#i don't know if you watched hilda on netflix

[lowkeyorloki]

Wow, the first thing I want to say is how incredibely talented you are. The stories you have written, particularly Asis, is nothing short of masterpieces. I stumbled upon Asis when i started using ao3 a little over a year ago, and after reading countless of well-written fics, none have left an impression quite like Asis (in my humble opinion, of course hehe). I found myself hooked from the very first chapter and loved every word from the beginning to the end. At times I even had to pause reading in order to just feel the intense emotions stirred in me - from absolute joy, to sadness and at times even anger. Never has a fic hit something so deep in me and I still find myself thinking about Asis every now and then, just lingering in my thoughts. Whether I’m on the bus, walking my dog, or even when I’m at work, I find myself picturing Loki, Narvi and reader in various scenarios:’))

Despite being in a different continent and thousand miles away, you have impacted my life (without intending to sound overly dramatic). You have an incredible talent for capturing the essence of the characters and have such a way with words. Each emotion, dialouge, and relationship feels so authentic and genuine. You breathe life into the characters, skilfully orchestrating their interations. Your ability to portray characters, playing them with and against each other, is truly remarkable!<3

I just recently dicovered your tumblr and I have never used this platform before, so I’m just now catching up to anything asis related<3 (which I hope to see more of sometime in the future🤞🏼)

I have to finish this terribly long speech by telling you that I have become obsessed with Neko Case after hearing "This tornado.." hihi

Wishing you all the best, wherever and whatever that may be🩷

Love from Norway<33

- Frida

Hi Frida! It's nice to digitally meet you 🩷 I'm sorry it took me a bit to respond to this messages, my appearances on this blog are sporadic now at best.

It really is crazy when people send me such thought out and kind messages. It's easy to see how many hits/kudos a fic has and forget that each of those has an actual person behind the screen experiencing the fic with me. The fact you think of asis Loki and Narvi while you're doing such mundane activities makes me smile. It's always going to be a little crazy to wrap my head around.

Thank you so much for your kind words about my writing and my characterization. If you'd like, you're always welcome to reach out to me through DMs - I can give you the link to my last fanfiction blog I'm trying to post on regularly (it's for the show arcane, and it's not really an x reader fic blog) or I can tell you the handle of my poetry blog, or even just send you screenshots of the hasty and pretentious soliloquies of my notes app. I'd also like to think someday I'll come up with a five chapter or so sequel to asis, though I don't see that being anytime soon.

I am SO glad I got you into Neko Case!! That might be the most exciting part of this message, haha! My other favorite songs by her are Hold On, Hold On (that's my #1 favorite Case song), Margaret vs. Pauline, John Saw That Number, and Maybe Sparrow. Honestly the entirety of the album Fox Confessor Brings The Flood is superb. One of my favorite and most nostalgic albums of all time.

Thank you again for such a nice message. Reach out anytime - while I may not be timely, I do truly do my best to respond <3

[reyggtv]

There's only so much I can say on Twitter to truly express my feelings about the show Hilda, and how much of an impact it has left on me to make me the kind of person I am today, so I'm taking to Tumblr to write all about it.

If you don't know who I am already, hi, I am ReyGGTV, though you can just call me Rey. I like to make YouTube videos, memes, talk with other Hilda fans, and make occasionally make art. You may already know me from the Hilda Crack videos I made since several years ago, as well as some more recent big videos of mine like my comparison video between Aster and Hilda. I am 20 years old, and have been a diehard fan of the franchise ever since I was just 14.

Firstly, let's discuss how I actually managed to discover Hilda in the first place. It was 2018, freshman year of high school had just started, during this time, I was still big fan of another animated TV show at the time called Star vs. The Forces of Evil. I was a fan of that show ever since its premiere in January of 2015 when I was only 11 years old. Honestly even if I don't look at it nearly as fondly as I do now, to its credit, the show did most certainly help me get interested into animation as a whole more than any other show I saw at the time.

Not even like 2 months after I got in though, I was kicked out. Not because I did anything wrong, but because for a while, my parents had me enrolled in a school district that I didn't even live anywhere near in at the time, so once they found out that I actually lived much farther from them, that's when they decided to let me go. This was devastating to me, all the friends I made in middle school, were suddenly going to go away, and it was only at the very last minute, at the principal's office that I received this news. I was upset, literally everything was going great and they just wanted to throw everything away for me, in favor for me going to a school that was so bad, it caused my family to move to an entirely new city with a better school by the time Sophomore year came around.

But anyways, about 2 weeks before all this happened, I was in a cartoon Discord server, where someone recommended me to watch this show called... you guessed it, Hilda. I took a lot at the promotional material for a while, and put it at the back of my head, not knowing that I would soon revisit it not long later. Fast forward to when I was out of school, I had like 2 weeks in the beginning of October to just cope with everything. It wasn't long that I just became bored, and wanted to do something better, so I pulled up Netflix wanting to find something new to watch. The suggestion from someone about Hilda just so happened to come up on my mind, so I was like "Eh, sure, why not?". I put it on, and the rest was history. I knew from the very moment I finished watching the intro for the very first time, that this was about to be the show of a lifetime for me.

Despite that however, I did not anticipate just how much impact Hilda would leave on the work that I am now doing nearly 6 years after that very faithful day.

I guess the biggest reason why the show left such a massive impact on me right from the beginning is because of its main title character, Hilda. Look, I may be no blue-haired adventurer from the wilderness that likes to munch on cucumber sandwiches all the time, but Hilda at the time for me, was the most relatable character and the character I found the most comfort in when watching it for the first time. Just like me, Hilda too, was also forced to move away from the place and friends she was always happy to be with, despite all her efforts, all it took was one giant, to come and crush it all, leaving her forced to live a new life in a new environment she was not familiar with at all. But, she moved on. She knew that while this was not the ideal way for things go out, life always comes with surprises. But maybe, just maybe, this could be something that could work out in her favor. This whole becoming friends with other humans and living in the big dirty ol' city, could be the best decision she has ever made. And I think it goes without saying that as the series continued, it was.

This was a message that I desperately needed to hear as I was going through overwhelming times at such a young age, and one that I was so happy to hear and watch once I finally finished the first two episodes of this amazing damn show. It showed me that if an 11-year-old girl from the wilderness can be brave enough to move into the big city, be okay and make the best out of it, maybe I too, will be okay with belonging to a new school, finding new friends, and creating new passions for me to follow for years to come. Hilda inspired me to look towards a bigger and brighter future, rather than doubt the bad that comes with the present. For that, I am forever grateful for the creative and writing team of this show, for helping me go through such a difficult time in my life, and convincing me that even despite all that has happened, there will always be something better to look forward to.

