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It would be interesting to know your opinion about Stanley's reaction or maybe behavior if the reader is also attracted to the topic of the sea and everything else
ur his soulmate then <33 no really, i mean it, you are.
iâm not being dramatic when i say that, because i think Stanley is absolutely soft when it comes to people who share his passions. so if youâre also someone who finds yourself pulled toward this topic, heâs gonna go absolutely feral in the best way
long text below . i took this question too seriously because i love the sea myself and I love Stan's love for the sea
he canât believe his luck. that out of all the people in the world, you feel it too !! like, heâll be beside himself that someone else gets it. he wonât shut up. heâll start explaining nautical terms with the wild boyish grin, and when you already know them OR BETTER when you finish his sentence with the correct word? âwell, shiiit,â heâll mumble, scratching the back of his neck, blushing like a schoolboy. âguess i really hit the jackpot ! :)â
he shows you the ropes, literally. teaches you knots with a strong, calloused hand guiding yours. takes you out on whatever boat he can get his hands on just to feel the wind together. freedom. points out stars to you with stories that only half make sense because it's easier for him to come up with his own story than to study it, but heâs so charmed by your attention that he gets tangled in his own metaphors. he calls you âfirst mateâ <3
and youâll catch him watching you while youâre watching the sea. heâs not even seeing the water anymore because the light on your skin is better. heâll fall in love twenty different ways each time you run your fingers along the rail of his boat
late at night when itâs just you and him lying on the roof of the mystery shack, heâll talk to you about the sea, describing the sound of waves against a hull, talking about stars that are too bright. you both start sharing sea myths, asking one another, do you think sirens really lured sailors with song? do you believe in ghost ships? in sea monsters? in islands that disappear at dawn?
and when you bring up mermaids, he doesnât even laugh. âafter everything ive seen, sweetheart. . .hell yeah, i believe. i mean, a flying dorito-shaped demon existed, remember?â
Stan takes you beachcombing early in the morning, before the kids are awake. you wear his jacket, but only taking into account that he wears your sunscreen. you both pick up wet glass and smoothed-over driftwood, and he starts a little collection for you in a big mason jar that he labels ây/ns seaside hoard. HANDS OFF, DORKS.â
and god, when you two go swimming, he tries to act cool but heâs such a damn flirt, tossing water at you, lifting you up just to drop you into the sea with a loud splash, and if you dive under and pull him by the ankle, oh, he laughs so hard he nearly swallows saltwater. and later you both lie flat on towels, dripping, sharing a soda can and letting the sea dry on your skin. he looks at you like youâre the prettiest thing heâs ever seen. and then says smth like, âbet even a sirenâd be jealousâa you.â with the most sincere smile he could muster
and if itâs cold out Stan still takes you to the shore, wrapped in blankets, thermos of hot coffee or tea or cocoa between your legs. heâll tell you stories about the first time he almost drowned and the first time he fell in love with sailing (since birth hhaha)
and yeah. iâm a hopeless romantic, so. . .i just wanna run with him along the beach, barefoot, childlike and free, laughing. with seafoam fizzing between your toes and the sky swallowing itself in gentle pink color. heâd chase you, splashing, calling your name, and when he catches you, heâll wrap you up and tumble you down with him, both of you landing in the salty shallows, soaked and breathless. and you would be happier if you drowned together.
and i know, with a sea breeze in your hair, on one of those glowing evenings when only seagulls are heard, heâll ask you to marry him. âhey. i think weâre good together, sweetheart. letâs make it forever.â youâll say yes, because how could you not?
and when heâs gone sailing with Ford, he writes to you !! sends you postcards tucked into every port. polaroids of the boat, his brother, the sky, his own grinning face with wind-whipped hair and a note that says âmissinâ my favorite girl / boy / baby. youâd love the fish market here, smells like hell, but agh, tastes like heaven.â he tells you about countries he visits, about northern lights. he tries to draw things for you even if heâs bad at it. a crooked fish. a sunset. your name with a little heart next to it
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Dum de dum dum
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how f1 drivers react
to you breaking up with them because you think you are distracting them from their career (requested) -> part two: getting back together
drivers mentioned: MV33, LN4, OP81, AA23, CS55, CL16, LH44, GR63



max verstappen
Weeks of contemplation hadnât made this any easier. You still didnât really know what to say, how to say it. But you knew what needed to be done. Every second youâre together is time taken away from his work. Hours wasted.
You donât even get the words out all the way, just the beginning of a sentence, something about how maybe this isnât fair to him, heâs distracted. Heâs making mistakes he never used to make.
Max stills like youâve poured ice cold water over him. His eyebrows furrow in confusion, eerie still.
âWhat are you saying?â
You keep your eyes on the floor. Meeting his gaze would hurt too much. You donât have the strength to do it. âWe need to break up.â
Itâs quiet. So deathly quiet you think you can hear every thought whirl through his head at a million miles an hour. Your heart pounds heavy in your chest.
âYou donât mean it. Stop.â His voice is small, restrained.
âI do. Weâre done. This is for you Max⌠youâre better off with me gone. Iâm in the way.â You voice cracks and wavers as you speak, but you refuse to back down. You know youâre right.
Max lets out a sharp breath through his nose, like heâs trying not to raise his voice.
âYou think Iâd be better off?â His voice cracks on the last two words, his arms crossing like he canât figure out what to do with us hands. âYou think my life gets easier if you disappear? What the fuck?â
You start to explain, something about pressure, the pressure on him, his career, about not wanting to be the thing that takes his focus. About not being able to stand yourself if you were the reason he failed.
âJesus, you think I donât know pressure? You think I give a fuck about all this shit if the choice is it or you? You canât decide for me that I canât take it. You canât decide that for us! For fucks sake!â
You flinch. His words hurt like a knife to the heart. His hands are in his hair, rubbing his face and then settling back into crossed arms, his chest rising and falling too fast. Then he stops.
Heâs still so suddenly it makes your heart drop. He just looks⌠tired. The kind of tired that goes bone deep and settles in your soul. He looks up at you and you see the look in his eyes, he knows heâs already lost you.
If he wonât do this for himself, you will. You love him too much to let him fail.
âIf you leave⌠donât pretend itâs for me. Donât. Just go.â
Leaving feels like giving up, but you donât let yourself turn back. A flurry of texts erupt from your phone as you drive away from his house, a call rings. You let it go to voicemail and delete it without listening.
This is for the best.
lando norris
âNo, nope, not happening.â
Heâs pacing the room, a nervous energy filling his body and seemingly preventing him from sitting still for ever a second. His hands fidget, fighting for something to do. Ever since you told him you needed to break up, he has simply stopped listening. Nothing you were saying was getting through to him.
He refused to understand.
âLando, please just listenââ
âI am listening. And youâre talking bullshit.â
You sigh slightly and look down, youâve been fighting of tears all morning just thinking about having to have this discussion, but you canât let yourself cry now. But still, they well in your eyes and threaten to fail your resolve. He softens instantly, moving toward you.
âIâm sorry, I justââ He looks desperate, eyes wide and searching your expression for any sign of hope. A sign that he can turn this around. Save what you have. âYou canât drop something like that out of no where and expect me to be okay with it. I donât want you to leave. You donât distract me.â
âYou say that nowââ
âI say that because itâs true. You ground me. You make me feel normal. You give me someone to come home to no matter if Iâm P20 or P1. You make me feel like more than my fucking result. And if you walk away, I donât know what the hell Iâm doing any of this for. Cause Iâm not sure who I am without you around!â
His hands reach out and grip yours, his hold tight and firm but not painful. Just constant pressure. Like heâs afraid if he lets go you will disappear. You might.
âYouâre not leaving. You wanna talk about this? Fine. But you donât get to pick up and leave me out of no where. You owe me more than that.â
âYou need this. Trust me.â
âI need you!â
Finally, a tear falls down your cheek. You donât brush it away. As it plummets to the ground, Lando knows something has shifted that canât be undone. Heâs lost you.
oscar piastri
Oscar doesnât say anything at first. His face is straight, mouth in a tight line, but his eyes hold within them all that he feels. He just stares at you like heâs trying to figure out if this is a test. Or, maybe, an elaborate prank. He hopes it is.
âIâm sorry,â you whisper. âI just⌠I donât want to be the reason you lose focus. Youâre so close to everything youâve worked for.â
He finally exhales and looks away. âYou think I made it this far alone?â he asks quietly, voice slow and careful.
You blink. âOscarââ
âI didnât. You were there. Every night I was doubting myself, worrying, thinking I wasnât going to make it, you reminded me who I was.â
He pauses. Swallows hard. You take the chance to interrupt, to justify yourself.
âThings change. You needed that then. You need me gone now. You just canât see it.â You plead with him, desperate for him to understand; this wasnât because of any loss of love or heartbreak. You were doing this because you loved him too much to stand in his way.
âYou think taking yourself out of the picture is going to help me? You keep me going.â
You say nothing, because anything you say will only make it worse.
So he nods, just once. Hurting. Resigned. He turns his head and stares out the window, his eyes glazed over with unshed tears.
âI donât want this,â he says, unable to look you in the eye.
âI know.â
âYou donât either.â
âI know.â
âSo donât leave,â he pleads, but itâs too late. You had made your mind up days ago. If this is what it takes for him to reach his dreams, youâd glad to clap from the sidelines. Even if in your heart you would always be applauding in the front row.
carlos sainz
Carlos is quiet for a long time after you say it, the five fatal words. Long enough that the pit, already deep in your stomach, starts to feel like itâs going to cave in on itself. The silence is more painful than any screaming would be.
âI donât understand. You think Iâd give up what we have⌠because I had a couple of bad races?â
Your eyes sting, you try to hold your ground. But the sheer confusion in his voice makes you want to turn and run.
âItâs not just that. I can feel it, Carlos. Youâre distracted. You need to be focused. And I⌠I canât be in the way. I wonât let myself do that to you.â
He steps toward you, voice calm but firm and hands reaching out to grasp yours. You shouldnât, but you let him. The warmth of his hands in yours grounds you.
âHey, donât say that. Youâve never been in the way.â He says it with such certainty, such conviction, you almost believe him. Almost.
âI donât love you because itâs convenient. I donât just love you when times are easy, mi vida. I love you because when the worldâs spinning, youâre the only constant. You ground me.â He exhales shakily. âDonât take that away from me. Donât take you away from me.â
You press your lips together to keep them from trembling, and Carlos finally lets the emotion crack through his voice.
âIf I crash and burn, I want you in the pit watching. If I win, I want you there too. But I want you. Thatâs never changed.â
âThen maybe Iâve changed. Itâs me, Carlos. Not you.â
âNo, no. CariĂąo, no.â
âWe canât keep doing this. Iâm sorry.â
âDoing what? Loving either? You want to give this all up because, what, I am not performing well?â
âNo, Carlos, itâs not thatâŚâ
Heâs quiet then. He canât understand , and you can barely explain. You know what you have to do. Even if it hurts.
âPlease, I have to go.â
You donât think youâll ever forget ever forget the look of pure desperation in his eyes as you walked out of his house for the last time, carrying with you the weight of all the could have been, that now never will again.
alex albon
The colour drains from Alexâs face the second you tell him. The spark in his eye, the pure joy he radiates that youâd learnt to associate with him, and him alone, suddenly disappears. His whole body just stops.
âNoâno, no, come on,â Alex says, voice panicked. âYou donât mean this.â
âI do,â you whisper. âYouâre distracted, Alex. Every time you chose me over work, I know what youâre giving up. Youâre so close to proving yourself again, and I donât want to be the reason you miss this opportunity. I wonât be.
His mouth opens like he wants to argue, but he closes it again. His eyebrows furrow and his head dips. For a moment his hands twitches forward, but, like he suddenly thinks better of it, it stays in his lap.
âYouâre not the reason for any of that. But you are the reason I get out of bed some days.â
You look away. Itâs too much. âAlexâŚâ
âNo, câmon. You want to know what youâre really responsible for? Itâs not my failures. Itâs not my losses. I know what itâs like to feel like youâre not enough. Iâve lived that for years. And then you showed up and made me believe I was more than all of that.â
His hands wave in the air as he speaks, but you can only stare at his eyes. The beautiful eyes that look so heartbroken, so afraid. He swallows hard
âYou really think you could make me believe all that, and be standing in the way of my success?â
He doesnât stop you if you walk away. Just stands there like heâs still waiting for you to come back, hoping youâll wake up from the sleep of insecurity youâre deep in and turn back around to him. You donât.
Walking away takes a kind of strength you didnât know you had.
charles leclerc
âNo.â
Itâs immediate, institutional. He says it the second the word breakup leaves your lips. Whatever he was going before is immediately forgotten, heâs turned to you dead on like a challenge.
You try to keep your voice calm. âCharles, I just⌠Iâm not good for you right now. Iâm distracting you. You need something that Iâm not.â
He laughs bitterly, eyes glossy with disbelief. One hand rest on his hip, the other rubs his eyes. Heâs the picture of confusion and shock. It hurts to have caught him so unaware, just yesterday he was talking about holidays and date nights. In one sentence youâve sent it all crashing to the ground.
âSo, what? You think youâre the reason I havenât won a championship yet?â
âOf course notââ
âThen stop trying to erase yourself like youâre some burden I didnât ask for. If I didnât want to be here, if I didnât think what we had was special, I wouldnât be.â
He steps closer, but doesnât touch you. You fight the urge to reach for him, you know you have to stand your ground.
âI donât care about perfect focus. I care about coming home to you. About having someone who understands me. Someone who stays.â
You whisper his name, but he shakes his head.
âIf you do not want to stay, then leave, cheri.â His voice is low, and thereâs a breathily disbelieving laugh that clouds the end of his sentence. He doesnât think youâll actually leave. That is his last mistake. He doesnât realise how much you are will to do to help him reach his goals.
You love him so much. But you canât keep holding him back, you wonât let yourself. Endless phone calls pile in throughout that night, but by morning they have stopped. A single text shines bright among the string of apologies.
âI love you. Please come home.â But home isnât with him anymore.
lewis hamilton
Itâs the hardest sentence youâve ever had to say. Your heart beats heavy in your chest. Doing the right thing is never easy.
âI think we should break up,â you murmur, barely loud enough to rise above the hum of the hotel roomâs air conditioning. âYouâre better off without the distraction. Better off with me gone.â
The silence that follows is unbearable. Lewis doesnât speak right away, he doesnât even look at you at first. He just stares down at the floor, hands clasped tightly to the crisp white bedsheets.
When he finally speaks, his voice is hoarse. âYou think you are a distraction? Baby, what?â
His head shoots up and his eyes meet yours with a tearful gaze. Heâs stuck in place, so in shock that he can barely move.
You nod, swallowing hard. âI see the pressure youâre under. The expectations. The media. I donât want to be one more thing pulling at you. You need to focus. And Iâ I canât always be okay. You shouldnât have to carry that tooâcarry me too.â
His jaw clenches like heâs trying not to fall apart from your words. Each thing you say, each self deprecating phrase, cuts into him like a knife.
âNo. No! Itâs not like that. Yes itâs hard, itâs always been hard. But no,â he says with a sudden firmness. But not anger. Somehow, that hurts more than rage.
âYouâre not something IÂ carry, youâre the reason I keep going.â He finally turns to face you, eyes glassy with something unspoken. âDo you really think Iâd be better off alone in all this? You really think an empty house and an empty bed is going to fix me?â
You donât answer. You canât. Because itâs already too much.
âIâve given up a lot for this career,â he says, voice shaking. âSo many things. And Iâve told myself over and over it was worth it. Iâve made a million mistake and Iâll make a million more before I retire. Iâm sure of it. But youâre the first thing in a long time that feels right. Youâre the first person who has made me feel like there is more to life than winning.â
His voice cracks on that last word, and he curses under his breath, turning away like he canât bear to let you see. Like the very sight of you hurts him. Itâs hard to admit that it hurts you too.
âI love you,â he whispers. âAnd you want to walk away because you think Iâd be better without you?â
Youâre crying now, silent tears slipping down your cheeks, and itâs killing him. He crosses the room⌠then stops. Like he wants to reach for you but doesnât know if heâs allowed to. He doesnât want to over step in already shaky grounds.
âI wonât beg you,â he says, finally. âIf you really believe Iâll be happier without you⌠then go.â
And so you do.
You feel his absence deep in your bones. Itâs hard, figuring out what to do when the thing that made him feel most human leaves. But no one ever talks about how hard itâs to be the one who must walk away.
george russell
Youâre standing at the edge of the room, arms crossed tight over your chest, like you're trying to physically hold yourself together. George is sitting on the edge of the bed, running a towel through his hair, fresh from the shower and smiling up at you with practiced fondness. Then you say it.
âI think we should break up.â
And itâs like a switch flips.
His hands still, towel frozen mid-motion. The silence stretches long and cold. Neither of you move, each waiting for the others next choice.
Finally, breaking the dome of silence over the two of you, he speaks, slow and careful. âYou⌠what?â
âI just think maybe Iâm a distraction,â you whisper, not meeting his eyes. âYouâve been under so much pressure and Iâ I donât want to be something that takes your focus away.â
George stands, slowly, eyes narrowed just slightly. âThatâs ridiculous.â
âItâs not,â you insist, your voice already cracking. âYouâre fighting for a championship. You donât need me in your head before every quali or after every crash, you need to think of yourself. You need to be selfish for once!â
His expression doesnât soften. If anything, it sharpens, like heâs trying to understand how this could possibly be happening. He drops the towel onto the bed, his hands resting beside him with a practiced kind of care.
âSo youâve already decided,â he says, voice quiet and tight. âWithout talking to me.â
You look away. âItâs better this way.â
âFor who?â The question is sharp, angry in a way George rarely lets himself be. âBecause it sure as hell isnât for me.â
The fight drains from him almost instantly. He hates getting mad, especially at you. He runs a hand down his face and leans back, sitting back down in the bed and letting the distance between you grow.
âI thought we were a team,â he says, softer now, but broken. âI thought when things got hard, we worked through it. We talked. Together.â
You can barely breathe. âI didnât want to make you choose.â
âBut there was never a choice,â he says, shaking his head. âIt was always you. Everytime.â
âAnd thatâs why I couldnât let you decide⌠Iâm sorry.â
You move towards the door. He doesnât stop you. Not because he wants you to go, but because heâs not the kind of man whoâll beg someone to stay whoâs already halfway gone. Your decision your his own, he wonât tell you what you can or canât do.
