#i am in a MOOD today and as soon as i think i've posted through it i see another post to make me even more mad

[comradecowplant]

oh shut up.

democrats & republicans don't "fucking hate each other" they are comrades in class war against evvvvvvery body else, i want to read this fanfiction where joe "if there was no israel the u.s. would have to create an israel" biden has made "gritted teeth diplomatic cracks" regarding israel because it simple has never happened, there is no ever-elusive illogical magic mystery why the U.S. always supports Israel-- money (AIPAC donos, arms sales, etc.) & key strategic location for U.S. geopolitical interests, zero rocket science or brain surgery required--, MENA is a place of human beings not your orientalist fatalist "🤷‍♂️ i guess middle easterners are just meant to die, it's how da cookie just crumbles 🤷‍♂️" bullshit, and please, even adrian zenz dropped the Xinjiang concentration camps story years ago.

[girlypopbops]

⋆˙⟡Ultimate Self Care Sunday Guide ⋆˙⟡

☆.。.:*·°☆.。.:*·°☆.。.:*·°☆.。.:*·°☆.。.:*·°☆.。.:*·°☆.。.:*·°☆

When I think about Sundays I think about rejuvenation and pleasure ; enjoying the day while doing a weekly reset.

On Sundays I like to sleep in and get that well deserved beauty sleep, the key to any successful reset is being well rested and grounded.

♡ (10:00am) Wake up, take my time waking up & lay in bed for a few mins, stretch and take some deep breaths, positive affirmations

"Today I am grateful for..."

"I deserve to treat my body with love and care today."

"I am committed to improving myself and achieving my goals daily."

♡ Open the blinds, straighten up room, and make bed. Starting the day with a bright and neat room is a simple and refreshing way to start the day off on the right foot, a small achievement as soon as you step out of bed will inspire you to keep going.

♡ Drink water & take my meds and supplements. Since it had been hours since I had any water hydrating is super important, and since I'm already taking my medicine might as well finish the glass off.

♡ Journal and plan day. Having a game plan and a clear mind before doing any real tasks sets the foundation for a productive day and promotes mindfulness. I like to have rose quartz, clear quartz, and amethyst on my desk while I journal to set peaceful intentions and promote self love. I have a five minute journal so I begin by thinking of 3 things I'm grateful for, one affirmation, and 3 things I can do for the day that will make it great. Typically on Sundays taking my time, being attentive, and being proactive are my goals for making the day great. I'll then make a to-do list for the day.

♡ Skin care and comfy clothes. Washing my face, moisturizing and putting on sunscreen is the perfect simple skin care for running errands, I usually wear some sweat pants and a t-shirt to finish the fit.

♡ Breakfast! I always like to have lots of fruit and a sweet treat on Sundays as part of my breakfast as a treat for getting through the prior week.

♡ Reset cleaning session. I like to do a full vacuum of my space, mop, wipe everything down, run the dish washer, and do my laundry. Other cleaning tasks vary based on the week but I like to make sure I am doing those tasks weekly. I also like to make sure to wash towels on Sunday since sometimes I'll do laundry on Wednesday and don't do towels then.

♡ Ultimate shower vibe time. The everything shower of my dreams after being all sweaty from cleaning. ( I have a post about this already on my page!)

♡ Light a candle and set the vibes with some mood lighting.

♡ Do my full skin care routine, face mask ect...

♡ A nice filling dinner & tv show. I love a Sunday night pasta dish with a Diet Coke while watching Pretty Little Liars.

♡ Journal. My five minute journal has a section to do in the evening, it asks to write down 3 highlights of the day and what lesson you learned for the day. It's a nice way to look back fondly on the day.

♡ Read. I like to read before bed since it helps me to fall asleep! I've been reading The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz and Conversations on Love by Natasha Lunn!

♡ (10:30pm) Night time meds & slumber!

[azziesbattybaddie]

Lady in red

Kinktober day 1 - First time/blood play

Vamp!Rhysand x reader

Rhys is always carful with you and absolutely never drinks from you, but when you finally decided to spend your first night together Rhys has some trouble controlling his hunger for you.

Word count: 1.2k

Requested: no

Warnings: smut(obviously), P in V, no protection(wrap it before you tap it guys), blood play, language, insinuated oral F receiving, vampire Rhysand(he is his own warning)

Content: 🔥

Author's note: so I've decided that I will be participating in kinktober this year but make it solely Acotar. This is day 1 so I'm super excited to start this year! Enjoy!

AN #2: oh look at that I'm already late posting, fyi I am in the middle of moving right now so if I miss a day or Im late posting I apologize but Imma try my best.

"you always look beautiful, y/n darling, but cauldron do you look absolutely radiant right now..."

Rhys stood at the doorway his hand nestled in his pockets as he leaned on the frame and simply admired your barley covered figure. You had waited for him upstairs laying under the sheets naked and waiting. you were still a virgin and you wanted your first time to be special so you decided to wait until you were really feeling the mood.

You had went with Rhys and his brothers to the gym today which is the reason you decided that tonight would be the night after seeing your boyfriend shirtless and dripping sweat as he sparred with his younger brother. The whole day you couldn't keep your mind off of wanting to lick your way from his distinct V-line to his neck. Obviously you hadn't realized that being immortal, means extended stamina and shit if I wasn't hot as fuck seeing Rhys keep moving for so damn long.

You laid under the thin sheets of your boyfriend's bed, laying bare as you waited for him to cross the room. He stalked forward as his eyes looked down your barley covered form as if he could see straight through the thin material. You leaned back on your hands and pushed your chest out with false confidence as the white fabric fell away from your chest.

Rhysand's eyes darked and stared at your exposed breasts and before taking a deep breath, dragging his eyes up to yours and lifting a knee to the bed as he crawled to you, his large frame coming to hover over you.

"as much as I want to absolutely devour you at the moment," he took a deep breath and closed his eyes taking a large inhale through his nose. "I haven't eaten in a few days and the last thing I want to do is lose control with you..."

Even though he was trying to talk himself out of taking you right then and there his body betrayed him. His hands found your waist, pulling the sheet down you expose more of your body to him. His eyes roamed over you as if he were thinking of all the things he wanted to to to you before twining his hand in the back of your hair and pulling your lips to his. His mouth was hot on yours and he pulled your body up to straddle his kneeling thighs, your lips still tangled with his. His scent filled your nose. He smells like old books and spices and leather.

"Rhys please, I trust you." You wrap your arms around his neck and grind yourself down on his lap desperately. Rhys growls as he looks down at your naked self. Gripping your waist as he guides your hips to rock against him again. The zipper of his pants, strained against his hardening cock, rubs deliciously against your clit.

You rake your hands down his chest and start trying to tear at his buttons. As soon as the honey tan skin of his stomach is revealed you shove him onto his back lightly and straddle his hips properly. You lean over him and cup his face in both hands before kissing him as tenderly as you can.

"I trust you..." You innunciante each word in hopes of convincing him to take your and stop worrying about his control. You felt his hands run up your skin and settle on your waist before your flipped on your back at an inhuman speed that made your head spin. You felt it before you registered what he had done exactly but you felt the head of him running over your slit gently.

