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@queruloustea's latest chapter has put me into a frenzy (positive) and i had to draw them immediately
#hollow purred and my brain stalled for 5 minutes processing it#oughhhh my heart cant survive#(shaking fist) THEY CANT KEEP GETTING AWAY WITH THIS#THE FLUFF IS TOO GOOD#i can't be normal about this anymore#not that i ever was normal abt this but AHFJHFJ#i love them#quirrelhollow#hk quirrel#hk the hollow knight#hk art#art#digital art#hollow knight#hk
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CW DEATH, DEAD BODY, STRANGULATION, BLOOD, IMPLIED SELF-HARM (in case my tags aren't enough!!!! stay safe)
(Above you, you hear Loop trying to take a breath.)
#isat spoilers#act 6 secret encounter spoilers#cw death#cw dead body#cw strangulation#cw blood#cw self harm#wow thats a lot ok. better to be safe imo!#threw this down in about 2-3 hours bc i have to get the thoughts on paper SOMETIMES i GUESS and if that means rough sketches then thats tha#anyway have i mentioned im normal about loop?#just bc siffrin can't loop anymore doesn't mean loop can't#in stars and time spoilers#isat#in stars and time#isat loop#isat siffrin#my art#my comics#oh agony. posted and found out my top warnings dont push dead sif down far enough. I HOPE Y'ALL BLOCKED YOUR TAGS!!!!#edit2: i changed the caption bc i got a better idea lol. now there are two verisons circulating. that'll be fun.
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My heart wished to stay here, because it gave me a reason to live ♡
Fukuzawa + The Founding Trio
#bungou stray dogs#bsd kunikida#bsd yosano#bsd ranpo#bsd fukuzawa#bsd kunikida doppo#bsd yosano akiko#bsd ranpo edogawa#bsd fukuzawa yukichi#og ada trio my beloved#I'm insane about them#the matching mayoi cards has me ugly sobbing#and that family picture lives rent free in my head#manifesting next ln about them#PLS ASAGIRI YOU CAN'T JUST DROP THESE LITTLE CRUMBS AND EXPECT ME TO MOVE ON#I NEED TO KNOW MORE ABIUT THEM I CANNOT BE NORMAL ABOUT THEM ANYMORE#THEY WOULD HAVE THE MOST FUN DYNAMICS EVER I KNOW IT#also i made this post cuz I'm mad that people ignore kuni#and also put dazai in his place#like sure dazai definitely gets along with them#but both yosano and ranpo have a soft spot for kuni#and kuni tries to be subtle about it but he respects them sm#like how kuni literally lets ranpo do whatever he likes lol#and yosano is easily able to convince kuni#and don't even get me started on the trust fukuzawa has over kunikida#i can go on talking about them lmaooo#bsd edit#my edit
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One of the worst parts of planning a wedding after October is asking "which of our potential guests is normal about Jews?" Having to literally sleuth through social medias is disheartening.
We've already written off about 20 people, one of which used to be a meta and was potential bf for my partner. To see someone you cared for and could have had a relationship with just openly call for the death of your people is gut wrenching. A lot of people don't actually know I'm Jewish because I'm secular and so is my partner. In every instance of removing someone from our lives we get a message asking why. We lay out all of the antisemitism that they expressed over the course of these months and in every. single. instance. we've gotten some version of "well I respect your opinion, but I disagree". These are Left queer progressive types who have openly stated over and over again that if you are not part of that minority group you do not get to tell them what is and isn't offensive. So yeah, it's not just online discourse Lefties or campus protesters. It's people you may know on a personal level and have many, many memories with. They've sacrificed everything they stood for because of antisemitism and hatred. I'm so very tired.
#jumblr#leftist antisemitism#goyim being normal about Jews challenge#The jews are tired#I miss my friends - but I can't look at them the same way anymore
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Rewatched the Beast movie, got emotional about it, and like... what if... Chuuya self-love self-care??? 🥺🥺🥺 He needs it, he deserves it, he should get it.
Full thingie ⬇️
#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bsd fanart#bsd chuuya#chuuya nakahara#bsd beast#beast chuuya#yall I'm soo normal about beast!Chuuya getting therapy#hurt/comfort go brrrrrrrrrrrrr#I want the two Chuuyas to interact soo much aaaaaaaa#like imagine if after beast!Dazai's death everyone thinks that corruption can't be tamed anymore#but then og Chuuya somehow manages to calm him down anyways and is being kind to himself#k I'll stop now lol
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Pairing: Maximus Decimus Meridius x reader
Rating: T (fluff, with a tiny hint of hurt/comfort)
Word Count: 1.2k
Tag List: @enjisbf, @nasatshirts, @empressenchanted, @streets-in-paradise, @xiscamoony, @aelondrias
Author’s Note: Very short little fic that I wrote sort of as a follow-up to Nightmare, but it works as a standalone one-shot too. As always, it's written with the fullest measure of my love, and it's representing all the longing y'all get to witness every day on this melodramatic blog. I love Maximus, and I hope this little fic does him justice :) Thank you for reading!
