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Count Dictator Cait bc i felt like it,
i wanted to draw arcane and it was the first reference i found
She is pretty badass tho
#also its not my best drawing#i just wanted to draw#okay#i dont got enough practice#drawing females#goes crie#arcane#caitlyn kiramman#arcane show#drawing#art#sketch#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#arcane season two#arcane s2
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Taking pride in One's own appearance.
#you people are becoming my guinea pigs for my finally learning how to communicate information via comics. a thing ive needed to practice at#also BLEGH. YUCK. andrew hussie was right candy makes you sick. this is a little too saccharine for me. yeesh. let me get back to the meat.#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time#in stars and time spoilers#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#doodlebyte#'let me get back to the meat' i say eyeing something similarly sickly in my sketches. at least it's mildly tormented as a counterbalance...#you people have no idea how much im having to stay my own hand. oh i can draw miserable nudity but the most basic of fluff? visceral#anyway i dont know the logistics of picking up a glass eye or where loop got money (besides pilfering from siffrin) & ive previously drawn#sif with a vague blank middle-grey eye as either being scarred over or a blank occular prosthesis put in quickly at the nearest town#i dont know that they'd have a glass eye during the game but considering prosthesis are reccomended to keep the skull etc from deforming#id imagine it would probably come up postgame as something to do now theyre not on a time limit trying to save the country#plus i assume that having it gouged at by a sadness wasnt exactly a clean wound by any measure#all this to say. idk i just wanted to get some information across in comic form to Test my Abilities#and we're far enough down now to say my absolute most wretchingly sweet fluff headcanon that actually inspired this#which is that i think siffrin gets into the habit of not wearing the eyepatch around loop so they kinda match.#and as a signifier to the other that they're letting their guard down around them. vulnerability etc.#just kinda wearing it around their neck so they don't lose it
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Doing master studies the only way I know how: Stealing them and making them my guys.
(Barberini Faun)
(The Fallen Angel - Alexandre Cabanel)
(Covent Garden - William Bruce Ellis Rankin)
#obviously. not actually theft...#i was gonna say these are public domain but covent garden actually isnt yet#it will be. in two years.#thats the most different one though like i added a whole new guy..#maybe not the most different. barberini faun is pretty different i just took the post#pose#its barely even a study. thats not true#but. what was i saying.#oh its not theft it's study... the purpose is to learn!!! but also. if im gonna spend like 2 days on something...#its GONNA be my guys#otherwise. idk. i only want to spend 30 or so minutes per study#just to get the notes down and the practice for the skill im working on#i dont get all that much more out of completely rendering a master study. PERSONALLY.#at least definitely not enough to be worth taking 100x longer#but making them my characters makes it worth going all the way!!!#plus it's good practice w like. not just going 1:1 but actually genuinely interpreting whats there so i can manipulate it...#again. personally. this is just how i worm#WORK#youd better worm bitch#uhm... anyways yeah. ive done lots of study but why TF share it LMAO i dont even save it#its just to learn. ive got 1 million other drawings to save and look at later.#once the learning is done it's done its job and i have no need anymore#this is why the only studies i have are from school. i had to save and upload them#well. ok also i dont study as much now BUT in my defense im a full time artist#an hour or so a week is different ok im learning while working too.. i learned how to learn and i do it all the time now#master studies#digital art#my art#illustration#my ocs
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i adore ur engie having a chord tail so re: requests how does spy feel about/interact with it
he'd mostly think it's endearing, part of Dell's silly charm. sort of like when you see a puppy
sometimes Dell uses it to get Spy' attention, or to make sure he's still with him and Spy sometimes uses it to make sure Dell doesn't impulse buy a set of power drills or a tablesaw
though, no matter how much spy thinks the tail is cute, he knows it was designed out a desperation.
things rarely go without complications when dealing with amputation and prostetics - things like phantom pain or conectivity issues and basically an every day issue Dell will be forever insecure about the fact he can't just engineer it all away, he definitely regrets cutting half his arm off.