"Look at me, darling I need you to promise me that if it hurts your going to tell me. Do you understand?" You nod your head furiously as your eyes are locked on the top of his cock barely dipping into your heat before returning. You felt like you were on fire watching but a hand gripped your chin firmly and tilted your head up to meet purple eyes. "Words, my love. I need you to use your words. Do you understand?"

"Yes Rhys, I understand ah-" you were cut off, barely getting the words out before you felt him start to sink into you. He buried his face in your neck and you felt the tiniest pricks of something sharp as he left open mouthed kisses in his wake, trying to distract you from any discomfort.

You bury your fingers in his hair tussling the locks and you feel him scratching you out. It bordered on pain but it felt so good at the same time that you hardly noticed. After a moment he bottomed out with a growl and withdrew himself before burying himself to the hilt again and licking a stripe from the valley of your breasts to your ear, nibbling on the lobe.

Rhys could feel and hear your heartbeat start to thunder in your veins and he picked up the pace. You could feel him, running your hands over his tense muscles as he thrusted unto you at a fast but gentle pace. You lock your ankles behind his back and arch your chest into him as he starts to hit a new angle.

You were lost in him. His smell, the feel of his skin, just the feel of him, it was all too much and not enough at the same time. You were begging for him too keep going, every thrust of his cock set fire to you body and you could feel a somewhat familiar burn starting to consume your stomach. That tugging in your abdomen every time the ridge of his cock rubbed against your clit as he pulled out to the top only to sink in again was maddening.

You were starting to teater on the edge your orgasm approaching at a startling pace. You tried to rock your hips against his, the bedframe creaking from your effort. The feeling of fire burning it's way through you was about to burst and you heard rhys mutter a curse to himself before a sharp pain radiated in the side of your neck. He pushed your hips down on the bed so he could drill into you as his fangs sank deep into your soft flesh, the taste of salt and sweet copper flooding his mouth as he let out a sinful groan at the taste.

"Ah- Rhys!" Yelling his name out as you came hard around him, the sickly sweet burn of his teeth in your neck throwing you head first over the edge. Rhys let your ride out your high for a few minutes before lapping at your neck to get the bleeding to stop and pulling his still rock hard cock out from you. He looked down as he did seeing a small trail of blood lacing his shaft.

"Rhys why did you stop, you didn't eve-" you didn't finish your sentence as he quickly kissed his way down your body and settled himself with his head between your legs.

"If you think I'm going to waste this little treat or that I even close to done with you tonight, than you are very much mistaken..."

[aki-chan2014]

Random collection of thoughts about Gyeongseong Creature Season 2

Though only the first three episodes and the very beginning of episode 4, because that's how far I've gotten so far. Anyway, in no particular order:

I have been put through the emotional wringer after seeing that Chae-ok had the bracelet after all this time, only to lose it, and her utter grief when she realised she lost it. But the fact Ho-jae picked it up...he'd better be the one to give it back to her, that's all I'm saying on that.

Seems like Ho-jae is actually Tae-sang, but actually doesn't remember?? And that this has something to do with the Najin stuff.

He must have been involved with Jeonseung (the company that's now doing the Najin stuff) somehow, since they all clearly seem to know him even if he doesn't know/remember them. But it's not clear if Ho-jae/Tae-sang ever had Najin implanted in him.

With that above point, I'd mostly lean towards no, but that conversation Ho-jae had with Yong-gil about what he was like in the past makes me wonder if it's actually more of a maybe? Because Yong-gil talks about him being angry and having trouble sleeping, and we know from Chae-ok that extreme stress/tiredness or blood loss can bring on the rampaging/hungry Najin urges. So perhaps what Yong-gil saw as mood swings was actually him struggling to supress the Najin side of him???

and also the references to an accident and the aforementioned Jeonseung (I THINK that that's what that biotech firm or whatever is called) and how they know of him seem to point that way, somewhat.

Anyway, how much of this Yong-gil knows isn't clear. He clearly knows there's more to Ho-jae's story than Ho-jae knows. And since his grandpa is Jun-taek (!!!!) who apparently asked him for a favour regarding Ho-jae (!!!!!!!!!!) he must know something of what happened in 1945. But I have a feeling he doesn't know the true extent of the Najin stuff, let alone the specifics of what's happening today. It will be interesting to know more about what's happening here though

let's be real, there's a lot we need to know about

ahem, anyway, it's quite interesting to note the paralles between how Tae-sang got involved in things in 1945 and how Ho-jae is in 2024. That is to say, both of them are unwilling, both have their livelihoods threatened, and both of them have to find someone.

and the parallels between how both Ho-jae and Tae-sang met Chae-ok!!!! And how in 1945, Tae-sang was the first one to be smitten and it took Chae-ok a while to return those feelings. And now, Chae-ok's feelings are the ones here first, and it's taking a while for Ho-jae's to resurface

I am very worried for the grandson of the Antenna lady, especially as he's going to be working in Jeonseung soon....

Anyway I have more thoughts but I am currently screaming mentally while trying to copy pictures off of my mum's phone so. This is all for now. I'll probably make a new post with new thoughts when I watch some of the other episodes.

[oflights]

wip snip 7.1

happy wip wednesday! i'm hoarding the last chapter of Glory (i promise it'll be up soon!) and i wanted to post a short snippet of my next fic, which i've been working on between traveling.

i've been calling it "egg fic" and the premise is that post-game gale and astarion are roommates (gasp) in waterdeep, and gale is very much in love with astarion and extremely tortured about it because they are just friends. then lae'zel shows up to ask them to look after a stolen githyanki egg, and gale has to take a break from pining to lose his mind over this egg. he still pines a lot tho.

here's a bit from the beginning:

