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ok hi! i'm a newbie to formula 1 and i keep seeing stuff abt bi max and i am LIVING for it but would you or someone else (i just wanted to put this out there so someone could maybe get inspo!) make like a thread of all these bi max moments? because i'm seeing the posts listing everything but i would like to see the evidence for it (i dont mean this in a dismissive way either! im bisexual myself and i just wanna see these things i missed out on!!!) 🙏
hello welcome!!! i will list as many as I can find and remember but everyone else please drop in the comments if I missed anything:
girl or guy
tinder or grindr
first kiss...from what I remember it was a girl
we almost kissed each other, nothing wrong with that :)
Gay flag emoji in his recent emojis
all of these combined
he cant ever sit straight. go through gifs from slowestlap norstappen countingstars-17
the way he loved complimenting daniel?? literally every single video of the two of them is Evidence
whatever this is . and this.
whatever the fuck his deal is with Charles. bi energy.
#asks#chit chat#Anonymous#someone PLEASE send me the link to the first kiss one#i cannot find it anywhere im losing my mind#also i swear there's more?#plz comment#bi max agenda
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why would u advertise that ur fucking stupid
#im so sorry the fact that ur saying u didnt know sudan was a country and then ur talking abt that in relation a FANFIC site#im losing my mind destiel meme has RUINED yalls brain please fucking read the news gain general knowledge my father is disappointed in me#he would like. explode if he met someone like this .#'america didnt teach this' im fairly sure u can find a map anywhere dawg like.#god .#i cannot emphasize how much yall need to read the news and think CRITICALLY
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Hiiii I love your writing! May I request some MK and Wukong who are their normal selves until the reader gets threatened/hurt/captured/idk and they go absolutely ballistic
DUDE I FUCKING LOVE MK SO MUCH HE'S LIKE MY FAVORITE MAIN CHARACTER NEXT TO LLOYD GARMADON AND AANG... BABY....
I got you bro
WARNING: SEMI-GRAPHIC DEPICTION OF BLOOD AND VIOLENCE! THERE ARE ALSO SPOILERS FOR S4 SPECIAL! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
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WUKONG
-First off, Wukong loves you so fucking much that it physically hurts him sometimes. Not in the 'oh im in pain', but more in the 'heart repeatedly struck by cupid's arrow'.
-Or maybe that just makes him a simp, idk
-Wukong definitely takes you nice but casual places- be it quiet but quality diners, a picnic in his hidden grotto, a field of flowers to relax in (read: a field that he uses so that he can nap on your legs and cuddle you while basking in the sun)- just the whole nine yards, really
-So imagine his indescribable rage when he finds you've been kidnapped, and later follows your scent (he has it memorized by this point, plus he scents you, its obvious that he can find you) to see you getting attacked by demons, your clothes ripped and fresh wounds that drip droplets of crimson to the beautiful flowers and green grass below, staining them red.
-And just like that, Wukong fucking lost it- he flew off the handle so hard that his mind blacked out, and he only 'came too' when the demons were half dead covered in their own blood, his hands and claws stained the very same crimson.
-As soon as Wukong came too, he's checking you over worriedly, careful not to aggravate your wounds further.
-He didn't even notice his glamours dropped until you said something, and before he could even attempt to slip them back on, you cup his cheek and tell him how beautiful he is, both with and without the glamours.
-You even smiled, "Your eyes really do gleam like rubies and gold, huh?"
-Wow, way to catch his heart again, damn.
-...Wukong stops wearing glamours around you, dropping them as soon as the two of you are alone, and he's always cuddling you in some way or form.
-He will not lose you again.
-He refuses too.
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MK / QI XIAOTIAN
-First off, let's get it out of the way that MK is the most loving and sappy boyfriend ever, who is either rizzing you up or being controlled by his anxiety. It depends, really.
-He's always doing the most basic but sappy couple stuff, and despite how cheesy it all is, it's genuinely flattering.
-MK is also incredibly protective of you- he tries not to control you with his protective instincts, and let's you do as you please because you're his beloved, and you deserve to do as you please.
-You're both adults! It's fine! He can handle this!
-He cannot.
-It's post S4 when MK gets notified of a demon causing problems, and goes to take care of it when he sees who the demon has as a hostage.
-You. Chained up, with ripped clothes, deep cuts, and teary eyes.
-Oh, MK fucking loses it.
-He goes full monkey at the drop of a dime, and is scratching and punching the villain (the bastard) that dares hurt his beloved.
-MK is a merciful hero that loves to help!
-But even HE has a limit to his compassion and mercy.
-Once the villain is gone, MK picks you up and just... holds you in his arms, hissing and just staring people down if they come anywhere near you- his tail curled around your leg and puffed, eyes slit and ready to attack at any given moment.
-It takes nearly an hour to get through to him, but when you do, you're treated by Sandy as MK sobs in your lap about not protecting you well enough, while you simple pet his hair gently, careful not to tug or snag on his hair as you stroke it.
-MK... is a lot more protective of you from then on- but he doesn't force himself into your activities. More so watches than anything else.
-If it keeps you safe, he'll do whatever he needs too.
#lmk x reader#lmk x y/n#nilo dabbles#sun wukong x reader#writing prompt#writing requests#mk x reader#tw: violence#nilo doodles#lmk mk x reader
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good morning my fellow delusional queers 🩷 i come with more juicy info about the magneto script because im losing my mind over this.
so for context: these are screenshots i took of a more revised version that’s being sold for like 1k on a movie prop website. i cannot find this version anywhere else and it doesn’t show the full thing but this script seems to be more detailed and actually includes other characters (destiny, scott, young hank, even SINISTER!!!) some pages were completely different and some just added extra stuff. but like that whole fucking scene where charles has to do an emergency procedure on erik GIVE IT TO MEEE 💳💥💳💥💳💥
(the page before that one charles says to erik something like “you’ll be dead in 3 minutes unless you do exactly what i say.” FREAKY ASS)
#who wants to start a go fund me to get this fucking script#not really but#i need to see this full version#there’s so much cherik just HIDINF#UGH#cherik#x men#magneto#magneto x professor x#professor x#erik x charles#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#max eisenhardt
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The opening ceremony has turned me back into my Olympic sports critic era, only seen every four years when i pretend to know what im talking about. So. Who's the most likely to get super into the olympics (assuming they are not in the Olympics) and what sport (s)
A LIST???? WAR IS OVER. Also I know next to nothing about the Olympics and will never know anything more unless @unhealthyfanobsession writes a new fic (I didn't even know fencing was a sport)
As a reminder: if you disagree with me I don't need to know about it and also I have the only correct opinion in the fandom so I will be taking no feedback thanks
Starting with least likely to most likely (source is my beautiful mind):
Amren: The WHAT?