so he designed the tail as a way to counter his weakness. but what if Dell doesn't just stop at the tail? what if he tries to mess with his anatomy further? what if he ends up doing something that irreversably destroys his body? sure he's an engineer, but not a medical proffesional.
what if the pain becomes unbearable for Dell though? what if further modifications are necessary for him to live in peace? will Dell know when to stop? Will Spy know when to draw the line? when to put his foot down?
what if Dell loses himself to the idea that he can elliminate all that is wrong with him with mods like this? what if this is just the beginning?
for now it's probably fine. probably
#ummmm#i kinda blacked out at the end there#my bad#anyways waouw look at this cute engiespy guys what no theres nothing under the cut dont worry#tf2#tf2 fanart#doodle dump#engineer tf2#spy tf2#engiespy#gunslinger#chord tail#practical espionage#napoleon complex#it's kinde cringe because its hashtag deep and angsty#but i just like the theme of losing yourself to the fascination of upgrading yourself to the point of no return#like when do you stop being human you know#or when do you draw the line of “i'm at my best” and “this is enough for me”#or do you not draw one at all and do you strive for perfection#something something theme of flesh weak machine stronk#anyways im gonna go grab some food because i forgot to eat all day cus i got a little fixated on this idea#have fun#also snail i made all this angst just fir you because you seem like the type of person to like angst#also no beta we die like men
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Carbuncle amigurumi!
#puyo puyo#carbuncle puyo puyo#amigurumi#im not great at crocheting but i finally feel brave enough to share some of my projects#i got into crocheting so i could make plushies because i dont have enough of those#i gotta keep practicing so i can eventually make amigurumis of my ocs >:3
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HEAVY TF2 TUMMY !! !! !!
heavy weapons guy save me
#im sorry thiz took so long work would not unhand me#i got so excited when i saw thiz in my inbox XD#tf2#tf2 heavy#i hope thiz is okay i dont practice drawing shirtless bodiez enough >.<#🔥.art#askz
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Primadonna gurl
#doodle#art practice#kraken tackles bodies part 9389392#i dont think i got her... butch enough#i wanted to give her like. a thicker body?#plus sized but like im bad at it#i think fubuki should allowed to be a little bulky#as a treat!#critique and advice would be appreciated but please be nice#fubuki tenjoin#hmm no#shes not as butchy as she is in my vision#back to the drawing board#SHES STILL TOO SKINNY RRRAAAAHHH
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hate when my dad calls me kiddo. love when my coach calls me kid
#my coach is the best father figure ive ever had#and ive had 3 so far#the one first was nice but i was so young when he and my mum broke up that i dont really have many memories of him#and so he hasnt really had a lasting influence on me#but i know he tried to be a father to me and ill always appreciate that#the second gave me fucking ptsd after he and my mum got into a heated fight one time#but aside from that he was nice but just a big kid and not really a role model imo#then theres my coach#the kindest man alive to me and my friend who are both sorely lacking in father figures#he is always looking out for us and being such a good person we can turn to#always motivating us and just being what a parent should be#we joke we were his practice kids#honestly love him so much#but yea im calculating how many years my dad has left to live at the rate hes going (heavy smoker and alcoholic)#and im hoping i never lose this relationship i have with my coach because hes just an incredible person to have in my life#anywhooo#idk why i went off like that#way to infodump on innocent people just trying to scroll#im the person in the car at the drive thru and whoever is unlucky enough to read this is the cashier or whatever
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Hi!!! <33333 Love your blog as someone who sometimes has difficulty grasping metaphors in hannibal because they all talk so weirdly and english is not my first language and sometimes im genuinely dumb </33 anyway i wanted to ask you what do you think was going inside hannibals when he took mason verger to will’s house, abondoning will even though he was unconcious in enemy grounds, and fed his dogs mason’s face?? Like what is he thinking “hi honey welcome home hope you like my surprise you wanted to punish him right tee hee <3” and will just gets turned on by this? LIKE WHATS GOING ON?😭😭😭😭😭 its one of my fav scenes and i dont even get… like the meaning of it, or their motivations, or what it worked as a metaphor? Like if could you maybe share your opinions on that scene or maybe an analysis would be nice? want to hear your thoughs 🥰 thank you so muchh hope u have a nice day!!
