#i don't feel the need to justify my interest in dolls anymore i really don't

[britneyshakespeare]

i love hearing old ladies share about their vintage fashion doll collections. like doll collectors on social media skew very young bc duh it's social media but there's something extremely comforting about pre-internet era collectors sharing their knowledge and history.

[threepoint14art]

Puppet animation :D! i think it turned out cool

Ok so this needs context lmao. For anyone not up to speed. Mai and Puppet's lore in our au is that they were the same kid, they got split into 2, they are 2 opposite extremes and don't work quite right. they both wear an eyepatch because the covered eye is the other twin's eye. "I want to be broken" he's only using one hand to motion in this part, the one on the side of his covered eye, the "real" hand or the one on the side of mai's eye because she's the "real" one. The real daughter the real kid the one thats not a husk. He's saying it all happy because His emotions are all weird and he's mostly just completely indeferent to anything, and because in jitter doll he's saying stuff like "I feel like I'm going to blow up and they'll get rid of my body. They'll kill my foul heart" all smiley. But also being he wants to be broken out of the permanent stupor he's in by virtue of his existence, he wants something to "break" him to get him to feel anything but plain desinterest for most things. "To be broken" is repeated on the next line, and he's crumpling up his eyepatch (idk if thats very clear lol), To be broken break the emotionless machinery in his brain so that flesh may take over. "Thrown away" and shows just his eye. Insane thing to focus on but in the gravity falls cover, while mai and pup are presented as a powerful duo and stuff, when the spread happens Mai gets a full body with an outfit, Pup is literally just an eye. He feels less complete than mai and therefore easier to throw away. "and put to rest" Curse of transness and magic system killing you. Marinette (original kid) is DEAD. She was deadly ill and when they split she literally passed away, their mother mourns a kid that won't come back, and Pup feels like he can never live up to what she was, a full human full of sorrow and pain and happiness and so many feelings. "I'm a complex robot, you see" Talking to Fred while he's in the shadow world. Saying cryptid shit about how he wants Fred to have what he never will because he's just a robot. Basically jitter doll reference lol :P "it kind of feels like I've got a heart" Leon. Who invited him here. This is where I go off the deep end and can't justify myself. Remember how I said he wants to be broken to feel stuff?? Well it happens!!!!

He has never cared at all for much stuff, he does stuff that vaguely amuses him like speaking in riddles or pranking people, but the only thing he ever truly showed REAL interest in was the supernatural, SOLELY because they thought it would be able to explain why they exist and let them fix his head. Villain's plan fucks up shit related to shadows and all the supernaturaleness that his existence held is explained by shadows. So it's not a mystery anymore, plot unravels he gets real answers and the final veredict is that he cannot be fixed! and he's just stuck like that.. So he stops liking that. He stops liking the ONE interest he had because he got an answer and it can't fix him "What about leon" MY FUCKING SHACKLESSS MY SHACKLES MY PRISION UH. Uh They were sort of buddies... Leon got enamoured by Pup existing and followed him around and talked to him a LOT and Pup sort of didn't care for him and didn't really realize he was a human person and stuff because #his emotions are barely there. The villains plan and all of that hinged on shadows, and so Leon knew all about those and just never told him, He has lost the one thing he had and the guy who claimed to be so interested in him never told him and watched him run around like an idiot. He gets pissed, he's FEELING emotion even thought it's really negative and its overwhelming and weird and he's feeling the strongest he has in years because he's full of resent. But it doesn't even last long, he can't win, and it all just starts to look pointless. They have nothing anymore.

[azulas-daddy-kink]

what is it that draws you towards incest ships? ive always simply blocked shippers and moved on, its not my taste, but ive always been curious and thought i would reach out and ask as i stumbled onto your blog in the atla tag. i understand if you arent interested in answering a stranger about this, though 😂

Hmm... well, I really could write a whole essay about this but for now I'll just outline my top 3 reasons.

It's taboo

In our modern and (mostly) sex-positive society, there are very little things that are truly taboo anymore. For the most part, two consenting adults are free to do whatever they want in the bedroom, and the worst that happens is people might go "ew, that's weird" or silently judge them... UNLESS those two individuals happen to be related. Then it's forbidden, it's disgusting, depraved. Hell, it's illegal in most cases!

The forbidden nature of incest is precisely what draws me to it and honestly, I think it's human nature. When someone tells you you can't do something, it becomes that much more attractive.

2. Character study

....okay I realize that saying "I'm here for the characterization" feels a little like the fandom equivalent of "I read Playboy for the articles" but I swear it's true!

