#i cant catch a fucking break apparently
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actual-changeling · 2 years ago
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my insomnia is apparently back with a vengeance which is uhhhhh great fucking fantastic cause my depression is doing the same thing, all my hope is in my psych appointment on monday i better be getting some new prescriptions because what the fuck besties.
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago
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#sorry i cant shut the fuck up today. i think i just feel worse on the weekends bc i kno i shoulf b relaxing#ppl r telling me to relax. take a break. let me kno how i can help. let me kno if theres a problem. bc my behavior is apparently ya kno like#visibly somethings not right. but how tf am i supposed to relax when i have so much to do#so im stuck spiraling like dont work but also think insistently abt working. but get nothing done. its horrible#mostly rn im stressed abt all the grading i havent done and the work on my masters data i havent done#but its like. something in my head is on fire and it's burning thru all my cognitive energy. i am just trying to keep existing#how tf am i supposed to find the energy to read 45 lab reports? im like illiterate#and idk i just feel bad about coming into a new lab being so sick. i just dont like being a problem#it also does not reflect well on my future career that im being such a flake on things. like sorry if i have to work on my research#assistant data rn i might die ✌️ ugh. itll b fine. i just need to find a way to effectively manage my head#and i keep hearing my dads voice in my head talking abt personal responsibility but like i dont even kno how to employ that. i could suck#it up and double down on productivity but that way leads to burnout and self destruction. do i doubke down on relaxing?#i dont kno how to do that. like u would probably just have to drug me. which is y i do not partake in substances. that way also leads#to self destruction. so what am i do to? cross my fingers and pray for a fluctuation in my general mood?#hope that aliens invade and that an incoming invasion sharpens my focus onto only one single thing?#idk. but my sister is finally working on the fish i askrd her yo draw me. so i gotta think of how i wanna get it tattooed#bc shes not an art person and its an act of indulging chaos to get an imperfect image tattooed onto me#so i might have to do some things to make it make me not insane. i asked for this bc i like causing myself problems. also i was in a#slightly altered state of mind when i asked lol but i stand by it haha. anyway. idk things r just annoying and hard rn as i knew they would#b. and im good at catching myself before things get dangerous but it sucks that i feel like a ticking time bomb of destruction. ugh.#unrelated
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dyonatto · 2 months ago
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One of the worst feelings is when I finally finish a drawing I had been working on and upon closer inspection of the final piece on my phone gallery
Just then I noticed
I fucked up the hands
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mimiccx · 9 months ago
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never-quite-buried · 2 years ago
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One of the hardest things about growing up is navigating adulthood dynamics to my immediate family.
Like Im mending my relationship with my dad, a relationship which is good as dead for my siblings, however while he was actively abusive to my brother, his step son, my brother is still more willing to interact with him than our shared mother, who he has been No Contact with for about 14 years now.
Meanwhile I have an actively positive relationship with my mom while my sister is at the point of sorting retirement homes by rating: lowest to highest.
At the same time i am personally still No Contact with my brother and have a super close relationship with my sister and she is super close with our brother.
And somehow all us siblings are able to manage these boundaries and limits in far healthier ways than our fore generation (my dad going on facebook spiels about being the black sheep of the family, mother not talking to siblings at all and only SM usage being links to external sources) and with more respect for each other’s situations. Like it’s HARD sometimes but i think at this point we know that the hard work is worth it. Im so grateful to be a sister to these two incredible people.
#family dynamics#family dysfunction#break the cycle#i’m nc with my brother until im in a better situation to tackle my ongoing attachment issues#which in therapy i’ve gone back and back and back to my experience of him just Leaving when i was a kid with no explanation#one day i know i can delve into all of that and it won’t sink me so deep i cant break for air#that day isn’t today or any in the foreseeable future#i talk about it a lot with my sister and she understands how even tho it wasnt actively malicious that it was a Core Memory for me#like growing up and learning the Truth doesnt undo the pain that was experienced by a younger more ignorant self#my memories of those years are so so scattered (and im apparently missing a 7 month chunk where we lived in this town after living in FL)#i remember specific abuses because they were Commented On#i remember the adults#two maternal uncles one paternal uncle my paternal grandmother and both parents#laughing at a funny store paternal uncle was regaling#of how upset my sister (6 years old ftr) got when he wouldnt open the peanut butter jar for her so she could make a sandwich#i dont remember him telling her no or her crying#but i remember them lauging about it like it was so funny#and now as an adult i s2g if anyone withheld food from my nieces or ANY child in my vicinity and then mocked their distress#i would probably catch a fucking charge#now my memories of my brother are so few and far removed but the vast majority that i still have are positive#but at a distance positive#like thats a nice story#not thats a nice memory#idk idk#point is we’re trying our best with the shit hand we got dealt and even if i cant talk to him it feels good knowing he has my back#in accepting and respecting my boundaries#my sister’s getting married now tho and my heart is breaking for her#because it’s a Have brother at wedding (preferable!!!! but involves explaining why her dad isnt walking her down the aisle)#to again having her parents present and her father walking her down the aisle and her mother giving the toast#she texted dad that her partner proposed and he sent a THUMBS UP EMOJI
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seongminiz · 1 year ago
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Thoughts ab clingy bf new? Esp trying to distract when playing games?
(shh i want more chanhee content i love him)
im ripping my hair out U ALWAYS SOMEHOW KNOW WHAT TO ASK TO GET MY BRAIN GOING ILY
clingy chanhee thoughts !!
minors dni ; boyfriend chanhee x afab reader ; 656 words
warnings ! established relationship , dom!chanhee , oral (reader rec) , edging , not proofread + lowercase intended :3
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chanhee is so ,, im in love with him istg
hes such a tease mostly bc he loves when u get fed up with how distracting hes being n finally snap (but he'll never admit it) but also hes so cute when hes clingy ,, how can u say no to a pretty boy like him ? (spoiler : u cant)
he'll literally do anything in his power to distract u especially when ur playing games bc why don't u just play with him ? he rlly doesn't get it !!
if ur sitting on the couch while playing, he'll sit next to u at first, n then when he realizes u have no intention of paying attention to him he'll lay his head on ur lap, one of his pretty delicate hands (i love chanhee's hands btw aaaaa im crazy aaaa) squeezing ur thigh from time to time.
you'd call his name out a few times as a warning, your eyes never leaving the screen as chanhee pouts bc u r literally so mean! he keeps raking his brain for an idea to get ur attention as he plays with the hem of ur shirt, the tips of his fingers brush against your sides and making you shiver, but still not giving him your undivided attention.
thats when chanhee has the best idea ever.
