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For Bodhi from Tulsa: past, drink, sunset
Tagging: @kmc1989 @dolphs-darling @kpopgirlbtssvt @tinyhandsnation @madisonbroxson1Â
Companion piece to:
Tantric - Bodhi and you have something truly unique.
The sun is starting to set and youâre sitting outside on the grass in Bodhiâs rock garden, head tipped back to the sky as you watch the dying rays cast their final glow amidst the darkness. Your hair falls loose across your shoulders, cascading down past the knot of that black croqueted halter neck youâre wearing. Your fingers thread through the plush greenery as you suck in a breath, drawing in through your diaphragm up before you exhale, letting the stress seep out of your form.
Itâs beautiful to watch, that tension uncoiling in your muscles as you give yourself back to the earth.
Part of your methodology as a tantric practitioner is ridding yourself of your clientâs toxins. Throughout the day you shoulder their burdens, helping them to achieve a state of peace and wellbeing, itâs in the evenings that you finally take the time to check in, to realign with yourself.
Sometimes being with you, itâs the only thing that keeps Bodhi sane in the madness thatâs become his world.
The two of you had met during an ayahuasca retreat when heâd first come to Tulsa. Heâd been looking something different, something to fill the void left behind from his time in Silicon Valley and heâd found you, holding back his hair as he vomited into a sacred vessel because you were smart enough not to drink the Koolaid being peddled there.
âIf you want something gentler, come see me.â You had told him the next day, handing him a card advertising your services.
Itâs a week later he finds himself in your studio practising tantric yoga, six months after that heâs in crying out your name to the stars as you give him the most intense orgasm of his life in the therapy garden of your studio.
âIs this something you do with all your students?â He asks you in the aftermath as he lies there tangled up in you staring up at the night sky. Heâs never felt so serene or so at peace, at least not without a blunt in his hand.
âThereâs only one Iâve made a connection with.â You tell him, your foot tracing over the ragged scar on his calf from a cycling accident back in San Franisco, the one that almost claimed his life. It had been the instigator to make a change, to do something more fulfilling instead of living like some vacant droid.
âIs this what you think this is?â Heâd asked you, rolling onto his side so he could look into your eyes. âA connection?â
âYou tell me.â Youâd said, your fingertips tracing over his other scars, the ones that adorn his chest. âI didnât just fuck myself in a therapy garden.â
Before the nights over youâre ruining him all over again and Bodhi, heâs hooked.
âAre you going to stare at me all evening?â You ask him in the present, the edges of your mouth tipping up into a smile. âOr are you planning on joining me?â
âActually...â He says, lingering in the doorway with that heated look in his eyes. âI was wondering if youâd like to join me, I thought we could try out that Body Reciprocal Massage in the bath, make sure I have my technique down.â
âOh.â You say, your cheeks flushing with colour.
Youâre not used to being the recipient, you usually lead the charge when it comes to the more delicate aspects of your love making because Bodhi doesnât want to fuck it up. Tonight though he wants to take a more proactive role in your sensual journey, to worship you like the goddess you are.
âLet me take care of you.â He says as he holds out his hand and you raise to your feet, taking it. âLet me give you the pleasure you deserve.â
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I feel like if one wants â and is trying to give themself â a mental disorder by using the label of âtransid,â then they are probably already disordered in some other way that they are in denial of; because itâs more stigmatized, or âless interestingâ than the neurotype theyâve chosen to mimic⊠which is sad because theyâre masking in two different directions at that point: one to hide their illness, the other to create an illness⊠which will lead to more illness. Bleak, to be honest.
#I kind of used to be like that as a kid. I claimed to have âmultiple personalitiesâ when I didnâtâŠ#my brain just attaches characters to thoughts as a form of organization; and at that time the different concepts were âwarringâ#(AKA: I was trying to make logical sense of information when I had zero critical thinking skills because I was raised in a cult)#And I knew I didnât really have different personalities deep down; but my sense of self was so fractured#that I wanted the different pieces to be different people so I could make the need to think about my issues go away#I simply wanted one âpersonalityâ to kill the others so I would imagine long bloody battles between my âselvesâ in my head#to exorcise my mind of impure thoughts (which never worked because they werenât real people#and I couldnât kill them because the people I created symbolized concepts and desires on which my brain perseverated every waking moment)#I was trying to kill off parts of myself to attain everlasting life on a paradise earth; so I could build a real Data and android children#in Paradise#so if I died in Armageddon from bad behavior (watching Markiplier and having fun times in the shower) Iâd be killing them too#And the only other kid I saw who claimed to want a disorder (âwantedâ to have OCD) wanted it because they wanted to be like a character#and they were later diagnosed with â you guessed it â autism!#Also both of us had an astonishing amount of free time on the internet and were raised essentially as only children in a cult#So I think a lot of it is isolation and just not knowing who you are because you never see yourself react to anything in real life#You donât know what you would do in situations and therefore have no sense of self from total lack of life experience#And I actually had OCD for awhile as well⊠I kicked it for the most part. But the whole rumination battle thing was certainly a sign
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trying not to ruminate and redirect my thoughts and just remembered how one of my best friends on earth said how much he misses me and she wants to live with and hug me again and the real part that really tugs at my heart is them going "everyday with you is one i look forward to" and it's gonna make me cry. i love my friends so much i thank whatever force in the universe above made it possible for my best friends to be in my life
#all i ever want in my life. all i ever want. is right in that text.#that is the person who holds me when im at my worst. the person who holds my hand and lets me lay in bed with them when i just need someone#i miss my best friend so much. college is truly the first experience that genuinely makes me go school cannot come fast enough#bc it is no longer about just having the structure. that is a huge part. but college is where i feel loved. i feel like myself#i feel like a human being and i know i am loved and it makes me feel. like i can actually do something with my life.#my two best friends that i room with are the only other people on earth who i think make me feel as loved as my family.#i never feel more loved. than when im with them. i miss them so much i could cry. i cant wait to see them again#my therapist told me i need someone who holds my hand. who kisses my cheek. these are the people who do this for me.#i hope to hold their hands back and kiss their cheeks for the rest of my life.#static.soundz
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i had a good day i like having things to do but unfortunately i have just remembered i am insane</3
#currently. in this moment#currently i can't stand the enorrrrmous gap between what i recognize as good writing + how committed i am to improving the skill#(not very) (i am not committed i have never committed or honed any skill as it's a very vulnerable position to put yourself in)#(or let me rephrase that i feel unusually insecure and existentially threatened when i have to start from zero and make mistakes)#(which is basically all of life. so it's abnormal i know it is. but it's where i am right now and i'm not climbing out of this one anytime#soon)#so listen i didn't sign up for this. i don't even want this really and i double triple quadruple don't want rules and advice and#indirect criticism. the latter no one at all on planet earth can avoid bc every sentiment and opinion expressed can reflect on you in a way#where was i what gap. right so i am not actually disciplined or motivated to learn/discover/get better at creating something#so that's the gapâ i know what i should be trying to do or what i should want or what i should strive for. i know why. i see i hear#i understand#it's just thatâ i am aware that psychologically that is not in my best interest#like long-term it is but in actuality it isn't. d'you know what i mean?#but i have my compulsions. and those don't care they operate on a different level#so there is a bit of an opposition. so what happensâ and this is the important partâ what happens is i do it and i feel bad.#unless i close my eyes and ears. and i feel bad right now#and i'm bummed#and then i question everything and wonder why i'm alive#and i said insane because if i didn't have compulsions and obsessions? if i lived a real tactile present life. day to day and only cared#about how i can improve my life and the lives of others. and how i can become useful#directly. if i was someone who could access that. then i wouldn't have this problem#i know this sounds like âif i was different i would be different which would be goodâ. and that is exactly what i'm saying yeah#so this is my journal entry for today. i felt good when i was doing something simple for 9 hours and then i đ§ made myself feel bad#kata.txt
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for whom good omens is being written
Hey maggots and the rest of the fandom, it's the Good Omens Mascot here. Today I read a post about this tweet:
The accompanying video genuinely made me cry. And I've been thinking about this for a long while, as far back as February, when I saw a lot of conflicting opinions on what people wanted from the third season. It really is true that no matter what you do, some people will be dissatisfied. But what matters is that Neil is writing this for Terry.
And I was reminded of some paragraphs from the Good Omens TV Companion, which I'd read in Amazon's sample excerpt of the book. I know this is a long post, but I really truly do think you all need to read these, I've done my best to select only the most important parts. Here you go:
'His Alzheimer's started progressing harder and faster than either of us had expected,' says Neil, referring to a period in which Terry recognized that despite everything he could no longer write. 'We had been friends for over thirty years, and during that time he had never asked me for anything. Then, out of the blue, I received an email from him with a special request. It read: âListen, I know how busy you are. I know you don't have time to do this, but I want you to write the script for Good Omens. You are the only human being on this planet who has the passion, love and understanding for the old girl that I do. You have to do this for me so that I can see it." And I thought, âOK, if you put it like that then I'll do it."
'I had adapted my own work in the past, writing scripts for Death: The High Cost of Living and Sandman, but not a lot else was seen. I'd also written two episodes of Doctor Who, and so I felt like I knew what I was doing. Usually, having written something once I'd rather start something new, but having a very sick co-author saying I had to do this?' Neil spreads his hands as if the answer is clear to see. 'I had to step up to the plate.' A pause, then: 'All this took place in autumn 2014, around the time that the BBC radio adaptation of Good Omens was happening,' he continues, referring to the production scripted and co-directed by Dirk Maggs and starring Peter Serafinowicz and Mark Heap. âTerry had talked me into writing the TV adaptation, and I thought OK, I have a few years. Only I didn't have a few years,' he says. 'Terry was unconscious by December and dead by March.'
He pauses again. 'His passing took all of us by surprise,' Neil remembers. 'About a week later, I started writing, and it was very sad. The moments Terry felt closest to me were the moments I would get stuck during the writing process. In the old days, when we wrote the novel, I would send him what I'd done or phone him up. And he would say, "Aahh, the problem, Grasshopper, is in the way you phrase the question," and I would reply, "Just tell me what to do!" which somehow always started a conversation. 'In writing the script, there were times I'd really want to talk to Terry, and also places where I'd figure something out and do something really clever, and I would want to share it with him. So, instead, I would text Terry's former personal assistant, Rob Wilkins, now his representative on Earth. It was the nearest thing I had.'
