#i cant talk to anyone in my real life about this because they dont really understand nb identities and they would think im crazy lol

[anti-transphobia]

Twitter users have learned the term "weaponized incompetence" and of course are using it wrong and it's pissing me off. The latest example of "weaponized incompetence" is a husband who decided to make crescent rolls but didn't realize he needed to roll them up so he made large crescent chips instead. Literally just a mistake. Y'know. Those things people make?

Another recent example is someone's fiance being asked to clean up hot sauce. Now this could certainly more likely actually be weaponized incompetence! The very slow movements very much says "look at me do this and fail. You should just do it next time, it's easier." But you know what it also very much says, something that is just as likely? The movements are slow because it's more than he expected and he's trying to figure it out. I struggle with this, and have gotten better with practice, but what else are you supposed to do? Sometimes there's a puddle of something and you put a paper towel on it and it absorbs but is not nearly enough. He specifically examines how full of hot sauce it is after the first soak and how much more there is. And when he starts smearing it around...how else are you supposed to avoid that? It's still cleaning it so long as the smears aren't left behind

As I said, weaponized incompetence or someone genuinely trying are both likely there. The thing is, I'm not making assumptions about it. And neither should other people. Those types of slow, unsteady movements as I figure things out are extremely common for me. I am autistic and have struggled to process physical tasks (how to accomplish things that require my body to move in a certain way, including running and jump roping etc. didn't learn how to jump rope until I was 18) my entire life. This is how I figure shit out. If someone assumed me literally doing my best to complete a task was weaponized incompetence, I'd be pissed. In fact, that happens all the time!

My mother, while I was growing up, pretty much weaponized weaponized incompetence, without using those words. She would ask me to do something. I, being an autistic child, would try my best. I'd fail or do a poor job because I'm a child. She might try a few more times with me but because I didn't get it instantly or it struggled to click she'd visibly get mad at me and tell me not to bother and that she'd just do it instead. As I got into my teens she accused me of doing things badly on purpose so I wouldn't have to do it, when the reality is she just gave up on me and asked me to do things less and less frequently with age. Then at around 16, and ESPECIALLY 18+, she started expecting me to do ALL kinds of things. Saying "you're an adult, you should know this". How? Adults know the things they do because they have experience. I don't. I've had to play such hard catch up for everything I've missed because people (not just my mom) find it easier to not bother with the disabled child.

I'm not saying the man in that video is autistic, or anything else! But what I said brings another point into play: he's an adult and simply doesn't know how to do it. That's a problem! Now why would he be an adult incapable of doing what should be a simple task he should have already learned? He wasn't taught. It reminds me of the guy who got a ton of shit online because his mom did his laundry for him all his life so when he first lived out of the house (I think with a roommate) he had to learn how to do his laundry. He wasn't refusing to do his laundry, he wasn't whining and complaining about it, he was just texting a friend about it. It would be a problem if he didn't bother to learn. If someone is LITERALLY TRYING TO LEARN HOW TO DO SOMETHING it's not weaponized incompetence! I don't care how old they are!

And honestly it does play into the whole "the patriarchy is bad for men too" situation. If a man doesn't know how to do something, such as laundry or cleaning up spills, as an adult because those jobs were always deferred to women, he is now incapable of caring for himself when alone. And then when with someone else, accused of weaponized incompetence when trying to learn by people learning new words to run into the ground. Or once again, maybe it's not a situation where he didn't learn because the women specifically always did the cleaning, he just generally might not have been taught. I don't know!

The very point I'm trying to make is that you can't make those kind of assumptions based off of a short clip, or a picture, of someone doing something poorly. Even if there's a CHANCE it could be weaponized incompetence, it is so BEYOND horrible to go on and on about how it HAS to be weaponized incompetence because no one could be that stupid. It feels awful to be a disabled person seeing people being mocked and called abusers for making the same kind of mistakes you've made. It feels awful to see something, think "oh I've messed that up too", and then see 50 different comments about how it has to be weaponized incompetence because no one could be THAT stupid

Can we please stop forgetting the existence of disabled people and people with generally different life experiences than you, thanks. There's a huge difference between weaponized incompetence and learning (or someone doing the best they can and being physically unable to do things more efficiently because of being disabled)

[itspheenixbaby]

elephant in the room 🐘

rant about the state of online shifting; "get-it-off my chest" moment

part 1. scripting trauma/ being a bad person in a dr how many people are really doing "bad things" or scripting in trauma in their dr? lets be so fucking for real here. why is it that everytime someone "morally corrupt" it gets exposed months apart and the "culprit" is some small ass account with like ten followers? its not common. and im not saying it never happens. but shiftok is always on about these people and im like...who tf are yall talking about? they find one bad apple and then decide the whole community needs to be reminded how fucked up it is to do xyz.

i mean lets be realistic, how many people are going out of their way to script something traumatic or harmful? the majority of the online community (reddit, tumblr, tiktok) always talks about shifting for their s/o, adventure, frienships, family or a better life in some way. how many people are deliberately scripting to harm themselves or others? and is the number really so much that we need thinkpiece after thinkpiece about it?

aand when others behave immorally or get traumatized in their dr they will experience it. they will see the effects of any bad things they do to others. they will feel the trauma first hand and suffer from what theyve scripted in many ways. we dont need to punish these people. their dr will do it for them.

P. S what about when you shift to a dr like the walking dead? or even mha and keep in the war arc? thats traumatic. hell, even an idol / fame dr can be traumatic and those are hella common! yet nobody bats an eye or reprimands it...odd...

part 2. racebending race doesnt exist. i saw a shiftoker (a white one too??) act like someone was crazy for saying it! the whole concept was created by europeans! white mans burden, race based social classes, and eugenics all seems natural to yall? i mean logically its not odd to anyone that modern racial concepts were made by the same group of people in the same time period...? the time period people needed excuses to kill, rape, steal from and enslave other groups... search up "who created race" and then report back to me..anyways..

name one good thing that splitting people up and assigning them identities based on their background does for us? its caused mocking of those that dont fit the mold their race gives them, harmful views of other because of their racial group(s) and low self esteem from outside perceptions of your race. oh and division among groups on top of everything. so what is the point of holding on to race? abandon it! shift to be white, asian, black, indigenous, do what you want! youre not "changing your race" until you shift to become a different species (and theyres obvi nothing wrong w that!).

and some people say "if you script your another race your downplaying the racism poc face" but not every country has the same type of racism the states has. not every country is even as racist as the states. for example if im shifting to be fully south korean born & raised, and live full time in south korea, its not likely ill experience racism. and even so you can just...script out racism? like what...some people literally hate shifters who dont script out racism and expect everyone to script it out, but then turn to say that they cant change their race because of racism...huh? genuinely dont get that.

P. S im only really preaching abandonment of race so flippantly in regard to shifting. in this reality we're kinda stuck with it at this point lol.

P.S.S and it seems shifters from the usa hate racebending the most! as an american, i wonder how much of that is being intimidated that the concept of a racial hierarchy, that our nation has been built upon for centuries, can be shattered so easily...and therefore obviously proves it as obsolete. food for thought. (half joking here teehee)

[sokkastyles]

I cant help but notice that quiet a lot of people who dont like Zuko and/or Uncle Iroh happen to be Azula stans. Now I am the last person to put everyone in a Box because that sucks so I want to make clear that I am not putting every Person who like her with these Kind of people.

But it gives me an icky feeling when they somehow make Azula the victim and Zuko the abuser when it was very clearly the other way around (never read the Comic but in my humble opinion there is nothing Zuko could do or say that would even be close to the abuse he suffered from Azula).

