#i am unfortunately awkward and lame

[folansstuff]

i love all my friends/mutuals (one in the same really) and i want them all to be happy and well and this is not a joke

[therosevest]

ok im a really chill and normal person and i get over things and am well adjusted but take a walk with me here. just give me my time to complain when im not in the absolute fucking trenches. and yes i believe i suffered more than those in trench warfare. it was literally a lesbian situationship with a bistraight girl come on. just. magenta choppy shag with the roots coming in. camo cargo pants black t shirt with red lettering and striped long sleeve (sign someone likes music. confirmed). lip ring big black stud earrings and nails. red docs. i think lesbians should be allowed to kill one dyke baiter in their lifetime idc

[mrfoox]

Don't get attached so easily I say, as I'm already attached...

[hangup119]

FEELS LIKE A THRILLER! ᯓᡣ𐭩

06. @SMUbruhmoments written chapter | 1.4k words

THE ONE THING you didn’t expect to encounter tonight at Giselle’s party is Park Wonbin, resident campus crush previously at SM High School and now at SM University, pathetically stuck inside the window leading to the common area like some damsel in distress.

So, naturally, you make yourself known as his knight in shining armor. 

“You need some help, princess?” you announce with a teasing lilt in your tone, watching the way the black-haired man immediately tenses up at the sound of your voice. 

“Oh, my God,” Wonbin groans, craning his neck to face you. “Just kill me now.” 

Sungchan peaks from inside, a wide grin immediately appearing on his face as soon as he sees you. “Oh, it’s Y/N!” he exclaims, waving his hand enthusiastically. “You got kicked out, too?” 

“No…” you say slowly, stepping closer after placing your empty red cup down on the grass. “I wanted to step out for some fresh air, but then I got locked out; no one told me the door automatically locks! Giselle has bougie doors.”  

“It’s to keep this guy out,” Sungchan explains while patting Wonbin’s head, only to be smacked in return. He hisses, but keeps tugging on his arms to bring him in. Unfortunately, Wonbin doesn’t budge at all, as the window is still too narrow to accommodate his body despite being slim. Even Giselle’s windows reject him. 

You push on his back, causing him to groan at the strain. You laugh, saying, “How’d you even think you’d fit in this? Idiot.” 

Wonbin kicks his leg up, and you yelp as he almost hits you. 

“Dude, what the hell?” you cry, keeping his leg down. Then, threatening to twist it, you add, “Fine, stay stuck in here for all I care.” 

Wonbin flips you off without looking back. Then he cries out when you flex his leg uncomfortably.

“... Is that Wonbin’s ass?” 

You gasp, turning around to find the last person you wanted to see standing behind you. Unfortunately for you, Hong freakin’ Seunghan just had to show up outside Giselle’s house with his phone out in his hand, the brightness level turned up to the max, and his gaze flickering between Wonbin’s backside to you gaping up at him wordlessly. 

“Um,” he starts off awkwardly. “… Am I interrupting something?”

“Yes!” You shrill at the same time Wonbin yells out, “No!” 

From the other side, Sungchan starts hollering. He stops when Sohee appears beside him, sipping from a red cup. 

“You’re not supposed to be here,” he says. 

“You think I care about that right now?” Wonbin grits out. 

“You should,” Sohee simply says, taking another sip, “because Gigi’s coming.” 

Wonbin curses, wriggling himself only to no avail. He’s perpetually stuck half-way through Giselle’s window, and the rest of the student body will be seeing him like this and he’s gonna wake up the next day seeing pictures of him on the @SMUbruhmoments Instagram page with a lame caption or something. Sungchan would probably be the one to submit it. 

Ignoring the awkward tension between the gaping girl and Seunghan who definitely locked himself out just to play Pokemon Go, Wonbin turns to the both of them, hissing out: “Push me!” 

“What?” Seunghan asks. 

“Push me!” Wonbin repeats. “Just push me! Hurry!”

Seunghan looks back at you, then at Wonbin, before looking at his phone. “But…” he says, “I need to catch this—” 

“I don’t care about your stupid Pikachu! Just push me!” Wonbin all but practically yells. 

Seunghan pockets his phone with a sigh, coming over closer to you to get to Wonbin. “Excuse me,” he murmurs to you, and you back away with a too-quiet response he doesn’t bother figuring out. He pushes on Wonbin’s back while the latter claws on Giselle’s walls, also being aided by Sungchan at the front. 

As Seunghan continues pushing Wonbin from behind, all you could do was stare and gape at him. Although the principle of the situation seemed hilarious, the sound of Wonbin and Sungchan bickering alongside the loud boom of the music playing on the speakers pales in comparison to the sight of Seunghan using all of his strength to help his friend; his hoodie had been taken off due to the heat inside, and although he’s not excessively muscular like a bodybuilder, there’s some definition of it that appears on his biceps when he guides Wonbin’s leg in. He looks so focused, his dark eyebrows furrowed in utmost determination.

You could cry from how good he looks.

“Y/N, you’re staring,” Sungchan sings the moment Wonbin falls onto the floor, successfully getting in. 

Snapped out of your thoughts, you lie with an unnaturally high voice, “No, I’m not!” although Sungchan looks hardly convinced, considering he’s still giving you that teasing look.

“Thanks, you guys,” Wonbin breathes out in relief, patting Sunchan on the back and waving Seunghan goodbye. “I’m gonna go before Gigi sees me.” 

Then he leaves with Sohee, pushing past heaps of bodies within the common area until you no longer see them.

“You guys wanna come in?” Sungchan asks eventually, peeking his head out curiously.

You shake your head, responding, “Nah, I don’t wanna get stuck. Can you open the front door instead?” 

Sungchan pauses and looks at you silently, before turning his gaze towards Seunghan. Then, as if a light bulb has been lit up inside his small brain, he grins mischievously at you, saying, “Actually, I’m gonna go get a drink,” before shutting down the window on you. “Good luck!” 

Your mouth gapes again when you hear an audible click. He locked it.

“… What the hell!” You screech, knocking on the glass. “Sungchan!” 

No response. 

Seunghan shrugs, pulling out his phone. “Oh, well,” he says nonchalantly, looking at you. “Wanna go on a walk?” 

You look at him, incredulous. “That’s all you have to say?”

He shows you his screen, and on it you see a view of his Pokedex or whatever nerd shit he’s got going on with Pokemon Go, including the profile for some random Pokemon he had just caught within the three seconds you spent calling Sungchan who had definitely already left.

“I mean, you’re locked out, I’m locked out. I can’t just leave a girl alone at night,” Seunghan elaborates, “plus, this area has a lot of Pokemon, for some reason.” 

You feel a vein pop. Pokemon this, Pokemon that—Jaehyun was right, this is some bitchless behavior. And yet a part of you still finds this incredibly endearing somehow, like the way Seunghan just looks back at you expectantly while still holding up his phone to show you his stupid Pokedex at nine-something p.m. in the evening. 

“... Do you even know me?” you ask apprehensively. 

“Hm? Yeah, ‘course I do,” Seunghan casually responds, “Y/N, right? We had Calculus AB together in high school.” 

You blink. “Oh, okay.” 

“And we also had AP World, and APUSH, and I think AP Lit. Did we take AP Physics together? I don’t really remember…” 

Raising a hand towards him, you say, “Okay, you can stop now, I get it.” 

“You don’t have to go with me,” Seunghan says softly. “I don’t mind either way; I just don’t want you to be alone outside.” 

You look back at him, conflicted.

“Look, here,” he continues, quickly going through his contacts, “I can call someone else who isn’t Sungchan to open the door for you, is that—” 

You shake your head, boldly touching his hand. He pauses, looking back at you wordlessly as you say, “No, it’s okay. I’ll walk with you… dude.” 

You wince inwardly. Great. Just awesome. Here’s Hong Seunghan, your crush since your sophomore year of high school, and here’s you, already messing up your once-in-a-life-time opportunity to get closer to him by calling him “dude” like he’s one of your homies or whatever. Your budding relationship with each other will end before it even starts, as there’s no way he’s going to be willing to look at you in a romantic light when you’ve flat out bro-zoned him like the idiot you ar—

But Seunghan just smiles, his eyes forming crescent moons, and you watch, almost starstruck, when he says:“Alright. Whatever you want, Y/N.”

God, you wish fifteen-year-old you made a move on him before he went ahead and got himself a girlfriend. 

But it’s no use crying over spilled milk.

“... Let’s just go,” you murmur, already walking towards the paved sidewalk as you try to hide the rising heat on your cheeks. 

Seunghan catches up with you, messing up his hair before you turn to him. 

“So, what are you majoring—”

He cuts you off. “Holy shit! It’s a Snorlax! Wait, I have to catch this.” 

You look at him, incredulous. “Seriously?” 

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SUMMARY. pining after hong seunghan has always felt like an unachievable reality; however, just a few months into your first year of college, it seems that the gods have finally listened to your prayers when news breaks out that your long-time crush is single once again.

AUTHOR'S NOTE. woo first written chapter! hoorah

TAGLIST. @shguacamole @miyawwn @starwonb1n @hwadejectedyoung @revehosh @alwayswook @snowyseungs @rksbae @emohoon

[jadeleechsupportgroup]

Rhapsody in Teal

time to face the dreaded awkward school dance! you’ve got bigger problems though. maybe someone can solve both.

jade x reader

cw: none

Ace wrinkles his nose at the banner. “Lame. I’m def not even gonna go.”

