#i am rewatching this for a third (3rd) time

[bread-cat-luna]

guys i cannot get into flower husbands again. i can't do this. i'm over flower husbands. i am over flower husbands

[wh0reforcoriolanussnow]

Billy the Kid set (insta feed) || Tom Blyth x actress!reader

Summary: this is literally just a bunch of insta posts of you and Tom on set of Billy the kid also mixed with abit of Dad!Tom cause I couldn’t resist myself <33 THIS WAS SO FUN TO MAKE

Warnings: fem!reader noneee

Wc: 743

divider by @pommecita

y/n_y/l/n

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Got dragged in to this 😐 fishing is not my forte.

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tomblyth: darling, you loved it.

���️ y/n_y/l/n: did I though?

danielwebber: specifically loved the part where you tripped and landed on your ass in the water, very entertaining 👏👏

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: maybe if you guys had told me that we would be going fishing, I would’ve worn more appropriate foot attire 😃

alexmroe: a day I will never forget!

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: please do.

user24: I love this cast smmm

user947: who else is here from tbosas after finding out that these two are each other’s love interest once again 🙋‍♀️

↘️ user109: yup.

↘️ user13: MEEEE 🙋‍♀️

↘️ user005: I couldn’t get enough of them in tbosas so here I am 😂

user464: I love it when y/n posts bts content, she knows what we want.

user87: y/n feeding us more Tom content 🫡

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y/n_y/l/n

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My fav look <33 (fun fact: the dress was hand painted 🥹)

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tomblyth: my gorgeous gorgeous girl 😍

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: 🥰

user86: AHHHHHH HIS COMMENT

user150: ‘my gorgeous gorgeous girl’ he’s actually talking abt me hehehehe

user328: Dulcinea was serving looks the entire season, and that’s on periodt.

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: 🤭 couldn’t agree more

↘️ user328: YOU RESPONDED AHHHH ILY

↘️ user25: FACTS

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tomblyth

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Past couple of weeks 🎬

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user672: oh to be y/n y/l/n 😫

siobhan: will miss u all!!!

↘️ tomblyth: it was nice knowing ya Mrs Riley 🤠

↘️ siobhan: wish I hadn’t gotten shot in the head by my dbag husband (all your fault @shaunmbenson)

user19: the last picture awhhhh @y/n_y/l/n

↘️ tomblyth: she’s actually a horse whisperer

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: I am 🤫

↘️ user19: NO WAY YOU BOTH REPLIED OMFG

user465: Billy the Kid makes me weak in the knees oml

user348: omw to rewatch BTK for the millionth time 🏃‍♀️

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tomblyth

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Elsie when I first started filming s1 of BTK in 2021 and Elsie now during s2 🥹 Happy birthday my love <3 love you with all my heart!

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y/n_y/l/n: time flies 😭

↘️ tomblyth: our little girl isn’t so little anymore!

billythekidmgm: happy birthday Elsie! we LOVE seeing your happy face at set 💞

danielwebber: i remember holding her for the first time as a baby like it was yesterday 🥹

rachelzegler: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELS! I need to see you soon sweetheart 😭

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: she misses u and josh like crazy!!

user287: STOP MY HEART CANT WITH THIS

user932: Elsie is so freakin cute!!

user02: imagine being able to say Tom Blyth and Y/n Y/l/n are your parents…. nepo baby!

user461: the first picture of y/n and Elsie 😭 this post is too adorable!

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alexmroe

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Yeehaw 🤠

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y/n_y/l/n: i took the fifth pic 🙋‍♀️🤭

↘️ alexmroe: yes, yes, fifth pic creds goes to u

y/n_y/l/n: oml my tan in the last pic……

tomblyth: we’re so cute @y/n_y/l/n

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: we are aren’t we 🤭

↘️ user287: DAMN RIGHT. THE CUTEST COUPLE

↘️ user109: u guys r literally so wholesome i cant w it

user88: AWEEEE the last pic!!!

user163: excuse me- the third pic- DAMN TOM IS FINE

user847: I love seeing Tom in a cowboy hat 🫶

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: same.

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y/n_y/l/n

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life recently. Alberta, ily!

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ashleyjliao: 😍😍

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: Miss u bb x

joshandresrivera: 3rd pic 🤣

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: yk how he is with the cold 🥶

↘️ tomblyth: oh hush, I was being reasonable unlike you who was wearing a tank and shorts.

user63: Tom and Elsie 😭

user912: Y/n wearing Tom’s hat in the first pic 🤭

↘️ tomblyth: she steals it all the time

↘️ y/n_y/l/n: SHHHH

user108: why do I sometimes forget that Tom has a literal 4 year old daughter

user143: yessss keep feeding us Tom x Elsie content!!!!

user622: she’s hot, she has an even hotter boyf, a cute daughter, she’s rich, popular, an AMAZING actress, she’s literally winning at life 😫

user150: lol I wondered why their chemistry was so good in tbosas and btk. ITS CAUSE THEY LOVE EACH OTHER IRL.

[goldstargloww]

canary curse things. thinking about canary curse things

i'm hesitant to say the canary curse has been broken—what, no, of course it has been, jimmy died second instead of first, and the canary curse is all about dying first— okay hear me out i swear i make sense

my thought is that patterns can change. patterns aren't always static ones. just because something new happened this time around doesn't mean the pattern's been broken, it may have just changed its rules a bit.

joel had a pattern of having no true allies up until double or limited life, where it instead became a pattern of being isolated, for example

now, before we get into the canary curse specifically, let's talk about some other patterns

scott and martyn tend to drag themselves as well as their allies up the leaderboard. they both tend to outlive their allies. grian tends to kill his allies. ...i feel like i should put more here but that's all i can think of right now

now, the way i see it, is scott, martyn, and jimmy in particular all have some sort of weight to them. positive meaning they drag themselves and their allies up the leaderboard, negative meaning the opposite. scott and martyn have a positive weight, whereas jimmy has a negative one.

