#i am so tired of these stupid ass takes
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#the last of us#tlou#'love is destruction' no#love can be blinding. our care for one another can cause us to forget our duty to protect our communities. but love is healing.#love is all we have. to close yourself off from love is to close yourself off from life itself.#'episode 8 is about how men are scarier than monsters' no.#ep 8 is about how easy it is for dangerous people to put themselves in positions of power if we let them convince us#of their inherent virtue due to proximity to things like religion#& to be wary of someone that pays lip service to goodness while showing you thru their actions that they're really after power/domination#i am so tired of these stupid ass takes#there are so many layers to each episode and literally so much of the discussion im seeing that isnt just 'joel sexy' is so surface level#dig in!! theres so much there!!#but if i see one more take thats like 'this episode is about how men are scarier than zombies 😔' im gonna scream#sorry i know im being a hater lmao#spoilers
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Sorry, I would rather eat flaming hot DOG shit than have another man live in my house ever again.
#it's my cousin and I can’t even handle it#why is there always so much hair and noises ?#every day he needs a home cooked meal like I’m his private chef or something ????#the amount of laundry I am doing is criminal#the bathroom stays FILTHY#don’t even get me started on the UNHINGED amount of cologne this MF drenches himself in#I cannot breathe#1 hour long showers LIKE WHAT ARE YOU WASHING??????#I’m FUCKING TIRED Y’ALL#it’s like living with a child#and his stupid ass won’t even take the garbage out#personal#text post
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not my mother schooling me on dating apps 'cause she wants me to be in a normal relationship (with a man) and telling me that i should fulfill myslef as a woman by which she means having a child.
because ofc i'm not a full person until i pop out a little shitling. fucking uugh.
#was i a step from telling her i am not interested in dating men? maybe so.#would it be a stupid thing to do? absolutely.#i'm so fucking tired of listening to this shit tho but i know her catholic ass wouldn't ever take it well#“do you want to be alone??” maybe i don't mind being on my own. what's fucking wrong with it jfc#am. UGH. i can't cry because of it again fucking damn it.#blah blah text post#personal#lady whines#tbd#every time this shit makes me wanna disappear on the sea or smth
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*sigh*
#this essay is taking fucking FOREVER DUDE#i stayed up til 4 am (until i passed out while on break) working on this stupid fucking thing#but hey at least it’s abt fnaf so i just get to rant#i am so fucking tired#help#dreamy talks#dreamy's random thoughts#dreamy’s school diary#essay#essay writing#gotta love excessively long essays#and it was due today#WE LITERALLY STARTED WORKING ON IT YESTERDAY; THE DAY IMMEDIATELY AFTER WINTER BREAK#WHAT THE FUCK#so i just stayed home today to work on this stupid ass motherfucker#BUT I ALSO JUST FOUND OUT WE HAVE A HISTORY PRESENTATION DUE ON FRIDAY#FUCKING CHILL#ITS DIRECTKY AFTER WINTER BREAK LET US WARM BACK UP#tag rant
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I Am Going To Lose My Shit :)
#froggie personal#yall tell me why I feel like shit rn#the POTS is handing my ass to me today#I felt like shit yesterday too but I foolishly thought that it was a one-off day#like I need to eat something cause my stupid ass PMS symptoms are making me hungry#which in turn makes my POTS flare up#but I'm also nauseous so I don't wanna eat cause throwing up is a No#and at work some mom complained to my boss (I teach swim lessons) cause I couldn't work with her kid very much#like I'm sorry that another parent came in with their kid WHEN THEY WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO#AND HAD US TAKE HIM SO WE COULDN'T WORK WITH EVERYONE THE ENYIRE TIME#and your kid almost had a meltdown when you tried to out her in the water so pardon me-#-I didn't want to be a random stranger that dragged her into deep water and made her freak out#like jesus christ the kid is 2 I'm sorry that I didn't want to scare her away from the water but she's literally a toddler#and holy shit why am I so tired I've done legitimately nothing today#like I slept until 10 and conveniently missed my morning practice#only worked for an hour and emptied the damn dish washer#why did I have to lay down for an hour after work and now lay down again#and to top it all off my skin is acting up because of course it is#so now it's both dry as shit and super itchy#please I just need the shit to stop for a little bit