But after you leave, he sits on the edge of the bed, the one that used to be yours, staring at the door like he expects you to come back. You donât. And George doesnât sleep that night, or the one after. Heâs not sure when he will ever sleep well again knowing what he let slip through his fingers.
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DPxDC Shit Fae!Danny Has Said While Living With Waynes
Danny, making a 'got your nose' gesture: Hey Jason, look, I've got your name!
Red Hood, who suddenly can't remember his own name: What the fuck
Bruce, in a tired dad voice: Danny, please, we talked about this, return your brother's name back
Danny: Oh, come on, it's not like he even uses it
Jason, thankfully remembering his name: And I repeat, what the f u c k
Steph, at dinner: I was wondering, what do faeries even eat normally? Like, flowers and stuff?
Danny, his eyes two black voids inside his eyesockets: The souls of the innocent
Steph: So that's a 'no' on the flowers?
Danny, back to normal and shoving a bagel in his mouth: I mean, I can, but would you want to stay on the crumbs-only diet when you are in a 5-star Michelin restaurant?
Tim: It's actually 3-star. Michelin rating system only has three stars, not five.
Dick: Are you saying that people are basically food joints for Fae?
Damian, at Constantine: It would do you well to choose your wording better when speaking to fair folk-
Danny, very much a fair folk, appearing out of thin air in the Cave: Yolo, s'up bitches, guess who's back in town!
Damian: -even when they do not necessarily do so themselves.
Constantine, looking between them: Are you sure you're the human and he is the changeling?
Tim, 46 hours of no sleep: Hey, if you can take a name from someone, does it mean you can take, like, other things that have no real shape or form?
Danny: Names do have shape and form, they even have taste. Yours is like a ping-pong ball made out of really dense cotton candy with banana-caramel flavor.
Tim, losing his touch with reality: Dense banana cotton candy...
Danny: By the way, I know you wanted to ask me if I could take your need to sleep from you, and theoretically, the answer is yes.
Tim, his whisper full of hope: ...will you?..
Danny: No. Either go to sleep or keep suffering. I'm not here to make your life easier.
Danny, after a half-an-hour rant on the Fae customs and traditions: -and Fae never tell the truth, but also never lie. It's a work of art, you know, say what you want but never in a way that makes sense.
Jason: So Fae just like to fuck with people.
Danny, looking him in the eyes, smiling and winking: Sure, humans are very fuckable.
Bruce, trying very hard not to pay attention to this: Can you make an example?
Danny: Sure. I lied.
Bruce: Where?
Danny: :)
Bruce, feeling like he is about to lose his mind: W h e r e ?
Alfred, right after he heard Dick's muffled screaming in the hallway: Young Master Danny, would you mind returning Master Dick his ability to talk in coherent sentences?
Danny, obediently standing up and walking out of the library: ...okay.
Bruce: How come he always listens to you?
Alfred: He knows what I will do if he doesn't.
Danny, returning to the library: He will change all the silverware to iron-ware. As well as the doorknobs and hairbrushes and lightswitches and everything else.
Alfred: Did you fix Master Dick's shoes?
Danny: I did. But I still think that making all of his shoes left ones was funny.
Alfred: Indeed, it was.
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Hii! Now that your requests are open I had an idea of what if we were being surprisingly touchy? Like we alr are lmao but hugging him from behind but slipping our fingers under his shirt to rest on his bare skin? I feel like the casual touchy, almost possessiveness would make them uncharacteristically shy and fluster lol, love ur stuff!
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a/n: thank you so so so much! this is me as a gf literally
and montell fish the man you are
he was the first concert i ever went to and hearing hotel live made me float (title reference)
ft. isagi yoichi, itoshi rin, itoshi sae, nagi seishiro, mikage reo, kaiser michael, shidou ryusei, bachira meguru, ness alexis
isagi yoichi
heâs used to you being affectionate, but nothing this intimate.Â
one minute heâs pouring protein powder into a bottle like a gym rat, and the next youâre hugging him from behind, arms slipping under his shirt like you own him.Â
your hands are cold and he jumps.Â
âhey, what are you doing??âÂ
absolutely red in the ears. stammers. chokes on air. heâs malfunctioning like a victorian man who was shown a womanâs ankle.Â
âm-my skinâs sweaty⌠youâre gonna catch something???âÂ
as if youâll get contagious soccer disease.Â
but he secretly likes it. heâll never admit it, but his heart does backflips when you do this in public.Â
your hands under his hoodie? yeah, good luck shaking him off for the next hour because heâs holding onto your wrists and leaning into you now.Â
itoshi rin
do not let this man fool you.Â
he looks calm, sure. but inside? the mental equivalent of a fire alarm.Â
you sneak up while heâs brushing his teeth or standing at the fridge, arms curling around his waist and fingers slipping up under his shirt to rest on his back.Â
he stiffens like a cat.Â
âwhat the hell are you doing?â voice low, trying to sound annoyed.Â
but his ears are pink and he hasnât moved an inch to push you off.Â
actually, he slightly leans into your touch, even if he grumbles, âyouâre clingy.âÂ
but when you stop doing it one day to mess with him, he literally corners you.Â
â⌠you didnât touch me today. something wrong?âÂ
rin.exe canât function without your casual affection anymore. youâve ruined him. congrats.Â
itoshi sae
honestly, he touches you all the time. hand on thigh, hand on the back of your neck, fingers on your waist.Â
but you? getting all possessive and slipping your fingers under his shirt?Â
oh. oh.Â
that shuts him up real fast.Â
like he was mid-sentence, sipping coffee, and then you snuck behind him on the couch and did that.Â
âhuh?âÂ
brain rebooting.Â
âyour hands are warm,â he mutters, staring ahead blankly, trying not to flinch.Â
visibly loses the ability to use words for like a minute.Â
and then gets annoyingly smug about it. âyouâre obsessed with me, huh?âÂ
(yes. and you show it by keeping your hand on his back like heâs yours.)Â
nagi seishiro
you think heâd be chill, right? wrong.Â
you sneak up on him while heâs gaming and just rest your fingers under his hoodie while hugging him close.Â
his spine straightens. game controller drops.Â
â⌠uhh.âÂ
for once, heâs not sleepy or lazy. heâs wide awake like someone hit a defibrillator on his soul.Â
âthatâs kinda⌠intense,â he mutters, flustered and unsure where to look.Â
doesnât stop you though.Â
in fact, the next time, he lifts his hoodie a little so you can slide your hand in easier.Â
(he thinks heâs subtle. he is not.)Â
clingy nagi unlocked. he now lays on you just so youâll touch him like that again.Â
mikage reo
heâs dramatic about it.Â
you hug him from behind and slide your fingers against his skin and this man gasps.Â
âbaby?? scandalous behavior?? in broad daylight??âÂ
flails but never actually escapes your grip.Â
very red in the face, probably giggles, and youâre like âare you blushing?âÂ
âNO?? i just wasnât ready for that???âÂ
loves it more than his entire bank account.Â
next day, he walks around with crop tops or mesh hoodies.Â
âjust making it easier for you, angel.âÂ
secretly gets possessive, too. if anyone else hugs you, heâs immediately behind you like, âsorry, her hands are full.âÂ
kaiser michael
oh you wanna play possessive games? heâs the king.Â
or at least he thought he was.Â
until you casually hug him from behind while heâs doing his skincare routine and slide your hands under his silk robe like you own him.Â
he short circuits. the serum bottle drops.Â
âliebling? what do you think youâre doing?âÂ
fumbles. stutters. glares at his own reflection because his face is visibly RED.Â
tries to act smug after five seconds.Â
âyou canât keep doing that unless you plan to marry me.âÂ
starts leaving his robe more open just to see if youâll do it again.Â
he tells everyone youâre obsessed with him, but heâs the one texting âyou forgot to touch me today đâ
shidou ryusei
okay so you do it once. hug him from behind, fingers resting just under his shirt on his skin.Â
and now he thinks itâs a game.Â
turns into a menace.Â
âooooh ~ babeâs getting handsy ~ should we just skip to second base?âÂ
you: âryu, iâm just touching your back.âÂ
âexactly. second base.âÂ
but then you catch him off guard. mid-conversation. in front of his teammates. and just casually do it.Â
he pauses. jaw clenched. eyes wide.Â
"⌠youâre dangerous."Â
turns feral, clings to you like a backpack the whole day.Â
if anyone else tries to talk to you: âsorry, canât hear you over how in love we are. sheâs literally touching my soul right now.âÂ
bachira meguru
heâs always clinging to you. hanging off your back. leaning his full weight on you. wrapping his arms around your waist like a baby koala.Â
but when you sneak up behind him, all quiet and deliberate, and slip your hands under his shirt while hugging him?Â
he squeaks.Â
âEH?!! heeEEYY?!âÂ
looks over his shoulder like a deer caught mid-dance.Â
âyouâre touchier than me now, huh? wow, sheâs evolving!!âÂ
fully turns into a cat. headbutts you. grabs your wrists and holds them against his stomach so you canât pull away.Â
âyour hands are warm. youâre not allowed to stop. ever. this is mine now.âÂ
and then he just stands there swaying back and forth like itâs a comfort position.Â
if you donât do it one day, he dramatically goes: âyou donât love me anymore đâ while fake crying into your shoulder.Â
(real talk though, he feels safe when you touch him like that. like someoneâs got him.)Â
ness alexis
heâs clingy. everyone knows that. he also loves attention and being adored.Â
but you? youâre a different kind of chaos.Â
heâs walking through the hallway, humming to himself, maybe practicing a soccer spin with an invisible ball, and then BAM. your arms around his waist, fingers slipping up under his tight little training top.Â
he SHRIEKS.Â
âWHA?! h-hands?? whose hands?? OH. itâs you.âÂ
tries to act mad about it. turns around with a fake scowl.Â
âyou couldâve WARNED me! you canât just⌠slip your fingers under my shirt like that!! what if someone SAW?!âÂ
but his face is literally glowing red. heâs so flustered heâs flapping his hands around like a startled chicken. looks like heâs about to combust⌠but also doesnât move away.Â
if anything, he leans back into your touch like a traitor to his own ego.Â
later, you catch him casually stretching with his shirt riding up and he definitely gives you a side glance like: âmy stomachâs right here. if you must.âÂ
turns into an absolute gremlin if you donât do it for a day.Â
âyou didnât touch me today. do you hate me now? has kaiser replaced me??âÂ
cue you hugging him and putting your hands right under his shirt again.Â
he gasps like a princess and melts.Â
âo-oh⌠okay⌠youâre forgivenâŚâÂ
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Do you think ethics are just an attempt at being a healthier form of selfish?
In one of your Detail Diatribes where Batman confronts Catwoman and tries to stop her from killing Falcone, you highlighted the fact that his reasoning was not to protect her father, but to try and save her. Ever since, some very strange ideas about the nature of selfishness and selflessness have been rattling around my head.
It only started coming into focus when I tried to put into words why it was a bad thing that D-16 killed Sentinel Prime. My best answer right now is because it made D-16 into Megatron. Orion wasn't trying to save Sentinel, he was trying to protect the cybertronian people. Maybe if Orion focused more on saving D-16, they wouldn't have lost their friendship and all of Cybertron would be better for it. Of course, in the end, Megatron was the deciding factor in making himself, caring more about his pride than his current identity, but this highlights a strange selfish quirk in sustainable selfless behavior.
If you are purely selfless you suffer from spending more of yourself than you have to give. If you're too selfish you can't maintain the human connections that are a requirement for being a complete and healthy person. It leaves the best options as being selfless to make your environment an easier one for you to live in. Where your actions for others are repaid by the selflessness from your community. Or, being selfish with your charity. Taking care of what you care about because their well being positively contributes to your own.
To be fair, the opening sentence now looks like an incomplete thought. It probably should be asking if you think ethics is just an attempt at being a more healthy form of selfish and selfless. Really, just asking if ethics is meant to make you better at being a person, which seems like a question that can answer itself. Still, it feels like an important insight to highlight that to be ethical isnât about how much of your own life you're willing to sacrifice. It's hard to be a good person when you're not a person anymore.
This is a fascinatingly deep question, and I'm very tickled that our two touchpoints in it are a transforming robot tank and Batman.
My personal opinion is that ethics and morals are not reflections of some universal truth of Justice and Goodness, as they are often framed, but are instead best-practice guidelines on how to function in the big, messy world without causing undue suffering to yourself and others. A facet of this is determining, case by case, how much you need to prioritize yourself vs how much you can afford to help others - in the framing you've proposed, selfishness vs selflessness.
Taking the specific examples we're focusing on - two cases where someone attempts to prevent a revenge killing for the benefit, not of the victim, but of the avenger - I think they reflect this worldview, that the killing is not seen as some innately universally-judged evil act that must be prevented for its own sake, but that the act of killing will harm the killer in a way the person trying to stop them doesn't want to see.
For Catwoman, committing premeditated murder wouldn't solve any of her problems in any way that arresting Falcone and having him legally unraveled would. It'd just park a first degree murder charge on someone who'd up til this point only dealt with petty larceny, and it would potentially weigh her down with misery and regret as she grappled with the trauma of taking a life.
For Megatron, killing Sentinel Prime wasn't a bad action because he deserved to live. They just spent that whole fight scene tearing through enemies. They're warriors on track to spend the next four million years killing each other; the whole "taking a life" ship has already sailed. The problem is that Sentinel is a symbol and a structural part of the political narrative in the founding of the next stage of Cybertron's society. If the first thing the new regime does is bloodily avenge itself on the face of the old regime for the personal wrongs it did them, that proves that the only thing they care about is personal satisfaction of their individual desires - just like Sentinel. Meet the new boss, same as the old boss. If they can instead take a step back, think of the good of Cybertron as a whole, enforce a rule of law and a fair system of justice that applies equally to everyone, even on someone they personally loathe, that would signify integrity and credibility and the hallmark of wise, just and fair leadership capable of setting aside personal feelings for the greater good. It's not about Sentinel; it's about whether the satisfaction of killing him is worth the price of enforcing forever that personal vendettas are more important than the well-being of the people of Cybertron. Which makes it really obvious which one Megatron is going to pick.
My hottest take, and I mean this very genuinely, is that most of the human perception of what constitutes goodness and justice is one thousand percent based on vibes, and is extremely susceptible to narrative reframing. We see an unsympathetic victim (Sentinel Prime, Falcone) who has gleefully caused suffering to innocent people (so judged because they are framed sympathetically, not because we've actually enumerated their lifelong actions to determine they've never done anything wrong) and we feel (feel) that it would be right and just for them to suffer consequences (emphasis on suffer) because that would balance the scales on this vibes equation and that would make us feel like justice had been served. Would this suffering lead to any material good? Not inherently. Would it heal the victims? Not usually. Would it remove the source of the problem? Categorically not, what with how negative reinforcement works (or rather does not work.) It also wouldn't do anything about the other people empowered by the same system to be just as shitty in just as many ways that just happen to be offscreen from our POV. But it feels fair. So what is justice, if it reduces down to "I want them to hurt for the hurt they've caused me"? If it can be sated with a spectacle or distracted by a long nap and a good joke to let the feeling fade? What purpose does this justice serve if it is devoted wholly to the satiation of a bone-deep chordate-brain hunger for Retributive Violence rather than towards actually ensuring that the lives of those harmed are healed and supported and built up again after being broken down? (This is the entire core character arc in The Batman, btw, I'm not just monologuing for no reason here. He calls himself Vengeance for a reason, and the reason is he's doing Batman wrong)
That feeling - that white-hot burning core of Righteous Fury - is the unexamined heart of many systems of morality that focus, not on doing good, but on exacting satisfying retribution on Bad People Who Deserve It, categorized as People Who I Can Hurt Without Feeling Bad Myself. It's a very tempting concept for people who have suffered at others' hands. That feeling, that powerful instinctual understanding of "that's unfair," is incredibly strong. In my opinion, most systems of ethics are built, not around relitigating what is Good and what is Bad per se, but in trying to shape and curb that bone-deep, unbelievably powerful desire to rend the flesh from the bones of your tormenters.
But I mentioned that feeling is susceptible to narrative reframing. This is, as I understand it, a huge part of lawyering. Tell the story of what happened using true events and adding no falsehoods, but highlight the parts that make it feel like your client is the one who is being treated unfairly. They're not an unsympathetic wrongdoer who you can punish without personal moral stain - they're a loving spouse, a parent of three adorable children, they have a really cute puppy, they donate to charity, they're a wonderful conversationalist, a kind friend, etc etc. All those things can also be true of people who do terrible things, but thinking about them defuses that White Hot Core by making us sympathize with the sympathetic parts of them.
This is incredibly well-understood in fiction. It's the whole reason the tropes Kick The Dog and Pet The Dog exist. When you want the audience to root for a character's destruction, leave aside any of their potential quiet moments of sympathy - their tragic backstory, their cute pet, their adorable relationship with their mom - and instead show them going out of their way to commit some minor act of petty cruelty, say Kicking The Dog. The audience will infer that this badness is 24/7 and they have no reason to curb their enthusiasm for Righteous Vengeance. But if the writer wants the audience to see a spark of good in them, to sympathize, to believe they can be redeemed, they'll highlight one of those small moments of charming kindness, and allow them to Pet The Dog instead.
Neither of these acts, in the grand scale, have any bearing on the morality of this person's actions. A pet dog doesn't counterbalance a razed village; a kicked dog doesn't negate a generous contribution to the local soup kitchen. Goodness and badness is not a linear scale added or subtracted to by opposing deeds. BUT showing them to an audience reframes them narratively, and THAT is what shapes the judgment of the White Hot Burning Core. In the space of fiction, this form of bottom-shelf emotional manipulation is one of the cleanest ways to get the audience to root for the messy destruction of what is ostensibly, in the universe of the fiction, a wholly complex and living person who definitely has reasons for everything they've done, even ones that could be framed sympathetically when shown.
Meanwhile, in the real world, ethics are an attempt to judge what is best in a given situation without trusting the White Hot Burning Core to make the call, no matter how compelling "but it would feel really good though" might seem. They try to give someone perspective, context, other priorities to consider. The White Hot Burning Core might want you to rip someone's arms off for driving slow when you've got important places to be, but Ethics can present a number of compelling reasons not to do that - even if it's just "ripping their arms off will definitely make me even more late." And yes, this can be a balance of Selfishness Vs Selflessness. You are one of the people whose wellbeing ethics is designed to make you prioritize improving even if it feels weird, and when all other things are equal, your own health and happiness can be the deciding factor. In a world with an overarching Moral Force that weighs the goodness of your soul by sifting through every grain of action and intent seeking negativity to punish you for, absolute selflessness to the point of self destruction would still probably be seen as Morally Wrong, simply because the universe is a better place with you in it trying your best.
