#i am mostly focused on the reading to bit in this tbh

[baekuras]

Thinking about Luis surviving & recovering while Leon gets to sit at his bedside or wherever reading Don Quixote to him <3

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

The Saint of Bright Doors

a surreal Sri Lankan fantasy about colonialism, revolution, mixing fantasy with the modern world

follows a man raised by his mother to kill his father, a god-like cult leader

but as an adult he puts aside his life of violence and moves to the city for a quiet life

he becomes fascinated with ‘bright doors’ around the city that never open and have no other side, and joins a group studying them to find out more

and a support group for those with divine heritage that becomes increasingly revolutionary, until the task he was made for reemerges and his life upends

[olderthannetfic]

I do feel a bit like a traitor when I'm tagging the top/bottom on my fics. Mostly because how loudly the other writers who don't tag say how much better it is not tagging. That their stories should be viewed on the merits of the story not the tags. But I don't know, and maybe it's my experience with my ships and fandom but I've never gotten anything bad from a commenter (I'm not saying others don't just saying my experience) and no one ever has been rude to me. And I see my kudos and all and there are a good chunk of people who do migrate between the top/bottom options (since I'm mostly writing for both dynamics now) And reading comments here tbh is also not helping since mostly people again don't tag and it seems like they are makign a whole chain of assumptions about peopel who do. Like they MUST be actively in the top bottom discourses in the fandom. They MUST subscribe to a specific fanon. And tagging is a red flag to them for mischaracterization. And here I am just taggign to make it easier for others to find my fics and I couldn't give two shits about the top bottom discourse in my fandoms.

I guess tag don't tag someone's gonna hate you.

--

Yes, you will never please everyone.

But also... lol, yes, the tags absolutely tell one which fanon you're using in that particular fic. It's not always wildly OOC fanon. It might simply be which of a couple of fairly IC takes you're focusing on more that time, but it's rarely just sex position even from the people who claim that's how they tag...

...just like the people who don't tag and "aren't into that" absolutely have strong dynamic preferences even if they claim they don't.

[wojenka]

i need more mutuals who are into coding and engineering!! more info under the cut!!

I planned to become an electrical engineer like my stepdad but then I decided to change my path to programming. I'm currently studying at technikum (<- wikipedia link so I don't have to explain the whole polish learning system), programmer major.

this year I have exams from web development (10th Jan - theory, 16th Jan - practical exams) and next year I have exams from App development (both mobile and desktop).

I know C family languages, Java, Python and those ones I am currently using. I also know a bit of Kotlin and I think I will continue learning it.

For web dev I know HTML and CSS ofc but also PHP and JS.

Planning on learning more languages I can use for App and operating system development as well as just to know them cause I want to after this year's exams!

my learning list:

Lua (I heard it's easy but I can't really get myself to read anything about this atm idk why)

Ruby

Assembly

Rust

As for electrical engineering I don't know much tbh but I would like to learn! I just used CAD programs for technical drawings (dad taught me some basic things when I was still thinking about going his path) helped my dad fix things on his Solar farm, houses of our neighbors and I made a few very simple circuits for fun a few years ago. Now I'm mostly focused on programming but since I learned most of the things I need for exams I have more time to do whatever I want now!

I'd like to get to know more people so I can share and mostly learn new things since even though I'm coding for years I consider myself a beginner and I am a total beginner when it comes to electrical engineering.

I'm willing to be friends or at least mutuals with anyone who codes or makes websites or is in STEM! no matter what your specialty/interest is exactly and no matter if you are a total beginner or a professional ^__^

I'd also like to have some mutuals who are into old web development and retro computing!!!!!!!!

edit: I forgot but I'm also interested in physics and quantum physics

[angel-of-the-moons]

would you be willing to do kuai liang x harumi x reader nsfw?

you're the only one i've seen do this pair, thank you!

I am? I'm surprised! (But tbh I've only seen Kuai Liang x Reader fics myself! 😭)

Fire Lily

Kuai Liang x Harumi Shirai x Fem!Reader

TW/CW: NSFW, smut, threesome, PiV sex, unprotected sex, cum eating, oral (Fem! Receiving mostly), temperature play, face-sitting, sex toys, bondage, hot wax, pregnancy mentions, breeding kink

MINORS DNI I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR CONTENT YOU CONSUME

A/N: Okay I wrote this one real fast before bed but hhhhhhhhgakdhoshishs it can be read as a sequel to this or standalone.

🔥🏵️🔥🏵️🔥🏵️🔥🏵️🔥🏵️

Moving into their hearts was one thing. Moving into their bed? Now that blindsided you. You were taken aback by just how mind-blowing it could be.

They were both very tender and loving, focused on your pleasure as much as each other's; and it was just how you imagined a loving married couple were in bed.

Kuai Liang was muscular, well-cut, and god if that little trail of short dark hair that disappeared into his pants-line didn't get you a bit going.

Harumi got progressively more intimate in your bathing, now that you, she and Kuai Liang were together. You even shared their private baths with them.

Kuai would sit back, ignoring his thick cock as Harumi would press herself against your back, squishing her soft breasts (small, but god they were beautiful) against your back as her nimble fingers slipped around your front and down between your legs, idly playing with you in the bath but not granting you relief.

Harumi herself was absolutely intoxicating. She had a lithe, toned build, and flexibility that made you flush if you thought too hard. You discovered that she was very partial to massages with oil scented with orange peel and cinnamon, and oftentimes if Kuai was in the room, he would join the two of you, pressing down on the both of you, using his strong fingers to coax the sweetest sounds from your lips in between you and Harumi exchanging breathless moans.

When he wasn't already in the room, and he walked in on the two of you, Kuai was very content to watch. He liked to do that with the two of you, and Harumi confessed to you that Kuai would often merely watch Harumi pleasure herself before giving in and pinning her down to drive himself deep into her core.

