isn’t that what they always told us?”
Riwoo’s smile faded into something more thoughtful. “It may not seem like an ideal situation for a Cupid,” he said slowly, as if reflecting on his own experiences with being around other Cupids. “But that doesn’t mean it’s wrong.”
Jaehyun looked at him, skeptical. “You’re just saying that to make me feel better.”
“No, seriously.” Riwoo leaned forward, his gaze more earnest now. “Why do you think I accepted the idea of you dating Y/N in the first place? Why do you think I’ve been covering your shifts whenever you needed it? I’ve always made space for you to be with her.”
Jaehyun felt a knot in his chest. He knew Riwoo was right. His friend always seemed to appear at the right time, sometimes without even needing to be asked. Every time Jaehyun needed to be with you, Riwoo was there to take his place.
“Where are you going with this?” Jaehyun asked, trying not to let his hopes rise too quickly.
“I’m trying to tell you,” Riwoo began, his voice getting softer, “that Cupids can’t hate the idea of love.”
Jaehyun’s mind buzzed with the implications of Riwoo’s words, and then he remembered something Taesan had once said. “Like Taesan said before,” Riwoo continued, “you aren’t the only one who’s been put in situations like this.”
Jaehyun shifted his position, moving from sprawling lazily on the couch to sitting upright, his posture tense. His mind raced, but the words still felt trapped in his throat.
“You’re still lost?” Riwoo asked, eying Jaehyun’s every sudden move. 
“It’s not that." Jaehyun let out a slow breath, his gaze drifting to the floor as he processed his thoughts. “From the moment I drank that potion Taesan gave me, I was told everything would just... disappear. But it didn’t work. I still feel exactly the same. I just feel…confused.”  
“Do you hate the idea of liking her?”
Jaehyun shook his head almost immediately, his fingers absentmindedly tapping on the edge of the couch. “I don’t. I really don’t. And I don’t know what to do with that.” 
““And I’m telling you that it’s okay if you want to love her,” Riwoo said with a smile. “Helping others find love doesn’t mean you have to give up your own.”
Jaehyun hadn’t realized how badly he needed to hear those words. All this time, he’d convinced himself that his feelings weren’t meant to be accepted, even though deep down, he yearned for that very thing. Hearing Riwoo’s reassurance lifted a weight from his shoulders, replacing his lingering worries with a silent urgency. The need to act, to take the step he’d been hesitating on, was suddenly clear.
“I think I need to go,” Jaehyun muttered as he stood, grabbing the nearest hoodie hanging by the door. He barely even looked at it before pulling it over his head, his mind already a few steps ahead, fixed on the next thing.
Riwoo didn’t need him to say more. He just sat back, a small, knowing smile tugging at the corners of his lips. He watched Jaehyun with a mix of amusement and understanding. Even if Jaehyun hadn’t said the words directly, it was clear what he wanted.
Jaehyun was heading straight to you.
“You got this,” Riwoo said softly, as if the words could somehow give Jaehyun the last bit of courage he needed. Jaehyun paused before stepping out of his door, offering Riwoo a small but genuine smile, whispering a thank you. 
The moment Jaehyun stepped out and closed his door behind him, his heart picked up speed. Each step felt like it was pulling him closer to something he wanted but couldn’t quite understand—something that had been waiting for him. The answers weren’t clear, and maybe they never would be. But for once, at this moment, Jaehyun didn’t feel the need to chase them. He didn’t seem to mind. 
He just needed to show up. 
As he neared your place, he could feel the anticipation building in his chest, almost like a tightness he couldn't shake. His hand hovered over his phone, his thumb hesitant for a brief second. He took a deep breath, telling himself to stop overthinking. 
He was already here. He couldn’t turn back now. 
Before his mind could talk him out of it, Jaehyun pressed the call button next to your contact. One ring, and he immediately felt a rush of jitters flood through him. The second ring, his fingers twisted the fabric of his hoodie, his nerves getting the better of him. By the third ring, he finally heard your voice on the other line.
"Jaehyun?"
He froze for a moment, hearing his name fall from your lips. The sound made his heart race, but he quickly composed himself, trying to ignore the sudden increased pacing in his chest.  
"Y/N... Hi."
"Hey, what's up?" 
"Can I see you?" Jaehyun wasn’t too sure if you could hear the sudden tremble in his voice, but he could only pray that you didn’t. 
"Like... right now?"
"Just for a little while, yeah. I don’t want to rush you or anything, but I’m nearby, and—well, if you’re not up for it, that’s totally fine. I know it’s late."