Deuce, now quite used to Ace’s offhand commentary, doesn’t bother looking away. He is standing on top of a ladder, though. “More fun for the rest of us, then.”

“I don’t know…” You are pretty sure you never liked school dances even before coming to NRC. You can’t imagine why they would be any different here. “I might not, either.”

“Aww, what?” This causes Deuce to glance back at you briefly. “You have to! It’s gonna be fun.”

You shake your head. “One, I really don’t like dances. Two, please don’t fall off the ladder. I’m not strong enough to carry you to the nurse’s office, and Ace will skip that entirely and notify your next of kin.”

Ace snickers. “Wanna hang out that night instead? Games, snacks, rot our brains with television?”

“That would be better. Idk, I’ll let you know.” You don’t tell either of them the biggest reason, which involves you and a dress.

You have homework to do, so you head for the double doors leading out of the gym. You push one open a little too aggressively and almost flatten someone on the other side. Their hand catches the door and stops it dead.

“Oh shit! Sorry.”

Unfortunately, it’s Jade Leech who blinks down at you, a tiny smile stealing over his carefully controlled expression. “Quite alright,” he says politely. His focus rises past you and lands, presumably, on the two-thirds of your band of idiots you just left behind. “What could be going on in here?”

You look over your shoulder for the excuse not to have to look at him. You’ve heard bad things. “Oh, they’re decorating for the dance. Deuce is on the Culture Committee.” Something something honor student.

“Fascinating. I had not realized such an event was on the calendar.”

You step aside to let him through, but he does not move. His black-gloved hand holds the door open still, and his expression hasn’t changed. “But…aren’t you coming over here for some reason?”

His face brightens a tiny bit. “Ah, well, I am once again looking for my brother, Floyd.” He pokes his head through the doorway and takes an extremely cursory glance around. “I was under the impression that he was at basketball practice until four-thirty.”

“Oh. Uh, let me ask.” You take a step back into the gym and yell. “Ace! Do you know where Floyd is?”

“No, he left early!” he yells back.

“Damn. Dead end, I guess.”

Jade shrugs, unperturbed. “I am certain he will turn up. Thank you for your assistance.” He turns to leave, but he pauses. “Feel free to stop by the Lounge at your convenience.” He smiles broadly at you. “It would be my honor to buy you a drink.”

Somehow there’s no sound when your heart slams into the floor and bounces back up to your throat. “Oh, wh- I. Um. Sure. O-okay.”

Your nervousness only makes him smile wider. “Wonderful.”

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[captain-jordy]

Play No Games

Pairing: RE2! Leon x Black! Reader

Summary: After the perfect first date Leon finds himself entranced with you…

Content: just pure fluff I think, obsessive behavior on Leon’s part (?), pizza and ice skating lmfaoaoao

Chapter 1, Chapter 2 (coming soon)!!!

WC: 2.4k

Notes: it’s my first fanfic girlies so don’t be too harsh❤️ besides that there’s chapters to this fic actually and like…I just felt like it was too long to have it’s own thing + this was not proofread💀

Leon was a mess.

Just one date with you; just one fucking date and he’s obsessed. It was a simple one too. Casual clothing, possibly health-hazardous pizza joint—it was nice inside, at least—but a simple place for a first date. Leon wasn’t too sure how you two decided on that lame-ass pizza joint, but shit, everything you did that night made him forget the poor choice in environment…and food. He barely knew you too, due to finding each other on a shitty dating app, so he isn’t too sure how he got so whipped, that night with you just kept replaying over and over in his mind.

You were scanning the menu of Del Gino’s. The pizza selections were quite strange; ranging from a classic pepperoni to…cold fish. “How are you liking the selections?” Leon questioned. It was an attempt at small talk. Being a cop forced him to be charismatic and social, yet this woman he just met made him tense. You looked up from the menu and threw a small smile his way. “It’s strange, but I’m not surprised. Cities like Raccoon City always have weird pizza joints, right?”

“Yeah,” Leon placed the menu down and slid it towards the middle of the table, “we should probably play it safe and get a pepperoni.”

You immediately shook your head. Leon was a nice guy but he wasn’t impressive so far. Maybe he needed a little push, you thought. “Let’s choose something crazy too. To make this date memorable.” Your booted feet nudged Leon playfully under the table, encouraging him to get out of his comfort zone. “Let’s try caramelized onions, apples, and goat cheese pizza. Sounds dangerous.” You joked. Your voice was softer than usual talking to Leon. It might’ve not been obvious, but you were nervous too. Hands clammy and face warm, who wouldn’t be? Leon was an attractive man; he had a pair of plump pink lips, a nice jawline, and a smooth voice, he was desirable in all the right ways..

But you weren’t completely feeling him for some odd reason.

He seemed…hesitant. Yeah, the guy was a bit awkward, but anyone would be on a first date. Leon stared ahead and was seemingly lost in thought. “Leon?” You questioned. His eyes widened once he realized that he was zoning out. With a small sigh, he shook his head as a blush crept up his cheeks. “Yeah? Sorry about that.” He mumbled. “You’re a risk taker, huh? Cute.”

The more he looked at you, the more enamored he became. Braided hair sitting perfectly under the dim lighting of the pizza joint, same with your warm skin and glossy lips. If anything you looked like a goddess among the cracked red cushions of the booth he had chosen. He nudged your feet back. His nerves were slowly coming down from their high and finally easing up.

“You think that’s cute?” You leaned forward a bit, clearly entertained with the conversation happening between you two. “You seem like a charmer, Officer Kennedy.” Leon’s face grew warmer at the mention of his job. Being called that title off-field always gave him butterflies, unfortunately…fortunate for you though. “I like to think I am.” He responded.

“You are. It’s in the works as we speak.”

“Oh?”

The blonde looked down at his hands for a second; he was overwhelmed by your gaze. Leon has always had a bit of a timid nature, especially around pretty women, but it didn’t stop him from being talkative. “What do you do outside of…” he threw his hands around, “this?” He cringed at his words. He felt as if it was intrusive but that’s what dates were all about, asking questions.

“I tend to write a lot, considering I’m a journalist.”

Journalist? That’s an interesting career. That is not surprising considering they live in a big city. She seemed like she was just trying to sustain her career among the daily lives of others, asking questions and writing about it. It’s a career where you intrude on others for a living. He could respect that since he wasn’t that extroverted.

Before Leon could answer her a waiter came up to serve their table. Leon winced at the sight of the young teenage boy, who seemed stressed. He seemed like he was a newbie when it came to night shifts. “Welcome to Del Ginos. I’m Mark and I’ll be your waiter today. Anything you two would like to drink?” Holy shit, this kid was a professional. You and Leon shared a look of amusement before turning back to the teen.

“Uh–thank you, I’d like a strawberry lemonade and he’d likeee,” You trailed off with your words and looked at Leon, waiting for him to answer. “Another strawberry lemonade,” Leon answered. You nodded in approval at his choice. It was simple but safe. After discussing your order you and Leon were finally left alone again. There was a brief silence but it was clear you two were giggling over the teen. “He was professional,” Leon muttered. You immediately burst into small laughs at Leon’s comment. The kid was oddly formal about everything so it was a bit silly. What was a simple joke for you was something entirely different for Leon. He wouldn’t consider himself to be a lovesick person, yet around a woman, he was so easily flustered and amazed. Like you, your laugh sounded melodic and sang a harmony that pulled him in. First, it was good looks, but now it was good looks and a laugh. “Very professional.” You chimed.

Just moments later full of small talk, the two pizzas came. Your eyes widened with anticipation at the sight of the pies. Both had a fluffy crust but the normal pizza had the perfect cheese to pepperoni ratio. With a pull of yours and Leon’s slices, it stretched out and revealed how gooey the pizza truly was. But the other…the other was strange. It had crumbled goat cheese with caramelized onions and apples. The odd combination probably went great together but it was still strange to put it on a pizza.

“I’m not even gonna lie…I’m a bit hesitant to try this pizza.”

Leon feigned a glare, “I told you we should’ve played it safe.” He muttered. You rolled your eyes playfully and smiled. “You’re gonna eat this pizza.” Leon wasn’t serious with his words, as told by the small smile perking up. It was cute with how teasing he was. Small smile and was unable to hold eye contact yet he kept teasing. You kicked his feet again.

“Since you’re lowkey a pussy I’ll try it first.”

Leon tried not to laugh at your words, but he let a chuckle or two escape. He watched you scoop the goat cheese pizza in your mouth and anticipated your reaction. There was the tang of the goat cheese, which hit your tastebuds immediately, then the slow-cooked savory taste of the apples—which added some sweetness to the tart, yet savory. But the onions…the onions were perfect. Carmelized and adding to the palette of flavors. It was a strange combination, but he saw how you enjoyed it.

“Is it good?”

“Try it yourself, Leon.”

