#i cant be perfect..... sighs
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oh zeus is a solid 9ft averagely i just forgot to put it OTL
#i cant be perfect..... sighs#it's ok they'll be reposted on my updated pinned post eventually IT'S FIIINE IT'S FIIIINE#OOC.#ZEUS. / posts.
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i had to watch this edit so so do all of you x
full credit to this wonderful tiktok creator
#bawling#i miss them so much#i cant believe im never going to have them again#daniel ricciardo#max verstappen#maxiel#dr#mv#do you ever hurt yourself more by thinking about the fact the perfect end to this tikok#the perfect end to everything#would be “crawling back to you” and its a shot of max daniel team mates once more#sigh
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y’all don’t know him like i do🤷🏻♀️ my man🩶
#park jongseong#im in love with him#i cant take this anymore#sigh#why is he so perfect#my pretty boy<33#i’d give the world for him#jay#enhypen#enhypen jay#╭┈◦•◦❥•◦nessa talks!#♡ ͎. 。˚nessa<3jay
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can you remember being born? were you born at all
#my art#kuron vld#vld kuron#vld#this is sorta a companiom piece to the haggar one i posted recently#also. just now realising the perfect timing of posting that drawing on MOTHERS DAY of all possible days#i swear i didnt plan that. didnt even cross ny mind?? but its neat ig#this drawing is pretty simple but i really like how it turned out!!!#it was meant to evoke those infographics of human fetus development#its wrong. there should be middle stages between a fetus and a fully grown adult man. but theres nothing there.#like. he had no childhood or anything. he just woke up as a full ass guy. theres no middle point between a mindless clump of cells and him.#no infant. no child. no teenager. just kuron.#this is wrong and unnatural and it shouldnt have happened but it did#the part of him that looks the most alive is the bloody arm. his life depends on it. hes nothing without it.#sigh. i have so much to say abt this piece and i feel like its pretty barebones and simple tbh#but i still cant put into words what i mean!!!!! i am trying and failing!!! argghhhhhhhhg. whateverr#i have THOUGHTS about this but a weird ramble is all youre gonna get folks. maybe one day il write a small coherent analysis of this thing#he will never escape haggar. he was not meant to. hes asleep and clueless and hell never wake up#he wont ever become more than what was planned for him. and he doesnt even know#blood#gore#i guess. not really gore. more like viscera and flesh?#kuronposting
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Gee- the day I finally understand that I can let go of perfectionism in my hobbies I'll truly be unstoppable serotonin wise.
#the cloud can speak oh boi#random light rant#I don't wanna be perfect in writing I just wanna have fun with it- so why cant I just write the thing? Brain please-#let me write that damn slowburn hurt/comfort filled with random as hell headcanons pLEASE#sigh the problems that I make for myself
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youd think that making a story that kind of hinges on its conclusion would mean that i would get around to actually writing the outline of that extremely important conclusion one of these days but no ive been putting that off for multiple fuckin years
#dont mind me just thinking about my ocs. i made a character that constantly fears the unknown and worries about his future and feels#utterly incapable of influencing or stopping any events that happen to him and hes always fucking miserable because he can see into the dam#future and yet he never gets to predict the positive things that he wants to see no matter how badly he wishes for some kind of clear#directions that he can follow to ensure that he never has to suffer because he struggles to understand that he has autonomy and that he#actually does have the capability to make choices and that his life isnt predetermined for misery and that his life doesnt have to be#confined to the narrative blah blah blah. and i. still havent written. how he gets out of that situation. I DONT KNOW!!#i mean i do have some ideas but idk idkkk. the problem with making an indecisive character who's worried about the narrative not being in#his favor is that he is very loosely based on the indevisive author who's worried about the narrative not being perfect enough. scream.#anyway. sigh. ill get around to it. i promise. i have to for his sake i cant just leave him in middle of his misery that would be so unfair#anis gaymer moments#oc tag
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ℑ 𝔡𝔬𝔫𝔱 𝔪𝔦𝔫𝔡, 𝔠𝔲𝔷 𝔬𝔫𝔢 𝔡𝔞𝔶 𝔶𝔬𝔲'𝔩𝔩 𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔭𝔢𝔠𝔱 𝔱𝔥𝔢
𝖌𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖐𝖎𝖉 𝖒.𝕬.𝕬.𝖉. 𝖈𝖎𝖙𝖞