"can i eat you out?" he asks casually, as if hes asking what movie u should watch later tonight, or what's for dinner (for you? who knows! for chanhee? you, apparently) that wasn't funny sorry
chanhee's mission is successful, as you pause your game and slowly put the controller down to your side, giving him an incredulous look while he smiles innocently at u.
"what?"
"i said," he sits back up, one hand still on your waist "can i eat you out?"
you know this is where it would eventually go. yet you can still feel your face heat up in embarrassment, as if chanhee isn't literally your boyfriend and he hasn't seen you in far more compromising situation than eating u out in the couch.
"yeah," you finally say once you manage to break out from the initial shock. chanhee is ecstatic, leaving a quick kiss on ur lips before getting on his knees on the floor and tugging impatiently at your shorts and underwear to take them off of u in one go.
he's so eager, and has been acting needy and clingy for the whole past hour or so, you really don't expect him to start teasing you out of nowhere, when hes so close to getting what he wants. so that's exactly what he does, catching u off guard. you're kind of mistaken, chanhee doesn't want to eat u out - i mean, ofc he does, he loves going down on u everytime he has the chance, but that's not his main goal at the moment! he wants your undivided attention, so ofc he'll drag it out as much as possible.
he starts leaving kisses along your thighs, so slowly you feel like you're actually about to go insane, chanhee takes his time with you even when you're whining his name and asking him not to tease you, trying to grab his hair to pull him closer to you just for him to wrap his free hand around your wrist and pinning it to your side.
even when he gets to actually eating you out, hes such a tease abt it :(( giving kitten licks to your clit and poking your hole with his tongue until you're a shaking mess bc the stimulation is just not enough for anything! but it's only fair after u were so mean to chanhee n ignored him, no?
but dw! sooner or later he'll get tired of teasing, satisfied bc he thinks u got what you deserved, and he'll start to properly eating you out, so messy n sloppy as he fucks you with his tongue until you cum .
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(me after writing like 11 paragraphs leading up to the smut n only 2 paragraphs of actual action)(do not question my vision im a writer im an artist im simply above all judgment /j)
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correctproseka · 4 months ago
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Any update on the Honami-focused fics?
I had to send this to the girl to remind her lmao, and then i just remembered it now but yes, and im sorry for the delay
She said a lot are Shihonami specifically bc thats her main ship but here is the list she made:
Ill start with the Shihonami ones, the non shihonami will have a separate category here:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/44241139 - Shihonami. Shiho wants Honami to catch a fucking break and be less of a people pleaser. While it is a shippy story its extremely focused on Honami and her self worth issues.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/42301902. Shihonami as well. Hanahaki disease with a happy ending
https://archiveofourown.org/works/43345192 - shihonami as well, obviously since this is the shihonami category, canon divergence au/strangers to lovers? Its 1am and this has 7k words im not reading to explain it better you twke the tags i found important /lh
https://archiveofourown.org/works/44120649 - their self promo, kind of a joke/crack fic.. its about honami's drawings for context
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Non shihonamy (or non solo shihonami)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/51638551 - polyneed. "i dont remember much of this one but its in my bookmarks so it must be good" too bad i read it. Kind of a soulmate au? Cant explain you gotta read it
https://archiveofourown.org/works/47945278 - Haruka/Honami. Their own self promo time. Plat or rom.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/47163505 - Shihokana centered but apparently Honami is extremely important plot wise so ig it counts? Also another one of their own self promo
https://archiveofourown.org/works/44102640 - Honasaki, not finished and she said she thinks it'll never be but it was too good to not add. Au with supernatural elements and gods/goddesses? 5 chapters 30k+ words
https://archiveofourown.org/works/46294699 -i was told to add this one "for laughs".... Scaramouche (genshin impact)/Honami Mochizuki. I. Could explain it better but do I want to? No
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casuallycryingoverbooks · 9 months ago
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Okay so after kind of a long break cuz i felt like i burned through most of season 8 waiting for Mulder to get back i just started watching s08e19 Alone. Here are my thoughts
Aaaaahhhhh i love Dogget he’s grown on me so much. He and Scully actually care about each other as friends
Mulder taking an active role in Scully’s pregnancy after being justifiably distant since he’d been returned makes me melt
“Agent doggets a big boy, he can tale care of himself. You have to worry about the little boy. Little girl? Little boy? Or little girl?” AH BARK BARK
No dogget’s spent too much time with Scully he’s touching unidentified goup with his bare hands
Dad!skinner telling Scully she’s not aloud into the office. Skinner acting like Mulder and Scully are the two children he never wanted but begrudgingly loves anyway is my everything
Scully you should mot be autopsying that body and everyone knows it except for you apparently and btw put a goddamn mask on
Mulder is concerned about his son and his wife, partner (girl?) friend more than any x-file
When tf was it confirmed that the baby is mulder’s?
I was so distracted by Mulder and Scully I forgot 8 was supposed to be worried about Dogget what’s going on
When x-files agents drop random history lessons>>> please tell me more about the prohibition
Skinner: mulder your not supposed to be out here. Mulder does what mulder wants
A “walk in the woods” or “nice trip to the forest” has never gone well for this man
“I didn’t catch a name agent-“ “kersh.” HAHAHAHA agent mulder is not a field agent but he doesn’t have to be if he’s not agent Mulder
Mulder looks really good in this episode
Nah dog (random evil biologist guy) get away from my new son (dogget)
Agent Harrison pisses me off, girl no way you read all the reports and went “i wanna do that!!!” And THEN you were freaked out. Like do i love the xfiles? Yeah! Is a career path im considering with an intelligence agency like the fbi? Yeah. Would i ever want to work on an xfile if they were real? Nope nope nope
MULDER SCULLY FACETIME CALLS ARE BACK HELLLLLLL YEAHHHHH
Skinner reprimanding Mulder is back can i get a waahooo?
“You re-gifted my apollo medallion” yes and i wish she fucking didn’t
ENZYMES THOSE ARE ENZYMES (ha, i was right)
“Talk about the blind leading the blind” man-
Rut row raggy
Yes, let’s shoot a firearm when we can’t see anything! That’s a really good idea!