Also somehow giving Iroh crap when All he does during the show is protecting Zuko from Azula and only calling her crazy and she needs to go down after she almost kills him

Kinda a rant but I just blocked one of these Zuko hating Azula loving Accounts because due to the Zuko Tag they repeat to show up on my feed and it was nagging at me.

I would love to hear your thoughts on that matter. (Sorry if you already talked about it)

I don't like putting people in boxes either, but the tumblr fandom is infested with Azula stans, and what I've found is that if you scratch almost anyone with a bad take, they will turn out to be an Azula stan. Funnily enough, when people say the fandom is toxic, they don't mention this. But it isn't a surprise that people who are fandom bullies with victim complexes overidentify with a character like Azula and that they dominate the conversation. They even have been known to use sock puppet blogs to make themselves seem like their numbers are larger than they are and that many people agree with their opinions. It's just a shame because she's such a great character, but the discourse around her has been shaped by these people.

When Azula stans say that Zuko or Iroh are really the abuser, they're engaging in classic DARVO behavior: deny, attack, reverse victim and offender. It's a common abuser tactic to make the victim think that they are actually the abuser or that they have some kind of mutual abuse dynamic. I've read The Search, where most of those accusations against Zuko come from, and as badly written as that comic is, it pretty accurately depicts this kind of abusive relationship. Azula accuses Zuko of mistreating her because she no longer has complete power over him like she did before. Ozai also does the same thing to Zuko in The Promise. And the kicker is that even from her diminished position, Azula still has psychological power over Zuko, which is how she's able to convince Zuko that he's mistreating her in the first place. Zuko believes Azula because he's been subjected to this crap his whole life and is terrified of being like his abusers. Essentially, the reason he falls for Azula's attempts to convince him that he is like her is because he is not like her. Azula is able to convince Zuko to let her go free and trusts her under the guise of giving her "dignity" when she's actually been lying to him and manipulating him the whole time, along with insulting and degrading him and putting him and his friends in danger.

Iroh's great sin is that he won't let Azula harm Zuko, yes, but also, like Zuko, the reason he is hated by these people is because he got redemption and Azula didn't. Sometimes he is more hated than Zuko because he's an adult and didn't change until well into adulthood, whereas we should give Azula leniency for being a kid. What these people fail to realize is that all the leniency in the world will not make Azula change, and she has never expressed any indication towards redemption.

Whenever people are like "but Iroh did bad thing," I just don't know what the argument is here. Is it that nobody should ever change for the better?

Nope, the real problem is that Zuko and Iroh changing for the better highlights how Azula didn't. That Zuko did what Azula couldn't gives the lie to the "she's just a kid" excuse, and that Iroh did what Azula couldn't gives the lie to the idea that her age means she's more likely to change her ways and that we should judge her on that.

It is true that it's harder to change the older you get, but that only highlights that redemption has to be chosen, it can't be forced. Anyone can change no matter who they are or what they've done, but Azula simply hasn't and doesn't think she needs to.

It's also very easy to imagine a redemption for her and use that idealized fantasy to judge the characters who actually got redemption in canon. But this is just more of engaging in abuser-logic fantasies.

It's not shown a lot, but there is evidence in atla that Ozai also thought he was a victim, and used that to defend his own abusiveness, even sometimes directly to the son he burned. He had to teach Zuko respect, didn't he? His own wife committed treason, didn't she? Nevermind that Ozai manipulated both of these scenarios so that they would come out in his favor. He certainly thinks of himself as the victim and that's the reason he won't change. Iroh knows this, too ("I've never known my brother to regret anything"), which is the other reason Azula stans hate him. He sees right through Ozai and he sees through Azula when she lies and manipulates, too.

[amoristt]

This is so self indulgent but Kang dae-ho headcanons about him having a girlfriend that's muscular please! Like, stronger than him type muscular（＾ω＾）

dont ever be scared to be self-indulgent!!!!!!!!!! i LOVE this request bc i am currently in my Muscle(TM) era so this had me like 👉🏽👈🏽 im kinda relating it to real life bc my partner and his friends cant keep up with my leg day LOL

kang dae-ho with a muscular girlfriend

oh my god. this man would be crazy for a woman able to bench him. don't get him wrong- Dae-hoe loves to be the tough guy. the pride he feels from being a marine at his young age, and his passion to keep those around him safe ring true at all angles. he loves to be the protector, and he's got all these self-indulgent daydreams about being That Guy.

but. something about seeing you, with your pretty smile and even prettier laugh, start lifting weights he tops out at for a warm up? it does something to him. it really, really does. he kind of wants you to toss him over your shoulder and squat him.

some guys would be put off knowing their woman could give them as ass whooping, but not Dae-ho, because man does he love when you show it off. arm wrestles, pushup contests, anything. especially if it humbles some jackass. it makes him beam with joy watching his girlfriend kick ass. he's the cheerleader and you're the star quarterback.

he thinks that you're soooo freaking hot. like sometimes he looks at you and can't believe you give him the time of day, let alone let him hang around.

loves your gym outfits. specifically the baggy hoodie, shorts combo. when you send him pics and outfits of the day he eats it UP. thats his mf woman

knowing you're stronger than him doesn't ever stop him from playing tough guy, though. it's in his very DNA. he'd defend john cena if he could. some guy wont leave you alone? he's there ready to throw hands. someone's talking shit about his girl? hell no. meet him outside.

"don't fuck with me, my girlfriend will kick your ass"

you two meet at the gym, naturally. Dae-ho goes pretty regularly on his own but he's the 'head down, heaphones up' kind of gym rat so he never really gave mind to anyone else nearby him. honestly didn't even know you went to his gym until one fateful, fateful day. he's one part of a trio of buddies that day, spending more time chatting and goofing off than actually doing his sets. he's showboating, overloading his plates and damn near throwing his back out more than once. he loads a barbell up with 345lbs onto his shoulders and cranks out a single squat. then two. once he drops down for the third, he locks up. it's then he realizes how many leg days he's skipped. he can't bring himself up right. his friends aren't paying attention and he was an idiot who didn't have a spotter. his options are fall forward, and risk the bar hitting him in the head, or fall backwards and feel the embarrassment of a hundred eyes all on him at once. he's struggling to balance it, every muscle in his body tensing, when suddenly the bar is lifting. he lifts to his feet and there's a set of hands off to his left helping him set the barbell back onto the rack. expecting his friend, he turns and goes to chastise them for not paying attention and helping sooner, but then he see's... you. before he can apologize for talking to you like that, you're already smiling at him and teasing right back. maybe you shouldn't have loaded too much, huh? he's flushing bright red, stammering out a laugh and rubbing the back of his head. you're cute- and your voice is like honey to his ears. his friends are snickering from other machine, watching the entire ordeal, and he feels that flaming blush race down to his neck and chest. he doesn't know it quite yet, but he's smitten. he goes to start peeling the plates off the racked barbell but you stop him. and then, slack jawed and wide eyed, he watches you crank out an entire set. you heave the bar back onto the rack and then, he gets to watch you add MORE weight. he's not even trying to act like he isn't staring, completely gobsmacked. his friends are still horsing around elsewhere and he's stunned into place. you take a sip of water in-between sets and before you can put your headphones back on he can't stop himself from talking to you. he literally isn't even thinking when he catches your attention, feeling shy, but he can't help it. he has to talk to you- that was the coolest shit he's ever seen. its humbled him. changed him. he just watched you squat two of him over your shoulders like it was nothing. he can't even feel his pride take a hit either, he's entranced by you. you both have a great conversation and man, he knew you were cool before, but every time you open you're mouth it just gets better and better. he can't believe he's never noticed you until now. from that point on, he starts to notice whether you're there or not. and he goes crazy out of his way to talk to you- finding little reasons to chat. eventually you start seeking him out too. you ask him to be your spotter one day and he's pretty much head over heels after that. eventually you get each others numbers, then, he pulls the ultimate move. he invites you out to drinking with his friends and you show up but hey, check that out, looks like no one showed up but us! that totally wasn't planned at all, or anything. oh well! you two have a lovely evening together <3

[genderqueerdykes]

hey sorry this isnt really an ask so much as a vent abt being 'cis' intersex. I stumbled across a video of someone bragging about disarming anti-trans talking points by telling a cis man with gynecomastia 'he doesnt need gender affirming healthcare! he shouldn't mutilate his body!'