I would be lying if I said that this was the only reason as to why I ended up becoming such a huge fan of the show for the next 5 years. Asides from the writing being so good it literally cured my depression. The animation, worldbuilding, and characters were just unlike anything I have ever seen with my own two eyes. It was simple, yet jaw dropping at the same time. Just a silly kid either helping a Raven jog back his memory, try and fight nightmare spirits or ghosts, or help Jellybean out of a scary situation in which everyone wrongfully accuses him of being a big scary black hound. Even if certain episodes of season 1 didn't always turn out perfect, I would always rewatch every single one of them all day for several hours and for several weeks. I had even skipped multiple days of school especially when it was raining, just so I can head to the living room, cuddle up in some warm blankets, with the heater on during the winter season, and just binge the crap out of it for multiple hours a day. This was just the show that I can always count on to bring back the happiness inside of me. Even when I wasn't necessarily having a bad day, I would still continue to watch it for hours because it just kept on getting better and better with every watch I could get possible, it was almost like an addiction almost, haha.

Hilda was the show for me, and I had no intention of trying to watch anything else.

It was also around this time that I started to also get myself more involved with the show's fandom as well, back when it was a lot more populated and not as niche as it is now. While I'm not gonna say that my reputation in it has always been 100% perfect, at the end of the day, I'm just forever grateful I was able to meet some of the most wonderful people and hundreds of fans like myself because of it like @hkthatgffan, @helgafolk618, and many more I can't list here 'cause most of them are not on Tumblr. So much so that I now have the pleasure of creating hundreds, if not thousands of people who are fans/supporters of ME all across all my social media pages. All because I like to talk about Hilda, literally all the time. And to those reading this who has ever left a nice comment on one of my posts, said hi to me on my Discord server, worked with me on a commission, even went as far as to make fan-art of me or just tuned into any of my content whatsoever, thank you. Your support has left a massive impact on me and what I'm continuing to do now. Because at the end of the day, it's not about any popularity points you get from just talking about a TV show consistently for 6 years, for me at least, it has always been about making thousands, sometimes, even millions, happy with my love for it that is the reason that I'm doing any of this in the first place. I love Hilda, always have, and I want to make people happy the same way Hilda did for me, all those years ago.

Surprisingly enough, even though I was already as big of a fan as I could possibly be by the time November of 2018 rolled around, I still wasn't really a guy interested in getting my hands on Hilda merchandise. I knew that the graphic novels by Luke existed, but the only thing I even managed to get for myself at the time was this old T-shirt I bought from the now defunct official Zazzle store they had up for like a few months lol

I guess that all changed when I got my first ever Hilda plush though when I was 15. While it has now certainly showed its age after nearly 5 years, I loved this thing so much lol. It wasn't official because official Hilda plushies didn't exist at the time. I bought it off an Etsy store from AngelinaLily, and I would literally take this thing out with me everyday to everywhere I went to and take photos of it, especially in the wilderness. It was my favorite pastime. My little Hilda, in the palm of my hand 😆. Hey, when you have to wait more than 2 whole years for a brand-new season, what else are you gonna do to entertain yourself during the hiatus?

I had gotten this in the mail right when I had just exited out the mental hospital because I was actively wanting to h*rt myself and potentially putting myself in danger of committing s*icide. Because while Hilda did definitely help me cope with a lot that I was going through at the time, there was still a lot of overwhelming issues I was experiencing, and my mental health was the lowest that it had ever been. This plush effectively, was a way to help me cope with those thoughts I had, which turned out to be a great thing because I literally couldn't be happier with it.

After that, I just decided that "You know what? What if I just got... ALL of the Hilda merchandise?" Thus... that now leading to my massive hoard of Hilda stuff, that I now have everywhere in my room lol

These photos aren't even all the ones I have!

At 16, I decided to write Luke Pearson an e-mail, thanking him for his work and how much it has inspired me to become the person I am now, explaining everything that I just mentioned in this Tumblr post, and at the end of the day, just wanting him to know, that his creations mean a grave big deal to me, and that I will always appreciate just how much of a positive impact it has left me. I didn't really expect anything to come out of it, but about several weeks later, he said this to me lol

"I just wanted to say thank you for writing and relaying your experience to me. I'm sorry to hear that you've been through such difficult times, but I'm glad that you're able to look back on those times and find yourself in a better place. And if Hilda has played any small part in that, which it seems like it has, then I'm extremely pleased about that and it warms me to hear it. It can be hard to know exactly what good a cartoon can actually do for the world (beyond being a few hours of amusement) which is strange when so many people devote so much of their time and creative energy into making it happen. But hearing something like this goes a long way to making it feel like something genuinely worthwhile. I hope things continue to look up for you and hope you're taking care in these trying times." - All the best, Luke

When I tell you I cried like a baby when I first received this e-mail from him, I really did, lol. Hearing this, from the man who made it all possible, was truly the most inspirational thing I could have ever heard. And I was happy, that he was happy, that I was truly able to tell him for the first time, just how much his creation has meant to not just me, but to soooo many fans just like myself. It was truly something to never forget.

Now I'm 20 years old, still talking about the same ol' dang kids show I fell in love with all those years ago. What's happening now? Well now, I am an aspiring film director and video editor who has been taking film classes in community college for the past like 2 years now, I should've graduated already by now but turns out, college is pretty fricking expensive, and I don't even know if I have the funds to try and even graduate by next year. Asides from that though, I am actually in the works of creating my first ever feature-length Hilda fan-film called The Ultimate Hilda Iceberg. It will basically be one of those iceberg explanation videos you see on YouTube, but with the original source of the iceberg being about Hilda, specifically a version someone made on the r/HildaTheSeries subreddit. I've had the idea for this Iceberg video/fan-film as far back as January 2021, with the current script having started work as far back as nearly 9 months ago. And it's still not even finished! Me, as well as tens of dozens of other Hilda fans like myself, are actively working on it to have it be ready by the time fall of this year comes around, right now as we speak! If you want to support and/or follow this massive project as more updates come around you can either follow the official accounts on Twitter/X (@/HildaIceberg) or on Instagram (@/theultimatehildaiceberg).

Asides from that, the biggest passion project I have for my career moving forward, is directing my own big-budget Hilda movie. Specifically, a live-action Hilda movie. Now now, BEFORE you try and cancel me and tell me that this is the stupidest idea of all time and could taint Hilda's image forever. Let me cook. I am a huge movie bluff, I know which live action remakes are genuinely amazing, and which ones just really suck. My vision for a live-action Hilda movie is to make it sorta like how Who Framed Roger Rabbit was. All of the human characters and outside settings are done with real people and practical assets, whilst creatures like Trolls, Elves, or stuff that would normally be done with CGI, be actually turned into 2D-animation, ideally in the same style as that of the Netflix show. Ideally, I also want it to remain as faithful to at least how the show was as possible in terms of story. Look, if there's gonna be anyone else who knows their Hilda best asides from people like Luke or Andy Coyle, it's gonna be me, just sayin.