what i think's happened here is that martyn and jimmy's weights have tugged on each other, and as a result, martyn turned yellow and red first instead of much later on, and jimmy died second instead of first.

jimmy's pull is strong, i think, and so he tends to die first every time. just because he tends to die first every time doesn't make that a rule, though - it just makes it a pattern, one that's been broken. the pattern that hasn't been broken, though, is jimmy being one of the earliest to die, and jimmy dragging his allies down the leaderboard with him.

jimmy died first in 3rd life, and dragged scott down to 10th, and scott finally turned yellow right before jimmy died. jimmy died first in last life, and dragged mumbo down with him, and they were a similar color pretty much the whole time. jimmy died first in double life, and dragged tango down with him. jimmy died first in limited life, and joel died quickly after. jimmy died second in secret life, and dragged martyn's color down with him.

martyn, though, doesn't die yet, because of his positive weight. he's often tugged further up the leaderboard, and so while jimmy may drag his color down and martyn ends up first yellow and red, martyn still manages to stay afloat.

martyn is stubborn is the thing, lmao. he stays alive out of spite and just because he wants to, and so he does, and he makes sure he does. now that the stakes are higher and one wrong move could mean losing everything, he's being a lot more careful than he was earlier on.

and let me just reiterate for a second - he's stubborn. once he's got an idea, he's locked onto that idea until he gets it done or literally can't anymore. martyn will drive himself up the wall before he gives up on something and even then he'll need convincing or more likely a distraction. he didn't give up on ren in third life til he died and couldn't do anything anymore. he didn't give up on trying to kill scott in last life til he died and couldn't do anything anymore. he didn't give up on getting a diamond chestplate in secret life until he got it despite how much it cost him in the end. outside the life series, even, i'm rewatching rats right now- martyn will try to climb a wall over and over and over until he gets it or something gets in the way. he'll be texturing a model and complain to chat about how painful it is and still decide to spend the next hour and a half getting the damn thing done even though he should've logged off for bedtime 2 hours ago. (yes martyn i am calling you out, enjoy)

and so martyn doesn't die! he's yellow first, he's red first, and all other red names die, but martyn doesn't. because yeah, maybe he's impulsive, but he's in this for himself and himself alone and there's no way in hell he's dealing with a wither and a warden that's just killed three people. (he did try and steal the kill though. martyn do you remember what happened last time you tried to steal the kill, you fell into the void and died)

jimmy isn't as stubborn. jimmy's a lot more forgiving, a lot more lenient, and as much as he's being more aggressive this season, he's reckless about it and impulsive and his reputation isn't helping him here.

jimmy lets things happen to him. as upset as he might act about it, he never actually does anything about it, and it gets him killed. he's afraid to break the rules, he's afraid to make people uncomfortable or upset or hurt, he starts genuinely tearing up at the thought of pulling a bait and switch on skizz, and that's the kind of thing martyn does on a daily basis lmao

jimmy is forgiving and passive, martyn and scott don't forget so easily and aren't afraid to make people upset, grian's somewhere in between.

[charmedrop]

Haladriel Was Never a Romance from the Beginning

     Previously, I wrote an article about Galadriel’s storyline in season 3 of Rings of Power, which most likely involves her reunion with Celeborn because his fate remains unresolved for her going forward. However, Halbrand (Sauron) and Galadriel were always going to be enemies, and Rings of Power has never strayed from this presentation.��

Galadriel: Season 1

When Galadriel is introduced, she is scaling an icy mountain with a small army of elves who later mutiny against her after she takes down a mountain troll single-handedly. She is as far from the Third Age Lady of Light as one can get, which makes her character arc throughout the series entertaining to watch. The audience quickly learns from her interactions with Elrond that she is mourning a deep loss. The opening narration clues the audience into the fact that Galadriel’s brother Finrod was lost in the War of Wrath (supposedly at the end of the 1st Age). According to Galadriel’s understanding, Finrod faced Sauron and was killed by him, leaving a scar on his body. When Galadriel meets Halbrand for the first time, she once again mentions her losses, stating, “It would take longer than your lifetime to even speak the names of those taken from me.” Taking into consideration creative writing liberties, this statement is meant to emphasize not only how much time has passed since Galadriel’s childhood but how far Galadriel is in her grief and morning. Another purpose is to show how Galadriel is not dealing with her grief most effectively. Instead of letting her grief go, she is using it to fuel her quest to find and destroy Sauron, whom she does not realize is Halbrand yet. The first two episodes of season 1 of Rings of Power do a good job of establishing Galadriel’s isolation from her friend (Elrond), her people (Gilgalad and small army), and her family (Finrod- dead, Celeborn: not mentioned). Galadriel is as alone as an elf can be at this stage of the story. Enter “Halbrand”.

Halbrand (Sauron)

I am going to speak of Halbrand and Sauron interchangeably because I honestly don’t think there was ever a difference between the characters. The season 2 premiere established for me that Halbrand was only a human disguise for Sauron, who was regrouping alone after being “murdered” by Adar and the other orcs. Upon rewatch of Rings of Power season 1 after the Sauron reveal in Episode 8 “Alloyed”, “Halbrand” is not a separate entity from Sauron, “Halbrand” is Sauron period. The audience is simply not privy to this information until “Alloyed” but the crumbs are definitely dropped throughout the season so it was an underwhelming revelation. However, it was a heartbreaking betrayal for Galadriel who had never been so fooled before in her life. Why was Galadriel so hurt by Halbrand’s true identity?

Haladriel Shippers will convince you Galadriel fell in love with Halbrand in the span of 6 episodes and will spend the rest of the 2nd and 3rd ages fighting her “toxic ex-boyfriend” to the death. No, just no to this interpretation. 

There are a few reasons why Galadriel never “fell in love” with Halbrand (Sauron). 