I cant be the only person who thought this was such a fucked up thing to say but everyone else was encouraging this behaviour and its kinda devastating to see.

I understand the frustration the trans community experiences as someone who is also trying to get medical procedures done. but the intersex community is the LAST community that anger should be taken out on

We are the last people who need to be reminded that sex and gender aren't binary.

We are the last people that 'need to be shamed' for not fitting into those binaries.

intersex people are not 'lucky' for being medically pressured into erasing their intersexuality. We are not lucky for being forced to undergo medical procedures to conform.

And as of lately, I've seen way too much infighting specifically coming from perisex trans people trying to belittle intersex cis people to try and 'prove a point.'

I cant be the only one noticing this.

I also commented on OPs video to tell them intersex people are not the enemies of trans people, and they refuted gynomastia isnt inherently an intersex condition, saying i missed the point of the video being about how society views some gender affirming care to be acceptable but not transness. He also said that the situation was a hypothetical and didnt actually happen.

But still, trans advocacy has no excuse to build itself upon the hatred towards intersex people. And whether that conversation was 'real' or not was irrelevant considering the hundreds of comments taking inspiration from him and claiming to partake in bullying obvious intersex people.

and off topic, his point wasnt correct. I'm a cis intersex male with a female presenting phenotype, and I've been denied top surgery for years and been pressured into transitioning to a girl because it would be easier for me to pass as one than to pass as a guy. despite me being a cis guy.

The blatant intersexism I've been seeing with the trans community has not only been growing, but completely welcomed into the arms of other perisex trans people.

Im 'cis' because i identify with a gender that correlates with my sex. i'm 'trans' because im transitioning to better conform to my gender. I'm so sick of intersex erasure from queer communities. cis intersex people are not less queer. we are not less likely to be victims of transphobic violence or medical violence.

I want this ignorance to stop but I dont see an end, even in so called 'allies' who turn their backs on intersex people to spew this kind of bullshit. I'm sorry for such a downer but I dont have anyone in my life who would take my side or understand where I'm coming from, and my account has absolutely no reach to the intersex community

agreed, that's not okay. people are being so rude right now. cis intersex people don't deserve to get any shit. it's perfectly okay to be cis and intersex. you should never get angry at an intersex person who isn't trans what the hell? honestly it's hard to participate in discussions in trans spaces as an intersex person. i do understand the frustration it becomes nigh impossible to speak up about how it's okay if intersex people aren't trans or gay or bi or anything like that and that they should still be accepted as intersex

idk how intersex cis people could ever be a threat to me. i don't mind that at all. like we still have a ton in common. we're both still people. we both still have unique lives and struggles. we both have something to learn from one another. i actually have a lot to learn from intersex people who want to be seen as cis or fight for it.

i'm tired of people trying to draw lines in the sand when it comes to who "counts" as intersex. it's so cruel. i don't like it one bit. it's not helping anyone and it's talking over intersex people. but any time intersex people talk it's somehow transphobic. can't win.

[bebebelll]

does anyone know her dad? | dn3 x reader (part 3)

paring: daniel ricciardo x toto's daughter!reader, daniel ricciardo x wolff & shcumacher!reader warning: nothing (google translated german because i studied that language for 2 years and dont know a single word anymore) notes: part 1, part 2 and part 4 are recommended reading

ynquads god i love what the us grand prixs do to this man. there's something in the air and the cowboy hats are hot. i truly feel really blessed to have met you, to spend my life with you, to have been by your side and to have had you by mine. i just really love you ❤️❤️❤️

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username haha jumping off a building now bye

danielricciardo you really love me ❤️

ynquads i really really love you danielricciardo really really really? ynquads really really really really danielricciardo wanna sneak out and go makeout? ynquads YEAH alex_albon no please dont we're on the same plane the restroom is small the walls are thin

maxverstappen1 gross

username sobbing screaming throwing up (fuck i am jealous)

danielricciardo i am so obsessed with you baby

ynquads i fucking adore you

f1wagsupdate as we all know that the figure skater and danny ric's girlfriend yn shcumacher is the child of toto wolff and michael shcumacher's sister, we decided to go on a deep dive. these are really the only photos we could find from facebook. we could only find this one photo of katarina shcumacher and not a single one her and toto together. but isn't toto just adorable with baby yn? and enjoy baby yn and max verstappen looking super cool!

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username MAX VERSTAPPEN

username how is mick not using that last photo every year on their birthdays like i would print a pic like that of my siblings and put them up around school hallways and on the fridge

ynquads do not worry, auntie sophie and vic show that photo around every christmas

username ooh its too bad theres no photos of them together

username same bro i cant stop imagining some summer love ynquads they met a bar in berlin and got so fucking drunk that its a miracle they didn't get alcohol poisoning. i am so truly so really serious when i say that i'd be surprised if they even exchanged names before i was already cooking in my mom's stomach username what the fuck you saying ynquads i've seen an old homevideo about the morning after. i talk about it in therapy every week

username i love how yn is just lurking around every post about her and her parents

yt video: YN SHCUMACHER ATTENDS COTA - BRUNDLE GRIDWALK

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username love the passive aggressive attitude to every camera she saw

username truly a lovely experience. yn kissed daniel before the race. she kissed max's cheek when he won and said something scandalous in german/dutch based on everyone's faces. i also saw a video of her laughing on the ground when lewis dsq was announced

username WHAT THE FUCK ARE THEY SAYING IS THAT GERMAN

username yn: they are filming you, dad. you are very popular. toto: dont give them too much attention. you had a long flight. you just go and take a nap before the race. brundle and toto talk yn: well see how intact our relationship is after the race username intact 😂😂 lord that really is torger's kid

danielricciardo this woman is the single reason ive survived some darker times. she's so beautiful, lovely and sweet. elegant on and off the ice ❤️❤️the day i do not gush and drool about her is the day i'm dead. so in love

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username why am i crying

username cant come to the phone right now busy driving through concrete walls and off a cliff

ynquads i am THE luckiest girl ❤️❤️❤️

danielricciardo if youre lucky then ive been blessed by god ynquads dont you dare i win this danielricciardo youre not the one who was just on their knees i win ynquads come here and ill wrestle you danielricciardo only if you kiss the booboos better after

username am i the only one getting real suspicious about these "i love you much" post that they've been putting out for the entire month??? like what you doing all this for

username EXACTLY username they've been together for like four or five years too sooooo you know what people do around that timestamp 🤭🤭🤭

username just what the hell is that comment about being on their knees daniel

ynquads instagram story

danielricciardo funny thing about vegas

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username BITCH WHAT

susie_wolff if you got married in a las vegas chappel, you are grounded till your 80th birthday yn - toto wolff

ynquads i didn't actually expect to love being engage this much

danielricciardo whats got you excited about this then? ynquads the fact that im gonna get to marry YOU maxverstappen1 stop being gross maxverstappen1 i already suffered through watching the proposal

username love this i want to snort this i want to inject this into my blood but did you get engaged and then eat junkfood while watching princess diaries 2

ynquads don't tell anyone 🤫 danielricciardo really dont tell anyone that amount of junkfood was not in the diet plan