In conclusion, I just want to wrap this up by giving a huge shout out to people like @littledigits and literally ANYONE who has ever done any time making this fantastic and wonderful show (I couldn't think of anyone else to tag so I only tagged you Meg so sorry if that bothers you 😅). As this post has indicated several times, this show, has really made the best kind of impact in my life and I'm forever grateful to the creator Luke, the directors Andy Coyle, Megan, etc, the voice actors, artists, editors, composers, everyone who has ever had a part in making this amazing show just, please let me hug you. While I may not have been as enthusiastic with the show's third season overall as I wanted to in my opinion, Hilda will always have a soft spot in my heart, for years and years to come, for just how much it truly inspired me, to not just not only being able to have the luxury to do the things I love to do now, but do so in a way that has made, and hopefully will continue to make thousands, hundreds of thousands if not millions of people happy, because of the love that I will continue to have for this very show. Just because a show is small, doesn't mean it can't leave big enough impacts on people for the better ❤️

[jediwizard]

Hiiii I was wondering what your top 5 series are because I'm bored and I don't wanna do schoolwork so I'm gonna distract myself with screens

thanks for asking

my ultimate comfort show is friends. I've seen every episode a billion times, but it still makes me laugh and I still feel like I'm watching it for the first time. it's nostalgic and it just feels like home. I would like if there was more diversity tho..

i love how I met your mother (except for that awful ending). its so comforting and the show discusses real problems that young adults face like unemployment, divorce, infertility, losing a parent etc. characters go through real problems that real people face.

heartstopper obviously. again, I feel like I'm mentioning a lot of comfort shows rather than genuinly good shows but heartstopper is just.. so perfect. it is a bit cringe at times but teenagers are actually like that. everyone in that friend group is so loyal and kind and there's no drama and overall toxicness you'd find in most netflix shows like riverdale, elite etc. and I feel like this is one of the first shows I've seen with good queer representation. the paris squad remind me a lot of my friends and I, and we actually watched the show together. and we're gonna binge all of s3 and then talk about it (it's gotten to be a bit of a tradition)

id like to say that I love the owl house, even though I've never officially seen it. I've watched a lot of clips of it on YouTube and I know what happens and whenever I feel stressed or overwhelmed with school work, I'd watch like a 40 minute video of lumity. and I also relate to luz noceda on a personal level. I found out about this show only last year, when it was on it's final season and I was 16. I wish my 12 year old self watched it, because she would have LOVED the owl house and found comfort in this show. watching the owl house at 16 and 17 for the first time shocked me because I felt like my 11 and 12 year old self had come to life (and btw we even look really similar so there's that..). I just started watching Hilda and it's a lot like the owl house and Hilda reminds me of myself too, so idk. they're both really great shows

and lastly i'd probably have to go with stranger things. I love the gravity falls-dark suburban-fall vibe the first two seasons had. season three was really fun, but I didn't like the fourth that much. I also hate how it takes so long for each season to come out. again, I related to robin a lot and I love to play DND with some of my new friends. I started watching stranger things when I was around 11 with my old friends and I remember collaborating on pinterst boards and stuff, so that was fun. i'm going to watch the last season with them too.

ive seen a bunch of episodes of doctor who and some clips on YouTube and I love that. I need to properly sit down and watch Dr. who

superwholock in general is great, but I don't really feel like mentioning spn and Sherlock because of all the queerbating and homophobia surrounding the shows. (sherlock's amazing though)

i know you asked for five, but one day at a time is SUCH an amazing show too. it's about a latina family (grandma, mom, daughter and son) and it's so funny and really informative and just an overall fun family sitcom, but it doesn't shy away from dealing with important issues like racism, immigrant families, growing up in a three generational household, raising a teenager daughter who's a lesbian, being a military nurse and the trauma you have to deal with afterwards etc. elena is a lesbian and she's so nerdy and I just love her so much <333

anyway, that's it. peace out

[ponyguru]

Okay, I'm probably way behind everyone else, but I just watched Hilda Season 3 on Netflix, and I have Thoughts about the finale. (Behind a cut, since it's exclusively spoilers for the very last episode, ha! I'm not gonna tag this for the fandom or anything, I just feel like I have to vent this somewhere or else I'll explode!)

Okay, so I literally started this season thinking, okay, a guy wrote the original graphic novel, but it's not going anywhere with shitty takes on women, so that's great, right? I'm really happy with that, and relieved, because men generally seem to not be able to write women well.

And then we get to the last episode, and it's literally just "oh hey, your mom spends the entire series acting as the human Stick In The Mud who prevents her minor child from going on death-defying adventures, but it's okay! because it turns out she's actually a half fairy who lost her parents tragically when she's ten! Now she has them back!

Ohhhh wait, because we don't want to awkwardly fold these new fairy characters into the existing universe - erm I mean, for plot reasons, her parents who she tragically lost as a child can't ever come back to see her again! So being a mom is unending tragedy, with a deadbeat fuckboy ex husband, her only family being some bitchass aunt who spent her whole life lying to her, financial struggles, and completely cut off from the people she misses most, who she only got to see for a few hours before being ripped away from them again.

Happy ending for all, hooray! Fireworks!"

Like are you FUCKING KIDDING ME?

This ENTIRE SERIES is centered around the idea that "the established status quo is wrong, and Hilda is the one who can repair that balance even if it doesn't seem likely because she's just a little girl", but we get to the Fairy Realm, and suddenly it's "whelp, can't do anything, sorry mom! bye bye fairy family forever!"

The only saving grace for the series ending on a stupid-as-fuck note might be that, since it's the last season, they simply didn't have time to wrap things up in a better manner, and for all I know, the graphic novel has a completely different take on this whole situation. But seriously, I felt so bad for poor Johanna, whose entire character arc seems to be "get used to being miserable, honey, cuz you're not the main character."

Or, alternately, 'a mom's only meaning is in her child, and she has to sacrifice all happiness for herself for the sake of her child, because once women have children they cease to exist as individuals,' but maybe that's a whole other rage essay to type out. GRRRRR.

I'm sure the intended meaning was, 'ohhhh it's so woooonderful having a chiiiiild you'd sacrifice anything for them, including your own happiness', but that's bullshit because the entire series is about Hilda breaking down magical barriers/beings and making things work out for the better. But not when it comes to her mom, I guess???

[arbee0]

Thoughts on Hilda from Netflix

The World building is just absolutely fantastic!

This show is so freaking pretty, literally gorgeous I can not get over how beautiful it is!!!

They do such an amazing job of introducing so many different creatures, world customs, and societal norms so naturally!

