#i don’t exactly know what I’m going for..but it’s cool :3. this blog has really just shown a lot of trying stuff out

[mxviko]

Playing so hard in the snow your hair is wet and you can’t feel anything

I wanted to try out a collage type element to art to add more flavor, and did this to kinda test it out. It’s not exactly what I want but it’s something fun, as well as playing with colors.

[moonstruckme]

hi!! first of all, i am a frequent reader(???) of your blog because your writing is immaculate and you seem so sweet and fun to talk to you, thank you so much for all the work that you do

second of all, i really hope your request are indeed open so that i am not spamming you🫶 in case they are closed, i am so very sorry and freely ignore this

I was wondering if i could request a little reader x either james or if the spark comes to do poly! i will NEVER say no to that lmao, where the reader seemingly out of nowhere starts feeling down, voicing that she doesn't think she's a good person? because she thought of all the friendships and extremely close people that left her and she just feels hurts and confused?

need some hurt/comfort rn, i know i am a little mean, and probably not the nicest person out there, but thinking of all the failed friendships/folks that i loved so dearly makes me feel like perhaps i am not a good person and that thought plagues me a bit ng

either way, thank you so much in advance, i hope you are well, getting to take care of yourself and have a lovely rest of day, evening of whenever you are reading this!

Thanks for requesting honey, love you <3

James Potter x fem!reader ♡ 1.2k words

James is talking to you about the movie he wants to go see, and if you were a better girlfriend—if you were better, period—you’d be listening, chipping in occasionally but mostly just letting him talk with the same adoring attentiveness he always gives you. But instead, you’re still stuck in the pub you’d left a few minutes ago, watching the surprise play over Sirius’ features. The flash of something you suspect might have been hurt in his cool gray eyes before he covered it up with skillful quickness. 

“And whatever I say, I can’t seem to lure the boys to another sci fi film,” James goes on, “so I’m afraid you might be conscripted for that one.” 

“Okay.” 

“Really?” The disbelief in James’ voice brings you back to attention. “I thought you’d have more qualms after that last one.”

You did swear to James that he’d never be dragging you to another of his nerd movies again. But maybe this is your opportunity to turn over a new leaf. “You want to see it, right?” 

“Well, yeah.” 

“Then we’ll go.” 

The two of you walk under a streetlight, giving you a clear view of your boyfriend’s skeptical expression. “You’re really alright with it? We can go see that new rom com instead, if you want.” 

See, this is the problem with being around James. He’s so, so good. It makes you seem even worse in contrast. And he makes it impossible to be selfless, because he always has to be the most giving person in any situation. It makes you want to cry from both love and frustration. 

“Let’s just go to the one you want to see,” you say, and despite your best intentions the words come out with a slight edge. 

“Alright,” he says slowly. Now you can feel his eyes on you, your own gaze vaguely ahead as you keep pace alongside him on the sidewalk. You live in a more shadowy part of town, but the clouds obscuring the moon make the darkness complete. James’ voice is tentative. “Hey, are you okay?” 

You chew your bottom lip. “Do you think I upset Sirius earlier?”

“You mean that joke you made?” It doesn’t help your anxiety that he knows exactly what you mean. No chance it flew completely under everyone else’s radar, then. “No, he was fine.” 

“You don’t think he looked…I don’t know, shocked? Like his feelings were hurt?” 

James’ gaze burns into the side of your head, but you won’t look at him. “No, angel. I think your sense of humor can be a little…” he fumbles for the right word, and a worm of unease writhes in your gut “...brash, sometimes, but Sirius is made for that stuff. The last person you’re going to offend with that is him. He gets it.” 

You sigh and nod, doing your best to convince yourself he’s telling the truth. 

“Hey.” He bumps your shoulder lightly with his. “What’s going on in that head of yours? I can hear you thinking.” 

“I just don’t really know if I’m a good person.” 

Your voice is quiet, but you know James hears you perfectly. His steps actually fumble for a second, like he might stop in his tracks. 

“Of course you are,” he says. “I mean—listen, of course I would lie to you even if you weren’t, though I guess we probably wouldn’t be together if I thought you were a bad person, but—anyway, you are. You are a good person.” 

You force a laugh, ignoring how your throat contracts around it. “Sorry. I know you’d lie to make me feel better, Jamie. You’re too nice.” 

“I would,” James acknowledges, following as you go up the front steps to your apartment and dig around in your bag for your key. “But I’m not right now.” He ducks his head as you twist your key in the lock, jockeying for a view of your face. “Sweetheart, why would you think that?” 

“I don’t know,” you mumble as you step inside. You set your keys down on the table by the door and knead at your chest, but it does nothing to relieve the hollow ache forming there. 

“Yeah you do,” James says softly, hot on your tail. “I know you, you don’t just say these things. Come on.” He takes your shoulders in his hands, trapping you, and you drop your gaze to avoid meeting his eyes. (You know how that goes. They make you feel all soft and melty and get you to talk and talk and talk.) “I can’t be fully honest with you if you’re not honest with me,” he says. 

“I just know—I know I can be really mean sometimes.” Your voice cracks on mean, and James tightens his grip on you, holding you together while you crumble. The pressure in your throat is hot and thick, but it feels so good to cry. Like your outsides finally match your insides. “I want to be better but I don’t know how.” 

“Sweetheart.” James’ voice sounds like heartbreak. His hands slide from your shoulders, wrapping around your upper back and squeezing painfully. “Darling, you don’t need to be better. Or, not more than anyone else. You’re already a good person.”

You make a miserable choked sound, frustrated with him for only telling you what you want to hear and frustrated with yourself for not knowing better.

“You are,” he says, half desperate. “Know how I know?”

You take your face from his shoulder, eyeing guiltily the glossy wetness of your tears and snot on his jumper. James takes your face in a big hand, finally succeeding in angling it towards him. 

He’s giving you a little smile despite his own watery eyes and the deep crinkle between his brows. He takes your look as enough prompting to go on. 

“Because bad people don’t worry about if they’re good people, angel.” The words are emphatic, beseeching. Begging you to understand. “They don’t try to do the right thing. You being worried about Sirius is just proof that you care. Do you think a bad person would get themselves so worked up” —he thumbs at the wet skin underneath your eye, smiling thinly— “over whether they’re being too mean? That just doesn’t happen, love.” 

You swallow thickly, letting James press a solid kiss to your temple. He holds your face between his hands like you’re something special. Something worth having. 

“I wouldn’t be with someone who was always being actually mean to my friends,” he tells you, voice dropping into a lower register. You know he’s being sincere. James would never let anything happen to Sirius or Remus, certainly not by someone he’d brought into their orbit. “But we all know you don’t mean anything cruel by the things you say. It can be a little…” 

“Brash?” you supply, and James smiles. 

“Yeah,” he admits, “sometimes. Anyone who knows you doesn’t take it personally, though. You’re kind in your own way, it’s just not always what people are used to.” James tilts his head, assessing your expression and giving you full view of the earnestness in his in turn. “You’re a good person, sweetheart. And please don’t worry about being that kind of mean to Sirius, alright? He can take it.”

[kiirotoao]

HEYY YOUR SO PRETTY BTW AND I LOVE YOUR BLOG

the ask :

so, i wanted to get ur opinion on s3 mike. such as, what he was going through and his internalized homophobia. things like that!

maybe some things w/ him and his relationship w/ el too!

THANKS FOR ANSWERING IF U DO ANSWER :D

I’m gonna pretend that I’m fine after weeks of getting flustered just staring at this in my inbox! Thank you, anon!!! 🥺🥺 You’re making me blush! But, uh, anyways! Let’s talk about Mike Wheeler! 💙

I think that Mike in season 3 is the most interesting version of himself in the entire show because of how hidden his story becomes. In all other seasons, Mike cries openly with other people and expresses his sadness and fears over Will and El.

In season 3, though? Besides the finale, the tearful goodbyes narrated by Hopper, we never see Mike truly cry and explicitly talk through why. Sure, it can be pretty readily implied that it’s because of the Byers leaving, but we don’t hear that aloud. We don’t see exactly who’s on Mike’s mind as those cars pull away. We're left with silent and unsure stares, looks of seeming regret or something else unknown.