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Your love is asleep beside you, breathing deep and slow against your neck. After yet another day of backbreaking work in the harvest, he’s exhausted, and all he had the strength to do was pull off his tunic and fall into bed beside you.
You are just as tired, but somehow you can’t bring yourself to fall asleep just yet. You’re too transfixed by him.
In sleep, his face is so peaceful, so free from the worry lines and the intensity he wears through the day. In sleep, his face is relaxed and soft, surrendered to the safety he feels in your bed.
You smile knowing that sharing your bed is his first experience with sleeping so peacefully. He came to you wounded and hunted, having barely escaped an assassination attempt and with nowhere else to go. Though your first few months were fraught with distress and fear, you have both settled into your home with the knowledge that you are safe from the outside world, that his past has been laid to rest and left behind. He still carries his burdens, but they are easier to bear when he can release them at night.
You let your eyes trace over his features now, amazed as always at the sweetness and beauty of the man who holds your heart. His eyelashes flutter against the tops of his cheeks, the lines beside his eyes less furrowed.
He’s sleeping as he usually does: on his back with your head on his chest, his left arm wrapped around your shoulders protectively, his head tilted against yours. His right hand clasps yours where it rests on his waist, moving gently every time he breathes.
Tilting your head back, you smile to yourself as the sounds of his deep breathing reach your ears. The sound only reassures you that he’s sleeping well, undisturbed by anything.
You often remember his first few nights with you — how after making love, he would lie awake for some time, trying to fall asleep. He was always on guard during those days, always attuned to any sign of trouble. He slept with one eye open for months.
And quite often, you would wake to find him up, making a round through the house or in the yard, paranoid about what could be lurking outside. Many were the nights you had to coax him back to bed, assuring him that no one had come for him in the night.
And the nightmares. Those terrible nightmares that plagued him for months.
Once, he awoke in the middle of choking you, having acted out of terror in the middle of a dream. You were afraid he would never trust himself to sleep with you again, but together you worked through it. He’s had nightmares many times since, but they have grown fewer and tamer in the past few months.
That thought makes you smile as well: knowing that your presence beside him at night helps keep his nightmares at bay.
As if in response, the man turns in his sleep, rolling onto his side to face you. He’s still sound asleep, his breath rumbling in his powerful chest, but his right arm wraps around your waist, pulling you close to his body.
You are all too happy to snuggle closer to him. The nights have grown colder, and his body is a never-ending source of heat for your bed. You enthusiastically burrow into his embrace, tucking your head under his chin and tangling your legs with his.
Your heart warms knowing that he reaches for you even in his sleep. Many are the nights he has whispered your name in his sleep, groped his hands to find you in the night. Somehow his heart seeks you even when he sleeps.
He pulls you even closer, his breath softening as if he is stirring a little from his sleep, but he does not awaken. Shifting his weight to press against you more fully, he rubs one broad hand up and down your back, fingers brushing your spine.
Without meaning to, you arch your back in response, pushing your body tighter against his. He lowers his chin as though he were awake, dragging his lips across your forehead before coming to rest against the top of your head.
Your smile comes again, unbidden, warm as the heat radiating off his body.
So many nights, you have lain in this very bed and ached with loneliness. How many cold nights you spent huddled under blankets, wishing for a lover to share your home and bed, to fill you with a warmth that would go beyond your body. This man fills every empty spot in your heart, thrills and soothes and pleasures you in every possible way.
And what a joy it is to know that you have done the same for him, that your love is his safety, his delight, and his peace.
With a knot of emotion rising in your throat, you tilt your head back to press the lightest of kisses against his exposed neck. He stirs slightly, his breath ghosting across your ear, and you just rest your lips against his neck to breathe in his scent.
Earth, sweat, and something else distinctly him. It’s a scent you now associate with comfort, companionship, and warmth.
You kiss him again, wanting to touch him somehow even though he’s asleep. His neck is smooth and warm under your lips, and he stirs again, this time shifting his arms closer around you. He tilts his head a bit to the side as if to give you better access.
Then he makes a sound, almost a moan, almost a sleep-muddled whisper, but you know it’s your name. It’s your name he murmurs in his sleep, when he feels your gentle brushes of affection against his skin.