Anyway, if doing the right thing was simple, easy and painless, we probably wouldn't have so many thousands of years of arguing about what it looks like. Good luck out there everybody đ
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More Hearts Than Mine-The Aftermath
~More Hearts Than Mine by Ingrid Andress~ Author's Note: I love angst :) Summary: the aftermath of their argument. Luke asks Jack for advice. Warnings: implied smut for like a sentence Word Count: 3,677 Luke Hughes x fm!reader
Luke didnât give Jack any heads up. He stood outside the apartment door and raised his hand up and knocked. Lukeâs hand tightened around the bag handles. He packed enough to make it to the roadtrip they were heading on in two days.Â
Y/N said that would be for the best. Luke tried to apologzie but she did not want to hear it. She said that he was only saying it since itâs what she wanted to hear. And she was right. Luke didnât see why he needed to apologize for trying to make her life a little easier. He didnât understand but her feelings were hurt and that killed him. He never wanted to see her like that.Â
Jack answered the door, his face fell once he saw that it was Luke. âYou are not my smoking hot girlfriend,â Jack said jokingly. Lukeâs cheeks were flushed red and his eyes were red from trying not to cry. âDude, you alright?â he asked. His gaze dropped down towards the bag in Lukeâs hand.
âMy old room still has a bed right?â Luke asked barely above a whisper. His voice cracked in the process. Jack nodded as he stepped aside letting Luke inside.Â
âShit, did you and Y/N break up?â he asked urgently.Â
âNo, no,â Luke mumbled as he dropped the bag beside him. âY/N and I got into a bad argument and she kicked me out,â he explained as he finally met Jackâs gaze.Â
âI thought you and Y/N never argued,â Jack observed as he leaned down and took a hold of Lukeâs bag. He nodded towards Luke, telling him to follow him out of the kitchen area.Â
âWe didnâtâWe donât. I donât even know how weâI let it get this bad. We normally communicate so easily. Itâs like every word I said was getting twisted and everything I said just made her more mad.â Luke sniffled harshly as he sat down on the bed, which appears to be the new guest bedroom for Jack. His brother sat down beside him and rested his hand onto his upper back.
âWalk me through it before my girl gets here,â Jack asked. Luke shook his head as he stared ahead. Exhaustion coursed through his veins as he stared towards the blank wall in front of him.
âI shouldâve stayed, how could I just leave her crying like that?â Luke let out as he fell onto his back. Instantly, he covered his face with his hands. Taking in a sharp breath, he stopped the tears that were burning his eyes.
âWell she told you to leave, maybe itâs better that you guys have some space. What happened?â
Luke began retelling the whole argument. Almost word for word, at least from what he could remember. He knows that there were things that he said that were out of pocket and unnecessary. But she did the same thing. And apologized right away. He didnât do that. He stood firm on everything he said. Maybe thatâs the part that she was pissed about. He couldnât exactly pinpoint the thing she could be mad at the most.Â
Maybe it was all of it. Maybe everything he said was wrong and he was a jerk. He had good intentions but clearly that didnât matter or that it wasnât what she wanted. From the moment he met Y/N, all he wanted was for her to be happy. He craved seeing her smile, it was a form of fuel for him every day. Seeing her smile or hearing her laugh was the best part of his day.Â
The longer he retold the argument, the more he looked at Jackâs exasperated expression. If Jack thinks he did something wrong, then maybe he really fucked up everything.
âAll I wanted was for her to be less stressed and not have to worry about meeting me halfway, why is that such a bad thing?â Luke let out while shaking his head.
Jack nodded and took a deep breath. The doorbell rang and Jackâs lips formed into a wide grin. âLittle brother, youâve got a lot of fixing to do. Iâll help you fix this after I go retreive my girl,âÂ
âCan you be a little less happy about your girlfriend? I am in the midst of the potential end of mine,â Luke said somewhat jokingly, except his tone was serious.
âOkay this is not the end, youâre being dramaticâunlike your girlfriend by the way. Who I believe reacted totally rationally to your dumbass remarks,â Jack explained, his voice progressively got louder as he walked out of the room towards the front door.Â
Luke didnât reply. He knew Jack was right. Maybe he was more stubborn than he thought. He was set in trying to do the right thing, he completely forgot about what Y/N could want. He was an ass and now he needed a way to fix it. Whether that was a genuine, I fucked up Iâm sorry or if he needed to plan a huge romantic gesture to fix it. He was going to do it. Perhaps both, probably both. He wasnât sure.
Luke felt his phone vibrate in his pocket. Instantly, he pulled it out to see a text from Y/N. He quickly sat up and stared down at the message.
Y/N: Did you get to Jackâs alright?
Luke: Yes, changed my old room into something straight out of HGTV
Y/N: funny
Yep. Sheâs pissed, maybe even worse than he thought. She never replied with one word, always had something to bounce back from. He took a deep breath as he typed out the words Iâm sorry and I love you. He deleted it several times before retyping it. Thatâs not how he wanted to fix things. A stupid text canât fix the way they last spoke.Â
Luke: Iâll be back tomorrow, I love you
Y/N: Love you too
He sighed as he closed his phone before he rested it onto the new nightstand by the mattress. He fell onto his back again and a long sigh left his lips.Â
âShe thinks you're an idiot by the way,â Jack said as he reentered the guest room. He sat at the edge of the bed.
âYou told her?â Luke asked as he shut his eyes.
âThe very brief summary since we had incredible plans for the night but they will not be happening with you in the other room.â
âHasnât stopped you before,â Luke muttered.Â
Jack let out a sudden laugh while he rolled his eyes playfully. âLet me rephrase, she doesnât want to proceed with my little brother in the other room,â Jack expressed. âAnyways, you know how much Y/N hates when you spend money on her, so what made your big noggin think it would be okay to just take over all of the money responsibilities?âÂ
âI was trying to be helpful but it turns out Iâm an ass that doesnât think before he does or says anything. I understand that I fucked up and I will apologize for that but what I donât understand is that she doesnât want to take a little off of her plate. Iâm not asking her to be someâwhatâs that word that TikTokââ
âTrad Wife!â Sammy chimed in from the living room.Â
Luke let out a dry laugh and rolled his eyes. âThanks Sammy,â he called out while meeting Jackâs gaze. He shrugged letting Luke continue. âI want her to focus on finishing school strong before she starts her career again which I basically said was pointless because sheâll barely make anything. Wow, I really am a jackass huh?â
âWell according to Mom, us Hughes have no filter and say dumb things sometimes,âÂ
âThatâs right, Mr. People Payââ
âOut of context! Out of context, donât you dare!â Jack pointed a finger towards Luke while laughing.Â
âI want her to have the easiest and happiest life, I donât see what is wrong with me wanting to take care of her,â Luke said as he met Jackâs gaze.
âLuke, she has taken care of people her whole life. Thatâs not going to change because you have the means to take care of her. Sheâs the oldest and she lived a very different life before she met you. Sheâs not used to being taken care of. You were trying to do the right thing but you went at it the wrong way,â
âI wasnât trying to go behind her back about anything,â
âI know, Lukey, maybe try and go at it from a different angle? You could just apologize for everything, especially that shit you said about teaching,âÂ
âYeah that was fucked, I donât even know why it left my mouth,â he muttered. He stood up quickly. âIâm going back,â
âWhat?â Jack looked towards him suspiciously. âI thought you were giving her space.â
Luke took a hold of the bag, âFuck that, we donât ever argue and we definitely donât go to bed angry. This is not how weâve done things and this is not how Iâm leaving things,â
Luke started walking out of the guest bedroom. He waved dramatically towards Sammy as he started walking further to the door. âDude, she told you to get out. She doesn't want you to come back to your place,â Jack pleaded as he followed Luke towards the door.
âWell, Iâm not going to let it simmer, I donât want her to be pissed with me for another second.â Luke said as he took a hold of the door handle.
âWaitâwait, Sam, if you were mad at me and told me to leave. Do you want me to come back or be there still or do you want space?â Jack pointed the question to his girlfriend, asking for a girlâs opinion.
âY/N and I are not the same person, you cannot expect my answer to be the same as hers,â Sammy expressed.
âExactly why I feel it in my gut that she doesnât want me actually gone, so I will be going back to my apartmentâyour original plans can commence,â Luke explained as he stepped out of the apartment and quickly darted towards the elevator that led to the parking garage of the building.Â
Luke will either massively regret this and make his relationship crash and burn. Right now, he needs to at least try to fix things. He cannot leave things how they are. His mind was full of images of her crying because of him. He hated any time a tear slipped and fell onto her cheek. He hated it even more that he was the reason she was crying and that her feelings were hurt.
He didnât remember how he got home. The drive usually takes twenty minutes. It probably did take twenty minutes but he was running through everything that he said; every single word or moment he needed to make right.
It was the heat of the moment and he said things that he could never take back but he could apologize for. He could remind her that he loves her and that he wants her happy; no matter her path in life. He needed her to know that he was so madly in love with her that he was better than how he acted.
He didnât care about the statement she made anymore. At first he was mad. There are a lot of former athletes that have kids that donât go anywhere in the league. Luke did have to work his ass off and he hated that she even thought for a second he didnât deserve all of his successes.Â
But whatâs different about Y/N and Luke. She apologized the second she realized it hurt his feelings. Luke didnât. Luke didnât see the error in his ways and that was his final mistake. His final error. He couldnât let it sit and float between them in their relationship.
He stood outside the apartment heâs called home for over a year and suddenly felt like a stranger who needed to knock. Instead, he made a dramatic act of jiggling the keys and pushing the door open. He stepped inside, his eyes dancing around the kitchen then towards the living room to see Y/N was nowhere in sight.Â
A sigh left his lips as he twisted the lock on the door and kicked his shoes off and shoved them to the side near the shoe rack. Delicately, he dropped his bag onto the kitchen counter and made his way towards their shared bedroom. The door was slightly ajar, the only light in the room was the lamp on her side table.
Luke took a cautious breath as he pushed the door open. She was sitting up on the bed with a book in her hand. Quickly, she lifted her head up and wiped her cheeks once she saw it was him.
âI told you I donât want you here tonight,â she mumbled as she looked back down towards the pages. There was no way she could comprehend what was written. There was no way her mind was clear enough to even see the words on the yellowing pages.
âI know,â he let out quietly as he leaned against the doorway.Â
She didnât respond, she wiped her cheek once more before she flipped the page to the next section of her book. Luke crossed his arms over his chest as he watched her.Â
She had showered after he left. He could tell by the way her hair was wet and the glisten of lotion on her skin. She smelled like vanilla and roses, the combination from her body wash and her lotion. He knew of the combination from the moment they first met. After they moved in together, he realized her specific routine was the same every time. Even if she was running late, she made sure she had that combination.
She still hasnât looked up towards him as she flipped to another page; mainly pretending in to be uninterested in his presence.
âI donât want you to go to bed upset, Y/N.â he let out quietly. She shook her head while she clenched her jaw harshly. He could see the tension in her jaw from the door. He took a sudden breath while he shut the door behind him. He walked towards the bed, he watched her body straighten and her grip on the book tighten.Â
He didnât try to sit on the bed, instead opted for kneeling beside her on the bed. His heart was beating louder than heâs ever heard it. He could see her staggered breathing, like sheâs trying not to cry harder. For a moment he felt as though every bit of air left his body and he was going to passout.
âLook at me, please,â he said as his voice cracked. She shook her head slightly as her bottom lip quivered.
âIâm so sorry for the way that I spoke to you earlier. I donât have an excuse, I donât know how to make it better but I shouldnât have said any of it. I canât take it back but I am sorry,â he explained with his voice breaking as he spoke.
For the first time in the night, he allowed himself to cry. He felt a tear spill from his eye and he quickly raised his hand up to wipe it away.Â
She kept her gaze on the pages while she continuously bit the inside of her lip. Luke careally reached towards her and rested his hand onto her arm. She didnât yank her arm away from him. He took that as a good sign. Slowly, he dragged his thumb along the skin.Â
He waited for her to look at him, he missed looking into her eyes. Itâs barely been over two hours without looking into them and he was miserable. The last time she looked into his eyes were filled with so many tears, his heart practically shattered in that moment.
Yet she still didnât look at him. She kept her gaze on that damn book. Luke wanted to throw the book across the room.Â
âYou deserve everything that you work so hard for. I am sorry for assuming that you could drop a piece of your life like that. I know you hate that I want to take care of you but I canât help it. I want to spoil you, I want you to have anything you want in this world because you deserve everything youâve ever wanted. Iâm sorry that I made big decisions without you and Iâm sorry that I put you in an uncomfortable position by asking you to give up working. I wasnât saying to be a trad wifeâSammy said thatâs what their called,â
The corner of her lips curled upward at the last sentence. He perked up slightly, so she is listening and taking in what heâs saying.
âIf you decide five years down the line thatâs what you wanna do, Iâll support itâbut if you want to continue to work and go to school at the same time, then Iâll support that too. But only if you want to and not because you feel like you need to. You donât need to do that anymore, I am not trying to change you or leave you out of money decisions. But you are the love of my life and I want to take care of you because I donât ever want you worrying about anything in life. I am so sorry for saying that about teaching, I was heated. Itâs an incredible career that actually helps society. I just skate around and hold a stick for a job butââ
âLuke,â she mumbled out so quietly.Â
He didnât notice that she had closed the book and rested it onto the side table. She had rolled onto her side and was looking directly towards him. He nodded while looking deeply into her eyes.Â
âGet in bed, please,â she whispered before she pressed her lips together. He scanned her features nervously. He stood up from his kneeling position.Â
âCan I get into pajama pants or like right now?â he asked while pointing behind him. A small giggle left her lips while nodding. âCool, coolâone second gorgeous,â he mumbled as he quickly jogged twoards their walk-in closet to change.Â
He was gone for all of ten seconds and returned in a pair of red plaid pajama pants as he jogged around the bed. Quickly, he laid down under the comforter and faced her. For a few seconds her back faced away from him.Â
Luke didnât reach towards her, he watched her movements instead. He saw her back rise and fall in a steady pace as he tucked the pillow delicately beneath his head.
After a few seconds, she rolled over to face him. Their faces were only a few inches apart as she delicately rested her hand onto his arm. Lukeâs body froze under her touch.Â
âI donât know how to let go of things, Luke,â she whispered. âIâve spent most of my life working and going to school and nearly killing myself with all of the work but I donât know anything different. It bugs me how different we grew up sometimes and tonight is exactly why.â she took a hesitant breath.Â
âWhich is why we need to talk about things like money and our future together. I was scared to death about the aftermath of what would happen if we missed our rent. I know what that feeling is like and I never want to have to feel like that again. I know that you were trying to help and I need to learn to accept it.â she let out a small sigh as she inched towards him.Â
âI donât know how to accept it though,â she mumbled as she raised her hand up and delicately took a hold of his cheek. Luke took that as a sign to finally take a hold of her. He wrapped his arm around the center of her and pulled her towards him.
âBaby steps, okay? I wonât push you on anything but you donât need to burn the candle on both ends anymore, okay?â he whispered as he leaned forward, pressing their foreheads together. âWeâll talk about everything from now on, okay?â
She hummed as she leaned towards him and pressed her lips against his so delicately. âWe better, I donât like arguing with you,â she mumbled against his lips. He hummed.
âI really am so sorry,â he whispered as he brushed a strand of hair away from her face.
âI know,â she mumbled as she ran her hand down his jawline. Their eyes connected as her breathing quickened. âMaybe youâre right about me burning the candle on both ends. Youâre right that maybe I should take a break,â she whispered. He took a hold of her neck, gliding his thumb along the side. âBut I want to think about it for a while first, okay?â
âOkay,â Luke mumbled before he leaned towards her and pressed his lips against hers. Her lips parted, granting him more access as their tongues connected instantly. Her body erupted up in flames as he continued to take control of the moment. âWhatever you decide, my love,â he mumbled against her lips. She hummed against his as she took a hold of both of his cheeks.
âBaby,â she mumbled against his lips. He hummed before he took her lips with his. It took her almost a full minute before she spoke again. âMakeup sex?â she questioned. He let out a breathy laugh as he tossed the comforter lower on their frame.
âYou always have the best ideas, baby,â he muttered against her lips as he carefully guided her to lay onto her back. He instantly climbed on top of her as she wrapped her legs around his waist. Her hands glided down his chest as she toyed with the waistband of his pants. His entire body erupted in goosebumps at the delicate teasing touch.
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Protective Friends (Right?) Bucky Barnes
Pairing: Friends to lovers!Bucky x Reader
Summary: Bucky gets protective when your boyfriend intrudes on a get together and goes a little too far.
Word Count: 2.7k
Warnings: Verbal harassment. Slut shaming. Verbally abusive relationship themes. Jealousy. Minor violence.
18+ blog, Minors Do Not Interact.
Authors Note: Just a little drabble for fun, because I love protective Bucky. ALSO, if you want to be apart of my taglist, let me know :)
You giggle excitedly, drumming your hands on Samâs back as he cracks open a beer. âIâm proud of you Sammy,â you cheer.Â
Youâre all over at Sam, Steve, and Buckyâs apartment to celebrate Sam getting a new job- and leaving the one heâs hated for months. You wanted to celebrate him, but it was also just an excuse to get together.Â
You gladly tagged along, since you didnât often get to join the big group hang outs. You used to, but just not recently. Your boyfriend, John, wasnât the biggest fan of your friend group.Â
Specifically the guys.Â
Specifically Bucky.
âSam you pick the music, or Buckyâs gonna put on some bullshit,â Clint shouts from the kitchen, where heâs making nachos.Â
âWatch it,â Bucky snickers from beside you, handing his phone to Sam. âI have great taste in music.â
You suppress a smile.Â
Bucky glances down at you, lifting a brow. âI do!â
You hide your smile behind your drink as you take a sip. âHey, I like your music, you know that.â
âThen whatâs with that look, huh?â He bumps you with his elbow.Â
âThat pout,â You shrug. âYou have a pout.â
âI do not pout,â Bucky scoffs.