(...) As Neil himself recognizes, this is an adaptation built upon the confidence that comes from three decades of writing for page and screen. But for all the wisdom of experience, he found that above all one factor guided him throughout the process. 'Terry isn't here, which leaves me as the guardian of the soul of the story,' he explains. 'It's funny because sometimes I found myself defending Terry's bits harder or more passionately than I would defend my own bits. Take Agnes Nutter,' he says, referring to what has become a key scene in the adaptation in which the seventeenth-century author of the book of prophecies foretelling the coming of the Antichrist is burned at the stake. âIt was a huge, complicated and incredibly expensive shoot, with bonfires built and primed to explode as well as huge crowds in costume. It had to feel just like an English village in the 1640s, and of course everyone asked if there was a cheap way of doing it. 'One suggestion was that we could tell the story using old-fashioned woodcuts and have the narrator take us through what happened, but I just thought, âNoâ. Because I had brought aspects of the story like Crowley and the baby swap along to the mix, and Terry created Agnes Nutter. So, if I had cut out Agnes then I wouldn't be doing right by the person who gave me this job. Terry would've rolled over in his grave.'
And, finally, this paragraph:
"Once again, Neil cites the absence of his co-writer as his drive to ensure that Good Omens translated to the screen and remained true to the original vision. 'Terry's last request to me was to make this something he would be proud of. And so that has been my job.'"
I think that's so heartwrenchingly beautiful, and so I wanted you all to read this, too, just in case you (like me) don't have the Good Omens TV Companion. It adds another layer of depth and emotion to this already complex and amazing story that we all know and love.
Share this post, if you can, please, so that more people can read these excerpts :")
Tagging @neil-gaiman, @fuckyeahgoodomens and @orpiknight, even if you've definitely read these before :)
#good omens#neil gaiman#sir terry pratchett#good omens show#good omens fandom#good omens mascot#weirdly specific but ok#asmi
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IF YOU BLED
⎠halbrand/sauron x female!elf!reader
summary: you fell in love with halbrand because he was everything you ever wanted. but you didn't know who he really was. not until now.
warnings: angst, reader gets disappointed (i mean itâs sauron??) but wants to give in to the darkness
word count: 1.4k
note: here i am, writing another fic about our beloved dark lord. i listened to a song yâall might know and let myself just go with it. this is how it turned out and i really hope you like it. xx ps: thereâs a second part. đââïž
inspired by: this song
THE RINGS OF POWER MASTERLIST
You already knew that you would fall deeply in love with him when you first saw him.
He was beautiful.
His soft lips and his hands that felt so perfect in yours. And there were these little wrinkles that formed at the edges of his eyes whenever he smiled.
But it was his green eyes that managed to cast a spell on you. They were so deep that it seemed almost impossible to ever let go again.
With each passing day, you could see more in him. The lost king who would never stop fighting until his last breath. With every second, you began to understand him more and fell in love with the idea that he could save you. From the pain that had happened to you in your past and the pain that would await you in the future.
You always felt a little less broken by his side.
And when Galadriel found out who he really was, everything you should feel was contempt. But you could never hate him. It was too late for that.
There was only the pain of not telling you the truth himself. All he had said to you was an illusion for what you had most desired. It had never been real.
âHave you been listening to me?â Galadrielâs voice tears you away from your thoughts. âHalbrand is not who you thought he was! He deceived you, he deceived us all,â she says and waits for your reaction. But all you can do is to look at her.
Memories started to play before your inner eyes. Of what had happened and dreams of what you wished would happen.
Above all, Halbrand, who touched you in a way that no one ever had before. In every possible way.
You can still feel his warm breath on your skin and his fingers gently stroking the fabric of the dress on your hip while he stands behind you.
His voice, just a gentle breath in your ear and the goosebumps it causes on your body.
His promise to take away the darkness inside you.
His lips gently dancing over your neck and making you sigh.
And the following kiss that set everything inside you ablaze. The harbinger of a fire that could burn down all of Middle Earth.
âNoâŠâ the word comes out in a whisper and you shake your head as a tear runs down your cheek.
Before Galadriel can say anything else, you turn away from her and leave the room to run up the steps of the tower to the top where the forge is located.
Your eyes immediately fall on Celebrimbor, who is looking down at something with a smile. Elrond is standing next to him and looks less thrilled, his gaze first on you, then back to the stone table.
You step closer and now you can understand why Elrond's gaze is so serious.
There were three rings lying there, each one more beautiful than the other. You are drawn to them as if by magic, you can no longer look away.
âThey are... beautiful.â You slowly stretch out your hand, wanting to touch one of them, when Elrond clears his throat.
Your gaze wanders upwards and you see him shaking his head. It was a silent warning which makes you lower your hand again.
Galadriel slowly enters the forge behind you and also comes closer. âI can't believe it actually worked,â you hear her say, but your attention remains on the rings.
They sparkle in the light of the slowly setting sun and remind you of the glow in his eyes.
You hear Galadriel and Elrond talking to each other, but you don't understand them. It was if they were far away from you. All you can think about is Halbrand and the pain he left behind in you. As well as the never ending longing in your heart.
The desire to finally surrender to the darkness, now that it threatens to devour you from all sides.
Only when your name is mentioned and Galadriel puts her hand on your arm, you are torn from your thoughts.
You pull away from her touch, shaking your head and you see the pain in her eyes. But you donât care about it, just as she doesnât seem to care about yours.
âI... have to go. Don't try to stop me,â you say quietly and look one last time at Elrond and Celebrimbor, who are both frowning worriedly, then you turn around and run down the stairs again.
You donât see that Galadriel tries to follow you, but Elrond stops her. He seems to know, that you needed to be alone now.
When you get downstairs, you hurry through the hall that is still lit by the last rays of the sun. You wanted to get away from there as far as possible.
But you stop at the sound of a voice. It is his voice, no doubt about it. You slowly turn around as he steps out from behind a pillar.
He looks different than the last time you saw him, but still so beautiful. Your gazes meet and it takes your breath away, just like always.
All you can do is to watch, as he comes closer. But when he holds out his hand to you, you flinch away.
He immediately frowns until he seems to understand and a certain hardness flashes in his eyes. âSo Galadriel told you?â he asks.
You nod slowly and look him in the eyes to find out what he must be feeling, but he doesn't let you in.
âYou should have told me yourself, Halbrand,â you begin, looking him dead in the eyes. âOh wait, that is not your name, right?â, you add, crossing your arms in front of your chest.
But no matter how strong your disappointment is, you know, that you could never escape his darkness. Not now that you know, that this darkness also lives in you. Not when he holds your heart in his hands.
Halbrand holds your gaze and takes another step towards you. This time you don't back away. Not even when he carefully separates your arms. âAnd what would it have changed if you had known?â he asks with a rough voice and looks down at you.
âIt would have simply changed everything. Because you would have never deceived me like you did,â you answer and you can hear your own desperation in your voice. âAll of that was an illusion of what I always wanted. And you used that against me. You used me. It was all a lie,â you add with a whisper and you can't hold back another tear.
Halbrand raises one of his hands to your face and catches the tear with his thumb. He smears it on your skin as he strokes your cheek, watching as it glistens in the sunlight.
He looks at you with a gentle gaze, even a little desperate. As if your words touch him deeply.
As suddenly footsteps sound behind you, he gently pulls you into the shadows, the part of the hall that is no longer lit by the sun.
You feel the cold stone wall at your back and resist the urge to lean into his touch.
âYou're wrong,â Halbrand finally says and you look him in the eyes again. âI never lied to you. I was just not completely honest about one thing...â he pauses and slowly moves his face closer to you. âI never intended to take the darkness from you. I wanted you to surrender to it,â he finally breathes against your lips and you close your eyes.
His arm wraps around your waist and he pulls you closer to his body. âI wanted you to surrender to me,â he adds, his mouth now on your ear.
You can't help but shiver as his breath brushes over your neck, causing goosebumps on your body. But instead of kissing you there, he pulls away from you again and tucks a strand of hair behind your ear.
âAs much as I would like you to do it right now, this is not the right time,â Halbrand whispers and you begin to understand.
âYou're not really here, am I right?â Just then you notice the blood on the right corner of his mouth. It hadn't been there before.
Suddenly he seems completely different, as if he was dropping his facade. His face is dirty and his clothes have seen better days too. You put your hand gently on his cheek and caress the blood with your thumb.
âWhat has happened? Where are you?â you ask quietly and raise your gaze to look into his eyes, but there is secrecy in them. He wouldn't tell you.
âPlease, Halbrand, tell me where you are. Let me come to you,â you say, but he shakes his head and takes your face between his hands.
The look in his eyes leaves no room for protest and you know you wouldnât resist him. You never could.
âNo. You will stay in Eregion. I will find my way back to you, i promise.â Those are the last words you hear, then you find yourself alone in the hall again, surrounded by complete darkness.
And you are more than ready to drown in it.
PART TWO
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Much Ado About Nothing (Act III, Scene I: The Fake Dating)
It doesnât occur to you how serious the situation has become until you're forced to sign your fake relationship on paper.
Part warning: none, this might be the slowest burn I have ever written Words: 2.4k A/n: The original plan was to update this series twice a week, but I overestimated myself, so I will be posting each Thursday around this time. I hope you understand <3
SERIES MASTERLIST | MAIN MASTERLIST
Spencer wasnât sure how he would go through with this. The idea seemed simple enough on the surfaceâpretend to date, fool everyone, and finally find peace. Yet, the more he thought about it, the more complex it became, and the more complicated it was, the more crazy it seemed.
This was not what he had signed up for when he joined the BAU. Chasing criminals? Sure. Analyzing behavioral patterns? Absolutely. But pretending to date you to avoid the relentless meddling from his friends? Insane wasn't a strong enough word for it. It was ludicrous.
And even that word wasnât enough. It was downright preposterous. How had rational, analytical work turned into this bizarre social experiment? Yet, here he was, ready to play his part even when he couldnât ignore the absurdity of it all.
âWell, well, well.â Spencer looked up to see you walking from the opposite direction, both of you stopping right at the entrance of the bureauâs expansive building. âIf it isnât my new boyfriend.â
He narrowed his eyes. Why did you seem⊠so normal about this? Werenât you the one who hated his guts? Werenât you the one who avoided him every time you had the chance? Were you really that desperate to get the team off your back?