ᵐᵃᵈᵉ ᶠᵒʳ ᵍᵘⁱᵗᵃʳᵐᵃˢᵗᵉʳˣ⁷ ʷʰᵒ ᵈʳᵉʷ ᵗʰᵉ ˡʸˡᵉ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᵐⁱᵈᵈˡᵉ ᵍᵒ ᶠᵒˡˡᵒʷ ᵉᵐ
#i actually kind of hate this its not waht i envisioned and using their art in this feels sacreligious....#but. i siad id get it out today and i cant bare to accidentally technically lie to bro either so. heres what became of ithaha!#go follow bro and show him some love she very much deserves it#AAUGHH I DONT WANNA POST IT ITS REALLY BAD!!!#sigh what a wast of perfect art and nice image combos#i need to stop sulkin gand start tagging#sorry for the eye falling out of skull levels of badness chat#moodboard#moodbards#lyleposting#lyleposting irl#stuff ive made#/lyr from kendrick lamar's good kid#i didnt mean to yap over top of the lyrics sORR#also didnt mean to use kenny back to back. sorry kdot
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thinking abt how the original QPB trio wouldve been just 3 mentally unwell adults w lifetimes of trauma and KdjfksjdKFJJS...
#no wonder they were beefing /j#they need yeseo... AHAH#idk like#i still dont know ga-in's full deal but from what ive seen...#def parental (and workplace) abuse going on...#cedric... self explanatory#and jesse like... being an illegitimate child ooh and his stepfather dedicating every min to trying to ruin his life umm#yeah...#not that i dont think yeseos also had a perfect life... im keeping my eyes open at the bits of foreshadowing for him i wanna know his deal#cant stop thinking abt how he almost never mentions his parents? whats up w that#twsb#twsb spoilers#(just for the ga-in bit)m#i wanna know more abt jesse tho...#sigh will never stop losing my mind that cedric went from beefing w jesse as a love rival#to falling in love with him (but its actually a diff guy. our yeseo...🤧#im crazy for this but cant stop thinking abt QPB cedjess.....#esp since apparently they couldve gotten along if it werent for the circumstances... ough#idc abt romantic cedchris at all tho like thank u for resetting the timeline <3#i wanna know what... that last moment was like...#when jesse sacrificed himself to save cedric....#jesse telling him to be happy with christelle/take care of her...#what was cedric's reaction... what was the look on both of their faces in that moment...#ghhHHH i would want to see og cedjesschris but not as a love triangle w chris at the center like it was before...#i'd just wanna see platonic shenanigans#but the og novel wasnt like that... 😔#actually it makes me wild considering that the original QPB trio didnt have/use powers#like thats wild to me. they were so different.....#the genre switch was so good for them <3#went from shoujo to shounen /j
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okay trying to be coherent now. (it wont work cause its night and i cant be normal at night)
so as soon a silco meets powder he just... hugs her and accepts her willingly without any alterior motive like it would better for silco to leave powder but he doesnt because as soon as he meets her he decides that this is his daughter and he is going to keep this child.
now my father cant even accept me now. after fucking years of me trying and working my ass of for his approval he just cant be bothered i guess. but silco just does it and freaks me the fuck out. because a father!??!?! loving his daughter!?!?!?!? unconditionally!?!?!??!
and jinx is also comfortable around silco. she does his eye drops because he trusts her and she trusts him and i think my father would rather naw off his own leg than let me do that to him.
my father pretends to be a good man around other people. he loves children, hes funny hes smart hes good with his own kids and everyone believes him because who would believe me over him? hes a bad father though. a terrible father he doesnt listen to me he doesnt care about my interests and i feel like i cant tell him anything i cant do anything to make him proud. but hes still - however much I hate it - a 'good person.'
but silco is a terrible person and he doesnt even try to hide it. he hits he bribes and he doesnt care who gets in his way because he is getting what he wants if you like it or not. but around jinx hes - im not going to say good because he can do a lot better - a father to jinx and him and jinx are father and daughter no matter how fucked up it might be. he accepts he no matter because to him she is perfect even if its a rubbish concept of perfect. so silco is a terrible person and a - kinda - good father.
because i imagine when you watch it as someone who has a good relationship with your father you think silco is terrible and he is! but to me hes everything a father should be even if hes a monster. Hes protective hes caring and he trusts her he actually likes spending time with her and not just because hes her father and its a duty because he isnt jinxs father. so maybe i sound like a broken record but silco is everything i want my father to be and my father is still himself.
