#i cried. a lot. and i never do that w media and i don't mean that to be edgy or whatever kssdfkjg but just

[sapsolais]

i love nimona

[the-fiction-witch]

Kiddo

Media - The Queens Gambit Character - Benny Watts Couple - Benny X Reader Reader - Y/n Rating - 15 + Word Count - 1694

Y/n was still a little tender and raw, her eyes and nose red and a little stuffy after the day she'd had. She'd had her first loss at a tournament in her whole chess career, her sponsor dropped her, and her boyfriend broke up with her. So benny invited her to come to stay with him in new York understanding she'd be a little fragile and wanted to keep an eye on her and look after her

Benny shut the door behind her and glanced over his shoulder, he could see she had been crying and not holding it together as much as she tried to. He removed his trench coat and hung it up, his tall frame towering above her as he turned back and looked down at her "You okay kiddo?" He said a lot softer than he usually did

Y/n nodded still holding her jacket around her, she was obviously lieing but did her best to be brave

Benny could see straight through her, he'd been around her long enough to know when she was putting on a strong front and when she really wasn't okay He placed a gentle but firm hand on her shoulder "You've been cryin' all day, don't bullshit me y/n" he said bluntly

she whined and wrapped her arms around Benny's torso, sniffling and silently crying as she nuzzles into his shirt,

Benny wrapped his arms around her, letting her bury her face against him as he held her close and stroked a hand over her back, He hated seeing her cry "It's okay, you don't have to pretend to be okay with me, let it out"

she softly cried rubbing her nose against his chest,

He sighed and held her close, his hand rubbing soothingly up and down her spine as he leaned down so his cheek could rest on top of her head. Despite his usually cocky manner he was surprisingly soft and sweet with her

after a while she pulled away sniffling the last of her tears away, having left wet patches across his shirt from her tears

He looked down at the mascara marks on her face from crying and lifted his hands to her cheeks, using the pads of his thumb to gently wipe the lines away for her He kept his voice low and soft "You look like a raccoon, kiddo" his rubbing only caused the black streaks to spread and mess up the other make up on her eyes, cheeks and lips making it much worse He chuckled softly and shook his head seeing the mess his good intentions had caused, he gave up trying to fix it on his own "C'mon, I'll get you something to clean yourself up"

she sheepishly followed him and washed her face off in the sink drying off to reveal her face once more.

Benny was taken back a little as he looked at her face and he suddenly realized looking at her skin, softly dotted freckles and chubby little cheeks, that in the six years he's known Y/n he's actually never seen her without any makeup, Benny leant against the doorframe and glanced her over, It actually made him do a double take, he thought she looked cute but couldn't quite put his finger on why until he realised he'd never actually seen her without make up before "Huh, looks like the raccoon is gone, you're adorable without that all that crap on your face"

"W-what?" She asked

He realised he'd voiced his thoughts without meaning too He pushed off the doorframe and stepped closer as he reached up and gently pinched her cheek "You're cute when you're free of the paint, you've got nice freckles over these adorable round cheeks of yours"

she softly blushed, but shook it away "I just... I wear it all the time. Habit I guess."

He chuckled "You know I don't bullshit, I don't think I've ever seen you without make up before" He released her cheek and tilted his head, looking at her as he spoke "You look really cute natural, especially with those soft little freckles over your nose, they suit you"

she blushed a little more and sniffled back a tear. "Thanks benny..."

Benny softly smiled, watching her react to his compliments He moved closer, his body towering over hers as he spoke in a softer tone "You're cuter without the make up and you look more your age, I think it ages you a lot when you wear it like an old lady" he teased but his tone was gentle and light hearted

"Well I don't want people thinking in a baby." She says

He chuckled softly and reached up, bopping her nose "Your round face and big doll like eyes already make you look like a baby"

"exactly. Oddly enough I'd like to be taken seriously, and not IDed everytime I try and buy cigarettes" she sighed as she left the little bathroom and sat on his couch

He followed her out and sat down beside her, the springs of the decades old couch creaking under his weight He leant back, his arm along the backrest as he glanced at her "You shouldn't smoke, it makes you reek and ruins your health"

"You smoke." She snapped back

He shrugged in response, a smirk tugging at his lips "I'm a grown ass man and know the risks, unlike yourself, kiddo"

"I'm not a kid." She pouted

Benny smirked at her pouting and raised a dark brow, "You're pouting like a 4 year old who didn't get her way in a toy shop"

"I'm not a kid." She answered "I'm Y/A"

He rolled his eyes "so to me you're still a kid"

she huffed and ignored his comment

He chuckled in response and smiled, her pouting was only further proving his point "You really aren't helping your case, you look more and more like a bratty kid when you pout like that, kiddo"

Y/n continued to pout and tossed a cushion at his head

The cushion landed with a soft 'thud' against his skull and he chuckled in response, his hand grabbing the cushion before he smirked "Tsk, someone's throwing a tantrum"

"don't be a dick benny." She softly sighed still feeling emotional after all that had happened

His smirk quickly faded, feeling a pang of guilt for being so relentless on teasing her after what she'd been through today. He'd let himself get carried away with light banter and had crossed a line He put the cushion beside him and his tone softened "Sorry, I was just playing around, I didn't mean to piss you off"

she huffed a little and pulled her knees to her chest laying against the arm of the couch and bundling herself in her cardigan and the black and white blanket from the back of Benny's couch.

He watched her from his spot, feeling bad that he'd let his teasing go too far, that's not how he wanted her to feel now that she was here with him. He reached over grabbing the corner of the couch blanket and pulling it with surprisingly gentle strength so that he could lift it over his lap, shuffling closer to her and bringing the blanket over both of them He glanced across at her, seeing how she was huddled up into a little ball, curled against the side of the couch "C'mere, scoot over a bit" he said softly, patting his lap

she didn't speak she just tipped herself the other direction so her head fell into his lap, still bundled into a ball of sadness

He let her head fall onto his lap, feeling her sink against him He gently lifted his hand and started to stroke his fingers through her hair, the soft gesture an effort to comfort her

"What's wrong with me..." She muttered

He glanced down at her, continuing to soothingly stroke her hair and run his fingers across her scalp "The hell do you mean by that? There's nothing wrong with you, kiddo"

"I lost... I've never lost. Maybe I'm loosing my skill or just my mind. My sponsor dropped me, maybe they know I'm loosing it. And stupid Danny broke up with me..." She softly whined

He listened to the way she spoke, the slight tone of panic in her voice as she worried about her sponsor dropping her, her own skill. He'd never seen her like this "Hey, hey, relax" he said in a soothing tone, continuing to run his fingers through her hair "Just because you lost a game, doesn't mean you're loosing your skill or your mind. You just had a bad day, that's all. It happens to everyone" He paused for moment before continuing to speak, his voice remaining soft "And as for your sponsor, if they don't realise how much of a talent you are and drop you over one loss then you would be better off without them. And you're damn kid, you're better off without a boyfriend who would drop you like trash after one tough day"

she didn't reply still struggling with everything

Benny continued to soothe her, trying to comfort her by running his fingers through her hair "You've still got your career. You've still got your best friend right here at your side and there's gonna be plenty of other guys who would love to be with someone like you. This is all just a big stumble, but you'll pick yourself up again"

"What if I don't?"

He paused, his hand stopping in her hair as he stared down at her “Don't think like that, kiddo. You got your whole future ahead of you and you're an amazing chess player. You are gonna do great things still, and I'll still be here with ya every step of the way"

Y/n sadly nodded

He smiled down at her, continuing to run his fingers soothingly through her hair "You just need time to get your head straight again, okay? This is just a little stumble, nothing you can't come back from and no matter what I’ll be here,”

“You will?”

“I will. I promise. Rain or shine, snow or sun no matter what happens even if somehow you loose everything. I’ll still be right here and I’ll take care of you.”

“Thank you Benny,” she nodded with a hint of a smile,

“You’re welcome kiddo.” He teased leaning down to kiss her forehead, 

[teekays]

Davo for the character ask thing please!

this one took me so long because i have THINGS to SAY. i have cried in an airport over connor mcdavid. lets begin

First impression

i will be so real when i first got into hockey i totally fell for the like... this guy is the BEST agenda. mostly because i think i noticed that the praise he got was SO strong and i wanted to know what made him so good as opposed to other guys but i also noticed he got a lot of hate for being boring and i was like... they're all boring. why do we hate him for being boring specifically? and that led me on a quest to tease out The Connor Mcdavid Story

Impression now

i'm a mcdefender sorry. i know!! he's the most interesting guy in the world actually. like he IS boring but that is so clearly a purposeful obfuscation of whatever else he's got going on there that he developed because of course you're not going to just have your heart out there in the open as a first overall who's been hyped up for years as the Next One placed on a flop team in a flop city... it's also interesting to have seen that kind of relax a little bit in recent years and i think that relaxing is directly parallel to him becoming a little less like. black and white in his thinking which he very much was for a long time. like he's someone with a very strong sense of right and wrong and very strong ideas about How Things Should Be Done and as that has loosened up (because that's not conducive to like, being alive yknow) and as he's gotten more secure in his position he's gotten a little more willing to put himself out there which is fun. the morals thing does come out sometimes tho in that he will speak up if he feels like he needs to in the name of fairness. also i find his like, earnestness and the ways he's different than the nepo babies of the hockey world to be deeply charming even when they suck. like he's a shill grinding for his money but he's honest about it and i have to respect it. make your terrible millions and have a zero tolerance policy for being irreverent and Too Cool for the media while doing it. go white boy go

Favorite moment

sitting on mitch's lap in the everglades was a foundational babygirlism but also. right after the draft i don't remember who it was but little baby connor freshly in that oilers jersey was like "why are you ripping him to shreds rn he literally just got drafted" it makes my heart break into a million pieces i feel like when spongebob lost gary. because that's sooo... it's not him anymore really. but it will always be him and who he was.

Idea for a story

my sick and twisted mind has been percolating Mccareer ending injury for so long because i would like to see him freed from the shackles of hockey and having to build a life outside of what that means to him. who is connor mcdavid? find out next week when he escapes to a beach for a week and hates it

Unpopular opinion

say it with me now. estrogen could fix him! but also once again i think he is much less miserable than people want to think and if he is then it's justified. he lives in edmonton. you'd be sad too. also i covered this but he's actually a little freak and not boring at all if you know how to look at him!!!

Favorite relationship

i'm a mcstrome warrior til i die hashtag Your dead best friend is walking up the stairs hashtag I ain't a kid no more we'll never be those kids again. that being said i think also him and leon should get married. and another thing this may be also an unpopular opinion BUT i am actually so obsessed w ambitious girlboss lauren kyle and the way she so clearly runs their whole lives and he's so deeply okay with that... i think a common hockey boy trait is kind of always wanting to be told what to do because that's what you've done your whole life but to see someone quietly own it that way is so fun to me. i think she should lean into it and be like the tweet that's like "if two guys were in love with me i would manipulate them into doing gay shit together"/"if i had two boyfriends i'd dress them up like twins" with connor and leon and like leon is there for connor's benefit but she makes him think it's her idea so as not to upset the delicate balance. yknow?

Favorite headcanon

this is also from what we've seen mostly based in fact but he's absolutely dogshit at other sports. like. some guys are athletes and other guys are hockey players and he is absolutely a hockey player to his core. hilarious

[creepy--claws]

[● Trigger warning: Discussion of abuse, Skinamarink spoilers

Say what you want about Skinamarink but that shit scares me more than any ol' analog horror ever will. Yes the phone is my mortal enemy but that's not the point. It's what it means. Stuff like the windows and doors being taken, Kaylee having her face taken, and the toys on the ceiling and just disappearing in general

The shot with the toys on the ceiling and slowly getting further and further away and more out of reach...