âWhat? Youâre not going to greet your girlfriend?â
He forced a smile, trying to hide his irritation. âGood morning,â he replied curtly, opening the door for you.
You walked past him, and Spencer tried not to stare at you, but it was impossible to ignore the way your hair shone under the morning sun or how your perfume subtly filled the air as you brushed by him. He cleared his throat and followed you inside, wondering how long he could keep up this act without losing his sanity.
âWe need some ground rules,â he muttered, nodding towards security as you both passed through the entrance.
You raised an eyebrow. âGround rules? You mean besides pretending to be madly in love?â
âWe are not in love. We just started dating,â Spencer said, pressing the elevator button. âSo no spontaneous public displays of affection. We donât want to overdo it.â
âWhatâs your definition of overdoing it?â
Spencer waited until the elevator doors slid shut, giving you a little privacy. "No touching. Especially no hand-holding," he stated firmly.
You scoffed. "Who on earth wouldn't want to hold their girlfriend's hand?"
He replied without missing a beat. "Do you know how many germs are transferred when you hold hands? An average of 3,000 bacteria from 150 different species, not to mention the potential viruses.â
âWow, remind me to never shake hands with you during flu season.â
He shrugged. âIâm just stating the facts.â
âOkay, germaphobe,â you deadpanned, leaning back against the elevator wall. âWhatâs acceptable then? A nod from across the room? Morse code blinking?â
He considered for a moment, then offered a compromise, âHow about an arm around your shoulder when weâre sitting? Or a quick side hug?â
âSide hug,â you echoed, mockingly horrified. âHow romantic. Our friends will believe weâre madly in love for sure.â
âWe are not in love.â
âSo youâve mentioned,â you replied dryly, standing straight again and turning toward him. âCan we at least try to look like a couple who actually like each other?â
That was the problem. You both didnât like each other. âFine,â he sighed. âWhat do you suggest?â
You paused, considering the best way to make this look believable. âHow about you hold onto my waist from behind as we walk? Itâs a common gesture, and it looks natural.â
Spencer blinked, taken aback by the suggestion. âHold your waist? As in, really close?â
âYes, Reid, thatâs generally where the waist is located.â
He frowned at you. âThat sounds a bit too⊠personal, donât you think?â
âIsnât that the whole point? To convince them weâre a couple?â
He hesitated, the image of his hands on your waist flashing through his mind. He suddenly imagined the warmth of your body against his, the subtle, pleasant scent of your perfume enveloping him. He could almost feel the way youâd be tucked right to his side, your height fitting perfectly against him, your head nestled just below his chin.
His heart unexpectedly started to race. The idea of holding you that close, feeling the rise and fall of your breath, the slight brush of your hair against his cheekâit was almost too intimate, too real. And he didnât want to acknowledge that. He wasnât sure if he could trust himself to play the role convincingly without his emotions betraying him.
âReid?â
Spencer snapped out of his thoughts, realizing he had been silent for too long. You were watching him impatiently.
âYou know what? Do whatever you want.â You turned away, facing the elevator door, clearly frustrated by his hesitation. âJust stand there like a statue for all I care.â
His eyes slowly fell to your waist, considering his options... Maybe it wasnât that bad. The idea of his hand resting there, guiding you, didnât seem as unbearable as he initially imagined. The gesture seemed innocent enough. Not too much, not too little. What could possibly go wrong?
Everything, apparently. Because it happened all at once.
One, he reached his hand toward you.
Two, the elevator door swung open.
And three, as you started to move forward, his hand managed to slip before it landed onto your ass.
You shrieked at the top of your lungs.
"Reid!"Â
Spencer's face turned red as he quickly retrieved his hand, stammering, "I-I'm sorry! That wasn'tâ"
But he wasnât fast enough, because standing on the other side of the elevator door was Derek, witnessing the whole thing. His eyebrows shot up, and a slow grin spread across his face.
"What do we have here?â Derek drawled, crossing his arms. "Spencer Reid, getting a little too friendly?"
Spencer's mortification deepened as he tried to explain, "It's not what it looks like, I swear!"
Derek chuckled, shaking his head. "Sure, pretty boy. Whatever you say." He stepped to the side. âWell, arenât you two lovebirds going to get to work?â
Trying to recover from the embarrassment, Spencer nodded quickly, his face still burning. He guided you out of the elevator with a brief, cautious touch on your back that stayed strictly in the safe zone.
You both hurried toward the glass doors, leaving Derek laughing behind you. You slightly leaned closer to him. âI could sue you for sexual harassment, you know.â
âIt was an accident! You moved too quickly.â
âSure, blame it on me,â you retorted, your voice dripping with sarcasm as you pushed through the glass doors ahead of him.
Spencer quickened his pace to keep up, matching your brisk walk. âI am blaming it on you. This wouldnât have happened if you hadnât suddenly decided to move forward.â
âRight, because clearly, I should have anticipated your clumsiness.â
He shot you a sideways glance. âMy clumsiness? Youâre the one whoââ
âThere you are!â
You both turned to see JJ walking toward you, a knowing smile playing on her lips. âHotch is looking for you.â
You started to walk away. âSure, Iâll go see himââ
JJ shook her head, her smile widening. âNo, you donât understand. Heâs looking for you,â she pointed a finger at Spencer, then swung it back to you, âAnd you. Both of you, together.â
Spencer raised an eyebrow, clearly confused. âBoth of us? Why?"
âSomething about filling in paperwork?â
He frowned, but as the implication of Hotch calling you both at the same time for paperwork sank in, he snapped his head toward you, his eyes wide with realization. You turned toward him at the same moment, and the gravity of your seemingly innocent lie spiraled down on him, making the whole situation feel alarmingly real.Â
The weight of it pressed on Spencerâs chest. How could he possibly forget about the most important thing in all of this? He had an eidetic memory, he was good at recalling even the smallest details, but how could he not remember the need to officially disclose workplace relationships?
The reality of potentially signing official documents to confirm this fake relationship made his palms sweat.
âThis is stupid,â you whispered when JJ finally left the two of you. âMaybe we should think this through.â
Spencer looked down at you. You were right, this was stupid. It was getting out of hand. But as he noticed the way you stared up at him, with your wide, doe-like eyes sparkling under the light, something shifted. This whole lie had started as a means to an end, a way to fend off the relentless teasing. But now, standing there with you, it felt like more than just a plan. Maybe it was the thrill of the unknown, or the strange comfort of the lie. Maybe it wasnât just about fooling the team.
Maybe he was starting to fool himself too.
Spencer took a deep breath. âNo,â he said softly, more to himself than to you. âWe started this, we should go through with it.â
Before you could respond, he placed his hand on your lower back, feeling the warmth of your body through the thin fabric of your blouse before his palm slid over to your waist. Your eyes widened in surprise at the sudden gesture, but you didn't pull away.
What have you done?
You couldnât believe you had actually signed the papers. The weight of the pen felt so heavy in your hand, the ink seeming to dry slower than usual as you scrawled your name on the dotted line. This was supposed to be a simple, harmless plan, but now it was documented. Official.
How did it come to this?
You watched as Spencer took the pen from you, his hand brushing yours momentarily. He glanced at you before turning his attention back to the document. The hesitation was brief, but you saw itâthe flicker of doubt before he pressed the pen on to the paper and signed his name next to yours.
What the hell are we doing?
âAlright,â Hotch said, taking the papers and giving you both a nod. âThis is a bit formal, but itâs necessary under bureau policy. If there are any changes in your relationship status, you should report immediately.â
You nodded, barely hearing his words over the pounding of your heart.
âAgain, congratulations.â
Your stomach churned. You were going to be sick.
âThank you,â Spencer responded. Hotch then dismissed you both, and as you turned to leave, Spencer's hand gently touched your back. You were the one who urged him to act his part, but it felt too intimate, too real at that moment. You quickly increased your pace, putting some distance between you as you walked down into the bullpen.
Penelope was sitting on your chair, chatting animatedly with the rest of the team in the open space. She looked up when you both arrived. âWell, look whoâs back!â Penelope called out. âHow did it go?"
You weren't surprised everyone understood what being called in, together at that, by Hotch implied.
âIt went⊠as expected,â you replied, forcing a smile. Spencer stood a bit awkwardly beside you, his usual composure slightly ruffled.
"This is amazing,â Penelope sighed. "Oh! you know what we should do?"
You eyed her warily. "What?"
"This totally calls for a celebration!"
Your eyes widened. "Let's notâ"
"Are you guys free this weekend?" Penelope turned toward the rest of the team.
Derek leaned back in his chair with a wide grin. "You know I'm always up for a party."
Spencer looked between you and the rest of the team, clearly uncomfortable. "I don't think thatâs necessaryâ"
"He's right, Spencer isn't much of a party freak," JJ chimed in, joining in the conversation from her desk. "We should do something more relaxing."
"No, that's not what I meantâ"
"You know what we haven't done in a while?" Emily asked, walking closer with a thoughtful look before she settled onto your desk, leaning slightly against it. "We haven't gone to the pool lately."
Penelope perked up at the idea. "Rossi's villa?"
Emily confirmed her with a nod. "Rossi's villa. Heâs always saying we should use it more anyway.â
At any given chance, you would jump at the idea. You loved relaxing by the pool. You loved basking under the sun with a cool drink in your hand, the smell of chlorine in the air, and the refreshing splash of water on your skin. And Rossiâs pool was the perfect place for that.
It was a villa located an hourâs drive away that seemed more suited to a resort than a private residence. It was far from the city, mostly unoccupied, but always welcoming. You had been there before, stayed overnight there too, and all those fun memories were still vivid in your mind. You even recalled the time Emily was caught skinny dipping at night. Or the time Derek kicked Spencer out of the pool after realizing he had been hustling him at basketball the week before.
It had been fun then, but the more you reflected on those memories, the deeper your frown became. They had happened way before everything fell apart, before the tension had strained your friendship. It was a time when everything felt simpler, when Spencer was one of your closest friends. And now, ironically, he was your boyfriend.
Fake boyfriend.
"So it's settled, then?" Penelopeâs voice broke through your thoughts, snapping you back to the present.
Honestly, you didnât want to go. How were you even going to pull this off? A weekend by the pool, while usually the perfect highlight for your summer, now felt like walking into a scripted play where your every gesture would be scrutinized. Not just by anyone, but by skilled profilers who could sniff out a lie like a shark smells blood in the water.