But now that you were there, it was like his own personal show. Harumi liked to lift your leg over her shoulder and maneuver herself so your drenched and puffy folds aligned with hers and grind until the both of you were out of breath and seeing stars. Sometimes Kuai would hold a vibrator between the two of you to grind on and watch you cum that way, saying sweet and erotic things to the both of you.

Most recently, she introduced a little toy into the bedroom. Well, little was a bit much. It was a soft, lifelike strap on that she'd quickly become fond of using on you. One night, shed convinced you to let both her and Kuai fuck you like this and god you swore you blacked out when your orgasm hit you, and only snapped out of it when Kuai Liang pumped his seed deep inside your ass.

One of their favorite positions was having Kuai on his back while Harumi rode his cock at a nice, steady pace; whereas Kuai would pull you down onto his face and eat you out, all while you faced Harumi and her mouth greedily danced with yours as she felt his throbbing heat press into every single nook and cranny inside of her body while his tongue delved deep into your folds, licking up every single drop of your sweetness you were able to give.

Sex was never boring with them, and they always found new things to try with you.

One of those new things was Kuai blindfolding you and tying you up with a soft rope while Harumi descended between your legs as her husband's cock was seated perfectly inside your weeping cunt, quickly wrapping her tongue around your clit and sucking before moving down to taste where Kuai had you speared open.

While all that was going on, Kuai Liang would use his pyromancy to heat hot wax and slowly dribble it down your skin, adding a new sensation you didn't even think to try out to your repertoire of bedroom activities.

You were loved, well loved and oh-so trusted.

So trusted that they'd confided in you that they were trying for a child, and of course they asked if you were willing.

You said you weren't sure if you could or not, because you'd never thought to see a doctor if having a baby was in the cards for you. That's when they both laughed and kissed you silly, saying you didn't have to carry the child yourself, just that you were there with them. Of course, it didn't mean you didn't get involved on your own, shivering as Kuai's molten-hot loads would soak you from the inside out.

And that's when you learned that Kuai Liang had a thirst for seeing both you and lovely little Harumi dripping with his seed, sated and happy. You would be good mothers to any child or children you had.

A family.

That's what you were. That's what you would be.

🔥🏵️🔥🏵️🔥🏵️🔥🏵️🔥🏵️

You hiccuped as Kuai snapped his hips into yours with ferocity, holding your legs up and over his shoulders as he pounded into yours, his eyes clenched shut in concentration as he focused on hitting that one spot that made you a drooling, crying mess while Harumi gently hummed a soft song, pawing your breasts, squeezing them and rolling your nipples as her husband stuffed you to bursting.

"That's it, love." Harumi said, kissing the spot between your neck and shoulder. "Take all of him inside, nice and deep."

You whimpered, your hands knotting in the bedsheets as Harumi wrapped her slender legs around your waist. "F-feels so f-full--"

"I know... You're doing so well, darling." She said, licking up a salty droplet of sweat as your body bounced and slid along her with the force of Kuai's thrusting.

In all your years you never once anticipated getting involved in this kind of relationship, being so well loved in such a deep, committed way. You'd been told your entire life that you were meant for one person alone.

Oh, were they so wrong.

Harumi kissed the tear that rolled down your cheek away as you cum around Kuai with a strained cry, your voice hoarse from the moans they'd been pulling from you all night.

Harumi smiled as she watched Kuai's body stiffen as his hips stuttered in their relentless pace, slowing down to deep, calculated thrusts as his own orgasm peaked and he fucked another hot load into your waiting and thirsty womb.

His hips slowly and confidently rolled into yours as he let your legs fall around him, barely able to stay up on their own as he leaned forwards, kissing Harumi before moving to claim your swollen lips with his own.

"So good for us, fire lily." He breathed against your mouth.

"Mhmm... So very very good." Harumi purred.

Her eyes watched as Kuai Liang pulled out, very very slowly, and she bit her lip as she saw how wonderfully glazed his cock was with his cum and the sweet cream you'd coated him with.

She licked her lips and carefully moved from behind you, shimmying her way down so she was lying alongside you, kissing your jaw and cheek, and corner of your mouth.

Kuai moved over atop Harumi and wrapped her legs around his waist as he lined his cock up with her neglected and swollen sex, her arousal so thick it had coated her thighs with the shiny stickiness that told him how badly she craved his cock.

You watched, eyelids heavy as Kuai Liang pushed into Harumi, slipping inside her tight channel with practiced ease as her body swallowed him whole until the dark hairs at the base of his cock pressed against the trimmed patch of hairs on Harumi's mound.

You whimpered at the sight, seeing the slight bulge now present in Harumi's lower belly, biting your bottom lip hard enough to draw blood as Kuai pushed down hard on that bump, making her eyes grow wide and her spine arch.

"Kuai!" She mewled.

"Hss." Kuai hissed under his breath, his eyes rolling back.

As always, his stamina was nothing short of mind-blowing. How he could fuck the two of you back to back had your mind wondering if he just wasn't blessed with some sort of godly libido.

Or maybe it was the thought of getting one of (or both) of you pregnant that drove him on to keep the flame of arousal from dying down.

You watched, rolling onto your side as Kuai set into a steady pace, not unlike the one he used when he started fucking you, but this time you could actually see Kuai as he fucked Harumi; you could watch the tell-tale bump rise and fall with each thrust of his hips and each watery cry that rippled out of her sweet little mouth.

Harumi pulled you from your thoughts and down into a hungry kiss, biting your bottom lip as her body rocked from your lover's thrusts.

"My face." She gasped to you. "I want you to sit on my face."

"H-Harumi, are you sure?" You asked her.

You'd sat on Kuai's face many times in bed, but you'd never tried it with Harumi. Kuai Lian was strong, built like a fortress. Harumi was... small, almost delicate-looking.

She grit her teeth as Kuai brushed that sweet spot inside of her cunt, her belly swelling and going back down again and again.

