#i am very aware that this is not the best kiss scene ever but i've seen worse and this one was a bit cute ok
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xiaolanhua · 8 months ago
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In Blossom 花间令 (2024) Dir. Zhong Qing – Ep. 21
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whateversawesome · 1 month ago
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Spy x Family AU Fic Recommendations
It's been a while since I've done fic rec list. There are so many good fics out there, so I thought it was time. For this list, I will focus on my favorite Alternate Universe fics!
After Peace by @unhappy-sometimes : My current favorite AU, also named by someone else the "midwestern au" for its vibes. In this fic, Twilight is no longer the best spy of the West, but an agent forced into retirement in small town in the middle of nowhere because of a terrible injury. As you can imagine, he's quite depressed without a purpose until a little girl named Anya enters the picture.
Tactic & Strategy by Puolain: In which Twilight and Thorn Princess are forced by their agencies to get married. Twilight is undercover as Lionel Reiss, from the national guard. This fic is not only beautiful but also very exciting.
Hidden Under the Roses by @sister-cna-reader : This is a mafia AU that has plenty of fluff and plenty of spice! In this story, Yor is the Garden's heir and must marry Loid to ensure an alliance. Also, did I mention Anya is a baby in this universe?
As Time Goes By by @nightofnyx8 : In this AU, Twilight is a spy and an American pilot that crashes near Yor's garden. After nourishing him back to health, they face the terrible Captain Winston Wheeler, who won't rest until he captures that spy. This story is incredibly exciting and also sweet.
Green Eyed Monster by Bigbruja: If you like jealous Twilight, this is the fic for you! Here, an old friend of Yor's returns with the intention of taking her away from her husband, but Twilight is not going to let him do that so easily.
Air by @cantareincminor : In this AU, Twilight and Thorn Princess meet during a mission gone wrong. I can't say much without spoiling it! Just know that it's very sweet and you can feel the strong chemistry between those two! Major flirting alert hehehe.
The Cat, the Key, the Cook, and the Queen by @lpham2525 : If you like fairytales, this fic is perfect for you. In this universe, Queen Yor must marry, so she creates a clever competition to find the right man for the job!
Lo que se hace en el primer día by @gijipaw : Yes, I am aware this is in Spanish but, do you want to see Loid and Yor as boyfriend and girlfriend? Then you have to read this fic! If you speak Spanish or if you know how to use Google translate, give this short and sweet fic a try.
The Five Times Loid Forger Went Topless In Front of His Wife and the One Time She Reciprocated" or "Bare-Chested in Berlint" by Talik_Sanis: Ahem...yes, I am aware of the title and what can I say? This list needs a crack fic! This is probably the funniest fic I have ever read (the title says it all) so I encourage you to read it and have a good time. And when you get to the ice cream scene come back and tell me what you thought about it. It's my favorite scene in the whole fic hehe.
The following is not a fic per se, but an exciting, ongoing multichapter fancomic that has become a staple in the fandom and is definitely worth checking out. I'm talking about none other than...
Doppelgänger by @buf309 : Without giving too much away, in this AU there's a man who looks exactly like Twilight going on a killing rampage. Twilight will have to face his worst nightmare and do everything he can to save his family. This is an amazing story!!
And finally, the list wouldn't be complete without some shameless self-promotion 😆
My Enemy : A war fic AU in which the Briars are forced to host a Westalian high-ranking officer in their home. As an Ostanian, Yor hates this man, of course! However, little by little Captain Loid Forger wins her over and, despite being enemies, they end up falling deeply in love. Riddled with exciting twists and turns, this story is also full of fluff and spice.
Love Is...: A non-traditional omegaverse in which Twilight is a shifter (a person who can shift between Alpha, Omega or Beta) who experiences his first rut after a kissing practice with his wife. This fic has plenty of fluff, plenty of angst, and some spice too!
Eden's Ball: If you like Eden AU, you're going to love this fic! In this story, Loid Forger, president of the student council, is in charge of organizing a ball at school. His intention is to ask Yor Briar to go with him but things go terribly wrong!
That's it! If you like these recommendations, check out my Spy x Family fic compilation and my previous fic rec lists (part 1 and part 2).
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bunnakit · 11 months ago
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top 5 most unhinged scenes!!
ask me my top 5 bl anything 🌸
this is gonna require some serious thought hmmm
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i mean this is the gold star right now, right? there's a reason yai is my pfp these days and it's because that was my exact facial expression throughout this whole scene. gobsmacked, elated, excited -- i really ran a whole gambit of emotions (i still am tbh)
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i saw this moment out of context as the show was airing and i was like oh hell yeah a feisty lil guy - and then i got to the scene and i was like oh yeah no that's actually completely fair, he deserves a chomp. i would be so pissed if i was ai di and probably would have done the same. (and i enjoy you can see him think about going back in for another kiss tho)
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sorry for the blood but like. this scene. this fucking scene. i can't remember ever crying so hard at anything. an open heart massage or resuscitative thoracotomy is a very real thing and is only performed in extreme emergencies when sign of life is still present. i don't think it would have done anything to help tin given the circumstances but the absolute desperation from sing to do anything to save his best friend was gut wrenching. and then to move from this into tol's grief and denial? this episode fucked me up so badly i had to take a lap around my house and do some breathing exercises.
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i wasn't going to include kiseki: dear to me again but truly, what in the strawberry huckleberry fuck was chen dong yang thinking here? you're going to teach ai di about loss? ai di??? the orphan who lost his mom to a drug addiction??? who has only ever tried to protect chen yi? yeah, no, i think he knows a thing or two about loss, i don't think this "lesson" was necessary. i'm so fucking glad i wasn't watching this as it came out, i remember the screaming on my dash and i was FILLED with fear.
i did really enjoy we could see how aware of his surroundings ai di is at all times, though. his eyes scanned the area for just a moment and he was locked ON to that gun. baby boy might be a feral menace but he's good at what he does.
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i am still reeling from this. you wanna run that by me again chief?
i'm going to be honest with you guys, i've been in this situation. i was dating this guy for maybe two weeks. he was going to get signed to a major league baseball team relatively soon (i've dated a whole cast of characters,) really nice guy, would come see me at work just because he missed me, almost everything was a big green flag. UNTIL. out of nowhere he says "hey do you want to have kids?" and i was like yeah idk maybe eventually and he replied "no i mean like now"
what the fuck do you mean??? hello???
needless to say uhh i found a tactful way to break up with him after that because what the fuck.
bls sure are a fucking RIDE and i am grateful for my new companion yai to really sum up my feelings about each and every one of these scenes (and all the ones to come)
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dragonflylady77 · 3 months ago
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Writing Patterns Game
Rules: share the first line of your last 10 published works or as many as you are able and see if there's any patterns.
I was tagged by @medusapelagia and @dame-zoom-a-lot
i don't put out until the third date 
“Jesus, Billy!”
ready or not
“...three, two, one, ready or not, here I come!”
the pull in his chest
Billy had always heard that people got their soulmark on their sixteenth birthday, but he wasn’t actually sure when his own had shown up. 
what's my name again?
“Hargrove?”
the bit that mattered
“Can you run that one past me again, dingus?” Robin couldn't believe the sob story Steve was telling her.
Steve's parents have the worst timing ever
They were focused on each other and on how good the sex felt.
Why fight a guy (when you can kiss him instead)?
"I've been waiting to meet this King Steve everyone has been telling me so much about."
Not-So-Blind Date
Billy closes the front door behind him with a relieved sigh.
The birthday wish 
Steve drove up to the quarry, slowing right down when he noticed there was already a car there. A very familiar blue car.
Mr Steve and the Monster Hunter
Steve is looking forward to the weekend after a long week teaching six-year-olds.
i got you a whole flower shop 
“Sorry, I’ll be right with you.”
i know how i feel about you now
“Billy, can you get the door? That should be the limo driver.”
I wanna do everything with you 
“Out of the way, pretty boy.”
Snowball fight at the old junkyard
“Come on, Billy! Get up!”
Nobody puts Billy in a corner 
Billy gritted his teeth. His evening was getting steadily worse.
Pizza my heart
Steve still can’t fucking believe he’s willingly standing in Hargrove’s dorm room.
stop flirting and get in the house 
“Am I dreaming or is that you Harrington?” Billy says, cigarette dangling from his lips as he takes off his leather jacket and throws it in the car through the open driver window.
definitely better than being dead 
When Billy comes to, everything hurts. He keeps his eyes closed, even though the space around him feels dark, and slowly takes a tally of where it hurts: hands, sides, chest, back, feet too...
Steve's Pick
“So you’ll do it?”
finding peace together
Then one day Steve shows up.
A frankly ill-timed visit 
Steve stretches as he wakes up, arm reaching beside him to find the bed is cold.
Never fall for a straight guy
Billy is browsing the movies in the Horror section at Family Video, trying to find something Max hasn’t seen yet, when he hears Harrington whisper from the counter.
We talked about this 
“Oh my god, pretty boy, just fucking do it already.”
Okay, so it's clear that I either start with a line of dialogue, or in the middle of whatever is happening. But then I was aware of that already. I may have read somewhere it's the best way to start a story and it worked for me.