Like yeah, that's woodman, he just lets himself in whenever he pleases

Elves are actually little invisible people

The main character's pet is a deer-dog-fox (I adore Twig's design)

I love, love Hilda's relationship to her mom and how it changes and grows throughout the series, I feel like a parent-child relationship like this is so rare and its so refreshing to see a parent treat their child with so much respect and patience even while Hilda gets herself into literally everything ever

And Hilda's friends!! I love David and Frida so much!! They are such wonderful characters who both get their own time and space to grow away from Hilda

Although I am not super happy with how they kinda brushed off Frida's betrayal towards the end of season one (I am only a just starting season two though so I don't know if its ever brought up then)

especially how Frida treated David, there is so much I wish they had been given time to talk about and I feel like David deserved so much more

I love Alfur so much too!! The whole concept of elves in this world is so incredible, I absolutely love the amount of thought was put into him and his little society

Like the whole bit about paperwork being so important in their little world is so much fun and its not something that was a one off bit either, its so fun how it keeps getting brought back up and is still an important plot point in many episodes!

The plot itself. oh my god. the plot is plotting and I love it so so much!

This show just hit so much for me, I am not someone who kins characters but boy do I kin Hilda

The Whole theme of having to move and leave behind everything you have ever known,

Being forced into an completely different world with so little time to adjust and just the sense of loneliness and isolation that comes with that that you just have to keep moving, keep thowing yourself at any problem you can solve or any adventure to keep you from letting yourself really feel that hurt that you've shoved so deep down

But in this new world there are amazing people!

you've found these amazing new friends and created a new niche for yourself

These things you never even realized you where missing and yet this place still doesn't really feel like home, you left home behind and that place is still such a huge part of you that you cant see how much you've grown

And moving on is so hard, letting go is so hard

What Woodman said to Hilda "And someday your home may be somewhere else. But that doesn't mean you leave your other homes behind. The wilderness will always be a part of who you are"

I'm so happy that they included this episode, it was so satisfying for this to be brought up and not completely ignored

Because moving sucks! Leaving behind everything sucks!

And letting Hilda not only explore that and finally admit to herself that things have changed and that its okay!

That was such in incredibly satisfying resolution for me personally this show was actually made for me specifically

I am only a few episodes into season two but I really love the villain!

He is so incredibly annoying I want to launch him into the sun but he's so well written

I love how aware Hilda is of his shit and also that he is beefing with an 11 year old I'm so exited to see where this goes

I cant wait to finish season two (Witch!Frida is so cool!!)

There is still so much about this show I love but I wanted to just do a quick over view right now since I just finished yesterday, I might post a bit more later but yeah :)

If you haven't watched Hilda I highly recommend!!!

[isabeltheprocrastinator]

Please watch Hilda on Netflix, it's an amazing show, so cozy and just cute! Like, look at this y'all

Don't you want to curl up with hot chocolate and a blanket?? (Yes, i know it's supposed to be summer but I live in Scotland so it feels like October most of the year. I walked through a pile of leaves today). Anyway, go watch! Enjoy!

[highladyluck]

i was tagged by @anyboli

Tag nine (9) people you’d like to know better (brain can't think of enough people rn but if you want to, do it!)

last song: Spilt Needles - The Shins

currently watching: Strange New Worlds, but also trashy home renovation reality shows on Netflix. (Trashy by my standards, which means I feel like I'm compromising my moral principles by watching them. I don't think rapid flips/renovations for entertainment are really ethical, and flipped houses in general have a terrible rep for a reason, but I love transformations. Also more practically, they're great for when I want new background sounds, but I can't give whatever I'm watching my full attention.) I'm also low-key rewatching Hilda in the background at work.

currently reading: Unmasking Autism by Devon Price (I don't read a ton of nonfiction but this was recommended to me by a friend & it's really interesting)

current obsession: wheel-throwing pottery (I just signed up for open studio time this afternoon after work- normally I can't do those slots because that's when I make dinner, but we're eating leftovers tonight so I grabbed a slot.) Also always and forever Wheel of Time; I dreamed last night that I was like, live-acting in a WoT reboot and they'd decided to give Mat the medallion early and also make it the cursed object instead of the dagger? It was kind of fascinating as a concept.

[moosefrog]

Since I've seen many posts about people missing how common asks used to be, I have been trying to send to more asks to engage more. I really don't want to bother anyone though so I'd love to know if you enjoy receiving asks and if so what kind of asks. Detailed? Vague? Work? Fandom? Movies? Books? Childhood? Gardening? Thoughts? OTPs? OCs? I'm sure there are way more categories, I'm not limiting you to these listed options. Perhaps if it's an easier question what types of asks do you not like?

I love that you send me asks! I'm sorry I don't reciprocate. I'll try to make an effort to do so. I'm mostly flying through Tumblr in the moments I have between things so I don't wander off of my feed much. Asks are fine! I'd even draw doodles to go with them if they inspire me. (And if I have time.) Here's a some things that I'm currently into:

Books: I'm currently reading two management books. I am boring as far as books are concerned. Although, it's just about time for me to start a Discworld re-read.

Fanfic: I'm hella into My Hero Academia right now and lurve to read big, sprawling AU fics. I am always into Batfam stuff. I will always have a soft spot for Hobbits

My balcony birdfeeders

Movies: Oooh I finally watched the Barbie movie.

Manga: I just read My Hero Academia: Illegals and quite enjoyed it. Do Web Toons count as Manga? I read a couple of those, too.

Anime: I'm actively watching a few including 'So, I'm a spider. So what?', 'Solo Levelling', 'Shangri-La Frontier', 'Mashle: Magic and Muscles', 'Banished from the Hero's Party, I Decided to Live a Quiet Life in the Countryside', 'The Strongest Tank's Labyrinth Raids -A Tank with a Rare 9999 Resistance Skill Got Kicked from the Hero's Party', 'The Unwanted, Undead Adventurer', and 'The Wrong Way to Use Healing Magic'

TV shows: Honestly, I just watch Crunchyroll these days. I think the last TV show I watched was Hilda on Netflix. Why yes, I do prefer animation to live action.

OTPs, OCs, opinions, etc are all welcome to ask about.

[orsull]

'get to know me' type game

oh the horrors, @hikari-ni-naritai forced my to do this, how dare she.

Top 3 ships at the moment:

Only one pops out immediately to me, but you're not going to like it: MariHilda (Marianne x Hilda from Fire Emblem: 3 houses)

Oh I've thought of two more, MidZel(ink?) (Midna x Zelda x Link sometimes from Twilight Princess) and an obscure one that grew on me recently: Marianne x Sylvain, also from Fire Emblem: 3 houses. I've been watching their supports again and I actually think they pair together pretty well, also ice and fire magic helps thematically to me.

First ever ship:

Uhhh pff I have very poor memory, I probably shipped Midna and Link back in the day, although I had no idea what ships were back then.

