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npdlangley · 11 months ago

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i love dating sims but i always feel so shit afterwards. i will never love like this.

#txt #sory im going throufh it #the ar.omantic curses #i feel so shit and i feel so guilty #gmfnmnmgfng #ilove them but ijust feel bad #i cant be what people want me to be #its so silly to be upset over this #sometimes i hate being ar.omantic #all i have is this stupid disorder that makes me form intense random attachments at random times for godknows how long nd then i just feel #like my heart was ripped out of my fucking chest

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cozylittleartblog · 4 months ago

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Columbo and the Knight (1984)

put me in the universe where Columbo ran through the 1980s and had a crossover episode with Knight Rider. I think they deserved it, and I am not just saying that because they're my two favorite Old Shows. @telebeast wrote a little fanfic blurb about it and I HAD to visualize it into a comic (which is also the longest comic I have finished thus far at five pages...), so writing credit goes to them.

Autism W!

#columbo #knight rider #art #michael knight #kitt #comic #highlight reel #crossover #telebeast #there are two small easter eggs here. can you find them. they were somehow not Entirely lost when i resized these for the public #this is what i mean when i say I Draw And It's Everyone Else's Problem. look at my INCREDIBLY niche crossover comic boy #if the knight rider fandom has like 12 people in it. how many of y'all have seen columbo #this comic is for like 4 people and me and phoenix are already two of them #niche is my specialty lets be real. weird niche obscure shit and ships nobody's paid attention to yet #not to suggest this is ship art. columbo has his wife and michael has his car lmfao #stylizing real people is EXTREMELY hard btw sorry for when they get off model. its partly a 'better imperfect than never finished' situatio #cant tell you how much i redrew some of these panels. weeps #this took me 2 weeks but i think i thumbnailed it all in may and the ideas been rollin around in my head since march #is anybody good at editing. please edit michael and columbo into an image together like its a screenshot. NOT generated. edited.#it would be so cool #ive drawn columbo a lot but i haven't drawn a lot of michaels. i was learning things about his outfit AS I WAS DOING THE DAMN #COLORS ON THIS. all the lines done. it was too late to change anything. i did all the lines and colored page by page #i realized my mistakes on like page 3. 1 and 2 were already done. it was Too Late.#imagine it though. them working a case together. switching between the more serious tone of columbo vs the goofier #action antics of michael and kitt. columbo being so impressed by Modern Technology. there's more i could say but phoenix may write #more of this crossover and i don't want to spoil it :'3 #there's opportunity here though i swear. there's gold to be dug.#i like how kitt gets shading but columbo's junker peugeot doesn't. kitt looked wrong without any. columbo's car is matte and dirty #i also applied effects to this to make it look a little film-grainy and VHS like. some CRT TV vibes #the only question left is. did they put knight rider into columbo; or columbo into knight rider 🤔

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s0fter-sin · 3 months ago

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thinking about the way ghost doesn't hesitate to start killing shadows when graves betrays them but soap only takes one hostage

you can almost hear the voice in his head telling him it doesn't have to be this way; they can still talk it out

"i'm calling shepherd"

his first instinct when confronted with betrayal is to play it by the books: to go up the chain. that goes against everything we've seen him do. he bucks authority at every chance except for the one time he's confronted with the barrels of his allies' guns

he wants a peaceful resolution; for the first time we've ever seen, he doesn't want violence to be the answer. there has to be another fix, a solution that doesn't end with him killing the same men he's been working with; his friends

nothing's happened yet

it doesn't have to go this way

but ghost has been betrayed before. he knows the way this ends; either with him six feet under or his enemy

he doesn't hesitate

it's only when they knock alejandro out that soap shoots; when they spill the first blood and cross a line they can never come back from

only when ghost orders him to run and he has to cover his retreat

and somewhere along the line, between civilians’ screams and taunting voices, between his shaking breath and ghost steady in his ear, that naivety is stripped away; his trust turned to teeth that he uses to sink into throats of men he'd have given his life for

"be careful who you trust, sergeant; people you know can hurt you the most"

he's learned the price of trust

just like ghost did

but unlike ghost, he has someone to guide him through the aftermath

"good advice, It"

#im gonna add these to my notfics on ao3 i think i have a Lot of these floating around #a bit shorter than my other metas but i think its something that gets missed when people talk about alone #soap is a violent man #his career literally trains him to shoot first ask questions later #and yet he still tries his best to avoid blood when faced with betrayal #and you realise it actually does fit him #soap cares about the men he serves with #he wants to save the men at the crash site he checks on a downed soldier he asks about civilians about alejandros family #hes very tuned into the people around him #and he cant turn that off until hes forced to #until graves gives him a reason to hate him #and all of that previous care and consideration goes out the window #‘makes me want to commit a few war crimes of my own’#dont cross soap #you want like what happens if you do #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #talk meta to me #soap cod #john soap mactavish #ghost cod #simon ghost riley #ghoap #ghostsoap #soapghost #meta #phillip graves #graves cod #save post

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basalting · 12 days ago

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after jasons death bruce "accidentally" slips harvey a crowbar while hes in arkham and kisses his cheek and says, voice soft and colder than ice, "make him hurt for me honey"

it takes 6 guards to sedate and drag two face off the joker the next time two face sees him and for the rest of their lives as soon as harvey sees the joker he goes after him like a rabid dog.