“Astarion?” Gale calls, voice a bit wobbly with fear as he bursts into the sunroom. Astarion is lounging on his favorite chaise, flipping through a book in his lap, as shoeless and half-dressed as Gale is—Gale takes a panicked second to make sure he’d put on pants to sleep, which he did, though he’d unfortunately forgone a shirt. Astarion does have a shirt on, though it’s unbuttoned as if in deference to the unseasonably warm autumn they’re having, not that he really feels the heat. His pants are loose and billowy, clearly vying for comfort more than his usual skintight fare, though that doesn’t stop Gale from staring at him a bit too long and then looking away with a familiar twinge of guilt.     He had likely just come in from his own hunt, gotten comfortable, poured himself a glass of wine. He likes to watch the sunrise under the protective spells of the glass-encased sunroom Gale had built for him, and when Gale can wake up in time, he gets to watch Astarion watch the sunrise. It’s one of his favorite routines, nearly enough to make him a morning person. For a moment, Gale’s relief at seeing Astarion unharmed overtakes all feeling, and he’s a bit overwhelmed. This is something that happens a lot when he walks into a room and sees Astarion there, to be perfectly fair; it’s becoming a rather large problem that Gale has decided to ignore for as long as possible. Astarion lives with Gale, of course, which makes the problem crop up multiple times daily—he has to ignore it a lot. Astarion doesn’t even flinch when another roar sounds out above them; he just flips a page and says, “I think something just landed on the roof.” Gale stares at him, his heart pounding, then jumps as he hears very loud, stomping steps on the roof. Astarion flips another page in his book, then takes a sip of wine from a half-full chalice on the side table. “Astarion. Some—some creature, or monster, or aircraft—” “Gods, I hope not; I am not in the mood to be abducted onto a nautiloid today.” “—has just landed on the roof of our tower—” “Townhouse,” Astarion corrects absently, automatically. Gale glares, hard, relief starting to fade. “Oh, do not start with me on that—my point is that you are remarkably unconcerned that something has just—” “I’m assuming the wards will take care of it,” Astarion says, finally looking up. He immediately leers at Gale’s shirtless state, making him dearly wish he had grabbed for his dressing gown before rushing to make sure Astarion was all right. Gale flushes under Astarion’s gaze, which of course makes him leer harder, and makes Gale start to feel overwhelmed again—this is all a very familiar, rather torturous cycle. “While I appreciate your confidence in my warding abilities, this is still a rather alarming—” And of course the wards choose that moment to make their presence known, sending a loud, chiming magical alarm through the tower. It’s followed by muffled, irritable outbursts, not in Common but in a familiar tongue Gale hasn’t heard since their tadpoled days. Astarion also perks up at the sound of it, frowning curiously. “Lae’zel,” they say at the same time, and then both hurry towards the balcony off Gale’s study.

[kasagiggles]

HIHIHIIIIII I've been following your blog for a while, and I'd like to say I love your writing SO SO MUCHHH <3

(Im new n idk if I'm pressing the correct button or not help-)

Anw, can I request a fic with lee! Tsukasa?(Ilovehimsomuch) and maybe with ler! Kaito (don't blame me he's such a father) or just anyone else that you like!

I'm not forcing you so pls don't feel pressed! Take caree, I can't wait for more of your amazing post! ❤❤

HELLO!! 🩷

first of all i just wanna say i am so sorry for how long this took!! i finally pulled together some motivation and got it done and i thought this was so fun to write!!! i love kaito and tsukasas father son relationship sm 😞

and also welcome to tumblr!! tbh i still don’t know how to use this app but oh well! i love this community

i hope you like it!! :3

warnings: tickles!!! ☆

lee: tsukasa

lers: rin, len, kaito

his sekai was always a place he would visit when we was feeling under the weather. the bright colours and happy atmosphere always cheered him up. but today just didn’t feel the same. he dragged his feet, looking for someone to talk to. he stopped when he noticed that familiar blue haired figure, kaito.

maybe kaito would be able to help him.

“kaito…?” he approached the tall man. he was greeted with a friendly smile like always.

“tsukasa!! what brings you here today?” kaito had a sense that something was different, tsukasa wasn’t the same today.

“i just… needed an escape.” he muttered, avoiding eye contact. kaito hummed.

“how about a hug?” he smiled, opening his arms wide, inviting the boy warmly. tsukasa didn’t hesitate, immediately going to hug the blue figure. kaito always had the most healing hugs. tsukasa could never deny an embrace like that, for it made him feel so warm inside. normally when kaito hugs tsukasa, he can begin to feel the troubled boy loosen up his body, as the tension melted away. but this time, he was still as stiff as a brick. a simple hug wouldn’t do him any justice. kaito closed his eyes, thinking of ideas as he continued to hold him in his arms. and then it hit him.

“can you wait here for just a moment?” he gently pushed tsukasa away, firmly holding his shoulders. tsukasa replied with a gentle nod, sighing. kaito quickly made his way towards the stage.

“rin? len?” he called, searching for the twins. he was quickly greeted with two friendly faces.

“what’s up kaito?!!” rin cheered, her energy was through the roof as usual.

“hey you two, i need your help with something.” he said, getting straight to the point. the two blondes immediately listened in.

“so here’s what i wanna do…”

as time continued to pass, tsukasa sat alone on his favorite bench, fiddling with his fingers and tapping his foot. what could kaito possibly be doing? a slight tug on his sleeve snapped him out of his daze, it was one of the plushies.

“kasa…! can you please come help me? my friend got stuck on the ferris wheel!” the small animal cried. tsukasa was definitely not in the mood to help anybody right now, but as a star he needed to learn to put other people first.

“yeah, sure.” he said with a gentle smile, picking himself off the bench.

he followed the plushie for a few minutes, occasionally sighing. for some reason, the lively and festive atmosphere wasn’t making him feel any better.

eventually the boy realized, they weren’t heading in the direction of the ferris wheel at all.

“hey, the ferris wheel is that way.” he said quietly, scratching his neck.

“oh! ah… yes! i just need to get something real quick! please come with me!” the plushie begged, something was definitely not right. he nodded, following the animals trail.

he ducked through the entrance of the tent, only to find that he had lost the plushie.

“hello?” he called, looking around him. as his eyes wandered the stage, he felt somebody gently tackle him to the ground, hopping on top of him. he grunted, instinctively struggling. he stopped as soon as he recognized the person on top of him.

“rin? what are you doing?” he scoffed, squirming under the girl. he was too distracted to notice the second person behind him who had quickly grabbed his wrists. “h-hey?! what’s the big idea?!” at this point, he was getting frustrated, he didn’t have time for their antics today.

“tsukasa, please just try to relax.” that familiar voice came back, kaito finally made his reappearance.

“kaito? what is going on here?!” he snarled, the vocaloids were taken aback, for they rarely saw their star in such a foul mood.

“please, just trust me, i think this will help.” kaito warmly smiled at him, leaning down and brushing his bangs out of his face.

“can you close your eyes for me?” he asked, his voice laced with kindness and warmth.

tsukasa sighed, trying to make sense of this all, there was no point in trying to get out of this, for he was effectively pinned down on the ground.

he slowly closed his eyes, his body still tense. he heard faint mumbles coming from his attackers. “ah!! this is…. where do… first?” he recognized that voice as len, the one holding his arms up.

eventually, he began to get lost in his own thoughts. his body had finally begun to loosen up. but this moment of relaxation would cease to exist after he felt ten nimble fingers gently stroking his stomach. he choked, holding back a laugh. the sudden feeling instantly caused him to squirm and fight for his freedom.

rin and len were stronger than he thought… he really couldn’t escape their grasp.

“k-kaihahato?” he said through laughter.

unfortunately kaito decided to make his presence known by sneakily slipping off his shoes and gently scratching at his socked feet.

the poor tsukasa screamed and began to kick, as laughter uncontrollably poured from his mouth.

he couldn’t keep his eyes closed at this point, he opened them to be met with three smiling faces.

“TICKLE ATTACK!!!” the twins cheered at the same time.

“WHAHAHAT?? let mehe gohoho!” he squealed, bucking his hips as rin began to gently squeeze his sides.

as much as he didn’t want to admit it, he was stuck, with absolutely no way of getting out of this predicament. after minutes of struggling, his body finally gave up as he gave in to the tickles, laughing like crazy.

the unpredictable fingers dancing on his feet and the gentle squeezes of his stomach were driving him mad. he pulled at his arms as hard as he could, but len had them tightly secured.

