#i didnt follow it 100% but i still like how it came out :)

[inkysquelched]

Been wanting to draw her for literal years, I hope I did her justice. 🥺

Meanwhile Eight:

[zeropro]

What are your thoughts on transformers prime and transformers one?

TL:DR I liked both! TFP was my first Transformers show that I watched all the way through and TF1 was a lot of fun! Opinions on Starscream under the break pfpfpfpfpfpf

Prime was literally my first Transformers experience (Okay that's not true, I did see the first Bay movie when it came out but lets not talk about that). It's really good! My favorite character was Ratchet, I loved that he's just a tired, grumpy, racist old man and he's a doctor. Knock Out was the best thing to come out of TFP and he really should be in more stuff. Really would have loved a fourth season but it wouldn't have been the same without the children around. I liked what we got!

Prime has an excellent Starscream, Steve Blume does an amazing performance with both his deep conniving gravel and his high pitched terrified sputtering. So much character in his animation too, especially in later seasons, and an incredibly compelling character arc. Prime Starscream is not a good person, but I would burn the world for him, and I like the small moments in the show that hint at something in his character that could be turned to good, but circumstance always works against him in that regard. He's just so pathetic, but also competent and dangerous, all the best qualities of a Starscream and a very unique design!

Transformers One was quite good, I was worried because of the trailers but I was surprised by how well executed it all was. None of the characters were annoying, and making Optimus Prime originally one of the oppressed class alongside Megatron was a good move. The scene where Orion gives Dee the sticker is so cute, I simply cannot. The ending felt a bit rushed but what can you do, it wasnt so bad that it's a problem for me.

I would have loved just a little more Starscream in the movie! Like, I knew he wasn't really gonna be in the movie much so i was prepared for it to be little more than a glorified cameo, but I loved a lot of what we did get and I feel like it was missing just a little bit more! Like, the whole High Guard turned rogue backstory he has is great, implies some honor to his character since he didnt keep serving Sentinal when the guy turned Cybertron over to the Quintissance. I think it's hilarious that Starscream is so much older than Megatron. Like, they gave us a lot of food to make headcanons out of, but then the rushed ending kind of left me with no real reason given for him and the rest of the High Guard to go with Megatron without a fight. Like, I think the reason given was that, because Megatron beat him up that one time, and then killed Sentinal, and since the High Guard became a might makes right society and hates Sentinal, I guess thats why they are loyal to him now. And I guess the one line where Starscream is like "all hail megatron" is supposed to indicate he's 100% behind Megatron now and not just a spur of the moment thing. And I guess them following his command to destroy the city is why theyre being banished. But like...idk, every other plot point was well established and properly played out, and the whole decepticons thing just didnt really feel like enough, and i kind of feel like it should have been more clearly communicated considering its an entire one side of a two sided war? I feel like we werent shown the high guard doing anything egregiously bad besides attacking people because megatron told them to.

Like, there's nothing in the movie to suggest that Starscream and the High Guard arent still loyal to the Primes. So when Orion comes back as a prime, like a proper prime, with the matrix and everything, which everyone knows will make the energon flow again, I'm surprised Starscream didnt at least try to make excuses or worm his way into avoiding banishment? My headcanon is he wanted to kill Sentinal as bad as Megatron and so when Megatron finally does what he failed to do for 50 cycles, he's like aite im ride or die for this guy. Maybe 50 cycles of living in the wilderness doing nothing but scout and pit fight all day changes a guy and they dont wanna live in a society anymore. Why dont they accept Optimus as the new prime? They helped him and Elita save their friends, and unlike Sentinal Optimus has the actual Matrix this time. Idk mang. Woulda liked a bit more.

Transformers One, not my favorite design for Starscream. The head vents going wide at the bottom look weird to me, and his legs are so long and flat.

Thems my opinions!

[autisticlalna]

rewatched the episode so time for the 🎶 wall of text 🎶

the glitch transition into the Limbo sequence is so unsettling. AND THEN LIMBO ITSELF. i have been rewatching the animation over and over since the episode came out and it still blows me away. Box did an amazing job capturing the atmosphere, and there's just.. so much going on. the constant eye motif, the days turning into years turning into an unknown amount of time (reminding me of the End Kingdom episodes), the crying figure, Avid's desperation ("I'll do anything.") and how Olm's able to use that… and then the reveal itself.

when i first pitched my take on the "this is a piece of Avid" theory, i honestly didn't feel super confident in it. it made sense going off of symbolism, but that didnt feel like enough of a foundation, and while i held onto it i did start to drift when other explanations were suggested. but, oh my god, i was on the right track. Avid is trapped in Limbo - "half the man I used to be" - and the Avid we've been following this entire time is… well, he's Avid, but he's an Avid that had to leave himself behind in hopes that maybe, just maybe, he can find a way out that might not exist by putting his faith in yet another puppeteering force.

and now his friends are starting to put the pieces together. there's someone down at the bottom of the Void, and Avid cannot let them know who it is. Olm told him you don't ever really leave Limbo. if anyone tries to rescue the half of him trapped down there, they're going to get stuck themselves… if Olm is telling the truth, anyway, which i HUGELY doubt. but that also gets reinforced by what he said before: “They’re not safe. I need to stop them. They can’t fall in. If they fall in, I… I can’t leave, I can’t- I can save all of them. I will save all of them.”

there are two things that drive Avid in 100 Days in a Minecraft Nightmare: insanity, and a self-assigned duty to protect. he's willing to do anything if it means the things and people he cares about are safe, whether that be selling his soul to a dark god or putting them in tubes. all Olm had to do was give him a job and dangle a warning overhead and Avid's inherent want to keep people safe at any cost kicked in and escalated to this point.

the trigger for the full memory of his mission to come flooding back is the realization that Trog's expedition was not an outlier. Marmalade's been down there too, and if she was able to hear him crying, then… who else will? who else will look too close?

AND THEN, AFTER ALL OF THAT, IS WHEN THROUGH THE VOID PLAYS.

AND IT IS COMPLETELY RECONTEXTUALIZED.

"no matter what it takes", huh Avid?