Bad mulder! That is not something we say and then hang up on our wife, partner (girl?) friend
That is a big fucking lizard and I’m getting the feeling i was already supposed to know about it but wasn’t paying attention
Mulder bby they are not your colleagues you are unemployed
“It’s alright, it’s just me” Ahhhh soft dogget
Can Dogget and Mulder be bros please
Mulder you absolutely fucking moron ❤️❤️❤️
“Aim at me” “No!!! I’ll shoot you” “your not gonna shoot me”x4 Haha i cant believe that fucking worked
MULDERS HAND ON SCULLYS BACK AAAAH
Mulder giving Dogget the medallion ahhhhh
I’m very articulate rn
She’s such a fan hahaha
“It was never actually proven it was a spaceship-“ “it wasn’t?” + more bickering “you were frozen and then I hugged you untill you were not frozen anymore” THATS CANON NOW
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thesrctsoftheuniverse · 5 months ago
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just finished season 6!!! idk how i managed to do that in such a short period of time but yay
once again here are my thoughts:
i liked season 5 way more sorry not sorry. there are some storylines this season that i really enjoyed but personally i loved season 5 and the insight it gave us into these characters and their traumas
the blimp emergency was really boring and stupid. were they even trying???
last season i was missing the med school storyline for hen. well this season i got it back! i dont really know how to feel, obviously im glad that hen isnt becoming a doctor and leaving the 118 but she worked so hard on it, it makes me sad. on the other hand she was and will in the future once again be a fantastic captain and i loved how both her and karen gave up some of their old dreams so they could fulfill their new ones.
i absolutely loved the episode with the explosion at karen's work place, i loved getting the insight into how they met and got together and eventually took in denny. i love these two and i love chim for being an awesome friend and wingman for introducing these two. once again, chim being a wonderful friend
the storyline about the little girl that went missing in athena's hometown??? oh my god, i love that they resolved that, giving her closure for that part of her life as well. i knew about a third of the way into the episode who was at fault, but it was still very interesting to watch and i loved seeing it get resolved.
can they please stop giving maddie the domestic abuse calls? that poor woman.
eddie struggling with chris growing up and leaning on buck for advice. maybe ill just die????
the episode of that famous actress just being involved in accidents again and again was hilarious, honestly her and eddie should remain friends. i wish we saw more of the 118 having friends outside of the team ngl
MAY GRANT THE ICON THAT YOU ARE!!! she is so effortlessly cool, i just cant describe how much i love her. she remained so calm and focused on the phone with that incel, i love her so much, i hope they keep bringing her back every once in a while
THE WENDALL STORYLINE??? that shit killed me... bobby cares so deeply about the people he loves, the people that have helped him. i loved this storyline so much, it was so beautiful and tragic i can't describe it. and athena just sticking by him even when no one really believed it could be anything BUT an OD??? i love them, i wish they were able to catch a break
denny?? i dont love that storyline, mainly because to me its clear that he should've just ASKED about his biological father. they clearly gave him the info about his biological mother, what was the problem with the other parent? very confused by it. also the biological father keeping this from hen and karen is so fucked up. i would've forbidden them from seeing each other at least for a while because that was fucked up from both of them. why did denny seemingly not get punished for lying and sneaking behind his mothers' back?? i truly dont get it, like yeah he wanted to know his father but the problem is sneaking around and lying because its DANGEROUS.
ngl the lightning scene always looked more dramatic in the edits, but holy shit the coma dream was wild. buck leaving it because he knew, no matter what, he couldn't bring back bobby. he might be able to fix the rest, but not bobby. and him not telling the real bobby in the end what had happened to his coma dream counterpart? i am about to start crying again. i loved seeing that his parents apparently are capable of caring about him. hopefully the show actually shows the parents apologising and growing and learning.....
chim and maddie buying the murder house is kind of insane. i mean it looks super cute but its insane. what the fuck??? also love the spontaneous family reunion....albert has a point but also what the fuck???? i love chim, he deserved better. if this show insists on trying to fix the character's relationships with their parents they better remain consistent with it and not forgive and forget after one episode.....
buck suddenly being a math genius after the coma is hilarious. doesnt make up for the lack of clipboard buck this season though
chim going back to the academy and getting ravi.... god i missed ravi so much, i want him as a main character or at least to show up MORE OFTEN than he is now. i love chim, i love seeing him work through his trauma of kevin dying, even just in the smallest way. and would love to see that one recruit that quit the academy actually work at dispatch.
so um.... eddie is going back to dating because his aunt wants him to? because his family wants him to? because that's what everyone is expecting of him? because that's what he learns he's supposed to do? because everyone is telling him to?... right. going to the golf club to find women to date....funny. i love marisol!!! she is so cute. what a shame that eddie is gonna traumatise her :((
oh my god almost forgot about the sperm donor storyline. honestly what a mess. i dont like it. clearly buck was the wrong person to do it, because the look on his face when he saw the baby that was biologically his??? i wanted to d!e.... what the fuck. why would they do that to him..... thats so fucked up. also having him help the mother of the child for... weeks???? and then also assisting in the birth of said child???? JAIL. what the fuck. what the fuck.
natalia apparently "really sees him" after she asked him about dying??????????????????? im so confused about why he felt so strongly right away, he needs some therapy. like she is super pretty and super cool, dont get me wrong!! but it was one date... dude, get up.
the proposal storyline... not my fav but i loved maddie being the one to propose to chim!! that was adorable, i love the two of them together sososososo much..... and i love jee! she is adorable, especially when she drove buck crazy when he was babysitting her.
the catastrophe at the end of the season couldve maybe gotten dragged out more, with more stations assisting and without having chim, an experienced paramedic, moving around and removing an object that pierced him from his body, the one thing he always tells victims NOT to do. it could've be done a lot better i think, even if buck was really cool during it.
lucyyyyyyy i miss youuuuu and also lena bosko still!!!
i get what people meant when talking about the couch theory now. i get it. yessss couch theory!!!!!!
fun. idk how ill watch all of season 7 before s8 starts but yay!!!
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camryntheking · 4 months ago
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9-1-1 Season 8 Episode 1 Reactions
Listen. I know im a week late. And ive made promises about when things will get posted. So apparently im a liar lmao. BUT. I am here for season 8. Cos watching a single episode is easier (in my mind) than committing to a whole season. So here i am.