Season 3 is truly a huge turning point for Mike, he’s losing his girlfriend and arguably his closest friend in the Party, and it's so easily overlooked because it all happens at the very end of the final episode. Whereas El goes through hell and fights to connect to Billy and save her friends, where Max also feels the weight of his loss, where Will gets his heartbreaking scene at Castle Byers - all the Party members who are very linked to Mike get their emotional moments that season, and we know exactly why they cry.

But Mike dances around his emotions all season long. In consulting Lucas to deal with breaking up and making up with El, in trying to tell El that he loves her without ever saying it, in fighting with Will because "it's not [his] fault [Will doesn't] like girls."

Oh, Mike. I really don't think that Mike was out to hurt Will when he said that. Rather, it's a culmination of heteronormativity and the poor relationship that he has with El and trying to compensate for it. I interpret the outburst as him saying, 'it's not my fault that I'm in a relationship and you're not, so you wouldn't get it.' And by extension, Will being in a relationship would require, normatively, being with a girl.

But at the same time, for a jab that deep - I can't help but question more.

Mike could have said, "it's not my fault you don't like anyone!" or "don't bring her into this!" or even as simple as, "you wouldn't understand!" But no. Mike takes the direct train to sexuality station and brings up the fact that El is a girl. So it seems to me that Mike is very likely harboring something in his heart about why El being a girl is important for him to argue.

But we never know for sure. This moment is never addressed again due to the Mind Flayer’s sudden return. And so it’s up to us as the audience to decide what we think of Mike’s statement. And personally, as I’m sure many of you believe, too, I think that Mike is projecting and trying to hide the fact that he doesn’t like girls onto Will, pushing away his problems to someone he trusts who’s more similar to himself than he realizes.

Tied to his inability to say to El’s face that he loves her, to the fact that they've - reportedly from Hopper - kissed all Summer long with no mention of meaningful conversation, to the very surface-level relational mending his makes by calling El’s outfit “cool” and giving her candy, to the very end of the season where Mike once again denies saying that he loved El just before an open-eyed kiss and a face like this:

Mike doesn’t need to say anything about that kiss for me to know that that’s not the reaction of someone who’s perfectly happy to be back together with his ex-girlfriend. So do I wish that we had a moment of vulnerability for Mike where he expressed his heart in season 3? Yes, but his nonverbals spoke volumes.

So, yeah, I think that in season 3, Mike is very much gay, but he he acts cautiously and self-preservingly because trauma is drowning everything out.

And what is this trauma? I know that I’m working backwards, but I need to bring up that Mike was separated from El for so long in the time of season 2, and I think that that makes him so attached to her in season 3. Think about what else he says in that scene when he admits his love: “I love her and I can’t lose her again.”

As sweet as it is to be reunited to El by the end of season 2, it’s not a clean reunion for Mike. He’s in shambles when he learns that Hopper was lying to him and not letting El even tell Mike that she’s okay.

Not to mention that this isn’t his first but second time almost losing her to the monster that season.

Because of this unstable connection, I think that Mike has built a protective relationship with El, one that focuses on keeping her rather than knowing her, and we see how that all unfolds with his superficial “superhero” complex he has of her in season 4. Season 3 was just the beginning.

And so I think that Mike in season 3 stands as a version of himself that’s confused protectiveness with love. Even though he arguably behaves with that same mindset all the time, it’s at its highest during season 3 because of his never-ending insistence to help El even if she’s capable to do things by herself. Mike isn’t just clingy, he’s worried. Worried for her life. There’s no time to worry about where the problems in their relationship arise, there’s only time to fix them and go back to how they were at equilibrium - when things were normal.

Thus, Mike behaves rather stubbornly. He’s insistent and defensive, not letting a single thing slip through the cracks and risk any more hurt. In doing so, his personality is left far under the surface and unexplored. He only acts to stir up emotions rather than reflect on them, because any pausing to think will only confuse him more. He’s looking ahead, looking at the light, holding onto everything good he has with all the propriety of a 13/14-year-old who has a heart bigger than his head.

Simply put, Mike is a bit of an anti-hero this season. And I think that it's because of this that he starts to get most controversial for the audience.

I’m clearly a Mike apologist, but I genuinely don’t think that he’s out to hurt anyone when he argues with others this season. He’s just stubborn and loud about it, which can definitely be to his fault at times. But in the end, when it comes down to who he loves, I think that season 3 is the era of change, and that ending scene with Hopper’s letter paints the perfect setup for the next seasons to reveal that Mike has a lot more going on under the surface that’s causing all of this. Maybe some regrets, things he wishes he could “turn back the clock” on, regarding, say, Will and El and how he treats them platonically and romantically? Just a thought.

The question of the day for Mike in season 3 stands: is he being selfish or selfless? And I think that it’s a mix of both, blended in with some heavy confusion due to role changing (not needing to protect El) and uncertain affections (not knowing how to figure out what he has with Will).

So, yeah. All in all, I think that Mike is really closeted in season 3 and doesn’t realize it until the final episode, and I honestly love him for it. As someone who’s gone through similar hurdles of internalized homophobia as a teen, it’s really heartwarming to see him grow and figure things out, even if the journey is far from perfect. It’s a humble origin story. And if he somehow ends up being straight and Byler isn’t endgame, well. I’ll be upset at the writers, but the impact still stands.

[ryuichirou]

I wanna start with I love your blog sm and I’m not trying to jump on the train, in fact I don’t even mind if you just read this and don’t post or even just delete after you read, but I know where the “Rook gaslighter” thing comes from and wanted to explain (I also just LOVE talking about rook even if its negative). Im not explaining to change your mind but rather to inform!! Because I love spending hours analyzing the characters, pls don’t stop drawing rook!! Ever!!

ANYWAYS now that “please don’t hate me I have to uncontrollably explain everything about my favorite character(s) the second someone doesn’t know about one small detail 😭” is over, I will explain! During Vil’s lab wear vignette, Rook asks Vil when he’s going to start his new diet. Vil, confused, is like what??? Tf?? And rook is like “yeah :D you have put on 3 pounds exactly :)”. Vil is lowkey like wtf Rook I haven’t noticed shit and rook is like “okayyy but who do you believe? Me or literally anyone else?” And vil is like “yeah you’re right, I’ll adjust my diet, thank you rook”.

The ‘issue’ with the “rook is a gaslighter” is it’s SOLELY a fandom thing (and maybe with other characters, but still, like. Vil is a world class model he CANT put on weight like a normal person could because it’ll unfortunately affect his career. The beauty world is just like that, irl too. Plus, this is something he wants for himself, even if he admits to hating the diets during his overblot, it’s still a part of who he is). Vil, himself, views rook’s behavior as a helpful thing, he appreciates Rook’s supernaturally keen eye! He might be offended but ultimately he would not have Rook as his vice-prez if he didn’t respect or admire Rook in some way.

I adore the way you draw them together!! The one where vil is like “how dare you! Just because he’s strange doesn’t mean he’s like that!” And rook is behind him with blood on his face, he’s so cute! I recently found another blog that is similar to yours that I also wanted to see if you knew bc they draw rook out the same way you do! @/fadiesismin is so cool and I think you’d love their artwork!!! Also I’m very sorry for the long-winded ask, in my defense, I’m also a Sagittarius. Rook 🫶 Me, xoxoxoxoxo!!

Sagittarius Anon! I’m sorry it took this long to reply.

First of all, thank you for enjoying our stuff and for your support! I am very happy that you like the way we portray RookVil. Their relationship is very interesting and honestly quite nuanced; we don’t usually gravitate towards ships that have this strong of a “they’ve been dating for a while” vibe, but these two are just too charming. Probably because despite them deeply understanding each other and sharing a lot of values and passions, they really aren’t a perfect couple, and we get to see it in moments like the vignette you’ve mentioned, or Rook’s lab wear vignette, or on multiple other occasions. Rook isn’t the perfect boyfriend, in fact, he is quite a menace sometimes without really meaning harm (still, he technically made Vil cry at least once); but there also isn’t another person that would get Vil as deeply as Rook does and support him as well as Rook does. What they have is special, but isn’t perfect at all.

As you already know, we also love talking about characters a lot, so I even though I am late with this reply, I am happy to have an opportunity to talk about these two and Rook specifically. So thank you for sending this ask and waiting!