The easiest and strongest argument is that as an elf, Galadriel is unlikely to fall in love again after the sudden disappearance of her soulmate and husband, Celeborn, especially because she has no closure about his fate. Tolkien described elven marriage as monogamous and eternal regardless of death. While falling in love after spousal loss is not unheard of, it is unlikely and never happens to Galadriel and Celeborn. 

Loving Sauron implies she forgives him for murdering her beloved brother, Finrod. This forgiveness has never happened in two seasons because her offering Halbrand forgiveness in episode 5 in Numenor does not count because she is unaware of Halbrand’s true identity as Sauron. The other possibility is Galadriel falls in love with her brother’s murderer and never forgives him, but how does that even work? Does Galadriel convince herself that her love for Halbrand balances out the fact that he took away a beloved sibling forever? (I don’t get it.).

The infamous log scene in “Undun”. Again, Haladriel shippers will twist this scene around and interpret this as a love confession, but in reality, Galadriel and Halbrand are talking about “light.” Throughout the season, up until this point in the story, Galadriel has been exploring and living in her darkness. Her connection to Halbrand gave her a companion in her darkness she never had before, and through this connection, she has achieved what she believes is a great success: the freedom of the Southlands from Uruk control and restoration of Halbrand, King of the Southlands. Galadriel feels the light again, but it is a lie because she soon learns the depth of her failure. The episode ends with her being consumed by a cloud of smoke, a physical manifestation of her all-consuming darkness. Galadriel then spends the entire next episode reflecting on how far she has fallen from who she was before. Sauron concludes that he needs Galadriel by his side to achieve his goal of “Healing Middle Earth,” hence the “proposal.” Ultimately, two rejections solidify for him that will never happen, and he must “heal” Middle Earth alone.

Galadriel and Halbrand reunion in Pelargir in “The Eye”. Haladriel shippers will once again take this scene and say Galadriel loves Halbrand and is relieved he is still alive. However, Halbrand is a very close human friend to her at this point. Her relief just means she is not a monster like Sauron and actually cares about other people outside herself. She has spent the episode reflecting on how her actions have led to all this destruction, and she mentioned her canonical husband, Celeborn, who is most likely not as dead as she believes. More on Celeborn later. Galadriel taking Halbrand to Eregion to be healed from his wounds is a nice gesture to restore the King of the Southlands to his throne in peak health. There are even moments before Galadriel realizes Halbrand is Sauron that his touch unsettles her. This is not the expected response to someone she loves.

Galadriel is hurt after the Sauron reveal because she formed a geniuene connection to Halbrand that she did not have with anyone else in her life at this point. This connection is not love because Galadriel already loved and that love is lost to her.

She rejects Sauron’s proposal to rule Middle Earth as “King” and “Queen” twice. This one shouldn’t require too much explanation, but for someone who “loves” Sauron, she certainly has no desire to help him fulfill his quest to “heal all Middle Earth.” 

Seriously does anyone really believe Galadriel could love Sauron after all of this?

Galadriel and Celeborn

Despite the many reasons the show has arguably never established a Halbrand/Galadriel romance, the most relevant reason a Sauron/Galadriel romance would never work out as established in the show is that the first thing the audience learns about Sauron as he pertains to Galadriel is that he murdered her BELOVED BROTHER, FINROD. The brother who explained darkness and light with a super weird ship and rock analogy. Even before establishing Galadriel as a married elf also mourning her MIA husband, she grieves her brother’s death. According to her, her brother was murdered by Sauron. Honestly, ask yourself if you genuinely think Galadriel could ever fall in love with her brother’s murderer. Then ask yourself, if Galadriel truly believes herself a war widow, would she ever love another man, elf, dwarf, or harfoot the way she loved (loves?) Celeborn? My answer is no, she can’t. Within the first season of Rings of Power, Galadriel mourns and grieves two losses very close to her heart, and at least one of them is blamed on Sauron. The other loss is still unknown. The show has not established any connection between Sauron and Celeborn, so I won’t speculate about his disappearance being connected to Sauron. 

Celeborn is easily ignored simply because he has not been introduced yet, and people ship Galadriel with her brother’s murderer. Galadriel has known real, true romantic “soulmate” level love. The number one reason she cannot and should not fall in love with anyone in the show up to this point is because Celeborn’s fate is still a mystery to her. Until she learns his fate and moves on from their relationship, if that is even possible for her, she cannot believably love another. It would be like an army wife being told her husband is dead by the Casualty Notification Officer who genuinely believes this, but the body is never covered, so the funeral is for the family to move on, but the husband reappears 8 years later, POW finally free only to learn his wife married someone else in his absence. AWKWARD.

As far as the show goes, I suspect Galadriel’s reunion with Celeborn will establish not just their relationship but also serve as the motivation Galadriel needs to fight Sauron for millennia to come. Celeborn and Celebrian will serve as the future Galadriel and will fight to the death (if necessary) to protect. Galadriel needs descendants so that she has real indelible stakes in her fight against Sauron.

P.S.: How does Half-Maia Celebrian even work? Is Galadriel raped? Tolkien wrote that elves don’t engage in sexual assault or would rather die than be assaulted. Also, Sauron would never share his power, so why would he willingly remain in one form without the option to change? Also, if Celebrian is Sauron’s daughter why do orcs attack her in the 3rd Age, and she has to go to Valinor to be healed, seriously? It makes no sense. If anyone has read a theory where she is not conceived via rape, I am genuinely curious. 