@topguncultleader @eternalharry

[writers-wrongs]

Have you seen Arkham Knight VR? Riddler's self-aware in it! Could have some existential horror potential if you wrote headcanons or something for that version of him as a yandere >:-D (or just about self-aware Eddie from the mainline games...?)

as a ddlc fan, i love self aware game characters. and if anyone in arkham knight was gonna be sentient, itd be him. unfortunately, i havent seen AKVR, so this is just regular arkham knight

yandere!self aware!arkham!riddler x gn!reader

-edwards the most intelligent man in gotham, of course he noticed that his life was a game. and over time, he learned how to manipulate the game around him and "see" into the outside world

-the disc hes on was sold by the original owner, and now gets passed from person to person from secondhand game shops. the disc is always returned because somethings wrong with it. nobody puts two and two together and realizes they only start having game issues when they look up answers to the riddles

-then you buy the disc. edward is mildly interested in you, as he is with everyone who buys his game, but he assumes it wont last when you struggle with his riddles. whatever, at least he can enjoy messing around with your game

-but then you dont look anything up. he watches you intently, he even hacks onto your phone to check if youve been searching answers, and youre all clear. sure, you struggle at some of his puzzles (who doesnt?), but you never cave and look up how to solve it, no matter how long it takes you

-now that hes poking around on your phone, he sees that youre kind of a shut in. you dont have many contacts, and the one social media you have is tumblr. but it looks like you fixate on him a lot, almost to an unhealthy degree. its flattering- of course someone as excellent as him deserves sycophants! and he especially deserves one as devoted as you! youre smart, and determined, and oh lord, hes in love

-you have things to do during the day, you cant spend all your time with him on the disc, so he listens in on you from your phone. theres not much to do when youre not playing the game, so its his favorite way to pass the time. when you get home and start playing, he tries to interest you in his sidequest over everything else. he even keeps an eye on you as you sleep! he has to make sure youre safe, after all

-when youre not playing, he focuses on finding a way out to you (or bringing you in to him). he needs to be able to hold you, to keep you safe himself, and if he has to drag you kicking and screaming into the game with him, he will. not that he really knows how to do that, but he'll figure out something

-on your end, you dont notice anything at first. maybe his lines when you play are a little... flirtier? but other than that, the game is fun. you feel particularly drawn to the riddler sidequest, hes your favorite character after all. then, you notice that his lines are strangely specified to you, making references to your interests and personal life. maybe its just reading your console? yeah, a fun little meta thing!

-but then it gets concerning. he calls you by name. not the name on your console, your real name. hes talking like he knows you as a person. hes saying how much he needs you, how much he adores your dedication to his riddles, your dedication to him. you decide this is too weird, you have to return the game. so you go to take it out, and-

-you wake up in what looks like the abandoned orphanage from arkham knight. you try to move, but you feel arms squeeze you tight

-"there you are, my dear player. we're going to have so much fun together"

[fairycosmos]

i keep thinking abt ur rant post, i guess cause you mentioned your sister. i dont know how to word this and i dont really know you but you seem like youre taking her love with you wherever you go. iit probably is hell to have to claw your way through today without her but i think youre doing really good living for her. and again i dont know how to properly convey this but i see her traces, her love in you i dont know either of you but i have a sister and although she lives halfway across the world she s such a big part of me, and although a part of you might have died with her a part of her lives on with you. thats a little what it feels like when my sister is so far away and in a different time zone but yeah. im so sorry if this is overreaching or me acting insane i cant always tell im just a little sick of people being cut apart because of having to work to the bone for billionaires who don't give a fuck about anyone and etc idk. have a lovely day, if not today then tomorrow.

❤️ this was honestly so comforting to read, thank you so much for the kind words and for being so understanding about the never ending complexities of grief. it honestly is hell without her like i say it all the time but genuinely nothing feels real, feels like life stopped when she died and everything else has been some weird trip. i think it’s why i have to be distracted all the time bc i can hardly manage to think about it. but yeagh she really shaped me in the most fundamental way to be honest and so much of how i learned to be a person came from her. i wish i could do more to help her memory live on and make some grand gesture or art inspired by her but i think really she lives on through our small similarities and the values she passed onto me. it doesn’t feel like enough but it is what it is. UGH sorry to ramble lmao once i get started talking about her i could go on forever. i hope you know how much i deeply appreciate your msg 💗 it’s good to know other ppl get it all on multiple levels. i hope you have a lovely day too x

[pawtoon]

Don’t you feel guilty about pretending to be level 3 and intellectually disabled? Have you never met anyone with severe or L3 autism before, or even seen any personal accounts from their family or caretakers? It’s disgusting to pretend like this, you’re making a mockery of other people’s real experiences just so that you can get some attention on tumblr. I know you’re probably still a teenager so I really hope that in a few years you’ll have moved on from this and you feel bad about it.

hi anon! 🤍 no absolute idea why you waste time to send this to me into my ask box. havent got better stuff do with life, no? that's ridiculously sad.

wonder if YOU meet someone level 3 autism and intelectually disabled before, oh no no not one common example on tv, actual people like me? did any true research about people like me? because guess what people who are level 3 autistic have intelectual disability can still be people with personality, have identity and do social media stuff. been always sevrely disabled like this, autism always been severe, iq always low, had all recognised as young child, been put into all sort therapies before been put into horrible mess because of adoption system and issues you dont deserve to know that had in my life.

have some people know me closer than what you presumably might saw post about, all know severely disabled and can clearly tell so am. needed intese help to do this whole tumblr thing, need help supervision online still everything, never even understand would have people interact with me here just want post about stuff that like and fun and make aware of people who have struggle like me.

so how about get over self? absolutely ridiculous thing to share out here of you really, couldnt be more ridiculous. what should be guilty and move away from? fact that as young child was put through all professionals and places because i was so extremely behind children couldnt even understand how put shirt on when should? how talk properly? how read when should? how write when should of known? how use the bathroom and get clean, how eat by self? 'should move on and feel guilty' about what? that this day still cant function and are neglected by caretaker causing me to have health issues, long term skin issues, infections?

but YOU say am mockery and hope of me 'move on' oh believe wish fucking could 'move on' next day magically and change clothes, shower, able speak functionally, be able of education, work or even getting out fucking bed without needing severe prompting.

fuck off and how about move on from saying bullshit without no thought behind it before you spit it out.

[thatdeadaquarius]

How was been your 2025 everything alright?ur still alive?

Thanks for asking!! <333

Sorry abt the radio silence on and off again guys, its the same old story tbh, life stuff like fulltime job, just moved again (30 min away but still woof), etc

I havent stopped thinking abt you guys for a minute i stg lol - i keep wanting to come back and post and whatnot, but the fics i promised (and am still in the trenches fighting to finish) have rlly been the big bog down of this blog for me

So i felt like anytime i had to write, i would try to spend writing the fic(s) but that meant no asks getting answered or posted 🫠💔

Ill instead take the pressure off myself to get those done, and simply chip away at it as i please, and focus on asks instead

I think the next big step ive been thinking about for a few months now and decided to go ahead with is clearing my inbox out some!