#harvey voice: you know why im not killing you jokes? cause you can only die once and i want to hurt you so much more than i want to kill you #jason was harveys baby too after all #spent my entire boring work meeting thinking about how robin!jason bruharvey would end in the joker dying no matter what bc of two face #this is all bruciemilfs fault btw. theyve been making me insane about bruharvey #bruce wayne #harvey dent #two face #also bruce doesnt tell harvey to kill or not kill the joker bc he cant request someones death #but he also cant make himself ask for his sons murderer to be spared #i dont think any version of bruce would be comfortable with openly planning someones death let alone actually doing it #but after jasons death he gets so cold and numb to everything that he just turns away from it #he knows hes being too violent.knows hes hurting people too much but the only time hes not remembering how small jasons body was in his arms #is when his blood is roaring in his ears during a fight. maybe if he becomes the worst monster in gothams shadows #no more little boys will go cold and silent. no more fathers will stand in the doorway of rooms that will never be full again

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bklily · 1 month ago

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thinking of comedic ways of how the hell that talk is gonna go

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bunnieswithknives · 17 days ago

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Thanks.

#fop #fairly oddparents #fop a new wish #fairly oddparents a new wish #fop nature au #fop dev #fop dale #dev dimmadome #dale dimmadome #art #digital art #comic #The 'Thanks' after all of that makes me so insane Im not even sure I can fully articulate why #I mean. He got what he wanted. Honesty. Thats what you wanted right Dev?#what else do you say to that #He's spent his whole life being sure he knew the answer. That deep DEEP down dale did love him #Have you ever seen that post thats like“I was bawling my eyes out and somebody told me to shut up and I was so taken aback I stopped crying #I think he was so stunned that he just stopped crying.#or like when you get so upset that your feelings turn themselves off to protect you #is that a normal thing that happens to people Erm. anyway #Sorry lol as someone born to parents who.. should not have had me. Writing dale basically admitting as much is actually really cathartic #He shouldnt have had Dev. He doesnt love him. He cant. Dev cant do anything to change it. Its just a fact.#Hes not 1:1 with my parents they tried their best ig but like. their best was still pretty awful child neglect LOL

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art-is-kayos · 25 days ago

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Checking up on his commission

#hate this guy. spoilers under tag cutoff #i fear i may have cooked with the tags. slash jay.#I've always imagined him with Particulars but I keep forgetting to draw them til like now #he speaks in lowercase to me. for reasons #I wanna know more about this untrustworthy bisexual but I also kinda wanna attack him every time he shows up #cant wait for the inevitable boss fight #fun fact: according to the dictionary 'nebulae' can refer to a clouded spot on the cornea that can cause defective vision #a limbus is 'the junction of the cornea and sclera in the eye'#so I think I speak for us all when I say WHAT THE FUCK MAN #what the hell was he on abt with Dante falling from the sky. and by sheep does he mean June 985 or?#if anyone wants to theorise on my post I'm all for it #limbus company #dante lcb #demian lcb #⏰🐍#unfortunately proud of that caption btw he really is just wanting his comm #HM WAIT BACK AGAIN #is the way the San was on about with leading the fallen nebulae home what causes J985?#as in - it is not people dying but them returning to their rightful place outside the City #with Purgatorio being the war 📘[i think] mentioned #is the doomsday Dante's head leading to the war? it typically refers to humanity's self destruction #or any globlal catastrophe #oh ok with PM is being sneaky again the Wiki page says it was inaugurated in June and guess when the MDE is #but generally things like nuclear war - AI and climate change are the main factors contributing to it #and we've already faced AI in the prev games via Angie so presumably one of the others will be the main force behind Dante's midnight #i personally like the nuclear angle given how Dante's head is already a clock #*BOMB. THEIR HEAD IS A BOMB THAT CAN BLOW UP #please do not write tags at night this was a bad idea

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albaharu · 7 months ago

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gale holding a sword its just so funny to me

#anyways maybe i woudl have the fuckign weave scene in my wyll origin game!!!!! if gale wasnt like!!!#“oh i would teach u magic...if only our bond was stronger”#gale i have u at maximun at the tieflin party what more do u want from me!!!!#cant believe i blocked myself by doing it too well... but thats ok im going with bae'zel...#the good people at the wyll discord are convincing me of #bladeweave #but this also can work as platonic so whatever floats your boat #wyll ravengard #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #bg3 #baldur's gate #baldur's gate iii #baldur's gate 3

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jadecantcreate · 2 months ago

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theyre holding hands……(and being shy about it)

hootsie and gricko doodles (mostly hootsie)

both requested by @nicohasperished !