Last song:

Song of the Ancients (Fate) from the NieR soundtrack, I'm not sure what game. I don't think it's from Automata, so probably Replicant?

Last movie:

God I sure watch a lot of movies... It must have been something I've watched with my dad on netflix, right? It can't have been Multiverse of Madness. I remember rewatching Kung Fu Panda, but I'm not sure if that was before or after. I'm going with that.

Currently reading:

It's been so long since I've opened a book. I was tempted to read Brotherband by John Flanagan, though. A friend of mine is going to run a campaign based on that premise.

Currently consuming:

Last thing I ate were some M&Ms, but I'm currently not eating anything.

Currently Craving:

I'm pretty full atm, I guess some water would be really nice. I'll always be down for some sweets though.

Last thing searched for art/writing purposes:

If D&D counts, I think it would be what exactly a Gem of Brightness does. It's going to be the basis of an ecosystem in an underwater lake with bioluminescent flora. Pretty excited to run it!

Tagging @earthseaelephant if you feel like it, and also @belith. Super low pressure though, but I'd like to read it if you're up for it.

[revenant-coining]

us : being absolute creechures /pos !! ooo that makes sense !! its like charged ions that are created through something else just like how electricity is created by charging ions !! but its chaos :D is there a limit to how far of portals you can make ?? like if one dimension is farther than another whats the limit ?? ooo thats very valid but what was the embodiment of fate like ?? and ooo how were jobs managed as a god if you remember ?? like how does it work if youre already a god ?? thats so cool how much of a a variety you have of knowing others !! dude tendrils sound so much fun ugh how far could you throw yourself ?? WOAH REALLY ?? so like krakens and and and uhh dragons and gryphons were real ?? that . that is so so cool oh my god !! :OO what about fictional creatures like wardens from minecraft ??

ooo that sounds like so much fun !! what was it like being the god of chaos did you have to deal with a lot of backlash or the affects of being famous or even infamous ?? i love how different hells are between dimensions , were there dimensions you visited that had a different hell system ?? but OOO what were the sins and virtues ?? was there a specific reason why you had to keep the balance ?? can beings of heaven and hell visit each other or were they stricting kept away ?? ooo hell and heaven sound so beautiful it makes me wanna doodle them !! so thats where my to do lists went your pocket dimension stole it !! /lh /j but ooo that sounds kinda like the no where space from hilda !! btw hilda is another series i recommend its so good its on netflix just a suggestion btw not forcing you to watch !! /gen

your house sounds very lovely do you often visit it ?? what kinds of stuffed animals did you have ?? ooo the working system sounds soo interesting id love to hear more about how the economy works like my first few questions asked !! i love the idea of there being a specific group for studying certain elements !! how many dimensions have you found btw and what stood out to you the most ??

whats it like having a ai / zombie / ghost coping link btw i never asked ?? /nfta all of that btw again !! - ramble anon

i think the portal range limit would be the amount of energy i have? like, the farther a portal i mad is the more energy it uses, and i have to wait till get enough energy to open another one (depending on distance). whenever i'd go to another dimension i'd wait to wait for my energy to refill before i could go back home (which means i'd basically freak people out just to get chaos energy).

Fate was very dedicated to her job, and she was good at it. i think she had shoulder-length/short hair and a soft voice, but i can't remember much else. she at the very least tolerated me but her only issue with me was the 'cause problems on purpose cause i need chaos' thing. job titles get a bit confusing sometimes, cause like Satan was a job and a person, same with God (in my dimension God was a person who got overthrown and someone else took the position and got the title God. now every couple of millennia someone else gets the job of God/Satan. they were basically presidents).

jobs for gods were either 'responsibilities that benefit the universe' or 'responsibilities that benefit the sub-dimension you live in' my existence benefited the universe by keeping chaos in check, but i could also get a job and help the economy ig (politics were also really big in hell, but don't remember any specifics, i ran with a friend for awhile until i got bored).

more info on the tendrils, they were made from something that came from the portals they appeared out of, and i could choose the amount i have in exchange for length. i could have 1 really long tendril or a bunch of short ones. i would throw myself into the air (like,,, 5-7 stories high i think?) and would catch myself, no harm done. i could use the tendrils to lessen the fall substantially to avoid getting hurt.

yeah :] !! all those mythical creatures were real. though, i think Minecraft was a game in my dimensen as well? i didn't keep up with most mortal creations (besides music cause that was a GREAT invention) so I'm not sure, but i can't recall ever seeing a warden or warden-like creatures /gen

being the god of chaos was interesting, cause everyone knew i was important to the balance of our universe, but they Did Not Like me since i caused problems on purpose to get chaos energy. i was a complete menace to heaven, hell, and the mortal plane. i didn't interact with most people anyway, nor did i care about what others thought of me. (though I'm really good at getting important people to like me?? it's never been on purpose so maybe I'm just cool or something)

i don't think i've been to hell in a different dimension, but once i ended up in an afterlife that was pretty much Detroit, which was kinda funny.

the sin and virtue systems are very interesting. the sins were the 7 deadly sins (envy, gluttony, greed, lust, pride, sloth, wrath) and the virtues were the 7 heavenly virtues (faith, hope, charity, fortitude, justice, temperance, prudence). keeping the balance kept the world from chaos (albeit the unbalanced would be very beneficial to me it wouldn't be for anyone else). if the world got unbalanced, say there was too much pride in the world, everyone would become prideful, which would throw order into disarray. the combo of prideful and un-prideful people keeps the world in a helpful mix of good and bad, which is needed for balance. lost of balance just makes things real bad, like apocalypse/dystopia bad, or 'everything is to perfect to be real and will cause problems regardless' bad.

beings from hell and heaven could visit each other! though there was some tension between us cause we had. a lot of wars. we hadn't been to war in a while though so i hope they're doing better. I've visited heaven a couple of times (they have the softest hotel beds, highly recommend). and i might draw some pictures of heaven and hell when i get home :] /gen

i'll have to check out hilda when i get the time /gen

i usually visit my house whenever i don't have anything else to do, or when instincts demanded soft bed (i nested a lot for someone who wasn't a nesting creature /lh). the only stuffed animal i can remember clearly s this pink-purple teddy bear, they look very soft.

economy-wise, we were very plant and magic driven? we had lots of materials for magic and potion making, and imported to heaven i believe. heaven and hell had different currencies, and they weren't like human money either. i can't remember the currency very well, but hell's was probably a coin currency system.

i've been in to many dimensions to count, but the one that stood out the most was a dimension that had no apparent supernatural entities (especially gods/deities) but had wards (wards = used to keep a entity in or out) strong enough to work against me, it was very surprising and i never figured out why they had wards that stong.

for my copinglinks (though i'm not sure that's what they are since they weren't voluntary?) i just randomly feel like and get mental/phantom shifts for androids/ghosts/zombies. for the android/ai i think more logically and can't feel things as well. for the ghost i get all floaty feeling and don't mind being cold, and for the zombie my left leg gets stiff and i go non-verbal. i believe they're all dpdr (depersonalization derealization) related cause feeling like a robot/not real/dead are symptoms of that.