"Stop worrying, Jae. I'll be out in a few. Just wait for me." you said, and Jaehyun couldn’t help the small smile that tugged at his lips. He was already a little lost in the thought of what he wanted to say, but for now, he just waited, allowing himself to calm down as the seconds ticked by.
"I’ll be here,” he responded back quickly. 
He could almost picture your expression once he heard the soft chuckle you gave as the line went quiet again, leaving him standing there, staring at the phone in his hand. His nerves didn’t settle completely, but it didn’t matter anymore. He had done it. He had reached out. And now, all he had to do was wait.
After a few moments, Jaehyun spotted you running out of your apartment complex. You waved, and he quickly waved back.
"Hi," you said, as if the greeting over the phone hadn’t already happened. "Where do you want to go?"
 "Is it okay if we just stay out here?" he asked, knowing this was something that he needed. There was something comforting about being in an open space—a sense of calm he didn’t want to lose. He needed the fresh breeze of air, but more importantly, he simply needed a little room to breathe if things became overwhelming. 
"Yeah, of course," you said, nodding. You pointed toward a bench just outside the complex. "We can sit there."
Jaehyun shifted slightly on the bench, feeling the cool night air brush against his face. The sounds of distant traffic blended with the quiet night, giving everything a sense of calm he hadn’t expected. Sitting next to you with no distractions, it almost felt like time slowed down. The pressure in his chest eased just a little more.
“What did you want to see me for?” you finally spoke, turning to face Jaehyun. He also turned to look at you, your face illuminated by the soft glow of the streetlamp. His heart skipped, just like it always did when you looked at him like that—with that same curiosity and warmth in your eyes. It made his thoughts scatter, but he pushed them back, trying to focus.
“I just... needed to talk,” he said, his words coming out quieter than he expected. He wasn’t sure how to put what he was feeling into words. He let out a small chuckle, noticing how ridiculous it was for him to be acting this nervous. “I’ve been holding back from saying this, actually.”
“About what?” you asked softly, your voice laced with both curiosity and a hint of worry. Something about the way Jaehyun had called you out here felt different, and you couldn’t help but wonder if this was something important. Your heart skipped a beat, uncertainty swirling in your chest as you tried to read his expression. 
"About... us,” Jaehyun finally confessed, his voice quieter than usual. “I’ve been thinking a lot about this—about you—and what it really means. I know the timing might seem a little off, especially with me having to be involved in your love life by setting you with others, but I can’t seem to shake these feelings I have for you.”
“You have feelings for me?” you asked, your voice a mix of surprise and disbelief, the words barely leaving your lips.
He nodded, his cheeks flushing as he looked away for a moment, trying to gather himself. The honesty in his words felt foreign, almost suffocating after he’d spent so much time hiding it. “Ever since you walked into my office that day, I’ve been trying not to feel it. I didn’t want to admit it, but when I saw you, it wasn’t fear I felt in my stomach. It was… relief. Relief that I finally got to see you again.”
Jaehyun’s voice trailed off as he shifted uncomfortably, but there was something raw in his eyes that made you pause. It was the kind of vulnerability he rarely let anyone see, let alone you.
“You’ve kept that with you this whole time?” you asked again, trying to reconfirm his answer as your thoughts spiraled. 
He nodded again, his fingers suddenly fidgeting with the hem of his hoodie. “I didn’t want to complicate things, but I knew I couldn’t keep pretending my feelings are simply nothing.” 
The weight of his words was finally setting into you after you tried processing everything. Your mind felt like it was in a haze—this was unexpected, but not completely. You always felt a shift between you two but never allowed yourself to fully acknowledge it. You were the one who brought the idea of breaking it off first, after all. 
And now, it felt as though time had folded itself back, bringing you to that moment when Jaehyun first confessed to you. That same rush of emotions, the happiness tangled with confusion, was there again. But this time, you felt different—stronger, surer. 
You knew better now; you knew that you couldn’t let someone like him slip away again.
“I’m really happy that you’re telling me this,” you said, your voice having an obvious, cheesy tone. “Because I feel the same way.”
Jaehyun’s eyes widened, considering how he was preparing himself for the worst. “Wait… you do?”
You nodded, recognizing how the truth was coming out easily now. “I always thought it was obvious.”
Jaehyun’s lips parted slightly as if he were searching for something to say, but he simply looked at you, his words being taken over with a grin on his face. His gaze softened while he stopped fidgeting with his hoodie, feeling a rush of relief running through him. 
“I was scared that this would have made things weird between us. But hearing you say that..." He exalted, as though he could finally breathe easier. “It’s everything I could wish for.”
