#i didnt flip them fast enough so one side is like beautiful and the other side... lord

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well... they're kinda ugly... and overcooked... but they taste alright 🥹👍

[loousir]

[Satyr} Insecurities

Soft Male Presenting NB Satyr x Male Reader

Dakota

Warnings: Dakota get comforted by you after a sudden breakup and you end up confessing, they realized they like you too, mentions of alcohol (tho not explicitly stated other than beer), two faced boyfriend (now ex)

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Currently, you are on your way to third wheel for your best friend, Dakota. This guy that Dakota was dating was one that you really did not like. He was all sweet and kind around Dakota but the second they turned their back, he was a complete jerk. You knew you should tell Dakota but they just looked so happy being with this guy that you didn't want to ruin this momentary happiness.

Anyhow, both of you were walking down the street to a small yet busy pub that he had asked Dakota to meet. Dakota had asked him if you could come and he said yes but you knew he would have said no if that didn't ruin his "perfect boyfriend" image. You developed feelings for Dakota years ago, long into your friendship with him but you never confessed. You knew they didn't feel the same so you decided to just try to be the very best friend you could be.

Dakota pointed out the place you two were going and you followed them up to the front door. You opened it for them and they almost instantly spot their boyfriend, going over to him and hugging him. You smiled a sad smile and looked at the two before joining them at their table. He had sent Dakota off to get drinks for the three of you. "How have you been (R/n)?" He looks over to you with a not glare for once. "I'm breaking up with him."

Your eyes widened slightly. "What?" He nods. "Yeah I got hit pretty hard in the face with reality after the last time we met." His whole demeanor had changed from what it was before. You tried to say something but Dakota came back with a beer bottle and two glasses. They set one of the glasses down in front of you and handed the bottle to their soon to be ex who's demeanor went back to perfect boyfriend mode.

You smiled at Dakotas smile before taking a drink of what they got you. "Ah, (R/n)! Did you see the new episode yesterday? It was so good!" Dakota said before going on to ramble about bits and pieces. (R/n) smiled and nodded, chatting about said episode with Dakota.

A few minutes had past with the three of you talking before (R/n) decided it was time to bring the bad news. "Dakota." They looked up to (R/n) who looked like he just accidentally kicked a puppy. Dakota noticed and went to grab his hands to ask what's wrong but he pulled away. You looked away out of courtesy but still listened in. "I'm sorry Dakota. I dont think we can be together anymore. Its really me, not you. You've been nothing but good to me and I want you to be happy but it can't be with me."

"Maybe we'll see each other around. Don't worry about paying for drinks, I'll cover it on the way out." He said standing up to leave. Dakota couldn't seem to process what what happening as they watched their now ex-boyfriend walk away. "Kota, let's go." You said standing and grabbing their hand.

They didn't move but instead started to shake slightly. "Dakota, please." You pulled them up and practically dragged them out of the pub and stopped when you were a block away from it. Dakota hadn't said a word but held on tightly to your hand. "Do you wanna go back to your house?" You asked, looking to them. They nodded softly, more hair moving to cover their usually covered eyes.

You squeezed their hand gently as the two of you walked back to Dakotas place. It wasn't too far from the pub so neither of you saw the point in taking the car. After a few minutes of walking, Dakota stopped, making you look back. "Im... S-so sorry... I... I cant..." They tried to say something but ended up almost collapsing, legs shaking like crazy. You caught them before they could and opted to carry them the rest of the way.

Dakota holds onto you and cries into your neck. You gently rub the back of their head and whisper reassuring words into their ears. After a few more minutes of walking, you make it to the house and carefully unlock the door and close it behind you before taking them upstairs to their bedroom. "I'll go grab some water. I'll be right back ok?"

You head back down stairs, lost in thought as you grabbed water from the fridge before heading back up. You didn't expect to see what you did though.

Your body stood ridgid with shock. Standing in front of you, staring back with wild and afraid eyes was your best friend of 5 years. They looked like they were wearing pants but they weren't. Their legs were covered in dark brown fur, same colour as their hair. Your eyes followed the soft digitigrade shape down to the cloven hooves in place of feet. A small tail to match laid tight against their body.

"Dakota..?"

You breathed out hesitantly. They seemed to snap out of whatever trance they were in for a moment and they started to shake. "Hey... Hey whats wrong?" You asked as you very slowly approached them, as if the wrong step could send them sprinting away. They didn't say a word and you eventually got to their side. You very carefully grabbed their hand but they pulled it away faster than you could blink.

They looked at you with such fear that you could barely even tell if it was your sweet Dakota anymore. A tense moment passed as you had seen his eyes for the first time. You gently took their hand again and pressed their palm against your chest. They could feel your heart pounding, theirs was probably just as fast. You and Dakota had this thing where if one of you were panicking, the other would place a hand on the heart of the one whos panicking. It usually ended with a hug but it was really just a comfort thing that Dakota had started with you when they had a panic attack in public. Once they had seemed to realized, some lever must have flipped as they pulled you into a tight hug.

"(Y/n)..."

You hugged them back, gently placing a hand on the back of their head to keep them close. A silent minute had past before you felt your shoulder getting wet again. "I'm so sorry." It was barely a whisper but you heard it. Neither of you said a word after that. Dakota pulled their head out from the crook of your neck and rested their forehead against your chest.

"I didn't want you to find out like this..." Their voice was small as they spoke, hands gripping tightly to the back of your shirt. You carefully set a hand on their cheek, coaxing them to look up to you. Their eyes were red and slightly puffy from crying. The bright green, almost yellow irises stood out against their pink-ish scleras. "Your eyes are so beautiful." You mumbled out without thinking.

Dakota blushed and looked away. "I know you probably don't wanna talk so let's sit down and I'll go first." You lead them over to the bed and both of you sat down. "Judging by your reaction you didn't want me knowing about the whole... Lower half thing." You paused to look at Dakota who nodded. "Sorry." You said, still processing everything. Dakota shook their head. "N-no... I..."

"I don't know what to say..." Dakota said with a heavy sigh. "It's ok. You don't have to say anything-" They cut you off before you could continue. "(Y/n) I've lied to you for 5 years about it! Of course I have to say something!" You looked away from them and sighed. "I would be lying if I said it didn't upset me that you never told me what you were." Without hesitation, you grabbed Dakotas hand again, staring at it as they let you intertwine your fingers. "But I always had a feeling you weren't exactly human anyways... Of course I wanted to know but I didn't want you to feel uncomfortable around me."

Dakota looked to your eyes, tears welling up in theirs again. You could see that they wanted to apologize for not saying anything but you just shook your head. "Kota, I could care less that your a Satyr. If anything I like you even more." You mumbled the last part but they still heard it anyway, signaled by the blush that rose to their cheeks yet again. Dakota placed their free hand on your cheek and made you look back to them.

"I love you so fucking much Kota. You don't even know. I'm sorry. This is probably a lot on top of me finding out about probably your biggest secret and the... Y'know." Dakota shook their head. "Its all been so overwhelming. I'm honestly surprised I haven't passed out yet." You let a small huff of a laugh pass as they pulled your face closer to theirs. "You seemed to have calmed down a lot." You mumbled out.

Dakota nodded. "Yeah. I guess I'm... Relieved... I've known you long enough that I know you when you aren't feigning truths." They pause for a moment. You took this moment to observe their tear stained face. "(Y/n). I dont ever want you to leave me." Their voice had been shaky since you found out about them being a Satyr but it was even worse when they said that. "I couldn't truly live if you weren't in my life Kota."

They looked at you with wide eyes. "Sorry, said something weird didnt-" You were cut off by a pair of soft lips against yours. You carefully kissed back, tangling your hand in their soft, fuffy hair. The second both of you pulled away, Dakota smiled and pulled you into a tight hug. "Kota-" "I think him breaking up with me was the best decision ever." You furrowed your brows, really confused.

"What? Why? I though you two were happy together." Dakota nodded. "I was happy. But I also saw how unhappy you were. A-and it made me realize... Just how much I wanted to make you happy because you make me happy." You couldn't say anything but just looked at them with surprise. "Can I... Can I kiss you?" You asked quietly. Dakota laughed and nodded, pulling you into a kiss.

Your hands decided to test the waters a bit and you gently ran a hand through the soft fur that coat their leg. They shivered and gripped onto your shirt, leaning into the kiss more. You pulled away and let your hand linger on their thigh. "Did... Did you really mean it when you said that you liked me more knowing I was a Satyr?" You blushed and laughed awkwardly while looking away. "Yeah... I didn't realize I said that out loud."

Dakota let out a gentle laugh and pulled you into a tight hug. "Let's take a nap, I'm tired after crying so much..." You nodded and kissed their neck softly as the two of you laid down.

"Please stay by my side."

I originally started this one shot at the paragraph that starts at "Your body stood ridgid with shock." so sorry if everything above it seemed weird-

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[queenofwerewolves]

Future Hope - chapter 1.5 - Practice Makes Perfect

Our heroes didnt get their powers and knew from night to day how to manage them, especially those who had physical changes to their body. Our soon-to-be heroes were all reunited in Maria's house, they had planed to spend the afternoon practing and exploring their new limits and abilities, all helping eitch other.

They decided since Griff had the biggest change, they would focus on him first. At the moment they were out in backyard, eitch one giving suggestions on what to begin first.

"Pick us all up at once with your new muscles!" Said Muffin excitedly. "That's still too light! Pick us all up plus Maria's car" Said Spike, chewing once again on a bubblegum.

"You all leave Hellride out of this!" Maria responded angrily. "That car was expensive as fuck and I refuse to go back to a life of Ubers!" She crossed her arms, indignified.

"You named your car?" Kip answered from high up a tree branch, as cats do. "I name all my belongings, what of it?" Maria answered. "And they're all cool names, too".

"Hellride? Really?" Spiked scoffed. "Because she rides fast as Hell! Look can we get back on track and find something for Griff to test his strenght?!" Maria answered nervously with a touch of embarrassment.

"Unless we find an Indiana Jones boulder for him to spin on his finger like a damn basketball we arent gonna get any damn progress!" Spike shouted back.

Maria sighed and shook her head. "I hate it when you have a point.." Griff nervously scratched the back of his head. "There must be something we can do.." He quietly mumbled out.

"I got it!" Muffin shouted, they all turned to face her. "I forgot Im a fairy! I can just poof something up!" She said excitedly. Everyone stared at her with either a confused or shocked look.

"..How... Do you FORGET that you're a fairy?!" Spike blurted out nervously. "You have fucking wings! How does one forget they have huge pink glittery wings?!"

Muffin just shrugged.

Maria smiled wide. "OK Muffin, give us something huge and heavy for Griff to use!" Muffin nodded and grabbed her wand which had a muffin on the tip. "Wand cook, beat and bake! Give us a big large and tasty cupcake!" She waved her wand and out appeared from a bunch of pink glittery smoke, a nearly two-story house tall chocolate cupcake.

"... Why a cupcake..?" Blink asked as she peeked behind her mask, in slight awe and wanting to secretly a bite out of it. "I can only make sweets!" Muffin said with a shy tone. "Im not a fighter like you guys, I only want to make people happy and eat candy!"

"That is certainly the biggest pastry I've ever seen! So large and beautiful, I bet tasty as well!" "Not to mention DIABETIC AS HELL!!! We could die from a heart attack eating that! Or worse, we could get fat! Even fatter! And become even uglier then we already are! This is too overwealming I need a nap!"

Rooko and Rooki suddenly spoke, almost taking everyone off guard on how their friend Rook is suddenly two split personalities now based on the Youtube character ENA, one is always happy while the other is always sad, and depending on the situation they can go Manic or Miserable.

"OK Griff, show us what you can do!" Maria shouted excitedly. Without missing a second, Griff bent over and gripped the edge of the massive cupcake, after struggling a bit he slowly but surely, lifted the entire thing over his head, smiling proudly.

His friends cheered and applauded proudly. Feeling satisfied, he dropped the cupcake and dusted the chocolate crumbs off his hands and fur. "Yokusei!" He shouted, and with a naruto-like smoke poof, he turned back to his human self. Maria ran and hugged him tightly, which Griff embraced and hugged back with a slight twirl.

"Griff you were amazing!!" Maria said with a proud tone, Griff slightly blushed pink at the small punk girl and her excitement. "Oh shucks, it was nothing.." He said with a shy tone.

"Well, and seems we concluded Griffin's training." Togekiss said as they took a sip of tea. "He jump twice as high as a two-story house, his punches and kicks can knock down brick walls and possibly more if we werent limited on objects to test it with, he can hear twice as much then a dog could with his ears, and his sense of smell is impecable. Truly Griff is a strong asset to our team."

"I can only train my powers at night.." Said Spooks, holding an umbrella to protect her from the sun, now that it injures her. "Muffin's power is only sweet making. Togekiss has exceptional I.Q and can see simulations in the future like Garnet in Steven Universe, along with their strong telekenisis, and Kip simply draws whatever she desires, whether alive or not and it becomes a reality... That means it's Rook's turn to show us what she can do" She finished.

"Wonderful! It's our time to shine!" "I-I-I not ready! Everyone's gonna laugh at us! I-I might piss myself in fear!" "Oh pull yourself together dear! Our friends wont laugh at us!" "How do we know that?! They're just waiting to correct us on a dumb mistake!!!"

Rook's body shook and twitched as her eyes turned to static, suddenly her entire eyes turned black with a blue iris, she turned Miserable.

"They're gonna laugh and point at our foolish selves, we're gonna be so embarrassed that we'll wish that the Earth will swallow us whole and just fucking kill us now!! Go ahead! Laugh at us and our misfortune!!!"

"ooh shit" Maria said. "can someone calm her down?"

Rook's eyes change to regular as her Miserable side went away. "No need my good Queen! We are completly fine! Now prepare to be dazzled as we show you all what we can do!" q

Rook pulled out a harry potter-like wooden wand, waved it around. "Bloom and Blossom and protect who I love! Rise my pretties, rise high and above!" Rooki shot an orange light at the grass, which made dozens of flowers bloom and grow around Spike and Blink.

"This is only one of my tricks! It's a shield that protects them from almost anything! My main weakness is fire, because while plants are beautiful, they are also sadly very, very flammable"

"Cool." Said Spike before using his bat to aggressivly hit the flowers and the vines aside so he and Blink could leave.

"M-M-My turn I guess!" Rook took hold of the wand and waved it in circles. "Razzle Dazzle Shine and Show, make their body move it low!" Rooko shot a blue light at Spooks, which made unwillingly and uncontrolably start dancing and as the spell said, make her go low.

"O-OH GOD SOMEONE MAKE IT STOP I DONT LIKE HOW MY BUTT IS MOVING THIS MUCH!!" She shouted in desperation as she made a split and moved it even lower.

"M-My deal is with music! I-It works as a way of distraction o-or hypnosis and it lasts for 30 minutes un-le-less I say otherwise! I-I know it's a sucky power!"

"OK COOL CAN I STOP DANCING PLEASE IM GETTING A CRAMP!!!" Yelled Spooks, practically begging. Rooko flicked her wand and Spooks fell on the ground, panting. "OH MY POOR HAMSTRINGS THEY ACHE!!" She yelled in utter pain, meanwhile Maria and Spike were absolutely losing it.

"O-OH GOD MY STOMACH HURTS-" Said Spike in between laughter.

"OK you guys cool it" Said Blink. "It's our turn to practice now. We're the only ones who use regular weapons." She said drawing her sword and positioning her mask back in place.

"O-OK! OK!" Maria said getting up, she pulled out a small staff and whipped it, making it stretch out wide into a full, large red and black scythe, with a rose print on the blade. Spike spun his bat and spat his gum out.

"So. Who's ass Im kicking first?" Said Spike. "Wait on second thought this might be unfair." Said Blink. "Me and Maria had blades while Spike has a bat, maybe we should-"

Before she could finish, Spike swung his bat and hit Blink sword, knocking it out of her hand before kicking her back at the ground. Blink fell back hard before she could even process what happen, dumbfounded but angry, she snarled. "Oh it's on now Motherfucker." She extended her hand and the sword flew back to her hand, as she charged towards Spike, who moved out of the way as soon as Blink swung her sword, which if he hadnt been for Maria's scythe, would have sliced her right up.

"Dude! Chill! This is a pratice!" Maria spoke as both of their blades were against eitch other. Blink hopped and flipped over her and landed on a tree branch, croutching like a ninja. She put her hands together and in a small puff of smoke and disappeared. Spike and Maria were back to back, ready to counterattack Blink, what they didnt expect was for her to attack from underground.

Buring up from the dirt, she got both of them off their feet and charged after Spike, who barely managed to regain his balance before his using bat his block Blink's sword. A back and forth of clash-clings-and-clangs between metal begun, one attacking the other but eitch blocking every attack again and again.

Spike ducked a sword slash and roundhouse kick Blink's leg, which was effective since she's practically a ninja. She backflipped back on her feet and kept attacking swiftly. But a sudden scythe blade cut in between them, stopping the fight.

"That's enough!!!" Maria shouted. "You both are gonna end up hurting yourselves or eitch other! im ending it now!!"

"Oh what the hell dude?!" Blink shouted indignified. "I was about to beat him!!" "Oh please." Answered Spike. "Was that the best you could do? Sakura could do a better job kicking my ass" He scoffed. They began to argue loudly, genuinely angry at eitch other.

"THAT"S ENOUGH!!!!" Maria shouted, making them, and everyone else look at her.

"It doesnt matter would win that fight! This was a practice and not a competition!! The point of us being a team and getting powers in the first place was for all of us to make the world a better place, but the only way that can happen is if all of us work together!! As a team!!!"

They stood in silence, listening to her talk and set them straight.

"As cheesy as that sounds, it's true!! We shouldnt fight eitch other like this, you're not just my friends, we're all friends with eitch other! We all go along well and we know that, that's why I got you all together, because no one can bond better in a team then all of us together!!!"

"... She's right." Togekiss added, walking towards them. "We all started as simple individuals with free time on a website, but we all shared common interests, we grew closer.. And suddenly like that, we all became friends.. A family, if you will."

"We take care of eitch other and look out for one another." Said Spooks.

"Just like how you all did for me.. When I almost died. Almost died because of the shit and violent world we live in." Maria said.. With a slight crack in her voice.

"You're bringing in the same violence that almost killed me.. So please.. Please stop fighting.. We're all in this together.. Right..?"

Spike and Blink dropped their weapons and hugged Maria, and everyone else joined in as well.

"You're right, we're sorry Queen." Said Spike. "We got overwhealmed and we didnt mean it. We wont fight again, because you're right." Added Blink.

"We only have eitch other in this world, and if we want to change it we have to stick together, just like you said." Spike said one more time.

"And we wont let you down.. We promise.." Griff finished, with everyone agreeing with what he said.

And so they stayed for a moment, embraced within eitch other in a group hug. A family isnt perfect, there will be disagreements, but a good bond will always overcome those disagreements, and that's what they had, a good bond.

A bond that's practically unbreakable and untaintable. A bond that will soon be ready, and fight together to make the world a better place.

A bond that will the world's Future Hope..

[notnctu]

jaemin + 18 (angst to fluff bc i think i will crY again) 🤭

ahhh thank you for requesting lovie hehehe and i didnt make this one too sad so hopefully no crying HAHAHA you can read it under the cut!

-author doie ❀

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neighbor!jaemin x reader (i know it sounds weird but trust me lol) prompt #18 - “I’d be lying if I said I didn’t love you.” genre - slight angst, fluff

jaemin, the sweetest boy next door --- literally. jaemin has been your neighbor your entire life and shared fond childhood play dates together out in your front lawns, like for example, learning how to ride a bike for the first time. and you two watched each other grow up into two very beautiful individuals.

while jaemin’s family has always been kind to yours, you never really knew how to repay their generosity. in fact, they practically raised you with your parents’ busy work schedule. despite never attending the same schools, jaemin and you remained close.

when jaemin finally got his license and a car, he’d swing by your high school to drive you two home. and when you stirred awake at night, he’d come over wrapped in a blanket to keep you company. oftentimes, your families spent the holidays together because you were all simply happier with one another.

jaemin is your home, your safe haven to run back to after a long school day, your comfort to seek when times feel weary. and even though he’s oblivious to how much he means to you, you’ve pondered the thought of whether or not he feels the same.

and you wished things stayed the way they are, that change didn’t have to affect this one part of your life, that jaemin was going to be right next door whenever you wanted to see him. that your story was always going to stay open on this chapter.

for the past two months, you had been keeping a secret that eats away at you whenever you see his shining smile. your parents got amazing new job offers that required them to relocate. and so, you are moving away to someplace far, too far from jaemin.

your heart hurts at what you two could have been and the memories that could have happened. for nights, you recalled past traditions that you’ll miss continuing. but most importantly, you’ll just miss jaemin.

it’s a friendship like no other. you have best friends from school, family friends that visit here and there, but all of which go back to their respective homes several miles away. jaemin is and always has been right next to you, within reach.

while you appreciate your friends picking up your calls after the first ring, jaemin answers the door within seconds of the door bell. he’s the first to hear your bad days, your good days, horrible breakups, and experience several growing pains, some that you’ve even experienced together.

on this very saddening day, you finally have to face the truth that you’re leaving him permanently. it’s the day before the move and your house has no ounce of familiarity left. boxes line the hallway and if it isn’t telling enough, a moving van parked outside at the curb.

“judging by your expression, you bring me bad news?” jaemin leans against the door frame with his arms crossed and dressed in comfortable attire. a messy bed head that also implies that he’s been in bed the whole day.

“how can you tell just by reading my face?” you want so badly to keep a lighthearted front.

“the dip in the corners of your lips and the tiny creasing between your eyebrows.” as he pokes at the space between your brows. you sigh while diving into him and he welcomes you with a heartfelt embrace.

