#i can't tell if you wanted my input on the story/idea or just sharing and I don't wanna step over bounds. ty or sharing!!

[tethered-heartstrings]

I have too many fic idea and I can't start any of them *cry*

I don't know what to do so uhm, I'm sharing one with you if you don't mind :3

~What if Will Graham is a famous painter but he has this some sort of tendency to like, imagine or create a horrifiying gorey art (like murder or like those crime scene wed see at the NBC Hannibal) and sometimes, use blood (not human blood... Yet :) to draw his artwork.

And then there's Hannibal, who's of course, a therapist who'd apparently assigned as Will's therapist. Is he a cannibal? a serial killer? I don't know, I haven't thought about this yet :°

Basically the whole story is just about how Hannibal corrupt Will into murder. That's all I guess~

Also sorry if it's not understandable, I only have 2 and a half braincells rn so... yeah

Also wish you luck for your finals :D

I know that feeling! The idea part of it and sharing it with friends and mutuals is very exciting. I also have soooo many ideas, but actually opening up a document and *starting* it is hard.

and no worries, I understood it and don't mind you sharing at all! I think it is a really neat idea and I hope you are able to find the time and energy to execute it!

[jikooklove9795]

What's your personal input of like crazy?

Is it related to jikook any way?

Before we get into the discussion I wanna remind you that whatever I'm gonna share here are my own observations and thoughts.

Now let's start, shall we?

Jimin himself has mentioned that he got the inspiration of his song, Like Crazy from the movie Like Crazy.

Like Crazy is a romantic movie which tells the story of Jacob and Anna and how the rules and laws of a country keeps them apart, poses a threat to their love and holds them back from having their happily ever after.

Now let's come back to Jimin. He's in love with a man in a homophobic country. Just like how in the movie the laws of the country are against the love of the lead characters Jimin may feel he's in a similar situation cause his country is against LGBTQ relationships. I think this is the main concept from the movie which inspired him. However, he doesn't want to give upon his love for Jungkook even if he knows the consequences cause their love is crazy like that. He knows this is his greatest chance at love and will not be able to feel what he's feeling for Jungkook with anyone else. This is clear from the line "Forever you and I" in the song. He wants his forever to be with Jungkook.

Now let's get to the MV. I'll speak about LC and a little bit about SMF pt2 and Letter here.

I think in LC Jimin is talking about a much younger version of him. The young Jimin who realizes that whatever he's feeling for Jungkook goes way beyond friendship. He knows the consequences. But he doesn't want to hold back. He's tempted and he takes the plunge.

You can see how thrilled Jimin is in 2015 when he notices Jungkook showing a romantic interest in him. He enjoys it, he's happy about it. But that doesn't mean he's not afraid of the threats which could break their love. So, he chooses an escapism to be removed from the real world and to live in the moment with the person he loves ( Jungkook). There's references to alcohol and sex in the song. And I think these are his ways to stay removed from the reality. We all know about his drinking. And there's sex. Don't get the wrong idea. Its not with other people but with Jungkook. Cause again he's stressing about exclusivity in the song using the lyrics "Forever you and I". He's not ready to give upon his love for Jungkook even if he knows its something frowned upon in their society. So, instead he chooses escapism to disconnect from the real world and stay in the bubble with Jungkook. The bubble he refuses to come out from.

We all saw how Jungkook promoted the hell out of Jimin's solo album, FACE. But there's a difference in his approach to LC and SMF pt2. He knows LC is about Jimin's struggles. Being the bf he must have had a hard time watching Jimin struggle. And I think he was constantly by Jimin's side, reassuring him that they'll be fine. There's this conversation at the start of LC which can be read as a conversation Jungkook and Jimin already had in their real life.

Jungkook: I think we could last forever

Jimin: I'm afraid that everything will disappear

Jungkook: Just trust me

(This is just an example and not the real conversation between Jungkook and Jimin)

From this conversation we can assume that Jungkook is the one who is reassuring Jimin whose afraid about the threats to their love. I think LC reminds Jungkook of the dark times Jimin went through. But when it comes to SMF pt2 its clear he's a fan of the song. Why?

Cause SMF pt2 is about Jimin finally setting himself free. I think in SMF pt2 Jimin's talking about a later version of himself who is embracing the real him. The society can't hold him down. He's not afraid anymore. I think this is why SMF pt2 is Jungkook's favorite song. He's happy seeing that Jimin has stopped struggling and proud to see his bf being brave.

Now there's Letter. I think here Jimin's talking about the recent version of himself. Through this song Jimin is conveying his feelings for Jungkook who stood by his side and held him while he was struggling. It felt like he was answering the conversation at the start of LC. Here, Jimin's the one saying that he has trust in their love, he will hold onto Jungkook's hand, wants to give back the love he received, asks him not to be afraid and reminds him that they'll always be together.

But is LC all about Jimin talking about his relationship with Jungkook? Not really. As Jimin said FACE is autobiographical. Its about himself. I think through LC he wanted to talk about the real him and also about his love life. Both are intertwined.

Let's see how through LC Jimin expresses the real him. This analysis makes great sense to me:

We all have noticed how queer coded the MV for LC is. Jimin's choice of makeup for the MV is also interesting. There's this scene in the song where he comes face to face with a girl and then the screen pans out to a bathroom where Jimin is facing his own reflection thus making it clear that the girl is a reflection of himself.

This becomes more clear in the dance video where Jimin and the girl are mirroring each other.

We all remember this video right?

And also the other times when he's questioned what is it to be masculine and portrayed in that way.

I have another interpretation to LC. This is mostly about how he was struggling during the pandemic when he couldn't perform for the audience like he's used to. He uses alcohol and sex (I repeat not with other people but with Jungkook) as an escapism. Jungkook is there by his side watching him struggle, trying to help him.

I think Jimin has layered LC using the 3 interpretations I stated. However, if Jimin hadn't mentioned anything about the movie my only interpretations would be 2 and 3. And again both interpretations 2 and 3 very well leads into SMF pt2 where he talks about overcoming his struggles.

As I said earlier these are my own views and opinions. You may have a very different interpretation. Thats the beauty of art. Jimin did a marvelous job with his album. The way he captured the emotions and delivered it beautifully was amazing.

Credits to the owner of the video

[fairuzfan]

During ancient times there was the kingdoms of Judah and Israel. But according to the Tanakh (Hebrew Bible) there was also the United Kingdom of Israel. BUT the thing is that a lot of ancient history about Jews is written in the Tanakh. And you can never really 100% trust religious books as historical sources. The Tanakh was written on stuff that can actually be preserved. While possible other sources on history of the Jews and other groups were written on things that perished. There is a lot of debate about the extent of the United Kingdom of Israel or that it even existed.

You have two kinds of historians when it comes to the Hebrew Bible:

The maximalists: accept everything unless proven incorrect by outside sources. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Biblical_maximalism

The minimalists: Hebrew Bible is limited in historical value. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Biblical_minimalism

Thanks so much for these links actually while looking at "biblical minimalism" I recognize some of the authors being cited in some of the works I read. I should check them out.

Also love reading academic beef the way that both groups named each other's "study" but neither operates with those labels lmaooo classic academics.

But also so people don't misunderstand me or try to take me out of context regarding this whole discussion: I also don't think the Quran is a 100% accurate historically, and it's stories are mostly used to educate on certain topics and ideas as it's primary purpose (think of aesop fables when i say this). Of course religiously I believe in the Quran, but most of the Quran is written in poetic verses in arabic and even as a baseline Muslims believe there's more to a quranic translation than just the direct translation. In quranic book history what we focus on a lot is the way books were made throughout history moreso than the actual contents (which religiously, we are not supposed to change at all... I believe the Hebrew Bible also is like that? Would love if someone could tell me more about it tho).

Even with the Birmingham Quran (the oldest quran that has been carbondated to around the time of Prophet Muhammad), i dont think its as important for the text itself (other than comparing contemporary and ancient to see if any changes happened through the few leaflets that survived), the most valuable parts of it is the fact we can carbon date it and see what sorts of materials they used back then and to see when the earliest surviving fragments came from. Plus we can analyze the script and rubrication to see if this was actually used to be read or used as a mnemonic device.

I can't say too much about archeological study more than this and that other post though. That's not exactly my field of interest or expertise. If people want to share more I can't provide much input unless you're talking about book history LOL.

But yeah just wanted to clarify so people don't assume bad faith/try to use my words to push their own agendas. In general historical studies should separate themselves from religion I feel if they go beyond analyzing societies the time in which the books/material were made or written.

Also here's a direct link to Birmingham Quran if the above one doesn't link:

[alexissara]

What A Year For Games! Top 10 Games of 2023 For Little Lesbians Like me!

I am on and off again with video games often switching between years where I am really into games and years where I am snoozing but I started to dedicate myself to finding and sharing more sapphic art so people can stop saying it doesn't exist lead me to playing tons more games and wow I played so many fucking amazing games this year it was an extremally hard year to pick a top 10 games. Now these aren't a top 10 sapphic games, it's just the best 10 games of the year, on an objective scale because I am the goddess of this world and there for right. Not all of these games will have come out in 2023, it's games I played in 2023 why limit ones self?

These games are roughly in order by how confident I am to put them on this list but each of these games did something different than me so I wouldn't say that a game is "better" rather than what I got out of it at the end of playing felt biggest.

Stray Gods

It's a musical, it's a video game, it's Stray Gods: The Roleplaying Musical. This game is a really fun little Greek myth story telling experience with an neat interoperation of myth and the characters to provide a fun experience to people with or without attachment to the stories. The dynamic music changing to your choices is a really cool concept although I wish more of the songs were a bop. I also wish the game explored the idea of polyamory like the Greek gods were not monogamous and I see no reason I can't kiss Freddie and Persephone in the same playthrough. What is there though is still compelling, fun, and engaging with a great set of characters across the board romanceable and not.

