#i can only draw women and older men my bad.

[crab-milk]

some of my favorite character designs from castlevania nocturne!

[xochimillilili]

🍀🌼Intro Post🌾🍀

Hiiii !!! Heloooo hi welcome to my blog <3 An everything blog so feel free to head out if only nsft is your thing =^ㅅ^=

The name's Xochimilli, feel free to just call me Xochi, sir or kitty is also okay too~!

I'm literally just fucking queer :3 Genderqueer pupkittybun god thing that's 21 years old, vers switch with a topdom lean !!! He / It pronouns only yes n just capitalized :3

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DNI: Minors + TERFS + raceplay + ED blogs dni feederism + detrans blogs can look but do not fucking touch my photos :T I can and will block anyone I see fit !!!

🌼 Kinks + Limits + more under cut 🌼

Haven't made this pretty yet shhh lmao ^_^

🍀Kinks

Bold=fave 🌼 *=only recieving

Petplay • Impact play • Soft Degradation + Praise • Bondage • Piss/Omo • Mommy/Daddy • Somno • Breeding • Pregnancy • Edging + Cum Denial • Free Use • Sub/Dom • Fauxcest • Light Knifeplay • CNC • Intox • Medical play • Exhibitionism • Voyeurism • Light Humiliation • Temperature play • Biting/Marking • Primal • Royalty play • *Lactation/Milking • Musk/scent • Blood • Cockwarming • Wax/Candle play • Stalking • Kidnapping • Objectum • Pain play/Physical Injury • Possesiveness • *Forcemasc • Monsterfucking • Gore (will not post about it) • Cannibalism (will not post about it)

🌾Limits

Please do not refer to me as prince, mistress, ma'am, miss, or mommy !!!

I either don't enjoy these personally or can't do/write for them even for fun lol !!! I will have some of these tags blocked for my own happiness <3

• Scat • Inflation • Detrans/Misgendering • Raceplay • Brat taming • Vomit • Beast • Cheating • Older men/ younger women (literally fuck off if you try to push this on me I have the tag blocked for reasons >:/ • AB/DL • Hypno • Sissy • Weight gain/Loss + Feederism • Cis daddy doms in my fucking dms >:[ dude I'm not a girl to you fuck off

Um. Kinda on the maybe side with ageplay and bratting !!!

🌼Subby Xochi shit

For funsies !!! I accept teasing for me being subby only in the form of anon asks ^_^ Bold=fave !!!

Kinks

Terms I use

Petplay (kitty/bunny), incredibly soft degradation, praise, piss, omo, somno, breeding, pregnancy, exhibitionism, edging/cum denial, musk/scent, humiliation, CNC, forced anal, free use, alcohol intox, biting/marking, royalty play, laction/milking, cockwarming, pain play, stalking, possesiveness, forcemasc, mommy, fauxcest

Anatomy: Chest can called chest, tits, boobs, I got a cunt, can also call it pussy, also got a clit, tdick, cock ^_^ the whole area can be referred to as princess parts or kitty parts !!

Petnames: I'm cool with kitty, bun(ny), pet, sweetie, cutie, baby, love, slut, bitch, fucktoy, cumdump, cumslut, princess, (little) boy, basically pretty much anything goes :3

Also 5 foot 1, or 157 cm if that matters to you somehow !!!

◇ More: (aka xochi doesn't stfu<3)

I am literally just queer, in gender and sexuality, I am just a queer fuck !!!! I am demiromantic though,, , but still !!! Queer lol My gender is just I am God, because I fucking am God, angel mixed in all of it too !!!

◇Xochi is a real person I am not horny all the time lmao

A part time English teacher and graphic design student ^_^ i am trying to create a good future for myself and create the life I want <3

Cool fucking sandwich with mental illnesses n disorders inside :3 with a lil (big) sprinkle of chronic pain <3 Feel free to ask how my progress with therapy is going !!!

I like stuff apart from masturbating and being horny~ I really love drawing, Sky: Children of the Light (oooOooO you wan be daily light friends with me sooo bad <3), Sanrio (My Melody my beloved ♡), Percy Jackson, Artemis Fowl, n Pretty Cure.

I like plushies and cooking to name a few things I like, and really like most types of music, so don't be afraid to just talk about my interests! I'm not scary I promise :]

I really really like learning and reading about stuff !! Feel free to just dump a ramble in my dms if you'd like ^_^

Yayyy yippee congrats for getting through this long ass thing !!! Star for you~ ☆

[everybodyloveshippos]

Children of Malice

Vierna, Maya, Briza Drizzt, Nalfein, Dinin

redraw/redesign of the Do'Urden family (probably will draw Malice, Zak and Rizzen next)

design notes/headcanons under the cut

i usually just have thoughts about the character as im designing so for a few things i was like 'oh thats a thought' also yes i know children of malice is a CR thing too haha

-i wasnt originally gonna draw 'lolths embrace' since these are just my own designs not visual dictionary but like....facial markings are really cool and so i ended up looking up various spider markings (i only used those specific realworld spider designs for dinin, who i also gave darker marking as opposed to lighter) and briza

-i also prefer the idea that its not actually anything to do with lolth, its just a genetic marking that some have and some don't. also the proximity to magic/faezress theory (?) was cool so there's not a huge meaning here; though i guess im guilty bcus I didnt give them to drizzt or vierna

-maybe zak doesnt have them and neither do his kids which sorta spurs on the heretic theory when its actually just a genetic thing that has no actual bearing on lolth's favour

-the women wear more gold and the men more silver, however the men can wear gold; they just have to be wary with standing out more than their sisters. any given day could be too much and cause for a beating

-nalfein likes jewelry and decorations/makeup and is more flashy when he's away at sorcere. his ears are marked up from training with/lessons from zak, who frequently would smack his ears when he was displeased with him. they blend in with lolth's embrace and he will cover them with makeup or a glamour on occasion. i just got the sense he was somewhat insecure given how he kept challenging zak and was written off by his family as mediocre. i think he liked being at sorcere more than at the house

-drizzt takes out his braids whenever he can. he likes his hair loose

-so does dinin. i think a lot of his appearance is meant to attract attention and establish his individuality

-i've always given vierna bangs and a ponytail BUT i love her braids in the comic so I gave her those too. her hair is unruly, like drizzts. she has a couple visible scars as opposed to her sisters because she trained more with zak. he felt bad about it but a bit relived when she didnt make a big deal out of getting a bit marked up. malice was angry

-maya has markings on her ears, so she doesnt pierce them. she wears makeup but forgets its there, and sleeps in it and wipes it off by accident. since her hair is shorter she decorates with little spider gold clips

-i will die on the headpiece hill. og drizzt oldman swag

-compared to my older art of them (first fanart of the series! i knew i was in when i drew all the siblings lol) i think i changed nalfein most to be less ...square....i hit him w a yassification beam and gave him eyebrows

[radkindoffeminist]

I am 13 years old. I have boobs bigger than any other girl in my year and I stopped growing in height a year ago. People tell me I could pass for 16-18 easily. Girls ask what size I am. Boys mock me for having tits. Men hit on me. Most people think I am a lot older than I actually am. I am confused by everything.

I am 14 years old. I begin turning to online chatrooms and camsex for attention because I am so lonely and horny. I don't speak about them to anyone in my life because it's never spoken about. Women and girls don't have sexual desires. I start speaking to a guy, Glenn. He's 28-years-old and knows how old I am. I speak to him for years and he's the first guy I camsex with. He speaks to me like a person and not a child and I love him for that. One day, he doesn't respond and I never hear from him again, but spend weeks hoping that I will see another message from him (he had a habit of disappearing for weeks only to come back). He doesn't message again. My heart is broken.