Eris Vanserra: Could not care even a little- refuses to pretend. Annoyed every time he steps into a bar all televisions are playing gymnastics.
Elain: Doesn't like all the arguing."everyone is a winner!" attitude that has people asking her to leave the room at tense moments. Cannot, for the life of her, see what the big deal is getting worked up over sporting events.
Mor: Willing to listen to who is winning what, and a staple at every Olympic themed party, but has no interest or opinion in anything going on.
Nesta: Low-key judging how invested people are, but also mesmerized by the high dive (i know this in my heart). Claims she's not interested, but always standing behind sofa will the events are on like your dad who swears he hates reality TV. "Who is winning again?" "What are the rules?" Cassian is silently screaming
Feyre: Interested in archery, obvs- totally could have gone pro were it not for that wrist injury all those years ago. Knows EVERYTHING about it, backseat coaching. Not interested in any other sport
Emerie: In it for the memes, specifically. Turns out several very viral, very hilarious ones came from her side blog. She knows just enough to make a timely joke, and likes the racing events because they end quickly
Lucien: The athleticism is just interesting, okay???? He's not even that invested but he's been sitting in the bar for 30 minutes while his drink gets cold watching two dudes fencing, he's never been more enraptured in his life
Rhys: Very invested in a handful of activities, wishes it was Winter Olympics, though- thats where the REAL skill is. Okay grandpa why don't we get you to bed now
Gwyn: Passionate about the whole thing, but is unwilling to fight about it. It's just fun to watch her country dominate in every event. Passes around Olympic memes, is the only one who knows Emerie is behind it- she'd know that sense of humor ANYWHERE
Azriel: Knows SO MUCH about EVERY event HOW?? WHY?? Will drop facts at random, silencing every argument. Why does he know so much about the new kayaking sport? Find out only later he could have gone pro FOR REAL, chose not to. Will fight if his team loses
Cassian: USA!! USA!!! USAAAAAAA LETS GOOOOOO!!!!!!!
#did i get everyone???#again i know in my heart i am correct#thank you for bringing this back i have missed doing these
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you’re the guy obsessed with creepypasta right? i cannot find this information anywhere and im at my wits end.
Is sally’s teddy bear (who im 40% is named charlie) alive. please i’m losing my mind i could have sworn the bear was alive but honestly i have not touched creepypasta in literal YEARS
So like I think you've come to the wrong blog because I don't follow canon and I don't read the OG stories and have no idea at all what you're talking about? I asked @scary-lasagna and she said that Sally's bear did in fact talk to her so I hope that answers your question best I can
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got a junior herbalist idea for you :3
Baizhu overheats EASILY, aka basically whenever he leaves the pharmacy in hot weather. The longer he spends out there the more he slowly loses energy (Changsheng joked it was like an 'energy broth'. Put him in the sun and it all evaporates. Baizhu sighed heavily.)
the junior herbalist has a similar weak constitution, so same thing. Baizhu & herbalist have to pay the same price for overheating: becoming absolutely exhausted/sleepy.
in the rare cases the whole gang has to go out for something, especially in hot weather, Baizhu and the herbalist immediately crash once getting back to the pharmacy and get herded into the back room with some fans. peek in 5 minutes later and they're both completely out, sleeping the afternoon away. (if both are okay w/ it and not sticky, sometimes they'll cuddle a little.)
heat exhaustion.
summary. the heat drains is very draining for the majority of those who work at bubu pharmacy.
trigger & content warnings. depictions of heat exhaustion and references to heat stroke.
tropes, pairings, fic length, & other notes. fluff, comfort. baizhu & reader. 0.9k words. they/them pronouns for reader.
author's thoughts. REAL OMG I GET LIKE THIS, EXTREME HEAT LITERALLY SAPS ALL MY ENERGY WITHIN THE HOUR. I FEEL LIKE A FUCKING CORPSE IN THE HEAT. i relate so bad..... i know EXACTLY what this is like so i RAN to do this request when you sent it HSJSHSKGJG im working on your dain req btw <33
i like to think that summer is every bubu pharmacy employee's least favorite season. gui dislikes it because he knows everyone else finds the heat tough to deal with, whereas baizhu and [name] hate it because it means they'll both be more likely to be out of commission, given how inclined they are to overheating.
qiqi also overheats, so she dislikes the summer for that same reason. she hates the feeling of being hot. she hates overheating. since she's a zombie, it's just... very uncomfortable and, in some cases, even painful for her. it stresses her out.
it stresses everyone out, really.
the pharmacy's atmosphere tends to be a little more frantic and tense during the summer as everyone tries to stay on top of their respective bodily conditions.
due to the collective struggle with heat, it isn't uncommon for trips out of the pharmacy during the day to be reduced to a minimum. qiqi can't handle gathering herbs when the temperature gets a bit too high, even with her cryo vision, so it's typically left to gui to do tasks like that while the sun is up. he doesn't mind it much at all.
he's not quite as sensitive to the heat as everyone else, so it's hardly an issue for him.
sometimes, however, going out during the day can't be helped. even when the weather is poor, leaving most of the pharmacists in equally poor condition, people still get sick and injured. that's the unfortunate truth.
sometimes emergency trips need to be made. high-priority house calls, herb gathering... some situations cannot be avoided, and given that [name] virtually always comes along with baizhu on house calls to gain experience and knowledge...
yeah.
it's not exactly uncommon for one or both of them to come back nearly ridden with heat stroke. heat exhaustion is a common result of such outings, which could become heat stroke if both aren't careful.
baizhu would certainly, 100% give them the option to opt out of house calls during the summer—they may be his apprentice, yes, but he would never force them into situations that would put their health or safety at serious risk, and there's plenty of other things they could do back at the pharmacy that wouldn't put them at such a high risk—but they wouldn't want him to have to go out in the heat alone, so they'd go with him regardless.
he downright refuses take them on house calls too far outside of liyue harbor in extremely hot weather, though.