[braimrotting]

im so glad the crows got fed yesterday. i love making my severely paranoid old man even more paranoid and traumatised.

just the little feeling in the back of his mind questioning all his childrens actions - are these my kids? cc!phil is far too sure of himself and his recognition of the eggs for it to impact too much but even little mentions is enough to show that theres more trauma to give!

i just wanna say i knew it was sus that the code only took pictures of phils base and no one elses. they had it planned to mimic chay + lulah for days. im trying so hard to think of why tho. base level, it seems obvious bc maybe they needed 2 codes are these 2 spend all their time together when awake. additionally they were 100% not going to attend the dinner so the codes didnt have to worry about them showing up and ruining the plan.

but they had such barebones knowledge of how the eggs act? surely they mustve known they would be found out quickly (i could maybe get them not expecting phil to figure them out in 1 minute tho) UNLESS they were relying on phil not assuming they were imposters bc this situation had never happened before. that seems like a pretty big risk but the only other thing i can think of is them knowing that phil is somewhat isolated and would not go around telling everyone - which was true bc he only told fit + forever.

the codes were acting so wrong i was genuinely shaking while watching it live. chayanne was taking off his armour + following too close to phil + hitting phil + most importantly not listening to him. tallulah was shaking her maracas constantly + not talking to phil + she also was not listening to him and running away. it was so uncanny and genuinely put me on edge especially when he went back to check their beds and they were still there. they are the most well-behaved eggs and follow phil so diligently, i find it strange the codes didnt look into their personalities at all - i wonder if they got their information from the federation status updates on the eggs and that was it. (this would actually explain why the update came at all actually)

anyways loved the Horrors getting to phil. so unexpected bc everyone was convinced it was going to be a canditates attack - phil was prepping support items. though there was crazy foreshadowing with him walking in and saying it looked like a boss battle. ALSO i saw someone say he may have been targeted for his complete refusal of the federation by not voting at all. extra layer of angst bc he did that to protect the eggs + make sure no one could use them against him.

god i need phil to talk to the order ! he has so much info + theories. whats so wrong w a lil crow wanting the blorbo to be hyper vigilant and a paranoid wreck

[beesmygod]

did anyone else grow up with this weird set of standards i think i developed independent of direct family influence: when it came to art i literally always wanted to experience "the best" of what there was even from like. a baby age. i would pick out the newberry award winners and when i could start reading old grade levels i would buy the penguin classic editions from barnes and nobel based how "important" i thought they were (based on kid brain, but still). and watch turner classic movies with me mom even though i only kind of followed them.

like i wasn't like this 100% of the time, but it still permeated a lot of what i did. i'd buy a episode guide to the simpsons so i could read about all the jokes i didnt understand and cross reference them with like. the caveman version of wikipedia we had lol

i felt like if i was only on this planet for a short time i had a limited window to enjoy what i could while i could. in hindsight i think this is the sole basis of most of my beliefs lol

[princeanxious]

Hi! I was wondering about your Lost Guardian au from ages ago, do you think you’ll ever plan on updating it and if not, could someone else take up the fic?

So heres the thing. If someone wants to write a fic *inspired* by The Lost Guardian, i’m not gonna stop them, and i’d probably feel super honored so long as the inspiration was correctly credited!

As for ‘taking up the fic,’ the short answer is no.

I have active drafts and the rest of the story already planned out to its finish, notes, even a branch-off fic set post-story that will likely go up on my nsfw blog if i ever get around to editing it. The Lost Guardian hasn’t been abandoned, it’s simply on hiatus. (And yes, i recognize 3 almost 4 years so far is a really fucking long hiatus. The Chapter 9 draft doc was made in december of 2020, and last edited in July 2022)

I started writing that fic whilst still in highschool, a time where I was 17 and didnt have to worry yet about getting my license or maintaining a part time job, i had an over abundance of freetime even partially to my detriment, the fandom was booming and I had plenty of feedback, and this fic was (and still *is*) a story im proud of.

But i’m 22 now, working a full time job to pay rent and account for a number of minor ‘disabilities’(best word i have for them atm) that I cant ignore or push to the side nor treat poorly, from the lasting effects on my body of stunted growth to celiac/glutent intolerance to adhere to that directly determines how easily my body functions for the week, to dealing with glasses i cannot afford to break and taking care of teeth i cannot afford to fix, taking care of my mental health and using the free time i have to do what brings me the most joy at that time.

The sanders sides fandom has heavily quieted down with the season finale hiatus and I’d like to think I did pretty well for going six long years dedicated solely to that without cracking under the silence, because *I knew* when I caved to something else it’d be a long while before I had the drive to come back with any sort of resolution to my active works. Thats just how my hyper fixations work. I cannot focus on multiple at once, it’s too much to process simultaneously and takes away my enjoyment bc I tend to watch/consume things repeatedly to catch every little detail i missed. And it doesn’t help when one loses steam because their content barely breaks 100 notes(80% of which are likes, 15% are reblogs with the occasional comment, and 5% are self-reblogs) when back in the height of it all, a few thousand notes was pretty average interaction. This blog still has about 11.5k followers, almost all of which came from the height of the fandom period. So for now i’ve moved onto the FNAF DCA fandom, bc it is fresh and new to me.

I know you didn’t mean to poke the bear here, I get it, but like.. C’mon. Any other fic of mine likely wouldn’t have gotten the same reaction in full but, still. I’ve had to answer this question a handful of times over the years at the point, which might be why this response feels so charged, and i’m sorry.

I don’t mean to come off as snippy or rude, but it *is* kind of invasive to offer to finish one’s creative work when it’s taking too long and theres very little payback for it. I’ve got adhd, delayed satisfaction isn’t a thing I experience. Just guilt that it wasn’t finished in a way for me to post it in time before I broke and lost all motivation to share it.

In my head, TLG has been long finished and held the ending for years, theres just been no energy to put in the effort of finish writing it for others to read. I’m still trying to get my life together to change that, don’t get me wrong, but the American economy is literally in shambles so who knows how or even if i’ll manage that. Call me selfish for being content with only mentally having my creative story’s ending and a collection of rambles and notes to show for it, but at the end of the day, it’s still my story, and i dont feel comfortable with people trying to ‘take up the mantle’ to finish it, when they don’t know how it ends.

I’m glad you like it enough to want to, though, I really *really* am. I’m just sorry I haven’t been able to finish it for you all. And i just don’t know when that will be, I just know that I *want* to do so, however long it takes.

