#i could have gotten it done today but procrastinated too long lmao

[ganondoodle]

last comic wip before the next update and also end of chapter one tomorrow

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[carrotmakar]

The Best Kind Of Night

Pairing: Harry Styles x Reader

Word Count: 2.2k

Summary: After a long day filled with meetings and overbearing reminders of deadlines, Harry’s in need of a little time with his girl.

Warning(s): Stressed out H, a spa night, mentions of nudity (nothing explicit or sexual), and innuendo to some sexy time (but nothing to dramatic), fluff, not edited (i JUST had people beta read a piece for me and I don’t wanna bother them lmao)

A/N: anon requested: painting harry’s nails after he had a long day, followed by a bath together and cuddling. I’m currently working on a longer piece but I got this request and just had to write it (partially because of how cute it is and partially because i want to procrastinate for longer)!!!!! I have like, 15 other requests that are still in the works, so if you see me write someone else’s request and not yours, don’t worry, I’m getting to it!! also!!!! the gif has like, nothing to do with the piece i just really like it!!

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When he was sixteen, he never thought that being a singer could be this hard. In his head it was simple: write songs, record the songs, go on tour. And when he was in a band, it still kind of seemed like that, especially because he had other boys to help him do everything. 

But now he realizes that it’s a lot harder than he thought at sixteen, and sometimes he feels like it’s near impossible to do it on his own. 

Every single day it’s “Harry, I need you to approve this” or “Harry, you need to redo this” or “Harry, there’s something that requires your immediate attention.” Sometimes it almost feels like it’s too much. There’s only so much he can handle before his brain feels on the verge of bursting at the seams with all the things that he has to do. 

On days like today, where it was meeting after meeting, he’s drained. At the end of the day all he wants to do is go home and spend time with the love of his life. He wants to ask about her day and have her ramble on for as long as she wants about all the little things that made her day enjoyable.

That’s what he’s looking forward to when Jeff stops him and tells him that there’s yet another emergency meeting that Harry has to attend. He barely stops himself from audibly groaning about the prospect of having to sit through another meeting when he could be at home with his girl. The last thing that he wants right now is to go sit at a table with a bunch of people he sees once a week and do absolutely nothing but sign a paper or two. But he’s not really in the mood to push it off and then have Jeff mad at him, so he follows him to the conference room and takes his seat.

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She can tell that he’s had a long day the moment that he walks through the door without his usual pep. Normally, there’s a smile on his face, albeit a tired one, and a twinkle in his eyes. Tonight, though, none of that’s there. It’s just a blank face, almost like he’s not entirely present.

“Hey, honey. Welcome home.” She greets as she pads over to where he’s kicking off his shoes.

“Hey, baby.” He mumbles. He sounds exhausted and she knows that he’s going to need some loving tonight so that he doesn’t go to bed upset about today.

“Wanna tell me about work?” She tries to gauge what exactly caused him to be like this. She knows that it has to be something to do with the business part of his musical career, but she needs to know exactly what’s gotten him to this point so that she’ll know what to do to fix it.

“Just meetings and Jeff badgering me about getting things done.” Before he can even finish the entire sentence, she has her arms wrapped around him.

She knows exactly what he needs to get his mind off of the stress and aggravation that’s weighing him down. Fortunately, it had been a while since he had paid enough attention to the details of his appearance to give himself a spa day, so she has enough room to give him the entire experience.

“Want me to paint your nails, H?” She suggests, knowing that he most likely does but just won’t openly ask for it.

‘You don’t have to do that, love.” He tries to assure her that it’s not something that’s required of her, but she can tell by the way that he slightly straightened up that the thought of having her redo his nails excited him.

“Nonsense, I want to do it.” She nudges him slightly to emphasize her point.

“Fine, if you insist.” He gives her a small grin, which she fully lights up at. She’s already getting him to destress and that makes her happier than just about anything. 

She drags him to their bedroom and instructs him to sit on the bed. Once he complies, she walks over to the bottom drawer of her nightstand and pulls out the bag that she keeps full of nail products just for him.

Pulling out the nail polish remover and the cotton balls, she sits down beside him and adjusts everything to where she’ll be the most comfortable using it. She dampens the cotton balls with the remover and gets to work on stripping his nails of the polish. After a few minutes of rubbing away at his nails, she disposes of the used cotton balls and picks up the cuticle pusher.

“Please be gentle.” He all but whines when he sees the tool in her hand.

“I’d never hurt you, baby.” She coos, putting the pusher down to grab ahold of his hands.

“I know, it just scares me a little bit still.” She softens even more than she ever thought possible at his words. He’d always been a little weary about the nail tool, but she always made sure to let him know that he’d be fine. She knows that it can look a little intimidating, especially when she’s pushing his cuticles back.

“I’ll be careful, honey. I promise.” He lightly shuts his eyes and nods, signaling for her to continue what she was doing. She picks the pusher back up and takes her time pushing each cuticle back, making sure not to push too hard or go too fast. 

After she’s done, he reopens his eyes and smiles at her. “Thank you, love.”

She leans up slightly and presses a quick peck to his lips. “It’s my pleasure, baby.” He blushes slightly at the pet name and it makes her heart swell in her chest. “Now, what color are we thinking?”

“Um, what color are you gonna do yours next?” He asks, looking up at her through his lashes.

“Probably pastel yellow. I’ve been wanting to do yellow for a while but I don’t think the neon would look good on me.” She slightly scrunches her nose at the thought of neon yellow nails and he chuckles lightly at how cute she looks. 

“Then I think I’ll do pastel yellow too, if you don’t mind us matching.” The blush returns to his cheeks and she quickly agrees with the idea of matching him. 

As she pulls out the perfect shade, he fidgets with the hem of his pants. Normally, this is something that would go unnoticed, but tonight everything is making her wonder how he’s doing.

“You alright, H?” He snaps his head up to meet her eyes and his hands stop all movement.

“Yeah, why?” He looks like a deer caught in headlights and she’s confused as to why he looks so nervous.

“You know you can tell me anything, right?” He quickly nods his head and looks away. She decides to let the subject drop, but not even a minute later, he sighs and looks back over at her.

“Can we take a bath after my nails dry?” He rushes his words, like they burn his tongue. 

“Of course, honey.” The smile that breaks out onto his face makes his dimples pop and she feels like her heart skips a few beats. 

They fall silent while she finishes painting his nails and applying the top coat. 

She’s just thinking about getting up to go run the water when he all but whispers her name. “Can you tell me about your day?” 

“Yeah, what do you wanna know?” She maneuvers herself until she’s sat beside him instead of in front of him. He cranes his neck to the side to look at her and she motions for them to lay back on the pillows at the top of the bed.

“Dunno really. Just wanna know how your day went. Like…” He pauses for a moment so he can focus on getting comfortable without messing up his still damp nails. “Like, what you had for breakfast, how the drive to work was, what you had for lunch, if anyone was rude to you, that kinda stuff.”

Once they’re both settled into the pillows, she looks over at him. “I had pancakes for breakfast, they were really good. I put chocolate chips on them.” She reaches out to push a stray curl out of his face. “Um, the drive was alright. I listened to your songs on the way so it made it go by a little faster.” She pauses, immediately regretting telling him that. Yeah, she’s supportive but sometimes she finds it weird to listen to his songs in the car. It’s a feeling that she can’t quite put a finger on, but she’s scared that he’ll find it even weirder than she does.

“Which ones?” He urges her to continue, not even batting an eye at the fact that she listens to his songs even when he’s not around. But really, now that she actually takes a moment to think about it, why would he? He listens to his own songs, so why wouldn’t she?

“Um, ‘Sweet Creature’ was first, and then I put on ‘Fine Line’ and finished with ‘Golden’.” She reaches down to grab one of his hands. She lightly taps at the nail to see if it’s dry and finds that they’re completely set.

“Can we go take our bath now? You can keep telling me about your day there.” He basically whines out the words and she can’t help but chuckle.

“Of course, sweetheart. Come on.” She pushes herself up and out of bed and reaches for his hands. He gladly grabs onto her and lets her lead him to the bathroom.

“Thank you for this.” He stops right inside the bathroom door and spins her around and into his arms. 

“You don’t need to thank me.” She mutters into his chest and he squeezes her tighter. 

“Yes I do. You don’t have to do things like this for me.” She pulls back slightly so she can look at him.

“You’re right, I don’t. But I do it because I love you, H.” She runs a hand up his chest to the side of his neck. “And when you come home like you did today, I just wanna see you happy.”

“I love you too, baby.” He whispers before leaning down slightly to attach their lips. After a moment, she pulls back and moves away from him. He begins to pout before he realizes that she’s moving to start the bath.

He follows behind her and watches as she adjusts the water to the temperature that was just right for them to be able to sit in the bath together for as long as they wanted. She inserts the stopper into the drain and turns back around so she’s facing him.

“Can I undress you?” Normally when he asks that question, it doesn’t sound like he’s a little kid hoping to be allowed to get a new toy.

She nods her head and he closes the small distance between them. His hands immediately drop to the hem of her shirt. Before pulling it up and over her head, he looks at her again for confirmation. Her nod is all he needs to slip off the shirt and throw it into the counter. She hadn’t been wearing a bra, so he moves down to her sweatpants. Normally he would have taken a moment to admire her body, but that’s not what this moment is about.

After he slides her sweats and her panties down her legs, she kicks them off and moves to undress him. She takes her time unclasping all of the buttons on his shirt and carefully slides it down his arms. The shirt gets draped over the towel rack, as will his pants once they’re off. She may be ready to get into the bath with him, but there’s no way that she’s going to throw Gucci clothes on the floor without a second thought. 

Before she goes to unclasp his pants, she reaches over and turns off the water that was filling the bath. When she turns back around, she sees that he’s already finished undressing himself. 

“You’re so impatient.” She complains, although she’s not actually upset by it in the slightest.

“Just wanna be close to you.” He gives her his best puppy eyes and she immediately pushes him closer to the bathtub.

“Get in.” He does as he’s told, sliding through the bubbles and into the water. He makes grabby hands at her and she moves to get in with him. She steps into the tub and situates herself between his legs. Her back is to his chest and his arms instinctively wrap around her torso. The moment that her body relaxes into his she can feel him sigh in content.

She leans her head back against his shoulder and cranes her neck to try and look at him. “Feel better baby?”

“Much better. This is exactly what I needed.” He leans in and presses a quick kiss to her lips before pulling away and completely relaxing.

She takes a moment to admire how peaceful he looks. His appearance had done a full one eighty from the time that he had walked in the door until now, and she was glad to be the reason that he felt so much better.

She turns back around and gets comfortable before relaxing into his body. 

As much as she hated seeing him stressed out and worked up, she loved having nights like these with him, and she’d never turn down the opportunity to pamper him.

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[kaistarus]

Mistexting Mayhem

Pairing: Nishinoya X Reader

Words: 1.6K

Summary: You accidentally send Nishinoya a text that was meant for Yachi and now he’s knows secrets you were hoping he never found out

A/N: If you think this fic is anything but crack you’re wrong lmao I’ve always wanted to write a fic with this style and Noya is great for the chaos i needed. It was fun

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[6:40pm] idiot⚡: look y/n without adhd id be too powerful

                         i could beet god himself in handtohand combat

                         god was afraid of my raw fuckin awesomeness wen i bursted from the woom

[6:41pm] y/n: there is so much wrong with what u just said

[6:41pm] idiot⚡: i have absoltly no clue wat

[6:43pm] y/n: put those 3 brain cells to work. I believe in you

[6:43pm] idiot⚡: but theyve reached their daily quota

                          plz there so tired and overworked

You snorted, a dopey smile on your lips as you laid surrounded by textbooks and homework, swinging your feet in the air behind you. You focused intently on the cell phone in your hand doing everything you could to procrastinate the schoolwork around you.

[6:44pm] y/n: noyas so stupid

[6:44pm] yachi❤: i thought you liked him?

[6:45pm] y/n: jeez Yachi. dont come for my throat

                       i cant help that i have bad taste 🙄

[6:46pm] yachi❤: if it helps he tripped over a stray ball today

                               maybe think of that till you don’t like him??

Unfortunately, the image of Nishinoya waving to everyone then biffing it only had you smiling like a dork. How you’d gotten to a point that Nishinoya being an idiot made you swoon, you’ll never know.

You raised your eyebrow suspiciously at the new notification on Snapchat from ‘Tanaka’ and after swiping it open you nearly dropped your phone. Looking back at you was Nishinoya, his head tilted and eyebrow quirked in confusion with a gari-gari kun shoved halfway down his throat. The caption at the bottom reading ‘daaaammn look at your prince charming go 😩’.

You frowned at the picture, letting out a frustrated groan at how your heart accelerated against your ribcage. You quickly tapped out of it and reopened the messenger app.

[6:57pm] y/n: we have to kill Noya

[6:57pm] idiot⚡: we??? what kind of mission is this??? 😤

[6:58pm] y/n: i like him too much. he has to die. its for my own good

You waited impatiently for her response and almost debated doing your homework since it took longer than you felt necessary. You supposed you had suggested murder to Yachi, but still…

When you finally received a response your entire body froze.

[7:11pm] idiot⚡: U LIKE ME?!?!? 😍

                          UR KILLING ME?!?! 😢

                          IM SO CONFUSED......

                          and a lil turned on ngl👀

Your hand covered your mouth in horror as you processed what the hell you had just done. This didn’t happen to people in real life. Mistexting was stuff people made up when they created fake texts for social media to get likes. You didn’t think people actually went through this.

You opened new notifications to escape the hell that stared you straight in the face.

[7:15pm] Tanaka💪: Yo, whatd u do. Whys Noya having a panic attak

[7:16pm] y/n: I accidently texted him instead of Yachi and told him i liked him 😣

[7:16pm] Tanaka💪: O wtf thats hilarious 😂

[7:17pm] y/n: ITS NOT HILArIOUS

[7:18pm] Tanaka💪: Hes askin if its a prank. Wat do i do?

[7:19pm] y/n:I DONT KNOW SDKFHJN IM THE IDIOT WHO STSRTED IT

He stopped responding and you banged your head against your pillow anxiously.

[7:23pm] y/n: YACHI ITOLD NoYA I LKED HIM AND NOU HE NOS WAY DO JI DO!?!????! 😭😭😭

[7:23pm] idiot⚡: THIS ISNT YACHI!!!!

                           HOLY FUKC U DO LIEK ME!!!

You screamed into your pillow. Were you fucking kidding? This could not be happening.

[7:25pm] Tanaka💪: dude, twice? i cant save u now 🤪

[7:25pm] y/n: betraying me in my time of fucking need? i’ll remember this asshole

[7:26pm] Tanaka💪: so vulgar 👀

You growled at Tanaka’s uselessness and bravely peeked through one eye as you went back to your conversation with Nishinoya.

[7:24pm] idiot⚡: STOP IGNORING ME I KNO UR TEXTING RYU

[7:26pm] idiot: IM GONNA KEEP SPAMMING U TILL U ANSWE RME😤

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[7:27pm] y/n: what is this twitch chat? fuck 

[7:28pm] idiot⚡: your heeeeererererreee 🥰

[7:29pm] y/n: soooooo………..