The fear of being exposed, of embarrassing yourselfâor worse, damaging your careerâwas gnawing at you. It made you increasingly anxious. Yet backing out wasnât an option either. It would raise too many questions and invite too much speculation.
So you closed the distance between you and Spencer and linked your arm through his, ignoring the slight panic in his eyes. âSure,â you said, turning to Penelope as you mustered a smile. âSounds fun.â
Penelope beamed at you. Spencer, on the other hand, felt the exact opposite. The idea of spending an entire weekend pretending to be in a relationship filled him with dread.
And he couldnât shake the feeling that everything was bound to go wrong.
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genshin men voicelines about you
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pairing: gn!reader x kaeya / diluc / thoma / ayato / tartaglia / ayato / albedo / itto / kazuha (separate)
a/n: xiao bonus at the end! could not think of anything that wouldnât feel contradictory to his other voicelines, but maybe iâll make a part 2 with some other men i missed + eventually with the girls. sorry for anything ooc bc i havenât played genshin in over a year đ
cw: blood mention, itto is a loser
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KAEYA
Oh, [name]? Theyâre many things, certainly. Dependable, attentive, easy on the eyes - ah, but I can't say too much. Is it so bad I want to keep something precious for myself?
DILUC
Youâre asking about [name]? Why is that? ïżœïżœïżœyouâre curious about our relationship? I thought I made it obvious that theyâre my partnerânot for business, but romantically. I like to keep my personal life, well, personal, so forgive me for not divulging too much information.
THOMA
I was actually about to go see them right now! Itâs hard for me to get some free time, but whenever I do, thereâs nothing better than spending it with [name]! No matter how tired I am, I always feel recharged right away when theyâre around, and then I can work even harder!
TARTAGLIA
Do you think [name] would like this necklace? Or maybe this bracelet? How about both? Maybe I should get these in different colors, too. Wait, I think I have enough mora on me to buy the entire standâwhat? Why are you giving me that look?
AYATO
A day polluted by meetings with people I do not have the energy to care for, futile attempts at gaining power from my opponents, endless bartering⊠my, I hate to spoil the mood, but I do need a refresher. Pardon me as I send a servant to fetch my beloved [name] for me. I wonât be long. Once I see their face, we may go back to our discussion.
ALBEDO
[name]? Yes, theyâre my partner. âŠWhy do you look so surprised? I know I have said maintaining relationships is difficult, but they are very patient and willing to meet me halfway. I also cannot deny my attraction to them. It doesnât affect my research whatsoever. Rather, their affections motivate me to research something new everyday for conversations with them. âŠPerhaps I am also meeting them halfway.
ITTO
What? You surprised a stone cold gang leader like me can score a hottie like [name]? Make this a lesson to never doubt Arataki ânumero uno novioâ Itto! Well, uh, I gotta admit, they are kinda outta my league⊠H-Hold on, why do you wanna know so much? You trying to find my weak spots or something? No⊠you couldnât possibly⊠be trying to steal them from me?! Oho, youâre messing with the wrong gu- wait, get those beans away from me!!!!
KAZUHA
If I were to pick between losing my voice or losing [name], may the earth be granted my silence. If I must bleed out for thousands of years for even the slightest chance to lay beside them, may the blade of the sword be sharp. If granting them an eternal life of tranquility and happiness meant sacrificing my own life, my dying breath will be their name.
bonus:
XIAO
*âŠhe blushed and teleported away.*
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Drabble: Superstitious
Spencer Reid x Reader
Reader gets stressed and locks herself in the bathroom. Penelope grabs Spencer to help her calm down.
Tags: reader has anxiety, fluff
Penelope rushed to grab the hotel key from her bag and unlock the door. Once the door was open she led Spencer inside and pointed towards the bathroom.
âSheâs in there.â
His head turned to the closed door with the bright cool light peering out the bottom.
Penelope fidgeted with the hotel key card in her hands. âDo you want me to give you two a minute?â
âYes please,â he answered softly under his breath. His eyes still on the bathroom door. Penelope softly smiled at Spencerâs concern for you as she walked out of the suite. She knew of all people who could calm you down, it was him.
He lightly knocked on the door twice. âY/N? Itâs Spencer. You in there?â
After a brief pause he heard two knocks from the other side. He let out a sigh of relief at your acknowledgement.
âCan I come in?â
âNo!â You abruptly pleaded. âIâm sorry. I just donât want any bad luck.â
You tended to be a very superstitious person. So heâs not surprised you would be strict with the not seeing each other before the wedding rule. But still, he so desperately wanted to walk in and comfort you.
âItâs okay sweetheart,â he comforted. âCan you tell me whatâs wrong?â
âToday,â you quietly mumbled. He wouldnât have heard you if he said wasnât resting his head against the door.
âSo many things kept going wrong this morning. Iâm so anxious Spence,â you said a bit louder this time.
âAnd youâre scared something bad is going to happen during the wedding?â He didnât have to have profiling skills to know you inside and out.
He heard your shaky breath before you responded. âYeah.â
This wasnât the first time you spoke to him about worst case scenarios. He found himself to be your anchor, he pulled you back down to earth when your mind would go against you. When you got caught in a storm of uncertainty and fear.
He knew this wasnât just about the wedding.
âThatâs not all is it?â He pondered.
You sighed as tears threatened to spill from your eyes, âNo.â
âI kinda thought spiraled and started thinking about our jobs. How scary that might be once we get married,â you tried to hide the small gasp of breath that threatened to escape your throat. Spencer still heard it as small as it was.
âWhat happens to people in our line of work and what happens to their spouses. I- I could never forgive myself if something happened to you.â
He wanted to bust open the door and hold you as tight as he could. Melt away all your worries.
But he understood how much these superstitions meant to you. At times when your anxiety was against you, a knock on wood or throw of salt would ease your mind. So he stayed on his side of the door, and used his words instead.
âYouâre right, our job can be scary. Thereâs gonna be bad days and thereâs gonna be even worse ones. But through all the bad I will always be here with you, even when you canât see me,â he smiles and lightly taps his knuckles on the door.
A small laugh escapes you at his actions. He loved the sound of your laugh. He could get drunk off that sound.
âI will never stop fighting for you and I will never stop loving you. I want to go through all those bad days with you as your husband.â
âWe canât let the fear of what could happen, stop us from being happy.â
A stray tear makes its way down your cheek, âIf that is what you say to cheer me up, then I think your vows are going to ruin my makeup.â
Spencer chuckles with a bright smile on his face. After a moment of yours and his quiet laughter he gets an idea.
âStand behind the door,â he calmly orders.
âWhy?â
âI want to hold your hand but not break tradition.â
Your lips parted and eyes widened. No matter how long you knew him he could still give you butterflies from being so adorable.
Spencer heard you shuffle closer to the edge of the door and slowly turned the handle. He pushed the door open just enough to reach his hand out making sure to look away from the door.
Suddenly he felt your hand intertwine with his. The action practically made him melt. When he started rubbing his thumb against your hand, he was met with a gentle squeeze from you.
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Hello love's for this reading i channel a love letter from your future spouse , i really have a lack of fs readings and ik I don't do that enough but here's it because I feel so called to do this todayyy. Take what resonates and leave the rest , you can choose multiple . I hope you guys like this and feedbacks are always always appreciated !!!!!
Pile 1 :
Mon Amour ,
The sweet river of my life, the reason I live , the reason I thrive , I've been seeing you in my dreams since past lives and I can't fathom the beauty in your eyes . Ever since we've been together and the day i met you my life has been absolutely the one I dream of . Thank you for always being the shoulder I can learn on thank you i think i don't say it enough, you deserve the world and I'm trying everyday to bring in the world for you . I love the way you make art and love the way you make me your muse if I had the talent you had i probably would sing for you . I love your sweet kisses like candy and i hate every moment i argue so I'm happy to be sorry first kidding I know you're always right kinda bad on my part right , I wanna give you the world and there's so much to be done yet , so much to achieve , so much to heal but i know with you by my side i will heal. So i steal the thunder from heaven to make a souvenir of my love even when i am dead the way i tell you about my love won't be enough.
- yours completely
Pile 2 :
Dear love ,
In my darkest days you're the light I turn to , my heart is so full even when my brain is in shambles because I have you . I'm so in love that I can barely eat so I soak up your sunshine and I'm all fine and better under your holy light . We are a pair and we will make history and all these people that think we're too young too naive will be left in misery, they don't see you like i do, we both see each other . They say love is a big thing but I'd like laundry and taxes with you . Plain bread with you tastes like heaven , even tho I'm a heathen i pray the heavens for you may the paradise we make last forever, may i always keep jewellery in your altar , may things never be forbidden in our diary and in all of the things that are may I know one thing for sure that I don't wanna spend a moment away from you anymore . I burn for you I'm human for you .
- your lover
Pile 3 :
Hey Miss,
Springtime your time my time I look at you my beautiful flower fuller than poppies , more abundant than a lotus , like a burning rose with desire , you set me on fire , yet you cool me like running water how do you do , how do you put me in this state . I wanna love you don't you think it's getting late for even a while to wait , meet me at the garden gate . I don't know much but I know I came into earth to be with you i could be a tree but I'm a human to love you like humans do . How could you know me so well i almost lose myself when I'm with you and that's what I want when I'm with you to be free like a child . I wanna devote all my evenings to make coffee for you and i wanna spend all my breaths being high because I love you so much my thoughts spin out , you're moon herself you grant wishes so please grant mine goddess divine .
- always yours
Pile 4 :
Hey sweetheart,
I've been on a quest to find you , since I was young I've always felt that I was meant for more than just I saw what other couples around me had I knew I needed to be drowned and insane when i like someone , but the way you lift me up gave me all of it together , you're all the bright colours at once , yet you're a mystery , I love that i figure out something beautiful about you each day I know life with you can never be boring, it's always fun always worth living , thank you for holding me when the world discarded me , I know angels are real because i have seen you . Sorry for the times i mess things up , i never want that . we need to be together to explore this world without this bond this earth is mere ground with fire at the core , I wanna love you more . How do I explain this love where do I put all my love for you you're growing into me with each day I place your name in my heart like a sweet melody , i live to love you , I love to love you.