[gladosluver]

storytime/lore: i was followed home

IMPORTANT INFO: my region has no sidewalks, so to get home everyday i cross the roadway (legally) and 100% do not trespass at all. if i had a car to drive, i would, and if i could take the bus, i would, but public transport doesnt pass through this part. IF YOU HAVE A CAR, YOU ARE USING IT. THERE IS NO REASON YOU SHOULD BE WALKING AROUND WHERE I LIVE.

okay onto the story now... my school is in another region so a bus brings me from there to another school, and i walk from that school to my house (about 10 min walk). today while going home i was waiting to cross the VERY BUSY street, and i see an all black LARGE VAN stop 40-50m away from where i was and this guy, also dressed in all black, steps out. and he started walking MY direction

(artist rendition below. thats my ugly persona btw i dont look that nice. those are also my beautiful eyes <3 sorry for staring into them without permission.........)

now like.. thats so weird. SO WEIRD. theres no reason you should be walking when YOU HAVE A CAR. ive lived here for at least 7 years and i have only seen someone walk on this road ONCE.

since i wait right next to the road im 1-2m away from oncoming traffic. its dangerous. now im waiting for all the cars to pass so i can (legally) cross the street, and at this point this random guy is like 20m away. luckily all the cars passed and i (legally) ran fast as hell across. i walked about 3 blocks before turning around and HES STILL FUCKING THERE. WALKING ON THE OTHER SIDE. PICKING UP THE PACE AND LOOKING AT ME.

this was in BROAD DAYLIGHT. additionally there was an event going on IN FRONT OF THE SCHOOL where LAW ENFORCEMENT came over to educate the kids and was showing them different police cars, fire trucks, etc. WHY ATTEMPT TO FOLLOW ME WHEN THE POLICE ARE RIGHT THERE??

so i texted my friends. i have 2 irl friends i talk to outside of school. ive got like 5 irl friends in total so there wasnt really anyone else i could cry for help to, since my parents are at work for most of the day and night, and i have almost no living relatives here

about 4 blocks from my house i pass an intersection that goes into another neighbourhood where there was a someone in a car waiting for their kid to be dropped off. i speed-walked 3 blocks down and when i turned around there was ANOTHER RANDOM ASS GUY at the intersection looking in my direction. he looked like he was being yelled at by the guy in the car (i guess he suspected he was following me). the intersection is also at the top of a hill with some trees in the way, so when he looked away I RAN FAST AS HELL ACROSS THE ROAD.

i didnt even care that there were 6 cars coming from either side. i just thought "if i get hit, i get hit. if its my time to go then so be it" but halfway through i remembered something. you wanna know what i fucking remembered? what made me break out into a SPRINT? i have undiagnosed health problems that make walking up STAIRS a challenge, and i you wanna know why i started SPRINTING AS FAST AS I COULD? i remembered that stupid danganronpa dub. i thought of how disappointed everyone would be if i literally got kidnapped and never got to finish it. so i ran. i ran home. i got inside, shaking and panting heavily, which didnt stop for hours, but at least i was safe. at least i could finish it. my true purpose....... dubganronpa...

the reason i took to tumblr was because i literally had nobody else to tell. again, i know like. 5 people. i worded this post so cryptically because i didnt want anyone to be concerned if i just blurted out "SOMEONES FOLLOWING ME I THINK THEY MIGHT KIDNAP ME" so i said it discreetly and kinda goofy so yall would KNOW something was up, but in a half-serious half-joking way cuz thats how i cope with awful strange events in my life

it left me with so many questions.. why would you stop next to a busy road to walk somewhere when you have a car CLEARLY available? theres people who like <1 minute away from the school who use cars because walking is so dangerous. the only reason i walk is because I LITERALLY HAVE NO OTHER OPTION. walking anywhere in my region is BEYOND a last resort. hell, ive contemplated driving illegally before i decided on walking home.

i cant even think of anything i did wrong to get followed by some strangers. to my knowledge, i havent done anything to piss anyone off since first year. why me? what do I have that YOU want.. i just dub danganronpa anime and give it more homoerotic undertones.. is that really a crime?

now that im thinking back on the incident i realize i did have a few certain long sharp objects in my bag that i cannot name here (for self defense and also art supplies) AND MY BAG WEIGHTS ALMOST 3 KILOS?? IF I WHIPPED THAT AROUND AND HIT SOMEONE I THINK IT WOULD DO SOME DAMAGE

anyways im safe. for now. this weekend is going to be spent emailing my school asking them to make a bus stop at my house since the bus literally PASSES my house on the way to the school. i dont live in a neighbourhood, i live on the side of the road. its right there. why cant they drop me off man

GLADOSLUVER OUT

[2braincellslz]

The Corinthian HCs

Ship: The Corinthian x GN (masc leaning) reader.

Warning: eating eyes, violence, general Corinthian behaviour.

Notes: I forgot how down bad I was for The Corinthian till after I found Hob x Morpheus fanart so here we are. This is kinda like the unofficial version on me adding the characters from The Sandman to the writing list. Also, it's been a hot minute since I've seen The Sandman so if it seems off, I'm sorry

You know the drill, all things I say are to be taken as fact at all times <3

We all know what type of man The Corinthian is.

To spell it out: possessive sweet talker with pretty eyes/j

I WHOLE HEARTEDLY believe this man has a soft side. You can not change my mind.

Once he gets to know you and you've spent some time with him, he is just as down bad as you.

We stan simp Corinthian

Though, it might not be as great as it my seem.

Like I said before, hes possessive. Take that how you will.

I saw someone else say he was possessive but not jealous. 100%. He knows how much you love him and how he could absolutely wreck someone if they were to get too close for comfort.

The only time he really gets protective (outside of daily life) is if you seem to be getting uncomfortable with someones advances.

He will not stand for that.

He probably visits your job a lot.

You work as a bartender? Hes there practically every afternoon.

You work in a library? Hes picking out a new book every day.

You work at a grocery store? Well, he just happens to need the thing for your department every week.

And hes sweet talking you the whole time.

Once, your coworker asked if you needed to go home because you were so red.

Hes not flirting. It's not flirting. Its ✨sweet talking✨

He has probably told you to call him Cori or something. Makes him feel like you are closer to him then everyone else.

He never calls you by your real name. It's always pet names or nicknames based off of your real name. His favorites are sweet heart, darlin, sugar, kitty, and love.