God i love Eddie’s mustache. Hate that Gerrard likes it. Fuck Gerrard. Also. Why is Buck so pretty?? I cant handle it. And hes mad oh no
Athena has a right to be mad about Dennis tbh
Not a British actor playing an American firefighter in a show in the show 😂😂😂 And poor Bobby. He just wants his job back 😭😭😭
Buck being fascinated with the bees is so cute
And Mara and Hen and Karen are so cute i need them to adopt her yesterday
Buck and Tommy are cute together. But Buddie is still endgame. And Buck is so cute when hes flustered. But Chris being distant is so sad. I wanted to cry
Ofc Buck picks Eddie to be the one attracting the bees lmao. I love that Eddie turned hoping someone was behind him. The frantic running and Go Pro footage is SENDING me. And Eddie just accepting that Buck put him in this situation lmao. Buck just looks so proud of himself
Athena putting the dude in the trunk is so funny. I love her
Eddie trying to cut Buck off is so funny. Also. Wtf does “broody little pout” mean, Gerrard?? Fuck you. And poor Buck being overstimulated. That was honestly too accurate. But Eddie being the only clear voice? Hmmmm. And oh shit. I knew Buck tackled Gerrard but holy shit
My girl Athena cant catch a fucking break. Please Tim. Can she please go three episodes without something happening to her 😭😭😭
Ok! Those are my reactions and thoughts! Feel free to message me or comment if you wanna talk about the show (or anything really)
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ferrocyan · 4 months ago
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i’d love to hear more about honey and yaana’s friendship :3 and any honeytart tidbits that come to mind hehe i love them
hello my friend you sure are asking the most. questions here ily okay first of all. um i dont know if theyre friends actually. while yaana is definitely the type to make friends w everyone in arcadia honey to me is the opposite. shes guarded herself w her nice cute idol facade and doesnt rly let ppl in for the sake of her work. like the fun thing that made me want to write the chatfic was that i thought the way honey chats is like. if you take a screencap out of context theres no way to make her sound bad. i just know she would be thinking of it that way www but like i cant imagine talking w someone like that is fun
tart got lucky w honey in that way bc in their match her mask already slipped off and then they met outside of the arena so she didnt bother covering for herself haha. and the way he thinks of ppls facades too is like, thats also the real them, yknow. the way ppl think honey is just being fake when shes nice, tart thinks like no she is genuinely that nice and cute. and also kind of an asshole haha (honey imagines beating him to a pulp like that kabru wanting to beat up laios panel wwww)
however it must be said. theyre so fucked. i dont know how the story is going to treat sphenes passing and i just. cannot stop thinking abt that post abt how honey b lovely constructed her fake queen persona to be a hated heel and then it blows up in her face bc the audience loves her, and then it blows up in her face again when the real queen died like a week before the honey b lovely comeback match, and then it blows up a third time when she catches feelings for this motherfucker. a bitch CANNOT catch a break. im like actually dying saying this i am so not strong enough to write this head on but what do you think was going on when tart is intoxicated on her venom and calls her your majesty. it has never been more joever im afraid theyre fucked beyond belief (...unless?)
this is probably psychological horror for honey but tbh its also rly funny to me im sorryy shes gotta be looking at tart like the best case scenario is this guys using her as a rly unhealthy coping mechanism. and the worst case scenario is when the government resumes working in a few days or so this man will be on the news for committing regicide and the robocops will be at her door. its so fucked. and yet i dont think she can resist the sirensong of "this person wants to be friends w me for real" so i dont think she would just. cut off contact w tart and never speak w him again. its not like she has m.any friends otherwise haha.. ha.
anyway though that becomes the impetus for honey to contact yaana like hey you might wanna reconsider partnering up w souleater. i think hes hiding something and he might be bad news (she doesnt like. have proof that tart killed the queen. its probably just her paranoia talking. but better safe than sorry right?? right???). yaana at first doesnt rly believe her, and then she does but decides she doesnt care if tart is hiding something from her. but what she does care about is that apparently miss queen bee gives a shit about people around her! who knew :3c she teases honey so hard abt this and thats how they become friends to me hahahah
okay but despite all that (gestures above) i still do have a couple honeytart things i wanna write about ehehe theyre not the most cooked ideas but i still wanna get them out >w<
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xxaraaq · 2 years ago
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Sorry that I didn't post anything for like three months, but it dont matter anymore, cus I'm here now
MILF! Ochako Ururaka x Black!Fem!reader
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At the ripe age of thirty two, Uruaka Ochako would consider herself to be a great mother. But with her boys, nine, seven, and four – she’s so fucking tired. Tired of not being able to catch a break, tired of not being able to live her life as a young woman, and really fucking tired of having a man child of a husband who couldn’t give less of a shit about her and their kids.
She’s tried to be okay with it, but she just cant be. But when she voices it, all she's met with – ‘it’s not like he's cheating on you, he probably just doesn’t find you attractive anymore.’ or ‘just lose some weight or offer to do more, he’s obviously distant for a reason’. And she’s tried all these things, so, so many times. But nothing ever worked, so she’s just given up. And maybe she just had shitty friends, but the two of you first, she had actually felt something.
“So wait – you're telling me that you haven’t had sex in how long?” You whisper, choking on your drink “Eleven months.” She sighs, taking a drink of her mimosa – she hadn’t touched her husband intimately in almost a year, and it was getting to her. She was getting antsy, and she was getting tired of pleasuring herself on her own.
“I would commit suicide, like, actually kill myself. Are you ok?” and Uruaka knows that she’s not, but there isn't anything she could really do.
“I’ve been so stressed out that I don’t know what today is, I’m not even joking.” She says, the fatigue apparent on her figure
“I seriously don’t know why you won’t get a divorce, I will literally move in with you to help out with the kids if that’s what it takes.” And your serious, the look in your eyes directed right at her
“If I could just get one day, that’s all I would need.” She groans, dreaming of the day where that happens
As the conversation goes along, her husband, m/n, comes up. “Hey honey, me and the boys are gonna go watch the game at Mikey’s house. I’ll be back later.” He says, turning away soon after. With an eye roll and shooing hand, she sends him off with malice in her heart. 
“He really gets on my fuckin nerves.” You say, side eyeing him as he walks away with his friends.
“I genuinely don’t care anymore.” Ochako says, getting up to go to the kitchen
Following after her, you close the door behind you, pulling down the blinds
“What’s wrong?” You say, opening your arms for an embrace
“I am so sick of him.” She says, a shake in her voice
“I know baby, I know.” You say, rubbing soothing circles on her back
“I get that he doesn’t care about me, but can he at least fucking act like it.” She cries into your chest
“He doesn’t deserve you, not like I do.” and she knew it was true
“Lemme make you feel better, how bout’ that?” You ask, pulling back from her
“W-what?” She, wiping the tears from her face
“You heard me, Ochako. Let me help you, you need it.”
The both of you know that anyone could walk in at any moment – but that didn’t stop you from kissing her – nor did it stop her from kissing you back. By the time she gained her senses back she was in her shared room.
“We can’t, everyone’s outside.” She says in between kisses
“We already are, and who cares, no one’s gonna come in here.” You shush her, attacking her neck with hickeys
She moans, grasping your hair in her hands – she doesn’t know why she keeps denying herself, she can’t even remember the last time she came by someone else’s touch.