"Do it. I want you to." She moaned loudly.

"You... heard her, love. Best do... as she asks." Kuai said in between grunts, running his tongue along his teeth as he watched you. "But face me when you do."

The sounds they were making had you floating on cloud nine, almost high off of the endorphins and hormones that pumped through your body as you carefully planted your knees on either side of Harumi's head, your pussy dripping and ready as you hovered over her ever so slightly.

"If I'm too heavy, just let me kn--" Your voice died on a yelp as she pulled you down, her arms wrapped around your thighs as she pressed your sex to her needy mouth, her moans sending delicious vibrations up your spine as her tongue dipped and pulled Kuai's cum from your well-fucked hole and onto her waiting tongue.

You almost fell forwards but your hands grasped Kuai's shoulders as Harumi licked and sucked you with everything she had, Kuai watching you two with a warm, fond glow in his eyes.

When he kissed you, he gently grazed his teeth over your swollen lips and delved his tongue into yours with such tenderness you almost forgot that he was pounding away at Harumi as her face was buried so gladly between your legs.

You were so sure that you'd died and gone to paradise at some point. Maybe this was all a fevered dream you were having and you'd wake up soon? Maybe it was all just a figment of your imagination?

But leaning back to watch as Kuai pumped another one of his loads into Harumi told you otherwise.

And in a few weeks, the three of you would have to start planning a nursery.

Would the babies be twins if they were born at the same time to different mothers?

Kuai couldn't help but grin as the seeds he'd planted, eagerly waiting to watch them grow with every passing day.

A family, indeed.

His family.

[gaylordscooter]

i only ship kist because of you. i didn't even like shipping or any romantic connections between characters before seeing your kist content. your kist propaganda is too powerful

im flattered that my stuff is good enough to be the sole reason someone ships something

also between u and me, anon, i hardly shipped kist (or ANY sans pairing really) myself before making this blog. only reason i ship them now is because in a narrative sense it just became an interesting pairing to explore.

those two are extremely similar with few key differences, and having them interact calls for interesting stuff to happen. I haven't read that many utmv fics, especially ones focusing on the bad sanses so i was mostly working from the ground-up while loosely looking at canon.

and one of the similarities i noticed in canon is the self-loathing they have and how they wear it differently. in killer's case, he feels as if he's too far gone to ever be redeemed and tends to lash out whenever anyone tries to help him (and also works for nightmare somewhat out of his own volition). in dust's case he literally has his own personification of his self-loathing in the form of his own brother constantly insulting him and assigned himself the sisyphean goal of killing the human over and over and over

but obviously my versions stray from canon a fair bit but the self-loathing still stands, which is the starting point for their relationship (because i am a sucker for relationships where they initially don't get along and then eventually do). AND through learning to love the other they're also unlearning self-loathing (it is here where i tie in that they're the same monsters from alternate universes because when i write a dynamic between two people i must use ALL the context okay)

however tbh i don't see those two as specifically "romantic", they wouldn't consider the other their boyfriend. nor is this shit platonic, they are secret other thing to me (self-love)

[thatoneneuvichiliauthor]

Get to know your mutuals!

Thanks for tagging me @joyful-soul-collector !

What's the origin of your blog title? Well that’s simply because I got a tiny bit hyperfixated on the Neuvichili ship (Neuvillette x Childe x Zhongli from Genshin Impact) during the Fontaine patch, and that out of the 100 fics that exist for it, I wrote like, 65 of them? 😅 And since I posted them on anon at first, the neuvichili author name stuck.

OTP(s) + Shipname:  Neuvichili (obviously)

Aventio (Aventurine x Dr. Ratio from Honkai Star Rail)

Jayvik (Jayce x Viktor from Arcane)

Favorite color: Purple

Favorite game: I’d say Honkai Star Rail, because I love the characters in this game so much!

Song stuck in your head: Broken Mast Bay – Sail North. Nothing like listening to a selkie song while working on a selkie wip.

Weirdest habit/trait? Not sure if that counts as weird but I love all sorts of animals people usually find disgusting/scary like snakes, lizards, bugs or spiders and I really enjoy taking pictures of them.

Oh also I’ve got a pencil case full of small pieces of paper with the names of characters I’ve gotten attached to throughout the years written on it, and every morning I pick up one to have something positive to think about when I start the day.

Hobbies: Reading, Writing, Crafting, Playing Video Games, Watching Movies/Series, Baking (often the same recipes, but I guess it still counts?), Swimming.

If you work, what's your profession? Technically writer, though tbh I haven’t published anything other than fanfiction in years now.

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be? Oh, I would love a job that has to do with the study of animals (living and/or extinct)!

Something you're good at: Coming up with story ideas! I’d be happy if I managed to write down half of what I imagine.😅 Working on a fic sometimes even feels like a race before a new idea (or even worse, hyperfixation ah ah) arrives

Something you're bad at: Social interactions. I feel much more comfortable writing than talking and I have to plan ahead/brace myself for the smallest things, like checking out at the grocery store/asking a retail worker for advice, otherwise I get overwhelmed quickly.

Something you love: Fanfiction and fanart! (again, obviously)

Something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: Greek Mythology! I got really involved in it as a kid and my interest in it never really left. Also whatever show/book/movie/game/etc I’m hyperfixated on at the moment. And anything related to my OCs.

Something you hate: When people shout/raise their voices.

Something you collect: T-shirts related to the pieces of media I enjoy (my greatest finding so far has been an official Arcane t-shirt that has both Viktor AND Jayce on it, among other characters, which I was overjoyed about because of how little official Jayce merch there is)

Something you forget: To eat, mostly when I’m focused on something I’m really invested in. Often it’s when I’m writing/ working on some craft.

