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jalen brunson is a single mom who works two jobs who loves her kids and never stops
#nova knicks#HE ACTD LIKE JOSH IS SOOOO EMBARRASSING ….#like Ew get this Weird o away from me… 😕😕#and then looks at him with love#guys i’m so sick about them#like actually it’s a disease#novaknicksitis#i am patient 0#🩷
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#so i have an appt. to the psychiatric department for personality disorders tmrw...#and like i tried sending a self referral to them last year lmao#and they only said that heyyy you're doing amazing sweetie you are high functioning 🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻#then i've ben to the health care center and since they think they cant treat me bc it's too severe they've sent referrals to other places#which have all declined me... so they also sent one to the psychiatric who sent a referral to this pd department#who that time also said that they can't accept me#so the therapist at the health care center like idk exactly but she sent a report on how they didnt handl my case properly#which made them call on me for an evalutation appt.#but i have 0 hopes. i honestly think the entire psych care is fucking lame and bullshit#i highly doubt they're even equipped to treat personality disorders#& even if they are theire budgetis getting cut bc ppl love having rightists ruling the government .... which means no funds for healthcare#anyway. PLUS it's a man.... -_- which reducuses my chances of being taken seriously even more...#i also hate talking to male therapists/psychiatrists... no fucking thanks. but i have to </3#i just really dont wanna go. like im gonna have to put energy into trying to argue for my right for treatment. w ppl who should inferstand#UNDERSTAND* i hate typing on my ipad ffs. they should understand my personality disorders..#bit health care proffessionals are horrible ppl and dont give a fuck abt their patients lol. so they're only condescending and rude 🤢🤮#i hate being in these environments bc everyone treats u like shit. the receptionists are so fkn rude and almost outright mean and insulting#the doctors and therapists and psychiatrists are all bullies who look down on u and make u feel small and worthless#so im really dreading it... but im also at my wit's end. i am missing out on my entire life. im desperate for help#even if i wholeheartedly believe that these worthless wastes of space wont give me any treatment i'll still need to go and try#then ig i'll just have to keep pestering the healthcare system. i might wventually even have to start going to the psych. ER so they put#that on my records and like idk. that costs money tho. plus from everyone i've heard from...#being at a psych ER esp when your situation isnt dire is awful and hell#my cousin who had been ther after a sui attempt had said that it 'scared him straight'#and that it was so terrible that he did everything to get back home as soon as possible and do whatever to never end up there again#so yuh... i'd rather not!#i was supposed to (my own decision) to write a list with ALL my symptoms and bring and be like LOOK MONGREL!!!#but since i suffer from avpd...... i havent. i procrastinated and now it's too late whoopsie. i'll just have to wing it fuckkkk 🥴#ofc it also has to be 8.45 .. so early in the morning for me im so mad ahhhhh i dont wanna go i am throwing up and screaming#but atp i'd have to pay $35 myself for not going so that will motivate me enough to force myself to go
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I wanna ask about your favorite OC You know Chan Kimili I am now interested, though only when you have time to ramble about it. I shall sit in this ask for as long as i can
I WILL MAKE TIME FOR IT!!! Super long post with images.
Okay! So this is Chan Kiimili' a Geoffroy’s Spider Monkey-based 'celestial' monkey.
I use the term 'celestial' very loosely because, while they are not a regular monkey demon, they are based on ancient Mayan culture. As a result, I wouldn't really say that they are a lmk oc, but since I ended up tying their storyline with Bo Fu's they kinda got roped into the mess.
Powers: They have illusion and light magic where they can summon small rays of light that appear as the person's worst fears. They initially used this power to create an almost barrier around their area, but in more modern times, they use it to help people get over their pasts.
Origins: Their abnormal nature comes from them being originally a warrior spirit who was chosen by Ah Puch, the Mayan god of death and beginnings, to kill a chosen priest of Quetzalcoatl to ensure that their tribe would be safe. A rough sketch of Ah Puch has been drawn out and placed under where it's a bloated owl-like figure with a human skull as an almost maskish face.
However, the tribe didn't take to Chan very well. Imagine you are just trying to survive the night and this ghost-like figure with the stench of death walks to your family. (I have the comic linked here!) This led to Chan 'dehumanizing' themselves and only seeing themselves as an object to protect the tribe.
Then they met the priestess. The only other demon that ever treated Chan like another person, because she knew what it was like to be an object of fate. They end up playing games where they try and 'kill' each other, but the other person always seems to find a way to escape.
However, when the gods choose something, you have to obey.
I love them so much and I am constantly working on them in my head.
