#i can't believe this is how you treat me........

[spamblog-w]

that's why I love Red, white and royal blue because book was a piece of shit, sorry not sorry, and they created a masterpiece with a movie - it hardly ever happens but honestly... I can't stand how book was written and can't even believe someone could like it so much besides for an idea to make it appear on the screen

it's full of boring political facts, characters are overly sexualised without much depth and love factor, there is no symbolism that you can see in the film version, everything is out of place/logic/time to the point I didn't even catch when they fell for each other nor that they truly care so I'm super glad I've watched it first instead of reading and as soon I finished the book - I sold it

nobody has to agree with me but this movie means so much to me you can't even imagine! how the actors play, how they formed a good story out of chaotic scraps, how you showed things without telling them - it's everything including how much I relate to the prince himself

so...

yeah I totally agree with the fact that it's important to stick to the original in a way like I'd love to finally see War of the worlds that is what it should be or I miss some important things from books I've read that turn the whole movie into something else (I try to separate medias - treat them as similar yet different things even if they have the same title as I guess that's just a vision of a director and not everything can be showed the way a reader wishes nor even the author as it doesn't work this way) but still would love people to make it better if it's already crap if you know what I mean

also am one of those people who absolutely hate when characters don't look like on paper - I have aphantasia so it's hard for me to SEE them but still when I see a blonde guy who used to have black hair and was for sure shorter and with scars to make him prettier my eye starts to twitch

The real problem with books-turned-movies isn’t “omg they didn’t include every single word in the book” it’s “omg they completely overlooked the main theme, threw out any significant allegories, took away all the emotional pull, an turned it into a boring action movie with a love triangle in it”

[genderqueerdykes]

It's always bothered me how cis women are basically treated as biologically pre-determined allies to trans people because many of the cis women in my life have been the LEAST supportive while acting like their bigotry is better than cis men's because "women are naturally caring". Combine that with the idea that it's trans people's role to comfort and accommodate cis women's sense of safety at the cost of our own makes it even more upsetting to me. Meanwhile cis men in my life have all gone out of their way to challenge bigoted views in the people around them, burnt bridges with people they've known for ages because they care about me and my safety as a trans person more than being friends with bigots.

When I tell people that they'll often say that these men aren't the norm because ''they chose to do it individually'' and like??? Yeah that's what you do???? Are people so brainrotted by the concept of goodness being some innate trait you either have or don't have and have no way of changing that they're fine with disrespecting themselves and their fellow queers and accept this as the only way for us to live??

All that tells me is that people believe our existence as trans people is so fundamentally meaningless thay they look down on those of us who dare to demand better. And at this point I don't care if I sound mean about it, I genuinely think we as a demographic need to grow a collective spine and stop idolizing cis women and let cis men off the hook by waving them off as lost causes.

LMAOOO sorry I'm just I get so worked up!!! I could go on about how this dynamic with cis genders is also what fuels the fracture between different groups of trans people, but then my ask would get even longer and then I'd probably have people make even more assumptions about my gender and AGAB and react accordingly lmaoooo. Anyway hope you have a great day sorry for dumping this on you

go right ahead, it needs to be said because i have encountered and noticed this as well and its important to point out. people are way too ready to say you cant say anything like this about a cis woman because they're so defenseless or whatever as if they can't do any harm. which, yes, i'm with you, the cis women in my life have been the least safe and receptive by a long shot.

Combine that with the idea that it's trans people's role to comfort and accommodate cis women's sense of safety at the cost of our own makes it even more upsetting to me.

that's how i feel every day i log on here. i feel like it's my job to comfort cis women and prioritize how they feel over trans people and it's honestly really exhausting. a lot of that has to do with just how many people are terfs or believe what they believe. women are not inherently safer to be around. they can cause harm. they are not being harmed by trans women exisiting near them. trans women aren't a threat to their womanhood. trans women can be and are abused by cis women every single day. they hurt trans women and trans men so often and people want to pretend like it just never happens but a lot of hateful cis women target trans men and women in specific it sucks.

like cis women can be some of the most transmisogynistic, transandrophobic, just trans hating individuals in general if they're exposed to the wrong kinds of people and thinking

thanks for stopping by! you're right and you should say it

[mxtantrights]

Azriel is (secretly) in love with you

"If it were anyone else, you would let them go." you grumble.

Rhys sighs and sets down both his utensils. The table goes silent.

No one could get into a fight like the two of you. Perks of knowing each other since you were children. Rhys is like the little brother you never wanted, but really treasured. And you were like the older sister he never asked for, but really needed. Especially after his mother and sister were brutally taken from him and his father died.

Which is how you now that he's treating you differently. If it were Azriel or Cassian asking to go on this mission he would happy oblige. If it were Feyre he might hesitate but he would let her do it. Mor or Amren he would let them do it. Nesta, well he doesn't tell her what to do ever. And Elaine, if she wanted to do something like this you think he might watch in shock. Never mind the valkyries.

"So you understand, great." he says sassily.

You slam the table, "Stop being rude. I deserve to go on this mission. I deserve what I'm owed."

"What makes you think-"

"I'm owed the head of the man who massacred my family. I am owed Rhysand!" you shout.

"Maybe we can come back to this conversation-" Cassian starts.

You and Rhys look at him in an instant. "Butt out Cass."