âYeah man, you totally do.â Steve shouts from the couch.Â
âHey!â He rolls his eyes. He turns his fond gaze back to you. âI donât pout.â He repeats, his lips curling in a soft smile.Â
âOkay, sure, you donât.â You chuckle, turning to follow Sam to the kitchen. Bucky follows you wordlessly, like he always does. âSo, now that Samâs making big boy money, is he finally moving out?â
Sam clicks his tongue, handing Bucky a beer. âHey, donât go putting ideas in their heads. Iâm here for the long run.â He sips from his drink. âRent ainât cheap.â
âWhy? are you looking for a new roommate?â Bucky leans his hip against the counter, his smile fond as he looks down at you.Â
âNatashaâs probably the best roommate Iâll ever have, so no.â You chuckle, glancing at the woman in the living room.
Bucky sighs, shrugging. âMkay, your loss. Hanging out would be a lot easier if you were just down the hall, though.â He pouts.
âI think I can make do with just a few blocks between us.â You respond.
âSure about that? You avoid this place like the plague.â He groans, wiggling his fingers at you.Â
âI do not,â You roll your eyes.Â
But heâs right. You do.
âKeep telling yourself that. Last time you bailed I had to go to the movies with just Sam- awful.â He huffs.
âYou went without me-?â you gasp, smacking his arm.Â
âYou bailed, we already bought the tickets, what were-â Buckyâs sentence is cut short by a loud noise.
A rough pounding on the door cuts through the casual music and laughter. Buckyâs fond chuckle is cut short. He steps back from the group, off to answer the door.
The knocking doesnât exactly pull you out of the moment just yet. Youâre just too caught up in enjoying time with your friends, in a way you havenât been allowed to in so long.
Bucky opens the door, but his smile dies instantly.Â
âBucky.â John, your boyfriend, grits.Â
âJohn.â Buckyâs grip on the handle tightens.Â
You freeze on the spot, muted dread filling your stomach.Â
âWhere is she?â John huffs, trying to look around Bucky.
âWhat are you doing here, John-â Bucky grunts as John shoves past him, into the apartment. The air in the room immediately sours as the blonde stomps forward.Â
âHey, what are you-â You start.
âAre you serious, Y/n?â He spits. Someone cuts the music.Â
âWoah, calm down- letâs step outside for a minuteâŚâ You cringe, glancing at Bucky over his shoulder.Â
âWhy? Itâs pretty fucking clear you wanted to be here bad enough that youâd lie to me. Why not let them see this?â
âLie to you?â You gawk. âWhat are you talking about?â Natasha crosses her arms from a few feet away, her protective nature gearing up as she listens.Â
âDonât play stupid, Y/n. You told me youâd stop hanging out with these people. You know how I feel about them.â He spits, inching closer.Â
âOkay, man,â Bucky steps forward, âtake a breath and calm down. Thereâs no need to yell.â He tries to keep things easy, tries to save the peace.Â
John whips back to look at Bucky. âStay the fuck out of this, James.â
Even you flinch at the use of his real name. âJohn please can we just-â
âHow could you go behind my back like this- and here of all places!â John shouts in your face. âYou know how I feel about him!â He gestures angrily at Bucky.Â
Bucky frowns, yanking John back by the arm. âLook, I donât know what has you so fucking pissed off, but you need to calm down, or get the fuck out of my house. Youâre not gonna talk to her like that.â
Your boyfriend yanks his arm free and steps into the other man's face. âWhy? How I talk to my girlfriend isnât any of your fucking business, Barnes.â
You wince, your hands clasped together in front of your lips. âOh god-â
Natashaâs hand pets your back silently as she watches Bucky try to calm the blonde man down.Â
âIt doesnât matter, youâre not going to throw a fit and yell in her face. Especially not in my house.â Bucky refuses to back down, his deep disgust for the other showing in his expression.
âIt doesnât matter?â John scoffs. He glances back at you with a scowl. âIs this why youâre here?â He shouts.Â
âI donât know what youâre talking about!â You huff, throwing your hands up.Â
âHim!â John turns back to Buck, shoving a hand into his chest. âIs that it? I fucking knew it, man. I fucking-
âWhat are you talking about?â The brunette frowns.Â
âAre you fucking my girlfriend?â John spits.Â
The words are so out of left field that the entire room goes silent. It was already tensely awkward, but now itâs dead silent. Your jaw drops open as a flushed heat stains your skin red.Â
John has never been quiet about his insecurities, and specifically his insecurity around Bucky. Bucky is everything John wishes he could be, whether he wants to admit it or not. Heâs always been convinced that you had feelings for the man- or the other way around.
And he never lets you forget it.Â
Since the moment the two men met, your boyfriend was sour. He got angry every time you mentioned him, and always demanded you stay home from group outings that the man would be a part of.
âWhat?â Bucky chokes.Â
âAre you fucking my girlfriend?â
Buckyâs confused gaze flickers to you over John's shoulder. Your stomach drops, humiliation burning hot beneath your skin. âJohn please stop- thatâs not- weâre not-â You blurt, your sentence finding no end.Â
John steps back, looking between the two of you. âThatâs why you wanted to come over here, isnât it? Why you lied to me?â He shakes his head, how scowl curling deeper. âYouâre fucking him. Youâre a fucking liar, Y/n.â
âAlright, thatâs enough-â Buckyâs jaw snaps tight. He yanks John back by the arm dragging him towards the door. âYou need to shut your mouth.â
John laughs, his hysterics scaring you, frankly. âYeah? You donât want me insulting your little whore? Why not- she gives great head when you knock her down a peg, trust me.â
You barely have time to yelp before Buckyâs fist connects with John's jaw.Â
The blonde stumbles back a step, his back hitting the dresser by the door.Â
Sam winces from behind you, huddled against the wall with the rest of your friends as they watch this play out.Â
John grunts, his hand cradling his bruised jaw. âFuck-â he groans.Â
Bucky yanks him back up by the collar, then gets up in his face. âI better never hear you say another fucking word about her, or Iâll break your fucking jaw next time.â He spits, then yanks open the front door.Â
Steve steps past you as he finally steps in, pulling Bucky back. âOkay, okay man- letâs not let this get out of hand.â He mutters, helping to shove your boyfriend out the front door.Â
Before the door can slam shut, John shoves his boot in the frame. âY/n, if you stay here-â
âSheâs not going anywhere with you, asshole.â Steve struggles to keep Bucky from swinging again.Â
âFine, keep her.â John snarls, glaring at you through the men. âSheâs a lousy fuck anyways.â He stomps down the hall.
The door clicks shut.Â
For a moment, the entire room is silent.
The comfortable atmosphere died, along with the rest of your dignity. Nobody moves. Nobody speaks. But then Buckyâs heavy gaze falls on you, and you canât take it.
You shove out of Natashaâs arms and rush down the hall. Bucky calls your name, but you ignore him. You slam the bathroom door shut behind you and burst into humiliated tears.Â
What the fuck just happened? You knew John didnât like your friends, but you never lied to him. Youâve only been together for a few months, but youâve always been loyal. Bucky has been one of your best friends for years, but youâve never crossed that boundary with him.
No matter what you may have once felt for him.Â
You didnât mean for this to happen. But why did it all feel like it was your fault?
The party was ruined.Â
Your relationship was ruined.Â
Your friendship with Bucky? God you canât even imagine facing him after everything John said. Heâs so kind and so gentle, so understanding and always there for you. But this was just mortifying.Â
A gentle knock makes you jump.Â
âHey, can I come in for a sec, doll?â Buckyâs sweet voice vibrates through the door.Â
Your stomach twists with dread as you wipe your tears. âYeahâŚâ You whisper. The door creaks open, but you refuse to look up. You stare down at your lap, your body tense where you sit on the edge of the tub.Â
âHey,â Bucky mutters, clicking the door shut. âYou okay?â
You suck in a shaky breath. âYeahâŚâ Your hands curl to fists in your lap. âIâm so sorry-â You huff, slapping a hand over your face.Â
Bucky flinches, his brows furrowing. âWoah- no, no, donât be,â he rushes forward, kneeling before you. Your lips press into a thin line as you try to keep from crying. âHey, hey, itâs okay-â he whispers. His large fingers slip carefully around your wrist, pulling your hand away from your face. âLook at me, sweetheart.â
You frown, blinking up at him. Your stomach drops beneath his gaze, shame burning in your veins.Â
âItâs not your fault that heâs a dick,â His thumb strokes your inner wrist, refusing to let you go. âI just wanna make sure youâre okay.â
You nod, your gaze flickering in the space between you, too embarrassed to look him in the eyes. âIâm fine- he just gets like this. He gets jealousâŚâ
Bucky frowns, tilting his head up at you. âHe does that kind of stuff often? Does he-â He pauses, taking a deep breath. âDoes he always talk to you like that?â
You shrug awkwardly. âSometimes.â You murmur. âMostly-â you pause, glancing up at him. He waits patiently. âMostly just when youâre involvedâŚâ
His grip on your wrist twitches. âWhat do you mean?â Though he already knows the answer. Because he heard everything John said, every poisoned, directed word.Â
âHeâs just insecure.â You shrug, wiping your cheek on your shoulder. âHeâs always been insecure about you. Heâs paranoid that youâre in love with me, or something.â You huff, staring down at your lap.Â
âOh,â he mutters, his thumb still carefully stroking your inner wrist.Â
You glance up at him, waiting for him to say something. Anything. But he doesnât. He stays silent as he watches you. You almost flinch when his free hand grazes your cheek, wiping at your tear streak.Â
âOh?â You prompt.
He tilts his head, a soft sigh falling from his lips. âHeâs not wrong.â He admits, like itâs any other minute sentence. Your lips part in shock, your chest clenching in unexpected emotion. âBut I donât want that to make you think heâs right for what he did. He should never talk to you like that.â
âHeâs not wrong?â You blurt, the rest of his sentence going straight over your head.
Bucky sighs and wipes a hand down his face. When he finally looks back up at you, his ears are tinted a soft pink. âYeah, sweetheart. Heâs not wrong.â
âYou like me?â You gape.
He huffs, his lips twitching into a smile. âDid you hear anything else I said?â You swallow, shaking your head honestly. âY/n, I like you, Iâve always liked you. But youâre my best friend, and you have a stupid ass boyfriend, and he doesnât treat you right. Iâm not saying that because of how I feel, Iâm saying that because youâre my best friend, and I never want to see anyone talk to you- or about you- like he did.â
You chew at your cheek, flustered and still deeply humiliated. You nod, listening as he speaks.Â
âIf you stay with him, that's your decision, and Iâll be there for you. Period, thatâs it. But he doesnât treat you right, and itâll only get worse. That's how guys like that work.â
You listen and try not to just hang onto those three words, but itâs hard. You want to digest what heâs saying, but sadly, youâve already thought of it. You know John's behavior is unhealthy. You know itâs a slippery slope to violence and even worse verbal abuse.Â
You nod, lowering your head. âI know, I just- I thought it would get better.â
âDo you like him? Not the version of him you first met, but the guy you know.â He tilts his head at you. You canât fathom how Bucky can so easily have this conversation after what he just confessed. You donât know how he can do this.
âIâŚâ You contemplate his question, thinking over the last few months of your relationship.Â
Deep down you already knew the answer. Because even the version of him that you met wasnât striking. You werenât head over heels in love with John. You just noticed him, and he noticed you. He took you home, and took you out every week since then. You thought he could be funny, and he could be kind, but his temper was always short.Â
It always felt like you were a third wheel in your relationship, sharing space with him and his ego.Â
And truth was, there was only one reason you ever went out with John to begin with.Â
Bucky.
You just wanted to find an outlet, a distraction, a way to move on from the heavy weight in your chest youâve felt for years.
âI donât want to stay with him.â You start. âBecause he was right.â
He stiffens, his throat bobbing as he swallows. âAbout me?â
âAbout me,â you whisper. âThat he was a distraction for me.â You glance up into those pretty blue eyes. âHe was right, because Iâve always liked you.â You confess with a heavy sigh.Â
Buckyâs fingers twitch around your wrist, his brows shooting to his hairline. âHuh?â
You blush, your chin dropping to your chest. âI have to repeat it? Iâve already had a pretty embarrassing evening-â
âI heard you,â he mutters, his hand slipping into yours now. âAre you sure?â
You nod, your stomach twisting. âYeah, Iâm sureâŚâ
He tries to suppress his ill timed smile- because this really isnât the time for this- but he canât. âOh.â
A soft knock echoes against the door.
âHey, everything okay in there?â Natasha mutters from the other side.Â
âUh- yeah,â Bucky shouts, his gaze fixed on yours. âAll goodâŚâ
âI donât want to go out yet- or ever, honestly.â You mutter, your fingers twitching against his.
âOkay,â He nods, crisscrossing his legs on the floor. âWe can stay here for as long as you need.âÂ
And those simple words remind you of why Bucky was always the one for you, not anyone else. Because he would always be kind to you. He would always be there, patient and loving.Â
He would always be Bucky.
A/N: Not amazing, but just a little self indulgent. Also, fun fact- all the things John says are based off real events.
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Out of Office | Yeseo (ft. Mashiro)
smut, 2.9k words
âWho brought all that cake?â You walk up to the cubicle, mouth full and still taking another bite.
âHm?â She continues typing a seemingly endless email.
âThe one in the break room.â
âOh, the intern.â Sheâs focused on the second monitor now, lost in some spreadsheet.
âYouâre the intern.â
âThe new intern.â
You shift your stance; raise a brow in anticipation.
âTheyâre in an onboarding meeting right now.â She tilts her head towards the conference rooms.
Through the blinds, though far, you can spot figures bathed in blue projector light. âHuh. alright.â
âAlso, I got hired last monthâcome on.â
âSure but youâre still under meââ You try, stumble through it. âYou were, under me, last week.â
âThat jokeâs not landing.â
âYeah, it isnât.â
The room in the distance lights up. Thereâs movement, a handshake? Theyâre standing around and chatting.
âSheâs your type.â She stops typing; looks up at you.
And you stop chewing. âShiro, what am I supposed to make of that?â
âJust saying.â Her eyelashes bat a faux pout. âHope I donât get replaced?âÂ
âCatching feelings, are we?â
âOh.â Tone breathy, thespian, and with a hand at her chest. âFrom our very first night.âÂ
A door opens at the end of the office space. You straighten up, finish whatâs left of your pastry, and shoot a look towards Mashiro while heading over to your desk.
From where you sit, thereâs not much to see. You listen to the shuffle of steps somewhere on the floor, to the casual chatter. Thereâs corporate laughterâmeasured, mechanicalâand a lilt to a voice you hadnât heard before. The sounds come and go. Close, then far, then close again: sheâs getting introduced to everyone.Â
Eventually: âoh, think we missed someone over on this corner?â Pretty platform heels clatter around to where you sit until finally revealing themselves. Sheâs a cheating five feet tall. Dark and elegant hair frames this darling, sweet look. Prettiest fucking cheeks on the planet. âHello! Iâm Kang Yeseo.â She extends a small hand. âPleasure to meet you.â
âPleasureâs all mine,â you manage, standing up and returning the gesture.
âOh, I see you found the pastry tray I brought.â She looks at the small plate by your keyboard. Her smile is beaming. âHope everything was to your liking!â
âYeahâyeah.â Your best is a nonplussed nod. âIt really is.â
You hear your boss call out over the divider wall. Says sheâs the new intern. Starts tomorrow. Ah, I see, you reply. Your head tilts when you realize. The calendar marks Friday. âWorking over the weekend?âÂ
âThey said itâd be easier to learn because of the slower pace. Canât say no to that!â She laughs. âIâll be shadowing someone.âÂ
You work tomorrow.
âGuess Iâll be seeing you in the morning, then.â
âOh, great! Weâll get to know each other fast!â Sheâs all verveâbegins to walk away from view before finishing her own sentence. âNice to meet you again. Gotta head back to the tour!âÂ
You collapse on your chair, processing. âNice to meet you, too.â
~~
Thereâs a narrative step you miss, trip over. Youâll have to pick up the pieces sometime. Theyâre probably tangled in the locks of her hair, the glint in her eyes, or that flashing, disarming smileâ
Okay, alright. Itâs not romance, not by a longshot, but you do see her twirling the ends of her locks every once in a while, like sheâs the one in love and, hey, sure.Â
Because you fuck the girl so well that sheâs consumed by the idea of you.
Mashiro strokes your ego over the week and Yeseo your cock, over the weekends. Thatâs your onboarding procedure, if anyone were to ask.Â
Shiro says youâll make Yeseo fall for you, that maybe you already have, that thereâs no way those university boys give her anything worthwhile when it comes to attention. Salaryman, Mashiro says, has the money, the apartment, the free time, and god that cock.
You stop Mashiroârecommend she go into acting. Say it suits her. She asks, at some point, which angles you think the camera would best capture. Her face is on the mattress, ass at a complete diagonal opposite.
âThis, right here.â Youâre making a frame right behind her with your fingers, then catch her gaze in the full length mirror over to your right. âThis is the one.â
âMm,â she hums. âI bet.â Mashiro reaches her arms back, face still on the duvet. Her palms land flat on her ass, and with a gripping pull, she spreads open.Â
Your arms fall to your sidesâthey settle, defeatedâand you think itâs amusing that the bed frame sits so low to the ground. It makes you kneel, though Mashiro already makes you kneel without having to ask, regardless of whatever piece of furniture sheâs propped up on. Itâs less skill, more innate talentâlike she was made for you, built, sculptedâbut, yes, Mashiro has the skill, too. Sheâs well practiced on what makes you practically melt. Youâve run your hands over that piece of art a million times and it still has you sighing your deepest sighs when your knees finally hit the ground.Â
With your palms replacing hersâass and cunt kept spread open and waitingâMashiro speaks through the reflection. âYou look mesmerized.âÂ
âI am.â You can hear the smile in her voice and smile back. Your hands get busy, kneading.
Like a pup thatâs excited to be played with, Mashiro wags it a little, to mess with you, because it throws your brain for a loop every single time. âTongue, baby.â She pushes her whole body back a bit, tone sultry. âCome on.â
âWhenâs the last time I made you cum?â You ask.
âEvery time,â she giggles out.
You give Mashiro a long, slow lick. Admire the luster. âNo, as inââ sheâs so close that youâre breathing her inââwhen did you stay over last?âÂ
Before she gets a chance to inhale a response, you get to work. Sheets scrunch in her fists. âAh,â Mashiro lets out gently. âItâs been more than a week.â
Your hands donât let go. Youâre pulling her onto your face and your tongue laps, laps, lapsâlips locked. Itâs, immediately, a mess. Spit, wetness. The taste is divine.
You take a second to breathe. âI missed you.â It comes out so, so low, like gravel, like the need to eat this woman out reverts you to only the most instinctual and primal.Â
Your fingers are leaving impressions on her pale skin, you realize. Youâre not even grabbing on that hard.