(he also very rarely goes anywhere too far from the city during the summer, and the citizens of liyue are generally very understanding of the reason behind that. if he absolutely has to, however, he literally won't allow [name] to come along because of the serious risk it poses to their wellbeing.)
it's really just a learning process more than anything.
each pharmacist needs to learn where exactly their own limit is. it takes time and practice.
sometimes [name] overestimates their own ability. even so... they're certainly more skilled at working with their body rather than against it compared to how they were before their employment.
nonetheless, heat exhaustion is still a common and expected ailment at bubu pharmacy.
With tired, slightly uncoordinated fingers, they unclipped all of their unnecessary accessories, shedding anything they possibly could. They sat with their legs crossed on the bed often used for both the pharmacists' and patients' recovery needs. Anything that could make their body temperature higher, any unnecessary layers of their clothing, had to go. Given how exhausted they already were from the heat... they were at a considerable risk for heat stroke. There simply wasn't room for the extra cosmetic things when the weather was so unbearably hot.
The backroom of Bubu Pharmacy was thankfully rather cool with consideration for the dreadful heat outside. The air was pleasantly chilling against the festering heat beneath their feverish skin. They sighed, rubbing the inner corner of one of their eyes with their fingertips, as if to rub the tiredness away. It did nothing to help their state.
"It's way too hot this summer..."
"You didn't have to come along, [Name]," Baizhu mused, reassuring as he settled beside them, "I would have understood if you wanted to stay behind. It is rather hot this year."
"No, I know," they replied gently, interrupted halfway through by a yawn, "but I would have felt kind of bad if I didn't. I like helping people."
He softly tapped their shoulder, signalling them to lay down, which they did without any complaint, mindful to leave space for Qiqi in case she decided she wanted to curl up at their side (which she sometimes did if the pharmacy wasn't especially busy). "Remember not to do so at your own expense. You don't need to push yourself so hard. You have to be mindful of your condition, [Name]."
They went quiet, shooting him a critical look.
"I respect you so much Dr. Baizhu, but that is insanely hypocritcal of you to say. You are such a hypocrite. I just know that if Changsheng weren't off hiding somewhere, she'd back me up right now."
The doctor merely chuckled. "You may be right. Nonetheless, my point still stands."
"Yeah, I know, but it's not as if I passed out or anything. I used to faint in the heat all the time, but it happens less now... I've gotten better since working here."
He smiled fondly, gingerly taking off his glasses and setting them to the side. Baizhu shifted a little, getting into a position that was comfortable. "You have, indeed."
Quiet murmurs, discussions of medicinal practice and others of similar content, were eventually lost to the weight of heat exhaustion.
please consider reblogging, it helps me out quite a lot!
#aphelion's headcanons 🌸#: [ the junior herbalist! 🌸 ]#favoniuslibrary#astronetwrk#platonic genshin#platonic genshin impact#platonic genshin impact x reader#platonic genshin x reader#genshin x reader#genshin impact headcanons#genshin impact x reader#platonic baizhu x reader#baizhu x reader
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Can we have a Morpheus x Reader in the style of Phantom of the Opera? Thanks!
Inside My Mind
Dream of the Endless x Opera Singer!Reader
Summary: He was the phantom of the opera making you lose your mind.
Word Count: 3k+
Warnings: Dark!Dream, Yandere!Dream, graphic depictions of violence/obsession/manipulation, fem!reader, smut/smutty allusions (dub con, fingering, vaginal penetration, marking, corruption kink) Phantom of the Opera AU, Set in Victorian Era, angst ig, typos, etc.
A/N: another MINORS DNI fic lol YES YES A THOUSAND TIMES YES HOW DID YOU COME UP WITH THIS THIS IS AMAZING I LOVE THIS YES YES YES So, for obvious reasons, the plot of phantom of the opera is tweaked because dream is not 'grotesque' like the phantom in the real story. ALSO THIS EXPLODED INTO A DARK YANDERE FIC NONNIE I REALLY HOPE YOU LIKE DARK FICS COS THIS GETS PRETTY DARK T_T this was supposed to be a slow burn because i got so excited for it, but then suddenly i was not excited at all and was unable to write anything, like fr it was so hard to write this so im only writing the highlights in my head im so sad i cant write this T_T PLEASE READ THIS FIC WITH THIS BECAUSE ITS SO BEAUTIFULLY ORCHESTRATED Tagging: @pinksirensong @deniixlovezelda @shadow-pancake9
He was in his private booth with no one except Hob. Dream, in the length of his existence, no longer finds the same wonder as his friend, whose very eyes sparkle at the performance before him. But then his ears catch the echo of the song from behind the stage, from deep behind the opera house. "I say, they-" Hob starts, but when he turns to his side, his companion is no longer there. Dream watches her in the shadows, basking in her voice as she sings the song being performed with more heart than he ever thought possible, before making himself known. When he does, she starts, dropping the mop she was using on the floor. The sight of her face excites him. She is laced in nervousness when she manages to ask, "who are you?" "I am your Dream."
I remember how it was before, how it was in the beginning. When he was my Dream, who came to me with sincerity and gentleness.
I look out to the dim lit bathroom as I wash my arms in the fragrant water of my tub. I deflate in loneliness, "will you not show yourself to me tonight either, my Dream?"
A chill runs down my spine when the wind blows across me.
I gasp at the feeling of warmth on my cheeks.
I look out to the empty room, "Dream?"
Yes, my love.
I frown at the sound his voice, for the speaker nowhere in sight.
"Where are you?" I mutter softly.
I am attending to imperative business right now. I cannot be with you in my physical form.
I frown, "you've left me again?"
Sadness creeps up on me when he does not respond.
"You've left me again, my Dream. I'm all alone without you."