Ive got rlly old asks that either feel embarassing to answer so late,, or are out of context by now :/, and i definitely think tumblr ate some whole,, so for the new years sake and in order get myself to revive my sagau content blog again, ill be posting only some asks i feel i have good drafts for, despite it being forever ago, but otherwise ill be ready for asks again! 🥹🫶

I hope thats okay and Im geuninely so sorry for anyone who still remembers sending an ask and not getting a response back /gen :( 💔

Im very excited to come back and hope you guys arent too annoyed at me for being gone and doing this :( /gen

I encourage you if you ever sent me an ask i didnt answer to please send me something again!! Id love to hear from you guys and what youve been thinking about Genshin Sagau (x reader or not) wise for the past year (and a half?? Ooofff idekkk atppp💀)

I appreciate anyone bothering to check in, and hope to a more active (and hopefully more peaceful for me) 2025 for however much is left

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Oh, and abt genshin!! I havent rlly liked the direction they went what with colorism/racism in Sumeru, and Fontaine was better, but then Natlan has gotta be a low point in the story/game overall for me, and to that end, i havent rlly played it, ive just gotten to finishing up Fontaine,

So for now NO Natlan characters please!

^^ /nm /neutral ^^

I have NO idea what their personalities are, and im still trying to get over my dislike of certain character designs (cough🐮cough) and still trying to fathom Natlans story at all rlly,

Heres to hoping theyll improve with Sneznaya, bc weve been waiting too long on that for it to be a screw up ngl

Of course, if you like one of Natlans characters, or whatever else abt it, ur welcome to talk abt it in my inbox, I just mean I wont be writing abt them just yet, and yes i intend to eventually!

(im sure its established via fandom, but ill be making some interpretations when i do write them, if u dont know what i mean, just look at my non-white deffo POC Alhaitham and Tighnari I drew and referenced in the past, Natlan will be getting the same, more tasteful makeover, most likely from what I take in from others headcanons, bc i am unfortunately an Underqualified White Person when it comes to that)

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Also, my ao3 works are now locked down, due to recent AI scrapping, both personally thats been done to one of my works by a rando guest, and that general sweep that happened to ao3 recently.

I believe 4, maybe 5 out of my 6 works were taken.

They are still readable, but you have to be a registered user first, and I think I will be continuing that for my future works, as unfortunate as it is, because i generally like my writing to be accessible. But these idiots are making Ai wanna write stories instead of solve our math problems or clean our streets or something more useful, so here we are.

Really wish I could do something similar for tumblr, but i guess we cant have an ethical peaceful society everywhere...

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Whew, if you stuck around this long to read all my shit, I love you deeply and ur a real one

Thank you to anyone whos checked in, still revisited my old posts (despite the cringe and mistakes ive made along the way), and the general support ive still seen from Sagau community!!

It means everything to me that I still felt welcomed back despite going on and off so much, i felt very guilty about for literal months, so thank you all for this!!

Hope your having a great weekend, day/night, or whatever time of day it is for you,

Safe Travels,

💀♒️

:)

[ndjournal]

how to deal with the doubts and fears that it wont work? every time i try to test my powers as "I AM" i get feelings of fear and images that it wont work, that i will have the same results or that the results will be minimal. and then i dont try due to said images playing in my mind. im trying to trust what lester said about everything is your thoughts and ur demonstrating all the time instantly creating, and the feeling of fear goes away and i just think "oh im just not ready yet" but i know thats just a thought as well, lol.

to continue with my previous question (and to explain it better) its like everyday i remind myself that everything im seeing right now is my thoughts (and it honestly does help me feel better) but the idea of trying to consciously create not even just my desires but anything small i automatically feel fear and just dont want to do it. i get images of it taking weeks, months, or getting minimal results (minimal results being for ex i dont really get all that i want) and i dont know how to fight through it. its not even letting go, its more like feeling life is happening to me and i cant control it and whatever happens happens. just accepting that these are my thoughts even this body, and im moving from day to day with unconscious thoughts but that i dont know what else to do?

I'll just let my custom GPT talk (we discussed this together):

You're seeing fear-based thoughts and images because there's still an assumption that "you" are the one trying to make something happen. Manifestation isn’t something you ‘do’—it’s simply the automatic reflection of what consciousness entertains as real.

You're not proving anything to anyone, not even yourself. The moment there’s a need to “test,” there’s already an assumption of separation—like reality is some external thing that needs to be manipulated instead of an effortless extension of awareness​. If you knew, you wouldn’t need proof. You’d just move as if everything were already responding because, well… it is.

Everything is already appearing as your consciousness, instantly. The fear is just the mind trying to reassert itself as the doer, trying to convince you that effort, struggle, and waiting are required. None of that is true​​.

Let’s break this down:

Fear arises because you still believe there’s a process—a gap between intention and outcome. But when identification with limitations drops, so does that gap​.

The images of "it not working" are also manifestations. They’re being entertained as thoughts and therefore appearing to be real. The moment you stop giving them attention as "yours," they vanish​

You don't have to fight through fear. Just recognize that it's an old program running. Fear is always tied to ego because it believes in lack, delay, or failure​. None of those exist outside of belief.

The real hesitation here isn’t about whether or not it works—it’s about letting go of the identity that doubts. That’s the only thing in the way. It’s not about "pushing through" resistance either; it's about ceasing to fuel the assumption that anything is resisting you​.

If you want to play with this, let go of trying to "test" your powers. That frame itself contains doubt. Instead, move as if there’s nothing to prove. Just rest in the knowing that your awareness precedes all appearances. The moment you drop the idea of needing proof, you’ll start seeing how fluid everything already is​.

You’re not "not ready." You’re simply entertaining a hesitation that isn’t even real. Drop it. See what happens.

And, pick one. You either see reality as consciousness—seamless, fluid, already effortlessly reflecting what you see as real—or you entertain the idea that it’s separate, and keep playing that game. Either way, it’s your choice, and both will manifest accordingly.

If someone is wavering between "I know everything is me" and "but what if it isn't?" then their experience will reflect that contradiction—mixed results, inconsistency, confusion. Not because the "universe" is sending mixed signals, but because they are​.

Reality just reflects back the clarity (or lack of it) being entertained. If there's hesitation, it'll show up as hesitation in results. If there's certainty, things move as if they were never separate to begin with.

"and i dont know how to fight through it. its not even letting go, its more like feeling life is happening to me and i cant control it and whatever happens happens. just accepting that these are my thoughts even this body, and im moving from day to day with unconscious thoughts but that i dont know what else to do?"

(My own addition to GPT's answer) This part makes me think you'd benefit greatly from doing mental purification first… you're too deeply identified and busy trying to make reality bend to your will than letting go of all concepts and identification that keeps you from realising that it is already effortlessly reflecting you

[r4bbitmilk]

⚠️ SPOILER WARNING: WINDBREAKER STAGE PLAY⚠️ 

I finally watched wbstage last Sunday!! (but only once, on my phone, with no earphones, while walking with my family at the mall, with my shitty phone signal cutting off every few scenes, but I watched it nonetheless!!!) Here's a dump of my thoughts for anyone interested!!! (It's all glazing)

The stage play was a beautiful and honestly refreshing adaptation from the original material, like even as a person who's watched the anime about 30 times and reread the manga 3 times, this was new and exciting?! I know exactly how the story goes and yet i also didn't?? I don't know. I never in my life thought I needed the wb boys to sing.