#i ignored the ‘gators cant blush’ thing for the previous request #but i didnt ignore it this time (for the people who like it that way <3)#ngl really proud of how the gideons and kremys hands turned out #honestly i want to make a little ‘how i draw the krew’ thing with things like hands #something about gideons hands being square-ish and kremys being sharp and triangular is so satisfying to me #coalecroux #kremy lecroux #gideon coal #kremy x gideon #i looovee hootsie sm #glad i finally got around to drawing her!!#gricko being a dad >>>#not to get deep or anything #but i think gricko tries to be as present for and as invested in hootsie as humanly (goblinly?) possible because of his dad #who was completely absent to the point where he didn’t even know his name or face or even existence #and since his mom had to work a lot to make ends meet and put food on the table #he knows what it feels like to be a little kid and feel isolated or neglected #of course he had his mom and uncle glorbo but i doubt they were there for him during the majority of his childhood #he doesnt want hootsie to grow up like that #them <3 #gricko grimgrin #hootsie grimgrin #once upon a witchlight #legends of avantris #my art #ouaw fanart #ouaw

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justaz · 6 months ago

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merlin (immortal) giving arthur (pendragon) the only blade that could kill him

#they make me SICK #i hate them so much #if arthur had found out about his magic earlier and took it poorly…he’d be the only person able to kill him #merlin handing over the sword as a symbol of his utter trust in arthur #god imagine arthur finding out (au everyone lives) and being torn between wanting to cast the sword away but also wanting to keep it on him #he hates the weight of merlins life that now seems attached to the blade #he doesnt want it #but he cant cast it away bc what if someone gets their hands on it?? then merlins life is in their hands #he is BAFFLED that merlin would give HIM - uther pendragons son - the only thing that could kill him #he asks after days of fitful sleep and consideration and merlin is just like #‘its /you/ arthur.’ he says like its painfully obvious #NCJGSKSNSDIBSKSB TEYH MKAE ME VIOELTNT #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #excalibur #immortal merlin #merthur #im just thinking of percabeth when percy tells annabeth where his mortal point is and she is the ONLY person who knows #and she has to carry that tidbit of information around like its not the heaviest burden shes ever carried - more so than the sky #that one quote 'love is giving someone the power to destroy you but trusting them not to'#idk you get it #arthur and annabeth being the only people who can destroy the one they love #merlin and percy having unwavering trust and faith in their other half that they place their life in their hands #literally #sorry im done

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blackkatdraws2 · 8 months ago

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There are more things in the Parable than Stanley knows about. [Blank Scripts AU]

#hoh boy i was going to make a comic to introduce these monsters but #i couldnt help myself and made an animation instead #because i just think they're so neat and cool okay #listen i cant for the life of me just infofump about my AU and OCs #because i just think that making actual content about my lore and stuff will not only raise the chances of people being interested #but also it will also raise my motivation to actually produce more content other than the same old recycled front-facing-profile drawings #i need to get creative with my stuff or I'll also loose interest and I DONT want that #in order to be happy with what i have i cant just think about it and expect to be given something new NOOOO i need to MAKE it ughh #i cant believe in order to get more content out of my own au i would need to draw it and feed myself ugh ugh ugh unbelievable (kidding)#but also #i wanna make a little music video or animation again for youtube #its been a hot while since ive uploaded anything in there at all #maybe an animation reel will do for now?#i hope so :(#because ive been working on expanding the Black Scripts AU #and honestly i dont regret it #i had a lot of fun making up scenarios and comics for Stanley and the Narrator (Black)#but yeah!#apart from this little video #you wont be getting an explanation on what these things are supposed to be #and why theyre there #actually i was originally gonna make this into a full fledge animation with sound effect/music/frame-by-frame movement/etc.#but i got lazy HAHA #tsp blank scripts au #tsp au #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp

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fanofthelamb · 8 months ago

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wowowowow awesome look at me doing... things... idk when ill finish this, or how long it will take. i just know id rather be doing this than being in anchordeep because DAMN!!!