Leon took a bite and immediately gagged. In his opinion, it was fucking bad. He glared at you again and immediately placed the slice down. “I’m never taking your lead when it comes to choosing again.” He chided. He was a picky eater, got it. A playful grin came to your lips as he gulped down his drink. Leon loved how playful you were about everything. Subtle flirts and jokes on him. On some level, it seemed you were comfortable already and he enjoyed that.

“You will.”

“What?”

Leon watched your pretty eyes twinkle with mischief and your smile grow wider. “You’re gonna let me choose our next date. I bet on it.” Taking a woman’s lead? He always would.

So for him to be outside in the winter cold with you minutes later was predictable. He didn’t want this date to end yet, the both of them didn’t. The two of you walked side by side, hip to hip to protect each other from the bitter cold. Dancing white snowflakes slowly dropped from the sky along with its cool breeze going north. Raccoon City was the prettiest when hit with snow. Christmas decorations up, glistening snow, couples walking hand in hand with children running around. It was a time of joy and Leon was happy he met you. Growing an attachment now was a bit early, clearly, but he couldn’t stop the attraction from growing. He couldn’t stop the fondness either. His eyes kept glancing towards you and checking you out. You were just such a pretty girl that he couldn’t help himself. This time his stare lingered, watching you pull out a tube of lipgloss and apply it to your chapped ombre brown lips. With a few swipes, you popped your lips together puckering them out. Now here they were, glossy and kissable like every part of you. The sight was too alluring so he looked away once again.

“Whatcha gonna do when you get home?” You asked. The blonde turned his attention back to you instead of the Christmas environment of Raccoon City. Your pretty browns stared at him with a state of wonder. Leon looked great in the cold. He had a thick black wooly scarf around his neck, somewhat covering his rose-tinted lips. His nice, firm hands were shoved deep in his coat, he seemed to be one to forget gloves. Your eyes continued to check him out and finally landed on his reddish ears. “Your ears are cold?”

Before Leon could respond you placed your white earmuffs on his ears. “Hey, you don't have to–uh.” He was quickly cut off by your words of affection. “I don’t want my date cold. And I got all these braids to protect my ears. I’m fine.” Leon didn’t try to argue with you. He appreciated the moment too much to go against your words.

“I–okay…thank you.” He breathed out. Leon’s breath hitched at the feeling of your arm hooking around his, pulling him even closer. Were you always this bold? You gave him a cheeky look in response and made an excuse along the lines of, “You looked cold.” Now not only was he enthralled, but he was excited too. Those feelings of excitement were unwanted though, too soon he thought. “To answer your question, I was gonna crash out once I got home. I got a morning shift, unfortunately. You?”

“Sleep. I love sleeping.”

What a simple woman. At this point, they were just walking around aimlessly in the city. It wasn’t a bad sight at all and it was clear you two wanted the date to last longer. Leon was stuck to his thoughts until he saw an ice rink. There were a few people scattered about on it but not many, so he tapped you and pointed towards it. “You wanna try?” He smiled at the sight of your eyes lighting up with excitement. “Of course! You know how to skate!?”

“No.”

Leon’s heart pounded wildly at the feel of your gloved hands on his. The both of you were giggling as you two slowly glided on the ice. His legs shook while yours stayed steady on ice. It was clear that one of you two had experience.

“It’s like rollerskating, you’ve ever been rollerskating?” Leon shook his head no. He refused to speak with the fear of squeaking or some other embarrassing sound he could muster out. Your hands were just really nice to hold. “Jeez, no experience in the skating department I see. I think I can figure it out, just watch.”

You let go of Leon’s hands much to his dismay, but he watched. He kept his eyes on your hips as they swayed back in forth with every subtle push of the blades. His eyes then trailed up to your face to see the slightly nervous look grow into one of confidence. Ice skating wasn’t hard for you due to your experience with rollerskating.

“You’re doing good!” He exclaimed. A small cheer for your victory. A small smile graced your lips as you glided back to him, except, it was fast, too fast. “I think you need to slow down!”

“I don’t know how to!”

That look of confidence soon turned into fear and that’s when Leon knew to brace for impact. “Shit,” he muttered to himself. He knew he couldn’t catch your ass without falling because he could barely stand. With a scream from you, your body slammed into Leon’s, and the both of you fell. He landed right on his ass and you in his arms. Leon shook his head in mock disapprovement. So much for being good at skating. “You can skate but you can’t brake?” He teased. You sat on your knees and glared up at him.

“I least I know how to stand.” Leon released the most boyish laugh ever, making your face heat up in embarrassment. He had a nice laugh. Deep from his chest and genuine. And to think it was all for you. You used Leon to slowly stand up from the ice. It was too cold and too wet to sit on forever. “Come on. We’re done skating.” He looked at the gloved hand you held out, smiling before grabbing its warmth.

After returning your skates and warming up from said events, Leon held the two of your hands as just before. Maybe you were feeling him after all. There was a streetlight right above you two. It had warm lighting, generating some sort of ambiance that Leon knew he’d crave again. The warm lighting was pretty on your brown skin and made you stand out just a bit more. If anything you were the definition of warmth. His pretty eyes met yours and you guys sheepishly looked away. He tried to meet your gaze again and there it was, she was staring him right in the eyes.

“Hi,” Leon whispered.

“Hi.”

“Look, I just wanted you to know I had a great time with you and–could we stay in contact?” It took Leon lots of courage to get that out. He’s surprised he didn’t stutter on his words at least once. Those thoughts are soon rushed away at the sight of your bashful face. From the small bold lines you kept giving him earlier, why were you so shy now? “Please?” He begged.

“Of course…of course we can. I like you a lot. So take me serious, no games Leon.”

He planned on it. Leon planned on playing no games with her.

[userpeggycarter]

your 'won't reblog' list is so funny imagine being a loser who hates fun that much. imagine being such a sad little butt baby you can't interact with anyone who likes things you don't. couldn't be me!

wow. i don't even know where to begin.

it's kinda hilarious that **I** am the sad little butt baby but you're the one having a meltdown in my inbox? being butthurt because a stranger has a "won't reblog" section in their about page????? do you have self awareness??? read that second to last sentence I just typed again. read it. HOW CAN YOU NOT GET IT???? 😱

second of all, the "won't reblog" section is a guideline for tagging me on posts. i don't reblog that stuff for a reason. it's not a DNI. in fact, I do interact with people who reblog and make content about (some of) that stuff listed in my blog because the morals of media consumption are complicated and very personal. some things i draw a very hard line on, some i don't. let me explain each of those "forbidden media" in my blog for you in basic terms like I'm talking to a child (because i am):

Wizarding World: JK Rowling is a TERF, an antisemite and a racist. i thought this one was self-explanatory. it's 2023 ffs

MCU!Maximoffs are white-washed, anti-romani and very antisemitic. google that stuff if you don't know. next question. (i did reblog a MCU Wanda gifset recently btw, but a mutual tagged me on it and i felt awkward ignoring it, but when that happens i tag those posts with #mcu wanda because some people blacklist that tag and for good reason. also it's a subtle way to say I'm not okay with her. i wish these awkward situations didn't happen but they do and i like to support creators, despite your allegations that i don't.

starker is a p*do ship. thorki is inc*st. duh

ngl reylo is not necessarily problematic i just think it's lame lol maybe it shouldn't be on the list because all of that other stuff has serious problems (IN MY OPINION!)

red/orange/color-washed content is racist if done with POC (and it's even a bad look if you're dealing with white people, to a lesser extent ofc)

i don't need to explain johnny depp do i? christ

henry cavill dated a teenager. google it

the last of us's creator is anti palestine and pro genocide.

elizabeth olsen said the G slur on air in the Graham Norton show AFTER he told her it was a slur!!!!!!!!!!! again google it.

gal gadot is also anti palestine. remember the IDF cunt post? iconic

taylor swift: same thing with reylo, i'm just not interested in her, even though she's not exactly a saint either... but honestly i put TS on the list mostly because most of the gifmaker community loves her and i was worried people would tag me on TS content and that would be an uncomfortable situation, because i don't like to ignore tagged posts but also i like to have boundaries/preferences, even though YOU deem them silly or stupid (like if that's your right to do so lmao alexa play toxic by britney spears)

i'm betting money it was the taylor swift thing that pissed you off lol maybe mcu wanda???? both?

stolen/reposted content is also self-explanatory right? or are you that stupid? considering the tantrum i think you are but hope springs eternal i guess...

