#i can be happy for a bit ig
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Hghhhggh whats the point of being alive the only reason I'm alive is because I can't kill myself
#idk....#i see no point cuz im always sad#i can be happy for a bit ig#but its always back to this#“your friends would be sad if you died” am i just a tool for their enjoyment... am i not my own person with wants....#i just have to find a way to put myself out of my misery. to escape from this hell.#i guess I have “hopes and dreams” now but its not enough.#vent#tw vent#tw suicide#continuing to live like this is unfair#everyday i wanna kms ..#why am i alive.#🙏🙏🙏 praying on my downfall#🙏🙏🙏🙏 praying on a s/h accident to happen resulting in my death#when i look in the mirror i see a girl and i want to destroy myself#i hate being alive
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Sad boy time every Monday!
Based on this picture of him from the shounen jump 55th anniversary spread poster thingy mingy.
#look at the boy#it made me sad but i also really liked the pallete lol#i remembered to cut off his left pinky and ear off just in time#(but then again the sketch sucks so it doesnt really matter lmao)#itadori yuuji#itadori yuji#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jujutsu kaisen#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#mild but still better safe than sorry ig#shounen jump#fanart#pls just let this boy be happy#yes tho i still drew him with all his scars why only gojo can be drawn like that??#drawing yuuji without the slits under his eyes still feels wrong lol#his face feels a bit empty hmm#anyway#niinnyu arts
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I habs been borned
Yay?
#ray's doodles#happy birthday to me ig#timezones r weirdddd#< major apologies when I take a bit to answer any asks if there even will be any jfjfj#< okay this sounds like I expect anyone to care and I really don't#but if anyone does- please don't be cross with me when I do take a while#to respond. it's outside of my control but I will respond asap when I can#anyway yeaaaaaa#birthdayyyyy... yaaayyyy#(all these notes have been written at different times (days#) so like- see my thought process over the#i'm messing up these notes so hard oml
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"hey that stylus you ordered to replace the one you fucking broke? two weeks"
"ok"
"yeah no actually we lied it's 1 week"
"ok"
*arrives a day later*
HELP????
#like im so fucking happy i can draw again but what the hell#i get arrival time estimations can be a bit off but thats much more than a bit#what???? WHAT??????#suffering from success ig#wtffffff
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listen i was guilty of this once upon a time too but dawg ppl GOTTA stop calling any platonic dynamic they like “siblings” without any precedence
#there are many characters where there is good right to call them siblings. but ppl have gotten so trigger happy w it#and like theres nothing wrong with viewing a dynamic that way ig but at the same time it makes ppl who may ship those characters really#uncomfortable. bcuz although there is nothing to suggest that those characters view each other in that way by calling them siblings#instantly you've made it weird for anyone who might interpret the dynamic differently#idk this is very nuanced but it just irked me a little bit#absolutely nothing against the person in the tags of my art btw power to you#but. as someone who ships pearl and scar a little it was a bit uncomfortable to see them be called siblings#i dont like ppl making ANY of the hermits siblings. like grian and pearl are a common one i see and i just. i dont get it i truly dont#none of their dynamics read like that to me. idk. again ppl have their own interpretations of things and they didnt mean any harm by it#it just made me feel a little weird#and this is a problem or well. trend ive seen in all fandoms recently#please. people are allowed to be friends and have close friendships and not have a familial element involved#esp with a girl and a boy THEY CAN JUST BE FRIENDS! YOU CAN HAVE THEM BE TOTALLY PLATONIC WITHOUT CALLING THEM SIBLINGS#whatever whatever idrc. just something ive noticed i know other ppl have talked about this before#again this is not a callout or anything im genuinely not mad or weirded out or anything please dont think i am#serena.txt
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im either super angry or super sad or just blegh and there has never been a day where I haven't felt like that
#I get excited and it just goes away#idk how to describe it#I get excited or happy about stuff but one day my brain just decides it doesn't matter and I'm not excited about it anymore#I'm only happy for small bits of time#idk#bpd is kicking my ass#ryan experiences the horrors#it feels like I can never have anything good#ig is what I'm trying to say