Cassian puts his hands up in surrender. You grunt and apologize to him. He nods his head once and places his hands down. You look over at Rhys.

"I'm going. Whether you want me to or not. I'm not asking for permission." you speak.

You stand up from your seat and storm out of family dinner. Something you have never done before. You know how important it is to Rhys and it's important to you too. But you know that tensions are high and you might say something you can't take back.

Its a long walk to your room. And as you sit on the edge of your bed you can't help to think to yourself about the circumstances. If this were Rhys, if he could go after Tamlin you wouldn't stop him. You'd help him.

So why does he not want you anywhere near this?

Your door opens and you green yourself up for a fight, thinking it's Rhys. But when your eyes meet Azriel's you deflate a little bit. Actually a lot. You can feel the tears forming in your eyes.

"I'll ask him to put me on the mission. And then I'll winnow you in." he says.

You look at him in pure confusion. You can't believe what he's saying. Was Azriel...defying orders for the first time? You've never seen him do something like this. To offer you something like this?

"Az, you can't." you say.

"I can. If you agree." he says.

"Why would you disobey Rhys like that?" you ask.

He looks at you. His eyes are basically piercing into your soul. And while you look into his eyes you understand why he's not answering you. He's not saying anything but he's saying everything.

"You know why." he puts simply.

It doesn't surprise you. It doesn't come as a shock. You don't know why but with him standing there and looking at you, you feel it. What you've been feeling for a while underneath the surface.

And he doesn't say anything else. He leaves and shuts the door behind him. You sit there with nothing else to say either. You don't chase after him. You don't call out his name.

Azriel. It's Azriel. How have you been so blind this whole time?

[possessedmen]

Haunted love

Elliot pushed open the door to their apartment, the familiar creak a comforting sound after a long day. The place was dim, lit only by the soft glow of a single lamp, casting shadows that danced on the walls. There, sprawled out on the chair with one foot up on the table like he owned the place, was Marco—or at least, Marco's body. But Elliot knew it was Lucas, the ghost of a previous tenant who had taken over Marco during their last explosive fight, possessing him when he wanted to slap Elliot.

"Hey, babe, you're finally home," Marco's voice was husky, playful, with that dark edge that was all Lucas. Elliot's heart raced, not just from the sight of Marco's foot, so invitingly displayed, but from the knowledge that Lucas was in control, making this homecoming charged with desire.

Elliot dropped his bag by the door, his eyes locked on Marco's foot, the arch so perfectly curved, the skin so smooth. "Damn, his body suits you so good," he said, his voice low as he approached, a smirk playing on his lips. He knew Lucas was exaggerating Marco's act, playing into his known weakness for feet, making this moment even more charged.

The ghost, through Marco's lips, let out a low, lustful chuckle, the sound more human than ever, laced with a hint of playful perversion. "I've been waiting for you, babe. You know how much I love having your attention on me like this," he replied, his voice thick with desire, his eyes gleaming with a naughty glint.

Marco chuckled, a sound that vibrated through the room, sending shivers down Elliot's spine. "I've been waiting for you, babe. Been thinking about your hands on me all day," he teased, wiggling his toes in a way that was both innocent and provocative.

Kneeling down, Elliot took Marco's foot in his hands, the warmth of his skin seeping into his palms. He began to worship it, his lips and tongue exploring every inch with devotion. But Lucas, ever the kinky instigator, had other plans. As Elliot focused on one foot, Marco's other foot slipped between Elliot's legs, finding the hard bulge in his pants. With a knowing smirk, Lucas began to massage Elliot's tenting bulge through the fabric, the pressure and movement sending waves of pleasure through him.

"You're driving me crazy," Elliot gasped, his hands tightening around Marco's ankle, his kisses growing more fervent on the foot he was worshipping.

Marco's laugh was low, seductive. "That's the idea, babe. I know what you like," he said, his voice full of perverted delight. The foot on Elliot's crotch moved with precision, teasing and taunting, while the one being worshipped was treated to a loving, sensual exploration.

As the pleasure built, Elliot couldn't help but voice his thoughts. "I prefer you like this, you know," he murmured against Marco's skin, his breath hot. "You're so much better than the real Marco ever was. I’m so grateful that you saved me by possessing that cheating bastard."

The ghost leaned forward, Marco's eyes twinkling with a kinky light. "I can't believe he fumbled a guy like you, babe. That asshole did not deserve you," he breathed out, his voice dripping with a seductive promise, his foot flexing under Elliot's touch in a silent plea for more.

As Elliot continued his passionate worship, his hands and lips exploring with an intensity that matched the ghost's desire, the air around them grew thick with lust. "I've been thinking about this all day," the ghost confessed, his tone both loving and lascivious, promising a night filled with the kind of intimacy Elliot craved.

In this moment, the distinction between ghost and man blurred. It was just Elliot and Marco, or what Marco had become, sharing a connection that was deeply human, wildly erotic, and utterly theirs. The air was thick with anticipation, their casual evening turning into a night of unbridled passion.

