#i cant tell if this outlook is good or bad

[kelocitta]

Sorry for the sudden shift into RW Saint story discussion but also Yippee for good ol' fashioned RW lore and story discussion

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[diegoshargrieves]

listening to my parents talk about me is so fucking funny. "she's dealt with us for so long that at this point she's done. she's mentally checked out from having to give a shit about anyone. can you believe how corruptible she is just because she's almost an adult and she thinks that we're not her problem anymore?"

like man you are literally so close. so fucking close.

[louscartridge]

nsfw arisu headcanons

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arisu x gn reader

cw- switch! arisu, blowjobs (and me giggling over the word AHHHAHAHAAAA ITS SO FUNNIEEE), making out, hand holding, praise kink, orgasam denial, overstimulation, begging, face slapping.

❥ ok so 

❥ hes most definitely a switch

❥ mainly bottom / sub leaning

❥ if your giving him a blow job (unrelated but blow job is such a funny word it makes me giggle sm) or and hand job (same with that one ngl) he goes from like

❥ HEAR ME OUT

❥ groaning

❥ to whining 

❥ SO FAST

❥ its so hot

❥ speaking of bj’s

❥ he laughs

❥ like

❥ okay

❥ laughing is so hot tell me its not shut UP

❥ not like at you but like ????

 yk???

 am i making sense PLEASE

❥ you’d be like making out, lying down in bed

❥ then you started to go down on him

❥ pressing kisses down his chest and stomach 

❥ and he like laughs whall caressing you hair and looks down at you yk??

no sky no one knows

STOP SAYING WHALL 

anywho

❥ hand holding

❥ god that shit’s so attractive

❥ if your hands are available they're connected

❥ making out, cuddling, sex, ORALLLLL

❥ hands are being held

❥ doesnt matter if hes subbing or your subbing hands are being held as long as theyre avalible

❥ please

❥ praise him

❥ he doesnt care how much shit he gets from karube 

❥ praise. him.

❥ when hes a dom he never really gets too terribly rough but he teaches you a lesson if you need it.

❥ sometimes he denies you of your orgasms other times he cant bring himself to do it

❥ he just doesnt like taking away something he knows feels so good

❥ especially when sex is something you dont get to do alot with the whole…. y’know. playing for your life thing.

❥ but he still has to teach you something, right? 

❥ so he goes to overstimulating you 

❥ making you feel so good where you need to beg him to stop

❥ prove to him you learned your lesson 

❥ its almost as bad as if he were to deny you of cumming

❥ i can see him being into face slapping ngl

❥ like 

❥ just a little slap and then softly grips your jaw

❥ sex with arisu is usually sure soft and gentle but more so especially when you got to the borderlands

❥ when you got to the borderlands neither of you knew how much time you had with each other. with anyone.

❥ so he took his time (as limited as it was) with you, showing, proving how much he really loved you more than ever.

❥ before the borderlands neither of you really looked at how big life is how limited time is

❥ it was just video games, sex, and the same like 3 friends

❥ but one thing changed both of your’s outlook on life

❥ for the better and both worst

at least you two did your experimenting before the borderlands deadass

[davekat-sucks]

Been thinking about HS2, as you do. And to be honest, I have no idea how we got here. I mean I know a bunch of shit happened to Hussie over the debacle of the game. But how did we get to HS2. Like, it hates you. HS2 reads like it hates the reader, it hates homestuck, it hates the reader for enjoying homestuck. I would call it misery porn, but even misery porn has some sort of catharsis. Some kind of release. HS2 does not. Its just an anon telling you to kill yourself, over and over for the length of the Epilogue and HS2 up to this point. The former team members, are allegedly, the progressive leftist type, yeah? So why did they decide to kill Rosemary, the fandoms pet lesbian ship? The one thing that would get thousands of screeching people telling you to kill yourself if you dared ship rose or kanaya with anyone other then themselves? Why did they make so many characters act out of character, why kill so many? Why introduce so many uncomfortable kinks? Why did they make dog dick jade canon? And call it the trans rep? Aint these people supposed to be allies? Supposed to care about the LGBTHDTV+? Supposed to be part of the alphabet people themselves? How? Why? Spite? It certainly seems so. HS2 seems like it was written from a place of spite, just sheer derision for the material and the author. Maybe Hussie planned this, maybe he hated his own creation and the fans of it, maybe the team did this of their own volition? I dont know, I doubt we ever will. How can Roach write the story like this? I dont know too much about him. I dont have a reason to trust him, but I dont have a reason to distrust him either. But giving him the benefit of the doubt, Id say that he's passionate about Homestuck and wants to bring it to a good place, but how do you do that? How do you bring something from a place of sheer hatred into a place of passion? Without retcons or denouncing the things that came before? I have no doubt that he's under NDA's out the ass, probably has some "non slander" clauses in his contract as well, since you obviously just cant bad mouth the previous team, even if they deserve it. Still, I am just at a sheer loss of how the comic can be turned around with this development. I know Im going to be following it, is it possible for an IP to give you Stockholm Syndrome? Because no matter how bad Homestuck gets, I cant give it up. Theres still more blood and bodies to be found in this train wreck. I dunno, sorry for the rant, but you're really the only other blogger I feel I can vent shit about homestuck towards. Lots of the people I knew before dropped out, or I lost contact when my first blog got obliterated.