I’ve seen this vignette being used as an example of Rook being gaslighting/manipulative before, and to be honest, I don’t really get this argument. I understand that the reasoning is usually that Rook sounds similar to a man that lies to his girlfriend about her being fat because he wants her to be even skinnier or just to be an asshole about it, but here is the thing: this isn’t what Rook is doing though. Gaslighter always has ulterior motive behind their manipulations, even if it’s just to mess with someone else’s head for fun or to control this person. But with Rook (both in this vignette and in general), what you see is what you get: the man is brutally honest, sometimes even too honest. Vil himself is very aware of that and has mentioned it multiple times.

It’s just like you said! Vil never lets anyone forget that his looks are important to him (both because of his own standards and because he is a model), so of course Rook would comment on something that he noticed. This is the foundation of their relationship: Rook gives Vil his feedback because Rook sees things that other people don’t. Does it mean that this feedback is always 100% necessary and Vil should change things according to how Rook critiques him? Of course not. Maybe sometimes it would be better for Vil to just take it easy and relax instead of perfecting every single thing, but this isn’t what Vil wants for himself: he doesn’t want to be pampered, he wants to be appreciated for his hard work. Rook enables Vil’s perfectionism, but don’t forget that Rook is that force in Vil’s life that doesn’t let him forget what he is doing all that for (I’ve talked about Rook being protective of Vil’s “beauty” = love for art here). Vil having a toned body is something that Rook enjoys, but this is mainly something that Vil wants himself; I kind of think that as long as Vil’s passionate and unapologetic about things that he does, Rook would find beauty in him no matter how he looks. Remember him at the end of ch6 after Vil’s grandpafication? Yeah exactly.

Alright, I digress. The point I am trying to make is that Rook is very direct with Vil, sometimes even too direct, and this is the opposite of gaslighting. Even when he suggests things “lightly”, he is still upfront about them: he doesn’t try to plant any ideas in Vil’s head.

Rook sounds and acts like a jerk sometimes, but he means well, and it’s not an excuse, just a fact. In Rook’s head, Vil always takes his direct remarks and observations very well, what’s so different this time? Even if you’ve been with someone for years, fuckups are unavoidable, especially for someone who has problems with tact.

To reiterate: could this scene be triggering or upsetting? Absolutely. Are there people who comment on other’s weight to make them insecure or make them doubt themselves? Absolutely. Is this what Rook does? Absolutely not. It just isn’t true to his character: he wouldn’t gain anything if Vil started doubting himself, in fact, he would have hated it. He doesn’t want Vil to be insecure or unsure, this is literally what he confronted him about at the end of Ch5. He also doesn’t need to do anything for Vil to trust him more than others: Vil already does. When he was saying that he knew better than anyone or anything else, he stated the truth, and this is what so fucked up about Rook: he really does know better.

It’s very important to remember that these characters have their own circumstances and their own writing, and we are fucking blessed to have a cast of characters this interesting and complex.

By the way, I am saying all of this as someone who wouldn’t mind Rook being a gaslighter and could see fanon scenarios where it could work, but those need to be very well-written not to ruin his character, because honesty is an integral part of Rook Hunt. For better or worse.

Also, I know you haven’t mentioned Jade, Anon, but since this entire discussion started with comparing the two, I wanted to note that Jade’s Dorm Uniform vignette exists. Vil literally looked at him man and decided not to trust him for one moment, even scolded Rook for even humouring the idea that Jade was telling the truth. And this is just one instance; we are constantly being reminded by everyone in cast about the fact that Jade is shady and we shouldn’t take seriously the majority of things that he says (pretty much verbatim to what Floyd said about him in the Playful Land event). Jade doesn’t care about honesty, he doesn’t care about lying either: all he cares about is what to say to make the others react in the most interesting way possible. He loves messing with people, and the world is his playground….

(I am also pretty sure that he comments on Azul’s diet; this has nothing to do with gaslighting either, just thought I’d mention that since we’re talking about this)

Anyways, thank you again for your ask, Anon! I hope this wasn’t an exhausting read. I always feel like I haven’t said everything that I wanted to say, but fortunately I still have tons of replies to write, so I’ll have my chance..! Probably.

PS. @/fadiesismin’s works are very good!!

[pansyfemme]

is it possible that you're willing to share more information about the boyfriend.... 🥺🥺🥺

(i love your blog as a baby trans guy i feel so inspired you're epic)

first. thanks! and second. none of this is info i havent shared before, i’m happy to talk about him (and i do) but i don’t want to overshare since yknow. i have a pretty big precense on this site and i worry about overwheming him with internet attention at times, yknow. i do. still talk about him a lot tho. so. idk its early

well. uh. we go to school together, so we’re both artists. we’re t4t, he’s also a fairly feminine guy who wears dresses and has long hair, but he’s in a pretty different direction-he wears a lot of black and is more gothically inclined. we started seeing eachother a bit over 3 months ago. we’ve known eachother since freshman year, but have never been super close friends, but a sort of. mutual admiration. i always thought he was very cool but i tend to. stick to my own group at school i guess? and he’s similar in that respect. I developed more of a substantial crush on him some months ago, and he apperantly did for me as well. and i could. tell a little bit. what started us talking though was that we have a mutual friend who gave him my phone number and often would stop by his work with me when we were hanging out, since she knew we thought the other person was cool. (she did. not know our intent was romantic, but she matchmade in a weird way regardless) I had been flirting with him for a little bit, especially at the times we did text, but i don’t think he. got thats what i was doing. and i dont think i was very good at it, so eventually, a few days after i moved home for the summer, i asked him, in a very awkward way, if he was interested in going out with me sometime, and learned that he did not. seem to suspect me liking him back despite me assuming he already knew. regardless, the intense crush was indeed very mutual, so he was very excited by the idea lol. we live a bit from eachother and both dont drive, so it took us a few weeks to be able to go on our first date, but it was lovely. he also came down for a few days to visit me for my birthday, which was. the highlight of at least the year for me. it was pretty fantastic. i’m not exactly outgoing but i’m not exactly not either so. i was worried about it but he doesnt think he would have had the confidence to make the first move until much later on so i’m pretty glad i did? we’re both chronically anxious so it was kind of. a realization on my part that it was probably best if i was as blunt as humanly possibly, and it. worked? i sound very awkward but im really over the moon about the whole thing. he’s a remarkably smart and sweet person, and incredibly talented at. everything he does. i feel very lucky. he’s also followed me on here for quite some time and he finds my internet prescense. very entertaining. which i’m glad because i was worried it would turn him off lol. i promise i am more polite irl. but yeah :) i’m excited to be able to see him in person consistantly for once.

[solongandgoodnightxoxo]

//ooc

I kind of have the urge to loredump for this blog, don’t know why. Keep in mind that its 3 am while I type this and I haven’t had a coherent thought in 30 minutes.

(Just found the best way to describe this: Jekyll and Hyde)

So basically, theres two sides to this coin

Gideon

He tends to be closer to the comic/movie version, full throttle on the evil and bitchyness for him (though he is slightly nicer to his partners and lucas, he still wont hesitate to treat them like lesser human beings)

Gordon

Basically just anime gideon in all of his glory. Hs’s way nicer, but don’t let that fool you, he’s still very evil, and very rude. He’s typically really nasty to everyone except close friends and partners. (Unlike gideon, who’s only slightly nicer to partners and lucas specifically, gordon enjoys company of all the exes)

The one thing the two have in common is how they treat others, but that mainly just applies to anons.

The switch to “Gideon” usually happens whenever he’s plotting, going through shit, or just really annoyed. So in theory you don’t see this side of him often, but theres really no warning for when he switches.

I’m not exactly sure if this would be a personality disorder, but I do think he’s bipolar and has BPD, but thats just Gideon in general to me.

If you want, you guys can send in asks and specify if you want him to be Gideon or Gordon.

Basically how im separating it is, I like both spto and the comics a TON, so I don’t want to chose just one version for him to be. I figured if I separated him like this, then I can have both (if that makes sense)

Backtracking to the personality disorder thing, I feel like its not fully that (im still a firm believer that this character in general has BPD or a bipolar disorder based on his actions and motives) but more of a status thing. Gideon is usually how he wants the public to see him, cool, tough, everything that makes him hot essentially. But then Gordon is just who he really is, a dumb little dork who loves his lady and throwing rocks at cars with Lucas.