You smile against his neck, resting your mouth there so he won’t awaken. He remains tensed a moment longer, so you lightly run your hands over him to soothe him back to a deep sleep.
His muscles are coiled under your touch, every inch of his body a tribute to softness and strength. His chest moves against yours slowly, and you gently rub your hands over his ribs, his sides, his hips. He finally relaxes, sighing contentedly as he drifts back into a deeper sleep.
Just before he does, though, you feel him lift his hand, stroke it down the back of your head once. His fingers tangle in your hair, and he nuzzles your face gently, brushing his smooth skin and spiky beard against your cheek.
He hums with pleasure, settles himself against your body, then buries his head in your neck and falls back to sleep.
You follow him soon after, cradling him in your arms while you listen to the steady cadence of his breath and the lovely thump of his heartbeat. You thread your fingers in his dark hair until your strength fades into sleep, just long enough to feel him relax completely in your arms.
All the lonely nights, all the sorrow, all the uncertainty — it’s all been worth it for this moment, and for all the moments that have come before and will come after.
Your love is asleep in your arms, whispering your name and holding you close to his chest, and you can both sleep in the peace and satisfaction of a love that transcends everything else.
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More of my fanfiction if you're so inclined :)
#oh yeah i'm fine about this. normal even#JUST KIDDING this is what pervades my every waking thought#if y'all knew how bad i need this you'd send me to an institution#OH to hold maximus close in my arms and feel him drift off to sleep peacefully beside me#HE DESERVES IT#HE DESERVES TO BE LOVED SOFTLY AND SWEETLY AND GENTLY#I WILL DO IT#the way i would marry this man so fast#y'all know that but still#i know i say it multiple times every day on this blog but. he's my one beloved#the brightest star in my sky#he who holds my heart#AAGGHHHHHHH i can't take it anymore i NEED HIM#i NEED to just shower him with love and affection and comfort#ONE DAY I SWEAR#gladiator#maximus#maximus decimus meridius#gladiator 2000#russell crowe#fanfiction#gladiator fanfiction#maximus x reader#maximus decimus meridius x reader#my fanfiction
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imogen & fearne in c3e86
#critical role#ygifs#imogen x fearne#imogearne#I can't hear anything the girls are connecting ruidusly through the mouth#when will they pay#travis going GROSS fcg going yall need romantic music???? the circus bouncin🤡#we're not on the moon anymore we can't connect!! as fearne is already leaning in like we might as well try still???#imogen wearing fearne out ok girls I'm normal......I'm not gonna write about it at all#itfcep
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ideal radiostatic relationship progression for me personally is friends to enemies to codependency
#like maybe they had a normal healthy friendship at one point before Something happened and now they can never be normal about each other#ever again#whatever softer thing they had before has been warped and corroded into something unrecognizable but they can't bear to be apart anymore#it's intimate. it's obsessive. it's hateful and tender and violent and playful#and above all. neither of them would let the other leave even if they wanted to#this is also the hannigram relationship progression and YES I SEE IT. I KNOW. i know what i like.#vox#alastor#radiostatic#hazbin hotel#voxal
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Drifting Stars headcanon where Mabel and Ford use the "we're father/daughter" story so often to avoid suspicion that Mabel calls him "Dad" instead of "Grunkle Ford" now.
Ford has a reasonable amount of emotions about this and does not nearly cry the first time Mabel calls him "Dad" outside of lying to people.
#mads posts#drifting stars#drifting stars AU#mabel pines#ford pines#stanford pines#gravity falls#gravity falls au#listen i have a lot of emotions about drifting stars AU#specifically how mabel and ford interact after getting out of the portal#i want them to be so intensely close with one another in a way neither of them never really realized when they were constantly running for#their lives#mabel can't sleep without her crossbow in hand and ford within 10 feet of her#ford panics whenever he loses sight of mabel for more than 30 seconds#dipper gives mabel her old knitting needles back and she gets halfway through sharpening the points before she remembers not everything has#to be a weapon anymore#dipper and stan drifting further from each other while trying to get their twins back from the portal#because dipper blames stan and stan blames himself and neither of them want to breach that gap#versus ford and mabel becoming insanely close while in the portal because they had to rely on each other for EVERYTHING#and when ford and mabel get back; stan and dipper have to wrestle with how the two of them are so close#and all four of them lost so much time together#um#anyways#uh#yeah im normal about this
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at LEAST once jason (with tim) has dragged damian along with them clubbing as a designated driver (if he wasn't being bribed with driving the batmobile he would NOT be going, zero chance)
they all go suited up because 1. tim won't go as a civilian (bad for his reputation etc etc). 2. every gothamite knows not to ask a robin-boy for ID. 3. jason claims to have never gotten more free drinks than when he goes as hood.