It's alright. I know what you mean and have similar feelings as well about all this. There are other fandoms and interests that have similar cases of going back to your abusive lover because you had liked what they were before. Just look at comic book fans, Disney fans, Pokemon fans, RWBY fans, etc. Homestuck's case is that the effort to contribute anything to it is just tiring. Other series have similar themes of nihilism and dark topics. But the fans there are able to make great fan works despite such depressing tone. Was it because the execution of those lets audiences have a choice to give a better outlook on things while Homestuck denies us this? Maybe. It's hard to pinpoint where had it all gone wrong or why it still continuing. Even if somehow Roach is able to salvage it, the damage has been done that it will take a long long time to really forgive and forget. Though with the downward spiral of this current generation, they'll probably be lucky to rope in new fans to enjoy that small high before they move on to something new and better.

[blvvdcursd]

--— loading student files for ASTORIA GREENGRASS, please hold !! alright, i think i've got it now.. you're twenty two years old and in your fifth year, SPECIALISING IN POTIONMAKING ?? i can't wait to see where that takes you. bear with me, dear, i just need to confirm some more information with you. pureblood, slytherin house, ciswoman, she/her, and member of competitive dueling club, care of magical creatures club, and photographer for aurelius tribune are all correct ?? perfect.

BASICS

name: astoria isobel greengrass nickname/s: no doubt daphne has dumb nicknames for her, but she usually goes by Tori - a classmate tried to call her asta once and she promptly hit them. age: 22 birth date: april 10, 2001 zodiac: aries languages spoken: english, latin, is trying to learn french sexuality: bisexual

FAMILY

parents: desmond greengrass (father), aemma greengrass (mother) siblings: daphne greengrass ( sister; older) children: no thank you pets: a black cat named artemis

PERSONALITY

positive traits: ambitious, flirtatious, witty, charismatic negative traits: stubborn, impulsive, deceiving, self-destructive hobbies: photography, reading, dueling, arguing for the sake of it, reading up on blood curses to find a cure, has a vested and personal interest in poisons and hexes, is weirdly good at herbology health: has a blood curse that will eventually be her demise. one day. hopefully when she's old but probably not - despite astoria's pure-blood ties and learning proper etiquette as a child, she gives off a carefree and lighthearted outlook on life; which if you knew her personally, would know it's just a facade. she's down to earth, witty and incredibly stubborn, especially when it comes to what people try and tell her she can and can't do. - she's incredibly angry at the world and the cards she's been given, but astoria's well practiced smile wouldn't give anything away. - is probably looked down on by other prejudiced pure-blood families due to how friendly astoria can be to others, but at the moment her parents are just letting her do what they want because ngl they feel bad about the whole blood curse thing oops - will try to fight people just because. but she's tiny so it's reminiscent of a chihuahua trying to square up

MAGIC

blood status: pure-blood wand: elm wood, dragon heart-string, 11" & unyielding boggart: to be added i cant think of something sad enough yet patronus: a peacock region + school: southwest, odalric house + year: slytherin & fifth year specialization: potion making extra curricular: photographer for aurelius tribune, dueling club, care of magical creatures club

BIO ( tw: mentions of illness )

It wasn’t love and admiration that struck Astoria’s mother when she found out she was pregnant, but fear and desperation - there had been no happy endings written for the second born greengrass in generations; a blood curse ending their lives sometimes before it could even truly begin.

For the better part of Astoria’s childhood she had been watched over like a hawk, her fun had been in the family library watching her older sister play in the garden with their friends - Astoria was made to always be the watcher, but never the dancer. Never the girl who was allowed to do anything that required a lot of physical effort in fear her body would not cope.

Even still, Astoria's childhood was littered with happy moments, especially when it came to her Aunt Lysa on her father's side. The two had a special bond as being the second born greengrass inflicted with the blood curse, which comforted and made Astoria sad.