I am 15 years old, just about. I continue using these online chatrooms because I am such a lonely teenager and need some sort of attention and this is the only place I can find it. I meet a guy, David, who I ask to be my boyfriend. He was 21 years old. We speak every day for a month and have camsex all the time. He is sweet and mature and has his own car! Our plans to meet fall through and then he suddenly stops talking to me one day. Two months after that day, he messaged me again. His grandmother died so he couldn't deal with life. I feel empathic towards him but feel forced to take him back. When I realise that he won't take responsibility for the fact that cutting me off for months hurt me because he says that he was hurt, I break up with him. He insists on staying friends. I agree because I still feel bad for him.

I am 16 years old. I start college and I'm still speaking to my ex David, but then I see how possessive he is of me. He wants to meet up with me but will only do so on his terms, when he can kiss me all he wants because he still sees me as his. I try and speak to him about the guys at my college and he gets jealous. I stop speaking to him. I begin to realise just how toxic him and these chatrooms and camsex all is. I make a vow to stop it for my mental health, but it is hard to stop something when what draws you there is the fact that you're incredibly lonely.

I am 17 years old. It has been three years since I first opened a chatroom and had camsex and I actively try to stop. I have spoken to dozens, if not hundreds, of men by this point and they are all the same: they want to use me and will put on a little play to ensure they can get me. Some are just nice and upfront with me, using me and then never speaking to me again. Some put on a show, pretending that they like/love me so I become wrapped around their finger. Some are kind and caring, but then threaten me when they realise that they won't get what they want. Too many of them are angry when they hear the word no and if they aren't straight up agressive towards me, then they're making me feel guilty for having boundaries or trying to convince me to break them because they're different from the rest. I've met dozens of men who've claimed that they're different from the rest but they never are. They're all the same. After so many times of promising myself to stop, what really gets me to stop was someone threatening to share naked photos of me he'd taken while we were on a video call on my Facebook. I block him. I realise just how manipulated I'd been over the years and come to accept the fact that most, if not all, of these men had taken photos without my permission and some probably still have them saved somewhere.

I am 18 years old. I have managed to mostly stay away from the chatrooms and camsex, but I ended up speaking to one more guy. He seems so lovely and kind and caring. He is 26-years-old. We live far apart but he promises that he'll come and visit me sometime, even though he dodges the question every time I ask and never seems to be around or available when I'm available. We talked on and off for months. One day I tell him that I've decided to completely give up on camsex. It is too toxic and traumatic for me. I never want to do it again. He stops talking to me. I slowly realised how he was just nice to me because he wanted camsex and nudes. He never loved me but I loved him.

I am 19 years old. I start dating my ex-boyfriend. He is a genuinely wonderful and kind person. He does not disrespect my boundaries regarding camsex and nudes. He used to do a similar thing and understands how toxic and horrible these spaces can be. He's a good person, other than the fact that he mocks my interest in feminism and occasionally breaks some boundaries. We stay together for a year before we end up drifting apart.

I am 20 years old. I have severe depression. For the first time in my life, while I am incredibly drunk, I talk about my ex David and all the camsex stuff. I feel a weight lift off my shoulders knowing that other people agree that I was groomed. I had convinced myself for years that I was not groomed because I asked him out so everything that happened to me was my own fault. But I realise that while I was a stupid teenager, it still wasn't right for men to take advantage of me. I learn to accept that camsex and nudes will always be a point of trauma for me and something that I can never do again. I am so proud of myself for not doing it for two years.

I am 21 years old. I am the same age my ex David was when I dated him. I look at the freshers at my university and I couldn't imagine dating someone who is just out of college (high school). I had realised some years earlier that my relationship was toxic and pedophilic but it took me getting to the same age he was to realise just how horrible it was. I wish I could warn so many other women but I know I have to live with it because I was that teenage girl who dated that older man so I know that every single one thinks that they're the exception to the rule. They think that there's no way they're getting groomed by and older man because they really are that mature. I wish I could tell them but they'll just run into their groomer's arms even more.

I am 22 years old. I am off anti-depressants and glad that my sex drive is back. I decide that now, post COVID, would be the perfect time to have some fun. I sleep around, but the sex is so unsatifying for me most of the time. The women are good but the men spent five minutes inside of me and are then done. Half of them don't do anything to make me cum and never ask if I have. One of them complains that I take ages to cum after spending two minutes rubbing me off (badly). After feeling guilty for cancelling something last minute, I end up hooking up with someone who I shouldn't have. I cannot remember the last time I felt so repulsed by someone's touch. I stop hooking up with people. For the first time in years, I broke my no nudes, no camsex rule. I feel awful about myself.

I am 23 years old. I realise that my hooking-up with people phase was just a copy of my camsex stage. I realise that the men I hooked up with used the exact same tactics as the men I had camsex with: seemed like nice people so they could use me; got angry at me when I said no to them because they felt entitled to whatever they wanted for being nice to me; and thought that they could drop me for weeks at a time because I will always come running back to them. Sometimes I feel so assured in myself because I have spent years learning about all the maipulation tactics that they all use and because I can say no to them when they try to guilt me; sometimes I feel like that same 14 year old girl who ignored every red flag that she ever saw because she was so deperate for love and attention from anyone.

I am 24 years old. I am 2 years younger than my ex Sam was when I dated him and 4 years younger than Glenn was when I started talking to him. I look at the 18-20 year olds in our office and they are basically children to me. If I feel this way now, how much creepier will it feel when I actually hit 26 or 28? I tell people I have no interest in men and for the first time in my life I truly mean it. I stopped dating them years ago but all interest in them is gone now. Sometimes people tell me that I just haven't met the right man yet. I shrug it off but I want to scream at them. I have met dozens of men who have told me that they're different to the rest but they are all the same in the end. The right man doesn't exist.

[random-non-shower-thoughts]

I'm sick of writers constantly complaining about how hard writing is and how they have to suffer for the craft and how you need to struggle to make it good. I find it so annoying

You are not being quirky or funny to beginning authors and writers, all you are doing is telling them that if they didn't bleed their soul on to the page it's shit and they should feel like shit. I fucking listened to this kind of mindset for years and spewed it to those around me. I was pretentious and told others this mindset was the only one and did nothing because I knew my writing was obviously a joke and not worth reading. Because that's what everyone else said. I didn't bleed, I was having fun. You had to crawl through hell and burn the first draft to spit on the ashes. I wasn't ready to publish because I was enjoying walking my little book babies across the page and doing what they wanted. The little characters knew what they wanted, so I had to rewrite and wrangle them in later. The couldn't just run around like the little ones they were.

And I was right, I wasn't ready. Not because of them, but because I kept swallowing the same slop about how writing is hard and that a first draft had to be shit. I rewrote my first baby and it suffered. I tried to fix it like all the others said, and killed that entire series. Four books, hundreds of thousands of words. DEAD. I will likely never touch them despite all I did to tell a compelling story with characters that were fun, interesting, and well-researched to represent multiple groups. I cannot get that spark back because I was convinced it was wrong. I never tasted enough bile by the nice first draft that was good enough for myself. RIGHT NOW. IT WAS ONLY WHAT I COULD DO NOW.

I legit gave up on ever publishing anything and convinced myself to just make it shit so maybe I could crawl out of the mud and build from scratch. It's what my professor did, and she was years into a book she still wasn't happy with. She insisted she knew the way to publish and we should do the same. How she struggles with typing and making notes for the next draft, how the next one would be better after a rewrite. I had to do the same. It was the only way...