(there is a tldr at the end of this!)
okay first of all thank you for all your kind words they absolutely made my day <3333333 i so appreciate people asking me for my thoughts on specific scenes like u dont even know. and LOL yes that scene is really weird and when i first saw this i had to talk it through with my friend bc i was like…. yeah wait what WAS he thinking? LMAO but here is my best answer:
this whole episode is basically will taunting hannibal (telling mason hannibal wants to kill him, putting a "snare around [his] neck", asking hannibal if hannibal can tell what will's intention are, telling hannibal he did this because he was "curious what would happen," etc). i could even go so far as to say hes giving hannibal a taste of his own medicine. i find the decision to make a hannibal lecter-esque scene of will preparing his homemade dog food (which ive always assumed was randall tier's remains) directly before he gets picked up by mason a curious parallel, maybe even making a point that will is starting to act like hannibal? or just foreshadowing that will's dogs are gonna be fed some weird shit later lol, or both.
anyways, the scene of mason being high on whatever hannibal gave him, and cutting his face off and feeding it to the dogs before getting his neck broken, is directly taken from the actual book. i think theres a few different things that are significant about hannibal deciding to do this specifically in will's house, though:
first is theatricality, obviously. hannibal loves shock value.
second, it could be a symbol of hannibal's unending and pervasive presence in will's life and mind — this is the first time we've seen will and hannibal in will's own home at the same time. hannibal’s presence in will’s life extends to will’s home. i think the only other time we see them together in will's home is when hannibal saves will from the verger estate, and will rejects hannibal.
third, alana has always said that will's dogs represent the best of will. by hannibal making mason feed his face to will's dogs, this could be like hannibal "tainting" the best parts of will. soaking into every corner of his mind, his life, his soul. also to my point, hannibal says that he "broadened [will's dogs] palates, as [he] broadened [will's]." — there is no corner of will's life that hannibal doesn't touch.
however, just as that scene could be representative of hannibal having a very large amount of power over will's life, the rest of the episode could be representative of will having just as much power over hannibal. hannibal was quite literally helpless in that straitjacket, a direct result of will's actions (unless hannibal is a magician too and knows how to escape one… which i honestly wouldn't be surprised by). and only escaped because will cut him free. similar to how will was helpless in prison, and only got out because hannibal let him go. will can be a puppet master just like hannibal. they are in equilibrium, to a point. before, will was always on the short end, being manipulated by hannibal, being in prison, etc, but in this half of the season we see them (almost) being equals. as hannibals says earlier in the episode, they understand each others minds, and so hannibal has "the capacity to deceive [will], just as [will] has the capacity to deceive [hannibal]."
as for their motivations:
multiple times in this episode, hannibal is trying to gauge how willing will would be to kill with hannibal. "would you join me at the table?" when talking about eating mason verger, and killing him being a "savage pleasure [they] can share." each time, will avoids the obvious propositions. hannibal taking mason to will's house could also be him trying to gauge how will would react when they are in the same room with a potential victim (if will would share the 'savage pleasure' with him?). at this point, i dont think that had ever happened before. will killed randall tier alone, lied about killing freddie alone, shot hobbs alone. they've never been together in this situation. and aren’t in this situation again until the dragon fight. hannibal probably brought mason to will's house knowing this would happen, and so he could really gauge how will feels about killing together, or at least in hannibal's presence.
not to mention will obviously wants mason dead. will likes doing bad things to bad people because it makes him feel good. thats why he makes that face in 2x07 when he has a gun to hannibal's head in hannibal's kitchen, and why he makes that same face when he has a knife to hannibal's throat earlier in this episode. i could maybe go so far as to call him a sadist. he likes having that feeling of power, as he tells abigail in 1x12.
i think this is why he looks "turned on" (lol) as you said. he enjoys seeing bad people in vulnerable positions, especially when he holds the power. i think hannibal knows this, too. maybe this was some kind of gift from hannibal? maybe he didn't want to kill mason without will present; giving will the chance to kill the man he knows will hates so much. but also because hannibal, of course, was curious what will would do.