I usually get an idea for the opening scene and go from there.
no pressure tag: @bigdumbbambieyes @camaro-and-smokes @robthegoodfellow @intothedysphoria @anincompletelist @billyharringson @spaceofentropy @thissortofsorcery @shieldofiron @lovebillyhargrove
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zilabee · 11 months ago
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A meme about my fic, believe me when I tell you. This is one of those question lists for ask memes, but I don't believe in that, I am just answering the questions I have an answer to and I've combined a couple of memes into one to get rid of the questions I don't understand.
1: What inspired you to write this fic?
It was a kink meme prompt, so that prompted me. And it's a lovely thing anyway, the idea of John finding lyrics with his name in, but the prompter specifically said that they have a 'heart to heart' and I was immediately enamoured at how ridiculously hilarious it would be trying to have a heart to heart with Paul McCartney about what his song might actually mean. Reading The Lyrics I had spent a lot of time trying to work out Paul's head, and wondering how much he actually believes that the long and winding road is about a road, you know, and what he really means by that, what level he's on with anything he says, so I wanted to write a fic looking at that anyway.
2: What’s your favourite line of dialogue?
"You kissed me." "I know." "But you're not..." Paul says. "I mean we're not..." "I think we might be, Paul."
3: What’s your favourite line of narration?
"Paul kisses him and then kisses him again, and it's such a relief. It's the first thing that's made sense all day. It's the first thing that's made sense for years."
4: What scene (or line) did you first put down? Did you plan it out, or write as you go?
As ever, I wrote the first bit first! Dull but true. And I wrote it as I went, which is always how I write, even if there are going to be chapters which there weren't with this one. I have the vaguest idea of the shape/length of the thing when I start, and then I just write a bit and see what comes next. Saying that, it's a terrible way to write, I tie myself in knots and have to do a lot of rearranging, and I'm not saying it's best, it's just the only way I can do it. I suppose it's like I wrote it by writing down EVERYTHING they might say to each other, and then carving out the bits that made sense.
5: Was it easy or hard to write? Which part was most difficult?
It was okay. I kept hitting dead ends trying to make the conversation flow even a little bit from one thing to another, so there was a lot of moving it about, but it didn't feel difficult until I got to the bit after the kiss. That stalled me for ages because I didn't know how much they really needed to say or if it felt rushed. I still think it does feel a little bit rushed, but also I don't care. I kind of sided with Paul that as soon as they'd kissed it was more important for them to fuck than to actually dig into anything about how they felt or what they wanted or how it was going to work or what any of it meant. Mostly because I think the moment they talk about what they want it's all going to be very difficult again and I didn't want to be involved.
6. How did you choose the POV to write from?
I knew this one would be from Paul's POV because I wanted to get inside the way he thinks about lyrics and songs and try to feel it out as a thing he's genuinely feeling, not something he's aware is defensive, not something where he actually deep down knows that putting John's name in his song means something and just doesn't want to say so, but where he genuinely feels it's perfectly normal and John's being weird about it. (Although then with a slight sense of nervousness when he first sees the lyrics, as if there's something deeper inside him that knows it needs to be hidden?)
I thought about slipping between that and John's POV to really get across how used to Paul's strange thought patterns he was, and how he had to puzzle it all together, but in the end I found it more interesting to try and have Paul show how John was responding and hoping it was clear what John was actually feeling compared to what Paul thought he was thinking.
7. Did you always know how it would end?
I knew it was going to be happy and together, because that's always my aim. And then quite early on the bit of dialogue with John promising to tell Paul which of his own songs are about Paul, came to me and I love the idea of Paul's insides collapsing like a house of cards at the very idea of it, so I worked towards that.
8: Where did the title come from?
The song! I love having a musical fandom, where you just write about a specific song and it makes titling a breeze. (Saying that I'm not sure the title suits.) (But then, saying that, I don't care. The title exists, and that's all I look for in a title.)
9: Were there any particular lines or scenes which you had to cut despite wanting to keep them?
Not as much in this fic as in longer fics with more than one scene in them, but there was this bit, which isn't much on its own, but I quite liked when it was in place because it created a very definite shift in tension and they were both suddenly right there in their skin:
"Is that what's happening?" John asks, his voice low, a rasp in his throat. "Are we losing the whole thing?" "I think so," Paul says lightly, and he wants to say more, but his throat closes up.
10: What do you like best about this fic?
I like it when Paul just says something totally open and honest without noticing it and John quietly looks at him. Like when Paul's all 'I put your name into all my songs, it doesn't MEAN anything' and John has to just stare for a bit. I like that Paul feels like he has won that point and that John must realise he was being silly. I love Paul. I love that he's stupid.
11: What do you like least about this fic?
I find their voices very hard, so writing a fic of total dialogue was not a good look for me. And I feel like I concentrated a lot on the 'begging you to stay' aspect of oh!darling and maybe some of the 'I'll never let you down/do you any harm' bits would have also been quite interesting to John.
12: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?
I have absolutely no musical associations with this one. I didn't even listen to the song itself.
13: What happens after the end of this fic?
Obviously very lovely things happen in the immediate aftermath. And I do think that being able to touch and kiss and fuck John would suddenly push Paul into boyfriend mode, and he is more capable of being loving in that mode, it gives him permission to be softer, and I think it might blow John's mind and they might be good for each other, I don't know.
I also feel firmly that one morning in a couple of weeks, Paul will mention that he dreamed about kissing John, and casually say that usually when he has that dream they're at the studio, but this time they were at home. And John will stare at him with exasperated fondness and quietly ask him how often he dreams about kissing him, and if he ever thought about what that might mean, and Paul will wrinkle his nose because he dreams about kissing John all the time, and obviously it doesn't MEAN anything, because dreams aren't real.
14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?
NO.
15: What did you learn from writing this fic?
NOTHING.
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ravvenheart · 1 year ago
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fifi here, sparklative thong left a trace in my head (and since I’m occupied by other works, idk if I write it) so I’m leaving a prompt with a usage of those:
Roleplay in bed - SW and client, idk something along those lines. Feat SPARKLATIVE THONG. And maybe slight femininization (switching pronouns??? A bit of makeup)
A scene before - “lets try something new” talk with negotiation and boundaries, bc it’s good to talk abt trying something new
"Why this has been so has been sparkling?" jan asks, no one in particlar. In hindsight, the footage of him drunkenly wondering about this piece of fabric was slightly embarassing. With grammatical skills of the english language completely lost on him, Jure and Nace passed him after some time. The drummer chuckled along but ignored him ultimately but Nace, best boyfriend one could ever have, paid attention to him and listened to his ramblings. the battery of mark's battery conviently gave up, so he left for his bag inside, promising hed return in a moment.
"nacko, look at it, its so pretty"
The older nodded along and looked him up and down with dark eyes jan always got lost in. "Yeah, very pretty"
"But why so sparkla-, sparkly-, sparklative?" he rambled on, completely focsued on the thin fabric with deliacate lace and shining rhinestones.
Totally oblivious to the dark gaze his boyfriend is sending him, nace leaned in and whispered "Reds always been your color Janći. think youd look breathtaking"
Jans head whipped around at the words, trance abrubtly ending as he finally met naces mischevious eyes. something in his stomach fluttered as images flew around his head and his breath stopped for a second.
Lace across his pelvis, rhinestones framing his hips and fabric barely fitting his dick with the head peaking out to the side. Nace between his legs, kissing hickies onto his inner thighs and hands, gripping tight, leaving bruises on his hips. He felt himself shifting away from the hot breath on his sensetive skin but then again moving back, needing more, more stimulation, more touch, more nace. he was breathing hard as the bassists large, calloused hands caressed his sides and spread on his stomach. Goosebumps all over his body-
Jan felt the blush on his ears but the footsteps of marc made him return to the present because jesus christ, where did these thoughts come from? this was definetely neither the right time nor place to dive into this newly developed-, kink? Preference? interest? Well, whatever it was, nace chuckled meanly at jan, apparently fully aware of the crisis he started in the younger man. the bassist planted a short but hot kiss under his ear, making jan shiver and freed himself from his grip and turned back to walk back to the venue just as marc started filming again. quickly realizing he needed to get his act back to the "why is this so sparklative?", he rambled on again and yelled back at nace, though the older mans words reverberated in his mind. The vision even more.
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Guess who returned with a little treat!?
Dear fifi, you are so correct about the sparkative thong and there has been a vision in my head I cannot get rid of and I've been writing whenever I had time this week (in between working 40hrs and getting sick lol) and I am not even remotely finished but I really really wanted to share this with yall!
I'll try to get this done in the next few days, I think I am at 2k right now but I won't promise anything, because I never fulfill my promises anyway lol but I offer this as a little tasting, teasing you for what is about to come (and who!)
Excuse the typos, I haven't betad this yet and I'll be going on a trip to brugge tmr and I am very tired, I promise the finished version will be better!
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itsmesheep · 1 year ago
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what happens in changerion? well. everything and nothing. it's a show that's very bad and also the best thing you've ever watched. it has the wildest ending because of how cancelled it got. the world would most certainly not survive a 50 episode show of changerion. it has the most perfect ending to a villain i have ever seen. the first four episodes are super wild, between the cross-dressing, the fake harem wedding, and the gay being handcuffed together. there's a scene of the main guy giving the other guy food that goes on for a FULL MINUTE. the monster has to fax directions at one point. the first main girl is the main guy's "supposed girlfriend". there's a gay kiss, in public, in 1996. the agency that made the suit is bankrupt. the overarching plot is paper thin but the episodic episodes rule. the suit actor was stuck on a beach for an hour and thought he was gonna die. the guy who wrote the show had saved the sentai franchise only 5 years earlier.