- only yours forever
Thank you so much for reading, have a great day/night â€ïž
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AS SAID BY JASON TODD/ROBIN/RED HOOD *  assorted dialogue from multiple dc universe sources, adjust as necessary
i did it once for dramatic effect and it just got to be a habit.
you can't tell, but i'm dozing off under this mask.
a whole night in paris... and i managed to not kill anyone. not bad.
you made the same mistake everyone does when it comes to me.
i want to warn them... but i know i can't.
don't know, don't care. i got my hands full.
do you remember the last time we were together?
looks like you guys could use a hand!
i'm looking for someone.
i'm afraid it's about to get much worse.
the angry, reckless vigilante bit is my thing.
i'm not good or bad. i'm just practical as hell.
you and i are more alike than you realize.
i get it. starting over is scary as hell.
i don't even need to turn around to know that's you.
thanks for thinking of me. i'm happy to help. honored, even.
i generally have several madness-inducing hallucinations before breakfast.
nothing in the real world can be as frightening as what we can imagine... right?
you don't think i understand what it's like to be abandoned? forgotten?
i'll be damed if my best friend is going to die... because he was dumb enough to trust me.
i'm sorry. i'm never going to be the hero you want me to be.
next time i see you, i'm going to kick your butt for this dying crap.
you have ten seconds to walk way. nine... oh, screw it.
there are better ways to spend your energy.
that looks like it's gotta hurt. well, i say that like i'm speculating or something. i know it hurts.
we chose to be a family.
if there's hope for us... there's hope for everyone.
you still haven't figured it out?
life's just a game... and this time, you lose.
i seem to have made myself an enemy of all the bad guys.
it's too late. you had your chance.
i'm just getting started.
hard to forget that night, huh?
in a way, this was the site of your first great failure.
ah... memories.
you can't stop crime. that's what you never understood.
you want to rule them by fear, but what do you do to those who aren't afraid?
i'm doing what you won't.
i'm taking them out.
now tell me... how does it feel?
is that what you think this is about?
i don't know what clouds your judgement worse. your guilt or your antiquated sense of morality.
i forgive you for not saving me.
he took me away from you.
i am no one's son.
what do you think this was all about?
welcome to planet earth, baby.
fear isn't the answer.
you son of a bitch.
we were friends, helping each other pick up the pieces of our lives.
it might not be a popular thought, but not everyone wants to be alive.
can you hear it?
funny, i actually escaped death.
the past keeps dragging me back.
they're not monsters. they're victims of programming, abuse, and trauma.
they can change.
fact is, they're just like us.
we became something else.
you hurt a lot of people.
we don't discriminate here.
sometimes you don't know what you want 'til you learn what you don't.
trust? you? i'll give it a try. but i'll tell you right now, i'm probably going to screw it up.
guys like us? the life we lead? we're never truly alone.
i have no idea who you people are.
you pompous ass.
before i kill you, i want the truth.
i'd like to think i'm an open-minded guy.
sure it was fun. but does that mean it was right?
sometimes i wonder if i'm just part of the problem.
i'm not doing one more damn mission with them unless you get me someone i can trust to watch my back.
knew you couldn't do it.
it's official. class is in session.
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Wondering
I donât really remember much. I suppose that was always my biggest weakness. Iâm part of a slug-like species of aliens known as Skreats. Our whole species thing is that they want to take over worlds by taking over the dominant species bodies and using their resources to conquer the universe. Blah blah blah I synthesized my whole life being taught that taking over hosts was my job and all I was supposed to do but what if I donât want to?
I never payed much attention to all those logs and protocols about conquering. I just wanted to be free of Skreat expectations.
One day I left logging seminars and just hid inside my sectors pod shit hangar. I know I wasnât supposed to but the ships are so comfortable so I just stay in there and hang for hours. Then all the alarms went off in the hangar, we were under attack but I didnât want to get in trouble for being where I wasnât supposed to be. I acted like I was supposed to be there and after a few more of us piled into the ship I commenced launch.
The ship was an escape pod automatically routed to vulnerable planets to conquer. We were headed to E Arth? As we tried to navigate through enemy lines we almost made it to our destination before being shot down in the planets atmosphere. I just fell and then it all went black.
When I came back to consciousness there was no ship near me just a hard cold black runway of some kind, I believe theyâre known as roads. It was dark but sirens blared through the night heading towards a blaze in the distance. THE SHIP! I presumed the worst and tried to avoid being stomped on by these tall earthlings walking by me. I thought I found a good hiding place a lobby of some sort but thatâs when I was spotted.
An earthling calling me and took me into the shelter of some clear glass container. He murmured words of snail and take care of. I think heâs under the assumption Iâm one of these earth creatures.
For days he would give me earthy twigs and shreds of vegetables assuming that I would consume them. I admit I tried but they donât necessarily make sense to me or my Skreat organs.
He invited other earthlings over some nights some he showed me to and others he got close to but before I could see what their interactions were heâd whisk him away to a private room away from me. But I did learn his name, Harrison.
Iâd spend my days observing Harrison or the visuals he would put on his wall display of some sort. He called these things movies. So many of the ones we would watch had stories of love or adventure. It widened my desire to not conquer a world even more. Maybe thatâs what I wanted to do. But I couldnât, not stuck in my current tiny form.
Iâm thankful Harrison saved me but Iâve got to level up. I decided to navigate my way out of the container, which I couldâve always done but I needed a plan first.
He was cooking his sustenance after coming back home all wet from his human secretions. With his back turned to me I leaped from the counter onto his waistband.
I consider it a species specialty that we Skreats are very pliable. I flattened out to slip under and find my way into Harrison. As I slithered towards his rounded backside, I began infiltrating and my savior began tensing up. He began to moan, mixing between pleasure and panic as he realized this was not a moment of intimacy but something else.
He began to switch hard to panic as he tried to fight my ascent but it was too late. I hauled it through so many tunnels of organs and vasculature until I got to his core. I guess you call it a heart. I began inserting my tendrils into it and began spreading myself through his bloodstream.
Pulse pulse pulse. I could feel his heart pumping and eventually I synced up with it. We were becoming one, my life purpose was finally being achieved. I had other plans though.
After Harrison took his last gasp for air, I began using my new earthling lungs. It felt like I was breathing too hard, wheezing for air that felt so foreign to me. Reading brainwaves to figure out things like movement and basic terms.
I decided to calm down and slow down. I used my new extremities and flexed my fingers as theyâre called. I used them to start feeling my corporal form. Harrisonâs lower back arched into a muscular bubble of a butt. I used one hand to slowly caress each curve before squeezing the firm but malleable ass. My other hand roaming across Harrisonâs inflated arms and chest. He spent time pushing and pulling plates of metal and cables to get all this as I scanned his brainwaves more.
Iâm sure this looked erotic to human beings but I was truly using this moment to discover earthlings.
I began to take off the coverings Harrison was wearing to see the anatomy it was hiding. So many curves and swerves I thought as I traced my host body with my hands. This body is feeling a nervous response called arousal I think.
Something is growing down below on my front area. I place one hand under the blue restraining fabric.
Firm but not hard as metal, the appendage was warm and almost inviting me to grab ahold. I used my new hand and began examining but as I examined and moved it around it felt exciting to go back and forth with it in my muscular hand. I took my other hand and explored the hole I entered through. I slid one finger in before slipping another then another one in.
Unhh
A sound came out of my mouth that I did not intend for. Is this also another nervous response? I began to give into the automatic responses and sped up. My stroking because more rhythmic and hard as I slid my hand up the hole in my backside. And before I could examine the responses another one emerged. A moan and a secretion.
First one then another then the appendage kept spurting out pulse after pulse of white viscous liquids. I was out of breathe in my new lungs. But curiosity struck again as I approached the liquid on a nearby wall. I got close to investigate and touched the sticky goo.
Maybe itâs nutritious or maybe a safety response? Hmm the brainwaves for this havenât hit me yet. Well instincts havenât led me astray yet. I opened my new mouth and used my new tongue to lick the wall clean. I wonder if this is how all food is acquired. Hmm.
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Can I request king Baldwin being jealous I just would want to see how it everything would go down đ€đ€
King Baldwin x reader - Jealousy
A/N: uuuuh I like this concept!! I can't lie it was pretty hard imagining him being jealous, especially since I myself wouldn't even look in other men's direction have I had Baldwin next to međ©đ©.
Anyway, hope you like my interpretation of your prompt :))
Painting is "A Midsummer Night's Dream - Hermian and Lysander" by John Simmons by the way :))
Warning: angst, jealousy and talks of insecurity. Reader is specifically described as being female!
I think it's common knowledge at this point that Baldwin is a man of many virtues, who likes to act guided by reason, not by the heart
The only exception to this ironclad rule is, well, you. You're his beloved wife, the only woman who had ever walked this earth able to make him swoon and lose his collected reasoning, in the name of his love for you
In his eyes, you were the most beautiful creature God has created, and your virtues to him had to be honored and made an example to the rest of the world
He knew you really had not much choice in marrying him: after all, it was a political marriage. But the moment he saw your cheeks get warmer, your eyes avert his own and your breath hitching as he got closer to you
He couldn't fathom how he got so lucky to be worthy of even the slightest of your attention, let alone your love. It was something that he cherished like the holiest of relics, and he made sure to show it by showering you in gifts, spending every breathing moment he had as close to you as possible, learning your passions and hobbies and introducing you to his own
But as much as he loved to shower you in the affection you so much deserved, he remained a man whose mind reigned over every other part of him, and that meant that he knew that he wasn't easy to love, mainly because of his appearance
He wasn't unaware of the fact that his decayed face, his bandaged limbs, his sometimes showing wounds,.. they made people feel a sense of uneasiness, it even repulsed some at the mere sight of it
He knew that a pair of soft, full lips would be preferred by any reasonable woman over his own scarred and partly destroyed ones
He knew that a vigorous man, strong enough to fight and ride on his own, to carry you and protect you would be much preferred to his weakened, often bedridden, mangled body
And he also knew that it was the norm that in most forced weddings, infidelity was so normal that it was even romanticized by singers and poets
So as time went on and his condition worsened by the day, the dooming feeling in his mind that warned him about you possibly growing a liking to someone else started to become more and more present in his mind
Especially one time, when a dashingly handsome prince has just arrived to Jerusalem's court, and he seems that you have piqued his interest, for he seems to make it his personal mission to be as close to you as he possibly can
It's almost as if he's forgotten that youâre married to the king of the realm that is hosting him!