âI know you did.â She laughs.Â
You go back in; she moans. Itâs a whole thing. Your tongue runs flat from clit to rim and youâre unsure which one of you throbs the hardest.Â
But Mashiro turns, eventually, flips herself over, and pulls a pillow under her head for support. She wants to look at you, in the reflection, face to faceâloves to look at you when she cums. And youâll make her, every time.
âCould come over more often,â she says, kittenish, and you know exactly where itâs headed. âBut youâre always so busy.â
You tease a finger right over her folds. âUh huh.â Slip it in.
Her breath hitches when you curl it at the right spot. You love messing with each other like that.
âYou have a spare key, Shiro. Can come over any time.â Your lips are curled into a wicked smile, and you dive back in, lick her a couple more times, kiss her thighs, have her throw her head back in delicate bliss.Â
âAnd walk in on you two?â She pulls your head upâstares. âIâd be devastated."
âHeartbroken, Iâm sure.â Youâre holding her gaze and putting another finger in; her hips buck. Fuckâyou enjoy this as much as she does.Â
She bites her lip and her eyes go narrow when you hit that spot again, letting your face go. Itâs permission: make me, until my legs quiver, until I canât fucking take it anymore, please.
You slide in another, because youâre allowed, and frankly, because you enjoy the obscenity of it. Sheâs stretched out and you simply stare. In, out, a bit of a curl again, as much as three digits permit. Youâve heard Mashiro say worse, to be fair, curse out heaven and hell. Knowing that you could take her much further feeds your ego.Â
âBet you couldnât bear it,â youâre saying, straightening up, fingers still in her cunt. You stare at her pretty legs, folded and spread open, giving you all the damn room in the world. âWatching me fill her up with a load that youâd want for yourself.â
The little whimper when you slip your fingers out is as cute as it is profane. Youâd do anything for her, for less than that. To watch her unravel every time is enough of a reward.
âIs that what you do?â Mashiro catches her breath, finally. âPump the little thing full until she leaks?â
You settle your knees on the mattress, aligning your stiff cock, and nodding. Guilty as charged. You decide itâs best to have her cumming with your length inside her messy-wet folds. âYou get so slutty when youâre jealous.â
Your cock starts back on the path that your fingers just explored as she quips, âbet you donât even wash the bedding before itâs my turn.â Mashiroâs nodding along at your slow thrust. Sheâs all play, still, but your cockâs splitting her open bit by bit. Attentionâs divided, to say the least. âYouâre such a whore.â
âBaby,â you coo, proud because her gaze falters. Youâre halfway and sheâs already slipping a hand down to play with her clitâthough itâs not until you sink to the base with a firm push that you take her breath away. She does this eyes-shut exhale.Â
And no, itâs not romance here, either.
âOnly you get the bed.âÂ
~~
Itâs been a couple of Fridays since you last worked weekends, and any excuse is a good excuse for Yeseo. Company outing after work? Take her home. New to this part of town? Poor girl, youâll show her around (and take her home). Ah, too tired to walk to hers tonight, and yours is only one train stop away? The pair of jeans she has on today, by the wayâchristâbless casual Fridays. You do, in fact, take those home, too.Â
How impossibly fortunate. A straight flush. You have the girl cockdrunk for a whole fucking month. Not to say that she doesnât have you similarly obsessed. That much goes without saying.
And, again, thereâs some fill-in-the-blanks section that has to go unfinished or weâll never really get toâ
You both wake up at midnightâyes, midnight, because you had crashed on your sectional only six hours prior. There was actual work to be done this week, on top of the fact that Mashiro went home with you three out of those five, exhausting days. She gives you weekends off; calls it the babysitting gig. You tell her to not do that.
Now, Yeseoâs in the shower. The scene is cut-to, a tad jarring and sudden. Interior apartment, Saturday, zero hundred hours. You have the noise floor where itâs all ambient sound out in the living room, your kitchen appliances buzz, the aircon kicks in. Nice and quiet, until the figurative camera sends it down the hall and past your bedroom door. Wet white noise fades in. Rhythmic⌠clapping?Â
There arenât that many useful euphemisms from here on out. Everyone has read this script before.
The internâs against glass. Itâs a heavenly slope, really, the way her upper torso is flat on the shower door. With hands braced at either side of her tits, her lower back arches outâlegs tensed, tiptoedâand her ass angles out just so. Itâs plush, itâs deadly. Your hands are settled on that striking indent where her hips and waist meet while your own hips push, thrust, and press against her round, easy cheeks.Â
Fuckâ
Yeseo pushes back in kind. The tempo is practiced and well known to the both of you, though thereâs a key difference. The camera wouldnât pick up on it, not from the angle it would find itself at. And you yourself canât figure out if this right here is where youâll end itâwhere the scene cuts.
A little longer, youâre telling yourself.Â
See: contraceptivesâleft the whole pack back at the office. Itâs the whole reason why you decided to fall asleep in the first place. Yeseo said something about buying some right as you both stepped through the front door but your mouths sufficed for the subsequent half hour. Some dinner, that was.
And because thereâs no self-control, she didnât have to do much to persuade you into taking a shower before heading to the closest pharmacy, or gas station, or anywhere that happened to be open at this ungodly hour andâ
Again, no polite terminology here.Â
Youâve been fucking her raw for the past ten minutes. Her fertile arousal gathers at the base of your cock every time you piston in, in, inâso messy, smeared, depravedâand your thumbs leave flush-red marks whenever they press onto her smooth, luxury skin.
So you cum, naturally. Flood her womb. Itâs filthy, because Yeseo is at that point, tooâthe girl put a finger over her clit a minute ago and ran it in circles until her eyes went hazy, went dumb. Until her thus-far dulcet moans turned into half breaths and broken whimpers. Thereâs a âyesâ in there somewhere, a flash in the pan, brief and hissed, as the tension in her chest breaks into more cries of pleasure with your name intertwined.
You groan, then, slipping out only a moment after and holding your cock like itâs fucking expired. The feeling is an overstimulated frenzyâelectric, and still jolting. Out of all things, however, what fucks with you is not what you did, but how it looks: her figure shivers as she plants her heels back on shower tiles; hot and sticky white lands next to her feet.Â
It reeks of debaucheryâhasty, impatient. Yeseoâs cunt leaks and all you think about is dipping back in for seconds.
But the scene cuts. Shower steam continues to rise and, with it, your thoughts fade into the next.
~~
Sheâs reading something that youâre sure is not right. Perhaps itâs not wholly accurate. Itâs also noon now, for what itâs worth. the sleepâs polyphasicâa total blurâas it always tends to be over the Saturdays and the Sundays.Â
âSeventy-two hours,â Yeseo says. Sheâs sitting on your kitchen counter, eating grapes. Girl hasnât had a single piece of clothing on since the day before.
âYouâre kidding.âÂ
âSays it can be effective even five days after.â Her mouthâs full. âDamn.â
You close the fridge and walk over to her. âAre you reading an AI summary?âÂ
âWell, itâs summarizing the links below that, so.â She turns her phone towards you.Â
Levono-whatever-the-fuckâs the active ingredientâPlan B. The morning-after pill.
âUh huh,â you say, incredulous. Youâre also sweating, almost.
âWeâll get it Monday morning,â Yeseo ensures. âGrape?â
âCanât we head out right now?â
She feeds you the one, hovers another in front of your lips. âIâm doing a round of laundry.âÂ
The bunch that you bought this week happens to be seed-in.Â
âAnd that stops youââ You swallow. âHow?â
âThe condoms are in my duffle bag, the one that has the rest of my clothes?â
âAh,â you discern. âThe one you left at the office.â
âThe one I told you,â she asserts, âto get for me before heading out.â
Open your mouth. Youâre gullible by choice, you tell yourselfâYeseo feeds you the second.Â
She has one set of clothes, one, and it wonât be ready for another thirty minutes. It crosses your mind that you forgot the color of her underwear, at this point. Never properly memorized it. You figure it foreshadows whatâs left of the weekend; settle on that fate.
âWanna put on the movie I mentioned the other day?â She hops off the laminate and walks towards the couch. The edge of the counter is imprinted on her upper thighs and itâs safe to say youâll be having to replay the film some other day, at a time where thereâs at least one layer of fabric to dissuade you from the inevitable. Not like that ever does anything.
You hum. âNot a bad idea.â
Yeseo stands so casually in your living room, working the remote, nothing on. The curtains are pulled back and a noontide shine contours her shape as if the heavens were on a campaign to meddle with you at every possible turn. Your eyes are glued to each and every divot on her skin, to the curves and the lines that lead to them. Her hip cocks off to the right and it has your head tilting to the leftâcould get you dizzy just like that.
You try to determine where to start again, though walking over to her, itâs not much of a conscious decision. Your palm lands and unabashedly grabs the heft of her ass. No hesitation. It spills through your fingersâhas you hard in an instant.
âShould be fun,â she says, absentminded. With the way the selection box goes over and around and anywhere but any of the streaming apps, you know sheâs not quite paying attention to the TV, either.
You, regardless, still ask: âwhatâs it about, again?â
The answer to the next is no.
âDoes it matter?â
Superfluous, and somewhat of a spoiler, but this does snowball until the aforementioned Monday morning. Sunday will have you running the same scenes. The blocking will maybe be a bit different, though the outcomes are all the same: you suck at pulling out.Â
And youâll tell yourself itâs by choice.
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Caught in the Teeth
James Potter is sunlightâwarm, golden, impossible to ignore. And you? Youâve spent your life convinced youâre anything but worthy of his orbit. But James has never been one to let something slip through his fingers without a fight, and heâll prove it, even if he has to bare his teeth to do it. Warnings: Allusions to the body, blood, hunger, and longing in a way that may feel emotionally heavy. wc: 5.2k
James doesnât seem deterred by your skepticism. If anything, he looks more determined, eyes bright with something unreadable, something that makes your stomach twist uncomfortably. It would be easier if this were a joke. If he were just playing at it, letting his natural charm smooth over the edges of something that isnât real.
But his gaze doesnât waver.
"Iâm serious," he says again, quieter this time, and thereâs something about the way he says it that makes you grip your books just a little tighter. Like if you donât hold onto something solid, you might lose your footing entirely.
"James." You exhale his name, like it might be enough to remind him what you areâwhat you arenât. You donât belong in the whirlwind of James Potterâs affections, in the grand, elaborate way he loves things. James falls fast, hard, and all at once, and you are steady. You do not dive headfirst. You do not know how to be the kind of person who gets caught.
But James only grins, tilting his head slightly, eyes still locked on yours. "I know what youâre thinking," he murmurs.
You shake your head. "You donât."
"I do." He takes a half-step closer, and itâs nothing, reallyânothing but space disappearing between you, nothing but the warmth of him seeping into the cold air around you. But it feels like everything. "You think Iâm playing some game, that I just love a challenge. You think if I got you, Iâd get bored."
You swallow, looking away, because itâs true. Itâs exactly what you think.
James exhales, and for the first time, he almost sounds frustrated. Not in an angry wayâjust in that way he gets when heâs trying to explain something that matters and no one is listening. "Youâre wrong, you know," he says. "I wouldnât get bored of you."
Itâs a simple sentence, but it lands heavy. You can feel the weight of it settling in your chest, in the space between your ribs.
"You fall in love too fast," you whisper.
He huffs out a laugh, shaking his head. "No. I just know when somethingâs real." His fingers brush against yours, barely there, a fleeting touch that could have been an accidentâexcept it isnât. "And this is real."
Your breath catches, and you hate that it does, hate that he sees it, that he hears it in the way your next inhale stutters slightly. You shake your head again, as if that might be enough to shake the feeling away.
"James."
"Iâll wait," he interrupts, voice steady. "If you need time, Iâll wait."
And thatâthatâis what truly unravels you. Because James Potter has never been the kind of person who waits. But here he is, standing in front of you, hands shoved in his pockets, eyes softer than youâve ever seen them, telling you that for you, he would.
And you donât know what to do with that.
||||
It continues over breakfast.
James slides into the seat beside you, close enough that his knee knocks against yours beneath the table. You go stiff, eyes flickering to the rest of the MaraudersâSirius lounging across from you with an infuriating smirk, Remus with his usual quiet amusement, Peter already half-distracted by his plate. None of them look surprised.
You force yourself to focus on your toast, even as James leans in, voice just loud enough for the people around you to hear. "You know, Iâve been thinking about it a lot," he muses, stealing a bit of bacon off your plate like heâs been doing it forever. "You and me, dove. I think weâd be good together."
The words send heat crawling up your neck, but you shake your head, exhaling sharply. "James." His name comes out tight, more exasperation than anything else, but it only makes him grin wider.
"Iâm serious." The table falls silent, James winks. "I mean, I'm James, obviously, but I'm also serious."
"You're never serious," you counter, refusing to fall into his jokes, speaking barely above a whisper. You can't stand the eyes on you, sure the other boys are studying your every reaction to use for teasing material later.
"About you, I am."
Thereâs a clatter of silverware as Sirius dramatically drops his fork. "This again?" He sighs, loud and exaggerated. "Mate, just put her out of her misery and snog her already."
Your face burns, and you glare at him, but James only laughs, unfazed. "I would, but she insists Iâm not actually interested," he says, as if the idea is absurd. As if he isnât James Potter, the boy everyone watches when he walks into a room, the one people whisper about, the one who is certainly not looking at you.
You shake your head, barely resisting the urge to push your chair back and flee. "Youâre making a scene."
"Good," James says, undeterred. "Maybe if I make a big enough one, youâll actually believe me."
You swallow hard, trying not to let the words sink in. "Why me?" It slips out before you can stop it, quiet and unsure, but James hears it. Of course he does.
He leans forward, elbows on the table, eyes locked onto yours like they hold all the answers. "Because you make me nervous," he admits, and thatâthat stops you cold.
James Potter doesnât get nervous.
Certainly not now, not as he holds your gaze, eyes bright behind his glasses. He doesn't look nervous, a smile playing at the corner of his mouth.
You ignore, of course, the way his hands clench the corner of his table, a possible tell for something lingering behind his blasse exterior.
"I think about you when I shouldnât," he continues, softer now, like itâs just the two of you, even with everyone listening. "I look for you first when I walk into a room. I make up excuses to talk to you, even if itâs just to hear your voice." He tilts his head, like heâs studying you, like heâs waiting for you to finally see what heâs been trying to tell you all along. "So, yeah, Iâd say Iâm pretty well gone on you."
Your fingers curl around the edge of your sweater, gripping the fabric like it might hold you together. The weight of his words presses against you, sinking into the places youâve tried to keep protected.
Despite the late night conversations with Lily, insisting this is a bad idea, you feel yourself faltering.
But itâs not enough. Not yet.
You lower your gaze, shaking your head. "Itâs not real," you murmur. "I'm far too intune with your jokes, Potter. I know a prank when I see one."
James exhales slowly, and you brace yourself for frustration, for exasperation, for him to finally get tired of proving himself.
But instead, his hand brushes against yours under the tableâgentle, steady. "Iâll just have to keep proving it to you, then."
And Merlin help you, but you believe him.
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Itâs late. The sky is painted with the last dregs of sunset, streaks of pink and orange fading into the deep blue of night. The Quidditch pitch is empty, save for the figure circling above youâJames, of course, looping lazily through the air like he has all the time in the world.
You donât know why you agreed to this.
Actually, you do. James had caught you in the common room, full of his usual bravado, promising that if you didnât come to watch his practice, heâd just have to resort to desperate measuresâlike standing on the Gryffindor table at breakfast and declaring his undying love in front of everyone.
"I donât think thatâs an appropriate use of the word âdesperate,â" youâd muttered, trying to focus on your book.
James had grinned, victorious, because you hadnât said no.
So here you are, sitting on the grass at the edge of the pitch, hugging your knees to your chest, watching as he tilts into a steep dive, the wind roaring in his ears. You know heâs showing off, and you hate the way your stomach twists every time he pulls out of a particularly reckless maneuver, a little voice in the back of your head whispering what if he falls?
He doesnât, of course. Heâs James Potter.
And, as if sensing your gaze, he makes a final sharp turn and lands right in front of you, dismounting in one fluid motion.
"Enjoying the show?" he asks, pushing his hair out of his face, still grinning like he owns the world.
You roll your eyes, but the heat in your cheeks betrays you. "Youâre ridiculous."
"Ridiculously charming?" He waggles his brows, twirling his broom between his fingers. "Devastatingly handsome? The love of your life?"
You scoff, looking away. "Youâre incorrigible."
"Big words. Pretty ones, too. Just say the word, dove, and Iâll let you tutor me sometime. Preferably in a secluded corner of the library where I can stare at your lips while you try to explain whatever it is youâre always scribbling in that notebook of yours."
Your heart stutters, and he knows it. You can see it in the way his grin softens, in the way his eyes flicker to your mouth like heâs imagining it now.
You force yourself to keep your voice steady. "You should go back to practice."
James hums, tapping his broom against his shoulder. "Nah. Think Iâve done enough."
He drops onto the grass beside you, stretching his legs out like he plans to stay for a while. You shift, suddenly hyperaware of his presence, of the warmth radiating from his skin, of the way he turns to look at you like thereâs no one else in the world.
"You ever been on a broom before?" he asks, and the casualness of his tone is almost convincing. Almost.
You frown, suspicious. "Once or twice."
"Good," he says, pushing himself back onto his feet before offering you a hand. "Because I think itâs time you take a ride with me."
Your stomach plummets. "Jamesâ"
"Come on," he urges, tilting his head. "One lap. You and me. Hold on tight and Iâll do the rest."
You hesitate, looking between him and the broom like itâs some kind of test. And maybe it is. Maybe this is just another one of his ploys, another attempt to break past the walls youâve so carefully built.
But when you meet his eyes, thereâs nothing mocking there, nothing insincere. Just that same infuriating patience, the same quiet certainty that heâs had all along.
And thatâs what makes you reach for his hand.
James grins, pulling you to your feet, steadying you as he swings a leg over his broom before patting the space in front of him. "Come on, then," he murmurs, softer now. "Iâve got you."
You take a shaky breath and climb on.
James shifts closer, arms caging you in as his hands grip the broom handle just beside yours. You can feel his breath at the back of your neck, warm and steady. "See?" he murmurs, voice just below your ear. "Not so bad."
You barely have time to process it before he kicks off the ground, and suddenly, youâre soaring.
The wind bites at your skin, your stomach lurching as the world below shrinks. Your fingers clutch at the broom instinctively, knuckles white, but JamesâJames is steady behind you, unshaken. His arms are firm on either side of you, his chest pressed close to your back, solid and warm.