“Fuck.” She moans, the feeling of your hands traveling over her breasts driving her mad. 
You pull down the top of her light blue sundress, exposing her front to you.
“So pretty.” You groan, capturing her breast in your hand, rolling her nipple in between your fingers
Ochako whimpers at the feeling of your fingers toying with her, her getting wetter by the second.
“Take it off for me, yeah?” You ask, tugging at hem of her dress
Nodding, she quickly strips down, throwing it to a random spot in the room.
“So fucking gorgeous.” You utter, hands finding rest on her hips
“Don’t be weird.”She says, wrapping her arms around neck
She kisses you – passionately – as you lead her and yourself onto the bed. You suck on her neck as you make you way down to her thighs, lifting one onto your shoulder.
“Can I?” You ask, playing the fabric of her underwear
“Don’t ask me stupid questions.” She groans, tucking a strand of your hair behind your ear as you smile
Taking her answer as a yes, you pull her panties off onto one ankle, licking a slow stripe up her slit. You rub slow circles on her thighs as you continue your assault on her cunt.
“Ohhhhh fuckkkk” She whines, throwing her head back in her ecstasy
“Tastes so good.” You mutter into her, the vibrations of your voice going straight to her core
She doesn’t know why she hasn’t let you touch her sooner – the fluid movements of your tongue making her delusional. But the best part is, all she has to do is sit there and take it.
You massage your thumb around her puckering hole before inserting two into her. “Shitttt” she mewls, holding both her legs up to her chest
“I can’t, s’ too much.” She slurs, her legs shaking as you slurp and suck up her excess
“You can do it mama, cum for me.” You say, moving your fingers in and out of her at an even quicker pace
“Shittttttttt” She screams, squirting onto you and the sheets
“Damn, I didn’t know you could squirt like that.” You say, licking her off of you
“I, I didn’t know either.” She exhales, letting her legs drop onto the now wet sheets
“Uh uh, why’d you let go.” You say, rubbing slow circles on her now puffy clit
“W-wait, we can’t keep going, everyone’s still outside.”
“And they’ll stay outside, I never said I was done with you. Eleven months is a long time y’know; I can’t let go now.” You explain, Entering her once more
Ochako moans as she thinks about what she got herself into. And she really, really hopes that everyone knows exactly where the bathroom is.
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Yayy I post. Dont expect me to post until summer now byee.
-Nene
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musashi · 21 days ago
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so i'm new to the pokemon fandom and i am embarrassed about being new to the pokemon fandom despite that not being an embarrassing thing at all because, really, who cares when someone gets into things?
that being said - i didn't know what the term in your carrd meant. so i looked it up. and turns out, genwunners apparently do care about something as trivial as that!
so i guess i'm asking - do genwunners typically describe themselves as genwunners in the same way that (sorry if this breaks your DNI i just truly cant think of another example) antis/proshippers identify themselves by actively listing it in their bios, etc? or is it more of just like a Vibe and a specific sort of opinion that people hold that is only made obvious through their posts that newer fans may not catch on to?
i guess my ACTUAL question is do you have any particular advice on how to avoid them? especially since i'm very slow at watching things, and even though i've more or less dabbled in the games for a decade or so, i have truly seen less than 20 episodes of the whole show and am currently watching it in order :> so my main focus at the moment IS gen one just cuz that's what i'm on!! so i guess i'm asking if you had any advice or "red flags" to look out for? i get the vibe that most Gen One Fans hate Genwunners which is. good. we love it. we love to see people absolutely exiling gatekeepers. BUT. i want to know how to be a gatekeeper exiler myself!
oooh that's a good question... no i don't think most 'true' genwunners identify as such. the term was coined derogatorily to refer to people in their 30s who insist that only generation one of pokemon is good, and that it 'went downhill' after that. the stereotypical genwunner is very smug about having been there since the beginning and often claims that pokemon nowadays are uninspired and gimmicky.
i can definitely believe there are some sarcastic, sly-eyed folks out there who self identify as genwunners because it's their fave gen or the only one they care about, but i think by definition they can't be true genwunners because they're cool enough to acknowledge that about themselves and most genwunners are, in fact, not cool at all and are shitty little pissbabies who think they're special because their parents fucked at some point in the late 80s.
genwunner is just a word for a type of 'annoying fandom person' so in lurking you will probably meet them and just naturally find yourself annoyed by them. feels kinda weird to make a list of 'red flags' when they are just annoying people who have annoying opinions about pocket monster. they are not subtle so there's no need to look for sneaky dogwhistles. you'll just post some cute screencap of pikachu from episode 27 of OS and some dude will show up in your tags like "remember when the pokemon anime was ACTUALLY GOOD?" and you'll be like ew
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stonyponyofficial · 2 years ago
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oh shit? whats that skanking this way? are those some more summer songs? are those some summer songs spliced seamlessly alongside some ska since Skaugust started? seems interesting, maybe u should pick em up and take a listen if u get the chance... might be the rudest sounds of the SKAmmer...
🎺spotify link ⬛⬜⬛⬜⬛⬜ yt link🎺
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Remember Summer Days - Anri: my city pop kick has not ended as you will continue to see. its the kinda shit that makes me wanna be taken on a warm evening drive. yeahh bitch i control the music and im not even driving >:3 sorry. umm also the horns make the song fit our skankin tone this time around so very well. they are like sisters <3
Car Song - Danny L Harle, MC Boing - speaking of drives! if, say, you are ever driving in a car, or perhaps playing music in a car this would be the track to signal to those around u that u are doing those things. i just love mc boing also. so much dumb hype that i cant help but follow his lead and bounce along. check out his like three other songs if u get the changce soun
Death Grips is Online - Death Grips: i was looking at my 'summer rewind' on spotify and this was apparently a death grips song i had listened to a lot a few years ago just without getting into any more death grips after that? it makes sense tho i was listening to a lot of igor of tyler the creator fame around that time. i was probably like ooooh this has that hard cunchy igor bass i like. and was like 😂 what the heck is the rest of their stuff tho seriously tihs is craazy 😂. probably is how i was like back then. tch. fool.
Flaunt It/Cheap - Rae Sremmurd: amen break waveform tattooed on my forehead running up to u voice HEY U SHOULD LISTEN TO THIS SONG THEY. HEY> THEY RAP OVER AN AMEN BREAK ITS GOOD. okay thats misleading they only do that for a bit but after that the flow is very amen break inspired..but then beat switch thats still very good i love a good beat switch and all.... i just wish he kept spitting over that pure amen break sample. paws in pockets kicking the dirt as i walk away.....