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what if instead of messaging me in the middle of the night about your stupid fucking girlfriend and your stupid fucking problems with her you actually act like my fucking friend and message me like how you message everyone else in our group
#bye ignore my venting bigger problems what fucking ever#im sick of her ass she only messages us for us to help her with her fucking girlfriend problems like we arent even friends atthis fckn point#and i love her shes so funny whatever but god shes literally the worst because i just want to be friends i dont fucking care ab her goddamn#selfish ass gf thats shes obsessed with. be obsessed tell me about it but cant we be friends ab other stuff too#we used to be her 'favorite friend' cause we shared so many interests and we hung around what fucking ever but fuck that right#get a gf and just use us to help better yalls relationship without even telling her you're sharing her private msgs w us huh yeah sure#what fucking ever im so done with this bitch and i cant even get my contacts out cause i have long nails and im js poking my eye#AND SHE WOULD NEVER BE SORRY if our friendship fell apart she would tell everyone i was jealous of her gf or what ever i literally dont care#she was like an older sister before i dont get why getting a gf would have to change shit like ok good for u but what ab us#what about me its not even fucking fair like is it that hard to keep up w ur friends?? NO its fucking not#taking me so long to write a post bc im still fucking helping her with her stupid dumb selfish idiotic gf omfg#just BREAK UP i literally dont fucking care just leave her if she makes u unhappy its literally online tf is she gonna do to u nothing omfg#why am i the one being punished when shes the one with the stupid dumb gf that hates her and herself i dont fucking care i js want m friend#and i cant tell any of our mutual friends cause she dont do that to them its js me so itd be like im being dramatic#and like shit i guess i am but i dont care atp thats all she ever talks to me ab like ok i get it i helped u but stop jfc#but if i said that we'd never talk again bc what fucking ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cause im just dramatic whatever#if u cant resolve these simple problems of communication on ur own then maybe u shouldnt be in a relationship idk js my thoughts! die#sry the 1 person who knows what xactly i mean is asleep and im so tired of getting late night msgs being like hii can u help me SHUT UP#id love to help if we were actually still fucking friends but we arent so js leave me alone bruh#post#nickpost#will delete in morning my mom keeps telling me to put my phone down bt i need 2 say smfh 2 some1#i hate change i hate slight differences in my normal day to day i hate everything i hate not having smth to rely on i hate change i hate it#sry im alg now im js sick of her ass js leave bruh#nimbhe my moms yelling im tired anyway i need to js isolate myself forever no problems if im on an island alone#living my best life in the shade drinking idk water or whatever and just talking to myself bc who even needs friends right!!!!!!!!#its 11:11 make a wjsh#adding more cz whatever im deleting this ltr anyway#its so clear where i stand with everyone cause its always close but not close enough friendly but not friends and i guess its the same w her#bye im out of tags etc whatever nobody matching my freak ever never comfortable in any friendships
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Cakey..........my bff.......where did u wander off 2.....
Ah!!! Hi!!! Hello!!! I wander off to set on to see the world… apologies for my long absence dear darling bff!!! :o(((
I just wanted take a break from posting since a lot has happened recently!!! First, I had to do a project with my mother!! I had to come up and draw her a character for her clinic, which is complete but I still haven’t technically submitted yet? :o7
After that, school opened for me!! Had new students, new teachers and all that!It’s so incredibly tiring nowadays because:
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1. I have to wake up early in the morning to go to school, it starts at 6 and ends at 1:30 in the afternoon!! 12 if it’s Friday though!
2. Whenever I come back from school too, I have tuition to attend to, which starts at 3… AND I USUALLY COME BACK AT 2:30. explodes
3. I am also! Currently fasting right now! During this hot weather! So at this very moment, I am experiencing the very same thing as SpongeBob and Patrick did when they were burning alive in that movie! :o)
(I hope I am not sharing too much personal information… though please do tell me if I am!!!!)
