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tardis--dreams · 1 year ago

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The most annoying thing that ever happened in university was my Phonology lecturer saying [θ] is a plosive. Literally nothing will ever compare to the outrage i felt in this moment.

#the worst part is she got it right initially going 'here we have a fricative :)' me: :) she: wait no! [θ] is a plosive!#me: what the Fuck #she didn't hear me as i was in the last row but #the person in front of me heard me lmao #that's the same person saying 'the velum is responsible for voicing' like what the fuck #i don't trust her at all anymore #when she corrects our tests and exams she obviously marks things as wrong that aren't actually wrong #and if you're lucky she'll figure it out herself (like with the velum) but usually she won't #just like I'll likely get points deducted for writing the correct symbols for the voiced and voiceless palatal fricatives #rather than for the post alveolar fricatives that she probably was asking for but which would have been WRONG #god this is So Frustrating #this is worse than our lecturer saying 'the sternum is your skull' which made me cry back then but THIS?! this is the worst #i actually should get over my fear of confrontation and actually correct people when they say something so blatantly wrong #sorry for the rant #i will be normal about phonology again now #void screams #(like. actual screams of frustration)

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romanticatheartt · 3 months ago

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People always be like "we want complex female character" but you bitches can't even handle Feyre, who has different sides and just because she's a mother now, you think she's completely disable to wield a sword...

She was a fighter long before turning to fae. She killed a fae wolf, 2 nagas, trapped a suriel several times (the very suriel Rhys tried to trapped and failed), killed an ancient wyrm and broke a 49 years curse all the while being a human. She has all the seven High Lords power and managed to kill many of Hybren soldier just to save Rhysand. She's mated to the most powerful High Lord and we all know 'like calls to like'. She went to the Summer Court and fight side by side with The Morrigan and never backed down.

But sure... she can't wield a sword now.

#just because she doesn't like to fight or hunt doesn't mean she can't #trust me she's capable more than you think #you don't want a complex female character #in fact you want a one dimensional fmc who is created for the male character lmao #and not suprisingly these are coming from Nesta stans lol #Like I know you love her but she didn't created being a fighter lmao #people can be many things at the same time #Feyre can be a High Lady and a mother and a fighter all at the same time #also Feyre being a fighter doesn't mean Nesta isn't one are you fkn stupid??#these people are also the one who wants Nesta to be a high lady while she said she had no interest in being one #like I said you don't want a complex fmc #you think a male character with no pov and only being mentioned in passing is more complex than the fmc who you've been in her head #you've read about her and her journey #and yet you think she's not complex #idk what to say anymore...#feyre archeron #feyre cursebreaker #feyre acotar #high lady feyre #pro feyre #pro feyre archeron #high lady of the night court #feyre darling

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harrowscore · 8 months ago

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why are you, as an adult in 2024, still hung up on reylo. why are you still mocking the shippers. why do you believe yourself to be superior only because you dislike a stupid ship from a fucking space fairytale. girl (gnc) get a grip

#it's ridiculous. this ship is... stupidly cliché. like if you know fandoms at all #you could easily guess why people would be into it. hello?? have you tried to watch tfa without your hate-on-kyle-ron goggles?#did you watch their scenes together? you don't have to like something to recognize the hints #hell. at the time i didn't really like jonerys but i realized they were going to be a thing when i read agot in 2011 #like folks. it's been nearly TEN LONG YEARS. let it go. LET IT FUCKING GOOOO #and for the lucy/cooper shippers out there who think reylos are (again) delusional when they compare the two ships:#no. *you* are being delusional only because you think reylo is unsexy and uncool (which is your right to think btw. obv)#if you can't see why someone would like both of these pairings for similar reasons... idk what to say honestly #people compared it to hannigram... honestly. again i see why they would appeal to anyone who's into both ships #i really do. but... unpopular opinion (since i'm more of a clannibal fan than i could ever be of reylo):#they are more similar to reylo than will/hannibal. there i said it #i'm not talking about the writing (admittedly the quality of it was questionable). i'm talking about tropes #never mind that imo the ghoul is more akin to vader than kylo but whatever #hannibal is an unapologetic kind of villain. he's not gonna have a redemption arc and that's okay #cooper is an antivillain who used to be a good man and became a disfigured cruel bastard. a parody of himself #lucy is him. him before the bombs dropped before he discovered the person he trusted the most wanted to commit genocide #nice. moral. polite. infused with the Good Old American Values™. he's basically her dark side #all of this is very hannigram/clannibal. i'm not denying it at all #but what'll likely happen is that lucy's actions will have a positive influence on the ghoul and remind him of what it means to be a man #and that's way more reylo-like. sorry.#beauty&thebeast/villain with some hidden good in him+morally righteous heroine/enemies to lovers etc.#i mean. hello??..... having said that. i'm not so much of a reylo shipper anymore and tbh never was. i really liked it at the time #but i was never fond of the st era. my fav characters are vader and leia and revan from the old eu. just saying #*and* it's also not impossible lucy gets darker with the ghoul as her traveling companion. in fact i wouldn't dislike it at all #if done well i mean #but i would still like for people to be intellectually honest and less puerile. god knows i have my notps #but i really don't give a fuck about the shippers. good for them i guess? i have better taste lmao but that's heavily subjective #val rambles in the tags #val speaks #txt