[thegreatmatpi]

I'll never forget how warm it sounds.

i finally watched season 3 of Hibike! Euphonium. for as big of a band nerd as i am and with how important this show has been for me over the years, i'm surprised it took me this long to get around to watching it. but i'm glad i watched it when i did.

i watched the first two seasons back early in 2018, at a time when i was starting to find who i was and where i fit in. it was one of those shows that finds you at just the right time to have the maximum impact on you. i think that's what happened here as well; i've been having a lot of similar struggles regarding identity recently, and i needed this show right now. the only better time for this season to come out would have been in 2021, when i was in my senior year thinking about college and what my future would hold. that aside, i'm in my 3rd year of college studying engineering, and i've realized that this is not the career path i want to go down. in realizing that, i've also lost some of the certainty i had in my sense of self.

that's what drew me into the show in the first place, although i don't think i realized it at the time. it wasn't until my third or fourth rewatch of the first two seasons that i started to see the similarities between myself and kumiko. we both joined band in school with experience on our instruments, but not any significant drive towards music; it was just something fun to try. had it not been for my friend asking me to join back in 6th grade, i likely would have ended up in theater.

for the first part of the journey it was fun, something i always looked forward to. definitely my favorite part of the day, but nothing more than that. eventually, i began to grow more and more in love with making music, and despite the early urges to try other instruments, i ended up sticking with percussion. my band director had a massive part to play in this. his focus on us understanding the importance of playing as a group, and later understanding the music as more than just the notes on the page helped me gain an appreciation for ensemble music.

8th grade was a very formative year for me. my school was a combined middle school and high school, and the 8th graders would have their elective classes with the high schoolers, so this was the first time i worked extensively with people who were significantly more mature than i was. at this point my technique was more than enough to hold my own among my upperclassmen, but i still didn't quite understand my place within the ensemble. i was still kind of passively reading what was on the page without much consideration as to the broader musical context. as much as my band director did to create that understanding, i was still in that mindset of "do you want me to play louder or softer?"

that all changed in the spring though. of all the things that would get through to me, of course an anime about band would do it. mind you i was still very new to anime, and the only reason i came across this show was because one of my upperclassmen recommended it to me. little did he know it would completely change my world.

at that time it was mainly in my playing. i hadn't realized how alike kumiko and i were, but i think i did feel it on some level. my biggest takeaway from that first watch was hashimoto-sensei's speech on how i should approach playing music with fun and enjoyment, because of course! that's the reason i'm still doing this: it's fun! that was when i started to really enjoy myself as a percussionist in that section, and because of that, i started to find myself more at home within the band, more free to be myself.

the next few years were more of me finding out how much i enjoyed being in band, and when we finally got a marimba during my freshman year in high school, i almost immediately felt connected to it. it was my favorite thing to play, and soon enough it was the one i'd be playing on the really significant pieces, because while we'd switch off on instruments a lot, we all had our choice instruments for the more impactful pieces. there probably still copies of marimba music stored with the scores that have "umaku naritai" written on them. that marimba was the first time i remember wanting to practice as much as i could to perfect my part.

beyond simply playing music there was another big part of my involvement in the band program, and that was leadership and mentorship. while i didn't have any significant moments with an upperclassman like kumiko had with asuka, there were a lot of people within the band that I looked up to, and i was always thinking to myself that i eventually want to be like them; i want to be someone who can be relied on and looked up to by their underclassmen. i wanted to leave a lasting impact on the band program. i wanted to leave a legacy.

legacy. the same year we got that marimba, my band director had put up a new banner in the band room. on it was "firebird band" after our school's mascot, the school logo, and the question, "what will your legacy be?". it had gotten me to start thinking more about the impact i would leave behind, especially on the band. i began to devote more and more of my time to the band program, and by my senior year, band was the only thing i really cared about. and hoo boy did i care a lot about band.

seniors at my school were allowed to become teaching assistants to teachers who needed them, and my senior year was the first year my band director wanted a TA. naturally i talked to him about being his TA, and he was mainly looking for help in organizing the score library and more logistical stuff, but when i brought up the idea of helping out the 6th and 7th grade bands, he was more than happy to make that happen.

aside from band itself, working with the younger musicians was my favorite part of the day. at the beginning it was a lot of sectional work with the percussionists, most of whom had no prior musical experience, so i got to help a lot in developing their technique, and it was really rewarding seeing them so excited to play and improve their skills. soon i began sitting in on their rehearsals quite often and i heard the sounds of a 6th grade band working through their beginner exercises.

there were two standout moments i had with this group of 6th graders. the first was when they first got the music for their first concert: a medley of holiday tunes they'd be playing onstage in december. i was standing at the front of the room next to my band director rather than in the back with the percussion like usual so i could hear the whole band a bit clearer. what i noticed in that early read-through of the piece was a group of young musicians finding the magic that music has to offer. i remember vividly how excited they all were after playing that piece together, finally hearing how their individual parts fit together to create music, the way hazuki felt after her first trio with kumiko and midori. it made me so happy that they had so much fun playing together, and i think that was when they first learned what band is all about.

the second standout moment was when my band director was running auditions in another room so i had to watch them to make sure they didn't cause any problems. during that time, i saw a group of them playing the arrangement of star wars they'd performed a month or so ago. i asked them if they'd like me to conduct them, and everyone who was in the room gathered around to play together with me leading them. it was another thing that showed me these kids truly felt the power of what they were doing, mixing all their unique sounds together to create a piece of music greater than the sum of its parts. that i was even able to be a small part of fostering that enjoyment of playing music is one of my greatest achievements.

even now, three years after graduating, i still drop by that school whenever i can to offer my experience to another generation of musicians in hope that they also discover the magic of band. i attend as many of their concerts as i can, and more than their technical skill, their cohesion as a group impresses me every time, and i'm filled with pride knowing i helped build that ensemble.

being as involved with the ensemble as i was, i learned that the wind band is a core part of who i am, and i'm still involved with my university's wind band, because i don't know who i'd be without it, especially now that i've made friends in that ensemble. when i'm able to play music with others, that's when i feel the most myself.

bringing it back to Hibike! Euphonium, season 3 found me when i most needed it. with kumiko's struggle between needing to keep the peace and be honest with herself, i found myself in a similar situation, feeling that i needed to appease the people around me before i could take my own feelings into account, and as a result i'd started to forget who i was and how to be honest with myself. it feels almost childishly simple that the answer to my problem was music, and playing music with others to create something magical.

and with the topic of career uncertainty, kumiko's decision to become the kitauji concert band director fills me with a sense of relief, because had the economic climate of the US allowed comfort and stability in either music or teaching, band director would have been my number one career choice without a shadow of a doubt. unfortunately reality isn't so simple, but it did bring me certainty in the fact that i will be keeping wind band as a part of my life for as long as i live, and this enjoyment of playing music that i've learned both from my experience and from Hibike! Euphonium will stay with me forever.

before i go i'd like to share some of the most important pieces to me throughout my years in band:

"Into the Clouds!" - Richard L. Saucedo — the snare drum part was the first time i'd ever felt the drive to really shoot for something; i wanted to get my single strokes fast enough to the point where i could play this properly.