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So, yeah! Hence the reason why I haven’t gotten a chance to post! Because I am incredibly tired! :-((
Though fortunate news! I will be posting again very very soon fellow friend! Even during my absence, I did a lot of Welcome Home art and I will be sharing them soon! :oD (hooray YIPPPE YAHOOOO!!!!!!)
Though! Keep in mind that some of the arts are quiteeeee old since I made them BEFORE the update!! So expect old designs!!!!
And don’t worry, I will eventually answer the asks I currently have right now which is- 2! It doesn’t seem much, which it ISN’T, but with what’s happening with me right now.. it’s quite a chore! Luckily, I like doing chores! So I guarantee this will be fun!! :-)
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Ah alright, I think that’s all I wanna say for now! Besides that the new update is really really GLORIOUS! That’s really it! Again, I SINCERELY apologise for the wait!! It’s a nasty old habit of mine, hopefully I’ll defeat it one day and that this wouldn’t happen again!!! :-((
I also am so sos sososoosos sorry if I sound less energetic and dry on this…. i would love to apologise MORE but I am sosososoososos tired….. I crave for chocolate right now……. Which I literally could go and take it but aghahhhh…… it’s past the time I usually sleep TOO… girl…………
#AGAIN I AM SO SORRYYYYYYYY#I had to help with a lot of home chores too…#Had a horrible painful headache…..#and a horrible ugly fever……#CAN’T TAKE A BREAK NOWADAYS.#I love helping my mum in the kitchen because she deserves it#but going out….#and going out AFTER#ON THE SAME DAY#DURING THE WEEKENDS?#not just a pain in the ass#but a pain in EVERYWHEREEEE#Hence my stupid headach!! yay!!!!#but serious note#I genuinely wanna come to posting because#I genuinely missed how fun it was :-((#so I am coming back!!! horray!!!#tired but pleased!#yes yes!!!#can’t wait to ramble again!!! wahhhh!!!!!!!!#friendly friends ask <3#kiss kiss mwah mwah!!!
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oh man. i am so......... i will vent in the tags
#my dog was put to rest today. it was tough. but i got most of my sadness out of the way yesterday.#after that#a random ass dog came into our yard and starting being aggressive and growling and barking#and we have an outdoor cat and chickens#he was being nice for a bit but got mad again and i got so mad at him after he bit at my rooster.#he turned out to be okay but i am so pissed#animal control was called. we stood outside for a solid hour waiting on them. we saw them drive past our house#they did not stop to help us#this dog is harrassing everyone in the neighborhood and we are all so tired#we took our cat in the house. the chickens are in the coop now.#so theyre safe#but somebody has to come get this stupid dog#god i hate the government. emergency services are total ass and balls. nobody ever fucking shows up when you need them#weve had problems with animal control refusing to come out and help us when a big dog was harrassing our dog#and when they finally did show up after we begged them they were being assholes and acting like the stray was our pet we just wanted rid of#and this time they just dont show up at all#after calling us to tell us they were on their way. been hours now#i am so exhausted#and now i have to take a test for a class i really want to pass but i always do horrible on the tests. and i am just so so exhausted#feel awful right now.#aguuughghhh#delete later#.txt
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so two weeks ago my kneecap spontaneously dislocated. no one really knows whats up with that. i get raised eyebrows and “but what did you do”s every time someone sees my splinted leg and asks what happened. so the orthopedist says this stays on for six weeks. then, you can do physiotherapy and we’ll hope this never happens again.
ok, great. so the good news is i CAN put weight on it. the doctor in the hospital gives me a pair of crutches, smiles at me like it’s not 6am and i haven’t been sitting in the er all night, says Just In Case. that’s great too.
the bad news?
i live on the third floor of a building with no elevator.