[feral-renaissance-cat]

I got a repetitive stress injury in my shoulder and it caused me a lot of pain at my retail job. Because of the pain and anxiety over the prospect that my bosses would ask me to keep working, I got heavy brain fog that essentially put me on default autistic factory settings where I forgot everything I knew about interpreting neurotypical subtlety. The problem with that is that I also masked harder to make up for it, and that meant even when I was describing my pain I did it with a flat voice so no one believed me. Then I received multiple scoldings from managers for not doing what I was "asked", when in fact the way they asked me was to say "Hey maybe don't do that thing you're doing because this other thing needs to get done." So of course the default autism factory settings scan that phrase, don't see a direct order, infer that someone else could do the other thing, and toss it out in favor of not having to switch tasks. Cue further stress because now my bosses are mad at me, I can't tell what I've done wrong, I'm still being asked to do stuff that hurts my shoulder because my bosses don't believe it's that bad, and eventually my body just shut down and I was sick for a week.

No one should get treated like that in general, but everyone at that store knew I was autistic because I never shut up about how it made me really good at inventory management. The bosses really took one look at me and said, "Well we don't see a reason to treat you different because clearly you're capable of working, so you probably just need a disciplinary write up or two and you'll realize you're fine."

Being autistic is like screaming through a megaphone “please don’t overwork me, i WILL explode” and everyone responds like haha well. You’ll get used to it over time :)

[chimerafeathers]

the concept of intentional boredom/tedium in video games is very much a "your mileage may vary" kind of thing and i go back and forth about it in different situations. where does it work? where does it feel earned/worth the mental toll? why am i gonna play a game that is trying to make me miserable?

i can understand this not being the case for everyone (ymmv, after all) but for ISaT i was so fucking fully on board with the repetitive tedium of it all. rubbing my grubby little hands together and going yesssss, yesssssss, make my immersive gameplay experience directly emulate the exact frustrations and anxieties and mind-numbing breakdowns of the player character. remind me, at every turn, the toll this would take on the person living it. make me live their inner monologue before it's ever verbalized on screen.

how strong you feel, compared to the party you're inevitably leaving behind, how weak they seem now. how annoying it is to cut down these same enemies again and again, always pointlessly getting in your way (oh, how convenient that Siffrin feels the same way so intensely that you can get an item that lets him scare them off by sheer force of will before they attack you!). since when was the King's battle--so terrifying, so impossible before--so easy? can't this go faster? you've heard this all before.

let me skip ahead, loop around, treat my character my body Siffrin as disposable, take the fast and easy way to reach the next goal when you're on the verge of an exciting breakthrough, this loop doesn't matter anyway. but ohh, this next loop might be The One, better do this one right and follow the script to perfection. make all the jokes and say all the right things to get the lovely bonding dialogue so you can carry the Best Version of Everyone through to the end. that'll give you the Good Ending, right? can't hurt to try, right? you don't really believe it but this time will fix everything, right?

how generous and wonderful to have so many shortcuts at hand! dissociating zoning out to skip repetitive dialogue, splitting your head open on a rock slipping on a banana peel in the town to loop right to the floor you need, suuuuurely all of this stuff is purely for the Player's Convenience and won't have any psychological impact on our dear protagonist such that it gets slammed back into the player's face as a stomach-dropping reminder that someone's moment-to-moment experience in this time loop still matters, still carries over, still gets riddled with scars even if they can't be seen!

i've played & watched enough games that trivialize/hand-wave game mechanics that it's pretty easy to detach myself from the minutiae of video game decision-making. "this input gets the Good Response" -> "i will continue doing this input." "this option will be more efficient" -> "might as well save some time then." but this game would not let me stop thinking about consequence.

picking Siffrin's favorite food makes them happy! :) it's also the option that makes Bonnie the happiest! yay! -> i keep picking their favorite food -> Siffrin gradually grows sick of something that once brought him joy -> oh. right. that...makes sense, huh.

okay i asked the King what i needed, mann there won't be any tears after the fight is over so i'll have to do the whole ending scene again and that takes a while and i reeeeally wanna talk to Loop, maybe i'll just lose on purpose this time -> OH. RIGHT. THIS IS MAYBE THE MOST PAINFUL WAY FOR SIFFRIN TO DIE BOTH PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY HUH. -> never gonna do that again actually!!!!! the ending isn't that long!!!!

banana peel time! we've got places to be and mysteries to solve! -> (you're a living comedy sketch.) (you wonder if you'll ever be able to smell bananas again without wanting to vomit.) -> i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry

it's always cute to see Isabeau's reactions! pick the options that make him blush :3 -> (disgusting. manipulative. it's no wonder he thinks he likes you, you made him feel that way.) -> i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry siffrin NO he liked you before any of this happened please don't think of yourself that way--

maybe it won't hit the same for every player (what game can expect to do that?) but holy fuck it hit for me. the way the mechanics let you fall into familiar gamey rhythms but constantly, constantly remind you that this is Siffrin's life you're playing with. the way you end up perfectly in step in the worst ways. muscle memory and habit built up so well that you both stumble when something changes. devastating and delicious

[theocddiaries]