                        clearly there has been a misunderstanding

[7:29pm] idiot⚡: oh nonono. I understand PERFETCLY. u LOVE me

                         its ok. this is a safe space. we can discuss feelings 😌

[7:31pm] y/n: there are zero feelings to discuss

[7:31pm] idiot⚡: then y did u say u like me too much so i have to die?

[7:34pm] y/n: i am filled with rage 🤬

[7:34pm] idiot⚡: rage over how much u liiike me???🥰🥰🥰

[7:36pm] y/n: definitely not

You racked your brain for some kind of reasonable sounding excuse, eventually landing on:

[7:36pm] y/n: It was autocorrect

[7:36pm] idiot⚡: HAH????? FROM?????

[7:38pm] y/n: HAH???

                       ....Nora?

[7:38pm] idiot⚡: Who TF is nora???? 😡

[7:39pm] y/n: someoe i like obviously 😏

[7:40pm] idiot⚡: so u like them but u use my name so much it autocorrected to me? 🤔

[7:44pm] y/n: OK MR DETEcTIVE WHERE TF ARE THES BRAIN CELS COMIN GFROM?

[7:45pm] idiot⚡: i pull them out for special ocasions 😌

[7:45pm] y/n: well how bout you pack those up and put em away

[7:46pm] idiot⚡: how bout two people who LIKE each other SAY something so they can DOOOOOOOO something bout IT 🙄

You began typing a frantic message about how it was none of his business until you processed the message. Then you read it over several times before letting out an audible, “what the fuck.”

[7:50pm] y/n: YOU LIKE ME

[7:50pm] idiot⚡: I FLIRT WITH U ALL THE TIME WAT DO U MEAN yOu LiKe Me!?!

                          FUCKING OBVIOSLY

[7:51pm] y/n: literally when. name one time.

[7:52pm] idiot⚡: I WALK WITH U EVERY MORNING!!!

[7:53pm] y/n: I thought that was a coincidence???

[7:54pm] idiot⚡: I BRNIG U SNACKS DURING LUNCH!!!

[7:54pm] y/n: I thought they were leftovers??

[7:55pm] idiot⚡: …....I call you cute and invite you to my games.

[7:56pm] y/n: you call everyone attractive and i thought there was like a audience quota or something........?

[7:57pm] idiot⚡: ….i cant tell who i should be upset with rn but i think its u 😑

[7:58pm] y/n: WAT WHY!?!

[8:00pm] Idiot⚡: I LIKE U+U LIKE ME=WE LIKE EACH OTHER

[8:01pm] y/n: whoa. slow down. I hate math 😣

[8:02pm] Idiot⚡: ===WE SHUD GO ON A DATE!!!

[8:02pm] y/n: HAH!? i think you started multiplying that addition problem buddy 🤨

Your cheeks were beginning to ache from how wide your dopey grin was. You couldn’t help but tease Nishinoya-it was second nature at this point-even if you now knew your feelings were mutual.

[8:04pm] idiot⚡: i suk at math but thats NOT the point

                         point iiissss i think deep down u want to hang out and cuddle and fall in love

                        maybe even..... 😏 kiiisssss

[8:04pm] y/n: WHOA WHOA WHOA

                        WARN ME BEFORE YOU GET NSFW

                        i would never premarital eye-contact. let alone k🤢ki-🤢🤢kiss🤢🤮🤮

[8:05pm] idiot⚡: well we would have socks on 🙄

[8:06pm] y/n: oh. well if there’s protection

[8:06pm] idiot⚡: Im not a maniac

[8:07pm] y/n: i suppose as long as you dont do something stoopid

                        like faceplant in public

                        that would be humiliating

[8:08pm] idiot⚡: I-

                          who told you that 😠

[8:08pm] y/n: i have spies everywhere noya

                        youre never safe

[8:09pm] Idiot⚡: kinda hot 👀

                         makin me fear for my life like that👀

[8:10pm] y/n: i hate that i like you

                        It kills me inside 

                        i feel braincels leaving with every conversation

[8:12pm] Idiot⚡: fan behavior 😏

                          so am i taking u to eat tomorow or wat?

[8:14pm] y/n: if I HAVE to 🙄

[8:14pm] Idiot⚡: No u GET to

                          I am a fucking delite 😤

[8:15pm] y/n: whatever helps you sleep at night

[8:15pm] Idiot⚡: nothing helps me sleep at night. this mind never rests

[8:16pm] y/n: thinking 24/7 and still not a smart thing comes out of that mouth 👀

[8:17pm] Idiot⚡: yas, bully me more 😫

[8:19pm] y/n: ok thats as much as i can handle for one day......

                       im gonna pretend to do homework

[8:20pm] idiot⚡: okie... good luck my sweet baby pogchamp 🥰

[8:20pm] y/n: no

[8:20pm] Idiot⚡: 😘😘😘

[8:22pm] y/n: 🙄✋

[8:23pm] Idiot⚡: oh FUCK yas 🥵 shut me UP

[8:25pm] y/n: suddenly all i feel is endless regret

[8:26pm] Idiot⚡: i have that effect on people

                          See you tomorrow 🥰🥰🥰

[8:27pm] y/n: unfortunately 😘

[8:27pm] idiot⚡: 🥵

You flung an arm over your eyes and let a small giggle bubble up from your chest. Nishinoya was probably the biggest idiot you’d ever met, but you couldn’t help that thinking of spending time with him had you kicking your feet with excitement.

You supposed you should actually get started on your homework. You reached forward when a notification popped up from Yachi, asking if her idea worked and you had stopped liking Nishinoya.

...you should probably break the news, huh?

[ultraintrovertedgryffindor]

Just Like You - Kenny McCormick(South Park)

I wrote this a really long time ago when I was obsessed with South Park. I don’t know why lmao, but here it is. 

Warning: Also wrote this when I was an edgy teen™, so cringe and possible trigger warning.

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Welp, today’s the day...

New town. New house. New school.

My parents had gotten a better job offer here in this little town of South Park, much to my dismay. I love traveling, but moving from a large city in New York to a small mountain town in Colorado is a lot.

It should be interesting though, more opportunities that I’ve never gotten before. Although, I still have to go to school. The local South Park high school.

I put on my outfit for school and wear my black coat over it. It seems to always snow here, only on rare occasions it gets warm. I run downstairs and grab a piece of toast my mother made from the kitchen. I find a note on the counter.

Have a good first day of school, hon. Try to make some friends, and yes, that means being nice to people. Your father and I will not be back until tomorrow morning, so keep those memories of your first day in you head until we can hear about it. Love you!

My mother is a freak, I love her, but she’s a freak. I’m surprised my father has a job with all the day drinking he does. It helps him get work done, I guess.

I walk to school still eating my buttered toast. Approaching the school, I take in its features. It’s an ugly yellow color. Although, I think all bright colors are ugly. I walk in the school and all eyes are on me. I pretend not to notice. I get my class schedule and such from the receptionist and make my way towards my locker.

“You must be new. I think I would’ve recognized an ass that fine before.” A brunette says to me. I roll my eyes and huff.

“As a matter of fact, I am new. I was hoping for something better than a lame catcall on my first day, but at least you tried.” I said and patted him on the shoulder. He glared, tears filling in his eyes, and stomped off.

I bet he’s never been rejected in his entire life, poor soul.

I walk into my first class and immediately get called on. ���Well, hello there! You must be the new student. Y/N right? Well, I’m Mr. Garrison and this here is my little friend Mr. Hat. Say hello Mr. Hat!”

Okay...already creeped the fuck out. Something about his southern accent and oh yeah, his fucking creepy ass puppet just rubs me the wrong way.

“Now, please, go take a seat. Wait...are you a troublemaker?” He asks.

“Oh no. Not at all, sir.” I lie. It’s easy to lie. I have a natural talent for it.

“Oh alright, I guess you can sit next to Kenny. That boy in the orange coat. You can keep him in check.”

Will do, you creepy old fuck.

I take my seat next to the blonde haired boy. He’s kinda cute actually. After class a group of boys came up to me, including that Kenny kid.

“Hi, new kid! Just thought we’d introduce ourselves. I’m Kyle. This here’s Stan, Cartman, and Kenny.” The redhead said.

“Holy shit, look at those tits!”

“Cartman!” Kyle scolded.

“Well, first off. It’s Y/N, not new kid. And nice to meet you too...I guess.” I said and walked off. 

Yeah, I don’t have great people skills. My harshness has pushed people away. I’m trying to work on it. But determined from what the fatass said I probably don’t wanna be friends with those dudes.

Off to lunch, finally. Hopefully the lunch here is better than the ones at my old school. I took my tray and looked around the lunchroom. Everyone in groups or pairs. I see one empty table. I head towards it and sit down.

The food isn’t that bad, but I’ll definitely be bringing my own from now on. While I was eating I noticed people staring at me. One, that Kenny kid, and two, that guy that used that lame catcall. I got uncomfortable real quick.

The rest of school was a bust. It was boring. Now, I want something fun to do. I heard that there’s a pond near here, that sounds like fun. I asked directions to where the pond was, which I found out was called Stark’s Pond, and headed there.

I approached and noticed no one was there. Perfect.

I looked around in my bookbag for some rope, and luckily I carry some around with me at all times. I look a heavy looking rock and tie it to the rope. I’m not that heavy so it should work.

I tie the other end of the rope around my ankle. I throw the boulder into the pond and it yanks me down, breaking my ankle. It drags me down until the rock rests at the bottom of the pond.

It’s dark and cold. I’m floating, suspended in time. I look up and see the sunlight breaking through the surface of the water, but it’s not enough to reach me. My hair flies around, loose and tangling each other. I reach up and run my fingers through my soft hair.

It starts...I try to gasp for breath but it isn’t there. My lungs start to burn with fire as no oxygen reaches them and they only fill with water as I struggle for air.

I always find this part of drowning so fascinating. Your survival instincts kick in and you try so desperately to fight to survive but come up short when your lungs fill completely with water and your body becomes stiff and frozen.

I black out.

*The Next Morning*

I gasp and bolt upright from my bed.

I sigh in relief to see that I’m back again, in my new home. Every time I die, there’s always a part of me that’s afraid I’ll never come back, and yet I always do.

The first time it happened, I was 10. I was at a birthday party. It was my friend’s party cake that killed me. Someone, while making the cake, accidentally put poison in it. I don’t know how in the hell someone “accidentally” puts poison in a cake, but it happened.

I started to feel hungry, it wasn’t time eat yet but the cake was on the kitchen table and I couldn’t help myself. I took a small piece of cake, it was delicious but it caused me to foam out the mouth and have a seizure. I died almost instantly. Good thing I died otherwise the rest of those kids would’ve had a bad day.

Then I woke up in my bed the next morning.

The hardest part was that no one remembered that I died, but I did. I remember the whole painful experience, and my parents didn’t even believe me. They took me to counseling after that, not that it helped.

One day, a few weeks after the first time I died, I tried crossing the road without my parents. I looked both ways and no cars were coming as far as I could tell. As soon as I almost crossed the, a car came out of no where and completely wrecked me. Again, I woke up in my bed like nothing happened.

The day after I built up the courage enough to test out the theory that I was unkillable. My dad had a 9 mil in his safe. I shot myself, and just like that, I woke up in my bed the next day.

At first, I was insanely afraid of myself and it wasn’t until last year that I realized it could be fun.

I’ve tested out so many ways of dying. Yesterday at the pond was my first time drowning, but I wanted to get over it cause I knew I’d drown soon even if I avoided it. Next on my list is falling to my death, but besides drowning heights is my biggest fear. Heights might be a good excuse to procrastinate getting that done.

I get up out of bed and take a quick shower. I wonder if I’ll ever stop being immortal? It’s probably a good thing I am since I’ve become so accident prone.

After my shower, I quickly got dressed and jogged down the stairs, almost falling in the process. I walked into the kitchen where I saw my parents.

“Y/N! Hello, sweetie!” My mom said and gave me a hug.

“Hey.” I said.

My mom was making waffles and my dad was just sitting at the kitchen table drinking coffee and reading the newspaper. Dick never pays any attention to me.

“So, how was your first day of school? Did you make any friends?”

“Uh, not really. Some guys introduced themselves to me, but you know how I am with people. And school was fine, learned a lot, teachers are a freaky though.” I paused. “Oh, and I drowned myself at Stark’s Pond.” I said nonchalantly.

My mom sighed. “That’s nice dear.”

Ever since I’ve been experimenting with dying over and over, I’ve been telling my parents about it. They never believe me of course. Even when one time I purposely hurt myself and bled to death in front of them, but they never remember. My dad didn’t really give a shit though. Anyway...

“I’m going to school now. Later!” I said, walking out the door.

Hmm, maybe I should take the bus. I wait at the bus stop, cause I don’t feel like walking to school.

“Y/N!” I flinch when I heard my name being called out. I turn to see Stan, Kyle, Kenny, and Cartman walking up to me. “I didn’t know you took the bus.” Kyle went on to say.

“Didn’t really feel like walking to school today.” I said, looking down and kicking the ground beneath me absentmindedly.

The bus finally arrived and we all walked on, I sat in the very back by myself. Until Kenny decided to sit next to me.

“Mmph!” He said, well I don’t exactly know he said. His bright orange parka covering his face made his voice muffled. I’m just gonna assume he said hi.

“Hi.” I replied.

“Mmph mmph mmph mph mmmph mmph!”

“Uh...huh?”

He rolled his eyes and took off his hood, revealing a mop of messy dirty blonde hair. “I said, how are you liking school so far?” He said.

“Oh, um. It’s okay, I guess.” I smiled.

“You guess? Okay, so I take it you don’t really like it.”

“Well, it always sucks when you’re the new kid and you have no friends.” I sighed.

“No friends, huh? Well, I’ll be you friend. I’m sure Kyle and Stan will too!” He said, making me blush. Darn. “Aw, you’re blushing!”

“Shut up. I always blush.”

“I’ll keep that in mind.” Kenny smirked.

When we finally got to school Kenny walked me to class, which was nice. He’s actually really nice and funny, also really adorable.

*A Week Later*

School so far has been good. I’ve grown really close to Kenny, since he’s basically my only friend. 

Kenny invited me to sit with him at his table, I agreed. Stan and Kyle seemed to enjoy my company though, Cartman didn’t. Didn’t like me for some reason, although he could be just an asshole all the time.

As the talk started to slow down and lunch was almost over, I looked around the lunchroom to avoid small talk. I saw the guy with brown hair staring at me again, but looked away when I saw him. “Hey, Kenny?”

“Yeah?”

“Who is that guy over there?” I ask, discreetly pointing at him.

“Oh, that guy in the red coat is Clyde. Why?” Kenny asked.

“Oh, no reason. He was just staring at me my first day here and also today. He also kinda catcalled me that day too.”

Kenny noticeably frowned. “He has?”

“Yeah, but it’s probably nothing.” I stuttered a little. Kenny giggled. 

“You’re cute when you stutter.” He smiled, which made me blush. “Aw, you’re blushing again.” He poked my blushing cheeks.

“Ugh, stop.” I whined, and shoved his hand away.

The rest of school was okay. Kenny stayed by my side the whole day, I didn’t mind, but he seemed like he was in a clingy mood which was weird. “I’ll walk you home.” Kenny said.