And the song genre choices were SUPERB! I loved the funky, kind of pop-leaning(?) music Furin had, while Shishitoren had cool hip-hop and breakdancing, it suit their respective teams' images so well! I also loved the set designs and lighting that even in their simplicity really conveyed the feeling of the originals so well! The warmth of Cafe Pothos, the dark intimidating tunnel between Furin-Shishitoren territory,,, even the arena at The Cage!!!

One of my faves: Nirei's actor was incredible! Completely embodied the little sunshine ball's energy with how he'd run all over the face while talking to Skr. Seeing the "teppen made!!" (to the top!!!) scene again "for the first time" made me tear up!! Such a precious moment.... I really treasure Nirei's frienship with Skr, and his admiration for Skr was palpable imo!!

I also was really impressed by Hiragi!! Truthfully, I don't really have strong feelings for his character, but the coolness of his actor during the play (and the antics he had with Umemiya between scenes lol WHY DID HE THROW HIM TO THE FLOOR HAHA) was so endearing!! Shark mama perhaps I was too harsh on you!! He also really put his all into Tamonshu's intro dance I couldnt help laughing ngl. Like WHAT FOR

Speaking of Umemiya aaaaa he was so cool. His intro was so cute, like a children's song with rainbows and silly choreography, yet when Choji showed up and challenged him there was a certain edge to his voice where he growls some notes in his songs and you could feel that hidden rage Manga and Anime Umemiya showed as well. I also loved his laugh!! That man is a carbon copy of the real Ume!!! Nii-chan 🥺

MEANWHILE CHOJI AAAA I admit I was not the biggest fan of him, especially when I first started watching. I felt a bit of closeness to him after the sstrn VS bfrn battle because I resonated with his loneliness, but overall, he's far from my favorite. BUT STAGEPLAY CHOJI?! That energy was contagious!!! It was so cute!!! The way he flopped over and napped and hung off a chair out of boredom during the fights before his own AAAA IT WAS SO CUTE I forgive you now Choji,,,, we're friends,,, good friends in fact,,,,

Suo is Suo.

Ok but he was really pretty and the fight with Kanuma WAS SO WELL CHOREOGRAPHED Kanuma was the goat for heavy lifting the dance and flopping his body around to make Suo look extra graceful. Hilariously painful performance. I could FEEL the evilness Suo exuded in that scene PHYSICALLY. He's so beautiful and I need him executed (affectionate).

AND STNK'S TOGAME I CANT. I DONT HAVE WORDS. HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL. HIS VOICE IS EXACTLY TOGAME'S AND HIS PERFORMANCE WAS STRAIGHT OUT OF THE ANIME. He breathed life and soul into Tgm and then added his own special Stnk spice to it (totally not a biased review I just really like Togame and me and oomfs replayed his scenes maybe a billion times.)

And ofcourse,,,,, Sakura,,,,,,

God if I wasn't already in love with him before,,,, iskw's performance was breathtaking. He had that perfect blend of cocky confident childishness with the kind of "fuck it" attitude only a guy who's already been through the worst of it can have,,,,, and his voice is deeper than Yuuma's (WHO I LOVE, BTW. ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVE VOICE ACTORS) and gave Skr a more mature vibe AND THE FIGHT WITH TGSK WAS MAGNIFICENT BECAUSE HE (and Stnk!!) WAS SO GOOD AT AMPING UP TENSION AAA the scene where Tgm holds Skr by the collar and talks in his face,,,, Iskw staring right into Stnk's eyes,,,, good god,,,,,, [redacted omegaverse thoughts].

Overall that was such a solid stageplay!!! Thank you SO much to my twt mutuals that invited me to watch with them over Zoom!!! I owe you guys so much aaaa and the screams we had over chat whenever Stnk was on screen!! Core memory<3

I really hope we get more wb stages in the future, because I need that Togame monologue song injected STRAIGHT into my veins and I can only imagine how unhinged and insane an Endo monologue song would be like. God. I'd be on the floor.

If you haven't watched wb stage yet, I highly recommend you do! Aside from a fresh look at the story we've already dissected a million times before (lol), I think the actors did a tremendous job at turning the characters even more "lifelike" with their in-between and off-stage characterizations! I even came to like a few ships more as I watched them interact<3 It definitely deepened my obsession with wb even more!!

[threepoint14art]

hice fichas :3

Things about creatures under the cut because I love to talk, I love to talk.

The first SIX are a group (technically) and I'd already introduced them; The salvaged. But! we changed their designs a little and all that. so im just gonna talk about em again

Belén

Abby's estranged (half) sister. Her animal is a lyrebird! so she can do freaky stuff with voice mimicry or whatever to directly paralel deuz's way of fighting, muscle and brawn VS weird mental games.

She lived all of her life inside a cult until she was 11. Her mouth scar is a tally they gave men, she has scars on the palms on her hands (that you cant see in that drawing oops) because they used to cut those regularly, put everyone's blood on a pot and drank it.

She’s obsessed with individuality while also being extremely hung up on never being alone. The cult she was in denounced the idea of people being individuals and instead promoted the idea of everyone being a piece on a bigger puzzle, everyone copied each other everyone felt what the other did, no one can alone and no one can celebrate by themselves, all must be done in groups and all must be felt as if they were a single entity. She thinks thats gross and wants people to be different and be selfish, do whatever they want forever. Thats why she's scared of being a follower, she doesn't want to fall back into being some weird zombie

Anyways, SHE got out but she sort of assumed her parents were just fully into the whole thing (after all they made her be BORN in it you know.) but actually!!!!!! her mom also got out. And she made a whole new life without her!!! Fun!!! She's like scrap! Left behind and replaced with another kid (in her eyes), so yeah, she kinda has issues with Abby, lol.

Raquel

She's a golden pheasant! and also surprisingly the most normal one of this group

Nothing really went wrong with her (she was born half blind so there's not like any story behind that one), a bad habit just snowballed real bad.

As a little kid she was the type to steal little things, first it was classmate’s erasers, then pencils, then scissors, then their pencil case, and it just kept getting bigger and bigger. And no matter how much she got reprimanded she kept doing it and doing it and it kept just getting worse, and she’s a hoarder on top of that so she’ll take a bunch of stuff she doesnt need and put it on a pile and it’s legitimately suffocating.

She kept stealing her parents and other people’s money, kept making her living space just a pile of everything, and kept getting defensive over said pile as if it wasn’t just clutter, because of this her parents kicked her out with the intention of her getting better while living away, they call her regularly to make sure she’s ok. Surprise! Belén is an enabler! So she got worse! 

She met Bélen when she was straight out of her hell, and they've been together ever since. She helps her a lot with how to be a bird, since Belén grew up insanely detached from animal specific stuff (cogs in a machine all have to be the same so animal specific behaviours were bad). They have mathinc bracelets! yay!

She used to date onyx fun fact! But they broke it off cause she stole a necklace that held a lot of emotional weight to him and refused to give it back like to this day. girl stop being a hoarder.

Mar and Lake

Dont tell anyone but Mar is kind of my favorite oc after red LOL. These two are another set of weird shadow siblings! but unlike Fred and Freddy and their very complicated/ antagonistic at times relationship, these 2 actually get along really well

They are a bandy-bandy snake! They had a really bad home situation since forever and mostly just had eachother (+ avani but ill talk about that beetle later).