CHANGERION IS A SHOW THAT CERTAINLY EXISTS
i've see the minute long food sharing inexplicably the most romantic scene ever put on television, it makes me crazy. and i'm generally aware of inoue's....... *gestures*
i do want to watch it sometime but there is so much tv and i am forced to have a job 😞
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blue-aconite · 6 months ago
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𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐲 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬!
thank you @antiquitea for the tag! ✨
tagging: @bobfloydsbabe @hangmanssunnies @green-socks @a-reader-and-a-writer @withahappyrefrain @teacupsandtopgun and anyone else who wants to play!
questions and responses under the read more to save your dashboards!
how many works do you have on ao3?
nineteen
what's your total ao3 word count?
35,254
what fandoms do you write for?
i currently write for top gun maverick
top five fics by kudos
the future is set in crayons - saul/andreas & sky/bloom (fate: winx saga) 145 kudos
bonded - farah/saul (fate: winx saga) 85 kudos
cherry blossom - sky/bloom (fate: winx saga) 74 kudos
stray - platonic saul & sky (fate: winx saga) 65 kudos
equalizer - saul/andreas (fate: winx saga) 59 kudos
do you respond to comments?
i try my best to, even if it sometimes takes me a while to get to it.
what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
oh, it either has to be you said you'd grow old with me or love, he called it. i got yelled at a lot after posting both of them.
what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
like, happiest contra how the rest of the fic went or just happy in general? it was just a kiss, every little thing she does is magic and homecoming all have happy endings despite being a little angsty somewhere in the middle while once in a lifetime is just the cutest shit ever
do you get hate on fics?
sometimes. i got a lot of hate when i first posted my top gun maverick werewolf au, which caused me to kind of lose inspiration for it (hopefully one day it will return). other than that, i haven't received anything.
do you write smut?
i do but i haven't posted any of it. maybe one day.
craziest crossover?
i haven't written a crossover since i was a kid (maybe 10 years old) and that was for twilight & harry potter!
have you ever had a fic stolen?
not that i'm aware of!
have you ever had a fic translated?
not that i know of!
have you ever co-written a fic before?
equalizer was co-written with @septemberrie and cherry blossom was co-written with loulislife
all time favorite ship?
steve rogers / tony stark & thorin oakenshield / bilbo baggins
what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
stealing @antiquitea's answer and saying that i am delusional enough to believe that i will finish every single wip i have in the works (i absolutely will not), because it's spot on.
what are your writing strengths?
absolutely none? i'm hot garbage and i just wing it. i've been told that i'm good at writing emotional scenes, so maybe that.
what are your writing weaknesses?
everything. i often feel like i can't get the right flow.
thoughts on dialogue in another language?
keep it easy if it's not a language you speak yourself. google translate isn't that good, if we're being honest. i tend to avoid it if it isn't my native language.
first fandom you wrote in?
twilight.
favorite fic you've written?
let me drown hands down. i'm very proud of what i've written so far.
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void-kissed · 1 year ago
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for ur writing ask game, talk abt any of ur reborn fics :]
Clara. My treasured friend. I am going to be here for months. This is one of the best asks I've ever received and I mean that
(source: this post by void-kissed - hey, that’s me!)
Name a piece of writing that I’ve posted, and I’ll give you some thoughts and analysis of it! - I should probably try and limit this to one bullet point per piece, because I'd like to talk about multiple, but.. who knows what will happen, haha
This will probably get VERY long, but oh well! You asked for this! And I am only too happy to provide what you have asked for!!!!
Alright, here we go!!
Okay, so, I believe the first piece of writing I did for Reborn was To Stand Before The Void, back for Sapphic September two years ago. This is the scene where Luna and Adriana find each other within the Void itself, and.. while it covers some pretty serious thoughts of Luna's that I'll admit I wasn't really sure how best to explain in my writing, I like to think it does still hold up.
One thing I do want to point out is that the events shown in this piece are the reason why this selfship's name is "void-kissed"! As a result of being in the Void as they were here, both Luna and Adriana end up with some.. lasting consequences, shall we say. Luna becomes even more one with the shadows than she already was, almost disappearing into any nearby darkness if you aren't looking at her directly, while the white freckles Adriana had across her face spread into star-like marks found all over her hair and body - she also becomes able to see some of the things that Anna can about people, such as Cain's pitch-black eyes and Taka's broken wing. (I'm not sure whether to say she's aware of her wings by this point though - maybe she can start to feel them, but can't see them/figure out which wings they are until the Giratina quest?)
The stars Luna is walking on are "lifeless" and not shining very brightly at the start because of her intentions to escape into the darkness of the Void, as well as to show that the Void is not really a very good place. However, they are still brighter than the ones Cain was running on because of Luna's own affinity with the Void, as shown by how she is later able to manipulate the New World somewhat thanks to the power of her Emerald Brooch.
I referenced Anna a lot in this writing despite never calling her Anna - for example, she is of course both "little Fantasia" and "the little girl with the Jirachi doll" that is the only one not unsettled by Shade's presence at the end. I also used the quote that Anna is shown with on the wiki page for Reborn about falling stars wishing on each other, because I thought it led nicely into saying that "Right now, Luna's wish was to fall". Anna also supports Adriana in not wanting Luna to die, in the form of the "wishes of the starlight" that are present when she makes her decision.
In the game itself, Luna is very associated with Alice in Wonderland - all of her Pokémon are nicknamed after characters from Wonderland, and Luna's adopted parents even represent both the Mad Hatter (Radomus) and the Looking Glass (Serra) respectively. But if Luna herself is Alice, and is a girl who wishes to live in a land of fairytale, then that makes Adriana Wonderland, the place (or, rather, person) she feels truly at home with. This is the conclusion Luna comes to in the Void, and why her story continues even after the point where she thought she was going to end it.
Luna mistaking Cain for Adri mainly just came out of the fact that both have a fair bit of purple in their outfits, but even then they don't really look all that similar (Cain's design is very bright and colourful, whereas Adriana's is a lot more subdued). So it was mostly just to try and pad things out and show that Cain also gets out safely here (which I could retcon now that I know what the full game does, but oh well).
The first line that Shade says at the end - "Abyss is unrelenting.." - is what he says to the player before battling them if they lost to him in his Gym, while the other lines are ones I made up and tried to make fit how he normally talks. He's the one that successfully pulled Adriana and Luna out of the Void, and he's basically telling them to both keep going and make it to the end of the game by experiencing the final episode/chapter together. But in less fourth-wall-breaking terms than that.
Overall: you can definitely tell I wrote this back when Episode 18 was still the newest update to the game. I think that what I changed in it (i.e. Luna and Cain surviving the Void) could still be true to my version of events, since Cain could still become Umbral during or right before the Diancie quest after getting lost in the New World beforehand maybe? I forget when it is that you see him stuck in there, but I know it's quite early, and maybe his having also been void-kissed contributed to higher susceptibility to the Umbral state. And considering Luna comes back to Reborn during the literal first postgame quest of them all, I don't think much is negatively affected by having her just.. have survived the whole time.
Timeline-wise, I think this one can definitely apply to both third and second. You can just explain it as Shade having dragged the player out of the Void before then going back in for Luna and Adri in the third timeline.
Oh dear, that was perhaps a lot for just one piece. Oh well!
The other piece of writing that I've done for my selfship with Luna was Return on Crow's Wings, which describes Luna and Adriana finally being able to reunite after Adri got stuck in the Carnelia region, since Agate City was not safe to travel back through. For context for those who haven't played the game, the last time the two had met was the Gym battle that Adriana had with Luna, where she won her ninth Gym Badge, and they meet again just after Adriana gets her thirteenth Gym Badge. It's been long enough for Reborn City to become very revitalised as well.
This writing is labelled as only being applicable to second timeline, but the only reason for that is because of Adri flying on the back of Kelaino, her Honchkrow; I hadn't finalised her mono-Ghost-type team yet when I wrote this, so any depiction of her with Pokémon that aren't Ghost-types during the maingame story (except Sidera and Argent) refers to second timeline. However, the same events do still happen the same way in the current/third timeline; it's just that Adriana flies back with the help of Drifter, her Drifblim, instead. I rendered that here, incidentally.
The way the end of the battle is described, with Argent knocking out Noivern and so on, was actually how it went when I played through the game after Episode 19 came out! I remember writing down what happened on each turn of the battle specifically for the purposes of this writing piece.
I actually wrote the last lines of this piece first, because I had used them as a caption for a render of the ending that I'm fairly sure I ended up making before actually finishing the writing. If I hadn't have written those lines, I would probably have let the piece continue to show Luna's reaction outright, and probably ended it on Adriana and Luna finally being able to embrace again after so long ^-^
Technically all you said was Reborn fics, so I can mention Tale of a Corybantic Blade here! It's the piece of writing that's all about Corybantia, Adriana's Honedge, going from when she first finds it in the Mirage Tower to when it evolves to stop Titania stabbing Taka. Again, this is a second-timeline-only piece, because Adri doesn't travel through Tourmaline with Taka in the third timeline.
When I wrote this piece, I had two questions in mind: how many references could I put into one piece of writing, and could I write a piece about Pokémon without making it clear that it's about Pokémon? I like to think that the answer to both of those questions was "yes".