“Oh, no, you don’t have to do that.” I said.

“Nah, I insist.” He said.

Well, who could say no to Kenny. We were almost to my house, we had to cross the street first. We both walked side by side, Kenny had his arm around my shoulders to which I giggled. I suddenly hear a loud horn, I tried to push Kenny out of harm’s way but it was too late.

We’d both been run over by a semi-truck. 

I gasp and bolt upright from my bed in a cold sweat.

Oh, god. Kenny. We both got hit. I tried to get Kenny out of the way, but I was too late. I let him get run over. He’s probably dead because of me.

I start to sob. He’s dead and it’s my fault. My fucking fault. God no. Why couldn’t it have just been me? I wouldn’t even care if I wasn’t able to come back, I just want Kenny to still be alive.

My alarm went off. I smashed it. I’m not going to school today. I can’t. Everyone probably knows Kenny’s dead and they’re mourning him school. I can’t be knowing it’s my fault.

My doorbell rings.

Ugh...I don’t feel answering the door. The person is now beating on the door, damn they’re persistent.

I get up to yell at the person who’s beating down my door. I mumble profanities as I answer it. My heart stops. Not literally but it feels like it. 

“K-Kenny?” I start sobbing as I take the blonde haired boy in my arms, holding tightly. “I thought you died!” I sob. I pull away. His face looks like he’s in shock, also confused.

“You...you remember?” He asks.

“Of course I do! I tried pushing you out of the way of that truck, I guess I succeeded.” I sigh in relief.

“But...how? I thought you died too.” He said, flabbergasted.

“What do you mean too? Wait, you remembered I died?” I ask, also so confused.

“Y/N, I died. You didn’t push me out of the way in time, but I didn’t save you either. We both died,” he paused, “and we both remember.”

Suddenly, Kenny grabs both my upper arms and pulls me close to him and gives me a passionate kiss. 

I pull away, shocked. “Woah....what was that for?”

“I’m sorry. It’s just...nobody has ever remembered me dying. No one, but you can.” Kenny explained.

“And you remember me dying?” I ask.

Kenny nods. “You’re the first person that remembers me dying too.” He says.

I don’t know what to say or do. This has never happened to me before. I think Kenny feels the same, since we’re both just stood awkwardly at my front door. I finally break the silence.

“Kenny, I thought you died, and I’ve never been more scared in my entire life.” I said, with still a few salty tears flowing down my red cheeks.

