#i can’t deal with it anymore

[devils-reign]

back in the fucking needing him real bad headspace again. what’s new.

[fearless-seagull]

Alecto! Alecto! Alecto!

[criminalmindsmoodrn]

If we can’t have Jemily in CME18 at least please let Emily be canonically queer…for the love of all let pookie kiss a beautiful woman

[caitlynmeow]

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[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

mmmmmMMMMMMM

[estrellami-1]

If I Should Stay

Part 1 | . . . | Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9

After pizza—and after El wakes up and eats her own pizza—everyone gathers around again to listen to Steve and Robin. “So I think by now we’ve proven we’re from the future,” Steve says. “We’re here, four years in the past, because a lot of bad things happen, and if we can, we’d like to stop those things from happening. The big one, and really the recurring problem, is a guy named Henry Creel who essentially took control of an alternate plane of existence we call the Upside Down.” He motions El over beside him, and she goes gladly, tucking her feet up onto the couch as she leans into his side, trusting him to hold her up. He does, sliding a protective arm around her shoulders as he says, “He’s also One.”

He watches as one by one the lightbulbs come on. “Oh, shit,” Dustin whispers, and Steve doesn’t even call him on it, just nods.

“Beyond Henry, though, there are creatures in the Upside Down that can and will kill you.” He rolls his eyes fondly at the boys. “For some inexplicable reason, you came up the names, so they’re called demogorgons, demodogs, and demobats. Demogorgons are what took Barb and Will, but they both got away. That doesn’t mean they’re safe, though. Like El said earlier, Barb was safe in the moment, but it’s still a very dangerous place. There are vines everywhere that are connected to a hive mind. You step on one, and Henry knows you’re there.”

He continues telling the story, Robin interrupting when there’s a detail he misses. It’s silent when they finish. Finally, El speaks up. “So, it is… my fault?”

“No, El,” Steve says softly. “None of this is your fault. Things out of your control happened that made you who you are. Those same things created all of this.”

El frowns. “So I am bad? Like One? Like the Upside Down?”

“No,” Mike says sharply. “You’re good, El.”

“He’s right,” Steve murmurs. “You made yourself good.” He pokes her arm teasingly, and she smiles, leaning back into him.

Steve looks around, catches Nancy’s eye, and sighs. “Nance? A word?”

“Steve?” Robin asks.

He shakes his head. “I’ll yell if I need you,” he promises, rubbing her head as he passes. She squawks and bats his hand away.

“Asshole,” she mutters, and he laughs as he disappears down the hallway, Nancy in tow.

They end up in a room Steve thinks was meant to be a study. “You have questions.”

“Understatement of the century. There’s just one that’s really bugging me, though.”

“Us?”

“Yeah.”

Steve sighs and leans against the wall. “On Halloween, Tina throws a party. We didn’t know what we do now, about the Upside Down, and you were still looking for her. I was an asshole, self-centered and unhelpful.” He blows out a breath, crosses his arms, and looks away. “You got drunk, called me, and my love for you, bullshit. Left. I tried to talk to you the next day at school about it and you couldn’t say you loved me. I was still hopeful. I’m a romantic at heart, y’know? I thought maybe if I could be everything you needed, if I changed enough, if, if, if…” he shakes his head. “So we stayed together. I tried. You slept with Jonathan Byers, then broke up with me.”

Nancy looks horrified. “Steve-”

He shakes his head. “I made my peace with it. And maybe this makes me an asshole, I dunno, but Nance, I can’t go back. We’re okay, we’re friends, but I can’t pretend I still have feelings for you. I’m sorry, but we both know I was just convenient for you.”

Nancy takes a breath. “So that’s it?”

Steve shrugs helplessly. “I don’t know what you want me to do. I tried and got my heart broken for it. I moved on, found someone I think I can really be happy with, without changing who I am. And for the record? It gets rocky for a second, but I think you and Byers are it, too.” He smirks. “Plus Mike likes him better than me.”

Nancy rolls her eyes. “Oh, well, if Mike likes him better…” they both laugh, and she looks at him. “No more feelings?”

He shakes his head. “We make much better friends.”

Nancy grins lopsidedly. “And Robin?”

