#i cant wait for comic con <- he is going alone

[ritsmew-sakunya]

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[winderlylandchime]

I am trying my best to just write honorable mentions bc if i wrote everything he said that made me question our sibling dna this would be an essay. But i do want everyone to know: he watches the show as if he’s watching a sports game, elbows on his knees, legs shaking at times, palms all over his face and a lot of ‘ugh!!!��� And every so often he hits me/grabs my shirt and yanks it bc i sit next to him while making some type of a noise. Anyway: ‘oh god, is this what i look like to you while i watch this show? Is this a call out? Am i being called out? Oh my god am I emmett? Nah I’m more fun’ ‘HE IS GETTING A HERO AWARD? Why? Oh Justin. HELL YEAH HERO! Yeah bitch, listen to Emmett, you saved Justin’s life!’ ‘awwww He is rushing home to Justin bc he gets scared! HERO!…a hero in love..can he already admit that he’s in love ffs this is taking forever, I mean what has to happen for him to say ily to Justin?!’ ‘Ew. I mean i know the gay friends sometimes kiss each other and i get it but i don’t like Michael..*long silence while he watches* maybe i should kiss my homies too sometimes, let them know i care’ ‘WHAT DOES HE MEAN LESS DESERVING?! Ohhh lover!! I like the sound of that. Cmon just tell him you love him! It would make my life SO much easier’ ‘oh he is so totally not going to that comic con hahahhaha’ ‘oh damn he really did forget about comic con, i was just messing. Damn..OH HE REALLY SAID FUCK THE POLICE’ … ‘they want to take away his award?! Oh hell no! I will not allow this *looks at me scared* if i hate these two does that make me homophobic?’ ‘I need Mike to stop being annoying bc him and Justin could be a cool duo! OKAY DEBBIE STOP BLAMING BRI BRI FOR EVERYTHING! Why do they keep doing this? I am tired, and i am all alone here defending him and it’s getting hard bc theyre on the other side of the screen’ ‘DEBBIE KNOWS BRI BRI LOVES JUSTIN!!! HELL FUCKING YEAH DEBBIE! Now help me get him to admit it to us all! And by us, I mean me’ It’s at this point that he looked at me and just flapped his arms all over the place and then went back to watching. ‘Oh my god! He is walking with him and holding hands! In broad daylight! Better chance seeing you date a dude than Brian holding hands on a walk. EXCEPT *points to paused tv* HE IS DOING IT RIGHT THERE! HE SAID NO HANDS! look at Bri Bri hugging him and GOD DAMN IT!’ He is currently groaning while flapping his hands in the air ‘he clearly loves him! Why is he making things so complicated for me!!’ ‘OH MY GOD JUSTIN! His teenage lover! FUCK YEAH! Oh my god, sweet sweet boy please never change! I need him to stay like this. WHAT has he stolen from Justin?! SIR I WILL FIGHT YOU MYSELF’ ‘THAT GUY FUCKS RAW?! AND HE JUDGES BRIAN?! I guess everyone IS a critic’ ‘yeah give him the fucking award! See, mel and lindsey can be cool, they don’t suck so much when they’re not as uptight..would it kill them to be like that more often?.’ ‘I KNOW THIS SONG- OH MY GOD JUSTIN IS HIS BOY! AND HE IS WALKI- COME ON SONNY BOY!!! HE! I! HIM! I CANT WITH THIS! LOOK AT HIM REACHING HIS ARMS OUT! LOOK AT THAT SMILE! HE KNEW HE COULD DO IT! And the kissing! BRIAN JUST ADMIT IT ALREADY! *pauses on the kiss* So there’s the Brian that Michael knows or thinks he knows and there’s the Bri Bri that Justin and I know. AND HE IS LOVELY! And I am better than Michael’ ‘yes Justin tell him! He is a hero!…it has to be killing them to speak nicely of Bri Bri. Oh HE DIDNT SHOW UP OH THATS FUNNY! Ffs can Mel be on Brians side once? I need a reason to like her’ ‘i guess Michael got his dynamic duo dream back.. he needs a better dream and life, this is sad and that’s coming from a 36 yr old dude who is drugged out of his mind in his sisters house..wait that sounds bad..fuck oh god am i michael?’ After this he went outside for a smoke and just stared into the sky and when he came in he went ‘it was cute and calm. I think that means im finally watching it normally and not going crazy’

ANON! I do not want your brother to have to find out what it will take for Brian to tell Justin he loves him (and yet, I definitely do).

"Oh he really said fuck the police" is gold because that is my EXACT response to that scene.

His response to "my boy walks down the street" is correct and accurate and all of us. Also his analysis of Brian and Michael and the Brian Michael knows and the Brian Justin and fandom knows is so spot on.

Look, anon, when this is over your brother is going to need to be set up with a tumblr and an AO3 account. Those are just facts at this point.

[mamaladykt]

Quarantine Q&A

I was tagged by @queenrisa14 which whaaaaaaa!? God when will the Sally Fields "they like me!!!" feeling go away when ever I am tagged in anything? Does it ever? I'm always stunned people are aware of my existence. Thanks girl! Anywho!

Are you staying home from work/school?

Soooooooo, about this. Hehehe. I was working. I was considered essential. To the point that my 4 day a week job turning into 7 days a week, 12 hours a day for TWENTY days straight. It took a toll. On me and my kids. So, because my kids are now out of school for the rest of the school year, my schedule not allowing for any flexibility or a leave of absence, I put in notice last week and my last day was Monday night. I felt really good about it, felt free, came home tuesday morning and filed for unemployment on grounds of childcare needs (which was immediately flagged 🙄😭) and slept. Today was a new day, started cleaning my house for the first time in over a month...... and it went down hill from there. Horrendous night and not feeling great about the uphill battle that will be getting my kids (and husband) back on track. TL;DR yes I'm home, it's a mess.

If you're staying home, who's with you?

That would be my 5 children, my oldest daughter is 11 (dear God tween hormones are no joke!) and my 4 sons, who are 9, 7, 5, and 3. My husband is still working and I miss him during the day and wanted to boot him out tonight. Sigh.

Are you a homebody?

Yes!!! I'm an introvert. If I was well and truly alone, I would never need to leave my house. I have no issues with the idea of ordering groceries online, I just ordered my first ever iPad online and I'm trying to navigate buying glasses and contacts online (PM me with links of websites if you've done this and had a good experience). I just need Amazon to get their shit together and ship my stuff! This isn't the 90's it doesn't need to take a month to get me something. Gah! Also, if I could figure out how to get my ADHD diagnosis from home via telemedicine that would be greeeeeeeeat. Seriously never want to leave my house again.