the building i work in has three floors and one elevator on the opposite side from where we’re located, which can only be accessed with a special key anyway. oh, and there’s construction going on this summer - so actually, the elevator isn’t even going to be accessible. plus, it doesn’t go to the third floor anyway, which is where my classroom is, at the end of the hallway.
that’s fine, though. i take public transit to and from work every day. at least the metro stations have elevators, right? well…14 out of about 70 stations in the city have them. i’m lucky that my local one does - the station i transfer at for work doesn’t have one to the platform i have to transfer to. the one i leave work from has three flights of stairs from the platform to the terminal.
so, keeping in mind i have to go up and down the stairs at work by the whims of my children and supervisors, and the staff room where i have to eat my lunch is on a different floor than my classroom, i’m averaging 20+ flights of stairs every single day. and cannot bend one of my knees, which is at the end of each day about as swollen as it was the day i dislocated it. my doctor prescribed me a month’s worth of naproxen, which my pharmacist was shocked by. she said, usually you only need this for a week. until the swelling goes down.
but the swelling is managed with some ice here and there anyway. so i’ll live. what really hurts is when i’m on the bus - because my commute to work involves two busses and two trains each way - and people trip over my leg because they just aren’t paying attention. i am at the mercy of kind strangers who notice and stand protectively over my leg, when i am lucky enough that upon boarding a bustling bus someone even gives me their seat. otherwise, i’m forced to stand on one leg to avoid putting too much force on my injured one each time we hit a bump.
(three times since my injury i have been the only person to offer my seat to another person with limited mobility on the bus, which every time the person in question has denied while everyone else’s eyes remain down and mouths remain shut.)
and lets not forget - i live in a city where everything is built atop huge fucking hills. at the top of one is the hospital. just below that, my university’s campus and student clinic.
am i just complaining for the sake of complaining? a little bit. but mostly i am thinking about how the inaccessibility around me is actively making it more difficult for me to heal from what is, spontaneity aside, a fairly common injury. i can’t quit my job. i need to attend my appointments. were it not june, i’d have to go to class. i am incredibly lucky to have friends who are willing to help with groceries and laundry, which would be particularly difficult for me due to the number of stairs i’d have to climb with my hands full, but if i didn’t - those are not things i could stop doing for myself and expect to survive for six weeks either, especially when i’m working 40 hours a week with 2+ hours of commuting a day.
anyway. maybe there’s not a lot the average person can do to help people with limited mobility. but giving up your seat on the bus is a pretty good first step and always has been.
#taylor.txt#life update for anyone even remotely interested#gee taylor why arent you writing anything. gestures rapidly. I AM SO FUCKING TIRED#i have to wake up around 5am every day to get to work on time cause i have a walking speed debuff of like 200%#500% on stairs If we’re being honest. god nerfed me for the summer which is SAD because my brain got nerfed for 2 full years and now this#dont take my tone to be indicative of anything though. in many respects im actually doing great and thriving#my real issues are The Brain Disorder which unfortunately i cant do much more than cope with until the end of summer#when im done work and i take my cat to the kitty dentist and put myself an extra few thousand in debt because her old owner couldnt be assed#to take her to the vet once in a while i guess. i dont know. guys my life is such a mess. dont even get me started on gallstones#(still waiting to get an mri done at the stupid hospital on the big fucking hill. but whatever right. ITS ONLY BEEN A MONTH)#but yeah im doing great and i mean that genuinsly like im not being sarcastic in spite of it all