If he dose use your real name it's very very important and serious.

If he uses your FULL NAME? You better pray to all the gods for your life.

He has plants. Lots of them. They all have names.

Once, you two were watching Good Omens and you made a comment that he looked like Crowley. Hes been living off that high for the past month.

When Morpheus found out about you he didnt really know what to do.

On one hand, nightmares arnt really suppose to date and fall in love and such. But on the other hand, The Corinthian has calmed down A LOT.

He just kinda accepts it. Like "well, as long as he isnt killing Innocent people."

Big win in Cori's book.

On that note, yes he still kills. Yes, he still eats peoples eyes. Yes, he kills more than people that are bothering you. But it's less then what it used to be.

He has tried to get you to eat a eye.

He probably wouldn't bring you to the Cereal convention, for obvious reasons, but if he did you would have to stay locked away in the hotel room or stick right by his side the whole time.

After about five seconds of being out of the room, you came to understand why these rules were set in place.

Wether you stick with Cori or stay in the room is up to you.

If you do stay in the room though, The Corinthian would happily bring you things to do and movies to watch.

If you ever did leave the room without him, being forced out, then he would go absolutely farel on the asshole that thought they could touch you.

If you left by your own volition, he would probably be really upset and send you home in a taxi. The Corinthian might try to understand why but honestly he would just get more upset.

He is a average Twitter and Instagram user.

Probably has a steep following on both too.

He likes cat. Small animals.

He is one romantic bastard. The whole nine yards. Shitty chocolates, flowers, music, slow dancing, fancy dinners, everything.

Just like Crowley, he likes Queen.

He likes most classic rock, really.

In fact, he enjoys a wide variety of oldies music. Classical, swing, jazz, blues, blue grass. Whatever you call 1920s music.

If you play a instrument, he demands you play for him atlest once a week.

Stan a gay icon.

[mariigoldzz]

tears of the kingdom story I came up w before the game came out (not really a rewrite I just wanted to share)

(this idea is messy and still being edited because I found problems w the og I wrote in 2021. Ite about the same with a few changes. THIS IS JUST THE GENERAL PLOT!)

7 years after breath of the wild, link and zelda go under hyrule castle, and find ganondorf. Zelda falls blah blah blah and link's arm is torn off.

Zelda awakens washed up on a river far beneath the ground. The water is a bright turqoise color and the ground is black. The area around has minimal light. The only light sources are the huge scalactites and stones that glow shades of blue, green, purple, n white. on the sides of this underground world. All Zelda has is a beat-up mastersword, unlit torch, and a water container. She follows the river ane comes across a Civilization …of…the zonai. The zonai and sheikah were allies in the first imprisoning war. They were dedicated to the goddess of courage, Farore, and Hylia, the goddess of like everything. Blessed by the powers of the ancient past, the Tribe could keep ganon at bay. The first king was a dictator and feared the combined power of the sheikah and the zonai. He proposed two options.

One Tribe had to keep ganon at bay underground forever and never step foot in hyrule again.

They all die. The zonai decided they would go underground to keep ganon there. The king had actually lied to the sheikah and tried to kill them all (didnt work) A cultural without of the zonai on the surface ended up with the memory of the zonai to fade overtime. History was slightly rewritgen to esnure that no one remembered them.

The zonai sacrified their future generations to actively use their powers 24/7 toKeep ganon at bay. Their Civilization has books and stories of the world above. Describing it as some paradise. Some zonai are angry at their ancestors. Everyone there lowk wants to leave but they have accepted their fate.

the zonai Tribe Speaks of a legend that "one with the image of hylia, and her knight will come to restore the land. " botw zelda lookes the most like the statues of hylia, Link also has the spirit of the hero. The zonai Tribe freaks out because the legend of hylias image or whatever is true…theres a maiden from the surface with the face and powers of hylia.

Some sheikahs fled underground out of fear and created their own small civilization. These sheikah worship the goddess of wisdom, Nayru.

So remember how all of botw's shrines dissapeared? They all went underground. If Zelda helps them fix all of the shrines and make them go back to the surface, they may be able return to hyrule. That's zeldas role and yes u can play as her.

Ganon is back and uses his power to conquer hyrule for the time being. The only way to stop him is to unite courage and wisdom.…or so they think…

Meanwhile, Link is given a new fake arm by Monk Maz Koshia. This arm comes with REAL sheikah abilities like duplicating yourself, and (LIMITED TIME) shapeshifting. (Will work on this) He is informed of the real history of hyrule. Link wants Zelda back but there's just a teeny tiny problem. Hyrule castle can't be reached at all and the other Regions are suffering. Link has to restore the balance of wisdomm courage and power (w the help of Sidon, riju, teba, etc,) to the land before getting to hyrule castle. We learn bits and pieces about his life during the 7 year gap and even small bits of lore from 100 years ago.

Back to Ganon, he's now human again. This ganon actually doesn't want total control of hyrule. He just wants to break demise's curse. His main priority is to find the bearers of the triforce. (Link and Zelda)

My Demise's curse made it so those who hold wisdom, courage, and power cannot co-exist together without chaos ensuing. One side HAS to be stronger than the other. The sides can team up, but they cannot peacefully co-exist in the mortal world.

Link and Zelda find out they bear courage and power about halfway thru the game and convince ganon to team up w them and find another way to break the curse. After completing the sheikah quest, everyone can travel between the underground snd the surface.

The trio discovers that the only way to break the curse is for NO sides to be stronger than the other or for only one side to come out as Victorious. . Hylia bestows upon them something called "the last resort." a candy like thing which will remove the triforce from someone. The catch is that they leave the mortal world forever/die.

so there are two choices:

Have only one person live and the other two die

They all die at the same time.

The three agree to leave everything behind for the sake of the future. I have ideas on how they all die by the end of the game. All their deaths reflect wisdom/courage/power

Ganon takes it first. He turns to stone and crumbles to the ground.

Link starts straight up crying for the first time. Zelda tells him she loves him. He tries to reach or or say something but he can't and just grabs her hand and falls to his knees. Zelda holds the mastersword up and starts withering as she cries as well.