I am so thankful that I did some research after that and found myself falling down a rabbit hole. I wasn't really ready to fully accept the mantra from my professor. Her words never sat right with me, and those who listened without question were quite frankly, too snobbish about white men making badly written black women and all showing zero energy around first drafts--good or bad. I had to get a new perspective. The itch to see more called me to find answers. I was off put by the way they worked like it was an obligation, not art.

And I found it with a group of authors far older and more experienced than myself in a writing blog. Not just the creator held a set of different beliefs and the entire community was excited to share entire books worth of advice for free online, including the author posting (physical copies cost money, but despite running a business, the information was so freely given). And I think the three most important pieces of advice I ever got from them and changed my life were:

Quality will always equal quality. There's is almost no other art form that I have seen talk less about this mindset. Compared to say, drawing, where they go in opposite direction and it's one of the most encouraged aspects of it. I do not see this as much in writing, unless you are boasting bad/shit drafts. This is not what this advice is talking about. This was explained to mean everything from first draft to publishing, the entire process. To go all the way with works put out there that might not be what you first imagined but can say was done. Get that stroy done and put out there so you can move on and learn from previous mistakes and lessons.

You can write a clean first draft. I mean this, throw away the idea what you have done in a moment of happiness or in a frenzy is inherently bad or flawed or needs to be scrapped for the second draft because you obviously need to fix it. It was pointed out that this was a new idea and absolutely a bad thing when you had limited resources and time (pulp fiction, times when you had to make your own supplies, you were not allowed access to better technology). Now that we have electronic word processers, it is now a thing to shit on a first draft because you technically can. But why? Why should you have to throw out your level of quality and care because you are putting your first words to the page. It will never be as good as what you write tomorrow, but that's because you have learned and practiced today. And if you start with shit, your entire foundation is. Show you care about what you write, and much like a house, if what you use for the base is good, the entire thing will have a better leg to stand on. Bricks can be replaced, the swamp you placed them on is going to be much harder.

Do not listen to the inner critic until the editing phase. You know that voice telling you something is off when you are using an editor? The one that sounds like a serious adult and points out all that needs fixing? It has its place, but never on the first draft. Embrace the three year old that is playing with the blocks and says why to everything, that embraces the absolute batshit ideas that whisper to you like a infatuated lover. This is all you should listen too (outlines can be a great guide, but who says you have to follow everything?) Treat the true muse, this fun writing voice, no different than a caregiver would with a child/pet playing at the park, and let it run wild. You can patch up bruises and cuts. You cannot take back telling them NO in a fit of anger. The muse is no different.

And honestly, after reading this, my life changed so much. It made me realize that while I am not where I want to be, I loved what I created in the meantime. I wanted to hold the hands of ideas pulling my sleeve. I wanted to go on an adventure and say, "Yeah, let's go! What should we see today? What monster is waiting for us to discover?"

I literally felt a joy and wrote again. Not right away (depression is a loving embrace and the softest of kissers) but I had not felt such love for myself since before I gave up. I found a character I had not let get tainted my poisoned mind and I treated them like they deserved (and realized some things about myself exploring their minds). Such a love was waiting to be found when I learned they wanted something bigger and pulled me into a new bigger world. I didn't need a novel writing month event to create more than 50k. I didn't care, I wanted them to find their loves and pain, victory and lessons learned. They helped me explore viewpoints outside myself (and throw away some hateful things I harbored about trans women and prostitution from my upbringing).

I bled for sure, but only because I needed to develop the callouses on my fingertips and to lick the blood from my lips as I embraced my muse like a irresistible lover. I found myself in the character I birthed from stardust and an elder god's love of the universe. I learned that if I did this again it would be different, but that's okay. I can go back and read my old works with pride and kind words. I loved what helped me reach this far with a smile and something fun I wanted to read.

I found that if I took a month or a day to pound out a chapter, I was okay. I could sit back and know dealing a closet death and pain was fine, I had something to look forward to when the waters calmed and I was going to be okay again. My muse didn't need me to poke and prod, I could let them slumber with me while my flesh was aching and tears stained my face. I could smoke and drink with my characters and they would be happy to laugh at all the stupid and silly things we can think of. I don't need to suffer when the world is so cold and harsh. It is okay to embrace the warmth of a fire I created in myself.

[sakasakiii]

Hi!

I love your work!! Your art is very pretty. Do you have a specific idea of how old everyone is ? Do you lean more towards canon or do you have your own dates in mind ? If don’t wanna a answer it’s ok!

Hope u have a nice day

(Remember to drink water!)

hiiii nonnie!!! thank you for checking in, and im happy u like the stuff i put out!! when it comes to ages, it's difficult to answer sometimes bc of the way professor tolkien's timeline is-- it makes gauging one singular place where most of the cast can be compared something that makes my tired brain go 😵🤧🤕 but i love the prompt youve given! and thus heres my attempt at it

with most of my tolkien stuff, i always try to stick to canon wherever possible emphasis is on try lmao and the topic of ages is one such place. i do make exceptions to the Professor's canon sometimes for a few reasons: 1) i like some of the scrapped ideas in his drafts, or 2) i just prefer other options. with ages, i think the only charas with canon-established ages i deviated from are fingolfin, finrod, turgon, and aredhel. i try to keep cases like these minimal tho, so i hope it doesn't bother anyone too much... 👉👈

anyways i figured just dropping a list of numbers would be kinda boring to look at so heres an illustrated guide to what the ~rough~ ages of the finweans are in my head whenever i write or draw. Y.T. 1495 (the year Finwe dies) is the controlled medium ive used to enable a fair comparison of the Finweans

note: "born Y.T. xxx" means this is the canon date of birth listed on Tolkien Gateway. "est. born [xxx]" means this is a noncanon estimate:

the First Age gets a lot more muddled from there due to the hullaballoo of everything going on, so ill only be including the doriathrim and a few other denizens of nargothrond:

it's mostly the older elves that are more undefined/vague with their ages (i.o.w. others like elwing, earendil, the peredhil twins, and most Men all have set dates of birth), so they're all i'll be doing for now. but it's that vagueness which makes hcing all the more enjoyable, isn't it! plus since we’re on this subject, under the cut are just a few headcanons and musings ive had that i wanted to put somewhere 😙

Finarfin and Earwen were born within months of each other! Finwe and Olwe made a Really Big Deal out of when they found out their wives were pregnant at the same time. As a result, the two were often sent on many playdates with each other to “bolster healthy relations” between the Noldor and the Teleri. It wasn’t an arranged marriage situation, but I like to think they were goofy for each other from the start… Resulting in the two eventually getting married as soon as they came of age, the fastest out of all of Finwe’s kids to do so. 

The reason the Ambarussa are significantly younger than the other Finweans (especially the Feanorians-- there’s a 100 Valian year gap between them and Curufin alone!) is because I imagine they were accidental babies that even Feanor didn’t expect to conceive. too bad morgoth said "its morgin time!" and started Messing Things Up shortly afterwards.....

Anaire was Lalwen's good friend long before she married Fingolfin; they met through Lalwen who wingmanned Fingolfin the whole time. i like think Anaire'd be the best out of all the wives at keeping good, healthy bonds with all the women of her family :DD

luthien's potential 姐姐/big sis dynamic with all the younger doriathrim elves is something i daydream about a lot 😌 but sometimes the fact that she's older than finarfin keeps me up at night

this has been really fun, so thanks again for asking-- annnd yessir, i am chugging water as i write this so you better be doing the same ❤️ have a great start to your week!

[olderthannetfic]

https://www.tumblr.com/olderthannetfic/730572795212398592/what-is-up-with-all-the-trans-men-on-this-hellsite?source=share

As a trans man, I might have some insight into this one. I'm a lot older than the standard uwu sparkle anti, but I was in my mid twenties for the first wave of weirdness about trans boys on Tumblr about a decade ago, so I was just too old for it then, and I saw a lot of guys my age and a little younger get swept up in it.