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longmaxsilvarg · 4 months ago

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will forever have a soft spot for chloe cause yeah dawg i get it we can try to avoid becoming attached out of the overwhelming fear of being abandoned again but miserably fail together

#she's not the best person ever #but no one is #and i'm not excusing a lot of her actions #like the way she acted when kate called max will always leave me biting my fist out of frustration #but people love to just stare at the surface n focus on the parts of her that aren't great #n don't bother to wonder what got her there #the part that jumps to conclusions and does things out of pure selfishness #and that part that doesn't really think things through...#like shooting that damn bumper #but i GET IT #putting so much trust and love into people just to have them disappear on you especially if you dont know if its intentional #not getting closure can do SO much damage it's not even funny #n it legit can just make you feel like an idiot when you look back like #why did i try so hard just to end up alone #like this girls life went downhill at the age of 14 #she just like me fr 😭😭😭😭😭😭#no but #it's hard not to feel like the worlds against you #even at the end she acknowledges that she's been selfish #SO #i don't like believing that she chooses to be this way yknow like #i truly think that she believes acting like a hardass all the time is the only way she'll be able to get by anymore #she lost her dad n then max n then tried again with rachel and then lost her #i'd be fuckin insane too #girl just doesn't wanna be hurt anymore #there's better ways of coping and acting but overall i get where she's coming from #n ill always save her bc i genuinely believe that she deserves a second chance #to live her life and find happiness again #life is strange #chloe price

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goldkirk · 10 months ago

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I DON'T HAVE TO LIE ANYMORE!

#I DON'T HAVE TO LIE ANYMORE ABOUT ANYTHING #IT DOESN'T HAVE TO OVERRIDE ALL OTHER PROGRAMMING EVER AGAIN #HA #MY GOD THAT FEELS LIKE TWO DECADES OF RELIEF #and I found out yesterday. that this year. next winter. it IS two decades. exactly. this is the year. every day i am shown new reminders #that keep me going in my mission to relearn to fully and instinctually trust my self #ever since [redacted therapist] asked me point blank and my IMMEDIATE response was complete disbelief #a firm 'you think there's any universe where i'd feel like i could trust myself? after my nonstop history of failures and being horrible?'#tone “No!” of disbelief #and a horrible way-too-harsh laugh that bolted out before I could strangle it off and stop it.#that woman never coddled my feelings any time I spoke something alarming or bullshit and that was so helpful to me #and the tone she let exist in her voice when she responded to me with a very uncharacteristic “Oh Katie.”#was so. so much more agonizing for me. than her responding with an immediate logical slam-dunk of the truth about healthy behavior and stuf #anyway ramble over i'm so tired. i've done so much trauma work this week i am Drained emotionally #now i see what the past several months but especially especially #the baffling (to me) infuriating out-of-control-speedrun-somatic-processing + every-health-condition-flaring slog that December and January #were for me when I hadn't expected anything to be wrong #...and the extremely specific way this certain zone and particular incident kept coming up over and over and over and over and OVER was not #a bug. it was a feature. thank goodness i trust myself for little things now bc that's the only way i was able to get to this other side #and look back and suddenly realize that my subconscious and body knew what they needed and had a plan in progress the whole time. just like #i rationally say I trust them to have and do.#and that perhaps maybe. for real for real instead of just TELLING myself hard enough a lie that i trust my self and i trust my body and tha #they always know their own needs and timing if really slow down and listen to them f u l l y #anyway. yeah. bye haha i need to stop oversharing on the internet #trauma evolution #shh katie #personal #my god. i wished for this day more than i wished for anything else my whole life. all these many many many many years. what magic.#add to journal #abuse