She remembers her parents arguing with each other about Astoria's schooling - where she would go, who would teach her - as soon as homeschooling was mentioned, Astoria had put her foot down for perhaps the first time in her life - surprising herself and her parents. Astoria was a girl who wanted to live life while she could, before she wasn't able to. Her parents had soon enrolled her into odalric when she was old enough, and no one spoke of homeschooling again.

The Greengrass family has been part of the sacred 28 since the beginning, and while they are quiet with their hatred, behind closed doors is a different story. Astoria, however, remains oblivious/refuses to acknowledge her parents prejudice, because she's in her live laugh love era; nothing can disturb that.

In oldaric Astoria was definitely having the time of her life, definitely got up to shenanigans that almost got her expelled a few times, but with a bat of her eyelids and a mere mention of her impending doom via her blood curse, the faculty usually took pity on her and would give her detentions instead.

When it was time to attend Aurelius like her sister, parents and generations of Greengrass' before her, it was no surprise that she had been sorted into slytherin. her fiery temper and deceiving nature far outweighed her passionate and charismatic charm. Astoria decided to keep her blood curse a secret; wanting a fresh start where people her age didn’t see her as a fragile, weak girl who wouldn’t be able to handle herself, because the truth was Tori was well capable of taking care of herself.

Despite the fact that she originally wanted to specialise in curse-breaking, her parents had ultimately refused and threatened to pull her out before she even began, so as a compromise had promised to seek out potion-making as a career instead.

While Astoria wants to succeed as much as she can, she knows it’s only a matter of time before the blood curse put on her family line starts to take a toll on her; which she is starting to feel already. It’s starting with the fatigue after using an excessive amount of magic, bouts of snappiness and exhaustion if not keeping up with her diet and routine, migraines if staring at her screen for too long - it comes and goes, but whenever it happens it strikes fear into her heart. at the moment astoria does have daily potions she takes which minimizes the effects.

CONNECTIONS - also open to plotting from scratch !! these are just general ideas

childhood besties: whether or not they drifted when they grew up and attended different schools (or maybe they stayed close and attended the same sjdjkd) these two have prob known each other !!! since birth !!! i'd imagine their parents are lowkey besties and would often have dinners/gatherings out. bonus points if for some, whatever reason they now hate each other skdfkf slytherin gang: i think this speaks for itself sjfkf just close house friendships, late night bonding, petty arguments and make ups 20 mins later. light bullying with love enemies: astoria's carefree attitude towards life can rub some people the wrong way and that's definitely okay !! these two butt heads like no other and are always out for their throats. (also lowkey love drunk bonding only to wake up sober hating each other again) exes: pls astoria has lots of love to give even if it makes her insecure. she probably broke it off but completely fine if she got her heart broken too will they/wont they: sjddsk longing gazes when the other isn't looking, petty comments at parties and drunk hook ups when they think no ones watching.

[notyobabygirl]

PART 3:

my gut tells me that i have an amazing bf who has made mistakes, and this is his first serious relationship so he’s had to learn some of these things as well. but my anxious attachment and intensity in relationships is telling me that i shouldn’t have forgave him for these things, or that he’s lying about them. even though i have zero proof or reason not to believe him. we haven’t had any issues, and he continues to reassure me when i get into a bad headspace about our past. we’ve also really reconnected and fallen even more in love with each other in the last few months. most of the situations i’ve listed happened during our rough patch or right after it. but when i’m alone for too long or get in a overthinking mood- that’s when i start to question if i should have stayed with him after everything or if i’ll ever be able to 100% trust him and forgive him for everything. because i have a habit of holding grudges on things and letting the past affect present me. i guess my question is- are any of the things he did something you’d break up with someone over? did i overreact or underreact? i know everyone is different, but i’ve seen how real and mature your outlooks on relationships are, so i’d value what you would do in those cases. and do you have any advice on forgiving someone you love for their mistakes that hurt you? or just any advice on how i can grow and not be so insecure within my relationship? i feel like i’ve recently become more confident and started to trust him more, so i have a little progress there. but i obviously still have overthinking issues and am not completely over the past yet. i wish i was more present/future focused :/ sorry this was so long and ended up being 3 parts! you’re an absolute angel and i’m looking forward to even a little bit of advice/insight from you 🤍

hi hi! okay ill answer every one of your questions. no i dont think any of those things are worth breaking up over. he was unhonest yes but he never did anything crazy. i think you reacted fine, i would be sketched out too and ask a million questions for reassurance. i think something to keep in mind is not to act too over bearing because then they might keep stuff from you. like if he turned off his location because he thought you would get upset at him at a strip club then you need to ask yourself why? he should be okay with telling you hes at a stupid strip club instead of hiding it from you. its not good hes hiding stuff but theres a deeper reason. like for example if theres acouple girls on the explore page you cant freak out over it because he literally might get scared of you and start hiding stuff. if he tells you a story about a girl, dont ask a million questions. you have to act confident and like you dont care. you have to get over his past and whathappened in the beginning of the relationship because holding onto that will only hurt you. recently i have been telling myself to act like a confident and cool girlfriend. dont be over protective, dont act like a mom, the less strict you are and crazy, the better your relationship will be! love you <3