“we’re moving, tomorrow. my parents got a job offer someplace far.” you speak into his chest and you can feel him tense underneath your hold. there’s a long pause before he does or says anything. then, he sees the van parked on the curb and the lack of lawn decor on your side.

however, he holds you a little tighter which has you suffocating in his natural scent. “you finished packing?” and if it isn’t for the crack in his voice, you probably would have thought jaemin is unaffected by the news.

“yeah..” you trail off and when you try to pull away from the hug, he doesn’t allow for it and actually squeezes you into him more. the air is quite stiff when you hear the small sniffs and the hiccups that jump at his chest.

“i can’t tell if i’m heartbroken that you’re leaving me or...” jaemin is clearly choked up as his words fade in and out. “... that you didn’t let me help you pack.” he inhales deeply, finally pulling you away from the embrace and gripping you by the shoulders. his thumbs rub nurturing circles.

“maybe both.” jaemin’s lip quivers. but a sincere smile grows through his tears and it tugs at your heartstrings. his tear stained cheeks and wet eyelashes, the face of a sadden angel.

“i’m sorry that i didn’t tell you sooner. i couldn’t get myself too.” you are regretting the decision of telling him so late, but this is the exact thing you had wished to avoid. jaemin crying is the last thing you’ve ever wanted.

“so you lied to me about getting matching christmas lights?” jaemin scoffs jokingly, still being the playful boy that he is.

“don’t put it like that! but.. in a way, i guess.” your voice drops later in your sentence, with an apologetic gaze that dip to the side momentarily. “we can still match. i’m going to get them for the new house, i promise.”

“i don’t blame you for it.” he wipes away any remaining droplets and you blink up at him with a longing heart. “i guess i’m a liar too and now that you’re going away tomorrow, it’s now or never to tell you the truth.”

“you didn’t actually want to get the lights?” jaemin laughs warmly at your clueless, puzzled question. his hands drop down to intertwine with yours, and your heart pounds at your rib cage.

he shakes his head, “i’d be lying if i said i didn’t love you.” you’re speechless, stunned at his confession. na jaemin, the boy next door, just told you he loves you. all this time when you looked at him with an aching heart, he looked back at you with fondness.

you can barely process this news, but jaemin is moving all too fast. he’s pulling you in for another hug, he’s saying his final words. it’s like your book caught the wind, and it’s flipping rapidly through the pages.

“wait, jaemin!” you stop him as he’s midway through saying goodbye. “i don’t know if what i feel for you is love, but ... i know it’s very close to that. i like you so much and all this time, i was prepping myself to let you go. mainly because i was moving away, but also because i wouldn’t have guess you liked me back.”

“i told you when we were twelve that i had a crush on you...” he looks slightly offended, but of course, it’s him being over dramatic and maintaining the humorous friendship you two shared.

“we were twelve!” you throw your hands in frustration at his ridiculous statement.

“and it never went away.” he smiles, pinching your cheek gently. “instead, my feelings for you only grew stronger.”

“but you’ve had relationships throughout the years...”

he rolls his eyes, “..and what am i now? single and still hung up on my neighbor, who is now moving away and taking my heart along too.”

“you’re no better. you didn’t re-confess your feelings until now!” you stomp, but jaemin thinks you’re absolutely adorable.

he pats your head and says softly, “i thought i had more time.” the single line drills a crack in your heart. “but... i just had an epiphany.”

and jaemin’s smile heals once again, gluing the breakage back together to make you whole. “i’m going to love you no matter where you are.” and you fall into him like a sacred place that will always catch you. jaemin feels like home. jaemin is your home.

[thirsthourdemon]

The beast in the garden

Includes: Aone Takanobu

Genre: Nobility!Au, angst, smut

Warning: Nsfw

Note: Okay so I’ve had this idea for a while now and I just couldnt find what I wanted to do with it but now it’s hear so please enjoy 😔

“Oh nobu!” the young miss whimpers at the force of the man pushing into her wet sex. Panting and whimpering at every movement. The pleasure sinking into her and she grips onto his shoulders. Y/N had never anticipated such a scenario before she met the “beast”.

Once there was a young miss inside an isolated mansion in the woods owned by her her parents, the lord and lady of the land. She was a beautiful girl with a cold gaze but such a warm heart. Y/N was given almost everything she could ask for! Shoes, books, beautiful jewelry and wonderful entertainment...all that could be hers but the one thing she had craved for the most was so out of her grasps. Freedom.

She was given everything except the freedom do go outside. She was secluded and kept like a beautiful porcelain doll, too pretty to even play with. The lonesome lady wasnt even allowed to walk their entire garden because the north part of their garden had a “beast” as the servants would tell her. Fearing the beast she stayed with her gaurdians at all times and barely left the mansion at all.

“What flowers are these?” Y/N asks her tutor showing the beautiful image of flowers in her book. “Chrysanthemums, my young miss” he replied sparing her a glance and going back to look at the book he was reading himself. “They mean devoted love and loyalty it says” Y/N’s voice so sweet and filled with admiration of the flora. “I hope one day someone will give me these flowers instead of roses...”

“Beautiful, arent they? You have them in your garden as I remember”

The male informs, flipping another page in his book

“Huh...maybe I should go pick some later tonight” was all she had said before she stood up and excused herself from their reading session.

That late afternoon the young miss asks her gaurdian to bring her to the garden to pick chrysanthemums only to be told that they only grew at the north of their grounds. The home of the beast she remembered coming to the conclusion that it would be best not to try and go at all. The whole afternoon it bothered her to no end.

Learning more and more about the flower and finding how it could be made into tea and how sweet it would taste. The chrysanthemums deeply explained what type of love she wanted. The young miss had countless suitors but all of them brought her the same red stainedroses over and over again until the roses didnt feel so red anymore.

She wanted those flowers no matter what but the servants themselves were too scared to get some and not being one to force others she decided she must take matters into her own hands.

As the moon came into view that night she had retired early to her bed chambers and told the servants to not let anyone in no matter what for she was not feeling well. Waiting for the moon to reach it’s peak the young miss had already climbed out of her window and tip toed her way to the border to the garden up north.

At the highest peak she hurridly went in looking for the beautiful flowers only to realize that this garden was the most beautiful one of all. It felt as if the fae themselves lived here. The moonlight fully illuminating the garden before her. Well kept grass and full bloomed flowers sparkling by the reflection of the light on the dew drops.

Before her eyes was the most beautiful garden and the most dangerous one as well thinking to herself. With every step she took however she did not realize how late it had been. Forgetting her reason for going all together and walked around the garden as well. There was no sign of the beast at all...not until she felt movement from the otherside of the rose bush. Quickly backing away...”Oh lord I forgot the chrysanthemum!” The young woman exclaimed hurridly looking for them and as she was about to pick some that she found there was suddenly a feeling of a presence behind her.

Fearing her safety she ran back as fast as she could and even forgeting the cloth she wore around her shoulders. Running fast and not even sparing a glance behind her. Almost sobbing and fully terrified she couldn’t even climb up to her window again.

Clomp. Clomp. Clomp.

Bubump bubump bubump she heard her heart beat almost out her chest. Foot steps along the grass.

Was this her demise?

Clomp. Clomp. Clomp.

Why was she always so weak that she could not even fend for herself?

Clomp. Clomp. Clomp.

Why did she have to spend her life locked up in such a dull household?!

Clomp. Clomp. Clomp.

Why could she never stand up for herself?

Clomp. Clomp. Clomp.

Why did she have to experience death without experiencing what it meant to be alive?

The foot steps have stopped in front of her. Feeling the heavy beathing and warmth of the huff from the monster. This was it...looking up she was greeted by a tall man with albino like features being graced upon the cold light of the moon. Somehow it had taken her breath away but then again it would be her last breath.

He didnt say anything though he just presented her something. Her shawl. “T-tha..nk yo..uu? B-...Beas...t, sir” stuttering and shaking of fright while grabbing her shawl back. “Young miss-“ “I-I...I...Ughhh...I apologize! I didnt mean to steal from your garden, sir! I just wanted to get some chrysanthemum! I swear I wasnt going to destroy anything!” Y/N interrupted trying to save her skin not knowing the intention of the man.

“Beast? Takanobu Aone. Im not a beast, young miss” deep and warm was all there was to say about his voice. Hearing his voice felt like the feeling you get when one drinks warm tea in a fairly cold morning. Comforting and soothing. His features were strangely soft for a monster. His eyes seem to be squinted but his eyes were plastered with concern and confusion.

“I- but the servants said there was a beast at the northern grounds!” Her soft voice no longer trembling at the sight of him. Shrugging the man had gestured for her to wait as he emerged back into the garden. Confused the young miss was troubled about everything that she had just discovered.

There was no beast all along. The house was meant to keep her in and not keep the beast out.

The albino like man stepped into view once more however he did not returned empty handed. He returned with a small bouqet of familiar light coloured flora. Chrysanthemums.

“Th-thank you! I-I...I really...ehhh...ummm... appreciate them” a warm feeling arose to her chest when she got the small gift. Aone nodded and started walking back to his home. “Umm...Sir Aone- Let’s meet again! B-back at the...the...y-...your...your garden when the moon is at it’s highest peak again!” Y/N nervously suggested to him and all he did was walk back to pat her head as a confirmation before jogging back.

There wasnt a beast.

Soon enough the young miss would barely wake up by 8 am, her usual waking hours, and it had troubled her gaurdians asking her questions like why was she up so late or why she had trouble waking up but before they could interrogate her even further she would only excuse herself.

Night by night Y/N went back to meet the mysterious nobu figuring him out little by little like she was building a puzzle with a thousand pieces.

He was quiet but his small actions made up for it. Things like talking all night and conversing about ridiculous ideas were always one sided however staring into the nigth sky with her head on his lap or making small flower arrangements for the young miss...those were when he was the most charming in her eyes.

Eventually the two had become great friends and both felt a strong connection to one another more than anything. Aone Takanobu was a beautiful being. His gaze was cold but it also had tears glossing over them whenever he looked at her. His touch maybe rough and yet it would soft enough having her hand in his.

He didnt pay any attention to her status or the amount of wealth she possessed because for him at the end of the day he only saw her for who she was.

Likewise she had already built the puzzle of who nobu was and it turns out it was just as wonderful. Growing to like each other much more spending more time in the gardens just to escape a little while-

“YOUNG MISS! Get away from that monster!” Her tutor’s voice exclaims when he saw the lovely child snuggling up next to aone by the bushes. “You! You are to not lay a finger on her anymore! She is too fragile and too weak! Have you no mercy! What are you even doing tainting her with your disgusting commoner-“

“Quiet. You dont have any right to insult her” nobu growled looking at man with a calm expression on his face. “She is neither fragile nor weak” he stands up and takes your hand to help you up. “N-nobu I-“ with that he just shakes his shakes his head slowly side to side and leaves the young woman with her tutor.

That night the young lady was scolded and ultimately gaurded with a handmaiden to watch over her and having her window locked.

He did not expect her to be there that night and he was correct. That night and the night after that and the following nights that would follow but all he could do was wait by chrysanthemums until she would eventually show up.

Many sunsets have passed and the incident was forgotten as everything had come back to normal. That night however the beast could no longer be patient and wait for the young miss to come back so he took measures into his own hands.

“When will I see you again...nobu...” Y/N talked to the withered flowers in the vase shet set by her desk. For all the time she spent indoors again she could never forget his face or his warming presence whenever she snuggled up to his chest. Suddenly russtling from the tree by her window had interrupted her thoughs.

If she hadnt felt his presence in that moment she was sure she would have been screaming at the top of her lungs but Y/N already knew who was trying to get into her room just from hearing the sound of the movement. Opening her window and there he was. Tall, albino features, covered in leaves and holding a small collection of different coloured chrysanthemums.

“You know chrysanthemums actually mean loyalty and devoted love” the no longer lonesome lady giggled picking up some of the leaves by his clothes.

“I like you, nobu and I know it’s crazy because we only met a month ago and I dont know what to do or what to say but Im sure that I like you”

Waiting for a reply. Silence and anticipations.

Tension and a full display of worriedness crossed over her face. Only for all of that worry to disappear the moment their lips connected. It was a kiss filled with nothing but love and longing for each other.

Taking a break and having their foreheads leaning towards each other. The beast of a man took her in his arms and carried her off the ground. Staring into one another’s eyes. Speaking a million words in silence. Those “I love you”s that only eyes could say and those “I want you”s that can only be tasted within their liplocking. Slowly their want and passion had slowly translated into the way their skin had dragged against each other.

Sitting the tall man down on her bed as she carefully and ever so teasingly stripped her night gown down revealing her beautiful body. Her body covered in imperfections had made her the most perfect human being in his eyes. He couldnt keep his hands to himself as he stood up and touched her sides while kissing her forehead.

That mere moment of innocence was soon erased by a passionate kiss and as the moon had tried to reach its highest peak the two lovers only evolved into more skinship.

Kissing and nimbling on the soft skin of her neck while gently massaging circles into her inner thigh. With her underneath him he could only imagine what he could do. Her pretty tears reminding him of the dew drops at the garden and her small noises resembling those of the night’s music.

His wet and hot tongue had travelled to her untouched pot of dripping honey. Licking in one agonizingly long stripe upwards. “Agh...gods” she huffed trying not to lose herself completely to the pleasure. Once he had started licking her entrance the only sound she could have ever made was whimpers that she so badly tried to cover. With her legs trembling and her eyes half open she had felt him stopping to grab a bottle of oil by her mirrored desk. While the liquid had poured of to his hands he started to pump his incredibly large member. Soon lining his member to her entrance.

“N-nob...uu...it m...aghhh...might not...FIT!” Y/N gripped on his shoulder once he had entered. Carefully he tried to soothen her so she wouldnt be so nervous. “Mhhm” kissing her forehead and allowing her to adjust his large size.

At once the young miss gave the beast her signal he thrusted into her creating a certain rythm so that both of them could slowly ease into it. That was soon thrown out the window once they both paced faster makiing the sweet girl cry out in pleasure.

Wet kisses and hair sticking to the forehead. The sound of skin slapping against each other through the night and small whimpers of “N-no...bu...” had only prolonged

“Oh nobu!” the young miss whimpers at the force of the man pushing into her wet sex. Panting and whimpering at every movement. The pleasure sinking into her and she grips onto his shoulders. With every time his member had hit that sweet soongy spot inside of her it had built her up so much that once the wave of pleasure had washed over both of them at the same time they had both decided to lay in bed for a while.

The albino like beast stared into her eyes noticing that small request of freedom. “You know chrysanthemums actually mean loyalty and devoted love” He remembered your words and at once stood up. He took the chrysanthemums from the ground and swore to her “I will love you devotedly and loyaly”

“Then follow me wherever I may go”

That night as eventful as it was for the two...had only left the household in panic.

Once the sun has risen and the servant that had to wake up their miss up entered the room only to see the room completely tidy as if no one had used the night before. There was no young miss and there was no beast. Only an empty bed with a bouqet of chrysanthemums.

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[letstalkaboutshtufff]

Geralt x Injured reader part 1

Part 2

Pairing: Geralt x reader (self insert)

Warnings: swearing, injury, blood, I think that's all?

Summary: Reader is feeling jealous and wanders too far from camp.

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Hey guys! This is like my first fanfiction ever. And I wrote it at like 3am when I couldn't sleep. It's probably trash but if you like it I do have ideas for more! Xoxo enjoy****

Geralt x injured reader part 1

Jealousy was not a pretty color on you. And you swore riot yourself it was no such thing. After all Geralt of Rivia was just a teacher/friend you were travelling with. You had some skill with a sword, he found you trying to take down a kikkemora all by yourself, and failing miserably. After you saw how skilled he was you begged him to take you with him, to train you. He said no of course, so you just kept tagging along without his consent. At some point though he finally decided that if you were gonna come along you might as well be of some use so you made a deal.

Over the months you grew stronger but still had much to learn. After all it takes years for anyone to become a great fighter. And luckily for you, Geralt had many many many years of experience to offer you.

You enjoyed the time you spent togther, the conversation, (although you did most of the talking..) and the training, he was one of the few people in your life you felt comfortable with. Someone you could always count on. And somewhere along your travels the line between student and teacher blurred for you into something else, although you did your best to deny it at first.

You had gone off and caught feelings for the man who had no interest in real committed relationships. You knew you had it bad when you found yourself overflowing with irritation when he spent his nights in the arms of some whore at a dirty brothel.

On those nights you drank until you passed out on roach. Pretty fucking pathetic y/n.

Then came along the witch, Yennefer..

You saw how they looked at eachother, a look you'd wish Geralt would give you even for a fleeting moment.

There were creatures that had been attacking the villagers at night, so the three of you, well four since Jaskier decided to tag along when he spotted us, were tracking these monsters into the forest. You didnt mind Jaskier at all, his songs a welcome distraction from the obvious growing bond between Geralt and Yennefer.

You felt horrible for the animosity you felt towards her. She did nothing wrong and you hated that if not for your jealousy, you probably would have been close friends.

If you were a better women you could get over your silly crush and focus on your training but...

Yeah you had some growing to do. After searching the forest for a few hours, and finding nothing, everyone was tired and decided to set up camp.

Once Geralt tied down roach, he turned to address the group, "Everyone is to stay in camp, these monsters are dangerous, so if you need to take a piss, I suggest you do it behind a tent, unless you wanna risk getting your head shot off" he said rather gruffly.

Jaskier made a sound of discomfort and scooted closer to the fire.

"Dont worry jaskier, I'll protect you" you giggled.

He turned to you in amusement, "Ah yes how does go the training y/n, last I saw you, you could barely lift your sword" he teased.

"I've gotten rather good, mind if I practice on you?" You teased.

"Thanks but I think I better go and get my beauty sleep, good night" he smiled and retreated into his tent.

You went to feed roach some apples when you noticed that Geralt and Yennefer had dissapeared.

Huh? Where did they go? At first you thought they were in trouble since you didnt hear either of them say goodnight but as you got closer to the middle of camp you heard voices coming from Yennefers tent.

You told yourself not to look but you couldn't help it. And the instant you did you felt your heart break. It was one thing to see him in the arms of a whore. You knew they meant nothing to him, but in the arms of someone he cares for? That hurt...

Roughly you turned away from the kissing couple and marched away. Away from camp, away from stupid feelings and dumb petty jealousy.

It was not yennefers fault she was beautiful and powerful and brilliant. And if you were jealous then you should become just as amazing as she is. Maybe then he would notice you...

You were snapped out of your reverie when a rustle in the bushes caught your attention.

Fuck I was not supposed to leave camp...

Thinking quickly, you unsheathed your sword and held it at the ready. Its sharp edge gleaming in the moonlight.

Eyes narrowing at the bush. A moment later you were relived when a rabbit hopped out.

Phew I thought It was--

*SCRAWWWWWWWWCH*

Fuck

You barely missed the creatures slimy claws as it swiped for your head. Jumping to the side you managed to get a good look at the beast. It was rather large and spider looking, with several disgusting sets of beady eyes and a long slithering tough that dripped of something purple. So geralt was right, the creature lurking here was a visser. (Completely made it up on the spot) They're claws are sharp and quick but it's the tongue you have to watch our for. One jab, although not fatal can leave a man in bed for days from pain. 2 jabs in the same place? then your a goner. And the visser is known to be smarter, he distracts with claws and jabs quickly before you can even blink.

You knew you should probably yell for your companions. There was a chance they could hear you. But that very second you thought of yennefer and how she would be able to take on a monster like this.

That made up your mind...this monster was going to be your kill... youd finish this off and prove that you had gotten stronger if it's the last thing you do.

Although that would kind of defeat the purpose...

"Urgh" you landed roughly on the ground, one of its claws managed to swipe at you.

"Ok no more misses nice gal" regainging your stance, the glint of the moon shone on your opponent. With a visser you had a few options. Option 1, go for the head which kills instantly but the risk of a jab is highest.

Option 2 is cut off all the legs quickly then send your sword through the head. But if it dodges... you're dead meat.

Option 3, try to get under the beast where its tongue cant reach you and strike upwards. With your small stature option 3 sounded the smartest. You just had to move fast enough where it wouldnt be able to see you for a split second.

Alright y/n dont let your training go to waste! This is your chance to prove yourself.

Running faster than you've ever ran before, you circled around the visser waiting for when the creature was even a second slow and could not see you. The right moment was.....

Now! You sprinted forward and slid under its legs.

"Scrawaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaachh" the monster howled in pain as you slammed your sword directly up getting covered in visser guts in the process.

"Blegh how disgusting.." you swiped the guts off your face and stood in front of the slain beast.

For once in a long time you felt proud of yourself. You slayed a monster all by yourself, even Geralt said you hadn't been ready yet and often told you to stay back during fights. But he would have to eat up his words now hehe. You could just imagine everyone's faces when you would tell them.

You were too wrapped up in your glory to notice a second visser sneaking up behind you.

By the time you heard its screech, it was too late. Its slimy black tongue had struck your stomach leaving a sizzling pain behind it.

"FUCK" unsheathing your sword again, you tried to maneuver far enough out of its reach to thing of a plan. There was no way you could pull on option 3 again with the way your core burned. One more jab and it would be over. Damn it! why couldn't you just have your victory and be done with it!

One hand clutched at your injury while the other was positioned weakly in front of you. Your eyes blurred slights but you refused to let this shit swamp be your final resting place.

The burning subsided to an ache and you used that opportunity to make a mad dash into the thicket. You needed to think of a plan and quick, it would not take long for the visser to catch up with you, especially now that you had that stupid injury.

"Srawwwwwwwwwch" it sounded like it was right behind you. Fuck fuck fuck.

And then because mother nature decided to be a BITCH, you tripped on a large tree root and tumbled forward.

"Scraeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeech" you flipped over quickly and shut your eyes as the visser was basically on top of you. 3 more seconds and you would be dead.

3, how pathetic y/n, after all these promises you made to yourself about becoming someone worth being proud of you fuck up the one chance you had.

2, maybe it's better this way, would anyone even miss you? Jaskier would, maybe he would even write a song about you..