What movies have you watched recently?

Hahahahahaha!!!!!!! Omg you think I watch movies... That's adorable. Yea, noooo. The last movie I watched was Frozen 2 when it hit Disney+ a month ago. I am, however trying to gear myself up emotionally for watching Avengers Infinity War and Endgame this Sunday. It's been a year..... I'm still not ok. And I haven't watched since that fateful day in the theaters. No seriously, I cried last night just hearing the opening notes to the IW TRAILER! The trailer y'all. "There was an idea....." 😭😭 Ugly sob.

Shows?

Umm, I was watching Outlander at work. I binge watched the first four seasons in like a month back in January. Couldn't wait for season 5 and lost all steam once it started. I dunno. I think it's the Brianna story line. Other than that I honestly throw on Downton Abbey or Victoria again when I need something to watch. (can you tell I have a thing for accents...) I'd love to binge watch in order from the beginning The Big Bang Theory! If anyone knows where I can get the series to stream, let me know. I've watched it out of order for years and years and love it so much but seeing it start to finish sounds like a perfect quarantine activity.

What event was cancelled that you were looking forward to?

My kids going to school on a daily basis?? Lol. No, you know what's funny. I've never gone, didn't have plans to go, but I actually shed a tear when they cancelled Comic Con 2020 in San Diego. I was hoping to go next year so it was a mix of disappointment over not streaming this year's panels/the historical significance of there not being one and feeling like next year is now unattainable because all the 2020 ticket holders will get that one? It's weird and all hypothetical and stupid. Honestly I'm a mom and I don't get to do anything. The most exciting thing on my "to-do" list that was postponed was the Black Widow movie. I have waiting 10 goddamn years for my girl to get a solo movie! TEN YEARS!!!! I needed this to distract from the 1 year anniversary of losing Tony Stark Endgame. Gah. I'm also holding my breath that Sailor Moon Crystal the movie doesnt get postponed from September to God knows when. And my October trip to Orlando for Girl Scouts USA Convention isn't canceled. I'm going to Disney World!! If Florida isn't stup.... Yea ok. 😑😒😞

What Music are you listening to?

My Seiya playlist. I have a playlist of music that I think Seiya would sing. Cuz I love him and he's cheeky and in my head he's a weird mix of Adam Levine and Brendon Urie and that's what the playlist is full of. And this one song by Dermot Kennedy called Outnumbered that is just, IMO Seiya's parting words to Usagi. That and I'm kind of obsessed with Dance Monkey by Tones and I.

What are you reading?

Other than articles about the CARES act regarding unemployment benefits, reviews of cases and accessories for my new iPad Pro (it's the 12.9 and I had no idea I bought the big one and that it's basically a touch screen iMac and I'm overwhelmed with trying to find something to protect it from my children....) or homeschool tips and tricks for kids with autism.......

So help me God, I am reading The Unintentional Seduction of Chiba Mamoru if it freaking kills me. It's been on my to-read list for freaking ever and I am dying that I haven't read it yet. And kind of hating myself. Come on KT, get your ish together sis!!! I'm sorry @floraone !!

What are you doing for self-care?

I quit my job for one. That was the ultimate self-care move. That and for my kids.

Also, Online shopping? I have purchased things for myself that I have never done before. Makeup which is so fun. Like I bought the whole Sailor Moon makeup collection from Colour Pop. I got my first Morphe palette. And big girl concealer from Tarte. Yaaaaas! My iPad and all the pink accessories I can find. A pink throw blanket because my kids have a million blankets but we have no throw blankets for the couch. What the hell? And my favorite thing, I bought a bunch of stuff from teepublic with my profile picture on it from the artist @briannacherrygarcia (seriously her work is amazing! Go check her out, I can't get enough) that created it. I mean, how cool is that. I'm usually too poor to support the content creators for which I am so grateful for. After working three 84hr weeks, I figured I deserved to splurge on something that wasn't in anyway shape or form a need. A pure joyful want. Cant be excused as anything else. It felt so good. I got stickers and an art print and a coffee mug (because coffee mugs are my favorite thing and I somehow do not have enough of them so if anyone wants to send me pretty coffee mugs!) And a hoodie!! I'm so excited.

That last question is amazing. I was feeling so down and overwhelmed by just how bad my home and everyone in it was doing after I was working so much. I am not exaggerating saying it going to take weeks to put this back together and help my kids get used to having rules and structure again. Because it wasn't gonna be a quick fix I was hating life. But listing all the ways that I managed to take care of me, something I never do, because that's what I needed the last month to literally survive, reminded me that I am in a good place and that I have time now to get this done. It took a month to get to this level of chaos it only stands to reason that it's probably gonna take a month to put it back. And shit it's not like we're going anywhere. What's the rush? ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Thanks @queenrisa14 for this! This was great and fun and so needed for my psyche. I tag anyone on my follows list who hasn't done this. Do it and say I tagged you.

MamaLK says take care of you and the rest will fall into place! 😘

[vampanic]

okay here’s what i remember from THE CON

i can’t remember if the ticket was cheap or pricey. i don’t know why. i wanna say it was more expensive or of equal value to a bigger con and i justified it to my parents and myself because it was the first one. but i went because i thought the idea of a con that was centered on the various fandoms popular on this site at the time was a genuinely neat idea. i also thought, okay let me just go because it’s another one to attend.

i should note: that have been to a lot conventions in my time. i’ve been to acen twice i think? i’ve been to nebkon twice. sadly i have never been to c2e2 or flashback chicago (which i may never get to go to now whoops) and i’ve been to wizard world chicago i wanna say 4 times?

now at these cons (mostly wizard world) these fandoms aren’t as present. in fact, the main demo of that con was adult to middle age to older visitors as well as families, so usually teens and young adults would find each other at this con (whether planned ahead or by accident there) and freak the fuck out over our cosplays or mutual love of whatever.

so because of this again the idea of a t.umblr con was exciting to me, even though i was already at the end of being interested in those fandoms (as i’m sure most people were at the time)

okay so first, this con was far. wizard world and acen are held at the rosemont convention center which while kind of far from where i live, is accessible by train via downtown or via one of chicago’s big airports. i always got a ride though which with summer traffic, took forever. so much like that this con was a journey away.