What's your love language? Quality time and words of affirmation

Favorite movie/show: Yu-Gi-Oh!, it will always have a special place in my heart since that’s basically the show that got me into storytelling and writing

Favorite food: Most pasta-based dishes I’d say.

Favorite animal: Oh that’s a tough one, right now I’d say sharks (they’re awesome!) but I love so many animals that I might give you a different answer of you ask me tomorrow

What were you like as a child? The textbook definition of a gifted kid and dealing with medical issues. 0/10, do not recommend. I was/still am very curious/passionate about a lot of things which is nice though.

Favorite subject at school? History.

Least favorite subject: Maths.

What's your best character trait? Creativity, definitely. I love writing stories/making things and sharing them with others.

What's your worst character trait? I’m way too anxious and my mind will come up with the most impossible, worst-case scenarios over the tiniest of things (In a way, I guess that’s the downside of being good at inventing stories)

If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? No more chronic pain please.

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? Oh if I could travel in time, I would definitely skip the people part and go a few million years back so I could see all kinds of extinct creatures (and probably get eaten by one, because Jurassic Parks hasn’t taught me anything)

Tagging: any of my mutuals who'd like to do this ❤️

[nerves-nebula]

Hello! Im the asker about ur neglected turtles voices! Love the analysis about my ask lmao, if it helps explain anything ive been following for a minute but yeah, never extensively went thru ur blog lol

I mostly assumed 2012 bc their dynamics remind me a bit more of that generation than the others minus leo (rottmnt), which i was going to mention but then didnt want to over complicate the question lmao

Thank u for answering tho! Cant wait to see more ^^

i love when i'm right. thank u for coming back XOXO <3

i've heard a few people say that they thought mine was inspired by 2012 for that reason which (if i may wade into a simmering fandom war for a moment) is kind of a point towards the "2012 is abusive/dysfunctional" people since my guys are actually based mostly on my family + other stories of abuse i've heard & read about.

like if you see an intentionally fucked up set of dynamics and go "wow kinda like 2012" then idk man. kinda hard to come back from that.

anyway here's more 2012 abuse ranting shit but keep in mind that i havent watched most of 2012 and i am not being super serious here ok. don't ATTACK AND KILL me or w/e its notttt that important

the funny thing is that I never originally cared about the whole is 2012 abusive argument because the clear answer to me was "it probably wasnt intended to be, since this kind of writing where everyone is mean to each other was basically The Way a lot of kids shows were written back then, but it can definitely come off that way, especially to people sensitive to shitty family lives and who see something familiar in the way these characters interact"

and that's basically still my stance (if you can really have a hard stance on something so unimportant)

but then I kept seeing arguments against 2012 being abusive. and they were so poorly thought out and unconvincing and just BAD that they actually made me more convinced it was abusive. cuz before i didn't think about it much and i kind of just took as it, like, well this is slapstick comedy so that's the slapstick. whatever. I was mostly focused on the doylist explanation for things because it gets more complicated if you look at it in a watsonian way. But not really complicated in a fun way tbh.

it would be so easy to just say "I don't really read it as abusive personally" but some ppl gotta come out with "see they CANT be abusive because they LIKE EACH OTHER sometimes" or the INFAMOUS "thats just how siblings act lmao these idiots have never had siblings before" and its like. that's so stupid that i'm now going to read it as abuse out of spite.

tho i'm sure there were also people insisting it 100% HAD to be abusive and if you didnt read it that way you were INVALIDATING ABUSE VICTIMS. since fandom-wide arguments tend to be started by a handful of people who cant just leave shit alone heff. i wonder how its going over there rn. i dont really keep up with fandom stuff. do people still argue about this? whatever

[sevi007]

Tales of the abyss, part 17

Gwah, I thought we will travel easy for a whole but anime cutscene means trouble yea? Epicness at least!

I will hurriedly put this under a read more because I think starting now there is CERTAINLY going to be spoilers!

Aha! Same face syndrom! Meaning there either IS a twin or, what I‘m more inclined to, clones!

If it is a clone, you messed up the haircolor *whisper*

So, I'm sticking with the clone theory for now, since I am certain hiding the fact that TWINS were kidnapped and only one came back is too complicated. Replacing someone is easier, yes.

But then, which one is the clone? Luke or Asch? So personally, I will go with Luke. He is the one with the memory loss (which in this case would mean he is a clone created "empty", read, no memories there - so rather than losing his memories, he never had any to begin with.) This would also add to the drama of Luke already having bad self-worth (his attitude is mostly posturing imo) and the truth will then hit it hard. While on the other hand, Asch's hatred against Luke would be explained, seeing as he was replaced by Luke.

Okay Jade suspected or knew this already

Ouch Luke’s face here. Poor kid.

Hey, hello? Are we like, not stopping for a bit so Luke can throw up and discuss what we just saw? I mean yea, saving Ion, but surely we have a few minutes? Is anybody giong to make sure he is alright, or going to discuss what just happened?

Ah, there it is. BUT. Note how Luke is not here to hear this. The party is leaving him in the dark AGAIN. Not to mention that Jade at least has a theory and is not saying anything about it.

Haaaah. This will not help in the long run. I feel like rather than acknowledge Luke's troubles (which, why he does not talk about, he still strongly projects outwards) the party is just always too focused on the next goal, and more like drags him after them. This will further stir up his ire, and make him mullish, and drive him towards Van.

Oh okay the link-thingy is getting more frequent.

So Asch is helping us now? Hm. Considering that Van and the God-Generals pointed out that Asch was acting against Van's orders, I assume Asch is not agreeable with whatever Van's goal is, and is working to stop Luke from blindly following everything Van says. He could then claim that not HE was acting against Van's orders, but rather Luke kept interferring.

I'm cutting the whole trip through the desert and the ruins, there's not much to say to that - oh, except I like that Mieu actually gets new abilities! It's kind of funny to imagine him breaking rocks tbh XD

Reaching the bottom of the ruins:

That looks like a door? *squint* I can't remember if anything in all this exposion said something about doors tbh.