1, I'm sorry I was an idiot...Geralt I'll watch over you...

"SWOOOOOOOOSH" the unmistakable sweet sound of metal slicing through flesh made your eyes shoot wide open.

"Geralt!" He stood out of breath hovering over the now beheaded visser. His sharp golden eyes moved from the beast, to you.

Without a word he reached over and pulled you up without a hint of gentleness. You hid your wince at the sudden movement. Not wanting to let anyone know that the visser had gotten the better of you.

"What happened" he bit out slowly. Fuck he was angry. "Why did you leave camp y/n when I explicitly told you not to" his feline eyes bore into yours and suddenly you felt too intimated and looked away.

Ah yes what excuse will I come up with now. Sorry Geralt I had to leave because I felt immense pressure and heartache seeing you and Yennefer over there locking lips and most passionately I might add.

When he noticed my hesitation he let out a growl, "Hmm, don't lie to me"

Fuuuuuuuuuck...

"I-I didnt mean to, really... I couldn't sleep so I was walking close to camp and I didnt even realize I had wandered so far until the other visser attacked." You looked him in the eyes knowing it would better your chances of him believing it.

He stared at you a few more seconds before letting out a sigh.

" You killed it" he said bluntly, and softer than before.

"I did.." you couldn't help the small smile that formed on your face. He sighed again, this time he had a small smirk on his face, "Well I guess you have learnt some things after all" he patted your shoulder but pulled away when Yennefer and Jaskier appeared.

"Y/n thank god your alive, are you alright?!" Jaskier grabbed your shoulders and scanned you for injuries. Luckily your stomach was covered by your armor, visser Jabs were known for hurting like hell at first, seeming to get better shortly after, then coming back tenfold. Right now you were at stage two, the calm before the storm..

Yennefer made a comment about how impressive you were to slay the visser and you hated yourself for still feeling ill towards her. She was a great person and you could not blame Geralt for liking her. It was just an unfortunate situation.

The walk back was quiet and the second you were in your tent again you dared to take a look at the wound. Gingerly you unbuckled your armor and lifted up your shirt.

You let out a small sigh of relief. It just looked like a large bruise. Nothing you couldn't pass off as a "I fell off roach" kinda injury.

As positive as you tried to be, you knew the worst was yet to come. But by god you were not about to let your victory be ruined by your companions knowing of this. Especially since Yennefer and Geralt could've slain the beast without a scratch.

Somehow you were lucky and slept the rest of the night in peace. It was early when jaskier came to wake you. Although you slept plenty, you felt just as exausted as you did after your late night encounter.

Before putting on your armor, you dared to look at the wound again. You regretted it the moment you did.

Fuck me... the bruise was much darker than before and covered a larger area. As for the pain, it felt only slightly more sore which was good for now. The last thing you wanted was for anyone to find out about it.

Quickly you threw togther the rest of your things and met the others. According to the village leader there was one more visser out there so we continued our search deeper into the forest. It was around noon when the pain intensified. It started as a constant dull ache but gradually became a burning sensation. It was becoming harder to hide it.

You made up some excuse to the group and sat on top of roach. You were sure if you had to walk anymore you would have fallen over. Luckily for awhile jaskier was more preoccupied with his latest ballad and geralt and yen were wrapped up in some serious conversation. You didnt realize how far you were lagging behind until jaskier turned to you.

"Y/n?" He walked over to you and pulled on roaches reigns making him go a little faster.

"Hm" was all you could manage.

"Are you alright? You're sweating so much"

Confused you ran a hand over your head. He was right, you were and didnt even feel it.

"Yo- sic- rest-" what? Why was Jaskier talking gibberish...and why is he so blurry?

You didnt even feel yourself pitching to the side, just the woosh of air through your ears.

"Y/N!? Y/N what's wrong?!?!" Jaskier barely managed to catch your half conscious form. "GERALT!" The witcher swung around sword at the ready but widened his eyes in shock at what he saw.

Y/n was on the floor, breathing heavily and being propped up by Jaskier.

Geralt and Yennefer quickly ran over. The witchers eyes narrowed in concern when he saw the state of her. She was sweating profusely and looked to be struggling with something. Yennefer raised a hand to her forehead but shook her head. "Its not a fever".

Geralt held her up, lightly smacking her face, he grew even more worried when she didnt react.

"Jaskier what happened"

"I don't know, I noticed she was falling behind so I went to check on her, then I noticed she looked sick, I was telling her we should stop and rest but then she just collapsed. She seemed really out of it too.

At that moment a grunt of pain escaped y/n's lips, and her eyes slowly opened.

You were confused as to why when you opened your eyes, gerald's golden ones were staring at yours with intense concern.

"Y/n can you hear me??" he questioned furrowing his brows.

"I-I ahhhgh" you screwed your eyes shut as the pain intensified. It felt like someone had set your stomach on fire.

This only confused geralt more, "you're hurt" he said as more of a statement.

"Where is the pain y/n," the gentle voice of yennefer surrounded you. Ugh why couldn't she just be a bitch, it would make things so much easier.

You tried speaking but a moan left your lips instead. Fuck this hurt worse than anything you had encountered before.

Geralt closed his eyes as if he had a sudden realization, "you got hit by the visser didnt you"

When you didnt speak but he saw the look in your eyes he knew it was true. "Fuck".

Quickly he began removing your armor and saw the injury peeking from under your shirt. He wasted no time lifting it up just until below your chest. You heard small gasps but were too out of it to know from who.

"Fuck y/n, why didn't you say anything??" Geralt scolded as he examined the wound.

Luckily you didnt have to answer, just focus on breathing heavily.

"Will she be alright?!" The frantic voice of jaskier floated through your ears.

"It would have been better if she told us from the beginning, with a visser attack you need to stay still as much as you can. However by the looks of it she only got hit once, which means she still has a chance."

"What can we do?" Was it yennefer or jaskier who said that?

Geralt pulled a sack from roach and rummaged through it till he pulled out a yellowish filled bottle.

Lifting y/n with one arm he pulled the cork with his teeth and gently placed it between her lips. "Drink y/n" without a second thought you downed the strange liquid coughing as it burned your throat like liquor.

"What is that?" Jaskier asked curiously.

" it's for the pain, it'll make her feel like shes dreaming." Geralt threw her armor onto roach and lifted her up carefully into his arms. "Let's go" he ordered and the troup was once again on their way. Geralt gave one look at the now sleeping y/n and sighed. What was she thinking?

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When you opened your eyes the first thing you did was let out a girlish laugh.

Geralt was surprised for a moment since you had been silently resting in his arms for a long time. "Y/n?"

"Geralt! You've dyed your hair pink! How adorable!" You reached up and pulled at the cotton soft locks.

The witcher sighed, knowing this was the effect of the medicine. Jaskier and yennefer let out a small laugh at the scene of the two.

"Go back to sleep y/n, you need rest" he commanded softly.

"GERALT!" you suddenly exclaimed! "Oh no you cant be the white wolf anymore! Oh no oh no oh no WAIT I GOT IT! YOU CAN BE THE PINK PONY! QUICK JASKIER WRITE THIS DOWN!!"

"Ah yes the witcher, pink pony of the north, has a nice ring to it" jaskier couldn't contain his laughter.

Geralt decide it best to ignore her and keep walking forward.

"Geralt?" He chose to ignore her again. "Geralt....?"

"Gerrrrrallllllt?"

"GERALT!"

"Geralt geralt geralt geralt geralt geralt"

"What?!" He bit out annoyed.

"Do you think I'm pretty? hehe" he was caught off guard and was not sure how to answer. It didnt help the other two were just giggling behind him.

"I um....yeah" he said awkwardly.

"So I dont look like a troll?" You asked earnestly.

"Pfft what?" Now geralt was the one who couldn't control his laughter.

"Don't laugh!" You suddenly pouted. "A long time ago one of my lovers said I looked like a troll when he broke up with me.."

Still amused geralt shifted you to meet his eyes, "No y/n, you do not look like a troll"

"Phew thank god, I dont know what I would have done..." you laid a hand against your head dramatically.

"Now will you please stop squirming and go back to sleep" geralt sighed out.

"Hmmmmmmmmmmm......alright I've decided to go to sleep since I need sleep and it's what I have decided" you saluted the air.

"Finally.." he grumbled.

With a smile you reached both arms around his neck and brought your soft lips to his unshaven cheek.

"Goodnight pinky, sweet creams" he was shocked for a moment then let out an exasperated laugh.

"Goodnight y/n...sweet creams"

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To be continued in part 2!

[kayleebreanne09]

I feel so sad!

John b x reader. With a little bit of ex Rafe x reader.

So I was listening to the song You should be sad by Halsey. I’m lowkey obsessed with it & I immediately thought about this blurb idea. So the reader was with Rafe, they had a really toxic relationship & she ran away. John b saves her & puts her back together. Obviously Halsey wrote this amazing song but just for the sake of the fic, the (Y/n) character writes it. Alright I hope y’all like this because it was really fun to write. Love yall💜

It’d been 3 months since you’d ran away from everything kook related. 3 months that a certain messy haired brunette pogue had spent trying to piece your heart back together. 3 months since you ended the most toxic relationship you’ve ever had in your life. You sat on the log, curled up against John B in front of the nightly fire y’all had at the chateau. On your other side was Kie, smiling happily at you, & across the fire, JJ & Pope goofed off. These were your people now. They’d put you back together when it seemed impossible that all the pieces would ever fit right again. JJ made some stupid joke & everyone just groaned but I couldn’t help but laugh. He jumped up & ran over to me to high five me! He threw his hand up in the air a little too close to me & my body automatically flinched. My heart started to race & my vision started to go fuzzy. I ran inside, desperately trying to get air into my lungs. I raced into the bathroom, jumping in the shower & turning the water on. I sank to the floor of the shower, all my clothes still on. I sat there with my knees up to my chest & my arms curled around them, trying to keep myself from breaking. I heard footsteps & a deep sigh that I knew belonged to my boyfriend. I felt John B step into the shower behind me, sitting down with his legs on either side of me & leaning up so his head was resting on my back. “Baby, breathe. You are safe. You aren’t with Rafe anymore, no one will ever touch you again. I will always protect you” he whispered slowly drawing words on my back. He sat there drawing random shapes as the water soaked ya both. “Let’s play a game...guess what I’m writing” he then drew what felt like 12 letters. “J” I guessed for the first letter. “Yes!” He replied...we went on like that until I figured it out. “JJ is a dumbass? Really John B?” I let out a small laugh. “Okay next one” John B said as he started drawing his fingertip along the sopping wet back of my shirt. “I love you” I guessed once he’d finished the last letter. He pulled me back against him & I felt some of the tension leave my body. “Yes. & I’ll never stop loving you. I will always be the best I can for you, I’ll never let you go through what you went through before” he stated, pressing a kiss to my cheek. “I love you John B. So much” I said turning & giving him a long kiss, hoping that he could feel just how much I needed him.

The next day, I was sitting on the kitchen counter watching John B make pancakes. My gaze kept drifting out the window to the calm water. Last night had stirred up some memories that were hard to deal with. Poor John B had been up half the night trying to soothe me back to sleep from my stupid nightmares. “Hey babe” John b said pulling my attention back to him. “Yeah baby, what’s up?” I asked smiling at him. “If you’re getting overwhelmed with stuff from the past, maybe you should write about it” he offered, looking back to the pan to flip the pancake. John b knew that I loved writing. It helped me get everything out. I wouldn’t call myself a song writer but I did love taking things that I’d been through & putting them into lyrics that maybe other people could relate to. If I could just help one person get through something, it’d be making a difference & that was all that I wanted. I jumped down & went to hug him from the back. I rested my head against his warm skin & just enjoyed the feeling of having John B in my arms. “That’s a good idea!” I said pressing a quick kiss to his back. “Good! Because I already texted Kie & she’s bringing her ukulele over to help” he said spinning around & swatting me on the butt with the spatula. I stood on my tip toes & pressed my lips to his as he pulled me into him. “You really are the best” I breathed out.

Kie & I sat in the hammock together, legs intertwined. She had her ukulele in her lap & I had my lyric book in mine. She reached over & pulled my pencil from behind my ear, & slid it into my hand. “Get to writing sister, I need to hear what these lyrics sound like before I can come up with a melody. Also, I’m sorry about JJ last night. He didn’t know your history with Rafe & pope chewed his ass pretty good about it.” She said as she laughed loudly. “It’s fine Kie. I just, I know what I want to say...I guess it’s just putting it into actual words is hard. Like I’m not conflicted, I’m 100% over Rafe, I just feel like none of his friends will tell him the truth. They won’t tell him that he’s turned into this monster & I feel like maybe if someone would just be honest with him, maybe he could change & find happiness in his life like I have with John B” I smiled toward the dock where John B was cleaning out the HMS Pogue. “Start there then!” Kie replied. & I did. My mind drifted back...

“Rafe, you’ve got to stop with the drugs. I can help you! You aren’t you anymo-“ I was cut off my his hand grabbing my throat & shoving me back against the wall. “Don’t tell me what I’ve got to do bitch” he snarled. His eyes were dark & pupils so dilated that I didnt even see the man that I’d grown to care about anymore. “I NEED the money, the drugs, the nice cars...I don’t need you. So you better watch the way you’re talking to me” he said, finally releasing my throat. I sank to the floor rubbing my neck where I knew bruises would form later. I took a deep breath & stood up. “I won’t do this anymore. You’ve broken me enough. You are toxic & I’m done. I’m gone & don’t you dare try to find me” I took one final look at the monster he’d become & walked away.

Kie watched as I stared off, my eyes tearing up. I felt her grab my hand & squeeze, just letting me know she was there. “I know what to write!” I said quickly scribbling down everything I wanted to say.

“I wanna start this out and say

I gotta get it off my chest

Got no anger, got no malice

Just a little bit of regret

Know nobody else will tell you

So there's some things I gotta say

Gonna jot it down and then get it out

And then I'll be on my way

No, you're not half the man you think that you are

And you can't fill the hole inside of you with money, drugs and cars

I'm so glad I never ever had a baby with you

'Cause you can't love nothin' unless there's somethin' in it for you

Oh, I feel so sorry

I feel so sad

I tried to help you

It just made you mad

And I had no warnin'

About who you are

I'm just glad I made it out without breakin' down

And then ran so fuckin' far

That you would never ever touch me again

Won't see your alligator tears

'Cause, no, I've had enough…”

Kie leaned over eyes scanning over what I’d written. “(Y/N) this is good. No, it’s amazing. I mean, I don’t even know what to say” she said hugging me tightly. “Thanks for always being there Kie” I said, leaning my head on her shoulder as the hug ended. “Now let’s get to work on this melody!”

A month passed & id been hired to play at midsummers. JJ had heard the song Kie & I came up with at the chateau & while working one day, he heard about talent tryouts to play at midsummers. He relayed the message & Kie & I went & tried out. Apparently they liked us because we were one of the acts that were hired to play. Everything went so fast & suddenly, it was a couple hours before midsummers was supposed to start. I stood in John B’s room, sliding on the dress that I’d gotten. It was a deep vneck off white dress with silver beading. John B walked in & wrapped his arms around me, looking at our reflection in the mirror. “You are so beautiful baby. You are going to be amazing tonight” I smiled at his reflection. “Are you sure you & JJ can pull off sneaking in as waiters?” I questioned. “Of course sweetheart, we are total badassea at going incognito” he said smirking. I turned around, wrapping my arms around his neck. “Good. I don’t think I could get through tonight without you” I whispered. He leaned down & brought his lips to mine. “You’ll never have to go through anything without me” he said squeezing my hips, pulling me closer to him & refusing to let me go until it was time to leave.

The lights facing the stage were blinding. I felt way too many eyes on me & way too many kooks judging me. Kie nudged my arm, smiling over at me & started to play. I put every ounce of emotion that I had into that performance. All the sadness from an ended relationship, & all the hope that I had that one day Rafe would find happiness. He & I were never meant to be, I understood that now. I just wanted him to get the help he needed. A single tear slipped down my face as I sang the last line. I wiped it away, grabbing Kies hand & bowing as the crowd cheered. I scanned the crowd to see Pope, JJ, & John B cheering in the back! “That’s my girl!” John b hollered. Security saw him & started making their way over. “Shit. Come on guys! Mandatory pogue meeting at the chateau!” JJ yelled. Kie ran to JJ as he spun her around & she then threw her arms around JJ & Pope. “Cmon baby!” John b yelled. I yanked up the bottom of my dress, kicked off my heels, grabbing them off the ground & took off running....Launching myself into his waiting arms. He kissed me long & hard. “Time to go!” He said pulling my hand & dancing away right as the pissed off security guard dove at us. I threw my head back laughing as John B bent down & I jumped on his back. He carried me all the way to the waiting HMS Pogue & we all rode off into the night.

Rafe stood in silence staring after the girl he had lost. He knew he’d done everything wrong in the relationship. Maybe she was right. Maybe the drugs couldn’t fill the hole he had inside. He decided then & there that he would get clean. He would fix things with his dad. He finally had closure, & maybe one day, he would find the love that he knew she had found.

[ts-2020-olympics]

Episode 17 -  “Bamboozle Me Faster So I Can Go To Sleep” - Sarah (FINALE)

Okay so Caeleb went out last round by a 4-3 vote against Sarah, in which, was surprised Sarah got that many votes, as I had thought Stoner was getting the votes over Sarah from the other side.  End of the day though, didn't really affect much, as target still went to jury, although was by far the toughest vote yet that I have had to make, as I really do personally like Caeleb, he was just too big a threat to be keeping around.   Now, I made the final 6, got a jigsaw immunity to try to win, or at least, one of myself, Stoner, Sarah or Tommy win this immunity, to keep the power on our side.  Then, my ideal this round would actually be Eve going over Kevin, but, I have a feeling my side will probably want to rather target Kevin.  So, will see what occurs, and go from there.   If anything, might even do a vote split if one of us 4 win immunity, but time will tell.   Anyways, it's surreal to believe that this game is almost over, and hoping to make final 5!

well........ y'all its a sad day, caeleb went home last night, 4-3 myself and eve in the minority with him, and its not looking too good for us. BUT WAIT RIGHT THERE.... i wake up and look in my bag and my CINNAMON APPLE CAELEB GAVE ME THE LEGACY ADVANTAGE !!!!! this acts as an idol at the final 6 which means I'm not going home !!!!! This is an incredible feeling but it still only gets me to the final 5, I have to play out from there until the end. I'm in a tricky situation with eve who I trust, but with this immunity being a puzzle i think if i really tried i could have a good shot at winning but do i risk winning 2 immunities in a row and THEN on top of that playing an advantage?? my threat level would increase SO MUCH, but it might be what i need, i dont see myself in the position to make any big flashy strategic moves in this end game, meaning i have to make a statement some other way to the jury. But do I risk losing the last 2 immunities?? It's an incredibly tough call that I have to make before i would like because i work through the challenge deadline and the first 2 hours of tribal, so i really need to get my shit together soon. I'm a lot of things but a quitter is not ones, im not in an ideal position but at least im in any position, better this than ponderosa. I just have to make the best move WHATEVER that is, and hope that it pays off in the longrun. Do i pitch a final 3 to tommy?? Would he take me to the end? Do i try and rekindle with sarah/stoner or do I bank on my relationship with darcy is enough to keep me in? So many factors, so little time, so many possibilities. Survivor gods please be on my side. Please. 

Eve I love you and you're great, but you pushed way too hard to know what my vote was, then tried to vote me out. Even if I'm a goat, I'm not THAT stupid 👀 Also. Even if I don't get individual immunity, I fuckin LOVE PUZZLES 

I can't believe I made it to the finale after this crazy season but it's no time to slow down I'm in the Final 6 and I need to keep playing hard because now I can be in a vulnerable position after flipping last tribal. I just need to make sure I don't go home tonight, or Darcy, or Stoner. Right now I think I can potentially win if I get to the end with the people I'm planning to so I just need to keep trying my hardest to stay afloat in this game, keep moving towards the goal and doing my best. Hopefully I end up on top! :) 

CHRIS IS VOTED OUT

Final 5 and I feel like I already lost the game, but as long as they keep me I'm going to keep fighting until the end and try to win at final tribal council if I''m able to survive. I think if I can survive tonight's Final 5 tribal I have a really good shot at making it to Final 3 so it's all about making it to Final 3 at this point because I need to be there to have a shot at winning. 

BAMBOOZLE ME FASTER SO I CAN GO TO SLEEP. But hey last tribal was spicy as hell idk how I keep being so stupid STONER YOU FOOL. I'm voting Darcy because I'm salty about being lied to, if I get voted out this round I'm ok with it because I made it this far anyways and I think I played an honest ass game. I'd rather go down with some dignity and no sense of moral turmoil and guilt (cough cough stoner) than go lying through my teeth to people I kinda like talking to. Also I watched tribal at 2am and never went to sleep again and am moderately delirious so catch me on no beauty sleep tonight only <3 

IM IN THE FINAL 5 BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY I WON IMMUNITY AND IM IN THE FINAL 4, BY 1 FREAKING POINT!!!! god bless...... i didnt confess last round so lets jump back... actually i might've but not after that TRIBAL. So basically i won immunity and had the legacy advantage which meant me and eve were in the final 5, but not everyone knew that, when i did my talking it seemed as though the consensus was DARCY... or so i thought, but either way I didnt want darcy out which meant I had to do something, despite eve wanting darcy too with my legacy advantage being the key component to that whole round I knew stoner had to go home after our last conversation together, practically threatening me and telling me im a big threat and im gonna go home, all while cockily saying he's not going anywhere, and continuously talking about how keeping him is good because he's gonna do what's "convenient" but guess what stoner, you can't reason with convenience, so he had to go. so I told eve we should do stoner instead, the threat of him having an idol had been around since the final 7 and with next round the last time to play one and my legacy being good until 6 i was in a tricky spot, so I swapped mine and eves votes to stoner and luckily they split they're votes somehow for some reason and after eves 2 were cancelled the vote was 2-2 which could have ended up as a tie but with myself and eve both SAFE we had nothing to lose to campaign at tribal why stoner should go and how we aren't going to flip our votes, in the end it worked and 4-0. After tribal i approach sarah considering her allies just blindsided her to which i am presented with the idea that she wants DARCY gone, cracks were already forming which is JUST WHAT I WANTED, i knew stoner was the glue holding sarah and darcy together if at all considering each of their relationships to him, so cutting him out broke the ice on the darcy vs sarah fued. Fast forward to now, i win immunity after a STRESSFUL FUCKING DAY OF THIS CHALLENGE, but i won so im GRATEFUL. Anyways it seems like people still wanna do Darcy, tommy and eve included, HOWEVER, if i had it my way tommy would go home tonight, he's a big physical threat and if FIC is a pressure cooker I don't see myself beating him, and if i can use this to keep darcy on my side and potentially protect me if eve flips on me at four then thats great, if not that then darcy and sarah can continue to be at each others throats while me and eve go to the final 3. 