[bulbabutt]

actually... going more into this despite knowing its probably a bad idea. knowing i will absolutely get in trouble. you guys probably know what the hell im referring to even if i dont say it.

it is not the end of the world if you interact with someone who simply... follows things that give you an ick. like some of you guys are really expecting people to just... be super fucking ashamed of everything, and that lands you and them in one of two places.

repressing any desires to look at anything slightly taboo, forcing yourself into being righteous and pure and gaining this sense of morality for THOUGHT CRIMES. which can hit you harder and make you feel more ashamed of your own desires which can have consequences later.

or forcing yourself to fully commit to the taboo. saying 'if you've ever looked at that, if you find enjoyment in SOME of that, thats all you are now! thats your side of the line that we've drawn so stay over there!' which means you cant then wind back and say 'hey maybe i DONT actually like this' because its too late. your side was chosen when you ever chose to be into that!

i think thats a really fucking unhealthy way to look at anything. its not good for anyone to be stuck in that kind of dichotomy of 'you either engage with perverts and thats all you are' or 'you are chaste and pure and make wholesome art'

you should be allowed to explore things if you want to, but not have it define you, and not fucking feel like youre going to be dragged through the street if you ever dare crossing some made up boundary.

i dont know how many of you remember when nsfw was allowed on this website, but i swear it didnt used to feel like this. i swear there was the healthy middle ground of just... accepting that people can be horny on the internet and its not a big deal. people would tag things, put warnings, say 'engage if you feel comfortable'. this used to be more of a safe haven for healthy sexual content, and now its forced on...... twitter and twitter clones, where the culture is just 'out anyone who engages in horny behaviour!!!'

and in before anyone says 'but the minors' guys idk how to tell you this but.... most people do engage with pornographic material before they are 18 years old. the little 'are you 18' on porn sites boxes can be clicked by anyone. and sometimes i wanna just shout and scream that like 'hey! where would YOU rather a minor first learn about sex from?! what the hell do you think the most popular porn categories are?? is that all you want them to ever see?? mass marketed patriarchal and racist and trans misogynistic videos?? youd rather that have them find porn of their favourite ship??' like. im not saying they should be engaging with all nsfw content. but they ARE GOING TO IF THEY WANT TO no matter what.

im not saying i think what im saying is totally correct or without its own bad ideas, i just think it makes me miserable to see this unhealthy outlook on sex and kink and whatever else thats poured in from other social media websites. people arent horrible people for making art thats weird or kinky that makes you uncomfortable! im not saying you ever have to look at it! im just saying people arent EVIL for making it!

and that isnt to say if people are being kinky in your face when you dont want them to that that isnt also a problem! but THATS the part where you say 'go away i dont like that'. not just because they engage with things in PRIVATE! in their own spaces where theyre not even asking you to go!

being ashamed for ever talking to someone who has a kink they didnt tell you about is really weird!!! OUTING them for it is worse!!!

be fucking kind to each other. bridge a fucking gap once in a while, i swear more people than you think do actually have feelings that arent totally pure sometimes. and thats okay!!! if youre not fucking hurting somebody, if youre not TRYING to make someone uncomfortable WHO CARES!!!

do what you want just be fucking respectful. know your own boundaries, respect others boundaries. thats all you gotta do.

i dont know how to put this delicately. i dont know how to put it in a way that doesnt get me put on a fucking blacklist. but HONESTLY? im so tired right now.

please kill the cop in your head. like some of you are so into being a fucking surveillance state of 'this person talked to that person who followed this person who promoted this' and i just... guys. if no one is actually fucking being hurt?? and nothing 'inappropriate' is actually BEING promoted? why the hell are you telling people about shit you STALKED THEM to find out?? you genuinely dont fucking know people and you have a warped sense of morality about it. THATS whats going to get people hurt. when shit in this world starts goes south really soon and you start noticing the more open kinks of queer people on the internet, i sure hope you dont start selling them out as perverts just to justify yourself as 'one of the good ones'. cuz thats the slippery slope youre on with the way you talk sometimes. learn some fucking history about the ways in which these kind of justifications have been used in the past.