The boss fight was pretty hard - took me three tries and figuring out which party works - so I was a bit depressed to hear this from Asch:

Rude man!

This was cool though. Does that mean they both had the same teacher? - My clone theory is going STRONG man.

??? Wait what's that reaction? Because she is the princess, or...?

(I tell you guys, everyone here has hidden agendas!)

Stop teasing me, game, I want to know if that means "twin" or "clone"! XD

You know... I like the characters, I really do.

But GOD do I wish they would TALK with each other. So Jade knows more than we do, Ion knows more than we do, Tear does - and now Guy too, and NOBODY is sharing stuff with ANYBODY.

If this goes all flying off the handle, I'm not blaming one person, no matter what everyone else says, I'm blaming everyone. You fucked this up in a group effort by being secretive as hell.

@magicmetslogic

@ahsokaisawesome

[partywithoutsmiling]

In the wanderer branch au do poppy and branch ever realize their feelings for each other will they end up forming any romantic relationship. Both Rock beast au and Moonlit au mentioned with the beast au both have yet to talk about anything for obvious reasons and the moonlit au it's pretty obvious that they'll end up together. But I have yet read anything about possible relationship it's hinted and I'm curious is there any chance.

Hmmmmm, that's a tough one honestly

To mention both the other AUs, as you say, in Moonlit AU, Poppy is just thirsting after Branch (XD) whereas Branch has to just... sort of deal with her shit while deal with his own 'shit' on top of being stunned she is actually interested in him pff

In Moonlit AU, their relationship (Groppy I believe, when it's Grey Branch), would be rather messy; fueled mostly by physical attraction at first, since Branch is a hard troll to get to know, and he is still very much paranoid and traumatized, and Poppy just has to learn to deal with that. I expect lots of arguments, since they will be still disagreeing on lots of things- and the relationship will be rather rocky, up until the first movie plot happens

(I know I said Moonlit AU was more of a feature than an actual AU, but I do have some rough thoughts for it XD)

Rock Beast AU is pretty much the both of them following canon rather closely; Branch is already having feelings- and had them for a long time- while Poppy probably harbours some as well buuuut is very distracted by the notion of being good queen that she hardly focuses on the signals Branch is sending (and honestly, who could blame her, the last time she focused on 'signals' was with Creek and he turned out to be a 'bit' of a sleaze ball)

In perfect world, they would get their happy ending at the end of World Tour, where Poppy is forced to speed-analyze what she feels about Branch when he essentially sacrificing to her- and coming on top with not even hinting at having doubts that when Branch says he loves her, that he loves her

That did not happen, obviusly. Yes, Branch 'sacrificed' for her, and the force of him getting hit knocked her out- but when she came to, she was overcame with guilt- something that stayed with her for the rest of her solitary imprisonment with Beast!Branch as her only company.

Branch still very obviously showed her actions of care after their escape, even with his inability to speak, but if anyhting that only made her feel guilty more XD

It was this guilt that made her not allow herself to really focus on any romantic feelings she might have for him thorough the whole Plot of Rock Beast AU- mostly she was just afraid for him tbh

It was only after everything was done and over, after they had the chance to pass out, that any love confessions came whispered from Branch- and Poppy definitelly cries XD

Now, for Wanderer AU.

Tbh, this AU deviates the farthest from canon. In canon, Branch spent his lonely outcast life living at the fringe of the village, clinging to any little kindness Poppy was showing him, while unable to show much of the same in turn- in fact deliberately pushing her away for fear of causing her harm. But that did not stop him from longing for her, and certainly did not stop him from going up to the surface to at least catch a glimpse of her.

In Wanderer AU, Branch left when he was cca 19yo. Going roughly by movie age (as confirmed or unconfirmet it is), that would put Poppy at least 5 years younger, so cca 14;

Any longing Branch had towards her at that age was for the kindness she was showing him- yes, he was drawn to her, but in the rather 'this person is the sun and I am so cold' kinda way.

She did cross his mind as he was traveling over the years of course, but in general it was just 'how is she doing', 'did she notice I am gone', 'does she care'. A person can become your focus if you feel at least subconsciously that they are making your life marginally better- and Poppy made Branch's life 'better' in that she never gave up on him and always remembered him.

When they have their reunion, they are very different people than they are in the movie; Poppy is definitelly more serious, and perhaps a bit more anxious; not as confident (she did spent the last 5 years or so believing that the actions of her village drew a troll to suicide and no-one but her cared about that fact), while Branch is just... not as dependent on her kindness anymore.

Oh he definitelly notes that she grew up (and I think that gives him a whiplash XD), and he feels touched that she cares that he is alive and well- but her life is not confined to the Pop Village anymore, and to the Pop Tribe in general- he is currently multi-genre, and obviously forming a 'Tribe' of his own (not officially, but he could).

Poppy expects him to return and stay in the village but he just... doesnt want to do that. Not because he is that filled with wanderlust, but because he spent more than ten lonely years in there being treated rather poorly, and who in their right mind would go back to that, especially if they now have support elsewhere- and Poppy cannot comprehend that for quite a while, cause that would force her to come to terms with the fact that Pop trolls did Branch dirty from the very moment he turned grey.

So, as much as I hate to say it, I don't think there is a way for Broppy to work in Wanderer AU- not as we are used to it XD

Mainly because Pop Village is not Branch's home anymore and thus he won't stay, and Poppy cannot imagine a reality where she would give up on being queen and leave her people behind. There is clash of desire and duty (I think at the end of World Tour, there are some obvious sparks, as they will always gravitate towards each other), but it just doesnt work out- and they have to accept that.