"Youâre alright," he murmurs, just beneath your ear. You can barely hear him over the rush of the wind, but you feel the words more than anything, sinking into your bones. "Iâve got you."
And you believe him. Thatâs the terrifying part.
James Potter is many thingsâbrilliant, untouchable, unshakableâbut he has never once let you fall.
You donât let yourself think too hard about the weight of that.
Instead, you squeeze your eyes shut, inhaling against the cold air whipping against your cheeks. "I hate this," you mutter, but your voice is breathless, betraying you.
James laughs, his chin brushing your shoulder as he dips the broom lower. "No, you donât."
And you donât. Not really. Itâs just him. His hands over yours, the way heâs tucked close behind you like you matter. Like you belong there. The way his warmth is the only thing keeping the cold from settling in too deep.
Itâs the way it always is with him.
He is warmth. He is light. He is James Potter, and he is everything you are not.
It clenches at something deep inside your chest, that awful, aching reminderâJames is James.
You have seen him in every possible light, have watched the way rooms shift when he enters, how people gravitate to him without hesitation. He belongs in the center of things, his presence too big for the edges of the world where you reside. He is brilliant. A force of nature, undeniable, blindingly golden.
And you?
You are not the kind of girl James Potter should want.
Youâre not the one who turns heads when she walks into a room, not the kind who pulls people into her orbit without trying. Youâre not outgoing, not effortlessly charming. You hesitate where James leaps. You second-guess where he is certain. He is so sure of himself, of what he wants, and youâ
You are not.
You are not sure that you are worth this. Not sure that you are worth him.
The thought makes your stomach twist, guilt curdling beneath your ribs. James deserves someone who can match his light, who can meet him where he stands, arms wide open, unafraid. He deserves someone who loves as fully as he does, someone who doesnât hesitate before diving into the deep end. Someone who doesnât hold back.
And that isnât you.
You hesitate. You hold back.
And JamesâJames loves so wholly, so recklessly, that the idea of disappointing him makes your throat tighten.
What if you ruin this? What if you let yourself believe him, let yourself reach for him, and itâs a mistake? What if he changes his mind? What if you lose him entirely?
What if losing him this wayâbit by bit, in small moments, in long glances and whispered confessionsâis still easier than losing him all at once?
"Oi, stop thinking so hard."
Jamesâs voice pulls you back, warm and teasing, his arms tightening just slightly around you.
You swallow past the lump in your throat. "I wasnâtâ"
"You were," he says, and somehow, it isnât an accusation. Just an observation, a knowing smile in his voice. He dips the broom slightly, letting it glide through the air with ease, smooth and effortless. "You always do, love."
Love.
Itâs an accident, probably. A slip of the tongue. A nothing sort of thing.
And yet it lodges in your chest like something sharp, something dangerous.
James shifts slightly behind you, the movement sending a fresh wave of warmth down your spine. His chin nearly brushes against your temple, his voice softer now. "Tell me what youâre thinking."
I think you are everything good in the world, and I am afraid to break it.
You wet your lips, staring out at the empty sky in front of you. "I think," you say, forcing your voice to stay even, "that Iâd like to get back on the ground now."
James is quiet for a beat. Not in disappointment, not in frustration. Just quiet.
Then, finally, he sighs. "Alright, dove."
He guides the broom downward, slow and steady, easing you both toward the ground. His grip never falters, never shifts from where it anchors you. And when your feet touch solid earth again, when he swings off the broom and turns to face you, you brace yourself for something.
A quip. A knowing look. A playful shove to break the tension you refuse to name.
But James just watches you.
And then, softer than anything, he murmurs, "You know Iâm not going anywhere, yeah?"
Your fingers curl into your sleeves, nails pressing into your palms. You canât bring yourself to meet his gaze.
Because you donât know that. You donât know anything.
All you know is that James Potter is warm and bright and golden, and you are terrified of losing the only light keeping you awake.
So instead of answering, you muster a small, fleeting smile. "Goodnight, James."
And before he can say anything else, before you can let yourself falter any further, you turn and walk away.
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Weeks pass, and you're certain James has given up.
He's been ever-steady, a lingering presence just at the corner of your life. He's in classes, he's in the hallways, he's in your dreams.
You tell yourself itâs better this way. That the space between you is necessary, that the ache in your chest will dull with time. That James Potter is a passing thing, a bright light that was never meant to stay.
And yetâ
He is still there.
Not pressing, not pushing, just... there.
You catch him watching you in class, the tilt of his head, the crease between his brows when you donât meet his gaze. You hear his voice before you see him, laughter warm in the space between conversations, lingering at the edges of every room. When you pass him in the corridors, he falls into step beside you like he belongs there, like he always has. He nudges your shoulder in greeting, tosses a casual alright, love? into the air like it doesnât set something alight inside you.
And it should feel different now. It should feel like he's given up. Should feel like heâs moved on, like heâs let you slip back into the background where you belong.
But it doesnât.
Because James hasnât given up.
Heâs just waiting.
And you donât know what to do with that.
So you do what you always doâyou pretend not to notice. You fold your arms tighter across your chest when he looks at you too long, you take careful steps backward when he leans in too close, you laugh at all the wrong times just to keep the air light. You keep your head down, keep your hands to yourself, keep the walls steady.
You keep pretending.
But James Potter is not someone you can ignore forever.
It happens on an evening when the corridors are quieter than usual, the last rush of students fading toward the common rooms. Youâre gathering your things from the library, stacking your books in your arms when you feel him before you see him.
"Alright, love?"
You donât startle. His voice is too familiar for that. You just exhale slowly and turn. "James."
And there he is, leaning against the doorframe like he belongs there, like heâs been waiting for you to notice him.
You glance behind him, expecting to see Sirius, Remus, maybe Peter lingering somewhere close, but the corridor is empty. Just you and him and the silence between you.
He smiles, and itâs softer than usual. Less cocky, less playfulâjust James.
"Youâve been avoiding me," he says, tilting his head, watching you carefully.
You shift the books in your arms. "I havenât."
He lifts an eyebrow. "Liar."
You inhale sharply, grip tightening around the covers. "Jamesâ"
"Just tell me," he says, stepping closer, voice quiet but steady. "Tell me what I did wrong."
Your breath catches in your throat. "What?"
"You wonât look at me anymore." His voice is gentle, but thereâs something beneath it, something aching. "You barely talk to me unless you have to. You keep running, and Iâ" He exhales sharply, dragging a hand through his hair. "Tell me what I did wrong so I can fix it."
You stare at him, heart pounding. "You didnât do anything, James."
"Then why are you pushing me away?"
Because you canât have this. Because you donât deserve him. Because youâre terrified that if you let yourself believe him, if you let yourself want him, it will end in ruin.
Because James Potter is everything good in the world, and you are afraid youâll break him.
"I justâŚ" You swallow hard, throat tight, and shake your head. "You donât have toâ"
"Yes, I do."
James steps forward, and you donât move away this time.
"Donât you get it?" His voice is quiet but certain, like itâs the simplest thing in the world. Like itâs already been decided. "I want to."
You canât breathe.
His gaze searches yours, warm and steady, and for once, you donât look away.
"You donât have to want me back," he says, so gentle it makes your ribs ache. "But stop acting like I donât mean it."
Your throat tightens.
You should push him away. You should tell him heâs wrong. That you arenât worth this, that he should find someone who is.
But you canât say any of it.
Because James Potter is looking at you like you matter. Like heâs already made his choice, like heâs just waiting for you to make yours.
And you donât know how to do anything except want.
So you stand there, caught in the weight of it, in the warmth of him, in the unbearable truth of everything youâve been trying so hard to ignore.
And for the first time, you donât walk away.
"I mean, Merlin. I've been chasing you for weeks. I can't sleep, I can hardly eat. The teams been ragging on me for playing like shit. I know, I'm a lot. I'm loud, I'm impulsive, I really don't deserve you. But give me a chance. I can prove I'm worth you dove."
You stare at him, throat tight, words stuck somewhere between your ribs.
James Potter, golden boy, brightest thing in any room, James fucking Potterâis standing in front of you, unraveled.
His shoulders are tense, fingers restless where they hover at his sides, like he wants to reach for you but isnât sure if heâs allowed. His usual confidenceâthe easy charm, the practiced bravadoâis nowhere to be found. This is him, stripped raw, vulnerable in a way youâve never seen.
And it terrifies you.
Because James is supposed to be sure. James is supposed to be steady, unwavering, untouchable. Not⌠this. Not standing here with his heart in his hands, waiting for you to decide whether or not youâll break it.
"I know I'm not easy," he exhales, running a hand through his hair, making a mess of it like he always does when heâs too wound up. "I know I talk too much, and I think with my heart first, and I donât always know when to stopâ" He pauses, swallowing hard, eyes flickering over your face like heâs searching for something, some sign that youâre listening, that you hear him.
"I justâI keep thinking, maybe if I was different, if I was quieter, if I wasnât so much, then maybe youâd let me have you." His voice is barely above a whisper now, raw and uneven. "But I donât know how to be anything but this."
Your breath catches.
James Potter, who walks into every room like he owns it, who never seems to doubt himself for a secondâdoubts this. Doubts you.
And you hate it.
You hate that heâs standing here, picking himself apart like youâre something better, something higher than him, like he hasnât been the brightest part of your world for years. Like he isnât exactly the kind of person you should want, if only you werenât so afraid.
"James," you whisper, and your voice wavers.
He exhales, shaking his head. "You donât have to say anything. I just needed you to know. I justâ" His throat bobs as he swallows, eyes darting away. "I love you, you know?"
The words punch the air from your lungs.
He says it like itâs easy, like itâs inevitable, like itâs just fact.
And maybe, for him, it is.
Maybe heâs known longer than you. Maybe heâs been waiting for you to see it, to believe it.
But you donât know how to hold something like that.
Because James Potter is love without hesitation. He is all in, always. And youâ
You donât know how to be loved like that.
"I canât," you whisper, barely choking the words out.
His face falls, just slightly, but he nods. "Okay."
"Jamesâ"
"Itâs okay," he says again, and somehow, heâs still gentle, still trying to make this easier for you when it should be the other way around. "I justâneeded you to know."
He takes a step back, and something inside you lurches, something instinctive, something that wants to reach for him, to tell him to wait.
But you donât.
You canât.
So you let him go.
And it feels like ripping your own heart out.
James takes a step back. Then another.
And then he turns.
And walks away.
No hesitation, no lingering glance over his shoulder. Just leaving.
Something in your chest lurches, a sharp, ugly thing clawing its way up your throat, twisting through your ribs like vines tightening around fragile bone. You can feel your pulse thrumming at your temples, pressing against your skin like itâs trying to escape.
Your body knows before your mind does.
A breathâsharp, unevenâcatches in your throat, and then you move.
Your legs stumble before they run, like your body is caught between hesitation and instinct, but once you start, you canât stop.
Your feet hit the stone floor hard, the sound of them echoing too loud in the empty corridor. The air is thick, choking, like youâre running against a tide, pushing against something unseen but heavy. Your blood is thrumming, rushing beneath your skin, beating against the cage of your ribs like a desperate thing, like it knowsâ
You canât let him leave.
"James."
His name rips from your throat, raw and desperate, but he doesnât stop.
His pace quickens, and something inside you clenches, pulses. You chase after him, heart hammering against your ribs, breath coming too fast, too shallow. Your fingers twitch at your sides, reaching for him, but heâs always just out of reach.
"James, stopâ"
He doesnât.
It feels like drowning. Like something vital is slipping between your fingers, water rushing through a clenched fist, a slow-motion tragedy you can see but canât stop.
The hall stretches before you, long and endless, and James is slipping further and further away.
Your throat is dry. Your chest burns. Your blood screams.
And thenâ
Then something breaks.
"James, please."
His steps falter.
Itâs barely a moment, barely a hesitation, but itâs enough.
You push forward, lungs burning, body aching, and reach for him, finally catching his wrist. Your fingers curl around his pulse, warm and alive, and the contact sends a shock through your bones, something deep and primal, something that roots you.
He stills.
His back is to you, shoulders tense beneath his sweater, and you can feel the way heâs holding himself together, like one wrong move might shatter him entirely.
You donât know what to say.
You donât know.
Only that his skin is warm, and his pulse is steady beneath your fingers, and that if you let go now, youâll never forgive yourself.
So you donât.
You swallow hard, pressing your fingertips against the inside of his wrist, feeling the blood rushing beneath his skin, proof of him, of his existence, of this.
"James," you whisper, softer now.
His breath shudders. You feel it, more than you hear it.
"Iâ" Your voice wavers, words tangled between your ribs, a mess of longing and fear and want want want.
He turns.
Slowly, like heâs afraid to look at you, like heâs bracing for something he doesnât want to hear.
And youâ
You break.
Because heâs right there.
James Potter, with his flushed cheeks and furrowed brows and parted lips, looking at you like he doesnât know whether to hope or to hurt.
Like heâs trying not to need.
Like you arenât already his.
Your throat is too tight, your heart hammering against your ribs, your hands shaking. You feel it in every inch of your body, the pull of something inevitable, something larger than just want.
James swallows, Adamâs apple bobbing, and when he speaks, his voice is barely above a whisper.
"Donât do this if you donât mean it."
The words are careful, controlled, but his eyesâ
His eyes burn.
And you thinkâblood is not the only thing that keeps a body alive.
Itâs this.
This ache, this yearning, this thing between you that has always been reaching, always been growing, always been something you were too afraid to name.
And now, here you are, standing on the edge of it, the weight of his heartbeat beneath your fingertips, the shape of his name forming behind your teeth, andâ
You take a breath.
And fall.
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It settles into your bones like warmth after winter.
Loving James.
It doesnât strike like lightning, doesnât drown like a flood. It seeps in slow, curling around your ribs, pouring into the hollow spaces of your chest like honey pooling in a jarâthick, golden, steady.
You feel it in the quiet moments, in the small things.
The way his fingers find yours beneath the breakfast table, tracing soft, lazy patterns against your palm. The way he grins into your neck when he wakes up, nuzzling into you like heâs still half-dreaming, like even unconscious, youâre the thing he wants most. The way he tugs at the hem of your sweater when youâre standing too far away, like heâs anchoring himself to you, like if he lets go, heâll drift.
James loves the way the sun risesâslow and inevitable, golden in the way that means somethingâand you think, maybe, thatâs how he loves you too.
He is warmth, always. Even in the dead of winter, even when the castle corridors are drafty and cold, even when youâre tucked beneath layers of blankets, your feet still frozen from the stone floorsâJames is warm.
And you drink him in like a starved thing, like a flower turning toward the sun, like a body that has been aching for heat its entire life.
"Youâre staring," he murmurs, voice thick with sleep, arm slung heavy across your waist.
You hum, tucked beneath the covers, fingers drifting absently over the plane of his chest. His heartbeat is steady beneath your palm, rhythmic, lulling. You press your fingers there, curling them just slightly, like you could dig past skin and muscle, past blood and bone, past everything solid and reach the grotesque, beating heart of him.
As if you donât already have it.
James exhales, tilting his head slightly to meet your gaze, eyes still heavy-lidded, hazy with sleep. His lips curve, slow and lazy, a smile meant only for you.
"Youâre mine," he murmurs, and it isnât a question.
You feel it in your bones. In the honey-thick heat of his body, in the quiet of the early morning, in the way your heart swells and swells and swells.
"Yeah," you whisper. "I am."
James hums, pleased, and tucks you closer, pressing his lips against your hair.
And you let yourself sink into it.
The warmth. The ease.
The love.
Like honey. Like sunlight. Like something that has always, always been yours.
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previous | part 3 (final) | pack!141 x omega!reader, who has a backstory with simon.
their first attempt at trying to make you and ghost get along wasnât quite successful as they hoped it would be, but slowly they manage to make you and simon share spaces more often â like the living room, or even hanging out in johnny's room without complaining â and have some quality time together. youâd exchange small words and only when necessary, but that was already a big win. it got easier and easier to plan something bigger. it wasn't until a whole month of their not-so-subtle attempts that things finally felt right â more than they ever expected it. john listened and watched his boys with all the care and attention in the world and decided to take matters into his hands, like the pack alpha he has always been. he decided to make a proper dinner night with everyone included, a way to have the moment all of you have been needing to reassure the new dynamics that have been settling within the pack, but also make it a way for you to properly talk with ghost for the first time. youâve been living with them for a few months now, how could you not spend much time as a pack? â he knew you werenât exactly a pack yet, but heâd make sure that didnât last long.Â
so, thatâs how you found yourself sitting between kyle and johnny. they work well in keeping you entertained as john goes to simonâs room to call him so you can all eat together. john had cooked with your help whilst you all engaged in light talking about your lives â or rather, theirs. ghost would pass by once in a while, not wanting to be the âkilljoyâ in the room. youâd always be polite towards him, quietly bringing him as a subject within the conversation or even directly addressing him â which he answered with a three word sentence and a shrug, most of the time. once john is back he settles on the other side of the table, sitting across from you and the betas, and ghost takes his side. the dinner goes by smoothly, you and the alpha who seems to despise you less and less often used having a mouth full as an excuse to remain in silence, but neither of the others seemed to mind.
it was the very first time you all felt like things were in their rightful place, and that started to happen more and more frequently. simon would ask things about you â he even started to ask about you to the boys like âwhereâs she at?â or âwhatâs she doing?â â and you would do small things, like when you were making tea for everyone and ghostâs was particularly stronger because he said once that thatâs how heâd take his tea. little exchanges of words turned into full conversations, the cold â hesitant â interactions turned into genuine smiles from you and playful remarks from him. you started to make it more clear that you saw him truly for the person that he was showing himself to be, and not only for his callsign and skull mask. and then, in one random ass day, you find out â or, more specifically, he tells you â what his name is. you all but cry right as the words slip through his mask-covered lips.Â
âare you⌠are you serious?â is all you can speak, the words coming out weird like theyâre not even your own. the tone in your voice is so serious he thinks it wouldnât be a great idea to make a lame joke to lighten the mood â like he grew used to, getting back a bit to being the careless teenager he once was.
âyeah⌠why?â he answers, dark brown eyes trying to take in what youâre expressing through your features because he canât smell anything from you â something he started to hate, he thinks to himself.
