#i can't write in silence

[hotheadedhero]

Listening to ABBA whilst writing some smutty content is wild but man it gets me pumped

I do keep getting distracted by these bops tho :|

[not-poignant]

For the fic meme 🎶

Ooooo:

🎶 Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

I absolutely listen to music when I write. In fact, because of the ADHD, I literally can't write without it, so I often make playlists for every individual thing I'm working on (with some exceptions, The Nascent Diplomat doesn't have a playlist (though it should) because I just put on Gwyn's or Augus' playlist instead).

As a result, most of my stories (and many of my characters) have public playlists that you can listen to.

Today I listened to the cover of 'Take My Breath Away' by EZI while working on the latest chapter of The Nascent Diplomat. I think I listened to it about 10 times. Maybe more. I do have a habit of just putting songs on repeat, so if Glen's home I often need headphones to write, lol.

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From this fandom meme!

[petitepatateuwu]

It's way too hot and I am way too tired to do any more efforts, so excuse the critical lack of quality here.

If you didn't know, Cole is my favourite Power Ranger :D

And while I was binge watching Ninjago I had the pleasant surprise to see him physically and mentally traumatized in season 5 😈

And since I'm a huge sucker for angst, my brain immediately thought of developing that idea in order to hurt my beautiful baby boy some more. That and also the fact that my brain immediately looks for logic in the laws of cartoon physics (I really shouldn't do that...)

So I bring you the "Cole is a Ghost Kind-of-Saga". I still have a few more ideas to exploit, notably adressing the ways the other ninjas will help him cope with his new condition :3

And maaaaybeeeee a small comic too 😇

Anyways, I will let my brain rest a bit for now and sleep.

[crownedwille]

Are there still Crown Prince!Wilhelm stans out there despite S3 turning it into the number one problem? Please report, we need to unite and no, that doesn't mean that I don't support Wille's mental health and happiness and that I love the monarchy, some people out there must get it

[arkiwii]

uewswewesee,,, HER RUBIK'S CUBE WAS GIVEN TO HER BY SILENCE? AND ALSO THIS LETTER IS SO SWEET?? WAAAAA

[necrotic-nephilim]

Any ships you don’t like in the batfam fandom that is popular?

OOOH this is such a fun question because I have quite a few

StephCass - i'll be honest this is one of those ships where the fandom ruined it for me. because 2000s StephCass is an elite dynamic, they care for each other so deeply. but the fandom has been intent on defanging and purifying this ship. i don't know *why* but StephCass seems most popular with the anti-Batcest crowd who get very mad if you compare it to ships they deem Batcest. i have an entire meta commentary on this in my drafts I'll likely never post discussing why the only reason StephCass gets the pass for not being Batcest ties directly into misogyny (because the women of the Batfam need to exist as love interests first, not family members so Steph was never going to truly get to exist as a "full" Batfam member so long as she could remain a viable love interest for Tim, and the same can apply to Babs, Helena, and even Cass in some cases) and that just sours me to it. like if i want yuri in Batfam i think there are far more interesting/fucked up ships for Steph like Babs/Steph or Helena/Steph. and when it comes to what i'd actually like to see in canon, i don't want to see Steph relegated to love interest of a Batfamily member, even if it's queer. let her date and exist outside of Gotham the way every other Batfam member gets to, DC *please*.

Bruce/Selina - i can't fully articulate why this ship isn't my thing, it just isn't. i think i just can't conceivably agree with Selina letting go of so many of her fundamental morals and beliefs for the sake of a man, even one she loves such as Bruce. ironically, i think that's one of the few things Gotham War got right about these two. the only canon love interest i like for Bruce is Zatanna and i mourn we'll never get much of that.