[troglobite]

laskfjsl

okay separately i watched season 3 of hilda and was a sobbing mess for the last 35 minutes of the final episode.

also i would bet money that netflix shortchanged them and said "FINE you get ONE more season. but it's only EIGHT episodes, because fuck you."

because season 3 could easily have been 2 more seasons on its own. like come the fuck on.

they introduced AND resolved their ENTIRE FAMILY LORE in fucking EIGHT EPISODES. that's shitfucking absurd.

but also i cannot begin to comprehend how AMAZINGLY they executed that to make me a sobbing, blubbering mess at the end. absolutely fucking destroyed me.

something about hilda just. really. fucking hits me. which is wild because i don't identify with her at all. i find her mildly annoying because, like my mom, when children recklessly endanger themselves by ignoring their friends and parents in media, it drives me UP THE FUCKING WALL.

i got immune to it as i watched, and the world of the show also goes out of its way to demonstrate that realistically, in this world, nothing's gonna happen to hilda. the consequences are always otherworldly or strange or narrative, and she can tumble down as many cliffsides as she wants and be fine. and so can everyone else! absurdity. but it means that when she doesn't listen, it's like, well yeah i guess to you your mom WOULD be overprotective, because you've scaled sheer cliff faces and tumbled to what, in the REAL world, would be sure death, and come out almost entirely unscathed. so yeah i get it. lol

and it matches the fantasy/magical world of the show so it works.

but anyway point being i don't relate to her in any way, or any of the characters, really. and i'm not someone who HAS to to care about or enjoy a piece of art or media, CLEARLY.

but i mention it to say that something about the show, story, characters, art, ethos and thesis, etc. just absolutely gutpunches me.

the deerfox episode? bawling every time i watch it. absolutely emotionally devastating.

and i don't cry at every episode. i am COMPELLED by it, though. it makes me FEEL and THINK. it's just so well done.

and the series finale, all 80 minutes of it, just absolutely destroyed me.

it was a situation where i could see all the narrative beats and the "twists" before they were revealed, but all that means is i'm an adult watching a children's show and they're incredibly good storytellers for me to know what's happening.

and knowing it, and knowing likely how it would end, etc., i was still absolutely devastated.

and they make you reckon with SERIOUS SHIT in the finale. even though everything ended up being okay, they really made the stakes REAL. and it was HEAVY!

and just so effective.

i was bummed because in looking up who the voice actor for mr. pooka was, i got spoiled for some plot points and i was REALLY annoyed about that.

but then they ended up being relatively minor plot points because it didn't reveal anything about the CONTEXT of those reveals, so they were still incredibly impactful.

oh one thing, though, and i guess spoilers for season 3 if you haven't watched it (and i HIGHLY recommend it. seasons 1 and 2 and the movie are AMAZING, and season 3 is DEVASTATINGLY good)

when her dad shows the fuck up out of nowhere and is like "haha i'm cool, right? :D you take after me! let's go do things! haha i'm completely broke! let's go out to eat! i have a weird job to do, yeah, come with me! haha lemme let you drive at an unreasonably young age! we're out in the middle of nowhere, it's fine!"

let's just say i sat stonefaced or grimacing through that entire episode, reliving some extremely identical memories of my own. lol

spoilers over

anyway, something about the heart of the show is so profoundly moving, and i absolutely love it. i highly recommend it, and i am in awe of how much they accomplished in season 3.

also miriam margoyles is in it!

[leah-the-animation-fan]

Animated Series Master Post 2005 - 2020

(In order of first episode release date)

Some people say there aren't any good cartoons anymore and I'm like "Where have you been the last 10 years?" There is so much variety in genre, art style, characters, setting, music...but a lot of people don't know about the good stuff. Most of my favorites are on Netflix or Disney+ so they're totally accessible. If you're looking for something new to watch, I'd recommend almost any of these depending on what you like. Feel free to ask me about any of these shows or suggest other cartoons like these that I should watch.

P.S. I have seen Hilda and I think it's a cute show but I could only fit 24 posters in my collage so I had to sacrifice one.

[epen409]

My Top 18 Favorite Movies, TV Shows and/or Cartoons of 2018 (in no particular order) Part Dos

10. She-Ra and the Princesses of Power

Ignore the neckbeards who have nothing better to do, so they complain about reboots of cartoons from the quote on quote "golden age of animation, the 80's". She-Ra and the Princesses of Power is a really great show, that yes, is better than the original 80's show. It's able to create a more fun and engaging story, while also having a lot of memorable and likable characters. It also has a theme that I found very interesting, where the villains aren't born evil, they are just misled in the wrong direction and don't truly know wrong from right. It's quite a bold theme for the show. If there is a kind of big flaw, the animation is a little wonky. Some shots and scenes look great, while others are very easy to see where the animation mistakes are. That said, it's still a great show that takes advantage of all of it's fun and interesting characters, and brings them together in a new show that blows its predecessor out of the water. And yes, LGBT fans. It's very, very gay.

11. Spider-Man Into the Spider verse

What a comeback story. Who would have thought that the studio that made the whole world of animation cry last year would end up making the best animated film of the year? But anyways, Spider-Man into the Spiderverse is not only able to live up to all the hype it's been getting for the past year, but it also blew our expectations away. First of all, it looks GORGEOUS. It's able to make a visual style that's not only very beautiful and interesting, but it also happens to create a loving tribute to the original medium of comic books. Second, they put just as much effort in the story as they did with the visuals, which is not only a very fun superhero film, but also manages to be a very engaging emotional story as well, with lots of fun, interesting and memorable characters as well. If there is something to say isn't perfect, I did notice at least one plot hole that left me a bit confused, and they kind of blew the wad for putting in a few too many characters, where, while fun and memorable, don't have that much screen time and don't leave as big of an impression as the main characters. But still, it's one of the year's best movies, so go watch it NOW!

12. Flcl Progressive and Alternative

The first anime I ever saw was FLCL. It was insane, had gorgeous animation, memorable characters and I loved every minute of it. Do its sequel series' live up to the original's legacy. Well, let me put it this way. I very much enjoyed both shows, equally too. I thought they were very fun shows, and their themes, while sometimes a little hit-and-miss, still got their points across, the new characters were very fun and memorable, and the action scenes were also animated very well. With all that said, they still don't hold a candle to the original show. But that's okay, because I imagine it'd be very hard to. I still think that both of these new shows were very good, and although not as great as the original FLCL, was still lots of fun, and somewhat worthy successors to one of the greatest animas of all time. I still recommend both, since they still were good in my opinion.