Knuckles: Can you believe it wasn’t that the butterfly killed my caterpillar and hid the evidence to replace her? It was that my caterpillar turned into a cocoon and came out a butterfly. Yeah, Shadow, like a Transformer. Tails: Conversations like this? All the time. No one gets bored here… Shadow: Well, I’m really glad your Miss Daisy is okay, Knuckles. But I asked you if you knew where the ring bag Longclaw gave to Sonic is. It’s the last thing he has from her, and he lost it because of me. Knuckles: Well, I don’t know. The last time I saw it was when I gave the last ring to Tails. That's one hell of a story too. You see, Sonic went crazy when an evil hedgehog almost killed our dad-- Shadow: I know, I was there. It was me. Knuckles: And if you were there, why are you asking? Shadow: Goodness, Knuckles, are you stupid or what’s wrong with you?! Knuckles: Oh, there he goes, too! Look, Shadow, I don’t know how things were back in the bunker, but here we respect each other, okay? Sonic [enters the living room]: Hi. Knuckles: I'm sure you learnt that from this dumbass. Sonic: Who are you calling a dumbass, dumbass??? Knuckles: See how he treats me?? One day, hedgehog, I’ll give you a punch that’ll unscrew your head from your neck. Sonic: Not if I punch you first and make your two remaining brain cells bounce off each other! Knuckles: Oh yeah?? Well I-- Maddie [comes in after hearing the noise]: Boys, what kind of talk is that??? Your dad and I tried to raise you with manners and values, and now I have to listen to you say things like that? Where did you even learn to talk like that?? Tom [passing through the hallway to the kitchen]: Mike! What’s up, dumbass? Are you with Brian? Pass him the phone… Bri, how are you doing? Ha ha, not if I punch you first! I'll make your two braincells bounce off each other! Shadow and Tails [hold back laughter] Maddie: Tom…! Tom: Wait. [covers the mic]: Maddie, please, I’m on the phone with my brothers. One here trying to be a role model for the kids, and you’re doing things like that in front of them. I can't believe you sometimes.

[cometconmain]

Personally, when I created the writeup I have on my blog giving a brief rundown of my blog in the description it was less of a "don't interact because I don't know how/refuse to use a block button" in the sense described here and more intended as what I originally thought a DNI was supposed to be:

"I don't tolerate actual bigoted behaviour so don't waste your time coming in here thinking we'll be friends only to spring some bigoted bullcrap on me later thinking that was a normal thing to believe/say/do. Don't waste your time and don't waste mine. Here's where I stand on these real life actual problem things so you can just bail if you're not ready to accept that. If you can't critically consume fictional media and don't have anything substantial to say in your critical consumption, I don't have time for you so save your breath and mine and go back to your purity cult. Also if you're under 18 this blog is not for you. I am an adult and don't wish to have minors running around pretending like we're all chill with having kids on a blog with adult-only content actually when I don't kmow you exist or haven't been told in some way that you shouldn't be here despite how clear I've made it that this is an adult-only space. Leave.

And if I find out you're any of these types of people I WILL be curating my internet experience by blocking you."

You know? There are different ways to use DNIs that aren't "fuck you no you put all the effort in to not expose me to you" and are instead intended more like "Hey look interact if you want but I'm warning you that you're wasting your time long term if you think you can be shitty to real life people right in front of my salad, so to save us both the hassle I'm leaving it up to you specifically because I have no idea you exist and can't block you until I do so feel free to take that first step since you know we won't gel and you know I exist while I have not yet had the displeasure."

That said, people definitely shouldn't put real life issues next to fandom preferences and gripes. It defangs serious real world issues by trying to take the fangs off them and slap them directly onto the fictional things to lend credence to them because the person doing it doesn't know how to express their discomfort well enough to feel heard about it/expect people to dismiss anything they say out of hand so they grab whatever closest thing from real world issues already considered serious which could kind of fit if you do a handstand and squint through a cloud of steam. Which has the opposite effect, because now people are (rightfully) angry at them for trivialising real world issues to make people treat their perspective on fictional media seriously.

If you know how to criticise media and/or make sure you know the difference between actually potentially harmful handling of a theme within fictional media vs something made you uncomfortable and you want to express it and feel heard as part of processing it but don't know how, then you probably won't feel as strong of - if any - need to play up what you have a problem with. Because a) you know how to express your position to get people to listen to you, b) don't need strangers on the internet to validate you to know you're right because you're versed in identifying and talking about how to fix this problem in media causing potential harm to a marginalised group or otherwise teaching potentially harmful perspectives and here's why... and c) you know when something is just bothering you personally and probably have some healthier copes for it, like ranting into the void on your own post without using any main fandom tags and/or ranting to your friends and/or writing fix-it fic and or- you get the gist.

The day we start doing more of that is the day this whole 'anti-shipper' and responding 'pro-shipper' thing will probably calm down a little bit.

i don't respect DNIs not in the sense i go out of my way to break them but in the sense that i don't respect DNIs as a concept and consider them to be something of a red flag in general.

i'm not sure how to explain it but it's the combination of usually putting very serious issues on the same level as fandom stuff, the fact that half the time people don't even know what they're against beyond 'the bad stuff' therefore even further watering these issues down, and the idea that other people are expected to manage your online existence for you.

there's a passiveness to it that i think is actually a problem and it does not surprise me in the slightest that people with DNIs tend to view what media they consume as activism. do you get what i'm saying.

[libraford]

i rather like your amirite idea, not like most 'gemstones' aren't just glass or resin impregnated stone. still impressed with how nice many of these look for hdpe tho, a few pieces you've shown look more like acrylic(make me think of mixed color dice)

The ones I've been showing are like... processed scraps from all of my failures, lol. I can't tell you how many times these plastics have been folded into each other, mixed with ldpe to make it smoother, molded into a piece that's straight up ugly, and then folded again. So far they seem to just melt back into each other without affecting their integrity, but we'll see what happens.