OTNF rightly points out that young trans men are a particularily vulnerable demographic. This is part of it, but we're also a demographic that doesn't sit comfortably with our identites (gender identities or otherwise) and are told by everyone (on every side) that we are Doing It Wrong, that our existence harms others, and that we must be this specific way to be good people.

I'm sure you've seen the "trans men are better than real cis men" rhetoric. It's meant to be inclusive and to reassure us that we're not bad people just because of our gender, but it also denies us our entire gender identity.

So basically, you've got a bunch of young guys, most of whom were socialised like girls and learned to never be too assertive, many of whom are straight up suffering from dysphoria and stress, being told by people both within and outside of their communities that the are Wrong and Bad and Harmful just for existing. It makes sense that a lot of them would would find a movement based on moral posturing that will accept them if they perform correctly and will use their real name and pronouns. That's what Antis are; they say "use this vocabulary, send hate mail to that person, put these terms in your DNI, don't be caught reading that story", and, unlike other groups that police people's tastes and performance that hard, they're not overtly hostile to trans identities. So you can spout the right rhetoric, use the right tumblr icon, and they will actually accept you (on the surface, for a time, but we're talking about young and desperate people who aren't looking at the long game).

Helping them harass those badwrong horrible NOTP shippers or aces or middle aged women or some random artist who got caught drawing the wrong age gap or whoever is the fashionable target will prove that you aren't a horrible monster for being a man, you're moral and upright and correct.

And yes a lot of it is internalised misandry (that word has a lot of dumb baggage, but how else can I describe a boy who hates himself for being a boy?), or self-loathing born of dysphoria and just plain having to live in a world that's hostile to trans people.

Being an anti is a way out. It's a way to manufacture acceptence. And they're too young and too hurt to realise that that acceptance is as temporary and hostile as the people who accept them only if they pretend to be girls; the antis will turn on them the moment they start acting a little too manly or if they're caught liking the wrong ship.

(I've seen something similar happen to young cis queer guys and trans girls, too, but it isn't as pronounced since being raised as a boy means you probably already learned that standing up for yourself is ok sometimes)

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I'm sure it also doesn't help that tumblr is absolutely full of BL/slash fandom. There's certainly plenty of gender diversity in these spaces, but it's inescapable that the majority of participants are women. So for a young, insecure guy trying to assert that he is a guy, it's easy to fall prey to "Waaaah, I need to reclaim my hobby for me!" gatekeepy nonsense.

Sure, it's going to be turned on nbs even harder than on cis women and will be used to misgender other trans men in the end and misogyny isn't cool anyway, but that's not what your average traumatized young fool is thinking when they first join up. They're thinking "I hurt."

TBH, though, probably the largest component is that all of us—all of us—have a mental image of a default human for a given context. It's rarely a trans man. And so anything a trans man does stands out and is A Thing Trans Men Do.

This is true even if you are trans. It is true even if you are not a transphobic dickhead. Unlearning the 'why girls are bad at math' xkcd strip is extraordinarily hard because recognizing patterns and having mental defaults is just how human brains work.

There are shittons of cis women who become antis, but they're just not notable in the same way.

Are trans men more vulnerable to becoming antis? It's possible, and the reasons you outlined above are likely why. I think it's an interesting question to discuss if we are specifically discussing why the trans men who do become antis do so.

But we don't actually have any hard facts to support that they are more prone to it than anybody else. My guess would be that vulnerable people are more likely to become antis, so any cis woman with a strong source of vulnerability like a shittastic home life is similarly vulnerable to a young trans man with no support network, but who knows.

Maybe only 5% of trans men on tumblr are antis and 50% of cis women. Maybe it's 90% of trans men and 20% of cis women. Maybe it's 1% and 1% and they're just all very loud.

We have no data. We just don't know.

And we will never be able to trust our own brains on this until trans vs. cis is such a nonissue that we don't even notice it.

[forgedroyalseal]

Life a bit to the left:

Chapter Six

The craftmasters had a few more questions to ask Will, and with every answer, Will saw the chance of a future with them slipping further and further away. Surprisingly, he found that he didn’t quite mind. With each wrong answer, each poorly hidden frown, Will was just getting closer to going back to his real life. Soon he’d been walking back to his smelly, disheveled cabin, trying to decide if he had enough food to waste on eating dinner tonight. This morning would be nothing more than a strange way to get a glimpse at how the other half lives. He hadn’t gone into this with any expectations of a new life. He did feel a bit bad for the Baron. He clearly wanted to help Will, for a reason Will hadn’t quite found yet. But the Baron hadn’t realized yesterday Will wasn’t nearly special enough to warrant his generosity. It was a kind thought, but from Will’s perspective, what the man was doing for his wards was more than enough charity. There was no reason to try and force Will into a role he simply wasn’t cut out for.

“I think that’s enough for today. We’ll be in touch Will.” Arald smiled kindly at Will.

“Thank you my lord.” He bowed slightly and headed towards the door.

“Wait,” All eyes turned to Lady Pauline, “we’ve kept you all this time, the least we can do is provide you with some lunch before you go. I’m sure you could find something for him, couldn't you Master Chub?” Lady Pauline asked, a charming smile gracing her face.

Master Chub seemed less than thrilled at the prospect of bringing Will down to his kitchen, but he was apparently incapable of saying no to Lady Pauline, a fact that Will figured was true for the majority of the men in the room. She seemed to draw an admiration from them that Will frankly wasn’t used to seeing women receive.

“I suppose. Come along boy, I haven’t got all day!” The man grumbled at Will, who trailed behind offering a grateful smile to the older woman. She gave him a wink and a knowing nod. Her kindness made Will wish he was clever like the ward girl, Alyss, and could have Lady Pauline as a mentor.

Once the door had closed behind them, Rodney sighed and said, “We should all probably get back to work.”

The craftmasters said their brief goodbyes before filing out. On her way out, Pauline grasped Halt’s arm. “You’ll try to help him, won’t you?”

“There are plenty of boys all over the kingdom who could use a step up in life. We can’t save them all.”

“Perhaps not. But we could save this one.” With a quick kiss to his cheek, she followed after her fellow craft masters, leaving only the Baron and Halt in the study.

“So,” the Baron said as he watched the doors close behind the craftmasters, “what do you think?”

Halt pursed his lips in thought. “He’s young. And desperate.”

“But a hard worker, and observant.” Arald countered.

“I think you are being a little too generous with your credit, Arald. You only interacted with the boy for what, a quarter of an hour? Not nearly long enough for either of us to make an informed decision.”

The Baron rolled his eyes, “Halt, you wouldn’t be here unless you had already decided.”

Halt kept his face neutral but was fighting back a smirk. He wasn't always Arald’s biggest fan, and he knew it cut both ways. On Halt’s end, because of the Baron’s interest in abiding by the rules and his extravagant style, and Arlad’s most likely, because the opposite of both of those points was true of Halt. But he had to admit that the man was right. Halt wasn’t one to make careless decisions. He had been observing Will for quite some time. He had also been watching his father, Daniel, and could only imagine what happened behind closed doors. When the Baron had come to Halt the night before, looking for advice on how to help the young man, he had already been ruminating on a plan for several weeks. Halt had no respect for men who pawned off their responsibilities to their young sons so that they could drown themselves in a tavern. He already knew he was over invested in the boy’s life, but seeing Will’s battered face today sparked an unfamiliar feeling in Halt’s chest that he wasn’t sure he was ready to examine closely.

Halt moved around the room until he was standing beside the window. “The boy is more than observant. He’s hyper aware of his surroundings, but I’m not sure if he even knows it.”