im a visibly queer adult with other shit going on i do not fucking care if someone has a side thing they arent fucking telling you about. its weird that youre telling me. im TIRED of you trying to tell me. im never gonna fucking answer these things because its MESSED UP! im not joining a fucking hate parade!

fucking kill the cop in your head. i mean that. its an important lesson to learn, and i get some of you are young and you dont get why yet, but one day youre gonna regret being like this. one day when you realize youve made people unsafe you will feel really fucking bad about it. this world is hateful enough right now without needing to fucking dog pile on people who are keeping to themselves. and if theyre not? block them and move on. why is that so fucking hard?

a fucking hate campaign game of telephone only serves to make people feel unsafe. I FEEL UNSAFE around you people. have you never been on the receiving end of group harassment before? i have. as a teenager! back when the internet was MORE anonymous than it is now! got my shit plastered on bigoted sites where people were sending me death and rape threats to my inbox every day for weeks. thats the end result of what youre doing to people. it WILL become co opted by those kinds of people.

just because something gives you an ick, it doesnt mean someone is a morally reprehensible person. it doesnt mean they deserve to feel unsafe in the world. block it and move the fuck on. youre going to get someone hurt. you probably already have.

[jahjahxxx]

elephants

a helping hand not a song.

i don't feel too good lately, i don't wanna tell anyone tho. I am working on becoming what jah called 'an elehpant', in the sense of getting my point across in a less aggressive, but more passive, assertive way. trying to be an elephant, not a lion. I am trying really hard to be much more positive too!! I love georgie so much, i cant even explain it. I will do the world for her, and i will be forever grateful. Shes the only thing getting me through at the moment. I am trying to be more calm and gentle in general and i really hope its working!!! i hope no one thinks im a bad person, i really hope no one thinks that, but if they do, its my fault and hey thats okay. i am keeping a positive outlook and going through these days with my beb and it will all be okay (hopefully)! idk whos reading this, but if you are, thanks for listening!!!! i hope you have a positive, loving, rest of your day <3

[greenb0i]

March 2023

March has been very wet for me (wather wise). But beside complety draining my christmas money ( mostly on food and drink....oppis) and have a hole leture on why we have to post online to scuccesd in art (ugh) it been an interesting month. still didnt really succend in watching a lot....

+*:ꔫ:*Films*:ꔫ:*+ﾟ

Get Out (2017) Dir. Jordan Peele

My frist ever Jordan Peele movie! I found it alright. Thought i think that less due to the qulity of the movie and more the fact of me knowing all the big twists of the movie. Thought I still think its a really good horror film and desvse all the prais it gotten. Pluse it has Daniel Kaluuya and idk, he in that list of actor that I just like for some reason. I really want to watch some of his other movies and see how they compair. 8/10

Tomorrow is Saturday (2020) Dir. Gillian Marsh

I watch this since im both Irish and an artist (techiqulely). I liked the editing and music choices, as well as the story they were trying to tell. I never knew of Seán Hillen before watching but I like what he has to say about art and his outlook on life. Thought at a few times during it can drag and kinda just feel like it going on with nothing to do. 6/10

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚Shows˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

Breaking bad (2008, S1-4)

This has consumed me for this last month. It literally what I watch every night. It such a good show, from everything from it costuming to how it explore theme's. Like ughh it one of those things that I love thinking about. I want to write more about it but cant with out spoiling it in so way. I can't wait to watch Walt die 9/10 (Skyer haters dni)

[flashlightpoetry]