“I was too.” Kenny said. “Well, looks like we have more in common than I originally thought.” He giggled.

~~~~~~~~~~

[cafejoon]

Hey I’ve seen some of ur posts where u talk abt ur adhd n im kinda suspecting I might have it but im no too sure :/ I’m very forgetful, procrastinate a hella ton and i have a lot of anxiety. I’ve also had depression before and im very very perfectionist. I’ve always been in the top of all my classes since middle school but it takes me ages to get things done (this has gotten worse over the years). I overthink a lot and I literally can not understand instructions like . im a lost cause lmao it’s like the info processes so much slower when someone is giving me instructions abt smth rather than when they’re just talking. Even then I tend to like zone out at times out of nowhere.. I daydream all the time, like way too often. Idk if any of this correlates w each other maybe some might be bc of smth else than adhd but idk i cant afford therapy n i just thought maybe if u recognize these patterns to be indicating adhd, id like to know what u think from ur persoective :/ im sorry if this is an inconvenience too pls just ignore if it’s too much :( have a lovely day/night 💜💜

no need to apologize for reaching out!! it’s really useful to talk to people who seem to have similar issues as you (that’s how i found out since my friend has adhd). quick disclaimer: i’m in no way qualified to say if someone has adhd and i’m still pretty new to the whole thing so take anything i say with a grain of salt,, but the description you gave basically sums up my experiences/symptoms so i’d encourage getting testing done, i’m not sure how it is for different countries (i live in canada so i don’t pay for doctor visits) but if it is an option to even get the testing and not therapy i would go for it. i can’t say much for therapy as of now since today was my intake interview with the psychiatrist i’ll be seeing but there’s lots of resources out there if you look (instagram pages, adhd blogs, websites, books, etc) i know it’s not the same as actually receiving treatment but if you can find a good source it could be helpful!!! even if it turns out you don’t have adhd (tho u probably know better than anyone else if these symptoms have been persistent over a long period of time) they can be useful techniques to help with daily functioning. i wish i had more to offer but i haven’t started any treatment programs yet but if you wanna check back in january hopefully i’ll have something useful to share??? anyway i hope this was somewhat helpful and that you can get the resources you need !!!

[catchcrows]

hello!!! for the writers ask meme - 1, 3, 14, 15, 17? thank you!!!!!

1. what’s something you’ve written that you know is ooc and you just don’t care?

fdjkslaf i actually loathe on a cellular level being ooc, or ig? less so being ooc than being inconsistent? like i’m sure i’ve written characters in a way that someone somewhere feels is ooc, but so long as it’s consistent for me (it’s how i always write them, there’s a reason they act the way they do that i pulled from the canon and built on, etc etc) then i don’t particularly care

that said, there’s one fic that i just finished (that may never see the light of day on ao3) that i hate bc it does feel sort of ooc, mostly bc there was a word limit and so i got hung up on managing backstory vs the Actual Plot

3. something you wish a commenter had called attention to, but got ignored.

lmao mostly i’m always just psyched that someone’s commenting (mostly bc half the time i’ll write something and only later when i’m editing go “oh hey that was a cool metaphor/analogy/phrase, wish i’d done it on purpose”). there was a blink-and-you-miss-it detail in the pacrim au about a phone going to voicemail in a flashback that became relevant later, but other than that i can’t think of any

14. what aspect of writing have you had the most growth in?

tbh looking back at some of my older stuff even from like a couple years back, it feels like i’ve regressed more than anything. which? idk how true or not that is bc my brain is also a shitty little fun-house mirror at the best of times, but since jumping back into non-science writing i’m definitely gotten better at just chilling the fuck out lmao! weird that it’s taken literal decades of writing for fun for me to grasp that writing should......be fun.....wild that something you do for your personal enjoyment should be something you enjoy Who Could Have Guessed

(okay to be fair i recently found some story i won a prize for when i was five and that one i probably had fun writing but the second i turned six? game over that’s when the brain worms got me)

15. we all project onto our characters. where has your personality or life choices leaked onto the page the most?

god so many of my weird made-up phrases/saying have wound up bleeding into people’s dialogue it’s fucking ridiculous....there’s usually one character per fandom that gets the brunt of it and otherwise it just sort of leaks into the narration (”undeserved confidence of a professional asshole” is something i’ve said about an old professor, for example)

also i’m one of those people who knows a little about a lot, and that combined with my #ProfessionallyDiagnosedBrainWorms and my research career makes doing deep dives into random subjects and producing fics with odd background scenarios a relatively easy thing for me

17. how are you procrastinating today?

lmao not so much today but yesterday i did make two big gifsets back to back.....today i’m actually doing fic-related work (condensing a bunch of info i got from a 9th century travel guide and a 14th century officer’s journal lol), which is dry but i gotta sort through it. plus i usually procrastinate one thing with another, so i’m also getting Real Life Responsibilities done too

[ofwraiths]

✦ PROCHNOST OOC QUESTIONNAIRE ✦

Adelaide: What is your biggest passion?

Though I’d never consider turning it into a career, I love cooking. For me, it’s a form of self-care and I’m glad I’ve been able to contribute more time into cooking good food for myself during quarantine. I’m also extremely passionate about accessible healthcare and hope to land a career influencing public health policy. 

Alexei: Who is the most important person in your life?

My significant other! From him, I’ve learned a lot about confidence and determination. He’s legitimately one of the hardest working people I know and he all around just inspires me to keep striving to become a better version of myself. 

Anastasia: Tell us something you would really like to learn.

I’ve never been able to do a cartwheel ??? It’s a rite-of-passage that I completely missed out as a child. Someone please teach me! 

Antonio: Have you ever gotten into a fist fight?

Nooo. I wish I had  just for the clout. 

Dimitri: What is your spirit animal?

A piplup. hehe.

Evelina: What is your favourite drink?

A large classic milk tea from Ding tea, zero sugar, less ice, with golden boba.

Francesco: Are you a good secret keeper?

Okay time to expose myself !! To be honest, absolutely not and that’s mainly because I tell my s/o all the tea. Yes, I’m that kind of person and I’m not too proud of it.  

Gabriel: What is your biggest vice?

Procrastination + laziness. Things build up on my plate that I keep pushing off and in the end it just makes even more work for me. 

Irina: If you could embody anyone in the world, who would you choose?

I want to be someone -- literally just anyone -- who could eat a shit ton and still have abs. There has to be a person like that in the world, right? Exercising is just too much work, ya’ll. 

Isaac: What is the most luxurious thing you own?

My laptop?? I don’t really own and name brand items. 

Ivan: Do you tend to hold grudges?

Oh god. I try my best to forgive people, I really really do. But sometimes I just feel really weird around them?? Like I become standoffish and just can’t be myself around people who have wronged me unless I fake it. 

Kalev: What is the one character trait you like most about yourself?

uhhhh I’m really good at making powerpoints :^) 

Katia: Would you consider yourself an optimist, pessimist or realist?

I’m a nice healthy blend of optimism and realism.

Leonard: What is your biggest guilty pleasure?

Laying in my bed. And chocolate. Scrolling Tiktok. I’m a simple girl. 

Masha: Is there something you’ve always wanted but could never have?

Height. LMAO. I’m tired of being 5′2. I can’t reach anything!!!!

Mateo: What is the most insane thing you’ve ever done for somebody else?

My love language is acts of service so I’ve done my fair share of insane things for others hahahah One time, my friend got in a car accident and needed a ride to work. They lived 25 minutes away from me in the opposite direction of my workplace. For 2-3 weeks, I woke up at 6am, picked them up, dropped them off at work 20 minutes away, and then drove an extra 10 minutes to get to my work. I also picked them up after work. Never asked for gas money.  

Raven: If you could choose one book to be mandatory reading, which one would it be?

Farenheit 451 by Bradbury or the Metamorphosis by Kafka. 

Rozalie: If today was your last day on earth, how would you spend it?

Eating a lot. Chilling a lot. Having a massive existential crisis. 

Ryker: What is your favourite game to play?

League of Legends, Nine Parchments with friends, Stardew Valley if I want to waste time, and the Sims 4 if I feel like living vicariously. 

Sebastien: Tell us something you believed as a kid but now know is false.

Oh my god. For some reason I was convinced that people were always watching me. I didn’t know who. Sometimes I thought it was the government, sometimes my friends... Anyways, I always made sure to randomly smile and wave at something random in case there was a camera hidden in it. It was weird. I was nuts. 

Sofia: What is your biggest pet peeve?

 When people cut me off mid sentence :< 

Tanya: Would you consider yourself to be a very ambitious person?

I’d think so. I have a lot of long-term and short-term goals for myself. I know I work really hard on the things that I commit to. 

Theo: What is your favourite conspiracy theory?

Australia isn’t real. 

Theresa: If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you choose?

I’d love to live in a condo with lots of windows and a really nice kitchen  in the middle of a city like Seattle or Toronto. Next to a nice grocery store and a grassy park with lots of trees.

Yelena: Do you prefer to be a leader or rather a follower?

Leader. hehe. 

[princeazurathepathetic]

A Very Happy Birthday

Ok... So I waaaaas gonna write this on Marianne's birthday, yesterday. But then I ran into my old pal procrastination, and I didn't. Whoops. But he it be, a day late. lmao, I love you Marianne!

Marianne woke up shivering, she hated how cold it was in the winter, and even though it wasn't technically winter yet, it sure felt like it. It had never been this cold in the Leicester Alliance, or at least not where she had lived, in the Leicester Alliance.

She curled down into her blankets, for an hour, or so. Wishing she could simply stay in her room for the rest of the day, instead of facing the cold and socialization that comes from roaming the monastery. Huffing to herself, she finally got out of bed. It was too cold, far too cold, but she went over to her dresser and began getting dressed anyway.

She began preparing herself for the day, she'd been here eight months so far, and had a good understanding of what to expect from the average day. She often awoke earlier than her peers as to not bother them as they went about their mornings, and so she might have time to visit Dorte in the stables. Sadly, since she'd stayed in bed too long, she wouldn't be able to go visit him before lunch.

Walking along the dormitory hallway as quietly as she could, as to not disturb the other students, she crept outside. Surprised to see a light snowfall sprinkling down from the heavens. Although Marianne was not a fan of the cold, she did love snow, she loved the soft feeling of it landing on her eyes, nose, hair, and cheeks. She stood a moment, taking it all in.

Unfortunately, she probably wouldn't be able to enjoy this snow until the following day. For today, she was going to get her school work done as quickly as possible, and spend the rest of the day in her room. She definately didn't want to talk to anyone, of course she never wanted to speak to anyone, but today especially. Because today, she knew she'd probably get a lot more attention than she deserved, and she'd rather people didn't pay attention to her. She didn't deserve it.

Not wanting to think about it any longer, she hurried down to the classroom, skipping breakfast. She really wanted to get the day over with, if she missed a meal or two, she'd survive.

The monastery was eerily quiet this early in the morning, to a point at which any noise made, no matter how small, made you jump. The sound of footsteps was no exception. Marianne almost jumped out of her skin when she heard the unexpected noise. Someone was already awake? At this hour? Really?

She quietly crept over to where the sound was coming from. A dark figure stood, barely visible, in the shadows. Hubert. Thank the goddess it was only Hubert. Thoughts of the mysterious death knight had entered her mind for a second. And she felt like she might scream. It seemed that no matter how early in the morning, late at night, or in the middle of the day, Hubert was awake, going about his weird duties to Princess Edelgard. Marianne had to wonder at times, if he even slept at all.

Quickly walking away from the sinister man, she came to her classroom. It was dark. Given the time of day and everything, she wasn't surprised that she couldn't really see well. Using a fire spell Professor Eisner had taught her to see, she set to work finding and finishing any assignments she had for the day. It took her about an hour to finish them, considering that she'd done most of her work for the day, yesterday instead.

Thank the goddess the day was over and she could go back to her room without anyone talking to her. Walking past the dining hall, she could hear the kitchen staff starting their business for the day. She would have went straight for her room, if not for the smell coming from the kitchen, it smelled good. So good. She was so hungry, she'd awoken two hours ago, and hadn't had any food since last night.

'Maybe I'll just have a quick bite.' she thought to herself. If she heard anyone coming she'd go out the back exit, and around to the dorms, as to avoid them.

Walking inside, she immediately noticed how dark it was, since the staff were already here, it was very unusual that the dining hall be this dark. Especially since people like her and Leonie, who liked to wake up early, would often come in to get breakfast at this time. BOOM!

Suddenly light filled the large room, illuminating even the farthest corners of the ceiling and floor. Marianne's eyes fluttered closed, sensitive to the new source of light coming at her from all directions. She couldn't help letting out a soft scream as she heard roughly thirty voices yelling at the same time:

"SUPRISE!!!"

"...what...huh..?" she let out rubbing her eyes in hopes to help them adjust.

When they did she saw all her classmates smiling at her, as well as the Black Eagles and the Blue Lions, and the teachers and staff. What was happening? there was a cake on the center table with eighteen candles lit and ready. There were also an assortment of small gifts beside it.

'Is this all for me!?' she thought to herself wildly.

She hoped not, she had really wanted to not draw any attention to herself today. She hated how people would compliment her, and wish her a Happy Birthday, when she obviously didn't deserve their praise or admiration. That's why she'd gotten up early in the first place.

Before she could protest a flash of pink hair came sprinting up to her, engulfing her in a giant, breath-stealing hug.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIANNE!!!" Hilda said in the most affectionate and happy voice Marianne had ever heard her speak in.

'Has Hilda gotten up early for me?' She couldn't believe what she was seeing. All her classmates came running over to her, wishing her a happy birthday. She didn't even have the time to speak, let alone tell them that she'd really have rathered if they hadn't thrown a party at all. She was so overwhelmed, and nervous, and surprised, and...

Something else.

She felt an emotion that she wasn't expecting, at first she couldn't quite out her finger on it, but after the warm kiss she recieved from Hilda, and seeing all the gifts from her friends, and getting a hug from the proffeser, it dawned on her. Happiness.

She felt happy, she didn't often feel happy in her birthday, this was a rare case. And she truly adored all of her gifts, Ignatz had even made her a painting of Dorte! But surrounded by her friends and girlfriend, she really felt happy. And maybe... Just maybe... She truly did deserve this.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIANNE!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, AND I'M SO SORRY THIS IS LATE! Ok. Sooooooooooooo, I love writing Marianne as happy, CUZ SHE DESERVES IT AND I LOVE HER!! I'm pretty happy with this fic, idk if anyone will read it, BUT! If you do plz tell me what u think!! lmao I love Marianne so much! I also love Hildamari, so YA KNOW, I had to include it lol.

[kairoth]

Could you do all of the questions?

heyhey! yea! done on my laptop :>

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?♥ usually more milk but then i try to fix the ratio and it ends up being more cereal asfh

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?♥ eehhh sometimes

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?♥ mostly just pieces of paper lol

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?♥ with LOTS of sugar

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?♥ yes. it's gross

6: do you keep plants?♥ yea!

7: do you name your plants?♥ ofc i do

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?♥ music mainly. like you'll know my mood by knowing what song i listen to

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?♥ ye ~

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?♥ my side usually but i move a lot in my sleep

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?♥ bongwater,,

12: what’s your favorite planet?♥ saturn! and pluto,,, and jupiter ahh

13: what’s something that made you smile today?♥ thinking about puppies !!!!!!

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?♥ idk? messy

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!♥ apparently you get taller in space

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?♥ this is boring of me but i like plain ol' pasta with butter and salt the most

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?♥ white with purple ombre !

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.♥ HHH when i was 6 months old i ate a spider and anyone who knows about it never lets me live it down

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?♥ i try to keep em and write in em but i often forget

20: what’s your favorite eye color?♥ mmm i can't choose, they're all great !

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.♥ oof my batman backpack that i gave to my dad. that thing went through A LOT. my new one is really good too tho. it's just red and black but it's served me well.

22: are you a morning person?♥ depends on if i've gotten a good night's sleep and if i'm particularly excited for the day!

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?♥ sleep, listen to music, read

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?♥ yea. we don't talk anymore tho. i miss him

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?♥ nowhere? i've never broken in before

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?♥ i always wear my vans til they fall apart. my current pair are space themed bc ofc

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?♥ juicyfruit ig?

28: sunrise or sunset?♥ sunset

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?♥ ASFH UHM idk?? them just being themselves is enough for me to smile over them

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?♥ yes

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.♥ i wear mismatched socks all the time but like they do match each other somewhat. like. i have a bunch of stitch socks and i don't wear their match but i'll wear another stitch sock with it.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.♥ uhh me and two friends played never have i ever over kik once and long story short we learned a lot abt each other. some things we never wanted to know

33: what’s your fave pastry?♥ idk! i like danish pastries pretty well tho

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?♥ teddy!! i got him when i was 5 from my cousin for like a nickel. he's just a standard lil brown teddy bear. and ofc i still have him asdgh can't sleep without him. i even bring him to sleepovers

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?♥ yea! i use them when i can

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?♥ EDEN. and crywank generally fits me too

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?♥ i like it to be clean but often it just gets cluttered and i don't have the motivation to clean it

38: tell us about your pet peeves!♥ uhhh i hate rude, arrogant, judgemental people, disloyalty, uhm, the sound that weird plastic makes, uhhh idk

39: what color do you wear the most?♥ mostly black and white

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?♥ my solar system bracelet! i saw the post for it on tumblr and sent it to my mum, and she ended up getting it for me for christmas!

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?♥ we were liars by e. lockhart. if i had to choose a fave it'd be that one. i sobbed for days after reading it. i think it kinda did smthn to my soul

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!♥ i do not sadly :

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?♥ my mum, i think ?

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?♥ oof, when harley was still here. it was a nice day, the sun was shining through my window, birds singing, EDEN playing softly, and harley was all cuddled up on my chest with his head tucked under my chin, purring away.