You couldn’t help but smile back, considering how you were never quite sure if you’d ever get to hear those words from him if you didn’t show up to answer his call. The way your feet kicked back and forth was the subtle sign of nerves and excitement that had your pulse quickening. 
“Me too.” 
“I’m glad,” he said, his voice soft but sincere. “I really am.” He leaned back slightly, his gaze locked with yours, feeling lighter than he had in a long time. It was strange, yet comforting, knowing that the feelings between you were mutual.
For once, everything felt right again.
“Well then, how about we have an impromptu date right now?” Jaehyun suggested, his nervous look soon turning into something more playful. This was the Jaehyun you were always used to. 
“Oh, so now you’re asking to take me out on a date after I just also practically confessed my feelings?” you shot him a look, only for you to end up breaking into a small fit of laughter. “Very smooth, Cupid MJ.” 
“It’s only fair that I get to ask you out,” he shrugged, wearing a teasing grin. “Had to beat you to it before you were going to ask me out on a hangout again.”
“Alright then, where would we go?”
“To yours? Actually, I’ve been meaning to add a few prints to your kitchen area. It was looking a little plain, and I should’ve gotten you more prints before.”
“Shading my living space after suggesting we go there is crazy, by the way,” you crossed your arms, jokingly staring at him in disbelief. 
Jaehyun let out a small laugh, shaking his head. "You know I didn’t mean it like that."
"If not, then what?" you teased, still shaking your head. "I think you’re just trying to crash into my place, huh?"
He raised his hands in mock surrender, his expression innocent yet mischievous. "Far from that—I just want to see those clay figures you’ve got if you still have them. I’ve been curious."
Another soft laugh escapes from your lips, and the warmth in your chest spreads further. “Come see it then,” you said, the words slipping out before you could second-guess them. Honestly, you were waiting for the next time he’d suggest going to your place. You wanted him to come over again. “I’ll show you that I kept my word on keeping our figures.”
Jaehyun’s smile widened, his eyes lighting up as if your invitation was exactly what he’d hoped for. “Lead the way,” he said, following right after you as you stood up to walk back into your apartment complex—this time, with him by your side. 
The conversation between you two flowed easily, like it always had, and with every exchanged word and giggle, Jaehyun found himself being able to learn a few things.
One, that the Cupid Rules were never as severe or strict as he once believed. Fate had its own way of working, and despite all the supposed boundaries and obstacles, it had led him right back to you—the very person he once thought the Cupid Universe forcefully separated him from. 
Two, he had been so fooled to be convinced that removing the love arrow effects would help erase the emotions entangled between you both. Instead, he was right back here with you. And this time, there was nothing to blame, no external force to credit for his sudden rush of emotions—just the undeniable truth that, even without all of that, he still would have chosen you anyway. He couldn’t complain, not when this was exactly where he wanted to be. 
And three—the one thing he could fully believe about the Cupid’s Handbook was Rule #10. 
Once a client, always your client. 
Jaehyun could only hope those words were true. That no matter where life led you both, no matter what ended up being in the way, he could always find a way to stay by your side for good. 
That’s when he knew that being only with you was the only thing he wanted. 
His first, true love. 
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𓊆 🗯️ 𓊇 CUPID’S FINAL WORDS ✶ TYSM FOR READING UNTIL THE END ^^ !! this feels so bittersweet completing like actually… 💔 so… if i were to write for more cupid aus, would you guys like that?? since i do have some ideas but not for all members yet so…. please let me know ♡
BND PERM TAGLIST ( OPEN ) — @juyeoz @j4d @itsactuallylina @rizzwoos @htaesan @macapunoz
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z0n1x · 1 day ago
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OK MEOWRTHER FUCKER WHERE DOING THIS WHERE MAKING THIS HAPPEN
aka my favorite moments and notes on the new hc:bc: “[S] 8r8k.” done right after i watched it because I AM GOING TO IMPOLDE I NEED TO TALK ABOUT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!
MEGA FUCKING SPOILER WARNING! OBVIOUSLY!