LAST, but not least, i'm gonna end on a positive note because unlike you I'm not a cunt (derogatory). I'm gonna address your first message here:

listen, i get it. i get frustrated with notes too. the grass is always greener and there's always a bigger fish i guess. you envy me and i envy other creators bigger than me. but we shouldn't do that. first of all, it's not a competition. my "success" (it's tumblr at the end of the day... silly stuff!) is not a threat to you or anyone else. people can reblog my gifs and yours, they don't have to pick a creator. unfortunately, tumblr has been suffering from lack of interaction lately and it's just getting worse. all creators are complaining about it. creators of different sizes and different niches, btw. we complain in private and in public. and what tumblr does in return? text posts complaining about us complaining get 50k notes in a day. it's tough. we shouldn't be treated this way, even though no one is obliged to reblog stuff and we aren't owed notes. but it's natural and fair to feel sad about lack of recognition and complain about. tumblr's lack of engagement is going to kill the website, but that's a conversation to another day.

i want to end with this:

you need to create because you want to create. you need to create because you want to get better at your craft. recognition is good and it's natural to want and feel upset about the lack of it, but it shouldn't kill your creative spirit. social media has poisoned our brains. 50 notes might not sound a lot but imagine 50 people in real life complimenting you. you might be someone's favorite creator. you might be a niche creator who is carrying your community on your back and people in that niche are so grateful for you, even though they don't say that. because unfortunately, hate speaks louder than love. case in point, this hate mail. for every one of you out there, there must be 10 people who like my work. but i never hear from them and that sucks, but i must believe that they exist and be thankful for them. sometimes people will recognize my hard work and i'm very grateful for those moments. they do motivate me, but they aren't the only thing that motivates me. making posts i wanna reblog but won't exist until i make them motivates me. getting better at my craft motivates me. making friends because of my craft motivates me. knowing i'm entertaining people (even though they're very silent about their appreciation of my work) motivates me. tumblr is a social media platform and social media is made by its users. if anyone stopped posting, there wouldn't be anything to do here. my gifset might not change the trajectory of someone's day (sometimes it does!), but it's my drop of water alongside thousands of other drops of water from other users that make this ocean that we all swim in. don't give up. keep making gifs. you will get better at them. people will follow you. you will get more notes. might not be enough followers or enough notes in your opinion, but we shouldn't put a number on our value.

and let me tell you a secret: when your goal is numbers, you're never satisfied. believe me, i learned this lesson. i thought i would be happy with hundreds of followers. then i got hundreds of followers. suddenly they weren't enough, i wanted thousands of followers now. and then i got them. guess what? i still seek validation through numbers (google David Foster Wallace's This is Water btw). but it will never be enough because you are now and i was then looking at the wrong solution to the problem. i need to FEEL enough, not be told by numbers or people that I'm enough. I'm the one that decides that. and i am enough. I'm good, even. hell, I'm great. and in theory, so do you, but god that attitude... it ain't it. it will only cause you pain. and worse, it's causing you to try to cause pain in others. isn't that sad? isn't that shameful? i do say try because newsflash pussycat, it didn't work. i was baffled by your hate (thankfully i don't get a lot of hate around here!), but i wasn't hurt. because I'm not threatened by your perception of me. because it's superficial, childish, hateful, you name it. i know myself. i love myself. in the words of my beloved URL namesake, i know my value. do you know yours? it doesn't seem like you do. and that type of attitude only lessens your value, babe. this is not getting you anywhere in tumblr or worse, in life.

this would be the moment in which i would wish you the best, but you know what? fuck you. i hope you get no notes until eternity. but in case an innocent person is reading this and is also battling with their self-worth due to tumblr notes: i wish you the best. don't give up.

[jichanxo]

hey i'm back to be annoying about sensei fic i don't remember if you've talked about that before (i think you did), and also i'm afraid that it may be considered as a spoiler (?), but! how much of amasawa and itokura's story will you include here? (they are very important to me, your honour) (the potential of parallels to kwgm is here as well and everything)

never annoying! I’m enjoying writing my paragraphs of rambling, so thank you more under the cut again lol. spoilers for lost judgment and also my own fic i suppose lmao

this is kind of difficult to answer because I don’t want to overpromise anything… I am unfortunately a “fuck it we ball” writer which means I am not really used to planning anything at all really (which is why I write mostly oneshots. I usually write everything blind) and that means that while I have ideas about what I want to do, I can’t really say anything definitive until I feel out my plans more concretely…

for what it’s worth though, I’d be shocked if amasawa and itokura didn’t appear the most out of everyone (aside from yagami and kitakata), since the mrc is effectively the centrepiece of both plots: being the main reason kitakata and yagami see each other, and of course I’m going to try and make an altered version of the school story plot work here. I expect there’ll be more of them than kaito and sawa, certainly…

one of the planned major beats in the kuwagami plot is having yagami actually let kitakata in on the professor investigation and not just blow him off. he might think that kitakata will just get in the way, but he has to accept that kitakata’s interest in the investigation and care for his students is legitimate and valid! keeping him in the dark and ignoring how he feels is wrong! anyway. my point is, that to resolve this plot beat, it’s unavoidable to talk about itokura and the professor, so no matter how I end up getting there, itokura (and by extension amasawa) are going to be crucial. you’re right about the parallels angle too… gonna gnaw on that… gotta figure that out… kuwagami but if they were both girls and in highschool and more emotionally intelligent… the idea of kitakata and yagami being a mess and super lame while the kids in the club are much more put together? it’s just too funny to pass up on… I can already imagine itokura complaining to amasawa about how she wishes they would just grow up already.

amasawa and itokura are really great and I also like them a lot! there’s a lot of interesting stuff with them to grab onto, both with canon – yagami’s relationship to them both, and with new stuff – inventing new stuff for them with kitakata! itokura and kitakata especially feel like a surprisingly natural fit – kitakata who wants to make sure no student around him feels the way that kusumoto mitsuru did, and itokura who was estranged and pushed out of school by her peers… it’s a relationship that would be engaging and interesting to develop on both sides… I really can’t pass up on that… so thematically rich… I imagine their relationship rn as being kind of awkward and a little tense. they probably get along best when they’re talking (cough arguing cough) about mystery novels.

one of the things on my to-do list for sensei fic right now (aside from taking thorough notes on school stories and general editing) is definitely trying to feel out this relationship, in particular before yagami enters the picture (@/four-white-trees poked me about this ages ago. thank you!!) presumably kitakata doesn’t let all of that happen to itokura without trying to do something about it, right? and yet, he still fails. yagami’s intervention is the one that brings itokura back to school. hence why I imagine things between them being a little awkward… that shared history…

though I imagine that it piques kitakata’s interest that yagami succeeded where he’d previously failed. So yknow. This Too Is Kuwagami. A surefire way to make kitakata fall in love with you: 1. be hot 2. legitimately care about and take action for the wellbeing of students

anyway! while nothing is set in stone, that’s what I have in mind about amasawa and itokura right now… though most of it ended up being about itokura… there’s still a lot I gotta figure out, but I’m definitely looking forward to poking at them some more! Itokura’s attitude is going to be a lot of fun to write, and amasawa is always a delight, and I love having her be the voice of reason between kitakata and yagami when they’re being ridiculous lol. thank you for the ask o7

[destinyc1020]

I mean Austin and Z both do have a connection to Kaia lol its just a fact, anon. I personally wuld find it a lil awkward bt Austin n Z seem cool, Austin did praise Z multiple times and it is nice that Kaia seems to show support to Z via IG (mayb in person too). The fact that this was the 2nd time she dated Zs coworker is just funny to me lol I feel lik its continuously stated on this blog that Kaia seems lik a nice person. We talk a lot about Tom, Z, and Austin and Zs connection to Kaia is that they dated the same lame man and now Zs coworker. She isnt the "bad guy" (whatever that means lol), but yes, unfortunately I recgonize she does has haters purely based off who she dates, which is unfortunate. Ppl also dnt care for her cuz of her acting too, which is valid. She has fans (and if you look up "Kaia Gerber" on twitter, ig, tumblr, im sure u'll find them), who seem to lik her, which is good for her and is getting various projects, so... this "poor girl" is going to b fine off of a few comments on a blog lol

Exactly Anon lol 💯

I feel lik its continuously stated on this blog that Kaia seems lik a nice person.

Exactly! We've said this countless of times.

Ppl also dnt care for her cuz of her acting too, which is valid.

Thank you! 👏🏾 And that's people's right to think that! It's not "hating" on someone, it's simply an opinion on someone's acting.

How many times have we clowned JDW's acting in here lol? We've clowned him so bad... even to the point of talking about that weird photoshoot he did with his mom cradling his head rofl. 🤣

Funny, I never heard anyone coming to HIS defense and calling us "haters" when we've talked and joked about his acting. 🙄

I've said countless times on here that I don't think Laura Harrier can act either. Again.... SILENCE.

But as soon as we dare to say that we don't think Kaia is that great of an actress, all of a sudden, her two fans come up in here acting like we've called her all sorts of names or smthg. 🙄 Get real lol....

Personally, Kaia has always been kinda meh to me....I felt that way even when she was dating JE. 🤷🏾‍♀️ I don't hate the girl or anything, I just find her boring, and I'm just not really a fan.

It's kind of irksome already to see Nepobabies getting opportunities over struggling actors/actresses and poc who've been working their butts off for YEARS just to get the chance to get auditions in Hollywood, but it's even MORE annoying to see nepobabies without acting talent getting roles over these individuals. 😔

But hey, nobody can help who they're born to, so I get it. 🙃

I'm just not really a fan? She seems like she's a nice person though. 😊 And if she makes Austin happy, then even better! 👍🏾

She has fans (and if you look up "Kaia Gerber" on twitter, ig, tumblr, im sure u'll find them), who seem to lik her, which is good for her and is getting various projects, so... this "poor girl" is going to b fine off of a few comments on a blog lol

Thank 👏🏾 you! 👏🏾

If you're a fan of Kaia, then go to her fan blogs. Or look up her fan accounts on Twitter. @bcofl0ve is a huge fan of Kaia on Tumblr. You can go check out her blog, and I'm sure you'll be welcomed with open arms!