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love how my mom only does something for me unprompted just bc she wants something
#i knew her asking if i wanted egg noodles at 10pm was weird#and then she literally waited til i got back to my room to TEXTTTTTT me and ask for $40#like yeah i fucking GUES BITCH but if you don’t pay me back im going to scream at you until we both are crying and ur not gonna like it#im tired of her shit dude stop lying about what you need $40 for bc i know it’s not anything you ever say it is miss ma’am#lying ass bitch take my 40 and smoke it up i don’t care anymoreeeeeeeeeee#goddddd i just. am so done with her shit she’s selfish and fucking ridiculous i want to beat her fucking ass lmaooo i’m sick of her shit#tired of ittttt tired of her making my mental health be shit bc she can’t act right. not my fuckin issue anymore bitch do better#anyways i’m going to smoke weed and not be a stupid dumb bitch like my mom hehe#also i am making this post and bc i haven’t sent it to her writhin fucking five minutes she’s already texting me like a fucking freak like#‘are u sending it’ ‘or do u have cash’ ‘where are u sending it’ ‘i can get it off ur card’ BITCH CALM DOWN FUCKING CHEIST I HATE YOUUUUUUU#idk if or what i need to tag this as so if anyone needs me to tag this as anything specific pls let me know
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#km so tired im done like i rly do not give a fuck about this class and dont give a fuck about these assignments like whatis the fucking#point of doing these assignments i do not care i just dont!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#im so tired#im so so tired and i feel so alone and i dont feel happy and i just find it so difficult to think positively and optimisticly and im so#tired. im so tired#i want to do good and i wanna go above and beyond and i just!!!!!!!!! i dont have the energy and i feel so depressed anf i cant get anythin#done#im so sick and tired of all lf this and i wish i could just focus on student teachung and not have to take this stupid ass class and i wish#i didnt have to go to my stupid ass job#i just want things to be easy#and i am so tired and i soend all my energy and i still dont make enough money and i have to soend 40 hours a week at this internship gor 3#more months and im not getting paid and i cant even put in hours at work because of how long im soending at this school#im just so tired and i feel stuck and i feel like shit all the time#and my laptop doesnt even fucking work anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i cant get shit done anymore even if i have time i just cant#im so tired.
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i was having such a good fucking night and then my cat pissed on my fucking bed are you fucking kidding me. am i actually just not allowed to have a single good day of my life where nothing goes wrong. does something always have to fucking ruin me having a good time for once in my life
#I SAW HER LEAVE MY ROOM WHEN I CLOSED THE DOOR. HOW THE FUCK DID SHE GET STUCK IN THERE.#im so pissed i was so fucking happy fuck you#not fuck you at my cat though i am pissed that she pissed ON MY BED AND NOT UNDER IT#NO ONE CARES ABOUT THE SHITTY CARPET UNDER MY BED PISS ON THERE AND NOT THE PLACE THAT I FUCKING SLEEP#i was saying fuck you to the universe#look at prince having a good time for once in his miserable lonely depressing life! time to pull the rug! have fun falling on your ass!#i was looking forward so bad to just laying in bed and going to sleep im so tired and it was the perfect end for me to just pass out#but no i had to take my blanket and top sheet and sheet off and go grab a towel and another blanket thats fucking itchy and not very warm#this is just so stupid. this happens so many fucking times#like when i went to a group meeting thing a few years ago AND A DIFFERENT CAT GOT STUCK IN MY ROOM AND SHIT ON MY BED#BECAUSE SOMEONE OPENED THE DOOR WHILE I WAS GONE AND DIDNT REALIZE THE CAT WAS IN THERE#AND THATS PROBABLY WHAT HAPPENED THIS TIME.