I sink down deeper in the tub as I hear him call out my name. My brows furrow at the sound of him.
You are not alone. You are never alone. I am always with you, my love, even when my form cannot be there. Always.
A bitter tear threatens to spill from my eyes, "it doesn't feel like it... are you not going to watch my debut? It's tomorrow night already."
My breath hitches when the I feel a ghost of a touch trail down my spine. Goosebumps rise all around me.
Nothing will stop me from watching you perform.
My heart leaps in my throat. I bite my lip at the thought as I feel myself break into a soft smile.
"I wish you weren't so busy. Then I wouldn't have to keep talking to you in my bathroom. It's the only other place quiet enough for you to hear me."
My shoulder tenses when the sound of his laughter echoes.
My dear, do you think there is a place on any plane that I would not hear your calls for me?
I knit my brows, "but you never respond to me anywhere else, my Dream, only here, and in my bedroom when Meg is not around."
Oh, beloved, there is so much that you do not yet understand about your Dream.
I pout, "then explain it to me," I rise from my tub, leaning on the side, looking out into the emptiness, "I am not a child."
I shudder when I feel a hand on my cheek. I place my own hand on the area, but it's not the same.
In due time, my love. I will reveal myself, my whole truth to you, in due time.
That was the beginning of the sweetness.
I remember vividly, as well, the first time he ever touched me. It was not like how one would touch a friend or maybe even a stranger. He touched me in the way I had never been touched before.
I hadn't understood the concept of the Dreaming yet, and so I was simply shocked to have met him in a park when he came up behind me. He had to explain to me that we were in his realm.
The soft smile on his lovely face at the time was enough to make me do anything he wished.
His lips found mine as his arms wrapped around me.
He did not give me time to ask any other questions spinning through my mind at that moment; I quite frankly didn't mind. His attentions on my skin and the kisses he left were more than enough.
And then he started to lift my skirt.
"Dream," I call as goosebumps rise on my skin. My Dream does nothing but pull me closer and move my clothing away so that he can touch my bare skin.
I jolt and whimper at his touch.
"Hush, my love," he mutters against my neck, "I swear to you that I will bring you nothing but pleasure, just as I have intended all along."
I am still tense when I feel his fingers move into me. I squeak and wrangle against him, but eventually the foreign and inexplicable want that builds within inside my being makes me lean into him and yearn more for his touch.
"My beautiful ge-"
I gasp when I hear my name being called in a panic.
Meg is looking down at me with worry laced all over her features, "have you had a nightmare?"
I turn to his, propping my elbows up as I stare at my friend.
She continues, knowing I was in pure confusion, "you were groaning and whimpering in your sleep."
I feel blood rise up my cheeks.
Meg knits her brows, caressing my cheek, "are you ill, my love? You've got a hotness about you."
"No," I shake my head, offering a bashful smile, "I am well, Meg. It was just my... my Dream."
It would then be Meg who truly experienced a nightmare, unshakeable ones at that. But at the time, I did not know it was my Dream's punishment for interrupting us.
That was what it used to be like living in the bliss of my naivete.
Even though I suppose it was always there, my Dream's darkness, it only became real when I allowed myself to see it.
My Dream started to turn into my Nightmare when I was reunited with my childhood friend, Raoul.
I had obviously been excited to see him again at the opera house. Raoul told me it was destiny. I felt uncomfortable by the idea that my Dream's brother would ever allow such a thing, but I did not tell Raoul that.
Whenever he visited me, Raoul offered me roses for each of my performances that he watched, and he made so to watch every performance I had, even going as far as being a patron of the opera, so to be able to watch me practice.
I, of course, was ecstatic to have my friend around. But Dream did not share my sentiment.
At first, my Dream acted cold. He acted hurt. He told me-
"I've heard his thoughts, he wishes to steal you away, to claim you as his own, to corrupt you," he seethes, gripping me by my arms, "do you want that?"
"No!" I shake my head rapidly.
"Do you want him to take my greatest and sweetest love away from me?" he mumbles, pushing me against the vanity. We were in the privacy of the diva dressing room, as I was now the diva of the show.
"No, my Dream," I frown at him, grabbing his face as he hoists me on the surface. I help him push my clothing up so that my exposed thighs could straddle his hips.
He begins to undo his trousers as he nods his head, "you belong to me, don't you, beloved?"
I lick my lips in anticipation of him while I nod myself, stealing a glance between his face and what his hands were working on, "I am yours, my love."
He pushes against my face with his as he presses a kiss on my cheek bone, "and I am yours, eternally."
I nibble my lips when he exposes himself. I let out a loud groan when he enters me.
"Pretty girl," he praises, "let them all hear who makes you feel this good."
I suppose, in fact, it was my fault that he snapped.
But it was not as though I could control who I dreamt about. And it was not like my dreams were something he should have readily dove into.
Dream had asked me, "do you want him?"
"Who?"
"Your childhood flame," he quips coldly, "Raoul."
I told him I didn't. Why wouldn't I when I was so in love with him?
But later that night, I dreamt of him, of Raoul. I was walking with my childhood friend in my childhood home. We were holding hands the way we did when I was younger. He was recounting his travels to me as we walked around the halls. I laughed when he joked he would steal me away. I joked that I would let him if he gave me all his chocolate.
And then Raoul turned into smoke. And then I was holding no one in my hand.
My childhood home began to crumble, and in my fear and panic, I begin to run. The walls broke down and the ceiling fell behind me.
It was a wonder that I made it outside.
But then I my soul nearly left me when I was grabbed by my arms and faced with a dark face.
A shiver ran down my spine when my Dream squeezed me and quipped, "you lied to me."
I panted as I looked at his face, drawn with fury, loathe, and madness.
"You told me you did not want him," my Dream hisses, jaw tight along with his accusation, "you did not want him to take you away from me, but you do!"
My breath hitches as his hands grab my cheeks and forces me to look up at him, "you think he could ever measure up to me? You think I would ever let you find out your inevitable disappointment?"
I grab onto his coat as I feel fear crawl up my spine.
"What makes you think I'd let you leave me? You are not meant to leave me-- you're never leaving!"