Purah slams open the door open and gasps as the screen fades the black…

Obviously there's way more things to the story but thats the general idea. I drew some monsters and animals for the underground world. So ya tell me what u think

[system-of-a-feather]

(Disclaimer: this post was written in two parts, the first half was done the day before but not posted cause I didnt feel it was a complete thought, the second half was added after. I did not edit or touch the first half as I like to keep space for the thoughts of myself as they were; i also have passive chronic amnesia so Im not 100% sure if everything is on the same page; regardless that is just context)

Honestly, I think the thing that is important to keep in mind when interacting with syscourse - or specifically for us cause the only one we really care about is the tulpa discourse - is that you are never going to force or change anyone's mind who is so set that they are sitting on tumblr and pulling the dumbest arguments out of their ass to support their claims and I do think those that spend their time arguing with @/sophieinwonderland and @/cambriancrew - while honestly doing the dirty work no one wants to do by balancing out their bullshit posting so mad respect - are largely wasting their time if they do ever think that a mind will be changed.

The only reason to ever engage or talk about the stuff they (and the clique that actually buys into those arguments) talk about is solely to make an example out of how incredibly deep their interalized racism and just disregard for POC goes and honestly looking at them as anything other than a stubborn white person is putting more emotional energy than its worth.

Because genuinely, in a weird way and me doing what XIV calls "The Riku Thing" of looking at a really negative, annoying, and/or harmful thing and finding the bright side silverlining to it, I do kind of appreciate how astonishingly White TM they are because their unapologetic and loud nature makes a really big spectacle for a lot of people who otherwise would not understand how bad certain issues are look and go "what the fuck" and in its own way, it brings good publicity to the issues AAPI and eastern cultures go through in a western and white predominant area.

AAPI issues often go under the radar and are disregarded due to a number of reasons, but honestly? This is the most I've ever seen people actually talk about how white people take advantage of eastern and Asian cultures (relative to the size of the community in question) save for the brief blip of when Stop Asian Hate got loud during COVID where sinophobia blasted up and a bit surrounding Cyberpunk as a genre when Cyberpunk 2077 came out.

In that regard, I'm kinda glad they are so loudly racist and White TM about AAPI cultures. It makes for good publicity and awareness by being the example of just the Usual Bullshit and it starts better conversations. I'd honestly prefer a loud bigot to a quiet insidious one cause the loud ones at least can serve part of a message and be ignored.

Anyhow, this is all just to say that bigots will be bigots and you can argue with them all you want and call them truthful statements like "bigots" and "racist" but thats about all you can do to really control their behavior. Those balancing out their bullshit arguments, mad props - I could never cause that shit is too toxic and too much of an investment, but it is respectable work. (insert "it aint much but its honest work" meme at yall)

---(cut between original thoughts and the added bit)---

That said, I'll just say it as the fact that it is, those two and those that follow their rhetoric do not care at all about AAPI individuals and are just racist. We don't have to debate it and it's honestly not up for debate and while we could put our energy to trying to tear down their following and make them shut up, in a world where the KKK still exists and thrives, its an unlikely and futile of a goal to try ti achieve.

Instead its best imo to treat them like the public case study of white and western abuses to AAPI culture, particularly since time and time again they redisplay some of the most classic and frequently used techniques white and western individuals do to try to excuse their shit.

If you wouldn't give a person arguing with any other loud and proud bigot, its best to just accept that bigots be bigots and rather than banging your head against a wall, put it up for display on the museum wall as a means of education and awareness.

Theres no point in talking to bigots about how they are bigotted. There is, however, a point to displaying it for those less effected and usually not given the opportunity to sed it in full get a much closer look at some of the shit we deal with

I like to think that while a lot of white and western people suck, that a lot of them genuinely are trying their best with the limited awareness, access, and understanding that they have.

I dont feel as though I would be correct calling them and bigots a "small minority", but I'd like to think they aren't the majority and I honestly appreciate those willing to learn and better understand and so ya know? Whats a better way to explain it than with a live dancing monkey that loudly and proudly displays the behaviors in question for all to see.

Anyhow, I digress. Take this as you will. I am just throwing some insight and personal thoughts about specific users in hopes that some people who might be overly stressed about it might find a little more peace moderating the topic

[leminhthinking]

"add something, if youd like" ok, here is something i used a throwaway account to comment on the Double MV. i didnt reread so i didnt remember anything about it sorry but there probably is mention about internalized ableism. also personal experience. its kinda shaped like a rant

posting it here now that i came out about being plural here. yeah.

tldr (theres another tldr at the end of it but it was from the time i commented and i want to add something else here) i love representations

I keep finding myself wanting to comment something under this video, but I know I'll say stuffs about myself that I feel would be unsafe to share using my main so I'm using this throwaway account to do it instead ���

I just want to say that I'm so grateful that Mikoto and John (and maybe other alters in their system too? saying this just in case) were ever written. Being a system who had just discovered that only over a year ago, I can almost see myself, no, I can almost see *us* in every part of their story up until now. And in a way, I feel like I've also... grown with them? If that makes sense?

I have been following MILGRAM for quite a while, enough to be there when MeMe was just released. Back then, I still thought that I was certainly a singlet (didn't have DID), despite how one of my alters - I will refer to her as my sister from now - showed up pretty regularly at the time. That's why when I watched MeMe, I remember thinking to myself, "oh shit, this guy's just like me, and because [insert internalized ableism here] I'm saying he guilty then." But then we all know what's got confirmed 😂 Funniest thing is, a short while before that, I also came to term about being a system. Dammit, to think about it, it felt like a second confirmation 😭😭😭😭

Now that I have accepted who we really are, the release of Double and their second voice drama feels exceptionally special to me, as the host of our system. John and Mikoto's situation right now really reminds me of us last year. My sister and I specifically, respectively. At that time, I tried hard to deny the fact that I am not alone in my head, and that we are entirely separate people. It took me a while (with a few tarot spreads. fuck. I'm a Mikoto kinnie now) to know that we actually are... and some actual, honest conversations to know that she actually loved me, rather than wanting to harm me... Yeah. Yeah. You see what I'm talking about? That's why I'm really rooting for Mikoto and John to have better communication... Ah, maybe if Mikoto watched "his" own second trial MV, he would understand...