Pokémon Emerald Rouge

Pokabbie's amazing Pokemon Rom Hack that shows the utterly wild shit possible for Pokemon experiences we could get. It's amazingly fun to do runs of Pokemon where you catch new pokemon, fight trainers and get to then recatch that species to use in later runs. It's a really great gameplay loop that really just uses what's fun about pokemon and allows for a lot of different run customization which leads to the loop not getting stale and makes it easier to find particular pokemon you want. This was my favorite Pokémon experience this year.

Street Fighter 6

Street Fighter 6 has some of the worst monetization to date in fighting games. However, despite that it provided a lot of fun to me this year playing the base game's amazing World Tour mode and in enjoying the greatly designed new characters who I hope become Street Fighter staples. All while making my favorite SF character Juri even better with new interactions, a little bit of progress to her story and more. I hope that World Tour mode encourages a lot of other fighting game devs to step up the single player experiences in Fighting games and I also hope [as seems to be the industry trend] that "modern" controls take over. It was so nice to be able to do all the special moves consistently and more easily feel like I was in control of the game rather than feeling light I was fighting my hands to move out an input.

Drums Of War

I sure do wish a Fire Emblem game came out in 2023, it's been so long since Three Houses and Hopes is amazing but not the SRPG gameplay I came to love. Well if there was a Fire Emblem game I am sure it would have ENGAGED me, wait, there was the amazing Fire Emblem rom hack Drums Of War. Parrhesia utterly killed it with this take on Fire Emblem. The heart of the story being an emotionally damaged lesbian and the dancer with a big secret who fell for her makes for an utterly captivating romance paired with a real "war is hell" story that really does it's best to show you how fucked all sides of this conflict are until the player finally gets to forge their own path forward. Roxelana and Calista would be among my most favorite Fire Emblem lords if I was ranking them alongside all the lords of the series with both characters being utterly delightful and some charming side characters too like Estrelle. The gameplay itself aired a bit on the harder side to what I like but regardless I had a great time with the majority of maps and by the end of it I think I finally managed to get with the curve of the difficulty even if I wish there was an easier mode.

Cassette Beasts

The soundtrack alone would put this game on this list but luckily it has even more than a soundtrack. The whole cast are really charming, I totally fell for Viola and the other characters all have their own special charms. The game has plenty of faults I talked about in my review of it but despite the flaws of the game basically right until the very end where it massively declined for me this was one of the best games in all of monster tamers for me. The DLC was sadly not so great that came out later in the year but I didn't mind giving the extra money to the devs when the core game was so good. The monster taming is fun, the gameplay feels flexible enough for you to find the niche you like to play in and become really good at that niche, it allows for a lot of flexibility from folks who wanna swap partners all the time to people who will find their favorite characters and monsters and stick with them. I really hope the developers keep moving forward with Cassette Beasts and making new strives forward with their concepts because of all the indie monster tamers I've played this is leaps and strides above the rest.

En Garde!

This extremally short little romp is a compelling experience that is just a little bit longer than your average modern block buster. It's a simple and sweet swash buckling game where you play as a bisexual vigilante woman with a big crush on a sexy pirate woman trying to stop the oppressor of the people's evil schemes. Each chapter is like another adventure of Zoro short and puppy, fun and with ever so slight tension but you know the hero will come up on top. It's a really good experience and it has some great accessibility features for folks with reflex issues like me to still be able to enjoy it. The music is staller, the voice acting is fantastic, it's a great package that instead of padding itself out fills every second with greatness.

Luxaren Allure

I am a massive fan of turn based RPGs, I love getting to look at menus and think about my actions, being able to multitask while I play, enjoy a big juicy narrative and so I was very happy to play a JRPG style experience that's all about lesbians. An amazingly fun concept for a JRPG plot where one woman's beloved whom she chickened out of confessing too gets corrupted by an evil power and she is tasked with being the hero to take her out. This gives the interactions and the end goal a sense of uncertainty, will this be a sad case of tragic yuri, will she find joy with someone else, will she be able to save the woman she loves from this evil power, will she submit to the evil herself to be by her side? Everything feels uncertain with just this little angle added to a fairly typical JRPG formula. All while on the side having an adorable romance between a naga and a human girl giving us the good good lesbian sweetness between the dramatic tension.

Baldur's Gate 3

I am so often the contain, the noted hater but not on this day, nay I say, it was pretty fucking fun. The game is flawed, pretty flawed, like it's got a lot or fantasy racism shit I hate, it's tied to an IP I hate, it's got so many bugs that happened on my own run but if there is one game from this list I will probably think of the most and play the most in 2024 and beyond from this year it's probably this game. The games depth of interactivity, the wide breath of options, and the mods, oh the mods, the many many many mods, this game has so much to do and will for a very long time. It's rare to get a truly great multiplayer game and this game also provides that, this is a fantastic experience for playing online with others and makes for really great runs. Then there is the romances, oh the romances are really great, the girls are all fantastic and the side queers are super brilliant too. It's just a really fun video game and it does a good job exploring trauma and different takes on abusive relationships and overcoming [or succumbing] to them.

Thirsty Suitors

What a fucking great game, while the gameplay is mostly quick time events it does an amazing job of making each aspect of the game feel distinct from each other. While skateboarding in general kinda sucks in this game the combat and cooking all feels really great. Then there is the vocal performances and writing which are all fucking stellar. It's really great to see a fully fleshed out and fully real feeling queer woman who has had messy exes of all genders and has done a lot of fucked up things in her time. Jala's road to redemption with her family and exes all feels really great and this is a special story and I realized sometime after there is some level of variance too that I could have seen if I made some different choices. It's really great and even if it's not a dating sim like I thought it might be it's still a really great little thing. Then you factor in all the cool queer brown people in this game and wow, like I felt so scene by this game like the angry mess Tyler is speaks to my little transbian heart, the high fem lesbian struggle with family that Diya has I could feel echoed in my own life, I just, wow, it was great. I am so happy this game exists and I will likely always see this among the best narratives in all video games.

The Cosmic Wheel Sisterhood

My game of the year, The Cosmic Wheel Sisterhood fucking blew me away. In a shocking twist of fate while I complained about a lot of endings this year I didn't like my original ending for The Cosmic Wheel Sisterhood either but then that drove me to go from liking the game to loving it as I ran the game again in spite of it, fueled by spite alone I felt a sense of determination, I would change my fate! This thematic fortune telling game where you make your own cards, help people or end up seeing a fate that only hurts them, I knew how to play it, I knew the systems now, I understood how the cards worked, the truth of my powers and the price I agreed to pay and I'd use all of that to make the happiest fucking story possible for Fortuna aka ME. So I dart through the game, I help the trans woman be herself and happy, I get my hot butch girlfriend, I help everyone out with their life problems crafting only the best cards possible to make sure I can give the best fates possible and then I hit the end point, the time to pay the price. I say no, the game says, you have to, I keep saying no, and then I draw my cards again and shape fate and in that I defied fate, made an ending I could be happy with, a better world for all my fellow witches, and so my story ends with my friends back by my side [probably gonna be a polycule] and a whole lot to look forward to. What a fucking experience, what a cool fucking game.

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[ray935sworld]

I have a question and you MUST be honest

Do you find it annoying if i share my ideas with you? Like i am just some anon who goes into your asks and is like "here is my idea for your story, what do you think of it" and it is YOUR story so who am i to tell you what my ideas are

Do you know what i mean? Sometimes i think i am being strange because it is your project and all and i don't want to come off as annoying or rude or anything

Please be honest, the last thing i want to do is piss you off or get on your nerves or anything like that

Sorry if this is weird and not to sound needy or anything but i just need some reassurance that it is fine to theorize in your asks

- 🥭

Okay I promise you that this is the truth and I am being brutally honest with you here.

I totally get what you mean and I think it is very nice of you to ask this. So here is my point of views:

I love writing. I love coming up with stories and developing plot lines, some easy, some complex and I love sharing them with people. Last time I did this, was on wattpad in like 2018 in a german community that wasn't nearly as responsive as this. It used to frustrate me a lot which made me ultimately quit publishing for years. Then I decided to give it another shot at the beginning of the year (ngl my first story was even more niche 55 legends have read it so far 😎).

And to this day it was one of the best decided I made. It helped me improve my mental health in several ways. Not just the writing itself but seeing that I can create something that people like, that people react to in any way, if it's happy or sad or angry, makes so incredible happy. It amazes me every time and I get excited about every like and comment.

And I never even considered it a possibilities that others like my stories enough to keep thinking about them and make up their own ideas and theories on how it could continue. Every time you send me one of your ideas/ suggestes I get really excited.

And yes, I am the one writing it so it is technically my story, but I - personally - love to hear input from others. There are many aspects that I didn't/can't consider so someone else pointing them out often helps me writing a story that's better than my original idea.

For example the soulmate AU: you suggested the Martin idea and honestly I love that little bit. I didn't make that much out of it, but still it was a great moment to spice up the story a little bit and show how deep the self hate actually runs.

So please, I am being brutally honest, never hesitate to share your ideas, thoughts, emotions with me. Its literally what's keeps me going. I don't think it's rude or strange. I think it's incredible kind and sweet and amazing. Please. I am literally addicted to it. And I don't care if you do it anonoums or if you ever want to sent a DM. both is fine. Trust me. You can ask some of my moots. The writing discussion fill around 200 pages I think!

So what I mean is, I love you. You are amazing. You get all the forehead kisses and you are more than welcome to always share your thoughts, ideas or whatever. Yoz can also send in your own ideas! It really is okay. You are more than welcome, you are even encouraged to do so! So please don't worry.

You and all your ideas are incredibly appreciated.

Love, Ray

[my-mt-heart]

I have some thoughts on Daryl’s arc that I want to share, but I’ll hold off a day or two because 1) it might get ugly and 2) I think Carol/Melissa deserve the spotlight a lot more right now.