(ignore how this is in windows media player i needed to slow it down a bit)
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ok first frame up we got 3 preexisting scenes to ground us
with the calliroxy + john panel im not exactly sure why that little stain is there but probably just some like texturing idk id be surprised if it was relevent
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sollux. soooollllluuuux >:[ this is a pretty funny gag though itll come back later
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awwww little fork and knife dude! someonell probably think of a clever punny name for them so im not gonna bother right now
also it could just be the way the lighting affects colors here but that sort of looks like lime more than jade or olive to me. it seems too yellow to be jade but too light to be olive
would be cool if it was but i doubt it
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with afformentioned knife and fork dude and swiffer and cliper and now this dude we seem to be getting a lot of greenish blooded background trolls
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is that…. THE PINK KILOMETERS !!!! :0 lol
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clear parallel to hic here
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ok seriously what the hell is that?????? i wouldnt say its thief of life shit cuz then it’d probably be light blue but if were going by colors this would be a fuchsia blood thing?? i need to fucking know pleeeeease <<;;
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neeeeever mind seems to be a thief of life thing though i would’ve thought stealing someones life to give to others wouldve been more of a rogue of lifes thing? whatever its still cool
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cool ass shot
he still fucking uses those????????
those lil wrist things vaguely remind me of the signless’s handcuff association but these are a different kind i think so eh
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ahhhh i get it ;3 its a bloodpusher
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SHES GONNA FUCKING GET ME SCRAM!!! 0_0 (lol)
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has (vriska) always wore knee high converse? if not thats a funny thing to add
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NOOOOO DAVEPETA DONT EXPLODE YOURE TOO AWESOME D:
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LMAOOOOO THE TROLLS FACE WHY IS HE SO D:,
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ahhh partners in D:,-hood
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GET EM GIRL WOOOOO!!!! KILL EM! yiffy 4 the win
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indeed tavvy, indeed 0_0
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im imagining him saying “GET DOWN TAVVY” in the same cadence one would say get down mr president
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can someone with the genesis project put that code in to see what it has (first ones a 4)
(i love this little fourth wall addon with tavvy youth rolling across the scenes)
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LMAO THE LITTLE EYE POP OUT also uncle? is this vrissy’s or yiffy’s? considering jade had it im going with yiffy
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think about him next time you have boba….. smh
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come on tavvy hit a corner cooome on (i like the video shaking here)
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OH NY GOD ITS A JOHN METEOR PANEL FUCK DAMMIT
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they are drawn so cute here in a panel so hard to pause on with 0.25 speed on T_T yiffy here is pfp gold
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holy shit? of course they pull out the fucking painting for something that stupid. it’s beautiful
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aw shit hopenado time
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:0 godtier revives are always so pretty
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IS THAT FUCKING BEC BLANC??????
(yes i think thats a good pun)
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some one tag the gun identification guy we need to figure out what gun vriska is using on (vriska)
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:o he’s actually controlling the hopey shit!!!!!
part 2 cuz the image limit:
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hrrtshape · 2 days ago
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Hey, I am sorry but I really need your help.
I wanna manifest my life to change completely, I cant go on like this.
(lowk tw?? idk not sure, and defenetly tw for bad english I AM SORRY)
I am severely depressed and found out abt shifting in 2020 (regret reading all that missinfo fr). I recently got into the void state because I got desperate. I never shifted or got into the void aware, and lucid dreaming seems hard to me, because as soon as I see I am lucid, I wake up. Now, I heard that the void is very much real, and manifestations happen instantly there. I have been trying for like 3 weeks now and time closes. I NEED to get there tonight or the few weeks. I cant do this anymore, not in this universe. Not like this. I hate it here. Anyway, I am getting off track; sorry. I tried everything: the distraction (failproof) method. But i got so distracted I fell asleep. I tried lying still; but my body was asleep and I was still here. not in the void. I tried ignoring the 3d; fell asleep. Tried like truly acting as if the 4d is my 3d; failed. I know time is not real, yet it is running out for me. Everything goes down hill in my life atm. Its as if I am cursed. My mental illnesses dont make it any better, and dont rlly help me believe in the void/shifting. but I know its real; its my only chance after all lol. Also I heard you dont gotta believe in these things but can still shift/get into the void. So, how to 100% get into the void, tonight? please, I need it really. I'd do whatever it takes.
Love, anon that is abt to crash out and go on a rampage /hj
MWAH MWAH MWAHHH
i know you feel like you’re running out of time, but you’re not. i promise you, you’re not.
i hear you. i really do !!! and i need you to know that shifting, the void, all of it....it’s not your only way out. it might feel like the one golden ticket, but you have options. you have so much more life to live, so many more chances to turn things around, in ways you probably can’t even see yet.
but right now, it sounds like you’re in full fight-or-flight. you’re trying to break out of this reality with sheer desperation alone. and that’s the thing. desperation doesn’t work. not because you’re doing anything wrong, but because it keeps you in a state of lack. if you’re clenching onto the void like a life raft, your mind will keep reinforcing the idea that you need to be saved. and that’s not true.
so here’s what i want you to do. detach, just for tonight. not forever. not even for a full day. just a few hours. let go of the pressure. let go of the “i need to shift tonight.” instead, what if it’s already happening? what if the void is creeping in right now, soft and inevitable, and you just have to let it?
get comfy. put on music. romanticise this moment. even if it’s messy, even if you feel like a wreck. treat tonight like an experiment, not a test you’re going to fail. tell yourself: i’ve already won. i just don’t know it yet.
and please, please, don’t isolate yourself in this !!!!!! shifting is real, yes. but so are you. and you deserve to feel okay in every reality, not just the ones you’re trying to get to. i’m so, so glad you reached out. you’re not alone, okay???? you never were. <3
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ladymirdan · 15 hours ago
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As a horror enjoyer, a gore connoisseur, fictional war criminal apologiser, I think its kind of funny that people become upset that family/self insert stuff squicks me.
