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9ofspades · 6 months ago

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It’s disability pride month, and if you are disabled in the U.S. from Long Covid I want you to know that you’re not alone, and you’re valid in whatever you feel. Whether that’s sorrow at your new problems or rage at society for failing you, you are valid, and it is truly messed up that society is continuing to fail you.

#disability #trauma #chronic illness #long COVID #COVID #Tbh I’m not sure if I have long covid or not but I keep swinging between despair and fury #The brain fog SUCKS #I might have always had it but it feels especially bad now?#And I have all kinds of respiratory problems that got exacerbated #And possibly chronic fatigue but it’s unclear #And I’m one of the lucky ones!!!#I can still exercise without needing three days of bed rest after!#I was so RELIEVED when it turned out I could do that #I did like. Three weeks of breathing rehab to make sure #Not sure if it helped but now I’m not getting post-exertional backlash nearly as much anymore #And I didn’t lose my sense of smell or get my taste messed up #And I don’t need a respirator just an inhaler and some allergy meds and to take frequent breaks #And like. I know so many people have it worse #And that suuuuucks #But EVEN THIS makes me want to scream and rail half the time #Update as of Sept 2024 — this is no longer true #Got Covid again and now I can’t exercise without being too tired to move for three days #🙃#Probably will die mad about this actually #I had SUCH a good time working out one night #But then the next morning #Nope #head-to-toe muscle pain #couldn’t do any chores #Couldn’t even feed myself

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stinkypeanutbutter · 9 months ago

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Mike banner . Again . Pls help me

#personally I want Emma 😻#Whoahhah who said that #Wasn’t me guys 😹😹#I’m not drawing him anymore I can’t take this pain of looking at his crusty face #Unless someone pays me in nitro #Fair trade I swear #🤯#I’m blue daba dee daba die daba dee daba die daba dee daba die #school bus graveyard #sbg #sbg (webtoon)#school bus graveyard webtoon #mike banner

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talulahsjusthere · 2 months ago

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I wish John hadn’t been shot. I wish George hadn’t died from cancer. I wish all four of them had gotten mentally better and learned to love themselves as they were. I wish all four of them worked out there issues with each other and it made their friendships stronger in the process. I wish John had accepted his sexuality and started making really campy gay music. I wish all four of them could wear suits to an autism diagnosis together. I wish they had a reunion concert that ended in George playing one of his songs and John and Paul passionately making out in the back. I wish John and Paul got to love each other like they always wanted and then get married and have honeymoon in Paris. I wish all four of them grew to be funny old men and say out of pocket funny shit on twitter. I wish all four of them got to grow old together. I wish all four of them were still alive.

#john lennon #paul mccartney #the beatles #mclennon #george harrison #ringo starr #Haha sorry about that #just in a lot of pain wishing half of this band wasn’t dead #I am so depressed #I live in the worst timeline #someone take me away #I can’t do this anymore

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kentjohnson91 · 4 months ago

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Today at the funeral services for Johnny and Matthew Gaudreau, Johnnys wife Meredith announced that John was not just leaving behind an almost 2 year old daughter and a 6 month old son, but also an unborn child. This is devastating. Matthew’s wife is also currently pregnant💔

#nhl #nhl news #columbus blue jackets #johnny gaudreau #rip johnny gaudreau #i can’t take it anymore #this is horrible #i can’t imagine the pain she is continuously experiencing right now #i pray for her and all 3 of johnnys babies❤️

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blueheartedwolf · 6 months ago

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Y’all I’m completely flat broke and need cat litter, cat food, and groceries. My phone bill is due on the 7th. I had to call out of work yesterday because of nerve pain and now I only work two days this week and need to pay rent too. I really can’t do this shit anymore I’ve been trying so hard to get by without help bc I never feel like I deserve it but I can’t take it anymore. My friends and partners can only offer moral support bc we’re all fucking poor.

I really don’t know what to say. I know so many of us are struggling and it makes me so mad that ANYONE has to beg online or out on the street just to survive. I’m so angry all the time that community aid is seen as a last resort. It should be easy to find help and support in the people around you and it’s not and it’s bullshit. So few people care.

I don’t have a dollar amount I’m asking for, the number would be so high and I don’t care if I get all I need I just need SOMETHING. Anything to feed myself and take care of my cat.

Please.