damian will walk in, accompany jason to the bar so he can get a ginger ale, and promptly situate himself on a barstool (the bartenders WILL look out for him + get him free refills of whatever soft drink he wants), observing his brothers and muttering about them being "imbeciles".
it takes a couple of hours before jason starts coming over to damian, pleading for him to join a dance circle, or show off a trick.
jason ends up bargaining down to damian walking around with him whilst he talks to girls, because "chicks dig guys with a paternal instinct" and it's gotham, and everyone's under the influence, so no one's going to question why there's a 13 year old in the nightclub. instead they see red hood with his little brother robin, and think it's sweet.
the one condition of damian being their designated driver is that dick is under no circumstances allowed to find out. one time dick called tim, and he was too tipsy to answer anything but "damian" when asked if he had a way home, and subsequently "no, he's here" when dick assumed (already pissed, and about to rant about how they can't rely on a 13 year old to drive them home) damian would just be driving over to pick them up. they did not hear the end of it for weeks. + going forward jason confiscated tim's phone every time they walked into a nightclub.
"he's 13, legally, he cannot be in a nightclub, OR driving anyone home"
it was worse when he found out they went suited up. tim copped it the worst, because jason had an apartment to go home to, while tim was stuck in the manor listening to all of dick's hate-fuelled rambling about jason and his childishness, as well as what he had to say about tim's own behavior.
for damian it was win-win though, dick loves him too much to be mad at him about it (even though he KNOWS he has the common sense to Not Get Into Those Situations), AND he got to drive the batmobile (he manages to drive around gotham for over 45 minutes before a drunk jason starts to suspect they aren't 'going straight home')
#damian holds jasons hand as they walk through people to get to the bar btw#also jason 100% pulls out the literature card when trying to pick someone up. and starts rambling about pride and prejudice#girl help i can't think about anything normally anymore#this one sat in the drafts for a little while. had to consider whether or not it was too out there#these aren't even headcanons anymore they're full on one-shots#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#robin#the robins#dick grayson#batboys#batfam#batfamily#nightwing#red hood#red robin#dc comics#dcu#dc#gothihop speaks
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argh
I wasn't gonna say anything but it's… yeah. my cat whom I've had since I was little, she's not well. she's going to be put to sleep on monday. it all happened so quickly; she's been struggling with various health issues over the year, has been sleeping almost 99% of the time and eating less and less so we knew it would happen sometime, but it got really bad really quickly. it was only a couple days ago that we found out actually how bad it was.
I won't go into detail. I know this is something most people go through, but I don't even know where to begin with processing it. avoiding thinking about it is all I can do, since focusing on it feels like a bad dream. it feels wrong to even try to be normal or to do anything, or to let myself think about other things to feel better. with each passing day it just feels less and less real.
I need to hold myself back from thinking about it too hard for now, I just wanted to be honest about where I'm at right now, I guess.
#gonna be honest. I feel super weird about posting this. I don't really say many personal things here anymore#but I also feel weird about not saying anything#I can't imagine just like. continuing posting normally as if nothing is happening#I think a lot of awful stuff all happened at the same time#maybe I'll delete this later
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Worst fuckin thing happened to me today I went to a festival with my sister, her boyfriend and my friend and my friend and I were joking around about the whole smash cake trend and they said something like "hear me out, king Sombra" and showed me a fukin picture and I said "yeah, yeah ok I see it. That's a horse but I see it" ABF YOU KNOW WHAT THYE SAID??? "At least it's not a triangle" AUGHHUURGAGGH!!! AUYGH!! MY SISTER WAS RIGHT THERE!! SHE STARTED LAUGHING!! NOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!! SHE SAID "haha yeah at least he's not a fucking shape" AUGHHEUAYHH I HATE EVERYONE!!! Even worse was that I was dressed at the oncler the whole fucking time
#worst day of my life now she knows#i try to keep my hyperfixations normal around my family bc i dont want them to laugh at me#honestly it was sooo fukin funny and 10/10 experience#happy to joke around about it teehee#but now i can't pretend to be normal anymore AUGHGAG#ren won't shut up
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Greed leaving Ling's body will forever haunt me because I can't stop thinking about Ling feeling empty inside now that he's gone. Being just a little bit angry at him for letting go of his hand, even if he knows it would've meant going with him. It's just the frustration of filling Greed's emptiness with love right before his death but in consequence, Greed leaving him a deeper, hollower sting in his heart. It's not the need for love but the lack of it, always remembering how it felt inside and knowing it will never be the same again and having to live with it.