Helium - Ecco2k (Drain Gang Archives): comes back excitedly to talk about draing gang ^w^. this time around our drain gang entrance is actually a bootleg posted by a drain gang leak aggregator on spotify. in case u were wonering this is probably the best of those unreleased/leaked songs ........... ecco's voice fits this song so well with all his falsetto stuff (get it it's like helihey it's like a helium balloon get it his voice it's hifh) but he also does that on his other songs bc he's a beautiful angel. GOd and his pouty fucking sighs in the chorus god i just wann[
Merlin's Staff - Ski Mask The Slump God: as i posted about before i love me some ski mask :) i hadnt listened to a lot of his new stuff until i watched his most recent interview with nardwuar. it is from here that i found this song bc ski mask references nardy on the track. HOWEVER. i would be remiss if i did not talk about my favorite lyric from this song that ive refrained from just posting as is. makes me GIGGLE every goddamn time.
"On the go like Mario, drive in a kart
Lisa Simpson, her head sharp"
now he does bring this back around to be a joke about her "giving brain" but just that line alone with the cadence gets stuck in my head. Li. sa. Simp. son. Her. Head. Sharp.
Morning Bell - Radiohead: speaking of... head? been catching up with ol mr. head recently on account of people i know whose music opinions i trust liking his tunes a lot (hai :3) this is My preferred morning bell btw.... for u music perverts out there who wanna know (hai :3) .... the drum groove is irresistible and the piano feels so cooold. cmon its in 5/4.... like im sorry to those whom i may have disappointed i do like amnesiac morning bell it feels a lot eerier.. yet brighter with all the bells? and the 'release me's in that one are very pretty but. kid a morning bell 👍
your clothes - Jane Remover: still havent listened to new jane BUT i have gone back to revisit old stuff i hadnt listened to in a while. upon listening to this one i was reminded Wow! Jane just doesn't miss! so congrats to Jane the Remover on being the only artist to have never left some songs thus far. may ur reign be long.
Last Summer Whisper - Anri: i leave you with this. the last whisper of summer. the last whisper of my city pop kick. the last whisper of some songs until fall right guys? do u guys hear a train?
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Train to Skaville (Live) - The Selecter: ALLLLLLLLL ABOOOOOOOAAAARRRD. THIS TRAIN. IS BOUND. FOR. SKAVILLE!!!!!!!!! wait oh shit i can't leave yet i have a train to catch 😳someone made a joke to me last year about this song (i believe it was in September they said 'the train to skaville has left the station') and i straight up didnt get it at the time bc i was kind of a poser skahead when i made my skaugust post eheh nervous laughs bc i pretended to know it in that post ehehe ^^ . i do believe in ska fans beliefs (that ska is good, and anticapitalism probably) i just didnt know much about it besides like stupid horse did it that one time and that post about a kid getting an extra mozz stick.. anyway fast forward one year this fucking song is the idle music in my head. i pretend to be that funky ass bass on this song a lot too hehe. there are MANT live versions of this song on yt so i chose the most fitting one for the playlist but the one ive been listening to is the spotify one -w-
Superman - Goldfinger - this is the archetypal ska song to me. and u know why. that fucking post about that kid getting an extra mozzarella stick and ska plays in his head. from uo there ^. this is the song on that post. this is like capital s Ska to me. u know how people associate dnb with really slick games u grind on rails and skate/snowboard in. make the main character 12 and sucking ass on his first shitty skateboard rolling around his neighborhood and the soundtrack is now ska. only this song actually. it is good tho is the important thing
Never Meant - Skatune Network, JER:
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I'm Not Okay (I Promise) - Skatune Network, JER:
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Come on Eileen - Save Ferris:
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Take On Me - Reel Big Fish: what can i say im a sucker for a ska cover? SKA-ver. heh so true
Old SKrAp - Jeff Rosenstock: i believe jeff rosenstock has done other things which i will get to eventually like all things but i know him specifically for having made an album called No Dream (that i... havent listened to :/) which released in 2020 (05/20 specifically). and then.. on 04/20 of 2021 (!!!!!!!!!!! WEEED WEED ITS WEED) he released Ska Dream, which, of course, is a complete reworking of No Dream but to be Ska instead. the original title of this song is Old Crap which they still sing in the song i just love how they put SKA into the title. all of them are like this btw.
stupid horse - 100 gecs: the OG. also s/o aimkid amv. s/o all aimkid amvs but thats beside the point. there was a point in 100 gecstory that there were maybe only a few interviews they did after 1000 gecs and ofc not many live performance videos besides minecraft festival screen recordings and maybe one video of a show from the secret tour. but there was an interview from skullcandy of all places with an accompanying live performance of stupid horse that i rewatched sevreal times :) ......... i thought the neon green and yellow set pieces and outfits were cool ok??? anyway fucking stupid horse yeah a swordfish dancer spend my money on a fishnet carousel go go go go goin so fast now go go go go goin so fast now.
Frog On The Floor - 100 gecs: and then they did it again :)
I Got My Tooth Removed - 100 gecs: and did it again :)
Two-By-Four-And-A-Half - Thee Goblins: as i said before ive been narding it up recently with some nardwuar interviews. my favorite thing about him is his elusiveness as like. a guy who does things besides being nardwuar. and my favorite story about him doing other things is that on his quest to interviewing kurt cobain, he tried talking to dave grohl and somehow dave recognized nardwuar from a band he's in (this band Thee Goblins :3). but the band wears masks when they perform so u cant see its nardwuar. and he still knew it was him without the mask and i guess felt enough respect for nardwuar in that moment to decide to get him an in with kurt, which did come to fruition BTW. anyway this song is a SKA SONG by NARDWUAR himself.... this isn't on the yt playlist unfortch but there is a good video of the nardman himself and others as thee goblins.
Ska Sucks - Big D and the Kids Table: found this one while just ska-ouring ska-tify for more ska. and idk theres just something in a good subversive title (and lyrics if u venture to take a listen >w< ).anyway this ska doesn't suck its quite good actually :) this is a theme in ska if u could not tell. being quite good not sucking. sorry if that was unclear.
yyyaWWWn ummmmmmmn.. okay This is ewher i leave u.. with all the skanking ive been doing i believe ive kicked up a month long ska storm... but i hear there are some pretty rude winds forecasted to come in later today so oerhaps keep ur ears to the wind on that front 😳... um anyway peels off in my car i am sooooo licensed to operate leaving u behind with this helpful guidento steer your path. and this, thjs last SKA-mmer whisper, is how ill leave u until fall music fans :3 <3
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redraven393 · 2 years ago
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Catching up with Philza QSM Vod
July 21
WAKE CHAYANNE YOU WILL DIE IF U DON’T DO YOUR MISSIONS OMG PLS
“I’ll stay Alive dad” he says as he did ZERO MISSIONS- lol he did just be Cucurucho all week
“bad lookn SO HOT” QSMP had change him omg
??was Dapper talking to Bad’s Chat??-oh yes he did!!