JayRoy - i will admit when i was newer to DC the first comics i picked up for Jason were all New-52 and i shipped this. but now that i'm a pre-Flashpoint truther and i've actually read well-written Roy Harper comics, i only see the flaws in this ship. ngl if ppl were actually fun and interesting with it, playing with the idea of Roy knowing Jason as Robin and still seeing him as just Dick's little brother who's gone a little mental, it *could* be fun. but this Red Hood & the Outlaws (2011) and Red Hood/Arsenal (2015) dynamic *butchers* the fuck out of Roy and strips him of everything interesting. and even as a Batfamily stan, my number one pet peeve is when other DC characters get *butchered* in a Batfamily character's book just for the sake of propping up the Bat as some kind of savior. free Roy Harper from this mans.

Bruce/Oliver - we could be here all day if i listed all the Bruce ships i don't like, but i figure this one has to be included. because oh my god either the people shipping this *really* don't understand Oliver Queen or they just hate his ass because why would you subject Oliver to this man. he can't *stand* Bruce. i really hate the popular BruOliie shipping dynamic of like "oh they were boarding school besties" because if you want that, you *should* like Bruce/Zatanna, not these two. Oliver just always gets butchered in these fics and i won't stand for it.

Tim/Bernard - the ESSAYS i could write on this ship and why i dislike it. the fucking *fear* DC (and most popular media tbh) has with depicting queer relationships as anything other than totally perfect and cute for fear of accusations of homophobia has stripped this ship of *any* real grit. Bernard is a non-character in Tim Drake: Robin, he exists to cheer Tim on and prop him up and just be The Boyfriend. we occasionally get glimpses of an interesting character with really interesting trauma and nothing is *done* with it bc at the end of the day, Tim and Bernard must be perfect and cute. what's fun about Tim is he is the *worst* boyfriend alive. that boy is *ass* at dating. all of his relationships are rich with conflict and yet the moment he dates a guy suddenly all of his flaws vanish? i hate it. i mourn what this could've been if we kept messy Tim Drake and had a Bernard who was actually informed by his trauma. DC please let gays be messy again. also of all of Tim's 90s/00s friends to bring back as a love interest, Bernard Dowd was just a *bizarre* fucking choice. Sebastian Ives was *right* there come on now.

Any Crossover Ship - look if crossovers are your cup of tea i'm happy for you but oh my god if i have to see that little green ghost boy or that ladybug girl in the Batfam one more time i think i may explode. i have a lot of thoughts on *why* i think specifically Danny Phantom and Miraculous Ladybug get crossed over as often as they do with the Batfam, but i don't think anyone wants to year that. my only exception to this is Jason/Bucky Barnes, but it *has* to be comics!Bucky. like. Judd Winick's Jason and Ed Brubaker's Bucky would hatefuck and that i wish to see it. any other crossover ship (especially the Peter Parker ones that seem to be rising in popularity) just do *not* do it for me.

honestly besides that i don't think i dislike many ships. (aside from being super opinionated on Bruce ships, but that's mostly bc ppl will use him to butcher the character they ship him with) there are some ships i'm neutral to because i simply do not know enough to have an opinion (like Dick/Wally). i guess the only Batcest ship i'm not particular to is Bruce/Damian, but I wouldn't say that one is popular nor would i say i dislike it, just that it's not my cup of tea. most Batcest ships click for me in one way or another because i like their Weird dnyamics. i guess i could also say i dislike most ships that have come out of Young Justice (tv) because. oh my *god* why were those group of characters put together on a team. it's baffling. but even then it's not disliking those ships, it's moreso disliking that show's depiction of those characters so. everything is really dependant on the canon context for me!