Though I do like the idea that no matter what, he’s still evil within. Even as Gordon, he’s not opposed to messing things up and making lives hell, its just not his priority.

I hope this made sense, I’ll edit in the morning when I’m actually thinking straight (maybe)

[roosterbox]

hey! found your blog the other day and i love it<3

do you have any arthut/eames fic recommendations? i rewatched the movie a week ago and can't stop thinking about them

(sorry about the wait!)

First of all, hey there! Hello! Glad you found me, and glad to know you liked Inception. Hard to believe that it’s still drawing so many people in, 14 years on.

Second of all…

Oh baby. Oh man. Not just fic recs, but A/E fic recs? Yesssssssss my time has come.

First, there are a couple of writers whose entire oeuvre you should definitely check out if you haven’t.

Lolahardy, whose Dreamhusbands work is vast and varied, but here are a few of my own favorites (important note: no links because Lola’s fics are currently locked, but they are easily findable if you have an AO3 account, and you should definitely check out all of them, not just the few I mentioned here!):

In Every Universe - the fic that will never die, lol. So many great A/E stories here, but for me, the biggest draw are the other JGL/TH ships contained within. My personal favorite is Forrest/Evelyn, who I almost love even more than A/E at this point. Also, so many tropes and kinks and whatnot. Safe to say, I’m positive you’ll find a lot of different things to enjoy!

Le Mal Du Pays - this one is just lovely. I reread it again for this rec list and boy… still amazing. The chapters set during canon are so good, it’s like watching the movie again, but with the added bonus of actual A/E in the plot, you know?

Love is Strange - A/E by way of Dirty Dancing! I love it when you can enjoy an AU based on a very specific property even without having seen said property. For example, I adore everything about this fic even though I have never watched DD, not even once, lol.

OneWhoSitsWithTurtles, whose A/E work is never anything less than stellar and beautiful, and regularly makes me cry. Also, they have works in other fandoms that are equally worth checking out!

Christmas Without You (Is a Christmas Not Worth Having) - the best. The pinnacle. If ever you (or anyone else, for that matter) were curious about what my favorite A/E fic of all time is? Here’s your answer.

Dream of Me - This one is just beautiful. A simple little somewhat canon-compliant love story. So sugary sweet at times, it runs the risk of being tooth-rotting. But I’m always willing to take that risk.

39 Days to Fall in Love - the survivor AU you didn’t know you were missing. Seriously, it’s so good it might make you want to watch Survivor if you haven’t already, even if you know there’s no Arthur or Eames in it, lol.

Lullaby - Hands down, the saddest A/E fic I have ever read, and certainly in the running for saddest fic period. Seriously, it’s beautiful and worth reading but don’t go in without some tissues.

The Bumblebee and the Flower who Fell in Love - Also very sad, but so very whimsical and sweet besides. A/E works well in seemingly silly setups like this.

And now, for a few more individual recs. Mind you, a lot of my recs are a bit older - I really need to go back and peruse through the ship tag to find new stuff to bookmark - but hey, something something wine metaphors, lol.

End of the Road - this one is so cool. If you like Mad Max Fury Road and ever wondered what it would be like if you combined it with A/E (sort of) and some A/B/O Dynamics, you can’t do better than this.

Quiet Desperation - a lovely little A/E and 00q crossover story! I would read an entire series of this if it existed.

Next Big Thing - A/E as judges on a HGTV reality show. Classic! The exact kind of fairly low stakes drama I can get behind. No spoilers, but my favorite character is Misty Rainbow. For one scene in particular. If you read it, you’ll know exactly which one. Also I wish this show was real.

The Party - heavy subject matter in this one (heed the tags), but getting through the rough stuff makes the eventual fluffier bits almost extra sweet.

Out of Reach - a recent addition to my ranks, but absolutely beautiful. The emotions are so palpable and heartfelt.

And… would it be completely shameless if I included a couple of mine? I don’t like to toot my own horn too much, but since nobody else ever puts me on their reclists, why not, right?

Darling I’m Killed - my somewhat still ongoing Inception/Bond crossover. There are two sequels, and I have no concrete ideas for more yet, but there’s potential.

(I Would Like To) Paint the Way a Bird Sings - the Paint Shop AU that wouldn’t quit, lol. Still can’t believe I actually finished it. Four ships for the price of one in this fic!

Other inception fandom peeps, feel free to reblog and add any fics or authors you like! Especially more recent stuff because I am such a fandom oldtimer, lmao.

Thanks for the ask! I love recommending fics! Also thanks for the follow!

Happy reading!!

❤️

[beautifulpersonpeach]

It's cold and dreary and the tannies are gone,,, *cries in the corner* But the re-debuting (?) efforts for 2 cool 4 skool (I definitely didn't know how to spell this lol) is so heartwarming!! I just feel warm and fuzzy inside, you know?? Do you know if these fandom efforts are typical for kpop groups? I don't know what to expect for this ms era. I keep seeing articles and discussions that talk about who'll fill in the gap that's left by bts. It's not that I'm super worried (I know exactly where I stand), but I just don't know what will happen next as a whole. I quite enjoy the current army atmosphere. It makes me think that armys are the best when they are working towards a goal. Would you be able to share what are the things that ppl (who's never been through something like this) should keep in mind moving forward for the next 6month-1.5year? Thank you so much!

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Yeah, re-charting old songs is something more than a few fandoms do from time to time, but ARMYs’ aim of re-charting several old songs, sometimes whole albums, at once and methodically - that’s something I don’t think has been done before. And yes it warms my heart to see the fandom give BTS this. Even though it’s more of symbolic gesture than ‘huge achievement’, it’s a tangible way the fandom can express that we intend to stick by BTS this entire time. Life might happen, we might explore other groups and hobbies or take some time to ourselves, but we’ll never really abandon BTS or forget them while they’re in service. It also allows the fandom the opportunity to re-experience BTS’s old music. It’s reminding me of why I fell in love with them in the beginning.

And you’re right. The fandom does need a goal to work towards. One of the first things I said on this blog that I remember people got mad at me for (lol), was that I think many ARMYs are just Type A k-pop stans who prioritize BTS. A lot of us do well with targets and performance measures, using information and ingenuity to achieve desired goals for someone we love genuinely gets us going. When the fandom is aimless people go crazy. So yeah, keep ARMYs busy and peace will be reasonably attainable.

It seems HYBE intends to keep milking the fandom too - more documentaries are coming, at least four members will release new music over the next 1.5 years, we might get a Jin tour/showcase or Hobi live performances, etc. So I guess we’ve got nothing to worry about on that front.

I’m not too sure myself what to expect between now and 2025. Last week I talked about what usually happens when a group enlists based on what I’ve observed:

1. Some people take a break away from k-pop fully.

2. Some explore other groups, whether or not they end up stanning as well.

3. Some people stay in k-pop and remain only committed to BTS

All three options are valid and sometimes there’s no real difference between how people approach options 2 and 3.

But really, while the guys are in the military I don’t expect the infighting within the fandom to reduce. At best it’s going to remain this annoying for the next 18 months. I know people are hopeful we get more spaced out releases but I’m actually expecting some stacked line-ups in releases next year. I’m also not expecting Seven/Golden-style promotions for any member that doesn’t release under HYBE America. The usual suspects (akgaes, shooters, antis, shippers) will be whining in any case so it’s going to be a pain.

And outside the fandom, I know the race is going to be mad. Right now ATEEZ, Stray Kids, NewJeans, RIIZE, Aespa, VCHA, Katseye, IVE, SHINee, Blackpink and few more… are revving up to take over in 2024. I’m so curious to see all the ways these groups/their companies will try to fill the BTS vacuum. How they will try to court ARMYs and pitch themselves as the rightful successors to BTS.

I’m not really sure what to expect but I know it’s going to be a fun time that’s for sure.

[kageyuji]

Hii! This is my first time trying this, but do you have any advice for starting and building a writing blog?

I've been wanting to start one for a while but I'm not sure how to gain followers and stuff.

hi!! no worries :D and tbh.. i’m not exactly sure LMAO despite it seeming like i have my shit together i Do Not. but!! i can give you some general things/ideas:

write for yourself. write what makes you happy and what you genuinely want to write. despite how much of a people-pleaser i am, it’s also really important to remember that this is a hobby and if you write things you don’t really want to write, it’s going to show through your work but it’s also going to burn you out quickly.