the hotel the con choose i remember thinking it seemed new, but it was far from where i lived which inpacted the amount of time i spent at the con and the decision to only go two days (i didn’t return the last day because it was a shit show)

i went to this con by myself because i think at this point i had already had a falling out with my friend who i went to cons in the area with (she did not attend that i know of). i wore two cosplays that i had made already for other things, gwen stacy and america chavez. this would have been the ideal place for me to cosplay something more niche, but i just didn’t care that much about it. maybe i didn’t think it was worth it at the time since it wasn’t going to be a big con.

so i get there and there’s no long line to get my badge in fact i don’t even remember a line at all. which, for me, was bizarre. every con i’ve been to before had huge lines even on off hours to get badges. but whatever. i cant remember if where i got my badge was in the the same room as where the ball pit was or not. but yes, i did go into the ball pit and i was silly in it with some other people because

idk you see a ball pit you go in the ball pit? in hindsight i know it’s not acceptable to have this at a con, but shit i guess i was high on life at the time. someone took a pic of me in the pit, but i have never seen it.

i remember seeing some very impressive cosplays at this con. i also bought some really great art in the dealers room which was small. (here’s the artist. also this was nonfandom art. i don’t remember buying anything else from anyone because i don’t think i saw anything i liked/could afford) there was no unlicensed night vale merch sold here that i remember, but i do remember receiving free unlicsenced night vale like pamphlets from a random vendor and also  there was a vendor who was giving away a large piece of night vale fan art with a purchase of over something dollars i dont remember.

panels: i don’t remember there being many panels or even very interesting panels. panels i remember going to include: bisexuality in media/bisexuality representation (which was put on by the bisexualbooks tumblr), ask an avenger (which was put on by various marvel cosplayers), and a panel that was about female characters in supernatural (i was a spn stan back in the day jsyk).

the bi one was good. i remember it being the most like a panel that you’d go to at a larger convention. they had slides and info and they took questions and had several speakers.

the avengers one was what we’d call today “cringey” but it was cute. it was exactly what it sounds like. avengers cosplayers sat up on a stage answering questions in character. i believe that all the cosplayers had rp and/or ask blogs which is why they were chosen.

the supernatural panel was, like the bi one, complete with slides and various speakers, but from what i remember it was mostly going down the list of female characters in the show. i remember from the fandom that there a good chunk of people who love the characters, but they’re often killed off or abandoned and this is something a lot of fans did have gripes with. this is gonna sound fake when i say it, but this did happen, we got to charlie and someone said “yeah i like charlie she’s cool because she’s a lesbian but she doesn’t act like one like she’s still feminine” and i spoke up and said “well yeah it’s cool she’s a lesbian, but what do you mean she doesn’t act like one. like queer female character shouldn’t have to be feminine to be seen as good rep.” and people clapped. i know that sounds fake, but please believe me because this is a setting where people are inclined to clap when they agree with statements. people clapped at others too.

i also attended the costume contest, the night vale panel, and the meet and greet with doug jones.

the contest was fine. there was one individual at this con who i can’t name because i didnt know their name, but they cosplayed as ed from edd ed and eddy and they were in character the whole time to the point of discomfort. it wasn’t just for the contest i found myself in a cards against humanity game that they were in and it was even there and it was weird.

then the night vale panel happened and ooooooooohhhh boy

this was the most filled room in the whole con. a main reason i went to this con was to see them and im pretty sure this was everyone’s main reason to go. i known someone from other cons who came from florida to see this. (fun fact: we were mutuals on various platforms and had hung out at various cons and i knew their name, but they could not remember mine and i thought that was bogus so i ghosted them. dont know if i was justified in that but whatever)

so here we all were waiting. for over an hour. during this time people talked and i remember someone cosplaying the glow cloud went up and down the isle with a little glow cloud baby in a stroller and we all laughed and cheered. people started playing card games. we kept busy. for me though.

this was one of the most boring cons i’ve been to honestly. i’m having trouble remember a lot of it and that’s because i went solo. i had no friends there. i cosplayed gwen from like the 60s and this was before spidey joined the mcu and before itsv was a thing so spidey was basically an niche fandom (i was active in the tasm and dane deha.an fandoms at this time and the latter became toxic as fuck but that’s a whole other story) or something older comic fans liked.

my other cosplay was america chavez from young avengers which never got that popular either (though kate bishop and kid loki where more recognized, but for their connection to bigger marvel names). so it wasn’t like other cons where my cosplay was an ice breaker and i could join groups. i was alone.

so a lot of the con for that reason was awkward and waiting for night vale was like being the person texting in the corner at a distant relative’s party because they know no one.

so they finally come on stage to say that night vale will not be performing and people went ballistic people were shouting and the person said “we have doug jones in the next hall you should go over to that” and someone yelled “WE DON’T WANT TO SEE HIM”

i went to see doug jones and i was previously unaware of what his name was but i knew who he was. he talked about his work and acting process and did a meet and greet after. mr. jones was a delight and i’m wondering how they even got him there in the first place. he was leagues above this. 

i had to leave the con early that day to go to my brother’s football game, but i believe that was the night they “protested” at the con and i kept seeing on tumblr that it was cancelled. i decided not to go back the next day because i was unsure of what was happening and because it was too far.

and the rest is history. i’m sure i went to other panels, but i can’t remember them. i do remember going into the room where they were watching pacific rim, but it was on a shitty projection screen and i wanted to go to a panel instead.

it’s shitty what happened with the con. and a lot of the unrest came from literal teens who were cheated from money who didn’t know how to act, but all the responsibility goes to the people who organized it poorly. The concept of a tu.mblr con i don’t think should have been inherently bad. i think it would have been cool to have a con that focused on more niche interests. but shouldn’t have been as big as they wanted it to be for the first go.

anyway that’s most of what i can remember. it’s kind of blur because i spent most of it by myself and there wasn’t much to do so i didn’t even spend the whole day there.

quite frankly, i’m glad i wasn’t there when they started singing les mis because i have no idea how i would have acted.