Arald furrowed his brow in confusion. “What do you mean by that?”

“His body is sensing more than his mind is processing. He didn’t realize it, but when I came up behind him, his entire back tensed. But he jumped when I spoke. His consciousness hadn’t caught up with the fact that he had already known I was there.”

Arald stepped around his desk and sat heavily in his chair. “And why do you think that is?” He asked, though his tone implied he already could guess his answer.

“I’d venture to say it’s the same reason he lied to your secretary about what happened to his face.”

“You think someone is hurting him.” It wasn’t a question. The fact that someone had beaten Will was obvious.

Halt wondered if Baron Arald was oblivious to the fact that the boy’s own father was the one responsible for the bruises on his face, or if he was just trying to get Halt to say it openly. If Halt knew Arald like he thought he did, it was most likely the first option. “I think that boy is constantly waiting for the next blow. And it’s been that way for so long, he doesn’t even realize it anymore.”

The Baron leaned his elbows on the desk. “So what are we going to do about it?”

This time, Halt allowed a slow half smile to crawl across his face. “You heard the lady, Arald. We are going to help him.”

[microtyalm13]

Give...... Gavriil lore........ Please, I'm so hungry..........lore

there's no lore i made him two years ago in the middle of the night while being insanely horny with my bestie 💋

alright there's SOME info about the setting he's in.... but im still figuring it out. so a whole llot of rambling under the cut. if you want basic info you can go to this post .!

this is vivian and gavriil! they have a weird relationship, but what do you expect from a mortal x deity dynamic? vivian my darling my beloved old man works at the HELLEGTUM VUN DEAPAIX sanctuary, a place that trains future hunters. it looks like a pagan church from the outside. a weird one, sure, but their goddess is very much real! the hunters are mostly women, there are very few men that work in the institution. vivian manages the hiring process of other workers such as janitors, cooks, and laundresses. he can even mentor rookie hunters if they want him and not other mentors, but that's rare.

who are they fighting? everything from tiny evil spirits that feed on human energy to the corrupted lower deities who are going rampant in the city <]. termination squad 💪

deapaix, the goddess of peace and serenity, known and worshipped mostly by women. she's a member of a council consisting of other goddesses (i'm working on them... i have like... TWO designs gjkjhkej... also need to come up with a recognizable symbol for deapaix's religion... ehggheugh). they make sure that other, lesser deities do not overstep and control their influence on humans. that's why veniamin was punished after killing and eating his followers, and gavriil was, umm... deprived of the privilege of reproducing and creating new life. taisya is one of his last creations btw. that's why they are similar in some ways :] but ough gav is a BAD father so no wonder he's not fertile anymore. he and deapaix have a very very "older sister x younger adopted brother" energy idk.....

even though gav has a family he's not very close with them... visits them only if it benefits him. his mother is like a huge powerful goddess who's in charge of people's dreams and their subconscious desires. not in the council bc she's an overworked woman leave her aloneee

ven and taisya are lurking somewhere in the world. gav doesn't care about taisya anymore and barely remembers he exists and his relationship with veniamin...................... 👁👁 homoerotic, visceral hatred that goes both ways. they have equal powers but still think that one of them is stronger than another..... smh ANNOYING and iNSUFFERABLE both of them .

something like that. in not very good at world building i just like to draw silly characters ......

[lightfeltmemories]

GECKO MORIA: NSFW ALPHABET

note: i have no idea how this guy managed to pull me in but he's all i think about as of current, that is until i inevitably find a new interest and then THAT takes over my mind, i wasn't aware this guy had a sizable fanbase at first and posted my other set of headcanons as some self indulgent thing but hey! were here!

tags and warnings: afab!reader bc it's easier, blood & marking, breeding, praise kink, brief mentions of period sex.

A - Aftercare

I feel like Moria would be decent at aftercare, he's lazy as sin but he loves you enough to put in the effort to make you comfortable and happy, so, depending on how much work it takes, he'll nine times out of ten do it himself or have his shadow do it for him.

B - Body Part

His favorite body part on himself are his hands or teeth, both are sharp enough for marking his territory.

His favorite body part on you is your neck or your hips, when it comes to your neck, you will have marks all over afterwards, his teeth will lightly break the skin, drawing some blood but not enough to make any possibly dangerous marks, when it comes to your hips, he's always got his hand on him, whether it be the two of you in front of the other mysterious 3, or when he's ramming his cock in and out of you, holding on to those dear hips.

C - Cum

Considering his massive size, his cum could probably fill a small bucket in one go, but he doesn't cum quite a lot, maybe it could fill a cup? But we have to be realistic, his cum does not taste good, like at all, you might even find yourself gagging at the taste, that's how bad it is, sorry i had to do this to him but he doesn't strike me as the type to have cum that's decent to swallow.

He greatly prefers cumming in you, and if not, oddly enough, on your face, his dick gets back up when he see's your face full of his cum and seeping into your mouth... until you gag, but hey, he might find that hot, too.

D - Dirty Secret

Absalom has heard your moans before, and Moria at this point is probably aware, so, one of these days, they had a very private conversation about letting the perverted lion watch and jerk it as he completely destroys you, he can watch, but he will not touch. (if you couldn't tell, i live for possessive Moria.)

E - Experience

Living a good chunk of his life as a pirate especially a captain has opened a door to experiencing sexual encounters with both men and women, but they were only hookups and nothing else, so in terms of true romantic intimacy, he isn't the most experienced in that area, and when he did for the first time with you, he damn near cried.

G - Goofy

There are some lighthearted moments during sex, some light laughs here and there. (oh dear god him going "KISHISHISHI" during sex is so cringe.)

H - Hair

He's... not that hairy naturally, so not much grooming goes on down there, and yes, the carpets match the drapes, or the drapes match the carpets.. shit idk.

Now on you, he has a preference for at least some hair to be down there (though he won't turn down anything bald either), his dick jumps when he parts his fingers and in between your hairy folds appears your glistening light colored labia, he's quite a fan of the natural look.

I - Intimacy

Like i mentioned before, he didn't have much experience outside of mindless fucking, and may have shed some tears at his first intimate experience, and after this, he may have preferred something softer with you, he'll take his precious time with you, appreciating, worshiping and loving every part of your body.

J - Jack Off

He's did it plenty of times as a young man, but now that he's older, he just.. stopped doing it as often, maybe if he just wants to blow off some steam he'll get a quick one in, i mean they guys old so he probably doesn't have the urge all the time anyway.

K - Kinks

Here we go.

I mentioned in my set of headcanons that he potentially has a breeding kink, this ties into his affinity for cumming in you, the concept of your belly growing, tits fat and swollen with milk, the first time the concept made him hard he didn't mind having another little one running around.

Praise kink 1,000%, tell him how big his cock is, how you love when he touches right there, how you want him and only him to fuck you like this, but he also loves to tell you how tight and wet you are, and how you're taking him so good, how heavenly your moans sound.

Not a shocker but he loves spit roasting with his shadow, they'll hold you down by your wrists as he eats you out or pumps his dick in and out of you, he also likes to watch as he summons a part of a shadow to fuck you (like a tentacle or some shit yk what i mean) if he's feeling particularly horny but too lazy to do anything about it.

Depending on your size this guy lives for bite marks and hickeys, he will put those shark teeth to use in bed, the sight of a little blood during the deed makes him feral, he doesn't want to genuinely hurt you or draw too much blood, just enough to make a bead and to lick away. (he's also a fan of period sex for this exact reason.)