"Looking at the Stars" - Travis J. Cross — this was the first piece i felt emotionally connected with; it's such a beautiful piece and i wish i was able to appreciate it more when we played it

"Lightning Field" - John Mackey — this was first piece i felt the spirit of wanting to improve; more than just wanting to be able to play the part, this was the first time i'd really studied my part to make the best music i could with the rest of the band. i played marimba on this, and it was a very fun part to play!

"Fiesta de los Toros" - Brian Balmages — my favorite piece from regional honor band; this was my first time having any significant timpani part because my school didn't have a timpani; there was a lot to learn here and it was so fun putting it together in the two days of rehearsal we had!

"Choreography" - Robert Sheldon — the band during my senior year of high school absolutely loved playing this piece, myself included of course. i played mallet percussion on this piece, and there were a few fun things that i got to work on here as well. this was just a piece for us to read after break at first, but we loved it so much my band director programmed it for my last concert, joking that we'd kill him if he didn't have us play it at the concert.

"Nostalgia" - Rossano Galante — a piece by one of my all-time favorite band composers, this is the only one on the list that we've played at more than one concert. the first time was when the first big group of band seniors graduated, and the second one was when my class graduated; we were the first group of 6th graders that my band director taught when he transferred to the school, so we were the first ones he'd seen grow from the very beginning to our final year. i played suspended cymbal both times, choosing to do so at my last concert because i'd played it back in eighth grade. speaking of which, that eighth grade concert was the first after i'd watched Hibike! Euphonium, so this piece holds an extra special place in my heart.

"Legacy" - Richard L. Saucedo — deliberately chosen as the final piece for this group of seniors that my band director had seen grow all the way from middle school through high school based on the band's motto "what will your legacy be?". obviously i played marimba on this piece, needing to play a combination of the two marimba parts due to a small section that year. i remember how much fun i had standing on that stage for the very last time, playing such a meaningful piece with the people i felt most at home with and a place i truly knew who i was. i can still feel the marimba's woody tones resonating from the bars and mixing with the winds and brass. there was truly magic created on that stage that night. "i'll never forget how warm it sounds."

[prpfz]

deep into these three fandoms and would love to do an oc x cc (happy to double as well!). rules before starting: please hit at least 4+ paragraphs, i love when roleplays have details. 3rd person only. 🥀 when we end up doubling give the same attention to both sides or i will just leave if i noticed you're only caring for your side. 🥀 i would also love an rp partner that enjoys ooc chatter because i'm always ready to send headcanons, edits, and just chat with one another! 🥀 i can play just about any character from these fandoms just let me know who you would like! one of the fandoms is One Piece; i'm currently on sabaody archipelago, while i do know a lot of what goes on through the show bc idk how to avoid spoilers, i would prefer if we start at the beginning of the sabaody arc or anytime before that. for love interests i'm mostly looking for: Sanji, Ace, Zoro, or Crocodile. the second fandom i'm looking for is Once Upon A Time! i'm rewatching it after years of seeing it. i just finished the Frozen/Snow Queen arc so i started the second half of season 4 with them trying to find the author and all that good stuff. for love interests i would love: Rumple/Mr. Gold, Emma, or Regina. third and final fandom i am looking for is My Hero Academia. on the first war arc, like i just got to Dabi's Dance i'm pretty sure. love interests i'm looking for are: Shota/Eraserhead, Toshinori/All Might, Enji/Endeavor, Tamaki, Shoto, Keigo/Hawks. discord or tumblr preferred, i may be cool with google docs but honestly i'm not entirely sure how to work it so either of the other two preferred! will message each like as soon as i can!

give a like and anon will get back to you

[sans-ified]

me when hyperfixate on lego ninjago to the point of rewatching it the third time. Anyways have possessed lloyd from season 5 possession.

(I am currently on my 3rd rewatch and on S7:HT E7 and finished skybound earlier this day.)

[hikikomoriaesthetic]

˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ (3rd repost) day two and third post of writing down these feelings. today was somewhat alright, turns out i have covid- i didn’t even notice lol. i thought my fever and fatigue was because of a mental breakdown i had. luckily since i don’t leave the house, so i can’t pass it on to anybody else.

i’m rewatching demon slayer, seeing Tanjiro suffer more than me and still being able to be so empathic, caring and kind makes me tear up. i feel so disgusted with myself that i can’t become like him. anyways, once again i am filled with anxiety and dread at the fact i keep aging, i wish i could turn back time and force myself to continue my education. but i am now forever doomed to be forced to live with my mother as my caregiver with the money i get for my mental health issues. at least i love my mother and she is the kindest person alive. i just hate myself and the mistakes i made.

i feel so utterly pathetic. i have no friends, no partner and i’m twenty-one. i have never done anything that others my age have done, i just waste away slowly in my room as i try to escape reality with fiction. being a hikikomori is like walking into a bridcage, locking it and swallowing the key and then when you try you leave, you just can’t.

thank you for reading, if anybody sees these, so once again, i hope you have a good day or night. ♡

[othergaywarbler]

Sooooo close to the 3rd anniversary of “glee moments i will still be thinking about at 60” I’m so sad it won’t hit 5M before then but also cannot comprehend that it’s at 4.2M?????????? Like huh???? The way gleeks have claimed a compilation I made to kill an evening of lockdown while I was rewatching the show for the third time EVER is insane to me considering where I am now in gleekdom

[findroleplay]

💚 Things have really slowed down with my roleplays (not replacing anyone, though!!!), so trying something totally different this time – I offer up the grungy, kind-hearted and sensitive musician Trent Lane from the 90s MTV cartoon series ’’Daria’’ for muses from any of the following:

- any and all ‘Daria’ characters, including well-written OCs

- Beavis, Butt-head and Mr. Van Driessen

- Rick & Morty and any of the rest of the Sanchez family

- the main cast of Gravity Falls

- men and minors please don’t interact!