I actually have written an entire analysis document myself about all the references I put in, which you can find here! So.. I probably shouldn't elaborate any more here. I invite you to go and read the document if you want the full analysis of that piece, hehe~
I do have one more piece of Reborn writing, technically, but it's very very short, so I don't know how much I'd say it counts as an outright fic. It's this scene, which I wrote out about the concept of Saphira having an opportunity to go and deal with Sigmund like she so desperately felt she needed to, during the Labradorra section, because Adriana had to heal up her Pokémon before battling him and the PULSE-Mr. Mime.
This piece didn't have a ton of opportunity for me to do anything particularly fun, but I did enjoy portraying Saphira as so furious that "a dragon's fullest might could not have held the Gym Leader back". I also managed to slip in both her and Adriana's Trainer titles as part of this, so that was fun.
Rereading it, I have just noticed one fun thing that I did - namely, describing Adriana coming back into the control centre "just as she had done both a few minutes and one clock ago". This is referencing how Noel refers to the previous timelines as being "clocks ago", rather than, say, "days ago", which I remembered thinking was neat! So, in turn, this line is referring to this piece being ostensibly set in third timeline, as Adriana has already gone through the game's events once before in second timeline.
In general, I also just thought the last three sentences built up to a very vivid image. Sigmund deserved what he got.
Okay!! There we go!! Well over one and a half thousand words of my rambles for you, friend!! Thank you so so much once again for this opportunity, and goodnight!
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gen-is-gone · 11 months ago
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3, 17 and 29 for AO3 wrapped?
3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?
Oh, see that's difficult! I only posted four fics this year, two of which technically aren't finished, but I really feel like I've improved a lot, especially in terms of output and executive function/discipline?
Home from Sea is my three+ year long baby, a 100k word longfic that I started in 2020 and finally felt up to posting a chapter at a time back in May. Between getting a new job and then managing my first summer reading program in a lead position, I was only able to get the first third finished enough to post, but it is (I promise!) like 95% finished. Now I just have to wait to find the emotional space/desire/whatever to drag myself into doing the kind of dreary line edits that make the chapters readable. *SIgh*
Then Persistent Harmony also took me a year, despite being only about 5k *sigh again* which is not a particular milestone in terms of output, sure, but honestly I am proud that I finished it, and I think despite some rambling bits it has some of the best individual lines of anything I've posted.
Finally, my darling dearest dubcon porn, sangre por los santos, marks not only my third ever explicit sex scene (so still feels fairly significant) but also is something that I wrote in one sitting. I'm super fucking proud of it even while being cheerfully aware that it's definitely not everyone's cup of tea. Peak 'I wrote this for me and me alone' energy.
The last one I wrote, kiss it better, is a short and sweet little bit of fluff that I definitely like, but I'm annoyed that I still haven't posted the second chapter. Oh well, it's short enough that I'm pretty confident that I'll finish it eventually.
17. Your favorite character to write this year?
Answered [ here ] :)
29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?
Okay, because HfS is so fucking long I feel like I'm going to post this and immediately think of something else because I do think there's some lines there that I knocked out of the park, but I honestly I really love the opening line of Persistent Harmony so much:
Fitz’s current massive, life-derailing crush is a set of twins called Maria and Ann, and he’s so very fond of the both of them that he’s taken to ignoring the Doctor.
I think PH has a lot of really good lines, actually. This is also a pretty good runner up, imho.
The Doctor had blinked, train of thought not so much derailed as demolished, and took an entire minute to formulate a response beyond opening and closing their mouth like a depressingly attractive fish. 
Thanks for the ask! :D
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eldritchsurveys · 9 months ago
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1178.
When did you last see someone you know in public? >> I hardly know anyone, so this doesn't really happen.
Do you enjoy going to the dentist? >> I am massively triggered by any kind of medical visit, so, no.
When did you last eat something you didn’t like? >> I don't eat things I don't like...
Do you think you’d survive if zombies took over the world? >> I don't think so, no. Wouldn't want to, anyway.
When did you last hang out with a bunch of friends at one time? .
What kind of music is your least favorite? >> I guess ambient? I just don't find it interesting in the slightest.
Are you and your best friend complete opposites? .
Would people around you say you’re regularly a mean person? >> A lot of people have said this or some variation of it about me. Do you like the colour yellow at all? >> It's my favourite colour :)
If you were to write a novel, what would it be about? >> I don't think I have a novel in me.
How many times have you logged in to Bzoink? (it has a counter) >> Well! I certainly can't check now, can I!
Are you currently pretending to be someone’s friend? >> I barely have the ability to be a friend to someone I want to befriend. How on earth would I pull off pretending? Also, I'd much rather put what little social energy/ability I have into people I like.
Are you an impatient person? >> Sometimes.
Are you afraid to watch movies that have sex scenes with your friends? .
Who sings the last song you listened to? >> No one, it was an instrumental track from a movie score. Why do you think some actors don't want to see their movies/shows? >> That's not for me to say, now, is it?
Do you think fortune tellers are the devil’s messengers (haha)? >> I don't think anything specific about fortune tellers as a whole. That's a large demographic full of a variety of people, some of whom are charlatans, but some of whom are not.
Would you rather use napkins or paper towels? >> I use paper towels. Paper towels have a wider application than napkins do, one of those applications being "napkin". So it seems more logical to just use the one thing.
Do you go to the pool in the summer time very often? >> I never go to pools. Have you ever had a serious issue involving your eyes? >> I have not.
Have you ever watched South Park? Who’s your favorite character? >> I've seen a lot of it. My favourite character back when I watched was probably Tweek, I just thought he was cute.
Do you have sensitive teeth? >> I don't.
Do you enjoy or hate snow days? Why is this your choice? . Do you turn pale when you get sick? >> I don't know, I've never been that sick. Does it bother you to get shots in the mouth? Does it hurt? >> Of course it hurts. When did you last talk seriously with one of your parents? .
What is the day of the week currently? >> Wednesday.
Is anything exciting coming up in the next three months? >> I don't think so.
Do you ever borrow money from someone? >> Not borrow, no. I don't have the ability to pay people back.
Do you know anyone who tells every single thing you say? >> I do not. At least, I've not been made aware of it, if so.
When did you last kiss someone on the cheek? Who was it? .
Why do you think people like Lady Gaga so much? >> Because that's just what floats their boat.
Do you have a lot of enemies, or not so much? >> I don't think I have any enemies. I guess that's the upside about not really being cared about, no one is super into me but no one is super against me either.
Can you count backwards from 100 without a mistake? >> Sure.
Do you have any friends you’ve had since birth? >> Imagine that...
Do you care if your friends talk badly about you? >> Of fucking course I'd care???
Would you rather drink out of a straw or just the cup alone? >> Just the cup.
Does anyone ever say they miss you often? >> No one says that.
Would you rather become a wizard or a vampire, if you had the choice? >> Wizard.
Is there anyone out there who has made you feel miserable? >> you're joking right
Do you have a problem answering personal questions? >> Not at all. If I don't want to answer one, I won't answer it. No problem at all.
What color is the vacuum-cleaner in your house? >> Grey and blue, I think.
Have you already moved out of your parents’ house? >> lol
Are your parents divorced, married or separated? .
Have you ever thought you might just have obsessive compulsive disorder? >> I have never thought that. Any obsessiveness or compulsion I experience is pretty solidly explained by CPTSD or autism (or their intersection).
Do you think it’s rude to text someone else while on a date? >> As most things: it depends.
What is the funniest movie you’ve ever seen? >> I don't know. I saw Repo Man recently, the 80s movie, and that was surprisingly hilarious to me. The dialogue, the lyrics of the songs, the fucking product labels... A+ What are your views on our current president? >> I don't have any views on him.
Has one of your websites ever quit operating or shut down? Were you sad? >> Unfortunately I have been on the Internet long enough to have experienced this many times over. It sucks every single time. I didn't even use Bzoink to the extent that other users did (I just stole surveys from there to post here), but it still sucked. Websites I use frequently/for long periods of time are yet another part of my life that have to be grieved when they inevitably die.
Is it awkward to see your best friend’s parents out in public? .
Who is the person you talk to the most in your house? >> I only live with one other person.
Is there a television show out there that you never miss? >> There are a few, yeah.
What movie have you seen too many times to be healthy? >> "to be healthy", pff. Please. The movie I've seen the most times is probably Event Horizon.
What are the last two digits of your phone number? >> 39.
Does it creep you out to see people with mullets? >> That's an interesting response. No, hairstyles don't creep me out. What is your biggest responsibility in your household? >> I don't even want to know. Whatever it is, I'm sure I'm failing at it. How cold did it get where you live, last winter? >> Last winter was much colder than this one. Not sure what's going on with this winter but I of all people am not complaining. I hope it's not too ecologically disruptive.
Do you ever wish you could go back in time to redo something? >> I do not.
Ever accidentally pull out a filling from your tooth? >> I have not and I hope I never do. Do you ever wonder what your exes are doing? >> In passing, sometimes. Like if I see something that reminds me of them.
Have you ever been caught in a huge lie with your parents? >> All the time, yeah.
Do you ever listen to the radio anymore? >> I do not.
Does it bother you to have personal conversations with people? >> It does not. I would actually like to have some deep personal conversations for once.
Ever ride in a limo? When did you last do so? >> I have not.