[a-queer-human]

genderqueer

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adjective

adjective: gender-queer

denoting or relating to a person who does not subscribe to conventional gender distinctions but identifies with neither, both, or a combination of male and female genders."the genderqueer community”

 Over the past 10 years, I have been thinking about Gender, on and off. The only things LGBT on my TV when I was a child was Gay hosts in the closest and Paul O’Gradys drag act Lily Savage. People didn’t talk about it. When I was a teenager in upper (high) school there seemed to be a ‘craze’ of Bisexual girls not so much men, but suddenly everyone was out that way, I didn’t come out for a while, knowing for sometime I wasn’t straight, I wasn’t gay either, I didn’t have terms such as Asexual and Demi, Pan and such, and it was the age where the internet wasn’t used as much and because I didn’t know, I didn’t look for it. So as a bullied teen I told only a few people of how I identified back then. 

I thought I had to dress in a certian why and i HAD to be attractive to get through life so I tried to be as girly as I could be. not that it did anything, I still couldn’t get to grips with dresses and heels, the typical ‘femme’ style. it caused a lot of stress, a lot of wasted time trying to fit in with my peers. Things got easier when I went to collage, for a while anyway. I had some crushes I never acted on, I dressed how i wanted with less pressure and I got a job with mostly men which despite portraying myself as a girl i felt more then commutable with them. I met my best friend and I like to call my Platonic soul mate who I love in a way I cant put down. She saved me, when I wanted the world to stop and end, she was come to my house and just be there.  When I met Psy at collage and became friends with them, it felt like I was starting to find my place, I got invites to house parties and met some really great people, I even went to my first Comic-con with them, and that was opening a whole new world, because of that I met people, I met people who came out as Trans and non-binary and with these terms, with the freedom to express myself I stated to think. For many years, I thought alone with my thoughts, not sharing, now asking questions until it clicked but the self doubt I felt was bad so I didn’t fully come out. I started to experiment with my name. I didn’t want my deadname I was either Shrew or I tried Francis for sometime. I didn’t play with pronouns until I came out. I came out as Julian, I came out having conversations with a few people and It felt good. I came out as Trans and things felt lighter for a while. 

The problem with coming out, isnt so much being misgendered most days and still waiting to hear from the gender Clinic after years of waiting and not being able to afford going Private, the hard thing is people telling you HOW you should be as a man, the comments ‘ thats not very manly’ and ‘ I thought you were trying to be a man’ Why should I have to change who and how I act because the world views Cismen in such a way. So I have to conform? Do I have to tell people I am a Trans but ‘femme’ man. Of course I don’t I dont need comments of ‘ people will never see you as a man if’ How would you know? Your not me, your not Trans. 

in the past year (2018) I have struggled with myself, not only my mental health conditions but how I present myself. 

I am NOT a woman, Im not, Im not a she/her/lady I never want those pronouns, but the more I see of the LGBTQ world, the more I feel Im finding I don't really stick in the man section either. He/him/his are nice but at the same time They/them are most welcome. Does this make me an enby A male presenting Non binary? Transitioning will change my life, chest surgery and T would mean the world to me. 

I don't really get it yet, My sexual Orientation has gone through many labels and maybe my Gender Identity will as well. 

I know I need to not stress too much. but its something there.

[detectivehole]

Go comic feral, i followed this blog for a rEASOn and it's bc i like to hear your random vents and rants and also you reblog cool stuff. But i digress, go comic feral i am hERE for it

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PETER PARKER BEING RICH IS STUPID  he didnt even ern what he has himself it was nt even himn he wasnt in his body maybe if i had got to see him start fron nothing to being a cool ceo or whatever id be able to stand it but nooooooo he just GOT is for nothing so it feels stupid like “ha ha what if like tony stark haha” its DUMB and i haven’t read a spider man comic for a long time

deadpool/spiderman crossover comic bad. feels out of character a lot. funny concept and full of funny jokes but as far as characterization its bad in my opinion- was made to capitalize off the hype of the ship and we all know it

don cates should be banned from writing comics bc he fucking sucks and ill never forgive him for what he did/tried to do to venom

deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good deadpool good dea

the venom movie was a lot of fun but it was very ooc a lot HOWEVER seeing some of the cut scenes and scripts you can see that it used to be actually fairly in character for the comics but a lot of scenes with eddie establishing himself as not actually the most nicest of guys (not that eddie isnt a nice guy deep down but he is a good amount fucked up with a big ol hero complex and a problem with ‘i can do no wrong” mentality sometimes) were cut and considering how the fandom for the movie treats him i can see why the cut those bits out bc i dont think movie goers would have liked him as much wich is a shame bc he is a good guy at the end of the day just fucked up

straight white male comic fans are the worst people in the world and breaking their fingers is a daydream i indulge in 

matt murdock is a himbo

foggy nelson is a good man who deserves better friends

i can tell what deadpool comics someone has read based on how they characterize wade in their fan works and i have a 80% success rate with it. the most common was the daniel way run but now its the spider-man/deadpool crossover series

soulda used miles for the mcu spidey instead of cannibalizing his story for parts like they did. dick move, Disney

mcu bad

i think just the idea of dc’s Red Tool is fucking hilarious but i dont like his character at all

batman and superman should fuck but they wont :/

matt and foggy should to but the comic industry is afraid of making long running characters lgbt bc theyre WEAK

deadpool need a canon bf they cant keep telling us hes pan and not showing us for reals- hell he could just go on one date or be shown having a one night stand or something- something beyond a damn joke

cable gay. no i will not listen to any other opinions.

im excited to read moon knight i have a book waiting i just have to finish my current one

SCUD the disposable assassin is the most underrated comic EVER and i LOVE IT however i think it ended stupid and bad however it went on fucking hiatus for like a decade and then was rapped up really fast so any ending is a godsend

i desperately want a long-form stand alone series abt wanda wilson bc shes the perfect foil for a good Feral Dumbass Woman comic. think abt it; shell sell immediately bc of recognizable brand, and then she can just go on violent stupid adventures without any of the other dp corps. it doenst have to line up with any canon i just want insane lady dp adventure comic. this is an unreasonable dream but mine none the less

i though that agent venom was stupid

tank girl is fucking amazing and i love it i never understand whats going on and i enjoy the confusion

reading early hulk comics feels like watching a weird, poorly produced old black and white sci-fi soap

there needs to be better, more easily accessed, official reading-order guides published and posted on the walls of comic shops everywhere

the 80s and 90s were the best time for marvel comics and no one can tell me otherwise. that was peak comic time

the worst time for comics was the 2000s and early 2010s

sometimes i am shocked by the art that gets the editors pass in comics. some of it is so bad and im not even talking about the disproportionate ladies

the lego marvel and dc movies are way better than the live action movies and im not even being sarcastic