DARCY IS VOTED OUT

SARAH IS VOTED OUT

Tonight is final trial! I need all the luck I can get, tonight it the determining factor that will show who the winner of this long chaotic season will be, stay tuned!

FINAL TRIBAL COUNCIL TAKES PLACE

Well tonight after final tribal council it feels like I have no chance, I was thrown off by nicole (Rightfully so) and didn't know how to recover. Ive learned how Egotistical and how much of a bully people see me as. I really dont see a point in winning a game if people think im those things. I really hope kevin gets his second win and joins the ranks of 2 time winners, he really deserves it, hes so kind and has been typing to me while i was crying after that all. To say the least, I dont know what else to say in this game, I had a lot of fun getting to know people. I played hard, but unfortunately I guess I need to do some self work from the sounds of it. Maybe I'm just taking Nicoles speech about me to hard, but i really thought me and her made up. Clearly, theres still some things that need to be discussed between the two of us. I never meant to hurt anyones feelings, put down anyone, or make people feel like they where beneath me, but I guess i did, and I have to own that now. This game really has reminded me of why 1) I am in this community because of the AMAZING PEOPLE ive met and 2) Why i need to take a break from them, because at the end of the day, I clearly have a lot to work on to make sure im not an egotistical bully, for some reason those words stuck with me more than anything else that was said tonight. Thank you monty and gage for the AMAZING season and the good times, sorry if my game was not as good as it could be. I feel like ive crawled my way up from the bottom so many times. And here I am sitting at FTC, feeling on the bottom again. 

[fatrainbowmermaidunicorn]

Lost In Japan (Jimin x You)

A/N: this idea just popped in my head while I am taking a bath, and I rushed through my skincare routine just so I can jot this down 😂 anyway, I am going to combined this request with another. This being part one and the other part two. but it can also be read as a oneshot. I had wanted to do a story based on this song ever since I heard it (Lost In Japan by Shawn Mendes) bcs it just reminds me of the feeling you get at night on your holidays when you are just strolling around after a long day of exploring the city and met someone exciting ❤ and I dont know from what country you are anon, and I am not from Japan either, its just based on this song so you can imagine elsewhere ❤ Sorry if this is not what you have in mind

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"Ahhh finally!" Jimin dropped his carry on on the floor and lie down in the middle of the bed, spreading out as wide as he can after taking off his stuffy jacket and mask. Airport arrivals are fun. Fun seeing their fans coming out all the way just to catch a glimpse of them and to welcomed them to their country. But as much as it is fun, it is also damn tiring. Especially when they are mobbed by crazy fans. Jimin is thankful he and his brothers managed to get out from the commotion as fast as they could and arrived safely at the hotel. And he is more thankful that they  have individual rooms now.

Dont get him wrong. Sharing a room with Taehyung or Jungkook or even one of his hyungs are fun. Theres someone he can talk to and do fun vlive clips with, but sometimes he needs some space without anyone breathing down his neck too. Times like this, where he juat want to rest his tired body.

Japan.

A country they are so familiar with already.

Two days of concert here and three days of free days for him and his brothers to roam about before they fly back to Korea for their other schedules.

Jimin cant wait to shop, sightsee and of course eat. He had learn long ago to treat every tour like a vacation in order to make the whole journey less tiring, more fun and less stressed. Just like what the others told him, it doesnt matter as long as they have fun performing, their fans will surely have fun with them too.

But Jimin can feel that something more exciting is going to happen this time.

He can just feel it.

/////

"Y/N, YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE THIS!"

Y/N calmly look up from the table shes wiping. Shes so used to her bestfriend yapping around like crazy. She used to get excited at first, but now, she learns that its better fir her to actually hear the news first. Mika can get super excited about a rock for all she knows.

"What is it that I wont believe Mika?" Y/N laughs. Thank god the cafe she works in has less customer today.

"BTS is coming! For a two days concert!" Mika shrieked.

"Okay... and?" She give her friend a short glimpse and turn back to her task.

"And?! What do you mean and?!" Mika went around and shakes her shoulders.

"Mika, they come here fir a concert every year! Sometimes even twice a year. Its not really a huge news," Y/N rolls her eyes.

"Oh right, I forgot," she giggles.

"You forgot they have a tour here every year? Every year that you become crazy everytime its announced?" Y/N eyed her friend, tapping her foot.

"No. I forgot about the news that you will not believe. The great news is...." she paused for dramatic effect before jumping and yelling, almost breaking Y/N's eardrum. "I got us two VIP tickets and a special fansign invite for both days! Both! Aaaahhhhhh!"

"Oh, thats great Mika! No wonder you are excited!" Y/N's smile grew. Mika has been trying to get tickets every year but she never made it. Online or physically lining up, she never gets the chance to get one. Y/N wonders how hard she work to get the tickets this time.

"Well, arent you?" Mika looks at her weirdly. "I know you are an ARMY too. And arent you excited? You can actually meet them, and converse with them! What if they fall in love with one of us?!" Mika exclaimed, already excited at the thought.

"Well, I am an ARMY," Y/N laughs at her friends cuteness. "But I only like them as a talented idol Mika. I dont even know what to talk to them about. And falling in love?" She giggles. "That only happens in fan fictions my friend. They will most probably already forget about you once the next fan came in view," she shakes her head and continue to clean the table, making Mika pouts.

"Sometimes I hate how practical you are. Cant you just let me dream a little?" She crosses her arm across her chest. "But still, you are coming with me right? Riggght?"

"Well, if you are willing to take me, then of course Mika," Y/N grins. "Of course I'll go with you. Who knows, maybe one of them will really fall in love with me," she giggles at the ridiculous statement.

Or she thought so.

/////

"Lets go people. We can do this!" Namjoon calls out behind the curtains, a few minutes before they are meeting their lucky fans who won the fansign event. After some peptalk and group hugs they went out and start the event.

The crowd is packed and loud, as usual. Girls screaming out their names and waving, trying to get their attention. Each of them did they usual routine, smiling, asking basic questions, answering the questions given to them, making aegyo, handshakes, posing for photos, wearing cute headbands and all sorts of fan service. Jimin is enjoying his time meeting his fan. He loves the attention they gives him and he appreciate all the support they gave to him all these years.

"Next!" The security calls out so the line will move as the fans switched to the next members. Jimin reaches out for the album and booklet in front of him, still looking down at thr album, flipping to the post-it where he should place his signature. But the post-it came empty, its just there as a mark to where he should place his signature. Iy seems the fan has no questions for him, which is a first. Their fans always have multiple questions for them to answer

"No question?" He looks up and immediately stopped blinking. In front of him stood the most beautiful angel he has ever since. Well, shes an angel to him, at least as everyone else seems to be perfectly normal.

"N-no question to ask?" He stuttered and mentally slapping himself. Shit, what is wrong with me. You are Park Jimin, composed yourself!

"Oh," she laughs, the most beautiful sound Jimin has ever heard. "No. Just an autograph will do,"

"Uh.. o-okay," with shaky hands Jimin put down his signature. God, what is wrong with me. I have met so many girls before and I am never like this. Calm down Park Jimin, composed yourself before she thinks you are weird. Come on, say something!

Jimin look around at the laughing fans by around him, talking to to the other members, talking to Taehyung and Jungkook, who is on his right and left side and he realized how quiet and awkward he is with this fan.

"O-oh right. I am Jimin. Whats your name?" Introducing yourself at your own fansign? Are you stupid Park Jimin?

She giggles.

And Jimin's heart skipped a beat. How unusual.

"I know you are Jimin. How can I come here and not know you," she leans forward to a whispering gesture, making Jimin's heart thumped faster at her close proximity. "ARMYs will kill me if I dont," she giggles more and leans back to her normal position in front of him. "And my name is Y/N,"

Jimin smile. How bold. How interesting. And what a name. Beautiful. Just like her.

"And Y/N.. how come you have no questions to ask? Arent ARMYs always curious?" He taps her post it to show the blank paper and Y/N shakes her head.

"No. Not really," she smiles. "Nothing that I want to know,"

"Just nothing for me or for everyone?" Jimin feels the need to ask. He felt like he needs to know if Y/N is just not interested in him or she really doesnt have a question for everyone.

"Well, its not just you. I dont have a question for everyone," Y/N's smile got bigger. Jimin raised an eyebrow curiously.

"Oh? And why is that?"

"Well, because everything you are allowed to tell me, it will be published in the news, or articles or something anyway. And if I asked you a real question, you wont be allowed to answer truthfully anyway. Isnt that right?" she laughs. "So no. No questions,"

Jimin was stunt. Never has anyone ever throw that cold hard truth to his face. Its true. Whatever they are showing and potraying in public, the character that they show, all of it is something that they want their fans to see. There are still parts of them that their fans doesnt know. A part of them, rhat is the real them that they didnt show the world. Mouth agape, Jimin looks at Y/N's face, not knowing what else to say.

His gut js right. Jimin is right, fron the moment he looks up to her face, he knew theres definitely something special about her.

"Well, whats your real question?" Jimin finally find his voice and the bravery he needed.

"When you are allowed to answer it, then I'll ask about it," she giggles, just in time for the security to shout next, and Y/N waves a hand and move aside before Jimin could say anything else. Y/N move to Taehyung, leaving Jimin speechless, and fascinated.

Y/N... hmmm.. his feelings is right then. Japan is going to be interesting this time around.

/////

Jimin knew he is going to see Y/N again at the concert. Everyone who attends the fanmeet has a VIP ticket, which is a particularly small section that is made special for them right in front of the stage. He is sure if he look hard enough, he will see her. Shes too beautiful, and too special to him now for Jimin not to notice.

And sure enough, the moment their went on stage, Jimin saw her face, smiling brightly with her Army bomb in hand, giggling with her friend. A surge or energy runs through him. Jimin suddenly feels like he needs to do the very best tonight, no, extra best tonight. He needs to show her that he is Jimin, and he is up here, looking at her  and apprently, only at her.

Jimin never kept her eyes off her, which is a little hard to do considering he needs to sing and dance and converse with his fans, well, other fans too. And its a stranger feeling for him, when a pang of jealousy hits him hard when he saw Y/N waving and taking photos of Taehyung, jumping and singing along to the other members' part.

What the hell is wrong with me? Shes a fan! She didnt pay for the tickets only to see you alone Jimin.

Without realizing, Jimin suddenly feek the need to futher make his existabce known. Known to Y/N. And keeping his eyes only on her, he starts to show off his dancing skills, making extra sexy moves and flirty gestures, which of course, make the packed stadium roared with cheers but reveiving weird looks from the other members.

It doesnt matter.

The crowd. The music. The members.

What matters is that if this will make Y/N looks at him, it was all worth it.

At least he hope she understand the sign hes trying to tell her.

/////

"Woah, what is wrong with Chim today?" Mika stares at the satge, mouth dropped opened. "I mean, I know he is sexy and all, but thats like being possesed with a sexy spirit or something," she points to Jimin who was grinding on the stage floor. "I dont remember the cheography being like that,"

Y/N shrugs.

"Maybe its a concert only special performance," Y/N justified.

"How are you so calm? He is even looking at you while doing all that. Oh my god, he really is!" Mika jumped, waving her Army bomb with excitement.

"Not at me Mika. My direction. Our direction. He cant even see the crowd with all those blinding lights. And look around you, theres thousand of people here," she laughs. "You think he wouls pick me out from the crowd?"

"Hey, you never know. You personally met him at the fansign. Maybe he remembers you," Mika giggles at how practical her friend. Girl, dream a little!

"Hello," Y/N rolls her eyes. "Everybody here went to the fansign Mika. This is the VIP section!"

"Oh my god. I forgot! Maybe you are right. But hey, its not wrong to imagine!" Mika laughs, Y/N joining her.

"Stop imagining useless things and just enjoy the rest of the concert!" Y/N yells through the noise, laughing. "Besides, its Park Jimin, being sexy and flirty on stage is his thing. I dont think thats anything extra anyway,"

"Okay, okay, you are right. Lets just enjoy this!" Mika grab her shoulders and starts bouncing, waving her Army bomb around. Y/N joins in, singinf along and recording videons of her and Mika, totally not realizing how hard Jimin is trying to wink her way.

/////

"I did everything I can, and she still dont even acknowledge me!" Jimin huffed.

"Are you serious? Shes a fan and you still cant get her to even look at you? Wow Chim, you really have no jams," Namjoon laughs.

"Hyung, its not funny! What do I do?" Jimin grumbled.

"Okay, okay. Lets think. The whole two days. She didnt look at you? At all?" Namjoon inquired, trying to help the younger man.

"Well, she does look at me..," Jimin ponders.

"Okay. Then whats the problem? You did talk to her at the fansign yesterday right? And today? Did you guys hit it off? Did you two share any interest? Maybe you are just not her type. What did you two talked about? Tell me everything from A to Z," Namjoon pulls a chair and sits in front of him, giving Jimin his full attention.

"T-talk?"

"Yeah. Talk. Like what we are doing right now. Hi I'm Jimin, I like you, can I have your number so I can take you out sometime, that kind of thing," Namjoon eyed him carefully.

"W-well... I didnt really talk to her hyung.." Jimin trailed off.

"What do you mean? You get her name. What else did you ask her? You met her twice at a fan sign Chim," Namjoon eyed him curiously.

"Well, at the first meef, I asked her for her name, so I can sign her album. And she explained to me why she dont asks any questiona, and then I blanked out and before I know it, it was already Taehyung's turn," Jimin pouted. "The time is too short for each person!"

"Well, you never complain before!" Namjoon roll her eyes. "Them what about today?"

"T-today?" Jimin stutter nervously as the memory of today's fansign entered his mind.

He was in no mood at all today After the concert on the first day, Jimin was frustrated. Y/N didnt notice him. After the concert she went back like everyone else. She went out so fast he didnt even get the chance to ask security or his managers to call her out. Jimin knew that he wont evenr see her again. Having that in his mind ruin his whole mood.

He went by fan by fan, signing their album and giving small smiles when required. When asked, he only says hes a bit tired and his fans will express their worry and tell him to get some rest. Never would have thought that he would hear the voice again as a a flatten box of their offical light stick and the photocarda were slide in front of him.

"You already sign all my albums and posters yesterday, so this is all I have left for you to sign," Jimin look up to the smiling face of Y/N and he thought hes dreaming.

"Y/N?"

"Yeah," she smile. "Wow, you remembered me!"

"O-of course I do!" Jimin tries to calm himself. "I didnt think you would come again, and both fansigns? Wow,"

"Well," she giggles. "I guess I am your biggest fan. All of you were great last night,"

"Yeah? But you went off so fast!" Jimin pouts and cursed himself for saying that when Y/N gives him a weird look. Now he sounds like a stalker.

"So fast? How did you know?" Y/N asked him curiously. Did Jimin really saw her in the crowd?

"Uh well.. call it intituition," he laughs awkwardly and Y/N just nodded.

"Well..." Y/N looks around, feeling awkward as she waits for the fan in front of Taehyung to move and lets a breath if relief when she does. "Okay, I'll go now,"

"Wait!" Jimin panics. This might be his last chance to have any sort if way to contact her. "Do-you-think-you-can-give-me-"

"And oh, good luck for tonight," Y/N suddenly say at the same time as his word jumble and patted his hand. The moment her hand touched his, eventhough its just a pat and for a second, Jimin blanked out, all his senses gone, heart pumping so rapidly it almost burst out. Bedore he can calm himself down and find words again, the security already shouted next and Y/N quicy waved and move on to Taehyung.

"Both times? Seriously? You blanked out both times??" Namjoon is shrieking out now. "God, you are hopeless!"

"Y-yeah..." Jimin look at his hyung, scared. "Its not my fault she touched my hand hyung!" Jimin try to defend himself.

"Touch Chim. Not even hold. And you have done this with countless fans! Girl fans!" Namjoon is at the brink of giving up.

"But hyunggg," Jimin wailed. "Thise firls are not Y/N! She's so pretty and smart, and not startruck and everything she said to Tae and Kookie are funny and smart then I'm the one who kinda got starstruck..."

"Oh my god, you are a bigger idiot than I thought," Namjoon hissed and slap Jimin's forehead, making him rubbed it  "Okay, fine. But if you barely even talked to her, why are you saying she didnt acknowledge you? I mean... even if she does, which I think she should with your stupidity, she didnt even have a chance to say it, right?"

"But hyungggg, even if I didnt directly say it, its obvious I am flirting with her. And only her!" Jimin answered as if his effort is the most obvious thing in the world.

"Flirt? How?" Namjoon asked, curious on what Jimin meant by flirting if they never even have a proper conversation.

"Didnt you see my extra sexy moves on stage? My winks, my flying kisses, my hip thrusts, how many times I run my hand through my hair, and seductively too if I might add, during these two concert?" Jimin smile proudly.

"Wait, are you saying your little cabaret show this past two nights is you flirting with her?" Namjoon rubs his chin.

"Duhh, of course hyung. What else? I am not a man slut like Kookie who do it for fun hyung,"

"Idiot!" Namjoon slap his head hard this time.  "That is what you call flirting? We thought you were possesed by some strip club ghost or something!"

"Ow hyungg, what the hell??" Jimin rubbed his forehead.

"How the fuck is Y/N supposed to know you are flirting with her when you do that in front of a packed stadium you dimwit? A stadium full of screaming girls too! And you always do those shit, yeah, its a little extra this time, but she will just think you are doing your typical flirting with the crowd thing," Namjoon hissed

"W-what?" Jimin panics. "Do you really think she thinks like that? That I am justsome big flirt to my fans?"

"Duhhh," Namjoon roll his eyes.

"But its all for her!" Jimin wailed.

"She didnt know that dumbass. You should have shown your interest during the fanmeet. Both freaking times!" Namjoon sighed and stands up.

"Wait, where are you going hyung? We are not done yet!" Jimin stands up and follow his hyung like a puppy.

"I am not entertaining this dumb shit. Im going,"

"But what am I going to do?!" Jimin wailed for help.

"Nothing. The concert is over Chim. Just pray that you will see her again," Namjoon shrugs before he leaves the room. "You have three days before we fly back home. Make it count,"

/////

Their free day was filled with sight seeing, shopping and eating. Jimin had fun, yes, but he cant help but feeling down whenever he thought about his lost chance of getting to know Y/N more. He has never been this interested in a woman before, nor has he even felt this kind of amazing chemistry towards a girl. Y/N is special, Jimin know she is. And although he doesnt know for sure if she really is the one for him, but he is sure that he atleast wants to get to know her better. And he wants to see where they will go from there.

"Cheer up hyung! Its only a girl. You will forget her soon. I am sure of it," Jungkook smile and roughly hug his shoulder, dragging him into the anime store. "Atleast your amazing favorite maknae is still here with you,"

"Yeah. Annoying maknae," he laughs. "I am in no mood to look at animes abd robots Kook, and also in no mood to hear you and Tae arguing about whos the better hero or whatever," he looks around the street. "I am going to head there, the coffee shop. Meet me there okay?"

Jungkook shrugs and pulls Taehyung to the store instead as Jimin make his way to the coffeeshop. Securing his mask and cap, he enters and nothing surprised him more than seeing the perfect girl smiling at a customer behind the cashier counter.

Y/N.

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"Okay.. if thats Y/N.. why are the three of us hiding behind this huge flower pot like some criminal?" Jungkook asks Jimin in confusion. His hyung rans in panics and drags both him and Taehyung to the coffee shop. And with panting breath, he nervously points towards a girl and only one word comes out from his mouth. "Y/N" and they have been hiding behind a huge flower pot in the coffee shop since then.

"Well, because I dont want her to see us. See me. What do I say?" Jimin wioes his sweaty forehead.

"Thats it? Thats the reason you ran all the way, drag me and Tae-hyung here, and hides behind this pot for 40 minutes now?!" Jungkook looks at his hyung, not believing his reason. "Thats it, I'm going in and introducing us and getting you her number!"

"Wait. What?? No!" Jimin drags Jungkook back behind the pot.

"Why? Isbt that what you want hyung? Her number? You have been moping since last night!"

"Y-yeah.. but how can I just ask her. Thats Y/N. Y/N! What if she say no? O-or she laughs at me? Or thinks I'm weird?" Jimin is freaking out and even he hinself doesnt know why he is like this.

"Well, we dont know if we dont try Chim. Let me and Kookie go and ask for you," Taehyung speaks up and stands up, revealing himself. Jimin panics and pulls him back behind the pot.

"What the hell! No! Sit Tae. Let me just think of something okay? I need to impress her somehow. So she would never ever say no," Jimin rubs her chin and the three sits behind the pot for a while longer, all in silence before Jimin suddenly shouted. "Okay, I got it! She will say yes to be my girlfriend after this! I am sure of it!"

/////

"From Park Jimin? The Korean idol Park Jimin?" Y/N eyed the flower delivery man curiously as he smile and nods. "Is this a prank? Tell me, who put you up to this? Its a girl right?"