(that said, if you are writing for x reader content make sure your reader is ambiguous. having a character be a 5’4 brunette with a knack for baking is cool sometimes, but it’s also a very slim audience and it’s going to throw some people off)

similarly, don’t compare yourself to other creators and don’t compare yourself to.. yourself. if you have something that does really good, and then you post the next week and it does shit, that’s okay! sometimes tumblr algorithm is just shit. sometimes certain characters are more of a fan favorite. but, also remember that people who have already built a large following are going to have more notes. just don’t get discouraged easily — every fic is something entirely new and it shouldn’t be weighed off of someone else or an entirely different work.

make a masterlist, and make it organized. if you write for a lot of characters and use different posting types this can get really confusing, but look around at other places or play around with it until you find something that you think feels right.

watch your blog activity (once you start posting, anyway). i believe mobile doesn’t have it, but on desktop (or just login to tumblr from your phones browser app lol) there is a little icon that will show interactions with your posts/blog and you can ask it to show the chart based on time of day, weekly basis, etc. post accordingly to that, and hopefully your posts will gain a little more traction :)

aesthetic is (unfortunately) pretty important in my opinion. of course, if you have the most well written thing i’ve seen i’m going to ignore the kinks but i’m also going to be a lot more likely to read things that are organized well. this is mostly about fics to catch someone’s eye, although this bleeds into your actual blog as well.

(pinterest has lots of cool stuff for aesthetics. twitter layout blogs also usually have a lot of good headers. if you want dividers, you can search the “dividers” tag on tumblr or there’s loads of mobile apps to get the thin color strip dividers like i use.)

similarly, try to make your pinned/navi organized and easy to follow. in my personal opinion, i like adding things like rules/dni, tag guides, and especially masterlists linked somewhere in the post. although, again, it’s up to personal opinion on what exactly you want to link there. as long as it’s organized and somewhat simple, you’re good.

as far as a masterlist and rules go, i would recommend laying out certain things beforehand, like what characters you’re going to write for and hard “no”s. as much as i love people on tumblr, sometimes they just cannot read — it helped me a lot whenever i was new to tell myself “hey, i don’t have to do that. it says that right here and it’s not my fault that they didn’t see that!”

(i also added a little rule that said “if you actually read this, add a ‘<3’ in your asks so i know” LOL it helped me filter requests between who actually cared to read my rules and who didn’t)

add tags to your fics. add so many tags. add many more tags than you think you probably need. add so many tags that you get sick of them — that’s how people are going to find you.

try to keep anonymous asks on, that’s where a lot of interaction comes from. ik people can be dicks sometimes but there’s also a lot of shy people on tumblr. probably 90% of my asks are from anons and i use anon 90% of the time whenever i send asks (especially to my moots bc they’re scary :[ lol)

just generally be nice to people. you don’t have to go out of your way to send love letters to everyone on your feed, but i’ve found that just leaving a little “i hope you enjoy reading this” or something similar as a little note helps my mental for some reason, but it also (hopefully) makes me seem a little less intimidating

[crow-in-gotham]

BLOG POST NO. 9 - RED HOOD IN MY APARTMENT, HOPE THIS DOESN’T KEEP HAPPENING

Are the Gotham vigilantes okay? Specifically Red Hood? And I don’t mean that in a physical way (although I do wonder how most of them are still alive despite the concerning amount of bodily harm they apparently go through) but in more of a mental way—

I know that the obvious answer is no (wearing spandex and hidden body armor and going around jumping on rooftops to fight villains isn’t exactly something a sane person would do, and plus there’s not a single actual sane person in Gotham anyway) but I still gotta ask.

Now, I live— like— basically in Crime Alley, right? Not really smack-dab in the middle of it (thank fuck) but on the outskirts (do I count that was a win?). So basically, I am still within what people say is Red Hood’s territory (which, you know— thank fuck again). Essentially, what this means is that I get to encounter the vigilantes every once in a while. Not like a whole lot (I don’t see them everyday— or, well, everynight I guess?) but definitely more times than I have ever encountered a hero back when I lived in the Pearl of the Orient Seas (Philippines. I’m talking about the Philippines—).

So, story time: I was walking home, as you do, after my shift at the Gotham City Public Library (for context to those reading this without it, I work there in my spare time). Mr. Gordon (he keeps telling me to call him Jim but my Filipino ancestors would incinerate me so no) was busy with a case so he couldn’t drive me home this time— which, you know, not to worry, it isn’t the first time this has happened anyway, so it’s cool.

So there I am, just going “lalala” to my humble abode. I had managed to get all the way to my block with no incidents. So the walk was going great.

Well, up until I was about 3 buildings away from my apartment and I suddenly got dragged into a dark alleyway by some nutjob wearing a ski mask. Honestly I thought that kind of get-up only appeared in movies or TV shows, but I digress. The dude pulled a gun on me and threatened to shoot if I didn’t give him all my money. So basically your average mugging experience, right?

So I did what any normal human being (read: insane) would do and gave him my wallet. I mean what else was I supposed to do, just beg for my life and cry? I’m way too self-deprecating for that shit, and also I stopped giving a fuck by the third time something like this happened.

Plus, if a mugger or deranged serial killer or one of the fucked up villains of Gotham don’t kill me first, then my degree will finish the job :) (I think I need therapy. But do I really? Nahh)

Any-fucking-way, unfortunately for ski-mask-mcgee over here, he decided to mug one of the types of people that he shouldn’t mug: a broke college student. Like bro, there’s literally nothing in my wallet other than a measly $3 and a lollipop. What the fuck did you expect?

So he takes my $3 (rude) then fucking points the gun at me again and threatens to shoot (that threat’s getting old) if I don’t hand him everything I have. And I’m like— dude wtf? That’s literally everything I have, right there in your hand?? What do I look like, the fucking city bank?

I was starting to get annoyed (and cold because god it was freezing) when suddenly, a shadow just swoops down and lands next to us. Dude in the ski mask panicked and shot at the general direction of whatever the fuck decided to drop by (literally) but then quickly got incapacitated after getting punched in the face by said shadow person.

Then they stepped into the light to zip tie the mugger’s hands together (because handcuffs are so last season) and lo and behold, can you guess who it is? That’s right, it’s the Red Hood! Claps and cheers all around (I was so dead tired that I just deadpanned when I saw who it was).

He asked me if I was alright, yada yada, you know, basic “I just saved you, I hope you’re okay” 101, with a dash of barely managed anger issues. You know, for flavor.

I was about to just turn around and speedwalk to my apartment (because fuck I really wanted a nap) when suddenly I notice something that was marginally concerning.

This guy (Red Hood) was bleeding.

And it was not one of those little trickles— this man had a bullet wound in his abdomen that looked like it was a mini rendition of the fucking Niagra Falls.

So obviously I’m concerned (or I hope I at least looked concerned— I was too tired to know what facial expression to actually make) and I asked him, like, “hey dude, you good?” And this idiot just looks at me, follows my gaze towards his abdomen (how did he not fucking notice) and just shrugged— fucking shrugged— and said, “ ‘Tis but a flesh wound”.

Whether or not I laughed is none of your business.

While I appreciate the Monty Python and the Holy Grail reference (great movie by the way, 100/10), it was definitely not a flesh wound.

So I did what any sane, normal, totally not crazy human being would do and dragged this personification of a wall of muscle towards my apartment. (After calling the police to take the very much knocked out mugger laying on the ground, of course)

I don’t even know how the hell I managed to drag this guy into my apartment because, for 1, he could literally bench press me, and 2, he could snap me in half like a twig, and 3, I am about as muscular as a sea sponge. Meaning to say, I am not muscular or strong whatsoever.

I’m pretty sure Red Hood just let me drag him into his apartment because it looked like I would cry otherwise (and I would have).

Anyway, so that’s the story of how I got the Red Hood into my home, I guess—

It uh, took me about 5 seconds after sitting him down on the couch and grabbing my first aid kit before I realized that I’m a fucking idiot because I don’t have any medical training, and I obviously don’t know how to fucking remove a bullet.

Is this why my mother said that I should take Nursing instead? Well fuck.

I think Red Hood also realized that I am a fucking dumbass because he just stared at me staring at him and fucking laughed.