Baldwin first noticed a rather unusual demeanor from the prince on the first night that he's been there, when he started to make a never ending string of jokes, all in order to get a melodic laugh out of you
Then came the walk through the garden, where you usually went with your husband to unwind from your royal duties. And now there he was, this bumptious young prince that acted like he could win you over your own husband
It was right then and there that his own self deprecating tendencies left him to be replaced by a burning flame inside of him, the desire to publicly show your belonging to him and him alone
And so he took it upon himself to muster up all his strength in the following hours, before making his appearance in the main hall. Of course he knew he'd found you there, along with your suitor
Oh how his heart swelled when he saw your eyes, firstly semi-closed from the boredom the prince was causing you, light up at the sight of your husband entering the room
He confidently walked through the room until he was right in front of you, gently taking your hand in his and bringing it to his veiled mouth and holding it there for just a little longer than usual, while his celestial eyes never leaving your own
The simple action left you breathless, mostly because you'd never seen that fire within his stare before, yet in that moment he seemed to you as if he had been possessed by some sort of force that granted him such confidence
Breathing in the sight of you for just a little longer, he then turned his gaze to the prince, talking in a satisfied tone
"What a sight for sore eyes is my wife, am I right? I feel sorry for you that you can enjoy of her company for so little, but I'm afraid that she's needed somewhere else."
If you didn't know him any better, you wouldn't be able to comprehend that there's nowhere where you're needed at the moment other than your husband's arms, and you're glad to fill in the empty spot without hesitation
Because, let's be honest, you took this suitor's attentions as a tool to spur your husband, to test his devotion to you and his desire to have you all to himself. You wanted him to see you as not something gave for granted, no, he had to fight for you like the knights fighting in the name of the women they love in the jousts
And that he did, and you could swear that you have never in your short life have felt so loved and wanted as he picked you up midway through the hallway, smiling playfully at you as you lowered the veil off his face
"You're gonna make me have a run for your attentions, my dear. But I must inform you I'm not prone to sharing when it comes to my beloved wife"
You wouldn't want it to be any other way, as he gently laid you on your shared bed before joining you. And there you spend the rest of the day, after he'd called off both of your daily duties just so that he could have that time dedicated to just the two of you, to make a point of the tie between you two, that no man, much less prince, could ever break
So yes, at times Baldwin can become jealous because of his insecurities and your undeniable beauty, but his combative nature gives him the right spur to make him act on it, never letting anything get in his way
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NAHLA AL-ARIAN HAS been living a nightmare for the past seven months, watching from afar as Israel carries out its scorched-earth war against her ancestral homeland in the Gaza Strip. Like many Palestinian Americans, the 63-year-old retired fourth-grade teacher from Tampa Bay, Florida, has endured seven months of a steady trickle of WhatsApp messages about the deaths of her relatives. âYou see, my fatherâs family is originally from Gaza, so they are a big family. And they are not only in Gaza City, but also in Deir al Balah and Khan Younis, other parts,â Al-Arian told me. Recently, the trickle of horrors became a flood: âIt started with like 27, and then we lost count until I received this message from my relative who said at least 200 had died.â The catastrophe was the backdrop for Al-Arianâs visit last week to Columbia University in New York City. Al-Arian has five children, four of whom are journalists or filmmakers. On April 25, two of her daughters, Laila and Lama, both award-winning TV journalists, visited the encampment established by Columbia students to oppose the war in Gaza. Laila, an executive producer at Al Jazeera English with Emmys and a George Polk Award to her name, is a graduate of Columbiaâs journalism school. Lama was the recipient of the prestigious 2021 Alfred I. duPontâColumbia Award for her reporting for Vice News on the 2020 explosion at the port of Beirut. The two sisters traveled to Columbia as journalists to see the campus, and Nahla joined them. âOf course, I tagged along. You know, why would I sit at the hotel by myself? And I wanted to really see those kids. I felt so down,â she said. âI was crying every day for Gaza, for the children being killed, for the women, the destruction of my fatherâs city, so I wanted to feel better, you know, to see those kids. I heard a lot about them, how smart they are, how organized, you know? So I said, letâs go along with you. So I went.â Nahla Al-Arian was on the campus for less than an hour. She sat and listened to part of a teach-in, and shared some hummus with her daughters and some students. Then she left, feeling a glimmer of hope that people â at least these students â actually cared about the suffering and deaths being inflicted on her family in Gaza. âI didnât teach them anything. They are the ones who taught me. They are the ones who gave me hope,â she recalled. âI felt much better when I went there because I felt those kids are really very well informed, very well educated. They are the conscience of America. They care about the Palestinian people who they never saw or got to meet.â Her husband posted a picture of Nahla, sitting on the lawn at the tent city erected by the student protesters, on his Twitter feed. âMy wife Nahla in solidarity with the brave and very determined Columbia University students,â he wrote. Nahla left New York, inspired by her visit to Columbia, and returned to Virginia to spend time with her grandchildren. A few days later, that one tweet by her husband would thrust Nahla Al-Arian into the center of a spurious narrative promoted by the mayor of New York City and major media outlets. She became the exemplar of the dangerous âoutside agitatorâ who was training the students at Columbia. It was Nahlaâs presence, according to Mayor Eric Adams, that was the âtipping pointâ in his decision to authorize the military-style raids on the campus.
On February 20, 2003, Nahlaâs husband, Sami Al-Arian, a professor at the University of South Florida, was arrested and indicted on 53 counts of supporting the armed resistance group Palestinian Islamic Jihad. The PIJ had been designated by the U.S. government as a terrorist organization, and the charges against Al-Arian could have put him in prison for multiple life sentences, plus 225 years. It was a centerpiece case of the George W. Bush administrationâs domestic âwar on terror.â When John Ashcroft, Bushâs notorious attorney general, announced the indictment, he described the Florida-based scholar as âthe North American leader of the Palestinian Islamic Jihad, Sami Al-Arian.â Among the charges against him was conspiracy to kill or maim persons abroad, specifically in Israel, yet the prosecutors openly admitted Al-Arian had no connection to any violence. He was a well-known and deeply respected figure in the Tampa community, where he and Nahla raised their family. He was also, like many fellow Palestinians, a tenacious critic of U.S. support for Israel and of the burgeoning âglobal war on terror.â His arrest came just days before the U.S. invaded Iraq, a war Al-Arian was publicly opposed to. The Al-Arian case was, at its core, a political attack waged by Bushâs Justice Department as part of a wider assault on the rights of Muslims in the U.S. The government launched a campaign, echoed in media outlets, to portray Al-Arian as a terror leader at a time when the Bush administration was ratcheting up its so-called global war on terror abroad, and when Muslims in the U.S. were being subjected to harassment, surveillance, and abuse. The legal case against Al-Arian was flimsy, and prosecutors largely sought to portray his protected First Amendment speech and charitable activities as terrorism. The trial against Al-Arian, a legal permanent resident in the U.S., did not go well for federal prosecutors. In December 2005, following a six-month trial, a jury acquitted him on eight of the most serious counts and deadlocked 10-2 in favor of acquittal on the other nine. The judge made clear he was not pleased with this outcome, and the prosecutors were intent on relitigating the case. Al-Arian had spent two years in jail already without any conviction and was staring down the prospect of years more. In the face of this reality and the toll the trial against him had taken on his family, Al-Arian agreed to take a plea deal. In 2006, he pleaded guilty to one count of providing nonviolent support to people the government alleged were affiliated with the PIJ. As part of the deal, Al-Arian would serve a short sentence and, with his residency revoked, get an expedited deportation. At no point during the governmentâs trial against Al-Arian did the prosecution provide evidence he was connected to any acts of violence. For the next eight years following his release from prison in 2008, Al-Arian was kept under house arrest and effectively subjected to prosecutorial harassment as the government sought to place him in what his lawyers characterized as a judicial trap by compelling him to testify in a separate case. His defense lawyers alleged the federal prosecutor in the case, who had a penchant for pursuing high-profile, political cases, held an anti-Palestinian bias. Amnesty International raised concerns that Al-Arian had been abused in prison and he faced the prospect of yet another lengthy, costly court battle. The saga would stretch on for several more years before prosecutors ended the case and Al-Arian was deported from the United States.
âThis case remains one of the most troubling chapters in this nationâs crackdown after 9-11,â Al-Arianâs lawyer, Jonathan Turley, wrote in 2014 when the case was officially dropped. âDespite the jury verdict and the agreement reached to allow Dr. Al-Arian to leave the country, the Justice Department continued to fight for his incarceration and for a trial in this case. It will remain one of the most disturbing cases of my career in terms of the actions taken by our government.â That federal prosecutors approved Al-Arianâs plea deal gave a clear indication that the U.S. government knew Al-Arian was not an actual terrorist, terrorist facilitator, or any kind of threat; the Bush administration, after all, was not in the habit of letting suspected terrorists walk. Al-Arian and his family have always maintained his innocence and say that he was being targeted for his political beliefs and activism on behalf of Palestinians. He resisted the deal, Nahla Al-Arian said. âHe didnât even want to accept it. He wanted to move on with another trial,â Nahla said. âBut because of our pressure on him, letâs just get done with it [because] in the end, weâre going leave anyway. So thatâs why.â Sami and Nahla Al-Arian now live in Turkey. Sami is not allowed to visit his children and grandchildren stateside, but Nahla visits often.
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the summer i turned pretty - charles leclerc & arthur leclerc
a reader x charles leclerc/arthur leclerc love triangle
warnings: intoxicated (but consensual) kissing
a/n: trying out a written piece/smau/texts weird hybrid but it was all i could come up with to get this idea across! i hope you all like it <3 (there will be a part 2)
also this was requested!! i'm so sorry anon i lost the ask but i hope u see it and like it anyways
Day 1
France is a place that isnât easy to forget, but having lived there your whole life made it seem ordinary. The country that saw me grow up, and that I was glad to call home, failed to impress me every day because I was used to it. The beautiful architecture, history, and tourist attractions werenât as beautiful to me anymore; it was my day-to-day life.
That wasnât true for the beach house in Nice. It wasnât mine, or my familyâs, but that place never failed to impress me, even if it was my day-to-day life every summer. The Leclerc summer home was my favorite place on Earth. From its blue and white facade, the soft beige interiors, the pool and beach view, the big dining room, and the incredible company, thereâs no place Iâd rather be in right now.
âY/N L/N, you have arrived!â Charles Leclerc, the ultimate reason for this placeâs beauty, yelled out to me.