"Uh no.. its really Park Jimin. He came to the shop. With Kim Taehyung and Jeon Jungkook. I know its them because I am a fan and also," he taps the note on the flower, "Park Jimin put his name there,"

"So right now... you are saying.. that the world famous idol, Jimin, Jungkook and Taehyung, just walk into your store, in broad daylight, and ordered flowers.. for me?" She points to herself.

"Uh.. yeah. Thats about right," the deliveryman nods again and smile. Y/N lets out a loud sarcastic laugh.

"Okay, good one. I am pretty sure this is a prank now," she received the flowers and sniff it. "Atleast I get flowers, prank or not. Thanks,"

The delivery guy shrugs and leaves, but not before looking at Y/N as if shes crazy.

"It must be Mika. Shes the only one who thinks Jimin is looking at me at the concert," Y/N shrugs and continue her work, the flowers forgotten.

Or so she thought.

Throughout the day, many more weird deliveries were made. More flowers, big, expensive ones too, cupcakes, balloons, choclates, chocolates bouquets, and even a puppy, which Y/N immediately asked to be sent back. At this rate she knows it couldnt be Mika. Is it really Jimin?

But why?

How does he knows where she works?

Even if he did finds out, did he really remember her?

And even if he did remember, why is he sending her all this stuff?

Y/N was confused for the whole day, and shes also embarassed when the customers and even her supervisor keeps complimenting how sweet her boyfriend is. Truth is, shes nor even sure if its really Jimin whos sending her all this stuff.

The gifts continue for the next three days, and Y/N just accept and places it all at the store room, even fivinf out the food to her colleagues and loyal customers. After a long hard shift, its finally time to close up. And deciding to leave everything she receives today at the shop, she cleans up and cloaed up the shop. While locking the door suddenly someone tapped her back.

"A delivery for Miss Y/N..."

"Seriously?!" With a frustrated and tired sighed she turns around. "Its almost 12 am at- J-Jimin?"

Y/N couldnt ever imagine thats its really Park Jimin standing in front of her, holding a huge bouquet of flowers. His face is covered with a mask, yes, but theres no doubt that its him.

"Well.. yeah. Are you expecting someone else?" Jimin cocks his head. Even he is nor sure where he gets his sudden confidence.

"Well... no. But I didnt expect it to be you either. Is it safe for you to roam around Japan like this? Are you lost?" Y/N furrowed her brows. How can he be lost? Where is manager?

"No. I am not lost. Unless you count loss of words everytime I see you," he smile.

"Huh?"

"Uh.. no, no, nothing. Uh.. you dont sound excited to be receiving all the gifts I sent you?" Jimin suddenly remembered hows frustrated she sound earlier when she thought he ia the delivery man.

"Well, to be honest. Not really. I mean.. I am not even sure it its really from you. And even though it is, I am still curious as to why? I mean... you dont really know me... and we are not really friends. Right?" Y/N looks at him.

Jimin is speechless. Doesnt girls like that kind of stuff? Especially from someone like him? But as he look at Y/N who is standing in front of him, face full of confusion, he realizes, Y/N is not like normal girls. thats why he felt attracted to her. Look at her right now, standing in front of him bur isnt starstruck at all.

"Uh.. to be honest, I kinda feel a chemistry between us when we first met at the first fansign..." Jimin takes a deep breath. Courage dont leave me now. "And.. I uh.. would like to talk more with you. To get to know you,"

"Okay..m so you decide to stalk me?" Y/n take a step back, a little scared. Jimin raised his hands up defensively.

"No, no! Its not like that. I didnt stalk you to find out where you work. I accidentally found out where you work 3 days ago, so I thought I could send you gifts, as a way to break the ice-"

"Wait, so you had known where I work for three days, and instead of coming in and say hi, like a normal person, you decide to flaunt your money and buy me stuff?" Y/N is trying to understabd what is the man trying to do.

"Well.. uh.. it sounds bad when you put it like that...but-but I thought you knew about my interest in you!" Jimin tries to safe whatever dignity he has left as Y/N eyes him carefully. "I have been flirting with you for the two whole concert days!"

"Flirting? When??" Y/n questioned him. "You barely even talk to me during the fansign Jimin-ssi," Y/N reminds him.

"D-dont you see me malong eye contact with you on stage? All those dance moves? Those extra stuff I did?"

"Huh?" Y/N looks straight at him. "Are you telling me that is you flirting?" Y/N didnt know if she should laugh or be pissed right now. "Thats the way to show me that you want to talk to me?"

"Y-yes,"

"Jimin... If you want to talk to me you can just ask. To be honest, I find you interesting to talk to too," Y/N smile.

"Really?!"

"Yeah... but after this weird gift giving thing... I am not sure..."

"What? No! I am not weird! Uh actually," Jimin panics. Is Y/N really going to just shut him away now? He has to do something. The thing that he planned to do when he came here. "Actually, I'm flying back to Korea tomorrow but before I leave... I just uh... wanted to ask you to be my girlfriend," he quickly pulls out a box with a white gold diamond bracelet inside. "And give you this,"

Y/N was silenced for a moment and Jimin hope that thats a good sign. He knows its rash, but hes leaving to Korea tomorrow and he needs a way to stay in touch with her. To just... make her his.

"Are you seriously kidding me right now?" Was Y/N's answer after the silenced.

"N-no?"

Y/N scoff.

"You never even introduce yourself properly to me. Or get to know me. Or even talk to me for the matter! How do you know you even really like me? If its only a blind atttaction, only because you like how I look, then I dont want any of it! Yes, I am your fan and I kmow mostly everything about you, but I dont want to know you as BTS' Park Jimin, I want to know you as Park Jimin... do you get it? And giving me ridiculous expensive gifts for three days is flirting and a way to talk to me?? And please know that hip thrusting and swiping your hair back on stage doesnt count either. What are you trying to do? Do you think I am that kind of girl Jimin?" Y/N look softly at him.

"I want a guy to ask me out, to ask me if I have plans and take his time to know me. I dont need your money or your fame Jimin. If you really like me, you would know thats the kind of girl I am. I am leaving, I am sorry, I have to declined. Have a safe flight back to Korea," Y/N bows and walks away, leaving Jimin alone.

Jimin was silenced by her unexpected outburst. He really didnt think ahe would say all this, nor did he think about how stupid his plans are. Taehyung and Jungkook has warned him, even suggested to just greet her and ask for her number, but noooo, he has to feel like he needs to impress her with expensive gifts. Now look what happen.Everything she says just make Jimin realized that she is excatly what he wants, who he needs in a woman. In a life partner. He wants to get to know her, all of her, but it seems like hes too late now.

/////

"Hyung? You okay?" Jungkook sat beside him on the bed. Its been a few days after the tour, and Jimin has been sad and locking himself in his rooms ever since.

"Yeah.. I guess?" Jimin answered lifelessly.

"You dont look okay Chim. You look... lost?" Taehyung sat at the other side of him.

"I am lost Tae. I have never been this lost in my entire life. I think I lost myself in Japan, I acted the way I would never have, and because of it, I lost my love,"

"Well.. if you lost something in Japan... I guess you have to go and get it back. Simple Chim," Taehyung grins and pat his back, hoping his best friend will understand what he meant.

/////

What happened last week is still a blur to Y/N. Did Park Jimin really sent her gifts for three days straight? The Park Jimin? Worldwide idol Park Jimin? And did he really showed up to her coffee shop and tell her he lijes ber, and wanted her to be his girlfriend? And did she rejected him, just like that?

Everything is like a dream to her. She is not even sure if it really happened it shes just imagining it all. But the wilted flowers and uneaten chocolate bars proves that all of it is too real.

She cant lie to herself. Her heart did do a little flip at the sight of Jimin that night. Yes, shes practical, but theres still a part of her that wants a fairy tale ending for herself too. She almost say yes, her heart is beating out from her chest. She cant believe its happening, Park Jimin likes her... but then her practical side takes over. Reminding her that they barely knew each other, what if Jimin ends up not liking her? And what she told Jimin is true, she wants someone who will ask her out, who will take his time to learn about her, just as mich as she will learn about him.

Maybe Jimin is only a drean afterall.

As she walks along the sakura covered park, Y/N sighed. Shes at her happy place. Her beautiful home, but she has never felt so lost.

/////

"Thank god I found you here," the voice behind her pants. Y/N immediately turns around only to see Park Jimin panting, holding his knees. Is she hallucinating in broad daylight now?

"Jimin? Is that really you?" She looks at the figure closely. Jimin looks up after catching his breath

"H-hi. I'm Park Jimin, and I came all the way from Korea just to find you, and someone told me that you are at a sakira park, but theres a lot of sakura park during during spring in Japan and I went to like 30 of them and then I got lost all over Japan, but I dont care, because I can handle being lost in Japan, but I cant handle losing myself again and worse, losing a chance to know you," he smile at her stunt reaction. "Y/N.. I got lost all over Japan, just so I can ask you..," Jimin wiped his sweaty hands on his jeans as Y/N smile at his stuttering form.

"Yes, Park Jimin?" Y/N flashed him a wide smile, easing his mind and making all his doubts dissappear, a surge of confidence suddenly surfacing in him.

"Do you... do you perhaps have any plans tonight? Because I want to take you out. I want to spend the whole night getting to know you, all about you," He took a step forward and bravely hold her waist, grinning widely.

"And why would you want to do that when you just met me three times Park Jimin?" Y/N hide her smile any longer.

"Because I.. well, because honestly Y/N..." he tuxks a stray hair behind her ears and look straight into her eyes, "I cant get you out of my mind,"

[jayascorner]

life isn’t that bad

~part 1

josh dun x reader

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(past flashback thing i guess..)

i leaned on the small, brown piano as i listened to my boyfriend play beautiful sounding chords on it. i watched his fingers glide across the keys, something about his fingers playing made me feel happy. then he starts singing.

“you know...

i’ve always been collected, calm, and chill.

and you know...

i never look for conflict for the thrill.

but if i’m feelin’...

someone steppin’ towards you, can’t describe just what i’m feelin’..

for you.” he stopped.

“that’s all i have so far.” he smiled up at me.

i always loved his voice and how he had a natural talent. but this song, it’s like he wrote it for someone. i mean... i am his girlfriend.

“that was beautiful!” i beamed.

he smiled shyly. “thanks. i uh.. i wrote it for you.”

“that’s the cutest song i’ve ever heard.”

he smiled and stood up. he came towards me to lean in for a kiss.

that was a good day. but sadly, i never heard the rest of the song.

••••••••end of flashback••••••••

(6 years later)

obviously this is not like how most stories go. no, tyler and i never ended up happily ever after. no, we didn’t end up getting married and having a totally problem less life. life definitely isn’t perfect. and things happen, like my first relationship not lasting forever. crAzY rigHT?! wrong.

it’s really hard to get over someone that seems like ‘the one’ to you. when it turns out wrong, it’s like your whole world flips up-side-down. tyler did seem like he was the one, but i guess he wasn’t. in fact, i bet he’s already married now, he is really good looking.

i did end up getting over the fact that i broke up with a perfect guy eventually. but he is still fresh in my mind. i know, we were young. i was only seventeen. of course it didn’t work out. it took me a long time to get over it, though. even though that was six years ago, i still remember it fully as if it just happened. weird, huh?

yes, i’m still single, and haven’t found anyone, really. it’s kinda sad. well, actually

i’ve found someone. his name is josh.

it wasn’t until later that night, or should i say morning, i got a call from josh.

i picked up my phone to answer the call. it was strange he was calling me at 12 in the morning, so something must’ve been up.

“hey jish. why are you up so late?” i asked through the line.

“sorry y/n. i just wanted you to know that my band made a new album.”

oh yeah! he’s in a band! twenty one pilots! i forgot!

i’ve listened to stressed out, but not anything else really. only because it’s been on the radio a couple times. but the lead singer’s voice sounds very familiar.

“oh. ok... what’s it called?”

“oh it’s called trench.” he said.

“did y’all just now release it?” i asked.

“yup. i bet our fans are going ballistic. we haven’t released an album for a long while, ” he said, chuckling. i laughed “they probably are.” “well, i’m telling everybody in my contacts and i guess you were the first person i thought of.”

i could feel that he was smiling through the other line. “really?!” i asked, all the sudden feeling really happy.

“yeah...anyways, sorry for bothering you.” he apologized.

“no no you weren’t bothering me. i’m wide awake.”

“oh good...are you bored?”

well..i mean...kinda. ok yeah. i’m bored now that i think of it.

“yeah i am bored, actually. i have nothing to do.” i said.

“ok do you want to come stay with me? i’ll just be contacting all my friends about the album.”

how could i say no? he’s offering me an opportunity not to be bored out of my mind! yay!

“yes. anything to make me not bored. uh...you have food right?” i asked, suddenly feeling hunger in my stomach.

“yeah? why?” he asked, confused.

“i don’t know...i’m hungry for some reason.”

“you like pickles?”

“I LOVE PICKLES DO YOU HAVE THEM?!” i asked, pure joy coming out of my voice.

“yeah actually, i have a huge jar of them. i got it from a friend. i’m pretty sure it was a joke, but you can have some.”

“OH MY GOSH REALLY?? THAT IS ACTUALLY A LIFE SAVER. PICKLES ARE LITERALLY MY HOLY GRAIL!”

apparently that was funny to josh because he started cracking up. but really, i was being serious.

“okay then— you-you can have the pick-pickles” he said in between laughs.

“YESS THANK YOU!! okay so i’ll come over right now. we can listen to the album.”

“okay sounds great.”

“‘kay, bye jishwa.”

“bye (y/n/n).”

i ended the call. i’ve always like the nickname he had for me. like, it’s unique. only he calls me that. if someone else calls me that in front of josh, he’ll be like ‘nope. get your own nickname for her’ or something like that. is pretty amusing. he’s also protective over me, and i really appreciate that.

“LET’S GO WOOOO!! I DON’T EVEN CARE THAT IT’S IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT!! WOOOOO!!!” i shouted to myself as i grabbed my keys. i tossed them and caught them like a cool person and walked out the door.

“wait.....” i realized i literally had a tank top and shorts on. AND NO SHOES. “i do not look presentable, do i?” i said to myself.

later when i put better clothes on, like a t-shirt and leggings, i slipped on some tennis shoes before finally walking out the door with my keys.

~lil time skip~

*knock knock knock*

i waited for the door to open.

the door opened with josh in a t-shirt and pants. somehow, the man still seemed to attract me.

“hey! that was fast.” josh said, a big smile spread across his face.

“you know me.” i said, josh making a way for me to come in. i spread my arms out so i could hug him. i don’t know...i just really felt like getting a hug from josh. he wrapped his arms around my torso. i rested my head on his shoulder. “how was your day?” he asked. “good so far, it just started.” i smiled.

“oh that’s right. well how was your day yesterday?” he pulled away.

“it was alright i guess. nothing really happened much, but i can tell you that today will be great.” i said, while making my way to a nearby couch. y’all sat down together on the end.

“i know my day will be awesome . it starts with you.”

“thanks. anyways, enough with the cheesies now i want to hear the album.”

“okay. now you can do whatever you want while i contact people.” he said. i nodded in response.

then i remembered that he had a whole jar of pickles, and then suddenly got really hungry. but little did i know, there weren’t pickles so pleasing to my eye. meaning, there was only one.

“oh yeah...so you have pickles?” i ask, a smile creeping on my face.

“oh uh...about that...i got a little hungry.”

he says, looking down.

“YOU ATE MY PICKLES?!!” i shouted standing up. i marched to the fridge.

“well technically they’re not your pickles. they’re mine. i was gonna let you have them.”

“why did you eat them then?!”

“i didn’t eat all of them. and besides, i was hungry.”

i managed to find a jar of pickles, or should i say jar of pickle. i looked up and gave him a death stare. “how much were there originally?”

“um...i forget.” he said, but i could feel he was lying.

“oh really?”

he sighed. “no.”

“that’s what i thought. now how many were there?”

“...” he said. he SAID. dOT DOT DOT.

“wow you just said ‘dot dot dot’. but seriously how much. i won’t be mad.”

“...fine. about six.”

“YOU ATE FIVE?! I THOUGHT YOU DIDNT LIKE PICKLES!” i shouted. i wasn’t mad, i was just shocked.

“there was nothing else to eat.”

“why? i thought you have a lot of food.”

“i’m....on a.....diet?” he said, more a question.

“yeah. a pickle diet. not to mention, i saw you eating ice cream two days ago.” i stated.

“that’s because...“ he paused to think of some made up excuse. “i just started my diet today!” he triumphantly said, probably happy that he found an excuse that i would possibly buy. wrong. i didn’t buy it.

“whatever you say josh. anyways, it’s fine i’ll just have this pickle. i need to go on a diet, too.”

“i’m sorry for eating your pickles y/n.” he said, shamefully.

“it’s fine josh. don’t sweat it. i totally understand though, pickles are amazing.”

“they’re okay i guess. i mean, i have similar foods that you might like.”

i stop mid-bite in the pickle.

“...”

“like what?” i asked, out of curiosity.

“um..let’s see.” he looks in the fridge. “i have cucumbers.” he looked back at me. “if you like those.”

“do you have ranch?” i asked, because like cucumbers, but they’re even better with ranch in my opinion.

“uhm, what kind of ranch?”he asked.

what kind of ranch?? what is he talking about. uhh yeah i’ll have some chocolate ranch. thanks.

“what do you mean?” i asked, because i’ve only heard of regular ranch.

“like flavors. i have chipotle, coleslaw, buffalo, and jalapeño ranch.”

oh.

ohhh.

i’m so dumb.

now i know what he’s talking about.

“can you put samples in bowls so i can taste test them? ‘cause i don’t know what they taste like.” i ask, walking in the kitchen where he was.

“yeah.” he said.

with that he got three small bowls out and put each type of ranch in it. “this one’s homemade.” he pointed to the jalapeño ranch.

“so it must be good.” i said with a smile.

“i don’t know, do you like spicy?” he asked. i shrugged “depends on how spicy it is.” i dipped a cucumber in it and took a bite. i stopped and my eyes widened. i looked at josh like ‘seriously dude? you MADE this?’

he quickly noticed and chuckled. “is it good?” he asked.

“holy crap dude. why haven’t i tried this ranch before? this is amazing!”

josh smiled at me. “so, you want that one?” he pointed to the dip you were using.

i nodded, dipping more cucumbers in it, as if i couldn’t get enough of it.

“okay.” he got some more of the ranch into a bowl that had enough for me to eat.

now lemme say something, josh is really nice. i don’t know if he’s nice like this to everyone, or if he has- well, um...feelings for me. which i don’t think so. and i don’t know how to feel about him, whether he’s a friend, or more. i would only like him if he liked me back, y’know, that sort of thing. of course he’s attractive to me, but i need to wait to see if he would possibly feel the same. but there’s just one thing, i don’t want to ask him in person or anything. so yeah, there’s that. phew! i got it out of me.

after a while of silence, nothing but me crunching on my cucumbers, i hear this voice in a sing-song way say something that vaguely sounded like ‘cover me’.

and then this really awesome bass line kicks in, followed with a drum beat.

i start bopping as i feel the music. josh looks over at me, and smiles at my sudden liking for this song. “this is jumpsuit. the first song on the album.”

“it’s catchy.” i said, a grin finding its way to my face.

“oh, just wait until the words are sung.” he said.

and that’s when i heard the first line. yes the ‘i can’t believe how much i hate.’ and for some reason, the voice is strongly familiar...

“why do i know that voice?” i mutter to myself, but josh seemed to hear.

“um, stressed out was on the radio a lot. you might recognize the voice from that.” josh says, confused.

“yeah i’ve heard that before, but that sounded familiar, too.” i said. i totally knew the person, he was just on the tip of my tongue. “w-what’s his name?” i asked, my nerves picking up as if i had known this guy before.

“his name’s tyler.”

hey guys, so apparently this was too long so i had to cut it in two parts. i hope you liked this first part :))

i will be updating the second part shortly, if you’re wondering :)

—yaya

[insaincat]

Bluer than the ocean. Pt 1

Sidlink. 

Siren Au. World where the Champions lived. Some Gore. Murder Mystery. Romance. Mythology. Link is a hoarder. Sidon isn't the biggest thing out there, or the scariest. Don't know if I’ll finished this. Wrote this randomly with no idea where it was going them BAM, plot happened and I was like ‘shit this was supposed to be a fluff without plot’. Sidon is a love struck puppy. This all happens with in the span of a month.

Sidon is sent to Lurelin village to help eradicate a water monster that the villagers can't quite catch. Except it isn't a water monster doing the killings. In fact, said water monster is quite innocent. But now Sidon has to find out who or what is killing the men in the village. 

The Village Chief then introduces him to a quite small Hylian, who seems to hold just as many mysteries as the ocean. He wants to help too, but he kinda scares Sidon. And yet there's just something about him that intrances him. Maybe it's his soft song like voice? Maybe it's his sun kissed skin speckled with dark freckles? Maybe it’s those gem blue eyes that glow in the sun? Or that smile that made his insides flip in unison? His laugh, oh his laugh. Sidon could listen to that for hours, and it would never fail to turn his brain into mush and have his heart sing...

 Oh Hylia. 

Bluer than the ocean around them, the gems seemed to twinkle. If only they were real gems, Sidon would have taken them home and gifted them to his sister. But the gems had an owner, so he could not take. Instead, he watched, frozen in place, his heart mesmerized by the gems that twinkled in the little sunlight around them. His mind, however, scream danger at the being before him. 

He didn't know what he was. It was too shrouded in darkness to tell. All Sidon could see was those gem-like-eyes that it had, but he did not fail to catch the glittering of pearl white teeth.  It sat under a rock at the seabed’s floor, almost as if it had buried itself there, and by the low growl coming from it, it didn't want him coming any closer. 

This likely was its home, its territory, and Sidon had been intruding. 