I release a shudder, "my Dream, please."
The darkness and tension on his face begin to unravel as tears begin to streak my face.
"You are mine," he words carefully, "you belong to me."
Out of instinct, I find myself nodding at his words as I repeat to him, "I am yours, my Dream, only yours." My lips begin to quiver as I am overcome by emotion.
He seems to be satisfied with my admission. He withdraws his harsh hold on my cheek and exhales deeply. He leans his forehead onto mine, his arms make their way around me.
I begin to sob into his chest when he pulls me close. He shushes me, "No," he mutters, "no, enough. Hush now, all is well. I would never hurt you, never you. Do not be frightened."
I hide my face in his clothing, he strokes my hair.
"I do not want to see you with that man ever again."
I do not respond to him.
He nuzzles against me as he breathes in heavily, "mine."
I really did try my best to stay away from him, but Raoul was always very persistent. He never liked losing when we were younger, and it seems his virtue only grew as time went by.
I told him we could no longer be friends, and his responses were nothing but childish, because he told me the notion was nothing but childish.
Then one day, he got me to laugh at his attempts.
I froze when Raoul said, "finally, I may be able to sleep well tonight, now that I've heard your laughter."
"Have..." my brows knit, "you not been sleeping well?"
It was painfully clear to me all of a sudden how heavy his eyes were and how tired the smile he gave me was, "I have been plagued by nightmares, little butterfly."
Raoul rubs my chin with the pad of his thumb, "do not grow uneasy by the thought. Your smile is medicine enough to my ailment."
The following day, he would not go back to the opera. Two days after that I would learn that he has not woken up from his deep sleep.
Dream acted as though nothing was wrong the entire time, and in my deep feeling of bewilderment, I began to avoid him-- hide from him. At first it was simply by ignoring him, then once caught, I acted as though I did not realize he was there to begin.
After a while, when I could feel him draw near, I would make attempts to flee him, except, there as no escape from Dream.
"Beloved," he appears from nowhere right in front of me, "why are you hiding?" He reaches out to my cheek.
My heart is thumping wild in my chest when he pulls me close, "was my darling playing a delightful little game to excite me?"
"Dream-"
"Well, I've found you now," he says, peering close, as his hands travel down my body, "I deserve my prize."
My breath begins to hitch when he roughly rips my skirt up. I grab ahold of his arms. His lips curve into a small smile as he watches me. He absolutely relishes the pounding pulse echoing in his ears. Dream leans down and leaves wet kisses on my neck, eliciting soft yelps from me when he begins to suck and graze my skin with his teeth.
"Cover my marks again," he breathes in between kisses, "I will give you more."
I whine when I feel his fingers find their way to my core. I begin to squirm, unsure of whether or not I want him to continue.
“Tell me how much you love me,” he mutters against my neck as his arms around me contrict
"Dream."
"I feel as though I'm suffocating when I’m not with you," he sighs, fingers fondling with my heat quicker, "if you leave me, I will cease."
His breathing grows heavy. He sucks in a sharp breath when I cry out at the feel of fingers enter my pooling wetness.
"Nothing will ever come between us," he croons, "I will destroy anything that comes in our way."
Though Dream's ministrations were something I had grown accustomed to, and even something I looked forward to, there was something about this moment that left a foreign feeling in me.
He made me feel so, so good, and yet, it felt so... wrong.
Then one day, it was I that snapped.
Everything that he's done, giving Meg nightmares, trapping Raoul in a constant state of dreaming, intimidating me then telling me he was nothing without me, all of the twisted things he'd done made me realize his love was demented, and it took performing one of his plays.
He had taken it too far by inspiring the maestro to write about our love story: a man who did the extremes for his lover, and how his lover had no choice but to accept his actions for the alternative was to remained shackled in the dark until his love was accepted.
I overheard the dancers talking about how this was the most tragic story yet, and how they're glad such a man did not exist.
I performed the arias with tears, danced with such desperation. I sang with so such sorrow that the whole house broke into tears.
Yet I saw him through my blurry eyes, I saw him smile at me with satisfaction
He did exist, this cruel lover, but he was not a man, he was Dream of the Endless, the phantom of the opera.
So I ran. I ran leaving everything, taking nothing but a coat and money to get away as far away as I could from my prison of an opera.
It was foolish, I knew. His words echoed in my mind-- "My dear, do you think there is a place on any plane that I would not hear your calls for me?"
The fact was he did not need my call for him to know where I was. But I would rather die trying than not at all.
It was very much like Dream to come and get me when I had myself believing I had a chance to get away.
My carriage stopped in the middle of the road with a loud cry of the horse and the driver.
I did not want to come out, I did not make a move to, because I knew he was right outside.
Really, there was nothing stopping him from manifesting inside my tiny carriage, and yet he still pounded on my door from the outside and demanded that I come and face him.
When I did not reply, he forced my door open, making me turn to him with wide eyes and taxed breath.
I cannot lie, I was surprised to see his distraught expression and his unkempt features. I did not think it would be possible for him to appear this way.
Dream reaches out for me. I watch him as his dark expression slips as I raise my hand out to him. I however do not hold him, instead I push him away.
His brows furrow tightly, "you will come with me at once."
A shiver runs down my spine at his command. I fake courage and clench my jaw, "no."
"No?" he tilts his head.
"I do not want to come with you anywhere at all," I mutter coldly.
Dream cannot mask the disbelief and horror on his face. I can see his expression slowly shift into anger as he speaks, "what has made you like this?"
"YOU have made me like this!" I hiss, leaning in, "you are hard and cruel," I shake my head rapidly, "you do not love me."
"I ONLY LOVE YOU!" he barks, removing further the distance between us as he leans forward.
"BUT I DO NOT!" I answer with the same intensity before pulling back.
His face falls. Wind begins to pick up begin him. His eye twitches, "liar."
I hold back tears as I grip my hands tightly. I shake my head slowly this time, "not anymore."
His face twists, he pulls back and his knees nearly buckle.
My heart feels as though it is being squeezed when I look at him. I cannot lose my advantage now, "I used to believe you were once my sweet Dream, but you are nothing more than a twisted nightmare."