âCharles Leclerc, I have arrived!â I replied blushing, and opening my arms into an embrace. As every time I hugged him, my body relaxed and tensed somehow at the same time, safe and nervous, loved and not loved back. But arenât all childhood crushes like that?
âIâve also arrived, pote. If you even care,â my wonderfully annoying older brother, Alexandre, interjected. Charles let me go to greet my brother, and I turned to find the youngest Leclerc, Arthur, on his way to hug me hello.
âHi, chĂ©rie,â he said with a smile on his face, ruffling my hair affectionately.
âHi, Arthur. Up to no good once again?â
âIâm always up to all good!â
Pascale Leclerc, the boysâ mother, greeted me with cheeks kisses and pinches. Everyone then swarmed my mom, Alice. Sometimes I think my friends love her more than they love me, but that was deserved.
As every year before, everyone finally felt at home. And as every year before, the inaugural pool party started.
âY/N L/N, will you do me the honor of joining me at the pool?â Charles exaggeratedly held out his hand, as if we were Royals in a ball. Antics that I was happy to oblige with. Too happy for my dignity to recover.Â
As we made our way inside, and swam a couple laps playing around on who is faster, we wound up floating peacefully on a corner with the sun beginning to set.Â
âI missed you,â Charles said out of nowhere, making my heart do a somersault.Â
âI miss you too,â I managed to reply, feeling the blush on my cheeks.Â
âI want to hear from you more often. I know Iâm busy with racing, but I always can make time for you Y/N.â
The thing about unrequited love is any show of affection feels like a marriage proposal. But of course I could not deny his request. He was, above all else, one of my best friends and one that I needed to be there for.Â
HervĂ© Leclerc passed away the year before, a couple months after the summer vacation. We didnât know it would be the last time we spent with him, and I was worried about what this yearâs vacation would be like with the boysâ father missing.Â
âIâm always here for you,â I vowed and he gave me a quick, chaste kiss on my forehead. To make sure I wouldnât forget my promise.Â
As I looked at Charlesâ glistening face against the darkening sun, I realized we would be okay.Â
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Day 2
âChĂ©rie,â was the first voice I heard as I woke up, with Arthur knocking on my door for show and letting himself in.
âToo early,â I whined back and hid under the covers, to have them ripped from me by the guy in my room.
âItâs time for the sunrise beach walk,â he replied and I knew he was right, so I let myself be dragged outside the house. I couldnât say no, since the sunrise walk at least once during the vacation is also a tradition between Arthur and I.
It was also worth it; we silently agreed for that to be time to catch up, be honest, and be vulnerable ever since we began taking the walks. This one would be particularly hard too.
âI really, really miss my dad,â he said, putting his arm around my shoulders to walk side by side.
I didnât know how to handle HervĂ©âs death with the boys.Â
Enzo was older than me, even beyond his years, and there was nothing I could say that would be wiser, or better than what he had to say.
Arthur was quiet and reasonable, way more accepting of inevitables than me, more useful to himself than me.
Charles was passionate but closed, a master at compartmentalization, never letting me in even if Iâd like to.
But Arthur, ever my closest friend, still needed my support.
âI know you do,â I replied softly and squeezed his hand. âItâs only normal, and Iâm sorry youâve been dealt these cards.â
Grief is a strange thing, but on the beach I hoped I let Arthur know that I would always be by his side, and that the sun will always rise again for him. With his steady breathing while leaning on me as we sat on the sand, I knew he understood.
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This was the third year Arthur and I were invited to parties that Alexandre and Charles went to. The promotion from little siblings to cool siblings opened up a new world in Nice. Especially one where I could ignore my schoolgirl crush on Charles through alcohol.
So I happily got ready, into a pink summer dress and into the car that would drive us all to an even bigger house filled with a bunch of privileged European kids ready to drink the night away.
The first drink came from Antoine, who sadly had a beautiful girl around his arms that indicated he wouldnât be a good distraction. The second one came from Amelie, my Nice girlfriend, who was happy as ever to see me and catch up with me before she also found an arm candy and promptly left. The third one was on me, as I was forced to stare at Charles making out with a girl I learned was named Charlotte.
After that, I stopped counting and kept drinking, joining the dance floor to enjoy the numb feeling in my face, the new found careless attitude, and the music blasting in my ears.
Before I could process it, Arthur was in front of me, the blush on his face indicating he was also intoxicated. What started as a normal jumping around like one does at a party, progressed to a point where his hands were on my waist and my hands were on his neck.
I couldnât even recognize the song anymore, too entranced on the way his eyes were on mine. There were no words, as was usual between him and I. We just knew.
I wouldnât take the first step, but he would. Arthurâs lips met mine in a strong, messy kiss. I didnât pull away. I did want it. And it wasnât scary.
When we stopped to take a breath, I realized I wanted to kiss him again. As I was leaning in, taking the initiative myself now, another force pulled me away.
I walked by inertia, trying not to fall down in following who was leading me away from the crowd. When I looked up, I recognized it to be Charles.
I couldnât breathe from the adrenaline of the kiss I just shared, but also from the touch of Charlesâ hand on mine, even if it was to take me out of the party.
My reaction was all too slow, finally starting to protest.
âWhat are you doing? Let me go,â I defensively said, snatching my hand away from his. The butterflies didnât leave anyways.
âYouâre drunk, letâs go home,â Charles coldly replied and held my hand again on his way to the car.
âWhy would I want to go home? Iâm having fun,â I continued to protest and he continued to pay me no mind.
As he put me inside the vehicle, despite my clumsy attempts to fight it, and slammed the door, I continued to think about what this could possibly be about. Where was Charlotte? Where was Arthur? What was happening?
My head spun and he got in the driverâs seat, turning the ignition on.
âWhat the hell are you doing?â
âYouâre drunk. You donât kiss people when youâre drunk.â
âThat makes no sense.â
âYou donât kiss people you havenât kissed sober.â
âIts Arthur!â
âExactly!â
The back and forth continued all the way to the house, my thoughts sobering up with every passing moment.
âIf you donât want me to be with your brother because you donât think Iâm good enough, thatâs really not your choice,â I told him decisively, crossing my arms and pouting like a child throwing a tantrum.
That was the only explanation for what Charles just did. He didnât think a Leclerc should be with someone like me, and was doing everything he could to prevent it.
When he started laughing, I wasnât so convinced anymore.
âWhatâs so funny?â
âYou have no idea what youâre talking about. I just made the biggest scene out of jealousy, and youâre saying I donât think youâre good enough.â
Time froze and my mouth went dry. The confession made its way through my entire bloodstream, replacing the alcohol effects with pure shock. My head was spinning for entirely different reasons, and my brain couldnât bring the words out. What would I even say?
I opened my mouth but nothing came out, and Charles put his face on his hands in frustration, before leaving the car. I still could only think what is happening?
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Ways to say "I love you" - Lewis Hamilton
I'm back with more Lew â€ïž
warnings: mostly fluff, bit of angsty
wordcount: +3k
important: each drabble was writen as a snippet into different moments with Lewis. There's 10 more of those, but this was getting huge, so this is part 1.
With a hoarse voice, under the blankets
Life had been hectic, as it tended to be around the weeks before the final couple of races. You and Lewis had been on the road since mid October, not really going back to Europe since the US GP in Texas. The week off between SĂŁo Paulo and Las Vegas the perfect opportunity to take a few days off in California with his friends. It was tiring, but youâd never complain of having a full passport as a down feature for your job.
The week of the Las Vegas GP was packed of events and promo for everyone, and to top it off a quick impromptu meeting with the board in the media day of the GP turned into a 5 hours long debate, that went well into the night.
You got back to your suite almost at midnight in serious need of a shower and some sleep. What you didnât predict was Lewis already tucked into the bed, sound asleep.
You tiptoed around the room to try and find your things, not being lucky in the slightest you settled for a shirt Lewis had used in the road trip from LA to Vegas. The quick shower, only meant to decompress, had you engulfed in Lewisâ perfume, from both his shower products and shirt.
Lewis soft breathing guided you to the bed in the darkness of the room and when you got under the soft covers a pair of arms guided you to his chest, the one place sure to get you blacked out in minutes.
âThey're in serious trouble for keeping you for so longâ his horse voice an indication he had been in deep sleep already
âSorry, took longer than we expectedâ
âCanât wait to have you all to myself. Gonna have to lock you up at home during winterâ
âNo need, Iâll always find my way to youâ. You mumbled into his neck, already nestling closer to him, ready to drift off.
A scream
âI love youâ You screamed when you realized youâd never catch him, mid airport track, hoping the wind would somehow carry your words. His head turned abruptly, his face had confusion written all over his features, he was stuck in place, too stunned to comprehend the sudden confession you were hollering to the world but couldnât say aloud to him just hours ago. You ran to him, security, people and restrictions be damned, that was your one chance.
âI love you, Lewis. I have loved you for longer than I care to admit, I have not stopped loving you even when I said I didnât, even when hating you was all I wanted.â within armâs reach you admitted breathlessly, doe eyes looking at you with such intensity you were sure he could see into your soul. His hands cautiously outstretching towards yours, waiting for you to take it, waiting for your mind to catch up to the feelings you had just admitted, waiting to see if youâd finally let your heart take over.
You didnât take his hand though, going instead for the back of his neck, caressing the soft skin at the base of his hairline with your fingers, his overwhelming gaze waiting for your next move, for you to fully give in, looking from his eyes to his mouth until his scent and his touch were all that you felt. His hold on the lower of your back, the brush of his eyelashes on your cheeks and his taste on your lips were all you could ever want. The decision of a lifetime, one that after that day you would make every day, over and over.
On a random Tuesday afternoon, the late sunlight glowing in your hair
The thing with Lewis was he was too much of an Capricorn for his own good, the earth in him urged for stability and trust, and in the familiarity and serenity of home he urged for security, not that he wanted a predictable life, but he wished that no matter what, he had someone he could fall back on.
âMove in with meâ He blurred out of nowhere causing you to lightly laugh at him, scotching closer to his chest as if there was any space left between you, both laying comfortably tangled in each other in his house in London. Pillows and blankets around you on the floor, the late afternoon sunlight hitting the glass on the dining table and reflecting up at the ceiling, a movie on the tv neither were paying attention to.