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yeah sure that's how i'll [re]come out
#zymart#zymtalk#rant in the tags ->#okay listen to me this is really important and also i have a witness. this was not intentionally supposed to be posted on june 1st#the stars just aligned for this to be at its funniest. which means its also easier for me to dismiss LOL#i drew this like a week ago after trying to draw a whole like. 5 page comic about it and then stopping it mid-board#bc it was horrifying imagining being perceived that much. so i needed to make it into a joke instead and this was the funniest route#and then i was like 'UGH. UGH!!!! i can not be 20 and deal with this like im 13. if i dont post it by the end of the week#then [the witness to all my rants on this topic. shoutout to twig bc they got the most of it] can joke abt it as if i did anyway'#and now its the end of the week and i looked at the date and went 'oh my god didnt may just start what happened'#'WAIT ITS JUNE FIRST. GOD. THATS TOO FUNNY TO NOT SAY SOMETHING' and who am i if i dont prioritize the bit honestly#in all honesty. kinda hate it! not bc of internalized homophobia but actually bc of internalized arophobia that has somehow been emphasized#after having my brain shift from '1000% aromantic without a doubt no exceptions' to 'just arospec ig lol??'#but tragically as it turns out. you can not just try and self analyze yourself into speedrunning closure.#horrible news for the oscar zymstarz community frankly#SO i needed a way 2 justify shoving this off my plate and into the trash as fast as possible.#im impatient and cant acknowledge my own emotions. its a flaw im working on it#oh and for all the ppl who know the running gag abt 'my allegations' [i do not have any real allegations for anyone not in jems server]:#that was in fact just a running gag for like well over a year and a half. like that was just a long running bit COMPLETELY unrelated to thi#i only started having this weird sexuality shift or whatever not too long ago lol. like long enough to go through 4 of the 5 stages of grie#[evidently bc like. im posting this. i got close enough to 5 to throw in the towel ykwim]#but on 'oscar zymstarz emotional acknowledgement' time that is....... not long.#but yeah ig tldr like. still ace [thank god] just arospec [probably demiro? i hate trying to figure out my own labels] instead of Aro now#idk none of this is that deep but also like it kinda is unfortunately bc i have to actually talk abt it to be able to ignore it ykwim#but i did! we're done talking abt it now! and now i can act like i dont care and try to make jokes about it to speedrun the rest of it#anyway. Happy Pride everyone. Fukign kitty.#side message to jem. by no means does this mean im not still gonna bully you. its a sign of love but also it is you specific bullying 🫶#you are not safe#edit: this is karma for saying 'thank god'. might be demiace too. this is the worst month of my life /j
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i am once again thinking about The Boy
not the movie lol
#give it up for day 13#how has it just been 13 days since my first time seeing him in so long#🙈💕 i like how i haven't had A Crush in a sec and the last person it was on was him lol.#there's a lot of little stuff that's changed since then abt myself and between us ig but good lord i have never been more attracted to him#than i am now 😵💫😵💫 seeing him in sweats and a sleeveless turtleneck that first day has just had him in my head every day since#like HELP he's hot 😭 but then like... so am i omg (｡ﾉω＼｡) actually cleaning my place finally so i can have him over lol#i know I'm hot but at the same time i forget ykwim.. until i look in a mirror or see a picture and I'm like oh right i exist.#anyways ms ma'am is getting better at talking to her friends abt these kinds of things ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ ♡#i say that there's nothing I'd do for a lover that i wouldn't do for a friend and that i just love ppl fundamentally#and i know this is my true self‚ but I'm somewhat new to living that in practice and on purpose.#I'm a little clumsy i think but no one's seemed to mind 🙈💕 i am happy that I'm learning and i am happy to deepen my friendship#and i look forward to how much easier this will be to navigate a yr from now ^.^ I've been polyamorous for a year and a half ig#and i feel like I've found my comfort zone yk? :3 ♡ what being polyamorous Means To Me#it's good to be here.. i look forward to the friends i will make after i move and i wish i was more forward w the boy sooner omg#but it's okay. he won't be Too far away it's just a bit of a trip. i wanna have him over a couple times before i leave tho and hopefully#many more at the next place ૮ ᴖﻌᴖა ♡ but i will visit him too hehe his family's rly nice