I personally believe that it is all symbolism for abuse and though it does take a more dream-like form in execution, like a horrible nightmare a child would have, that's what situations like that feel like. I don't live in the worst household ever, but I do know what it's like to be physically punished for minor things, unfairly punished for minor things, and be antagonized by those you look up to. I saw somebody say something about how the demon taking the form of the mother is how children sometimes pretend that their parents are possessed or replaced by a supernatural entity so they don't have to face the reality of the situation. I notice I do something like this where I blame their horrible behavior not ok their ideology, but on their alcoholism because alcohol changes people and makes them worse people.

Let me also discuss Kaylee losing her face because she cried out for her mom and dad. They took away her mouth so she wouldn't speak about the pain she's going through, and this can be linked to just demon doing demon things, but it can be linked to a parent taking away their child's ability to talk because they might speak up about their trauma and make them look bad. I actually remember my mom doing something like this when I brought up something she did to harm me, which included harsh words and physical punishment for something I didn't do and she knows I didn't do. I brought it up while we were around other people and she did her best to deny it and change the topic by focusing on minor parts that weren't relevant to the actual point of what I said. It worked and nobody commented on it at all or took me seriously.

Another note is having to silently agree with bad things that your parents say in order to not get punished for thinking differently. I know my father will punish me and my sibling for speaking against his ideology. I try my best not to ever bring up those topics but he somehow manages to bring it into conversation despite it never being tied with the actual topic. What am I saying this isn't a bullet point I'm just getting emotional at 12am

But being in a rough situation with your sibling is really scary. You not only worry for yourself, but the one you grew up next to and lived beside for a long time. Seeing them go through unimaginable pain is agonizing, and it broke my heart to see that portrayed in this film.

One last thing. The title of the movie. Skinamarink. It's a reference to the nursery rhyme "Skidamarink" and I think a lot of things tie into it with a repeating cycle and constant never ending things that happen daily. The nursery rhyme is sort of repetitive with a few things interrupting the whole "Skidamarink a dink a dink" but it mostly stays consistent. Abuse is consistent and it carries out everyday in a cycle. It's something you can't just easily escape. I think one thing that links to the whole repetitiveness theme is the clip of the one cartoon playing over and over and over again before another toy is taken, another example is near the end where blood repetitively flies on and off of the ceiling with children crying in the background. That blood is spilled every day and it won't stop.

OK that's me overanalyzing media again because I see people shitting on this film for the cinematography but that's a little unfair because they're missing out on the true narrative. The narrative which scares me and chills me down to the bone because being stuck in an unsafe household does feel like a dark, scary nightmare where a demon lurks your house in place of your parents and you have no protection from the ones that hurt you because your guardians aren't there for you and the things you have left to cling to get further away as reality starts to yell in your face. I feel like the constant "go to sleep" is to get the children to ignore reality whereas the "wake up" is to get them to face reality head on. In my opinion the cinematography is fine, it captures the essence of a dark nightmare perfectly, and like you're all alone at night with nobody else there and only the comforts of items that make you feel better and bring you back to innocence. I just heard a scary noise so I'm going to leave now goodbye!]

[citrus-feline]

im sure there's ppl who have explored this topic before but w just a quick glance at a lot of interpretations, i wanted to just write up what i think Mesmerizer is actually about. most of the deep-dive takes ive seen have been shockingly surface level, but again, i don't interact w the vocasynth fandom much in terms of analysis. just writing this bcuz i keep thinking about it and want to put down my thoughts.

since i first watched/listened, my first interpretation was 'escapism in late stage capitalism' more than anything. i have a few reasons for this, like their outfits / name tags resembling fast food uniforms, the inclusion of bright and loud visuals to distract from the underlying negativity, the idea that you are better off being part of the status quo... etc.

clearly hypnotism is a huge implication, but leaving it just at that seems so shallow. what does the hypnotism MEAN? what is it symbolic of? i settled on the late stage capitalism escapism thru media, but i can see a few other takes. abusive relationships is another one i have considered. but i think the choices for aesthetics are what really convince me that it's about capitalism and how soul-sucking it is.

'you're tailor-made for this era' is not something most people want to hear these days, ESPECIALLY if you are doing a low-paying job with no respect. by ignoring the dissonance in your heart compared to the way society is right now, you disillusion yourself and are able to at least SOMEWHAT live as the 'ideal' for a late-capitalistic society. it's KNOWING you are being conditioned by the system but falling into it anyway because it hurts so much to try to fight it.

the subliminal messaging visuals also feed into this for me. maybe you dont notice it at first, you're fresh faced and optimistic, comfortable with the bright colors and happy theming, but then you notice it once and start to see it every where. you also notice offhanded cries for help from other people like this. it makes you spiral and realize that things aren't good. they may never be, not if you keep looking into it. your savior is to fall for the manipulation willingly so you don't go insane. even if it's scary to see other people around you fall for it, you start to do it as well because while they seem naive, they aren't nearly as miserable as the people who fight against it.

[sluttsxphobia]

Break ups ♥︎

F.w characters

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Who took it the hardest?: Finn

Reason: Finns being to clingy

Finn was always too attached to you it was unhealthy. He would whine when you would leave him it got to the point where he would hold your hand no matter what and wouldn't let you go. You started to get annoyed by his behavior so you confronted him. "Hey Finn?" You called out to him."yeah babe?" He replied coming down the stairs to see you. He quickly pulled you into a hug but you broke out of it. "Finn that's the problem you're too clingy!" You shouted but you didn't mean it to come out like that. "W-what?, I'm not clingy! Do you not appreciate me?" His voice started to shake. "No Finn its just.. You cling onto me a lot It's really.." "Annoying huh?" Finn interrupted you tears welling up in his eyes. "JUST SAY IT YOU THINK IM ANNOYING" Finn yelled out of rage and hurt. "Im sorry Finn I can't do this anymore." You said with your head down. "W-wait babe! I'm sorry i-i'll change!" Finn cried

"I'm sorry Finn"

"Please no you wouldn't do this to me you promised!" Finn started to grab my wrist. I shook off his hand and walked away.

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Who took it the hardest?: you

Reason?: his outbursts because of drugs.

You were on your phone scrolling away on social media when you heard boris come through the door looking mad as hell. "Listen you

чертова шлюха, мне не нравится, что ты трахаешься с другими парнями"

(Translation) you fucking whore

I don't like you screwing around with other guys)

"Boris English please" you said to Boris with concern.

"YOU SHOULD ALREADY KNOW SLUT" Boris yelled at you. His anger was fueled by drugs it like adding wood to fire only creates more.

You held back tears but stood up. "I never cheated LIKE you!" You yelled back. Boris had cheated on you with different girls many times but you always forgave him. It was that face it could pull any girl or guy. You can't believe you ever fell in love with him. His generosity? No. Barely even opens doors, doesn't do after care for you.(he does just for this chapter) . his faithfulness?, he sure is a faithful boyfriend.for cheating.

You felt a sting on your face and a pissed off boris. "That will teach you not talk back to-" " IM NOT YOUR FUCKING PET BORIS" you yelled with hurt in your voice. "What the fuck you say to me?" (Boris English is not good so-). "Nothing.." You mumbled, you were scared of Boris and what he could do. "Tell me котенок, do you love me?" Boris lifted my chin and lowered to my ear. "Say it" you froze for a second. "N-no!- get off Boris I'm leaving!" You yelled as you walked to the door.

Your POV✦

I walked to the door but boris caught my hand and brought me closer. He started to kiss my neck then my lips. God it was amazing but I couldn't be here anymore with him. "Stop Boris, we're over" I said boldly. He didn't stop so I pushed him away and opened the door to leave. He ran to my car but so did I. I locked my car door, but boris kept trying to open the handle. "Don't go котенок you know you don't want to" boris said staring at me. But I left with tears in my eyes. At least he is not my problem any more, I hate to think of it that way but it's true.

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ʏᴏᴜ ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ <3

Or....

Did you..?

��ɪᴄʜɪᴇ ✦

Who took it the hardest?: both

Reason?: Richie cheated

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Your POV✦

I was riding my bike to Richie's house after shopping with Beverly for many hours but I seen another bike at Richie house which were none of loser's. I became suspicious and dropped my bike off at his door and to see if it was locked it wasn't. 'What a dumbass' I thought I walked up the stairs to his room hearing moaning. 'What the fuck' was my first thought I crept towards the door and peeked through the crack. I seen my boyfriend and some hoe fucking on his bed. "I'm about to beat a bitch up" I say out loud. I slam the door open and Richie turns quickly. "What the hell is this?!" I question Richie getting more mad. " babe we were studying!, she came on to me!" Richie quickly defended him self and covered the girl with the sheets. "That's not what it looks like Richie, but its about to look like I beat up that bitch if she doesn't leave right now" I threaten. The girl quickly gets dressed and tries walk out the door but I grab her.hair and start punching her. "Wait babe!" I froze. He called her babe I couldn't think well hearing that. It hurt to know this was going on longer than I thought. I dropped the girl and stood there. "What the hell is wrong with you!" Richie screams at me. "What is wrong with you Richie, your clearly dating her behind my back." I say while crying a bit. Richie tells the girl to leave so she did. "You liar.. You fucking liar." I mumble but Richie heard. "I'm sorry, come here babe" Richie opened his arms but I turned away to leave. I'm not doing this anymore someone I loved was dating someone behind my back it hurt but I should've known. It was Richie I was talking about. "We're over Richie go date her, oh wait you already are!" I yell at him. "Babe no wait!" Im already down the stairs while Richie is calling my name from upstairs. I pick up my bike and see the girl sitting at his porch. "Sorry for messing up your face you can have him" I say to the girl, she smiles at me. I hate it but ride away.

After that I went to Eddie house through his window and told him what happened. Let's just say I took his first time.

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Damn y/n stole Richies bestfriend-

[giggles-and-tiggles]

Let Me Work!

You guys are really passionate about people sending me prompts, huh? XD I really appreciate it! Thanks for complimenting my work! It really means a lot to me. I was happy to make this fic! We all need some lee and ler Peter in our lives, right?

PLATONIC Peter x Reader

Summary: When Peter needs to work on an assignment that's worth almost half of his overall grade, you feel bored and the need to play. You try to take his attention off of the work, but it backfires when the tables quickly turn.

Word Count: 1,250

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You excitedly ran through the doors of the Avengers compound. Today was the day Peter promised you that you would spend the whole day together. Peter was your best friend and you never really got to hang out with him because of missions, and hero work. But today was going to be different. You and Peter were going to have a ball together. You made your way up to Peter's only to see him slumped over his desk with papers and books scattered all around him. He had one hand in his hair, while to other hand was messily scribbling down some words in a book.

"Wha - What are you doing?" You said, sadness taking over your voice.

Peter looked up at you with a sorry expression. "I'm so sorry, Y/N. I know we were supposed to hang out today, but something came up."

You made your way over to his desk and looked down at what he was doing. "C-Can't you just do the work later?"

"No can do, Y/N. This project is worth half of my grade and it's due tomorrow." Peter sighed.

You felt as if you could cry. You were looking forward to this day for weeks and now it can't happen. But you were still the kind of person to make the most out of a bad situation.