PHIL NO D:<
“I can be MORE of a shit head”
YES make a new Weapon- cause apparently yours are trash according to Etoiles
Ohh new music- its nice :D
the Dorime song is a copy right one good to know
?? who ruin the old man’s lawn??
CHAYANNE IM GLAD TO SEE YOU KIDO WE MISS YOU
“im not dead yet” he lied
Omg its Tallulah lol- PHILZA PLS THE 4th wall was just fixed u cant break I on first day
Selective literacy of course
POG to Tallulah for trying to roleplay Chayanne she is such a trooper
Yes that so crazy yes yes
Tubbo raid hello
Disclaimer : NOT CHAYANNE
Ohh a forbidden block?- oh don’t you dare play dirty Challulah
Omg PHIL pls these kids have a life
YAY EARLY BIRB STREAM - Omg Tallulah is ALSO ONE OF THE CROWSS??
Ohh MOVIE night?
Safety first before adventure
Aww but Phil think about the AEISTHETIC for your Angel of Death thing- SEE you got ALL the Materials
Godamn those hips- PHILZA PLS
Lol the kids alredy have them
I mean Etoiles was Right your gears was quite shit
Thanks Tubbo
LUCKY DUCKS YEAHH
Ah yes of course “chayanne” did not know Phil adopted her- PHIL PLS THE SONG
Oh god they do that back then?
Challulah update time
Oh the French national day?- ohh Horses- you guys did WHAT to Foolish??- and you Guys become him??-  Kelp didn’t help oh no-  mean he did ask for it- of Course Tallulah will know better.
Xoxox gossipgirl
Of course you are Chayanne kiddo we all believe you
 Ohh new plant pet- RAINBOW??GLAS??- oh no they can get damage now??
Yeah aint that crazy she is with u guys in spirits
Oh god
Love that Phil’s threat was not an attempt at harm but his rage and ire
Oh fuck that Nightmare – ah FUCK CHALLULAH
OH HEY THE BRAZILLIANS
HEY RICHA BABY HOW ARE YOUU
Hey MIKE hii PAC and AYEPIERRE
Oh no the wither
Oh no why are u guys sayog sorry??- omg are they BRIBING HIM???
LOL THEY DID-LMAO they are so Funny- OMG PAC AND MIKE is so FUKIN Awsome
AWW YES THE WEIRD GRAPLING THINGY
Omg pierre don’t do that
BAD MADE THAT NEW BUILDING 2 DAYS AGO?
Yeah Etoiles was so Great
Opp Challulah?- ah forbidden space ok
Huh so the Lucky blocks have a cool down time? – holly that is long
Ah of course Fit will find a way to go around it
“don’t do illegal things in front of the eggs” Philza warns him “some of them have more power than you”, Pierre smiled warily “yes” he agree easily as he  lock eyes with the young egg Infront of him “ especially you”
Pierre where the fuq are we??-  YEY FLASH LIGHT
OMG it’s a DRILL
Diamond termites? Oh of course you want them Challulah
Cute and Deadly the perfect baby
Yu cant put your near death encounter at the end Challulah you’ll just put him more into a paranoia
It is true
Lol Chayanne pls you have no additional life anymore
DON’T SULK- oh now you trying to be cute eh?- he’s being a brat.
THAT IS A GOOD QUESTION THE KID SHOULD HAVE FLOAT ON WATER ALL THE TIME
LOL HOME
TALLULAH NOOO- LOL 4th wall GONE- oh Tallulah got new PC nice :D
Whats with the fence?- Reddit /architect
Reject the gay/j
Ohhh she plans ey?- a diagram?- YESS
Ohh YES
Omg that would be SO COOL
Aww thanks BAD and Dapper
He is such a good kid-
Oh wait oh no shit Tallulah would die- lol I could hear Kristin on background.
O yah this is goig to be so cool
MOVIE NIGHTT
Lol there is no going back now
Hi again Pierre
HI bad
Yeah you sleepy little shit- HAH clingy- SINGLE FATHER ARC lets GOO
I think Richa have the most parents I think
Dapper IS crazy- lol-
“They LISTEN to YOU”
YEAH the Cinema is fuked
Oh OMG CHAY- imean CUCURUCHO- but lets be Real Chayanne :D
Yeah ya lil shit
Opp where to go kiddo?
Omg bad pls nooo
Oh no Challulah voided- eh?
YEAH WORK OUT TIMEE
HI JAIDEN
Cucurucho the fuk?- hey no CHEATING-
HAH GET PRANKED- oh hey Chayanne- lol Kritin
Woah2 Cucurucho chill-  Cucurucho u know Phil can just teleport
Ungay him Phill
Oh hey Foolish
OMG you two- BBH and Foolish is such riot
AWW Preety :D
“a two year old Gunned me down before” foolish says
oMG you all killed me- Chayanne noo
“KELP DIDN’T HELP”
??- omg Foolish Noo- OOOOHHH the Teather is shiny now
Ballon oh you can bumb in to them
POPCORN-NOOOO0- no Jaiden
Hi Pomme
HI WALTER BOB
YEAHHH POP CORNN
Ohh GIFT
Lol the Barbie posters – omg you can put the ballon in the box- Ballon for Chayanne
Retail  Philza – Barbie ticket is gone – good lord he sound so used to it.
OH CHOKY MILK
Oh hey Walter- TICKETS –
FOOLISH WTF??
Hey Cellbit.
“im A bby gurll”
MOVIE TIMEE- yeh get the ballon – YOOO
Oh what happened to Walter?- oh yeh poor guy need to get out-MOVIEMOVIEMOVIE
cant fit all of it sadge
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devilsainz · 2 years ago
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It all started with a joke (Charlos one-shot)
second time trying to make sense of these charlos thoughts in my head. I dont take myself seriously so no one should take my writing skills either. I do these mostly for me, when i feel like it. English is not my first language either and i barely reviewed what i wrote so... read at your own risk.
.....
It all started with a joke.
"Hey, did you heard what everyone is saying about us? That we are the most handsome driver pairing in f1 history." Carlos said with a teasing smile that only handsome men that know theyre handsome men know, while he was scrolling through his phone, sitting in that red couch, in the free time they found when working together .
Charles giggled in return while he was in a distance from him, "come on, lets focus on the performance on the car for now, carlos, please!"