The smaller pieces end up looking like agates, or sometimes like Ohio Flint. Larger pieces look like color vomit.

My goal is to make a goddamn ton of agate-ish beads to use in later projects, or maybe sell in bundles, and then work on making some things in more pleasing colors.

But I absolutely hear you on the 'gemstones.' When the craft store I used to work at came out with their 'natural stone' line and they were really goddamn cheap I was like...

... this is glass.

Like there's no way that this isn't glass or resin with like 10% real stones in it pretending to be authentic mined amethyst.

And like you can pick some things up and I don't know how to put it but you can just... you can tell. Its like holding a counterfeit dollar bill, you're just like... you're aware that its wrong. You touch it and you're like... that's incorrect.

But that's like... that's me being friends with rock-hounds, and being an amateur rockhound myself. And talking to the people at crystal shops who actually know what they're doing instead of just selling crystals.

There is nothing wrong with glass or resin, but pretending that its authentic gemstone just makes me feel like I'm being treated like a child.

Like there are a handful of creators in my circle who make 'gemstone bracelets' and have a long list of properties that go along with them and its like... this is glass. I know your manufacturer, and this is glass. If crystal healing is your angle, this is glass. But I hold my tongue because its how they make their money and they believe it all to be true... but its glass.

So I might as well make my own rocks, enjoy the science, have a little fun with it, and make the thousands of bottles at the community center less of a chore at work.

[ilikekidsshows]

Have you seen the spoilers as of late? Apparently Marinette broke Adrien's amoks... Or at least broke what she believed were Adrien's amoks as there was no feather that popped out. I don't know anymore and I'm scared to look.

---

Yeah, that's pretty much exactly what happened. Some people are saying the writers are going back to SentiAdrien to try to build up "mystique" in the show again, that people are now supposed to be going: "what does it meeeean?!"

Like, I could see the writers making Adrien human as a way to try to shield Marinette because "she can't tell Adrien something that isn't true anymore, checkmate, critics." Honestly, I would actually find it absolutely hilarious if we found out that, while rebooting the entire world, Gabriel made Adrien fully human, because it would mean he actually does care about Adrien's autonomy more than Marinette does, taking away Marinette's one defense in how she treats Adrien being a Senti.

But it's also equally likely, if not more so, that the writers are playing fast and lose with the Sentimonster lore to muddle things up and build up a new mystery that's just the old mystery again. Similarly, the new Butterfly villain is just as "mysterious" as Gabriel was. Like, we know it's Lila, why are they pretending we don't know that? It's so stupid.

The extra bitter part of me looks at how destroying Adrien's Amok is Plan A and feels that Astruc really just wanted to kill off Adrien, even if temporarily, but someone actually told him "no", for once, so he left it as a Shrödinger's Cat situation.

[jackiesunshines]

IN ANOTHER LIFE, MY DEAR | I.ENGEN²³

summary: you read over the collection of letters your ingrid has sent you over the year of your love. her words make your grief calmer.

contains: retelling of romeo and juilette in gay, letter form, juilet.ᐟingrid x romeo.ᐟreader, mentions of homophobia & death/suicide, set in an unspecified time in norway, ingrid is the only daughter of wealthy family while reader is apart of a poorer family of farmers, this is wlw!!, implied masc.ᐟreader, inaccuracies of the romeo & juilet story i'm adapting the story to fit what i want this to be, ingrid and reader are around eighteen to twenty years old, unhappy ending.

author notes: i just had the idea for this and was like might as well write it. hopefully you guys enjoy 💞

from lady ingrid of the engen family,

i saw you the other night at lady frida's gathering. you were wearing such a stuffy dress and i could tell by your expression that you hated every second of it, but oh you looked stunning. in your usual garments that i see you in, you look always look so handsome. is that weird to say of a woman? i hope not because the word suits you. i think stunning suits you as well. maybe one day we can try on dresses together? only if i can see the cute pout you had last night.

━ june 2nd

from lady ingrid of the engen family,

do you know i am sending my letters in secret? relying on the bribing of the men who work on my family's estate grounds? every time you write back, my heart feels warm. my parents don't believe in being close to ones "below us," whatever that means. i don't see you as below me. not at all. i made my riding teacher take me all the way past your family's farm, so i could see you. it was late in the afternoon, and i was worried that you would be resting inside, but no, you were out working like one of the men. if someone saw you and your brothers, they wouldn't be able to tell you apart, but i can. your brothers aren't as beautiful as you, no offense to their looks. you're like a rose amongst a bunch of flower less stems. you didn't see me, but i saw you. those few minutes felt like getting a taste of heaven. please write back sooner than last time.

━ june 14th

from your friend ingrid of the engen family,

are we close enough that i can call you my friend? is it strange that i complimented you various times but only now asking for your hand in friendship? i loved seeing you today, down by the river with your dog. if only my brother didn't take me away, i would have talked to you longer. i pray he didn't tell my parents about what happened, but they keep things from me, so what do i know? do your parents do the same? i doubt they do with the way they allow you to work on the farm. however if they do then they would be hypocrites. i ate a very sweet strawberry cake today as a treat and it reminded me of you. when the taste fleeted me, it reminds me of you the most.