As much as I would like to see myself as the supreme arbitrator of what is the correct way to enjoy fandom, I am not.
But I am the one who decides how I enjoy the fandom. Just as you are the one who decides how you want to spend your free time.
I think that blocking people who post what you dont like should become more normalised, and not something that causes drama.
This is the stuff I like:
Reading canon, be it Black Library, codices, white dwarf etc. Character deep dives, talking about character archetypes, message, implications of seemingly small details.
The art. 40k has such a unique aesthetic where ugly and beauty melds together and creates sonething so flavourful. Seeing fanartists interpretation of it is 👌
Passionate people. Do you love your blorbo and have read every single thing about them, please tell me more, even if its a character I dont know. Tell me the themes, the morals of the story. Show me your fic where the character gets the extra screentime it deserves.
Oldhammer. I absolutely love the older works of warhammer where the authors got more freedom to be whacky and do mistakes. It also scratches my brain in a pleasing way to find more obscure and rare lore. I feel like a techpriest finding a new STC.
Space marines. Ultramarines(and its sucessors) and Iron Warriors are my favourite roided up space boys. I love that 40k is such a morally grey universe that allowes for a different kind of story to be told. It keeps it fresh.
Fanfic. Im such a sucker for “missing scene” fic. Im bad at writing it myself, but I looove to read it. I usually never go for AU unless the premise is very close to canon since the universe is what draws me into the fandom in the first place. Angst, horror, bolterporn, all that good stuff.
If you like this stuff as well. Say hello.
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grahstumhurts · 18 hours ago
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𝙄 𝙘𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧
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Manon x Gn!Reader
再也不想诈不知 谁人近日与你干着快乐事 你我之间存着黑影子 假使再拖极为无意义
Angst
Manon has been off, For months. A freezing cold gap between the two of you has been growing larger. Until you find out why.
CW - Mentions of cheating
A/N - I know the song itself isnt really the vibe, But the lyrics themselves are the vibe lol. Dont need to listen to it if its not your vibe since its Canto pop. Just felt like doing something fun! Based off the sandy lam song 灰色 (grey), Translation will be linked at the bottom for the song.
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Things have felt off, For months, A shadow stood between the two of you. It started when Manon, Who had never been secretive once in your relationship, Suddenly changed her phone password. Things increasingly grew weirder over the weeks. Of course you had a gut feeling that something was off about her, But you trusted her enough to stay loyal, Even when times were tough in your relationship. She had always leaned on you when she needed help and you reciprocated that, You trusted her with every molecule in your body. But when she started leaving in the middle of the night while she thought you were sleeping, Driving off somewhere unknown, Something told you to investigate. When you found her entering a hotel, A woman was waiting outside for her, Hugging her tight and kissing her. It obviously stung, But the amount of energy you had put into your relationship for her to go and throw it away. She had sucked the life out of your heart, The colour drained only leaving a grey monotone in its place. You sat at your once warm home, Shared with who you thought was the love of your life, And waited. Waited for her to come back. Waited for her to come back and realise what she had done.
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As soon as the door closed at around 3 am, You hopped out of bed. The restlessness kept you awake, You opened the bedroom door to see Manon, Sweat sheen, Lipstick stain on her collarbone, Who stood there stunned. 
“How long” You sternly said with conviction in your voice. “How long have you been fucking other girls behind my back” She stared back at you, The girl who you had shared your first’s with, First relationship,  First time having sex, First time moving in together, Stood before you. Guilt dripping on her sex covered ledger. 
“I'm sorry” You see her eyes, glistening with tears about to fall, “I know i shouldn't have, But i just couldn't anymore.” 
“Sorry, is all you have to say for yourself?!” You yelled, “Manon, I tried to ignore all the signs, “Maybe its a one time thing, Or shes not even cheating”, Fuck i loved you. I thought you loved me too.” You sigh, Rubbing your forefinger and thumb across your forehead. 
