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It’s disability pride month, and if you are disabled in the U.S. from Long Covid I want you to know that you’re not alone, and you’re valid in whatever you feel. Whether that’s sorrow at your new problems or rage at society for failing you, you are valid, and it is truly messed up that society is continuing to fail you.
#disability#trauma#chronic illness#long COVID#COVID#Tbh I’m not sure if I have long covid or not but I keep swinging between despair and fury#The brain fog SUCKS#I might have always had it but it feels especially bad now?#And I have all kinds of respiratory problems that got exacerbated#And possibly chronic fatigue but it’s unclear#And I’m one of the lucky ones!!!#I can still exercise without needing three days of bed rest after!#I was so RELIEVED when it turned out I could do that#I did like. Three weeks of breathing rehab to make sure#Not sure if it helped but now I’m not getting post-exertional backlash nearly as much anymore#And I didn’t lose my sense of smell or get my taste messed up#And I don’t need a respirator just an inhaler and some allergy meds and to take frequent breaks#And like. I know so many people have it worse#And that suuuuucks#But EVEN THIS makes me want to scream and rail half the time#Update as of Sept 2024 — this is no longer true#Got Covid again and now I can’t exercise without being too tired to move for three days#🙃#Probably will die mad about this actually#I had SUCH a good time working out one night#But then the next morning#Nope#head-to-toe muscle pain#couldn’t do any chores#Couldn’t even feed myself
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Mike banner . Again . Pls help me
#personally I want Emma 😻#Whoahhah who said that#Wasn’t me guys 😹😹#I’m not drawing him anymore I can’t take this pain of looking at his crusty face#Unless someone pays me in nitro#Fair trade I swear#🤯#I’m blue daba dee daba die daba dee daba die daba dee daba die#school bus graveyard#sbg#sbg (webtoon)#school bus graveyard webtoon#mike banner
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I wish John hadn’t been shot. I wish George hadn’t died from cancer. I wish all four of them had gotten mentally better and learned to love themselves as they were. I wish all four of them worked out there issues with each other and it made their friendships stronger in the process. I wish John had accepted his sexuality and started making really campy gay music. I wish all four of them could wear suits to an autism diagnosis together. I wish they had a reunion concert that ended in George playing one of his songs and John and Paul passionately making out in the back. I wish John and Paul got to love each other like they always wanted and then get married and have honeymoon in Paris. I wish all four of them grew to be funny old men and say out of pocket funny shit on twitter. I wish all four of them got to grow old together. I wish all four of them were still alive.
#john lennon#paul mccartney#the beatles#mclennon#george harrison#ringo starr#Haha sorry about that#just in a lot of pain wishing half of this band wasn’t dead#I am so depressed#I live in the worst timeline#someone take me away#I can’t do this anymore
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Today at the funeral services for Johnny and Matthew Gaudreau, Johnnys wife Meredith announced that John was not just leaving behind an almost 2 year old daughter and a 6 month old son, but also an unborn child. This is devastating. Matthew’s wife is also currently pregnant💔
#nhl#nhl news#columbus blue jackets#johnny gaudreau#rip johnny gaudreau#i can’t take it anymore#this is horrible#i can’t imagine the pain she is continuously experiencing right now#i pray for her and all 3 of johnnys babies❤️
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Y’all I’m completely flat broke and need cat litter, cat food, and groceries. My phone bill is due on the 7th. I had to call out of work yesterday because of nerve pain and now I only work two days this week and need to pay rent too. I really can’t do this shit anymore I’ve been trying so hard to get by without help bc I never feel like I deserve it but I can’t take it anymore. My friends and partners can only offer moral support bc we’re all fucking poor.
I really don’t know what to say. I know so many of us are struggling and it makes me so mad that ANYONE has to beg online or out on the street just to survive. I’m so angry all the time that community aid is seen as a last resort. It should be easy to find help and support in the people around you and it’s not and it’s bullshit. So few people care.
I don’t have a dollar amount I’m asking for, the number would be so high and I don’t care if I get all I need I just need SOMETHING. Anything to feed myself and take care of my cat.
Please.
#disability#mutual aid#please reblog#please fucking reblog I’m begging you#gfm#donate#donations needed#if you want proof of my bank balance or something you can message me I guess whatever it takes to get someone to care#and not think I’m just asking bc I want to#I don’t fucking want to#I want to kill myself honestly I’ve been struggling for years#and I’m out of pain meds and I just want to cry and never stop#came out of my room to find my roommate didn’t lock the panty and the their cats ripped into and destroyed the loaf of bread I bought#now I just have canned tuna and can’t even make a sandwich anymore and I’ve just been sobbing#I hate this
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When the dead boy detectives show comes out and they keep it subtile with Edwin like in the Doom Patrol show and the comics just for people to call it queer baiting, I might consider staying away from the fandom entirely.
#dead boy detectives#edwin paine#I don’t need physical proof that someone is queer#the boy is going through something#but when some called good omens queer bait I just have that fear#i can’t do this#I can’t take it anymore#I will still post fanart but turn of notifications probably#I
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he is so cute cutie patootie silly gooseu poo
#tohru adachi#I can’t take this pain and suffering anymore#every time I see him I am in agony#he is so stupid looking why#stupid ass mother fucker#cries
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I don’t think I can even handle my own slow burn. I’m writing this practically begging the characters to do something as if i’m not the one writing them…..
I actually need them to get to it but I have a plan in my head and so we all need to wait, me included.