-Please be at least 21.

-only third person, detailed long- form and long term, enthusiastic female writers, please!

-knowledge of ‘Daria’ would be appreciated but not required (I have the fandom wiki, an extensive gif blog and three hour video essay link to give a deep dive summary if you need it)

I have no plot in mind, this would be more character and introspection driven, as Trent has left Lawndale without saying a word, heavily down in the dumps and depressed over his secret, not-to-be-realized feelings for Daria Morgendorffer; feel free to get him involved in whatever is going on with your muse, though! A small heads up: Trent is in love with Daria and therefore very unlikely to have romantic or sexy time interest in anyone else.

I wrote a 500+ word character introduction / plot setup, so if you don’t know Trent, please read more about him here.

Dark mental health topics would be included! 🕊 No doubling!

Disclaimer: I have never really watched Beavis and Butt-head due to the gross factor, BUT I have watched clips, read the wiki, several fanfics and checked out video essays due to their connection to Daria, so I think I have a pretty good idea of things. It would be great if someone could flesh out those two blockheads (and the lovely Mr. Van Driessen!)

It’s also been ages since I watched Gravity Falls and Rick & Morty, but I’m willing to do a rewatch if you want me to! Please someone just let me write Trent! 😭

This is a long-term request, please don’t drop me in a few months, and please be actually ready to write. Hiatuses are fine, but ooc chatter is definitely nice even then! My pacing is anywhere from leisurely to once or twice a day; if we mesh together well, I’ll let you know of any frequency changes if they happen on my end. Replies often exceed discord character limit, 3rd person POV, all from a very wordy chick in her 30s. Since my other partners are on hiatus, I am looking for someone who’d be able to start writing in the next few days, after we’ve laid out our initial thoughts and ideas. Only contact me if this is the case!

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[herefortarlos]

Hello! Nice ask week asks for you! 1) What are your top three Tarlos moments? 2) Have you ever been the same again since discovering Tarlos? 3) If you could hang out with TK and Carlos for a day and you chose the activities, what would you get up to?

Awww, thank you for the ask, Cig 🥰 I can answer question 2 real quick; no I have not been the same since discovering Tarlos 😆! Tarlos is my 3rd extreme hyper fixation I've had over a fictional couple, but it is the first time that I've not only found 2 characters I absolutely love but they are also canonically a couple! It is becoming more common thankfully, but it is still so hard to find a well written AND canon gay couple in media! Tarlos has been such a nice change where I don't have to imagine these two wonderful characters being together and only having fanfic and some scenes to base that on, they are officially together, they have many on screen kisses and they're married!! And I've made so many wonderful friends and have also been more open about my sexuality and who I share that with because of Tarlos! 🥹 So I hope my obsession is here to stay for a long time!

Oh jeez, my top 3 Tarlos moments?!? But there are so many to choose from and it's always changing 😆 Get ready for my long winded thoughts! I do think my #1 has to be the wedding! I still can't watch the vows scene and listen to them without crying, I just loved their vows to each other sooo much, they were perfect to me and who TK and Carlos are as people and how they have grown since season 1 to now! And I loved TK asking Tommy to sing Being Alive for him as a gift to Carlos and to me that's not a spur of the moment thing, that is a, TK asked Tommy weeks ago if she would do this and why this specific song was so meaningful and I cry just thinking about that conversation and how honored Tommy felt that TK went to her 🥹. And the way TK and Carlos cry and hold each other during her singing is just too much and I love it! I'm so happy they're married!

For my second top moment I am including the entirety of s3e13 Riddle of the Sphynx! I rewatched that episode and skipped to all the Tarlos scenes the other night and I was a wreck! I loved all the domesticity and flirty Tarlos we got, I loved jealous Carlos and that dinner table conversation is still one of the absolute best scenes that Rafa and Ronen have acted together. TK trying to explain to Carlos why he can't help with this and Carlos begrudgingly accepting it and then fully realizing, when TK is looking through photos of his mom, that he is out of his depth and if he wants to help TK then he needs to get in contact with the person that can truly empathize and help him, and that is nothing against Carlos! Him realizing that this isn't about him, it's about the man he loves, and that little "I love you. I know" moment, TK knowing then for sure that he is going to marry Carlos, and then Carlos' little happy, satisfied smile as he leaves the loft, all of it made me a mushy, blubbering mess and absolutely blew me away again, after seeing that episode like 10 times now! Oh and the use of Transatlanticism was amazing as well!

Phew, and finally for my third moment, I am going to cheat and say TK's and Carlos' proposals!! TK's proposal being at 3 in the morning in their bed, where it's soft and quiet and just meant for TK and Carlos 😭 absolutely perfect! I loved that TK was no longer afraid of love or losing it and it was such a pinnacle moment to show that TK is done running from Carlos and then he proved that time and again in season 4! I also loved him petting Carlos' hair and rubbing his ear!

Then at the end of season 4 we get the gift we didn't know we needed in Carlos proposing to TK! Them saying that they have saved each other, Carlos realizing that TK and wanting to be married to him are the only things in his life he is 100% certain of! TK getting the joy of being proposed to and Carlos smiling for the first time in days when he sees that he made TK smile 🥹 My favorites may change again but these are the moments that first came to mind and I love them all so much!