#whatever you do don't think about ling still hearing greed's voice and realizing he's not there anymore#ling waiting for an answer to one of his jokes but realizing he didn't say it out loud and he was just waiting for greed to reply to him#hahahahaha i am so normal about them#<- finished fmab the other day and can't stop thinking about it#this blog will end up being 80% op and 20% fmab at this point#fmab#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#greed fma#ling yao#greeling#greedling
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So are you supposed to normally go on about your life when this guy is looking at you like this.
Won't you just drop everything, cover him with a blanket, pat his head while telling him everything is gonna be alright.
#백설공주에게 죽음을#black out#my boy can't even cry anymore#he is just so emotionally drained#GJW normally is as stubborn as a mule but the fact that he doesn't even fight against NSC shows how lost and defeated he feels#This scene and the one few days later are so different#i think about this a lot#and it makes me believe that NSC indeed knows some magic spells#go jeong woo#noh sung cheol#go jun#byun yo han#blackout kdrama#mbc black out#blackout 2024#snow white must die
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One thing I find very interesting, as a learner of German, is Isolde's usage of du when speaking to Kakania. In German, there are three main second person pronouns: du, ihr and Sie. The first two are mainly used in informal and casual settings or when talking to people you're close with (with du being singular and ihr being plural sorta similar to english's y'all) while Sie is used in more formal situations (or situations which require some form of formality) such as talking to strangers, customer service or when you're talking to a doctor/patient. Kakania abides by this and uses Sie when talking to Isolde (such as in her speech at the end of chapter 6) but interestingly, Isolde doesn't reciprocate this and instead uses du when conversing with Kakania in German.
This is super fascinating to me because it implies different levels of closeness within their relationship. Isolde's usage of du implies a level of closeness and intimacy to Kakania as Isolde herself saw Kakania as a close friend (most likely due to the fact that Kakania was once of the few people in Vienna who actually sympathized with her and saw her as a human being) but Kakania's siezen suggests a certain level of estrangement or distance between her and Isolde. Of course. this could just be her maintaining her professionalism as doctors normally use Sie when talking to patients but with how things turned out after chapters 6 and 7, I'd like to think this goes deeper than just formality standards.
#n talks about shit#reverse 1999#isolde#kakania#this is especially depressing when you consider the fact that kakania most likely can't work as a psychiatrist anymore#due to her severe trauma and somewhat outdated treatment methods#in a normal situation she most likely wouldn't have to use Sie with Isolde anymore#but ironically the very same events which lead to that were ones that grew the distance between her and isolde even further#estranging them permanently#leading them unable to interact with each other ever again out of a need for personal safety#the siezen will thus always remain a constant for kakania just like her estrangement with isolde#perhaps one day she'll be able to duzen isolde but fate (bluepoch) is a cruel mistress#if there are any other german r99 speakers then do correct me if i'm wrong because my german isn't that good#i also apologize for any mischaracterization i may have made in this post or the tags#so if there are any isokania brainrot havers out there then feel free to correct me because it's been a while since i've seen chapter 6#might delete idk
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their love story hurts me so bad. if someone asks me "damn, who hurts you?" it's them. they hurt me. they are so "loving you is a losing game" coded. the way no matter what path she took, she will always be on the path that is against him. and lovers who HAD to be on the opposite side in any kind of event could actually kill me on the spot. I'm not even attempting to joke around rn. the way their nature is opposed to each other but they were still drawn by each other. LIKE HE KNEW WHO SHE WAS AND STILL PATIENTLY WAITING FOR HER TO COME CLEAN WITH IT HERSELF. HE DIDN'T FORCE HER LIKE HE DID WITH OTHERS. AND THE WAY THEY'RE NOT EVEN ENEMIES, THEIR NATURE FORCED THEM TO BE ONE. SOMEONE TAKE THEM AWAY FROM ME, I CAN'T BREATH WHEN I'M READING THEIR SCENES. I JUST CAN'T
#romance club#interactive game#romance club game#rc song of the crimson nile#rc sotcn#rc amen#rc evthys#i actually hate them#for making my miserable life ten times more miserable#atp i don't have the strength to read anything about them anymore#i have lost the purpose to live#what's the point if I can't see a happy ending for them#i swear on the final chapter of sotcn I'm gonna genuinely cry at their ending#they're all i can think about nowadays honestly#I'm actually sick of them#I'm THIS 🤏🏽 close to take a bath with my toaster#wanna test the theory if it's true or not#normalizing by blaming all of my life problems to hataroth
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