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liesonthefloordramatically · 4 months ago

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tired of having a gender at work; I don't want my colleagues to perceive me anymore

#my students are (for the most part) fine #one of my very sweet colleagues brought up the fact that I was consistently misgendered in a meeting that she was in #and I had to explain to her that everyone in my department misgenders me all the time even though they should know better #our DEI guy misgendered me 5 minutes after meeting me #like. on one hand. great litmus test for finding out how people perceive me.#on the other hand. I would like to not be perceived by my colleagues anymore #(I also. don't want to make a big deal of it for multiple reasons including that I Don't Trust Any Of These Jokers)#(but also if I make a big deal of it and then they continue to get it wrong that's worse for me in all dimensions)#anyway a different colleague (not in my department) volunteered to write a letter for my big upcoming review #even though she wasn't required to at all #and she sent me a draft of it (even though she wasn't required to at all) and she did they/them me the whole time #and this is making me unreasonably emotional #anyway. tired of this. please let me opt out of gender.#it's almost like deciding to study gender professionally for more than a decade made all my problems with it worse instead of better #who could have possibly predicted this outcome -_-v #what is my academic life #gender #Queenie actually says something on this blog

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boku-no-anime-phase · 8 months ago

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Do you ever just Cry

#i thought too hard about them and made myself cry #Frieren has literally never loved a person like she loves Fern. and Fern has no idea #Frieren bends over backwards for Fern. she has willingly outgrown herself to be a better parent #she's not great at this parenting thing but she's doing her darnedest #and just...#over the 28 episodes you can see Fern go from 'i don't know if she likes me at all' to just loving her wholeheartedly #and feeling secure in Frieren's love for her #and you can see Frieren going from 'this child is inscrutable and inconvenient for me' to 'i am brimming with pride'#Fern is on the cusp of not needing Frieren anymore #soon she will be independent in her own right and gain the wisdom that age brings to humans #I'm fascinated by this relationship #by the love and trust and understanding that's developed between them #it's SO well written #sometimes it feels like the romance is the only relationship any show spends time developing #but tbh the relationship between Fern and Frieren is the one I'm most invested in in this story #Frieren became a parent and it changed her #Frieren

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boyapologist · 8 months ago

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track 6 literally makes me sick to my stomach lmao

#this right here is why I don't trust taylor anymore #I've given up on actually defending her long ago. she's not changing #it's just gross #she doesn't give a shit like at all #growing up for me is letting go of thinking you can make a rich white woman understand she's wrong #I still like her music. that's why I'm here #live blogging this for fucks sake #but you guys know I haven't been online that often anymore #and it's certainly not just cause I'm busy with work #but because taylor is simply unfixable as a person lmao #but anyways #still love my mutuals and all #but taylor? I love her work and that's it #the posters ain't going down and I'm not detaching myself from loving her ever #but as a person? my god. gross.#ttpd spoilers

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lunar-years · 2 years ago

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I know I tend to take things dark places but one thing I will NOT be doing is pretending that Rebecca and her house boat man was a bad or heaven forbid "dangerous" plot I LOVED it. We got to see a whole new side to Rebecca, a side that throws caution to the wind and decides she deserves a chance at not even love necessarily, but just a good freaking time.

There is also something there about how different this was from her story of how she meet Rupert. Rupert won her over by wearing her down. Persistence and repetition. Boat man won her over by just being good and kind. Chucking his phone into the water alongside her, throwing caution to the wind but not expecting anything of her. He took a chance and it made her feel comfortable taking chances, too.

In a nutshell: the first day Rupert showed up at the bar, Rebecca's gut instinct was to say no; and she should have stayed with that gut instinct. I think she's spent a hell of a long time regretting that, and second-guessing all of her choices. But on that houseboat, her gut instinct was to stay. So she stayed.

#rebecca welton #ted lasso spoilers #ted lasso #im sorry but if you don't think that was movie rom com levels.....#like first of all girl get it #second of all. they don't have phones anymore they have no simple way of finding each other again #rebecca is certainly not going to quit her life and move to an amsterdam houseboat #nothing long term will come from this #and yet. it was the purest moment of connection with someone she knows she'll never see again. doesn't even know his name.#AND IT DOESN'T MATTER #because she will never forget him #because it was a really great fucking night #they found something deeper in each other than sex #GOD i am going feral #i hate that people are twisting it to be nefarious it was actually really really hot.#like sorry y'all can't see it but.#it’s about Rebecca learning to trust herself again. anyway.