That being said, I'm still not sure on what to vote... When I first watched Double and listened to the second voice drama, I thought to myself, ouch, ok, guilty because John clearly seems to be the alter who knows more right now and that would keep him fronting more to interrogate. But after a while, my opinion... changed? I don't want Mikoto to be affected too much from the verdict and maybe going dormant because of that. John maybe still there for the interrogation but fuck, I don't think he's ever been without Mikoto for a long time and I'd hate to see his heart breaks. Maybe innocent is the better solution after all for the whole system, as it might soothe Mikoto's mood and his mindset. I also trust that MILGRAM's writer team know what they are doing and therefore would not "kill off" John. Maybe they will just let him be inactive for a while if they are voted innocent, given that he's finally satisfied with our decision...

(Yes, I do know innocent = forgiven and guilty = not forgiven and I'm deciding while knowing that. I'm just calling them innocent and guilty because I'm more used to it while speaking in English.)

Hmm, that was a longer rant than I expected. I don't know how to conclude really, so I'll say something that would sound entirely unrelated 😔 If I remember correctly, prisoners can hear us audiences right? If that's really true, I just want to scream to Mikoto and John that it's 100% ok to be a system! To not be alone inside your mind! To exist alongside another person in your system and love them! It's ok to just be yourselves! And please please please fucking find a way to communicate with each other!!!

Once again, thank you MILGRAM for letting them exist... I really hold them so dearly in our heart...

TL;DR: local system getting emotional over Mikoto and John, rooting for them to have better communication.

[inncubus-honey]

22 of 100 i love you

this a prompt from that 100 ways to say i love you list. ill probably be making my way through the list with various cod characters. so pls enjoy :)

kyle x gn!reader

Word Count: 801

kyle groaned as his body creaked and joints popped after he exited the taxi. picking up the duffle bag by his feet, kyle entered his apartment building, giving his usual wave and smile to the front desk attendant.

over the last three years, kyle had come to know eris, the desk attendant, on a first name basis. whenever kyle was away for long missions, he would get a chance to speak to eris about the big pile up of mail that came whenever he was gone.

but thankfully, he was able to have a month off from base, so he didnt have to wait for a big pile at the front desk. not to mention, kyle was quiet excited to have month to see you whenever he could. in the hallway, foyer, elevator are all the places he could run into you, his cute neighbor of the past year.

kyle smirks to himself as he remembers walking into the foryer that nice spring afternoon, after going out to get some air and lunch for himself, to see you struggling to move the large box that held your new bed frame in it.

you seemingly couldnt find a way to pick it up and move it to the elevator or staircase. your cheeks burning with embarrassment as you felt people staring you down as they walked by you to the elevator.

but kyle is not one of those people; he could see how flustered, yet frustrated you were with moving the bed frame. so he approached you with a soft smile gracing his pouty lips.

“hey…i can see you’re having a bit of trouble moving this box, is there any chance i can you?” his tone softened as he spoke to you, his eyes only trained on you.

“um…no, its okay. i-i got this…its just a bit s-stuck..” biting your lip, embarrassed, you found yourself turning away from kyle who still stood next to you and the package.

he crossed his arms large forearms over his chest as he peered down at you, through his baseball cap, trying to pick up the large package again for a minute or two…then failing with a soft huff.

pushing your baby hairs away from you flustered face, you took a small step to the side as you kept your eyes trained on the floor.

before kyle or you could say anything to one another, he handed the bag that held his lunch to gracefully picked up the large box and started making his way to the elevator.

“o-oh, you sure your okay? i dont want you to get hurt, sir…” you spouted out, nervously following behind him holding his lunch as you did so.

“its not heavy. im stronger than i look, lovie.” winking his mocha brown eyes at you as yall enter the elevator, your heart fluttered more than it already did upon seeing such a man like kyle talk to you.

“th-thank you…”

“kyle, and you?”

“___. its nice to meet someone in the building.” you told him as yall exited out onto the fourth floor where you both lived. as he followed down the hallway from the elevator, kyle found a small smirk form upon his lips as he realized that yall lived a few doors down from one another.

“oh no way. i live just a few doors down from you, lovie.” he smiled.

from then on, whenever yall see each other in passing or have a chat about kyles work while he was on the latest mission, he always called you lovie.

a soft smile, short smirk paired with big eyes as he took you in from the last time he saw, looking for any changes from big to small.

exiting the elevator, kyle held onto his bags as he walked down the hallway to his apartment, ready to unwind from the long, strenuous mission. but the sounding of door opening and closing instantly look up to see whoever was exiting their apartment and was greeted by you in all of your glory.

“hey, lovie, missed you like crazy.” kyle called out to you, looking from your door, an angelic smile graced your features as you ran up to him and jumped into a hug.

“i missed you as well, kyle! god, i getting so bored without you.” you gave him a cheeky pout as his hands ghosted at your waist.

“well, maybe i could ask you to tell what happened over some dinner? tonight?” kyle didnt show it, but under the thick canvas gloves he wore, his palms were sweating up a storm. while your heart threatened to stop when he asked for yall to have dinner.

“um…yeah, i would love that, kyle.”

“see ya later then, lovie.” with one last smile, you bidded goodbye until later than night.

[msookyspooky]

OH MY GOD SPOOKY ‼️‼️‼️‼️ thAT CHAPTER 13?????????? A MASTERPIECE!!!!

The "my girl" partmhjnjjhahhahahhuhuhaha I SWEAR i was brushing my teeth while reading and when my EYES SAW THOSE WORDS I JUST STOPPED??????? i stopped there with toothbrush all over my mouth for a good minutE TRYING TO COMPREGED TAHT!!!!!!!! UHHHHHHHGGGGGG

I have no words to explain how much i loved loved loved that chapter!!!! i have been craving for that reveal since i started reading when you were still posting the part set 1 movie and IT DID!!! NOT!!!!! DISAPOUNT!!!!!! IM SO FUCKING EXITED FOR THE REST OF THE STORY LMAOOO 💞💞💞💞💞💞

SPOILER ALERT FOR CHAPTER 13

Yn, in my opinion at least 👀, def had the chance to play dumb, act as if she didnt knew, act as if they were forcing her to do whatever accusation dewey trew at her. but she didnt‼️‼️‼️‼️ and im just freakibg outtttttt she cares so much that AGAIN she put herswlf in front of Billy. After all the pain that doung that all those years ago brought to her, she did that and didnt even think about it. even after stu literally shot someone in the chest she cares so fucking much that the death of that person donest affect how she feels about him anymore (judy didnt actually dieee but yn doesnt know itt( they didnt need to get try to get jill before she hurt yn, they couldve literally just ran away from the hospital. But the choose to stay‼️‼️‼️ for stu i wont eve.n elaborate because my. Girl. My. Ficking. Girl. Was enough for me lmaooo‼️‼️‼️but billy didnt need to say athing! In fact, it would be better for him if he didnt bc he knew dewey woukd recognize him the second the spotlight was on him. But.he did. He defended yn the second he could. He defended her even if he knew no one would listen to him.