Look, I am not one of those fans who's of the mindset that I HAVE to become a fan of whoever my fave is dating. 🥴

I wasn't a fan of Kaia's BEFORE she was dating Austin, and I don't have to be a fan of hers now.🤷🏾‍♀️ Kudos to her and her acting goals, but I already have more than enough actresses that I actually enjoy to watch. I don't need to force myself to become a fan of hers, or lie about how I feel regarding her acting just because Austin is currently dating her lol. 😄

And YES, Kaia will be just fine. Unlike MOST actors out here, she was born in wealth, she has famous parents, she's white, she's privileged, and she has a ton of connections to make her dreams come true! Nobody needs to feel sorry for this girl. She's gonna be alright lol. 😅

[obaewankenope]

Park Morning Meeting: Good Omens/Sandman fic, 1k

[read on AO3]

Crowley met Dream of the Endless on a summer morning, early enough that the heat wasn’t too suffocating and the sun was just starting to become a bother with how high it was for barely six-in-the-morning. Normally, Crowley wouldn’t have let himself come across any being that was as powerful as one of the Endless – or any being unless they happened to be his Angel – but, unfortunately for an-accidentally-sauntered-rather-than-fell-on-purpose demon, Dream of the Endless took notice of a demon in London and didn’t give Crowley the chance to click his fingers and flee from the scene of the crime.

Though, to clarify, there was no crime. It’s just a turn of phrase.

“Anthony J Crowley,” Dream of the Endless intoned in that strangely deep, yet still somehow soft voice of his. The kind of voice that, written down, the dialogue would be bold and italicised for emphasis.

“Uh, yep, that’s me!” Crowley, in a decidedly less imposing and cosmically empowered tone of voice, acknowledged the Endless in front of him.

The Endless who, incidentally, wore an all-black ensemble in British summer, was pale as northern snow, with a bird’s nest black hairstyle, and showed off his inhumanness with all of the aforementioned aspects. And the strangely dark, yet blue-hinted, eyes which were locked unblinkingly on Crowley’s awkward, twitchy form in the middle of the bloody park near the bookshop.

“Fancy seeing you here, uh, Lord Dream,” Crowley said, rather more lamely than he’d intended to sound. It was too early to be suave and to pretend at being unaffected by the presence of one of the Endless. “What, uh, what are you doing here? In the, Waking right? If you’re okay with me asking, that is? I know I’m a demon so, guess talking to me isn’t something you’d be doing without it causing, uh, problems but, yeah.”

Throughout Crowley’s increasingly awkward rambling wherein he sounded, and felt, more like he was channelling some of his Angel’s secretly endearing nervous rambling, Dream of the Endless just stared. The Endless even went to the effort of tilting his head like a cat trying to understand what it was witnessing and wasn’t that just bloody cheeky?

“You rebelled against infernal and divine forces, alongside Aziraphale Fell, Anthony J Crowley,” Dream of the Endless said in that voice of his. Just the feel of the Endless Ones’ power, barely a hint in the ‘Waking’ since the Endless seemed to understand how much attention he’d draw if he didn’t tone it down, so to speak… Crowley shivered even as Dream of the Endless continued to speak. “By my reckoning, Anthony J Crowley, there is no conflict of interest should we speak now. I do not imagine the Morningstar is all too interested in risking further injury to their pride just yet.”

That-

Crowley had to give it to him; Dream of the Endless had, well, balls.

Brass ones.

And absolutely no survival instinct if he felt comfortable enough to say something like that in public.

Sure, this was Earth and Adam had done a good number on beating back the forces of Heaven and Hell, blah blah, but still, the very atoms had ears, so to speak. Dream of the Endless apparently didn’t seem to care that he could be overheard by nefarious beings who wouldn’t hesitate to take his words back to the Big Guy Downstairs.

Crowley rather did. Mainly because he was the one Dream was saying them to.

“Uh,” Crowley fumbled, far more off-kilter than he’d ever admit, and the Endless simply continued to speak to him.

At him, almost, actually.

“I do not mean you any harm, Anthony J Crowley, nor to Aziraphale Fell,” Dream said, his head still tiled like a cat that was focused on something which had piqued its interest. Crowley could imagine the metaphorical whiskers which would be curved in his direction were Dream of the Endless a cat at that moment. “I am merely visiting and became aware of your presence in the area. As I was not certain who, or what, would be the source of the presence I sensed, I thought it wise to take precautions.”

“Precaut- oh,” Crowley began before trailing off and looking around. He snorted lightly. “Oh, you sneaky bastard, I didn’t even bloody realise.”

Since, it seemed, the Endless wasn’t interested in causing any trouble, or turning Crowley to metaphysical paste on the cosmos, Crowley’s natural tendency to skirt the edge of reason and manners flared back into brightness. Also, he was a bit miffed that Lord Dream, Morpheus, Sandman, Nightmare King, had managed to drop him in a dream without Crowley even realising it was a dream in the first place.

Crowley didn’t even dream unless he wanted to!

“I will return you to your dream before I interfered, Anthony J Crowley,” Dream of the Endless told him, not giving Crowley much of a chance to argue before the Endless, with a sense of great finality, added, “this dream is over.”

And just like that, Anthony J Crowley, demon, rebel, and all-round softy-who’d-deny-it-till-the-world-ended, wound up back in the dream he’d been in before and snapped himself awake before a dolphin could attack him while brass horns played in the sky above the waters he was swimming in.

“Crowley?” A quiet, sleep-heavy voice mumbled in the dim room from beside Crowley as he sat up suddenly.

“Nothing, Angel, just need the loo,” Crowley replied after a moment. He’d tell the Angel about the Endless One that dropped by for a brief visit in the morning, the proper morning. It wasn’t like Dream of the Endless was a hard guy, uh, cosmic being to find, anyway, if Aziraphale wanted to have a chat with him for waylaying Crowley the way the Endless had.

A bit more sleep before the inevitable experience of an Angel-who-also-rebelled-and-stopped-the-Notageddon fussing over him for far, far too long was, in Crowley’s opinion, infinitely better than starting the fussing so early in the day.

Maybe after nine…

[fatesdeepdive]

Entry 122: Screw America I Guess

Xenologue 21 Hoshidan Festival of Bonds and Xenologue 22 Nohrian Festival of Bonds

So, these next chapters are a bit of a problem, because they were never released outside of Japan. Meaning that not only can I not play them, but I can’t even read the scripts, because there are no official scripts. All I have is things on the wiki, which might not be reliable.

These seem to be a follow-up to Awakening’s scramble maps, where the army visits a place and we get cgs of them in special outfits. Midori, Dwyer, Forrst, Shigure, Ophelia, and Nina all wear kimonos in the Hoshidan one. Forrest wears a girl's kimono and Nina has two right feet. All of the children have black hair because their mothers (father in Shigure's case) aren't set in stone. The Nohrian festival is Halloween themed and features Xander as a pirate, Subaki as a prince, Leo as a vampire, Camilla as a succubus, Oboro as a gothic lolita, and Setsuna as a mummy. I assume, like the Awakening scramble chapters, they were chosen by a poll.

These chapters come with new Supports between the children and their mothers and between first generation units without Supports respectively. Unfortunately, I can’t read them. There were various people who attempted to translate these Supports, but I don’t have a verifiable list of what Supports were in the Japanese version, so I don’t know how complete any of these translations are. Plus, they are by the very nature of translation different from what we would have got with an official translation. Also, this blog is focused on the English version we got, not the Japanese version.

I am very obviously making excuses to not do these conversations. The thing is, I’m really sick of Fate’s writing and Supports. It has slowly grinded me down over time. I fell off this blog for months, because I am sick of bad Supports, so I don’t want to read dozens more that I don’t have to.

Support: Ignatius/Nina

C: Nina hornily spies on Ignatius talking to another guy. He spots her and she freaks out because she's bad with guys. Ignatius asks her to not follow him.

B: Nina spies on two cute boys. Ignatius shows up and watches the cute boys pickpocket a woman. Ignatius assumes she's trying to fight thievery and they team up to take out the thieves.

A: Nina tries to thank Ignatius, but can't say it. Ignatius realizes she struggles to talk to people. Nina says that Ignatius is kind and reliable and, while not daydream material, she can stand being his friend, if he tries to look cute more often.

S: Ignatius says he wants to be more than friends and calls Nina adorable. Nina starts daydreaming about him and tries to set Ignatius up with another guy.

Review: Pretty good. Nina being awkward around people makes her more tolerable and her accidentally stopping a robbery is amusing.

Support: Forrest/Shigure

C: Shigure uses oil paints instead of watercolors, which is a style from a century ago. Forrest says he studies the fashion in old portraits and cuts his hair based on one portrait.

B: Shigure and Forrest decide to prank their friends by painting a pretty lady, except the lady is actually Forrest!

A: Their friends recognize Forrest in the painting, because he is the only beauty in the army. Take that, Charlotte!

Review: This one is so stupid but I kinda like it. Shigure and Forrest are the nicest friendliest guys in the army, so their idea of a prank is ridiculously lame. It's endearing.