Just seeing her on my screen again is a huge relief after so much uncertainty over the past year and a half, and of course the performance is insanely good. What I'm most grateful for is the fact that Carol has a clear emotional drive. We don't have to analyze her micro expressions for hours or turn over every stone to get a rough idea of her headspace. She says it herself. She's looking for Daryl. She's already gone to great lengths to find him when he doesn't turn up at the time he said he would, and thanks to the teaser, we know she'll keep going as long as there's hope he's still alive. I want to see where her determination takes her (once she gets across the ocean I mean), and obviously I want to watch the inevitable reunion between her and Daryl. It's the most anticipated scene of S2, so it needs to be big. Like, unambiguous canon big. It's what the characters and the fans deserve.

Bear with me though because I do have some issues with Carol's first appearance in 106. “God, MT, can't you just look on the bright side?” I could, but then I’d have to lower my standards, which enables AMC to keep lowering their standards when it comes to telling Daryl's and Carol's story. Theirs has always been an inspiring one, not because of all the people they've saved or all the things they've blown up, but because of the emotional core. They're two lost souls who find each other after the world ends, raising each other up to become stronger than the people around them, the audience, and even they themselves ever imagined. Their story is deep. It offers hope to fans facing their own challenges in life, so it has to be handled with a lot of care. Cheap gimmicks are beneath them, but cheap gimmicks are what we get in this scene.

It's a little bit like S7 when she runs into a group of saviors on the road, taking them out with a gun hidden up her sleeve. It reminds me that this woman is one of the most resourceful badasses in all of TWDU. And as a Caryl shipper, it delights me to see her ride off on Daryl’s bike—also badass for the record. To me though, when the nostalgia/shipper's high wears off, these things feel like distractions. There’s not really a compelling twist, like for example, finding out that Carol stowed away on the boat Daryl was on and had been in France the whole time. There's not enough momentum to keep me hyped through the long hiatus. The teaser does the vast majority of that right now, which is cool, but I want to see that same effort to market the show to me in the show itself. I want good writing. I want the connective tissue. I want the payoff. Will we ever see how Carol learned to ride a motorcycle in the first place or do I have to fill in the blanks myself just like I had to do throughout most of S11? Will we get Caryl beats that outdo the extremely unnecessary and OCC nunbaiting beats?

I don't trust Zabel to deliver everything I'm looking for. I don't think he's very clear on who Carol is, what she represents to the fans, or what her relationship with Daryl represents to the fans. Melissa does understand all of that though, so I have hope her input will make a difference. I've said it many times, and I'll say it again. I'm so happy she's back. I'm happy she seems so excited to be back. She deserves everything she's ever wanted for Carol.

[rey-jake-therapist]

If I may say, regarding BBC Sherlock s4 outrage (no spoilers dw) - a LOT of that was bc of a whole bunch of interviews and quotes by the showrunners promising they'd do something groundbreaking with Sherlock, that they'd tell the story they think ACD truly wanted to tell but couldn't, that kind of thing that, together with a whole bunch of OTHER stuff they'd said over the course of the show, was really extremely queerbaity and disappointing. I imagine coming into it years later and having seen at least hints of the fallout back then and knowing already there WAS great disappointment would be much less, well, intensely disappointing bc the build-up is vefy different. Idk I guess I'm what I'm saying is just, if you watch it and just end up wondering if we were all off our rockers insane back then, remember it was a very different situation and we had a lot of hope, and please have pity on past us :')

Well thank you for your input and for the reminder! Surely I'll need it when I watch season 4 indeed. I wasn't there to witness the big meltdown, just heard of it a bit so I don't have any judgement to make about the Sherlock fandom and I won't 💜

I had my share of deceived hopes too! And there's the thing about not expecting alone: it's mostly awesome because you get to share theories, hopes, you read fanfics with great ideas, etc.... but then disappointment when the canon story happens hits even harder because you're not alone to experience it, but hundred even thousands sometimes, and wherever you go online you can't escape it! So believe me dear anon person, I know how you must have felt and I sympathize:)

I'm just happy I didn't experience it myself because last time I did for another fandom (Star Wars), it was dreadful and it ended up tarnishing the love I always had for the franchise. Not because fans were complaining, which frankly we had the right to, free speech and all! But the arguments that ensued, the name callings, the friendships that ended because of a disagreement over a ship or a theory... It was really unpleasant and I try my best to avoid finding myself in a similar situation now.

[adreaminmyheart]

"That's so meaningful..."

Guitar picks, rather than a promise ring. But you couldn't exactly exchange pianos, it was the only instrument he had been taught properly. He'd have to think of something very special to exchange with Sawyer, maybe his favorite bowtie? But what could she do with that? Hmm... he'd have to think hard on it. Maybe he could ask Wooly for help in writing a song?

Danny wasn't much of a songwriter, he was jst an incredible singer.

"For me, it's just the affair, I guess. I love the idea of walking down the aisle with someone I love. The piece of paper? I don't care about. It's the special occasion, with family and friends, that's what I want."

There's a nervous chuckle. His love struck eyes were proably obvious.

"I guess you can tell, that girl back home, I'm feeling the same way about. Gosh, she's smart, beautiful, one heck of a performer. I can't imagine life without her. I want her by my side, through every single thing. I just... hope she feels the same way about me."

Then a thought crossed his mind. Maybe he could get some input from the other side, if he was lucky.

"Can I meet your wife and kid someday? I want her opinion, as being the other side of the story. I bet she's beautiful too! I think, when you're beautiful inside, it has a way of showing on the outside. I really want a family, and I couldn't think of anyone I'd love to share that experience with than Sawyer. That's the name of my girlfriend."

{➹} – THE OTHER'S ENTHUSIASM stilled the hero for a moment, but he smiled and confirmed the question with a nod. He didn't have a way to prove that at the moment, but why anyone might lie about being in a band was beyond him anyway. Besides, the hero could tell that the feline was genuine about their career and love of music and that was something that never failed to make him smile.

"We're not hard t' find around here. If you're that interested just look for anything from The Forget-Me Knots from the last six or so years an' you'll hear what we're about." No shame in a little self-promotion, right? Though in the hedgehog's case it was more to show off his wife's skills than anything. To say he was her number one fan, apart from maybe their daughter, was an understatement.

The mention of musicals was an unexpected, but interesting thing. The hero enjoyed them, though would admit it took him a few watches to get everything down pat and really understand them at times. Nonetheless it was an art form he enjoyed just because it was different than how music was presented normally. He couldn't say he watched a lot of musicals, but the like was there .

A smile. "Nothing wrong with that. Everyone has something they're good and not so good at. 'S sort of what life is all about, but finding someone else who can pick up where your own skills falter is...special. 'S definitely the case with me and my wife, in any case."

The mongoose was, somehow, more charismatic than the hedgehog was, and yet took no guff from anyone. She very much spoke her mind, and not always in the kindest way, but still had a heart of gold and was always doing what she could to help others. All of which were reasons the hedgehog had fallen head over heels for her. Even if he hadn't wanted to admit it right away.

Heck, it was still mind-blowing to him that the two of them where were they were.

A brow was raised at the feline's change of demeanor and the proceeding question, but the hero didn't pry. He only chuckled a touch sheepishly; this wasn't a story he got to tell often. Namely because he had always seen it as a thing between only him and his wife.

"Me? Simply put, I asked her in a place that was special t' both of us, with something just as important," he explained, reaching behind his scarf to pull out a triangular shaped necklace. A guitar pick encased in a small glass and metal frame. "When we first started dating we exchanged guitar picks from important times in our lives. Her's from starting her band and me from when I was a kid learning guitar for the first time. 'S a bit odd, but the traditional rings just never seemed t' suit us so I had these fancied up a bit and used them instead.

"...Truth be told I wasn't...for it at first. Marriage, I mean. I had always thought marriage was sort of redundant if two people already loved each other."

[manonamora-if]

UX anon here - thank you for your response! I didn't realize the lack of resources in the community tbh. Would it be helpful if there was a master post of basic mobile UX principles to follow? Or would it be more helpful to gather a bunch of pre-existing twine templates and iterate them to be more in line with said principles? Or both?

Hi again Anon! :D

Yeah... it's kind of a common feeling. You [general you] don't know how much knowledge/resource/time/etc you need to invest until you actually make the thing you are enjoying. I've done the same when watching movies/series, believing I could write better dialogue... lol the audacity of my brain honestly...

I did make a Twine resource list some weeks back, with all I knew/could find, but I don't think there are any resource focused on mobile only. Though I do think most templates have some sort of mobile formatting/scaling in mind (even if not perfect). So this is definitely a niche to fill!

When it comes to the nitty-gritty of things, I can't really tell you which path to take (I am just one creator in the sea of many). You could send a poll to other authors, see their input.

I would advise against, though, reiterate pre-existing twine templates without the explicit consent of the creator (it might go without saying, but just in case). They might even prefer editing their templates with those advice instead of seeing their "updated" templates available out there (that's def the case for me).

But I do think the idea of a Master Post of Basic Principles with clear instructions (and images of what is good/not good!) would definitely be helpful. It leaves you open to go in more details about other principles in the future (if you want to do so, obviously you shouldn't feel pressured).

Last bit of advice, maybe check out Twine and how the different formats have built their visuals. It probably help you understand the limitations creators face when editing their UI. Theoretically, you could do anything on Twine, especially with SugarCube/Chapbook/Snowman (Harlowe is... wonky). But there are some class that have different rules depending on them being built through CSS or JavaScript.

EDIT: IF YOU POST SOMETHING LIKE THAT ON TUMBLR, TAG ME SO I CAN SHARE IT!!!

I'm also going on a bit more rambling, because I've realised I've had more feelings about the topic. PS: not directed at anyone in particular, just letting some steam out.

This is also my personal opinion, but I don't think (non-physical) IF was ever intended to be on mobile in the first place (ahem parsers/point-and-click...). When IF became a thing, there were no mobile (so that question was moot anyway). You just had a computer (maybe) that would run a program. I feels like it's been more of an evolution towards mobile use, as smaller/touch screens became the more prevalent device for entertainment (in general, not just IF). You have apps like CoG or HostedGames or those Story ones (they kind of look like VNs) that are very popular (and are incidentally fit for mobile...). And now we expect this of everyone that start with IF.***

While IF programs/format do allow for mobile support (to different degree), I do think we have to remind ourselves from time to time that IF creators still often create as a hobby, with often limited knowledge and resources. The fact that we sometimes/often uphold some IF to standard as high as actual game companies (who have headcounts and resources and knowledge to make things better) is just mind boggling to me (the number of asks/comments I get about my UI not looking professional because of a few mistakes...). Even trying to go through actual big company website is sometimes dreadful on mobile. Unileveeeeer *raise fist to the sky*...