"Well, that's alright!" You said. "We can still hang out, I'll just sit on your bed and keep you company." You made your way behind Peter and took a seat on his bed.

"Y/N, I can't have any distractions." Peter stated.

"Okay, then. I won't talk." You said pulling out your phone and scrolling through social media. Peter turned around with a sigh and a smile and got right back to working.

The room was silent for a long while. With Peter flipping pages and writing things down, and you on his bed mindlessly pushing buttons and scrolling through random things, bored out of your mind. You let out a sigh and crawled closer to Peter's desk. You poked his back and he jerked violently.

"Y/N! Cut that out!" Peter demanded, but couldn't help the smile growing on his face.

"Pete, I'm bored!" You exclaimed.

"That's not my problem, Y/N/N!" Peter said, spinning around in his chair. "Go hang out with Mr. Stark!"

"He's in his lab with Dr. Banner."

"Go hang out with Steve."

"He went somewhere with Bucky and Sam."

"Wanda?"

"Wanda went somewhere with Pepper and Nat."

"THOR?"

"Thor... I don't know where Thor is."

Peter simply sighed.

"Everyone knew that we were supposed to be occupied today, so they went out to go do their own thing." You said.

Guilt soon took over Peter's facial expression. But he knew he had to get this project done.

"Y/N, as soon as I'm done with this, we can hang out together for the rest of the day. But this project is really important to me and I have to finish it today." Peter explained.

You looked at Peter with nothing but understanding. "Alright, Pete. No worries." You smiled. He smiled back and poked your side, before returning to his work. You giggled and fell back on the bed. You pulled out your phone again and decided to talk to some friends from school to pass the time.

An entire hour had passed and you were going crazy. How long was the project going to take? You arrived at Peter's room at around 8:42am and now it was 9:57am.

You sat up and poked Peter's side. He jerked violently and almost dropped his pencil. "Y/N dohon't!"

You smirked and poked both of his sides with both of your pointer fingers. You watched him jerk and flop around hilariously in his chair.

"Y/N stohohop!" He giggled, trying to grab at your hands. That's when you changed your poking into squeezing. Peter's laugh became louder and more frantic.

"What's the matter, Pete? A little too ticklish?" You teased.

"STOHOHOP Y/N!" I'm ahahalmost fihihihinished!" He laughed.

"Oh great!" You said making your tickling more sporadic and unpredictable. Peter clamped his arms down to his sides and laughed.

You shoved your hands into his armpits and he lost it. He threw his head back cackled.

"STAHAHAHAHAP IHIHIHIT! AHAHA PLEHEHEASE Y/N!" He begged, kicking his legs under his desk and trying to roll away in his chair.

"No, I don't think I will-" You were cut off by a sudden swift movement. Peter had spun around, hoped off his chair, grabbed your wrists, and pinned you down on the bed.

"You have your fun, Y/N?" He asked, towering over you.

"Mhm."

"Oh that's great, because now it's my turn." Peter said before digging his hands into your ribs.

"Peheheter w-AHAHAHAHAHAIT!" You squealed, pathetically trying to hit his hands.

Peter scribbled his hands all over your torso, seeing what spots made you react the worst and staying there for a while. All you could do was toss your head back and laugh.

"What's the matter, Y/N/N? A little too ticklish?" Peter teased.

"DOHOHOHON'T SAHAHAHAY THAHAHAHT, YOHOHOU JEHEHEHERK!" You squealed.

"Oh? But you said it to me first!"

Peter lifted up your shirt to reveal your tummy and blew a huge raspberry. Your laughter got loud and desperate. You starting hitting his head and grabbing at his hands, trying to get him to stop. But the more you hit him, the worse he made the raspberries tickle.

"NAHAHAO! NOHOHOHOHO MOHOHOHOHOHORE!" You screamed.

"More? Whatever you say, Y/N." Peter looked up at you with a wink.

You squealed and kicked when Peter started wiggling his fingers on your sides and blowing raspberries above your belly button.

"PLEHEHEHEASE PEHEHETER! IHIHIHIHI'M BEHEHEHEGGING YOHOHOU! STAHAHAHP!"

"Maybe you shouldn't have tickled me first, Y/N/N."

"IHIHIHI'M SOHOHOHOHOHORRY!"

Peter didn't listen to your desperate pleas, he just continued tickling the life out of you. You tried to roll off of the bed, but Peter always caught you and kept you in his grasp. You had nowhere to go.

Peter pinned one of your arms above your head and dug into your armpit. You squealed and tried to fight him off with your free hand, but of course it didn't work.

"PEHEHEHETER EIIHEHEHEHEHE! STAHAHAHAHAP PLEHEHEHEASE!"

"No, I don't think I will." Peter said with a smirk.

"YOHOHOHOHOU JEHEHEHERK!" You cried.

Peter placed his hands on your tummy and wiggled his fingers all around. You instantly dissolved into loud giggles.

"You're super ticklish, Y/N. It's so cute." Peter said, bringing his face closer to yours.

"Stohohohop!" You giggled, trying to pry his hands off of you. Peter picked up on the desperation in your voice and decided it was time to give you break.

"Ughh, fine." Peter finally let you go and you gasped for air.

You looked up at Peter and saw him getting dressed.

"What- what are you doing?" You asked.

"Getting ready. You still want to hang out, right?" Peter smiled.

You looked over at Peter's desk. "What about your project? Did you finish it?"

"Nah. But it's only a little bit of work left. I can do it when we come back."

A warm feeling rushed throughout your body. You really loved Peter, he was the greatest friend you could ever ask for. "Alright."

Peter took your hand and rushed out of the door. Your day was great. You couldn't imagine spending this beautiful day with anyone else.

~~*~~

[blxetsi]

armin arlert, mikasa ackerman, and eren jaeger polyamorous headcanons (modern au)

armin arlert x gn!reader, mikasa ackerman x gn!reader, eren jaeger x gn!reader, mikasa x armin x eren x gn!reader

warnings: uhh fluff, this is very long, reader has a gf b4 getting w ema,

this is like my first post since feb that isnt a request 😍😍😍 how did i pull this out of my ass

- obv eren, mikasa, and armin have been besties since childhood so its no wonder they all got together first 🤩🙏

- and theyre all hot so why wouldnt they wanna date each other

- i think armin and eren wouldve gotten together first, and then invited mikasa into their relationship

- the three of them have been officially going steady for like over a year now, and its going really well

- they didnt really expect you to drop into their lives tho

- youre an old friend of historia's and you two reconnected after you moved to the city, securing yourself a decent paying job working as a writer for the city paper

- you usually get the boring stuff, never able to get a good story to write about, focusing your time on heartwarming stories in the community or the sports column

- its boring but it pays the bills

- you were thankful when historia called you during your lunch and asked if you wanted to get drinks at a bar with her and a couple of other friends

- of course you said yes

- so historia and her girlfriend ymir picked you up after work, having dinner with them after a long week was the best, but you were a bit nervous to meet all of their friends

- thats how you met eren, mikasa and armin

- at first you were sure that mikasa and eren were dating, seeing as mikasa had her head on the taller man's shoulder, while his arm was wrapped around her

- but when armin leaned down to give mikasa a kiss before heading off to the bar you werent so sure

- ymir pulled you away to get more drinks and explained to you what the situation was, while commenting on the way you gawked at the three of them before

- you were embarassed to say the least but they didnt bring it up that night so you hoped the throuple didnt notice (they did)

- you really hit it off with all of them though, especially sasha and jean, and were constantly talked about among the friend group

- because of your demanding job dealing with writers block and deadlines you couldnt really meet up with all of them often, usually just having sleepovers at ymir and historia's apartment, the three of you drinking while you wrote on your laptop

- after a couple months of casual hangouts with historia and ymir and their friends, you kinda became one of them too which was nice

- you were added to the groupchat, you all followed each other on social media, and a certain brunet had taken a liking to you

- eren didnt know why exactly he was so attracted to you but he was, maybe it was your hair, or how pretty your skin looked even when oily or with breakouts, maybe it was your smile or your body or your sense of humor or you kindness or maybe it was all of it

- eren jaeger would always stay faithful to his boyfriend and girlfriend, but maybe they could add another person into the mix, more to love right ?

- he had only known you for a couple of months though, he didnt want to jump the gun and bring this up with his partners so soon, especially if they didnt feel the same way he did

- and it would be a bummer if you turned out to be a bad person or smth

- so summer rolls around with lots of memories being made with your new friends, as well as friends from work, and you get a girlfriend ??

- shes not really your girlfriend you two have only been out on a couple of dates and she kisses you a lot but, you havent talked about labels

- one night you, along with your friends are back at the same bar where you first met them

"so, tell us about the girl youre seeing." ymir says, smirking over her beer.

eren's ears perked up at the mention of you seeing someone. "girl ?"

historia nodded. "mhm ! y/n's been talking to someone recently, they've gone on dates and kissed and stuff."

"and stuff, jesus tori you make it sound like we've had sex." you sighed.

the blonde just laughed, leaning her body onto her freckled companion.

"well ? what about her ?" eren asks. armin slapped him on the arm, already having suspicions about eren's interest in you.

your shoulders sagged. "well, she's great and everything, truly..."

"but ? is there a but in this ?" connie asked. sasha started laughing at connie's use of the word but, while jean slapped the girl on the arm because of her reaction.

you shrugged, swirling what was left of your fruity cocktail in your glass. "well, i'm not sure. she's very lively, and sweet. but i don't know, i just don't see myself being able to be in a steady relationship with her."

"so you're gonna end it ?" eren asked. you thought he seemed a bit too eager about your failure in the love department.

"why do you care so much ? you like the thought of me being lonely ?" you shot back, before downing the rest of your drink.

"no i just-"

"i think what eren means is," mikasa intervened, her smooth voice calming you as she looked at you with a smile on her face. "is that there's no point in staying with her if you can't see yourself with her. don't lead her on."

you nodded. "you're exactly right my friend. which is the plan for tonight because i," you quickly checked the time on your phone. 8:17. "have a date with miss molly at nine, so i will be taking my leave."

the group engaged in a chorus of boos for leaving so early, while you chuckled and took the lighthearted insults thrown at you by sasha and connie with ease. grabbing all of your things you put down two twenties onto the table. "i'll see you guys later, have a goodnight." as you walked off you heard jean yell "have a good time you heartbreaker !" making you shake your head

- the date with molly went less then well. she yelled, and cried, and even tried hitting you at one point. your walk back from the park was spent blocking her on every form of social media you followed her on, and when you got back to your apartment you spent the night in a hot bath before retiring to bed

- meanwhile, armin and mikasa were trying to pry the truth out of eren, who was constantly denying his attraction to you

- finally mikasa took one for the team "eren, you aren't alone with the way you feel, i do too." this made eren more willing to open up to his partners

- armin doesnt say anything about you, only saying how youre kind. he doesnt feel the way that his girlfriend and boyfriend do, but he knows that may change

- soon enough, more time flies and christmas rolls around, with you all deciding to have a secret santa get together.