[ppeasants]

this is kind of a weird post? idk. it has to do with the future of my time hollow au so if that matters then here's this? (I'M NOT DISCONTINUING IT I LOVE THIS SERIES TOO MUCH i am just having some thoughts about some things I wanted to change, and I just needed to get these thoughts out into the void so people were aware, and so I could actually maybe go through with them)

(also if u do care about it please read all the way to the end so i can properly convey what i'm trying to say as well as what's changing, cause if u stop halfway thru then you'll probably come away with the wrong conclusion)

so I started this AU when I had just finished Owl House. I had not yet really gotten into the fandom, and I was still in the throes of the finale. because of this, I hadn't quite yet developed MY actual sense of what I specifically loved about the show (instead of just loving all of it [which I do love a lot of it]), as well as not specifically developed my own HCs and chartacter dynamics.

now that time has passed and I have been a part of the fandom for a while, I HAVE developed a sense of what I specifically love about this fandom, as well as the stories, themes, HCs and dynamics I want to explore deeper.

all that is just kinds backstory to how I have rotated these characters in my mind, and to give some context to where this change is coming from.

the actual change: I will likely be transitioning the sibling hunter and luz dynamic into a modified lavender winter dynamic with amity and willow, and non-romantic hunter and luz (that bit is important).

when I first started getting into the fandom, some of my first fics i read were sibling hunter and luz. I still love those fics, and tbh I still absolutely ADORE sibling hunter and luz. but, I think for the story I want to share with time hollow, i don't think the sibling dynamic works as well as the lavwin dynamic.

btw when I say modified lavmin, I mean it's pretty heavily modified, at least for the purposes of this series. Hunter and Willow are romanitc. Amity and Luz are romantic. Amity and Hunter are not romantic. Willow and Lus are not romanitc. Luz and Hunter are not romantic. They are not platonic. They are not in a QPR. They are not in a secret fourth thing, but a secret fifth thing.

there are two main reasons for this change. one, is that I actually love lavwin in general. i love poly ships and i love messy ships and i love being able to go in deep with character dynamics and and explore those relationships deeply and changingly.

the second reason: its so titan-damned MESSY. it's fantastic! there are so so many dynamics to explore with Hunter and Luz being a secret fifth thing instead of stricly familial. And the way their closeness can interplay with Amity and Willow, either as jealously or care or anything else, and those two maybe finding comfort in each other too, it's all so deliciously messy and I loooove it.

so what's gonna actually change: basically nothing! This was never a romance focused story, and while Lumity and Huntlow were always gonna exist, now they just exist within the context of a messy lavwin. and honestly, hunter and luz were already a secret third thing in this series, it's just now not codified as siblings anymore. it's also not gonna change their relationships with anyone else, like King, or Eda.

maybe there'll be some tumblr posts, or some oneshots that are more lavwin focused, but realistically not much is gonna change. It's just in the way that I've been developing the story, and rotating the characters will have this trauma attachment flavour to it.

i mostly just wanted to get this out there so people could understand where I'm coming from, cause I've been going back and forth on this 'change' for a while, but I realized that if I;m making a series that I don't enjoy, I'm not gonna make a good fic at all. and i think this will make this series all the better for it.

thanks for reading all the way thru if u did <3

[gaylienz]

sharing some of my ocd intrusive thoughts for the first time jic it might help someone else feel less alone;

the fear that i dont have enough friends and that all the ones i have are going to realize i’m not worth being around were some of the first thoughts that would NOT leave my mind and would keep me up and make me sick and ironically caused me to lose friends (a self fulfilling prophecy). tbh these are still some feelings i struggle with despite carrying on years long friendships now.

it hasn’t happened in a while but sometimes i would hyper focus on my breathing or swallowing or blinking etc and would drive myself to the point of tears with how it took up all my attention

the worst ones are the thoughts about incest. there’s been a lot of sexual trauma in my family and my brain likes to find the worst moments (like when i’m trying to jerk off or sleep) to remind me and torture me with all the what ifs. its gotten slightly better but i would have dreams/nightmares and memories from childhood haunt me

i used to do this really cool (/sarcasm) thing where i would be so self conscious about my race, being white-passing, and racist (aka a potential threat to any poc around) that it circled right back around to being super racist (another self fulfilling stupid prophecy) bc i would get nervous anytime someone not-white was around that they would be anxious about my presence….

classic suicidal thoughts even when im not feeling suicidal (something goes wrong even a little bit—my brain: well this wouldnt have happened if you were dead. me: wow thanks) even now today im struggling with the awful 'im gonna kill myself' jokes. trying to replace with 'i need rat bites to live' lol

the way i dealt with the obsessions was a combo of things which never really felt compulsive but now i see they might be? i used to read a lot. like to the point where i would skip meals and be inside for the entire day, unmoving. i liked reading but mostly it was how i kept my mind busy and away from other more dangerous thoughts.

i guess body-focused repetitive behaviors (BFRBs) are a thing with ocd which i didnt always know—basically its really gross and im ashamed of it but i autocannibalise….i’ve been doing so for as long as i can remember but im so ashamed i’ve never really talked about it bc i just thought i was disgusting (and maybe i am) but i catch myself doing it without thought which i believe is impulse (or habit?) idk but it hurts my body so probably would be considered mildly concerning? i've pulled out my hair and given myself many scars through this kind of stuff.

anyway just letting you know that you're not alone, don't be afraid to ask for help, and if that doesnt work then never give up and keep asking for help, be excellent to each other you never know what someone is experiencing <3

[torque-witch]

WITCHTOBER Day 1 - Witch of the Woods

I’ll be honest, I am really struggling this week between not sleeping, being emotional from constant pain and just sort of feeling empty and uninspired - but I made a prompt list for October to keep me somewhat grounded and focused as this is a busy and important month! You can follow along and participate as you choose.

Today I took a little break after my errands to take some photos and reflect on how disconnected from nature and witchcraft it can feel to live in a major city. It’s hard to slow down from the constant grind and traffic and just observe, especially when accessible parks and reserves are still mostly manufactured or built out simply for exercise.