Resources to make things more accessible (especially program/format specific) should be available to people, but we should leave some leeway to people who can't implement things or just don't want to. It might suck, but yeah... Think of it as computer exclusive projects (like you'd have with consoles :P ).

***Little side note, but we had a similar-ish discussion on the forum about Twine games during the IF Comp. It wasn't about mobile accessibility but the game being unstyled, and how many expected Twine entries to have some sort of styling and not just use the base UI, while the expectation was not as present (or not at all) for other programs. It is very interesting to go through.

[fullofsunsetwhispers]

I can really imagine Chase trying to do reconnaissance on the Xiaolin dragons so he asks Omi what happened during today's lesson with his Master Fung for spying reasons. But Omi was distracted during the lesson because he was staring at bumblebees again. So he just tells Chase about these two bumblebees who kept following each other around and how Omi is sure they were best friends playing a game of tag.

And Chase is just so charmed by how much fun Omi is having recounting the event that he doesn't even bother to stop him, he just listens the whole way through

Oh my! I couldn't agree more!

Let's not forget Omi is the youngest on his team so he can get easily distracted from time to time. I mean Omi's hyper-focused on his training overall but c'mon when a cool bug is in your sight you simply stop to look at it! In my opinion, Omi is taking his training too seriously at times. Let him indulge in kid activities! master Fung where are you. Help Omi develop his childish curiosity, hm!

Apart from that, It's reasonable to assume Omi would infodump Chase because the kid needs to give vent to his excitement!

Just imagine Clay telling Omi various fun facts about bumblebees and Omi once he learned all of that storms to Chase's citadel to share that knowledge with Chase <3 'Chase Young, did you know that!? Hm!? Di you know!?' - Omi's voice would echo in the lair's long halls

But let's return to anon's idea regarding Chase's failed attempts to infiltrate the temple via Omi's naivety. It's so funny because lol Chase's plans have fallen apart because Omi wasn't paying attention haha xD

However, Chase wouldn't feel defeated. It's a win-win because now he can spend quality time with Omi and share the excitement that results from listening to the bee story.

If you want that in the format of an incorrect quote, here we go.

Chase: haha I've gained Omi's trust now he'll tell me anything I need to know in order to make the temple fall!

Omi: Chasechasechasechase Yooooooung!

Chase: hello, little one! So, can you tell me what did you learn today?

Omi: (starts info-dumping about bees)

Chase: ... That's very interesting but what knowledge did Master Fung share with you and your fellow monks?

Omi: Oh, I don't know I was busy following the bees! But if you want to, I can explain how bees pollinate flowers!

Chase, encouraging Omi to talk more even though he already knows these things: Please, do. I adore it when you talk about things you're passionate about, little one!

Omi: Alright! Then ... (info-dumping continues)

Chase, breaking the 4th wall: Darn it, I guess no evil-doing today. However, it's fine because this way I can spend more time with Omi! <3

On another note, do you think Omi could come to the conclusion he should start naming every animal passing by the temple premises? because it would be so wholesome if Omi went straight to Chase for a second opinion.

Omi: Chase, these two bees visited me again! I can't tell them apart so I should name them! Do you have any suggestions?

Chase, whose experience in naming cats predates 1500 years: Goldie and Sunny.

Omi: I am most grateful for your input! (writes down the names of his new bee friends)

[strsburn]

destiny led me to you | loki (2)

pairing - loki laufeyson x female reader

synopsis - driven by the heartbreak of losing your entire world by the hands of thanos, you set out to find him, leaving destruction in your path in multiple universes; thus creating a horde of branches in the timeline and catching the attention of the TVA.

but you would do it all again if it meant you could see him once more.

chapter summary - loki finally comes face to face with the variant behind the attacks on the TVA and the truth is not at all what he expected. 

notes - thank you all for the continued support on this fic, i am so excited to continue this story and even more excited about the episodes as we dive deeper into the series ahh

[THIS SERIES WILL CONTAIN LOKI SPOILERS.]

idea credit - once again credits to @horrorisunknowntoyou for the idea!

warnings - angst, violence, smut (in later chapters)

wc : 1.9k

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T V A   U N K N O W N 

The sound of obnoxious clicking echoed around the otherwise quiet office as Loki swirled around in his seat. His thumb flicked the button of the pen in his hand repeatedly as he ignored the glares of those sharing the cubicles next to him.

Mobius had left him about thirty minutes ago, instructing him to watch the videos pertaining to the NEXUS events and time itself while he talked to the higher ups, and unsurprisingly Loki had abandoned the task almost immediately after it was assigned.

"C'mon Loki, I know you understand this stuff." Miss Minutes spoke up, her southern accent tinted with disapproval as she cocked a hip out. 

"Curious little thing you are. Tell me something, Miss Minutes. Are you alive or just a recording?" Loki piped up inquisitively as he leaned forward. 

The orange colored clock rose a brow disbelieving as she stared at the God unsure of how to answer.

"Uh..kind of both?" She offered with a shrug. A mischievous smile upturned the corner of his lips and before she could blink a wadded up jetski magazine came down on her, nearly colliding with her head. Miss Minutes jumped out of the way as the playful God attempted to swat her. Resembling that of a Cat with a string of yarn.

"Hey! Mind your manners! Jerk." The clock leaped for the screen before the God, her body returning to a two dimensional cartoon. Loki merely chuckled in amusement leaning back in his seat in smug content.

"Is that my jet ski magazine, put that down!" A familiar voice interrupted causing Loki to look up as the middle aged man walked over, his moustache twitching in either annoyance or amusement.

"Let's go. We have another case. The variant struck again." Mobius waved a jacket in Loki's direction, urging him to follow behind as he headed for the hall where the other agents were located.

Slipping the tan jacket on, Loki smirked in Mobius' direction.

"How do I look?" The God strutted ahead not noticing the smug looks the agents sent as the jacket headlined his status to the others. 

"C-20 and her team went dark sometime after entering the 1985 branch. All signs point to another ambush. We've grabbed enough temporal aura to know it's another Loki variant. But which kind remains unknown." Hunter B-15 speaks bluntly, seriousness laced in her tone. 

Despite the guarded looks on the agents' faces, Loki can't help but add his own unnecessary input.

"They're the lesser kind, to be clear." He grins amused, eyes alight with mischievousness. 

All traces of humor leave his face when he catches the sarcastic smirk on Hunter B-15's face as she suggests for him to turn around, his eyes catching the word VARIANT printed in a rusty orange across his broad back.

"I don't want anyone to forget what you are." She adds snidely.

Loki has to hide back the slight sting her words leave as he tilts his head mockingly.

"Oh, your only hope of capturing a murderer?"

"No. A cosmic mistake." This time the words are spoken with a sharp bite, leading him to snap his mouth closed with barely contained anger.

"Look, let's just find our guy alright." Mobius adds in, desperate to try and put a stop to the tension.

"If you find a Loki, prune him."

U N K N O W N

"How long have we been best friends?" You questioned, eyes gleaming as you took a sip of your margarita. Fairy lights glittered above you as music pulsed loudly in the background, yet your focus was trained on the pretty brunette before you.

"It feels like forever." She giggled as she danced along in her seat to the music, her drink swaying dangerously in her hand. 

"Hmm, then you'll have no problem telling me where the time keepers are." Your smile slid into a thin line as your eyes brightened an odd shade of gold.

"What?" The brunette suddenly froze in her tracks, the glazed look in her eyes fading as she came to her senses. Her eyes darted around nervously as recognition filled the lines in her face as she looked back at you, fear making itself known.

"I know this place, but I don't know you."

You grinned slyly as your hands took on a similar hue to your eyes, wisps of energy manipulated by your hands.

"You will."  

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"Alright, our variant is somewhere in here so we need to group up in pairs, we don't know what this variant wants nor what he looks like, so we need to stay sharp. Loki and I will head-"

"No, he comes with me." Mobius stopped sharply as he looked to Hunter in disbelief, his moustache once again drooping with disapproval.

"What! No, I am his supervisor so he needs to come with me." 

"Look if you want to take this up with Renslayer-"

"Mobius, it's fine. You can trust me." Loki offers as he walks steadily to Hunter's side not bothering to hide his smirk as she obviously moves away from him, her displeasure clear.

"Why is it always the ones that you can't trust, say to trust them. Fine, go! Try not to lose the collar this time." Mobius shakes his head at the pair as he takes off in the opposite direction.

"I for one think it's great we are spending time together." Loki quips after a moment in tense silence. Hunter rolls her eyes motioning for him to be quiet as they come across a lone figure in the aisle.

"Hey! What are you doing?" Hunter called out as the figure turned slowly, obscured by the shelves lining the walkway. 

"Woah, it's okay! I was just buying some spring decor." Rounding the corner, a man spoke with his hands raised up in surrender. 

Loki eyed the man wearily as he exchanged looks with B-15. 

"In the middle of a storm?" He questioned. The male shrugged innocently as Hunter cast a suspicious glare at Loki.

"Could this be you?"

"Well I would have worn a suit, but yes." With that Hunter was stepping forward, her wand poised to attack.

Before the pair could blink the male was reaching forward, his hand locking around Hunter's forearm. A soft cloud of green was the only indication that anything had taken place.

"Hmm, you're not as handsome as she claimed you to be." Hunter piped up as the male fell limp. Loki looked up in surprise as a coy grin occupied the normally stoic agent's face. 

"Me, I presume?" He put the pieces together quite quickly.

"Not quite." Loki watched as the variant comfortably controlled the body of a stranger not at all feeling threatened by the God.