âuh⌠just, something i told kyle onceââ you cut yourself, feeling emotional. great, now not only youâd think about your lost friend when youâd stare into ghostâs eyes, youâd have to call him by your friendâs name too. you quickly realize that itâd be less painful to call him âghostâ, but you also thought that maybe you could play pretend sometimes, giving in to the longing that plagues your mind from the friendship you never got to have closure from.
simon only hums, showing that heâs understanding even though heâs not sure what he should think about it. so instead of wondering and feeding unlikely possibilities in his mind â overthinking, but he will never admit it â he goes to kyle. on the very same day he finds himself knocking on the betaâs door, after ensuring that you were cuddling johnny on the couch.
âcome in,â kyle calls from inside. as simon steps inside he can see kyle moving on his bed to sit up. âoh, siâŚâ he says, sounding a bit too surprised before questioning, âwhat do you need?â
âjust⌠i told my name to her todayâŚâ he starts without much ceremony, watching as kyle shifts in his position almost as if he's physically uncomfortable. interesting, he thinks.
âdid you, now? whatâd she say?â he asks, trying not to seem so worried. he was afraid you had fallen into anxietyâs arms like it usually happens when you have a nightmare.
ânothing, really⌠just looked at me like i was lying, even asked if i was serious.â he replies, honestly. he watches as kyle reaches to grab his hand, pulling him closer until they are sitting side by side on bed. âand then she mentioned you. so i thought maybe you knew somethingâŚâ
kyle stays silent for a moment, thinking if telling simon would be something youâd be mad about. he brings their hands to his lap, brushing simonâs knuckles with his thumb in a tender manner before speaking, âshe had a best friend in town when she was younger, and he was named simonâŚâ he can smell the alphaâs discomfort, but he keeps talking. âshe said that she was still a teenager when they saw each other for the last time. said he ran away.â
simon heart stops in his chest. the beta can see the sorrow that burns in his skin, so he projects his scent to try and calm him down. simon is as still as a stone â thinking what he thought was impossible â, but after a few minutes too long he manages to voice out his inner turmoil. âi⌠i donât think i ever told you that, but i had a friend too, back where my parents left me when i was younger.â he glances at kyle, who is patiently listening, before he adds, âshe was an omega, and i left her behind⌠thatâs why i couldnât bring myself near her, yâknow?â
the younger man only nods, happy at the confession despite its heavy background. they sit there sharing soft caresses while kyle decides to make a confession of his own. âyou donât think itâs possible⌠that it is her?â he questions carefully, not wanting to overstep a boundary, but simonâs reply catches him off guard.
âyeahâŚâ his voice is gentle, almost a whisper. âi mean, iâve only thought about it after today... just donât want toââ his voice cracks, but he clears his throat pushing the fear away. he shakes his head as he speaks, âi canât be wrong, kyle.â
âweâll get through this, si. all of us.â is his answer. he hugs simonâs shoulders and the alpha allows the warmth that spreads within him at the motion.
it takes exactly one day of researching your past for simon to make up his mind and decide that it is time to see this though. he had gathered enough information â things youâve said to them along the months â to know that it was you. he waits until youâre in the couch with john and johnny, watching a weird tv show they seemed to share a deep interest in. he steps inside the living calling for kyle to join them, who comes from the kitchen a second later. he stands there looking at you and you sit up straighter on the couch. you donât have time to question whatâs wrong because â after getting elbowed by kyle â simon starts talking, very nervously so.
âso, uh⌠iâ this is not a big of a deal,â he lies, but they all ignore it. you have your eyes focused on him. âjust, god, iâll just take my mask off and, uhâ yeahâŚâ
heâs so awkward you almost want to laugh, but you donât because that seemed too mean of you. you watch very intently as he steps closer to the couch, not even realizing that john and johnny were standing up. simonâs hands reach for the hem of his balaclava, and suddenly you grow very nervous, curious and a bit apprehensive. i swear, you think, that if they look anything alike iâm gonna lose it. it was enough that the simons had the same eyes. you take in his slightly chapped lips, blond eyebrows and very blond hair. the long healed scars here and there adding a dangerous charm to his features. much to your dismay, you realize way too quickly that they do in fact look very much alike. so much so, that ghost seemed simply an older, scarred version of the boy you held so much fondness for â wait.
âoh my god,â comes your breathless voice. the words stumble out your lips before you can stop them. âsimonâŚ?â you say, uncertainty clouding your thoughts before you watch him nod in his own hesitation. you canât deny it nor ignore the realization that washes over you, your scent masking drops completely as your hands come to your face. and thatâs when it hits him, he can smell you. âsimonâŚâ itâs quiet for a moment. john watches the scene unfold from where he stands near the entrance to the living room, kyle and johnny moving to stand beside him as they eye you and simon. it made sense that simon wouldnât have remembered you immediately, he spent way too many years trying to push away the memories of you â the memories of his mistake. but you? you tried to keep the same memories with all you could, because that was all you had.
and poor simon is so lost. he expects you to back away, to maybe even run and lock yourself away in your room out of pure disgust. or maybe youâd scream at him, intoxicate the room with the smell of your disappointment, wrath and sorrow. you could push him, slap him, punch him â whatever, any harmful reaction wouldâve been welcome, because it was you. god, it was you, it had been all this time and he blindly avoided you like a plague. if you didnât hate him enough before you must certainly do now â except, you donât. nothing couldâve ever prepared simon for your reaction. he can see it happening but he doesn't acknowledge it until you're drowning in your tears. soft sobs and hiccups leave your lips as you bury your head in your palms. your shoulders shake like crazy and theyâre all certain that youâre not breathing at all in between your silent crying. that is, until your eyes seek simon in the room and thereâs not a single drop of distaste in them. not sadness, not anger, just pure adoration and bliss, the delightful sensation that heâs alive and heâs okay and heâs here. right now, in front of you â not in a nightmare, not in a dream. you move before you can think and when you realize youâre already on him, but all you do is rest your forehead to his chest, arms limp on your sides â like you always did when you were just two awkward teens trying to get through life.
âthank god,â you whisper and itâs just so broken, soft and gentle but so fucking filled with emotion that it drowns everyone in the room. johnâs arms come to rest on each of his betaâs shoulders, johnny is already crying and kyle is blinking away the tears as they watch you and simon.
âbloody hellâŚâ simon mumbles, his eyebrows furrowed and thereâs a confused little pout on his lips. itâs the first time he gets to smell you without any restraint from you or him, and he lets himself drown in the moment â he allows himself to truly savor this, because heâs sure heâs about to wake up. âyouâre aliveâŚâ he moves slowly as if to not startle you, right hand resting on your waist as the other finds its place on the back of your head. his nose brushes on your hair, taking in your scent but it did nothing to conceal his craving. so the hand on the back of your head dips to your nape, the very tip of his fingers come to brush down your neck with such tenderness that it leaves a trail of thrill tingling down your skin. you tilt your head slightly, giving him permission to continue and he is so very glad you did, because not even a second later he's sinking his head, nose finding your scent glands like he's a man starved â and you let him, fingers curling on the fabric of his shirt just enough to wrinkle it.
it takes a while for him to step away, his eyes teary and unfocused for a moment before he slowly drops to his knees for you to do the same. your hand leaves his shirt to find his shoulders, balancing your faltering weight on him as you sink your head towards him. you press your face on his scent glands and god, it just made so much sense now. he smells the same, just more mature and a bit aged â just like whiskey â and it has your eyelids fluttering close immediately. when you straighten up and look down at him, there's a new sense of fulfillment taking place in your heart. you reach for his arm, urging him to get up and as he complies, you turn to your boys â your sweet, patient men who had put so much effort into this.
you don't have to say anything. before you can let out a single word johnny is on you, arms hugging your waist as he pulls you to him. you giggle and let him have you for a second before your hand finds the back of his head. you guide him gently to your neck and you can hear the gasp that falls from lips as realization washes over him. he's not as gentle as simon â too eager to finally finally scent you â as his nostrils open to take in as much of your scent as he can. his head rubs on the skin of your shoulders and neck before he backs away and you roll your eyes at his antics. when you move to scent him, his head is already tilted to the side and his reddish eyes are closed, his breath hitches when your nose touches his skin, he couldnât believe this was happening. his scent is familiar of course, but to be able to smell it directly from the font has you a bit dizzy in his arms.
kyle watches as you disentangle yourself from johnnyâs grasp, your eyes find him instantly where he's standing with john, who you glance over right after. it's john who moves first, offering his hand to you which you gladly accept. you move until your back is lightly touching the alphaâs chest. kyle is right in front of you, eyes roaming your features and your hands find his chest, your nose pressing on his collarbone over his shirt and then on his jaw. once you press further to have better access to his skin he puts a hand on your hip. it stays there when he moves to take in your scent, grip tightening as he pushes past the lingering of johnny's scent to seek yours. he leaves a soft peck on your neck before moving you, the hand on your hip urging you to face john.
it's very fitting, really â the fact that simon had to be the first to scent you, while john would be the last. he lets kyle hold you by your hips, his own hands find your cheeks where he leaves a soft caress with his thumbs. then something changes a bit, he does the same thing johnny did, rubbing his face on the juncture of your shoulder and neck â his beard a bit more than just ticklish on your skin â, before his nose found the spot on your neck where your scent was strongest. he's clearly hesitant to let you go, so instead you pull him closer, projecting your scent so he'd feel surrounded by you â at the point, all of them would. you take advantage of the hug-like position to bury your face in his neck â your back pressed on kyleâs chest letting him know that he is a part of this moment just as much as you or john. you stay like that for a moment before you move away, and it reminds you of the very first night you spent in the flat, where you and john squeezed kyle between you two until sleep got the best of you.
when you look for johnny and simon, you find them sitting on the couch watching you. and as you savor your very first moment as a pack, you relish the fact that you wouldnât trade this for anything else in the world â and neither would them.
a/n: was this rushed ya'll? i don't know, i have mixed feelings about it, let me know what you think. uptade | taglist: @camcvpidd @fruitymoonbeams-blog @throwing-up-butterflies @yearninglustfully @faggotinie @theo-the-danger-mouse
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marvel men + love languages
steve rogers - physical touch + words of affi
the sacred combo!! steve is a clingy mf - either always having his arms wrapped around his s.o, a hand on their leg or on their waist, and if he's not with them, he'll be texting you all day, asking how you are and just chatting. steve has had to learn to live every day like it's his last, so he'll never go to work, bed, or even to the shops, without telling you he loves you. it's just part of his routine, really.
bucky barnes - acts of service
bucky is not very good with words, or with expressing himself. even before hydra, it was something he struggled with. so, acts of service are his main love language. it can be little things - making coffee in the morning, putting the laundry away when he knows you're busy - or bigger things, like taking your car into the shop when you forget, or building new furniture, or shaking down your weird co-worker who was kinda mean the other day. he finds so much purpose in just making your life easier (in a healthy way!!).
sam wilson - quality time
sam is a man of quality time. he has to work away quite a lot and is always on the go with work and his tasks, but when he does see you - and he makes sure it's a fair amount - he tries to make it count. hell, it doesn't even matter what you do, as long as he's with you. sam does try to make sure you're always having a good balance of chill time and fun activities though, so he always plans the best day.
frank castle - words of affirmation + gifts
aight this might seem weird bc frank is not very good with words (try and make him form a sentence without a swear word or abbreviation, i dare you) but the ones he does say, he always means. especially when he says that he loves you and would probably kill for you. but, it's frank's famously bad way with words that make you realise how much he loves you - because you're the only person he will verbally open up to and be a complete and open book with. as for gifts, every single one he has ever bought you has been the most thoughtful, sweet things; stuff you wouldn't even think to buy yourself. it's just a testament for how well he knows you.
matt murdock - physical touch
this one feels fairly obvious tbh, because alongside his hearing, matt's touch is his the sense he relies on most. he loves your voice and the way you sound but most of all, he loves the way you feel. whether it's the feeling of your skin against his, your fingers all tangled up, or when you kiss him, he just fucking loves it. physical touch is matt's favourite way of knowing you.
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him, just him



a/n: taking care of satoru because he deserves it <3 (especially after that post)
word count: 1.6k
fem!reader x gojo satoru, sfw
most people would say that gojo is spoiled. he's the strongest, after all - he has all the power anyone could want, fame within the jujutsu society, and money. what else could he want or need?
gojo himself thinks he's spoiled - no, not because of the materialistic things like money and fame, and definitely not because of his burdensome power. it's because of his wife. everything else is put to shame when he has you. he really couldn't want or need anything else.
but to you, he was anything but spoiled. you felt like you could never do enough for him. still, you try to do as much as you can for him, wanting to make his life easier and to bring back the striking light in his cerulean orbs that have dimmed over the years.
so here you are, at two a.m., anticipating your husband's return from a mission. earlier, he messaged you of the estimated time that he will be finished and that should be any minute now. he had also told you not to wait up for him, but now, you are running a soothing bath for him.
the bathroom light is off, a few scented candles planted on the counter and on the edge of the bathtub create a soothing ambience. the smell of chamomile fills the air as you had infused the warm bath water with an oil specific for relaxation.
you had noticed that, recently, his responsibilities between teaching and being called on missions has caught up to him. it was normal for sorcerers to experience burnout, even for gojo, contrary to popular belief. it's expected due to the lack of sleep, the burden of the world on his shoulders, the responsibilities of the teaching and lives of the students, and the stress of the higher-ups.
as you get caught up in your concerned thoughts about gojo, you barely hear the aforementioned man come home. his steps are quiet, his feet practically dragging along the floor due to his exhaustion.
â(y/n)?â he calls softly as he steps into the bedroom, finding the bed made and no one sleeping in it. he frowns slightly, wondering where you could be. did something happen?
before his thoughts could spiral down a negative hole, you appear at the doorway of the bedroom. âi'm here, my love.â you approach him with a loving smile, immediately wrapping your arms around his tall figure. his own arms find their way around you, keeping you in a tight embrace as he closes his eyes to savour your warmth and comfort.
âwhy aren't you sleeping?â is the first thing he says to you, yet he makes no move to tear away from the hug. of course, he thinks about you before himself.
âcome with me,â you say simply, not providing an answer or explanation. you slide your hand down to his, lacing your fingers together and gently tugging him towards the bathroom.
âbaby, i really just want to go to--â his voice is husky with fatigue, his sentence getting cut off when you both step into the dimly lit bathroom filled with soothing scents. he pauses, looking between you and the bath setup. âis this for me?â
âmhm, just for you.â
he swallows thickly, standing there as if unfamiliar with the situation. âmy sweet...â he trails off, lips parted as if wanting to say something else but the words not formulating.
with a smile, you bring your entwined hands up to your lips, gently kissing the back of his hand. âi know you wouldn't go to a spa, so i brought the spa to you. for a few days.â
the lump in his throat grows larger, choking on his words as he tries to express his appreciation, his thoughts. you give his hand a gentle squeeze in understanding, hoping he knows that he doesn't need to thank you.
despite his appreciation, there's a lingering thought that he has to voice. âand the higher-ups approved of this?â
âhmm, technically no. but when have we ever cared about what they say? you need this, my love, don't think about it. forget about your responsibilities, being the strongest, being gojo satoru. just be you for a few days, okay?â you urge him, your eyes almost pleading as you look up at him.
his beautiful, beautiful eyes become slightly misty in response to your words, a look of adoration and pure, tender love glistening in them. he doesn't respond, rendered speechless again while he keeps his eyes locked onto yours. he doesn't know if he can just be himself, to forget about the identity forced upon him practically since birth.
you notice the uncertainty swirling around in his eyes, revealing the disarray of thoughts in his mind. âmy love?â you say softly, withdrawing him from his spiral.
â... sorry.â
you shake your head with a small smile. âthere's nothing to apologise for. come on, get in the bath before it gets cold.â
âundress me?â his cheeky smile comes back.
you laugh softly, stepping closer to him. his eyes follow your movements, glancing down at your hand that reaches for the zipper of his dark jacket. you slowly tug it down, revealing the black t-shirt he wears beneath. he takes that off himself, while you work on his trousers and boxers. it's a completely uninhibited, intimate moment. no sense of desire, just complete tenderness as he stands bare before you with a few scars adorning his porcelain skin.
once you're done, he lifts your hand to your lips and kisses each of your fingertips gently. his gaze makes your heart skip a beat; it's so full of intense love and devotion.
you clear your throat before speaking, but your voice still comes out small. âdo you need anything else?â
âno, just you. will you join me?â
âif you want me to. i was planning on washing your hair, not necessarily joining you.â
âyou can still wash my hair that way.â
he settles into the warm bath, letting out a heavy, contented sigh as it seems to take an immediate effect. he reaches his hand out for you, spreading his legs under the water so that you can take your seat between them. after slipping out of your own clothes, you take his hand and let him help you into the water. once you're sitting, he tugs you against his chest with your back towards him.
âi don't think i can wash your hair this way,â you point out. he leans forward slightly to rest his chin on your shoulder, his arms around your torso as his thumb rubs circles into your skin.
he smiles, pressing a kiss to your neck. âit's alright. i just wanna hold you like this for a bit.â
the two of you stay like that for a while, tangled limbs and sharing each other's warmth in a serene silence that settles around you. you almost think that gojo fell asleep behind you since he has been quiet the whole time but then, his lips move against the back of your neck. âi love you,â it's the softest of whispers, yet it's so heartfelt and powerful, his tone so soaked in emotion that his voice almost cracks.
âi love you, too, âtoru,â you murmur, and you feel the beating of his heart quicken as his chest is moulded to your back. âyou wanna let me wash your hair now?â
he hums and nods in response, switching your positions so that he is now sitting between your legs with his back leaning against your chest. his eyes flutter closed as he feels warm water rain onto his hair; a quick rinse before you squeeze shampoo into your palm, gently lathering his hair and massaging his scalp.
a gravelly groan rumbles in the depths of his throat as your fingers thread through his hair, ensuring every strand is soapy, and the tips of your fingers manage to soothe every ache in his body.
âfeels good,â he mumbles, sounding as if he's on the verge of sleep. trust buzzes between the two of you as he allows you to take care of him in the way you know best.
âi'm glad,â you reply softly with a smile.
asking him to keep his eyes closed and tilt his head back a little more, you begin to wash out the suds from his hair. the gentle manner in which you treat him is something he isn't used to - he feels as if you handle him as something so fragile that if you moved too rashly, he would shatter.
he feels a lump grow in his throat and he traps his lower lip between his teeth to stop it from trembling. taking a deep, shaky breath, a crystal tumbles down the curve of his cheek which catches your attention. your hands freeze in his hair.