Im 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠 anywaysssss hahaha i love your writing a normal amount............

Alsooo you wrote jill so so well that i wanted to go inside my phone and strangle her myself lmaoo

THANK YOU!!! I LOVE THIS REVIEW OMFG AFGSSG😍💘

Oh YN definitely cares and so do they there's just so much turmoil and difference in morals that it's a rough road but Billy and Stu saving her (To "kill her god knows when" yeah right 😒🙄) And her deciding to follow that moral compass and save Billy before her own ass because it was the 'right thing to do' (mm hmm 🤨😒) is just another layer they didn't know this situation could have!

Fr YN could have played dumb but I ain't gonna lie when I came out of anesthesia I slept SO HARD it was insane I was fucking out of it and barely formed thoughts so I can't imagine some bitch waking me up a few hours after my surgery trying to strangle me THEN trying to make coherent thoughts to justify why Billy is there 😣

And I think as the author writing it (And the girl reading it lol) like...YN is fucking tired.

I mean, her best friend and honestly only true friend died and she found his corpse and has that weighing on her conscience that it's her fault they seperated. Gale was never her friend 100% fake af and YN lowkey knows it. Karla is a friend by being Ray's wife but not on the level her and Randy are.

And other than Dewey; Billy and Stu is all she's got. In one night, she was truly stabbed for the first time not counting her arm or hand. Good and only Friend is dead. She's being framed AGAIN over fame she never wanted to begin with.

Dewey, as much as she loves him platonically, has changed because of that badge and being married to Gale and in Woodsboro (I noticed it from 3 to 4 with Dew to Sid and was shocked tbh) and has done nothing but make YN not trust him with her safety this entire installment.

Stu pointed it out in TT. That he was there no matter what, toxic or not. He knew the worst and best of YN and stayed there for his own selfishness but still for her as well. When Randy and Dewey only knew what YN revealed but she was living a double life that they UNDERSTANDABLY would be hurt and enraged over but Billy and Stu have been known and don't care

ISTG it's why I fuck with enemies to lovers sm bc your enemy sees your worst side, weakest side, you see there's and yet you still fall in love?

I think Billy has never seen these sides of YN and when he did in TT he was in a shit place in his life and still bitter over what she did in Set Up and Sequels Suck.

But Stu? He was in her life from Windsor to Hollywood on and off and got over her betrayal before Billy so it's easier for him.

And I hc Stu as fucking nuts to be blunt. Flys off the handle, impulsive, delusional, arrogant, has little value in peoples lives, doesn't discriminate with killing, sadist, possibly even a bit of a high functioning individual with a form of ASPD or just good old narcissism where he doesn't love like a normal person does so he forced himself into YN's life as a form of control but that doesn't mean he doesn't care for her he just cares for his own self preservation first and always will. While I hc Billy as an introverted guy with fucked up morals and possible hallucinations like his daughter Sam / he's more likely to snap than most people same with his Mom Nancy. But I think he feels love and emotions the same as anyone else he just has trust issues and cynical af.

It's why after so long...I mean, aside from money, Billy got what he wanted. YN is alone, isolated, depressed, anxiety, PTSD, no friends, everyone she cares for is dead or hates her, getting attacked by conspiracy theorists that claim she helped them. And I think he's realizing slowly but surely that maybe her suffering for trying to turn him in while saving him isn't what he wanted after all.

Thank you for the review and listening to me rant I just love these in detailed ones because sometimes you guys see things about the characters I don't even!!♡♡♡

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

Ok so imagine being an art student who wants to graduate and prepare for a good art career while you're there. you SEEM straightlaced but you're just focused on passing classes, creating art, and networking with artists inside and outside of campus. oliver thinks having you in bed would be perfect, if only you were in reach.

.... because youre literally and metaphorically out of reach. he thinks youre just focused on work or shy, but in reality You Just Dont Want Him. youve seen how women around him get their hearts nuked. you dont have time for that. art success is waiting for you, and you dont need to waste time.

so imagine you're trying to figure out how muscles move in different people. you check people from around campus, bringing around your phone and a tripod and observing people's movements as they go about daily activities. then you approach the athletes.

you try to get someone on the team who's not as in demand as oliver, but then most of the guys back off when oliver approaches you while you're talking to his teammates. you explain the situation so nobody gets it wrong, but then he offers to be your model. ok, you'll take it. you personally dont want to choose him, but he is one of their star players, which means you'll get the best footage.

he does a couple arm and leg flexes for you, close up footage that he puts 100% into, but all you can say is variations of 'fascinating. One more. huh. can you do the other side?' STONE FACED. hes a little impatient at how his obvious showing off isn't having any effect. he shoots a couple goals while your phone camera follows him around. when he gets back, all you can say is "that was enlightening. i wonder what happens when you're pressed on several sides and people are trying to gang up on you," still so... detached.

you want competition? he'll give you competition. he has at least 5 people trying to stop him from scoring a goal. he calls it a special favor for the art student trying to learn about an athlete's body. he ends up winning and what do you have to say?

"mhm. there's a lot of differences. more urgency. this was a great learning experience. i think i have everything i need." and this is the ONLY time you have any warmth in your tone. you're much sweeter when you thank his other teammates for participating. when you thank him again and say goodbye it's just so clinical.

..... like you don't care about him.

so he continues on with his daily life like atlas carrying the world, except the world is the very real possibility that you want nothing to do with him. he loses sleep. he doesn't want to be with any other girl. hes mostly focused on soccer but at one point a stray ball nearly knocks his head off at practice.

weeks pass like this.

at a party, he finds you commiserating with some of his teammates and your friends. the conversation goes to him. theyre talking about how oliver might like you a little too much.

You. Start. Cackling.