"No i was just saying, cabron, i think it might give us a boost, you know? in our confidence, and even better our ~performance~"
"you just love yourself too much dont you?" Charles said shaking his head lightly.
"Ehm... ok, now ill be serious. But its quite funny, i guess. i still feel flustered by it, actually, when the girls call me guapo out loud sometimes... i just try to get used to it joking, you know".
"I mean, theyre not lying. Youre indeed a very handsome, aaah- how do you say it? Cabron. A very handsome cabron, i'll give you that."
"Ok connoisseur of beauty, gracias for the compliment even though you just called me a bastardo"
"I cant make you get used to much to it, mate.-"
"Maaate! What are these people on?" Carlos said with a cackle in his throat.
"Ok, now you got me curious, bastardo, let me see what are you-"
"~he looks at him like he wanna kiss him so bad~" carlos said mocking in a over sweet toned voice.
"Oooh my god, these people are really going crazy nowadays" Charles commented between their shared laughter.
"Look at this one: 'i want someone to look at me like he is looking at Charlie's lips' -now where am i even look-"
"To be fair, it really looks like it, Carlos, sorry" he let escape a shy laugh.
"Shut the fuck"
"You have to look at the picture, carlos... try to understand their narrative, its very simple, come on"
Charles zoomed in the picture and showed carlo's eyes darting in the direction of his lips.
"Eh, cabron, now that looked really weird, to be fair" he grimaced. They looked into each other and there was a awkward silence until they broke into laughter again.
"Look, we have this effect on people apparently... cause we are so handsome, these weirdos just want us to start making out in front of the camera! I guess its something in their brain chemicals" Carlos said moving his fingers like trying to explain a magic trick.
"Oh mate, come on, get off of it now, this is too much junk for today" charles said with his breath apparently catching up now after laughing so much.
"Yeah, i think its enough, carlos closed the instagram app and put the phone in his pocket."
The awkward silence fell again.
Charles, desperate to break the unconfortableness, tried to start a conversation: "but like, imagine if there were actually, you know, gay-uh-lgbt people and they have to live a life like this, with people analyzing every move they make, in formula 1 in all places-"
"Yeah, you're right... like, we live in a such microscopic world already, and then having people to judge you because of, you know, something that is not even related to the job, like- yeah that must be though" Carlos complemented, now the conversation got into a more serious tone.
"I mean, that sucks. I heard about that guy called Adrian Sutil, and its not that i care, but i mean, we have no idea where he is now- i mean, good for him i guess- but its... i dont know how to explain but maybe its like these people dont even show themselves that much like we do you know?"
Carlos nods while listening and looking at what charles has to say intently as he speaks.
"Like, we and lando, we just go around kicking, punching ouselves in the groins all the time because we dont have to worry about it, you know?" Charles continued.
Carlos says now back to his joking tone: "Ah, this motherfucker is obsessed with my bal-"
Charles interrupts with his high pitched laughter as he squeezes carlos shoulders in his hand.
"No, but now im being serious: did you see how we went from joking, to then talking seriously, then we are just joking again?" Carlos said, self aware, like he just witnessed something he didnt before.
"yeah?"
"See, this is the ~chemistry~ Silvia keeps talking to us about... Cause we get along so good together and naturally... i think people just start to get, you know, hooked up on us! And... crazy, and to see we make out" He said very proud of himself and of charles while he gave some light pats on Charles back.
"Yeah... thats... true, carlos, thats true!" He said just realizing how actually good his relationship with his teammate was. "And ii meeann, we would make indeed a veryy- handsome couple!" Charles giggled as he always did when he feels like he just said something silly.
"But its true! You are a handsome fella. I mean i feel weird praising myself like this, but i am a handsome fella... we together, we would just be two handsome fellas, you know, its math" he said using his hands again, like someone enthusiastically explaining math.
"See, this is why i dont compliment you." Charles said with an harmless teasing smile. "But you ~are~ handsome, mate. If i was a girl- i'd problably try something with you, actually- not to sound weird or any-"
"Nah, dont worry, mate." Carlos gave a strong pat on charles back. "This is completely fine actually, i mean i think its nice that we dont have this uh, awkwardness, between each other, cause its very silly if we stop to think about it." Charles nodded agreeing. "And if i was a girl, i would try hitting up on you, too." Carlos said reassuringly, with a wink, which made Charles blush, not that its hard to make him blush, but...
"Thanks, mate".
"if you want a kiss, just tell me. These people may like it."
"Bastardo-"
Charlos kicked him in the shin, which carlos responded by grabbing and pulling, while charles tried to push his shoulders and get free off his arms holding his leg, making them fall off the sofa while carlos saw the opportunity to tickle him while he fell on top of Charles body.
"Stop mate, we are doing way too much in our free time" charles said trying to supress his giggles with the tickles.
"Stop what? Do you think ill kiss you or?"
Suddenly, the air in the room fell heavier.
The giggling stopped. Now Charles was staring at Carlos lips while he realized Carlos did the same with his.
"I dare you." The tone serious as his lust now.
Carlos went for it and kissed. Just like he kissed his girl for the first time, short and sweet, but now it was Charles. He pulled his head back, stared at charles for a brief moment, and realizing he was looking at him with that same look of discovery mixed with lust, kissed him again.
Charles just let himself be guided by the older man kiss, now going slower in rhythym, heavy with tongue, short in breath, thick in grunt.
After what felt somewhat between 15 hours or 15 seconds of a long kiss, they went back at staring each other, now the reality slowly bringing them back to their feet.
"Sorry, mate- i dont know what the fuck i-" Carlos said standing up
"No its fine i dont know either-" Charles stand up swiftly trying to make sense of what happened
"I just fucked up didn-"
"Pshh, dont say that. Its okay mate, its just a kiss. Nobody has to know."
"You really mean nobody, right? Like nobody."
"Of course, why the fuck would i do that"
"I dont know- i mean- i dont- i wouldnt think you'd tell anybody either way, i'm just-"
"And i wont." Charles said looking him in the eye and making him silent. "I give you my word. Nobody will know".
he extended his hand open in a handshake.
"I give you my word too, dont worry." He said back nodding, with a look that could only mean truth.
They shaked hands, firmly in their promise. After the silence settled in again..
"And... honestly... mate, your kiss was really good. I tell you that." Charles said all red as the ferrari color he was destined to wear, his face nervous but with a smile in his eyes that Carlos saw through.
"Thanks." Carlos said smiling shyly, blushing just as he did when people called him guapo in public.
And just like that, them standing in front of each other, there was two knocks on the door as a voice called "Carlos? Charles?". Time to go back to work.
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