And tbh, it can be awkward! People on their morning/afternoon walks can act suspicious if you’re just standing around with your phone or leaning over to look at leaves 😅 and it does, to an extent, discourage the act of appreciating nature.

But, in terms of witchcraft it’s important to observe your local flora and fauna and learn about your community’s spirit in turn. It could be identifying edible and medicinal plants, making a point to pick up trash, smashing invasive bugs (💡🪰) or even reading the local graffiti. Everything you see and participate in while in nature can tell you a little bit about the land you reside on, which can be a source of power and connection. It tells a story about the heart of the city and the health of the land.

So today is just about taking small moments out of your day to observe and reconnect. It might be impossible to actually immerse yourself in the woods in the city, but there are still pockets magic if you go looking for it 🍂🍄

Death's Head Divination

Looking for the prompt list? -> WITCHTOBER 2024

[laughing-drawing-aces]

I'm still a bit mad about s4 of Stranger Things because they turned both Robin and Steve into pathetic messes in order to make their dynamic work with Nancy, when in reality all three would struggle to be around each other.

Like Robin acted borderline pathetic for befriending Nancy, who was rude to her in the beginning. It's like she didn't care and threw herself at her. Plus, realistically, she would have side-eyed her for being Steve's ex. But her entire personality got thrown out the window in order to avoid conflict. Because let's be real, if Steve acted the way around her like Nancy did, Robin would have acted differently and called him out. She wouldn't let it slide, but it's Steve and not Nancy, who is perfect.

Steve acted pathetic around Nancy because he still loved her after all these years despite moving on in s3. It wouldn't be half as bad if it was more balanced, but we never saw Nancy being completely in love with Steve, even when they were together. It was always him who loved more, and now he still followed her around despite her actions in s2. Like the audience (at least some) knows Nancy cheated on him, which is a touchy subject for Steve, and yet all of his personality was ignored in order to worship his ex. I swear if he would know the truth about what happened at Murray's, I doubt he would act that way. But that would require the show acknowledging Jancy cheated, which would paint their relationship in a bad light, and the show wanted you to root for them (at least in s1-s2)

Not to forget how both Robin and Steve's other relationships got ignored for focusing on simping for Nancy. Stobin deserves an independent arc outside of romance. Like discussing their trauma from s3 and healing from it.

I wouldn't be so mad if Nancy was the driving force to make it work in s4. If she had reflected on her mistakes with Steve, it would be much more satisfying. It would make her befriending Robin much more meaningful and more natural to bring back Stancy. Because again, it's only one-sided, and Steve deserves someone who loves him as much as he loves his partner. Nancy never showed that in the show. It was always about Jonathan from s1 onwards. Her admitting she only chose Steve because Jonathan wasn't available put Stancy in such a tragic light for me. Because they never were to make it because Nancy wasn't in it 100%. It's not even the Barb thing, I'm sure it played into it, but Stancy failing is mostly due to Steve being the second choice from the beginning. Steve deserves to know that from her because he still has hopes and blames himself for the relationship's failure. And if they make Stancy endgame without Nancy putting in an ounce of work, I'll be pissed.

Also, if the show had included the messy problems within the teen group, the season ending in disaster would have been much more believable. Like the plan wouldn't have worked either way because of the tension and them not being on the same page and having trouble working together. They were destined to fail because of inner circle problems. I don't get this need of everyone being best buddies when there is so much conflict between them. It's boring tbh. And idk what the Duffers problem is that nobody is allowed to have negative feelings about Nancy or admitting that she hurt people. It's like the show is gaslighting us. You, as the audience, see how Nancy makes mistakes, and yet nobody in the show acknowledges it or is phased by it. The opposite happens because everyone simply loves her more for it. And then you're like, am I crazy??? Like when every other character makes mistakes, it's called out. People still give Steve shit about high school, but with Nancy, the same standard doesn't apply.

also this is going to be long so going to put under read more

oh my god same every time i think about how stobin just looks pathetic to show how nancy is this capable ‘leader’ drives me insane. because first of: steve and robin helped way more than nancy did. nancy just got told things and then shot a gun. that’s honestly all she did in season 4 except for create a plan that failed (which it would have failed either way but yeah). legit people think that stobin did nothing in the major fight which is because they put so much pressure on nancy’s shot that their contributions mean nothing.

honestly i will never understand robin wanting to make friends so fast with nancy meanwhile we saw last season that she called nancy a priss. also everyone complains about robin not having more talk about her sexuality and being outed which would have been good if right here we got it! robin is hesitant to be friends with nancy because maybe for her it’s always been weird for her to have friends that are girls. we could have gotten this expansion on how there’s homophobia in the 80s so perfectly with this storyline! but nope! yeah honestly they three out a bunch of robin’s characteristics and personality to just follow nancy around like a duck or a dog. and 100% robin would have called steve out if he acted like nancy did to her.

honestly yep that about steve! like he acts sooo whipped about nancy which to be fair he was while they were dating and even before. but why isn’t steve allowed a little bit resentment about how their relationship ended? why isn’t he allowed to be mad at nancy? god everytime i think about how steve is just now reduced to worshipping his ex i get so fucking annoyed. like i love how sweet steve is don’t get me wrong but can we also see him maybe experience some more negative emotions? it feels like after season 1 steve wasn’t allowed to feel anger at people/characters anymore. of course he’s bitchy and snippy but he doesn’t have any true anger moments! honestly lol the show will never acknowledge jancy cheating just like the people in the fandom who are delulu. also like lol just because you admit it doesn’t mean that you can’t still like them or that they’re evil people.

i am so fucking mad how stobin was just reduced to nancy! it even happens in the fandom: you can’t go two seconds about hearing the boat scene without hearing how ‘robin stared at nancy and look how she yelled nancy’s name’ meanwhile her bestie STEVE is dying. there are so many other dynamics but the show did stobin so dirty by just making their dynamic about nancy so fandom simply followed suit no matter how much they hate the duffers and what they write: they always seem to do exactly what the duffers are doing.