#I love them so much and I am constantly working on them in my head#its so funny because all the other ocs are from asia but not them.#Bo Fu was patient 0 for the illusion therapy treatment too. They used to just trade peaches for limes and citrus#speck rambles#oc lore#🐊?#oc: chan kiimili'#my art
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With Sanuso week coming up I might reply to your asks a bit late :(( You all know I absolutely adore seeing you in my inbox but it takes a lot of time to write the proper replies you deserve and between irl work and my own writing it's a bit too much... So please be patient, sweeties <3
#i get so so happy when i see an inbox notification#but also-- i am awful with deadlines and i have 0 sense of time and writing for sanuso week might take time for me wefjkbwekfjb#seriously sorry because i know a lot of you sent asks a long time ago and i want you all to know that i LOVE all of them#but yeah please just be patient never think i'm ignoring you <33 love you all mwah mwah
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for drabble ask: shelly de killer putting on lingerie
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manfred von karma taking a bubble bath 😇
Every layer is armor, and immaculate dressing ensures security. Especially these garments, unseen as they are. A strong foundation, an immaculate foundation, lends itself to the effortless execution of a contract. Shelly requires of himself finesse in all things.
So his lingerie collection is extensive, to say the least. Every stitch in his closet is crucial, though, to continued excellence in his chosen field. Corsets, bralettes, stockings, stays, garters—all tools of the trade.
It’s five past six on a Thursday, and it is time to dress for the field. Shelly stands in front of the tall mirror in his walk-in closet as a blank canvas. A vulnerable thing in need of protection. The walls are lined in armor.
He starts with a thong, refined and reliable black lace that he knows hugs his hips without digging in. He runs his thumb across the fabric as he holds it in his hand, inspecting it briefly for tears or pulls. Once cleared, he steps into the garment and smooths it over his hips. It’s not one of his custom pieces, so there’s just barely enough room for his cock, but it fits perfectly well enough for the job. In the mirror, a delicate thing stares back at him.
Next is a bralette, simple and sheer. The black mesh dips low on his chest, and the silk band clasps in the front—a preference learned after years of inelegant attempts to maneuver hooks in their traditional place on the back. He slips it on, and once clasped, smooths a hand down his chest and the raised stitches that run down his front. A single pink scar slashed across his left pec peeks out from beneath the soft material. In the mirror like this, he could almost mistake himself for flesh and blood.
Send me prompts for ~300 word drabbles
#shelly de killer#YOU'VE GIVEN ME THE OPPORTUNITY OF A LIFETIME THANK YOU#I AM SHELLY FUCKER PATIENT 0#drabble requests
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love talking to you guys thanks
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If I am in a hole that means that I am literally having brain rot that won’t stop for months
Sure it’s a good thing also can I have a
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I see😅 - sorry for the brain rot lol
And why yes, yes you can
[share an LC spoiler out of context]
#if it helps i am the patient 0 of LC brainrot#and dare I say: I have the worst case#eventually I’ll finish it and hand that over to all you wonderful people#so i dont have to carry this giant bag of lore bh myself anymore#asks and answers#ask game🫒#pjo little camper#little camper lore#🫒
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the one time i fully open up i get hit w the "ur speech is so complicated" + "idk how this is a compliment" hjfjssfdksjjhs
#i'm not saying that “omg how dare they not get my shit >:0”#i'm js mildly disappointed in me bc i detailed my shit like i was a mental asylum patient reasoning w the nurse on how i should be let out#jkhsfjsdjskfdfs this is so awkward how am i gonna face them tomorrow now
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first draft of my next P x reader fic is done!! Final draft should be finished and ready to post sometime tomorrow :D
#I took a really fun request so be ready for some combat heavy puppet-lusting#yes its almost midnight#yes I had so much homework I should've been doing instead#p brainrot is a real disease and i am patient 0#lies of p#p x reader#lies of p fanfic#lop#pinoccio#lies of p pinoccio
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Collective and final post should've just been an apology and a promise to do better. But I guess that's just too much to hope for.