âmy love?â you utter with such concern. he unlids his eyes once more, and with his head still tipped back, he stares up at you from his upside-down angle, yet you're able to see the emotions swirling in the waves of his ocean eyes. one motion of a wave, and another salty trickle escapes. âhey...â you lean down to brush your lips against his forehead and he tilts his head further into your touch, craving your affection. you trail your lips down to kiss each of his eyelids with the gentleness of a feather.
his lips curve up into a smile, an unsteady one, but a smile nevertheless. he reaches up, fingers rooting themselves on your cheek as his thumb brushes against it.
âi love you,â he whispers once more, âand i love the way you love me.â
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five hargreeves x reader smut
word count: 1.9k
warnings: enemies to lovers smut 18+, five and reader are 20, kinda switch! five? idek, choking, fingering, unprotected piv
summary: you and five return to elliot's after a failed attempt at reaching reginald at the mexican consulate, leading to a fight that leads to a little more...
author's note: i need to come up with some new stuff cause pretty much every single fic has the same dynamics but i just love it so much i can't stop lol, also i'm still working on a request but it made me think of this so i got a little distracted lol
not proofread

âItâs your fault he got away in the first place.âÂ
âAre you fucking kidding me?âÂ
You and Five, your bothersome partner at the time traveling agency known as The Commision, were making your way up the stairs back up to Elliotâs place.Â
After failing to save the world back in 2019, Five managed to muster up enough energy to time travel with you and his siblings to get you all out of danger. He ended up dropping you and his family off at different points in time between 1960 and 1963 in Dallas, Texas.Â
You had only gotten here two days before he did, staying in Elliotâs giant home and sifting through his enormous collection of conspiracies. It was you who accidentally planted that alien idea in his head when he watched you use your power. Whoops.Â
âYou were the one who got all soft on seeing your daddy again that you gave up our hiding spot and made him run off,â you retorted.Â
You made your way over to the door before Five blinked inside without you. Hearing his footsteps walk away, you sighed and pulled the key you had borrowed out of your pocket and opened the door. Five blinked the two of you a majority of the way here, as far as his energy could take you, leaving Diego and Lila behind to walk all the way here.Â
âAnd we couldâve caught up with him if you would just hold your own,â he scoffed, already having poured himself a cup of coffee and heading into Elliotâs living room.Â
âYou think I canât hold my own? How many goddamn times have I saved your ass while you were getting beat down, Five?â
You were getting even more pissed, raising your voice now as you walked over to him angrily.Â
âNot to mention you only had to deal with one of those assholes while I had to fight two! In heels! And even after you tossed your guy out the window, you just blinked off! Some partner you are.âÂ
You pushed him a little as you emphasized your words. Of course, he was a good partner when it mattered, he did save your life after Vanya blew up the moon after all. But it sure seemed like he didnât care about you at all in moments like this.Â
He almost lost your balance when you put your hands on him, spilling his coffee over the side of the mug. Setting it down, he turned to you with an angry glare and shoved you back.Â
âWell donât go thinking you can fight me now, Y/N,â he said, almost daring, âBecause trust me, you wonât win-âÂ
As he was finishing his sentence you took a fast swing to the side of his face, before he caught it and blinked you both into the small guest room that Elliot lended you both.Â
He twisted your arm back and threw you forward onto the wooden floor. The room was dim except for a warm tiffany lamp on the bedside table. The air was clear and warm due to the open window, letting in the sounds of Dallas nightlife.Â
You landed rough on your hands and knees. Maybe you shouldnât have picked another fight considering you were still sore from earlier, but you werenât going to back down now.Â
After looking up at him for a moment, all smug yet still awaiting your next move, you quickly got up and tackled him, thinking itâd be easier on you to take this fight down to the ground.Â
Five braced himself from your impact and blinked, not wanting to hit the hard floor, and you both landed onto the guest bed. The anger in your eyes never left as you landed a punch right on his cheek, your might distracting you from your new position.Â
Before you could pull your arm back to hit him a second time, he wrapped his fingers around your forearm and used his other hand to grab you by the throat.Â
A whimper left you as he tightened his grip, cutting off your airway. Bringing up your other hand, you tried to peel his fingers off your neck. Yet he didnât let up, his fingers getting tighter and tighter, waiting for you to tap out.Â
You inevitably did, your muscles way too tired to fight this stupid battle, as you tapped your hand on his wrist to get him to release you.Â
When he let go, you brought your hand to your neck, massaging where his harsh grip once was as you caught your breath quickly.Â
You hadnât fully taken in your position, but Five sure had.Â
He watched you as you laid on top of him, crading him, sitting just where he wanted you to.Â
You looked dazed, all red in the face, hair a little messed up, chest raising as you panted heavily, his hormones had been driving him insane ever since the two of you traveled back and landed in your 20 year old bodies.Â
It took you another moment to get the blood flowing through your brain again, but once it did, it acknowledged how you were sitting on top of him, pressing against a growing bulge in the front of his dress pants.Â
Your breathing slowed more as you looked down to where your crotch met his before meeting his eyes. He stared at you with nothing more than lust darkening his irises and a flush on his cheeks.Â
A smile crept on your face as you looked at him beneath you, eyeing his lips slightly before leaning forward, lowering yourself and meeting them with yours.Â
His lips moved with yours perfectly as he pushed further into the kiss. He was about to move his hands to entangle them in your hair, but you had taken them in your hand and brought them up over his head. Â
The kiss was definitely messy. Tongues clashing and lip biting, you were surprised neither of you drew a little blood.Â
You felt him trying to assert dominance in your mouth as you fought right back, his hands remained held together until suddenly he blinked free.Â
You landed on the bed, confused for a moment until you saw a blue flash in the corner of your eye. His hands landed on your shoulders, strongly flipping you onto your back, maneuvering himself to be in between your open legs, and immediately latching onto your neck, causing you to let out a gasp at the sensation.Â
Instead of holding them above your head, he grasped both your hands in one of his and held them to your chest, reaching down under your pleated sixties skirt, feeling you through your underwear.Â
âA little fight gets you this wet?â he teased softly as he nipped at your neck.Â
You bit your lip, not wanting to give him the satisfaction of getting any more noises out of you. The fact that you were this wet for him was already bruising your ego.
He peeked up to see the look on your face, admiring the struggle he was putting you through as he slowly rubbed your slit through your panties while sucking harsh marks into your neck.Â
He moved the damp fabric to the side, coating his fingers in your slick, before stuffing them into you. The little gasp you let out satisfied him but not to the extent to which he wouldâve liked, so he kept at it, moving his fingers through you, reaching that deep spot that made your eyes roll back in pleasure.Â
Once he picked up the pace, he could tell it was getting harder for you to keep quiet, with the tiniest of whimpers leaving your lips. The palm of his hand met your clit as the pressure became too much. You turned your head into the soft pillow which your head laid upon to stifle your noises.Â
He didnât like this however, as he let go of your hands in front of your chest and grasped your chin instead, squeezing your cheeks slightly to keep your mouth open.Â
At this point it was no use. The pressure built up inside you as he planted kisses on your neck, with little teases of encouragement, telling you you let go, which you did.Â
Moans, pleading, and chants of curses spilled from your open mouth as the growing pleasure finally gave in, letting you come hard all over his fingers.Â
He let you ride out your high slightly as he admired your face. The usual stern and angry look you usually addressed to him was long gone, now replaced with a dazy, flushed look with dilated pupils as wide as saucers.Â
He removed his fingers slowly, before flipping up your skirt and pulling your underwear off entirely, before unzipping his pants and pausing before he lowered his own underwear.Â
Leaning back down to kiss you softly, he made sure you were okay with continuing. Once he received your quick, eager nod, he finally released himself after being restrained against his tightening boxers for so long.Â
As he leaned over you, you observed him closely. His dark hair now messy, his usually cold green eyes now softened, youâve never seen Five look so not put together but you loved it.Â
Him sliding inside you broke you out of your thoughts. He fell into the crook of your neck once again as he groaned at the feeling of your walls surrounding him, your warmth was too much. Your head dipped back, almost hitting the headboard as you didnât even bother stopping yourself from letting out whimpers every time he hit that spot. He quickly rutted into you as you both didnât want to waste any time before getting to that high that your hormonal bodies have been craving ever since your consciousnesses had been thrown into them in 2019.Â
Although the two of you werenât that rough, you could still hear the headboard knocking into the wall every time he thrusted into you, but your mind felt mushy with the pleasure and couldnât come up with the words to say anything.Â
It wasnât long before the two of you were panting each other's names and you felt the pressure built up again. You came loudly, squeezing him before he came too, pumping himself into you at a slowing pace before he stilled.Â
The two of you were wrapped up in each other, panting into each other's faces, gasping as he pulled out slowly.Â
You both quickly cleaned up and fixed your disheveled clothing, not making eye contact just yet, not knowing what this meant between you.Â
Five ventured outside the room first, you were worried that maybe Diego or Lila overheard and were going to endlessly tease you both over the fact that the tension between you finally snapped.Â
But instead, you heard your new acquaintance/host awkwardly question Five about alien procreation.Â
~~~
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DRAGON DREAMS.
Aemond Targaryen x wife!Reader



Monthly nightmares have already plagued you way before your wedding, even though your grandfather has always addressed them as dragon dreams rather than nightmares. But you and your husband both know youâre not gifted with such abilities.
WARNINGS: canon typical incest/targcest (uncle/niece), nightmares, slight angst, fluff
WORDS: 625
NOTES: this was requested by @marthawrites. Hope you still like it! đ
Itâs impossible for you to run.
Your feet are firmly planted on the ground, not moving regardless of you tugging and pulling at them to lift them and escape the brown dragon in front of you. Even your voice catches in your throat, unable to scream when the large mouth of Sheepstealer snaps towards you, the sharp teeth appearing even more intimidating with the light of the moon reflecting from them.
You stir awake, beads of sweat forming along your hairline and in the valley between your breasts. A hand on your mouth is meant to stifle your screams and sobs, not wanting to wake up your husband. Your breathing is heavy, and it takes you a few moments to adjust to the darkness of your chambers as you prop yourself up on your elbows.
Still half asleep, Aemond rolls onto his side and snakes his arm around your waist to pull you into his embrace, your head resting against his chest as his nose nuzzles into your hair.
âBad dream?â Itâs more a statement than a question, because your husband knows the answer. Monthly nightmares have already plagued you way before your wedding, even though your grandfather has always addressed them as dragon dreams rather than nightmares.
But you and Aemond know youâre not gifted with such abilities, itâs just that your mind has a lot to process with the rising tension between both sides of your family.
His presence always works wonders, the warmth radiating off his body and his scent slowing your panicked breathing and the turmoil inside of your mind, allowing you to melt into him.
While Aemondâs hand cups the back of your neck, his fingers apply just a bit of pressure to your stiff muscles in order to release the pent up tension, and you find yourself being able to speak again.
âIâItâsâŚ,â you stammer, your breathing still causing you to stutter through a sentence. âSheepâŚSheepstealer,â you sigh, âhe⌠he...â
A gentle nod reassures you to continue as you crane your neck to look up at him.
âWe wanted to fly to Dragonstone,â you sniff, panic settling in your bones again at just remembering what has happened. âVhagar was already high up in the sky, when⌠and when I wanted to mount him, h⌠heâŚâ
Aemond brings his hand to the back of your head and holds you against his body to calm you down. âHe ate you?â he finishes the sentence for you, and you just nod hurriedly, mumbling a âyesâ against his chest.
Most people, including your parents, perceive Aemond as cold and ignorant, and the gods know he can be like that. You have thought that too for the longest time, or rather from the moment he has lost his eye to the moment your courtship has been made official, but you have learned to see the genuine intent behind the things he does, hear the subtle changes in his voice, and suddenly he was just as attentive as any other man around, if not even a bit more.
Aemond kisses the crown of your head before speaking, âYour bond is strong, my love, and you know he would never do that.â And he is right. Even before youâve bonded with Sheepstealer, the dragon never showed any ill-will toward you. He always was curious, despite the many failed attempts of claiming him other people had tried before.
âAvy jorrÄelan,â you mumble. I love you.
âAvy jorrÄelan,â comes the reply.
That Aemondâs grip doesnât loosen around you makes it easier to find sleep again, and while your soft snores already fill his ears, he nuzzles his nose into your hair to take in your scent, thinking about a way to put this misery to an end.
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Armin, Jean, Eren and Mikasa overhearing
their crush saying "why would I tell them that I like them? I can't compete with (Annie/Mikasa/Eren)".
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Content Warning: Self-loathing under Armin's section.
Armin's brain completely stutters to a stop the moment he overhears it, his ribs feeling like they might concave at the slightest moment. He's overwhelmed and flustered, unable to look you in the eyes for the days to come, regardless if you knew he overheard or not. Stewing in it comes easy; talking to you about it is another.
Ever since the Scouts reclaimed Shiganshina, he's been plagued with self doubt. With feeling inadequate and so much self loathing that it's hard to put the pieces back together. Talking to Annie wasn't anything important to him- not like you were.
He was visiting Annie's crystal because he felt flawed, a mistake. A part of him ached to be needed, to satisfy that part of him that wanted to justify what they did to her. That thought: if Annie could be salvaged, couldn't he? That he wasn't a monster because of what happened.
With you it was different; he could express his fears and vulnerabilities. No one else had seen this side to him; the drive to be better, who saw him at his lowest and drove him to excel. Annie was an ideal, a ghost that he couldn't chase.
You? You were real. You, who fought alongside him, helped him to his feet, metaphorically and possibly physically. The way you held yourself, interacted with him. How could he not admire you? Like you?
What did he do to make you think this way? That you weren't so utterly important to him?
Armin tends to be more withdrawn with you around since he overheard that comment, trying to find the right words to say. Bravery comes not from the brain, as they say.
"I like you too!" He exclaims one day, red-faced and stumbling over his words as he tries to make them come out. Strategy planning is easy; risking people is a burden he can handle. But risking you?
Armin stampers through a confession that he heard you that day. But he's earnest, heart on his sleeve because it's only ever belonged to you.
"I didn't like her that way at all! I've only liked you, and, if you're - wanting to, we could-" He stammers through his sentences, getting utterly redfaced and earnest as he tries to find the right words to say. Later, it'll be easier when he's not pouring his heart out, but he knows you deserve to know. That maybe he deserves this too.
Him? You like Jean? Those overheard words don't really process through Jean's mind quickly enough as he passes by the room you're in.
It's a lot to unpack, mostly because you didn't want to tell him.
His words simmer in his throat. He thinks he can push this down; smother it like he's done so many other things. A part of him thinks it should die like that - after all, you didn't plan to say anything. Didn't think he was worth it, to share that secret with.
But he lives with regrets - Marco - not shooting -- but also not living up to the life that he wants. That he knows he deserves.
It's sprung on you, later, when the two of you are filling up gas cylinders.
"I'm not in love with Mikasa." They're heavy words met with silence but he means them, eyes downcast as his hands idle. The silence is damning but you're worth it. By the Walls, you've always been worth it. "And I never have been. I liked her before, but." He gives a slight roll of his shoulders, trying to find the right words.
But he isn't a coward and he doesn't want to waste time, especially knowing that you feel the same way. Looking up, his eyes dart from you, to the wall and back again. "You can't compare to her." And, that sounds so much worse when he says it so he grabs tightly onto your arm, forcing your eyes to meet. "Fuck, I mean, you're not competing with her. Alright?"
He makes a sound, torn between a sigh and a groan as he runs his hands through his hair. "I heard what you said, before, about - You're not her, and I don't want you to be. I'd never choose her over you. I love you." It's not quite what he meant to say but the words fall easily, readily. "And dammit, I really wish you'd choose me too."
Mikasa is, unfortunately, standing behind you when those words leave your lips. When you inevitably turn to face her, there's no hint of what she's thinking visible on her face. Her cool eyes never leave you even when one of the captains walk in to deliver another mission.
Outwardly, everything she does seems to come off as a rejection; she doesn't talk to you about it, doesn't treat you differently. If one considers less and less talk as 'not any different'.
Not talking to you though... it feels like a small candle sputtering out - and her hands burn beneath the wax.
She's... not sure how to process any of that at all. She'd always been so concerned with Eren, with Armin and helping them accomplish their lifelong dreams. She never really took a moment to dwell in her own thoughts.
Her thoughts on Eren were chaotic at best; clouded by their game of tug-of-war, always trying to mother him, protect him. Getting shunned for it. She never had to do that with you - not to the same extent, anyway.
Hearing you say those words - "I like her" -- it's putting a name to the face she'd seen in her mind. Like. Affection. A warmth in her chest whenever she saw you, accompanied with a low and simmering trust. How easy it was, for once, to look at someone and have them look right back, and see her for who she is.
She only mentions it, much later, when you're both assigned to a practice mission. Where only time and the sun overhead is your company, forced to wait idle until a new command is issued.
"I want to talk about what you said," is how she begins. "About liking me." Her hands move to her scarf, something raw wedged in her chest that makes her feel so vulnerable with her face bared. Instead, her fingers loosen and it remains still around her neck. She wants you to see her as she is, what she's offering you.
"Eren is... like family to me. I would do anything for him." It's a brutal, almost cold way that she says those words. She means it, and you mean a lot to her, so she doesn't want any confusion.
"But you are not Eren. You are not family to me and I don't want you to be. You're important to me too. I don't want you to see me as your sister or protector." Her grey eyes search yours, searching for any kind of sign. "I like you too."
Eren has the most physical reaction. Shoulders locking, back straightening and all but sprinting as he rushes up to you. "What!" His mouth is running hot and fast, not able to get the words out fast enough.
Eren is a man of action; thinking things through wasn't his strong suit, nor did it ever have to be. But Mikasa? Mikasa!? Out of everyone? The girl who he grew up with, routinely tried to shield him from everything? Frustration rises hot in his throat as he thinks - didn't you know him at all?
How could he ever like Mikasa when there was you? You who defended him, humoured his ideals, cheered him on during his training, didn't see him for the monster he thought he was.
Weaving between cadets, racing as fast as he can to you, he knows he has to put his foot down. He's tired of all the secrets and lies, and he certainly doesn't want any between the two of you. Not when it's something like this.
"I don't like her!" Each word is punctuated loud and fast, trying to squash that idea as quickly as it came. Why did everybody always think that? He's gestulating, trying to get you to look at him, ignoring how your confidants stare at him. "Mikasa is -" His face scrunches up, harsh words on his tongue, resentful but not towards you. You've never treated him as fragile or incapable. How could he ever think of her that way when you filled that spot?
"We're not like that at all!" He adds, promising himself that he'll explain it in a calmer discussion later. "I wanted you!"
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