“STOHOHOHOP!!!” he pleaded, tears forming in the corner of his eyes. his smile was extremely bright, despite his previous bad mood.

the fingers dancing along his skin felt like little zaps of electricity that sent shivers down his spine. the tingly feeling was unbearable yet enjoyable.

rin mischievously lifted up his shirt, revealing his flushed stomach. damnit! kaito must’ve told them about that…

“nohohoho!!! not thahat!” he squealed, beginning to squirm around.

rin grinned, as she gently wiggled her finger in tsukasas belly button. he screamed and laughed incredibly loud, bucking and squirming to try and escape the tickly feeling. as embarrassing as it was, his belly button was extremely sensitive.

“ILL DO ANYTHIHING!!” he pleaded, shaking his head with bright explosions of laughter.

after several more minutes of the tickly torment, the three vocaloids finally got off of him.

all that was left was a blushing tsukasa panting for air, as he clutched his now sore stomach.

he hated to admit it, but it worked. his mood was effectively boosted, and all of his tension and frustrations had melted away.

kaito leaned down beside him, “are you feeling better, star?”

he nodded with flushed cheeks, embarrassed that something so silly was able to make him feel better like that.

he felt a hand on his shoulder, “we will always be here for you tsukasa.” kaito grinned.

tsukasa couldn’t help but smile, he would never be where he is today if he didn’t have this friendly faces supporting him all the way through. and for that, he was truly grateful.

[exo-wvrse-bbl]

01/04/24 - chen

Hello!?💫

I've been doing well today!

Even though it was Monday

It's the 5th anniversary of my solo debut

Until April Fool's Day😎

It was not a boring day👍

Jongdae time!!🫡

I love you, Soondaengies 💛

I set the alarm🐈

Some Soondaengies are copying what I say now?!

Okay

Are you copying the Soondingie Captain? ㅋㅋ

You're being naughty 😎

Hello?

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

I am with Kim Jongdae forever 👍

I feel good about this😎

Why don't you copy this?😎

Hurry up and copy me, Soondaengies🦖 *

Can't post a picture ㅋㅋ**

It's my victory ✌️

It was a good game Soondaengies❤️

It's spring weather these days

It's hot during the day…

So I went to drink Iced Americano and eat Kaymak 🥴

What kind of dessert do you like?

Wow….

I have a good idea

Let's share dessert tomorrow

I like it the most too! It's good to choose according to your mood! It's nice to be have something interesting! Everything is okay!!

Good 👍

If you're on diet, you can drink something😎

I'm thinking about what to eat tomorrow ㅋㅋㅋ

I like gelato too…

I like waffles too…

I like snacks at the convenience store…

That's too many🫠

Anyway! Let's share it tomorrow💛

The tag is #SDJD #SOON. Should I add one more like this?

Then

Now

How about binge-watching the first solo album together?

There are breakup songs but since it's April Fool's Day, think the opposite 💛

If you listen to my first solo album

I paid a lot of attention to the pronounciation

I'm embarrassed ㅋㅋ

The next song is!

I think it's a song we can't leave out

This is not April Fool's Day😎

I was really nervous during the showcase🫠

It's the next song✌️

But it was an unforgettable memory!

Overall, the first album

Should I say it's a sad atmosphere?

I don't know the expression "stuffy" would be translated…;

Portrait of you🎵

I have something to say about this song

"Should we just go with the English demo lyrics?"

I was recording the English lyrics…

There was an episode that ended up having Korean lyrics…

Of course, the lyrics came out really well, so there was no problem

That's what happened 😎

I like this song too💛

I'm not greedy when it comes to writing lyrics

There are some songs that I want to write too

One of them👍

The theme of the lyrics is amazing

I was sleeping, and I had a dream about flower petals falling one by one??

I woke up at that time and wrote this song as I woke up ㅎㅎ

It was amazing for me too;;

Now

Indispensable

I heard it yesterday too💛

It's definitely my favorite song from the first mini album

Actually, this wasn't the title song

I was trying to strengthen my heart with 'Love words'

This song touched my heart..

The lyrics and melody were so impressive..

It's been a while since I binge-watched my first mini album💛

It's fun to talk while listening to the album together👻

Let's listen to it together next time! I had so much fun today😎

Once again, thank you for congratulating me on my 5th anniversary💛 It was fun chatting with you on April Fool's Day! I hope you guys got through Monday well❤️

See you again✌️

Tomorrow's dessert! Let's do it together!!!

This isn't April Fool's Day, so don't forget!!😎

🔜🩷 See you again!

*soons on twitter decided to prank chen by having the same dp and desc as him and copying back all his messages to him **only artists can share pics on bubble hence soons being unable to copy that message

source in desc

[fadeintoyou1993]

💕Positivity prime time! Share five things you love about yourself, four things you're excited about, OR three people you care deeply about and why. Pass this along to someone whose posts make you smile💕

this is so cute i'll do all of them bc i'm in a good mood today :)

5 things i love about myself

i love how resilient i am :) i used to think i wasn't and i just was weak as hell and everything was too hard but by learning my limitations & understanding how the things i've been through over the years (especially growing up In My Context undiagnosed w several mental disorders) have affected me & made me into who i am today and i love that even if things get pretty bad now, i know i'll get through it somehow

i love my sense of humor. i really think i'm so funny and i'm not sorry everytime i make someone laugh i feel like i've won a million dollars

i love how passionate i am about things because whenever it gets too hard to keep going or even seeing a reason to, things i love and care about can take me out of that mindspace pretty quickly

i love my tattoos! even the smallest ones have special meanings to me and i grew up obsessed w them and wanting to have them for so long and i think it's so awesome that I just. Get to have them now. awesome

i think i'm a pretty patient/understanding/forgiving person? not w myself (altho i'm working on it so hard and it kinda shows by the first item) but i think that i'm a good friend/person that people can count to and feel comfortable to be themselves around me. sometimes it's to my own detriment (i'm also working on it but codependency is so hard) but idk i like that like, i'm not good at socialization offline due to autism, but within this little community i have built for myself over the years i have known and kept up friendships with people from different places/contexts/lives and i just. really love having friends lmao i guess that's two things? but well here u go

4 things i'm excited about

i'll have a yellowjackets watchparty sleepover w my friends on saturday!!! i'm excited abt that :)

i get the stitches off my mouth on friday HOPEFULLY so i'm also excited to be able to like. Open my mouth without feeling like i'm going to die

i'm excited to get my tracy chapman vinyl! my cousin went on a trip to são paulo w her bf last week and she said she found an awesome used record store that she wants to take me too sometime and she remembered i mentioned i was looking for this one when we were talking about the records i want ♡ i should get it sometime next week I think!!!

i'm excited to get my updated assessment results this month 😭 i miss being medicated so fucking bad my god... BUT SOON!!!!!