“Please, Baby, Give me another chance. I promise i wont fuck it up.” She pleads, Practically begging. 
“You ruined all  your chances by fucking another girl behind my back,” You push her shoulders “I dont wanna love a liar. Fuck, Manon. I don't wanna see your face right now.” You turn to face away from her. 
“Please, I'm begging you.” She cries, Her tears streaming down the face you once kissed with all the love your body could create. “I love you, y/n. Please”
“Pack your fucking things before i throw them out of the house.” You quietly mutter, “You better be out of here before I get back,” You say, walking out of the apartment. 
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When you get to your usual coffee spot, Your stunned to find Manon. Laughing along with a new girlfriend. It had been two months. She looked like you, She looked at Manon like she held up the stars and the moon that shine in the night sky. You tried to stay away from your old spots of habit from when you were with her. But like a magnetic force, She couldn't stay far enough away from you. Maybe part of you still missed that vigorous feeling of love that she gave you. You hated yourself for not being able to break through that grey feeling from your break up, You knew what was best for you was to move on from her. To realise how much better life was after her, And before her. But the broken memories of your time together still held places in your brain, etched into your skull.
Let me be the history, So you can move on
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blossomzip · 3 days ago
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realized i could not fit all my screaming in the tags—and because you took the time to compile thirteen poems you deserve screaming for all thirteen of them!! (actually this is highkey incoherent but......hay)
Isn't Every Love Poem an Unfinished Love Poem?, Cristin O'Keefe Aptowicz — from seungcheol
“praise the caps / of your shoulders, my lips / pressed against them.” is sooooo work song!csc coded and im on my knees. Love that art would stop in its tracks for when it appears. HELP ME. (AND THE WAY THE POEM JUST CUTS OFF W ONE LINE AT THE LAST STANZA LIKE ITS UNFINISHED RAHHHH)
If I Had Three Lives, Sarah Russell — from jeonghan
“to remember what skin feels like / when it’s alive.” quoting kae, is this not yjh!!!! this poem feels like the evil twin of better half, esp: “And I’d wonder sometimes / if I’d ever find you.” (when I come after u kae I too know your govt name and where u live WAG AKO)
True Love, Sharon Olds — from joshua
Again, this feels like ur hozier js fic (worship in the bedroom) (I love the u/ylangelegy cinematic universe!!) oh to love a joshua who is also your best friend, to be so comfortable with all aspects of life, spiritual, carnal, romantic, etc. “I cannot see beyond it. I cannot see beyond it.” Because this is everything already!! The most blessed time of [his] life!!!! (dont even get me started on the religious implications of that word choice vis a vis christian boy jisoo)
February & my love is in another state, José Olivarez — from junhui
The way this got me gagged from the first line—“when I walk down the street, I hold hands / with the wind.” JUNHUI MY SWEET MAN……. “sky so honey, I could almost taste it.” [wailing] JUNHUIIIII……. jun giving you a poem with “stay with me.” BYE I CANT DO THIS RN. in love & in solitude.....my wen junhui.......
Variations on the Word Love, Margaret Atwood — from soonyoung
Imagine ksy giving u this poem and it’s your first read ,, youre like 😦🙁 at the first half LMAOOO my guy is gonna be like JUST HEAR ME OUT— until u get to the second half. (Then there’s the two / of us.) ;; Ohhhmylord: “this word is not enough but it will / have to do.” “in wonder / and pain, a breath, a finger / grip on a cliffside.” Fall, but not into fear; into love. my ksy who stands tall in the face of fear etc
The Leash, Ada Limón — from wonwoo
a jww x ada limon poetry alignment with “I want to say: Don’t die.” and “Don’t die, I say,” SHOULD BE A PUNISHABLE OFFENSE. WHAT DO U MEANNNNN. KAEEE WHEN I CATCH YOU!!!! “Perhaps we are always hurtling our body towards / the thing that will obliterate us, begging for love / from the speeding passage of time” IF JWW GAVE ME THIS POEM I WOULD SOB. oh to love with eyes wide open, to see disaster in the world yet remain tender. (intrusive thought: apocalypse au jww)
You Do Not Have To Love Me, Leonard Cohen — from jihoon
LJH AND LEONARD COHEN DO U WANT ME TO DIEEEEEE. imagine a songwriter gifting you a poem from another songwriter I WANT TO DIE (2). the title alone is so jihoon. “while I am still / the many men who love you” oh my ljh you are both one of a kind and a man of multitudes. “I prayed that you would love me / and that you would not love me” STOP IT RNNN!!!! why is this so in the mood for love coded. 