Sidon wasn't used to this salt water indruding in his gills as he struggled to breath through his sudden wave of fear, though he took it much better than some of the zora that accompanied him. Might be due to his sub-type.

He and very small army had traveled from Zora’s Domain to Lurelin Village after a member of the Village came hands and knees, begging for the zora’s aid. Sidon’s father had thought it would be a great opportunity for him to see the world and to practice military command. The chief of Lurelin Village had asked them to discover, and hopefully eradicate, whatever was lurking in Aris’s waters. 

It originally had been full of monsters, for which they had been gathering a small troup for, but then something moved in and the monsters disappeared. However, instead of being relieved, they quickly found out that something, likely bigger, just ate them. 

A few men from the village had gone missing, there had been several mentions of some giant fish being spotted in the water, even near the village, and everyone could hear singing at night. While the tune would lull children to sleep and relive Women of their stresses, the men seemed to be entranced by it. Sidon had experienced this himself one night when stayed in the village.

It was beautiful. Something so sweet yet sorrowful swept the air that night. It had been sung in an unknown language, but was slow so maybe he just couldn't tell by the way the vowels were drown out.  It was masculine, he could tell that much, but there were parts of it where the voice sprang to a high note, one that seemed impossible for any sort of male creature to do. 

The voice so velvety seemed to soothe every part of his body, as his mind seemed to distance itself from reality. 

When he came to, he was lying face up on Aris Beach. He didn't know how he got there but it had been morning already. And when he got to the village, they had found a dead body, shredded and torn apart, face completely gone. The body was unrecognizable, but from the point that there was another man missing, this was likely him. Sidon had thanked Hylia that day for not being this man when he was put under that trance. 

But now he was. He was just floating there like a sitting duck, his brain not even remembering the spear in his hand. It stayed there too, hidden in the darkness of the depths. It looked like it considered him enough of a threat to not dare to move just as he did. But then there was movement. 

It wasn't his, or the creature before him. It was off in the distance, towards the beach. It caught both of their attentions, enough to have them tear their eyes off each other. A boat. It was a boat coming closer. The creature sunk further into it’s rock cave and Sidon lowered himself the the sea floor. The boat obviously spooked the creature. But why would it? If it had the ability to take out men and monsters, why did it see the boat as a threat? 

As the shadow of the boat loomed closer, Sidon tried his best to keep in the shadows. And the closer it got, the colder the water seemed. It stopped a few feet away and just sat there for a moment. Then, something large fell into the water and the boat started back towards the beach. 

The creature returned, but instead of seeing those blue gems, Sidon saw pitch black that reflected the sun in an ery way. Every part of Sidon screamed to swim, swim as fast as he could, no, faster than he could, away from that monster. But Sidon kept control of himself. Besides, the creature was no longer looking at him. It was looking at the floating thing in the water. 

Whatever it was, the creature seemed infuriated by it. It shook it’s head a few times, as if it was trying to override the sent of something. Then, Sidon smelled it too just as he heard the words echo in his head. ‘Blood’. It was time to go, and this time, Sidon went with his instinct to swim as fast as his body could possibly take. 

Right before he did, he caught a glimpse of an unhinged jaw and oh so many teeth. 

Sidon had swam right back to the beach and was near wheezing when he arrived. All of the zora had poked their out of the water, a few coming to check on him. 

“Get everyone out of the water, now.” He rasped, as he tried to catch his breath. The guard at his side stood and the words of their Prince, and everyone did as they were told. Few questions were asked as they all headed back to the village, and Sidon was thankful for that. He needed to get his thoughts in order. 

It was near sundown when Bazz, the guard captain, approached him. His father had instructed him to go to keep an eye on Sidon’s actions and advise him when necessary. 

“My Prince.” 

“Hello Bazz.” Sidon turned from the ocean to face the captain. 

“Might I ask what you saw? You seemed fairly... upset.” Bazz seemed to choose his words carefully, as most should around royalty. But Sidon wasn't going to sugar coat what he saw. 

“Terrified is more like it.” He gave a smile to his older friend. “But yes. I can hardly blame you for being concerned.” 

“Its my job after all. Your sister would have my head if not.” Sidon laughed at his dry humor. “Care to tell an old friend?”

“Yes. Well... I admit that i'm not sure myself.” He faced the ocean again, memories of what happened earlier that day surfaced like a new scar. The terror he felt was real, and it made him shiver. “It was odd. I cant really... understand it.”

Bazz sat next to him, showing that he’s lending an ear as a friend rather than a captain. 

“It was...” he breathed a moment. “It was beautiful, at first.”

“Oh god. Please don't tell me about your sex life, my prince.” Bazz smirked. 

“Oh no. Dear Hylia, no. Especially with...” The thought of an unhinged jaw made him shiver again. “...That. I mean, its eyes. They were beautiful. I originally thought that they were a pair of gems just sitting at the ocean floor but....” 

“Goddesses! You mistook eyes for gems? My Prince! I must inform Muzu about this. He’ll make you re-read the book about minerals!” Bazz gave a snort. 

“Please, anything that~!” Sidon leaned to the side and drape an arm over his crown and let out a dramatic sigh. “Why do you take so much pleasure from my pain?”

“Because its something to gosip over. Now, please. Continue about how you almost plucked a poor creature’s eyes out.” 

“I’ll have you note, I very much didn't.” He straightened. “But yes. As I got closer, i noticed it was clearly not what I thought, for, believe it or not, had very large teeth. And it was growling? I don't understand how it could, as many animals cant, but it was.” Bazz nodded for him to continue. “I... I was terrified. I couldn't even see all of it, and I knew that I didn't have much of a chance at winning hand to hand.” He looked to the sand between his toes. “I had a feeling even Mipha and father wouldn't be much a match for it alone.” 

“How? Your Sister is one of the best warriors in the domain, not to mention the King.” 

“I don't know. But I knew that this creature was something that would terrify even a lynal.” He rubbed a hand over his face. Now that the adrenaline had worn off, he felt exhausted. “It didnt attack me. It seemed to be just as alert as I was though, it kept its distance.” 

“Maybe it saw this giant red thing made of pure muscle while holding a poky shiny stick a thing not to be messed with.” 

“Well, when you put it like that, I even I would be terrified of me!”  Bazz grineed when Sidon lightly jabbed his side with his elbow. “But it really didnt feel that way on my side. So we were just staring at each other, and then a curious thing happened.” 

“Things got weird?”

“Very. A boat from the village approached us. It hid, and, well, so did I. And before it left, it dropped something heavy into the water.” His fists clenched. He had been lucky to swim away when he did. If he had stayed a second longer, he likely would have been torn apart by the creature. Or worse. He could have gone into a blood frenzy. “It recked of blood.” 

The air was stiff and silent, unspoken words easily translated in Bazz’s mind. 

“Bazz.” The black zora looked to him. “I think... I think there’s a killer in this village. It clearly isn't that creature. It seemed very territorial, but it didn't seem to wish for unnecessary death.”

“Your highness, you’r likely right about a killer being here, but I cant say about the creature not being aggressive and helping lure these villagers to the killer. We should eradicate the creature as a unit and return home. That is what I think.” Bazz stood from his spot, dusting off his behind and legs of sand and Sidon pursed his lips. He had a feeling that the creature was just an innocent bystander like everyone ells. 

“We were asked to kill the creature hunting their people.” 

“We were asked to kill the creature hunting their shores.” 

“Then we find out what is really hunting it, because when I found it, it was much too far from the shores to be considered a threat.” And Sidon stood. 

“What?” 

“I found it by a cave far up north. I had originally gone there to find a gift for Mipha and my father, but I found it instead. There was plenty of food there, it has no reason to travel this far out. And I will admit that I should have brought a guard, yes, that was stupid of me. But I stand by in believing it is not the one at fault.” 

Bazz vissibly clenched his jaw, trying to refrain from scolding this child before him and sighed to relive some of the stress. “What of the song we heard?”

“Likely just an echo. The place I found it was close to the mountains and had a few trenches and cliffs.”

“What do you suggest we do, Me Prince? Need I remind you we were given only a month to do this.” And now Sidon was talking to his guard captain, rather than his friend. 

“First we have one of our medics look at the body we’ve found so far. See if they can find any hints that the man was killed in an unnatural way.” Bazz nodded. “Have some of the guards comb the beaches for blood or weapons. We should also have three or four of our people integrate with the locals, see if they can find anything out through there, rumours or otherwise.” He paused and looked to Bazz, who was expecting him to add more. 

“Oh, and, increase the amount of guards at night, females only. Who ever is doing this is using the lull to it’s advantage.” 

“We’ll have another guard accompany you to places outside the village.” Bazz added, and as much as Sidon wanted to complain, he was the Prince and this was just protocall. 

“Good. Now I think I’ll be retiring for the night.” 

...

The sun had already set and people had started to light their torches for the upcoming darkness. Sidon was sitting on the floor, writing to his sister at his desk, when came a knock. 

“Sire, the chief would like a word with you.” 

“Let him enter.” 

The door opened and in slowly walked the village chief, Rozel. He was thin and old, his hair having turned silver and his eyebrows seemed to nearly cover up his eyes. His beard and mustache was more welkept than his hair whiched seemed to seemed to want to defy gravity at all costs. But he wasn't the only one who walked in. 

Blue eyes like gems locked onto his, and for a moment, his brain stopped working and his body stiffened as his instincts tried to figure out if he was friend or foe. He felt afraid, but not terrified. Though eyes the same, this was a hylian, but shorter than any he’s seen before. 

“Good evening, Prince Sidon.” Chief Rozel smiled. “Looks like you noticed my little suprise.” 

“Surprise??” Sidon blinked a few times before looking to Rozel. 

Rozel nodded with a hum and presented the young man next to him. “This is Link. I had thought you would need some help, so I sent word to the young Master.” 

“Master?” Sidon’s eyes looked over Link. He was shorter than the average hylian, bit baby faced, but from the sharpness of his eyes, he was fully grown. Blond hair only seemed to be partly bundled together in the back as over half of it framed his face and draped around his neck. Full lips and a well defined brow, and as if to wrap his charming looks in a bow, he had blue piercings in each ear. He was dressed loosely, but enough covered him to wonder if what he was seeing was baby fat or toned muscles. 

“Yes. Master. He had worked as Queen Zelda’s knight at one point, but I believe you are retired now.” Rozel looked to Link who only nodded in confirmation. 

“Really? So young?” 

“Yes, I do believe it only happened due to an emergency, but what do I know.” the elder stroked his beard. “He is very skilled in combat and very witty. I think he’ll prove useful to aiding you.” 

“Ah. Thank you for the offer but-” Suddenly, that terror that made his senses tell him to turn and run returned, just as it did in the water this morning. He looked to Link who looked as if... It was if he was looking down at Sidon. As if Sidon wasn't twice his height, even sitting down. And those Gem like eyes felt cold, unlike earlier. It seems... as if Link doesn't want Sidon to send him away. Like he knows what's happening and he won't take no for an answer. 

Link was threatening him, and every part of him said to obey. 

He coughed to cover up the sudden pause and restated himself. “But dont know if there is more you can do. I will, however, be happy to accept your offer.” The glar softened and Sidon no longer felt that he was about to face something fierce. 

The elder just laughed, as if he knew what Link was doing, “Go easy on him Link.” He gave the hylian a pat on the back and Link smiled. Wow. When he wasn't busy threatening to take someone’s life quietly, he was really handsome.

“Now. There is another reason I came by.” Rozel said. “I heard  a rumor that you went up north and saw something.” 

Sidon nearly jumped up. “Really?! How? I thought I told Bazz to keep quiet about our talk.” 

Rozel just waved him off. “Children see things they shouldn't and tell their mothers. And women often like to gosip around each other.” 

Sidon sighed. “Yes. Its true.”

“Please, do tell this old man.” He leaned closer, as if he was about to hear gosip himself. Link just rolled his eyes and shook his head. 

“I doubt you’ll believe me. I hardly believe me.” 

“Try me.”

“Well...” Sidon began and Link leaned on the wall, not looking very interested in his story. “I saw this creature up north, near a cave. It didn't seem aggressive, but territorial. Quite sharp teeth.” The elder hummed. “But it did have these eyes... I admittedly mistook for gems, and while I was a bit... startled by what I found, it’s eyes were stunningly beautiful.” 

Link made a sound, maybe it was a squeak, as he suddenly lost footing under him (somehow) and nearly fell, only catching himself on the wall at the last second. He tried to play it cool by straightening himself and leaning back on the wall with a stoic face. But Sidon did notice a faint blush on his face and ears, which were pointed down in embarrassment. 

The elder just laughed again. “Sounds like you saw the God of the Sea.” 

“Pardon?”

“God of the Sea. We don't really have a name for him, but he’s been around as long as the ocean itself. He’s to take on many forms, but no one has really seen his true without being completely covered in darkness. All we know as that his eyes are like gems, and he protects the sea and those that dwell in it.” 

“Really?” Different cultures had always been fascinating, but experiencing them was something else. 

“Yes, Really. He’s known to be territorial, however. When I was a young lad, our village would go to the cliffs and send him gifts. My sister once gave him a flower crown, and unlike everyone ell’s, he took it right away. Saw a clawed hand snatch it and drag it down while my gift waited a day or two before it was accepted.” he chuckled at the fond memory and Link and Sidon couldn't help but smile as well. “She never let me live it down. Always said the god liked her more than me.” 

Sidon’s smile faded. “Do you think it’s possible that the Sea god is the one responsible for what is happening?” 

Rozel’s eyebrows shot up, and Sidon saw his eyes for the first time in his life. Dull brown, but still there. “Dear goddesses, no. He’s much to kind for that. Not even if he was angry. He’d just eat all the fish. He’s sassy, but he’s not evil.”

Link gave a tisk and rolled his head to the side in an over dramatic way, as if he’d been the one who was just spoken bad about. 

Rozel eyes him and muttered “Dramatic too.”

“Thank you for this information. I’ll be glad to chalk the Sea God as impossible suspect.” 

Rozel nodded. “Its time we take our leave, then. Good night, Prince Sidon.” He turned towards the door and Link pushed himself off the wall to help the elder leave. 

But before he closed the door behind him, he spoke in barely a whisper, eyes brighter than the moon, “Yes. Good night, young Prince.”

And Sidon was alone. 

[chanyeol-and-you-fantasies]

Lost Time - by Solifiedjaporeanist21 (Admin SCYO)

Rating: Explicit

Member: Chanyeol (Exo)

Pairing: Chanyeol x Reader (You), Original Character x Kim Jongin (Kai)

Words: 1,593

Warnings: Smut, Friends to lovers, Multiple Sex Positions, Implied Table Sex, I guess this would be like a foursome, I don’t even know.

Summery: Just four horny drunks seeking satisfaction. Preferably its just a blind date that gone so wrong in all the right ways.

…

You swallowed deeply, your heart beating erratically in your chest as you sit atop the man you’ve ultimately loved for years. The thought of how you got here even more so exhilarating.

“Ahhh….” Your eyes instantly follow the noises, the two beside you already going at it, their fingers tugging and pulling at each other’s clothing, desperate. The urge to get free.

This was your friends idea, which honestly if you had said no you wouldnt be in this mess. You wouldn’t be atop of Chanyeol either. Clearly the latter was very much welcomed.

Frankly all you had asked for was a night out with your best friend, but instead you got suckered into a blind date. Yet it wasn’t a blind date at all, it just happened to be with your secret crush, who also happened to be her brother.

A few drinks somewhere led to one thing then another and before you knew it the four of you had gotten a little too drunk and found yourselves craving sex. More so your friend than you however. You didn’t deny it not for you agree so Chanyeol just helped himself. Of course it wasnt like you minded.

Now here you lay practically vulnerable as you let Chanyeol have his way with you. You suppose it was to be considered a one night stand afterwards, a drunken mistake that will undoubtedly be regretted later….but you didn’t think that at all. You wanted this, even if Chanyeol just thought of it as meaningless sex. One that will be forgotten by the morning.

You get thrown back into reality as Chanyeol kisses down your neck, his hands sprinting up your clothed sides, his touch surprisingly teasing. “C'mon (Y/N), don’t make my brother do all the work.” You tense at your best friends words, her voice strained and hoarse from her moans. Chanyeol stops what he was doing, throwing a dirty look at her. “Sis, worry about your own situation not ours.” She huffs going back to feverly kissing her boyfriend, Jongin.

“I won’t rush you (Y/N),” He murmurs up at you and you blink his words so sincere it makes your heart all a flutter, your cheeks warm from a incoming blush. Chanyeol cups your face, softly pulling you to his inviting soft lips. You had gasped, eyes falling shut as he eagerly pleases your feavered mind.

You melt helplessly into his affection, moaning as he tenderly pulls at your lips, sliding his tongue in all the right places against your mouth. Even restricting you of any words when he had pulled back to allow you some gesture of air. “Holy shit,” you mumbled, Chanyeol chuckling, buring his face in the softness of your neck once more. “You’re so adorable, princess.”

You shiver when he runs his tongue up the valley of your throat, kissing each area he seemed worthy. Your fingers dig into his broad shoulders, you pussy drenched from his every touch. “I though you were going to take your time?” You find yourself asking. He breaths in your sweet scent, his voice a low purr. “You sure don’t seem to mind.” You moaned, god it was true, you didn’t. 

The sounds of sex next to you only make you hornier, the harsh cries of pleasure, the rough breathing, the of the wet obscene sounds of one another driving you mad with lust. It was like you was watching a porno.

Jongin fucks your friend mercifully, it’s kind compaired to how it looked. His roughness made her scream, rocked the entire couch from their fast heavy weight. Oddly enough it just turned you on further, your own pussy begging to be owned by Chanyeol’s cock.

Chanyeol too must have had the same thoughts as he immediately moves, laying your back on the arm rest. He shamelessly smirks, reaching for your panties underneath your skirt. 

Without reluctance he removes them, rubbing your wet pussy with his skilled fingers. You whined, tossing your head back, his name about to slip off the tip of your tongue if you weren’t careful. Of all times you didnt want to risk jeopardizing the situation with your stubborn feelings.

Chanyeol proceeds in freeing himself of his restraints, replacing his fingers with his cock, rubbing his length to you slicken core. Eagerly he moves closer behind you, looking deep into your eyes as he slides himself into your welcoming tight cunt. Lost in each other’s gaze, Chanyeol makes sure to catch your every facial expression, the smile that grows upon your lips his most favorite.

Chanyeol starts slow, deeply buried, the low exotic moans that leave your lips keeping him going. “God (Y/N),” he groans, eyes closed in the euphoric pleasure that shrouded his every sense. You smiled, cupping his cheek, kissing him once more, the pace quickening the longer the kiss lasted.

Before long the couch rocked vigorously, the cries of both Chanyeol and Jongin’s name echoing the small apartment. Your friends voice louder than your own. Of course Jongin was also fucking her like there was no tomorrow while Chanyeol went shockingly at a gentle but fast pace. It was like he was savoring every passing second inside you.

Like he was actually longing for this.

You shake your head internally, now your just wishful thinking.

Chanyeol eventually moves again, guiding you on your hands and knees, rubbing his dick against your clit before entering. You howled his name, his cock going in far deeper than you thought your pussy could handle. He digs his nails into your hips, groaning huskily as he now fucks you hard and fast.

He pulls you back up against his chest, his hand coming up around your neck. With his face in your neck he moans and groans your name, breathing heavily as he drowns in the fact of how wet you’re becoming from just the simple action of slight breathplay.

“Fuck,” You hear him curse, his breath behind your ear sending you over the edge instantly.

And the closer you neared the louder you got, which also greatlt resulted in the faster Chanyeol fucked you. Your friend was no better as she literally screamed her head off in ecstasy.

Chanyeol reaches for you, flipping you on your back, plunging his cock back into you. You circled your arms around his neck, both meeting in the middle when your lips locked. The moans that emerge are nothing but pure satisfaction as you both near your ends. Chanyeol makes sure you get yours as he reaches down, between you, rubbing your clit.

With each stroke Chanyeol had you farther and farther gone, the fits of overwhelming pleasure blooming from within, cracking the surface before they finally break free. And whence they had you cried Chanyeol’s name, loudly enough you swore your voice would be sore by tomorrow. Said person merely gasps, the beautiful look that shadowed his face making your orgasm so much more flavorful.

Suddenly Chanyeol was pulling out, cumming all over your stomach. His heavy voice boomed in the small living room, his ragged breath greatly uneven as he rides out his own orgasm. Spent and satisfied he sighed, slumping down onto the floor beside you.

The silent was oddly soothing, just the steadying of everyone’s breathing was making you drowsy. Though it hadn’t lasted.

“Huh, that actually wasnt as bad as I thought. I gotta say though, I didn’t think you’d actually do it, (Y/N)” You lean you head up, glaring at your friend. Like she didn’t know how you felt. “You too little brother, you finally got her and here you thought it’ll be impossible.”

Both you and Chanyeol look at her then at each other. “Wait what does she mean?” You sit up, tossing your attention to Chanyeol.

“Yeah, well you see…” He chuckled nervously. It was his sister that finished for him. “My brother’s completely in love with you (Y/N), okay, I knew how you both felt so I hooked you up, otherwise if I hadn’t you’d both be yearning for each other for the rest of your lives.” She pauses, adding. “Good riddance too I’m sick of hearing him masturbating every night to you.”

She stands “C'mon Jongin let’s go fuck on the kitchen floor.” He nods, both leaving the room.

Alone now, Chanyeol too stands, tucking his softening dick back into his jeans. He removes his shirt, using it to clean you off. Only when he was done does he look up at you. “(Y/N)…I” He starts. You smiled, your lips cutting him off.

“Let’s not tell our sappy stories just yet.” You pull back running your fingers through his hair, pressing your forehead to his. “

He was at a loss of words you could tell, but overall he nods. "Agreed.”

“So…this isn’t a one night stand right?” You ask. He chuckles, almost in disbelief that you’d think that after what you both just did.