Do any of your body parts hurt at this moment in time? >> No. Are you sober at the time being? >> I am not, although most of the high has worn off by now. Do any of your friends constantly do things to annoy you? >> What the fuck? Apparently people will just be friends with any old kind of person. When did you last eat a Starburst? What color was it? >> I don't remember. It was probably red or pink, I don't really care for any other colour. Have you ever lied to someone & said they could sing when they couldn’t? >> I doubt it.
Do you ever call backstabbers out on what they do? >> I don't know any backstabbers. How many people in the world do you trust? >> *crickets* Well, I mean, trust with what? Like, I trust Sparrow to, idk, not bald-faced lie to me about anything important... well, I mean, they might, but... I assume they won't? But they still might. You see what I mean? It's hard to just unconditionally trust someone. Because people do all sorts of things. I try to assume the best but I'm also always ready for the worst. Yay, trauma.
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anna-mellgren · 2 months ago
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I have been following the fallout after Jenni Hermoso received an unsolicited post-victory kiss from Spanish soccer official Luis Rubiales at the 2023 World Cup final. If this happened in Sweden he would have been fired on the spot, there are deep cultural differences at play here. His mother even went on a hunger strike in defense of her son? If that was my son, I would simply tell him he deserved to get fired and give him a long lecture on female bodily autonomy.
However, if I ever have a son, I plan to hammer into his head what consent means and the importance of female bodily autonomy long before he even starts dating so he knows how to behave. I will have zero tolerance for anything else. Luis Rubiale's mother went on a hunger strike which proves to me she clearly raised him wrong and probably let him get away with arrogant behavior from a young age. You can love your son and still condemn his actions.
It reminds me of when Adrien Brody kissed Halle Berry on stage at the Oscars. People laughed it off and said he was just in the heat of the moment. I remember watching it live and thinking it was a bit f-ed up even back then. She played it off in the moment but later said she was just too shocked to know how to react and didn't enjoy it. Sadly so many women play it off so they don't upset anyone or make a scene when things like that happen.
I had excellent male influences while growing up but in my 20s I had some less great experiences with men. Just to be clear, I like men and think most men have excellent character. To be fair the vast majority of men are great but it can still be a minefield out there.
I am not saying all women are angels in every situation but if you look at the global cases of femicide worldwide you will understand how serious these issues can be. I specialized a bit on gender-based violence during my stint in law school. I remember reading a case from 2012 where a guy shot his girlfriend point-blank in the head and got 3 years in prison for taking her life. She was only 17 years old and he was 19. This is the value of a human life in Sweden? He was out after a year and a half even though he was declared mentally sane and tried as an adult. Her mother described the sentence as being spit in the face and I agree with her. Cases like these made my blood boil and the sentences are often far too lenient. Sweden is definitely not leading the way on these issues and has a lot to learn which is surprising because Sweden generally considers itself to be further along on gender equality compared to the rest of the world. A country can’t say they care about women if people get a slap on the wrist for domestic abuse, rape or even murder. Sweden has a long way to go in my opinion.
I've had a few less great experiences with men while younger but I've also had incredible experiences to balance it out and give me perspective. I still think overwhelmingly men are great and the feminists who claim that all men are evil are dead wrong. I think it is wrong to hate all men just as much it is wrong for misogynists to hate all women.
With that being said, I hope the next generation will have a greater awareness of consent, bodily autonomy and respect toward all genders. The best path towards change is the conversations you have at home.
📍Update #1
— Ok I think I got triggered by watching the movie ”It Ends With Us” and I will finally write this. Some people think the movie is a bit cheesy & Blake Lively’s PR for the movie is very questionable but I thought it was a great film. It caught the gaslighting perfectly & how domestic abusers can often have respectable jobs & look great on paper. I’ve been on this earth for over 30 years now so I’ve had my share of experiences with men. I believe I am fairly reasonable and I think I have a good relationship with literally every guy I have ever kissed or maybe we have no relationship at all which is completely fine & normal when you carry on with life but I don’t think there is any bad blood & I wish them all well and hope they are happy. I truly mean that. 
There are 3 men however who made my life very difficult in different ways. The first was a fleeting acquaintance I met at a party in Argentina as a teenager and I had to resort to actual self-defense to get myself out of that situation. He didn’t accomplish anything and I felt proud of myself for defending myself but it left me with deep trust issues with men I did not know well. From then on I always watched my back. And my friends’ back. Also, a tip if you're young & going clubbing in Argentina... wear pants. Never skirts. I've had friends who've been groped when wearing a skirt in crowded places. My Argentine friends & I always wore pants when we went out in Argentina for this reason. Men would still sometimes try to pat your behind & then run into the crowd on a few occasions... one time I caught the man's hand & I dug my nails as hard as I could into his arm before he ran off. Welcome to being a woman!
The second guy is a swedish guy I met in London over a decade ago at a posh nightclub. A friend of a friend was a member which is why I got in. Honestly, my memory from that night is blurry, but I told him I was american. It was a stupid game I sometimes played with friends when I was young and immature because I could listen to what the swedish guys were saying. I did this only 3-4 times in total when I went out with americans in Europe because it was fascinating what you would hear when swedish men thought you were american. My american accent is immaculate so I could get away with it. I know this is morally dodgy but it was just a bit of fun & games up until then (I would never do this now). Anyway, up until then I always felt very safe with swedish men… I hooked up with a swedish guy that night but I fairly quickly realized I did not want to see him ever again & I wasn’t even that attracted to him. Hence, I never told him I was swedish (in retrospect I should’ve told him I was swedish before we hooked up but I was young, dumb & definitely not very sober). I remember I had left a situationship in the USA that was stuck in my mind so my friends 100% encouraged me to finally find a guy in the club to distract me & cheer me up. To be honest this whole situation with this swedish guy was very unlike me & I never did anything like that ever again. At that moment in time, I had recently moved back to Sweden after spending a decade abroad & I’m an american citizen so this whole thing about me being american was not taken from thin air but I obviously should have told him I’m swedish. I know this. He later finds out I am swedish and begins a decade-long harassment/stalking/cyberbullying campaign against me. I can honestly say I made a mistake but his reaction was disproportionate. This ordeal drove me into some dark waters. Men should consider how far they are willing to go? I came back to the surface after swimming in some very dark waters but not all women have that strength. I think swedish men from a posh background sometimes think they are all-powerful and will explode if a girl does not want anything to do with them or feel like they have been a bit tricked. Meeting this guy & that whole situation was the biggest mistake of my life. I literally did not go on a date for 6 years because I did not want to deal with men. I was essentially choosing to live in celibacy for 6 years during my prime. I only kissed 3 men on 3 separate occasions during 6 bloody years after that & nothing more. This is how much this affected me. 
The third guy is more of a grey situation. I definitely fancied him and I know he fancied me. In retrospect, I think he just thought I was hot and his feelings might’ve not been that deep. I’ve dealt with guys like that before and sometimes they are not that into you (or I am not that into them) and I’m ok with that and wish them well. If a guy treats me with respect I will always wish them well no matter what feelings are involved… just so we are clear this is not *a scorned woman* situation. He has painted it a bit like that and it makes me angry. If anything this is about a scorned man with an inability to respect a no. This shouldn’t be a surprise because his ego is well-known. This situation happened about a year after the situation with the guy in London. Basically, this guy ignored my boundaries even though I told him I wouldn’t sleep with him before we even entered the building. I wasn’t ready and told him so about 15 times. He seemed to take this as a mortal wound to his ego so I tried to tell him that if we get to know each other better and if he came to visit me then maybe we could take the next step. I really liked him and was hopeful. Somehow he only heard the second half of that sentence and behaved in a really awful way. He ignored my boundaries and behaved in a way that was hard for me to reconcile. We met his friend who came back with a girl that night, they thought I was fine when we talked but the night took a turn after that. Clearly little details have been missed when I haven’t been around to contradict anything. I was already dealing with the situation with the guy I met in London and I did not have the strength to confront this head-on. I blamed myself for this for a long time but it is very common for women to do this in these situations. For many years I told myself that he was young and got ahead of himself… that it wasn’t that bad etc etc etc. But it was pretty bad. Just for the record I was fully dressed, refused to get undressed, tried to leave at one point etc. His ego didn’t take that well. This is on him. He thinks he only behaved like an asshole and will admit that, but I say no. It was beyond that. 
Somehow I still had feelings for him and I really wanted to believe this was drunk miscommunication but I never contacted him or any mutual acquaintances/friends whenever I visited his country after that. I think that says a lot. I put the whole situation in a closet and closed the door. It was not until I heard his narrative/version of events of that night from an acquaintance that I contacted him. What followed was a year-long communication which was a bit of a death spiral where I tried to forgive but I couldn’t really make up my mind… I went back & forth & it got pretty toxic. In retrospect, I think it was very naive of me to think we could work it out. From the very beginning, I knew my anger, bordering on rage, might drive him away forever and it did. A part of me wanted that & a part of me didn’t. I said I would not mention it here and I was planning on upholding that promise until I heard what he had said about me behind my back. He can spin the narrative by showing excerpts of our communication but the entire picture is very different if you see all communication. If there were CCTV cameras from that night I know that the truth would align with me. At the end of the day, I gave him the benefit of the doubt which is far more than most women would do but I will not be silenced or labeled something I am not. He did not try to rape me so we are clear but his behavior was not good so we are also clear on that. If a girl is not ready, then she is not ready. It will not matter if a man is carved by the gods themselves… sometimes a woman need to establish an emotional connection before sleeping with someone. End of story. Sexual coercion should be taught more thoroughly in schools. He said he is sorry but I think he was prepared to say anything to make me shut up. I will never mention who, where, or what this is about. His privacy will always be protected. I will never show our communication or go into anything else, so he doesn’t have to worry about his name being exposed. But he shouldn’t expect complete silence from me after what he put me through. I am entitled to share my experiences in life as a female without ever naming him to anyone. That is my final act of mercy. Ironically the only people who might suspect it might be about him are the people he talked about me to. My closest friends don’t even know his full name and I will keep it that way because I know he is sorry. He might be a good person but he was not a good person to me that night. I will not be completely silenced. This text is not about him or to get back at him.. I am writing this because I have found it very healing to listen to other women who’ve had similar experiences with men but have gotten on with life & thrived. Not feeling alone with a situation is healing. I am writing this to help other women feel less alone… not to get back at someone. He thinks I dragged him through hell but what he doesn’t realize is that he pushed me into the fire first. 