Watching you talk on the phone, I consider the empty space around atoms–, Rhiannon McGavin — from seokmin
lsm + domestic intimacy in the kitchen. so u want me to pass away. “I am enough / of you to warrant this flavor of intimacy” hit me harder than it had any right to YES YOU ARE ENOUGH OF ME LEE SEOKMIN MY LOVELY SUNSHINE BOY…..the last three lines (YOU’D CREATE ANOTHER UNIVERSE) has me running laps cos when will I get an everyday kind of romance…..bonus: w lee seokmin……..[nurse may baliw po]
O Small Sad Ecstasy of Love, Anne Carson — from mingyu
First of all. KIM MINGYU AND AN ANNE CARSON POEM HAS TO BE A CRIME. “I did a road trip / all over my mind and heart / and / there you were” is so uklg “all journey is return” coded . WITH YOUR LITTLE TOOLKIT / FIXING SOMETHING. Stop It . mingyu being both the clumsy type and one who shows love by acts of service (cooking, cleaning, helping his members etc) ++ THIS. all journey is return and I will find you quietly building and rebuilding and repairing!!!
The Quiet World, Jeffrey McDaniel — from minghao
in my head this is the lost in translation couple coded u cannot argue w me. the title alone?!?!!?!? hao saving his words for his most precious person…I rmr thinking of him as the most mysterious member even at the start so this is just Doing Something for me… being gifted a poem by hao with “I slowly whisper I love you / thirty-two and a third times.” (firm believer that his last word would be YOU—not i or love but YOU!!!! bc u are his love [wails])…… oh my xu minghao you are so dear to me…..your love is as steadfast as the sunrise
A Walk Round the Park, Sandra Lim — from seungkwan
“I laugh, because the pleasure was earned // yet vouchsafed, / and I made room for what was dead past and what // yet didn’t // exist.” MAN. what a line for bsk ,, oh to love and fast forward to the good part, knowing that you have endured the hardships!! “I was not always kind, but I // was clear.” IS SOOOO HIM !!! #1 communicator bsk (who will always try to be kind but will not always succeed, but oh he tries to clarify himself always)
Guilty of Dust, Frank Bidart — from vernon
LISTENNNN i love the thought of Vernon gravitating toward contemporary poetry—esp the more experimental ones in format. AND THIS POEM CHOICEEEEEEE!! kae I love your brain. “forgetful of my very self so often I / desired to die to myself to live in them” is this not chwe vernon coded. the thought of vernon gifting WHAT YOU LOVE IS YOUR FATE and you are each other’s love (and therefore fate) bye I rly cant do this.
First Date, Megan Williams — from chan
A first date poem for chan are u kidding me. also the imagery of this is reminding me of that one time he was on a show n he met up w and drove (?) a carat as part of a segment and . im not okay. “The bridges in this city are famous & / terrible. My love is too.” + “All my / life, I’ve been pivoting to emptiness.” LEE CHAN GET BEHIND ME…… but the thought of chan gifting you a poem w “I want the warmth of your gaze to / convince me that living is worth the / discomfort.” + “…is a small price to pay for a hand in mine.” is SOOOOO…!!!! love in the every day…to bear discomfort, not to say it disappears with a lover's presence, but simply that discomfort is made worth it.....dont touch me rn.
svt & love poems they'd give you.
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★ footnotes: decided to marry the two halves of my heart this valentine's: svt and poetry. this is unashamedly inspired by the brilliant @heartepub, whose constant intersection of svt x poetry inspires me to no end. viv, you are an entire poem in itself; i would give you all the pretty words in the world, if i could. + happy carat day, everyone!
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seungcheol ★ Isn't Every Love Poem an Unfinished Love Poem?, Cristin O'Keefe Aptowicz
Praise the caps of your shoulders, my lips pressed against them.
Praise the poem I was trying to finish when you showed up
at my door.
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jeonghan ★ If I Had Three Lives, Sarah Russell
If I had three lives, I'd marry you in two. The other? Perhaps that life over there at Starbucks, sitting alone, writing—a memoir, maybe a novel or this poem. […] I'd walk the beach at sunrise, find perfect shell spirals and study pockmarks water makes in sand. And I'd wonder sometimes if I'd ever find you.
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joshua ★ True Love, Sharon Olds
I quietly call to you and you come and hold my hand and I say I cannot see beyond it. I cannot see beyond it.
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junhui ★ February & my love is in another state, José Olivarez
stay with me. while the sky is still golden, hold the ladder so i can climb, & from the highest rung, i can scrape away a drizzle of light to wear around my neck. alone
is the star i follow. in love & in solitude: alone is the home with the warmest glow.