but now will is curious what hannibal will do as well, so he tells hannibal to "do what [he] thinks is best for [mason]," and hannibal obliges easily. he doesn't choose murder or mercy for mason, though, and breaks his neck and leaves him alive in that terrible state. will looks… pleased? by this, i think. (again, sadist). he and hannibal smile at each other as hannibal walks to mason to break his neck. hannibal seems pleased as well at will's reaction and the outcome of the situation.
as i said before, they are, in a way, equals for the first time in this part of the season (which is also symbolized by them being happy little cannibals together at the end of 2x10). this episode is partly them getting to fuck with each other and will reciprocating the fuckery that hannibal was disproportionately doing to will before this point, to be crass. will is, as alana says in 2x06 "playing a game, and he's not scared. not anymore." hannibal bringing mason to will’s house was part of the game they’re playing with each other.
TLDR: hannibal taking mason to will's house could be for theatricality, a symbol of hannibal's presence in will's life (even invading his home), and tainting the "best parts of will" (his dogs). as for hannibal's more personal motivations, hannibal is gauging how will would act while they are in the same room with a potential victim (first time this ever happens, and last until dolarhyde), and possibly be a gift from hannibal because he knows will wants mason dead? as for will's feelings in this moment, he was definitely feeling good because a "bad thing" was being done to a "bad person" and he likes being in that position of power. will putting hannibal in the position (straitjacket in the verger estate) where will has that power over hannibal is will fucking with hannibal, and yet again lets himself get so close to killing hannibal, because he enjoys the feeling. hannibal reciprocates this fuckery by bringing mason to will's house. they are both orchestrating these situations because they are both curious about what will happen, and they are doing this as equals.
edit: not the first time theyve been together with a potential victim, i forgot about clark ingram, but it is the first time theyve been together with a potential victim which ended up harmed/dead by either of their hands! unless im forgetting someone else lol
#sorry this got a bit ramble-y but thats my brand atp#my tldr needs a tldr#LMAO#but i hope this was good for you!!#i appreciate the question it made me think of some new ideas about this episode#oh also i dont have an answer for why he left will unconscious at the verger estate#that is weird#maybe he made sure that nobody else was there?#or thought will could handle himself#idk#nbc hannibal isnt big on practicalities#this isnt perfect but im trying to be okay with that bc i havent been posting bc i feel like i cant write anything good enough#hannibal#nbc hannibal#nbc hannibal analysis#tome-wan#hannibal 2x12#hannibal lecter#mason verger#will graham#hannibal analysis#hannibal meta#nbc hannibal meta#pluto analyzes#pluto answers
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i read that you don’t find iga/karo that compelling, but i have to know if you’ve read ‘the fine line’ by delacourt on ao3. like that fic is so well done even if u don’t ship it 😭 i highly recommend it because it’s a beautiful piece of fiction (and personally it turned me into a karo/iga truther) :)
oh i have read it and i greatly enjoyed it. dont get me wrong, not being 100% on a ship does not mean i wont read it or even that i wont casually ship it/have fun with it. mostly it just means i wont write it myself or explore the dynamic on my own. but that whole series was very good, plus i love both karo and iga so much that it wouldn't have even mattered if i wasn't into shipping them because i'll take any fics i can get 😭
#i actually had an idea for another fic which would include karo and iga as a side plot but ive got too many wips right now#so that one would come much further down the line and might end up getting abandoned#but my point is just because im not 100% sold on karo/iga doesn't mean i don't like it or that i wont read it or anything!#ive mean ive made at least a couple jokes on here about them because...lol#and that press conference where karo talked about iga supporting her after her surgery and went back and recounted each of their meetings..#LMFAO. that was funny and very gay. and their practice at uso was iconic#but i guess my biggest thing is i just see their chemistry as much more of a like...#'we're friends and we're both gay and single and we dont know any other gays who are single and we get along well enough that--#--we might as well have fun with it while were here'#but not as much of a truly in-love romance. idk. does this make sense??#BUT. the fine line is really good. and from that i do See The Vision
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How’s life? No pressure question ofc, but if you want to share please feel free to do so with this ask :3
Eh, it doesn't feel all that great right now. I'm tired and hungry a lot, but I just have to get a routine together. My sleep has been wonky, I've been waking up too early, but I feel fine then but it also feels like I can't rest completely- I have dreamless nights mostly. And I also just get annoyed a lot, but it feels better being around people I like.