seriously the 2000s made some horrible comics

i feel like committing acts of mass violence every time someone says comics arnt real reading/stories/implies theyre worth less of any value than a novel

i read the first deadpool comic i got so much that the art itself is so ingrained in my mind that people have shown my just the corners of panels and ive identified them correctly

i distinctly remember the first time the woman at the book store stopped asking me for parental permission to buy the comics i was getting (12yos) because i went there so often that she just remembered who i was and that the adult would say its fine

i refuse to talk about comics with people at cons because i am gatekept or flirted with every single time no matter what and there is no in between. and yea its because i have tits. youd think that eventually theyd learn but gross comic men never do and all the others have adopted the same policy as me so the closest i come to positive comic interaction at cons is standing in the same vicinity as another chick, looking at the same section, and the kinda smiling at each other

i think the avengers are boring. really really boring. the x-men are way better

i related to gwenpool too much when she first started and it scared/offended me so i stopped reading for a while until her character developed more and we stooped being so similar

i have spider-man bedding. i picked it out only a few months ago. its good it makes me feel cool in a very uncool way

watching spider-man as a kid made me wanna be a scientist. watching batman as a kid made me want to do martial arts. i ended up failing chemistry and falling on my face a lot instead.

i had a huge venom toy and a huge spiderman toy as a kid and while i did make them fight a lot i also made them hug just as much. i wanted them to be friends

on that note PETER IS MEAN TO THE SYMBIOTE NOW AND HE DONT EVEN HAVE A REASON NO MORE hes just such a dick about criminal reform eddie and the symbiote aint special with this- he says he believes people can be better but he really doesnt show it. he tends to think people are set in their ways and while this makes sense forthe most part considering how much hewas bullied as a kid/adult (that also contributes to his mild “i protect my own” mentality  tho at least he consciously fights that one) it stil pisses me off

i can think way more but i need to sleep i think

[berjhawn]

Requests...

So while i have some down time, since the next few chapters of WINTERNIGHT are done, I have thought about doing some one-shots. 

RULES:

You can request one-shots of the following characters:

Bucky Barnes / Winter Soldier

Steve Rogers / Captain America

Sebastian Stan 

Chris Evans

Dean Winchester

Sam Winchester

Natasha Romanoff

Peter Quill / Starlord

Wade Wilson / Deadpool 

Castiel

Thor 

Loki

I will write about pretty much anything EXCEPT:

non-consensual sex (RAPE)

Abusive Relationships 

You can send me a request or if you can’t think of anything here are a few prompts you can choose from. You can choose as many as you’d like:

1. Do you ever wonder when you became the very thing you’re afraid of?

2. When you love someone, it’s worth fighting for. No matter what the odds.

3. Friends don’t let friends do stupid shit alone.

4. You’re leaving because it’s easier to walk away than to fight for what you really want

5. I really don’t let myself cry in front of anybody

6. I need to learn to stop caring

7. Pretending not to love you was the hardest thing I ever had to do.

8. You took a piece of me and I let you.

9. We’re friends, real friends and that means no matter how long it takes, when you finally decide to look back, I’ll still be here.

10. It wasn’t over, it still isn’t over!

11. So you think I’m broken? Then fix me.

12. If you love someone, you tell them. Even if you’re scared that it’s not the right thing. Even if you’re scared it’ll cause problems. You say it, you say it loud.

13. There is nothing worse in the world than thinking you have a chance when you really don’t

14. Don’t you understand? I can’t leave you, but you’re constantly leaving me.

15. I only wanted you to be happy, I’m just sorry it couldn’t be with me.

16. I’m still in love with you. I tried not to be, but it didn’t work.

17. What if nobody ever loves me?

18. You’re perfect. Which is beyond annoying, I can’t look at you.

19. I love you and I’m always going to love you, but I don’t want to love you. I want to be happy.

20. You don’t destroy the person you love

21. If I murder someone, you are the person is call to help me drag the body across the floor. You’re my person.

22. If there’s no food, I’m going home

23. We should be drunk, why aren’t we drunk?

24. I’m standing here, looking at you and all I want to do is kiss you.

25. I have to walk away from you, I have to for me.

26. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I love you when I knew I did.

27. I can’t imagine a day when I won’t be in love with you

28. You bother the hell out of me

29. All I want is you!

30. Since when do I care about anyone’s happiness but mine?

31. I will always find you

32. If people are suppose to be together, they will find a way.

33. You may have noticed, but I’m not all there myself

34. Come bother me

35. I just want you to be happy

36. How do you begin to explain something that you cent even understand yourself?

37. Everything around me makes me miss you

38. Nothing about us feels right anymore

39. You have to promise me, you won’t fall in love with me.

40. I don’t want to be just the next girl

41. You wanna dance with me?

42. Sometimes, you fall for someone you didn’t expect but that doesn’t make it wrong

43. Every time I look at you, it hurts

44. Shouldn’t we hold out for the person who doesn’t just tolerate our little quirks, but actually kind of likes them?

45. I’m happy your happy, but dammit what if?

46. You are the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning

47. We were inseparable, constantly being separated

48. I know you’re mad at me, but I need help with my tie

49. What am I to you?

50. So whose the unlucky girl?

51. I love you so much, I just want you to be happy. Even if that happiness no longer includes me.

52. You are the most beautiful person I have ever met and somehow, I don’t know, somehow you chose me.

53. What I’m about to say is the most selfish thing I’ve ever said in my life.

54. The first rule of truly live, do the thing you’re most afraid of.

55. The truth is, I’ve tried to stop thinking of but I cant

56. I’m mad at you because I love you!

57. I try so hard and I’m never the one

58. You’re jealous aren’t you?

59. Why are you so annoying?

60. Never in a million years

61. I might have had a few shots

62. I could kiss you right now!

63. It’s your fault we are in this mess.

64. I hate you

65. Just admit you’re wrong!

66. I need you to do me a huge favor

67. Well this is awkward

68. “When you love someone, you just don’t stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy… even then. Specially then!

69. “If you’re not scared, then you’re not taking a chance. If you’re not taking a chance, then what the hell are we doing anyway?