"Stop," he points, "LIAR! That's not true- I- I'm still your Dream! I love you!"
"If you truly loved me, you would let me go!" I quip moving towards him, "you have to let me go, Dream."
"You cannot leave me!" he whisper-yells, "I want you to be with me, to stay with me, to love me!" He grips on the side of the carriage door, "even thinking about a world without you, a world where you are with someone else makes me sick."
I retreat from him when he tries to reach out for me. He is hurt by this. He slowly pulls his hand away, "can you at least pretend to love me?"
A chill runs down my spine when he says this.
He grows more desperate when he speaks again, "I implore you, tell me what err I've committed so that I man correct it," he drops on his knees, "I beg you not to leave me."
I turn away from him, rubbing my face as I did, to hide the tears that were threatening to show themselves to Dream, "close the door, Dream."
Dream's desperation leaves him, "no."
His change in tone makes me my blood still. I barely even see him when I turn to him and feel myself fade into darkness.
"If you will not come to me in your own accord," he says, standing, "then I will take you in my own."
#dream of the endless#dream of the endless fanfic#the sandman fanfic#the sandman x reader#the sandman x you#dream x you#dream fanfic#dream of the endless x reader#dream of the endless x you#morpheus x reader#morpheus x you#the sandman angst#dream of the endless angst#morpheus angst#dream angst#dark!dream#dream of the endless au#yandere!dream#yandere!dream of the endless#dark!dream of the endless#phantom of the opera au#dream of the endless smut#dream smut#the sandman smut
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COOKING with Sevika;
I'd love to cook with her, what the fuck?
• At any given point, she will try distracting you. Either that being playing with your hair when you're mixing the ingredients for your cookies. Or taking, and hiding the things you needed.
• Will laugh watching you struggle to find whatever she tries to hide on the top shelf. Not your fault you're short as shit.
• Eventually she will help you.
• Can't help but find it amusing and adorable when you get excited about those stupid cookie cutters she bought you. (you were eyeing them up for weeks)
• Sevika loved cooking with you, but ask that woman to crack an egg she will walk away. She didn't like the feeling of it. The texture made her skin crawl. For you though? she would do it, somehow.
• Has a serious habit of hitting you on the ass with that stupid spatula. You weren't sure why, but she loved doing it. You didn't mind though.
• Secretly enjoys making cupcakes with you more than cookies, but just seeing how happy you are, makes her happy. So she is down to make anything with you. Again, but no touching eggs.
• Has a HUGE habit of rubbing the cookie/cake batter over your face. Literally anywhere she can find space, she is right there with it, waiting. She was indeed a brat when it involved cooking with you.
• "Hey, you look pretty hot with that stuff on your face sweetheart"
• Sometimes it didn't even have to be baking. Sevika was actually a really good cook, so some nights you would just be in the silent kitchen in each others presence, cooking your dinner.
• You can guarantee whatever plays on the radio, Sevika will hum along while adding those stupid (yet cute) sparkles on her cookies. She loved it secretly.
• Cooking and baking always made you miss your family, so she would be right there wrapping her arms around you, reassuring you that it's okay.
• The days you didn't feel like cooking because you weren't feeling okay, Sevika would do everything in her power to at least get you into the kitchen, just to be there with her. She loved when you were around. You always agreed because well, you loved her and loved seeing her happy.
• She was always the one to accidently burn herself when using the stove or oven. Literally every single time.
• "Most scariest woman in Zaun, and you can't handle this?" You always teased her with no doubt.
• She is the type to admire you from afar when you're zoned out in your own world.
• Holds you, even after you're both done with making food.
• Steals more cookies from the tray for later when you're not looking. You aren't that blind though. You know her antics, in & out.
• Tells you over and over that you always make the best food/treats, even though you tell Sevika that she was in fact the better cook between the two of you guys.
• The rest of the night is just spent cuddled up together, eating your cookies and listening to the rain against the window.
Note; I'll be honest. Im slowly losing my shit. As much as i would love to be able to, i cannot fathom on how to write a full 3/4k word fucking Sevika x Reader imagine. For the ever loving Christ, i cannot get into doing one. It starts off fine, then my ADHD will come out, and i will end up writing a bunch of random words and end up stressing myself out. Head canons for me, are easier because this way i can somehow make it make sense? i think, idk. The small imagines are fine but when it comes to actually writing one with a full plot, adding more characters, set fucking scenes? i panic because i am very insecure with my writing, how it looks and sounds. I also fucking suck at writing smut. So there is that :/ Last night i deleted like 5 drafts because it just downright sucked ass. I've been staring at my cooking with Sevika head canon for 3 hours (This one) and im just loosing my fucking mind, because i feel like it's just not good enough but oh well, enjoy it. Sorry for the rant.
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⋆⛧°. ⋆ Sasha Mystreet headcanons !!
i have a tummy ache rn from eating too much. anyway here's sasha i lobe her
half russian, half korean
demisexual (this is me projecting not just bc of her color palette i promise dont LOOK at me like that)
still pretty closed off, cold, and stoic. but, once in a blue moon, gene and zenix get her to genuinely laugh or mouth off and get angry and they absolutely relish in it
they're best friends :(
the only one of the three who can currently legally drive.
breakcore / hyperpop-punk Queen !! (crystal castles, quinn, swrslvt/cynthoni, laura les, snafu, charli xcx, xn88ax. yknow, shit i added to her playlist)
PIERCINGS!! honestly w all these headcanons, if they are/were a punk, they have piercings. she has double eyebrow piercings, a bellybutton piercing, and a tongue piercing
got deeper into and still practices witchcraft, just not potions or spells. she prefers her palm-reading, tarot, herbal mixtures and remedies, and crystal charges
im planning on making her patron saint someone from MCD that didn't get to mystreet, but first i have to actually Watch MCD.