Support: Percy/Velouria

C: Velouria asks if Percy gets tired of hanging out with Ace all the time. Percy says he's always happy around ace. Velouria explains she's more comfortable when alone.

B: Velouria stares at an abandoned bird nest because she wonders if it smells like pretty birds. Percy gets it for her using Ace. Velouria offers him the first sniff.

A: Percy and Ace go to a lake. Velouria wants to go along because they're close friends of hers and she doesn't have many. Vekouria says she'll dig for fossils on the beach. S: Percy gives Velouria a nest from a rooftop. Velouria invites Percy to go treasure hunting with her. Percy says he doubts there'll be any treasure better than her.

Review: A nice friendly Support with a clear beginning, middle, and end.

Support: Midori/Ophelia

C: Ophelia does fortune-telling. Midori calls it fake and accuses Ophelia of not wanting to face reality.

B: Midori continues to mock Ophelia's fortune telling saying Ophelia just says stuff she wants to hear. Ophelia counters that this is to build confidence. Ophelia says that's a good thing and offers to tell Midori's fortune. Midori refuses, because she has enough problems in the present, with all the sick people she has to take care of.

A: Midori has a breakdown over all the wounded and dying. Ophelia tells her her destiny: to smile, surrounded by those she've healed. Ophelia says this dream will come true if Ophelia keeps working hard. Ophelia admits she does fortune telling to keep going in a world filled with pain.

Review: Goddamn that was a good Support! I take back like 5% of my complaints about Supports. Midori is a deep character haunted by the stresses of war. She calls out Ophelia for being immature, but Ophelia shows that her coping mechanism isn’t all bad.

[awideplace]

i’m having a weird experience at my church, basically i’ve been going to a new church for 9 months now. it’s a medium to small church. i’ve gotten somewhat involved (i’m serving & in a small group). i’ve also attended some parties outside of church. i’m met a lot of people from serving and just attending weekly, but mainly from the few parties i’ve gone to. the weird part is, some of the people i’ve met and had literally conversations with (multiple times), don’t acknowledge me on sundays. it’s mostly the guys, but some girls too.. it’s just so weird like we will walk by each other and they won’t look at me or smile or even say hi. it makes me kinda sad. i’ve smiled at them before, but it’s just awkward and weird because they are all really plugged in and i guess i thought they would be more inviting since i’m new..

Hi there, I am so sorry to hear this. Sadly, cliques and separation of people groups (so to speak) happen even in churches. Whether intentional or not (and I'd like to think it's unintentional- the creaturely habit is to be around those we are already familiar with and have things most in common with). I think this is unfortunate and I am sorry to hear about this. I guess if I was in your shoes I would just not bother, just be nice and friendly, but don't make an effort further if they don't wish to get beyond their box and say hello or make eye contact? Or just say hello to them first and strike up a conversation. I guess there are two ways to go about it. I'm personally friendly, but definitely to myself a bit at church- I smile and am nice, but I don't linger socially or go up to people really unless I have a reason to. Maybe that's kind of lame/to myself, I know there are those who are more socially gregarious. We're all a bit different. I guess the most important thing to be privy to and stay away from socially in churches is...selfishness. Whether too much attention on what people are or are not doing to me/for me, or cutting myself off so much that I'm not really grafted in to the fellowship of the gathering of the saints. We're all a work in progress and being sanctified, people in the church are no exception unfortunately sometimes to odd things socially or not being truly considerate of others, especially those that can be new.

[icharchivist]

icha!! it’s been a while since I’ve sent one of these in but! I finally started summer troupe act 2! so. here’s my commentary lol. only gotten thru the first 8 episodes but so far my feeling is this: 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

that’s it. has anyone ever made the su(m)meragi pun yet. (I chose the first m in summer bc it’s the red m on tenma’s jacket)

ok for real this time I’ll go in chronological order but. I am naturally predisposed to like kumon I think bc seeing his sprite I immediately went oh I ADORE you in my head. like I saw him and was like YOU! I love you and I would kill for you. is that normal idc. also I had his bday card when I played a3 so special affection as he was the only rookie ssr I had. but it’s just! he’s just like :D how could I ever reject him?? he’s got such a lovely smile!!

these were the thoughts I had starting up and then. well and then I immediately bust out laughing bc.

me: nice to meet you kumon, my dearest, sweet summer child—

kumon, about natsugumi: “they only do comedy, right? no offense, but doing plays with nothing but stupid, empty gags sounds pretty lame to me.”

me: …ah. so you’ve chosen death, then.

just kidding I LOVE when characters r assholes. this doesn’t even make my initial impression wrong bc kumon is still such an absolute sweetheart but I think it’s so funny. immediately I was like. oh I cannot wait to throw tenma at him it would be hilarious. he’d take it as a personal challenge. and like he absolutely did so I was right lmao. juza chiding him immediately is very good. I do love how kumon is like banri hater #1 but speedruns his disinterest in like. 3 days it’s great. I just feel like even tho they’re very different ppl they actually would have things in common and hate to admit it. and kumon is like u have pretty hair! when he means to insult him lol. anyways the reactions to that comment r so good. yuki going “he sounds like a certain hack when he first joined” and then misumi doing an impression of tenma saying “im not a comedy guy” was sooo good, I definitely felt the voice was recognizably tenma even as I didn’t remember the line misumi was quoting so. that’s how u know it’s good.

I am sooo deeply interested in juza’s reluctance regarding kumon acting as well as how kumon brushes off his whole baseball team situation. like clearly it was more complex than him quitting. this is smthing I do have to say which is that I unfortunately got a little spoiled and so I know kumon has some kind of health issues, which I assume is the reason he quit. didn’t muku quit track and field due to a sports injury, too…? wild. but anyways the way kumon talks abt the baseball team and having that… settled is so. awkward and unsure and uncomfortable tho. made me remember like. ah. there’s a bunch of times I’ve not wanted to elaborate about suddenly fucking up something really badly, too…

idk. it’s very interesting bc juza clearly knows what’s up with kumon but seeing how he reacts to the baseball stuff I’m not sure if he knows… Everything? it makes me want to dig into their sibling dynamic a bit more

but then tenma steps in and invites kumon to the road show!! i clutched my heart I was like oh he’s come so far as a leader… sigh, even though summer troupe rightfully teases him, he’s quite reliable, isn’t he? im so going to extrapolate all of this into the tenma juza dynamic thoughts later ofc. but the way yuki and sakyo r both like “free labor” in response to tenma’s suggestion… adds one more point to my feeling that yuki probably has the like most financial knowledge regarding the troupe next to sakyo.

also ace pitcher for the baseball team!! that is really not something u just… quit. I am excited to see the full story there. it seems like kumon gets a lot of anxiety? which. extremely relatable i not only panic often but I can panic pretty hard. but tenma was so nice, being so oblivious like ah I bet u can’t sleep the night before a big trip! pfft. love that yuki knew he was looking up tourist info bc he could hear him muttering, but clearly since tenma didn’t know that he knew, it meant that yuki heard him and just. didn’t tell him to shut up. is he just used to ignoring tenma’s voice so he slept easily. idk.

like I said kumon and banri kinda feel similar in some ways to me. I rly love how they squabble. and that juza is like doing his own thing and they r like mutually fighting so jimins defense of his brother is kind of ineffective lol

i cheered when tenma was like oh guess I’m sitting with u kumon. and then I realized. ah. it’s rookie and leader as the leads. idiot. ofc they’re gonna set up a dynamic. the story was not responding to u wanting to throw tenma at kumon. (also, the train background also rly looks like an airplane?) but it’s been so long since I’ve seen the a3 kids and stuff that whenever tenma shows up I wanna reach through the screen and hug him. i love them.

also it’s so cute that kumon calls juza niichan. I get why the translation just has it as juza but. I can hear. and! kumon like almost immediately being proven wrong and apologizing was so fun. its also rly interesting to see how he’s sorta cautious and hesitant around tenma abt stuff while tenma is like. immediately nice! the kumon sprite when he’s nervous genuinely tugs at my heart so easily. it’s just like the side eye the uncomfortable vibes. please be okay. but I love seeing tenma be nice. like, kumon gushing over how cool juza is as lansky and then tenma praising juza’s fight choreography as due to his experience! he’s so. man he’s rly so. like it’s such a natural follow up to how very clearly tenma noticed and adored the specific quirks of his summer troupe in act 1… ofc he notices these things abt the other actors! not to get all teary abt it but. tenma… it’s kinda nice like this, yknow? to have someone that might be just excited abt what he has to say. although I love it when summer troupe teases him haha. but the way kumon was like oh wow! what was ur second play like! and tenma was like. we… we can talk about that later… like lmao no one wants to discuss sardine search.

again wild how ready kumon is to just square up with banri. I’m glad it did not actually happen. I was confused at first as to why kumon was to totally blown away by water me, and then I checked and it seemed like juza just came alone to see muku’s performance? tho muku obviously admires juza im kind of interested in exactly how close he was with kumon, since it doesn’t seem like they know each other That Well.

love how when homare is like let’s go to paris! for a road show, hisoka’s response is that it’s too far which is a pain. im taking the fact that he didn’t say anything else that he’s fluent in french and would be fine, so it’s literally just distance.