[hauntedandmurdered]

LIONS BLEED HONEY (FF)

Surprise, surprise! I've been thinking about writing a sequel for my Clannibal story "Can't stop thinking about you" for a while now and just today I finally got to finish it. What you can expect: tragedies, moments to tear your hair out, to grin and to languish. (At least I hope so; kudos & feedback on my drafts is always appreciated! :))

There you go:

A snippet to tease you:

“Try to rest, Clarice. It’s midnight. Get some asleep”, he pleaded her, caressing her cheeks gently with his palms and wrapping her in his coat as if she was some sort of holy being. As they chased through the darkness together, space and time increasingly blurred into a viscous substance. Although Hannibal was supposed to be devoting his undivided attention to the road, Starling felt that he kept glaring over at her repeatedly. At some point, tiredness caught up with her and she probably owned it to none less than Hannibal that she was finally able to fall asleep. For the first time in ages, the lambs didn't dare to haunt her with their agonising screams. He was the wolf that chased the sheep away. As soon as he bared his teeth, they retreated into the barn.

When Hannibal and Starling entered their hotel room shortly before dawn the next day, he carefully lowered her to the floor. Her legs were still wobbly as hell, but with the help of his strong arm around her waist, she managed to keep her balance.

“I’m all right”, she insisted when he gave her a concerned sideways-glance.

“You think you have to pretend to be strong in front of me, don’t you? Life has taught you the hard way that you have to swallow your pain not to let the past catch up with you. But you don't have to, dear. You can be weak with me. I would never use a sign of weakness against you but help you process it, Clarice. You and I, together we can be so much. We can be unstoppable.” With that, he led her to the bathroom. Evidently, he hadn't missed the opportunity to choose a motel with lavish facilities. In addition to a shower with milky, opaque glass, the room was equipped with a bathtub and two washbasins as well as a toilet and mirrors. Overall, the whole suit exuded an unmistakable retro 70s flair which was certainly very much to his taste. He brought his lips close to the sensitive spot behind her ear, tracing her shoulders with his palms from behind.  

“Take a bath. Wash away all the memories. It’s about time for a turn.”

[frickingnerd]

nothing beats writing angst in the middle of the night while putting on a "1h of silence occasionally interrupted by pikmin noises" video in the background. the serotonin i get from their little "meep meep"'s keeps me grounded

[slverblood]

Aylin is honestly grappling with a lot of anger toward her mother after being freed. She can't help but wonder why Selûne didn't step in to protect her or [as far as we know] make any attempt to free her or reach out to her directly once she was freed or [if you don't sell her out to Lorroakan] step in to prevent her from being caged a second time. It's an anger she's wrestling with. She doesn't entirely want to feel it. She doesn't really want to doubt her mother's love. She wants to go back to the way it was a century ago, when she was certain of their relationship and of her place in the universe. But, she can't go back, and she is at the beginning of grappling with that.

She clings to her wings, to her arms and armaments, to her powers as proof of her mother's favor. But, even her mother's favor is . . . It feels wrong to think it is not enough, but it isn't. She is not a priestess or a devotee or a Chosen or any other mundane faithful. She is Selûne's daughter. She begins to question just what that means to Her. Is she only a sword to Her? Is she only a tool to be used and discarded, nothing more? Does She care at all for Aylin or what she has suffered?

Although she eagerly reconnects with Selûnite communities, there is a good while after she is freed where she can't engage with Selûnite worship. She cannot bring herself to pray or make offerings or visit shrines / temples or observe any rites / rituals. She thinks about it, especially when Isobel does so and invites her to join. She begins to practice her faith but quickly aborts the act. Perhaps pantomimes obeisance but does not put her heart into it, like mouthing the words of a hymn without singing them. She strongly wants her mother to reach out first — to speak to her, to visit her dreams, to do something either than look down on in her silence! Signs are not enough! Visions are not enough! She needs something concrete and indisputable! It is hubris for the faithful to demand so much from a goddess, but dammit she is Her daughter. Shouldn't that mean something?

She thought it did.

Now she isn't sure.

[mistystarshine]

I really enjoy the way you've portrayed Adam and Lute's relationship in Three Years Time and Northern Star, as well as the interactions between Charlie/Vaggie and Lute! How would you write an interaction between Adam and Lucifer in that storyline?