13. Hilda

Miss Gravity Falls and Over the Garden Wall? Then have I got the show for you. Hilda is a great show from Netflix that manages to capture the spirits of  both those shows, but also having its own identity and voice. One thing I appreciate about the show is that not only can it be calm and laid back in more character and establishing moments, but it also can be equally as exciting and fun for its more adventurous and action scenes. The characters are all very charming. Hilda is a free-spirited and adventurous young girl, but she's not a pushover or overly cheery either. Her friends both regular and supernatural, can sometimes fall into familiar tropes, but also are very fun and enjoyable to watch. (Alfie's my favorite). It's a great show to watch, especially on days you want to cozy up with a cup of hot liquids of some kind, and take it all in. It's a great show, and I highly recommend giving it a watch.

14. Christopher Robin

I missed Winnie the Pooh. Yes, an 18-year old male misses the adventures of a talking teddy bear. Deal with it. But anyways, for a while it seemed that Disney had somewhat given up on the bear with little brains, but they've given him another chance with this new film, but this time, mainly focusing on his human friend, Christopher Robin. One thing this movie gets right is the feeling of Winnie the Pooh. Pooh has never been known for incredibly convoluted stories, just mainly simple tales that it's colorful cast of characters can bounce off of, and this movie nails that feeling down. It's also close to the original cast of characters, since deviating away from their personalities would be considered a form of blasphemy. Also, the performances here are great too. Evan McGregor makes a surprisingly good Christopher Robin, Hayley Atwell is charming as his wife, the girl who played their daughter was pretty good too, and of course, our friends from the 100 Acre Woods are played very well by the new cast, especially the one and only Jim Cummings, the only modern voice for both Pooh and Tigger. Now it does have flaws, like the story is kind of the typical "Dad's too busy for the kids", and although I've grown to like it over time, but sometimes it got a little too dramatic for some scenes, and at time Christopher Robin himself came off a bit as whiny and unlikable in some scenes. With that said, it's very easy to see that the whole film is a big love letter to Winnie the Pooh. No, it's not the best movie of the year, Or anything like that, but if you want a nice, enjoyable and cute movie to watch, then Christopher Robin is the perfect film to watch.

15. Super Smash Bros. Ultimate

I'll break my rule just this once to include a video game here. Super Smash Bros Ultimate was the biggest game from Nintendo this holiday season, and boy did it deliver. The last Smash Bros. game, was lots of fun, with it bringing all of our favorite (popular) video game characters together for a huge brawl. This next one, takes it up to 11. One thing I walkways admired from the games is that it's not the world's most complicated fighter game, while also still being oodles of fun. Only one big flaw: no Waluigi. Nah, just kidding. It's a great game, and a great farewell to the world of Smash from it's director, Masahiro Sakurai.

16. The Dragon Prince

Here's another show that didn't get that much attention on Netflix, The Dragon Prince. Made by the head writer from Avatar: The Last Airbender, and the creator of the Uncharted games, comes a massive fantasy epic focusing on the Battle between humans and fantasy creatures like elves and dragons. One thing I really love about this show is just how complex the characters and their morals are. It's a show that takes a lot of advantage from this theme. It's also filled with lots of fun, yet also very interesting characters. You will probably get attached to them by the end of the show, which may break some hearts too... But yeah, might as well address the elephant in the room, the animation. In fact, I do think that maybe the reason it didn't immediately catch on was because a lot of people were turned off by the animation style. But I still recommend it and ask that you give it a chance, because not only was it lots of fun, and very interesting, but the story and characters help redeem the animation, plus it does improve itself over time. Please, please, please give The Dragon Prince a chance, it's a great show.

17. Ralph Breaks the Internet

Don't worry. It's not another Emoji Movie. Ralph Breaks the Internet is not only a worthy successor to the original film, but it also manages to expand a lot on the heart from the original. This time, instead of arcade games, it plucks our characters into the Internet, and unlike the Emoji Movie, manages to make more clever and creative ideas while being on the Internet. And yeah, maybe the scene when Vanellope visits the Disney website might be Disney patting themselves on the back a little too hard, but it's still a very funny and enjoyable scene that also helps move the plot forward. But one thing the movie was amazing at was expanding on its characters and their development. It even manages to avoid the typical happy ending, which, without spoiling anything, actually makes a change in the characters lives. If there is a flaw, like I said, it's 10 times better than the Emoji Movie, but I will admit, between the cameos from Youtubers and the one scene where Ralph becomes a meme, did kind of make me roll my eyes, but thankfully, unlike the Emoji movie, it doesn't dwell too much on these scenes all that much, and knows when to move the plot forward in the right direction. I still say it's a worthy sequel that's worth your time.

Also, Yesss is my new waifu.

18. Mary Poppins Returns

Here's one of the few live-action Disney films in recent years, I feel are very worthy to the legacy of their original film. Mary Poppins Returns is just a complete and utter joy of a film, not unlike the original classic. The performance of Emily Blunt as the titular nanny is a worthy successor the original by Julie Andrews, and character in general. Lin Manuel-Miranda not only does a great job in continuing the spirit of Dick Van Dyke from the first film, but also in writing a plethora of great songs that are amazingly performed and choreographed by the cast, while also giving tribute to the Sherman Brother's original songs. Even the kids, who I kind expected to get on my nerves, are actually pretty likable and fun, and are given, eh passable performances by their actors and actress. The animation sequence brought a tear to my eye, not only because it was lots of fun, but because I'm just happy to beautiful 2D Disney animation on the big screen again. If there is some flaws, yeah, the story is yet another Dad needs to spend more time with kids plot again, and it does bring some more action/suspenseful moments that I don't feel are completely in spirit to the original film's more laid back tone. But regardless, it's an overall great and very charming new film from Disney, and although I would like them to try doing some more original stuff with their live-action movies, I hope can keep the spirit of both this film,and a lot of the classic live-action Disney movies (like the original Mary Poppins, 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea, Treasure Island, Darby O' Gill, Swiss Family Robinson and some others you guys probably never heard of).

So that's about it. Thank you all for sticking around listening to me talk about all these Movies and TV shows are worth remembering from this year, and there's a lot I'm excited for next year, and I hope that this next year can be an improvement, with more kindness and joy from the world and from people. Yeah, it's wishful thinking, but it's not a bad wish to have. Thank you all for supporting this page for the last year,and I'LL see ya in 2019!

[classicalsongbirdknits]

Knitflixing for Canadians suggestion for March: Avatar, The Last Airbender

Fair warning- this is a kid's show, so be prepared for that. I don't want you walking into this expecting anything else. That being said, I still think you should watch it, and you can read below for why. (Also, I think cartoons are perfect for watching while knitting, because if you look away for a few moments, you won't miss anything super important.)