70. Those things you said yesterday… Did you mean them?

71. All nighter, you and me. First one to fall sleep buys the other dinner.

72. It’s midnight, what do you want?

73. Okay, am I drunk or did you really just say that?

74. I’m too sober for this shit

75. Just pretend to be my date

76. I can’t believe you dragged me into this

77. Quick, kiss me!

78. Out of all the people in the world, I get stuck with you

79. You’re going to love me. Watch, you’ll see

80. It’s midnight, what do you want?

81. I wish I never laid eyes on you. I wish we never met. If I never laid eyes on you then I wouldn’t have fallen in love

82. I’m not a fantasy. If you want me, earn me!

83. Are you wearing my shirt?

84. Don’t look at me like that

85. Being your friend is basically ruining my life

86. If you leave, I will literally go out of my freakin mind.

87. I just want the chance to be yours again

88. Stop saying you’re sorry

89. I’ve been in love with her/him my entire life! And I think she/he loves me too.

90. It hurts so bad I can’t breathe

91. you’re my best friend. And if anything were to happen to you, I would lose my mind

92. That’s the problem, I don’t want to hate you. Because if I hate you then I’ll have nothing left

93. How about that dance?

94. Hold my hand dammit, we gotta make this look convincing!

95. Wait, am I dreaming or are you actually smiling?

96. Just do this for me and I promise I will make it worth your while!

97. I never had a minute to think about how I feel about you

98. I came here to win you back, and dammit, I’ll do whatever I have to

99. Why do you care? It’s not like we’re friends or anything.

100. Words don’t mean anything to me! You know what does? Taking action

101. The thing is, I can’t pretend we never happened because I’m still in love with you

102. We could’ve had a life together

103. Hold on to me

104. Can you stay? Please?

105. Let’s go somewhere, anywhere in the world. Just you and me.

106. You only get one life. It’s actually your duty to live it as fully as possible

107. I can make you happy

108. Do it, I dare you!

109. I’m not freaking out, are you freaking out?

110. You are never too old for a Disney movie

111. College AU

112. You’re my new dream

113. You mean more to me than anyone in this whole wide world

114. I’ll always catch you

115. Wait, what are the rules again?

116. That’s no fair! You cheated!

117. Neighbors

118. I’ll race you

119. I look at you and I’m home

120. True love is putting someone else before yourself

121. And when I promise something, I never ever break that promise. Ever.

122. I think about you a lot more than I probably should.

123. What do you wish for at night?

124. I told you not to fall in love with me.

125. Coffee shop au

126. How drunk are you right now?

127. Can we just stay in bed and cuddle? Watch some Disney movies?

128. I think I’m falling in love with you

129. This stays between us

130. You have ten minutes, so make it quick.

131. You owe me, big time.

132. If you make fun of me one more time, I’m gonna tell everyone we know that you named your favorite pillow Mr. Puff Puff.

133. If your house was on fire and you only had ten seconds to save something important, what would you get?

134. So I was–don’t move! There’s a spider on your shoulder!

135. How the hell do I end up with hufflepuff!?

136. Okay, it’s settled.you are officially my zombie apocalypse partner.

137. What is the point of being alive if you don’t try to do something remarkable

138. Sometimes you make choices in life and sometimes choices make you

139. When you meet the right person, you know it. You can’t stop thinking about them. They’re your best friend and your soul mate. You can’t wait to spend the rest of your life with them. No one and nothing else can compare.

140. When you find someone you want to keep around, you do something about it.

141. You’re just as screwed up as I am, I like you.

142. Doctor au

143. You’re insane, you know that?

144. But what if we get caught!?

145. Comic con au

146. You are really comfortable.

147. Just kiss me already

148. You made me love you and I hate you for that!

149. Why are you smiling at me like that?

150. I know I shouldn’t but I can’t stop thinking about you

So if anyone is interested send me an ask, message, or Fanmail and let me know. 

Request here

[kathrynmjaneway]

My weekend at ComicCon Germany and meeting the one and only John Barrowman!

The short version? I had the time of my life!

The (very) long version:

I’ve been thinking about going to this ComicCon for a long time, simply because I’ve never been to a ComicCon before, but I wasn’t sure if I had the money or the time. But then sometime in March they announced that John Barrowman would come to Germany, and really, what choice did I have at this point? I turned into the biggest Torchwood trash since I started watching the show in December and John Barrowman is just such an icon, how could I not take this possible once in a lifetime chance?

Turns out I had an exam on friday morning, so I’ve been really stressed and nervous and didn’t really have time to get excited for the convention and about meeting John and on top of all that barely got any sleep. In the end, everything turned out really good once I was done with my exam and on my way to Stuttgart and everything went over smoothly. Since I was going to Stuttgart alone, I asked around here if someone wanted to meet up, which is how I got to know and then meet @quite-magical-high-warlock and her two friends, and they let me tag long during the weekend (and they are all so nice and cool and we had soooo much fun together!)

So we met up on Saturday morning and then spend some time just walking around and looking at everything in Hall 1 and then went to a sort of panel with Pasquale Qualano, who draws for the Torchwood Comics and he did a life drawing of Jack and it was really cool! Afterwards we went to the panel with Ricky Whittle and Demore Barnes, partly because my ComicCon Squad (as our whats app group is called) are The 100 fans (I’ve never watched it) and party because John’s panel was right afterwards and this way we were able to get pretty good seats.

And then the panel with John started and IT WAS AWESOME and went as any John Barrowman panel goes. He got on staged with his heels and Jack’s coat and the he did a bit of a strip tease and threw away the coat and there he was standing in his Tardis onesie (the one that he already wore a few weeks ago at a convention, I’ll put some pictures up later). And the panel was just soooo great! I’m trying to remember some of the stories he told but my head is still all over the place and I CAN HARDLY BELIEVE ALL THIS REALLY HAPPENED. There were A LOT of John typical jokes (and you know exactly what I mean! And I really mean, A LOT). And there were people touching John’s butt and John touching some girls boobs and another girl almost showed her boobs to get a hug and yep, i was crying from laughter all the way through. And then AT THE END OF THE PANEL HE SANG ‘I AM WHAT I AM’ and i DIED.

After the panel I got my autograph from him and that was the best thing by far that happened this weekend, and I WILL tell the story about that, but it honestly deserves its own post :’)

So that was the day one John Barrowman experience and I didn’t stop shaking for a long time. We were all fangirling and screaming and laughing so much about and because of John Barrowman.

Afterwards we split up for a bit because we all wanted to do something different before the costume contest, and I spent the first bit of my money on some Torchwood/Doctor merchandise and among some other things (I made posts about what I bought yesterday and on Saturday already) I got a limited editon of the first Torchwood comic with a photo cover of Captain Jack Harkness, and a tshirt with the van Gogh Tardis painting (because I needed something to wear for my photoshoot with John on Sunday). The costume contest was really cool, and afterwards we got ready for the party.