He told me he had thought about me in the months before I contacted him & it was like I could sense it. Feelings don’t die a natural death when you don’t see someone for years… the feelings can linger. I think I subconsciously wanted any lingering feelings to die on both sides and I accomplished that after I contacted him. I wish him well but I am glad we don’t live close to each other. In the end, he said I completely changed him as a person & he would never treat a woman like that again & any future sons would be taught to do better so I don’t regret my communication with him. I later learned there were some red flags I had missed about him. Sometimes I think you have to bring a man’s hand to the fire to truly make him change his ways and I think I accomplished that.
Basically what I am saying is that I have been to hell and back with men. For many years I barely let a man touch me, it got to the point where some friends even suggested that I should date a woman. I think sexuality is on a spectrum but (perhaps unfortunately) I am very straight on that spectrum. I can appreciate female beauty but I have never been attracted to women. I am attracted to men & masculinity even if I avoided it for years. Men can distract, delay & almost destroy you if you’re really unlucky. Remember to be independent, go to school & pay your own bills. Hope for the best but always prepare for the worst when it comes to romance. Make sure you can always land on your feet no matter what comes your way. Most importantly, don’t lose hope in love because I can guarantee there are so many wonderful souls out there waiting for you. 
So if you’ve been in a similar situation, know that you are not alone. Also, perhaps most importantly, there are so many good men out there so don’t drown yourself in sorrow. For every bad guy, there is at least 10 amazing guys. There is so much beauty in the world. And seek help if you need it. ❤️
📍Update # 2
Buckle up, I know this is long and you can skip if you feel like it doesn't apply to you. Let’s get to the root of this because I want to clarify one thing with the situation with this swedish guy - The only reason I even started saying I was american a few times when I was out in Europe is because it was an excellent weeding out process for detecting men with bad intentions… (I only did this 3-4 times in total). It started out when I took out 2 american friends in Stockholm and I probably saved them from 2 giant red flags. I ran into an old school friend that night in Stockholm & got distracted chatting with her so my american friends went to the bar to get us drinks. I realized they had been gone for a while so I went to get them and realized they had been chatting with 2 swedish guys in the bar. They are good-looking girls so I was not surprised. These swedish guys thought I was american too and before I could say anything I heard how they talked about my friends in swedish. I am not going to repeat what they said but clearly, they did not have great intentions. I played along for a while but I said a few choice words in swedish to them before we decided to leave and their jaws were on the floor. The night in London is literally the only time I actually hooked up with a swedish guy after telling him I was american, this was definitely a mistake on my part but I don’t think I should be crucified for it. I don’t think this is what set him off in the end…  his biggest issue was that I didn’t want to see him again. Judge my friends and I for being young & dumb but let's also be clear that sweden is sometimes called the rape capital of Europe for a reason… you shouldn’t judge a young woman too harshly for getting a bit creative when trying to weed out bad apples on a night out. It was a mistake on my part which I never did again but there was also a reason behind it. For many, many years I stayed quiet but it did not work & this swedish guy kept going after me, it was not until I used my voice that I saw change. Use your voice. Know your rights. Help others. My whole future in law will be devoted to this.
~ Why did I even share my experience with the 3rd guy? Because I feel like I am forced to & I will actually go into some detail here because I have been silent for so long. He has called me crazy to people who know who I am… even though I have actually gone quite soft on him and moved heaven & earth to understand him. To be clear we only had email communication where I confronted him about his behavior, it does not make me crazy. He was even the one who resumed contact after not emailing for a few months. We forgave each other but also blocked each other in the end. It was definitely for the best and we agreed we would keep this between us & not contact each other again. This was fine but here is the thing, I will defend my name. So I will tell you why I reacted a bit crazy or overreacted (according to him) because we should establish what actually happened that night:
Perhaps a general rule of thumb going forward for all men is not to get a condom when a woman is refusing to shed a layer of clothing? Perhaps never shed your clothes before a woman does in the first place? Perhaps don’t get undressed a second time after she made you get dressed/threatened to leave the first time you got undressed?! A woman might have kissed you & likes you but it doesn’t mean that she wants it… especially if she keeps telling you that she does not want it? If she tells you she really likes you but she is not ready? If she removes your hands? If she tells you she is about to cry? All of that happened but we still settled for drunk miscommunication & when I asked for an apology/accountability in an email years later… I am the crazy one? But guess what? I will defend my name. We don’t live in the same country. We don’t have the same group of friends but we have common acquaintances. He knows people who know who I am. So yes… it does hurt me when he calls me crazy to people who know who I am because I confronted him about his behavior after years & years of staying silent. I’ve been understanding to a fault & protected him for a long time but I don’t feel like I have been protected by him. I will never talk about him so his name is exposed. I want him to carry on with life and be happy because I know he is very sorry but I will defend my name which is why I shared this. Now people can make up their own minds for the few who might know who I am talking about. At the end of the day, this could have been a nice evening of just kissing & reconnecting. We could have parted ways just as friends or even stay in touch but the night was ruined because his ego could not take a no. It felt like he lost control even though he reeled himself in in the end. Before this, I distrusted men I didn’t know but this event led me to distrust all men.
I will actually continue going into some details because the third guy is different from the other 2 men because I knew him a bit before all of this went down & I feel like I was forced into silence. For a long time, I gaslighted myself that his behavior was a drunk mistake & miscommunication because I truly could not grasp the fact he behaved like that on purpose. It was not until I communicated with him that I understood it was intentional (even though he was sorry) & it was not until then that my feelings cooled for good because I understood I had been gaslighting myself about his character. I also let him gaslight me about his behavior. This is the only time that a man whom I've known a bit from before who has ever been nasty to me. I am certainly guilty of saying many stupid things after a few drinks when I was younger, but I was never nasty to anyone. If anything I would be over-complimentary & tell a girl she is pretty 5 times if I liked her outfit, I was 10x more social & perhaps guilty of kissing a guy I thought was cute on a night out but that is literally it when it came to my young drunk escapades. I was young… I barely drink or go out anymore & prefer a cozy night in 👵🏻 I understand now that I was gaslighting myself about his character when he told me ”it didn’t matter I wouldn’t sleep with him because he could sleep with any girl in the class” 🚩. To be honest, I would never have shared this if I hadn't heard how he talked about our night… I excused it as a drunk talk/mistake back then but I think it was an insight into his mindset at the time. He clearly did not have a filter because he knew I was leaving the country soon afterward… that is what unnerved me the most all those years, the complete disrespect. I was blindsided by it. His astronomical ego got in the way when things didn't go his way & he started behaving badly. It was not until I got older myself that I truly understood what a shit situation this night was & I was mad at myself for being so forgiving. I also think there are slight cultural differences here, I think swedish women are far less forgiving for this type of behavior. I am not sure though because I think the nail in the coffin was when I asked an acquaintance from his country what she thought of him (without mentioning any of the history I had with him)… she casually told me she thought he was ~sus~ simply because she had noticed he had followed a certain rugby player on social media after a rape trial a few years back. He did not follow any other athletes & only followed this athlete after the trial in an obvious sign of support. The man was cleared of rape but the evidence was super clear how this rugby player & his mates had behaved terribly & they had talked about women in a very disgusting way. A lot of women rightfully took up arms about it after the trial… but he probably saw a bit of himself in this rugby player & wanted to show support. This is when I understood that I clearly missed a few 🚩
Here is the thing, I am not like Vogue Williams who can forgive a man who behaved like a sex-addicted sociopath for 10 years before dating him. I would hold a grudge and question his character? If I was Vogue, I would ask Spencer why he cheated on his ex-girlfriend in her bed? I wouldn’t be able to forgive it even if it didn’t happen to me because behavior like that truly gives me the ick. I get the same ick if a man treats a waitress badly. It matters to me how men treat women in their lives who do not matter to them. I don’t care if a man has ~changed~ for me because deep down it is not who he is. I think it is completely normal to have clashing personalities with an ex, to not agree on things, to have fierce arguments, or to have feelings fade but I am not a woman who will forgive disgusting behavior. I want a man to have a good character from day one, long before I met him. That is why I contacted him, to seek clarity & perhaps confirm my therapist’s suspicion that I was gaslighting myself about his behavior. I forgive him & have a certain understanding that we were young but I don’t forgive myself for not letting myself see him for who he was & that it would never have worked for us from day one. He would've driven me nuts. Looking back I am only sorry I was so apologetic to him. Again, I am writing this because for many years I never said a peep but hearing other women share their experiences was healing for me. This man is not a monster, in fact, I think he just didn’t know better at the time. Or he didn't fully understand just how bad his behavior was. This is why we need to have these conversations.
