#i am no longer religious

[ye-olde-trojan-horse]

send help. I am having do social things.

[carcasscounty]

Think some of y'all underestimate how badly growing up in a southern baptist church can fuck both you and your interpretation of the world around you up

[if-loki-was-a-fox]

Sometimes I remember peers I had as a kid, who I haven't seen since I was like 13, and I've changed so much since then that sometimes it kinda feels like "wow. You haven't known me since I actually became a person"

[finalgirlgretchen]

if one more person tries to claim that the oh hellos are no longer christian i am going to lose my shit

[shalom-iamcominghome]

Computer, show me how to engage with antisemetism to bring about positive change that (hear me out) won't send me into psychosis

[non4ry]

you believe me like a god (i’ll betray you like a man)

[thewhizzyhead]

hi its me so back when wattblr was at its peak (2020), watt basically gave me a drug that made me really fuckin creative and want to do a bajillion musicals. 4 years later, warriors has now force-fed me this drug again. Welcome back to me being annoying as fuck woo here's the Izzy Original Rambly Musical Masterlist - Part 1

+ Misfits - been developing this SINCE I WAS 13 and um its Basically A Show Within A Show idea inspired by my past experiences with my former church and their Christmas musicals. TO UNDERSTAND THIS HERE IS SOME BACKSTORY: so when I was 10-13 I used to be in Christmas musicals staged by my sunday school. These musicals were Pilipino translations (the songs stayed English) of Typical American Children Christmas Musicals found on youtube (check out A Rocking Royal Christmas on YouTube yes we did a Filipino translation of that and I played the narrator when I was 11 I'm not kidding). When I was 13, I wanted to make something more resonant to the teen crowd as um to be quite honest the stuff my fellow Sunday school people were going through were Fucking Heavy and i wanted to feature that + I always knew that the Very Kiddy Musicals we set up were mainly a show for the parents and all that. I wanted a message of faith that actually resonated with my age group - and i developed it far enough that at 14, i was commisioned by my sunday school teachers to work with the church's orchestra in actually having this developed! But 15 happened and I started questioning a lot of the stuff my Sunday school and church does in terms of like politics, mental health stuff, sexuality and identity and pressuring me and my fellow teens to become something we were not, and it really felt alienating, almost as if I was simply putting on a show to appease all those that look to me and want me to be the Best of Young Christian Soldiers

So the concept of Misfits is um okay just read this ramble i wrote 3 years ago that is MUCH MORE COHERENT AND COHESIVE than the descriptions ive been whipping up for three hours now:

There is more to this like I have been developing this for 7 years now and there IS A TRACKLIST and each character has a storyline and a certain dynamic with all of the characters - like all are connected one way or another - but the basic gist is:

1.) The Narrators Put On A Show For The Religious Audience, then Start Crumbling at The Questions Presented and Prompted by The Misfits, but also Upon The Realization Of How Much Pressure They Are Under in Supporting A Narrative They Are Conditioned To Unquestionably Trust + the reveal of the secrets they hide and deny about themselves in order to seem as the Perfect Model Christian (sexuality, mental health issues, parental/pastoral pressures, abuse, psychological trauma as a result of Putting On The Show - the Time Travel element is not just there for the purposes of the show, it has a very important plot element too that connects the leader of the Narrators with the defacto leader of the Misfits) + how do they deal with these secrets being slowly revealed when They Know They Are Being Watched

2.) The Misfits Try To Navigate The Strange Musical Scenario and Why The Narrators Seem Preachy, While Also Being Forced to Address Their Pasts and Presents on why They Are Deemed "Misfits" in the First Place (outside of Christian conservatism, there exists undeniable concern for the wellbeing of the "Misfits" aka juvenile delinquency and poverty, mental health issues, and um the defacto leader being a Former Member of the Narrators wHICH WILL BECOME THE RUNNING THREAD TO THE PLOT TWIST which is why they were chosen in the first place), so basically The Misfits Are Challenged to Acknowledged that They Are Indeed Troubled (especially with carefully planted plot points and script prompts used by the Narrators to have these in the open) - but the original Producers Approved plotline has them Turn Back To God, but how can they do so if the problems they face are rooted in the current religious institutions in place? That is the question presented by the Misfits to the Narrators - which is what causes their show to fall apart

3.) Through Questioning The Mission They Were Given and the Environments That Mandate Them To Do So Despite Their Own Struggles (Narrators), and Through Questioning Themselves, Their Struggle, and The Acknowledgment That They Do Need Help (Misfits), the two groups face what I want to be the ultimate thesis question of the musical: when you grow up, where does one find hope? This is my attempt at breaking down the concept of religion because ultimately, people look to a higher figure in the dream of hope and the want for answers - thus, religion cannot ultimately be taken away from people who truly want and seek it. But we gotta deconstruct the narrative that hope is only limited to these religious institutions - and criticism must be relayed to the institutions that mandate that people serve them for the hope they supposedly provide but subsequently break because of prejudice, conservatism, and close-mindedness towards the people the Bible says to serve above all.

So yea the thesis slogan is basically: grow as you go, redefine your mission, and break the script if needed be.

Also it's pop rock, very inspired by SPRING AWAKENING, we are the tigers, and a dash or rent. The songs are English when They Are Part of the Producer's script, and Tagalog when They Are Not Part of the Script (like the characters being honest or unexpected rebuttals to the narrators' preaching moments or when the narrators themselves reveal their secrets). Otherwise, dialogue is taglish YAY

[theaccidentfactory]

10 year old me: I need to get a bible. to fix me. (plagued by internalized homophobia and religious guilt about liking girls)

19 year old me: I need to get a bible. to fix me. (so I can write the crazy yuri sex in my blasphemous biblical horror podcast more accurately)

[miraluking-respectfully]

felix being referred to more or less exclusively as "your soldier" in-game speaks to how little the writers put into his character beyond his noggin full of sith secrets & his relationship with the consular; still, i do find it kind of sweet and funny, in a way. he's not a republic soldier, not even your personal bodyguard; he's your soldier. the consular is a small nation-state in and of herself

[slavicafire]

now i’m curious, what would be your idea of a nice discord server?

you know, I've thought about it for a long time and I think the very idea of a discord server is incompatible with what I truly want - even purely mechanically. my bad! instant messaging, dozens of channels, strangers in a strange land, unbalanced reactions due to differences in time zones and interests and simply affinity between different members... it's all so tiring to me, somehow. navigating it is unpleasant, and - to me, personally - it feels lacking, if not insincere. which is entirely a personal thing, really, and I am not disputing how useful and exciting those servers are to others.

I think what I actually want is an association of like-minded people present more in the physical realm than online - with epistolary upkeep of the connection in between the opportunities to meet in person, with common goals that we track, with a deeper bond. like a reading club, just for a wider array of activities than just reading.

well, a club, then. a collegium. a coven!

woe that the world is so vast and the most thrilling souls too far away and too entangled in the everyday to make it happen. woe indeed.

[crazymecjc]

manga redraw bc I’m in a silly goofy mood

panel and version without text below the cut!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[hadesoftheladies]

radblr is so myopic about religion and religious people it's dramatic

[faggotry-enjoyer]

oh i'm definitely gonna lose some friends for this one huh

[shrapnarl]

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quick dreamsnso i can find them later

[babygirlgiles]

Remembering the other day when I was accessioning some jewelry an alum had sent to the archives decades ago and I looked at the letter with the gift and thought “huh that’s a weird address” so then I looked it up and the address belonged to a quasi-religious organization that was deeply into the occult and also stole children from Cuba. So.