I had so much fun at the party!!! We went a bit crazy (and I’m really a shy person, who doesn’t ever go to parties/clubs except during conventions) but it was great and even though I didn’t recognize quite a few of the songs hahaha

Sunday - I SPENT A LOT OF MONEY ON TORCHWOOD AND DOCTOR WHO MERCHANDISE. And I found this booth were they were selling the torchwood novels (all used, which I normally dont like, but I bought five of the torchwood novels for just 35€ which was a really good deal, SO.) and one of my new friends pointed out the two John Barrowman DVDs so of course I had to buy them.

And then there was the second John Barrowman panel AND IT WAS EVEN BETTER? Because John - OBVIOUSLY - did a whole strip tease until he was standing in front of us only in a Dalek Pride tshirt, his underwear and the heels again. I MEAN. THAT ALONE WAS AN EXPERIENCE. The panel was so awesome again and the best thing was next to “STOP TAKING PHOTOS OF MY BUTT!” and the like that at the end of the panel he talked about how it was his and Scott’s 4 year wedding anniversary and that he believes that once you foud the person you love you should never let them go and THEN.

THEN HE STARTED SINGING A THOUSAND YEARS.

I had been hoping that he would sing, and then he actually did sing THAT SONG.

Of course i was doing a voice recording :))))) (filming wasnt allowed)

I caNT BELIEVE I HEARD HIM SING A THOUSAND YEARS LIVE. I HAD GOOSEBUMPS ALL THE WAY THROUGH. IT WAS AMAZING.

And if that wasn’t enough already I HAD MY PHOTOSHOOT RIGHT AFTERWARDS. and we were early enough that we didn’t even have to wait that long and while we were standing in line John was standing just a few meters away from us, waiting for his turn (since there was still another photoshoot going on) and i remember my thought process being like “oh that’s where they are printing the photos, okay good, ah some people chatting, why is john barrowman standing there, isn’t it his turn? Oh no, someone else is still in th- WAIT JOHN BARROWMAN IS STANDING REALLY CLOSE TO WHERE I AM STANDING, SONJA LOOK!” The photoshoot itself went by really fast and is like a blur, I asked him if we could do a superhero pose, and then we stood back to back and he looks all serious and like a superhero and I am smiling so much because HOW COULD I NOT????? He was touching the small of my back when I left (like when you guide someone) and i was just barely able to say thank you and I was shaking so much afterwards?

Later, about the last hour before the end of the convention we said on the floor somewhere and ate a bit and we were joined by @filzmonster again (I met her on Saturday already, although i guess we’ve both been a bit shy and didn’t really talk that much haha) and we got talking about John and Torchwood and we were all fangirling together and then she asked about my tumblr and she recognized me?????? And her reaction was so cute and hilarious (she described it in her post as a fangirling moment) and I CANT??? And I knew I recognized her url from somewhere but I wasnt following her here and now I found out that I only recently read her two Torchwood fanfics which are REALLY GOOD? So yeah, I MADE ANOTHER FRIEND.

So THAT WAS MY WEEKEND. It was really exciting and fun and awesome AND VERY EMOTIONAL and I MET THE ONE AND ONLY JOHN BARROWMAN!!!! And the people I met on the con were just so great and nice and friendly and just took me in so that I wasn’t alone and I feel like we all really clicked, I guess? And i’m just really thankful to them as well for making this weekend so unforgettable ❤️

I’ll probably make a few more posts with photos etc during the next few days, so keep your eyes open :)

[selfpityandporn]

Rant- Okay, #1, fuck you. You started a fight and now like everything you’ve been a cunt about is fucking coming back and pissing me off. But lets just keep to I dunno, this week.

I literally had to fight both of you, "adults" just to take OUR cat to the vet, cause your fucking cheap and in goddamn denial, thats right GODDAMN, I can say that, because fuck you I can. I don't care if it uses gods name in vain, since when did you give a shit about god any way, considering the absolute shit storm you've given me for the last 4 years about going to church you didn't know anything about.

I fight just to get this cat to vet, long story short she's deathly sick. And I'm not complaining about taking care of her, I'm happy too, I will wipe her ass everyday long as she gets to be here, cause I love her and she's family. But the fact that I literally have to fight you just to get her fucking .70 food is GODDAMN ridiculous, god forbid her flea or ear mite medicine to keep her from scratching the blood out of herself. But I'm dollering you to death, and I'm a selfish peice of shit, excuse the fucking shit outta me.

Also, thanks for literally not helping me with her at FUCKING ALL. Like I said, I'm just happy she's alive, but honestly you wanna talk about how much you love her, and care about her, but you wont help me get the right food, and can't even take care of her. Our kitty was so sick she couldn't even move, so she had to be carried. I didn't want to take her to my room, because theres fucking shit and insulation everywhere from our shower breaking and dad still not cleaning up or fixing it, and I can't clean it up without getting bitched out. But god forbid we put her in your room, really? It's clean, your rooms not as hot, and you have a place to put her, but your terrified she's gonna pee or something, really? Your lucky she's fucking alive, I got pissed on taking her to the vet. Why, BECAUSE SHES SICK AND CANT HELP IT. I didn't get mad, I cleaned it up LIKE A FUCKING ADULT. You won't help me carry her when I'm trying to get her food, you don't want her in the living room. I could go on and on, you get the idea, I'm happy my cats alive, but fuck you for not helping me help her. SHE NEEDS US, your dropping the goddamn ball.

Lets get to today, the snapper of this, cause honestly this HAS SO MUCH SHIT, from you calling me a whore, accusing me of shit, not teaching me how to drive, cussing me out, not coming to my school stuff, thats might be a fucking tenth of all the shit that has been frustrating me. BECAUSE YOUR SUPPOSED TO BE AN ADULT, AND A PARENT, YOUR SUPPOSED TO HELP ME BUT INSTEAD YOU HAVE YOUR HEAD STUCK UP YOUR ASS.