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there's not always going to be an option to make things immediately better, but there will always be options to stop things from immediately getting much much worse, and you will always owe it to people less fortunate than you to keep things from getting worse, no exceptions
#doing nothing is never going to be an effective protest because you are not making it clear to the people in charge what you are protesting#or that you're protesting at all#if you have time to post about how you're not voting you have time to be making your elected officials' lives worse until they do something#ive accepted that im not gonna convince people to vote if they really dont want to#but if you're not voting AND you're not calling/protesting/blocking weapons shipments/etc#then you need to accept that you dont care about making things better#you care about being seen hoping things get better without having to inconvenience yourself at all#i am. SO fucking tired of people who are not doing anything acting morally superior about it#why are you not killing politicians yourself if you really think thats the only way things are going to change you fucking cowards#i swear to god trying to get people on this stupid fucking website to get off their asses and DO SOMETHING#feels the exact same as trying to get my reps to get off their asses and do something except honestly i think ive had more luck with my rep#like even just in terms of reblogging#WAY fewer people reblogged any posts from me that had info about where the ports were being blocked#than people who reblogged any 'here is another terrible thing that happened in gaza today' post#i cant bother every single person on this website into taking action#but i only have a few elected officials and it is very very easy to be extremely annoying to a small group of people
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i WILL show up to the trial day for the preparatory class tomorrow no matter how much i dont want to and after that i guarantee NOTHING
#broadcasting my misery#vent#this is a lie i guarantee i will keep tumbling through life appearing functional and melting down in the privacy of my own home afterwards#<- trying to jinx my naturally contrarian ass into taking care of myself for once#god i'm tired#i am. slightly peeved.#around 11am i was like ''i think i'm going to go home'' and my friend was like WHAT nooooooo what are you going to do at home anyway#and we ended up hanging out w another friend until fucking 4pm#and she was like oooooh guys i think i'm gonna go else i wont have energy tomorrow#haha bitch where was this mindset when i told you i was going to go home#i don't know why i keep like. telling people stuff like ''i'm [emotion] i'm going to [thing]''#and they just plan stuff w me anyway#and like. i can't decide for them what's important or not to them. so i make an effort and i participate to the best of my ability.#but it KEEPS HAPPENING#OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN#it does not stop#i can barely keep the violent impulses down tbh i act like im on crack in public#bc if i dont walk around and spasm like an epileptic stray cat im gonna start giving in to the urge to dive under a bus or punch someone#i have nearly uncontrollable fits of hitting my head against walls when my entire life i was too chicken to do it despite trying to#i gained about fifteen to twenty fucking kilograms in the last three months#because i cannot fucking stop binging and EVERYBODY'S LIFE seems to revolve around food#my friends are incapable of hanging out without going to buy smth no matter at which time we get out of school#my other friends seem incapable of not checking calories VERY LOUDLY and calculating how much they lost walking around#my mom and i are home and awake at the same time abt two hours a day and one and a half of that is spent making/eating dinner lmao#im making the effort holy shit i am but i'm going to start being violent soon#i've started trying to strangle my cat twice in the past week i think#i'll show up tomorrow bc it's an opportunity and im not stupid enough to miss that by lack of self esteem#but really what is it good for#my friend isnt very delicate in her way to say it but she's right. i'm not cut out for being normal like that#i can sorta seem functional but you very quickly start seeing i don't know how to dress
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i wrote this in the notes of another post originally and am copy + pasting it here because im right but "tell the cops nothing, tell the doctors everything" is such a stupid ass fucking abled take. doctors engage in policing idk how to explain to yall that some people cannot in fact just tell doctors everything without it putting them at risk
like im not gonna go into the myriad of ways this is bs but like a quick example is i cant tell my doctors about my substance use issues because if i get that listed on my medical records it will actively endanger me. It will impact how I'm treated in emergency situations and will get me labeled as "drug seeking" when i try to get other issues dealt with.
i dont say this to scare people but because this is actually important information for people to have. if a medical professional claims this isnt an issue, they are NOT "one of the good ones". they are either straight up lying or theyre utterly unaware, which is frankly not better. doctors are cops. never forget it
like YES tell ur doctor abt being sexually active but stop saying "tell the cops nothing and the doctor everything" before i start killing in cold blood
I KNOW THE ORIGINAL QUOTE. This is about how people misquote it, as well as how they view the phrase as meaning "all medical professionals". ALSO! emts are not the neutral figures you think they are. please stop spewing your lack of understanding on the topic all over my tags, its embarrassing. Paramedics kill people and engage in policing stop fucking shilling for them indiscriminately
finally, THIS POST IS ABOUT DRUGS. FIRST AND FOREMOST IT IS ABOUT DRUGS. THIS WAS WRITTEN BY AN ADDICT. the way yall are talking about addicts and drugs users in the tags is so fucking dehumanising. you are part of the problem. Id suggest non addicts shut their traps please and thank you.
similarly, before you comment, ask youself: am i an addict ? do i have an understanding of how addicts, particularly otherwise disabled addicts, have to navigate healthcare systems ? if not, consider SHUTTING THE FUCK UP. hope this helps !
read the notes before you leave a comment im so fucking serious. reblogs are off because none of you know how to act and i have zero patience at this point. if you think im being bitchy pls consider the fact that your stupid comment does not exist in a vacuum and i have received and deleted countless stupid notes and abusive asks on and about this post and your stupid comment exists within that context and i am fucking tired.