━ june 23rd

from your friend ingrid,

how did you find a way to send me a gift? you are so clever. it just draws me to you more. i'm wearing the dress you sent right now. it's so soft but not as soft as your skin. that night, i snuck out and came to see you for those few minutes, i can't get it out of my head. please, may we do it again sometime soon? you said in your last letter that i hugged like someone yearning for something. it is true. i yearn for you.

━ july 1st

from your dove, ingrid,

no one has ever compared me to an animal before. especially not a bird, but when i came to your family's farm with my father, i heard you whisper to your friend who was there at the time that i was as angelic as a dove. thank you. i would compare you to an adorable animal as well, but that would be underselling your beauty. so for now and hopefully forever, you are my angel.

━ july 9th

from your dove, ingrid,

sorry for not writing back in ages. i'm having troubles here at home. my parents want me to get married. can you believe them? they say it would be worthwhile to get married now when my beauty isn't fading, but you always told me that my beauty would never fade. who shall i believe? am i only worthy if i am gorgeous? please help me answer this question of mine. you seem to be in a better state than me when it comes to marriage. your parents don't seem to care about your romantic life, but mines are stuck in the restricted standards of our class. i don't want to marry anyone who isn't you. is that too big of a confession?

━ october 24th

from your dove, ingrid,

we kissed last night. i can't believe it. forget any marriage to some man who can't even have half of the strength and smarts that you do and none of the beauty. i love you

━ november 1st

from ingrid,

my parents called me into their room and sat me down and told me that i would be getting married by the summer of next year. somehow, some way, they have found out about our letters. those disloyal men of my family's estate must have ratted me out. we are too close for my family's comfort. women shouldn't write like this to one another. my mother told me i should put my serenading skills to use for a man as that is the way of nature. if that is the way of nature, then why does it feel so unnatural? i'll find a way to write to, my love. hopefully, this is not my last.

━ december 2nd

from ingrid

happy new year, my angel. they can take me away from our hometown, but they can never take me away from you.

━ january 1st

from your dove,

putting my name on these feels risky now. i don't know how long the couple i pay for will continue doing this for me. i don't know the next time my family will try to tear me away from you. i have not met my husband yet, we will meet on our wedding day, but i promise you that day will not be a happy one. let's plan something together. take care, my angel.

━ february 16th

your dove,

i will send the couple with the amount of money we need and the documents i have forged. you are so handsome that i hope that when this plan happens, people will take one look at you and just believe you are a man. hopefully, they don't look closer because then they will see that your beauty is something a man can never achieve. i had to put a compliment into here, i would say sorry, but i know you love it. i love you, take care.

━ april 4th

your dove,

can't wait to be with you, my angel. see you in a month.

━ april 18th

your dove,

my family and his family have decided to get us married earlier than planned. i think my parents are worried that i am still thinking of you, and of course, they are right, but that doesn't mean it makes me any less angry. i will never be wed to him, i swear on my life. i love you, and we will be together, whether in this life or in death. if i can not run away, then i promise i will never let him take me away from you.

━ may 22nd

to my angel,

is it true? there are rumors that you have died of an illness, i don't believe that for one second. my wedding night is tomorrow, and my family is feeding me lies. i kept telling myself that, but then they showed me a letter from your father that stated your death right there in ink. i don't know what to believe, but i do know i do not want to be wed to this man. not for one night or for the rest of my life. i told you i would love you forever, and that is true. we promised to be together, but i never thought it would end up being in death rather than in life. i am only writing this in hopes that my family will find this and see that they have driven us to madness. i'll shall see you in heaven, my angel. i will ignore the sharp pain of the dagger by thinking of the sweetness of your kiss. i love you.

━ june 1st

author notes: this might suck? idkkkk 🙂‍↕️

[ask-underfazverse]

"...no, you deserve to cry. You're hurting... not crying doesn't change that. All it does is hide it, till you break. Believe me, I know..."

He goes silent for a moment. "...is there anything you'd like to do, in general? Doesn't have to be something you want to make you feel better. Just... something to give me a lead, to get back on the right foot with you."

He looks at him. "...you deserve better than what I could provide then. The head on my shoulders is finally a good one. I'm not going to make the same mistakes I did with them, with you. You're not a monster for knowing her, or more likely to be the End's next pawn... but treating you like you are, will just push you towards her, and it wouldn't be anyone's fault, but our own."

His eyes soften further. "...things, from here on out, will get better. But it won't start, till we do."

He laughs, a little ashamed. "Or until I do- I mean... how many problems did I cause, because I was too overwhelmed and scared... and ended up making poor judgment? No. I can't, and WON'T do that with you."

He then asks again. "...so what would you like to do? Just for today, or even just the hour?"

The multiverse is full of infinite possibilities...

Most worlds tend to connect through similar builds. Through stories, people, themes...

It's no surprise seeing a stranger to the multiverse. What IS surprising, however, was his condition. Covered in deep wounds, limbs twisted and torn, and he appeared to be drowning in his own blood by the time he was found. Holy weapons were embedded in his skin, and the flesh sizzled liked bacon around it.

He had red skin, gray hooves, horns that looked far too round and circular to have normally grown out of his head. His long pointed tail is covered in hand prints, and there are bones exposed out of his back. He lays face first in a pool of his own boiling blood, barely breathing or moving.