- historia invites everyone to her home on christmas eve, with ymir begrudgingly allowing it

- bertholdt and annie come too, reiner not being able to make it due to going home for christmas, while everyone else decided to stay in the city

- you picked out your secret santas at the beginning of november so you would all have enough time to find something for each other, you hoped whoever picked your name gave you something good

- after hours of games and karaoke and drinking you all decided it was time to open the presents

- ymir got socks from bertholdt, connie got an ugly beanie from ymir, historia got new pens from mikasa, mikasa got knitting needles from annie, annie got a dumbell from eren, jean got a not so appropriate t shirt from connie, jean gave sasha more comic books, armin gave new stationary paper to bertholdt, sasha gifted you that new biography you've been wanting to read and you gave armin your old copy of frankenstein by mary shelley

- he was surprised but very thankful, "how did you know i needed a new copy ?" "well i remember you said eren spilt water on your old one, and the pages just stuck together so i thought you might as well have mine"

- it warmed armin's heart that you remembered something so insignificant, and opened him up to the thought of being with you

- the rest of the night was spent with hugs and thankfulness, cheering when the clock struck 12 and it became christmas day

- after getting things cleaned up everyone decided it was time to leave, with armin, eren and mikasa offering to give you a ride home

- a ride where armin straight up kissed you in the backseat

- you stopped him of course, thinking that it was weird he would cheat on his partners right in front of them, while they were shocked all on their own for different reasons, armin who didnt have feelings for you KISSED you

- and surprisingly armin took the lead in explaining how he felt, why he kissed you, an apology for doing so, and an offer to start dating all three of them

- your heart was pounding in your ears and your entire face felt hot, it was probably the alcohol, or the way his lips felt so soft when they touched yours, so you said yes.

- its not smooth sailing from there

- youre kind of awkward

- this is your first relationship where you really feel like you could love these guys (you already do) but its also your first relationship with multiple people

- the trio start inviting you over more often, soon for sleepovers, and start inviting themselves over at your own place, mainly eren

- he just comes at random times, sometimes when youre not even there and waits for you, or stays and cleans up a bit before leaving

- armin and you share a deep love of literature, and you often find yourselves in hot debates about whatever youve read (mikasa and eren have to pry you two away before things get physical)

- mikasa likes to cook with you, she shares recipes that her mom taught her, and her and armin love to cook dinner together whereas eren is the breakfast maker of the household

- the first time you slept in the same bed as them you were so nervous your whole body thumped to the tune of your heartbeat, you were convinced armin could even hear it as he was laying beside you, but eren wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you into his large chest before whispering "youre as stiff as a board, relax honey"

- eren snores, mikasa drools, armin has those dreams where you fall and then violently wake up before you hit the ground

- slowly but surely you stop thinking about your relationship as the trio and you, but as all of you together, and that really helps you come out of your shell a bit

- you may still be in the honeymoon phase, and there may be bumps along the way, but you like being with armin, eren, and mikasa. they make you so happy, it feels like the happiest youve been in a long time

- you like watching eren and armin dance in the living room while you and mikasa cuddle on the couch, before the boys pull you two up as well

- you like when armin reads to you, his soft voice reciting the words of the great gatsby

- you like it when eren can just tell youve had a rough day, and pulls you into a hug like hes protecting you from all the bad things in the world

- you love being with them. you love them. and you think that theyre it for you

i rushed the ending bc im fucking tired but i kinda wanna do a poly!series with like sasha, connie and jean, or annie, bertholdt and reiner, or any other poly ships u guys may request !

so yeah pls give me feedback it rlly helps me figure out whether you want a polyamorous series (or just like what i write in general), and it would be my first series ever which would be super cool anyways

yeah requests open for poly!ships anyways

[yn-dreamlife]

Do I know you?

AU!denki kaminari X reader 

Warnings: breakup, angst, fluff

Description: in high school denki always spoke of his dreams of debuting as a musician and when he was going to give it all up for you you didn’t let him. And when you see him years later your heart breaks all over

“I got it... I’m gonna debut.” Denki whispered holding the paper loosely in his hand.

“Denki that’s amazing I’m so proud of you!” I hugged him but he shook his head. I pulled away confused. “what’s wrong?” I whispered placing a hand on the electric man I have come to love.

“I’m not going.” He sounded so determined but I could see how much it hurt him.

“What?! Why?! You’ve been working so hard, this is your dream!”

He shook his head. “no y/n you don’t get it!” He shouted and I took a step back. Denki never yelled at me. he sighed deeply cupping my cheek. “I’d have to leave Musutafu.”

“So? What does that matter Denki?”

He looked hurt by my words. “That means I would have to leave you!”

I tilted my head confused. “no you wouldn’t I would come with you!” But it dawned on me then. I couldn’t leave Musutafu, not while I had to take care of my father and keep going to school. “Denki,” I hesitated but steeled myself I would not let him give up his dream. Not for me. “you're going.”

“No, I’m not!” He protested, “I don’t want to leave you!” it was now or never I had to say it, no matter how much I didn’t mean it.

“But I want you to!” The look on his face broke my heart. I wanted to reach my hand out and brush away the tears but I can’t. “I don’t want to be with you anymore Denki.”

“W-what? Y/n stop this!” He said cupping my cheek but I brushed him off.

“No, I’m serious.” He stood not moving. “Go!” I yelled at him, the tears were so close to falling. If I broke now I knew it would never last, I would fall back into his arms apologizing and forever be guilty he gave up his dream for me. He left then and as the door clicked shut I whispered “I’m sorry.” As I crumpled to my knees and the sobs ripped their way through my throat. I pulled out my phone calling the only person I could think to call.

“What the hell do you want!” Katsuki said gruffly into the phone.

“Suki.” I whimpered.

“Shit- what happened?! Are you hurt?!” He spoke quickly but I could hear the worry.

“D-Denki he-” A sob stopped me.

“Hang on ill be right there!” He yells into the phone before hanging up. I don't move from my spot on the floor, I just sit and cry when suddenly the door is kicked open.

“Y/n!” I hear him yell as he slides on his knees over to me. “What did dunce face do?! Did he hurt you?! I’ll kill him!” He screamed as he looked me over.

“I-I broke up with him!” I sob.

“w-what? But you love him,” He spoke confused.

“I-i do but-” The sobs were too strong and I couldn't get my story out. He held me for a long while without saying anything. When he finally did speak he said he was going to call Denki and sort this whole thing out.

“No!” I cried ad he stared at me confused as I snatched his phone.

“I broke up with him because he was going to give up his chance at a debut because he didn't want to leave me!” I speak quickly my voice shaking.

His eyes soften even more as he nods and I break down sobbing again. Katsuki stayed with me for a while after that, making the trip to his hero agency from my house. He knew I couldn't be alone right now. I thought I had gotten better but then I heard his name on the radio and went all downhill again.

Katsuki comforted me once again, he knew the pain to some degree. He remembers when Kirishima got his first girlfriend before they had confessed to each other in high school, he felt like he was dying.

But he could barely imagine the pain you were in now. You and Denki had been together for four years, if not more. The truth is you always lost track with him, it just didn't feel long at all but it also felt like it had been over thirty years.

Your father sadly passed away a few months after your break-up, you never felt more alone in your life. Even with Katsuki there, you knew he longed to be back at his shared apartment with Kirishima, so you sent him back.

You pretty much had forced him to leave, he couldn't help it. You were like his sister he wanted to take care of you. Of course, he also felt bad for Denki, he was still his friend too. Luckily Kirishima handled him for the most part, Katsuki couldn't do both on his own without getting caught in a mix.

“Oh god Eij, I don't know what's gonna happen with her.” He said his first night back. “What if someone breaks in? What if she calls him? What is she hears about him on the radio or social media? What if-” Kirishima cut off his fiance's worries with a kiss.

“She’s a big girl, she can handle this. Besides at some point, she was going to have to learn how to live on her own again, so let her do it on her own terms.” He whispered caressing the side of his lover's face.

You hadn't gotten any better at your house, well you kind of did. You stopped crying, but now all you really felt was numb. You wanted him back, simple as that.

There was no ands, ifs, or buts you simply wanted your boyfriend back. But in the end, you were happy for him, he was going to live his dream. Even if he couldn't have you with him. Although you had considered calling him once your dad died but thought better of it.

He was probably busy working on his first album or something. What you didn't know is that he saw your father's name in the electronic paper and wished you had called. No, more than that. He wished he had called. You were mourning the death of your father, he should have called to check.

But he couldn't bring himself to do it. So instead he asked his friends, the only connection he had to you really. He sent them letters to give to you at random times, as well as sending pre-orders of flowers into local flower shops so they would be delivered while he was on his first tour and you would never know the batch of yellow roses were from him.

Each gift made you smile every time and the explosive blonde was always sure to thank his friend for what he did for you even if he was still under the impression you had fallen out of love with him.

It was a little over three years later. Denki was finishing up another tour, and he was a huge star by now. He was doing a show in Musutafu Japan and everyone from class 1A was coming. It was fitting since that’s where you all went to school.

I was shocked when I got my invite but I just assumed he had an assistant send an invite to all 1A students. The concert was in a week or so Denki wouldn’t be in town for a few more days so to say I was shocked at what was happening was an understatement.

I was just walking around the park near my apartment like always when I looked down at my phone and then seconds later ran straight into someone. I ended up almost falling except the stranger caught me.

I looked up only to see a familiar pair of golden eyes. “D-Denki?!” I stuttered out shocked.

“Uh...” he looked at me confused.

“Oh my goodness I am so sorry.” I bowed deeply before I hesitantly stood back up straight seeing as he was still confused.

“Dens? You okay?” The nickname slipped out so easily. Just like his first name had.

“Dens?! I’m sorry do I know you?” I looked at him shocked and hurt tears welling in my eyes.

“Are you serious?” He raised an eyebrow. “Unbelievable.” I scoffed.

He stood there silently as I began to walk away “glad to know three years erasers four years worth of memories. I should have known better.” I scoff as I roll my eyes walking over to Katsuki's car that I see waiting to pick me up for lunch.

“W-wait!” I hear him call behind me but before he can I get into the car.

“Is that Denki?!” Katsuki asks shocked.

“Yeah,” I mutter bitterly. Katsuki gives me a raised eyebrow but I shake my head. He gets out of the car to greet his friend.

“Oi dunce face you weren't supposed to be here for another few days!” I hear Katsuki yell before closing the door and going to talk to him. I can’t hear anything but mumbled words. I try to ignore the way my heart hurts as I wipe the silent tears from my cheeks, missing the golden eyes on me.

“Hey, Kachan!” Denki says embracing his friend his mind still reeling from realizing it was YOU he bumped into. “I-is that-“

Katsuki cuts him off. “Y/n? Yeah.”

“Shit. I didn’t even recognize her.” Denki says embarrassed.

“Really?!”

“Well yeah. The last I saw her was three years ago and as much as I wanted to I’d never allow myself to look at her socials. It... it just hurt too much.”

That’s when Katsuki remembers, you two didn’t just break up YOU dumped HIM. The last thing he thought was that you fell out of love with him.

“Yeah, I guess a lot had changed.”

“Yeah, but once I saw her eyes it hit me. I’d never forgotten those eyes.” Katsuki could tell the second he saw Denki's eyes hit you, he was still in love with you.

“Hey dunce face there’s something you should know-.” Katsuki started but before he could finish Denki was getting a call.

“Shit it’s my manager I wasn’t supposed to leave the hotel. I-I’ll catch up with you later okay? It was really nice talking to you Kachan!” Denki says as he hugs his friend before answering the phone quickly rushing off.

Katsuki sighs As he goes back to the car. “Aw, the great and famous Denki have to leave already? Too good to hang around us commoners for too much longer?” You asked bitterly.

Katsuki looked at you shocked. “Don’t give me that! He didn’t even recognize me! I mean you’d think after four or more years of being together every day you would remember a person! But noooooo now your famous and too good to even remember the girl you were supposedly in love with!” You yell. Katsuki puts a hand in your shoulder and you look at him.