âI mean it. I donât see myself without you, I donât want to anyway.â he almost whispered in your ears, the low volume to his voice amplifying the seriousness in his proposal. Turning your head to look at him you held your gaze into his for minutes, almost daring him to call off the offer, but he never did. His warm smile spreading onto his features when you crocked your head and smirked, specks of the late sunlight glowing where they hit your hair.
âIâd love toâ you murmured, straddling him and pushing his chest so heâd lay back down on the blankets, hovering your face over his, leaving ghostly soft kisses on his lips, coming back up to look him in the eye, time and time again. Convincing yourself that it was okay to finally let your walls down for good.
âI love you; you know?!â a statement so surely presented to your, so pure. He didnât wait to hear it back before pulling your to his chest and his lips, he didnât have to.
When baking chocolate chip cookies
âWeâre baking chocolate chip cookies!â You exclaimed as you entered his home gym in London mid-winter break, supplies in hand already anticipating half of the ingredients wouldnât exist in his fridge.
âExcuse me?â He questioned as he set the weights down and reached for the towel to get the sweat dry from his forehead
âCâmom, vegan chocolate chip cookiesâ you rushedly told him already half way back inside, leaving a confused Lewis searching for any meaning to what had just happened.
As he approached his kitchen, he could hear the soft music playing in the speakers in the background while you danced around arranging the things youâd need.
âCare to explain, love?â He leaned at the stool just under the glistening spotlight and the couple of trays spread at the kitchen island.
âYour niece and nephew are coming over tomorrowâ She retorted, almost a duh expression on her features as she chopped the vegan chocolate bar.
âY/n, they know Iâm preparing for the seasonâ He lovingly replied, getting closer to you.
âOh, theyâre not exactly for you, Lew. I mean, theyâre still vegan if you want to try them.â You turned into his embrace, leaving a kiss to the corner of his lips before wiggling back to where the many food items were.
âYou show up at my house midafternoon, fully stacked, to bake vegan cookies for kids that arenât coming until tomorrow and donât really expect to eat anything but fruits ?!â He crocked his head, smirk fully on display as his eyes gleamed.
âThatâs like half the reason I came. Apples and bananas are fine, but they are kids.â You shrugged as that was the most obvious thing.
âWeâre really baking cookies then, I guess?!â He reached to you and grabbed the flour off of your hand, pouring it into a bowl.
âChocolate chip cookiesâ You corrected him, laughing as he stole a few of the chopped chocolates still sitting on the chopping boardÂ
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Not said to me
You jolted up from your sleep when you heard a loud cry, frantically looking around the room you remembered you werenât home when your eyes found the luggage in the corner, yours and Lewisâs belongings neatly tucked in the adjoining closet, a stark contrast to the baby clothes and toys scattered around the floor and armchairs. Slowly coming to your senses, you realized the crying was in your dreams when you heard a happy babble, followed by your husbandâs low voice coming from the balcony of the hotel room.
âSshh love, we donât want to wake mamma up now do we? Sheâs taking a nap so we can go for a walk down the beach later.â The little girl instantly responding with a babble at the word she knew all too well.
Getting up you didnât have the heart to interrupt the scene that played out when you peaked from the opened French doors of the room, deciding to quietly watch from the threshold as he kept blowing raspberries onto your daughterâs tummy, the chunky toddler in nothing but her diapers, in the hot afternoon summer breeze of Italy in July, excitedly clapping her hands for her dad while sitting on his legs.
âOh, I miss her too baby, even when sheâs just in the other room⊠Iâll tell you a secret though, even if momma tells the world weâre twins, every time I see your eyes, I see hers, the same one Iâve been in love with for a long time. Everyone says you are my hard carbon copy, but I love that I get to look into a piece of your mommy whenever I look at you".
When we lay together by the sun
The sun in your skin felt divine, a stark contrast to the wintery end of year youâd been having back in Europe, the heat and humidity in the air bringing to your senses the familiarity of northeast Brazilian weather in the hottest months of the year. His touch on your shoulder blades providing even more warmth, big hands massaging your whole back with sunscreen.
âBy all means Iâm the biggest fan of your back massages, but I put on sunscreen just a couple of hours agoâ you giggled looking at him over your shoulders, sunglasses on the tip of your nose.
âJust making sure youâre protected, will you do mine?â He asked after tying the strings on the upper part of your bikini and giving your bum a checky light smack.
âYeah⊠come here you Britonâ grabbing him by the arms you sat up on the lounger and guided him to sit in between in your legs, his back already hot from the sun exposure.
âThank you for coming here with me, I know we made it a 4 times header not going home to rest for a bit after Mexico.â You told him while spreading the white content of the Brazilian sunscreen youâd bought, throwing away the british one, not properly suited to sun in the tropics from your past experiences.
âAny time, love.â turning to face you he pulled you by the waist, his signature smirk and relaxed eyes scanning yours. âEspecially when it includes this little paradise.â
âHave I told you I love you yet?â You questioned, the toothy grin he loved so much splattered on your face, his strong arms around you, the sounds of crashing waves in the background, white sand in your toes and his skin smelling just like your favorite childhood memories did.
âNot today, I donât think so. Eu te amoâ a questioning look as he tested his Portuguese around you, crushing his lips in yours while you giggled, raising you up to his body so he could hold you in his lap, his touch also how home felt to you.Â
Over and over again, till itâs nothing but a senseless babble
He felt the first little droplets of rain hit his skin as soon as she screamed ârunâ, laughing while holding her oversized hat to her head. He sprinted towards her, grabbing her waist, effortlessly stopping them both and turning her body to him, her eyes holding the warmth that lately he could only find there, his face adorned with adoration, her dimples fully showing as her lips plastered the sweetest of grins.
âI love youâ He couldnât help himself, those 3 little words coming out as easily as breath, the thought of how hard itâd been to get them out in the first place long forgotten. She held his gaze as if trying to eternalize those memories, the afternoon summer rain falling hard around them whilst rays of sunlight hit the concrete, their clothes drenched, drops of water running down their tangled bodies.
âI love you; I love you; I love youâ senseless babbles that professed his utmost emotion, holding her up to him and kissing in the pouring rain like they were teenagers in a cheesy movie.
A whisper in the ear
Being back to Europe always took you some time to get acclimated, and it didnât help that that particular winter had been the coldest in years, so much colder than what your body was used to, so you wrapped yourself up in blankets waiting for your boyfriend to get out of the shower and join you in bed, hopefully helping you to warm up.
His parents, siblings, niece and nephew were gathered for an impromptu 5 days getaway in the mountains, in the middle of wintery January, snow everywhere and days filled with winter sports, fireplaces and laughter from the people that had welcomed you as family.Â
âHey gorgeous, I thought youâd still be down thereâ he smirked his way to the open luggage on the little sofa by the bed, towel low on his hips and another in his hand for his face.
âEveryone went to bed, something about getting some sleep to beat you on the slopes tomorrowâ You giggled the last part, knowing how competitive they could get. He chuckled and made his way towards you, getting under the blankets and bringing you over to his side, just his presence enough to soothe away the tight muscles from the cold.
âHow come youâre always running so cold?â he whispered in your hair, wrapping his arms around your waist and hips and bringing you to his chest. His skin radiating warmth and the smell of your body wash, since heâd forgotten to pack his. Fingers absentmindedly tracing random patterns on your thighs, your eyes lazily trying to focus on the news on the tv but failing miserably, the world could wait until the next morning.
âI love youâ was the last thing you heard he whisper, his hoarse voice heavy with sleep, his arms scooching your body closer to his while making sure the blankets covered you both before he let his own sleep take over.
As we huddle together, the storm raging outside
Sundays after races would always be busy for the both of you. The rain was falling hard as you entered the small RV as quietly as you could, founding Lewis ingulfed in his own thoughts and feelings when you finally cleared through your duties, way past the time you wish had.
Taking in how his arms and back looked tense while he rested his head on both his hands sitting in the small sofa, you brought yourself to stand right in front of him, softly running your finger on his neck until he looked up offering a sad side smile and tugged you to his lap. You hadnât spoken to each other since before he got in his car, well over 4 hours prior, but you didnât have to.
He needed time to process what happened, he always did. Lewis could always come to interviews looking like he had it all together, always with the right words, but you knew, from the crease in his forehead and the way his shoulders dropped whenever he breathed a little deeper, that his calculating-looking actions and words were just knee-jerk reactions.
âI love youâ you said into his neck, a consolation of sorts, huddling together, sitting on his lap with his head resting on your chest and his arms holding your waist tightly. At least in that small room, neither of you had to think about the storm brewing outside, not yet anyway.
Over the shoulder
The championship had, yet again, came down to the last race and the doom could be felt even from outsiders. The last time it happened Lewis wasnât even a Ferrari driver, but everyone remembered.
You had tried to block the subject from your conversations with him, warned everyone he had enough of the comparisons, made sure he had all the space to breath, concentrate and shield all the noise from the outside. Yet, in the apparent serenity of the hotel bedroom, the quietness would scream back at him.
âWhat if itâs not meant to be?â He snapped you out of your thoughts as you finished some reports on your computer. His eyes a mix of something you couldnât quite pint point, his walls up even for you.
âThen youâre still a 7 times world champion, a driver whoâs won for McLaren, Mercedes and Ferrari, a trailblazer in the sport, entrepreneur over a variety of assets, founder of Mission 44, British knight, Brazilian honorary citizen, Anthony and Carmenâs son, Nicolasâ brother, my momâs favorite son-in-law⊠oh and Roscoeâs dad, of course.â He smiled as you got to his family, scootching over to be by your side on the balcony sofa and laying his head on your lap.
âI would hate to be an almost champion⊠twiceâ  Â
âYeah, we would all hate that too. And itâs okay to feel all kinds of way about possible results, but weâre not gonna known until we know, right?!â Â You felt him humm in response, your fingertips going through his braids, trying to sooth the tensions away from him.
It wasnât until the soft humming of a phone in the bedroom that you realized you had fallen asleep in the balcony, his body moving almost automatically to get him up while his features revealed how he too had dozed off.
âWill you still love an almost champion?â He prompted suddenly, almost like he had just remembered he had to know, eyes twinkling under the lights.
âBabe, I stayed even in the timbs phase, didnât I?â You smirked back earning a full soundless chuckle, those that had him reach for his diaphragm and shake his head left to right.
âYouâre lucky I love you; you really are.â You heard as he looked over his shoulders just as he got back inside.
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