3 people i care about & why

@scre6m -> well dee is my bestest friend in the whole world like i dont know how we have spent most of our lives not knowing each other & icb we only know each other for lile 4 years. they r literally like a brother / sister / soulmate i've never had anyone in my life i can be so vulnerable with & know that they feel the same way like genuinely i've learned a lot abt myself / friendship / love / life in general by having a friend like him & i literally cannot imagine not having them in my life i'd probably die fr fr. dee has helped me understand i'm allowed to be myself unapologetically & i literally cannot even explain how much he means to me. whenever we have lil misunderstandings & spend like 3 hours without talking bc we r both stubborn n dumb (affectionate) its literally like in bottoms 2023 when josie and pj fight and complicated by avril lavigne is on and josie is kicking cans (dee) and pj is being a stupid bitch eating canned food on the stairs (me) literally just like that. i cannot imagine life not being tweedle bru to their tweedle dee frfr. anyways yea dee is my person 🫂 i hope in like 30 years we live in a big weed farm like in popstar: never stop never stopping

@blackfairyemoji -> tami is literally like a little sister to me like i love showing her things & love learning abt the things she cares about & i'm always like rooting so much for her. she is so incredibly talented and smart and one of the funniest people on EARTH like i'll remember some shit she said while i'm doing something and i'll just start laughingjdkdkdk she is so creative & kind & such a beautiful person inside and out and i cannot wait to see her do big things bc i know she will!! trust n believe!! thats my lil sister genuinely. and the fact she is literally the exact same age as my brother makes it all so much real frfr. my dream is to be present for the first time she gets high and listens to music

@nightmarebees -> MY WHITE DAD JACKIE BEAR.... literally love jackie so much like from the moment i saw her blog back in like 2018? or 2019? im bad w numbers but i rmr reading her description and she literally had all of my very specific niche interests listed and i was like. Dude what. we have got to become friends. and we DID!! jackie is such a kind, understanding, funny, loving person and quite literally the smartest person i know. like she knows so much whenever i have a question about something i'm like hey dad what the fuck is____ and she's like thank you for asking, and it's incredible. i love talking to her about media & literature and getting really fucking meta about things bc jackie understands and helps me organize my thoughts w her big historian brain. she's truly one of the best people i know! and i cannot wait to try her baking 🥺

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i've got like. five different books i'm in the middle of reading right now LOL they all scratch different itches. im going to try to read 52 books this year which seems like a lot but half of what i read are graphic novels so it's not that bad, im already ahead of schedule. maybe i'll post little blurbs on my thoughts as i finish each (would probably be a good brain exercise). "shelving" anything i don't plan on finishing any time soon.

At 30 I Realized I Had No Gender - a memoir by a 50 y/o intersex person living in japan. it's been interesting to see cultural similarities and differences, as well as a perspective from an older trans person, and is usually what i pick up when i want something lighter. it's fun to read just hasn't sunk its claws into my brain like some other books (including books i've read recently that i hated)

Akira Vol 1 - reading through the entire series this year. hasnt grabbed me quite the same way the movie did, i think because what got me obsessed (and i mean a literal obsession) with the movie was a lot of the mood set by music and artistic choices. sup early on, but again my hang up here is just that it hasnt hooked me emotionally so far

The Dispossessed - ok SORRY. im having trouble with this one. i havent read a lot of le guin, my main engagement with her work is omelas. still very early into this one, but the writing style feels very detached and reserved compared to omelas. i assume of course the voices for each piece were developed specifically for the needs of each, which are VERY different but idk. i hope it picks up, if it doesn't i'll try earthsea and if i don't like that le guin just may not be for me:/

goodnight punpun vol 1 - grabbed this on a whim at a local bookstore today, has been on my list for a LONG time. it's great so far as expected. i generally know that the story gets really dark, and seeing the tone i understand why people get so distinctly unsettled by it. excited to keep reading:) since this one has my attention the most right now it's my book of the week

capitalist realism is there no alternative - i have like one chapter of this left LOL. im awful about reading theory but im just trying to remember how to use me noggin right so i'll worry about nonfiction later. might finish this as a commute audiobook. would shelve this but since i have so little of it left i might as well try and finish it soon

house of leaves - i was so excited to read this last year when i decided to start reading again i picked it up immediately. unfortunately i am still regrowing the brain cells necessary to follow this competently for the time being. SHELVED!

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WIPs Status Update

I am fairly confident no one cares what I am up to, but I haven't done one of these in ages so I figured I should.

In Progress Fanfic

Outlaws of the Whispering Woods

This fic is on temporary hiatus because I'm working on finishing it as part of the @wipbigbang. Participation in that event means I can't update that fic again until the posting period starts on September 8th BUT that once that posting period begins, I should have both art for the new chapter as well as regular updates through November until the fic is done which should be exciting. 

That said, there is still like 60k ish to go in that story so if it looks like I'm not going to be able to get it all done in time, I might swap it out for the Chipped Glimmer fic which has also been languishing in WIP hell because it's shorter and easier for me to get done on time. I'd prefer to use the event as a kick in the pants to finish OotWW, though, so we'll see.

Prince Glowyn the Fourth

This fic is 100% complete at last, I just have one chapter left to post and will be doing that sometime within the next week.

Going There

Just about four years after I started it, Going There is finally done as well! (Literally just finished it today!) "Done" in this case means I finally rewrote the back end and filled in the missing connecty bits I never wrote the first time so everything's written, it's just going to take me an unknown quantity of time to edit and post each of the chapters. But less time than rewriting it all took so I expect those last few updates to come fairly regularly once I get them started.

Coming Home

I have always said that I wanted to wait to continue this fic until Going There was done so now that I have finally finished it, the sequel can get my attention more regularly again. That said, with everything going on with the WIP Bang, posting the rest of Going There, running the Big Bang and posting my own Bang fic (plus, like, all the other IRL stuff i have to do this summer), I really don't anticipate getting it updated anytime before the fall at the earliest and even then who knows.

Also, because this is my last in-progress canon fic I'm not in a huge rush to get it out there, I'd rather take my time with it, so I'm fine with that timeline. It'll get updated when it gets updated.

Area First Ones

In my head, this is episodic and while i have five chapters written, I have some things I want to add in between so it's not as simple as just cleaning and posting those. So basically, this one will be one of those fics I update when I update here and there with no set timeline other than my whims.

Coming Soon!

My Big Bang fic is called Horse Girl Everyone and it's the long awaited Riding School AU! 

That one is going to be longgggg and basically never-ending and episodic (seriously, we're over 50k words and while Catradora have been circling each other for chapters Glimmer and Bow literally only just met and you KNOW how I feel about Glimbow). I was hoping to write enough in advance that I could do some kind of regular update schedule at the start but because I'm also running the Bang and having some annoying medical stuff going on, I think that's not happening.

I've written a ton in advance, don't get me wrong, I just don't see myself having time to revise it all and post weekly with everything else going on. But we'll see!

Anything else?

Well, yeah, lots of stuff but it's not fandom related so I can't tell you about it. ;-) Though maaaaybe I might have the chance for some of you to help me beta some of my original stuff in the near future if you're willing so keep an eye out for that.