“It’s okay to still be sad y/n. You can let it out.” With that, it was like the damn bust. The fake facade of anger faded and the tears leaked from your eyes.

“I-it fucking hurts. I think about him every. Single. Day. And he just.... forgot about me.”

“You know he never kept up with you in social media....” Katsuki says softly.

“What?” You ask pulling away.

Katsuki begins to drive as you continue. “He said he never kept up with you on social media, it hurt too much. You gotta remember y/n/n in his mind... you fell out of love with him.”

It all set in then. And the rest of the car ride was silent as you thought about what he said.... he was right that’s how you ended it. Convincing Denki you didn’t love him that you didn’t want him. In his mind, there must be no reason for you to be upset because you left him.

It was the day of the concert and you had made up your mind you were going to talk to him. Explain, and at the very least after that get him to forgive you. At the best.... well you wouldn’t even think of that, it’s not possible.

You were standing in the front row staring up at the stage as you watched him come out. Energetic and bursting with happiness. You smiled widely tearing up, this was his dream... and he was happy. At the very least you don’t regret what you did.

You watched him perform his songs watching him dance and sing feeling the energies of everyone around you. The crowd loved him almost as much as he loved them. You couldn’t help but feel like you kept seeing his eyes flick to you but you convinced yourself that it was just the rest of the class he was looking at.

At one point he sang the song he used to sing to you. It was a love song he wrote, it described you and all the things he thought were so perfect that you thought were flaws. There was a full ache in your chest listening to it.

Remembering all the times he would hold you as he sang the words softly. Or when he would cup your cheeks and sing lines to you. The soft moments shared just between the two of you flashing in your mind. What you didn’t know if they always flashed in his.

The rest of class 1A looked between you two. Knowing that you both still so clearly loved each other. Even after so long apart.

After that, the concert had ended you and the rest of class 1A went backstage.

“Oi dunce face!” Katsuki yelled you giggled softly seeing Denki turn around a soft blush on his cheeks but a wide smile on his face. He embraced Kirishima, Katsuki, Hanta, and Mina.

You missed the way he instinctively went to hug you too because you’re weren’t looking at him. You all were catching up enjoying hearing stories and sharing bits of your own personal life. You didn’t talk much and when you did it wasn’t for long. Finally, people were talking amongst themselves and you decided it was time.

You went to look for Denki snd when you couldn’t find him you asked around. You heard that he was out meeting fans so you went to find him. What you saw was beautiful. Denki was beaming as he took photos and signed autographs. One of the girls looked up at his eyes shining.

“E-excuse me M-mr. Kaminari s-sir.” She stuttered.

“Hey there what’s your name? And please just call me d-Denki!” He said happily taking the photo and marker the girl handed him.

“U-um Naomi.” She stuttered before clearing her throat and straightening her shoulders. “I was wondering who was your last song about?”

“My last song?” He asked to clarify and she nodded a soft smile formed as he signed the photo handing it back and grabbing the next giving the girl a smile. “It was actually about my first love. We broke up when I debuted it just.... wasn’t the right circumstances so she ended things with me.”

“She sounds stupid.” One girl scoffed.

“Yeah what idiot would leave you? I mean I would drop anything to date you.” Another chimed in.

“I mean she couldn’t have been THAT amazing like your song says if she left you.” A third chimed in.

Tears welled in your eyes. You were stupid to leave him, and you weren’t the same girl his song described.

“Hey Guys c’mon don’t-“ Naomi tried to cut in only to be cut off.

“I think you should leave.” A low voice said and your head snapped up. Denki stood their shoulders tensed and eyes hardened.

“What?!” The three girls gasped in unison.

“I said leave. I’ll have you know that she was better than what my song described! And those circumstances she wasn’t willing to drop was her father who was severely ill. How dare you talk about someone you don’t know like that!” He says anger evident in his voice. Hell, it fucking radiates from him.

Denki gave Naomi one last smile before glaring at the other girls again and turning to walk away. When he did turn he got a few paces before stopping dead in his tracks his eyes locking with yours.

You stood there shocked the tears that had slipped down your face still there and your eyes most likely a little red.

“Y/n?! Sunshine what’s wrong?!” He says rushing to you instinctively cupping your cheeks.

“Y-you... t-they...” your brain wasn’t working. For once you were the one short-circuiting.

“They had no right to talk about you like that and I’m sorry you heard it. And I’m sorry about the other day too when I didn’t recognize you. I hadn’t seen you in so long.” He says as he rubs your cheek softly. “But then I saw your eyes and I heard that fiery attitude of yours and recognized you instantly.” He said a soft smile on his face.

“I don’t regret it you know?” You blurted out. His face dropped and he pulled his hand away. But you grabbed it holding it in your own okaying with his fingers as you continued. “I saw you up there... you were fucking glowing dens. The energy you radiate on that stage and the energy I felt from that crowd, I would never regret hurting both of us if it meant this for you.”

“Y/- wait did you say hurting both of us?” He asked tilting his head.

“Of curse both of us.”

“But you- you said that you didn’t love me.”

“I... I kinda lied. I- I knew you would stay and I didn’t want to take your dream away from you. So I lied, but dens you gotta know that there is nothing that hurt me more than that. God I still fucking love you but I would go through it all again if it means you get your dream- THIS dream.”

He softly whispers “You love me?” And your eyes widen. Shit, you did say that out loud? You mod closing your eyes waiting for the rejection. You drop his hand.

“Y-yeah. But it’s okay, you have thousands of wonderful eligible people. Hell, you might even be with someone. I wouldn’t expect you to have waited around all these years when you thought I didn’t love you.” There was more silence as you continued to avoid his gaze.

“I- I think I should go, get back with the others. Leave you to your fans. You can just forget everything I said haha.” The laugh was forced and pitiful, you both heard it and you inwardly cringed.

“Why would I forget it?” He whispered and you looked to him only to see the widest smile you had seen since you two were together “why would I forget the love of my life saying she still loves me? Am I crazy?!” And with that, he pulled you into his arms and kissed you deeply.

His fans roared with applause and cheers, you found yourself blushing but not pulling away. “I sang my song to you for a reason sunshine, it's 'cause your still my whole fucking world.” He whispered. And you found yourself smiling just as wide.

The next day the chargers, Denkis fan base, had your ship name with him trending on Twitter. Thousands of pictures and posts of you two together and kissing exploded on the internet wondering if it was just a publicity stunt.

But those theories were silenced when Denki got past his PR people and posted a tweet about how he was finally back with the love of his life.

And when Denki saw a familiar face, the girl Naomi from the night before and the words of encouragement and love she sent towards the two of you in hopes of amending what her now ex-friends said. The girl found herself gaining quite a few followers. All with names suspiciously like the Baku-squad hero names. With pictures of people that seemed just a bit too similar to the hero’s and singer, she loved so much. But her favorite was “y/n/n0230” who sent her a quick message thanking her for the kind words.

The chargers were thrilled that you two were together but no one was as happy as the two of you.... well except maybe the rest of your squad, happy to see their two balls of sunshine shining once again.

[ofgentleresolve-a]

If you're taking topics to do headcanon posts on, would it be okay to perhaps suggest 'falling outs' as in interpersonal relationships? Or perhaps 'friendship' instead, as a broader topic :3

i didn't think anyone was gonna actually read the tags and take me up on this ( ft. word game ( i have no meme *cries* ) w/ @mythvoiced ) || always accepting!!

ahhh, lena thank you so much for sending this in!! i didn't think someone would actually take me up on this but lemme see what i can come up with. i'll do the first one ( for now ) since a lot of their backstories do deal with fall outs!

hc set 2: falling out

mana.

she doesn't make friends easily so when she does find one in someone, she holds on tightly. fingers digging into skin tightly

before daniel, she didn't have any friends, even in high school. she was known as the quiet loner bookworm

there were a few people who approached her with the intention of friendship, but they left pretty quickly once they realized she liked being quiet and doing nothing more than read ( ie. many of them approached her with their ego in mind- she was a project for them to fix, whether they realized that or not )

she figured this would be the case in college too- and then daniel happened. first person who got along with her well naturally but also accepted her as she was.

pls don't judge her too hard, but she did have a fall out with calum before they started going out. happened about a month after they graduated from college.

he was with daniel's grandfather in incheon and instead of coming back to the states, he decided to keep traveling. that's when she stopped answering his messages, picking up his calls

essentially ghosted him

calum was genuinely upset about that and they did talk about it when the topic of daniel was finally breached

she felt like he was willingly drifting away from her. she had seen the pictures and insta stories he put up while he was there- he seemed so much happier than when he was around her ( skewed outlook - they were in an environment where daniel's presence permanated everywhere )

it also reminded her in a way of how her mother abandoned her. didn't think she could take being left behind again

raphael.

just like with customers at a restaurant, friends, loved ones, co-workers, people come and go

one day he'll be working alongside with someone for years, in the next they'll be off to another place without any warning. no chance at an actual goodbye

most of his actual friends were from culinary school, never from anywhere he actually worked

co-workers saw him as a rival ( thanks dad ) and could easily take advantage of his generosity; he learned to keep his cards close back there. made making friends very difficult there, which is something ray needs

leaving the culinary world for him also meant disappearing off the map- he intentionally didn't contact any of his friends from culinary school. still hasn't to this day

he knows he shouldn't think this, but it's kind of a relief, no longer having any connections to the culinary world. when he left, it was a big media thing. he changed his number and went incognito for a while there

his friends pushed him to improve his cooking in any way possible and while he needed it to grow as a chef, it came at the cost of his well-being

he assumes they've moved on since it's been about two years since that time ( he doesn't realize they're still looking for him )

but no connections there, means he's free. gets to do whatever the hell he wants

lamon.

uh oh. yikes. so you know those people who take breakups really hard? the one who is constantly getting left behind? yeah so that's lam

so while he was very close with robin, the friendship really wasn't all that healthy

there were rumors about her. bad ones, ones where multiple people recounted times she screwed them over ( whether it was about money, emotions, etc. )

but when they came to lam's ears, he didn't believe them. or rather, he didn't want to believe them- how could someone who has been nothing but kind towards him do that.

she told him they were all just being mean. she had a reason for doing all of it. blinded by his loyalty, he believed her, even if her reasoning for many of those situations ( many of which also unfolded in front of his eyes ) felt off.

slowly, he found himself withdrawing from his other friends, who flat out told him they didn't like her. he knew she didn't have a great family life so if he left too, she wouldn't have anyone else.

robin still had her friends though. lamon found himself growing resentful that while she had her friends, he no longer had any because she made him pick sides

it all came to a head that fateful night. he picked the fight before they left and then she intentionally crashed their car into another

the other person was severely wounded- unable to walk for the rest of their life. their family members blamed robin. robin blamed lam for what he said

he realized she was right. he should've just been grateful for her friendship ( ie. this was a very human reaction on his end, picking the fight )

with robin serving time, he didn't have any other close friends to fall back on. he also realized in this time, many of the things they had said about her was actually right- because if you're in this much drama with other people and you're the common denominator, well then

okay so he had a few friends who welcomed him back to campus, but for the most part he felt horrible. a stupid person who couldn't do anything right. who did nothing but hurt the people around him.

fell into a bad depression. isolated himself for the rest of his college days for the most part from the guilt of hurting her.

ray's friendship really saved him back there- reminded lam that if someone like ray could take a liking to him, maybe he wasn't as terrible of a person as he thought he was

the guilt's lessened over time, but he still thinks about her a lot

yoojin.

one thing yoojin learned early on as an immortal person- don't get attached to anyone

but he can't help it. he likes being around people and being around people means you inevitably get attached

he's had friends, family, and lovers ( no children though ) come and go. and it hurts every single time

sometimes he's the one left behind. sometimes he cuts the relationship off before the other party gets any more attached. he'd rather be the one cut off than the one doing the cutting off

it's better than losing them to something drastic, like disease. or war. or even old age.

these days he's accepted none of these relationships will be forever so it's best to cherish them all while they're still there

you know the idea of a hand in water- think of the water like love and relationhsips. they're all surrounding him- he holds them loosely so he can adjust easily when they're gone

it sucks though bc he doesn't think he'll find love/friendship that'll last, he thinks he's going to be forever alone

[sleepynegress]

WandaVision Finale Early Summation Thoughts...