Mar goes only by mar, she HATES being called Marisol since her really abusive mom always called her by her full name. She is the one who pilots the body 99% of the time without any resistance, mostly since their childhood has left Lake really scared of most things, she only ever goes out when she's at the shared house their group has, but when they go out it's just Mar. Both of them are suprisingly very kind and nice and normal and it's sort of a contrast to Onnie. While Onnie wishes he killed his dad and takes it out on everything and everyone. Mar actually killed her mom!!! lmao, blah blah blah she was a drunkard and neglectful at worst and abusive at best, so they (mar, lake, and Belén because of course she got involved) kind of just turned on her kitchen and left her passed out in there to get carbon monoxide poisoning. Perfectly believable way for that mf to die! so no one really questioned it

Lake really does not want to be reminded of anything regarding any part of their childhood so Mar renamed her, haha get it the sea and a lake.

Mar is STUPID attached to Avani, best friend forever, girl who patched me up and took care of me my bestest friend forever, they drive me insane.

Avani

I love how she looks absolutely fucking nothing like her animatronic I think it's the funniest thing ever (and in our defense, loon doesn't exactly look or behave like balloon boy either). Her animal is an asian ladybeetle (since those are often regarded as the "evil" counterparts to ladybugs)

She’s a genius in the most objective sense of the word. She skipped a bunch of grades and graduated at 14, fucked around for a year (and deeply regretted it) and then got into med school and is currently in her 4th year! has a full scholarship and is invited back to her school to talk about herself since like hello she graduated at 14? She has never gotten a mark lower than 90. She has had jobs in many high demand and high effort companies, It’s deranged. How are you an office lady and also a med student how do you sleep?

The answer is that she doesn't! The only reason she hasn’t kicked the bucket yet is because she takes unprescribed ADHD medication (Adderall) to increase her productivity, surprise! Taking meds that you don’t need is bad! She has become dependant, she hallucinates, has anxiety, etc. This habit of hers was born from a toxic work environment where literally everyone did the same to be at the top of their game.

Her parents are Indian immigrants, she is first generation, they moved countries when she was barely 1 to try and give her better opportunities. This in her brain translated as “i tore them away from their home, i can’t afford to not pay that debt off with them, I have to make the most with what they gave me through sacrifice” meaning she’s kinda crazy about being the best and always pushing herself further and further and further.  

She has known Mar since she was roughly 5 years old and Mar was 6, she witnessed the poor kid be abused first and forefront, she saw her be all injured and they were unable to go to a hospital because they might contact her mom, AKA the person who did that. And Mar begged and cried for Avani to not tell other adults because she obviously didn’t trust them. This fucked up situation is what pushed Avani to going into medicine, and she was the one who patched up Mar for the most of her life. However, she was a literal kid, so she did mess up a lot of places, left Mar with glaringly obvious scars and stitched her hand wrong, so wrong it keeps hurting even now that she’s 20. Because of this she feels like she also has a debt to pay off with Mar, and often beats herself up for not being knowledgeable enough when she was little to not fuck up so badly. (she's insane)

She has no hobbies, she doesn’t watch tv, she doesn’t watch any media, she doesn’t do anything for fun. If she had to pick one, her “hobby” is probably talking to Mar, she's codependent, she’s insane. Dear god. She doesn’t naturally emote that much, but she is a copycat in the most literal sense i could mean that. She can smile and cry and emote on command by remembering how other people doing it, she is quite literally, copying people, and in most cases, it’s most likely she’s copying Mar in specific. It’s pretty clear she isn’t fully feeling what her face says whenever she pretends though, since her antena, which normally move a lot, always lay completely limp and dead.

She is quite the people pleaser, not in the sense that she will act polite and small and whatever with people, but rather that she feels like she needs to make herself be of any and all use to people she starts considering close to her, which also implies not making them uncomfortable, this makes it so that even though she can deduce a lot of stuff about people really easily, she tends to keep it to herself and pretends to not know stuff she definitely knows, example one, Mar killing her mother. Example 2, Belén being from a cult. Normal things to know and notice as you can see.

God i hate her i can add more probably but ill leave it here for now, oh she uses mirror pronouns btw but shes a cis woman, epical i love when pronouns and gender are different (i dont know how to use mirror pronouns when talking about her in third person)

Scarlet

Lamb for the slaughter! literally!!! She's a sheep

Sickly child (illness tbd) who got hurt easy and frequented hospitals, her parents couldnt keep up with medical bills, both because they were crazy expensive bt also setting time aside to spend time with scarlet meant taking time off from work, which they could hardly do but did when they could. Both of them loved her, and felt bad of for her , that their child was unable to do all the normal kid thingsand was consantly confined to hospitals.

Her mom grew frustrated with scarlet never getting better, turned to faith and as she continued to see 0 progress in scarlet she got more and more agitated from the stress and grieved the child she wished she had, the one she thought she had when scarlet was born, as her thoughts of “this ilness took my child from me” “this illness robbed my child of a normal life” (which were always there, just less prominent) consumed her mind and made her vengeful and angry and she thought that Scarlet was both a weight on her own life, and that her child would be better off dead than suffering. So on one visit she just tried to kill her !!!!!!!!!!!! fun.

both of her parents got arrested! Her mom for trying to kill her and her dad for getting into an altercation with her mom, you cant just ‘assault’ someone even if its for your daughter, I hate the justice system

She's extremely anxious and clingy and sad and also! a bit of an alcoholic! which surely meshes awesome with Mar (it doesn't)

Done with the salvaged! I wish they shut the fuck up i hate them all! uhm whats up with the rest of the kids:

Leslie

Mai and Pup's cousin!!!!!!! Her animal is a black-and-white ruffed lemur and She is a trans girl! Her family is very good about it and also already sort of had experience with it thanks to puppet. She lost one of her eyes to cancer and wears a fake one, she's completely cancer free now though! She is mostly just an unwilling participant of whatever the hell those twins gets up to. Comedically negative girl paired up with the dumbest clowns in the world

She has a weird little mental relationship with her cousins, she hung out with them a lot when she had cancer and with no one else, but because of that closeness she can kinda recognize they don't work very correctly, and sort of feels like a (bad) caregiver who has to babysit them.

Lennard

He goes by Len because “Lennard sounds like an old man,” he is Leslie’s boyfriend! yay! He’s an amblypygi (weird little arachnid) and a laid-back, optimistic guy. He's more of a willing participant in the twins’ escapades, though he’s not as high-energy as they are; he’s more of a go-with-the-flow type.

He’s also narcoleptic and a huge horror fan, but he struggles to engage with most of it because the abundance of jump scares can trigger his cataplexy (a sudden loss of muscle control). Mai has accidentally scared the life out of him more than once (not on purpose!), triggering his cataplexy, and while she feels terrible about it, she just can’t tone herself down. RIP.

Michelle

Michelle :3 my beautiful daughter my ray of sun my little weird bird, she's a roseate spoonbill! Total social butterfly who flows socially perfectly on a surface level casual type deal, but has a hard time figuring out who she is without people beside her! She bases her whole self on talking to people and being with people and hurrah people and nothing without it, she contrasts with her stupid partner in that way (abby) since she has like ZERO hobbies and Abby is SUPER into a bunch of stuff.

She kinda follows the crowd and does whatever her friends want to do, her fear of "having nothing" sounds materialistic but it's mostly about being devoid of any purpose and anything to like at all aside from very surface level stuff :P

Red

Red. thanks for reading.