“Not at all, I want to see you every day starting today,” he pauses, “-but most of all I want to fuck you every day starting now. ”

“How romantic.” You tease.

“How about the table this time?” He inquires.

You nodded and Chanyeol picks you up from the couch, your legs circling his hips in a heartbeat. His lips find yours as he trudged to the kitchen. He easily bypasses his sister and her boyfriend, laying you on the dining table in the next room over.

You pull him closer to your lips, “Lets make up for lost time shall we?”

[itwaslastnightwhenifellinlove]

Gentlemen

Type: One Shot | Imagine About Tristan Rating: Rated PG Word Count: 2,298 Requested: Yes Enjoy! I swayed my hips to the music as I let the day go. Closing my eyes as I allow the music to take over. I felt someone come up behind me, I smiled as I felt his hands on my hips. I turned as I opened my eyes, our eyes meet as we moved to the beat. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he tighten his grip on my hips. I turned my back to him with his hands against my hips. I reached back grabbing his hand as I grinding against him. He pushed his hips towards mine as I moved to the beat. Once the music started to slow down we walked towards the bar. He nodded to the bartender as he was ready to order. He ordered us both a drink before turning back to me. "You have good moves" he smiled. "Thank you" I said as I sat on the stool. "No problem" he smiled as he moved closer to me. "So why did you want to dance with me?" I asked as I grabbed my drink. "Because you are beautiful" he took a sip from his drink. "Ok I think you are just trying to pick me up" I rolled my eyes. "No, of course not" he brushed the hair from my face. "How do I know you aren't?" I asked. "You just have to trust me" he looked at me. "We shall see" I looked at him. "Good, lets just have a good time" he nodded. I took another sip from my drink before pulling him back to the dance floor. Wrapping my arms around his neck as he places his hands on my hips. Our bodies moved as one as the beat flowed through the speakers. Every slow song came on we would go grab another drink. I was feeling good, my mind was free and I was happy. After about the fifth drink I could tell that I was starting to get drunk. "I think I should go" I said. "Let me get you a cab" he grabbed my hand. "Sure" I nodded as I followed him. We walked out of the club and I stood against the building as he hailed a cab. He walked back to where I was standing at, grabbing my hand. Everything started to spin as I walked towards the cab. I pulled back as I bend over throwing up. He pulled my hair out of my face as he rubbed my back. I finally stopped wiping my mouth before getting into the cab. I was about to shut the door but he stopped me as he started to get in. I moved over to the other side of the cab as I looked at him. "What are you doing?" I asked. "Making sure you get home safe" He placed his arm around me. "Im sure Ill be fine" I said. "I just want to make sure" he nodded, giving the cab driver directions. I guess I was too drunk to realize that we were going to his place. I rested my head against his shoulder as he held me close to him. I felt him sit up as he paid the driver before we got out of the car. "Where are we?" I asked. "We are at my place, its fine you are safe" he nodded as he opened the door. "This was your plan all along" I looked at him. "I didnt know where you live plus you are too drunk to tell me, just come on" He grabbed my hand leading me into the house. I followed him as he opened the door allowing me to go in first. He turned on the lights as we walked into the living room. I sat down on the couch as he went into the kitchen. He got a glass of water and two aspirins before returning back to the living room. By the time he got back I was fast asleep on the couch, he smiled to himself as he looked at me. He slipped my shoes off as well as my jacket before moving me up to his room. Laying me on the bed, pulling the blankets around me, turning on the fan before leaving the room. I shuffled in the sheets as the sun started to peek through the window. "Good morning, " he sat on the edge of the bed. "Uh?" I opened my eyes. "Good morning, " he said once again. "Where am I?" I sat up in the bed. "You are at my place, don't worry your safe, " he placed his hand over mine. "Did we?" I looked down to see my pants were off. "No, we didn't, I put you to bed last night" he nodded. "So nothing happened?" I questioned. "No, I made you breakfast, " he said. "You didn't have to do any of this, you just met me" I looked at him. "I know that, but you could of got hurt, " he looked at me. "I normally don't get that drunk" I spoke softly. "Well, here take two of these, it will help with the headache, " he handed me two aspirins. I took the aspirins out of his hand, putting them into my mouth. I grabbed the glass of water next to the bed drinking a few sips to help the pills go down. He moved the covers off of me as he held onto my hand. He helped me out of the bed, my legs were weak, but I was fine. I walked downstairs with him as he lead me into the kitchen. He placed the plates on the table as I sat down at the table. He had made waffles with strawberries that had powered sugar sprinkled on. I looked at him and couldn't help but smile, he went so far out of his way for someone he didn't know. We both started to eat and I must say it was delicious. I finished all of my food before walking over to the sink. Laying my plate down as I looked back at him. Before he could say anything I went back upstairs, getting dressed. Well, at least just putting my pants on before coming back downstairs. I found my purse in the living room as well as my jacket and shoes. "Where do you want me to take you?" he asked. "I can call a taxi, " I said. "I don't mind, " he said as he moved closer to me. "I'm sure if cost you enough trouble already" I looked at him. "I really don't mind, " he placed his hand on my chin. "Can you take me home?" I asked as our eyes meet. "It would be my pleasure, " he smiled slightly. We left his house as he lead me to his car. Opening the door for me as I got inside, making sure i was in before closing the door. He walked around getting in the driver side, turning the car on. I gave him directions to get to my apartment. The drive was quick and silent, he pulled up to my driveway. He turned the engine off as we sat in silence. "Thank you, " I said. "No problem, can I see you again?" he asked as he looked at me. "I would like that" I turned to look at him. "Tell me when and where, I'll be yours, " he smiled as our eyes meet. "Why?" I asked. "Because I think there is something there, " he said. "Me too, " I leaned towards him. He placed his hand on my neck, brushing his thumb against my cheek. Our eyes locked on each other as he edges closer to me. His lips slightly touching mine as I rested my hand on his chest. I deepened the kiss as I moved closer to him, his hand still against my cheek. I slightly pulled away resting my forehead against his as our eyes meet once again. I sat back in the seat, catching my breath before getting out of the car. Of course he meets me in front of his car offering his arm. I smiled slightly as I grabbed his arm, he leads me upstairs. Kissing my cheek softly before leaving me on the porch. He returns back to his car as I slipped inside my apartment. I looked out the window as he pulled away, I could see the smile on his face. We would text through out the day and talk at night. It seemed like my sleeping schedule took a backseat because we would talk until 4am each morning. We finally decided a date that would work for us both, I didn't know what he had planned. I turned my music on as the water rushed out of the shower head. I allowed my robe to slip from my shoulders and onto the floor. My phone lit up as I picked it up I could see it was from Tristan. I smiled slightly when he said he would pick me up at 8pm. I got into the shower allowing the water to run down my skin. I finally finished taking a shower, turning the water off. Standing in front of the mirror as I knew this date could change everything. I slicked my hair back in a high bun before getting dressed. I applied a little bit of makeup but not too much. I made my way downstairs slipping on my flip flops, grabbing my purse before heading out the door. He finally pulled up parking his car in my driveway. He made his way to the steps where I was standing, offering his hand. "Good evening" he smiled as I took his hand. "Thank you" I said as I walked with him. "My pleasure" he opened the car door. I got into the car and once I buckled my seatbelt he closed the door. Making his way to the driver seat, starting the car so the ac could take effect. Clicking his seatbelt before pulling out of my driveway. We started to make our way downtown, I had no idea where we were going. "May I ask where we are going?" I asked. "We are going somewhere special" he smiled as he looked at me. "Alright" I smiled as I looked out the window. We finally pulled into a parking lot and I was confused. Why were we at the beach when it was closed? He walked to my side of the car opening the door. He reached for my hand, I placed my hand in his as I got out of the car. He lead me down to a candle light picnic. I took my seat across from him, he placed the food in front of us. I just looked at him just wondering where he has been hiding. The conversation flowed between us rather easy, just talking like best friends. "This was amazing" I smiled. "I just wanted to impress you, " he looked at me. "Well, you did it, so beautiful" I looked up at the sky. "Want to see a better view?" he asked. "What you mean?" I asked. "May I?" he asked as he took my hand. I nodded my head as I got up from my seat. He leads me up a cliff, that was over the water. I sat down, allowing my legs to dangle from the Clift. He sat down next to me, placing his arm around my waist. I rested my head down on his shoulder as we looked out. It was peaceful, where the beach was full of life was empty. It was silent as the stars twinkled in the sky. Time seemed to stand still as we looked at the stars, it was just us. He placed his hand on my chin, tilting it towards him. Keeping his hand on my cheek as he leaned towards me. Allowing our lips to touch slightly. I closed my eyes as I kissed him, his thumb brushed against my cheek. He slightly pulled away as we both opened our eyes. I smiled slightly as I looked at him, my hand resting on his leg. I looked down at my phone seeing the time and knew we needed to go. It was the first time I checked my phone all night. He got up from his spot grabbing my hands, helping me up. We made our way back to his car, opening the door for me. I smiled, kissing his cheek before getting into the car. We drove back towards my apartment and of course he walked me to my door. "I really enjoyed tonight" I looked at him. "Me too, " he smiled slightly. "I would really like to see you again" I nodded. "I would enjoy that" he grabbed my hand. "Let's make that happen" I shuffled things in my purse. I finally found my keys and opened my door. I waved goodbye to him before closing the door as he went back to his car. Over the next few weeks we grew closer together and we turned into a relationship. It was nice to be with someone different. All my life I would date jerks and assholes, but Tristan was different. Of course it was something I would have to get used to. He soon turned into my best friend plus my boyfriend so it was best of both worlds. I could talk to him about anything and not be judged. He would always think outside of the box and do the sweetest dates that he could think of. It was nice to just slow down when life is trying to pass you by and enjoy peoples company.

[decembercamiecherries]

First-Name Basis

HAPPY KILLUGON DAY! :D

I actually wasn’t sure if I was going to post anything for today bc I didn’t know if I had the time to write a real full-length story….. 

BUT then I remembered this post that golden-chocobo​ messaged me about like two months ago and I changed my mind XD Please enjoy~

Ao3 link

Word count: 3104

Prompt:

does the “i slept with you the other day and i didnt know we had a mutual friend and now we’re sitting across each other for brunch and it’s awkward because i ran out when you were asleep” au exist bc i need that fic

Modern au :3

Killua had never been as mortified as he was now, standing frozen and utterly paralyzed while Kurapika introduced Leorio’s friend who had suddenly joined them for lunch on this random Saturday afternoon.

There was no denying it. Killua knew Leorio’s friend, had met this stranger with caramel skin and spiky brown hair last week at Palm’s party. It was this exact same bright-eyed man who had invited Killua back to his apartment, who Killua had spent the entire night with before waking up in said stranger’s bed, horrified, and sprinting away as fast as his legs could carry him.

This same person who was now gazing at him with eyes that burned gold and had Killua’s heart doing back flips in his chest.

Killua clenched his hands into white-knuckled fists. To say that he wanted to jump out of the nearest window would have been an understatement.

“Killua,” Kurapika said, startling Killua out of his mind-numbing shock. “Are you listening?”

Killua swallowed thickly. “Yeah, ‘course I was,” he said and the back of his neck prickled at the feeling of intense eyes locked onto his face.

Leorio snorted. “I doubt it, kid. You were staring off into space the entire time Kurapika was talking. What, did you see a ghost or something?”

Hot anger flashed through Killua. He snarled, “Listen here, old man-”

Leorio’s friend chirped suddenly, “So, your name is Killua?”

Killua’s mouth shut with a click. He shifted his eyes onto the other male, dragging his gaze over freckled cheeks and tanned hands and that brilliant smile. It was frighteningly easy to remember how those hands had felt brushing against his arms, calloused fingers finding his in the dark and intertwining, holding on tight enough to leave imprints-

“Killua Zoldyck” he said stiffly, trying and failing to ignore the way his cheeks were on fire. “And you’re Gon, right? Gon Freecss.”

Gon’s smile bloomed into a full out grin and something in Killua’s chest tightened. He hadn’t known Gon’s name until now. The night they’d met had been a whirlwind of…activity. They’d moved past the term strangers so fast that they’d left introductions behind in the dust. Names somehow didn’t matter when Gon had him shoved up against the wall-

Anyway. It was actually kind of nice to finally have a name to the fuzzy but warm face in Killua’s memory. Not that he would ever admit that, though.

“What are you two staring at, sit down so we can eat!” Leorio said impatiently.

Killua scowled. He plopped down next to Kurapika on the rectangular table, with Gon sitting directly across from him.

“Do you think they have any specials today?” Leorio mused aloud as Kurapika and Killua shifted in their seats. “If Machi’s on duty there’s usually some quality omelets or fish platter or something-”

Killua pointedly ignored the rest of Leorio’s question, staring down at his empty plate but barely seeing it.

He couldn’t ignore the way Gon’s pressing stare was digging into his face. Killua could feel it like it was real and tangible thing, crawling over his skin and leaving it tingling. It made him self-conscious. It made him want to duck under the table for the rest of the meal.

Instead he just lifted the menu to hide his now scarlet face.

“I’m sure you can ask the waiter when they come around, Leorio,” Kurapika said, tone amused. “In the meantime, though, you should tell us how you and Gon met.”

Gon said, “Oh, well, I’m a scientist! I do research on nature and different species around the world. But one day I got hurt by accident with one of the animals I was studying. Leorio was the doctor who patched me up.”

Killua frowned. A scientist, huh? He did vaguely remember Gon talking about a fox or something last week…

Leorio huffed. “And you’ve been a pain in my butt ever since. You’ve come back to my office three times in the last month!”

Gon laughed freely, not sounding at all embarrassed, and Killua’s pulse began to race. Gon’s laughter sounded like music, bells, and chimes. He gritted his teeth. It should’ve been illegal for someone to have as nice of a laugh as that. Especially when the idiot was laughing over something so completely stupid-

“Killua, are you all right?”

Killua blinked and dropped his menu in surprise. Kurapika was looking at him with concern, worry knotting his brows.

“Yeah, your face looks kinda weird,” Leorio leaned forward, eyebrow raised. “Don’t tell me you’re gonna whine about the quality of the water again-”

“Shut up, that was one time!” Killua hissed, hot embarrassment washing over him like a tsunami. “And I only said that to piss you off!”

Leorio sputtered and Gon laughed again, setting Killua’s cheeks aflame.

He looked away quickly to hide his expression. He reached for his water, saying lamely, “I’m just thinking about what to order since I’m not sure what I’m in the mood for. That’s all.”

Gon said cheerfully, “I’m sure whatever you have will taste delicious, Killua!”

Killua choked at the implication. He spat out his drink and water spewed all over the table.

“AUGH- Killua!” Kurapika cried out and Leorio pushed himself away from the table with a howl.

Killua was too busy coughing up his lungs to give any kind of response. He gasped for air, stomach rolling.

Did Gon seriously just say that?! Was it on purpose, Killua thought wildly as the unwanted memory and taste of Gon’s soft lips pressed against his rushed to the front of his mind, or-?

Gon grinned at him from across the table, eyes shining mischievously, and Killua knew the answer instantly.

“You bastard,” he rasped and Gon’s smile only grew.

“Heh, sorry! I couldn’t help it.”

“Then toughen up and keep your smug comments to yourself, you little gremlin-”

“Whoa, whoa, whoa! Calm down, you two!” Leorio said loudly and Kurapika yanked sharply on Killua’s arm in warning. “I wanted a calm lunch with my closest friends, not a brawl, okay?! This is a nice place, I don’t wanna get kicked out of another restaurant-”

Kurapika spoke over Leorio’s heated speech, “Do you two know each other, somehow?”

Killua’s blood turned to ice.

“No,” he said just as Gon chirped, “Yep!”

There was a tense pause. Leorio and Kurapika glanced between the pair with confusion while Killua glared daggers at Gon. Gon, on the other hand, just pouted.

“Killua, its mean to pretend you don’t know me,” he whined. “We had a lot of fun with each other the last time we hung out!”

Fun with-?!

Heat rushed to his cheeks as Killua made a strangled sound. Holy shit. If Gon kept this up, Killua was going to stab him with the restaurant knives before lunch was even served.

Hands curling into claws, Killua began to hiss, “If you say one more word, I swear to god I’ll-”

“Hi, may I take your order!”

Killua jolted at the sudden appearance of the waitress. He turned away with a scowl as everyone haltingly ordered their drinks. When the waitress left again, palpable awkwardness hung in the air.

Kurapika coughed. “So. You two have met before?”

Killua pressed his lips into a thin line. As if he was going to give Gon the satisfaction of answering!

“Mhm!” Gon cupped his chin in one hand and leaned forward on the table. Killua watched him warily even as Gon beamed at him. Gon continued, “Me and Killua met at a party last week and we hit off right away.”

“What?! You were invited to a party without me?!” Leorio exploded. “Who’s party-”

“Palm Siberia,” Killua said shortly. “Y’know, Ikalgo’s cousin? Girl with long wavy hair and blue eyes that you keep claiming is super-hot?”

Leorio flushed. “Why don’t you shut it, brat?”

Killua smirked. “Don’t ask, next time.”

“How do you know Palm, Gon?” Kurapika quickly interrupted before Leorio could get another word in.

“Hm? Oh, we used to date!”

Killua’s heart plunged to the floor. He suddenly felt winded, like the ground had been swept out beneath him. Date? But, then why had Gon-

“- we broke up a long time ago, though,” Gon finished and the air returned to Killua’s lungs.

It was stupid and dumb. Killua was stupid and dumb, to get this worked up over hearing about an ex-girlfriend of a guy he’d had a one night stand with. Killua cursed himself silently. Sometimes he really hated himself.

In the background Killua heard Kurapika ask, “And you and Palm are still friends even after that?”

“Yep! And I’m really glad we are, ‘cause otherwise I wouldn’t have gotten to known Killua so well!”

Killua’s muscles locked in place. His blood boiled as he slowly looked up at Gon. 

“What,” he growled lowly. “-did I say about suggestive comments?!”

Gon innocently titled his head to the side. “Hmmmmm? I don’t really know what you mean.”

“You-!”

“But I really am happy I got to see you again, Killua,” Gon interrupted him. “You know? ‘Cause I was upset the last week when I realized I didn’t get your phone number, or even your name. I might have never talked to you again if Leorio hadn’t invited me to lunch today, and that would’ve made me really, really sad.”

Killua’s angry words died in his throat. Left speechless, he stared at Gon and Gon stared back. Killua’s insides squirmed under the intensity of that gaze and the restaurant around them disappeared as the silence stretched on.

Now that he was really paying attention, Killua couldn’t help but notice how ethereal Gon looked, even though he was simply sitting there. Sunlight streaming in from the restaurant’s windows hit Gon’s skin at just the right angle and set it aglow.

Killua’s heart pounded loud and heavy against his ribs. Gon was beautiful, and the sight of him took Killua’s breath away.

The waitress materialized next to their table. “Okayyyy, here are your drinks-”

Killua jumped so badly he fell out of his chair.

“Killua!” Kurapika said, alarmed, as Killua scrambled back to his feet. “Are you-?”

“Fine!” Killua said shrilly. His whole body tingled and he could still feel Gon staring at him, always staring at him and it was driving him insane-

“I g-gotta,” Killua stammered as his friends gaped at him. “- gotta go to the, the bathroom. Um.”

He turned on his heel and bolted. His heartbeat echoed in his ears with each step and his vision blurred as he sped past customer-filled tables.

Gon had been upset that Killua had left without saying anything. Gon had been sad that he might’ve never known Killua’s name. Gon was happy to Killua again.

And Killua couldn’t deny that deep, deep down, past the horror and the shock- he’d been happy, no, thrilled to see Gon again, too. That one night with Gon had been the best time he’d had in a while, and not just because of the ‘after party activities’.

Talking with Gon had been amazing; Gon made him laugh so hard his sides ached and his cheeks hurt for hours afterwards from how much he had smiled. There had been a click between them. A kind of chemistry that made Killua want to fly back into Gon’s arms even as he ran away.

Killua bit the inside of his cheek to stop himself from screaming. What the hell had he gotten himself into?!

Gon headed for the restroom exactly fifteen minutes after Killua left.

He found the hallway where the bathrooms were located easily. He was about knock on the men’s room when he heard a loud laugh from inside.

Gon’s heart leaped. That was Killua’s laughter, he would recognize it anywhere. Even in the dark.

He leaned in closer to the door, curious despite himself. Killua always made him curious. Gon wanted to know lots of things about Killua, like his favorite color and what movies he hated and what kinds of music he listened to…Gon wanted to know it all; it was a desire burning in the pit of his stomach.

Gon shook the thought away. He could learn all that stuff later. Right now, he had to focus.

“-know, it’s crazy, right?” Killua was saying. Gon frowned at his tone- it verged on hysterical. “I mean, my first one night stand and the guy shows up at lunch the next week.”

Gon’s mouth went dry. Killua was talking about him, about Gon.

He heard Killua sigh heavily. “Yes, it’s the same guy. No, Alluka, it’s definitely him. I wouldn’t mess this up.”

He paused and Gon had barely a second to wonder who Alluka was before Killua was saying shrilly, “Shu-shut up! Y’know I didn’t call just for you to tease me the whole ti- what? Oh, god, no. Please, don’t start.”

Gon pressed his lips together to stop himself from giggling at Killua’s drawn-out groan. “Nooooo, c’mon, don’t say that. I’m not gonna- are you seriously suggesting I go out there and tell him how I feel to his face?! Are you insane?!”

Gon’s heartbeat began to race. What did exactly Killua want to tell him? Was it the same thing that Gon had been dying to tell Killua since he entered the restaurant with Kurapika?

Gon remembered so clearly how Killua had looked right before they’d fallen asleep in Gon’s bed last week- tousled silver hair, smooth stretches alabaster skin and beautiful scarlet-stained cheeks. The gentle smile Killua had given him then had filled Gon with an elation left him speechless.