#ceci speaks#nonsims#text#delete later#definitely shouldnt have had more lies and easily disproven claims in it tsk tsk#and continuing to insult the people triggered#shows absolutely 0 remorse not that i expected any better#you didnt say one damn thing you did wrong not one#you couldnt even admit or say sorry for ONE thing#i said sorry for my stupid ass meme reference joke which was dumb of me and was the only leg u had to stand on#which ur tryin to spin as me being anti asian with covid which is fucking stupid considering#i am asian too u stupid fuck and i had patients calling me corona and ch**nk and not wanting me to tend to them before they fucking died#i know about covid racism against us very fucking well#i dont need a statistic to tell me about it bc i was knee deep in ppe trying to get blood from ppl that blamed me for it existing#i watched people die from covid for three years straight i know it all fucking well#and yet i still apologized bc the joke was in poor taste and i feel bad it was misconstrued and hurt others#you cant even apologize to the people you hurt bc youre too focused on not being wrong about anything#you can delete the posts if u wanna theyre already there#in screenshots#i tried to get you to stop for over a week and you wouldnt leave me alone#i refused to mention your name for days and you kept insulting me and mentioning me over and over again#and you had the nerve to call other ppl stalkers just because they shared ur cc in a cc finds channel#now you're trying to talk nice#or nice enough that someone might feel sorry for you after you showed your entire ass for a week#i dont feel sorry for you one bit#not after all the bullshit you said that youre trying to delete now that ppl found it#too late#eat shit#negative#im done for the night goodnight and sorry everyone
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i was just a major asshole to my mom but to be fair to me i think anyone would be
#i have been sooo patient with her but i am at the end of my fucking rope#she was begging begging begging me for $13 to go buy beer#and i was like i literally have $0 in my bank account that aren't for the rent i have no mmoney to give you#and she was like but you get paid tomorrow :(#like ok do you think that is the point? do you think that is the Point?#we have no money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i should probably be trying to identify which foods make my intestines unhappy but i’m gonna be honest i don’t think cutting out dairy and bread and added sugar will help with the anhedonia like am i happy when i’m bloated and my ass hurts? no! but i’m also not happy when my brain refuses to produce dopamine and i’m working with no “official” ADHD diagnosis and therefore no treatment so i’m stuck with an extremely dulled dopamine response and am therefore drawn to foods like cheese and bread and sweets because food and music are the only legal options for dopamine acquistion… well and weed but the weed is mostly to help me cope with the chronic digestive discomfort, joint pain, myalgia, TMJ tension headaches, and anxiety >.> and even IF i did get an “official” ADHD diagnosis (why is it even listed in my MEDICAL RECORDS if it doesn’t COUNT?) there is exactly 1 drug used (in the US, maybe somewhere else has other drugs similar to modafinil idk) to treat ADHD that doesn’t significantly increase serotonin or norepinephrine levels but it actually isn’t an ADHD drug it’s a narcolepsy drug and due to medical misogyny it likely isn’t an option for me because despite being CELIBATE i have female reproductive issues and the only treatment for THOSE is fucking oral contraceptives which modafinil conveniently counteracts and the norepinephrine from other stimulants wouldn’t matter that much even with the excess norepinephrine i was producing on account of having POTS… IF SOME DUMBASS DOCTOR DIDN’T TELL ME SNRIS WERE PERFECTLY SAFE FOR PEOPLE WITH POTS AND LESS LIKELY TO CAUSE ANXIETY AND OTHER NEGATIVE SIDE EFFECTS THAN ADHD MEDICATION… DESPITE SNRIS NOT BEING RECOMMENDED FOR POTS PATIENTS IN ANY CIRCUMSTANCE BECAUSE SHOCKINGLY, THEY INCREASE NOREPINEPHRINE LEVELS MORE THAN ADHD MEDS DO! BECAUSE ADHD MEDS DO NOT INHIBIT NOREPINEPHRINE REUPTAKE!NOR DO THEY INHIBIT SEROTONIN REUPTAKE, WHICH INCREASES SEROTONIN LEVELS! WHICH IN TURN INCREASES NOREPINEPHRINE LEVELS EVEN MORE!!!
#that man is on my kill list i literally do not care that it was a mistake. because he doesn’t care that it was a mistake.#he poisoned me because he didn’t do his research and when it disabled me further he was like not my fault you must be on meth or something#i wonder if the psych reviews i left on a couple different websites are still up i was not providing proof of my identity as a patient#so he could’ve had them removed but considering he didn’t even bother to google ‘POTS SNRI’ before committing negligent medical malpractice#i’m guessing he is completely unaware of the 0/1 star reviews where i was like ‘dont go to this guy he almost killed me’#incoherent rambling#i am so frustrated the amount of recreational drug abuse i partook in and antidepressants are what permanently fucked me up lol#i didn’t think i had to be as careful when a medical professional was advising the drug use i guess
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Who can watch this and not go. Oh my god I want to do this
#Btw I have 0 expectations for myself#Lol I've practiced archery for nearly 3 years now I know things take time to learn#And HEMA will absolutely take more time to get half decent at than archery lol#But it seems like such a great way to exercise imo#I dislike teamsports i think because im generally bad at sports#But something like archery is very focused on your own learning and progress#And in HEMA you'll generally be paired with people of similar skill like in all martial art#The learning + mentoring + physically getting stronger/fitter is SUCH a banger combination#Youtube#The first like year of HEMA will probably involve very little sparring but I am Patient :) and practicing technique is important
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Had zombie dream where I was telling a group of survivors to run and these motherfuckers were taking a nice little stroll, woke up before anything happened and now I'm twice as angry
#first you don't listen to me and then you don't let me see how the dream ends!?!?#a bitch is vexed#i offer to share my food with you and help you get more food and y'all just waddle towards the car like a horde isn't behind you#bruh I got shot for these people and the fucking nerve#first off why am I even alive? if I'm not patient 0 I'm gone!#I've made this clear surviving is ghetto#oh I'm so mad#nikki rants#nikki rambles
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Hey everyone!