^^^ Not even remotely the same energy, except in magnitude... and maybe traumatic baggage. Elves be long-lived, meaning they carry a lot of shit and I'm sure the one ring exploits that...but I digress.

...This entire series taken as a whole is some of the best visual fictional media to ever tackle mental health.

And I mean that.

MONICA!!!

They are really following comic canon. FakePietro got to use his powers on her ONCE and she learned that shit and took him down easily... The SAME power that was used well to almost be the saving grace of that last terrible X-men movies. She turned into energy!!!!!! And the bullets just phased on through... The bullets just phased through a black woman, who was shot by men in uniform working for the government.... *whew!* And OMG, when the extra scene happened and Skrull Agent said they wanna get her into space... I imagined Talos and fam and Nick Fury turning into that (accurate) Cedric The Entertainer bit about how black relatives act when they see grown-ups after a long time away... "YOU LOOK JUST LIKE YO MOMMA!! *hug!*" et al.... I looked like wet bichon frischet at the end of this... the tears came so good w/ this ep. Everything w/ Vision (AHHHH!!! THE SHIP. OF THESEUS), the kids.... Well. Done. Wanda and the magnitude of that "I'm fine." mask. ONLY a fantastical genre could really do that metaphor for traumas a lot of us are masking to get through, right. And seeing her rise up and encompass her true self and healthily let go of her hurts, her loves, and pains.... TEARS!!! (I hope she manifests a monetary settlement forthe pain and suffering of the townspeople tho). Which is why Scorsese can piss off with his much easier, since it doesn't come from a "look down your nose" genre.... Love his films. They are classics. But I never cried for any of his characters or felt that rich a connection to them. I was entertained, but the empathy was much stronger w/ this show. Old white man jealousy.

So basic, so common. (and it's probably gonna destroy us all, TBH but I digress!)

Kids, love your genre (romance/fanfic/fantasy/horror/scifi etc...). Create in it with love and confidence, fuck these haters. Paul Bettany really is a troll (had me looking for a Blue Marvel and shit) and it don't even matter because the final product really brought it to a nice close. That was good. I hope these awards shows can get over themselves enough to properly award the people who participated so well. Also, JImmy Woo using common sense to take down Hayward, his heart-eyes for Monica... (I need recurring references to his obvious crush on her in future MCU). Also ALSO!! Nice continuity there when Dr. Darcy used the clown van to take out an armored vehicle (because it was an armored vehicle w/ molecules rearrranged to look like a clown van). IMMA MISS THIS SHOW!!!

[lie---ability]

for too many times in my life had i been wrong about people. so much that anyone who tries to have anything with me makes me anxious. i even get anxious about my upcoming job at Virus & Partners because new people = chances of any of them hurting me. i have been wrong about people so much that i think it's because i idealize them so much. i mean an example could be us hanging out everyday, do a lot of things together, stay out late together, ditch others for each other, chat each other right after being together the entire day, say i love you and get home safe — and i'd think we're best friends!!! only for her to say we never were. and that she never wanted to be close with someone like me. so it must be me, right? maybe i just fell in love with the thought that she's a great best friend. at the same time i think, no. she was a best friend, she did exist. that version of her existed. or at least did when it was convenient or beneficial to her, but when the time came where it wasn't, she threw me under the bus, become totally different from who i loved. who i proudly said was my best friend. all those months that built up my comfort, trust, attachment — ended up being told as a lie. and if it came from the person herself that they were lies, who am i to say she's just saying that for whatever reason? she said it herself. we weren't best friends even if she said it before. so what was the truth? was i just really stupid and idealistic? or are people just so awful now? it's like i'm this fish in a pond who's so easy to catch with just the right amount of treat. like i'd swim away when you approach but try a bit more and i'd fall for it. attachment issues suck, more so my abandonment issues.

but this post isn't about jodie. this is about my first boyfriend, rikko.

first because rj doesn't count, the fuck? that shit was a joke lol i just got a dose of reality at an early age. no love there at all. who even falls in love at 13? that shit illegal. so yes, rikko is my first boyfriend ♥️ and even though i've dated guys before, he's the only one i ever loved so far. i love him so much. in fact, before i was already starting to think that maybe i'm not capable of love? i mean, i'm aware i'm a mean person. but i didn't think of myself as someone incapable of falling in love. but among the guys i met and dated, ALL OF THEM WERE JUST TO FEED MY EGO. ego ego ego. tell me i'm pretty. keep asking me to go out and let me reject you over and over again. show me how much you wanna take me out on a date again. over and over and all of them were unintended! when i do talk to someone, a part of me tries! maybe this could work? but it kept ending the same way. ego food. which led me to think fuckkk i'm incapable of loving too? what am i here for then tfuck? — until i met rikko! and everything he did and said, i wanted more of it. the more he laughed, the more he cried, i wanted to keep seeing them, even if he laughs/cries for the same reasons over and over. i wanted the things he wanted. i wanted to like the shit he liked, and i did! i hated touch but i love being held by him. he was expressive too! like the other boys! but for some reason, it wasn't ego food. they became credit scores for me. each time he gets a point, it adds up to my reasons why this is it! why this is worth a try! and i struggled and fought hard. the commitment and daddy issues, the anxiety, the fear of abandonment, blah blah and he did and said the right things at the right time he went at the right places, gave the right gifts, promised the right things — all for him to turn out to be just like everybody else. he died months into my life. he couldn't keep up with the character he played, and idk why people keep playing a character on me. jodie played the supportive bff but really wanted to be some sort of main character which i think is rather difficult hence the hurtful betrayal. and then there's rikko, who played the boy i could ever want, but never was that person. he never was that person to his parents and friends, and i thought he would suddenly change for me? that's some boss level pick me girl shit. i love rikko, even now as i type this. i met him january 2020, it's july 29, 2021 today, and i love him so much. but i'm not sure if i should be with him anymore. on principle, morals, self-care, common sense, logic, religion. why? because he died. he died last january 2021. he's no longer the same rikko i fell for. his hands aren't the ones i fought myself to hold. he's not the same person who went all the way from paranaque to cainta for me at 8pm because my dad told me he almost had another baby with someone ON MY BIRTHDAY. he's not the same person i looked at up at Sm Aura thinking he could be the one. and that i belong here, with him. that i love being with him, and he could be other things, but i want to be with him. he didn't know it, but looking at him as he talked about his friends, those things ran in my head. it was the same rikko who got teary eyed when he misunderstood me there at the Sm Aura rooftop, thinking i meant that i was just playing him. the rikko who gave me a necklace for no reason, wore it on me and even had it in a totally unsuspecting case (tea bag) which made the surprise funnier and cuter, is... yep... no longer here. the rikko who kept reminding me i'm redeemable, that i'm not my anxieties, i'm not my bad brain, i'm not my small voice, that rikko is long gone. and still i stayed waiting, making excuses, reasoning out with myself, trusting that he'd come back and funny enough, 7 months in and... he's still gone.

the saddest part is he doesn't want to be like that. or so i think. he tries. i see him trying. i see the efforts. he tries to ask me about my day, about my worries, why i'm anxious, why i'm sad or irritated. he asks me about work, applications and when i'm out with friends or family. he tries to make time for me even now that he prefers valorant over ml with me, i know he tries to play ml with me. he tries to take some time off work to talk to me. he tries to post on social media now, shares my ig stories, joins my tiktoks and get along with my jokes. he tries. i know he does. but that's the thing. he has to try. and maybe those things, he just isn't. and the difference between trying and develop is with development, there is direction. there is progress. with rikko... it's unstable. sometimes he can do this, but the next times not so sure. and as someone anxious with rejection and abandonment issues, inconsistencies are okay, but a lot of them? and major ones? NOTHING GOOD WILL COME OF IT. so many things rikko doesn't know and still he has it in him to say or assume a lot of things about me. one of them is when he said i'm ALWAYS annoyed at him. does he know how many times i get annoyed at things he do? but i don't address all of them not because i don't want to but because i acknowledge that they're not worth the fight or i'm just being hotheaded or immature or maybe inconsiderate. i think first before i act on him because if i learned anything about rikko, emotions have to make sense! which is wrong in the first place but that's who i'm with! but at the times i can't help being tampo, annoyed, or upset, he finds it in him to tell me i'm a l w a y s annoyed? WHEN?!?! i even asked him when and i know he realized it but still he fell stubborn to his pride. does he also know that his gifts don't make me kilig anymore? they just relieve me at this point which is sad!!! fucking sad!!! why? for example, for my virtual college graduation i was getting anxious few days before because i'm worried he won't give me anything or do something for me which will surely trigger my ~neglected issues~ and if i do get triggered, instead of addressing and being there for me, instead of making it up to me, he'd get mad! he'd make me feel that i'm asking for so much, for the impossible, all while i see it happen to people. i see other dudes give their girlfriends things without occasion. i see them try to like the things their girlfriends like, even embarrassing ones that she posts on social media. i see men constantly expressing their love for their gfs, for the person they asked to commit to them. all while i have one who would call me demanding, needy and exhausting. imagine? lol i get anxious he won't fulfill me not because i'd get sad but because he'll get mad when i get upset. he'd make me feel awful and remind me of the reason why we should end. and i hate that. i'm fighting so hard to take it off my mind, i hate thinking that we're incompatible, unhappy and that we're just trying to revive this love we have for each other. that love really isn't enough, even for us. so when he got me this bouquet for graduation, i was 95% relieved and 5% kilig because awwwww but more importantly, I WON'T BE TAMPO WHICH MEANS I WON'T HAVE TO HIDE AND HE WON'T HAVE TO GET ANNOYED AT ME BEING UPSET! as i type this all the more i feel bad because it's so clear i shouldn't be with him anymore. it hurts each time it crosses my mind. i really see rikko as the love of my life. and idk why. because he shouldn't be. the love of your life should be someone who makes you laugh, makes you strong but can also let you cry. the love of your life is the one who holds you on your way out of dark times. the love of your life is the one who corrects you in ways that won't make you feel bad, but in ways that make you feel cared for. that he's telling you so out of concern, not because he thinks you're a difficult sick mental person who needs an on-call therapist and an attending nurse. the love of your life should be the person who makes you cry the least.

but he doesn't deserve it also. maybe he's not ready to be in a relationship just yet. and there was no harm in trying. in fact i'm happy he tried because if he hadn't added me on facebook and hit up on instagram, i would have never known what love was like. i would also have never known how fun and exciting it is to be in love. it's so nice actually! to lie down with someone and just know they'll be there when you wake up and even if you do wake up in the middle of the night, you're safe with them. and no matter what you look like in the morning or how loud you snore or how stretched you are in bed, you are loved by this person next to you. and they chose to sleep with you too. to be as vulnerable as you are. and i loved that with rikko. we sleep together, we wake up in between sleep just to look for each other's cheeks, we shower together, we do weird shower dances, we have secret baby things, and a lot more things that you would think from here on meant forever. because these things, how could you ever try them again with someone else? because from where i am right now I HATE THE THOUGHT OF THOSE WITH ANYONE WHO'S NOT RIKKO. but stay with him for what? for what at this point? i'm not God. i'm just an anxious person with daddy issues who has enough money hunger and dreams plus a mom, aunts and 1 friend who loves rikko so much. i can't change him. and i shouldn't.