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your post about sylus essentially conditioning the reader to sit on his lap hasjsakddf that was so perfect and in character 😭 i love it sm its given me so much brain rot - how bout this:
can i request the lads boys reaction to the reader randomly asking to be carried/picked up in the middle of walking? for no other reason just to see how'd they react lol
LaDS casually carrying MC
Xavier
The most casual. He just smiles at you and asks, "Bridal or piggyback?" in the same tone as if he's asking what you want to eat.
And he's not just playing along. He means it. He wants to be the one you lean on — metaphorically and literally.
You can try and backtrack but then you'll get those eyes. The bluest puppy dog eyes that can break the strongest of wills. "Are you sure? We still have a few blocks to go to the café, I don’t want you to get tired..."
You feel like you're holding out on him by not letting him carry you. The mind tricks this man is capable of to get what he wants are ridiculous.
You fold embarrassingly fast and Xavier is happy as can be with you on his back, your arms and legs around him like a full-body embrace. He can see the tactical advantage to carrying you like this during missions, too.
Rafayel
"You want me to carry you?“ Rafayel scoffs. “What if I pulled a muscle in my arm and couldn't draw for a week? No thank you!"
He refuses until you ask if it's not that he doesn't want to carry you, but that he can't.
Now you've wounded his pride. He might not be the God of the Sea anymore, but he can't let this go unanswered! Rafayel will be on you relentlessly to let him pick you up, no matter how long it takes.
"Whoa, be careful, cutie! There's no telling how deep these puddles are from all the rain — you're super lucky your boyfriend is here to carry you to safety."
When you finally break and let him do it just so he can prove a point, he realizes he likes this way more than he thought he would. You're like his adorable little prisoner and the only way you're getting out is in praise and smooches. This will become a regular thing, I fear.
Zayne
“I told you to wear more comfortable shoes.”
Zayne inwardly grins at how quickly you deflate at his blunt response. It's adorable.
But Zayne has a hard time denying you something so innocent as wanting to be close to him. So he guides your arm to wrap around his shoulders and picks you up with a strength that always takes you by surprise.
He waits for you to settle comfortably in his arms before he starts walking. He's aware of the disapproving stares from the people around you and not too long ago, he would've been one of them. How quickly his perspective has changed because of you.
Zayne is brought out of his thoughts when he feels you peck his cheek and now you get that oh so familiar look of gentle reproach from him. "I am working on being more affectionate but I'm not there yet, MC. Now, behave or your ride will end early."
Sylus
Sylus is so caught off guard that, for once, you can see his entire thought process play out through his expressions.
Surprise at your request, suspicion you're just toying with him, the realization you're being somewhat serious, and then the most gratified look you've ever seen on his stupid smug face.
Now you’re speaking his language. So delighted you’re finally catching on, he just picks you up and continues on his way without breaking his stride.
However, you didn't specify how he should carry you. So you're draped over Sylus's shoulder and to keep you there, his hand is dangerously high up on your thigh for being in public. The smack on your ass is so inevitable, you can feel it like it's already happened.
"You just said you were tired, now you want me to put you down? You need to learn to make up your mind, kitten. I'll just carry you until you're sure of what you want."
#i think rafayel is the only one who hasn't carried us yet...? correct me if i'm wrong#love and deepspace#love & deepspace#love and deepspace x reader#love & deepspace x reader#lads x reader#l&ds x reader#my writing
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