Steve snorts. “Purely platonic, I promise. Neither of us want anything else with each other.”

Nancy looks at him then. Studies him. “You’ve been through some shit,” she decides. “But you look happy.”

He smiles. “I am, for the most part. I know who I am.”

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[gayestcowboy]

one of the reasons i hate generative AI is that i have a chronic injury that makes me unable to write by hand for longer than a few sentences and therefore i need a keyboard in order to write essays for classes, and i’m a bit worried that professors won’t allow me to type essays as a result of potential AI use, even though i have a perfectly valid medical reason to need a keyboard. i’ve seen a few posts online saying that the only way to prevent students from relying on AI is to make them write by hand, and while i understand the sentiment and don’t even necessarily disagree with the general point, the matter of accessibility still needs to be addressed somehow, and it’s just a bit frustrating on a personal level as someone who has had to fight with teachers and professors in order for my needs to be met even before the era of chatgpt

[hilsonamore]

i’d forgotten how hot house is in season 1 dear LORD, i’m having wild thoughts

[gojoest]

i think satoru can make it through another day so long he keeps believing, wholeheartedly, that he’s the only man you’ve ever been with. keeps his sanity in check so you just play along with it

[iheartdigimon]

Rewatching Digimon instead of dealing with the massive mental breakdown your about to have>>>>>>>

[ebechnasheim]

I’m in tears | source

[kingkatsuki]

I wrote something about this before but just thinking about inviting Bakugou in for coffee after your third date and he says no because it’s like 11pm and who the fuck is drinking coffee at this hour and then he finds out from Sero what “coffee” actually is and he’s furious with himself.

[pshawtyy]

i’m bout to quit my job 😂😂😂😂😂😂

[middlechildkin]

F!Leo and Present Leo interactions melt my heart like they’re such healing inner child moments

It hurts so much just look

[Excerpts from MNMC, OMO, TAE, DMD would’ve reread WMAS if it wasn’t suspended]

But like these young Leos have such complicated opinions on their older selves. Their relationships are so fragile and so difficult to comprehend, like it’s them. These teenagers are literally looking at a possible future version of themselves, who had to witness the fall of all their loved ones and the destruction of what they used to call home—everything that they know. They’re face to face with a version of themselves that had to go through a war that they believe was their fault because of their mistakes. Future Leos are the literal embodiment of “what if” for Present Leos.

And seeing the different ways F!Leo authors portray that relationship is so interesting. Like the common theme is resentment in the F!Leos seeing their younger selves but also guilt because that’s literally just a kid.

F!Leos are face to face with a reflection of themselves at that age and have the chance to guide P!Leo in the direction opposite of theirs. They can’t help but see the one who “started it all” but at the same time it’s not them. F!Leos have a twenty-or-so year age gap between P!Leo but they didn’t have the chance to grow as they were too focused on an alien apocalyptic war that decimated everything everywhere. They can’t necessarily help the guilt and resentment they feel while looking at the kid version of themselves that is still a kid that doesn’t quite know better than they do, but achieved what they couldn’t.

Hopefully this makes sense and thanks for listening to my Tedtalk. I’m just really in a F!Leo fic mood and I’m hurting from thinking about it so much these past few hours

Anyways… who’s the most peepaw of the bunch?

I’m thinking an F!Leo who be so dad he’s standing behind the couch watching TV with the kids but doesn’t sit. So dad the kids have all accidentally called F!Leo “Dad” at least once. This F!Leo is so dad he’s passed out on the couch after a hard day’s work claiming to have been awake since 5 AM but knocked out at 2 PM. He’s so Dad he’s sitting on the kids pretending they’re not there just to hear them laugh or smack his shell. So Dad he’s playing catch on the front lawn.

[moghedien]

Christians who think that studying = memorizing something without understanding history really hate the “yeah we actually know that the book of revelations was about the Roman Empire and 666 literally translates to Nero. If you put it all in its historical context it’s pretty obviously a revenge fantasy and not an end times prophecy” vibe I bring

[shima-draws]

What the FUCK Furina’s backstory is so fucking sad??? The absolute TORTURE she’s been through. Shit dude,