Okay and finally, if I could hang out with TK and Carlos for one day and do anything, I would honestly want them to show me around Austin! We would need to go to a cat cafe, I looked it up and Austin has a couple! (I am currently watching a stream of a cat cafe and that is influencing my choice 🤣) because Carlos could finally pet an animal and TK and animals are a match made in heaven, and can you imagine how cute they would be surrounded by cats 🥹 I would also want to go clothes shopping with them because Carlos needs some more variety aside from all the plaid dad shirts, just a little bit of style and color! And seeing some of the research that people have put into looking up TK's clothes, that man has expensive tastes and I want to know if he actually looks at price tags or just grabs all the things he likes without looking 😆 And I would want to go back to the loft and eat some of Carlos' cooking! Give me some ropa vieja and tamales, please 🤤. And then I would want to go out to a queer club where this supposed night life is that we haven't gotten to see 🤣 Ohh, what a dream that would be!!

[canonrpfinder]

💚 Things have really slowed down with my roleplays (not replacing anyone, though!!!), so trying something totally different this time – I offer up the grungy, kind-hearted and sensitive musician Trent Lane from the 90s MTV cartoon series ’’Daria’’ for muses from any of the following:

- any and all ‘Daria’ characters

- Beavis, Butt-head and Mr. Van Driessen

- Rick & Morty and any of the rest of the Sanchez family

- the main cast of Gravity Falls

- men and minors please don’t interact!

-Please be at least 21.

-only third person, detailed long- form and long term, enthusiastic female writers, please!

-knowledge of ‘Daria’ would be appreciated but not required (I have the fandom wiki, an extensive gif blog and three hour video essay link to give a deep dive summary if you need it)

I have no plot in mind, this would be more character and introspection driven, as Trent has left Lawndale without saying a word, heavily down in the dumps and depressed over his secret, not-to-be-realized feelings for Daria Morgendorffer; feel free to get him involved in whatever is going on with your muse, though! A small heads up: Trent is in love with Daria and therefore very unlikely to have romantic or sexy time interest in anyone else.

I wrote a 500+ word character introduction / plot setup, so if you don’t know Trent, please read more about him here.

Dark mental health topics would be included! No doubling!

Disclaimer: I have never really watched Beavis and Butt-head due to the gross factor, BUT I have watched clips, read the wiki, several fanfics and checked out video essays due to their connection to Daria, so I think I have a pretty good idea of things. It would be great if someone could flesh out those two blockheads (and the lovely Mr. Van Driessen!)

It’s also been ages since I watched Gravity Falls and Rick & Morty, but I’m willing to do a rewatch if you want me to! Please someone just let me write Trent! 😭

This is a long-term request, please don’t drop me in a few months, and please be actually ready to write. Hiatuses are fine, but ooc chatter is definitely nice even then! My pacing is anywhere from leisurely to once or twice a day; if we mesh together well, I’ll let you know of any frequency changes if they happen on my end. Replies often exceed discord character limit, 3rd person POV, all from a very wordy chick in her 30s. Since my other partners are on hiatus, I am looking for someone who’d be able to start writing in the next few days, after we’ve laid out our initial thoughts and ideas. Only contact me if this is the case!

[mcrmadness]

So I saw the Deadpool & Wolverine film a couple of days ago. I haven't been able to stop thinking about it, and I might go to see it in the theaters for a second time eventually. There was so much to see that with my ADHD and memory issues, I keep getting new flashbacks about scenes in the film all day long, and there are several conversations I wish I could rewatch because they spoke to me but I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT THEY SAID :DDDDDDDD

So I either go see the film again (let's see what my executive dysfunctions says to that), or wait until it's released on bluray which is probably gonna take a couple of months still.

Anyway, since this is an MCU film now, I started thinking about, well, MCU. I wanna say "a few years back" but it was probably more like, almost 10 years ago cos wtf is time; anyway, back then I at some point had a flu and when I'm sick, I usually spend my time sitting on a sofa wrapped in blankets and watch movies. That winter I was bored and decided to give a try to some earlier MCU films that were on Netflix back then (I had already seen Iron Man, which I liked; and The Avengers, which I hated, and only liked Loki because I just like antihero-type characters and I related to him a bit too much as I was a bitter 21-year-old who was so bored of living in everyone's shadow lol), and I kinda hyperfixated on those. So much so I grew so desperate that I bought the missing movies on DVD only because I NEEDED to see more in order to see the rest on Netflix, and a few from the middle was missing, and I in no way could watch them cos I needed everything to be in the chronological order.

Later I ended up buying every single MCU film on bluray despite hating the Phase One apart from the Iron Man films. Also my sister kept buying me them for Christmas etc.

This ended somewhere in 2019 or 2020, because the last MCU bluray on my shelf is that second Spider-Man film that I don't remember the name of because they all are named so similarly it took me ages to realize there even was a third film out there. And I still don't like majority of the films until Phase Three, where I thought the films started to finally get some character. But there are still some films that just... are not that good. Some of them I have watched multiple times, but with some it makes my ADHD kick in and I just want to roll on the floor in agony when I just think about watching them for the second time cos they are so uninteresting or boring.

So looks like I have not seen a single film from the Phase Four on. The first film was released in 2021 (according to Wikipedia), and honestly, looking at that list of films makes me go both "WTF??????? WHO TF IS THAT???" and "oh whyyyyyyyy D:" and I am torn between my obsession with chronological order - in order to watch something, I HAVE TO watch anything that got released before it. Except that I don't want to. I don't give a fuck about most of those characters and their own movies. Also I have heard so much shit about many of these later films that I feel like they would not even be worth my time.

So might actually change this and maybe one day I will watch the ones that truly interest me. Especially the 4th Thor film. I hated the first two so much (they are not very romance-repulsed-friendly as they literally focus on nothing but Thor and his girlfriend), but the third film was really good because they left out all the useless romance nonsense and made an actually funny and interesting movie. And since the 4th is from the same director, I feel like it could be an okay film too.