"What is it you want?" Loki found himself asking despite knowing he would not get an answer. If this Loki was anything like himself, they were manipulative and took joy in mind games.

"Such interesting questions, shame I don't feel like answering them." Hunter piped up with a swing in her step. Loki could only wonder if this was how Thor felt constantly when he was being a little shit. 

"Now I know why Thor thought this was annoying," Loki muttered "Enough mind games, what do you want from me?!" He shouted, eyes blazing.

"Do you guys need help finding the storm shelter?" A kind voice suddenly piped up, a man no older than twenty offering a shy grin.

"No." Loki, the lesser kind of course, replied and he watched as Hunter collapsed to the floor, the male taking her place.

"How long are you going to keep this game up, Loki?" He sneered as he watched on cautiously.

"Ugh, do not call me that." A grimace took over the male's face as he looked at his nametag, "You can call me Randy." 

Loki rolled his eyes as he straightened up, his eyes calculating.

"Alright then, Randy. I have a proposition." Randy titled his head in interest as he motioned for Loki to walk with him.

"I plan to overthrow the TVA and take the place of the timekeepers, and I'm in dire need of a second in command." 

Randy scoffed at his words, spinning on his heel with a flourish.

"Wow so you went undercover? You really think that's what this is about? You're even less intelligent than I thought."  Randy placed his hands behind his back as he walked away. Loki's lips slipped into a scowl as he followed close behind.

"Now wait just a minute." As he turned the corner he was suddenly hit with a kick to the chest, sending him careening into the display behind him and causing him to blink in shock as pain laced through his body.

He glanced up as a portly shaped man laughed wickedly as he stepped forward.

"Enough. I have shit to do, and you are irrelevant to my plans." 

Loki flipped his hair from his face theatrically as he sat back on his heels, his glare promising. 

"Rude." 

He leapt for the variant, aiming a punch to the throat that unfortunately was dodged. 

"Show yourself, or are you afraid?" Loki taunted as they danced around one another, dodging hits and kicks alike.

He blinked as the variant disappeared, the lights flickering, washing over his silhouette with an abundance of red.

"Prepare yourself, Loki." He turned as a hooded figure spoke, a smaller silhouette accompanying them.

His voice echoed back around them as the lights flickered along the aisles, the hooded figure's footsteps the only sound apart from his own breath.

Suddenly the figure lifted it's hood and he gasped as a head of blonde hair was revealed, dressed in a familiar garb of armor with a horned crown atop her head.

"Surprised are we? This was never about you." She smirked, stepping around him to grab the time charge as she turned the dials.

Loki could only watch as each time charge lit up, a countdown starting as they each buzzed with energy.

"So that's your plan, to blow us all up?" He questioned.

She shook her head as she opened a portal, a figure stepping through. 

"I wouldn't worry about that. After all, my friend has been looking forward to seeing you." 

Loki blinked in confusion as the figure, a female he concluded based on their physique, lifted their head. His eyes widened as he took in your face, recognition plastered on his own as he remembered seeing you on his file as his lover.

"Oh darling, how I've missed you."

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The blonde nodded quickly to his question, having not recalled the last time she talked about the place she once called home. Life was much different here but Marie had enjoyed its differences and the ability to spread her wings here. There was so much more out there once she was away from her mother's shadow. "Oui, I suppose it's a bit obvious when you put it that way. It was my first language, actually. I could teach you some if you wanted!" She'd brightened at the idea, her eyes lighting up from across the table. Even if Marie was able to share a small part of the world she left behind with the Isle, she would be happy to do so. Not to mention getting to enjoy Sam's company again. "Maybe you can tell me it one day, and I'll tell you mind. I can't say my story is all that happy either. It's all part of what makes you, you." Most boys that she'd met hadn't been so kind right from the start, something genuine about him that took her by surprise. The blonde just knew she wanted to see him again and he presented her with the perfect opportunity to reach out. "Parfaite! That means perfect, that's your first French word." Marie switched her ice cream for his phone so that she could input her number. Once she finished and lifted her gaze back up it was furrowed in confusion. "What do you mean? Going to college is very exciting! There's so much to learn and knowledge is power after all," she said with a comfortable smile falling into place. Education was always important in her family, though she hadn't excelled in things not involved with the arts. "You can do a lot more with a degree than a microphone." Something similar to what her mother told her upon hearing her musical dreams but Marie had thrown caution to the wind. Her dreams could flop at any moment and she'd be left with the pieces of her failure to build a new life for herself. Right now she felt like she was soaring and couldn't look back.

The way she spoke, he had a feeling he knew where she was from, but he didn't want to assume. It was kind of amazing, the people and places he'd met and heard of since growing up, even while he was a child. "Do you happen to be from France, or do you just speak the language?" he asked, curious. "Me? My whole life, really. It's a, uh, bit of a sob story that I won't bother boring you with, but I grew up in the orphanage." Sam was impressed by how generous this Sharpay girl seemed to be, having helped his friend get on stage with her, and now, Marie, too. Apparently, she was going to be around more in his life than Sam had even known when Slightly had first talked about her. "I will! This week, you said? That's--wow, that's so soon. Here, you let me know when it releases, and I'll let you know what I think," he offered, handing her his phone so she could add her contact. "I'm in college, nothing as cool as becoming a famous singer, or anything. All of my friends are gonna make it big, one day, probably, but I don't have an ounce of talent for any of that, so," he admitted with a shrug. "It's fine. I'm almost done."

[technowoah]

Rather Be Devisive Than Indecisive pt. 2

You weren't planning to help Techno again, but here you are with his horse.

- ANON REQUESTED!

- I really wanted to do second part anyways! So thanks a bunch!

- this story is long 😪 it'll all make sense though!

- part 1 is here!

- masterlist!

To say everything went south was a understatement. Everything went to hell, and you were currently living in it. You missed watching the sunset standing ontop L'Manburg's walls, you missed the peacefulness before the war. Maybe back then was too good to be true.

After the last encounter with Technoblade you had turned back to help Tommy and Tubbo. You tried to help wherever you could because you can see everyone drift apart, the main reason people came together was gone and dead. You tried to be a bigger sibling to both of them, and you tried to Tubbo and the former citizens repair the crater Wilbur left behind.

It took years, but L'Manburg was new and fresh again, with the help of Tubbo's new cabinet of trusted people L'Manburg was peaceful again. Tubbo had made you apart of his cabinet as well as Quackity, Fundy, Tommy and Karl. It was a new beginning.

There were days where you wondered if Wilbur would get a funeral. Schlatt had gotton a funeral, but you saw first hand how that went it wasnt a somber moment at all. It was for the best, they had mixed feelings about Wilbur and you dont blame them.

You had a new family, but there were things unkown to you, things that are being created out of your knowledge and that scared you. We have new L'manburg, but it isnt the same you dont know how long Tubbo could uphold peace in this new kingdom.

New things were created from the end of a old one.

It was a peaceful day in L'Manburg just as Tubbo promised the new citizens. You had stayed busy the whole day until a certian blonde came around your house frantically urging you to get outside and follow him

"C'mon! Just follow me! I have something to show you!"

"Tommy what are you talking about?!"

"Its VERY important, hurry! I dont want him to leave that spot."

Tommy had dragged you by the arm to the pier that evening and kept chanting that he had to show you something of utmost importance. You were trying to ask questions and keep up with his pace as he weaved through buildings claiming they were a "shortcut". Tommy stopped you at the pier and stood to your side, he was looking back and forth at the end of the pier to the water and back to you again.

You were about to ask why you were there until you saw a familiar man.

"Oh! Hello! Tommy who is this?"

He was pale, no, he was transparent. He looked pale, the sunset's dull rays made it seem like he still had skin. He had a yellow sweater on with brown pants and black shoes. He looked comfortable, he looked free. Next to his side there was a sheep on a leash with blue dye, you noticed it was poorly dyed too the dye was dripping from its wool. It was Wilbur, physically, but it wasn't HIM.

"He's Ghostbur." Tommy whispered to you while he stood between you two.

"Yes, I'm Ghostbur!" The ghost cheerfully said.

"This- this is y/n. Dont you remember?" Tommy cautiously asked Ghostbur.

Ghostbur had a look of confusion and curiosity on his face. He seemed so pure compared to when he was alive.

"No..I can't, but I would love to know." He stuck out his hand in a greeting.

"Hi I'm ghostbur!"

"I'm y/n." You said lowly.

You tried to reach out and grab his hand but it went straight through. You hated it, he's gone and you couldn't bring him back. It isn't him, but Ghostbur maybe better, Wilbur is gone and thats okay. Something came out of nothing, you kept telling yourself that everything was okay, but now seeing Ghostbur so naive and pure and free of the world's weight you believed everything would be fine.

"Im sorry. Im transparent, and I have no flesh." Ghostbur smiled.

"That's fine." You paused looking for the right words. "Do you know what you did? To L'Manburg?"

"Believe me, he dosen't. I tried." Tommy said to you.

"I couldn't belive I would do such a thing." Ghostbur added on.

"He shares no memories of Wilbur. Basically a new person." Tommy continued.

"That's great." You perked up. "It's bittersweet ya know. But Im happy you're here Ghostbur!"

"Im happy I'm here too, and Im happy I met you today." Ghostbur smiled at you while his sheep walked towards you, he unknowingly rubbed up against you putting blue dye on your clothes.

"Oh! This is Friend! I forgot to mention him to you. You can pet him!"

You didnt want to. He was dripping with dye, but you did it to appease Ghostbur. Tommy cringed while you petted the slightly wet, blue sheep. Once you were done your hand was blue, you rubbed it on your clothes that were already blue.

"I think he likes you." Ghostbur cheerfully said.

You were so thankful for Tommy bringing you to that pier. It was the closure you needed to move on and focus on building a new life for all of you. A peaceful life, but it seemed too good to be true. Days went by like normal and that sometimes was too much for you. You worked on new buildings and worked with Tubbo's cabinet too, that was a new normality for you.

The unknown scared you, but you had your family here. You had made amends with them and now and this is what you wanted. But then again it all seemed too good to be true.