nala http://chasingsunlight.blogspot.com/

This is to you. This is to you,you are the reason for my strength.This is a thank you for showing me how to love, like other people don't know,like i didn't know.Let me say thank you,thank you for being my pillar of strength in my times of utmost solitude.in my times of unbearable pain. Thank you for being my teacher.thank you for showing me that possessions are not important.that life is more than what people think.thank you for opening my eyes to how a person should behave.You taught me how to care about someone,but not like others care,like you care.Its not the same because if the world ran dry, people like YOU would be the river that gives people hope.The river that reminds us that our thirst can be quenched.The kind of kindness that is so rare.The kindness we felt as kids, before this world polluted our minds.Can i tell you something beautiful, Fabs?Your mind is not polluted by this world.Your mind shines, it explodes with passion and determination.Its beautiful.like the sunset over Noordhoek beach.Everyone looks and wonders how something can be so incredibly beautiful?So intricately constructed to be a beacon of light to the world.The sun lights up the skys relentlessly and shows us that its the beginning of a new day.Thats what you have done for me over the past 20 years,i wake up and i don't have to see you,just like i dont have to see the sun, to know that it has risen.I feel you,i feel the love you have for the world,the passion you have for people,the zest you have for living the love you have for life.And can i tell you somehting beautiful?when i wake up, i feel the love you have givne me.When people tell me i cant,i feel your power inside me,i see the way you handled the toughest times and i fight.i fight for what our beautiful mother taught us.I fight because the world cant hold anyone down.I fight because not fighting would be to easy.And i fight because that's what i was taught. i have no idea of  what lies ahead,but i do know i have you by my side,and i hope you know i'm by yours too.Ill never leave.Because mom built us a home in her heart,a home for our souls,our minds.I find myself in you.and theres no one else id rather look deep into the eyes and see myself.but more than that i see you.I see the life you have lived and the struggled you have powered through.i see the times you have felt alone, but you always knew you weren't.I see the Strength of you heart.I see moms eyes, i see moms kindness,i see moms outlook on life.i see YOUR outlook on life.i see passion,determinationI see a bulldozer that simply cannot be stopped, because nothing is stronger than an inspired mind.I see my childhood in your eyes,i see our good times and our bad times.i see all the lesson you have taught me.i see the tough times,i see the tears But i also see the lion inside of you.The predator,hungry for more,hungry for thrill and adventure,the lion that cant be tamed,don't hold it in,set it free.Because a soul like yours, will never venture this earth again.Thank you for teaching me guiding me.Thank you for being the Lion i look at with admiration,The lion that everyone knows is different,The lion i hope to roar like one day.The lion i love with my whole existence.The only lion that will be in my pride for the rest of my life.thank you for everything.

[silvadraconis]

Emiya Alter & Mozart for the character ask me :D

Oh wow tumblr at my freakin notif for this XD so! this is super late! but here is my anwser for these two beans @maningrey0204

I'll start with emyia alter Fave thing- gods its hard to choose XD i think its the fact that he has a notebook to write things down. silly i know but, his memory is so bad and hes so nihilistic and pragmatic about it all, but he still writes down the important stuff to look back on later. least fave thing- yeah defiantly has to be his og design in jp, caused alot of backlash and kinda gave him a bad rap, so most people dont look deeper into him Favorite line- you know the line, where he talks about how in his valentine with the lifeline, where it'll suck, it'll rip up your hands, you'll bleed and hurt but he'll pull you up no matter what? yeah good shit, i rotate that shit constantly in my brain, i could ramble forever about his valentine scene honestly Brotp- voyager voyager listen listen this man who holds no hope for himself whos so jaded and cynical caring for this literal embodiment of hope the hope he doesnt have for himself but that he still fights for as a hollow hero of justice this man who made himself a weapon a tool a thing holding and caring for this tiny star child that was born from a machine and the hopes of humanity its GOOD opt- ive never really thought about it honestly XD but the line he has for cualter has me interested, so i could maybe see them as being two flavors of pragmatic dramatics notop- fucking kiara, no, stop it random headcannon- you can tell how bad his memory issues are by how many golden lines cover his body as hes walking around chaldea. also i dont think this is a headcannon but ive given him the nickname kit, in reference to the japenese pottery technique kintsugi, because hes strove so hard to become nameless, but, he still deserves to be called something, he deserves his own name unpopular opinion- is it unpopular to say i like him? XD like, i like him just as he is, edgy brooding behavior and all. i dearly want him to see hes something more than just a weapon but that doesnt mean i want to change him entirely other than that uhhh, i dunno, hes not a very popular character so beyond seeing people dislike his jp design and his attitude i havent seen much in the way of peoples opinions Song i associate with him- The Only Thing I Know for Real by Jamie Christopherson- its a song for i think metal gear that i just randomly stumbled across and it gave me *instant* emyia alter vibes fave pic- i like the summer ce with him billy and geronimo, it always makes me happy seeing him hanging out with people ------- Alright mozart time! Favorite thing about them- i love how unabashedly himself he is, usually when people think that theyre just awful or garbage that it comes with a sort of depressed outlook- and while he still needs some bonking on that thinking- there is something nice that hes just so, alive? about it all. im wording it weirdly but, hes both got confidence and no confidence in equal measures and its interesting least favorite thing about them- his silly fucking hat XD his outfit is fine but the *hat* why- Favorite line- i could probably wax on about some of the things he says to you and mash in orleans but, honestly? his valentines scene, i think if memory serves me its on the ce, but it might be in the actual scene, where he offers to play for you if you cant sleep. makes me soft brotp- sanson XD sanson is very straight-laced compared to his more, whimsical vibes, they work great XD its funny opt- listen listen, poly with marie and sallie, its good shit its fucking quality