#disability #mutual aid #please reblog #please fucking reblog I’m begging you #gfm #donate #donations needed #if you want proof of my bank balance or something you can message me I guess whatever it takes to get someone to care #and not think I’m just asking bc I want to #I don’t fucking want to #I want to kill myself honestly I’ve been struggling for years #and I’m out of pain meds and I just want to cry and never stop #came out of my room to find my roommate didn’t lock the panty and the their cats ripped into and destroyed the loaf of bread I bought #now I just have canned tuna and can’t even make a sandwich anymore and I’ve just been sobbing #I hate this

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juvinadelgreko · 19 days ago

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#i just #these songs are so them #for mickey it’s:#‘i can’t hide from you like i hide from myself’#‘i remember who i am when i’m with you’#‘your love is tough your love is tried and true blue’#‘you’ve never done me wrong except for that one time that we don’t talk about because it doesn’t matter anymore’#for ian it’s:#‘i don’t know why i am the way i am not strong enough to be your man’#‘always an angel never a god’#because!! ian feels like he’s let mickey down so many times #but mickey always comes back because he loves ian!! and he forgives him!!#and ian’s scared that he’ll let mickey down again or that his bipolar will get bad again #but that’s a risk mickey’s willing to take bc he loves ian!!b #because ian is the only one who’s ever really seen him and loved him for who he is!!#and their love is better and stronger because of everything they had to go through #they can look back in pain and embrace healing at the same time!#gallavich #but i digress!!!

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acutabovetherest · 13 days ago

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I wish my family and friends understood the deep pain I feel and have felt for most of my life.

How badly one has to hurt to attempt suicide. And to still want to die.

I think they would have more compassion and would guilt trip me less.

I wish they would let me go but I understand why they can’t. I couldn’t for my loved ones who wanted to die. It’s because of how much they love me.

I feel so misunderstood and hurt when they chastise me or guilt me for attempting.

I’m sorry loves. I cannot stay. I must carry on with my plan to end my suffering. I do this for me. I plan to die in 2025.

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seventh-district · 8 days ago

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#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw negative #cw health issues #‘You’re such a heartless and hateful person.’ well have you ever considered that i’m not really a hateful person and i just hate You #like. call me whatever you want to i guess. im definitely selfish and probably heartless but hateful? idk abt that.#i only feel like i hate people that have given me good fucking reason to. sorry i dont have an infinite supply of tolerance & forgiveness??#but im a wee bit fucking stressed so you’ll have to forgive me for being a bitch. well no one Has to forgive me. do whatever you want #‘That 10-day old pasta salad is making me feel sick.’ MF that was made TODAY. IT’S FRESH AND THERE’S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT #if you feel sick how about you look down at the fifteen empty beer cans on the floor next to you and ask them what they think did it #dumbass. whatever man i have bigger problems than your self-induced tummy ache #i feel sick too but i know it’s my fault so i’m not bitching about it. i gave you fresh food while I ate the old stuff to keep from wasting #food. because you act like you’re fucking allergic to leftovers. and yeah it had probably gone off and that’s why I feel sick #but what you ate tonight was fresh as could be so we’re sick for two Very different reasons. and i know how to admit when it’s my fault #everything is my fault. my teeth and gums hurt and that’s My fault for not taking care of them. apparently 3 root canals wasn’t enough #for me to learn my goddamn lesson. i never do. so i’ll have to spend more money on that soon and thats My fault. the dog’s teeth need #cleaning too and that’ll come out of my pocket and i guess that’s My fault for not taking care of him either #i think i have another goddamn UTI and that’s definitely My fault so another $100 trip to urgent care it is i guess!#my Random Nerve Pain has moved to my hands so i can’t use them too much or it fucking hurts and i guess that’s my fault???#my neck pain is back and thats my fault for not clearing my bed off enough to sleep in a comfortable position #my eye keeps twitching and i guess that’s my fault too. i don’t know anymore i just wanna throw in the towel man im so tired #god the UTI tests i wasted money on are arriving tomorrow and if they’re packed in a way that shows what’s inside then i’ll have to explain #That to whoever brings in the mail. great great something else to worry about all night #the living room floor is caving in so now there’s Two room’s floors that need fixing so that’s super fucking fun! 😃#i need to talk to my bank and i need to talk to a tax professional and i need to learn to drive and i need to get an autism diagnosis #well i don’t Need the last one but i want it so bad. but im scared. that i’ll go to all this trouble and they’ll say i don’t qualify #and god it’s NYE now. Besties i’m not gonna get that NMbD NYE fic ready in time. i just can’t make myself write these days. i’m sorry.#i doubt anyone is gonna be That disappointed but I Am. in myself. 3 fucking years now i’ve failed to finish it. w h y. i Want to write but #there’s just too much on me rn. but when is there Not. sigh. idk what i’m gonna do but something needs to change. in my life. soon.

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tohrmew-nyadachi · 11 months ago

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he is so cute cutie patootie silly gooseu poo

#tohru adachi #I can’t take this pain and suffering anymore #every time I see him I am in agony #he is so stupid looking why #stupid ass mother fucker #cries

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loverslantern · 9 months ago

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I don’t think I can even handle my own slow burn. I’m writing this practically begging the characters to do something as if i’m not the one writing them…..