I'm trying to have less things in progress at once so, though I have other fanfic projects in various states of completion, I'm purposely not going to even think about posting any other multi-chaps until GT and OotWW are done. 

One shots and shorts? Yeah, I'll be throwing those up randomly as the mood strikes, you know how I roll. I'm eyeing up the Domaystic 2024 prompts to see which ones call to me right now.

So I have other stuff planned for later but I'm not even going to tease it because we'll see how everything shakes out.

This year has actually been absolutely horrible health wise but weirdly productive writing wise so it's been a mixed bag but at least nice to get some stuff done!

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Just an update :)

~ November 15th, 2024, Friday ~

(but also technically the 16th because I lost my train of thought halfway through the post, and the 17th because I finally posted it then...shhh)

Enjoy the photo I chose from Pinterest today: we're trying to feel the peace that is captured in it. ;)

Hello and welcome back to the Book Nook! It feels like it has been quite some time since I've written a blog post. I kept meaning to start writing one, but I think I might've been putting too much pressure on what kind of post I wanted to write. Until finally, I told myself, "hey, you can just write an update post; you enjoy those." So. Here we are.

I hope you have been well or at least as well as you can be since my last post! And if life feels like it hasn't been kind to you; it'll get better. <3 That's a reminder that I need to keep in mind too. And that I really don't need to be doing something all of the time. It's truly okay to just sit and be, allowing yourself to not think but think at the same time. It's like, your thinking doesn't have to be constantly about what the answer is to something or pondering the great mysteries of the universe or wondering if what you believe is "right." Your thinking can be calmer than that. And it doesn't mean you're behind. <3

I think I needed that paragraph, I hope you found something in it too.

~ General updates on life ~

Life has been...a bunch of different descriptive words. I am also coming up on some pretty big changes that are going to be happening soon that part of me is terrified for but another part of me is ready for the change. Overall, I think it'll be beneficial. We'll just try not to think of the world as ending within that time. ;)

It hasn't been awful, really, no. Just difficult, for sure. It honestly feels like a lot of effort to do anything other than waking up and reading my books. I don't really want to do anything else, just live in story land. Although, I just had a sleepover with my best friend that was really so much fun. (That's right, you're never too old for sleepovers.) And this weekend I'll be at my sister's place and I think it'll be super nice to get out of my hometown for a bit. Only 45 minutes out of it, but still, it helps nevertheless.

Tonight I have something to look forward to as well: Dungeons and Dragons! (Yes, I am a Proper Nerd.) Our sessions are always full of chaos and fun. I play a character named Kylin Kiels, who is a wood-elf bard. She's got a super fun tragic backstory-we love those-and amazing fighting skills. (Only if you count singing "ABC, it's easier than 1, 2, 3!" to fight off an army of crabs, amazing.) (It didn't work.) So role-playing in a fantasy game = a great time, I highly recommend.

~ BOOK UPDATES ~

It's time for my favorite kind of update!! ;) Before I get into it, Imma just make it clear that I am a HUGE mood reader-if you haven't already come to that conclusion yourself-and if I start a book and I end up not feeling it...it usually goes back on the shelf. Because if it doesn't, it'll sit on my nightstand or near my bed somewhere with a bookmark in it that isn't going to be moving forward any time soon and then my book pile will PILE up and I'll get stressed out. So. Yeah. I hope you enjoyed that little glimpse inside my brain.

Guess what book I've been rereading???? The Fault In Our Stars by John Green!! :D No seriously, lately that's all my brain has been itching to read. And by lately I mean the past two days. People. People. It's so good.

Another main book I've been reading that I actually haven't read before: Christmas Eve Love Story by Ginny Baird. It's a Christmas rom-com (obviously) and I'm loving it. The main character, Annie, keeps repeating Christmas Eve, but instead of it being the exact same day over again, there's changes here and there. The love interest, Braden, works at the mall Annie does and they have a connection, peopleeeee. It's a really cute rom-com and the Christmas feels are all over. ;)

Those are really the main ones I'm reading currently. I did start this middle grade graphic novel that I'm enjoying the easy-read-feel of it. Sweet Valley Twins: Best Friends by Francine Pascal. To be honest though, I’m not sure if that one will get finished by me either. The middle school girl drama is a little much for me, but other than that, I’ve been liking it.

Continuing the book talk, I am currently finishing up-or hoping to-this blog at a coffee shop in a bookstore. Barnes & Noble, to be exact. A great bookstore. A new one recently opened near where my sister lives so we’re spending a good chunk of the day here, surrounded by books. *cue contented, dreamlike sigh* ;) As I was browsing earlier, there was a table for The Assistant to the Villain books, by Hannah Nicole Maehrer. I forget if I’ve mentioned them, I think I have in a past post but you’re going to hear about them again. SUCH GOOD BOOKS AHHHHH!!! They are probably my favorite Romantasy books. (romance + fantasy, for those of you who don’t know) Granted, no, I haven’t read a Whole Ton of Romantasy books, but these ones will always be some of my top ones. I LOVE the humor in them SO MUCH. I think that’s something that I’ve been realizing: I enjoy reading fantasy books more if they aren’t as serious. I was just discussing this with my sister too. She is an AVID fantasy reader. And I love fantasy, but I have to be in the right mood for it. But as we were talking about Assistant to the Villain and Fourth Wing (I’m sure you’ve heard of this one, if you haven’t read it…READ!) and kind of comparing them, she said Fourth Wing has a lot more of a serious fantasy vibe, while Assistant to the Villain and Apprentice to the Villain (the second one) are funny fantasy. And like I said, I LOVE the Villain books, so maybe I should read more funny fantasies. (I already looked some up, ahaha.) On the table they’ve got a cute lil’ plushy of Kingsley-honestly the character that carries the books-sticker packs galore, keychains, and everything, it’s amazing.

One last book update...I did indeed leave the bookstore with a Romantasy book that I'm hoping will be pretty funny. If not, I'm probably going to try my best to read it all the way through, because this book is GORGEOUS. It's called Bull Moon Rising by Ruby Dixon. The cover of the book is so pretty and the page edges are amazing. Just look at it:

It's so pretty. :,) I'm only about three chapters in, but I have pretty good hopes for it. :)

~ Ending updates ~

Just some random updates to start bringing this blog to a close…I’ve been putting a lot more focus on my relationship with Jesus and it’s been so amazing. For the past few days, I was doing some Bible research that started out good but kind of turned negative. Not because of the Bible but because of how I started looking at it. Like I was trying to prove something to be right or wrong, which I do not think is a good reason to read God’s word. It should be to get to know God more and feel His presence! So, I decided it was probably a good idea for me to step back from doing specific Bible research and just spending time in His word; reading and listening to what He’s telling me through the Bible. This morning I started reading Ecclesiastes and one of my favorite passages was chapter 3, verses 1-8. Verse one is so lovely: “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens.” (NIV)