It's really interesting to me to analyze the characters, and ask myself what drives them to the point where they commit incest and how do they justify it to themselves.

I shit you not, some of the best portrayals of both Ozai AND Azula are courtesy of incest fics. The fact that they're villains surely has something to do with this, as they are a convenient source of conflict and you can just include one or both in a fic without giving them any real depth. Even the source material is kind of guilty of this, we don't really see much from Azula or Ozai's point of view, and neither one got their "day in the limelight" so to speak the way other characters did... which is a shame but hey, that means endless potential for shippers and fic writers.

Naturally, I have many, many takes regarding both Ozai and Azula's eagerness to hop into bed with a direct blood relative but again for the sake of brevity, I'll just say this: Ozai is a controlling, entitled narcissist looking to cement his hold over Azula, who is so desperate for his love and approval that she'll take anything she can get. Despite the front they put on, they are also two deeply insecure individuals with the emotional maturity of toilet paper, secretly convinced they are too repulsive for normal romantic relationships.

3. It's hot as fuck

I'm not going to beat around the bush here, this just straight up bigs my dick. Floats my boat. Scratches the itch. However you want to put it. I feel like more of us just need to be honest with ourselves here and just admit that our favorite ships are fap material.

Now obviously this isn't going to be everyone's cup of tea but Ozai/Azula is sexy to me for many reasons. There's the basic stuff like age gap, power imbalance.

But it's also just the idea of an experienced older man showing a young virgin girl how amazing sex is.

The size difference! How easily Ozai can just throw Azula around like a rag doll, pin her down, and do anything he wants with her.

Azula's praise kink in full force, being a total simp for her Daddy as he showers her with compliments. Telling her how beautiful she is, how well she takes his cock, calling her a good girl and patting her head as she deep throats him. Like she'd go crazy for that and no one can tell me otherwise.

Ozai getting off on the fact that he's got the one girl in the entire world that he isn't supposed to have. He'd be all over that. I'm sure he thinks he's god's gift to women so it's a huge ego boost to know he's irresistible despite the natural repulsion toward incest and social norms.

But yeah, that's what I have! Sorry it took me so long to answer this, I realized I had this partially saved as a draft for the longest time haha. Thank you for the ask though!

[theholidayslingerlikebadperfume]

Late diagnosed autistics, when did yall truly accept your autism?

For me, it was when I realized you can analyze song lyrics like you can poems. Like, hello, music is the way I communicate my feelings and has always been the way I mask my meltdowns. My parents used to hate my response to them yelling at me because I would get so scared I'd start crying and I couldn't stop. They'd accuse me of crying to manipulate their emotions so I learned I couldn't do that anymore but that caused me to get depressed in high school.

Like, I truly felt like a doll inside. Empty, no feelings or emotions but on the outside, I was perfect. I had good grades, my sister hated me for the size of the shoes I left her to fill, and I'm like really pretty. But I felt so fucking terrible all the time but I couldn't do anything to relieve that pain.... except for when I listened to music late at night and I could cry for hours and hours and hours and hours without being hit or yelled at to stop or accused of manipulating anyone.

I would listen to terribly depressing songs on purpose because crying made me feel so much better in the morning. Like, crying is truly a cathartic emotion for me and the only way I could find that was socially acceptable to cry was through late night musically induced breakdowns. Everyone on tumblr was constantly talking about their breakdowns, so I didn't think I was abnormal in my emotional regulation. Like, I didn't realize how deeply this affected me psychologically until after I got diagnosed and was thinking about how I went so long without being diagnosed.

The answer isn't that I'm low support needs, because the only reason I'm succeeding today is through the support of my partner. The answer is that I was quite literally abused into being socially acceptable autistic.

Anyways, reblog and add your own autism awakenings because so many people need to hear our stories and seek diagnosis/research themselves about what autism actually is, how it works, what "autism is a spectrum" actually means and the ways in which presentations of autism are highly, highly, highly dependent on socialization.

For example, in white communities and black communities there are different social culture norms. This means that the presentation of autism as "being really obsessed with trains" is like... not helpful at all when looking for special interests in black kids. Instead, black boys might be classified as "weebs" or be really, really, really into anime/Manga to the point where they Naruto run in school for example. Most people don't need to own every single novel in a 30 novel series, for example, and don't spend money on that because they can't justify to themselves. Autistic people like to make themselves happy and that's reason enough to buy something.

I'm going to stop rambling now but I'm really interested in hearing the moment that it truly clicked for you that you ARE autistic and WERE the entire time.