"oliver aiku? Oliver fucking aiku?? That guy? Ok, thanks for the cool joke, tell me another." someone's trying to say that they noticed he hasnt been acting right since your visit.

"Oh yeah, that one, that wasn't even a real project, one of my seniors recommended I do anatomy studies."

so you didn't even come to him as a part of coursework. you just came to him for fun. he would never have met you if you just didnt do something for fun. he would never have fallen so hard if you werent so focused on giving your work 1000%.

"Listen. Aiku isn't even my type. I sometimes forget he exists. To be honest, I prefer people who don't break other people' hearts and waste precious time for fun."

he didnt stand a chance with you at all.

Alessandra. You are ao so precious to me. I have been drinking and am feeling a lot of th8ngs. Thank u for sending me this, it will always be on my mind, i love when y/n isn't invested in oliver like he is with us.

[softskiesahead]

4 days of lukeyaya 3/14.......<3 <3 <3 ^ᴗ^ <3 <33

high school luke had no plans on confessing yet, but he wasn't about to let valentine's day roll by un-celebrated. he had to do something, right? he didn't care much for how anyone else wanted to celebrate it... but he knew yaya wanted to. he knew she loved this time of year, and he was determined to be at least a small part of that.

it had seemed like a good plan at the start. he called in to place an order for roses a few weeks in advance, making sure there would be some when the day came. he looked into whatever chocolate brands seemed the cutest and the tastiest. he spent days on end folding together tiny little origami stars out of pink, red, or white paper, piling them in a little jar until they totaled 100. he packed the chocolates and jar into his backpack, content with what he had made. everything was going to be perfect.

it rained that morning. february 14th rolled around, rainy and dreary. his alarm didnt go off. he overslept so bad he barely had the time to throw on his clothes and shove down a piece of bread. he hadn't even noticed when his foot landed on a portion of his backpack as he stumbled around in a hurry.

he flew down the sidewalk as he ran to the flower store, racing against the time so as to not be late for school. the rain pelted his face and drenched his clothes, his eyes half-shut as he squinted against the harsh, wet winds. he nearly slid into the flower shop with how slick the sidewalk was. paying in a hurry, he thanked the little old couple behind the counter before taking off again.

he was out of breath by the time he got to the schools front gates. yaya was still sitting out front beside rosa, as if the two were waiting for him, thankfully out of the rain. she brightened up when she saw him, running out to greet him with merely a hand held above her head to shield her from the rain.

it was nearly automatic the way he pulled off his jacket to hold up above them both, above her. "I brought these for you!" he said, fighting against the roar of the wind. she looked down and he followed, only horrified to see some of the petals had been ripped off and blown away in the wind. the roses were drenched, looking a little worse for wear. they didnt look at all like the gorgeous bouquet he had picked up only a few blocks back.

he pushed it into yayas hands for a moment in horror as he dropped his backpack to the ground, other arm still holding the jacket above her head. he fished around in the bag for a moment before finding it... the crushed box of chocolates. one side was almost smashed in... he must have accidentally stepped on it that morning.

an awful feeling was piling up inside of him, like a mix between horror and bile. he reached inside once more, pulling out the still intact bottle of stars. a small feeling of relief nestled inside, though the burning pang of tears still threatened the corner of his eyes. "i brought these for you," he repeated, his voice weaker and shaky.

even still, her hands gently took all the gifts from him, cradling them as if they were precious. there was no disappointment waiting when he finally brought himself to look her in the eye, only that same gentleness she always offered him.

"thank you, luke. i love it."

WRITING CHAPTERS IJ MY INBOX . MAKING ME CRY . your power . the details in this one??? he instantly wants to keep her dry :((( the stars :(((( yaya absolutely keeps them forever. they’re treasures to her and she’s so so happy :((((( he gets so sad but she’s so so happy she absolutely gushes about them and carries the flowers around with her ALL day and keep them in her bedroom until they’re falling apart in the vase

“be a small part of that” he’s all of it she’s so grateful for him always. she’s always loved him even if she wasn’t fully aware of it <3

[leviathan-supersystem]

im like 95% on the "youre completely right and the people mad at you are just making up shit you didnt say" but they do have a bit of a point (one that theyre completely failing to actually articulate, but still)

the way society currently treats disabled people who need support is monumentally fucked up and needs to be radically restructured to not be hell on earth to navigate.

The frameword needs to be less "we have to root out the fake disableds trying to leech off the system" and more "what work are the people in this system capable of doing, and how do we support them doing the work they can do in spite of their disabilities". Cause disability isnt a binary of "is constantly bedridden and cant even lift a glass of water" and "is 100% perfectly able to do whatever labor you want them to", there are a lot of degrees to it. Many disabled people are still able and willing to do work according to their ability (especially when its actually useful work that benefits their community instead of some just benefiting some executives), and anyone trying to game the system isn't gonna be able to make it look like they can't do anything, they'll at best look slightly less capable than they are.

yeah i mean i broadly agree that the current system for handling disability is massively fucked and need to be reformed to better serve disabled people. and to be clear i'm not trying to present myself as being anywhere near capable of determining what a better model would be, and i'm somewhat resentful that my off-the-cuff answer is being treated as being like, my end-all-be-all proposal, when it's nothing of the sort, it was just what i came up with on the spot when i was being antagonized for- i cannot emphasize this enough- not being nice enough to landlords. i'm sure people with more expertise in the subject could come up with numerous better models for how to address disability under socialism, and i'd love to hear their proposals.

overall i'm just incredibly resentful that when i was criticizing landlords, business owners, and trust fund kids, i was put on the spot to instantly define a perfect system for supporting disabled people under socialism when A: obviously i do not have anywhere close to the expertise to do so and B: that is obviously completely irrelevant to my critiques of physically and mentally abled wealthy people who exploit the working class. it's an obvious attempt to distract from the critiques i was making of the Idle Rich to catch me in a "gotcha" about an issue i do not have the necessary expertise on and have never claimed to have the necessary expertise on.

at any rate, i don't necessarily agree with your proposal that many disabled people are capable of working and i think following that notion could lead to disabled people being pushed to do work they are not actually able to safely perform. that said, again, i do not have the expertise to make any serious critique here. but all of this is completely irrelevant to my critiques of non-working rich people who are abled, acknowledge that they are abled, and have never claimed to be disabled in the first place.