He laughed.

Fuck I wanna bury myself in a hole and die—

Thankfully though (and also concerningly) Red Hood knows how to remove bullets from himself (wtf dude) and I just helped him disinfect and bandage up his wound (with him instructing me, because again, I am a dumbass).

So that’s the story of how I ended up with the Red Hood on my sofa.

Fucking great. Wonderful. Apparently he decided to take the rest of the night off and just crashed there instead (I definitely did not bribe him to stay by giving him some of my snacks from home— nope, no sir-ie, I have no idea what you’re talking about).

I’m writing this from the comfort of my bedroom while he just sleeps on the sofa outside, in the living room.

Holy fuck I have the Red Hood in my house.

He ate the snacks I gave him and fell asleep while listening to Legally Blonde play on the TV.

What the ever loving fuck is happening in my life.

… I need to go to bed.

Good fucking night.

[vinylsarecomfortfood]

Brontë and Stephanie's Relationship Headcanons

Synopsis: What started as playful flirtation grew into a deep, balanced connection. Now, their love is built on laughter, teasing, and mutual understanding, with moments ranging from cozy mornings to late-night talks. They’ve found a rhythm that lets them thrive as individuals while deeply in love with each other.

Warnings: mention of soft power play; intimacy cozy touches; cuteness; flirts; fluffy things <3

Word count: 1,183

Head Post

Minors, ageless blogs, men, terfs, stupid person DO NOT INTERACT I WILL BLOCK YOU

1. Playful Power Dynamics:

Their relationship thrives on playful power dynamics. They find balance in the back-and-forth, never fully dominating but enjoying the tension. Brontë and Stephanie’s playful power dynamic is not about one person always holding the upper hand. Instead, it’s a fluid, ongoing exchange of control and submission, built on trust, respect, and a deep understanding of each other’s desires.

2. Physical Affection:

They’re both very touchy with each other, always holding hands, touching knees, or casually playing with the other’s hair. It’s their way of constantly being connected, and neither of them can go too long without some form of physical contact. Brontë’s hand instinctively finds the small of Stephanie’s back whenever they’re out in public, grounding her. Meanwhile, Stephanie likes to brush her fingers against Brontë’s neck or leave quick kisses on her temple, small enough to go unnoticed but intimate enough to make Brontë feel her presence. Even the way they lean into each other when they’re sitting or standing speaks volumes about their connection. These quiet acts of affection aren’t about making a statement but about the constant reminder that they’re right there, always in sync.They don’t need grand gestures to remind each other that they belong together.

3. Unspoken Connection:

Brontë and Stephanie have an almost telepathic connection — they can have entire conversations without saying a word. A single raised eyebrow from Brontë can either send Stephanie into a fit of laughter or make her cheeks burn with embarrassment, depending on the context. When they’re at a party or event, they don’t need to speak to know exactly what the other is thinking — a shared glance across the room says it all. Brontë might give Stephanie a subtle smirk that says, “Wait until we’re alone,” or a comforting look when Stephanie feels overwhelmed, grounding her instantly. On Stephanie’s side, a playful nudge or a soft bite on her lip lets Brontë know exactly what’s on her mind without her having to say a word. This unspoken communication has become an integral part of their relationship, making their connection feel effortless and deeply intimate.

4. Inside Jokes:

Their relationship is filled with quirky, hilarious inside jokes that only they understand. From ridiculous moments during their first dates — like the time Brontë spilled wine on her suit and tried to play it cool, only for Stephanie to start laughing uncontrollably — to memories from their early days as friends, when they danced around their feelings. One of their favorite jokes stems from those first few months: when either one of them got flustered around the other, they’d blame it on the weather. “Wow, it’s really hot in here, isn’t it?” became code for “I’m totally crushing on you, but I can’t admit it yet.”

5. Balanced Independence:

Their relationship is built on mutual respect for each other’s independence. Brontë is often swamped with her work as a lawyer, and Stephanie’s dance career takes her to rehearsals and performances that keep her on the go. They’ve developed a rhythm of giving each other space to grow individually while never losing sight of their relationship. Brontë loves how focused Stephanie is on her art, while Stephanie admires Brontë’s drive and ambition. They know when to back off and let the other focus, but they also know how to signal when it’s time to reconnect — whether that’s a date night or just curling up on the couch together after a long day.

6. Intimacy and Conversations:

Brontë and Stephanie treasure their quiet moments together, especially during those rare times when the world around them fades away. They often find themselves tangled in bed, where they can share their thoughts freely, whether it's early morning or late at night. With a steaming mug of cinnamon coffee in hand, sharing everything from profound discussions about their future to whimsical thoughts about the cosmos, pondering questions like whether life exists to prove that the universe was meant for them. These peaceful mornings and cozy nights often evolve into playful banter about their plans for the day, setting a light-hearted tone or simply laying tangled beneath the warm light of the bedside lamp. 

7. Nicknames:

Brontë and Stephanie have pet names for each other that range from sweet to utterly ridiculous. Stephanie’s favorite nickname for Brontë is “my sunshine” because of her calm and grounding presence, while Brontë playfully calls Stephanie “trouble” due to her playful and energetic nature.

8. Souvenir Holiday Tradition:

Every holiday, Brontë and Stephanie compete to find the most ridiculous souvenir gifts, like the time Brontë gave Stephanie a rubber chicken and called it their "spirit animal." From wacky snow globes to a "world’s tiniest" frying pan, they take pride in out-silly-ing each other. The best part? They tell absurd backstories for each gift, turning their holidays into a comedy show full of laughs and ridiculous memories.

9. Flirty Bickering:

Their bickering isn’t just for fun; it’s an extension of their playful power dynamic. Brontë will make sarcastic remarks about Stephanie’s messy habits, like leaving her dance gear everywhere, and Steph will throw it right back by teasing Brontë about her obsessive organization. The teasing is always underlined with affection—Brontë will say, “You’re lucky you’re cute,” and Stephanie will grin, knowing that their banter is another layer of how they show love. It’s their special language, and the little arguments often end with a stolen kiss or a wink, diffusing any tension before it ever starts.

10. Dancing Together:

For Stephanie, dancing is a way to express herself, and pulling Brontë into it is her favorite kind of seduction. Whether it’s in their living room or on a crowded dance floor at an event, the second she takes Brontë’s hand and leads her into a slow sway, it’s like the world falls away. Brontë, who isn’t a natural dancer, will sometimes act stiff and tease, “You’re showing off again,” but the second Steph’s hands slide around her waist, she’s melting. It almost always starts playfully, but it often ends with the kind of dance that has their bodies pressed close, the music forgotten as their movements become a more intimate, quiet moment just for them.

11. Shared Wardrobe:

Brontë is always stealing Stephanie’s oversized sweaters, and Stephanie is obsessed with wearing Brontë’s button-ups or those sore used blazers around the house. They love the comfort of each other’s clothes, although their personal style is very different, this makes their shared wardrobe part of their relationship’s charm. 

12. Random Acts of Kindness:

They don’t need grand gestures to feel appreciated, and that’s the beauty of it. When Brontë works late, Stephanie will quietly light candles and set up a cozy space, so when Brontë walks through the door, she’s greeted with warmth and comfort. On the flip side, Brontë knows when Stephanie’s been working too hard and will plan impromptu getaways for the weekend — nothing extravagant, just enough to whisk her away for a breather. On harder week days, they’ll always engage on cooking dates after work and movie nights where they pick films from a list they’ve been building for years.