Size Kink, i feel like i shouldn't have to elaborate further but i will anyway, even if you're also freakishly tall yourself but he still manages to tower over you, he'll pick you up and use you as a living breathing fleshlight, carrying you with one hand as he pumps. But i've also been thinking about you being taller than him, i feel like he would find that so hot, honestly.

And lastly, he might, no, really wants to try some light forms of bdsm, tying you up to where you can't move makes him so damn hard, especially if your eyes are covered to where you can't see anything, the reaction you'll have when the tip of his cock head pokes your soaking wet pussy. But he doesn't want to try it on just you, but also on himself, sometimes he wants you to take control, a blindfold covering his eyes as you use your mouth on him, fondling his balls and kitten licking his tip.

L - Location

Anywhere that's private within his estate, he can't lie that the thought of getting caught turns him on just a little, not the biggest fan of fucking outdoors because the guys a whopping 22 feet tall, he'll get caught easily that way (don't ask it's different.)

M - Motivation

It kind of varies, on some days the mere thought of you will get him going, when he's looking at you, he's starting to notice that the dress you're wearing shows a little more skin and curves than usual, you accidentally dropping something in front of him and the shape of your ass has him picturing himself ramming his cock inside, but on some other days, it'll take some elbow grease and a dream to get a tent in this guys pants.

N - NO

Besides the usual scat and pee, i don't think he has anything that will genuinely turn him off.

O - Oral

You can't tell me he's not an eater, and if you try to i'm not listening because he can use his tongue like a penis knowing his massive size, he loves tongue fucking you, and teasing your little clit, you'll cum in such little time with him it's not even funny.

He loves getting blowjobs, the only problem is his massive belly is always blocking the view (he would put a mirror in front of himself just to see you go down on him), his balls in particular are sensitive as hell, so if you fondle them as you're deep throating him, he won't last too long either.

P - Pace

He's a slow and sensual guy, kind of always has been, fast and rough sex is overrated, especially at his age.

Q - Quickie

I feel like he wouldn't see a point in them? Sex isn't meant to be quick to him.

R - Risk

He won't turn one down that's for sure, just depends on how risky it actually is.

S - Stamina

He's got good stamina, surprisingly, he's just a lazy little shit and doesn't feel like continuing on... wait wouldn't that mean his stamina isn't that good? Idk this guy's confusing sometimes.

T - Toys

The only "toy" you have as of late is his shadow, but i feel like he'll be pretty open to using other toys as well.

U - Unfair

Oh he's a tease, his favorite type of moans from you are the ones where you're begging him to stop playing and just fuck you, but he doesn't give in that easily.

V - Volume

The streets are saying he's loud, and i can't lie, i agree, if you're making him feel good, you'll definitely know by his deep groans, i don't see him as a moaner (i feel like he'll definitely whimper), but he's not a quiet man in the bedroom.

W - Wild Card

I love this headcanon for him, but his horns and the tip of his ears are sensitive, almost like an erogenous zone, they're also pretty ticklish, absolutely no one knows this, and not many people are tall enough to touch him there and find out.

Y - Yearning

His libido is pretty low, sex is not that important in your relationship and he's more focused on other things.

Z - Zzz

You won't even realize he's fallen asleep, that's how quick he is.

[kingofanemptyworld]

(I can’t draw to save my life and I have no patience to learn right now so take this picrew edit for now)

Wind Breaker OC

Name: Furuya Nozomi

Kanji: 希実, "hopeful truth" (Nozomi)

Pronouns: She/Her

Age: 17

School Year: Second

School: ??? (I’m so bad at place and school names for Japanese characters, forgive me for now)

Affiliation: Ketsueki to Hana (Blood and Flowers)

KtH is primarily known for protecting young girls/women from predatory men

Not an especially large group — only about ten to twelve members at any given time

Nozomi is the leader and took over from her predecessor only recently

They don’t generally advocate for weapons but they make use of them when necessary (anything they can get their hands on, really, but never anything with a blade)

Most of the girls are from Nozomi’s school but some are friends of friends, or middle schoolers who just want to feel safe with a group of older girls

Fashion: Bright colors and loose, flowy clothing. She has too many pairs of sneakers and keeps buying more to match different outfits. She wears the choker necklace Kazue bought her for her birthday at all times. Dyes her hair blue because it’s Kazue’s favorite color and Nozomi’s a sap.

Likes: Bad dramas, macha-flavored anything, Kazue’s pet rabbit

Dislikes: Older men (she doesn’t hate men outright, but she takes a long time to warm up to them and isn’t quick to trust anyone, period), cold weather, itchy clothing (she cuts all the tags off her clothes and refuses to wear wool)

School uniform: Sailor-style. Navy blue with white trim on the collar and hem of the shirt. Most of the girls wear shorts under their skirts and leggings/tights in winter. Nozomi hates the tie on hers but begrudgingly lets Kazue do it for her every morning at the school gates (not that the teachers are likely to say anything, but Kazue is a stickler for rules, whether it’s school or fashion, and she hates when Nozomi is underdressed).

KtH uniform: A black leather jacket with a cluster of begonias embroidered on the back. The begonias are white with blood dripping off the petals, giving them a half-white, half-red appearance.

Only uses polite speech around Kazue’s parents (and when Kazue asks nicely) — and only because they were the first people (aside from her cousin) to validate her relationship with Kazue, who told her that they were so grateful to her for bringing happiness into Kazue’s life rather than ruining her future prospects.

The girls’ high school is adjacent to Shishitoren’s territory and they used to get into fights with some of the rowdier members (prior to Sakura’s intervention and Togame and Choji turning over a new leaf).

Nozomi carries a ring of keys with her everywhere she goes. No key chains or accessories, just keys - one from each home she’s ever stayed in, each locker she’s ever kept, etc. Anything that’s required her to use her a key, she’s kept it (whether she was meant to or not). The key to her childhood home is the oldest and most worn down from her thumbing over it absentmindedly in a habit she’s never been able to kick. She was kicked out because of her sexual orientation when she was 12 and bounced around family members’ houses (and manga cafes, etc.) until she landed with her older cousin, Momoka, last year (which is now officially the place she’s stayed the longest). She’s famously broken a few noses with the key ring and likes to joke she prefers it to brass knuckles.

Nozomi and Kazue met a few weeks after Nozomi moved into Momoka’s apartment. Nozomi had yet to make any friends and walked home alone most of the time, unless Momoka was able to pick her up from school. The club she’d reluctantly joined ran late and Nozomi was unlucky enough to be by herself on a vacant street when she got cornered by two older teenage boys. She’d been toeing the line at that point because she was afraid Momoka would toss her out if she got into any fights, but then one of the boys got handsy and she’d slipped the key ring over her fingers—

When this tiny, glasses-wearing girl came out of nowhere and smacked the guy over the head with her messenger bag (with three hefty textbooks inside), sending him crashing into his friend and giving the girl the chance to grab Nozomi and run. Nozomi was too stunned by the intervention to protest and they didn’t stop until they were practically outside the girl’s well-lit home.

Turns out Kazue was more terrified by the experience than she was, but it hadn’t stopped her from coming to her rescue. Nozomi fell in love right then and there. They joined KtH at the same time, even though Nozomi insisted Kazue didn’t need to, Nozomi could protect them both. But Kazue just linked hands with her and promised they could keep protecting each other this way. They started dating the next day.

[w98pops]

Still cant believe a fucking terf is in fallout fandom intecacting with trans creators and drawing her ugly stereotypical twink transmasc character. You should be ashamed

What is even happening to my inbox anymore. Idk if it's the same person that asked about Sharky or not, but it really makes me uncomfortable.

I don't know where the TERF stuff even come from, but I'm very open with my political views and yeah, I was a radfem in 2019 or something. I also was a very vulnerable sad russian teenager. I know not a lot of people on tumblr aware of all the intricacies of russian internet scene, but I assume you, anon, have some knowledge, because you called me a TERF in the first place.