when kumon’s like asking to be tested to get in, juza tells him ”you can’t give up and quit in the middle like you did with your baseball team” which. I do think juza feels a lot of responsibility for mankai so I assume that’s part of him being a little harsh but I really feel the baseball thing is a bit more complicated. but yuki saying that kumon is tenmas responsibility… nice! honestly I was so surprised he actually had to ask to join natsugumi after he passed his audition bc like. I just assumed they’d adopted him already lol. anyways KUMON LIKES THE TRIANGLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they’re sharp and pointy like his brother! so sweet.

for the rehearsals kumons va was very good at showing how rough he is regarding acting! I feel like kumon in general has this like, overexcitement in his voice that rly bleeds thru like even when he’s improved a little? god I love the acting in this game. tenma coaching him was so good… the way like u could see kumon directly improve and then audibly smile when tenma complimented him… so sweet! tenmas gotten a lot nicer hasn’t he.

when igawa showed up I had a fear response just bc. I don’t like tenmas parents. I think tenma can deal with them fine but that doesn’t mean I like it for him. wish he wasn’t the lead. but an audition chance! very cool… the famed director that’s like known overseas is called shirasawa, and I have to wonder if that’s a reference to like. akira kurosawa films? like… kuro-sawa -> shiro-sawa -> shirasawa. just a thought lol bc he’s the only like. famous in the west japanese director i know, though the time period here is quite different. I made a lot of leaps. again kumon I feel is kinda hyper cautious? like he takes initiative to step back, worried he’s a burden, and then tenma is like. no. I’ll do everything I’m cool as hell. love him. also love chikage offering to set up covert bodyguards for him lol,, I rly feel like once he got over his this troupe is temporary I’m here to enact revenge! vibe he’s now like. ride or die for everyone lol. it is so funny to see yuki and tenma quietly talk to each other like. that’s… weird, right? subordinates? like it is so funny. outside of spring troupe how well does anyone sans hisoka know chikage.

I did like that when juza and muku were discussing kumons condition, juza being like. we’ll be there for him and let him make his own choices. development compared to when he was like muku stay away from me without even like. taking his feelings into consideration. the scene where kumon is like my brother has perfect abs and trying to. show them. he rly loves his brother lol. it rly got me tho when he was talking to muku and went “the closer I get to everyone and the more they help me out, the more I really want to become a part of this company” tho!! the translation didn’t specify but I definitely heard him say tenma-san and natsugumi so I checked yaycupcake and that’s who kumon specifies as “they”? which I thought was so sweet. I rly like their dynamic. my vision is kumon panics at some point, locks himself in the panic closet, tenma goes to find him, gets locked there too, and they don’t really even have a deep heart to heart but tenma falls asleep there and kumon is moved anyways bc he kind of understands how deeply he’s being cared for, to the point that even if he ducks up they still like him. tho I don’t know kumon’s exact issues.

was worried muku was gonna talk abt kumon’s condition to summer troupe secretly so I was very glad he just said he was pressured! which literally anyone could notice. and I thought it was cute how summer troupe cheered him on. the moment I read kazuko and I was like ah… they’re all cute girls! one more tick towards my “all female summer troupe play” vision. love sakyo being like he’s got a lot of drive unlike SOMEONE abt kumon. and banri is like yeah I wonder who…? it’s great.

and kumons audition!! he reminds izumi of sakuyas first moments!!!! thinking abt how tenma joined summer troupe due to a deep admiration of sakuya in the first place. thinking abt how he’s teaching kumon now. and tenma calling him “student of mine” love it.

juza: …

izumi: he looks happy that his brother passed the audition!

me: …I think you might need some expression practice, izumi

again it’s so funny that kumon has to ask to join natsugumi bc I had totally assumed he already pivoted there post-road show. still this is very cute. and it’s wild that tenma is like oh? like he’s surprised. like. it’s so obvious how much he likes u guys lol. once again tho kumon’s a bit hesitant abt it and tenma and natsugumi r all like hell yeah kumon welcome on board. paused here bc it seemed like a good place to take a break! I am… very excited for what comes next.

KIRIII HI!!!! it's been so long but it's always a pleasure <33 take your time always, but what a pleasure to see your takes again!!

AND HELP. Someone should definitely make that pun, it's right here. come on.

AND HELP. I'd say yes it's normal to love Kumon at first sight, he's just So Shapped. He has a lovely smile, he looks radiant like the sun, he's a ball of energy, he's just. Everything about him is SO endearing i adore him. I'm so glad you felt like that right away, he deserves all the love (and i'm so glad he kept you company in the a3 server when you were playing!)

DLKFJDLKFJDF WHAT A FIRST INTRODUCTION THEN LMAO.

But yeah Kumon really has a stellar introduction, he's sweet but the way he immediately dismises Summer is like. hold on. no wait you don't know them like we do hold on. and yeah i love how they point out right away that it's just like Tenma because, yeah! it's just like Tenma! and now everyone can clown on BOTH Tenma AND Kumon at once! congratulation everyone! But god yeah i love how Kumon immediately goes to Banri's throat and then mostly is chill around him. i love how he can't insult anything other than his hair and how Banri is genuinely more affected by Kumon's comments on his hair than if Kumon had thrown real insult. so funny.

aw waaa 🥺🥺 of course i won't say a thing about all that's going on with the Hyodo, i'll just confirm to you that yes, Muku did leave the track team because of an injury yes! But for the rest, there's still so much to discover. But also oof mood on the "not wanting to elaborate suddenly on something you fucked up" thing.

:3c looking forward your reactions to the whole Hyodo arc then.

BUT YES YES YES!! This chapter really shows Tenma's growth so well and the way he tries to work it out with Kumon (while at this point, while we know Kumon is the Summer rookies, no one knows it yet, so Tenma is just helping out just because!! Probably also seeing himself out of the whole anti comedy thing like "oh my sweet sweet summer child" (literally) it's so sweet).

and yeah so true i think Yuki is the one with the most knowledge on that front, aside from Sakyo of course.

eheheh :3c. AND HELPP YEAH!! Tenma is so sweet and i love again how his dynamic with Yuki shines through in that bit like. truly the roommates who know each other too well at this point. rip.

AND DLKFJDFKL. the Kumon&Banri&Juza dynamic really is hilarious.

but waaa so cute :sob: so true on the hugs though, they really seem so huggable, and Tenma especially is so good this chapter. Like yeah of course the leader/rookie dynamic is expected but it's so nice to see them go through it rather organically.

YEAAH i love how he calls Juza niichan too <333 the perks of being able to catch a few of the words in Japanese when spoken. AND YEAH… Kumon at least completely speedrun his "comedy is alright actually" bit that Tenma half denied most of his own arc god bless. and you're SO right about everything you say about Tenma. Like, it really showcase just how far he has come and how he came to really notice and appreciate the good quirks everyone can have and ahhhhh he's so good. and i love that he can be here for Kumon and while Kumon is uncomfortable for now (probably the mix superstar + "i kinda insulted his whole troupe's thing while now i see i was wrong" embarassment) it's really sweet to see how into it he gets when they talk about those things. and they should talk about the sardine search more. Dance kitty cat dance.

yeah Juza came alone to Water Me. Oh if ever you feel like it, there's Juza's New Year SSR ( " SSR - [Chilling Out at Home] - "New Year's with the Hyodo Family") in the Archive that is set before Kumon's arrival, which showcase a bit the Hyodo/Sakisaka relationship before Kumon joined Mankai. obviously won't say much more about Muku and Kumon.

DLKFJDFLKDF i love this. Everything is a good reason to read more into Hisoka's multilanguage attributes.

oh the whole Hyodo drama muah. I LOVE how the summer troupe immediately steps in for Kumon though :sob: they really did imprint him on him right away didn't they. AND YEAH ANOTHER TRIANGLE ENJOYER HELL YEAH.

YEAAH the voice acting in a3 is so good at conveying so much character in how good or bad the whole acting is, like, how much you can feel them, as actors, behind those lines. Kumon especially since he's the personification of the sun itself so he just spills out sunshine everywhere when he talks he's so cute. and i LOVe how good Tenma is with him, he improved so much and got so much nicer :sob:

mood for Tenma's parents. and! for the diretor, That's actually very likely, that'd make sense at least :o could be just a reference without it being supposed to be modern and all. god this arc is good. And YEAH FOR CHIKAGE. really went from "this whole company means nothing to me and i will burn it down" to "anyway what can i do for my precious company right now", best character development. AND HELPPP. Yeah, i assume outside of spring and winter people don't know Chikage much aside from "he bailed on us at some point and we all saw him date the director, what was up with that". Spring at least knew something was off with him and Winter knew something was off with Hisoka because of him. but for the rest?? Esp the kids??? god Chikage speedrunning from weirdo stranger to weird uncle is incredible.

Juza and Muku working together for Kumon's sake 🥺 it's really so cute and it does show how they evolved in term of problem solving with other people. Kumon is so cute. And yeah this is so sweet!!! Summer really is doing a number on him right away!! Like it's just really soft how, Kumon wanted to join the company for Juza, to be with Juza, and all of that and just… how quickly Summer grew on him that now he's kinda here for himself instead. and for those people who cheered for him then. It's so soft. I love your vision on how this arc would go aaa

Muku is handling the situation so well!! honestly he deals with Kumon's situation with so much care i almost forgot he was younger than him at a time, Muku really tries hard to take care of him as he can there as a senpai. AND HELL YEAH for the all female summer troupe play. They're all ready for this. dFLKJDFDF SAKYO. And Banri is that Garfield picture isn't it.