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She should stop making out with her brother and suck my blood instead I think
#scarlett doodle bc uhhhhhhhh#welllll.......#you guys already know of my reputation......#my doodles#not completely happy with it#i might mess with the lighting a bit more but im done with drawjng for today i think#anyways she can fuck me nasty style if she wants to but shes got to stop with this incest thing first#little detail is that she has a very similar face shape to my anastasia but VERY different eyes#just something interesting ig#also very different eyebrows#and ears but the way i draw anas ears tends to change#also scarletts fang is a lot more prominent atthis point im just using with as an opportunity to talk about my anastasia design#would you guys like to see a design guide for her? idk
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congrats to jannik, a little sad for frances, but i can be happy with this outcome
#now saying my full thoughts and feelings in the tags because i don’t want to be crucified#while i am very happy for jannik i’m sad for frances bc he played so well and i rly don’t want him to go into a slump for the uso#if that happened i would be super upset#another thing is that while i definitely like jannik i just like it so much better when there are more unexpected outcomes or if someone#who isn’t the top player wins#and ig this is more on a broader level than just cincinnati but i feel like jannik hasn’t been compelling me so much recently#so i’ve become more likely to root against him sometimes when it’s a player i like more#to me he’s kinda like “makes perfect sense. doesn’t compel me tho”#also like the fact that he’s so so so popular (at least over here) can kinda make me a like him just a bit less#idk#so i’m not upset abt this result but i’m not overjoyed#there are my full feelings now
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little floof has the best possible time at con, proceeds to spend the next month crying about it
#personal#not trying to be dramatic but i have actually cried a little two separate times tonight because i'm just so. happy. 😭#these past three-and-a-bit days have been packed to the brim with so much joy and excitement there was nowhere else for it to go#i feel so warm and just /happy/#i haven’t felt this much like myself in months and months i adore con#it just feels a little like home every year#it feels safe and full of joy and laughter and i can just dress up and be goofy with my friends#and getting to see my favorite guests brings me such infinite amounts of happiness#and all the interactions i have with them and how they REMEMBER ME and have started CALLING MY NAME IN THE HALLS TO SAY HI fjeiwoaf#and skip beat asking me if i’m coming to their next show every time they finish one#and shun giving me Super Top Secret Information today that they’d be performing in the traditional music concert & asking if i’ll be there#and them waving and smiling when they see me#jigoroh being so cute and going 'HI SARAH HI SARAH' and going for a high five when i went up to ask for a picture after their panel#and a bunch of them reposting my stories / posts on ig with the SWEETEST little thank you notes thanking me for coming#and them all telling me ‘see you next year!!’#anyway i cannot possibly explain it in words but this con honestly means so much to me and i love it so so much#and i’m just. right now. so happy. that there’s nowhere else for the joy to go but to leak out of my eyeballs
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#ik this is early but..i hope this month..you get the love you deserve and want from ppl you hold dear#and mostly....i hope you find it in yourself to give it back to the most impt of all...which is yourself#it's not easy but even for a bit..hopefully you can#so yeah#happy valentines in advance 🖤#may this month treat you all well#not just with love but with everything good#that's all#have a great day/night if you read this#stay safe and tc yea? 🖤#goodnight as well lol#later ig
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I think about that tiktok trend where you like paint your partners eye color on your nails or make a bracelet or something with the color a lot actually