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vulpixelates · 2 days ago

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you know. i never thought i would miss my family at all but after the fourth christmas without seeing them bc of covid, i weirdly do today 😔

#hopefully the rose colored glasses wear off ijawoeifj i used to end up in my bedroom sobbing every year anyway. wtf am i on about #to be honest it's really only my one aunt that i really miss aoiwaejf but her kids do NOT take covid seriously at all #so i just. haven't seen her in years. she's the only family member on my maternal side that i really have always had a good connection with #(probably bc she + her husband and kids are basically the only ones on either side of my family who aren't conservatives 😬)#she even un-invited my mom from her holiday stuff so that my dad and i could go but i just. don't trust my relatives oaiwejfa #for a bit we were doing stuff w my sister in law but she is in college and parties constantly without masking so like aoiejfaoiw #we're just fucked aoiefja #OH WELL #we had one turkey day dinner in like 2020? where everyone did precautions ahead of time and it was nice but like.#no one takes this seriously anymore it feels like #and my wife and i just keep getting sicker and sicker oweiajfaoi covid would just make that 10x worse i fear #OH WELLLLLLL IN MY FEELINGS SORRY IT'S JUST A LIL BIT LONELY but we're doing virtual stuff w the lesbians for NYE so that'll be nice #*dykeposting #delete later #negative

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more-glitter-more-pizzazz · 1 month ago

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These are the days in your life

When the price of time is free

Like your daddy said the world is yours

So let it flow naturally

#You know the perk of dead dad is that it overshadows the evil ex bff thing and I hardly worry about it anymore #Sure I could succumb to the Grief of a codependent homoerotic teenage friendship #Or I could just go 'wait a minute... my dad is dead' and cry about that instead #Paradoxically im feeling so much joy recently #Life goes on #I meet new friends who give me hugs and don't treat me like crap #And I go thrifting with people and laugh and I don't think of her until I'm already home #Everyone say 'I hope she doesn't come home for Christmas because I fear i will pass away if I have to interact with her ever again'#Like sup queen. Do you feel bad?#Cause i... feel great #Living and loving and not manipulating my roommate (poor roommate) (I hope she's straight for her own sake)#(But if she's anything like me she will fall head over heels regardless)#(Probably she is nothing like me)#(Kinda feel like I should have backed out during the whole 'condoning cheating on your bf' thing)#(I was actually very stupid (read: loving trusting and traumatized) and should have backed out many times but here we are)#Did you know she didn't say anything when my dad died???? Cmon like we aren't friends at all but a dead parent is a huge deal you couldn't #Even pass along well wishes through your stupid (read: very kind and thoughtful) boyfriend???????#Well well well i say I'm over it and here we are #Anywho. On i go #from the couch #for my archives :]#Spotify

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softshuji · 1 month ago

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My sister was playing in my room and she broke one of my figurines. I had offhandedly mentioned to my parents that this happened and I was not intending to berate my sister or yell or make her buy me a new one, I just wanted an acknowledgement of the fact that it had happened. My dad says "no she didn't. Did you see her do it?" I say yes it happened in front of me and he says "no, she didn't break it, it was obviously already broken" and my mom says "good, I'm glad she did" which I felt was really mean considering it was a gift someone got me. and the funny thing is, I wasn't going to start getting angry at her, she's 8. But I just wanted an acknowledgement of the fact that she's broke it and should be more careful with other people's stuff. She's already getting to the stage where she'll deny ever having done something even if you've seen her do it but my parents enable this behaviour (mostly with her though they do it with my brothers too) and I think it's important that kids grow up knowing what accountability is because if not, they end up becoming the same adults who refuse to acknowledge when they've done something. But it's just sad to me. That my things being broken being lost being used doesn't mean anything to anyone, that it's much easier to try to gaslight me into thinking it hadn't happened when I literally watched it than it is to just admit it happened and take some responsibility. I know I'm a very patient person but that's kind of mean.

#it's why i don't like to share often. I can't trust others with my stuff anymore.#i literally wsdnt gonna sau anytning to her i just thought it was better to learn #and my mom saying good like #what the hell is all that #why is it ok for people to break my stuff

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kuromi-hoemie · 2 months ago

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last rb stressed me out lowkey akakska i had an ex like that and it became a self fulfilling prophecy kinda thing..