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?♥ depends. i try to evenly listen to my instincts and to logic

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.♥ my friend used to make a lot of bone puns bc of undertale and sans and one of my faves is "wasn't that HUMERUS"

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?♥ SEAFOOD it's grrrrrrrrrrroooooooosssss

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?♥ death. and yes.

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?♥ haven't bought many of those, i mostly listen to spotify :0 i did get the vinyl of black parade that mcr was giving out for the anniversary !

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?♥ crystals ig? pokemon cards, pens, books. uhh. i have a lot of paper and notebooks lmao

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?♥ mm. good times by all time low.

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?♥ uhh idk i like all of em

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?♥ heathers is epic and i love christian slater but also his voice is hilarious, beetlejuice was good and amazingly weird, and i've no seen the other two yet.

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?♥ HHH. the other day my mum's friend was talking abt how she's having problems with renters and she looked like she was gonna cry but it was more frustration than anything so idk?

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?♥ man idk it's prob somethin big but i don't remember

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?♥ ? idk. it depends ig?? like for my one friend i love that he loves animals, for my other i love that she loves music. for one i love her kindness and outward innocence and i find it hilarious when she actually shows her angry or sassy side.

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?♥ god i love bohemian rhapsody. so good. so catchy. the best. me and my former bff used to sing it all the time

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?♥ mmmm idk :0

59: what’s your favorite myth?♥ i love myths abt creatures! my faves are about the fae folk.

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?♥ idk :0

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?♥ uhh just a basic gift card ig. and uhm idk?

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?♥ mm if i have juice i'll drink it!

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?♥ i try to keep them organized

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?♥ it's getting late and it's kinda cloudy and grey

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?♥ yeaa.

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?♥ mmm idk! maybe lots of purple and light blues? :0

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?♥ bad. i've always been nervous with storms and whatnot and those kinda days just make me jittery.

68: what’s winter like where you live?♥ well for a while it actually is winter and gets cold. but it's florida so ofc it goes back to being hot af.

69: what are your favorite board games?♥ i've always been fond of sorry sliders and candy land

70: have you ever used a ouija board?♥ NO AND I NEVER WILL. my mum and aunts did once and HHHHHHHH they ended up with a possessed barney doll

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?♥ earl grey ! i really wanna try lavender tea tho

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?♥ yea but i don't often actually do it

73: what are some of your worst habits?♥ i sleep and procrastinate too much but i'm trying, i pick at threads a lot hhh,

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.♥ ok uhh. they remind me of a canary bird. i associate them with yellow and pink. they're super sweet. always helpful. sad and i wish i could help them more. all in all a v good friend and v good person.

75: tell us about your pets!♥ OOF OK GET READY. syd: sydney, my man. the big orange floof. meathead. he likes to stand up and hold onto your shirt or pants and it's cute but also CLAWS. v smart, knows that if he annoys me enough i'll open my door for him. maggie: pretty pretty princess. also the grossest princess. beaut white, brown capped fur and green gold eyes and cutest lil meows. bean: has two thumbs, one is teensy tiny. meows are like inaudible. usually grumpy and will run if you pet her. only accepts affection when she's sleepy. sebastian: the real grumpy cat. russian blue boy. has a hard time jumping correctly now cos he's old. always talking and complaining. likes pets. will fight you. ash: scaredy boi. dark as night. murrs instead of meows bc he wasn't raised by other cats. rarely purrs but you know he loves you. likes head bumps. will scratch you if you're not paying attention to him. can be a bully. arrow: FAT. has scabs bc he keeps scratching himself,, why boi why (we think he's allergic to smthn). meows LOUDLY. eats everyone's food. likes to go outside. once got stuck in the same tree twice. shelby: old girl. jack russel. super hyper but also LAZY. only sleeps under blankets. gets jealous. will force her way onto your lap. the smelliest dog in existence i swear. emmy: chihuahua. grumpyyyy old lady. always telling people to shut up (mostly shelby). cute tho. has seizures sometimes. will purposefully use the bathroom on the floor where you'll step or on something of yours if you upset her. moriarty: my snek! good boy. likes to be under his paper towels. smol. has a cute face. percy: GRUMPY leopard gecko. she's a blizzard morph and she looks purple. so grumpy aaaaaaaaah. red: my betta girl. the other girls with her (blue and esme) died. she comes up to the glass to say hi to you. oscar the grouch: hedgehog. SO GRUMP. he literally turned his entire house around so you can't see him. rude. lillith, yuki, and star: ferrets. inseperable. good little catsnakes who i love. yuki has a thing for feet and shoes. star messes with the dogs/cats by nipping them. lillith is good but bites a bit hard. the chickens: we named them after the avengers. cap can die. literally she hates me and my mum she tries to fight us. RUDE.

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?♥ yes. schoolwork

77: pink or yellow lemonade?♥ i like both !

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?♥ uhh hate club ig? idrk?????

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?♥ mmmMM my former bff used to be very supportive of my clinginess and she would be talking and i could just like hold my hands out to her or hug her and she'd be totally ok with it and not even pause talking. the best thing ever tbh

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?♥ two walls are light grey and the other two are a slightly darker grey! i chose it :> i wanted a good neutral color besides beige or white.

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.♥ mmm. like the sun shining through the branches of the trees.

82: are/were you good in school?♥ i mean?? ig? i get ok grades (mostly Bs) but i always procrastinate assignments cos i'm lazy and unmotivated

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?♥ ooohh my fave is from life starts now by three days grace. i actually made it my theme once on chrome

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?♥ yea! i wanna get a lot of space related ones! and maybe the chip number of my boy harley

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?♥ mm. i read webcomics! a fave of mine is stutterhug by samantha davies on taptastic :>

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?♥ uhhhhhhh i don't know any off the top of my head and i looked it up and it says american idiot by green day is one and i love them so? yeah

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?♥ THE CROW. and the last unicorn!! both so good

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?♥ i've always been fond of symbolism

89: are you close to your parents?♥ i'm close to my mum! not so much my dad

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.♥ woodsboro, maryland! that's where my aunts and cousins live. i love going up there!

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?♥ idk! my mum did bring up going somewhere this year tho

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?♥ barely even a pinch. unless it's spaghetti and that powdery parmesan cheese

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?♥ wellll we shaved the sides and back so it's just long at the top and flipped sideways

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?♥ ? it was my mum's boss's birthday a few days ago :0 we all had lunch together and she asked me what name she should call me by. i love her tbh

95: what are your plans for this weekend?♥ hopefully i can go see the puppies !!!

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?♥ procrastinate

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?♥ infp, leo but i relate more to my scorpio chart, and hufflepuff!

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?♥ i've never actually been hiking!! and tbh i enjoy pretty much anything long as i'm with someone i like!

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.♥ jupiter by EDEN, leech boy by crywank, lost//found by EDEN, boats & birds by gregory and the hawk, and saturn by sleeping at last. a lot of others too ahh

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?♥ five years in the past. i could fix a lot of things that happened.

[halalhyungwon]

1-100 odds

Jaz you’re a real one

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

It depends on the cereal, tbh. Some cereals I prefer a lot of milk and others I put less

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

I’ve used my phone, random sheets of paper, pens/pencils, white out tape…

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

A lil bit

7: do you name your plants?

I don’t have any plants :( If i did, I probably would

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

Yes, I do it constantly

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

Inner joke? Like, inside joke?… I have a lot. And yet, I can’t think of one to share lmao

13: what’s something that made you smile today?

I was on the phone with my bestie for like 5hrs and I hadn’t called them in a while so that made me happy (: 

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

“A total of 32 monkeys have flown in space.”

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

This shade of purple that Minseok had because it is sooo pretty. I’ve wanted to dye my hair that color for the longest time

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

I do have a journal and I used to write in it regularly but kinda stopped once I got into sophomore year of college. It was kinda my brain dump and also where I just spilled all my emotions that I never talked to anyone about

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

Favorite?? Hmmm there’s the bag my cousin bought me for my high school prom. It’s cute and small and white and going over your shoulder. I don’t use it much but I’m still happy to have it.

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

watch exo and seventeen make fools of themselves lmao

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?

I don’t recall breaking into anywhere…but I remember one summer my brother and I went for a walk to a school in my cousin’s neighborhood and an alarm went off and scared tf out of us

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

wintermint (?) i think it’s called

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? 

One of my friends has this pack of cards that says “I LOVE YOU BECAUSE” and then it has a bunch of bullet points for different reasons you could love someone. She gave me one sophomore year and another one just recently and honestly it’s so sweet

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

Socks and I…we acknowledge each other’s existence and hang out when we need to. I only where socks with my sneakers and boots, and when it’s really cold. I cannot where socks all day. Like it’s impossible. When I wear socks I just feel hyper aware of the fact that there is cloth on my feet and it makes me uncomfortable. I can’t go to sleep with socks on, unless I’m extremely tired and just fell asleep. Even then, I’ll wake up with my socks kicked off in the morning.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

Most recently! My friend and I were trying to observe the meteor shower last weekend. And like the thing is for the first hour or so we didn’t see any and kept trying to find the best place to observe them. Then, I finally saw one, but it was right when my friend was looking down so she didn’t get to see it! And then, another hour or so passes and it just seems like we’re never gonna see another one, so we decide to head back to our dorms. BUt, on the way back we find a spot that would be just perfect to see them, so we just loitered there for almost another hour, jammin to music and just waiting to see some shooting stars! And then the next one comes but it happens right as I’m looking at my friend to talk to her, but she’s looking up so she gets to see it. After that some time passes and it’s already 3:30 a.m. and I’m tired and lowkey gotta pee, so we start making our way back to the dorms again. And then we find another spot that would be good viewing, so we chill there for a while because, though we’ve both seen a shooting star, we haven’t see one together. So we’re standing there, chillin, being goofs and listening to trap remixes of the Wii theme, when we both look up and go “OH!!!” and freak out bc we finally saw another shooting star and it was just great. 

(I realized I answered this even tho it’s not odd but i’m just gonna keep it bc i love it too much)

33: what’s your fave pastry?

do cinnamon rolls count as pastries?…i could really go for one…

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

Yes I do!! But I don’t have many :(( Part of me wants to buy a big set but like I already have a bunch of pens and notebooks (but they arent all aesthetic and pretty and stuff) and I also think i’d stop using them after a week or so

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

I like having a neat room (I cleaned my room today I’m so happy, it looks so spacious) 

39: what color do you wear the most?

Black, probably

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?

I don’t read often but I think the last book I really enjoyed … Howl’s Moving Castle

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

@batmanlemonade hey ;) [see #32]

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

No? maybe? idk

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

pickles…

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

I wishhh I could just buy all the cd’s i’ve ever wanted. If I had more money I probably would have a nice collection. The last CD i’ve bought was back in high school and I think it was OneRepublic’s Native album

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

My little brother… whenever i hear transformer, touch it, monster or kkb I think about him bc those are his favorite exo songs loll

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

I don’t think I’ve watched any of these but beetlejuice, and I love beetlejuice

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?

I scrolled through my kyungsoo tag for a good hour or so to prove to my friend how much i love him sfdjkl; that’s not very dramatic but it’s the first thing I thought of. She really didn’t question that I loved him, I just love any excuse to look through my tags

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

bohemian rhapsody is a classic sfkl; um it always reminds me of my childhood bc my brothers and i used to watch these animated videos and one of them was of bohemian rhapsody but with megaman characters lmao

59: what’s your favorite myth?

UHmmm I really don’t know lol sorry

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

In sophomore year I wanted to buy my roommate her favorite flavor of ice cream but I didn’t have money so I drew ice cream on a post-it note for her I can’t think of a stupid gift I’ve received…

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

lol no, i just let ‘em be. they’re chillin

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?

my cousin who’s in med school, I haven’t seen her in too long :c

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

I kinda like those days. If I’m in a good mood, gray skies, cool breezes and light rain make me feel better. Otherwise, it’s just meh.

69: what are your favorite board games?

There’s this Korean board game that I can’t remember the name of for the life of me, and tbh since I haven’t played it in a while I don’t remember the exact rules, but it’s kinda of like Sorry! I’ve only played it twice but it was really fun both times

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?

Chai

73: what are some of your worst habits?

putting myself down and procrastinating

75: tell us about your pets!

I don’t have any :-( I’ve been really wanting a cat lately

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

Pink~

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

Hmmm when I was in high school I reeeally loved Michael Buble (I still do, have you heard that man’s voice?) so for Valentine’s day, my friend got me this box and taped his face on the top lmaoo with a reference to one of his song lyrics. The box was filled with flowers and chocolate and gum (but at the time I had braces so i couldn’t even chew the gum lolll)

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

I really wish I could but I’m not creative and this headache I have isn’t helping safhjlk sorry

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?

I really like the cover for 1R’s Native album, and also p!atd’s too weird to live too rare to die

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

Not really, but I’d like to

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

Howl’s Moving Castle, Room No 7 starring Do Kyungsoo, coming out November 15 and..I can’t really think of another one

89: are you close to your parents?

Kinda sorta

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

i have no plans to travel :( 

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?

My hair in it’s natural state lol covered by my hijab

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

Chillin! I was supposed to lock myself up in my room and finally watch the exo and seventeen concerts I have downloaded but i haven’t gotten around to watching them yet. But I have been chillin in my room so it’s been alright

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

infp, scorpio, and i have no idea

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

UHhhmmm Call Me Baby and Heaven by EXO; Healing and Don’t Listen in Secret by Seventeen; Hug Me by Jung Joon Il

[blossom-hwa]

8 Question Tag

I don’t feel like doing much so

Thanks @nctimagery for the tag!

Rules: answer the eight questions given, then write another eight for the people you tag to answer!

@nctimagery‘s questions:

1.) If you could go overseas with a kpop idol, who would it be and to where?

I’d go with an English speaking idol, probably Ten or Johnny or both what because Ten’s my bias and Johnny just seems like he’d be hella fun to have around! Maybe Winwin because I can speak some Chinese :D But I’d want to go on a tour of Europe! Europe is so full of culture and history and it’s really my dream to go there. I’d want to see Paris, Vienna, London, Athens, Prague, *lists every other city in Europe*

2.) 2 favourite songs from each of your bias group(s)!

Just two? Are you kidding me?! Fine...

EXO- Promise, Love Me Right

NCT 127 (is this cheating)- Fire Truck, Paradise

NCT Dream (this is probably cheating)- My Page, Walk You Home (dude their last album was great)

BTS- Young Forever, Spring Day, Not Today (fuck the two song rule okay all three have a nice spot in my cold heart)

VIXX- Eternity, Beautiful Liar (that counts you can fight me here and now)

SEVENTEEN- Don’t Wanna Cry, Adore U

Monsta X- Stuck, Steal Your Heart, Fighter (again fucking fight me)

3.) A trait of an idol that you wish you could have.

Their motivation and hard work! I know it says a trait but I think the two really go hand in hand. I have motivation, it’s just it’s not always... available? I work hard at most things too, it’s just I’d love their undying passion towards their work.

4.) How has stanning your bias groups changed your life, if in any way?

Oh lordy. Well, for one thing I’m more expressive when I play music. Before, when I practiced piano, I’d be kinda emotionless while playing, but now I find it much easier to express myself! I don’t know why, maybe it’s because I’m now better at expressing my fangirling emotions, but hey it helps, whatever it is. 

Stanning groups has also inspired me to work harder (see the last question my dudes) at school and music and to try a few new things (like fanfiction!). Without K-pop, I probably wouldn’t’ve made a hobby of writing and idk if I’d even be writing stories with @tanzderwhat. Oh god. That’d be a nightmare.

5.) Describe your country and what you love about it!

Well... I live in America. I guess I really like the diversity, especially where I live, because I can get to know more cultures and also pick up a few words of various languages (especially Spanish lmao). Uh... what else... there’s lots of good universities here too? I can’t think of much right now fml with that orange cheeto in the White House.

6.) Your favourite food that you would love to share with any tumblr blog/ idol

ANYTHING WITH POTATOES. I love potatoes to the moon and back (unless they’re rotten/raw ofc) and as long as it isn’t too spicy or has too much stuff I dislike I’ll eat like. Any potato dish in front of me. 

7.) 5 qualities that you think are very important to have in this world.

Well, let’s see...

Motivation/Hard Work- You can’t get anywhere without these qualities. These are what make you stand out in the crowd. If you work hard, you can do almost anything you set your mind to (unless you like wanna turn yourself into a bug. though idk why you’d wanna do that)