@ask-underfazverse

Cry’s come from the mass amounts of strangers, many just back away to cowedly to do anything, but a few step up, and begin to heal him. Mainly the younger, less evil Malak’s, a few Doug’s that are just simply concerned, and only one Bierce.

Dream Malak very hurriedly takes him to his hospital, with the help of the others.

[genderqueerdykes]

I saw trans men are sending you their stories about being excluded from trans and/or LGBTQ culture & I have one that I want to share if I can.

I moved a couple of times over the course of several years, for a job, from the big city where I grew up to a small city where I knew some transplants and then a rural area where I don't know anyone. I recently tried to join a local trans group because I've been in them in my last 2 cities and enjoyed the company and having the ability to openly be myself. Well in the rural area I was denied entry. The transfeminine person who runs this Facebook group told me she rejected my request to join the group because she didn't believe I was trans and asked me to prove it. She said the group gets a lot of "chasers" and she refused to give me an example of how I was supposed to prove I was trans. The funny thing was that the discussion occurred entirely over Facebook messenger and if she had just clicked through to my page she would have seen we had several mutual friends in common. By the time I clicked through to her page it was because I was so exasperated over the course of several days worth of arguing about this and begging to be given a chance that I went there to block her and be done with it.

So I still don't know any LGBTQ people where I live and I only talk to my homophobic and transphobic coworkers, who are able to clock me because I don't quite pass for a cishet male.

wow that sucks so hard that that's happening to you holy shit. you deserve better than that. this is why i don't like how people treat each other. i don't get calling trans men and women who are attracted to each other chasers.

The transfeminine person who runs this Facebook group told me she rejected my request to join the group because she didn't believe I was trans and asked me to prove it.

what the actual hell but also i see this way too often. why is this okay. why does this keep happening. how to you prove you're trans? what does that mean? like actually what does she expect from you? birth certificate? proof that you're on hormones? what does that mean? why are people not able to challenge this behavior? it's happening so much and it's transphobia. she's being transphobic toward you. you can't just only let people who are or pass for transfem into your spaces that is scary. it defeats the purpose of trans spaces. what the hell. why does it always come down to arguing its a waste of time. people have things to do

[hurtspideyparker]

I’m sending this because I saw your post on the tags. You’re not a Tom Holland fan, you’re a Peter Parker/Spider-Man fan. You only talk about this character on your blog. You’re a Marvel stan. I doubt you can't even name more than 5 Tom projects that aren't Spider-Man movies. You’re not obssesed with him, you’re obssesed with his version of the character which is not the same as being a fan of the actor and support his career outside of one thing.

Well this is a very rude way of supporting someone who only promotes kindness and adores his work with Spider-Man.

First of all, this is a Marvel side blog. So I only post about Marvel and adjacent things on here, in my personal life and other blogs I do have other interests. I will also say I have a hyperfixation on Marvel, especially the MCU, and my favourite character since I was a child is Spider-Man. So yes, that is my favourite Tom Holland role, he is my favourite spidey, so my blog focuses on him a lot. And the thing about hyperfixations is 1. I can't control it and 2. I am literally mentally ill about him.

But I do absolutely adore Tom Holland as an actor, so I'll take this as an opportunity to gush about some of my favourite projects of his!

The Crowded Room: If someone says Tom isn't a good actor I know for a fact they've never seen this. The amount of roles he plays in this, heavy and variable, was remarkable. Switching between the accents, mannerisms, even down to the way they stand. I was in complete awe, especially when he would switch between them without cuts. I watched an interview where he said he doesn't memorize scripts completely, but he learns the characters so deeply that he knows what they'd say and do anyways. To do that in a role like this just shows how seriously he takes the art. The story in and of itself was very moving, well written, and paced beautifully. I loved all the characters and how they fit together in order to protect Danny. 10/10 would recommend, there is heavy subject matter and I cried when he was on the stand and they didn't believe he had DID (especially when the man who loved him also started doubting if Ariana was real), and then again when he said Adam was him :(

Cherry: Incredibly real story, hurt my heart that people go through this. Tom did a fantastic job being respectful of the subject matter—a veteran with PTSD who falls into drug addiction and crime to fuel it. You can see his character harden over time, and I have a crush on the version of Cherry when he was in college hehe. The way he loves Emily so intensely through it all, how reverently he treats her, and his total breakdown when she overdoses. He rather have her clean and away from him than be together in their suffering. And it has a happy ending! Ngl Tom with a mustache made me giggle, just looks so silly lol. I know he can't grow facial hair to save his life

Uncharted: While Tom is fantastic in those heavy roles and I love seeing him cry, let my boy have fun! This movie was a great action movie, and idc about all the video game nerds who says he isn't a good fit for Nathan. He might not be Nathan, but he is BORN for action babyyy. Suave, intelligent, and sweet. I know he had a lot of fun with this role and is a big fan of the game, so happy he got it! I am still hoping for a sequel because I need Tom in more action and light-hearted films

Chaos Walking: The sci-fi aspects of this are really cool, and a unique way of commentating on patriarchy. The plot twists were cool and Todd Hewitt is my sweet little feminist king. He's so funny to me, bro is trying his best, I definitely view Todd as an underdog who has all this responsibility put on him. World building and characterization was sick, wish it got a bit more love

The Devil All the Time: Okay this movie was objectively really good but SO WEIRD? I felt very discomfited after. But Tom's character was definitely my absolute favourite, what a terrible journey he goes through. Even though the movie was odd Tom made it all worth it. A genuinely good guy pushed to do terrible things because of other terrible people, like yes you get em king!!! Had me on the edge of my seat

The Impossible: The fact that this was his first film!? SO INTENSE, and yet he did fantastic. Tom Holland didn't really plan to be an actor, he truly just had greatness thrust upon him. Scooped up as Billy Elliot, then scouted as Lucas in this film. He genuinely has a natural talent for this stuff, this movie is based off a true story and seeing the devastation and little Tom covered in dirt and grieving his family that is still alive, oh gosh. Heavy but the happy ending will make you cry.