#another faceless girl#arcane#a little sneak peak of what i saw when i opened this draft:#Silvo loves power at first sigh = my daddy issues????#Arcane = daddy issues!?!?!?!#I like silvo cause he's a good dad and a bad person I don't like my dad cause he's a good person and a bad dad????#Can't be coherent?!?! Help!#honestly i dont know what I was on either.#but ive been trying and failing to make this post so here it is even though its rambly and repetitive its mine#i do still ahve more thoughts i just need to figure out how to get them through the weird mass of “ajedkkejebej” in my brain#good golly gosh i cant spell#can you tell their my favourite characters#i am obsessed#i skip kver the piltover bit because i dont really care about jayce and viktor#(my best friends obssesed with them and she'll just tell me what happens)#and i just watch lke vi and cait and jinx#the undercity (and caitlyn) gang#i have a problem help#i cant formulate how many thoughts i cant write down are in my head rn#grrrr i need to transmit them to you#telepathically. come here.#its just they are eveything to me because if i was that crazy#my father would have shipped me off years ago and gotten on with his perfect life.#i need to ask jinx how she got her father to love her#what are the cheatcodes jinx tell me#they just trust each other so much. like too much its an unhealthy relationship but i also ahve an unhealthy relationship with my father#so whats one more for the pile!?#i hate my dad#daddy issues#arcane = My daddy issues!!!
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WOOZI for romantic crown
#woozi#lee jihoon#woozi gifs#svt gifs#seventeen gifs#my gif#*mine#this was a nice palate cleanser after having him emotionally and hormonally destroy me for the past week but also#he's so sweetheart cutiepie angel shaped so i'm not sure that's better???#it hurts either way i want to just. sob so violently#i want to sob and kiss his perfect face and make sure he's always happy and it's so#like. okay. no.#look at that smile. look at it. really fucking look and tell me there's anything more precious than that on this earth#you cant because there isn't because he's everything#sigh
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i cannot Wait to have a pet leech
#camera talks#yall i am heart hands to the screen#kicking my feet#sighing dreamily#looking at pictures of peoples leeches#waougogeugh#that should be meee#also google says leeching Could help with migraines. not that i believe it BUT#i cant wait <33#anyways#uhh#ask to tag#just in case btw#sighhhh#pet leeches my beloved i love you so so muchh#you'll be best friends with my cats mwah mwah <33#one of their names is going to be dracula and they'll be perfect <33#i havent decided what i'd name others yet but :))
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smart like harvard arent cha
#my art#oc art#.menagerie#.exhibit: jazz#i lied you will see jazz sometimes bc its really cute in a different way than jitter#i said i wouldnt dye its hair bc its ruffly messiness slots in perfect but ive warmed to the idea as time goes#sighs what a loser. i cant wait to pin down the design of ur digital fursona.