Realism- I don’t know if this is like a trait but you’ve gotta be real. I’m not saying be pessimistic about everything but you can’t always live off of blind optimism. Sometimes you need to know when to take a break or when to just stop for a while. You aren’t a robot. You can’t do everything right then and there.

Curiosity- You’ve gotta be curious! You have to always want to learn more about things you encounter. It’s okay to not be as interested in some things as others but! In the things you like, especially, always do your best to learn more! Fill up that brain of yours with knowledge!

Responsibility- Right, so I joke about procrastination a lot but I really rarely do so. Make a plan and stick to that plan and you’ll find that you’re getting a lot of stuff done! Even if it’s just a relative plan like okay, spend a couple hours on world history homework and then practice piano for an hour, then eat dinner and read for some time, that’s better than nothing.

Creativity- We’ve gotten this far because some individuals thought of better, more creative solutions to problems at hand. Be creative in solving problems, in writing, in your homework, in any aspect of your life. You can be creative in solving math problems or doing chemistry homework- creativity isn’t limited to the arts. And creativity isn’t bad- your method/solution/etc might seem crazy at first, but you never know- it might work!

8.) Your dream job and why

Well, I really don’t know what job I want right now... just something in the STEM field. I’m thinking maybe a chemical engineer or software engineer, mainly because I think coding is really interesting (I’m taking a coding class this year!) and I absolutely LOVE chemistry. Those jobs are tentative though, I don’t have a fixed path yet.

My questions:

1. What are your top three favorite books (not fanfiction pls)?

2. What subject do you like most at school?

3. Do you play any instruments? If yes, which ones, and do you enjoy it?

4. Top ten fandoms!

5. What’s your guilty pleasure?

6. Top eight favorite songs!

7. What do you like the most about writing?

8. Where do you get inspiration from writing?

Tags:

@tanzderwhat @heonseoks @dest-writes

Feel free to re-tag me lmao I’d love to answer more questions mainly because I’m bored lmao

[sugasgrowl]

Saturdays (pt 1)

Genre: Fluff/Smut (in pt 2)

Member: Jungkook

Warnings: None 

Word Count: 4484

Summary: After three months of loneliness and insecurities while on tour, Jungkook comes home to you.

Part 2

This is just pure fluff tbh. But Part 2 will much more explicit (and will be posted within the next two or three days at most). Enjoy!

You weren’t sure exactly how long you’d been sitting on the window seat with your knees pulled into your chest, the cool wall leaching all the warmth from your spine through the thick material of your hoodie. All day you’d been lounging in the comfort of your apartment, basking in the calming serenity of the pouring rain pattering against the wide window. The view of the Seoul skyline piercing the gray swirling clouds above was beautiful in the most hazy and sleepy way, almost as if the entirety of South Korea had just woken up from a Saturday-afternoon nap and hadn’t yet wiped the sleep from its eyes.

Saturdays were one of your favorite days, mainly because you didn’t have to worry about your usual responsibilities of college and work. You preferred to spend most of your Saturdays at home to recharge before having to finish up any assignments you’d been procrastinating over on Sunday, and you often found yourself devoting Saturdays to pampering yourself. Eating whatever you wanted, messily slathering on a face mask, taking a long steaming bath to relax your tense muscles, the works. At that point in the day, you’d already cooked yourself chocolate chip pancakes (You woke up around 11:30am, but who’s to say pancakes have to be reserved solely for breakfast time?) while your favorite moisturizing mask was caked on your skin. You stuffed the fluffy, sweet deliciousness in your face ravenously as you binge-watched YouTube videos, the only worry you had being that you may not have enough syrup.

Now you sat, four hours later, curled up by the window, still sucked into the void that is YouTube and enjoying the melancholy rainfall that was baptizing the streets of Seoul.

As much as you loved Saturdays, you couldn’t help but feel sad that you’d spent so many without your boyfriend around to participate in the self-care. The two of you had made it a tradition to spend Saturdays together and bond over cartoons and unhealthy snacks. Even though he basically lived with you when he wasn’t forced to stay at the dorms or travel for a tour, Jungkook was insistent on coming over and talking about each of your weeks through mouthfuls of pizza.

You heaved a sigh at the slight sinking feeling in your chest at remembering the last Saturday Jungkook had been home. The two of you had both gotten a little too tipsy (aka: you were both piss drunk) on cheap wine and ended up singing at the top of your lungs and clumsily dancing around the apartment to the Friends opening credits, the obnoxiously loud volume of the TV and your booming laughter causing your neighbor to complain the next morning. You were both ridiculously hungover the next day, and poor Kookie had a six hour dance practice starting at one in the afternoon. The stubborn motherfucker insisted that he was fine, dammit, and he would just go to practice and suffer through “like a man”. The memory of Namjoon calling you to tell you that Jungkook had puked all over the practice room floor in the middle of rehearsal brought a small smile to your face. God, he’s such an idiot.

You groaned as you raised your arms above your head in a stretch, all the joints in your body seeming to snap at once. At least he’s coming home today.

You unlocked your phone and reread the last messages you’d gotten from him.

[Jungkook] 6:03am: I’m getting on the plane. I’ll be home with you soon. I love you

[You] 11:32am: Be safe! I love you too

[Jungkook] 11:41am: Well good morning

[Jungkook] 11:42am: I guess I’m glad nothing bad happened to me. You would’ve just slept right on through it.

[You] 11:42am: To be honest, I’m a bit disappointed. I was expecting you and Taehyung to find a way to crash the plane by now.

[Jungkook] 11:45am: Lmao sorry to disappoint but Tae is sitting with Jimin instead this time

[You] 11:45am: Did you make a scene

[You] 11:46am: Did you #expose them for the cheating boyfriends that they are

[You] 11:46am: Did #Nochu come thru

[Jungkook] 11:48am: Of course. My emotional speech about their betrayals made the stewardess and several passengers cry.

[You] 11:51am: Where is this man’s Oscar

You didn’t hear from him again until an hour ago, and you could practically feel his excitement buzzing through the phone grasped in your hands.

[Jungkook] 3:30pm: We’re about to land!

[Jungkook] 4:17pm: We’re waiting for our luggage!!

[Jungkook] 4:39pm: Jimin’s bag is lost

[Jungkook] 4:56pm: God this is taking forever

[Jungkook] 4:59pm: I just asked if we could leave Jimin behind but they said no

[Jungkook] 5:11pm: We’re leaving the airport!!!!!!!!!!!! I’ll be home soon!!!!!!!

The last message made you smile so big it made your cheeks hurt. He was so excited to be coming home--and you were so excited for him to rest, if even for a short while. You knew that he was so much more exhausted than he would ever admit. Jungkook loved his job more than anything, but he was still human. Well, you debated that fact on occasion. The boy had a tendency to go and go and go until he was half dead, but even then, the average person would have already been put in a padded room from the amount of stress he faced on the daily.

The past three months had been rough without him--it only being the second time Jungkook had ever had to leave you on tour with Bangtan--but aside from feeling lonely at night after having a particularly rough day, you were handling yourself amazingly well and even gave your boyfriend the space that you felt that he wanted during the stress of touring. Jungkook, on the other hand…

It wasn’t that he wasn’t handling it well. It was more like he just missed you so damn much that he didn’t know what to do with himself. While the touring process was new to you, you had easily adapted because that was just what had to be done and it was all you'd ever known. The first time that Jungkook had to leave for a tour, you had merely been on a few extremely casual dates, so there were really no huge emotional investments on either side yet. You’d formed a closer bond over time by sending texts and links to ridiculous YouTube videos back and forth--Jungkook’s sense of humor more often than not making you snort out loud in the middle of your lectures, the sudden outbursts forcing you to cover it up by pretending to go into a coughing fit. After the first tour, loving Jungkook through a pixelated screen had just become half of your relationship, and you'd both accepted that. But that didn't mean it was easy.

You knew Jungkook wasn’t used to having someone to miss while he was away aside from his family, and the unfamiliar emptiness in his arms where you would normally be made him feel exposed and vulnerable--like he was going into battle without his most important and protective armor. The insecurities plagued him, a swirling mass of what ifs echoing against the interior of his skull. There were many nights where you would be roughly yanked out of sleep, your ringtone blaring so loud that you would scramble to find your phone amidst the tangle of sheets and the throw of darkness--your heart beating so hard in your chest that it felt like it was going to burst through your ribs and flop into bed beside you, only to find that it was merely Jungkook needing to hear your voice.

The last night that he had called in such a state was a week ago, the conversation still fresh on your mind as you waited for him to come home from the airport, your eyes trailing after a couple of silvery raindrops that rolled down the windowpanes in front of you.

“Hello?” That night you answered on the sixth ring with a tongue thick with sleep and eyes still unable to fully open.

“Baby?” Jungkook’s voice was almost always strained when he called you like this, as if he was trying his hardest to keep from showing just how vulnerable and needy he was--although you always knew. That time in particular, the pet name tumbled past his lips in a hurried rush.

“Hey, Jungkookie,” you smiled as you rubbed your eyes. He hesitated, the four seconds worth of grainy silence confirming your suspicions of him calling out of feeling alone in a crowd of six. “Bad day?”

He sighed lowly, and you could practically see him raising his thumb to his lips to nervously gnaw on the ragged cuticle. You could just faintly make out the sound of a rustling somewhere on the other end of the line, and you knew he was bouncing his leg, the nervous energy desperately trying to escape.

“Sort of...” he trailed off, not wanting to voice his actual feelings, god forbid, but you always patiently waited in silence until he felt ready to talk. “I really miss you.”

“I miss you too, more than you know,” even with thousands of miles between the two of you, the sounds of the wheels turning in his head were nearly audible as he tried to think of how to word his burdens.

“Talk to me, boy…” You sang the phrase to the tune of Rock Your Body by Justin Timberlake as out of tune and off pitch as you could, your voice that was still gravelly with sleep only adding to the effect. Anything to make Jungkook smile.

You often used this trick to get him to spill whatever was bothering him, and more often than not, it would illicit an airy chuckle to escape from him and begin to thaw the anxiety that had begun icing over his stomach. But that time all you got was a weak puff of air, a sorry excuse for a laugh.

He must really be upset, you thought.

After a moment, he spoke.

“You don’t….regret being with me, do you?” his voice was quiet, and even through the phone you could see his eyes timidly glued to his lap as he picked at the frayed holes in his jeans. “I mean...do you resent that I have to leave you for so long? Do you wish that you were with someone...normal?”

You blinked in confusion.

“What?” your voice hitched up in surprise.

“Never mind. Forget I called,” he babbled, “I shouldn’t have woken you up. I mean, it’s what? Almost four in--”

“Jeon Jungkook, hush,” you firmly interrupted, causing nervous rambling to die in his throat. “Why would you ask me that?”

He paused.

“Um…” the humiliated blush that was burning his cheeks was nearly audible.

“I….” he began, but the words dissolved on his tongue like a bitter cotton candy. He let out a huff of frustration.

“I’m scared,” a tone of hopelessness tinged with shame dripped from his lilting voice. “I love you so much, and I’m scared that you’re going to realize that this? What we have? Isn’t what you deserve.”

Your brow furrowed as you processed his words. How could he be so dumb sometimes? Couldn’t he tell that you were madly in love with him? That he was your best friend, and you could never give him up for anything? You been together for almost a year, shouldn’t he know that by now?

“Jungkook--”

“I’m the man, I‘m supposed to be reassuring you! And instead I’m the one calling you all the time because I miss you so much that I can’t focus on anything. You don’t ever call me like this. I’m the one calling you in the middle of the night because I’m feeling real anxiety for the first time in my life over the thought of losing you. And I’m a fucking singer!” his voice was growing louder as he let his stress out into the light, and his bouncy Busan accent peaked through the more worked up he got.

“I get followed by crazy fans and have hate thrown at me every day, and yet the only thing that really cuts me deep is the thought of not getting to hear you do Justin Timberlake an injustice over the phone anymore.”

The sentiment was meant to be joking, because he didn’t like talking about his feelings nine times out of ten--it made him feel guilty for not being content with his job and his life all the time. He didn’t want to seem ungrateful.

He paused for a moment to catch his breath, and that was when you jumped in.

“Jungkook,” you softly said, “you do call me when you’re upset. I can always tell the difference between a call like one of these and a normal phone call to check in. But have you failed to notice that I always answer these urgent phone calls?”

He didn’t answer, so you continued.

“I’m scared, too. I’m terrified you’re going to find a much hotter, more talented, idol girlfriend to love. But the reason I don’t call you like this very often is because for one thing, I hardly ever know where the hell you are. For all I know, you’re back in Seoul chilling in the dorms right now,” Jungkook let out a single grunt of a chuckle.

“And I also don’t call you freaking out because right around the time when I start to feel lonely or sad, you end up calling me. I may not know where you are in the world, but you’ll always know where I am. I’m not going anywhere.”

There were a few beats of warm silence as your reassuring words released the tension in Jungkook’s shoulders and loosened the uneasy knot pulled lethally tight in his chest.

“So you don’t want someone normal?” the smile in his voice was evident, but you could still make out a hint of uncertainty in his tone.

“Kookie, if I wanted someone normal, I wouldn’t have chosen you to begin with, you dumbass,” a grin broke out across your face as the sound of Jungkook’s musical laughter floated back to your ears. The mental image of him throwing his head back with his eyes scrunched tight with a genuine smile made you swoon.

“Promise?” he giggled.

“I promise, okay? You being famous isn’t what makes you abnormal to me. It’s your inherent dorkiness and embarrassing outbursts,” you teased.

“Don’t act like you don’t contribute,” he sassed.

“You love it.”

“I really, really do.”

At the end of the phone call, you could tell he felt better. It was like his burden dissipating also lifted one from your own shoulders, as if you had cleared up an insecurity you didn’t even know you had.

Before you, Jungkook had never loved someone at all, period, and now that he was madly in love with you, he felt as if he wasn’t doing enough. He hated not being able to take you on dates, real dates, where you could both go out without worrying if he would be followed by fans or paparazzi. He hated that he couldn't hold you every night and feel your icy toes shove themselves under his thighs, the biting cold nearly making him jump out of his skin every time. He hated never getting to post the cute pictures that he would take of you while you slept, or the horrendous selfies you would send him as you sat in class while he was at rehearsal. He wanted to shout how much he loved you from the rooftops, loud enough for all of both North and South Korea to hear. But the job that he loved so much prevented that.

He hated those things, but god, did he love you.

The thought that after all that time, you would finally be able to see him, and hold him, and do all the things you were able to do with him three months prior made you feel as if your body weighed twenty pounds lighter. Loneliness was a much heavier burden than you realized.

The sound of keys jingling and sliding into the lock made your head automatically whip towards the long awaited noise. For whatever reason, be it the suddenness of the noise while you were so deep in thought or the fact that your Jungkook was finally home, your heart fluttered inside your chest. On instinct, you rose to your feet and stood with your eyes glued to the entrance to your apartment. He’s home.

When the door finally swung open after what felt like an eternity of him fumbling with the knob that always seemed to stick, Jeon Jungkook stood before you for the first time in three months.

His hair was a dishevelled mess, the caramel blond and faded pink stripes sticking up in every which way in wispy tendrils around his brow that had collected the brunt of the rain on the way to your apartment. If you hadn’t been so stunned, you would have laughed at the very obvious line where his hat had protected the crown of his head from getting wet, leaving the top of his hair to be dry and fluffy--a stark contrast to the ends of his locks that were dripping wet and darkened with the freezing rain. Jungkook’s soaked beanie was clutched so tightly in his fist that his knuckles were white and little streams of water were dripping down his fingers and onto the floor from the fabric being wrung so extremely. His black hoodie was bunched up over one of his hips, as if he hadn’t bothered to pull it down or fix it in it any way when he stepped off the subway. The fabric was significantly darker over the broad expanse of his shoulders and chest where the rain had initially struck him, making it hopelessly cling to his leanly muscled frame.

Your heart skipped a beat as your eyes raked over his body and landed on his face. Without a stitch of makeup on his skin to hinder your view, you were able to see every little detail on him--even from across the room. The wind must have been much chillier than you thought, because his nose and cheeks were bright pink from the abuse of the nipping temperatures. All of his freckles and dark circles and scars were right in front of you, and they were so goddamn gorgeous that it made a lump form in your throat. He was so real. So real and so solid and so very, very beautiful. It was as if his image was enhanced and hyper-focused after being without him for so long.

The expression of disbelief written on your face must have been amusing, because Jungkook’s red, chill-swollen lips quirked themselves into a bright grin.

“I’m home,” he softly said, his smile growing even wider--the rise of his cheeks making his sparkling eyes disappear into slits that sat on the top of his cheekbones and nearly all thirty-two of his teeth flash in your direction.

The broken silence snapped you out of your trance, and you quickly found yourself shuffling across the room towards your boyfriend while muttering an ecstatic mantra of “You’re home, you’re home, you’re home, you’re home!” with a beaming smile on your face. He met you halfway, his long strides carrying him to you in a matter of three steps. You threw your arms around his neck and nestled your frame into his torso. Muscled arms wound themselves around your waist--one firmly snaking around the circumference of your lower back and the other trailing up your spine to gently grip at the curve of your shoulder--as he mumbled an incoherent string of words declaring just how much he missed you, his voice sounding an awful lot like he was trying not to cry.

“I missed you too,” your fingers wound themselves into his hair as you felt a sting behind your eyes. “I missed you so incredibly much, Jungkook.”

A startled gasp flew past your lips when the tip of Jungkook’s frigidly cold nose nuzzled itself into the warmth of your neck.

“Jesus,” you attempted to squirm away from the way from the way he was using you to thaw himself, but he simply pulled you tighter into his body.

“You’re freezing! Why didn’t you wear a coat, Jungkook? You’re going to get sick, you idiot!” you half laughed and half scolded, the smile on your face causing a single happy tear to squeeze from your eye.

His cheeks rose devilishly in the crook of your neck. He’d missed your playful insults so much.

“I was so excited to see you that I forgot to grab one from the dorm when I dropped off my suitcase,” his words were muffled by the fabric of your sweatshirt.

His dripping wet clothes were beginning to soak into your own and make you shiver. You placed your palms on both of his cheeks and pulled him back to get a better look at him up close--and partially to get his icicle of a nose the hell away from your flesh. Your eyes locked with his, the nearly-black irises seeming to place gentle kisses on every inch of your face as he surveyed your features. His mouth dropped open in a look of false and exaggerated surprise, his doe eyes twinkling like a thousand galaxies.

“Are you crying, (Y/N)?” he chided.

You let out a laugh poked his cheek.

“Are you? You’re looking a bit waterlogged.”

“What?” his brows raised, feigning innocence.

“This?” he gestured to his soaked lashes. “No, no. It’s not crying if the tears never fall, baby.”