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soonyoung ★ Variations on the Word Love, Margaret Atwood
This word is far too short for us, it has only four letters, too sparse to fill those deep bare vacuums between the stars that press on us with their deafness. It's not love we don't wish to fall into, but that fear. this word is not enough but it will have to do.
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wonwoo ★ The Leash, Ada Limón
But sometimes, I swear I hear it, the wound closing like a rusted-over garage door, and I can still move my living limbs into the world without too much pain, can still marvel at how the dog runs straight toward the pickup trucks break-necking down the road, because she thinks she loves them, because she’s sure, without a doubt, that the loud roaring things will love her back,
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jihoon ★ You Do Not Have To Love Me, Leonard Cohen
I wrote all these songs for you I burned red and black candles shaped like a man and a woman I married the smoke of two pyramids of sandalwood I prayed for you I prayed that you would love me and that you would not love me
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seokmin ★ Watching you talk on the phone, I consider the empty space around atoms–, Rhiannon McGavin
To make my birthday cake from scratch, you wouldn’t just plant strawberries: you’d create another universe. I wanted you
warm and close as fresh laundry and here we are, Tuesday. Of course you love me, you’re wearing one of my socks.
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mingyu ★ O Small Sad Ecstasy of Love, Anne Carson
I did a road trip all over my mind and heart and there you were kneeling by the roadside with your little toolkit fixing something.
Give me a world, you have taken the world I was.
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minghao ★ The Quiet World, Jeffrey McDaniel
Late at night, I call my long distance lover, proudly say I only used fifty-nine today. I saved the rest for you.
When she doesn’t respond, I know she’s used up all her words, so I slowly whisper I love you thirty-two and a third times.
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seungkwan ★ A Walk Round the Park, Sandra Lim
We did not say much to each other but
we grinned, because this love was so good you sucked the
rib bones
and I licked my fingers like a cat.
Now I’m omniscient. I’m going to skip past
the hard
parts that go on for a very long time.
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vernon ★ Guilty of Dust, Frank Bidart
the voice in my head said
LOVE IS THE DISTANCE BETWEEN YOU AND WHAT YOU LOVE
WHAT YOU LOVE IS YOUR FATE
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chan ★ First Date, Megan Williams
I want the warmth of your gaze to convince me that living is worth the discomfort. That other people can like me. That the bottlenecked bridge full of squealing tires & suckers who can't merge is a small price to pay for a hand in mine.
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mochasucculent · 2 months ago
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Was looking at refs and since Viktor has two different leg braces I was wondering, do we think he wears them simultaneously?? The refs don't perfectly line up perspective-wise so it's hard to tell but parts of the one he wears during the Hexcore scenes look like they could maybe line up with the brace that he wears over his clothes, but also some parts really don't and look like they'd be super uncomfy. Also HOW does he take these on and off. Experts weigh in
#viktor#arcane#ig my assumption would be that he wears both simultaneously cause in the scene where he injects the shimmer#it seems implied that he just threw off his clothes and kept experimenting#so one might assume he was already wearing the smaller one underneath#tho it is a funny image to think of him just being like 'one sec i gotta go all the way home and grab my other brace to do this'#he can take off the back brace too cause hes not wearing it in the scene where he's in the hospital bed and you can see his shoulder#where the strap would be#but that one seems to make even less sense functionality wise#everything looks like its screwed together#or screwed INTO him#but only the top bolts on his spine are i think#in the close ups of his back brace model it looks like theres cushioning underneath the parts of it that cover the rest of his spine#so he can take it off. but HOW#what parts of it unscrew/detatch to pull open and off#does it not do that at all and he just has to shimmy it off his shoulder and all the way down his legs to get it off like a romper#the shape language of the designs are cool but like. tell me how it wooorrkkksss#forgive me if im just dumb and dont know at all how braces work and theres a very simple practical explanation for all this#any king who wants to infodump about mobility aids at me....the floor is yours#something to be said i suppose about the fact that zaunites have crazy prosthetics with wild augmentations that work flawlessly#and piltover's like. idk heres some fucking uncomfortable ass metal. salo gets wheelchair in non ada compliant place#they havent ever needed to adapt to accommodate disabilities etc etc#or maybe artists were just like 'heres a design' and everybody clapped and didnt give it a second thought#and then they just turned off the visibility on the mesh when they didnt need it knowing thered not be a scene where its taken off#dont even wanna THINK about what that rig would look like#like 40 different controllers#soft body and rigid hard surfaces needing to move together....#a cold chill just shot up my spine#<- guy who is only an animator and doesnt know how to rig#forgive the magic wand tool with zero cleanup. i am lazy
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