Mohammed and Enas family has been surviving under brutal war.
We would like to help out a family that wants to escape Gaza warzone.
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We have heard nightmare situations of Gofundme campaigns being refunded/deleted because of the site refusing to pay out the families. So we would like to see if this is feasable and that they can hit their goal and escape.
Please be patient with us, if there are any mess ups, or if GoFundMe decided to delete the campaign. We really hope that does not happen, and that all of us can help the family!
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𝐉𝐞 𝐓’𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞
𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐜 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐥𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫
𝐬𝐲𝐧𝐨𝐩𝐬𝐢𝐬: girls night is always fun for you, and now charles knows you only ever have and will have eyes for him
𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: slight swearing, very fluffy
𝐚/𝐧: this was a request from a while ago so I just decided to write it now, this fic has no french i have 0 brain power for it, and im so so sorry for takin such a long time to update, things have just been so busy and not amazing lately. anyway, enjoy 🫶🏻
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Charles couldn’t hold back the smile on his face as he held your hip gently, your eyes narrowed at him in suspicion, clearly too many strawberry cocktails had been consumed tonight.
“Oh what’s that look for baby?”
“Don’t call me that. I have a boyfriend” you retaliated, words slurring as he nodded
“Baby, I am your boyfriend cmon, I have to get you home”
Shaking your head you reared back from him, your brain in its drunken state clearly not happy hearing that
“Absolutely not, I’m not going home with anyone, I’m going home with Charles”
Your friends were laughing at this point too, teasing you and poking fun at you, which you didn’t fully understand but Charles was ever the patient boyfriend, part of him slightly proud with your denial to leave the bar with anyone but him.
He had no insecurities in your relationship and he had the utmost trust in you, he just was happy to see you could handle yourself if you needed.
“How about I take you to find Charles then hmm?”
“Find Charles?”
He nodded, taking your hand in his as you reluctantly began to follow him, his arm moving to wrap around your waist as he directed the two of you out of the busy club, and over to his ferrari which was parked across the street.
“I know this car…” you said, letting out a yawn
“You do baby, come on…let’s go”
His voice was soft as he helped you into the car, doing up your seatbelt, holding back yet another laugh at the slight skeptical look in your eyes.
“Ready amour?”
At the sound of this a lazy smile pulls at your lips, thinking of Charles and the special little pet name he calls you
“Hmm Charlie calls me that…”
“He does, he knows it’s your favourite”
“How do you know?”
Smiling he leans down to kiss your forehead, happy to see your eyes slowly starting to close, hoping you’ll get some sleep on the way home.
“I just know amour…”
Just like he had suspected, you’d fallen asleep on the way home, your head resting against the window as he checked on you from time to time. Charles knew you’d either be a little more sober when you got home and recognized him, or he’d sleep in the guest room as he had before, he never wanted to make you uncomfortable if your brain wasn’t sober and you didn’t recognize him, which for the record rarely happened.
When he pulled up the driveway he opted to carry you upstairs, holding you to his chest as you slept soundly, only stirring when your back hit the mattress. Charles watching as your eyes opened and you blinked sleepily.
“Hi…”
“Hi baby…how are you feeling?”
Nodding you rubbed your eyes
“Hmm sleepy…thank you for picking me up”
“You’re welcome, you gave me quite the hard time…”
Groaning you looped your hands around his neck as he leaned over you, a teasing smile on his face
“I’m sorry baby…I swear I don’t mean it..”
“I know amour, if it makes you feel better I find it quite cute when it happens”
You rolled your eyes laughing softly, knowing he just enjoyed seeing you try and fight him off thinking he was just a random guy, it boosted his ego, but in the best way possible.
“How about I get you some comfy clothes and take your makeup off?”
He waited for you to nod before leaning down and pressing a kiss to your lips
“I love you, even if you forget who I am sometimes”
Hitting his chest gently you smiled
“I love you too…and i’m never drinking again”
Charles laughed shaking his head, knowing you’d very much do this all over again at another girls night in the future, but he didn’t mind at all. Especially when he got to cuddle up next to you every night, knowing he was the one that got to hold your heart in his care.
Even if you did forget who he was from time to time…
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