I didn't watch Avatar until I was in university (since I grew up without cable), but had heard great things about it from friends, had recently enjoyed watching Gravity Falls, and was looking for something to watch instead of studying for my music history exam. I wasn't convinced after the first episode, but was interesting in procrastinating enough that I continued, and I'm glad I did. While the show is certainly for younger audience, the characters are complex enough to be interesting, and there are some excellent life lessons mixed in (pretty much anything Iroh says is just as applicable to my life as an adult as it would've been when I was a kid). The humour is fun, the world building is cool, and it has one of my favourite villain redemption arcs in any medium.

And we're still in the midst of a world-wide pandemic and Ukraine is being invaded and who even knows what else, so I don't feel at all guilty for enjoying the simple pleasures of this show.

You might like this show if: you feel nostalgic for your childhood in the early 2000's; you're looking for something simple and unchallenging but still interesting to watch; you already enjoy cartoons such as Gravity Falls or Hilda; you watched this show as a kid and forgot that it was on Netflix.

You might not like this show if: you don't enjoy cartoons or anime; you're looking for something intellectual, highbrow, or sophisticated.

[problematicsubmarine]

For people claiming they cant watch the new Sabrina series because of the ramoant sjwism...hear me out, cause I hate that shit too and it almost turned me off the series at first...until I got more than 2 episodes in.

Watch at least the first 4-5 episodes before you make a decision, because I'm damn sure the annoying sjwism is on purpose. The point even. The point being at the begining of the series these are CLEARLY teenagers who while having good intentions and experiencing their own share of social fuckery have NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE DOING

Which is how the posssed Ms Wardwell is able to so easily insert herself into the group. She takes these young teens feelings and uses radical politics to manipulate them into doing as she wants them to. And is successful. A very real thing that happens in real world "progressive" political groups. Why you see so many young teens on this site parroting terminology they don't understand about complex issues they cant precieve the complexities of, from older people who are clearly being manipulative for their own gain (you can see this again with Prudence parroting Faustus's teachings and in turn using them to maintain her own high position at the academy)

After about the 4th episode this becomes less annoying as you realize how easily Sabrina is being manipulated just because Ms Ward well knows what words to use with her, and as Sabrina's herself makes decisions and acts in ways that don't always line up with her spoken beliefs or they do but she goes to far in her actions and you can start to see these characters really struggle with the complexities of the real world outside their highschool.

Which leads into another complaint I've seen, that the witch world comes off as hypocritical and patriarchal despite saying otherwise and THATS THE POINT. You are supposed to notice that the witch world is super hypocritical and just as fucked up as the mortal world despite how they hold themselves above it.

As for the criticism that the world building for the witches is ridiculous and makes no sense....y'all ever actually watched the original series? It was ridiculous and made no sense and Hilda and Zelda were often terrible to each other. Its just been redesigned for a dramatic horror series as opposed to a lighterhearted comedy series.

As for why they decides all the witches are Satanists....they seem to be going with the whole Salem Witch Trials thing and using the folklore about witches from that era. I would reccomed going and reading The Crucible.

This is all of course knowing full well this is a netflix original teen drama that is soapy as shit

[booksloth91]

Day 66 9/30/18

I woke up at 8 with a night mare and a Charlie horse in my calf. I was really needing comfort and was on the edge of tears. I called Mon Amour.

We talked and he gave me comfort and I told him how he had really hurt my feelings and what I felt when he got angry and defensive at my request for time with him. He listened and apologized to me. We talked a little more and ended on a generally positive note.

During the day he and I sent hearts via messenger. I see the effort he is putting in, and seeing him do more. I am glad he is. I have been hoping that he would try to be better about not making assumptions and not jumping to conclusions and giving me the benefit of the doubt.

I helped my friend return the moving trailer, and we got breakfast. Roommate was back when Heart friend and I got to the apartment.

I chatted with them and helped with a few of the last to-dos. They took me home.

I was really excited to go home. I had missed Mon Amour and had been feeling a little lonely. My friends have finally moved away, and I am really struggling and grieving that. I was also wanting some time with him to bond a little because I hadn't seen him in a couple days and he had spent most of the weekend with Sunshine and The Kid.

When I got home he helped bring things in. He had been cleaning the bathroom and cat pans thoroughly. He gave me hugs and offered to take me to lunch. I wasn't super hungry but I was thinking about the place I could get something light, because I wanted to spend time with him.

We solidified our plans to read. He also washed his hands and helped me prep my bandages to be changed. I took the bandages off and he handed me things and helped me put new ones on. It was a much easier experience.

After the Kid got up, so our lunch plans were cancelled, it wasn't a big deal, but I was disappointed. I really wanted to spend that time with him.

They went off to do their thing, and I slept on the couch.

They got home, Mon Amour did some,more chores, I did other stuff, like take my overnight bag upstairs and chat with Mon Amour. Mon Amour made a yummy dinner of rice and tofu and played Skyrim, I watched him play and read a few articles on my phone.

We talked about having some extra cuddles if the Kid chose not to go on their drive, but they went on the drive.

While they were gone, I found a delightful Netflix show called Hilda.

They came home, Mon Amour went to the kitchen, the kid to his room. My episode finished, and I turned off the TV and PlayStation. I had to pee, but I stopped by the kitchen to let Mon Amour know I was done with the TV, and we could begin the next Harry Potter book.

I left the kitchen to use the nearest restroom, when the Kid was in the hall with a roll of toilet paper. I said quietly and calmly, not angry "Oh, shoot" the Kid asked "What?", "I have to pee." "Well, I have to use the restroom." "Okay, that's fine." I turned away to let Mon Amour know I was going to go upstairs. The Kid says at the same time as my turn in a hostile tone "You could go upstairs" "I said, something like "Kid, that was rude. Dont talk to me that way, just go to the bathroom." I turned away again actually went to the kitchen when the Kid came out to the dining room amd said "What's your fucking problem?" "I don't want to discuss it, leave me alone and use the restroom." Kid pushes, Mon Amour jumps in with a raised voice, I am about to wet my pants frustrated that he is not using the restroom when I could be and feeling overwhelmed and trying to disengage by saying leave me alone not working and not sure what I can do to get out, shouts "Leave me ALONE!" And literally runs out of the room and up the stairs so I don't wet myself. When I came back down Mon Amour and I had a fight about what happened, I made a private journal about that fight and the details.

I ended the night with a really bad panic attack. I jad been fighting one down several times throughout the fight, but right before bed I was so exhausted I couldn't fight anymore and it came, and it hurt, my muscles were tense, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't see. I was overwhelmed by fear and shame and exhaustion.

Mon Amour did his best to help me calm down and held me until we fell asleep. I had bad dreams all night.