[sotorubio]

Thank you so much for answering in depth but omg I totally forgot that Alexia and Arthur were a main couple. I completely repressed that. Yeah also not a good couple because of the cheating. I didn't left them out intentionally.

I definitely understand all the points you mention and agree!

I don't even remember much of elus conflict in later seasons (haven't watched watched the seasons, just kept an eye on it). I remember there was a lot of drama and a kiss? And misscommunication I think. Have the grown from it?

And I am also not that on the Basile Hype train. But he is a good bf to Daphne.

You probably have talked about it before but do you think the other skams manage their romance better? Like davenzi, crisana..? Especially in concern to if they are a healthy couple etc.

Would you consider all evaks instalove? Because their relationship is very fast moving forward?

OMG ANON RELATABLE we should all repress the hell out of alexia & arthur lbr smdjskjd n don't worry i didn't think they were intentionally left out i just assumed they weren't worth mentioning smhflshdkd

understandable! the main conflict w elu esp in s6 was lucas being a bit hostile toward lola while eliott was friends w her, he was "jealous" & afraid lola n eliott would "drag each other down" bc they're both mentally ill, that was a looot of drama (which is a whole another convo abt the ableism of the situation...) also lucas was self conscious in arthur's season bc "eliott has more options" & eliott had a weird speech abt ✨acceptable cheating✨ which was kind of a inner conflict for Lucas but we never saw eliott's reaction to that as far as i know. which was actually the main problem all these would've been great talking points but they were all "solved" (aka everything was suddenly fine n it was never mentioned again) off-screen, so have they grown from it? well that's the message the show wanted to send but we literally never saw them grow or even solve these things so.. also somehow the kiss did in fact exist but was a none issue bc i guess eliott kissing underage girls is just fine by lucas 😗

i definitely think the other remakes (at least españa w viri x hugo, norandro & crisana and druck's couples especially davenzi) have much better development on that part & most importantly they maintain those relationships well! my favorite example is the problems cris n joana have continued to have irt joana's MI bc they show that it's not always easy n they r a complex couple but they present it so healthy! cris never blames joana or tries to baby her but is still rightfully frustrated when things r hard. we see their relationship on the side but it isn't reduced to that lovey dovey utopia where nothing is never wrong + when things r wrong we get all the necessary information via the main character that cris is friends with (amira or nora depending on the season) or through the social media, which means the conflict solving is clear n thorough. we don't have to guess if they're still fighting or how they managed to make up! this is mostly bc the conflicts r kept realistic n down to earth instead of drama seeking "spectacles" for example: joana isn't relapsing out there partying when she shouldn't be n cris doesn't have to pick her up from a police station, instead she just has worse days w her MI which is much more sensible to work through as a couple off screen in a "tell, don't show" kinda way. that doesn't work w bigger, more surprising issues. the healthiness there comes from the fact that the show explicitly states that they have sorted out their problems n alludes to how they did it & when it happened whereas France did. virtually none of that

also for davenzi i might be biased bc they're my fave evak but they definitely seem to have a similarly healthy n developed relationship!! david doesn't have an (established) MI so there aren't as many conflicts related to that but they're both v distinct characters that have a developed personality outside of the relationship. also they r just the perfect example of best-friends-in-love + a realistic teens-experiencing-first-love trope. their season had other issues but i think that the relationship itself definitely wasn't one. it wasn't so much of a ✨soul mates that will endure anything by the force of destiny✨ but more like They're teens who caught feelings for each other n they're a bit confused in their first relationship but they're making it work via communication n care!

also for if all evaks r instalove i think to an extent they r. for example most of them say "i love u" SO early which i don't vibe with at all. and a lot of them have this "meant to be" trope around them from the start instead of just a naturally developing romance. but since the evak season is mainly a romance plot (yes there r other important themes such as internalized homophobia & mental illness but the plot line follows the progress of a romance n it's a central part of the season) it's more understandable to move faster bc u have the time to expand on the relationship n kinda explain the feelings aka the relationship still grows on the audience along the way. but compared to smth like lola's seasons where the central theme is loss of a loved one & addiction, instalove just comes out of nowhere n has no chance to be expanded on since it's not a main theme of the season n has little screen time. this is what usually makes it boring or one dimensional at least for me! but also i'm not trying to rly defend the evak instalove either altho i think there is this difference. like it still pushes me away from og evak & elu a little bit + even crisana at the start of their season even tho i think it's more tolerable & understandable than in other seasons

[melancholiastclair]

So like 2,3,4,6,10,12,13,16,18,19,21, 22!! , 25,26,31,32,33!,41,42,45,46,47,48,55,56,57,60,61,62,71,72s, 89,91,92,95,100,102,108,112,119,120,121,122, 127!!!, 130,132,136-146,148, 149 & 150 it's a lot but ofc ya don't gotta answer everything

omg ily so much2. Are you outgoing or shy?I feel like I used to be incredibly outgoing, but the last couple years (and some mounting social anxiety) has made me pretty shy. There are certainly situations where I shine, but generally shy. 

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?I’m meeting Courtney Act for the second time early next year with my mum! I truly cannot wait. 

4. Are you easy to get along with?Surface level, maybe. I think the more you get to know me, the harder I am to get along with :P 

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?Always, first and foremost, friends. People who can make me laugh, who make me comfortable, who I can talk with. 

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?My friend Hannah. I’ve had some fuckin drama go down recently, and it was so ridiculously nice to talk through it all with her. Otherwise Joel, but thats... always. 

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?Run Into the World, Passiona, and Birthdays by the Smith Street Band, and Carolina and Only Angel by Harry Styles. 

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?UH YES PLEASE 

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?Yes. Always. Forever. A billion smooches.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?My first Big Crush, yeah. Occasionally, but we do. She’ll always be a bad bitch and she’s gr8. 

19. Do you like bubble baths?I really, really wish I did. They’re fuckin gross tho. 

21. What are you bad habits?I catastrophise. Always. About everything. I feel things so strongly, and it has a tendency to get me hurt. I bite my nails when I’m stressed, too. 

22. Where would you like to travel?My ultimate travel goal is to have been to every Disney park in the world, but I really want to live in Japan for a while, I’d like to go to South Korea, Nepal, the UK (particularly Wales??), and right now I’m really fixated on going to New Zealand. V pretty. 

putting the rest under a break lmao 

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?My stomach. I got a big ol tummy. 

26. What do you do when you wake up?Check my social medias, which is suuuuper unhealthy of me, but w/e. 

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?Yes! But not the high pony tail of my dreams. It’s the only thing I miss about having really long hair. 

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?Winona Ryder, Taika Waititi and Krysten Ritter. Maybe also Jeff Goldbum. 

33. Spell your name with your chin.charlotted. nice. 

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?No. Some people absolutely don’t deserve it. 

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?I’m 100% upset. 

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?Honestly? Half spite, half love for my little brother. 

46. What are you paranoid about?Turning people away from me. Again. :P 

47. Have you ever been high?No. :( 

48. Have you ever been drunk?Vaguely tipsy. Someone needs to change this pls. 

55. Favourite blog?Mine, ngl? It’s pretty great. 

56. Favourite colour?Pink! 

57. Favourite food?Burgers with lots of American cheese. 

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?Too much of a goody two shoes for that. 

62. Been arrested? For what?^

63. Ever been in love?Yes. Very much so.

71. Craving something? What?Cheesecake. 

72. What colour are your towels?Generally blue. 

89. Name a person you hate?Jessica. 

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?Very much so.

92. In a fight with someone?Nope, but that would be a lot easier than the current situation. 

95. Last movie you watched?Just finished watching Jurassic Park! 

100. How are you feeling?Currently a little bummed. 

102. Do you regret anything from your past?I regret putting my faith in someone. 

108. What should you be doing?Sleeping.

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Joel. 

119. Favourite book?Skulduggery Pleasant - Death Bringer. 

120. Are you afraid of the dark?No, as long as I’m somewhere I know. 

121. Are you mean?Very. I don’t mean to be. 

122. Is cheating ever okay?It is never, ever okay. 

127. What makes you happy?Being with people who make me feel secure. Cows. Bob the Drag Queen. 

130. Do you like subway?YES.

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?Closed.

137. How tall are you?5′3

138. Curly or Straight hair?Sorta wavy, sorta straight. 

139. Brunette or Blonde?Blonde. 

140. Summer or Winter?Winter.

141. Night or Day?Night. 

142. Favourite month?June. 

143. Are you a vegetarian?Nope. Kinda wanna be, tho. 

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?Milk!

145. Tea or Coffee?Fruity tea. 

146. Was today a good day?Yes! 

148. What’s your favourite quote?The only currency worth anything is being true to yourself, and the only goal worth seeking is finding out who you truly are.

149. Do you believe in ghosts?Sorta??? 

[disneydreamlights]

I don't feel like picking questions so just use a randomizer or something to get like ten-fifteenish questions per ship, kthx. Ticole, Skyuuya, Cafe OT3, NiNick, Mirai/Fallon, Chrobin, VanAqua

Thank my birthday weekend, this shouldn’t have taken that long.

Ticole:

2. Who is the big spoon/ Who is the little spoon?

Even though Tip isn’t too big, Nicole’s so tiny she really wouldn’t be able to be anything else but the little spoon, not that she complains about it.

5. Who usually has nightmares?

While they both probably have them, Tip experiences them with alarming frequency I can easily imagine, especially post SE. Nicole very often is spending time up late consoling him.

9. Who makes the coffee (or tea)?

Tip’s a god in the kitchen, I’d imagine this stuff is made by him too. owo

18. Who is a cat person/ Who is a dog person?

They’re both cat people, I guess Tip would be more of a dog person than Nicole considering she’s kinda terrified of them, but he’s still a cat person in the end.

22. Who goes all out for Valentine’s Day?

So for their first Valentine’s Day Tip has never heard of the holiday so of course Nicole ropes in Ian to help her and she makes Valentine’s Day this really nice fanfare and goes all out...

Tip then decides that every Valentine’s Day needs to be that insanely fun and goes all out on it to make it the best Valentine’s Day for Nicole ever. It’s probably adorable.

31. Who is more affectionate?

Definitely Tip, it’s not that Nicole’s not affectionate, I just see Tip as that ridiculously affectionate puppy type character who follows Nicole around being adorable.

32. Who likes to have really long (deep) conversation?

Sleep drunk Nicole wakes up Tip and starts bugging him about stupidly deep stuff while the boy is half asleep and all she wants to do is start cuddling him while rambling about this stuff.

When they get older, the conversations start getting more realistic deep stuff and happen a lot less sleep drunk, but Nicole still brings them up.

34. Who would wear “if lost return to…” t-shirt/ Who would wear “I am…” t-shirt?

“If lost return to Nicole.” “I am Nicole.”