I actually need them to get to it but I have a plan in my head and so we all need to wait, me included.

#supernatural #fanfiction #dean winchester #dean winchester x reader #slow burn #the hunter and the witch update #the hunter and the witch #dean winchester x witch reader #dean winchester being hot as hell #dean winchester x f!reader #dean winchester x you #dean winchester x female!reader #i can’t take the slow burn anymore #i cause my own pain #send help #i need him so bad #i’m foaming at the mouth

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dinosaursgowoof · 7 months ago

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How are you asking me to attend events a year in advance when I don’t even know what my health will be like an hour from now?

#it’s a minimum 3 hour trip on public transport #it will take at least a week to recover for this one day event #yes I love you but I don’t actually like any of you bitches #you never cared but suddenly I’m the bad one looking out for my own health?#no wonder I can’t talk to any of you anymore #and I know it’s going to be a fight if we turn up #not everyone has the money you do to contribute or for travel #chronic disability #chronic illness #chronic pain

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palms-upturned · 8 months ago

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#meg talks #feeling really down and frustrated #ever since i caught covid over the new year ive just been doing so badly #it’s now halfway through may and not only am i having all sorts of weird new pain problems #to the point where i dragged myself to the er yesterday bc my usual meds didn’t do shit for me and i spent seven hours writhing in pain #but also mentally im just. constantly tapped out #before covid i was able to keep up w news and work on research projects and write multiple image descriptions every day and read books #and keep up w friends all while working full time #like even if i was in bed p much whenever i wasn’t at work i could still read and write and carry conversations #now it’s like i can only handle all of these things in small doses before my brain just shuts off #im still keeping up w news and describing what i can and working on my research projects and trying to make connections #but i feel so slow abt everything i do #it’s driving me up the wall #ive been trying for days to get through this one academic paper that’s rlly not even that long #and i just can’t do it. not for long anyway i have to read in small bursts #and then having to take muscle relaxants for these fucking spasms that make me really drowsy and sleep the whole day away…#idk. it might not even be abt covid i might be reading too much into it but it’s just pissing me off. thinking abt how nobody masks anymore #and how every time there’s a covid outbreak i won’t be able to properly protect myself or my brothers from it #bc of this fuckass job #idk im just tired and upset

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valoale · 8 months ago

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Life is too fucking unfair

Just got a message from my friend who told me one of the working dogs I used to train and handle and lived with me for a while was put down today because of health issues

I can’t stop fucking crying

#everyone is fucking dying around me #I hate it #can’t take this anymore I hate everything #everything fucking hurts #I loved that dog more than anything #and my biggest regret is not buying him and giving him a forever home #this is why training dogs that aren’t yours is hard #I just fall in love with every dog #he was the best German shepherd I’ve ever had the pleasure of training #I love you now and forever #wish things would’ve gone differently #but now you aren’t in pain anymore #and that’s the most important thing #cw pet death #vee talks

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quietwingsinthesky · 1 year ago

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thinking about Lucifer learning how much torture Sam can take without flinching, and going 🥰 see, Sam? I helped. I made you stronger.

#I think that this strength of sam should be something Lucifer takes credit for <3 #I think Sam should look like he disagrees but he can’t technically argue. because Lucifer DID fuck up his perception of pain to the point #where he just. can’t be tortured normally anymore. it doesn’t work. no one can match up to Lucifer.#and lucifer being sooooo!! he’s the only one who can really hurt sam :3 #he made it so no one else can hurt him. sam is his too break. lucifer made him too strong for anyone else to touch him.#spn #lucifer spn #sam winchester #samifer

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castleclericz · 8 months ago

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RIGHT PERSON NOT ENOUGH TIME LET ME BEEEEEEEE

#i can’t take it anymore #it causes me too much pain #newtmas #jackieshauna

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wildsaltair · 3 months ago

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watching Gladiator feeling like a wife who’s sighing over her beloved who was put in prison for a crime he didn’t commit. free my husband

#he wasn’t guilty #he didn’t deserve any of it #i would throw myself at the judge’s feet and beg for his life like in a dramatic movie #anything for him 😭#gladiator gives me 1000+ emotional damage every time i watch it #no other movie makes me so happy yet so sad #it just guts me every time #seeing him lose everything and just give up 😭😭#and then be mistreated and abused and mocked and forced into horrible situations #but continuing to be noble and honorable #and doing his duty even when all he wants is to die and be with his family #and when it seems like there’s some hope but then he’s betrayed again 😭😭😭#and his death #the staggering the pained breathing the soft smile when he sees his family waiting for him #I WANT TO DIE I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE #maximus let me love you all the days of my life #let me love and comfort and hold you #i would be so good to him :(#i just love him so endlessly and so painfully #gladiator #text posts #russell crowe #maximus #gladiator 2000 #maximus decimus meridius

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