#my father is upset today too cause I couldn't hang out with him#I talked to a social worker at school a few days ago just for check in and in my opinion I still feel bad even talking to her#it's been a rough week and I'm not sure what to do except deal with it and move on#I like to draw still#I dont want to get tired of it#I mean at least I'm doing productive things like laundry and showering#I'm gonna have spaghetti today that's a good thing#I'll have clean sheets for my bed that's good too#I got presents a day earlier and that's good#I like listing the positives#It kinda gives me ideas for writing#I really wanna eat all these positive things i mean the feeling it gives me in itself#I really love the good things I don't ever want to lose them#I'm actually gonna try to make a doll bunny today#I got dug up old fabrics in my room so I can experiment with something new#I'd list more good things but I'd sound kinda weird doing that in the tags#I should probably journal again but my mind blanks when I try but I'll figure it out#I mean poetry and fanfiction is always an outlet#I gotta practice that more often#There still a ways to go in life so obviously it'll change eventually it always does#And it's only one of many weeks so I can't be too doubtful#It can't always be the worst#Feeling the same feels awful#No matter the emotion it kinda turns numb if you feel it long enough#Days are always changing though since everybody is doing different things everyday all the time#Like most say 'it gets better' eventually#I guess I can wait for a good day#I have no choice sooo I'll let whatever happen#Well technically I can make it happen#I'll feel better when I made myself dinner and cleaned my bed and put away my laundry and put on fuzzy socks and go to sleep
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Listening to my liked songs on shuffle is dangerous bc sometimes ghost quartet songs come on without warning and then i have to go insane about ghost quartet again
#the astronomer!!!! is a good song!!!!#im confounded by music by babies and laughter by stories and goodness infinity and luck!#im confused by the notion that somebody loves me and drugs make me crazy and a clairvoyant told me once ive got an old soul#oh lord i wish i could sing like that!!!! but i dont practice enough!!!!#bel speaks
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good lord theres like three different fandoms trying to take up real estate in my mind right now
it's like im in a room full of cats and three of them are just weaving between your legs and meowing for attention, and youre holding a steamy cup of burnout in one hand that your DESPERATELY trying not to spill on them so you only really have one hand available to actually give them attention--
i. i think my chronic online-ness is reaching new heights without the deadlines.
#theres a few others on the periphery but theres three main ones#jonny sims is trying to take the 'disheveled academic that got a little too tied up with the supernatural' spotlight from ford#so far he is failing though#mainly cause i dont listen to podcasts all that often and TMA is one of those that i like. LISTEN listen to#i think the portal fandom stuff hasnt locked onto me fully yet#only cause I want to practice drawing the characters before I start anything big with them#and i just sorta ✨ dont wanna ✨#well--more so that its gonna take some effort for me to pick up the sketchbook again#and it was hard enough to get the drawing tablet back out#idk this is long and rambly and has basically just ebcome a vent post but hey#ya gotta do what ya gotta do i guess#dont burn yourself out kids#be careful#especially with the things that bring you joy#cause it fucking sucks when the thing that makes you happy starts hurting you instead#moderation is your friend#k bye <3
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I never see Sebs posts until like hours later when I come on here and eventually see it and it's just like OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SEB!!!!!!!!!!! YOU CANT KEEP DOING THIS TO ME!!!!!!!!!! SEB ON HIS SHOULDERS 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 SUCH AN UNDERRATED MOMENT AND THEN HE JUST CASUALLY POSTS IT ON HIS INSTA OUT OF ALL OTHER PICS HE COULD'VE CHOSEN!!!!!!!! AND HE TAGGED MARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM LOSING IT AAAAAHHHHH