Nobody had told you anything, you weren't in cabinet meetings, nor around Tubbo or Tommy. You felt shut out, you felt sick. The cabinet had decided to do something about Tommy and Dream started to become involved in Tommy's predicament. Soon after Tommy was in court, stripped away of his vice presidency, and had been put on probation.

Tubbo had come to you about Tommy being exiled. There was a huge meeting with the cabient and Dream about that situation and you had stayed silent the whole time. You wanted what was best for L'Manburg, but Tommy was like a brother to you, you couldn't send him away to fend for himself. You could see the confliction on Tubbo's face as he was going through the same dilemma as you were.

In the end Dream gave Tubboo 3 days to chose if to exile Tommy or not.

Tubbo had talked to you about the situation before the second day came. You two were in the same boat when it came to exiling him. You two had came to a conclusion, Tubbo just had to talk with the rest of his cabinent for a final conclusion.

The second day came and the plan switched immediately when Tommy came and introduced it. He wanted to fight back against Dream, of course he did, but he wanted another man to come and help. They wanted Technoblade to join their revolt. Quackity and Fundy agreed with the idea, but Tubbo was more cautious. You hated it.

Technoblade wasn't a subject nor person you wanted to be associated with ever since that night in Pogtopia. After all this time you had forgotten about him, you had forgotten your failed attempt at rekindling your friendship until now.

Tubbo was cautious, but you were 100% against it. Tubbo agreed with the rest of the cabinet and Tommy. They eventually asked you, and of course you said no, but it didn't matter, majority rules in this case.

You all approched Dream intop of the obsidian walls with your final decision.

"We have come to a decision. Look around." Tubbk leaded.

"There's giant, obsidian walls." Dream answered calmly.

"There is, there is Dream. And that's a problem, okay? This is funny actually." Tubbo turned back to Tommy. "Tommy, I am- I am so sorry."

Tubbo continues to talk to Dream. "I have come to the decision, that it'll be better for the nation the most logical thing to do is for Tommy to be exiled from L'Manburg."

"What?"

"Tubbo?!"

"Teaming up with Technoblade is an awful idea! It's an awful idea!"

Oh thank goodness.

"We just had this conversation!" Fundy yelled.

"No! No! Okay?! Nothing! Involving any kind of conflict is not safe for this nation! You've undermined my authority from the get go! Okay! All of you! No one here has respected me. You all jump on these merry little bandwagons of destruction. It's not okay!"

Tubbo was livid. His face was turning red and will keep doing so if he kept yelling. You felt a familiar breeze beside you as you saw Ghostbur standing next to you and behind Tommy. He smiled at you and continued yo listen to Tubbo's angry speech. You wondered why he was here, why he showed up at times and then left. Like he only needed to listen and not give any input.

"You cant go back on the plan now?! What the hell?!" Tommy yelled.

"When I was sworn in I made a promise to do what was best for the nation. And right now, Tommy you, your presence here is not the best for his nation."

Your heart dropped to your stomach and you think ghostbur noticed. You were happy that you didnt need to see Technoblade again, but you were going to lose what you would call a brother. You started to backtrack on your final decision, you belived Tubbo was in thr right. Tubbo wanted what was best for L'Manburg and what was best for L'Manburg was for Tommy to be exiled. You wished there was another way, but you know Tommy was stubborn it wouldn't work that easy.

Your mind kept wandering to if Tubbo decided to team with Technoblade. He was right there would be destruction, a huge war and probably the end of L'Manburg. You didn't want that again, you didn't want to see him again. You couldn't help but wonder if he knew L'Manburg was brand new.

"Dream, please detain and escort Tommy out of my country."

Tommy was gone. Its been weeks, four weeks to be exact. L'Manburg was peaceful, everywhere was peaceful, but you had to admit that you missed him. Fundy and Quackity tried to convince Tubbo to bring Tommy back, but he already made up his mind. He was confident in his decision, you were proud he was ruling L'Manburg confidently, but everyone was weary.

You haven't seen Ghostbur around either, he must've been floating around somewhere. It's none of your business.

The walls have been taken down and L'Manburg was independent again. There were sacrifices to be made. There were a lot of sacrifices to be made to keep L'Manburg up, and you kept asking yourself if everything was worth it. Was the discs worth that much to Tommy? Was L'Manburg even a good choice to begin with?

Was Technoblade right?

The Butcher Gang. They were calling themselves The Butcher Gang. The cabinet had several meeting and came ti the decisions that the biggest problems in L'Manburg were Technoblade and Dream. The cabinet decided not to kill Dream because of the fact that he was allies with L'Manburg, so they decided to try and kill Technoblade.

Dumbasses. You've mentioned to Tubbo that he was a very, very, very dangerous man. Tubbo has seen him before! You asked Tubbo constantly why did he wants to kill him when he says that he didn't want to team up with him. Tubbo said it was for the better of L'Manburg, but dosent he know that might cause even more trouble?

You didnt want to join them, you couldn't risk your life for something that is impossible to achieve. You separated from the cabinet, you couldn't watch them do this and you tried to stop them, but they insisted on the act.

Lately you've seen more of Ghostbur and that made you happy. It made you happy he wanted to spend time with you and it made you forget the trouble brewing in the cabinet.

"What's wrong?" Ghostbur asked while sitting on the edge of the pier with you, and Friend who was tied to one of the pier's poles.

"It's nothing Ghostbur." You said with a sigh.

"Good!" He cheerfully said.

"Can I actually tel you something?" You asked again, you wanted to get this off of your chest.

"Of course." He smiled.

You sighed and then began to speak as you looked out to the water. "It's the cabinet, its Tubbo, Fundy and Quackity that's the problem."

"But they are wonderful people! What can they do wrong?" Ghostbur suddenly asked.

"They want to kill someone, Ghostbur."

"Maybe it was a misunderstanding."

"I dont- I dont think so." You hung your head looking at your feet.

"Ghostbur, they want to kill Technoblade and I dont-"

"Technoblade?! That's my friend! Why- why would they want to kill him?"

Your heart felt heavy at his words. Another point not to kill Technoblade, you didn't want Ghostbur to hurt, not like Wilbur.

"He was a friend of mine too once. When L'Manburg first got blown up he- we betrayed L'Manburg and then spawned 3 wither skeletons to destroy the rest of the citizens." You explained to Ghostbur's disrught face.

"You wouldn't do that! You're kind!" Ghostbur exclaimed.

"It wasn't my best decision Ghostbur. People can make bad mistakes. A lot of people do. They aren't pure like you." You smiled softly at him.

A long hush fell over the two of you until Ghostbur perked up.

"We need to save Technoblade!" He exclaimed.

"Ghostbur I cant do that."

"Why not?"

"Because me and Techno aren't friends anymore." You said sadly.

"Why not?"

You couldn't answer that. You can, you can give the right answer, but at this moment you couldnt tell the ghost who suddenly stood up next to you.

"If I take you to where Technoblade lives will you feel better?" Ghostbur asked with Friend's leash in his hands.

Tubbo, Fundy and Quackity didnt know where Technoblade lives and desperately wanted to know to kill him. Maybe this was a good idea. You tried to convince yourself that as you walked side by side with Ghostbur. You had followed him through the woods as he weaved in and out of the trees. Friend was following Ghostbur as well, he wouldn't let Friend stay anywhere out of his sight.

You were getting special treatment, you were about to find out where Technoblade lived before The Butcher Gang would. Would you be considered a traitor again? Tubbo wouldn't want you back in the cabinet if you knew where Technoblade lived and you didnt tell him.

The atmosphere got colder as you two ventured on, you didnt know he would retreat all the way out here. It was snowing and you didn't bring any type of warm clothing considering L'Manburg was rather warm. Ghostbur had no problem, neither did Friend. Luckily you saw a light in the dark woods. It was further away, but you could see the light expand as you two treaded over towards it.

"That's the house!" Ghostbur pointed too.

You two reached the end of the woods and before you was an opening. There was blanket of white snow everywhere, there were footprints in the snow, but they were being covered by the falling snow above you. It was a valley and the only thing there was a beautiful wooden house. It was errie, the only civilization here was was Technoblade who lived in the house.

"It's pretty lonely." You said still cautious of the situation.

"Yeah it's sad, but we're here and it's okay!" Ghostbur said.

"Sure." You whispered as Ghostbur continues to lead the way.

You two got closer and closer to the house and you continued to try and back out. It's too late to do so now, you didnt even feel like walking back to L'Manburg after you confront Technoblade again. The two of you were heading up to his door, your heart was beating heavier as you got to his door. You brought your fist up to knock on the door, hopefully he was home because you were freezing cold. You harshly knocked on his door and awaited for his response.

You two waited for a while, but no one was opening the door.

"Ghostbur why don't you go inside?"

"I'll just peak my head in!" He answered and did so. His head phased through the door and then he came back out with a frown on his face. "No one is in there."

"Why did we come here?" You sulked and started to turn away from the door.

"Why the hell are you two here at night?!"

"Oh! Techno! Hi!"

Shit. You were looking into his eyes and you froze when he turned to you. This was the first time you've seen him in years ever since Pogtopia, you hated it. It was embarrassing you tried to become friends long ago, but that failed, and now you were here again. He probably saw you as desperate, coming back to him after betraying him.

"Hello Ghostbur. How are you?" Technoblade walked in between the two of you opening the door to his house. When he walked in he intentionally left the door open for you and Ghostbur. Luckily it was warmer inside and you welcomed it.

"Im good! But we are here for you." Ghostbur cheerfully said.

"Oh really?" Technoblade said while occupying himself with something else, not even bothering to look at the two of you standing awkwardly at his closed door.

"Yeah, Y/N tell him!" Ghostbur urged you on.

You paused for a second before speaking to Technoblade, who wasnt even paying attention. "There's these people called the Butcher Gang."

"Sounds stupid."

"Yeah it is. And they want you."

Techno scoffed. "Want me for what?"