There's an internet phenomenon called "alt-right pipeline" and I fell in the simular thing called "TERF pipeline". This shit is inevitable for every single afab person that speaks russian. It's a really big thing. I don't say it's an excuse to be a bigot, but I was 12 when i first touched the internet. I was insecure, very fucking poor and spiteful. Also I had and (still have) some hormone problems and was generally a pretty ugly girl so coped with it by drawing ponies and hating on elusive and mysterious "men in skirts" these smart twitter girlies always talked about.

To be perfectly honest, I genuinely don't understand what russian TERFs are fighting for or against, I was in this shit for solid few years and still have no idea. I mean, now it's illegal to be transgender in Russia (a real law), but it wasn't a win for these angry teenage girls, it was a win for genocidal bigoted russian government, the same one that legalized domestic violence (also a law. its officially not a real crime in this country). I went off the topic and started ranting about my frustrations with the government again FUCK 😭

I tried to say that russian internet is genuinely a fucked up place, but I lived in the middle of Siberia in a village, ideologically only had my orthodox grandma, racist older brother and TERFs on the internet. I only started to learn english a few years ago, so i didn't have enough options before that. Or, to better words, didn't have enough knowledge to be a better person.

I'm really really and sincerely fucking sorry for that. Like, truly. It was really fucked up and I'm ashamed of stuff I said and supported blindly. I now have resources and have some media literacy in my disposal and basic understanding of english to educate myself about the topics I'm talking about. I'm trying my hardest to show support and love to all my queer friends and mutuals, and as an artist I do all I can to be inclusive, not because I feel the need to, but because I want to.

I have no right to speak about trans people and their issues and I won't. I don't know if Sharky is as bad as anon described, because I'm biased (this is my character after all) and not educated enough to acknowledge all the stereotypes associated with transmasculinity. I would really enjoy to hear opinions of my fellow transmen. To address some of my choices regarding his design and writing:

- He wears pink, because it's a quirky color that doesn't show up much in Fallout. Never meant to de-masculate him or to ridicule him. It's my favorite color, after red and brown, which are the primary colors of Wendy.

- He has a silly personality and a carefree attitude because 1) I'm projecting and 2) Wendy needed a character to balance out her awkward and moody autism

- He's a girl's boy and has wives. I didn't have the reason to make him not like girls. I wanted him to be an example of positive masculinity and solidarity. He is a straight dude who loves women. Not just sexually attracted to them or sees them as pets. They are his partners. With their own personalities and lives. Also I wanted to make a full circle 😭😭😭 I'm asexual and bi-romantic. I like boys, girls, all between and beyond boys and girls and don't really think sex is a big thing for me. Aletus likes boys, Sharky likes girls and Wendy likes when there's no sex. Pretty simple, I think.

Hope this explains why Sharky is the way he is. Would still really appreciate an opinion from a trans person. Or any kind of feedback really, because I've been feeling really fucking bad lately and can't objectively reflect on my choices. Also more questions about my OCs are very much welcome. There's a lot of stuff that made me feel like I've been misiforming people, including this anonymous message, and I will specify anything you want to know. Thank you all a lot.

[jellybeanium124]

once upon a time I was a skinny white child who liked drawing. consequently, I drew a lot of self portraits and a lot of doodles of characters who looked like me: other skinny white children. I have so, so many OCs from my youth I used to draw comics about, and all of them are skinny white children. then I got a little bit older, and became a skinny white teenager. I had boobs now, though, so I had to learn how to draw boobs if I wanted to keep drawing accurate self-portraits. so I learned how to draw skinny white teenage cis girls. then in late high school thru my first year of uni, I put on a bit of weight and went from being properly skinny to more medium sized, so if I wanted to keep drawing accurate self portraits I had to learn how to draw people who were medium sized. so I did.

and at this point I was an adult, and became more aware of my failings as an artist. I realized I was so used to drawing cis women that I didn't know how to draw an adult with a more traditionally masculine body. I didn't like that I only knew how to draw one kind of nose. so I challenged myself. I learned how to draw men. I learned how to draw different kinds of noses. I learned how to draw fat people and muscular people. I looked up reference images and challenged myself to learn how to draw different Black hairstyles. I watched our flag, and realized I only knew how to draw young people, so I learned how to draw middle aged and old people.

I'm not perfect, and I'm still learning and growing as an artist. as all of these things were happening, I was also trying to learn proportions, how to draw people at different angles and in different positions, or even how to add necks that look right and hands with fingers. anyone who's seen my art knows that it's cute and nice, but not professional level or something anyone would pay for. I'm not trying to make money, I'm trying to become a better for the sake of my own growth as an artist.

I'm not mad at myself or wracked with guilt for spending my entire childhood drawing skinny white kids. kids are naturally self-centered, and I also happened to look exactly like what society deems a "normal" girl. of course I was going to draw people who look like me. that's normal. it's also normal, to say, be 11 or 12 and beg your parent for the "how to draw anime" book and learn how to draw anime characters from it. that book will also only teach you how to draw skinny young people.

but we don't stay kids forever. we grow up, and as an adult artist, it is your responsibility to learn how to draw diverse people along every axis. challenge yourself. it's ok if it's a challenge at first, or if the drawings turn out bad. you don't have to post every drawing you make to the internet. but keep practicing!! the same way you eventually learned how to draw hands and feet, you will eventually learn how to draw diverse faces, bodies, hairstyles, ages, etc.

i's fun and easy to draw things you're comfortable and familiar with, but it's also fun to draw new things. when I draw something new and challenging, it lights up a different part of my brain that's excited to learn. humans naturally want to learn our entire lives. that's how we're built. I just don't understand how so many adult artists whose technical skills are leagues above mine can be happy with themselves knowing they can only draw twinks. don't you want to be able to do more? don't you want to be able to draw anybody? even if you're a very stylized artist like myself, don't you want to be able to capture people in your own style in a way that makes viewers think you captured how that person looks accurately? don't you want to learn and grow???

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[blackquillchillin]

Attending a life drawing class has helped me be so much more normal about body hair and body fat on fictional characters.

Like, before i went to collage, my biggest art inspiration was Batman the Animated series, which I love dearly, but has mostly two body types-broad shoulders man, and hourglass woman. There are a few exceptions, like Scarecrow and Baby-Doll, but ones deliberately supposed to look thin and the others trapped in a body reminiscent of a child, they are the exception not the rule.

Now, I'm a cis female, and have three siblings who were assigned female at birth, and we all shared a room growing up. I knew that wasn't what women looked like. Most of my teachers were middle aged women, my mother was a stay at home mom, and my Sunday school teachers were all middle aged women or older. Tons of examples.

But, despite knowing that wasn't what men looked like either, I had no friggin clue how to draw a masculine body in a less exaggerated way, and even feminine bodies I tended to just make a touch less thin.

Drawing humans from life, as part of a course has helped so much.

I encourage everyone who has a chance to take a few life drawing classes, even if you don't draw much or like drawing highly stylized works, (not a bad thing, dont worry) spending time observing humans in a deliberate, professional and safe setting really does help adjust your perception on what a normal human looks like in a healthy way. If you can, see lots of different models. Right now my class only has one, and it's already helped. It's also good for understanding proportions so you can follow or break those guidelines deliberately as you see fit.