notp- you know, i havent actually seen a ship that makes me like, recoil, then again i dont really go looking so let me just knock on wood right quick- but yeah, i dont have anything here, lets hope it stays that way Random headcannon- this man will wear cat ears without hesitation unpopular opinion- i dont, find him that annoying honestly? a bit yeah sometimes but we have worse in chaldea, hes not that bad, i like him song i associate with him- well its. mozart so XD anything by mozart. barring that its nyancat, he just has huge catboy energies XD favorite picture- local fucking musician has *all* the goddamn art made about him so i have plenty to choose from- id say my fave is the wolf one, where he has the wolf pelt on his shoulder? good shit so yeah! :D thats these two beans, thank you for the ask!!

[waterberry-strawmelon]

i want to be excited about the new pjo book but at this point in my life i just feel too cynical/overly critical of blatant cash grabs that i’m just expecting it to be shit :///

[thatsexcpisces]

Astrology observations pt. 6

- Aquarius risings come across as very dry and people tend to interpret this as if they’re mad or don’t like someone but that’s just how they are 💀For example, I tell my Aquarius rising friends something interesting that happened to me expecting a big reaction from them (my leo moon lol) and they just reply with like “oh cool🙂” and I take it personally but it’s just they’re personality lol

- I know I’ve probably mentioned this before, but Venusian placements (esp Taurus/Libra moon/mercury) can be really fake friends. This mostly goes for underdeveloped Venusian placements. Once they get envious of something their friend has that they don’t, they turn bitchy and fake with them for no reason even if their friend is a nice person and didn’t do anything wrong

- Having someone’s mercury or sun in your 12th house in synastry can be an indicator that they lie/hide things from you and probably even talk behind your back

- I’ve noticed that people who meet people who’s rising sign is their sun sign, get easily jealous of them. It’s probably because the rising sign person naturally embodies the energy and traits that the sun person has to work harder for to try and express. For example: a Libra sun may be jealous of a Libra rising person because the libra rising automatically represents the positive Libra qualities and draws attention meanwhile the sun person wants to achieve that.

- cancer placements always complain about people being unable to read their mind and know how they feel/what they want when they never expressed themselves in the first place 🤦‍♀️

- Virgo moons 🤝 giving their unsolicited opinion when no one asked

Also Virgo moons 🤝 trying to refrain from saying “I told you so” after someone didn’t take their advice

- Chiron/Pluto in the 4th house can indicate that your family has a lot of dark secrets that they’ve kept from you and that you’ve found out/will find out as you get older

- Venus-Neptune harsh aspects (square/opposite/conjunction) sometimes cant differentiate real love from toxic and unhealthy love

- Neptune-moon aspects, especially harsh ones (square/opposite), have issues seeing people for who they really are. They always wear rose-colored glasses and try to see the good in everyone when they’re blind to someone manipulating and playing them right in front of their face

- Fixed moons would rather jump off a cliff than apologize first or admit they were wrong lmao

- Most people just automatically consider Leo placements the attention-seekers of the zodiac but imo, it can be Capricorns because their negative outlooks and pessimistic tendencies to complain about all the shit that happens to them and that they go through is a subconscious way to make people pity and feel bad for them to draw attention

- Mars in Pisces are terrifying when they’re upset. You’ll never expect it, they will just throw a whole performance on you at the most random time

- good luck trying to win an argument with a Sagittarius mercury. They are BLUNT and MALICIOUS. They won’t have any issues airing all your issues out and calling you out on your bs to the point where you wanna crawl into a hole and die lol

- Capricorn’s are Leo’s are always drawn towards each other for some reason. I see a lot of best friend duos with these 2 signs.

- sun-Pluto aspects have trouble deciding whether they want to be perceived as mysterious and hidden or the center of attention for everyone to see (same goes for having Scorpio and Leo in the big 3)

- mercury square mars in synastry is a tough aspect to have because you two have difficulty understanding each other and misunderstandings are very common. You 2 probably also have a very different love language and can get into arguments easily

- most children usually either have the same sun sign as one of their parents or they have their sun sign in the sign of their parent’s moon sign (or vice versa: child has moon sign as their parent’s sun sign) (or both even have the same moon sign)

- 9th house stelliums have probably been called intelligent at a very young age or people considered them to be mature at a young age

- Venus/sun&mercury in the 10th house people are usually popular or popular amongst their community or their ingroups (leader energy)