He thinks I have changed my mind over time, but no, I was also young and just trying to cope. Blaming yourself is a coping mechanism, fairly certain several PhDs have been written about it. I am older now and my bs tolerance is lower because I am less naive. Now I understand it only went this far because I was leaving the country shortly afterward. I certainly contemplated just staying quiet forever and let his narrative rule the day but it is not in my nature, I am a fighter. In elementary school I punched a school bully until he got a bloody nose because he was mean to my best friend at the time because she was African-American. He never said a mean word to her or physically attacked her again so guess what, it worked. He had made her life hell before I came to the school from sweden. Our parents were called to the principal's office & everything. When my mom softly tried to tell me that I needed to tell my teacher if someone was being bullied, I yelled back "how am I supposed to do that when I don't speak english yet?" & my mom just rolled her eyes. For the rest of the year this girl and I were as thick as thieves.. she helped me with english & I was her bodyguard on the playground. A perfect bestie for my 7-year-old self. The bully's dad was happy the incident came to light because he didn't know his son was a bully before then. My mom low-key loves this story even though she would never condone violence but she also said she never worried about me because she knew I would always fight back. My grandfather always said I had some viking blood in me lol. I was never bullied during my grade school & high school years so I never had to fight back. I was blessed to be surrounded by kind souls during my school years after that.
Ultimately I was inspired my hero, Dr Ann Olivarius OBE, to use my voice. To not be forced into silence. To share my experiences. Fight back when you have to. Don't be forced into silence.
For a long time I stayed quiet about the third guy but why should I keep completely quiet when he couldn't extend the same favor to me? In my heart, I know he behaved the way he did because he always banked on me keeping quiet & leaving the country, he picked the wrong girl though. This is what made me so sad and angry because to everyone he made it sound like I was just a fast & loose swedish girl willing to jump into bed with him... I know for a fact this is basically what he told a lot of people more or less (we only kissed so we are real clear here because I repeatedly refused anything else). In reality, we bickered half the night about boundaries & he was quite nasty towards me when he didn't get what he wanted. Thankfully I was old enough to stand my ground, a younger girl might give in to such pressure though. We were both in our early 20s but I think he is more mature now and different. I want him to carry on & I will protect his privacy forever because he is very sorry & we have both suffered enough now. Lessons have been learned.
But why share? These situations are more common than you think, often the situations are far worse than what I experienced. I have a friend who was in a much darker place than me because of a man and when I shared my experiences she felt less alone & I helped her pull herself up from the brink. She is beautiful & doing well but she went through some things no woman should. Sharing is healing for women. Not being alone in a situation is healing. The movie ”It Ends With Us” was healing for me. I also think men might think twice about their own behavior (or perhaps be a bit more critical of a mate’s behavior) towards women if you force them to see a female perspective. This is why I shared my experiences but I know many women have far worse experiences than me. The only reason I went into such detail is because I know from experience that my words will be twisted otherwise, this is why this text got so long. From being 17 years old and fighting off a guy twice my size when he tried to lock me into a room at a party, to these other 2 experiences made me lose a bit of hope in men... especially after what the swedish guy put me through. I regained trust in men after a long time because I met a guy who understood me & gave me time to build trust again. I am not sure what would’ve happened if I never met him, the woman who raised him deserves the Nobel prize.
Last thing - these 3 situations with the men I mentioned above are from 3 different countries. The situations are of varying degrees of severity but it should help you understand this is a widespread problem. Last but not least, there might be some spelling mistakes in this text because I am unable to disable swedish auto-correct & can’t be bothered but I think you get the picture.
I know this is very long, it has been on my mind for a long time but I am tired of not having a say about my own narrative. I am not planning to have this post up forever but it will be here for a little while. I will eventually delete it forever when I am ready to do so.
📌 The third guy is not american, I was asked to add this info after a bit of finger pointing at someone who has nothing to do with this or would ever behave in that manner to be honest. That is all I will say about that.
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tell me about sally
SALLY IS ACTUALLY UNFORTUNATELY A BIT OF A BLIND SPOT FOR ME cuz i haven't watched a lot of AoStH or SatAM and haven't read a lot of the Archie comics... at her best, she's super cool though! she was used uhhhhh Poorly for most of archie's run, just acting as A Girl for sonic (and sometimes other male characters) to "win" or "lose" (rugh.) and... generally being misunderstood and mistreated by the men writing her (the team that came after the "original batch" of writers had their own problems writing characters esp women too but that's a whole other thing i again don't have too much authority on since i've read a series of VERY random archie issues over the past 12 years, mostly from the Tracy Yardley era and Sonic Universe actually lol)
at her core though, sally has always been that kind of "kick-ass royalty" type you get out of girls in media from the time period. active member of the cast, smart, funny, cool, realistic when needed, kindhearted but not foolish, a little exasperated by Oh You Boys. she's also always been sonic's girlfriend/love interest, which i feel like some people aren't aware of and think sonally is just from archie? they're if not outright dating just very comfortable and flirtatious with each other (they're childhood friends!) in SatAM. i actually had a couple episodes on again while doing dishes recently and there was a scene where sonic and sally kiss and their friends are just like standing around waiting for them to stop LMFAO
uhh i put images in here and they made the post really long so i'm gonna put a break
i know even Less about AoStH sally... apparently they're officially dating according to the SNN? also, she's pink, and i hate it
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SHE LOOKS SO MUCH MORE GIRLNAKED IN PINK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i do love that she's naked though. pave the way for clothesless female animal chracters girl... a legend... an icon.... unfortunately an icon who was slowly given clothes to hide her Heinous Female Form (i'm joking) over time
for the longest time she just had this little vest though still chest out. go girl go. the little vest was sooo Gender to me as a kid. also her archie eyebrows!!
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as sad as i am that they covered her up, i do think her post-reset archie outfit is super cool!!!
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i take a lot of cues from this sally as well as the Sonic Riders design ethos when dressing my own sonic ocs actually! she's so sporty and fun, i love her. her bright red hair is really nice too, imo. she lost her eyebrows though :(
her archie designs.... oooo she is suuuuuuuch a little gender envy sapphic to me LMFAO. bi legend...
i feel like moooost people know this by now but sallicole... it is Real... they couldn't make it real real for real for real but god these girls...
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their designs look good together i feel... <3
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mmmm i forget what the point was. but yeah, unfortunately i don't know much about sally's use in canon/spinoff material... but what i've seen of her i really like (other than the royalty thing though, i don't like sonic(the character)'s world having a rigid political system especially one based on royalty sorry LMFAO. it's weird!! and also enabled a lot of wack writing for sally in archie!!!) she's a really fun character when written well and given a proper role, and i think she's a really neat companion for sonic (not necessarily romantic... their dynamic is really fun when it isn't bogged down by boring love triangles, they bounce off each other well). i think the idea of sonic having a childhood friend like sally is really neat, especially when you add tails to that history. weird little misfit friendfamily
unfortunately, sally probably won't ever be used officially again. i know the IDW team especially Ian Flynn really want to... but if they did, they wouldn't ever be the same as they were before due to the agonies sadly, and IDW does have a good amount of characters similar to sally now (though i will NEVER say no to more cool girls. in fact give me more. outnumber the cool boys, i demand it). but still! it'd be neat to see her in action in official material again. for now though, she and the rest of the freedom fighters are at narrative rest
but sally still remains a beloved part of the fandom! i still see fanart of her, and i see fans remixing current storylines and putting her and the other freedom fighters back into the cast. i'm glad that at least she hasn't been forgotten
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Why insert romance into one of the only shows that cherish platonic love more?
I talked to a respectful destiel shipper a couple of days ago and while they were completely respectful, there is one thing I can't understand for the life of me. Why does there have to be romance in everything? I am aroace which is probably part of it, but why can't platonic love exist? ( This isn't meant to be a dig at wincest shippers. I am very well aware you guys know the difference between fanon and canon and love the brother/soulmate/best friend/parent or adult child relationship of Sam and Dean just as much as I from a non-shipper point of view do.) Why does everyone have to kiss or have sex? Platonic love does exist and it baffles me that Dean and Cass can't just be friends even with Cass' goodbye scene. I guess I feel like they see romantic love in everything and it irks me a bit. Maybe destiel shippers are young? I'm 15 though so why would that be a factor? Is it more society's fault than anyone else's?
Why is there so much emphasis on romantic/sexual love and not a lot on platonic relationships? The one show that actually puts emphasis on a relationship that is platonic. The one show that has Sam and Dean choose each other over any romantic interest. The one show that has two brothers in a QPR. The one show that has a possible a-spec reading of one or both brothers. (I've only ever seen one for Dean but I'm sure there is one for Sam as well. ("Sex is sex and love is Sam." I love this quote so thank you to whoever wrote that.)) The one show that has Dean waiting for Sam in heaven because heaven isn't perfect without his brother. Why do they watch this show if they want a focus on romantic interests? I just think if they want a show about romance there are other shows available. Especially if you want representation. Why torture themselves when there is nothing there? ( I see the speech at the end as platonic but even if it was not it wouldn't change anything. At the most it's unrequited.)