I think time spent diving into God’s word is a great way to spend time. :) Doing this way of Bible study has helped keep a consistent relationship with not only God but also with reading the Bible. Journaling to Jesus is also a super helpful habit that I try to do everyday, even if it’s only a sentence or two some days. And even if it’s something that ends up not happening on a day, I try not to beat myself up about it because that’s not from Jesus! Journaling to Him is simply another way to create a connection with Him and talk to Him. Sometimes it feels easier to write down what I want to talk to God about instead of relying solely on saying it out loud. I am also a writer-obviously-and I’ve been journaling since I could remember, so it’s something I love to do. :) 

Now that I have made this blog post much longer than I meant it to be…I hope you are having a wonderful time and thank you for tuning in. You are amazing. :) 

Until the next one,

Thalia <3

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February 2008

February 3, 2008

“Try lying for a change, it's the currency of the world.”

its oddly haunting the way that sometimes entries from a year ago can reflect perfectly how i feel today.

its like an echo sent out over the weeks and months and pages of the calendar.

not always but sometimes.

a few weeks ago i considered mentioning the fact that while i once wrote "every new years is worse than the last" i didnt feel that way anymore

oh eight had broken the january curse

now im glad i didnt

cuz i realized it might not have

it may have just pushed it back a month

or extended it, depending on how this all looks on play-back

i find it a bit odd to be waiting for retrospect

Posted by xoat 10:41 PM

February 12, 2008

“honestly, afraid. i cant ever sleep either.”

Put the the planets in swing

Make jupiter sing

The afternoon light

Ignites

The back of my head

Spend years trying to cloud our head and not feel a thing

Just to turn around and erase the clouds so we can remember everything

Throw handcuffs on that boy

When the check comes he never pays

His cheekbones carve my moods

He shakes like a leaf

He's clicking like an old answering machine

He howls at the moon

He's breathes wet thru insect eyes

Canyon lights at night chase away the boring days

And I don't worry about death because I've seen the date I'm gonna die and its so far away.

Posted by xoat 1:55 AM

February 16, 2008

“part two (i forget so much of what i write its beginning to scare me).”

hes a lonely planet

dont stir and wake

everythings ok

give or take

the cats got the canary spinning in its ribcage

did i mention i came dressed for the intervention

(and if you were dying soon would you try to find snow in the deep summer

the june bugs dancing in wonder

and i still wonder now

if my words will stil turn you inside out)

hes a honeyjar

with that pretty face, lets never lose the lid

and keep those rosey lips in

(he breathes wet through insect eyes)

in multiples of four, no less than sixteen

sandmans been showing his beam

when he walks into a room the walls lean in to listen

keep a calendar this way youll know the last time you came through

oh.

"i know what youre going through"

well i dont- its more of a "paper or plastic" grocery store choice to me

but ill sympathize with anything to get through to you

do you know what its like to watch reruns of yourself night after night

to offer nothing and expect everything in return

to cock your head just right to appear arrogantly humble

if we hurry well make the morning edition

cos everybody likes to read the bad news

theyve tapped the phone be very careful what you say

speak in code about singing birds and sleepy eyed women

his heads a junkyard for rusted midnight thoughts

hes criminally carefree

when the pills swallow the worry

hes digging like forty nine

hes making you press rewind

hes a thunderstorm so bright you shut your eyes

he is a hurricane

Posted by xoat 3:15 AM

February 18, 2008

“mc hammer and miss piggy bank”

i get bright ideas in dark rooms

red rooster combs on our head

we are galaxies

a catipillar that got stuck

mr moth come quick with any luck

long walk in a dark house

a roman candle heart

keep us far apart

tour is just thinking you have been in every hotel, club or truck stop before.

it is deja vu personified.

all full of love so much that my teeth are floating.

February 19, 2008

“the oxidation of Joan of Arc.”

the mind drinks less and less.

impatience.

highways full of crowds going somewhere, somewhere, somewhere, nowhere.

The gasoline refugee.

Towns turn into motels,

people in nomadic surges from place to place,

following the moon tides,

living tonight in the room where you slept this noon and I the night before.

Posted by xoat 12:31 AM

[thelichensystem]

FIRST UPDATE - 2:16 AM, 5/20/2024 - 3:39 AM, 5/20/2024

Current mood: A little bit blank/tired + blank + lonely

Overwhelmed?: Honestly? Maybe a tiny bit. I can hear every single noise :[

Watching on youtube: A wifeswap episode review by Grim regarding a Karen

Lonely?: very, nobody's here

Current task: Writing this/watching youtube/trying not to miss everyone

Snacks?: None rn, will probably make chicken mac n cheese soon though. Might have some strawberries with it, or a cakepop.

(UPDATE: thinking about food DID produce food guilt)

Mad at parents?: Not particularly, haven't been thinking about it

Mad at friends?: Not really, though a bit upset at my secondary friend group for their recent lack of care towards my mental condition/ignoring my vents.

Relationship thoughts (OH BOY THIS SECTION IS LONG!): Whilst I miss my boyfriend, I'm currently concerned. He seems to want me to be Catholic too, which is understandable considering he's in the religion and seems to believe it strongly. I don't really think I'm in the correct mental state to join a religion, and I'm scared our relationship will just become him trying to convert me instead of loving me for me. I don't like it. I've also really been craving more affection, but I always feel like I'm pressuring/bugging him/being too clingy when I try to initiate anything. I worry this is just due to me possibly having an issue with hypersexuality, though I still won't deny my emotions. I wish I knew how to tell him this, but whenever I try to have a serious conversation about things I need from a relationship, I feel extreme fear/guilt, and typically end up backing down. I think this is due to me being deeply afraid that any sort of conversation/me asking for help with my needs might lead to a breakup, and I really want to marry this guy, so I'm holding back on having a conversation about things I feel I'm not getting enough of. I really like when he compliments me, and I wish I knew if he likes my body, or if he's attracted to a different body type so I can try and look like that. I wish I knew if he found me attractive. I personally find him attractive physically, but ESPECIALLY as a person. (physical attraction happens to me so rarely that honestly I'm surprised even though he's objectively hot, I'm acespec) He manages to seem dominant enough that I don't feel how Alex made me feel- I was always pressured to be a top when I'm genuinely not, I'm a very submissive person. I also can't tell if he knows I'm hypersexual due to trauma, or if he thinks I'm just overly flirty when drunk (this is actually due to the fact I struggle to control my words when I'm drunk, I almost always feel a deep, unnatural level of attraction and borderline lust towards him.) I don't know if I want him to,, Be more nsfw because I genuinely can't tell if, 1, he'd be comfortable (if he isn't comfy I don't want it AT ALL.), 2, if I'd be comfortable, (I'm at a weird place in life where I both want to be sexualized and am still repulsed/scared of sex) and 3, if he even finds me sexually appealing considering how ugly I objectively am. I also don't know if he's a top, and I *need* any sexual partners to have the correct level of dominance or else I'll be reminded of Alex. (Update: Due to knowing he'll likely see this, I am now worried, along with considering deleting it. However, I will be posting it anyways. I need to have communication, even if it's through posting like I am right now. This account will be private anyways.)