- Mars square sun people come off as aggressive and arrogant at first impression

- Scorpio moons can have a very toxic way of showing love/loving people whether it’s their friends or romantic partner. They often show their love in confusing and maybe even bipolar/aggressive ways that the people around them perceive to be as mean or as if they don’t love them but the truth is the Scorpio moon cares very deeply for those people they just have trouble expressing it because their intense sequences of emotions

- Aries Venus love HARD. They are the definition of falling in love at first sight. Once they’re interested in you, good luck trying to get them away or some time alone to yourself . They are clingy asf

- Capricorn moons care so much about what other people think about them

- having your Lilith in the 5th house can mean that you were never able to experience or live out your dream hobbies and creative side as a child. You were forced to grow up too quick and didn’t have a real childhood where you got to spend time enjoying the little things and pleasures

[completelyricked]

i hope you heal from us

it is honestly just a silly vent post to sort of get a lot of emotion out there. 

there are a good amount of people that should have left my life a long time ago and for good reason. i have not been the best friend people could have but i cant do anything about that. like what am i suppose to do ? go back in time to make everything okay?? cause i can’t do that. i can’t go back and tell myself not to lie about being a fucking shapeshifter and i cant go back to tell myself that maybe because someone is emotionally lacking like myself is not ready for a deeper friendship or relationship and so on. 

i don’t regret not being friends with these people and i don’t regret that i may have left a bad impact in their life but at this point. moving on is all i can really do? what am i suppose to do? keep thinking about it and hoping that something will suddenly change and everything will be like before i guess?? tbh i really hope it couldve but leaving behind people and sort of focusing on people who mean more and treat me like im more is a better way to spend my life. 

it is not my job to give you clarity on what you did wrong or what you couldve done better. im not someone’s parent and ive realized what it does to people. im not one to follow other people’s mistakes to only find myself falling into their issues. honestly growing up as someone with some weird family trauma and a really weird outlook on the world isn’t like going to be super easy lol---!! i cant really excuse alot of the things i did or couldve done better. like i just have to know what i did and find a way to forgive myself because i don’t need others to forgive me because thats not something for me to ask for. because anything anyone did to me is just what already happened. 

there is no reason for someone like me to forgive or really honestly spend my time pondering ?? its honestly been a really wild time for me and i’d hope to eventually find some peace not with my loss friendships or loss memories but mostly myself. 

i really do struggle with a good amount of mental luggage but im figuring out ways to sort of organize it to a good place?? but yeah 

balls

[kendrixtermina]

Can you explain a 4w3 infp sx/sp Vs a 9w8 infp sx/sp? Can’t figure out which is my core

INFP specific

The good news is that in feeling-dominants the enneagrams are often easier to tell apart.

4 + INFP is not too far from the typical descriptions for both - fairly emotional, concerned with their values/ being true to themselves, probably artsy etc.

With sp/sx you'd get an even more "spicy" individual who might be competitive or at times diss those they see as having bad taste, being 'basic' etc.

9 + INFP is not much like the 'overemotional INFP' stereotype at all & usually results in a very patient & civilized person, though with w8 you'd have a bit more inner resentment & resistance.

9w8s don't like being bossed around at all though they show it by quietly grumbling or just ignoring what the bossy person says & might be a bit more realistic than 9w1.

However ultimately 9 is still a positive outlook type - that doesn't mean being always happy (indeed less than happy 9s can sometimes get nihilistic or feel like they're too insignificant to make a difference) but feeling like they "shouldnt" show negativity outwardly so while they might feel a lot of turmoil & pent up resentment on the inside they might bear it silently, perhaps thinking that no one cares anyways or something like that, or wishing they stand up for themselves more.

Whereas a 4 as a reactive type would feel that holding back any negativity for whatever reason is fake & might sort of rail and shout against what the unfair world "has done to them" & make a display of it (subjectively this may feel like they "cant hold it in" - even if its just your wing you might at some point have had the specific fantasy that you were gonna die horribly & then everyone who wronged you would feel guilty & see how horrible they are) - 4 being a withdrawn type though this wouldnt necessarily literal shouting but expressing it through "symbols". 4 is sort of fundamentally symbol-oriented & always looking at the personal significance of whatever happens.

9 meanwhile tends to be less visual & more kinesthetic in their thinking & all about touch & body feelings like comfort.

You see this in LotR (Tolkien was prolly a 9) where the feelings are always tied to the environment - Frodo & co alternate between going from pretty nice places with good food & nice people to bad, desolate stinking places of crude barbarism where there's nothing good to eat and they're always uncomfortable.

4s by contrast aren't in touch with their bodies & would probably associate feelings more with conceptual meanings, memories or aesthetic associations than body feelings.

i hope this was helpful