[blushedfemmes]

young 21yo lesbian (??) here, wondering about stone identities. i spent most of my teenage years thinking i was a bottom, but as i get experience, im realizing that i lean heavily top. im actually incredibly uncomfortable with bottoming, but i cant tell if it's an anxiety thing or an actual preference. in fantasy, i may bottom, but even those fantasies tend to be cnc in nature—as if the only way i want to bottom is to be forced. if im imagining myself with an actual person, im ALWAYS topping. i dont really want Anyone to touch me, although the one time i allowed someone to go down on me, it was really nice except the performance anxiety. it just feels embarrassing and i don't like the feeling of being at someone else's mercy.

my question is, how can i tell if it's a true preference or just anxiety? objectively i can realize it doesn't matter, and the best way to find out is practice, but ah. do you have advice to help me figure it out?

sorry if this is weird or oversteppy, you just seem knowledgeable 😭

my take on stone identities is that they are functional above all else. their purpose is to help you feel more secure about what you want in real life with another flesh-and-blood person in bed, and to communicate that. fantasy does not enter into it. and what you want may change over time, and that’s okay! if it’s helpful to you to use the stone top label, and this makes you feel safe and empowered and happy in your sexual encounters, then do it.

that being said, and more to your actual question: i do think the vulnerability of bottoming is real, and not talked about enough. contrary to what many people believe (subconsciously even), bottoming is a skill that requires a lot of mental presence. to me, it’s almost meditative. being a good bottom means that you are fully grounded in your body and in your pleasure, and this takes a lot of self-work and attention!!! bottoming is not being at someone else’s mercy. you are always in control of what happens to you. even if you are subbing. (especially then!!) you are always in control of your own body and what you do with it, and what someone else does to it.

i think the weird patriarchal nonsense re: bottoming being an inherently weak, lesser, embarrassing act has a much bigger impact on all our brains than anyone wants to admit, even us queer enlightened kinky people. it’s hard to undo this. and bottom or not, it can be really hard to get comfy with your own pleasure, especially if you had a repressed, sex-negative upbringing (like i did)

so i guess to answer your question, the best way to find out what you genuinely prefer is to get comfortable with your own pleasure. it belongs to you and there is nothing embarrassing in it. ever. and getting comfortable with your pleasure doesn’t mean you have to do anything, or let someone touch you, or even touch yourself!! it means confronting those feelings of embarrassment and shame and being like “hm. where did you come from.” it means getting curious about your gut reactions. it means letting your horny thoughts take you wherever and reward your explorations with self-reassurance rather than shutting it down. it also means getting okay with the fact that if you are having sex, your pleasure is involved, even if it’s the purely mental pleasure of a stone top. because if i can be so honest for a sec, being topped by someone who doesn’t have a strong connection to their own pleasure, or finds shame in their pleasure, is a difficult experience. it ends up being more effort on my part as a bottom to connect with them and enjoy myself. super long answer but as befits a complex question, hope some of that resonated and sending love!!

[nicofan57]

hi i havewords to share. the seitei war info from this chapter is propaganda (kagurabachi 66 spoilers kinda)

okay i dont really post much analysis or long textposts on here (i usually share my bachi thoughts on reddit) so um. bear with me. also if anyone wants to add or refute a point i make idm! im not the Most knowledgeable on these things so

^the pages i am talking about, for reference

first i wanna start by talking about real life. for anyone reading this that doesnt know yet, kagurabachi’s story is about japan’s atrocities in ww2, it is anti-imperialist. history textbooks glorify the military especially, and schools just dont explain the war in depth and for the most part this contributes to making japan look better. there is a lot of glorification of japan as a completely “perfect” country, even from the citizens themselves, because they dont have anything deeper than a basic understanding of what happened during ww2. i read something on this for an ap lang paper, so i’ll link it if anyone’s curious (idk how to access this without jstor, sorry!): The Glorification of War in Japanese Education by Saburo Ienaga.

now how does this relate back to kagurabachi ? at first glance, the info about the seitei war doesnt really seem like its propaganda, and its easy to fall for what these pages are trying to make you believe— that the people on the shokoku are the enemies (ive seen it happen on twitter). but actually examining the pages, its very vague. like it just talks about “the invasion” it doesnt say like Who invaded What if you get what i mean. the vagueness is intentional, it shows there is something about the war we dont know. chihiro is only just regurgitating the surface level information he knows about the war to iori, who only also has that surface level knowledge (since her memories got wiped). both are victims of this censorship i mentioned before, it’s supposed to reflect the basic education japanese people get about ww2. it says the blades and the master swordsmen “wiped out the enemy” but who really Is the enemy? if the people of the shokoku really were the enemies, why was there graffiti on samura’s walls saying he’s a murderer, despite being regarded as a hero in school? why was kunishige so reluctant to tell chihiro about the war?

so honestly i think that it wasn’t really a war it looks like it was kind of more like. a genocide. it makes sense, theres a lot of recurring events in history where the gist is “strong country invades other country and destroys the natives of other country in order to exploit/take something”. land, materials, etc (in this case it would be the datenseki). it lines up with samuras betrayal and his goal to kill all the swordbearers, it lines up with kunishige frowning whenever shiba told chihiro stories from the war, it lines up with even shiba being hesitant to reveal what really happened in the war to chihiro and shatter what hes known for his entire life to keep him safe, and probably many other instances i cant think of rn

as a closing thought: based off the information we have now, the closest thing i think parallels the seitei “war” from actual history is the pacific war during ww2

[leychin]

PLAY NICE by @sugoi-and-spice may be the best thing ive ever read and im going to talk about it. I binged it all today. its so good please read it

TW: Mentions of r4pe, panic attacks, abus3, and many other traumas

This may be the best characterization of Shigaraki in fiction ive ever seen. Its realistic and it starts off like he does in season one. A brat, untamed, violent, and impulsive. When we meet him its clear he has no goal and hes throwing shots in the dark, waiting to see what hits. But its deeper than that, and i think spice shows that its shigaraki used to getting what he wants, hes never "failed" before and he doesn't intend to start now.

Its messed up, its all a fucked up situation darling lands herself in. She cant say no, she cant do anything, and in many ways shigaraki is no different. He's doing as his sensei instructs, and its what hes been raised to do and he cant do anything about it either, but at he tries to enjoy what he can.

The relationship is built off of him holding this over her head, she has a good life, good family, friends, and a boyfriend. Shes smart but shes not happy, and even early shigaraki may have been a brat but he was perceptive at least. In the short time they spend together he's learned her quirks, what makes her tick, and how she really is.

they both really do bring the worst out in eachother, but it's also the best isnt it? As the story progresses we see Shigaraki give crumbs of his past or what he remembers of it, and we see her learn to let go of the facade she puts up for everyone else around her. Its not even a healthy relationship, its not like theyre "getting better for eachother" its just a passive effect. Their relationship is still founded on shigaraki very openly r4ping the poor girl and holding her fathers job over her head.

Call it stockholm, but she gets too caught up in the routine of being with Shigaraki and its adorable to see, he can fuck her brains out and then tell her to play black ops 2 with him like its nothing. Its a welcomed click because theyre both lonely, they both need someone, and even if they arent the best people, they end up becoming better i cannot stress that enough.

i dont want to spoil too much of it for anyone who reads my little ramblings on it, but shigaraki opening up to her as time continues, learning, and not just seeing her as an npc is something you need to read and i cant possibly hope to explain. He falls so hard its so good. His thought processes, his panic attacks, his itching, its all so perfect.

Spice you need to pursue a career in writing bc you've made something raw, something real. You wrote a story about two bad people, two people who are bad but better and its gross but its also gross in a cute way. i love you and i love this mwah.