#liks this is literally his first home race#and yet he posts the first pic of him and mark's beginning pr shenanigans#like seriously the grip the pics/clip of this have had on me since i first got into martian#i think about it soooooooo much bcs how could you not think of mark literally holding baby twink seb on top of his shoulders#LIKE HES LITERALLY SITTING ON HIS SHOULDERS??????? HE GOT ON TOP OF MARK?????? AND MARK HAD TO HOLD ONTO HIS THIGHS?????#just one of those pics that gives me maximum psychic damage every time i think abt it anf i have to go look at it#i cannot emphasize enough that MARK IS HOLDING SEB!!!!!!!!!!#anyways its sat in my brain a while and now its on sebs insta so i dont know what im supposed to do with myself under these circumstances#please please god im begging that he posts one of their date pictures for Singapore 2008 please seb if you could do one thing#then again he and mark are practically running their own martian blog atp so im expecting it hahaha#i mean if there was nothing else worthwhile to post for his *home race* then why would singapore be any different#i wake up late and i dont check insta very often so ill be scrolling on here for a bit after i wake up and BOOM#hits me like an absolute freight train every single time and i have to go open insta bcs i cant believe it#home field advantage w a pic of him sitting on mark.....is he your home.......is he your advantage#anyways: catie is not okay and is filled with many emotions#catie.rambling.txt
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I dont wanna go to choir practice, i wanna draw zosan
#i just finished reading a fic and it got me so inspired#but i dont have enough time to draw before practice starts damn it
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anyways. holding linebeck gently
#some assorted untagged linebeck thoughts tonight cuz hey why not its been a Day of ups and downs and he’s been there in my mind#sometime this month i do want to make some images of him w/ the pride flags of my hcs so general gay and then mlm and then intersex#general post ph crew rundown theres linebeck and then damien is bi and trans and bellum doesnt fucking care and link is figuring it out#so its half we got it and half man i have other things to worry about#i feel like you put linebeck and midna in a room and they are gay/lesbian buddies mlm/wlw solidarity thats what they are to me#anyways. revisited my post abt possession aftermath effects. you can probably tell i enjoy hurt/comfort/whump#smth darkly funny to me abt extremely sick and delirious linebeck and worried link kinda hanging out in his room#with link being like i bet youll be fine!!! you’re recover youre fine. and linebeck just saying kid i have rabies symptoms#anyways he lives hes fine he survives the magic squid rabies. to calm the characters nerves and my own ive decided that once hes well enoug#linebeck and link decide to visit the fairy queen to get some kinda divine checkup and to get the closure of. linebeck is fine he’s fine#nothing malicious is lingering youre good just. get some more bed rest#i do like the idea that when hes got some minor injury to the degree of some little papercur linebeck is incredibly bitchy and whatnot#and then when he’s in genuine danger of dying he’s eerily chill abt it. while recovering from possession one day when he can walk he just#chills on the deck when theres no breeze just smoking. ofc hes terrified inside but fuck if hes going to be obvious abt it (when lucid)#could tie that to his trauma n whatever ig but rn i dont have the energy to really think on it idk hes had enough bad injuries#and has found that when hes actively distressed crying out and whatnot didnt really get people to help#like its smth he learned early on his brother was there and there was just enough but like yknow. wasnt ingrained ig#thats a different thing to be lumped into the idea of him learning that its fine to be more vulnerable abt what you feel n need n want#prob smth he practices with link i mean damien is good but he needs to learn to listen instead of assume for that first bit#uhhh. earlier today i almost made a vent post but didnt but i think the gist was god i need to stop comparing other loz things to my iwn#bc it never never ends well. anyways. uhhh. came up with a possible post ph story arc for bellum n link#and decided to revive an older one with link and linebeck. post ph is really really just its own thing tbh#ofc meant to be a sorta fan sequel thing but between the disregarding of canon sequel stuff and not really adhering to the feeling n whatno#its just its own thing and i like it. ill prob delete this later
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