Can I also say lip sync battle as one of my fave projects? I need this man to do more dancing or at least physical work. So enamored with him and his confidence. It's interesting looking back on that video after a recent interview he spoke about how young he was and eager, but as an adult (and the adults around him at the time) being more hesitant and cautious about putting yourself in the media like that. It's been cool watching Tom mature!

Films I would not recommend as a Tom Holland fan:

How I Live Now: Tom isn't in it that much, and it was a really slow, disturbing film. I felt sad, gross, and uncomfortable watching it, just for Tom to barely be seen. Do not recommend

Edge of Winter: Also a very disturbing film. Tom was in it more, but it's mostly a slow horror film without much closure, and Tom's character isn't that interesting. Bland and uncomfortable

Now I'm not interested in his animated voice work, and I don't like period pieces, so I haven't seen those films. But if they're great enough and Tom has a good role in them pls feel free to recommend!

I just want to say you don't need to hit a quota to be a fan of someone. If you like one song, book, film... you're allowed to call yourself a fan! Gate-keeping art is not cool, and even if someone only likes one character then that sure is one fantastic character. Spider-Man is something very important to Tom; it's a big part of his career, he met his future wife through it, it changed his world to become his childhood hero. And his depiction of Spider-Man is something very special to me. It isn't just the character, it's him; the freshness, the awkwardness, the naivety he brought to Peter that Andrew and Tobey didn't choose to do. It is such a fantastic character to show off his physical skills, humour, his range from childishness to the grief and fury. You look at him in Homecoming and compare it to NWH and you see how Tom has evolved the character. I'm in awe of every thing Tom Holland does, but Spider-Man is 6 huge projects of his and to be more, which shows so much of his skill.

I also love his interviews. He's a very down to Earth, sweet, and genuine man. I think he's funny, charismatic and confident, but has fantastic work-life balance. I watched that 2 hour interview of his talking about spirituality and mental health, and seeing where he is now with Bero after his struggles with alcohol warms my heart. I wish I could have seen his Romeo & Juliet production, but in the least I think it was a nice break from the big screen for him. And best believe I was fighting for my life in comment sections for his costars—the racism was disgusting. One day that man is going to be a father and we'll never see him again, and I'll support that too. Can't wait for his Nolan film, can't believe how far he's come so quickly, and oh yes, I'm most excited for more Spider-Man films ;)

[notmorbid]

idlewild.

dialogue prompts from idlewild: a novel by james frankie thomas.

funny, that's what your mom said to me last night.

i've never gone to a reunion.

sorry. i should have asked if i should touch you.

so, you were an outsider?

it's okay. i've reclaimed the word 'cunt'.

all i can think of now is what we didn't talk about.

____ is my favorite movie of all time.

everybody's got a thing, or so stevie wonder has led me to believe.

have you ever stood on a random street and felt, for no reason in particular, like you were home?

this is where i live, by the way.

what an incurious coward you are.

is anyone else seeing this?

promise you won't sing anything from rent.

have you ever kissed anyone?

what does ____ mean to you?

who died and put you in charge?

you know how dads are.

are we actual friends now?

what's eating you these days?

i don't 'have' to do anything. i don't even have to be here.

i'm not gonna ask you what's wrong, because i don't give a shit.

i dislike you, like, 20% less than i dislike most people.

friends don't treat each other the way you've treated me.

'good' and 'evil' are heterosexual concepts.

i didn't think you'd actually do it.

what a maddening mystery you are.

i'm on your side no matter what.

none of this matters. none of this is real.

i like this side of you.

bribery will get you nowhere.

i'll be so good, you won't even know i'm here.

i'm a prickly pear. real soft on the inside.

that's just my scorpio nature.

how does it feel to be a star?

you're gonna be a great ______.

i don't know why i get like this. i don't want to be this way.

i wanted one thing that was just mine.

you need me. tell me you need me.

i'm sick of constantly guessing what you want from me.

you look as bad as i feel.

i know you're doing some stalker shit.

i hate to think of ____ alone.

you know that's not grammatically correct.

you can't come within 15 feet.

maybe you'll never see me again.

everyone has a weakness. everyone except me.

i always thought it was just me.

we're the same.

you wrote fanfic about me?

i want to give you a hug.

did anything unusual happen last night?

maybe i want them to see.

can i tell you something i've never told anyone?

i don't need to know. i just need you to be alive.

you're brave. you don't care what people think of you. it's cool.

i wish i could be like you sometimes.

can't we just pretend it's real?

you don't have to pretend with me.

what the hell happened to you?

why weren't we friends? why did it take us so long to do this?

i was obsessed with you, you know.

do you ever miss ____?

[teddybeartoji]