You giggled and pulled his face closer to yours, the scent of his favorite cologne washing over you in the close proximity. Your lips brushed against his in a teasing kiss, the feeling of his chilled lips lightly grazing yours sending chills down your spine.

“God, you’re so warm,” he whispered, awestruck, his breath fanning over your face.

Jungkook’s hand ran itself painstakingly slow up your arm and the side of your neck, his icy fingertips trailing against your skin so lightly that goosebumps erupted across the expanse of your exposed flesh. Long fingers knotted themselves in the hair at the back of your neck to pull you into a deeper kiss, and the way his fingernails lightly grazed your scalp had your breath catching in your throat. The kiss was slow and languid, everything seeming to be moving at half its normal speed. With each move he made, icy droplets would drip from the ends of Jungkook’s hair and splatter faintly on your skin. Every brush of his lips and unhurried swipe of his tongue against yours was purposeful. Each shaky breath and quiet sigh was a message, a secret code that you’d cracked months and months before--every tender nibble on your lower lip and stroke of his swollen lips against your jaw a declaration of how much he loved you, punctuated with gentle swipes of his thumb against your cheekbone.

The way Jungkook was not only suddenly present in your life again, but also painting your lips with his most intimate and passionate kisses was making you weak in the knees. After all the months of being apart, you finally had him back in your arms. The crushing feeling of love for him was so overwhelming that your head started to spin. You brought your hand up to rest against his cheek and pulled away from the kiss ever so slightly--just enough to speak.

“I missed you,” you rested your forehead against his and looked into his eyes, your mouth beginning to water at the sight of his flushed cheeks and blown out pupils.

“I missed you so much. God, every single day it was like I was walking around in a daze,” you gave him a lingering peck before continuing. “I love you so much, Jungkook. I don’t think you realize how much.”

You began peppering kisses along his jaw, gentle at first--pulling a satisfied hum from him that quickly turned into a low moan when you switched to leaving burning open mouthed kisses that seared the still freezing skin on his neck. The contrast of your warm mouth and his cold skin was so drastic that it felt almost painful, his nerve endings having long forgotten what warmth was in the mile long walk from the subway to your apartment.

You pulled back to make eye contact with him and make sure that he was listening to what you were saying. He stared back at you with hooded eyes, doing his best to actually process your words.

“I’m sorry if I seemed distant while you were away. I just figured you would want some space to focus on work,” you brought your lips back to his, kissing the top and then the bottom before slowly tracing his lower lip with your tongue. His hands gripped your hips in an attempt to keep from losing focus on your loving words.

“I let the space change from an inch to a mile, and you felt insecure in our relationship because of that. Am I correct?”

Jungkook’s golden cheeks flushed a deep russet, his eyes leaving yours to wander aimlessly before dropping to the floor. He nodded, embarrassment  evident on his face. He hated admitting when he was struggling. He wasn’t supposed to struggle, he was the golden maknae.

You smiled fondly at him before intertwining your fingers with his and raising the tangle of warm and cold digits to brush your lips across his knuckles.

“Let me make it up to you,” you slyly said.

Jungkook’s eyes snapped up to meet yours, a knowing smirk tugging on the corner of his lips.

“Whatever do you have in mind, m’lady?” he suggestively raised his eyebrows and wrapped his arms around your waist.

You shivered at the chill that your now soaked clothes brought.

“Well, you feel like you’ve been inside a deep freeze for four days. Let’s warm you up.”

Jungkook’s eyes gleamed.

“You don’t mean…?” he began, a wide smile spreading across his face.

You nodded.

“Yes. I ordered more bath bombs and saved them all so we could use them together.”

Jungkook wiggled in excitement, doing a quick dance of waggling fingers and spastically tapping his toes.

“You’re the beeeeest,” he cheered as he heaved you over his shoulder--causing a surprised shriek to rip from your throat--and pranced off towards the master bedroom.

You couldn't contain your giddiness as your laughter rang out across your apartment. Jungkook was finally home, and your Saturday was finally as warm and relaxing as they used to be before he left.

[can-i-have-your-french-fries]

92 truths - i’m pretty sure i’ve done this before but i was tagged by @gameofsassbutts (thank you! <3) and i really wanna do it again. times and truths change, you know.

Rules: Write 92 truths about yourself then tag 25 people

LAST…

[1] drink: glass of water

[2] phone call: mom or dad

[3] text message: to my grandma, last whatsapp message to my sisters

[4] song you listened to: WDL - Monster vs. Angel (feat. Mawe)

[5] time you cried: can’t remember

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: really not even once so no

[7] been cheated on: no

[8] kissed someone and regretted it: no

[9] lost someone special: not really

[10] been depressed: not clinically or diagnosed

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: thank god no

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS:

[12] green!

[13] greys

[14] warm oranges

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: yeah, actually. not super close friends but school mates

[16] fallen out of love: mmmm kinda

[17] laughed until you cried: surely

[18] found out someone was talking about you: ?? no

[19] met someone who changed you: i got to know someone who changed me though i met them earlier

[20] found out who your true friends are: i don’t make friends too easily so i think all my friends are my true friends

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: yea

GENERAL…

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: i’ve met them all, i think. but.. some of them... i almost wish i hadn’t. oops

[23] do you have any pets: we have one doggo and one cat at my parents’ house

[24] do you want to change your name: nah

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: (yeah i must’ve answered to this before.´, i remember this question.) i was in my intern place at a montessori daycare and brought ice cream for the kids and pie for the adults. then i went to the stable in the afternoon

[26] what time did you wake up: today at 6:40

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping

[28] name something you cannot wait for: warm spring days!! this week to be over so i’ve had all my school stuff done!!

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: yesterday

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: more money to my parents so they wouldn’t have to stress about it all the time

[31] what are you listening to right now: asmr videos lmao. gentlewhispering’s new video . or if my internet can’t load it, Satellite Stories - Miracle

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: nno

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: me procrastinating my school work. and the rash on my hand and neck

[34] most visited website: guess twice. it’s tumblr lmao

[35] elementary: done and

[36] high school: done

[37] college: almost half way there. oh wait how does this school system correlate to european school system? i’m in uni now, anyways

[38] hair color: darkish brown. but i’m gonna dye the ends as soon

[39] long or short hair: i’ve got the best of both worlds. shaved sides and back, longer tuft on the top, to my shoulders

[40] do you have a crush on someone: no

[41] what do you like about yourself: my humour and temper

[42] piercings: ear rings

[43] blood type: don’t know, maybe b

[44] nickname: iitu, but also irppa, ille, irkku,

[45] relationship status: free as a bird in the sky

[46] zodiac sign: taurus

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav tv show: hannibal, spn, fargo, true detective. (i also can’t believe i’ve watched twd for so goddamn long pls end me)

[49] tattoos: not yet

[50] right or left hand: right

FIRST…

[51] surgery: getting my inflamed appendix removed

[52] piercing: ear rings

[53] best friend: a girl from day care

[54] sport: dancing with the girl from day care

[55] vacation: can’t remember, somewhere mediterranean i bet

[56] pair of trainers: ??? who the heck remembers this

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: nothing but i’ll go get beef stroganoff after this

[58] drinking: nothing but i’ll go get some water after this

[59] i’m about to: eat and then do school stuff

[60] listening to: a new song from a singer i used to listen all the dang time when i was little. Maija Vilkkumaa - Mä en oo sun ainoo

[61] waiting for: spring and next week, oo my internship starts on monday

[62] want: my stomach to calm the shit down

[63] get married: right now???? to whom?????

[64] career: studying to become a bachelor of social services, maybe daycare teacher once i graduate

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: hugs i guess

[66] lips or eyes: lips, i like never look ppl in the eyes oops

[67] shorter or taller: maybe taller but not too much, but shorter would definitely not be an issue

[68] older or younger: older, but again not too much lmao, and some what younger wouldn’t be an issuea

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: arms *that side eyes emoji*

[71] sensitive or loud: both. both.

[72] hook up or relationship: relationship

[73] troublemaker or hesitant: both. both is good.

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger? well it was a first (and only lmao) date so not a complete stranger

[75] drank hard liquor? only some swigs

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses? don’t have ‘em

[77] turned someone down: yeah

[78] sex on first date? nope, but p sure the guy from 74 woulda liked some

[79] broken someone’s heart? don’t think so

[80] had your own heart broken? no

[81] been arrested? nope

[82] cried when someone died? i haven’t lost a person who’d been so important to me, but sure have cried when my dear animals have passed away

[83] fallen for a friend? well she wasn’t my friend at the time but now is

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself? yeah

[85] miracles? yep

[86] love at first sight? nno

[87] Santa Claus? yes he lives in lapland and i have sat on his lap even though i was scared to death

[88] kiss on the first date? well i have done

[89] angels? no

OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: got two; julia & kia

[91] eye color: hazel

[92] favorite movie: i’ll go with django - unchained this time

I tag @atenebrae @not-an-ivy @aregularvoltaire @onesinglepomegranateseed @more-or-less-organised @theacidicfrog @rainbowsandcereal @deansgayangelman @vehement-fallen-angel and if you wanna do this, go ahead. i’ll go eat now!!

[tuantasticchewbacca]

85 Truths Tag  I don't do this kind of stuff but @jarlgogh​ you’re too cute :3 Also sorry it literally took me like ages to reply but I was running around like a headless chicken for the whole weekend, I’m here now though :)))).

I tag: @notsoguiltykpop​ cause you’re my wife, and @imahoeforyoongi​ cause you’re my only other friend here so lol, and the rest of the 18 tags can go to whoever wants to do its actually pretty fun to do ^^

Alrighty so here it comes... Last

1. drink - TEA (I'm pretty sure I’m addicted)

2. phone call - uuuuuuuuhhhhhh to my mum

3. text message - my mum, again... lol telling her that I won’t be recording my friends in college today cause one of the lads sprained his ankle...

4. song you listened to - Bailando by Enrique Iglesias.... I know it’s only by now, but my my it’s beat is too good

5. time you cried - Eh... last week? Lot of things were happening and I was feeling really self-conscious and I somehow ended up texting this guy that I clearly have no feelings for, and he asked if “I was okay”, lkjsadhgr boi no

Ever

6. dated anyone twice- the question should be have I ever DATED... lmao cause nope

7. kissed someone then regretted it - again I am a relationship virgin I don’t know how do any of that stuff

8. been cheated on - nope

9. lost someone special - nope

10. been depressed - I’m like a werewolf, I get depressed every full moon.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - alcohol virgin here too....

Fave Colours

12. red

13. blue

14. black

In the last year have you

15. made new friends - Yep, I’ve been to a few social events where I managed to befriend some people so wowie well done me :)

16. fallen out of love - In progress. I just wanna get over the guy, ya feel?

17. laughed until you cried - Oh for defo.

18. found out someone was talking about you - Yep... found it very intriguing tbh

19. met someone who changed you - Kind of? I think for the better but who knows...

20. found out who your true friends are - first you need to have more than one friend.... lol 

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - Nope. 

General

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - All of them, I have this strict rule of just accepting people that I know irl, and if we fall out I will unfriend.

23. do you have any pets - Noooooooooo.... *sob* but I’m working on this cat that keeps on coming over to my house.... 

24. do you want to change your name - asdfghjkl YES I hate it, I’m currently working on having people call me by my nickname that I came up with with my friend, it’s a work in progress

25. what did you do for your last birthday - I don’t celebrate birthdays so I probably drank tea and slept cause lol I'm so wild

26. what time did you wake up today - Like 5am? but then I realised it’s not worth it and forced myself back to sleep

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - probably chilling with my mum in the living room...

28. what is something you cant wait for - Finishing college! Having an actual job! Getting a dog! 

30. what are you listening to right now - my dad clicking away on his laptop and muttering to himself

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - Yes. I knew a Tom but he moved now to a different country... hope you doing well bro!

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - my tendency to procrastinate, I can like physically feel the time ticking away but I’d still be playing 2048 on my phone... and people coughing without covering their mouths like WHAT KIND OF A PEASANT-

33. most visited website - Youtube.

34. hair colour - Dark brown, with a strip of cherry but you can't really see it cause my hair is so dark... (mum and I were feeling spontaneous one night)

35. long or short hair - shoulder length? but I just cut it recently, I literally had it like down to my hips...

36. do you have a crush on someone - Unfortunately 

37. what do you like about yourself - MY EYES- they’re like light brown, but in sunlight they become gold and I think it’s really pretty, EYELASHES- natural curl yo! and HAIR- we get on very well

38. want any piercings? - Yeeeeaaaaahhh... like I see myself with a tongue piercing but would never actually get one. But I am thinking of getting a helix piercing...

39. blood type - lol, who knows

40. nicknames - Marty, I’ve been called “midget” as well... yeeep that’s all

41. relationship status - single and reADY TO BINGO

42. zodiac - Scorpio

43. pronouns - a she/her

44. fave tv shows - I’m into few things at the time so bare with me... - Once Upon a Time, Riverdale (yes I’m one of those), Friends, White Collar, Gotham, The Good Place, Chuck

45. tattoos - iNone

46. right or left handed - right

47. ever had surgery - Yeh, I was swinging on a swing (that was broken, it had no board to sit on or anything so there were just these three metal bars going across), then stood up on it while it was still swinging and I ended up falling with one of the bars ending up right between my legs... and well... I needed stitches..... (note that I was like 4 or 5 at the time okaYYYYY)

48. piercings - just in ears

49. sport - none, I used to play basketball a little and soccer but yeah... I dance a little though... does that count?

50. vacation - I love travelling if only I had more $$$$$ (planing on going to Iceland tho)

51. trainers - I literally wear any kind of shoe’s as long as I like how they look like 

More General

52. eating - if I could I’d eat pizza 24/7, but nothing rn

53. drinking - tea 24/7 but nothing rn, not... sure why... hold on...

                      Yep tea.

54. i’m about to watch - some DAN and PHIL cause I’m a hoe for them

55. waiting for - me to finish this cause I still got some college work to do, but I’ve been putting this off for so long that I’m disgusted with myself... hehe....

56. want - A dog... a boyfriend would be nice, but a dog would be more convenient 

57. get married - probably someday, not really into the whole marriage thing at the time, some of my friends just got engaged lately and I’m here like... why would you???

58. career - none, currently in college studying animation so hopefully would end up with something in that direction, if it fails I’ll probably go for hairdressing

Which is Better

59. hugs or kisses - hugs 

60. lips or eyes - eyes

61. shorter or taller - both? as a member of the SHORT Clan I am very much aware of the numerous advantages us quick-ending-limbs people have, but at the same time being tall must be very nice

62. older or younger - older

63. nice arms or stomach - arms

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant (pls just don’t have me decide things cause just no.)

Have You Ever

66. kissed a stranger - nope

67. drank hard liquor - I think so??? Like I’m pretty sure I did I’m just not aware of the alcoholic stuff but like 95% positive 

68. lost glasses - Nope

69. turned someone down - Oh I did... 

70. sex on first date - nope, what is a date? ...I’m so lonely lmao

71. broken someone’s heart - nope

72. had your heart broken - Nope

73. been arrested - nope

74. cried when someone died - Yep, Jonghyun got me bad... but also... would crying over my guinea pig count?

75. fallen for a friend - you see the thing is I’m pretty sure we’re friends but like... I don’t even know what we are??????? so maybe?????? 

Do you believe in

76. yourself - happens every other day, so yeah sometimes 

77. miracles - not the ones happening these days I don’t

78. love at first sight - I mean, yeah sure, why not, I like being optimistic 

79. santa claus - nope

80. kiss on a first date - Um... I’m not really sure how the whole dating thing works so I feel like I shouldn’t answer cause I wouldn’t know???

81. angels - yep, but I don’t believe there’s like guardian angels and all that

Other

82. best friend’s name - Lidzilla (that’s the nickname I gave her on messenger lol)

83. eye colour - like light brown, but with bits of greyish in them too

84. fave movie - can I mention more than one? cause there’s plenty...The Proposal, LOTR and The Hobbit movies I’d die for, throw in Star Wars... and Pirates of the Caribbean (the first one ;) )

85. fave actor - oh geez... probably Johnny Depp, Ryan Reynolds, Chris Pratt and I’m growing soft for Emma Stone, ANGELINA JOLIE will forever be my role model tho

[wellimhavinga3outof10day]

All right, so @thislifeisawasteland tagged me to answer a bunch of questions that are actually an ask meme, but w/e. (There are kind of Riverdale spoilers in this post? I’m bitter, sue me.) Here we go:

Full name: I’m not really gonna tell you that, so settle for Jessica

Zodiac sign: Taurus

3 Fears: Death, spiders... that I’ll never fall in love?

3 things I love: Chocolate, green tea, & my laptop

4 turns ons: Humour, kindness, bad pick-up lines, goofy smiles

4 turns offs: Racism, homophobia, an annoying voice, a terrible smell in general?

My best friend: Like all of them

Sexual orientation: Bi

My best first date: I’ve only had one first date, so walking around the mall

How tall am I: 5'8"

What do I miss: My friends, knowing Jughead was safe and happy smh

What time was I born: 9:04 a.m.

Favourite colour: Red

Do I have a crush: Not unless we’re counting fictional characters

Favourite quote: *gross sobbing* “It’s like my home.” Nah, I’m kidding, I don’t really have a fave quote

Favourite place: My library

Favourite food: Chocolate

Do I use sarcasm: No, never...

What am I listening to right now: "Leave” by Jojo (lmao, idk why)

First thing I notice in new person: Their hair, tbh

Shoe size: 6 1/2 (yes, I have tiny fucking feet)

Eye colour: Blue

Hair colour: Brown/blonde

Favourite style of clothing: Casual, comfy

Ever done a prank call? Yes and omg worst experience of my life, almost had a panic attack, never again

What colour of underwear I’m wearing now? Pink

Meaning behind my URL: It’s a line from White Collar

Favourite movie: He’s Just Not That Into You (it’s on Netflix now, I’m so excited!!), also Pretty in Pink

Favourite song: Atm, “Prom Queen” by Molly Kate Kestner

Favourite band: ??? idk man

How I feel right now: Pretty good

Someone I love: Jughead Jones (honestly, fight me)

My current relationship status: Single af

My relationship with my parents: It’s good

Favourite holiday: Christmas

Tattoos and piercings? My ears are pierced and I have no tattoos

Tattoos and piercing i want: I kinda want a sternum piercing, and a rose vine tattoo up my side

The reason I joined Tumblr: I was filling out my social media quota before I went to uni

Do I and my last ex hate each other? Well, I didn’t think so but then she made me answer all these questions, so? It’s up in the air ;)

Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night” texts? Nah, never (unless you count my mom checking to see if I’m awake when I’m home alone)

Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? Nope

When did I last hold hands? ...? Fairly recently probably, I hold my mom’s hand all the time.

How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 20 minutes, maybe?

Have I shaved your legs in the past three days? Nope

Where am I right now? At my desk