[theragethatisdesire]

hi rage, it’s bri! (i made a new account while you were gone hi but that’s not why i’m here right now)

i’m so, so sorry to hear about your split with mr. rage. a few years back i also had to end a 3 year relationship with someone i loved very much and thought was the love of my life, where the relationship had become too toxic to deal with any longer. my advice 5 years down the line from it is this: allow yourself to feel it. whether it’s happy, sad, angry, indifference, grief- whatever the feeling is, feel it. let it come and sit with you for a bit. listen to what it has to tell you. you’ll find the feelings pass much, much faster with just a little acknowledgement.

do things alone!!! take yourself on a date!!! it sounds SO cheesy, i know!! but there is magic in it. give yourself the love you deserve. spend time with friends and family, too. they’re a treasure trove of love, support, and advice. they want to see you through this, too.

i don’t know what your specific situation is, but this is advice that comes more from hindsight for me: don’t talk to them. exchange things, move out, whatever it is, then don’t talk to them. block them, even. doesn’t have to be forever, but for the short term. getting space from it allows you to truly process your own feelings about it without any influence from them.

to conclude, the most beautiful and heartbreaking thing is that life moves on! it’ll hurt for a bit, but wounds scar and then fade. like i said earlier, i’m 5 years on the other side of it. my scar is faded, and it no longer hurts. despite the bullshit i went through in the relationship, the breakup, and the initial aftermath, i can smile at it. because i chose me. over and over again.

and you’ll get there too. i promise.

my dms are always open if you need ANYTHING at all. i’m here and sending you all the love in the world 🖤🖤

BRI I AM SO HAPPY TO HEAR FROM YOU GENUINELY I LOVE YOU THIS BROUGHT THE BIGGEST GRIN TO MY FACE.

i must address this gorgeous new blog/aesthetic, it's so beautiful, and i'm so proud of you for opening up this cool new space for the ships and your writing, i'm def going to go creep on you later!!

the advice you've left me is genuinely truly invaluable. like it's just exactly what i needed to hear today. it has been really, really difficult, honestly, but there's so much relief that comes with removing something like that from your life, and the outpouring of support i've gotten both on and offline has just been staggering. i am so appreciative of you and your friendship, thank you for sharing your experience because sometimes, the best thing to hear is "i did that too, and i am better for it".

I LOVE YOU JUST SO VERY MUCH. i don't even have anything to say just in awe of this. thank you so so so so much.

<3 rage

[communistkenobi]

I posted 5,826 times in 2022

That's 5,826 more posts than 2021!

2,279 posts created (39%)

3,547 posts reblogged (61%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@zoethebitch

@obi-one-drop

@jester-mereel

@snowing-in-cyberspace

@hotgirlcastiel

I tagged 3,777 of my posts in 2022

Only 35% of my posts had no tags

#asks - 326 posts

#liveblog tag - 183 posts

#cats - 179 posts

#sw.txt - 145 posts

#andor - 125 posts

#even old new york was once new amsterdam - 105 posts

#the authoritarian personality - 95 posts

#andor spoilers - 94 posts

#star wars - 90 posts

#video - 76 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#like chatting with friends during a movie is fun but asking like ‘what’s going to happen next’ type questions when no one has seen the film

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I was reading an essay about trans identity earlier and the author forwarded an interesting argument, which was that cis-heterosexuality is deeply unnatural. it can’t be anything but unnatural, because if it wasn’t it wouldn’t need to be so violently imposed on everyone and reinforced to you your entire life. which means humanity existed prior to that imposition - that there is a state of existential transsexuality, or rather pre-sexuality (used in this instance to refer both to gender and sexuality), where human beings are fully capable of existing in the world without the imposition of cis-heterosexuality. trans people are just sitting up and taking note of this imposition. so the real question is not “why are you transgender?”, the question is “why are so many of you not transgender?”

20,096 notes - Posted July 3, 2022

#4

living through the pandemic has affected me in profound ways, including the desire to wear a mask whenever I’m in public spaces. it’s also a desire that I seem to share with exactly twelve other people in the entire country

20,133 notes - Posted July 27, 2022

#3

wait let me find the really cool picture I took of muffin in her little cat tube

22,445 notes - Posted August 19, 2022

#2

we should argue about something really stupid like can trans men say the word bitch

31,580 notes - Posted June 12, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

having offline colleagues is really funny because I had one of them say to me did you know people write their own stories about Star Wars? like they don’t publish it they just post it online for free? And I’m like yeah man that’s nuts right

58,480 notes - Posted September 26, 2022

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[tired-old-men]

Kinda random question buuuuuut any of you guys... y'know. (hand motion) fruity? :p

The Brotherhood just looks at each other for a brief moment. 

Sojourner: Do I look like a homosexual? -asks sarcastically-

Iris: -eyes Sojourner then looks away pursing their lips-  I meeeann… have you seen many gay men?

Sojourner: …. Oh don’t look at me like that!

Chikki: For a man who claims he’s not gay you sure flag like one! Haha! -chuckles-

Sojourner: What is that supposed mean?!!

Iris: -Trying to hide their chuckling- Chikki!! You’re not even part of this blog… be nice!

Chikki: I DO WHAT I WANT! 🖕

Thunderhawk: …. -clears throat- Well… due to the cultural and social landscape of Angel Island, particularly in the Echidnaopolis region, It’s not uncommon for most echidnas to be bisexual in nature…our um societies tend to be more open about such things now a days…  -he looks away scratching the back of his neck rather nervously- 

Locke: -also attempting to avoid eye contact- Erm yes I can uh concur with Thunderhawks’s statement on the matter... … …. why do I feel like you all are eyeing at me…

Chikki: Because you’re definitely gay

Locke: I’m not gay!……I’m bisexual… -he mumbles, his cheeks showing a slight blush- 

Iris: oh word? congrats! :3

Locke: …don’t mention it… 

Sojourner: well I’m definitely not gay… -grumbles-  

Iris: Aw, you wouldn’t date a man Sojourner?

Sojourner: I wouldn’t date anyone, romance isn’t exactly my thing. 

Iris: oh, interesting! So you don’t have a romantic or sexual attraction to people in general?

Sojourner: Woah hey now, I wouldn’t go that far -smirks-

Thunderhawk: yeeeah you are no where near asexual father… -side eyes Sojourner-

Sojourner: Isn’t Athair one of them too? That boy’s always been odd. 

Thunderhawk: -sighs at Sojourner- You know Athair is just a lot more open minded about things and such. I guess the pansexual label would be fitting for him but he’s just very open about people and different experiences in general. 

Iris: Oh cool! I’m pan too! -beams happily- 🤩

Sabre: Please for the love of Aurora don’t speak his name too loudly… He might just show up and tell us all about his experiences...

Iris: What about you Sabre? Are you any flavor of gay?

Sabre: I… don’t believe I’m any 'flavor' of anything… I don’t really have any interest of the sort…especially considering the unfortunate reality that I would outlive any potential partner anyways..

Iris: Thaaaat’s pretty valid actually…

Sojourner: Ha! You are like the total opposite of your old man Sabre.

Sabre: -Just sighs, looking away to be distracted by literally anything else-

Chikki: -nods over at Specter gesturing with their head- What about you big guy, you gay or what?

Spectre: My partner’s identity or sexual orientation is irrelevant to the way that I would feel about them. If all parties are in agreement to each other's romantic or sexual interests, that’s all that matters on the subject. The same sentiment extends towards my family. My feelings towards them won’t falter solely due to the way they choose to identify as or their engagement in their romantic and even sexual endeavors. Ultimately, what they do in their private lives are none of my concern, they are adults after all.  

Iris: Aww that’s...so sweet actually🥹

Chikki: That’s gay.

Spectre: -shrugs- If having love and acceptance for my family is considered gay then so be it. -he places a hand on Thunderhawk’s shoulder giving him a brief supportive pat-

Thunderhawk: -looks at his grandfather and gives him a sheepish smile, appreciative of his supportive gesture- 

[twilightmalachite]

MIRAGE - Epilogue 3

Author: Akira

Characters: Yuuta, Hinata

Translator: Mika Enstars

"(…Is this really ok? Will everything be alright? Isn’t everyone watching gonna be taken aback thinking what’s all this all of a sudden?)"

[Read on my blog for the best viewing experience with Oi~ssu ♪]

Season: Winter

Location: Volcano Island Stage

Hinata & Yuuta: “~…♪”

Hinata: “…Alright! We as 2wink are honored to have the privilege to perform Volcano Island’s famous opening song for our second appearance!”

Yuuta: “Peace, peace~!”

Hinata: “Anyhow, allow me to introduce ourselves again! We are 2wink, the twin idols affiliated with Cosmic Production!”

“I’m the older twin, Aoi Hinata!”

Yuuta: “I’m Aoi Yuuta, the younger one.”

Hinata: “Where’s your vigor, Yuuta-kun!?”

Yuuta: “I’m doing what I need to do, aren’t I?”

“Our gimmick may be how nobody can tell who is who, but…”

“Since you’ve already appeared on Volcano Island by yourself, Aniki, it seems we’ve each gotten our own fans now.”