Thank you! And maaaaybe? I'm not sure if I'm going to continue writing in that universe. In theory, I'd like to, and LOVE to do a scene with Adam and Lucifer, but in practice, I'm having some really horrible anxieties about my writing and if people hate it/me when I talk about my writing rn, so I may be taking a step back for a bit in general. Not sure.

[coldgoldlazarus]

Metroid silence looks really cool :D I’m curious what kind of personality zyrrha-lon will have or how she will look, beyond being part of a bat like species

Thanks! :D

Personality-wise... Since the original idea for her was to have almost a like, buddy-cop-without-the-cop-part dynamic with Samus, I've generally set her up as a contrast to her in a lot of ways?

Where Samus is a precision nuke of a powerhouse, but very quiet and reserved, Zyrrha is a stealth fighter skilled in ambushes and hit-and-run tactics, but ironically fairly loud and brash (and probably more than a little passive-aggressive) most of the rest of the time. Kind of a hotheaded, leaps-before-she-looks type that both works for and against her more subterfuge-oriented skillset, but still genuinely competent enough to back that up when it comes down to the bare wire.

More importantly, she's damn stubborn, in both good ways (generally speaking has a good sense of herself and her values; and is Too Angry To Die™, the latter a big selling point in making her into an eventual love interest) and bad ones. (Tends to make snap decisions or judgements before she should, and it's difficult to change her mind once it's made up.) She isn't completely unreasonable, and a big part of her arc is eventually realizing she's wrong after having evidence as such stack up; and she'll wind up allying with Samus just as fervently as she opposed her beforehand, but still.

Aside from that, admittedly there are areas where I still need to flesh out the finer details of her life and personality, and I feel like some of that is probably best allowed to come naturally as I actually write her. While as I said, in broad strokes she's a big contrast to Samus, I think they probably have a bit more in common where that smaller but more foundational stuff is concerned? They both care a lot about protecting people. But yeah, still need to figure some of that stuff out myself.

Appearance-wise... I currently have this old sketch from 2019, that should give a decent idea of the design:

In terms of the actual biology and stuff it's still mostly pretty accurate, but I'd definitely want to make some tweaks. (More muscular arms and chest mainly, for proper wing-flapping action) But while the outfit I guess works as a casual fit, I want to design a proper powersuit for her; still considerably slimmed-down compared to Samus, but more armored than this.

[arkiwii]

is that a MOTHERFUCKING KAFKA AND SILENCE INTERACTION?

hi yes i wrote about them and i wanted it to be sad as fuck because i wanted to explore my favorite part of silence's character: dear god she needs a break

[dirty-bosmer]

Me talking about Lucien Lachance: Sick little freak (derogatory) Die

Me talking about Arquen who has 5 lines of dialogue and is canonically rumored to have feasted on his remains: My quirky girlfriend who deserves love and respect. They hate to see you winning, queen. ily girl.

[brandileigh2003]

Just wanted to let you know maybe you should rewrite some parts in your story. You've turned Sirius into one dimensional character only focused on remus and his issues. You also need to add some angst with the wolfstar.

I read part of main story and one shots. All the same. I think you hate Sirius. Or else you're not a good writer?

Either way. I hope to read if you fix it.

People actually wonder why authors and other creators are leaving the fandom?????

And I'm a little blog with a story with low hits, so I can't imagine what authors with larger reader base/following than me must see in their inbox.

There are so many things wrong with this ask that I don't know where to start. But I'll try.

1. If you don't like something or a characterization- there's a simple fix-move on. Find another fic. Do NOT go into an authors comment section or inbox with your complaints.

There are so many fics, different ways characters are written. Find an author you like (encourage them without pressure), then check their AO3 bookmarks, or see if they've done any fic recs. Maybe ask them?

2. I am not rewriting my story.

3. You should never demand that.

Write your own story, and do it better than me. If it's a story with disabled remus, then I'll probably find it and read it. And if I like it, comment nice things.