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want to cut my hair again like you wouldn't believe. What are the possible consequences of going bald
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#actually i dont mean bald i just mean all one guard length#but hhhhh maybe i'm in an awkard stage maybe not i just CANNOT live like this#middle part is frustrating because it's not perfect in the way it sits side part is frustrating because i look like a girl#i feel like i could go all in with the 4 and then sorta texture a bit with the 2 guard HOWEVER having used the 4 previously. i know#how short that is. it might not look good so i worry#the bright side is it would grow out a bit by the time of the parade but augh i hate this#i'm currently a tightly wound ball of rage sorry. i didn't eat much of anything 2day#tried to call the hospital to get help with the letter/consulation thing preceding top surgery and they were NOT OPEN so idk if they will#be open tomorrow or not. the passage of time has gotten very vague all of a sudden#iiiiiii do not think i am doing well. lol. idk why though! god forbid any of it have a reason#i almost wish i'd relapse just so i could like. eat food again#idk i don't think it would solve it but i feel in my heart it might make things easier#buuuut because relapse is Bad For Me i guess i have to avoid it. well i want to anyways.#one bad day would not a reset make but my previous day happened this year already so...#i dunno it's been so long that i feel like it's not valid or whatever cause it was at an age where i can say it was a 'phase'#.............. i dunno what to do with that information. anyways.#i mean so what if i went all in on it again anyways? i kinda miss it lol. it's not like i could do any serious harm??#(potential infections aside.)#i just want to be creative and i CANT because my stupid brain will NOT think of anything#and the majority of what i have concretely written of this was written... get this .... right when i was trying to stay clean at first#correlation does not equal causation ........ sighs#i feel like i'm fighting a losing battle because i WANT IT to be that bad again#i've never really regretted it & it's never really been because of anything#i just started because i was curious about why someone would do that. that's all#i dont think i've EVER had any of the mental distress i see people in when theyre in these spaces#in one journal entry i made this big deal about wanting to kill myself but *i didn't want to*. i never did.#like sorry old me but it is REALLY hard to believe i've ever been depressed depressed#i just want things to be better and they never are :/ this should be everything i wanted and its just ... not#i'm not really sure how to ....... oh tag limit ok hold on
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i trust him to have a steady hand
#txt#sigh#someone used this panel to say he was ugly#DIE#L#hes perfect here he looks great when hes eating (girl who is weird about people eating)#siiiigghh i cant wait to watch the live action stuff to watch his actors eat#girl who is normal when it comes to watching people eat#snrk#giggle#i like how we were both born in october#in 2018 when i properly got into death note.#if were going by his manga birthday...#he would have turned#thirty nine...#the same year i turned TWELVE#why did i forget you start secondary at 11 😭😭 i thought it was 12#silly me#zamn#and now im turning EIGHTEEN#get me out
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"This Love left a permanent mark; This Love is Glowing, in the Dark..."
This Love (Taylor's Version), Taylor Swift
A hand brushing across, then taking hold of your own stops you in your tracks, and you look down to see your right hand clasped in his left, his thumb already brushing gently across your knuckles; you can just barely feel the cool metal of his ring against the underside of your palm, grounding you in the here and now. (Dammit, how does he always know how to calm you down?!) You look back up to find Jesse already looking back, a touch of concern in the light lines around his eyes. Once it has you, you can't break his gaze, sucked in by twin pools of dark brown. Somehow, you find yourself relaxing further. The song still plays in the background, surrounding the two of you in a cocoon of sound. It feels like nothing can touch you here, in this moment, with him by your side. ("🎶When you're young, you just run; but you come back to what you need...🎶") (....oh.)
> An excerpt from This Love Is Glowing (in the dark), a fic I posted for the official Rerelease Day of 1989 (Taylor's Version). It is, itself, an excerpt/snippet of the as of yet unreleased Chapter 2 of these hands had to let it go free and-- (This Love came back to me); specifically, it's the ending/epilogue, during which Beca and Jesse finally listen to the song that inspired it all.
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#taylor swift#jeca#this love (taylor’s version)#myposts#myart#pitch perfect#beca x jesse#jesse x beca#not me posting the ending to the fic before i actually post the rest of the fic 😭#ive got the beginning. ive got the end. i know what goes in the middle. i just cant figure out how to get between point A and point Z#sigh 😞#oh well. at least ive got something to show for basically a year of work
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watching the world rly descend into fascism over the years is just so upsetting i dont even know how to process it
#uwu#like ik its not like the world was perfect before and in a lot of ways we've really progressed!#but in the last ~7 years it feels like things have gotten rly bad exponentially#which ik is probably a lot of reaction To all the progress thats been made#and ik we can fight it and come back i wont lose hope but idk if itll happen in my lifetime and its so disheartening to see#and thru it all i have to like. write essays work retail deal w personal issues etc#feels so pointless & stupid when it feels like the end is near & there are literally nazis and genocide and shit happenign#ik i sound like a dumb child and its much more complicated but why cant we all just be fucking nicies to eachother#.-.#globalization........sigh
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