#supernatural#fanfiction#dean winchester#dean winchester x reader#slow burn#the hunter and the witch update#the hunter and the witch#dean winchester x witch reader#dean winchester being hot as hell#dean winchester x f!reader#dean winchester x you#dean winchester x female!reader#i can’t take the slow burn anymore#i cause my own pain#send help#i need him so bad#i’m foaming at the mouth
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How are you asking me to attend events a year in advance when I don’t even know what my health will be like an hour from now?
#it’s a minimum 3 hour trip on public transport#it will take at least a week to recover for this one day event#yes I love you but I don’t actually like any of you bitches#you never cared but suddenly I’m the bad one looking out for my own health?#no wonder I can’t talk to any of you anymore#and I know it’s going to be a fight if we turn up#not everyone has the money you do to contribute or for travel#chronic disability#chronic illness#chronic pain
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#meg talks#feeling really down and frustrated#ever since i caught covid over the new year ive just been doing so badly#it’s now halfway through may and not only am i having all sorts of weird new pain problems#to the point where i dragged myself to the er yesterday bc my usual meds didn’t do shit for me and i spent seven hours writhing in pain#but also mentally im just. constantly tapped out#before covid i was able to keep up w news and work on research projects and write multiple image descriptions every day and read books#and keep up w friends all while working full time#like even if i was in bed p much whenever i wasn’t at work i could still read and write and carry conversations#now it’s like i can only handle all of these things in small doses before my brain just shuts off#im still keeping up w news and describing what i can and working on my research projects and trying to make connections#but i feel so slow abt everything i do#it’s driving me up the wall#ive been trying for days to get through this one academic paper that’s rlly not even that long#and i just can’t do it. not for long anyway i have to read in small bursts#and then having to take muscle relaxants for these fucking spasms that make me really drowsy and sleep the whole day away…#idk. it might not even be abt covid i might be reading too much into it but it’s just pissing me off. thinking abt how nobody masks anymore#and how every time there’s a covid outbreak i won’t be able to properly protect myself or my brothers from it#bc of this fuckass job#idk im just tired and upset
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Life is too fucking unfair
Just got a message from my friend who told me one of the working dogs I used to train and handle and lived with me for a while was put down today because of health issues
I can’t stop fucking crying
#everyone is fucking dying around me#I hate it#can’t take this anymore I hate everything#everything fucking hurts#I loved that dog more than anything#and my biggest regret is not buying him and giving him a forever home#this is why training dogs that aren’t yours is hard#I just fall in love with every dog#he was the best German shepherd I’ve ever had the pleasure of training#I love you now and forever#wish things would’ve gone differently#but now you aren’t in pain anymore#and that’s the most important thing#cw pet death#vee talks
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RIGHT PERSON NOT ENOUGH TIME LET ME BEEEEEEEE
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watching Gladiator feeling like a wife who’s sighing over her beloved who was put in prison for a crime he didn’t commit. free my husband
#he wasn’t guilty#he didn’t deserve any of it#i would throw myself at the judge’s feet and beg for his life like in a dramatic movie#anything for him 😭#gladiator gives me 1000+ emotional damage every time i watch it#no other movie makes me so happy yet so sad#it just guts me every time#seeing him lose everything and just give up 😭😭#and then be mistreated and abused and mocked and forced into horrible situations#but continuing to be noble and honorable#and doing his duty even when all he wants is to die and be with his family#and when it seems like there’s some hope but then he’s betrayed again 😭😭😭#and his death#the staggering the pained breathing the soft smile when he sees his family waiting for him#I WANT TO DIE I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE#maximus let me love you all the days of my life#let me love and comfort and hold you#i would be so good to him :(#i just love him so endlessly and so painfully#gladiator#text posts#russell crowe#maximus#gladiator 2000#maximus decimus meridius
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oh, Endometriosis? that bitch is no sis of mine, (disowns my reproductive system)
#I almost threwd up lol I’m in so much pain i have to laugh about it#I’m gonna splash out on a KFC party bucket and Prosecco rn bc I can’t even take anymore painkillers!! I’m going insane!#I can only self medicate on chicken and wine now there are no other options!!!#like I’m asking fr WHY does this shit need to spread pain to your LEGS?? Your BACK? your SHOULDERS??#like I have chronic pain already!! this is salt in a festering wound!!#god must hate me so much for being as cool as I am#it’s the only reason I would be handicapped so severely in life#but I’ll get that son of a bitch one day
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A Christmas-gathering-centered nightmare, a hospital-centered nightmare, and an un-fightable overwhelming fatigue despite being in imminent danger nightmare all in one night. Time to watch documentaries and give myself exactly one (1) task for the day (laundry) because it’s gonna take like 10 hours to feel like a person again
#luckily my injury from earlier in the week is still painful but not so much I can’t sit or walk again#if I feel physically better enough later it’ll be nice to put earplugs in and read#anyway I’m proud of myself for taking 1% tiny steps one at a time to cover the basics#(hydration a tiny bit of food and minimum pt exercises for pain control and remembering my meds)#because 1% better at a time over the course of the day adds up#and Im already like 3% improved#also our oldest neighbor back home died last night and I’m sad about that#glad he’s not suffering anymore but I wish I’d gotten to talk over the fence one last time like he always did for hours with us#shh katie
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thinking about Lucifer learning how much torture Sam can take without flinching, and going 🥰 see, Sam? I helped. I made you stronger.
#I think that this strength of sam should be something Lucifer takes credit for <3#I think Sam should look like he disagrees but he can’t technically argue. because Lucifer DID fuck up his perception of pain to the point#where he just. can’t be tortured normally anymore. it doesn’t work. no one can match up to Lucifer.#and lucifer being sooooo!! he’s the only one who can really hurt sam :3#he made it so no one else can hurt him. sam is his too break. lucifer made him too strong for anyone else to touch him.#spn#lucifer spn#sam winchester#samifer
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