10/10 would take again

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

Hiya!! Can I have a matchup for Bungo Stray Dogs and maybe Attack on Titan? My self appointed nickname for the internet is Bunny or Julii and my pronouns are she/her. I am a leo and a INFP. I’m 5’1” (I think, I’m short but it only bugs me when it’s inconvenient. IE: high shelves.) I’m plus sized and pale with fluffy honey colored hair with natural dark brown roots. I usually shave half of my eyebrows off so they’re nubs to draw a new, pointier shape but I’m lazy and don’t draw them on a lot. I’ve been told I’m dainty and have slightly bucked and a tiny overbite- my teeth kind of look like rabbit teeth tbh. Personality: I’m kind, obnoxiously so and mostly to ppl who don’t deserve it. I’m also silly and careful ab people’s feelings. I tend to be, not a mom friend but a big/lil sis type of friend depending on who. I’m shy at first but can get very loud and have been told I’m a funny girl. I kind of hate authority but need to be told what to do- it’s a battle of two wolves. I also really like princess treatment a lot lmao like pet names are a yes with ppl I know. I dress cutesy or goth or both and ppl have been weird about it. People infantilize me a lot. It doesn’t help I’m autistic and have ADHD Hobbies: drawing, writing stories, watching videos, cosplaying, collecting fashion dolls and Care Bears. Likes- pet names, praise, art, anime, spicy/sweet foods, rabbits, dolls, scary movies/horror attractions Dislikes: cruel people, existence- like the constant struggle of it (I’m fine I swear), being treated like a kid bc of my hobbies and appearance, most modern country music, and Julius Caesar. I forgot to put my sexuality but I identify as queer and mayyyybe ace. I prefer women but I do like the occasional man and the like. I like a buuuunch of anime and fictional men, so it’s okay if I’m matched up with a man. :)

Hi Bunny! Thank you for your request! Sorry it took so long. I saw your additional fandom ask and have included it here. Since you said you would prefer a female matchup but would be okay with a male, I've gone with female matchups but included a male suggestion as well. If you'd like me to elaborate on these alternate matchups, just let me know! I hope you like your matchups!

In Bungo Stray Dogs, I match you with...

I think you and Naomi would get along well. You’re both people who care deeply about those you care about and are “sister” figures to your friends.

Naomi does have a bad habit of babying those she cares about, and you definitely fall under that category. Pleas just tell her that it’s something that you dislike and she’ll do her best to treat you as an adult.

She does sometimes slip up though so be patient with her while she breaks the habit. She’s trying her best, it will just take time.

Did I hear princess treatment? Oh, Naomi is all over that. She’s always asking to do your hair, pick out outfits for you, massage your back, take you out on dates, buy things for you. She enjoys being able to treat the person she loves.

I get the feeling that Naomi would like a mix of pop and country music. She may not seem like it but I think she would enjoy modern country music a fair bit. Please recommend some songs for her to listen to.

For your consideration, Atsushi would be a good male matchup for you.

In Attack on Titan, I match you with...

Sasha is a lot like Naomi in that she cares deeply about you. But there’ll be no babying from this one. Whether they’re an actual child, a friend, or an older high ranking official, she’s treating everyone the same, especially if they have food.

Speaking of food, Sasha loves taking you on breakfast, lunch, and dinner dates. She gets to spend time with you and try lots of tasty food? That’s a win-win in her book.

She also needs to be told what to do a lot of the time since she struggles with taking the initiative. It’s handy for you both having friends like Mikasa who can take the lead when need be.

Your carefulness of peoples feeling balances out Sasha’s naturally “say what’s on her mind” way of talking. You’re able to smooth over a lot of conflicts that may arise from Sasha carelessly saying the wrong thing to the wrong person.

Please don’t ask her to watch horror movies with you. She’ll eat all the snacks and once they’re gone, she has nothing to distract her from what’s happening on screen. She’ll be up all night due to fear and a stomach-ache from the snacks…

For your consideration, Connie would be a good male matchup for you.

In Jujutsu Kaisen, I match you with...

Nobara is a good balance between Naomi and Sasha. She enjoys spoiling you but won’t overdo it. She’s a firm believer that if she goes overboard with buying and doing things for you now, it won’t be special when she does it later.

That’s not to say she won’t give you the princess treatment though, especially if she knows you like it. She’ll also give you a bunch of pet names based on things she knows you like or her favourite features of you.

Definitely someone who can take charge when needed. She’s a born leader and has the charisma to make it work. She’ll happily give you guidance where it’s needed.

You two would be the “older sister” friends to a lot of people. You both give off that energy and, when combined, you’re like the older sister everyone needs, always looking out for them but teasing them mercilessly.

Won’t treat you like a kid. In the world of demons and curses they live in, treating someone as something less than they are can be fatal. She will treat you the way she wants so be treated, no more, no less.

For your consideration, Yuji would be a good male matchup for you.

[koukouture]

Ik a lot of the time I talk about men who are utter trash in my life but I would like to speak on how my male TA in elementary was nice without being creepy which is like a foreign concept to some male teachers apparently.

I need you to keep in mind as well, he is charming, a handsome tan and JACKED 6’0 Italian man who is straight out of any Wattpad girl’s dream and he is EVERY SINGLE GREEN FLAG EVER. But he makes women so comfortable it is amazing. And he’s funny but he has never made any inappropriate jokes like jokingly asking an eleven year old girl for a kiss. His girlfriend too is just soooo nice and funny and I hope those two r happy together they r so cute. I remember his girlfriend was one of the office ladies and sometimes I would walk by the office and he would be talking to his gf or dropping off lunch for her??? Green flag I tell you, the greenest of the greens. Lord, can you give me a man like that???

I was talking to him while I was visiting my old school for this volunteer thing and I was telling him abt how just bad a lot of the guys at my school were and he physically cringed and admitted he was like that when he was a teenager too. I love the accountability??? He just told me “Ah, just ignore them. They either get better or they don’t” and he was genuinely so shocked when I told him they were homophobic too. He was like “these days??? I get when I was younger but seriously???”

And like he makes a bracelet for his GF spelling her name out while we talk?? And asks me which beads would look nice??? My creepy ass coach would NEVER and he’s MARRIED. Also he gave me cookies bc I said I didn’t eat yet. Girl I hope you marry that man bc where else are you gonna find that??? Honestly all his green flags can be summed up by him actually embracing his emotions and being thoughtful.

See like it’s not hard to be funny with girls and NOT be creepy. You don’t have to make jokes like “oh you remind me of this girl I liked in high school” or “you’re too mature for your age” actually this guy did say smth like that but only bc he saw me drawing and was like “hey are you sure you’re eleven??? I ain’t seeing any eleven year olds draw that good” listen if I was born earlier I would try to bag this man like in what world. Where does one find a man like that???

I cannot stress this enough my creepy coach and this dude had the same flavour of funny but only my coach was creepy bc he so blatantly likes younger girls, in case it isn’t evident by the fact he wants to get married five times in his life. this dude? I think his gf is older than him actually and they’re both middle aged and he DOES NOT CARE he says she’s pretty and that she has pretty eyes skjfkhakfh how are ya’ll so CUTE??? Creepy coach? Not a word of appreciation for his wife (other than the fact that his first one was Indigenous which was… weird like that was the only time he talked abt his wife) but he had plenty of compliments for the kid he was coaching.

No bc the difference between the ways they complimented me???

“You’re a strong, creative young lady I think you don’t have to worry about what anyone else says”

Vs

“You’re a lovely young girl, you’re just too mature for boys your age. You’re different you know? I ain’t never met a girl like you”

See and the thing is I was a weird kid and creepy coach still wanted me. Italian dude was just supportive and admired how I pursued my creativity. Like yeah they’re both pretty comfortable with their emotions but one of them is a little TOO comfortable with the fact that he likes girls under eighteen. ,

Anyways Mr. A wherever you are I hope both sides of ur pillow are cold and u never get random muscle cramps when u stretch