You knew Technoblade was smarter than this. He was bouncing around the room not even sparing a glance towards you. He wasn't paying attention.

"They want to kill you Technoblade."

He stopped all of his movements, stood up to his full height and looked towards you and Ghostbur for the first time you've been in his house.

"You better not be screwing with me."

"Why would I?!" You got offended by his statement.

"I dont know, because you show up to my house out of nowhere and tell me that people are trying to kill me. This could be a setup! I cant trust-"

"Okay! The Butcher Gang is Tubbo, Quackity and Fundy. Thats all I know of who's in the group. They want to kill you because you are a threat to L'Manburg. Trust me!" You cut him off and explained.

"What do you want me to do about it?" Technoblade asked you.

"Dont kill them, but I wanted to warn you. They are being reckless and since you're out here they shouldn't bother you. They're looking for more trouble, Tubbo already has a lot on his plate, this isn't a good idea for you nor L'Manburg."

You finished your statement still weary of this whole situation. You hated being in this situation, Techno's presence didn't make you uncomfortable it was just seeing him and warning him of future danger. You two weren't even considered close, why were you here? You were here for L'Manburg.

"Okay. I'll try. No promises though." Techno smirked and continued doing whatever task he was doing.

You found somewhere to sit for the time being knowing that you two wouldn't talk. Looking around the room you realized that Friend was alone inside the house without Ghostbur. You looked outside and saw him walking from the woods again in a rushed pace. You didn't know he left, he phased back into the house.

"They say they're gonna kill you. Y/n was right." Ghostbur says.

"Were you two leading them to my house?!"

"No."

"No we didn't! We didn't even know they were coming today!" You stood up looking out the window in search of Tubbo and the rest of them.

"Ghostbur who was with them?" You asked as Techno ran around the rooms for weapons and armor.

"Um, Tubbo, Fundy, Quackity..Oh! And Ranboo."

"Ranboo?!" That poor kid. What is he doing?

"Eventhough I hate to say this. I don't trust you. Get out." Technoblade paused infront of you before rushing to the other room. "And tell them I'm not home!"

"And if that dosent work?!" You yelled back.

"Then to hell with them!"

You rushed outside with Ghostbur, hoping that the Butcher Gang dosen't notice you were leaving Technoblade's house. It was too late, they were already lined up outside with full netherite armor and gear.

"Y/n?!"

"Wait what are you doing here?" Tubbo asked as you made your way towards them.

"Im- I wanted to try and rekindle mine and Technoblade's relationship." You used an old lie to get yourself out of this situation. This was an already bad look on you, hopefully your lie would work.

"I thought your friendship ended a long time ago?" Tubbo asked again.

"It did, but I wanted to try again." This was embarrassing, now you really seem desperate.

"I see, then move out of our way." Tubbo asked you harshly.

"Uh- hey." Technoblade came out of his house with full netherite too, you weren't protected, so you will have to stay out of the way.

"Why have you guys come all the way over here to my humble abode?" Technoblade started walking towards his stable where he kelt his horse. He tried to lighten the mood, but it didn't seem to work. As he moved you moved with him trying not to be inbetween the dangerous men with swords and enchanted armor.

"You need to pay for your war crimes." Tubbo said while following Technoblade.

"That was like- that's in the past! Alright, that was a different Technoblade. Im a changed man now! Im in retirement! Im a good person now Tubbo!" Technoblade dragged on as Tubbo just hummed in response.

Quackity spoke up. "Technoblade you exploded L'Manburg with fucking withers."

"You literally spawned Withers everywhere!" Tubbo exclaimed.

"Im sorry, Im sorry Technoblade as much as you changed you have to be brought to justice for that." Quackity interrupted Tubbo.

The Butcher Gang tried to speak to Technoblade at the same time, when Technoblade spoke up over them all.

"Listen guys! I've gone through so much effort over the past month to change my violent ways! I've reformed alright? The voices, they demand blood! And I- I have been denying THEM! Ive been fighting back! Please! Please dont make me kill all of you, please just leave."

You guess he has changed, but you knew somewhere in your mind that he wasn't talking about just the Butcher Gang, he was including you too. You were somewhat confident that you wouldn't be attacked or killed, but you were terribly wrong before.

There was back and forth banter between the two of them. Techno had tried to show the gang his bees and tried to make a run for it.

"Techno!"

"Hey!"

"He's running!"

The gang started running towards him, but instead of continuing he stopped and turned to them. You were trailing behind trying to catch up to them, you kept running after them. You were not equipped for this night, you didn't know Ghostbur was going to bring you out in the open cold. You could hear Ghostbur behind you as you continued to run towards them.

"Y/N you're gonna damage yourself!" Ghostbur's voice became more echoed and further away as you tried to get closer to the gang before they got killed.

"There's no other way."

"Tubbo dont be stupid!" You were right behind the Butcher Gang.

"There's no other way!"

Fuck

"I CHOSE BLOOD!"

A cloud of smoke enveloped the 6 of you and you suddenly could see. You could only see the glint of everyone's armor.

"Y/N get behind us!" Tubbo tried to blocked you off from reaching Technoblade.

"Why didn't you bring any armor?!" Quackity yelled.

"I didn't think i was gonna be fucking out here!"

Technoblade must've set off multiple smoke bombs because the smoke wouldn't stop, the smoke made you woozy, but the others didnt seemed phased by it at all and kept fighting Technoblade. Your lungs felt full, and you felt like passing out, but you wouldn't allow yourself to do so.

"Tubbo stop this!" You yelled out when the smoke cleared a little.

"No! He needs to pay!" He said while fighting with Fundy.

The air was still hazy and you lost sight of people occasionally. Whipping your head around you were met with what felt like the butt of a axe. You quickly saw a split second of a shiny axe and then a pain in your chest spiked up. You double back and tried to recover, but then you've been sliced in the thigh and a deep cut in your side taking you down to the ground. You were bleeding out and desperately trying to heal the wound in your side. You felt your consciousness slowly slip from you as you laid on the snow. The warm contrast of your blood compared to the cold snow was sad. You always get hurt, no matter what you do. It's inevitable, and you finally gotten used to it.

The last thing you heard was yelling, but it slowly faded out.

You were warm, and not in the middle of nowhere anymore. You opened your eyes to see yourself staring at a polished wood ceiling, the soft pillows and blankets around you made everything feel so much better. Your whole body hurts, you dont want to move nor do you want to remember. Thank goodness that someone had patched you up, you didn't want to die. You tried shifting your body but the pain in your side was denying any movement.

"Oh! You're awake thank God!" A voice called out from your side. You looked over to see the half human hafl enderman sitting in a chair by a window. "I thought you weren't gonna wake up! Tubbo and the rest if the cabinet was worried as well."

"Were you the one who patched me up?" You asked carefully.

"Yeah! Luckily I can see in that fog, so I took you away and patched you up." Ranboo smiled.

"Who- who hit me?" You asked trying to sit up again.

Ranboo paused. "Technoblade." Ranboo said in a somber tone.

"I see." You sighed.

Ranboo helped you sit back on the headboard of the bed and you two continued to talk.

"Are you mad at him?"

"Im just upset. Its okay, he said he'll kill all of us so I knew he would." You kept your gaze at you lap.

"Yeah I get it." Ranboo replied.

"I have a question ranboo!" You perked up.

"Yeah? Shoot."

"Why did you join the Butcher Gang?" You asked the taller man. He stayed silent thinking of a right answer before actually speaking.

"They were nice to me. I trust people who are nice to me, that show me kindness and treat me with respect. I know its lame, my answer isn't fully fleshed out, but that's the reason." Ranboo shrugged and you nodded.

You would love to know Ranboo more, he seems like a great guy, but he's just lost.

"Oh! I forgot! You have a letter!" Ranboo walked around the bed and brought out a folded piece of paper and handed it to you.

You unfolded it and began to read.

𝘔𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘤𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘹𝘦𝘤𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘦

𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘭𝘭 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵. 𝘐 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶

- 𝘋

"Execution site?" You looked towards Ranboo.

"Oh yeah! Technoblade's execution is today an-"

"How the hell did you get him?!" You interrupted him. "Im sorry."

Ranboo looked shocked before composing himself. "Dont worry! Well, we took his horse hostage and he immediately wanted to surrender if we didn't let Carl go." Ranboo gathered stuff around the room. "And the execution is today, happening in a few minutes and I need to be there. I'll be back soon to check up on you!"

You nodded and continued to listen to him.

"Are- are you coming?" Ranboo sent one last glance towards you before making his way out.

"You know you dont HAVE to go." You said trying to ease the tension.

"I know. I really do know." He sighed. "Are you sure you dont want to?"

"No, Im okay." You sent him a smile.

You had lied again. Of course you didn't want to see Technoblade get killed, but that note that was left made you go to the cave. You trudged you way up to said cave, even though the pain in your side was unbearable you continued on. Once you had gotton up to the cave, you peaked inside cautiously. You saw a man in a cloak with a familiar mask on with Technoblade's horse. You knew it was Dream.

"Hello."

"Hello Dream."

"I will cut right to the chase. Take Carl and wait here. I have other work to do." He handed you the reigns to Carl and started to leave.

"Excuse me!? What do I do? Why do I wait here?!" You yelled after him and he just waved you off.

You rolled your eyes and found a stone in the cave to rest against with Carl's reigns lazily in your hands.

You didnt know what time it was, but the sun was slowly going down, it wasn't particularly sunset, but you knew it was late. Your eyes began to close until your heard screaming in the distance. You sat up slowly, now fully alert. You held Carl's reigns tighter as you backed into the cave more and more.

Footsteps were heard in the distance coming up to the cave and you thought if Dream had set you up for failure. The footsteps grew louder until a panting Technoblade appeared at the entrance at the cave. He looked horrible, he was thinking the same thing about you.

You two exchanged no words. You didn't want to say anything, what would you even say? He rushed over to Carl and started petting him. "Carl you're okay!"

You hummed as you and Techno shared a glance. He smiled at you. He smiled at you. It's been so long since you've seen him smile. He didn't need words to communicate, his eyes and smile said enough. You matched his smile and gave him a knowing nod and he did the same.