Hinata: “You hear that~? We each have our own fans now! We’re beyond grateful!”

Yuuta: "Though, it’s more that only you have your own fans, thanks to your head start on Volcano Island.”

“At our regular live performances, these fans kept mistaking me as Aniki, and would cheer out “Hinata-kun~! ♪”, even!”

Hinata: “Nobody really wins in cases like that, don’t they? So we’re gonna give playing more distinct characters from each other a try, starting now!”

“The more sunny older brother Hinata, and the gloomy little brother Yuuta-kun!”

Yuuta: “Gloomy gives a bad impression. Can’t you say something more like, I don’t know, cool?”

Hinata: “…As you can see, this is Yuuta-kun, my little brother who does nothing but complain!”

Yuuta: “Oh, come on.”

Hinata: “Yuuta-kun also took the opportunity to switch up his hairstyle a bit! Whaddya think? Now it’s even easier to tell us apart!”

Yuuta: “Of course, it’d be even better if you loved both of us as “2wink”, but I hope that through this, both of us will have more fans from now on!”

Hinata: “Yup! ♪ It’s somethin’ a lil’ bit different than our previous style, however I hope you continue to support us as we hope to shine brighter than ever before!”

“This was the older brother, Hinata!”

Yuuta: “And the little brother, Yuuta. ♪”

Hinata & Yuuta: “And the both of us together makes 2wink~! ☆”

“♪~♪~♪”

Hinata: (…Is this really ok? Will everything be alright? Isn’t everyone watching gonna be taken aback thinking what’s all this all of a sudden?)

Yuuta: (There’s no point in questioning it now! We’re just following what the producer told us to do.)

Hinata: (Right… Though, Oogami-senpai did tell us that this producer might be able to understand how we feel.)

Yuuta: (He wasn’t what I expected at all! Threw me in for a complete loop! And I had totally mustered up all my courage I could, and arrived at the meeting with my heart racing to give him the “Aoi Byakuya” disguise test—)

Hinata: (“So you that’s the direction you guys’ style is going in, huh! Are you hoping to bring out your individuality? Very, very good!”)

(“We staff at Volcano Island will do everything in our power to cooperate!”)

Yuuta: (That’s right! Exactly like that! I wasn’t able to mess with him at all! He just interpreted in a weirdly positive way!)

(…Well, he made a good first impression. He saw right through “Aoi Byakuya” and recognized “Aoi Yuuta but with a different hairstyle” at first glance.)

Hinata: (I don’t think he even suspected a thing. I think he probably really is taking us seriously, and just wants to do a proper job producing us, y’know.)

(That’s what a producer does, right?)

(He’ll do whatever it takes to reach success, and has been ever since the time he was active. He’d never miss out on an opportunity.)

(For idols, that’s just the natural thing to do. That’s even why I appeared on Volcano Island in the first place.)

(If you’re an idol, of course you’re going to want to seize the opportunity…)

(That request really was 100% in good faith, wasn’t it? They had only one slot to invite only one person—nothing more.)

Yuuta: (I dunno… I have a feeling that by doing that, he was testing us. If we were too fixated on appearing as twins, and instead refused to perform on the show that time…)

(Then it’d mean that 2wink wasn’t willing to do whatever it takes to succeed. In other words, he’d decide we were different creatures than him, and would lose interest in us.)

(We’d be deemed unworthy of being produced by him, basically.)

(That’s the feeling I got, y’know? He looked at us with the insight of a professional, the same gaze as the Vice Prez.)

Hinata: (Seems like you really hate being tested like that, Yuuta-kun. Didn’t you end up getting along with him really well?)

Yuuta: (I don’t have any reason to hate it. I’m just pissed that I was gonna test him, but he ended up testing me in the end.)

(That guy’s real serious as a producer, and challenged us to a fight.)

(But y’know, that’s exactly what I’ve been hoping for. I’ve been looking for someone who’d face us properly as equal business partners, someone who’d give it their all.)

(So, I have a feeling that once he recognizes someone, he’ll never desert them by any means. He does what he says he’ll do, and as such he’s giving his all to properly produce us.)

(Calling him a talented producer is no exaggeration. That’s why he’s in great demand; in that sense, we’re lucky to be even spared the time in the first place.)

(That being said, there’s no such thing as a perfect track record. There’s no guarantee that this strategy of differentiating ourselves will succeed.)

(But for now, I’d like to ride this wave.)

(I’m done with shutting myself away, bitterly grumbling and complaining, and making my friends and family worry. I’ll move forward. I’ll dive right in and make my mark on this world.)

(…I listened to the CD you passed on to, Aniki.)

Hinata: (Ah, the song the producer wrote and performed back when he was active? How was it, tell me!)

Yuuta: (It was fucking amazing.)

Hinata: (I know, right~! It was sooo amazing!)

Yuuta: (Yeah. It’s frustrating to admit, but it really was. It was a sparkling and refreshing idol song that blew away all of my grudges.)

(But despite being so good, it got buried and forgotten without anyone taking notice of it. This industry we live in is so cruel.)

(In order to fulfill his wish to be noticed in this heavily competitive idol industry, he relied on other people’s light.)

(So as a result, he comes off as having a reputation as an opportunistic bastard.)

(If people say that, then so be it. What’s so wrong with wanting someone to notice you, to love you?)

(And so, that guy used all that frustration as a springboard to ensure that this time, people will notice what he has to offer… And he produced with all of his might.)

(He brought idols out into the shining sun, to make sure they didn’t get buried like he did.)

(I too want to shine beautifully, and reflect that brilliance.)

(I don’t want to keep feeling depressed every day, whenever I look in the mirror.)

(So, I won’t become someone nobody knows, like Byakuya Aoi—)

Yuuta: (—Instead, I’ll become someone I can be proud of, someone I can love! I’ll become Aoi Yuuta!)

(Whether it’s changing my hairstyle or my character, I’ll do whatever it takes! I refuse to give up, not ‘til I’m dead!)

(For I, Aoi Yuuta, vow to earn a place in all your memories!)

“♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪”

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[princeofyorkshire]

10 mutuals you were thankful for last year and why?

i’ll do 5 + honorary mention cause i can’t think of 10 atm 🤒

1) @andreakedavra !!! i can’t remember when we met exactly but we’ve become closer this year and i’m so thankful for that. she’s such a smart and supportive person, i love hearing her thoughts cause she always has something to add to the conversation and overall i just love having someone like her in my life. te quiero mucho andriu 🫶

2) @tovarischlouis the wifey! i got to meet her in person this year and hung out a few times and it’s always been so fun. i’m so glad we’ve become friends, she was always there for me especially during some shitty times early this year and i’ll never forget it. can’t wait to see louis again with her sometime in 2024! (even though we’ll definitely end up splitting up the second he comes on stage lol)

3) @lovedangel my D! i just think she’s neat! genuinely one of the coolest people i’ve met, nothing makes me happier than seeing her in my notifs. she’s just very funny very intimidating very cool like the vibes are immaculate. one day i will visit her and i’ll kiss her on the lips

4) @needvodkand1d cami my beloved ❤️‍🩹 can you believe we met but lowkey… didn’t? i think it’s funny cause technically we went to harry’s show together but we were never next to each other or really had a conversation in person cause the queue was a mess rip but hey i saw h super close thanks to her and i’m so grateful for that, i’m just so happy she let me tag along and we all had such a great time at the concert. 10/10 would do it again. she was such a sweetheart from the get go and idk just her whole existence makes me happy. sos un amor cami espero que lo sepas 💓

5) @kieumy THE MAN THE LEGEND. i have nothing but good things to say about jackie, i just love seeing them on my dash, they’re one of those blogs that are just… memorable? and that ACTUALLY change your dash in the best way possible. super talented and kind and iconic and overall a great person. very thankful for their existence 🫶

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST. hi @faehrys 🤗 i know we don’t really talk so this might be a bit random buttt i couldn’t leave you out of this one cause i probably wouldn’t have gotten that much into dteam if it weren’t for your blog. and i’m glad i did! they’re exactly what i needed in my life and i’m glad i found them. thank you for being part of that, and for always being so nice to me about it (some ppl aren’t umm. exactly welcoming rippp) so yeah i just wanted to include you here 🫶