#like its so cute honestly but sometimes i wonder how hard it would actually be to like find the right color match#maybe one day... but for now probably expect oc art with this trend in it maybe 💀#the thing about it too is i have like dark eyes and idk if ive ever seen like a dark brown nail polish. beads or thread yeah but ya#oh nvm i googled. it exists i just dont pay attention ig#OH you know what i can do... i can paint pepperonis eye color on my nails.... my baby... my kitty......#dude it feels like 5 am why is it only 2#amyways. 4 monsters was a big mistake i think... i feel quite icky...#it doesnt help i didnt eat for a majority of the day it was just monster. im really unhealthy. need water maybe#wait i was talking about nail polish how did i get here#i just want to actually do cute couple things. i must heal. im gonna be so healthy.#its fine. lmao. i just know im not ready#oh i did eat btw dont worry lmao i had. chicken nuggets#i actually have to eat more bc i need to gain back some weight or they wont let me donate plasma#my extra pokemon money..... nawr...#i dropped like 10 pounds. my current job is very physical. lots of scuttling around.#i thought about working out too? i had a short phase last year in like spring or something where i started doing workout type stuff#so like.. maybe. probably should. healtly mindset shit yk#i also maybe want some more clothes. like update my wardrobe a bit. really figure out my style.#like some cool shirts and maybe pants. cause i wear a lot of the same stuff#also again. dropped weight so. need better fitting pants.....#i want more mens pants. big pockets... gender....#anyways. nice chatting with you besties. love you guys my silly little tumblr besties.#some of you that follow this sideblog have supported me on here for a while. i see you. i appreciate you. thank you 💖#genuinely there are names that pop up and im like !! hello!!! its you!!!!!#you guys probably know who you are. go get yourself a little treat you deserve it. or like. idk what you enjoy.#play a good game. watch your favorite show. idk. be happy. love yourself.#this also goes out to those of you who are more passive on my blog. i appreciate you too!! thank you!#all my little tumblr followers.... my besties..... unles you are a bot i havent cleared out lmao#k i might have to go to bed idk im tired well see
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Channeling my inner Alphys lol
I'm watching mob psycho for the first time :)
#I remembered that this is art and I can have a lil mustache if I want#I kinda got one ig#not much but feeling that there's a little little bit of hair there makes my happy so there#dapper draws#dapper discusses#alphys#mp100
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they should just be happy that we're going with the templars at all!
#akamas adaar pt#insight: akamas adaar#grapecase plays dai#poor aki is damned either way#since there can only be One. i am leaning getting templars over mages *vomits* bc people i want him to have bonds with - cass. iron bull. c#llen - happen to be templars/pro templar#but at the end of the day aki is a mage#and while i dont think he feels closeness to mages [given his culture and lack of being human] he is still A MAGE#i really dont think i can have him conscript the mages for cass approval#i could arguably have him ally with the TEMPLARS - even though i hate it with all my being - bc i see him as a bit naive and hopeful#and tho he is a touch skeptical [thanks to being a mage and a mercenary] i think he trusts cass and cullen [probably too much]#that things would be better this time around#[and he's not fully against the circle]#tho from what i can tell. blackwall seems to be anti conscription period#if we ally with templars it loses me ig points with solas and sera but idik that i care for solas closeness in this run#is the only way to recruit dorian is to do hush?#idk if aki is even gonna end up with cass for sure [i dont feel c compelled by them as of yet. tho the prospect is cute]#but he cares about her a lot/values her#he sees her as given him a home - lmao - and would want her happy/pleased with him
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ruby feels like a bit of a mix of rose and amy 👀
#she’s gonna be a great companion i can feel it#and i <3 15 !!!!!#spoilers ofc so like. don’t read if u don’t want to read it#i like that they had the doctor pause and be all depressed a bit#like with the whole 14 slowing down and getting therapy and whatever thing i was thinking 15 wouldn’t be shown to be dealing with his past#& ig i was a bit worried they’d make him too happy and stable lmfao 💀#but he’s still the sad babygirl he’s been before so amen to that <3#😭😭😭#ANDDDD THEY’RE BRINGING BACK A FOCUS ON FAMILY DYNAMICS !!!!!!#like there’s so much development with her family and getting to know them already#doctor who#15th doctor#ruby sunday#doctor who spoilers#the church on ruby road
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