"Feel better eh?" Technoblade started conversation.

"Not really. What about you?"

"Eh- used a totem of undying just now."

"What?! Really?" You exclaimed. "I guess that's why you're here now huh?"

"Yeah I'll tell you about it sometimes." He smiled and climbed atop of his horse and you could see him thinking. "Im sorry too. You almost died cause of me. Thats is unacceptable, I shouldn't- I shouldn't have attacked you. I couldn't-"

"You cant control it. It's gonna take me awhile to recover, but..." You touched your bandaged cut. "It'll take me some time."

Technoblade nodded knowing what you meant. He could always read your mind somehow, thats what made you two work. Knowing eachother. He sent you one last silent goodbye before riding out of the cave. You knew that trust was somewhat restored, and that you two were better than before. This might be a new beginning.

A very angry Quackity came running around the corner of the cave and spotted you leaving. He whipped his head around to you.

"Hey! Where the fuck is Techno?!" He yelled at you.

"I don't know-"

"Dont bullshit me!"

"I. Don't. Know." You said more sternly. He gave you a hard glare before running away.

You went the opposite way trying to make it back to the room you woke up in before Ranboo came back.

Earlier you were desperately trying to befriend Techno, but things come more naturally you learned. You cant rush things, nor control this world. Things will fall into place, your and Technoblade's friendship will blossom again.

You will never find peace, but that's okay. You should be used to it by now. Everything is chaotic, but everything will be okay.

[nanamisflowerfield]

Congrats, your blog is great! May I ask for a twst matchup? I will anyway so bear with me, please. I am interested in a quite a few topics which range from psychology, philosophy, theology, linguistics, history to neurology and toxicology. I get my all time favourite hobby would be researching, though I do like to sketch and write sometimes too. I am a bit of loner, which is partly willingly (or maybe I am telling that myself) and partly because I am just awful in making friends, because my lack of exposure has made my social skills rusty and I tend to come off as excentric or intimidating. I am usually a calm person and a good listener. I don't judge, but I do take things someone entrusts me with serious and I secretly might overthink their words when I am alone, furthermore I tend to rather try to learn as much as possible about the people that end up being close to me (unfortunately the friendships I make rarely hold on for more than a few months at best). I can kind of exaggerate in this aspect, there were instances were I would spend lots of time a day to read books, inform myself on websites and try to learn languages that are related to that person, of course outside their knowledge since I wouldn't want to creep my contact out, rather impress them with subtle inputs of my secretly aquired knowledge that can give them even more of a feeling to be safe with me. I tend to have a little bit of an oldfashioned personality my siblings tend to jokingly call me grannie (or boomer). I also dress kind of seriously and mature. I am wearing a long skirt, a longsleeved shirt and a scarf (I am freezing a lot), which are usually dark in colour. I gotta admit, I do have a goofy side, a very goofy side that I reserve for my friends, but once I showed them I showed them and they can't back out of it anymore, because I will have a hard time to contain my inner child, of course I will return to a more serious approach if the time calls for it. I am told that I can be quite witty and sly with my remarks. I am trying to be as honest and straight forward as I can, but sometimes the situation just calls for someone to point out it's absurdity lol. Another thing: I have 6 younger siblings and therefore people say I have the patience of a saint and I was often recommended to become a teacher, because apparently some people think my spontanous rambles about the things I researched or my opinions can be quite interesting. In a romantic scenario, I wouldn't mind being the one who confesses, as I said I like to be honest and straightforward, but I will do it with lots of consideration first, because I understand that some people might be uncomfortable by receiving one from me and if I do I will probably do it in a cheesy way, like putting together a little picture story as a way to subtly put out the things I admire on this person and their good points and also to have an excuse to draw them in fantastical scenarios lol. Initiating physical contact (WITH MY PARTNER) wouldn't be something I mind either. I think I would be a very dotting partner, but I am also someone who expects a little reaffirmation, it doesn't need to be grand but something obvious would be nice, since I might misinterpret things. I also value my privacy greatly. If I do share what I did the last weeks or what I think about a topic, I probably respect you and your ability to keep things to yourself haha. I think that is enough. Please keep it up! And thank you for everything!

Thank you!! And thanks for so much information for the matchup! I really hope that you will like it, it's just an idea and my opinion, so please don't be mad if you won't like it!

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[female-buckets]

I dunno if youre still looking for ATM suggestions but the one with Jimmy Butler was very good as well (I didn't love the DT one, which I know is blasphemy, but I found it became the Sue and DT show and you could see Megan becoming forgotten in it - which seemed to lead to her getting louder and I found it all uncomfortable. The other episodes were better about keeping everyone in it. Your gf and her friend spending hours reminiscing over stories you weren't there for on IG isn't my idea of fun)

Nah, no way. DT is the best one. I could listen to women tell stories for hours on end. That sounds like an ideal evening to me.

But, if you got tired of DT after that live, don't worry. She's not on social media. She's done three podcasts her whole career and she'll step back from public life completely after retirement. You won't see or hear from her again after this year.

Anyway, Diana would never leave someone out of a conversation. She wants everyone around her to feel included. She asked for Megan's input on everything. She brought up her favorite memories of Megan. She talked about topics Megan could relate to. When Megan talked over her and derailed the conversation away from her stories, Diana didn't mind. Penny actually had to stick up for Diana in that live to get her to finish stories. Diana would've let it go otherwise.

In all the soccer ATM's, Sue got sidelined completely. In 3.5 hours of Syd Leroux, I learned Syd's entire life story. Every last detail. And I barely heard from Sue.

In 4 hours of DT, we got egg pizza, Turkey, Maradona, and constant Megan. That's it. DT's done a lot more in life than put eggs on pizza. She grew up with a very different culture and language from everyone around her. She moved back and forth between the US and Argentina as a kid. And she loves talking but rarely talks about herself. She was willing to share things about herself on that live, so I wish we got to hear it.

I wish Megan let Sue and Dee tell stories the way Sue let Syd and Megan tell stories.

The Jimmy Butler episode is good. Megan's much more likable. She only had one major party foul at the end. Not a great look for Megan. Luckily for the NBA player involved, most people didn't catch what she said. But for the people who did catch it, yikes. The NBA is a different culture than the WNBA. You gotta respect there's money, reputation, sponsorships, and all kinds of things on the line. You just can't go around sharing a NBA guy's business like that.

[norahastuff]

idk how the credit/blame breaks down between any party for that disaster ending, (Dabb? Kripke? CW?), but I can't help but feel this would have played out a lot better if spn was on SYFY instead of The CW. particularly in the queer & found family departments. (see: Farscape, Wynnona, Vagrant Queen...)

(SYFY anon cont.) Killjoys!! can't forget. if spn had finished with half the spirit of Killjoys I'd have been a happy camper. and these shows are current contemporaries. so I guess I wanna blame the network a lot here. I really trusted Dabb.

I mean my issue isn’t with how explicit Dean and Cas’ romantic arc was or wasn’t. After this finale, that’s way way down the list of complaints I have. The thing is, the show didn’t even make it a thing. The argument about what the relationship between the two of them is doesn’t come up because Cas’ importance to the story in any capacity is essentially erased. 

I really don’t see how any of this has anything to do with network meddling, it’s the story itself that’s the issue. And this co-dependent, regressed brothers only ending is the story Dabb chose to tell.

I said this earlier in another post, but I don’t think the reason that Cas not meeting Dean at any point after he got to heaven was because of any “no-homo” or “not wanting to address the confession” reasons. There were a million different ways to leave Dean’s side ambiguous if they wanted to (and Spn should know - it’s been doing just that for years.) 

No the reason I don’t think we got a Dean/Cas reunion (even according to the rumours I’m hearing of Cas’ appearance that was cut, Misha was only supposed to appear in a cameo, not a real character moment) was because, we know how important Cas is to Dean. We’ve watched their relationship grow. Over the past few seasons, and especially s15, they’ve repeatedly emphasised how big a role he plays in Dean’s life and how much Dean cares about him. If he had appeared and had any real interaction with Dean, that would have been immediately clear, as it is in practically any moment that these two share.

The problem is, seemingly out of nowhere, the finale seemed to want to end on the thesis statement that Sam and Dean only care about each other. That these other characters that have become such an important part of their lives, don’t matter at all and barely register as a blip on their radar. All that matters is each other. Not even their own individual arcs. Any and all progress that had been made towards independence and self actualisation...none of it matters anymore, because everything is just about Sam and Dean. 

You can see that with Sam’s attitude towards Eileen/other unidentified brunette woman, too. She doesn’t matter, his son barely matters, it’s all about getting back to Dean. 

None of that has anything to do with network notes. That’s just the story they chose to tell. It’s the complete antithesis of the story they’ve been telling for at least the last few years, so honestly, I too am very confused as to why they decided to take this left turn right at the end. If you were adamant that this is the way you wanted your story to end, then why not build to it? I still wouldn’t have liked it but at least it would have made sense then.

As for Kripke, I really don’t think he had much input into this. Sure he can give his opinion but that’s as far as it goes. He’s not the showrunner, Dabb is. And I’ve seen people blaming Singer, but Singer did not write the story. Dabb did. I would understand people blaming Singer or the network if you felt there was something left out that shouldn’t have been or something like that, and if you thought one of them was responsible for that,  but the way I see it, the problem is with the entire story.

The message of the story. The way that story was crafted. It was crafted around the idea that Sam and Dean don’t love anything but each other. They haven’t grown or learned anything, and the only thing that lasts forever is this toxic codependency. The very codependency that Carver spent all those torturous seasons trying to highlight the dangers of. The same co-dependency that Dabb spent 3/4 seasons emphasising wasn’t enough to sustain them anymore. They needed more.

Only for none of that to wind up mattering in the end.

So unless someone can give me a reason otherwise, I do think credit/blame (depending on how you feel I guess) lies with Dabb. He’s the one who wrote the story. But I get it, I really didn’t expect this from him. Not even a little bit.