#i can be happy for a bit ig

[nightfallsystem-moved]

Hghhhggh whats the point of being alive the only reason I'm alive is because I can't kill myself

[davonati]

They make love out there in the field, before David has to leave for good. It’s fast and messy, with both of their emotions running so high. Yonatan comes with the taste of David’s tears on his tongue.

He stays lying on his back in the grass until the sound of crunching footsteps finally fades away, and only realizes later that, in their utter desperation for each other, he’d forgotten to take any of the usual precautions. But by then, it’s far too late.

***

Four months later, he goes to see David at Horesh. Even in the dim light of the hideout, David looks at him oddly.

“Something’s different about you,” he muses, and Yonatan has to stop himself from reflexively clutching his belly. He’s not showing yet, not really, but he can feel the life growing inside him.

He expects David to approach him then, to explore the planes of his body as he’s done countless times before. He readies himself to tell David the truth, to finally feel the weight of this secret lift off his shoulders. But David comes no closer. He eyes him for another moment and then turns away, pulling out a large map of the Judean territories as he updates Yonatan on his group’s movements over the last few months.

It’s better this way, Yonatan decides. David has enough to worry about at the moment without concerning himself with Yonatan’s health, and there’s no guarantee that the baby will make it to term anyways: it’s not as if Yonatan is willing – or able – to confine himself to bedrest for nine months. When David returns to Giveah, Yonatan can reevaluate the situation. Most likely Yonatan will never need to reveal his mistake; best case scenario, David will have an heir to secure his lineage as he ascends to the throne.

***

Years later, as Yonatan lies bleeding out under the stars, his last thought is to wish he’d gotten the chance to tell David about their son.

[rayofmisfortune]

I habs been borned

Yay?

[burningcomputerpersona]

my cds (and cassette tape) finally arrived in the mail today!!

[schnee-gheist]

"hey that stylus you ordered to replace the one you fucking broke? two weeks"

"ok"

"yeah no actually we lied it's 1 week"

"ok"

*arrives a day later*

HELP????

[infizero]

listen i was guilty of this once upon a time too but dawg ppl GOTTA stop calling any platonic dynamic they like “siblings” without any precedence 

[em-b-sides]

I think about that tiktok trend where you like paint your partners eye color on your nails or make a bracelet or something with the color a lot actually

[deathwish-mp3]

im either super angry or super sad or just blegh and there has never been a day where I haven't felt like that

[zymstarz]

yeah sure that's how i'll [re]come out

[zroqravity]

She should stop making out with her brother and suck my blood instead I think

[sheltoner]

congrats to jannik, a little sad for frances, but i can be happy with this outcome

[seekingthestars]

little floof has the best possible time at con, proceeds to spend the next month crying about it

[rin-rin-kururin]

by the tenth month my game brainrot turned into ship brainrot and i can only pray for what will happen next

[voxxian]

i literally only come here when i have a meltdown occasionally lol i miss when i was a happy kid on this account but that will stay where it was made like 3000 pages ago

[adore-gregor]

🤞

[atsu-i]

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