everything you said about nancy being the driving force. honestly it’s wild how nancy admits herself that she settled for steve because jonathan wasn’t available and people still think that she didn’t a) cheat by knowingly getting with another man despite the fact that she knew she wanted jonathan and b) just say that she went along with what steve was doing. i’m actually going to scream about that second one because how on earth do you want nancy to be her own person but then fucking willingly take away what she says she did of her own right?!? makes no sense: the math ain’t mathing. thank you for saying it’s not just barb! honestly people think it’s just about barb but no it’s legit because nancy just doesn’t love steve.

the way i love the messy dynamics but the duffers just breeze over it now bothers me. hell the fandom bothers me more when they do this lol. god everything here! this is already so long so i don’t want to add too much. but i do like nancy it’s just the fact that a) the show makes you believe that she’s right all the time! b) also her fans who just don’t want to criticize her or just won’t admit that she’s wrong in areas where she is also c) when her fans just make steve seem like an abuser. honestly the fans of hers have been pissing me off more than anything ngl but yeah i do love her just wish her flaws were more showed in a negative light and wish more people can acknowledge it

[riansdiary]

Rian's Diary Entry #7

I'm back~

This song is so my mood right now:

A little update from moi. I feel so proud of myself. From complaining, worrying, thinking negatively, being depressed to now feeling like a fucking queen (excuse my french), hardly any negative thoughts, not paying attention to what I don't want, knowing it's done in 4d, not finding it in the 3d, leaving the 3d alone, feeling extra confident and empowered because I now know and understand that changing the 3d and the how is not my job and not my problem. Confident and empowered again because I decided and know it's done now regardless of what I see in front of me.

Your girl came a loooong way and I'm really proud of myself for that. Been persisting like a baddie and finally getting a heck ton of money just by following my dad's instructions and clicking a button everyday on this cryptocurrency app. Btw it's not Illegal or whatever, it is an official trusted cryptocurrency app and people are able to use it now to earn that currency and convert that to actual cash. I will literally get paid to exist! Oh My God. I am so proud of myself. I don't care whether my other desires are in the 3d or not, all I know is that IT IS DONE! I will fully accept them as facts now. Thank you and I will keep going with that boss/queen attitude! I know my inner child is probably so so so happy right now! 😭

This is a success story and a diary entry in one! Also if anyone wants to know what app it is, please message me with your country. It's available in 10 countries only right now so hopefully it's available for you! I have an article thing that says which countries it is currently available in. Anyways, I am really proud of how far I've come in terms of the law of assumption and manifesting! I swear I was over consuming, over complicating and was extremely lost just like anyone who's just starting and doesn't know what works for them. I wanted to write this because I'm so happy I'm feeling even more confident, positive and empowered about manifesting!

I have a little subliminal journey update for you! I quit listening to my playlist and decided to focus on two subliminals. I decided to commit to it for 2-3 months even though I know I have my full results already. The first is an oldie but a goodie! It's Baejin Cafe's rain version most intense glow up ever beauty and life! I chose this because it's packed with things that I want. Everything that you could ever think of is in this subliminal! That's for my overnight sleep sub. I listen to it mostly 7-8 hours a day when I go to sleep. The rain sounds really help me sleep faster and relax. The second one is G3m1nI's doppelganger face morph in 1 listen sub! It's my day sub that I listen to when I'm playing games and just chilling. I listen to it one to two hours a day.

Some results I'm getting is that, I'm starting to look more like Wonyoung! My last Pictriev similarity check with the same angle and pose, I am now 55% similar to her! 🎉

I have been noticing that my skin is clearer and more glowing than usual. My hair is much longer and thicker now. I was surprised how fast my hair grew recently. My eyes seem more sparkly too. My dancing skills are improving even more. My lips plumper and jawline sharper. My stomach got flatter. I also look a bit CGI, noticed that since I re-read the benefits. I used to hate my face tbh back then but I stopped focusing on that and using subs. Now I don't hate it as much, I love it! I look good even with just a tone up cream, blush and lip tint. Last thing I noticed is that I have less face fat now.

So that's all for now everyone! If I accidentally notice anything else I'll make another post!

Yours Truly,

Lady Rian Whistledown 💋

[sssammich]

📥 and/or 💻 if you feel up for it !

hello friend!! i am up for it

📥 What is your fave fic to receive comments/messages on?

well i like getting comments/messages on any fic tbh. i guess if i had to really pick one, i really enjoy getting messages for my events fics, so:

supercorp big bang

bumbleby big bang

swan queen winter solstice

and my sgmayhem rojarias

i am not sorry for linking them in case people wanna re/read

their writing process is just so different from how i function overall and the fact that the story has to be completed on a timetable and when there are multiple chapters that you can't spread it out you have to just post them all at once, so it's easy to kind of skip posting comments on them and just go straight to the end. so i enjoy when i get comments on fics where i spent such concentrated time and effort on in comparison to most of my fics that just kind come out of fever dream bursts more often than not.

💻 Do you do research for your fics? What’s the deepest dive you’ve done?

i am very boring and i do not research (this makes me feel extra bad as a librarian LMAO), not really. not beyond "let me make sure i'm not fully speaking out of my ass" by mostly confirming information i'm already mildly aware of. i'd *like* to be able to write a proper AU someday where it focuses on something specialized. my obsidian draft is actually open to a rosebird divorce AU right now where i'm looking at contract work because i'm writing Raven as a little bit of a butch contractor (so i'm just checking what is realistic for someone to DIY in a house they're building kind of like noah in the notebook). but that's the closest i have gotten tbh (spackling and drywalling im learning so much LMAO)

yeah sorry im boring otherwise i just be making shit up

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