loves scented candles and incense. she has pretty incense holders all around the house
favourite video game is luigi's mansion
always plays luigi during mario party and always loses. but it's fine bc she always wins mario kart (zenix is always princess peach and gene always plays one of the fuckin monster goons: dry bones, shy guy, goomba, one of the koopa kids)
had a crush on gene at one point, and they even tried out a relationship in uni, but then realized they were just doing the same exact things they did as friends and weren't really going anywhere, so they stayed besties
uses potion bottles as water bottles because they're just more practical
runs a vampire fanfic tumblr blog. she makes really fuckin good vampire au fanfics of really popular fandoms
has a butterfly knife and switchblade collection. they're all really pretty
zenix made her match phone charms with him, but he tells everyone she forced him (nobody believes him)
her and gene used to be skater buddies (zenix couldnt figure out how to skate for the life of him), but she's the only one who still skates around sometimes
i don't know how to explain this to anyone and it is honestly just my own delusion but oh my God did sasha have a mini crush on katelyn in high school
like it wasn't anything super. but she cannot lie to herself and say she didn't have fun during gym getting to see katelyn
typical "goth gf" reads classic literature and edgar allen poe poems and short stories. but also she has to work, so she listens to audiobooks
it's not that she doesn't feel her emotions or anything, but more-so she's just not used to expressing them, and doesn't know how to properly. and now, she feels like it's too late and would be too awkward to learn how
so, she expresses herself in other ways. like through her loud music, or her witchcraft, or through pen sketches and painting
she likes to go on walks every once in a while in completely random or strange places. yknow, ones where it feels like you shouldn't really be going. and sometimes she sketches whatever she finds there and thinks about
whenever she has a particularly.. excruciatingly stressful day, she likes to lay on the floor with her astral projector light, listen to music, and take an edible. it helps her calm down, and feel like she's in a different world for a while
it has backfired before though, because her mind went to the wrong place, and she ended up having a panic attack. so, she makes sure she only does it when both of the guys are home to check on her and ground her if she does start spiraling
Don't do drugs, kids. And if you REALLY have to try it because you're stupid, don't do it Stupidly. have a babysitter. a Trusted babysitter. and don't start with edibles. Be safe, or fuck up and die
#mystreet headcanons#cw: swearing#cw: drugs#nothing really traumatic though dw#still i put it under a cut#sasha mystreet#sasha aphmau#shadow knights#aphblr
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Another relic from the fall 2022 drafts? untouched since then. im never gonna finish this so i'm releasing it to the wild
Song lyrics that I think would be good titles for fics or playlists or something
1. There is a light that never goes out by the smiths
There is a light that never goes out
To die by your side (is such a heavenly way to die)
take me anywhere
2. Never meant to know by tally hall
Who do we think we are?
Everything plays a part
There are some things we are never meant to know
See the sky and all the land (together again)
The earth can stay below
The sun in the sand
You breathe and I turn to stone
3. Color in your cheeks by the mountain goats
It'll put the color in your cheeks
The silence that's our trademark
Money to burn, time to kill
4. Ghosting by mother mother
Ghost in your house,
Ghost in your arms
I'm ghosting your dreams
This is why I have decided to leave your house and home unhaunted
I'm just a ghost out of his grave
5. Never love an anchor by the crane wives
clumsy not clever
I couldn't bring myself to hold you
A secret I keep tucked inside my chest
Love that doesn't have a place to rest
A ship could never really love an anchor
Someone I have loved but never known (ANISTAROSE USED THIS LINE <3)
Never had the chance to lose you
6. Flowers grow out of my grave by dead man's bones
(When I think about you) flowers grow out of my grave (JUST READ A FIC NAMED THIS <3)
A dying cricket in a jar (this fic sounds so morbid)
7. Wildflower by Mel Bryant & the mercy makers
I'm stuck here still (like a wildflower on the side of the highway)
Burying your heart in the ash tray
8. Baby can I hold you tonight by Tracy Chapman
Years gone by (and still)
Words don't come easily
Baby can I hold you tonight?
if I told you the right words at the right time you'd be mine
You'd be mine
9. Come to your senses by Jonathan Larson
You're on the air (I'm underground)
Signals fading
Come to your senses
When you know (or at least you knew)
We sure put on a show
All I've got tonight is static on the screen
It was only you and me
It's cool to be cold😎
the shape of things we cannot ignore
You don't need a music box melody to know
Just an empty image eminating out of the screen
come back alive
10. Narcissus by Lizzie No
I keep on breaking my own heart
Nobody sees me (I see myself)
Up on tiptoe by the water's edge
You looked like someone I would have dreamed of
Treating love like it's vanity
Now I'm not so sure
Being with you was just like falling in
an echo in my own mind
You're a liar, but so am I love
Turning men into gods
10. Up the wolves by the mountain goats
When the wolf comes home
Ever since we founded rome
Float from branch to branch
Lighter than the air
11. Let's get this over with by they might be giants
Let's get this over with
12. Riches and wonders by the mountain goats
We are filled with riches and wonders
We invent secrets to confess to
The news the morning air brings
Our love keeps the things it finds
Lost at sea out of our minds
13. Graceland too by Phoebe Bridgers
No longer a danger to herself or others
She could do anything she wants to
And wonders if he believed songs could come true (I'm asking for it if they do)
Doesn't know what she wants or what she's gonna do
Rebel without a clue
She knows she lived through it to get to this moment
I will do anything
Whatever you want me to do I will do
14. Things that make it warm by cavetown
And all the Things that make it warm
We can make this hole a home
15. New Partner by Palace Music
New partner
A black tinted sunset
You are always on my mind
A deed so exquisitely grand
A payment which precludes the having of fun
I've got a new partner riding with me
The sun's fading faster
A hard swath to mow
(When you think like a hermit) you forget what you know
16. Pale green things by the mountain goats
Pale green things
Coming up through the cracks (pale green things)
Casting your gaze way out to no man's land
17. Daylight by Taylor swift
but now I see daylight / only see daylight
Luck of the draw
Clearing the air
I once believed love would be black and white,
But it's golden
I don't wanna look at anything else (now that I saw you)
18. International small arms traffic blues by the mountain goats
There is a shortage in the blood supply (but there is no shortage of blood)
You got the best of my love
Francis forever, the moon will sing, heat above, light my love, constellations, love of my life, like real people do, sunlight, me & my dog, birdhouse in your soul, no children, bleed out, the last place I saw you alive, broom people, you or your memory, amy spent gladiator, ribs, I'm like a bird, never do anything, witches, it's tough to be a god, teen idle, evermore, going invisible 2, line w o a hook, crop circles, fair, half dead, it'll all work out, I wish I were the moon
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im so !!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i found fucking ANTS on my COUNTER IN MY CANDY BUCKET FULL OF MY FAVORITE BLOW POPS
i have moved everything off the counters and cleaned and cannot find an actual line of them anywhere and its KILLING my brain
i had just done SO much CLEANING AND I GOT MYSEKF THAT BAG OF LOLLIES AS A SPECIAL TREAT IT HAD MY FAVORITE FLAVORS
and now my brai is going off the fucking WALLS with hallucinations of them in my hair and im going to lose my MIND !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭
i have cleaned the kitchen AGAIN
and am doing LAUNDRY i didnt NEED to do before
and i took a miserable shower
and i have BAD cramps
i wish i knew WHERE THEY CAME FROM
they were ONLY on the counter under/in my candy bucket and moving towards the stove but i havent found ANY clues to where they CAME FROM
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i CANNOT FIND IT ANYWHERE but i remember saying a few months ago 'imagine if wait and see is an actual plot thing in good omens and neil has been secretly telling us about it with every answer' IM LOSING MY MIND IM SO FUCKING HAPPY RN
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advice on how to find god without going to a church? the way you write about seeing god in the small things and the love you have for it sounds so beautiful
also any verses that are particularly comforting ?