#good god i dont think i have it in me to color this.#lord have mercy i have 11 more pages #cw gore #tw gore #cw blood #tw blood #cotl spoilers #god what other precautionary tags do i even need??#cotl #cotl fanart #cotl lamb #cult of the lamb #the lamb #fancomic #i cant say im too caught up in making stuff look pretty rn #i just want to actually HAVE something for people to read instead of just talking about it #put it on the list

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millionsknives · 10 months ago

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bait / hook / line / sinker

#the hunger games #finnick odair #thg #the hunger games fanart #this was a very very weird painting for me.#like i have painted decapitated heads and severed arms and shattered ribs and guts falling out and gallons of blood #and not once have i ever looked up from my work and been disgusted or disturbed by what i’ve painted #but the first day i was working on this one i looked at it and just felt so sick i had to get up and take a shower to get away from it #HE WAS 14 WTF WTF WTF WTF #that is a baby. that is a little kid. turned into a killer and paraded around like a novelty and used like a toy.#but on the whole i am very satisfied with this propaganda piece it's just as beautiful and unsettling as i wanted it to be #ugh my mind. nothing in the composition is overt but all the implications are there #not just the capitol's sexualization and brutalization of children but the fetishization of the districts' labor as well #as my good friend and mutual theworldiswhispering said.#'the hard labor you do is not safe from being romanticized by the people who benefit from it at your expense'#and i think about that every day #wherefore art thou #thg reread #why he so smooth.. just like a shark #[katniss voice] mfs took all my body hair cant have shit in the capitol #i just know tumblr's gonna crunch the quality of these images but i worked on a canvas 4 times larger than the usual size #so a lot of the detail gets lost when i post it. oh well. click for quality i guess #his expression changes when you're far away #far away he looks kind of vacant #close up he's smiling. like the photographer wanted a specific cocky emotion from him and it was there #but when you zoom out there's just a thousand yard stare #i did think about turning these into prints or actual posters but um. i don't think i should do that

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red-moon-at-night · 8 days ago

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After doing some research on the types of pets people had in ancient Greece, I'd like to imagine that Helen is the sort of person who has a whole menagerie of birds — and she loves each and every one of them very, very much.

It fits well with her being good at mimicry, you know. Talking and imitating and singing with her beloved birds 💜

Close up under the read more:

I had to include that one necklace from the minoan 'saffron goddess' fresco because it's my favourite thing Ever

#helen of sparta #greek mythology #greek myth art #tagamemnon #birds #this started as a helen with birds drawing. then turned into a chance to put helen in mycenaean accurate clothing.#and THEN turned into a sort of hades game art study/sprite because playing with half lineart + half rendering is just too much fun #speaking of fun: I really enjoyed making this!! Once I got a bit experimentative it really came together. I'm happy with the outcome! ^w^#choosing what birds and how many was a challenge... in my mind Helen has dozens of birds and all sorts of species. truly a crazy bird lady.#but I decided to focus on a few for this. maybe another time i'll make a piece with a ridiculous amount of birds for fun >:) hehe #I cant remember the source but I know I read somewhere that people would specifically train magpies to say hello/greet guests #and I love that little factoid (and love magpies very much) so that was an immediate choice for me to feature here.#I also love doves and goldfinches. goldfinches sound so delightful and stand out so they were my 'songbird' choice.#and I'd like to imagine that one specific dove snuggles up on helen's shoulder all the time <3 #the only bird that's truly missing here is an indian ringneck parrot (which I initially wanted to put on the shoulder but changed my mind)#so if you're like me and watch too many parrot videos. just know helen has one of them that can't stop talking and posing lmao #capri_art

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anamelessfool · 1 month ago

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Didja know you're seeing cool art from years and years ago, amazing performance videos and GIFs and rare photos on here, beautiful fics and cosplay that needs to get revisted.....because people are actively reblogging things?

That's how this place works. Btw.

#please reblog #this fandom is experiencing a bottleneck that can only be explained by there's now more lurkers than rebloggers #a lot of the big rebloggers are on hiatus thanks to a lot of undue uncessary drama #this is why maybe your posts are tanking and or you cant see new things #i am enjoying interacting with the small group of people around me #but this place is an ecosystem that needs to be actively cultuvated by fans so reblog what you want to see out there

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schizopositivity · 3 months ago

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It sucks so much that as someone with a severe and persistent mental illness it's MY responsibility to jump through hoops and be proactive in contacting people at limited times of the day just to get MY MEDS THAT I'VE BEEN TAKING CONSISTENTLY FOR YEARS

#im pissed off rn cause my pharmacy couldnt refill one of my meds and told me to contact my dr #whose office is closed for the week but online it says they cant perscribe that med anymore????#was someone gonna tell me???#idek what to do now besides get a whole new dr at a different clinic and do all the transfer bullshit just to once again get a med #that i have been stable on for over 5 years #like people always want us schizos to be on our meds but then the system makes it so hard!!!??!!?!?!#tw meds #tw medication #tw caps #schizophrenia #mental illness #nd #neurodivergent #psychosis #schizophrenic #actuallyschizophrenic #mental health awareness #pseriouslypsychotic #actually schizospec

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