Not to mention there are problems with wanting it in canon. ( Shipping it in fanon only is a whole other thing but while I'm sure there are destiel shippers who may do this I'm talking about ones who actually wanted it/saw it( from Dean's side) in canon.) The first problem is Dean canonically is straight. Plenty of evidence for that. The second thing is his love for Sam. Canonically they have left love interests and friends for each other. There is no way in canon that Dean doesn't dump Cass at some point even if Dean was bisexual. Dean could be literally any sexuality but if Sam existed and he was ever aware of it Cass would be fed to the wolves. Also, I don't even like Cass ( I'm a Sam-leaning bibro who is still mad at Cass for breaking Sam's wall and rendering Sam's sacrifice in season 5 meaningless by saying yes to Lucifer in season 11 and messing everything up.) but Cass is literally an angel. Angels are jerks and I think they got that from Chuck but they are also warriors meant to be in an army. I don't even like him, but I know it's a disservice to his character.
That being said shoutout to respectful destiel shippers. I can't say I understand but I thank you for being respectful because a lot of destiel shippers (hellers) are not.
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doped-on-galaxies · 3 years ago
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So I decided to make my last post a little more clear
We're going to put the shippings more in depth.
First off, keepsakes
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I dont take the keepsakes very seriously due to the fact that's all they are. They were gifted. Nothing fancy just things that are carried along throughout the series. Though Misty's keepsakes were carried throughout plenty more seasons than Ash and May's ribbon. The ribbon was nothing more than a good luck charm to remind May of how much she learned, same as Ash's lure from Misty was a good luck charm for him ��
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Whether these were hints towards shippings or not, these were the only personal ones that had Ash and a female companion alone. Though this can be argued I do personally feel as if Pokeshipping and Amourshipping were hinted in these. Nonetheless May and Iris did not get a cameo poster with Ash alone.
Being saved
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If you're going to consider one as a hint, then consider all of these as hints. These characters were simply being saved, and each of the falling scenes have a close up of grabbing each others hands. Let it be noted though, that Misty saving Ash, Serena saving Ash, and May saving Drew were the ONLY times the females saved their *crushes* every other time it's just Ash saving and girl. Yes a few of the girls liked Ash but that carries us into our next topic.
Blushing
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Somebody said that "blushing doesn't always mean romance" of course. I get that, but not in these scenarios. Each person blushed due to to a romantic gesture. Whether it's embarrassing someone about possible love letters, accusing one of having feelings, accepting feelings, or simply a romantic moment. They say "Oh well Pokemon can't be romantic due to age" yet last time I checked, there is blushing, rose giving, slow dancing, kissing, and people asking if x has a crush on y. Can they go too far? No, but did they give us an idea on who liked who??? Definitely. As shown even Ash blushed, he just didn't blush very often, but them few counted. I understand that Goh blushes at Ash too though but last time I checked we aren't talking about characters being embarrassed, but I do believe if there is a possibility for there to be a LGBTQ relationship with Ash- Gary and Goh are definitely good representations.
Oh, and yes I am aware Ash was sick in the scene with him and Serena, but Pokemon did a pretty *obvious* job of making it a romantic scene regardless. They didn't have to do all that, but they did. "Some" people seem to forget that there's more to a Pokemon shipping than having to fish out romance out of non-romantic scenes due to their ship just being a healthy friendship at best, but if you're here for the obvious, you can easily tell Pokemon did their best to portray some kind of romance in these scenes. The proof was in the blushing. If you don't feel for someone you don't blush. You argue it out or deny it. We have all been in a scenario as kids and young teens where someone asks if you have feelings for someone, and you brush it off or argue about it because it's simply not true. I promise you my face only got red when I actually had feelings for someone. It's natural instinct, Pokemon knows that too. Take some notes from the Pokemon creators because they knew what they were drawing and what was going to be said in these scenes. Also take a look at the few shippings that had no blushing whatsoever. It's a sign, not an argument.
"Look at how they look at each other"
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You know, you're only partially right. Look at how Ash looks at EVERY GIRL. Ooooh wow same expression. Pretty last resort thing to fall back on. Which is why there are other hints that help to make SOME of those expressions actually worth digging in to.
Let's face it, when it comes to ships like Contestshipping and Penguinshipping- there's very few episodes that Drew and Kenny are in, so every second counts. Plus the episodes with Angie, Anabel, and Lucy (towards Brock) they made it very clear within the very few episodes that those girls had feelings. Though I do believe Pearlshipping was partially one sided (I do feel like Dawn liked Ash to an extent only with the way she left Kenny to travel with Ash despite his offer) there was 100% proof Kenny DID have feelings for Dawn and it was easily initiated in the actions he made. Contestshipping was not one sided though. I've learned in my 23 years of watching Pokemon if they don't blush, it's not anything to worry about. Luckily May blushed nearly everytime, and Drew did blush but he didn't always need to. After all he was slinging red roses left and right, and if they were for Beautifly- the last one she received would've never been given to her since Beautifly wasn't even in Battle Frontier at all.
Though I am a Pokeshipper, Amourshipper, and half ass Pearlshipper- I stand as an ally when I say that if you're looking for romantic signs in a shipping you're going to have to find it in the Poke'girls actions. Ash doesn't *look* at one girl specifically different than the other. He literally just looks at them. Though the only person he ever blushed with was for Misty, but that doesn't mean the 2,000,000 hints Serena had are dismissed. After all, like I said before, if Pokemon wanted to create hints, they would, and they did. Those hints were soooo out there, that saying "oh look how Ash looks at her" is gonna leave us asking "who?" Because let's face it he looks at all of them pretty normal. That being said there are still hints Ash had. Being jealous of Misty's potential crushes, showing he was attracted to other women, running up to Serena when he was sick and falling into her arms, and looking at Serena when she kissed him and doing nothing but smile, when normally Ash would probably freak the fuck out.
That being said I hope I made myself clear on how to spot a close-to-canon shipping. It's okay to ship people who have litte to no proof of real romance, but don't say a ship with real proof has none. That is where you are wrong.
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stilldancewithyou · 2 years ago
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tsitp
I'll preface my "criticism" by saying that i expected this show to be a corny and cringey mess and i was sure i wouldn't get through a full episode. But here i am, pleasantly surprised that i watched the season in almost one sitting! This show was easily one of the most satisfying viewing experience i've had all year. I can't wait for season 2
::SPOILERS ahead:::
I don't really have any issues with the show but...
I would have loved to see more clips of jeremiah and conrad's relationship.
It would have been great if they showed longer clips of of old conrad's personality and Belly in the flashbacks so we could have had a better idea of how different conrad had become
Belly was wild this summer. It was not a good look for her to be hopping from brother to brother.
Jeremiah and Belly's relationship exudes best friend energy. Jelly seems very unnatural. I don't know what they could have done differently to make it seem less like Jeremiah was acting out of jealousy of his older bro and Belly just wanted to have a fisher boy date her
I did not care about laurel and cleveland's relationship...at all. Certainly didnt need to see a sex scene from them
I don't think i like Taylor
I'm so glad you enjoyed it! first, I'm gonna be that annoying person and say I highly recommend reading the books if you haven't already. They explain so much and give you all the little flashbacks the show left out, and there's some chapters from the Fisher brothers' POVs in books 2 and 3 so you get to fully understand them. now that that's out of the way:
I agree with you 110% on everything. They definitely should have shown more flashbacks. It was weird for them to just be like "conrad's so different" and expect the audience to just understand what was happening. And to add to what you said, they should have shown more of Conrad & Jere and also Conrad, Jere, and Steven's friendship (which is one of my personal critiques). I wanted to see more flashbacks of them as kids, teasing Belly and excluding her from things and more of their friendship in present time. Hopefully next season they will take the time to add a few more flashbacks so we can see how their relationships have changed over time.
Yeah, Belly was wild. I didn't like how serious she got with Jeremiah bc the way she jumped between them was not a good look. If it makes you feel better, in the actual first book, she didn't play them like that. It was weird bc they tried to make her seem a little more mature and aware of things than in the books but then she was kissing the brothers back to back. Book Belly is one of the most realistic sixteen year old girl voices I've ever read and even though she was super naive, immature, and a little annoying/bratty, she knew what she wanted and that was Conrad. so they definitely did her a disservice making her seem so indecisive.
THANK YOU FOR SAYING THIS. I'm so glad i'm not the only one who thought Jelly felt weirdly unnatural. I loved their little moments together for the most part, but all their scenes and their chemistry felt more like best friends to me too, something was just off about their romantic chemistry. The way they showed his jealousy made him look like a jerk and idk either what would have made it better...it just needed to be toned down a little I guess. also, Jeremiah had way more chemistry with Taylor and I kinda wish they had explored that.
That sex scene was so uncalled for! and I wasn't a huge fan of them either...I didn't feel their chemistry I guess and I thought it was nice to see Laurel getting over her divorce and dating but it was weird how important they made Cleveland cause it seemed like just a fling type of energy to me. Laurel deserves to play the field a little. I def think they could have spent a little less time on them and put that time towards more flashbacks.
Taylor is even worse at first in the books but she gets a lot better as she grows. she has good intentions, like her heart is in the right place, but she just annoyed me. and it pissed me off that she kinda made Belly feel bad for still wanting Conrad even when Conrad was FINALLY starting to admit he has feelings for her. and when she teamed up with Jeremiah to get Belly to choose him I was screaming.
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