#i didn't do anything productive today

[the-pale-goddess]

She strains to transcend fear, disjoint all its particles and mould them into something meaningful, something solid. She longs to find strength inside the weakest cell of her chaos.

WIP: Past, Present, Future

[applexi]

i suddenly feel so dejected today i don't know why

[headphonemouse]

vent post sorry so sorry i'm having a Bad Time

psyched myself up to buy a new bed but when i announced my plans for the weekend my sibling's like 'are you sure you wanna buy a new bed?' like damn killed the hype immediately. i don't wanna buy a bed i don't wanna go anywhere i'll just keep using the bed that we all cycled through growing up that hasn't been replaced in a decade+ with no bedframe and only one sheet that fits.

"are you sure you want-" I need a new bed. This isn't a matter of wanting. i don't want to think about where to get the best deals or which store has a delivery service or the logistics of hauling that thing into my room or where to get rid of the old one i'm sick of sleeping on a mattress on the floor. don't make this ordeal more complicated than it has to be.

[salsflore]

everyday i wake up and have to start a new boss challenge called dealing with my mother

[ziyose]

honestly, i have no idea how to start this post. i have never been good at starting things, especially journals. and i had a few. not to say that i'm good at being persistent with them.

the last few days have been pretty busy for me. but not with actual study-related stuff. why?

well, my aunt is visiting me and my parents, so she and my mom decided to go on a shopping spree. (7 hours on the first day and then only 4 on the next one, thank god). i guess it takes them so long because they mainly go to thrift stores? (that is why vinted is better). and of course, they made me go with them. i would prefer to be left alone, thank you very much.

not to say i don't enjoy spending time with my aunt because i really, really do, but the thing is; shopping is exhausting to me. it's not even that that i dislike it; per se, i just get tired of doing it very, very quickly.

anyway, they are done with that for now, so hopefully, i will have more time to do the things that i want to do. concluding, i studied for around 5 hours in the past three days. hopefully, i will catch up today.

(sorry if there are any mistakes, english is not my first language, and i'm too tired to check)

[heartshattering]

There are a lot of reasons why I'll never be able to work outside my home but ultimately the biggest reason is always going to be that my mom requires someone to be in the same room as her 24/7 and only cares about being the center of attention at all times.

[phoenixdaneko]

i should probably sleep.

[dredshirtroberts]

it is not slacking off to write or create it is not slacking off to do things that are fun i am not slacking off or procrastinating right now i'm allowed to do things i enjoy doing for fun including playing games and writing and such

[blackpearlblast]

[ID: five armless bipedal toys with heart-shaped, smiling faces. there are two full-size ones and three mini ones. they are all either green with red faces and white paws or red with green faces and black paws. end ID]

paint job is done!!! tomorrow i will apply varnish. hoping to open the raffle on monday or tuesday (raffle will be to fundraise for ezzideen's campaign)

[velvetineblue]

wrow, ok.......

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

asugfhhd i bruised myself in 3 different areas for a game 💀

[aggressionbread]

It's been a shit week and it's only Tuesday 😞

[britneyshakespeare]

why does scheduling my work days give me so much stress and anxiety

[windrunner]

finally cracked and just bought an actual 8 inch bong online. only $44 which is a little much for me but... i definitely tore something wayyyyyy in the back of my shoulder blade and i couldn't actually relax enough to lay down last night until i smoked b/c the pain was so sharp. so i’m considering it a medical expense lmao

[siristaci]

Little Miss will be staying at my parent's house for the next couple of days so that I and two of my roommates can get through the worst of nicotine withdrawals.

She's never stayed over more than one night. From waking up from her nap to just before her nap the next day. We've tried to get her to nap over there a few times and only had success once.

And she's been having a hard time getting to sleep lately. It usually takes about 20-45 minutes to fall asleep, but lately it's been two hours.

And she's hit a new level of the terrible twos - which is mostly just a combination of wanting independence but not having the capability to do absolutely everything for herself and starting to have more complex feelings but not knowing how to emotionally regulate yet - recently.

My parents are not the most patient people.

Thankfully, they've been pretty receptive to "this is how we do things these days" (after we had a talk about the fact that correction ≠ judgement) and "this is normal for her, you just have to wait it out" but they still need reminders every couple of months.

I guess I'm not really worried that they'll do anything really bad, I'm just anxious about the weekend in general - withdrawals + her longest time away from home + terrible twos.

And it's always scary to leave your baby with someone else, no matter what's going on or how much you trust them.

Anyway, do you think seven outfits is enough for Friday afternoon to Sunday morning?

[kuiinncedes]

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