AND YEEEE ON THE IMPRESSION IZUMI HAS OF KUMON. associating him with Sakuya's enthusiasm and everything and having Tenma mentoring him… it's all very sweet.

AND HELP. hey maybe Izumi is right, we don't know (yet) what's in Juza's head! who knows!

AND RIGHT… Natsugumi really just took care of Kumon just because as if it wouldn't cause him to Be Attached just as quickly for it. it's so sweet.

Thank you once again for your detailled thoughts, it's a blast to read through and it makes me relive those arcs which is always so good. I'm glad you're having fun and are totally getting into the stuff that are being set up!! it's going to be a trip!

Always looking forward more of your thoughts, and thank you again for sharing <3333 Take care!

[protagonistheavy]

Not more than ten minutes into playing more TotK after writing my previous tumblr post about did I discover the steering wheel objects you can attach to things lol. So that resolves one of my biggest worries, mostly. It's still pretty frustrating to be juggling so many awkward physics in a lot of cases, I've come close to losing tons of progress just because building something was tedious + the execution had to be so specific.

Otherwise though yeah Im surprisingly still having quite a bit of fun just putting together all the scraps and pieces the game has left lying around. Lots of the sky islands in particular are just little puzzles like this, figuring out how to use the items around you to get to a higher point or to another island. I've already come across a few "repeat" islands, which is unfortunate but not totally disruptive -- "repeated" in the sense that it uses the same general layout or puzzle situation, but given a little variety of what zonai items you're given.

My goal right now is to get all the parts+batteries necessary to make an RV lol. I want Link to be big truckin' and haulin' across Hyrule. I say this but it also does majorly suck that, at least where I'm at now, there's no way to save anything you build or create. The moment your game has to reload, it despawns all your creations. Pretty lame but I guess that's understandable.

I do wish dying wasn't so, so frequent... I feel like this game much more quickly thrusts tougher enemies at you from that start than BotW did. I mean I remember BotW being punishing too, but jesus fucking christ, every single thing in this game one-shots you for the first 20 hours. It's so obnoxious that you are not permitted ANY mistakes unless the game mercifully spares you with a one-quarter heart. So many times I get swarmed by enemies with spears and I feel like I have zero options but to run away -- which sucks because running away, like, ALWAYS WORKS, you can cheese so many fights by just kiting enemies.

One last note is about dungeon design. I've only completed the Water Temple but I'll say that the dungeon itself wasn't as much fun as the build-up to that area. I quite enjoyed the "pre-temple" obstacle course that takes you to the temple proper, but the actual dungeon itself was surprisingly straightforward. The boss was also a far cry from the BotW bosses lol, and the aesthetics do not match the divine beasts at all. But it's passable, had cute puzzles. My biggest complaint: I accidentally walked two steps faster than Sidon and entered the temple before he did, which left me exploring these puzzles... without Sidon there to solve them. That was REALLY annoying to have to re-enter the dungeon so that it would "start properly."

But I am still very much enjoying the game. Re-exploring Hyrule is a blast, there's enough different with it that it does not feel like trekking the same place as before except for a few nostalgic strips of land where I can go "ohhh yeah I remember doing this here!" which just feels nice. And there's also the fact that uhh just in general, I didn't explore all of BotW's map anyway lol, I completed the map itself but there were tons of places and corners I looked past, so this is a great chance to see more of what was made. And even if I do get tired of Hyrule, the Sky Islands and the Depths are both totally new areas, even if they're a bit bland, they still have a lot to offer and are totally fun to go back and forth between.

[zombies-aliens]

Man. I'm down bad rn. I'm attached to a fucking girl bruh. It's so. Fucking. Dumb. I don't even wanna get into it. I'm so tired of worrying over nothing meanwhile she's probably not even worried an ounce about me. And why tf would she I'm literally ONE DUDE while she has an ABUNDANCE OF FRIENDS. I have close to zero she's got like the whole damn community at work in her corner who tf do I got again? If I leave nobody cares. Okay okay they'll pretend to miss me, then in a couple minutes I swear to God they'll be laughing it up with friends I promise you!! And boom just like that I'm forgotten and I'll eventually forget them too. Bc they got friends they got people to make them forget and feel better. Good for them unfortunately I don't have that luxury. I'm a lone wolf that feels like an outcast everytime I'm around people. Like look man I know it everyone knows it I ain't shit. It's the sad truth. How can I not see it. I'm a lame. It's the sad truth. Whatever. I'm attached to that person bc they are the only friend I talk to on a daily basis consistently. My dumbass went and got attached because there's literally no one else I do this with. There's nobody else who really made me think I'm actually friends with me back instead of it feeling like I'm their friends and I'm hoping to God they're still friends with me the next day. Oh but they check on me and ask if I'm okay bruh how dumb do you think I am you think I don't know words are just words? Words don't mean jack shit man. All I know is I'm attached, I care way more to an unhealthy extent apparently, and I don't know what else to do but to ghost once I move away to another state. They'll never find me again we'll never see each other and yeah I know it must come off as a shocker for them... maybe?... but as I said they'll be laughing it up with friends in a few minutes I'm not kidding too. They won't miss me that much if at fucking all they do. They'll probably all go drinking the same night and there you go. Fun times restablished. Matter fact fun times were never impacted by me anyway. So idk when I leave to another state and I'm about to leave the store I'm idk bc I know it's proper to put in a two weeks notice but fuck that store I'll tell them in a week they can kiss my ass they don't love me anyway. All I will say is thank you T for hiring me. But idc anymore. When I get the call that's it's time to go (sounds grim but it's a job position I'm in a queue for basically. Its already mine just a matter of time but hopefully it's very soon. Like even next week would be perfect. Just take me away from my attachment man) I'm probably delete her from my snap without notice. Maybe with notice. Still figuring it out. Might say "hey im so so sorry this was fun but its been bad for me.. I need to move on. Everythings okay. None of this is your fault. ooo 🫂

And I think I'll wait a month max before I do it. Bc say I get let go for whatever reason and I go back home where they're at. Now that would be painful for me. Awkward for everybody. But even still they wouldn't give a fuck. They probably think, "idiot"

I'm only doing this because I don't wanna be attached anymore. It's a one sided attachment and I'm tired of how I overthink and it's happening because of this attachment. So I have to break it off from me to fucking get a breath of fresh air.

[initiumseries]

catching up with The Flash, because I hate myself and also to laugh at how senseless the show has become, and why don’t any of the current couples on that show have any chemistry? Barry and Iris, obviously, with their neg. chem, but Chester and Allegra, who replaced Cisco and Caitlin for some reason, are unbearable to watch in their romantic scenes. Killer Frost and her frozen man boyfriend… awful. What is happening? Is it because the show is so corny? Lmao.

Flash asks are my favourite asks! Lmao.

So, I'm so glad you brought up Chester and Allegra, because every time I see them together, I'm just like...how is it possible to be THIS awkward on screen with someone you're supposed to have been working side by side with for YEARS, who you trust with your LIFE, and the result is...this?

Please, just keep it LOL.

Cisco left the show, and I don't blame him for doing so, it had worn out its welcome and I'm sure he was tired, and personally his whole "I don't wanna have powers" thing was boring, but it's unfortunate because he was the most natural actor on the show.

So, I'm not sure how caught up you are with it yet, but like, Frost and her bad guy boyfriend are confusing to me because it's like...this show has abandoned any effort in pairing couples together that make any sense, or that even LOOK comfortable together, and so when whatever happens with Frost, happens, it's HARD for me to feel for him because I didn't believe their relationship in the first place, and they're barely on screen together. But that's just how I've always felt about all the relationships on this show, even before the showrunner switch? Like, no one even seems like FRIENDS, you guys have been on this show for 9 seasons and look no more comfortable with each other than you did season 1. It's PITIFUL. Allegra is supposed to be experiencing all this anxiety with Chester because she loves him so much and she's been through stuff, but we don't really know what she's been through. Just that thing with her cousin, the rest is just...exposition, so, flop #1, and then her and Chester don't even seem like they LIKE each other so how am I meant to believe you're self sabotaging the thing you want most? GUYS, WHAT?

Chemistry is a big problem on this show, but so is the acting and the overall story. I've always complained that outside of like, s1 and kinda s2, is season 3 where he meets patty? Anyway, the overarching plot holds us and the characters hostage, it compromises character arcs and emotional depth because there's always a new, ridiculous fire to put out. The actors are MID, so you end up with like...the corniest moments, tacky supervillains that feel like something out of like, an Adam West Batman episode. It's BAFFLING, because it's not even charming either? I could handle corny if it was also charming, everyone looked like they had fun together, and liked each other, and at LEAST the flagship ship had the chemistry it needed. But instead it's joyless, miserable and lame. Since Cisco's departure, there's not a single redeeming quality about this show, and the actors are jumping ship. Time to WRAP IT UP.