I also like Antman's character in MCU and the first film, but I don't remember shit from the second one and I don't know if the third one is any good. But might check that out eventually. Oh and Guardians of the Galaxy films I have always liked, so the 3rd one sounds interesting as well.

Anyhow, Deadpool & Wolverine literally was the first MCU film I have seen since that second Spider-Man (oh and would like to see the third one too!), and then I did watch both seasons of Loki, which I did like actually. So apart from those, I know absolutely nothing about the current state of MCU. I'm sometimes a bit annoyed that DP got added to MCU, but at the same time it gives him so much more freedom to refer to different characters or even meet then in possible future films, just like what happens in the comics all the time. Tho, even with comics I'm often getting annoyed when they put Avengers in the stories cos I'm not here for Avengers, I'm here for Deadpool, so fuck off from my phone screen. Honestly would like to see DP interact move with the X-Men, or even Spider-Man, cos these were THE older Marvel films I grew up with and which I'm way more attached to than the dumbster fire called MCU.

[trash-bats]

Trash Bat Char's 2023 Spooky Season Movie Marathon

As is tradition for many around this time of year, I try to cram in as many seasonally-appropriate movies as I can starting around September and going til Thanksgiving (Halloween is a 3 month holiday in my mind, leave me alone). I try to mostly watch new-to-me films, with the occasional beloved rewatch thrown in. Movies will be a mix of classic horror, anything involving monsters & creatures of the night (especially vampires because I am nothing if not predictable), and some family-friendly Halloween & autumn romps.

I'll include my personal rating & some brief thoughts, but I'm so bad at rating things so please don't come at me if I give something a whack score, lol. I also track everything on my Letterboxd. I'm always open to suggestions to throw on my future lists!

(updated: 10/12/23)

1. Crimson Peak (2015)

-first-time watch, viewed on Sept. 6th

-70/100; this film was a visual treat, from the set design to the costumes. I craved a little bit more out of the ghosts of the house, but I also get what they were going for.

2. The Vampire Lovers (1970)

-first-time watch, viewed on Sept. 18th

-60/100; this is the third Hammer vampire film I've seen, with Dracula & Dracula A.D. 1972 being a part of last year's marathon. I was definitely invested in getting to see a classic piece of lesbian vampire media, but the plot pacing & the ending left me a bit disappointed. However, Ingrid Pitt was absolutely captivating.

2. Wallace & Gromit: The Curse of the Were-Rabbit (2005)

-first-time watch, viewed on Sept. 21st

-60/100; first off, loved the claymation. I've been aware of Wallace & Gromit's existence for a long while, but this was my first time actually watching them. There uh, sure were a lot of jokes about """melons"""! It was a pretty ok watch though, got a few chuckles out of me.

4. Blood & Donuts (1995)

-first-time watch, viewed on Sept. 24th

-60/100; the title and premise of this little vampire film intrigued me, but I'm not sure I would call it...good? I was entertained in some capacity. Maybe baffled by the acting & character choices of the cab driver, he was like a mix of Christopher Walken & Tommy Wiseau. A unique little vamp film though. Gains bonus points for usage of Concrete Blonde's "Bloodletting" in a graveyard scene.

5. The Thing (1982)

-first-time watch, viewed on Sept. 30th

-70/100; I know, I know, giving this acclaimed & beloved film only 3 1/2 stars is a crime. I certainly recognize why it's held in such high regard, but I also gotta rate things based on my own personal enjoyment, and I just wasn't super gripped or blown away. And maybe that's a me problem or can change in the future, but I did still like the film! The scene with the guy whose head disconnects from the body & becomes a spider and crawls away genuinely shocked me.

6. Scream (1996)

-first-time watch, viewed on Oct. 3rd

-90/100; This was a very fun watch, and I'm glad I waited until I've seen a lot more horror movies before watching it - a lot of it would have gone totally over my head if I had watched as a teen. I've gotten two Ghostface-related art commissions this month, so it felt only appropriate to watch it myself to "catch the vibe". I might try and watch the first sequel soon.

7. Monster High 2 (2023)

-first-time watch, viewed on Oct. 6th

-50/100; the first musical movie was a mix of being a mess & having fun, and this one was pretty similar. I still don't like the majority of the musical numbers, and I'm still not a fan of how generic the background students are. Live-action non-binary Frankie Stein is still an absolute delight though, and as "mid" as I've found these movies, I REALLY need them to make the third since the plot hook they left at the end of this one implies a Frankie-centric story next time.

8. Coraline (2009)

-re-watch, viewed on Oct. 9th

-90/100; damn it's been over a decade since I last watched this, but I was in love with it when it first came out. Laika stop-motion films are just so, so visually stunning to look at. The way they tackled the topic of emotional neglect & the escapism of wanting a different life than the one you have is just...oof!

9. It Follows (2014)

-re-watch, viewed on Oct. 10th

-80/100; I saw this one in the theaters when it came out, and I remember feeling so unsettled upon leaving the theater and riding with my friends down the dark, empty roads home. Watched it this time with a group of pals on Discord this time around, and I mostly knew what to expect, but the concept & execution still just leaves you feeling uneasy after!

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Other films I hope to get to this season:

The Ring

The Exorcist

Ginger Snaps

An American Werewolf in London

We Are the Night

Happy Death Day 2 U

The Lost Boys (rewatch)

[leondanteart]

Gods I love Twin Peaks. I rewatched season 1 for a third time, then I finally watched Fire Walk With Me, for the first time. And man, did I love that movie. It truely makes you uncomfortable and shows the abuse/turmoil Laura had to live with. And the supernatural aspect of it is well done, without feeling like a cop out for abuse. I am now reatching season 1 for a 4th time 🫣 cause now I can look at it differently. Then after im done with season 2, I can finally start the 3rd season. It was hard to find for free 🤧 but now I can stream it.

[mudblockz]

Martyn mentioning a group recording on stream..... Cleo having to cancel her stream due to a mysterious group recording...... 

dear lord it’s happening