Gon had closed his eyes that night with his hand in Killua’s, knowing somehow that he never wanted to lose sight of Killua for as long as he lived.

And waking up the next morning without Killua there….that had been the worst morning of his life.

But Killua was here, now. And that was the only thing that mattered.

There was a thumping noise on the opposite side of the bathroom door, starling Gon.

“Why do you always have to be right?” Killua moaned and Gon’s lips twitched. “Yeah, yeah, I get it. You’re smart, smarter than a moron like me, I know.” He snorted. “Mhm. Sure. Whatever you say.”

“Okay, fine. I will. I said I will. What, you don’t trust me? I will. Okay? Okay, talk to you later. Bye.”

Gon’s pulse skyrocketed and he scrambled away from the bathroom. A second later, Killua opened the door, running a hand through his starlight hair with a long breath.

He stopped short when he saw Gon.

For a few seconds, they just looked at each other.

Gon blurted out, “You were taking a long time, so I! I got worried.”

Killua blinked. His normally pale face slowly darkened and Gon couldn’t help the warmth that spread through him. The flustered look was nice on Killua. Gon would know.

“You.” Killua wrinkled his nose. “You were saying all that stuff at the table on purpose, weren’t you?”

Gon scratched his cheek. “Eh, well.”

Killua narrowed his eyes. “Well?! All that, and the only thing you can think to say is well?! What do you think I am, an idiot?!”

Gon laughed at Killua’s enraged expression- Killua was cute even when he was angry! It was really incredible!

“Gon,” Killua growled. “You better have a good explanation, or else I’ll-”

“Sorry, I’m sorry!” Gon said breathlessly and grabbed Killua’s hands on impulse.

“I’m sorry,” he repeated as Killua’s whole body stiffened. “I’m not trying to make fun of you, I swear.”

Killua visibly swallowed. “Then. What do you want? You kept saying all that stuff and I didn’t know what you were trying to…”

Gon couldn’t stop the affectionate smile that spread across his face. He squeezed Killua’s hands, saying, “I was trying to tell you that I really like you, Killua! I liked you last week when we first met, I really liked falling asleep besides you, and I like you even more now that I know your name!”

“So,” he said, trying his hardest not to laugh at how large Killua’s blue eyes had grown. “-so, Killua. Wanna get lunch sometime soon? With just the two of us, this time?”

Killua opened his mouth, then shut it. Gon waited patiently, letting their hands swing back and forth between them. He would wait until Killua was ready to express himself the way he wanted. They had time, now.

Finally, Killua took a deep breath. He confessed quietly, “I’d like that.”

Gon’s heart soared. “Really?”

Killua nodded, face turning even redder, and his hands were warm in Gon’s.

“Then how about we go out now?” Gon asked excitedly.

“N-Now? But what about Kurapika and Leorio-?”

“I don’t think they’ll mind. We kind of ditched them already. And you did spit water all over them, so-”

“Shut up!” Killua snapped, but to Gon’s delight, didn’t pull away. “That was totally your fault! If you hadn’t said that stuff to embarrass me, that would’ve never happened!”

“You didn’t have to take what I said so literally, though.”

“Why, you-!”

Gon jumped forward and pressed his lips to Killua’s in a brief kiss, effectively cutting off the rest of Killua’s angry retort.

“Relax, Killua,” he breathed as Killua gaped wordlessly at him. “I was kidding. Can we go, now? I wanna take you someplace nice for our first date.”

A strange mix of emotions flashed through Killua’s eyes- irritation warred with desire, all mixed together with a soft fondness that made Gon’s chest swell.

Killua sighed. “Yeah, okay. Let’s get out of here.”

Warmth spread through Gon’s body. His cheeks ached from how wide he smiled but he couldn’t care less.

“Yeah. Hey, Killua.”

Killua tilted his head to the side. “What?”

“I’m glad we’re finally on a first-name basis.”

Killua’s sputtering laughter filled Gon to the brim with weightless joy.

“Me too, Gon. Me too.”

[n-ph]

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wow it’s been awhile since i’ve written one of these. i just realized that i totally didn’t write one last year. anyway i dont even know where to begin. 2016 has been an interesting year to say the least. i was rereading some of my old posts and i said omg a lot. the days just seem to go by in a blur nowadays, so i will try to recap 2016 as best as i can. i dont have a word to encompass this year though.

went to seattle in january. tried some really expensive sushi..twice..holy crap. the quality was a1 but man the bill was something else. seattle was nice though. definitely had a san francisco vibe to it, except for when you go to the waterside and look back at all the construction. i guess we kinda ran out of things to do bc on the last day we went to chinatown and the area seemed really dinky. also gained a ton of weight in seattle though u_u

in february we tried 5a5 steakhouse. and let me tell u. it is the best beef i have ever had. it is also the most money i have ever spent on a single meal. oh my god. i dont know if i'll ever be back, but i would like to, some day.

thus far, the semester was pretty okay. let's see..i had government accounting with a moody professor who would throw tantrums whenever no one participated. i also had business law with this old guy who was really lively and fun. i had strategic management with a bryan cranston look alike. the class was really interesting though and i learned a lot and it got me started on reading the economist lmao im so old. i miss having so much free time that came with school. 40 hour work weeks are not the life (even if i barely do anything at work).

went to LA during spring break. and at a good time too bc it was still the soft opening of harry potter world so the lines were v manageable. butterbeer was dope. the entire hogsmeade village just felt so real. had sooo much good food in LA omg. got to see some friends as well. had some of the best steak frites ever.

i cant believe i particpated in asu's talent show this year. much has changed in asu since i joined. it makes me wonder if i was behaving that way when i first joined. it seems a lot more clique-y and high school and drama filled but hey maybe it was that way when i was active but i just never noticed. had many fun lunches with my grand little but man there is a lot of drama in asu and im just glad i wasnt in any of it. i kinda miss the old asu days of staying out late to eat or do nothing at all but also i dont miss it bc i get enough sleep and im a lot more productive without asu lmao. finally ended things with tram for good. maybe things turned out the way they did for the better. the entire friendship was such a roller coaster. im glad its over.

the end of the semester rolled around!!! and i graduated!!!! :') attended my sisters graduation which was pretty boring bc high school students have such a narrow view of life (not to say that college students are any better). attended my own graduation. felt really fortunate to have jessa and anthony there. this one kid in my graudating class gave a speech about accomplishments...and he revealed the wrestling belt he was wearing underneath his graduation gown...and then he made the grads stand up and chant thank yous to the friends and family sitting behind us. it was so embarrassing and extra omg.

shortly after graduation i was on a plane headed back to the motherland. and let me tell u. i hated most of it. it was super hot and humid and my sister and i shared about 100 mosquito bites between the both of us. also. i know i shouldnt but..vietnam is so dirty. i know its not their fault that theyre a developing country but man there are exactly zero sanitation standards and i dont even know why we were there bc the water had recently been polluted so none of the fish were edible and my mom didnt trust the food stands to have clean food either. i guess i made some new friends and visited some cool places but at what cost??? also i think my entire fam got sick bc we slept with the ac on but either way, the meds i took made me lose my sense of smell i think and i couldnt taste or smell anything for two weeks. the ac air also dried out my nose and gave me a skin infection (which i will discuss later). during our trip to danang a small ferry got flipped on the big river and a bunch of ppl died and the government tried to cover it up bc bad publicity etc. they played it off as if only a few ppl died rather than most of the ppl on the boat. our tour guide in danang was in the know tho so he told us everything and w o w that really could've been us on that river bc it was a boat the left the dock about half an hour after our boat left. crazy.

after the long and arduous journey abroad i finally made it back home...and then headed to hawaii. hawaii was dope af. 10/10 would recommend, would go back. battled the tides when we went kayaking and sadly the tides won and i lost my hat but also almost lost my flip flops if it weren't for some kind random strangers who swam out to get my flip flops. we stayed on oahu and maui. hiked up a v steep mountain in oahu. lost my hat from kayaking. got caught in the rain when we went looking for a beach on the first day. had some of the best shaved ice ever. attended my first luau. fell asleep during the first part of a fire dancing show (bc the fire hadnt started yet). essentially pulled an all nighter to try oahu's famous bakery that opened at 3am. flew to maui but due to poor planning we arrived 4 hours earlier than check in lmao. the house we had in maui was so beautiful though omg. it was ocean side so we could hear the waves every night and it just felt so peaceful and tranquil to sit on the balcony in the mornings, just staring out at sea. in maui we went snorkeling. the last time i went snorkeling was like...10+ years ago...in cancun...and the water was freezing...and i also thought i was lost in the middle of the ocean on our way to the snorkeling location... but anyway! the snorkeling this time was so cool omg they had prescription swimming goggles so i could see EVERYTHING. they also provided lunch which was dope. it started raining on our way back to shore though lmao. the next day we drove all the way up the volcano in maui...to find that the top was foggy af and we couldnt see anything. the road up was pretty nasty bc super windy and 10000 ft elevation. it got really foggy after like 6000ft so we basically drove in all fog until the top which was still foggy but also like 20 degrees colder than the rest of maui. maui is super rural omg. we tried to find a place to eat after our trek but there were barely any food places in sight. we picked a random spot in the middle of nowhere and then decided to take the road to hana (which is on the opposite side of where we were staying, and was about 3 hrs away. and boy did we mess up. we took the alternate road there and it was scarier than going up the volcano bc 1) windy 2) small ass roads which were unpaved at certain points and 3) cliff hugging roads..i cant believe i made the drive there and back it was so terrifying omg. not sure if i would go back. at one point there was a big ass cow in the middle of the road. once we got to hana though, the hike was really nice despite the humidity. almost died crossing the river at the end to see the waterfall. all the rocks had big ants on them!!! how was i supposed to cross the river!!! we missed out on the wading pools though but we were so starving by that time. made the 3 hr drive back and everyone was dead. spent the last day on maui not doing much bc rainy and we were all so dead.

about two weeks after i got back from hawaii was training week in sac for my first big girl job. ngl but i felt super homesick that first night. idk why since i would be home by the end of the week anyway. probably just overwhelmed by how fast everything was happening. graduation and now transitioning into a full time job. scary stuff. but i did make a really good friend in sac so it didnt turn out so bad!!! training was pretty fun bc our presenter was pretty engaging. except when we went over the boring stuff and i was v close to falling asleep. did get to catch up with some of my sac friends though which was nice. went to the state fair for the first time as well. it was..exactly as expected but hotter lmao. my family went to san diego at this time bc my sister was going to comic con but i couldnt make it :(

got back from training and started my first big girl job. im not sure what i expected but it was easy but also hard? my first engagement i was only with one other senior and she was super nice and pretty and really good at lettering. i dont feel like i learned much? i only really did the tasks given to me but i feel like half the time i wasnt even sure what i was doing. i also hated the commute all the way back from walnut creek. the going there wasnt so bad bc i got a ride out to oakland but man it would take forever to get home. :'( my second engagement was just me and a partner and i feel like she expected me to know everything...but i didnt know anything...so i mostly sat around a lot??? esp bc she wasnt on site every day so i had zero supervision. :/ towards the end of the second engagement i got an email from the city saying that they were accepting me into their accounting position and i was like oh shit. i ended up taking the job, which gave me a week in between quitting the first job and starting the second, which i used to go back to LA lmao bc i had a season ticket to universal. actually ate at the three broomsticks this time. it was defs filling and i thought it was a good bang for buck. attempted to go to the walking dead tour..chickened out..twice. i probs would've died in there tbh. also went to disneyland!!!! that was lit. their macone-roni and cheese was da bomb. saw world of color for the first time except it was the 50th anniversary edition so it wasnt so great. bumped into the couple that was in jbieb's love yourself video. tried some new food places in LA and saw some old friends, again.

started my second big girl job. all my coworkers are super nice except the big boss is kind of crazy and anal. but we deal with it. my supervisor is so nice :'( work isnt so bad bc i dont do much lmao. the hardest part sometimes is just staying awake if im being honest. getting paid to do nothing is the life tho.

spent my birthday weekend in monterey. we were supposed to go atv-ing but ended up going wine tasting but also not really bc we liked the first wine so much we got a bottle of that to share. it was really cold that weekend surprisingly so we stayed in and then went to this spa place on a whim and it was definitely an interesting experience.

went as a rice bag for halloween and i think that was probably my greatest costume to date. except we ended up going to a party full of white ppl...and i was like the only asian there gdi

tagged along w my sister when she went to sd. got to see many friends!!! went clubbing as well and that was lit. took michelle clubbing for her 21st birthday, also lit. squadsgiving and christmas were super fun. got some supplies for bullet journaling so guess thatll be my new years resolution. but also to take more photos bc i didnt buy that camera for nothing.

okay so in conclusion. i did a lot of stuff this year. it feels like it was mostly all highs. or maybe i just block out the lows but im pretty sure there were way more highs than lows. 2016 was a great year tbh. oh yeah i also passed two of four parts of my cpa exam!!! woot. in 2016, i learned a lot...of accounting lmao. plus i ran my first 5k!!!!! oh yeah and i joined a gym and now im getting swole af. im not sure what my reflections are. i guess, if i were to compare 2k16 kim to 2k14 kim i've for sure come a long ways. i wasnt afraid to try new challenges and conquer them. i stepped out of my comfort zone multiple times, sometimes with the help of alcohol. i got my shit together and really focused in school (which got me a 4.0 during my last year of college). i also got my shit together and studied my ass off for the cpa (which is still ongoing i crey). i really wanna say this was probably one of my best years with everything i was able to do and everything i achieved. so here's to you, 2016, and may 2017 be even better!!!

[yourehalfaworldaway]

Free Association #29

I’ve been trying to put this off, for so long, so long. I feel sick, my heart is breaking... I’ve been seeing someone. The moment I saw his name, something within me pulled me to him, I had no idea what. I’d lay in bed at night and wonder why I couldn’t stop thinking about this stranger I hadn’t seen or talked to or thought about in years. When we started talking, everything became rose colored. He’s passionate, with goals, going to university, and brave. He’s a musician, an actor, a singer. On our first date he impressed me with his knowledge of old black and white films. I became head over heels, much, much too quickly. When we kiss, it feels like his lips are meant for mine. But when we kiss I don’t see him, I see you. I see green eyes and dark pink lips, dreamy looks. But once again the universe is asking me to settle, to live against my morals. 

He tells me he’s slept with many women, casually... I didn’t mind, I was a bit surprised, but my first inclination was not to judge when he told me. But then the paranoia and self doubt set in: Is he just looking to just sleep with me? How can people just casually have sex with so many partners meanwhile I’m having trouble getting aroused with even a close friend? Who were these women? Does he still talk to them? Am I expected to be a porn star if we ever sleep together? I can’t help but have occasional venomous, sarcastic thoughts about his promiscuity. But he’s so positive, so warm, and cheerful. Incredibly non judgmental and supportive. He was inspiring me to do the same. But then everything came spiraling down. Some days, lately, he can spend the entire day without talking to me. He doesn’t say goodnight, doesn’t really say good morning. I wasn’t sure why; I brought it up to him a few times that it bothered me, as it was just cordial, polite thing to at least let someone your texting knowing you’re going to sleep. He blamed it on the fact that it was because he was smoking and drinking with friends and forgets. So basically, drunk and high. I’ve never particularly had trouble with the alcohol prospect, but he drinks incredibly heavily for my taste. But of course my immediate reaction was to the smoking. I knew I had lost. If it ever came down to me or that, I didn’t stand a chance. I told him this. He told me he didn’t want to lose me, that he would never put that in front of me. It was sweet. I don’t think I ever believed him. 

This was proven to me when we decided to spend new years together. He came to pick me up, and when he kissed me and hugged me, he smelled like Mistah J. I was stunned, but thought, no, there must be some mistake. We got into his car, and he handed me my gift: photographs of flowers around the world his mother had took. I flipped through them and noticed the lighter in the cup holder. “It smells like cigarettes,” I casually reported, I looked over at him and saw him squirm. “Sorry about that”. He stopped to get me an energy drink and him a pack of gum. It did nothing to mask the smell that clung to his clothes. We went to downtown San Jose to spend the new year at a bar with his friends. I was surprised to see what his friends looked like. On the outside we probably look like a bunch of freaks and geeks. But this was not so. First, we went back to one of his friend’s car, they opened the trunk, and began publicly drinking just on the open street. Lawful Neutral, I just watched. His friend pulled out a cigarette and offered him one, he paused but shook his head and patted his pockets, “I’ve got my own”. That was the second pang, I felt so cold. 

We finally got into the bar, but I waited to drink, attempting to decide if I even wanted to. They decided they wanted to move to the outside back patio- so they could smoke while they drank. The DJ finally started to play good music, and of course with that, I was the first one to dance, not just within my own party, but of the whole place as well, completely sober. I flirted with one of his friends, I don’t know if he noticed. It was the green eyes. Yours will haunt me forever. I look for you in everyone. We found a good corner spot, and I finally decided I could go for a drink. I got 2 different beers, but they tasted the same to me. I had told him I only really drank when I was upset. I wonder if he thought I was celebrating. I was sipping my first beer when I smelled it. I turned around, he was a couple paces behind me smoking, attempting to nonchalantly hide it at his side. I turned back around, I drank faster. Everyone was numbing themselves, I wanted to be numb too. I had been right. I had lost. He would never give up these type of friends, this party life, his smoking for me. This validation left me colder. He left to get more drink and in that time one of his friends came up to me and forced kisses on my face, told me I was beautiful, and lucky to be with Jacob. “I am no ones,” I replied. 

He came back and I noticed he began another cigarette. That hurt more than the smoke burning my lungs. I turned around and closed my eyes, I put my hand on my chest, and tried to breath as much as I could. I was definitely feeling choked by the fumes and in the grip of alcohol, but I felt more hollow than anything else. He came up behind me and wrapped his arm around my waist, asked me if I was ok. I remember I nodded, I dont remember if I answered. I then began to fluctuate between being happy and dancing, and standing absolutely still and stone faced, holding back tears. I’ve never been the one to cry while drinking, but it all was becoming so heavy. 

New years came or it happened or… people were counting down. Everything was happening at once fast but in slow motion. I knew I didn’t want to kiss him. I was supposed to turn around and kiss him, that was the plan right? But I didnt, so he went to hug the nearest friend near him and then me. That ended being a side hug and a head kiss. I didn’t look up to meet his gaze, I dont think I even said anything to him. He went to hug his other friends, and I just… stood there, feeling like a shell, surrounded by people I didn’t care about or knew. He came back and hugged me again, and this time tried to properly kiss me, I didn’t come up to meet him. Just turned my head and said, “I don’t kiss smokers” “I know…” he said sadly, and gave me a quick peck on the mouth. But I couldn’t help it, my heart skipped. I grabbed his face and gave him a proper kiss. He tasted like Mistah J. 

His friends ended up getting kicked out for trying to take a piss where they weren’t supposed to. Party’s over. We left, but not before he had another drink. I stood there quietly, sadly at the bar and sipped my water. He left to use the bathroom before we left, and I couldn’t remember the last time I was surrounded by so many people and felt so lonely. He came back for me and we went looking for his piss drunk friends who apparently went to a 7/11 several blocks away. I couldn’t keep up with him, he’s tall of course and takes long strides. I had to keep asking him to slow down, it wasn’t really the alcohol, it was the smoke that I had been surrounded by beginning to catch up to me. It made my breaths short. We found his friends and they were talking about going to another party. He asked me what I wanted to do, I told him I’d go with him if he wanted to go. We walked with his friends for a block before he abruptly stopped and looked at me, “Babe, I think I’m gonna call it” I think I said Ok. He called out to his friends that we weren’t going and they nodded and wished us well. We went back towards the 7/11 and I bought us gatorades so we could sober up. I wasn’t going to let him drive until he finished the entire thing and I felt clear headed enough.

His mother works in downtown, and she let us use her garage pass for the building she works in, he parked us on the highest floor on top. When we got to his car…. I must have been walking slower behind him. I just remember he was sitting on some sort of metal box that was next to his car. I was still feeling upset so I just roughly, irritatingly placed my gatorade on the trunk of his car… I noticed the cigarette boxed placed there also. I leaned up against the car and I just looked at him. I think I may have looked around and talked about the planes or buildings, I was just trying not to fall into his arms, which I knew we both wanted. But I pitied him… and I felt… wrong for withholding my affection. I ended up in his embrace, with his head laying on my chest and mine on top of his head. Him sitting was the equivalent to my standing up height. He held my waist and kissed my neck. He was attempting to work his way up to my lips and when he finally did, I turned my head. “You taste like cigarettes” I pouted. “I know,” he mumbled and buried his face in my chest, “I know they’re bad for me, I’m trying to stop”. I don’t think that did much to console me, but I stood there with his face buried in my chest, arms around my waist and I stroked his head, neck, and ears. Occasionally, I stopped and kissed him lightly around the face. Then I caught a glimpse of his eyes. And I felt myself being pulled closer like a magnet and kissing him. We ended up in the back of his car, with the kissing never stopping. He had found my spot since the very beginning and loves to feel me quiver, so as soon as I ended up sitting on him he began to slowly drag his fingers along my back … 

He drives frightfully fast. I don’t why he’s always in a hurry. He drives as if the world was ending. Maybe it is. I cannot contain my sadness… I wake up this morning, and feel like I can still taste him on my breath, smell him on my hands. I feel betrayed, but even more so I feel like a betrayer. Like a widow who can’t move on because she knows her husbands still watching over her. I thought I had… made a mistake originally. That surely this must have been the Jacob I was supposed to love. But I’m finding him to be…. Everything I loved about you and hoped you’d be… with the habits and lifestyle of Mistah J. I love Mistah J, but there was a reason I refused him again and again. I feel… insincere. I see flashing images of Mistah J and you… comforting images of what I’ve loved; security, wonder, warmth. I’ve once again fallen in love with love, not so much the man. Can I live with myself? Can I live at all?