We had our little family trip today, it was going so well. Till we were almost home, everyones in the car. Like usual you and dad are smoking like fucking trains and I can't fucking breathe, god forbid I roll down my window to satisfy MY HUMAN FUCKING NEED FOR OXYGEN. That wasn't the biggest issue, no the biggest issue is when you decided to fun your fucking mouth cussing me. Make such a huge fucking deal out of literally nothing. And when I say big deal, I mean on and on and on for 30 goddamn minutes. And any time it got quiet, YOU KEPT FUCKING YAPPING. I literally put my ear buds in, and ignored you. I didn't keep arguing, till you were LITERALLY SCREAMING SO LOUD I COULD HEAR YOU OVER MY ROARING TRAP MUSIC. Then I retaliate, you tell me to just shut the fuck up, the conversations over. FUCK YOU, I STOPPED TALKING 30 GODDAMN MINUTES AGO, YOUR THE DUMB FUCK THAT KEEPS GODDAMN TALKING.

And then, you pissed me off. Lets jump to last week. I got my first credit card, why? Because my laptop broke, I needed another for my online classes, we as a family were too broke to buy it. I understand that, I took it into my own hands. Then, you tried to start a fight, cause I didn't wanna go an extra 200+ into debt getting my little brother, WHO IS LITERALLY 8 a fucking laptop. You started a fight, because I refused to buy and 8 year old, a laptop, on my credit. Which oh by the way I know you would have never payed me back for, because your you and I've learned this lesson literally a dozen times, but your my mom so I keep letting you borrow my christmas money (I might get like, $60 each year, which is all I get from my family members, she "borrows" Then, will get her taxes, blow them and not pay me back, and guilt trip me about literally buying me stuff for my birthday at tax time, anyways) You tried to start a fight over that, then literally tried to put words in my mouth, saying I said I'd get him one. No, I didn't. I said I wish I could, I want him to learn how to type, but my line of credit is only $500, my laptop it's self was $250, the rest I was trying to save for emergencies, cause I knew we were fucking broke.

Now, I'm not on a rabbit trail, this ties in I promise. The day I got my laptop, we had went in Walmart to look, you said you were gonna get a handful of groceries while I looked, alright. I didn't get a laptop there, we go to leave. You ask me to pay for the groceries. I told you I didn't want to on credit, but how much is it? "Oh only like $20, I only got a few." Checked out, it was like $40. I got it anyways, and just asked that when you had the money, (She's literally getting a 1000+ check for her 401k in like, a week) if you could give me some for the upcoming comic con. (Comic con is a big deal for me, I cosplay, I go with my best friend and her family, I literally look forward to it all year. Most of the time I go, I'm usually broke, except for the last few cause I had a job until about a month before all this, whole other rant, anyways) So I was like cool, it sucks I'm another 40$ in the hole, but she knows how much con means to me, she'll give me it back. Then, I get my laptop. Back to the 8yr old brother thing, he literally has broken like 5+ tablets, my tv, and 3 phones alright. He gets mad, will throw them, scream curse words at them. It's ridiculous, literally didn't want to throw away $200+ I DIDNT HAVE on a brat who was gonna destroy it, along with my parents not knowing how to use it, neither does he so they expect me to fix LITERALLY everything, which is so annoying, cause then, he breaks it, its somehow on me. Anyways.

I was nice enough to lay away the laptop for you, another $30 I didn't have, but it got you off my fucking back. You also said you'd give me that back for con. I just wanna put in here, that when I got my job and actually had hours, I took my family out to dinner every paycheck, bought them stuff. Genuinely tried to not be selfish, Literally I think the only big thing I bought myself was my cosplay that I had wanted for like, years. But then my hours got cut, I was working literally 5 hours a week. I might have made $30-$40 for the majority of my employment, an with that I iterally saved up to take my friend out for her birthday and buy myself bedsheets, and still tried to take us out to eat, cause we got to do it as a family. But during this she was literally acting like, I had to pay for anything and everything. I needed to go to town for school, "You got gas money?" I asked for a few dollers so I could eat at work/before works, "Can't you buy it yourself?" Like, I would have HAPPILY if I had it, but I didn't, and your literally my mom, can you not drive me to school? Help me buy lunch, like WTfff?

And, today. Oh today, after you cussed and cussed and fucking cussed, I put my earbuds in and leave it alone, I DIDN"T SAY ANYTHING BACK, even though I know your still talking trash. I pause my musics just so I can hear you.

"Just wait till the next time you need something from me! Just fucking wait, and you can forget about your goddamn comic con money, go get a fucking job!."....................................................

I'm sorry, excuse me? Did I just fucking hear that correctly? See, I'm not a bad person, I don't believe so. But I fucking mentally snapped. I literally spent hours the other week helping her find another job, putting in her application. I can't get a job, because in the past fucking year and half she hasn't taken, and no exageration, more than 20 minutes to try to teach me how to drive, and not not only are you refusing to give me to the money you deadass owe me. But I. I need to get. A . God. Damn. Job.???????

At first, I handled it like a child, a child who loves their mother. "I don't care, I'll have fun without a fucking dime to my name." Then, my ass adulted, silently, excuse me. Excuse me, I don't think I heard that correctly, you not only are tryna sit there and cuss me, TELL ME TO GET A JOB, and, oh and, try to refuse the money you took from me?

I really, ya know, I really don't think thats gonna work. Cause see here, asshat, I have all your credit card info, all your social shit cause you don't know how to do a fucking job application, and, oh and, a cold GODDAMN shoulder. So heres how this is gonna work darlin, the day of con will come, and you will either give me my money (I didn't even ask for the full $70 btw, I said maybe like $40.) But you will either now give me all $70, or I will slip your card from your wallet, while your in your smokin drunken stooper, and frankly, cruelly, hold it fucking hostage till you #1Give me my fucking money, and #2 Fucking apologize, and admit you tried to do me so goddamn shitty. And if I don't think that apology is good enough, I'll take my money on my own and you will have disappointed me. I gave so many chances for redemption, and I still am.

But honestly this is prolly my fucking snapping point cause you have insulted me and frustrated me enough. I am 18, I am trying to adult, with no help from you, if anything more fight. Between finishing my senior year by my fucking self, to the stupid job shit, to omg, all the college shit she was supposed to help me with that I had to do on my own, to our poor cat which I'm trying to nurse off the fucking death bed single handedly, to literally not being able to get a job because of you, to you now more than likely ruining my credit, cussing me out, and just being an absolute pain in my goddamn ass along with every fucking thing else I am having to do on my own.

So, excuse me, fuck you. Get the fuck out of my way. You will NOT stand between me and the things I have earned and strive to get. In fact, no one will. You wanna be fucking petty, and fucking rude? Don't get made at me for winning a game you goddamn started :) K, thanks.