4. Please don't read anything else I write.

5. Also. If you didn't like the way I wrote the characters, then **why** would you go read more of my stories?? Yes, writers do change and grow and one take on a character might not look the same in one fic they write in comparison to another of their fics. And some might appreciate another chance, but... If you consistently don't like it, like I said above, move on.

6. If you read tags, you knew especially in silence between us, that it's soft wolfstar and their angst will come from outside the relationship. If you didn't like that, you should never have started. They had enough things in their past that they are still dealing with, I didn't want to add to that.

7. I don't hate Sirius. If I did, why would I write and read wolfstar? Yes, I kin remus and his disabilities mean a lot to me... But so does Sirius' mental health. And as someone who relates with remus so closely, I adore Sirius and want him to be happy and safe and have all the best things.

8. Ok. I'm not really sure what else you're referring to with one dimension with my Sirius, he's falling in love with remus so that gets focus, yes, but I also try to show the established relationships that he has. He brings a past into this, his own fears, insecurities, and trying to get help for his anxiety and nightmares. I know I'm not the best writer but I did try to give him development.

But at the end of the day-- I'm happy with my characterizations, their relationships and the story I wanted to tell-- so that is all that really matters. A handful of other people just so happened to enjoy it with me which made it even better.

Sorry you didn't enjoy it. Also, not really sorry at all bc you felt the need to come in here and make me feel bad.

[krikeymate]

With the AU where Sam came back before the events of five how do you imagine she would’ve reacted if she’d found Tara after the opening attack. Maybe when Tara clicked the emergency button it would also automatically notify Sam. After seeing how Sam reacted to Gale’s attack I can’t imagine her finding to Tara while the paramedics and police try to get there.

Previous. Sam's on the way back home when she gets the alert.

It's late and she's furious that she fell asleep at Richie's. She can't even fathom how it happened, it was only one drink to calm her nerves! Tara must be so worried; she hates making Tara worried. She gets the impression that Tara worries every time Sam leaves her sight, scared it might be the last time she'll see her, that she'll run off again. That hurts Sam, it really really hurts that Tara doesn't trust her to stay, but she doesn't - can't - blame her. It's a fear rooted in experience after all. And FUCK she basically did that earlier when she ran out of the Meeks-Martin household. The lack of notifications on her phone when she woke up felt suffocating. Did Tara think she ran away? Did she hope she ran away?

She doesn't check the phone again until she's parked up outside the house. There's a missed call from Tara, a bunch of... security alerts? She swipes into the app as she goes to get out of the car, a pit in her stomach.

Her heart drops from her chest at the latest alert from several minutes earlier: SECURITY BREACH, POLICE ALERTED. She vaults from the vehicle. The front door is locked and Sam nearly drops the phone as she rushes to turn on the screen and get back into the security app.

She slams open the door to her worst nightmare.

Tara's on the floor, crying, bleeding, begging. A robed figure in a fucking Ghostface mask stands over her with a knife. The figure halts their downward movement at Sam's sudden presence and it takes just a fraction of a second for them to leap away and run back into the kitchen, knife clattering to the ground around the corner.

There's blood everywhere - how can there be this much blood from such a tiny thing oh god. Sam's on her knees at Tara's side before she's even realised she's moved. She's trying to stop the bleeding but there's so much and she only has two hands. Tara's leg, her hand, she's bleeding from her back and her front and it just won't stop and all she can hear is Sam, sam it hurts, please make it stop, Sam please and all she can say is I'm sorry, I've got you, it's going to be ok Tara, it's going to be ok, just stay with me ok, hey keep your eyes open babygirl, look at me, Tara, look at me, Tara, Tara, please.

Hicks walks in on Sam Carpenter squeezing her little sister to her chest crying I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry.

[mcalhenwrites]

I feel very much like I'm not good enough to be around, especially if I dare present myself as a writer. I feel like people hate me and my writing. (Not everyone. But most.)