38. Who likes to star gaze?

I really like the idea of the two of them just going out and looking at the stars and being adorable together over it. So both of them.

48. Who loses stuff?

Neither tbh, they’re both really good about keeping track of things.

Skyuuya:

1. Who is the early bird/ Who is the night owl?

Sky functions as both, but prefers the day a lot of times. I see Yuuya very much as a night owl who can function during the day tbh.

4. Who wakes the other one up with kisses?

Sky purposefully pretends to be asleep even though she normally gets up at the crack of dawn just so she can wake up to a few kisses from Yuuya.

8. Who sleeps in their underwear (or naked)/ Who sleeps in their pajamas?

Both are in pajamas most of the time, I can very easily see Yuuya as the type of person to fall asleep in his underwear a few times though without thinking about it.

16. Who is scared of thunderstorms?

Sky gets uncomfortable in them, but only if they don’t have a very sturdy shelter around them, otherwise it’s probably neither of them.

21. Who has an obsession (over anything)?

Do obsessions over younger siblings count because these overprotective siblings are both obsessed with their younger sibling’s happiness. owo’

27. Who takes a long shower/ Who sings in the shower?

I don’t think either of them would sing in the shower, and while Sky would certainly like to take a long shower, the life they lead basically forces the two into taking showers as quickly as possible. Never know when despair might be ready to fuck you over. 

28. Who is the book worm?

Both, but especially Sky, she’s super into reading and could spend literally hours pouring over a book.

34. Who would wear “if lost return to…” t-shirt/ Who would wear “I am…” t-shirt?

“If lost return to Sky.” “I am Sky” They both know who the more responsible one is. XD

37. Height difference or age difference?

I think they’re around the same age as each other. As for height differences Yuuya’s taller than Sky for sure.

43. Who wins the stuffed animals at the carnival for the other one?

Sky wins the stuffed animals for herself, Yuuya tries to do it, and he probably could if she’d let him, but she’s too determined and also too good so really in most cases she just does it for herself.

Cafe OT3:

5. Who usually has nightmares?

Kat has them more frequently when her anxieties get the better of her, particularly when it comes to her near “failures” during the adventure.

...Chris has them so much worse though, especially after coming back to life.

6. Who would have really deep emotional thoughts at the middle of the night/ Who would have them in the middle of the day? 

...Don’t let Kat get sleep drunk. Just don’t. It’s a horrible idea, she’ll get super deep and rambly over everything.

7. Who sweats the small stuff?

...Well gee, I wonder when this OT3 has miss anxiety in it.

20. Who is dominant/ Who is submissive?

Dorothy’s most dominant, Kat’s most submissive because she pretty much goes along with everything. Chris falls in the middle.

24. Who is the talker/ Who is the listener?

Chris is great for listening to both his girlfriends when they tend to be having problems, I mean he’s not always great at solutions, but he likes listening to them talk and/or letting them vent when they need it.

26. Who likes to eat healthy/ Who loves junk food?

I genuinely see Chris with a candy obsession worse than my own. Dorothy’s probably the healthiest eater of the trio.

35. Who goes overboard on the holidays?

I’d imagine Kat and Dorothy both do when it comes to showing Chris the holidays, but Kat’s an Apprentice, it’s in her blood to go overboard on the holidays.

36. Who is the social media addict?

The closest any of them get is Kat runs a music youtube/vlogging channel.

41. Who cries during sad movies?

Chris is just flat out in tears over it, and Kat’s blubbering herself while trying to console him. They both need Dorothy to calm the two of them down during the sad scenes.

Kat gets extra emotional though if it’s a Disney movie. Especially the scene in Bambi where Bambi loses his mom.

42. Who is the neat freak?

I feel like Kat and Dorothy take equal responsibility over this. Probably a bit more towards Dorothy than Kat though.

NiNick:

6. Who would have really deep emotional thoughts at the middle of the night/ Who would have them in the middle of the day?

As somebody who has a difficult time being up in the morning at a reasonable time, Nina often gets deep emotional sleep drunk during the day, Nick has the reverse problem at night.

11. Who likes horror movies/ Who likes romance movies?

They’re both up for a good romance movie 95% of the time, but sometimes Nick will put in a horror movie just because when Nina gets scared she’ll choose to cuddle him. Good way to get cuddles after all.

12. Who is smol/ Who is tol?

Nina is smol, Nick is tol. XD

21. Who has an obsession (over anything)?

Nina has a Disney obsession worse than mine and that is saying something...I’d imagine both of them might also have a tiny sex obsession, just a small one. owo’

26. Who likes to eat healthy/ Who loves junk food?

Nick probably tries to convince Nina to eat healthily...key word here being tries. He doesn’t do a very good job of succeeding though.

31. Who is more affectionate?

Is both a fair answer? I mean I guess Nina’s a bit more so since she’s an affectionate little kitty, but I could really see it going either way.

32. Who likes to have really long (deep) conversation?

I had to give this one a lot of thought, but in the end I’m definitely gonna go with Nina probably bringing it up since she has the capacity to take things more seriously than he does.

35. Who goes overboard on the holidays?

Both, Nina goes more overboard though, I think. XD

37. Height difference or age difference?

...Height difference, Nick is like a foot taller than Nina.

44. Who is active/ Who is lazy? 

Once Nina is awake, she is literally the most active person on the face of the planet and even Nick, who is not lazy, can’t keep up with her. Before she actually wakes up however...she won’t move from the bed. She literally has to be carried out of bed half the time if she doesn’t have a definitive reason to move.

Mirai/Fallon:

1. Who is the early bird/ Who is the night owl?

Mirai’s up bright and early a lot of the time, Fallon stays up wait working on some kind of experiment and is only up early if she has to, and has coffee.

2. Who is the big spoon/ Who is the little spoon?

Fallon big spoon, Mirai little spoon. :3

5. Who usually has nightmares?

Believe it or not, I give this one to Fallon. Mirai had a pretty okay childhood besides some bullying issues, and since she tries not to dwell on it, it doesn’t affect her psyche and while maybe post ST she experiences some pretty severe ones, overall the girl makes it out okay on the nightmare front.

I feel like Fallon, on the otherhand, has nightmares that would be terrifying to her and her alone. 

11. Who likes horror movies/ Who likes romance movies?

Mirai’s a little romantic at heart and would love to watch romance. Fallon likes horror, but never puts them on because they scare poor Mirai. ;w;

13. Who is considered the scaredy cat?

This is literally Mirai the poor girl is probably scared of her own shadow sometimes.

16. Who is scared of thunderstorms?

Mirai hates the noise, but loves the rain, so she’ll often end up scared, but watching the rain fall down to calm herself.

34. Who would wear “if lost return to…” t-shirt/ Who would wear “I am…” t-shirt?

Of course the randomizer spits it out for a ship I don’t see being as likely to do it.

Fallon probably does it if Mirai begs enough, so...

“If lost return to Fallon.” “I am Fallon.”

40. Who is the fun parent/ Who is the responsible parent?

Fallon shouldn’t be a parent imo, but I guess it really depends on your definition of fun. If you want experiments with the dead you’ll probably find her more fun than Mirai.

41. Who cries during sad movies?

Mirai. XD

48. Who loses stuff?

Mirai accidentally misplaces things from time to time, but Fallon’s probably the one who’s more likely to get engrossed in something and lose something.

Chrobin:

5. Who usually has nightmares?

I’M ALL FOR ROBIN HAVING A SHIT TON OF NIGHTMARES POST GRIMA OKAY. They’re just so scared of being possessed again and even though Chrom tells them it’s okay they keep having dreams where they killed Chrom again and again and again and they can never escape them.

6. Who would have really deep emotional thoughts at the middle of the night/ Who would have them in the middle of the day? 

Chrom gets super deep and rambly and sleep drunk in the middle of the night and Robin is just like “Chrom shut up go to sleep.”

These deep sleep drunk comments are of course mixed in with things like “I’m Naga and you’re Grima so that means when we’re together both the dragons are having sex right?” but you know he does have them sometimes.

20. Who is dominant/ Who is submissive?

Robin’s dominant, Chrom is submissive.

23. Who asks who out on the first date?

Well since Chrom proposes in game he probably asks Robin out first because they would never actually confess to him because of the difference in status.

25. Who wears the other ones clothes?

Robin lends Chrom their cloak all the time because he refuses to dress warmly so he’s just out in the cold with one arm exposed and so Robin just throws it at him like “You’re going to freeze otherwise.”

30. Who likes long walks on the beach?

Chrom, he uses them to make new memories for Robin.

34. Who would wear “if lost return to…” t-shirt/ Who would wear “I am…” t-shirt?

“If lost return to Robin.” “I am Robin.” Lissa sees them in these shirts once, bursts out laughing, and literally never lets Chrom live it down for the rest of his life.

43. Who wins the stuffed animals at the carnival for the other one?

Chrom tries to win them for Robin, but can literally never do it for them so they end up having to win the stuffed animals for themself, and then for Chrom later when he sees one he wants and still can’t win the carnival game.

44. Who is active/ Who is lazy?

Robin is always doing something, Chrom has to convince them to take a break pretty much. Chrom is a lot more laid back, so he’s got a bit more of a lazy streak,  but he’s still pretty active.

48. Who loses stuff?

You’d think Chrom would be the worst offender of this and admittedly he’s pretty bad but no, Robin is so much worse about this because they just get their nose stuck in some strategy book and then just epically fail at keeping track of shit.

VanAqua:

1. Who is the early bird/ Who is the night owl?

Aqua’s very used to getting up early due to training since Eraqus always started training early, Vanitas very much loves the night.

5. Who usually has nightmares?

Both do. Aqua has a lot of nightmares after her time in the realm of darkness and Vanitas...he has like a billion and one from his time with Xehanort when the old man abused him.

19. Who loves to call the other one cute names?

Aqua takes to calling him “Van” or “Vani” a lot of times as a way to shorten his name, but for the most part neither one of them really uses any cute nicknames.

31. Who is more affectionate?

Aqua starts off as more affectionate but the truth is Vanitas is very starved for affection so once he starts getting it and figuring out what it is he starts giving it to anybody who gives him affection very, very frequently, and that includes Aqua.

33. Who would wear “not guilty” t-shirt/ Who would wear “sin” t-shirt?

Vanitas 110% wears sin, Aqua only puts on the not guilty t-shirt after he begs her to do it because he finds it funny. She gets her revenge with the “If lost return to...” and “I’m...” shirts. XD

38. Who likes to star gaze?

Aqua, she had to convince Vanitas to go out and look at the stars with her the first time they did it.

43. Who wins the stuffed animals at the carnival for the other one?

...Listen I’m not saying Vanitas takes a love of stuffed animals from Ven, but Vanitas gains a love of stuffed animals from Ven, so he bugs Aqua about winning it for him.

47. Who has the more complex coffee order? 

So while Vanitas is super picky about his coffee to begin with and probably would’ve only drank it this way anyways, he purposefully picks the most complex coffee drink in the world, meanwhile Aqua’s just like basic cream and some sugar person. 

He also purposefully does this and makes his orders worse if we’re dealing with a coffee shop AU and Aqua’s a barista.

49. Who is the driver/ Who is the passenger?

Vanitas tries to take the wheel but Aqua will literally refuse to let him drive because he’s kinda really bad at it, so she’s the driver most of the time.

50. Who is the hopeless romantic?

Aqua’s such a hopeless romantic, Vanitas wants to shake her view of this but really he fails and she probably does a much better job of convincing him of her own romantic view points.