If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? N/A, never been that drunk

Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Reasonable (pretty quiet actually if you ask other people)

Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Yup

Am I excited for anything? Jughead to be loved and cared for and warm and safe, for the love of god.

Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? All right, well “can” and “would” are different words, so technically yes, but I wouldn’t?

How often do I wear a fake smile? Rarely

When was the last time I hugged someone? Last night?

What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? Eh, might bug me a little, but you go girl. (I mean, as long as it’s not an old man.)

Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? I don’t think so?

What is something I disliked about today? Today just started, buddy. Umm... for some reason my hands are really sweaty? I hate that?

If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Atm, the cast of Riverdale, but that’ll change in like a month if not a day.

What do I think about most? Probably w/e I’m writing atm.

What’s my strangest talent? ...? I don’t have very minute talents, idk what to tell you. I’m very talented at drinking too much green tea and procrastinating things I actually want to do.

Do I have any strange phobias? Mustard

Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind, probs.

What was the last lie I told? ...? I lie a lot, idk. I probs lied on here. Kidding, don’t think I have. Umm... I honeslty have no idea. It’s anyone’s guess.

Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Both are horrible and probably the worst forms of communication, but I’m gonna go with the phone b/c I have an unnecessary grudge against Skype.

Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Maybe? and yes.

Do I believe in magic? Little magic, sure.

Do I believe in luck? To an extent.

What’s the weather like right now? Sunny, average temp

What was the last book I’ve read? I’m in the middle of Crooked Kingdom right now, but the last book I finished was I’ll Give You The Sun

Do I like the smell of gasoline? Yes

Do I have any nicknames? Yes: Jess, Jessie

What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I broke my wrist by getting knocked down a hill and landing on concrete.

Do I spend money or save it? Save it.

Can I touch my nose with a tongue? Nope

Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? Yeah, more things than I expected too, tbh.

Favourite animal? Pigs

What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Talking to Rachael on Tumblr/watching Misfits

What do I think is Satan’s last name is? Claus (yes, I know it said Satan not Santa, but it’s a conspiracy)

What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? I Don’t Wanna Be Sad by Simple Plan

How can you win my heart? Be nice and funny and care about me (honestly giving a shit about me is really all I need, my standards are fucking low as shit)

What would I want to be written on my tombstone? Idk but something kind of weird and maybe a quote I like?

What is my favourite word: Feral

My top 5 blogs on tumblr: Ugh, I don’t want to do this.

If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? “I love you, take care of yourselves.”

Do I have any relatives in jail? I don’t think so...

I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? Flight

What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? Umm... lots of things, I’m sure.

What is my current desktop picture? It’s a city that Natasha made for a class and it’s super pretty and green.

Had sex? Nope

Bought condoms? Yes, actually

Gotten pregnant? Nope

Failed a class? Nope

Kissed a boy? Nope

Kissed a girl? Yup

Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Nope

Had a job? Yes

Left the house without my wallet? All the time

Bullied someone on the internet? I don’t think so, I hope not

Had sex in public? Nope

Played on a sports team? Yes

Smoked weed? No

Did drugs? No

Smoked cigarettes? No

Drank alcohol? Yes

Am I a vegetarian/vegan? No

Been overweight? No

Been underweight? No

Been to a wedding? Yes

Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Yes

Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Yes

Been outside my home country? Yes

Gotten my heart broken? Eh, probably not

Been to a professional sports game? Yes

Broken a bone? Yes

Cut myself? No

Been to prom? Graduation in Canada, but yes

Been in airplane? Yes

Fly by helicopter? No

What concerts have I been to? So I went to like three in a row a few years ago: One Direction, Marianas Trench and... shit, I thought there were three... it might have been two... oh! Shawn Mendes! (And I’m listening to him right now and I forgot that, lmao)

Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Yes

Learned another language? Kinda

Wore make up? Nope

Lost my virginity before I was 18? Nope

Had oral sex? Nope

Dyed my hair? Yes

Voted in a presidential election? Federal election yes, I’m Canadian

Rode in an ambulance? Nope

Had a surgery? Nope

Met someone famous? Nope

Stalked someone on a social network? I don’t think so

Peed outside? Nope

Been fishing? I have.

Helped with charity? Nope

Been rejected by a crush? Yes

Broken a mirror? Nope

What do I want for my birthday? *laughs* Umm... not a clue. 

How many kids do I want and what will be their names? 4: Marcia, Whit, Eli, & Beth

Was I named after anyone? My middle name is my Oma’s middle name too, but my first name’s not from anywhere

Do I like my handwriting? I used to b/c it was literally flawless when I was younger, but now it’s like a mess, so no.

What was my favourite toy as a child? Should I even remember this? Barbies, probably.

Favourite Tv Show? Atm, Riverdale

Where do I want to live when older? Not a clue. Probably Toronto or Vancouver? Maybe somewhere in Europe. Who knows?

Play any musical instrument? I used to play guitar but I probably can’t remember any of it.

One of my scars, how did I get it? Idk if I have any scars, man. There’s like kind of a scar by my elbow? But how I got it is a mystery.

Favourite pizza toping? Green peppers

Am I afraid of the dark? Nope

Am I afraid of heights? Nope

Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? No, I don’t think so. (I once was caught squirting water in a guy’s face? But he kind of deserved it.)

Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? I don’t think so...?

What I’m really bad at: Figuring out my life

What my greatest achievements are: I once predicted the end of a book, does that count? And my highest post here is almost at five thousand notes?

The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: "I love you, but sometimes I just don’t like you.” (Honestly, I deserved it, but it was savage af.)

What I’d do if I won in a lottery: Buy a house, buy a lot of fandom merch, invest a bunch... 

What do I like about myself: I’m pretty laidback, I know what I want for the most part, and I try to be a good person.

My closest Tumblr friend: Not this again.

Something I fantasise about my ex: (lmao my first instinct was to put “dying” and that’s not true, my babe, I’m sorry) Honestly? Just having sex, like nothing fancy.

[bennet-darcy]

Would you hate me if I said to do all numbers on the ask game ? I know ever time I do it I want to write them all! (sorry for my english)

Oh my gosh. There are 150 questions. However, I will endeavor to do them all. (minus the ones I answered earlier of course). Though, it is currently 1:10am in England, and I might get too tired halfway through. But I’ll try! 

Also I’m just curious as to why someone is so fascinated by my life that they want to know all of these things? (i’m flattered by it, i’m just a bit curious) And your english is great, friend, don’t worry!

Okay here we go. Gonna put this under a read more because it’s gonna be hella long. 

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I think so? I think I’m generally a nice person?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

This is an odd question. But uh. Yeah, I guess so? (I’ve never been drunk, and I wouldn’t want to put anyone in the position of having to take care of me if I stupidly chose to drink too much.) 

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Kind ones? (That’s cheesy. I don’t know. I don’t think I really have a type of person that I’m attracted to? It’s really about the individual.)

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

My friend Alex, who just messaged me. Shoutout to him.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Not in the hypothetical. I can talk about sex hypothetically and it doesn’t bother me. But when someone asks invasive questions or overshares about their sex lives, I feel a tad uncomf.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

My sister. We pretty much just talked about our goals for the future, and discussed ways of dealing with tough situations that we’re going through.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“Hi ___, (parent of my student) Yes, I’ll make sure that ___ (my student’s name) has his homework done by tonight. I’ll have him home by 5:45. Thanks!” 

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

(these aren’t necessarily favorites, but just songs I’ve been listening to a lot lately.) 

Lonely Hearts Club , Another Part of Me , Safety Dance, Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go, You’re Welcome (from Moana lol) I’m basically pop, 80′s music, and Disney trash. 

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

I would say yes to luck. But miracles, no, not really (with what it implies)

15. What good thing happened this summer?

Lots of things! I got to spend time with my friends who were home from college during the summer, I took a trip to California to visit my extended family, I did A Gay Thing, and then I moved to London! Very eventful summer. 

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Nope lol 

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

yeee

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

We don’t really talk, no, but we’re facebook friends. (Shoutout to Connor)

19. Do you like bubble baths?

YES 

20. Do you like your neighbors?

I haven’t really properly met my neighbors? We’ve passed each other in the staircase, and just exchanged smiles and “hello”s but that’s it. 

21. What are you bad habits?

I sometimes bite my nails when I’m anxious. (Though I’ve gotten better with not doing it). Also, I procrastinate so much, and it’s terrible. 

22. Where would you like to travel?

ICELAND!!!!  Also, I recently took a trip to Bath, England and I would LOOVE to go back. Also I want to go see Bletchley Park, Dover, Brighton and Derbyshire. Internationally, I’d love to go to Scotland, Ireland, Greece, Germany, Japan, Morocco, Costa Rica (yeah okay I’m going to stop listing places now, I think you get it. I like to travel, and there are a lot of places I want to see.) 

23. Do you have trust issues?

No, I don’t think so. 

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Going to bed. 

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

I’ve never loved my hair. It’s always been really thick and frizzy and just hard deal with and style. I’ve always wished for straight, smooth hair. 

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Usually I’ll just lay in bed for another 10 minutes or so, and check social media/email/texts etc. 

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

I’ve never really had complaints about my skin tone? Since moving to England, I’ve been paler than usual, but that doesn’t bother me so.. I’ve never been the type to care about being tan or not. 

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My mom probably? Or my friend Alejandra. Or Alex (the other night we skyped, and just maintained total silence for about 10 minutes while we each ate our dinner over skype. True friendship.) 

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Kind of?? But I’m p sure it wasn’t real, and was just an attempt at manipulation. 

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Just barely! And even then, some hair falls out of the back, sometimes. 

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Uh. None. Unless we can change ‘threesome’ to instead mean “watch a movie and eat popcorn with”. Then my answer would be Martin Freeman and Ben C

33. Spell your name with your chin.

aNMBWE 

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

Nope. I don’t care about sports at all. 

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Nope. I always have to confront it or else it fucking :) eats :) me :) alive

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

“Awkward Silence” 

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Takes naps with me. 

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Primark, because it’s cheap. 

40. What do you want to do after high school?

I’m already out of high school. I’m currently in my first year of university, studying psychology. After this semester, I have no idea what I’m doing with my life lol

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Nope. 

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I’m usually zoned tf out, or I just don’t have anything to say?? 

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Yeah.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Outer Space. I feel like it would be less terrifying than the bottom of the ocean. 

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

The desire to have money. Or because I’m hungry. 

46. What are you paranoid about?

Things that I’d rather not go into detail about right now. 

47. Have you ever been high?

Nope. 

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Nope. 

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

I recently spent way too much money on flowers. My first thought when I completed the transaction was “shit, I hope mom doesn’t check my bank statements and see that I just spend £26 on flowers.”

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Navy blue 

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Yeah, I used to feel that way a lot when I was younger. 

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

As mentioned before, I don’t like my hair. I wish I could change that. 

But also (on an internal level) I wish I had more confidence to talk about my feelings, and to stand up for myself. I’ve been doing it more, recently, but that’s always been really hard for me. 

53. Favourite makeup brand?

I use so many different brands in my daily makeup routine, but I’d have to say that Lancome is probably my favorite out of all. 

54. Favourite store?

Here in England: Primark. In the US: Target

55. Favourite blog?

http://www.johnwatsonblog.co.uk/

56. Favourite colour?

Light purple

57. Favourite food? 

My favorite restaurant ever is Benihana. So yeah, chicken fried rice, hibachi steak and shrimp. The best. 

58. Last thing you ate?

Pizza

59. First thing you ate this morning?

Toast with nutella on it

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

When I was in 3rd grade, I won a drawing competition in my class. We were drawing easter baskets, and I put a lot of detail into the weave of the basket and the designs on the easter eggs. I won first place. Pretty sure that’s the last time I ever won a competition? That’s sad lmao

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

Nope.

62. Been arrested? For what?

Nope. 

63. Ever been in love? 

Nope. (Thought I was at the time lol) 

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

Let’s not. (It was Unpleasant and I wish it hadn’t happened)

65. Are you hungry right now?

VERY 

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

Well, a lot of my tumblr friends ARE my real friends, so? 

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Facebook

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr. 

69. Are you watching tv right now?

No

70. Names of your bestfriends? 

Alejandra, Julia, Alex (probably my three best friends) 

71. Craving something? What?

REALLY want some macaroni and cheese. 

72. What colour are your towels?

White. 

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

4 

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

I only have one stuffed animal right now! But yes, I sleep with it! I lov Pua. 

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

Just the one. (Here in London.) I have probably 20 more at home. 

75. Favourite animal?

I love big cats. Tigers and leopards especially. 

76. What colour is your underwear?

white 

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Chocolate

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

pink

80. What colour pants?

gray and pink 

81. Favourite tv show?

Sherlock

82. Favourite movie?

Pride and Prejudice

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Mean Girls 

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

Mean Girls 

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

My lesbian daughter, Janice Ian 

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

The sharks

87. First person you talked to today?

My flatmat, Sinid

88. Last person you talked to today?

My student’s nanny

89. Name a person you hate?

President of the United States: Donald Trump

90. Name a person you love?

My bean son Benedict Cumberbatch 

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

President of the United States: Donald Trump 

92. In a fight with someone?

Not really. Just more in a place of pretending that everything is okay when it is Definitely Not. 

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

3

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

4

95. Last movie you watched?

The Pink Panther (2006)

96. Favourite actress?

Keira Knightley

97. Favourite actor?

Benedict Cumberbatch 

98. Do you tan a lot?

No 

99. Have any pets?

My kitty, Missy, at home! 

100. How are you feeling?

Tired and hungry. 

101. Do you type fast?

Yeah. I spend too much time on my computer.

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

YEP 

103. Can you spell well?

Yeah, generally. 

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Honestly, not really. 

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Yeah 

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Not that I’m aware of. 

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Yeah 

108. What should you be doing?

sleeping probably 

109. Is something irritating you right now?

yeah but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ what can u do?

 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Um no? I wasn’t aware that liking someone hurt? Unless you mean like, intense butterflies, forgetting language and a general feeling of (!!!!!AAAHH!!!) because in that case, yeah.

111. Do you have trust issues?

Didn’t you already ask this question?

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

I cried over facetime with my sister a few nights ago, does that count?

113. What was your childhood nickname?

“Ambee” or “Amber Bear”

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Ye

115. Do you play the Wii?

Sometimes my brother and I have Mario Kart races on the wii. But other than that, no. 

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Yeah. 

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Only when I’m sick. 

118. Do you like Chinese food?

YES 

119. Favourite book?

Pride and Prejudice 

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

No. 

121. Are you mean?

The meanest. 

122. Is cheating ever okay?

Nope. 

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

No lol

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

No (except for in the case of Sherlock and John)

125. Do you believe in true love?

Yes.

126. Are you currently bored?

yeah

127. What makes you happy?

Sherlock and John 

128. Would you change your name?

No, I don’t think so. Anything else feels weird. 

129. What your zodiac sign?

Cancer

130. Do you like subway?

No, (because I have a terrible memory attached to it, the food is fine) 

131. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

“I’m very flattered, I’m glad you told me. Okay, let’s go get KFC and watch High School Musical.”

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

“We’ll fight, not out of spite, for someone must stand up for what’s right ‘Cause where there’s a man who has no voice, then ours shall go singing”

Appropriate for the occasion (Inauguration day) 

134. Can you count to one million?

Yeah but i’d rather not 

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

Can’t remember anything specific right now (I’m very tired) but I know there have been some fuckin dumb ones. 

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Closed

137. How tall are you?

5′2 or 5′3? 

138. Curly or Straight hair?

Curly

139. Brunette or Blonde?

Brunette

140. Summer or Winter?

I love Christmas, but I like the season of Summer more, so I’m going to have to go with summer 

141. Night or Day?

Night

142. Favourite month?

October

143. Are you a vegetarian?

No

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Milk 

145. Tea or Coffee?

Tea

146. Was today a good day?

Yeah, it was pretty good. 

147. Mars or Snickers?

Snickers. 

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“Here dwell together still two men of noteWho never lived and so can never die:How very near they seem, yet how remoteThat age before the world went all awry.But still the game’s afoot for those with earsAttuned to catch the distant view-halloo:England is England yet, for all our fears–Only those things the heart believes are true.A yellow fog swirls past the window-paneAs night descends upon this fabled street:A lonely hansom splashes through the rain,The ghostly gas lamps fail at twenty feet.Here, though the world explode, these two survive,And it is always eighteen ninety-five.”

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

No. But whenever I say that, I feel like ghosts are going to get mad at me and come haunt me. 

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line

“Mrs Forbes at school said that when Mother died she had gone to heaven” (The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Nighttime)

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