hi!! i, like you, have not really been to church, nor have i started now. i don't know if i will ever go or not, i don't even particularly know if im a christian so please bear this in mind. i don't belong to a denomination nor have i studied my Bible to its end (i am trying though, and intend to read other texts as well, im just beginning where it feels like i should begin).
more than anything, for me, i have gratitude. things have come together in a certain way in my life, very very carefully, that for me illustrates a clear path of education through experience, and in such a way that it's also clear to me that im never given anything i am incapable of bearing. so even though i will feel like i am in the depths of stress (like right now for instance), i understand nothing is happening but another tempering. that im being walked with and my hand held. and because ive been so loved, and i really do feel that love there, i feel very humble and small and grateful. i did not feel spirit that way for most of my life but now i am older, i do. i mentioned it before but i realize now in my heart that while i was a very scared child, i was watched over and protected and helped.
so my gratitude kind of bleeds into everything lol. if i have a particularly good piece of fruit or i pray for rain and it comes or even if something fortuitous happens, i thank God and see Him there (keeping note i dont really mentally quantify God as anything but a loving and giving movement, not even anything as direct as a force. i just feel and know It is there like a great big atmosphere). when bad things happen i may not initially recognize the purpose of the experience but i always try to remind myself to see how it can or does benefit me for it to happen. things like losing friendships or health issues or just a day where it feels like i cannot win or succeed anywhere, these feel like education to me. something that is making me better or sharpening my perception and understanding.
that's how i feel and see it. i don't know how you do so im sorry if this isn't helpful 8( i don't know any verses to share but my friend @americanette knows lots and they're wonderful to read if you want to go to her blog and ask, especially regarding what you need comfort for (her brain is soooooo wrinkly). i bet you'll find something there.
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sometimes, art feels like a guttral scream into a ravenous void. eating every word, and burping every hope; dizzied and drowsy from every voice. we are attempting to express the obvious, or the hidden, or the smitten, in a palatable, tangible fashion. viewers chew, they do, but they regurgitate and spit the food. know only the flavour, but not the nutrition; make room for more automatic, ceaseless, and doped, decisions. it as though you have forgotten every syllable and stutter of the paintbrush and the pen. so pretty; so superficial. you hear me, but are you paying attention? you have read the cries, and you have memorised the lines, but do you understand the symbols and my signs? do you see through my riddle; can you recognise the repeating and the screaming sigils? we are all yelling and i cannot hear anything but the buzz, and the buzz of a bee, and i duck my head because im so afraid of being stung. i have never looked at the flowers. take one thing, and understand it for the other; put it down and pick it up if you're ever feeling better. to what logic are we tethered other than the closing of our shutters; taking peeks of truth and blinded by the light, and taking little pain as one great might, and shutting it all out of our sight. numb it. scroll. scroll again. put it down, pick it up, scroll again. move from mindless distraction to mindless distraction; so much movement with very little action. but are you listening? is the apathy not sickening? how long will i last, withering, always bent towards the ground; to technology im lingering and escape from reality we are conditioning. no seedling sprout has survived looking anywhere but the sun; growing trust in the chance of more confident tomorrows; nurturing resistance from dooming, fatal sorrows.
if a meteor came to take our fates, we wouldn't see it with the crane of our necks towards the sky, but in a crane towards our screens and our feet and the dirt—the place of our demise. our body's dialect speaks for our crimes, and for the sand in the hourglass that is always losing time. і can spout every language from my tongue like stars from nebulae but you will only see vanity that dulls the mind. a tomb is comfortable because it is the last place you'll ever lie; an uninterrupted slumber that erupts into new life—every existence only but the former's dream, and every destiny is truly but absurdity. this tomb is comfortable because you mustn't move; mustn't do. we have made ourselves into our beds, wound our heads into the sheets and the pillows and watched the mirage of a world without ever truly witnessing it. a dream within a dream; an escape within a hallucination. i will be here waiting; not quite sure what for, but endlessly discovering novel ways our world's been scorned. the foundation is being torn, and we are so preoccupied with inspecting every little crack that we will never suspect its widening attack. down, down, down; into a chasm full of frowns. victims and undoings and consequences ensuing; angry, irritated, fuming. point a finger, avoid the news, find something else to consume. maybe i'll see you again, one scroll away, soon.
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I’m absolutely convinced I already wrote part of this scene but I can’t find it anywhere and now I’m doubting the reality of my entire existence: a novel
#HELP! HELP ME!! AAAAAAakjsadhasdjkl;fdfs#i'm DYING i legit like.... cannot find it ANYWHERE#there are FOUR PLACES it could be and it's not in any of them but i SWEAR i wrote it! im!!! im losing my mind omg#ink.txt#aschenink
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