Alcohol/Drugs: I've gotten high several times, and plan to take an edible right now to keep me occupied whilst alone. I haven't drank today yet. (It's 3:34 am)

Feelings on my body?: I hate how dirty my nails are. I feel my hair is a complete mess. I need lip balm. I need to shave again. I feel so fat, like, I really wish I was thin. I need a shower really bad. My clothes are filthy... Do I look stupid sitting here? 200+ pounds is a horrible weight to be at for a 4"10 person. My teeth are awful. My nose is too big. Are my ears a weird shape? I don't even know if plastic surgery can fix this. My hair is so frizzy dude I hate this.

( Update: Significantly sadder. :[ )

[luxnebula]

Today I'm listening to Ghost Mile from 2017. I'm very excited for this because it's one of the best albums from Voyager. I'm going to gush about this album so hard under the cut LOL!

The opening song, Ascension, immediately sets an immaculate vibe with the dream-like guitars and switches the mood soon after with the rougher guitars. The song has so many good vibes and sounds, you can't help but just hang on for dear life and let it wash you away. Daniel's vocals during the chorus are so good too, I can't understate how much this song slaps. With how the song has so many tempos and mood shifts, it's pretty hard to believe that it's about not wanting to get out of bed in the morning!

This actually brings me to the topic that I've teased talking about many many times in previous posts: the concept and mood of melancholy. I've noted many times that early Voyager used to have a lot more traditionally melancholic and slow songs. Listening to Modern Voyager(TM), you might think that melancholy is absent from their sound now, but it's actually just... hidden? Disguised? Dressed up with faster tempos? I'm not sure how to describe what they're doing, but it's insanely good. You can hear it immediately in the first two songs of Ghost Mile: Ascension and Misery is Only Company could be counted as "melancholic" or "slow" in a way, but they have a really energetic take on it. To the Riverside of course is a traditionally slow song, but it's incredibly atmospheric and it seamlessly transitions to the faster title track, Ghost Mile. And that transition, as a side note? It slaps so much, oh my god, I cannot understate how much it slaps! The tension starts to build at the end of To the Riverside and before you can process it, the guitars slam in and you're in Ghost Mile. It's so good. This Gentle Earth is also somewhat slow, but it has a very uplifting mood and it builds up speed as it goes.

Daniel's vocals just keep getting better and better. Misery is Only Company and Lifeline are songs that I can't listen to without singing along because the vocals are just so captivating and Daniel makes it sound so easy (again!). The note on the word "shine" in Lifeline's chorus is an especially good example of this. Daniel lets the note flutter down gently like a leaf in the wind, but when I try to sing along, I run out of breath LOL!

Ghost Mile has so many strong, attention-grabbing and captivating openings to songs. Ascension, Lifeline and This Gentle Earth especially open incredibly well, but Misery is Only Company and The Fragile Serene also deserve an honourable mention.

Ghost Mile isn't as synth-heavy as, say, Colours in the Sun or even V before it, but it still has something unique in its sound. I think that it's this album where Voyager has grown their beard and found their niche and unique sound. I think it says something about how much I like this album when there are only two songs that I haven't added to my Voyager faves playlist.

Speaking of synths, the song that does have them, What a Wonderful Day, uses them in a fascinating, dark way. It kind of reminds me of Lost from I Am the Revolution or The Meaning of I. It sounds very different from the light and bright way synths are used in Colours in the Sun and Fearless in Love.

As a side note, there is a song titled Disconnected. Remember that for my Colours in the Sun review.

The last two songs, This Gentle Earth and As the City Takes the Night, are one of the most perfect album-ending songs I've heard. This Gentle Earth is an emotional, uplifting, piano-heavy song that especially strikes a chord with me with the repeated line "I've never felt so alien". As the City Takes the Night also opens with atmospheric piano, but it quickly pulls a hard left and slaps you with rough guitars. It really puts the "prog" in "prog metal" when it takes you through a lot of different sound textures that flow into each other while still sounding cohesive and natural together. When the song settles to its end, you feel like you're out of breath, deservedly so, and in a good way. It feels like you're settling down from a long flight on a hoverboard after a chase scene through the gritty streets of a cyberpunk dystopia. Also the way the last line of lyric is the same as the first lyric in Ascension? Poetic cinema. Pure brilliance.

This is such a good album. The songs flow with each other really well and the internal flow of each song is also well crafted and natural. Ghost Mile has some of my top favourite Voyager songs (Ascension, Misery is Only Company and Lifeline). I would also argue that it's a god gateway album for someone who wants to get into heavy metal, but feels intimidated by "heavier" heavy metal bands (although my recommended order would be Colours in the Sun -> Fearless in Love -> Ghost Mile, in order of increasing heaviness, but I digress).

Tomorrow it's Colours in the Sun's turn, which is my favourite Voyager album. I can't wait!

[one-time-i-dreamt]

Usually people tell me that I'm v caring and especially that I can make fast friends with anyone and everyone and that you can put me in any room with any number of people and I'll end up leaving with multiple friends lol

TBH, always and forever it's been my mom. She hasn't had the easiest of lives but she's rocked it through every challenge she's faced. She's super strong, way stronger than me.

My favorite person in my world will forever be my grandpapa. I miss you papi. Always and forever. I feel your presence in everything I do and I know you're with me and I'm with you, too.

Dogs. DOGS. DOGS. I got two, Kai and Ragnar. If I had the money, I'd have a farm for old shelter dogs for sure. BUT, I love all animals, and I do mean love. If it has a pulse, it's friend-shaped.

Violet probably, but when isn't it?

I would like to buy a pretty vase. Idk why, but I've seen one pretty vase recently and I wanted it, but it's expensive so I'm not going to buy it. I put it in my head for the distant future, I don't need a vase so I won't buy it, we have some vases from before, but in the distant future I want a cool vase like the one I've seen.

Switching opposite fingers on both hands while doing finger guns. It's something you can learn but you have to practice it and I wanted to learn it so I did and people always find it cool because most can't do it the first time, or the second time, or third. It takes practice.

I do, and I dress usually based on my mood. Sometimes I dress in all-black for weeks, and then sometimes I wear the wackiest patterns and colors I can find.

I do wear it, almost every day, every time I leave the house basically. My go-to is a simpler look, it includes just one eyeshadow color, winged liner, mascara, brow pencil, brightener and a blusher.

I was beyond obsessed with Sucker Punch when it came out. BEYOND OBSESSED. Still am. Emily Browning is an icon.

I'm on the last season of Elementary with my mom right now. DO WATCH IT! It's great. Joan Watson is a gem.

I've seen 91 days on the rec of a friend and it was great. I've also watched Sailor Moon, Pokemon, Digimon, Shaman King, Shaolin soccer etc. when I was a kid. Those shows were shown on Croatian television and we just all called them cartoons. I've loved them all. 91 days is the only anime I've watched since I've been an adult. I've also seen Death Note in high school because my bff was obsessed with it.

TBH I just love art very much. I've been obsessed with hand-crocheted dresses for a while now. My goal is to own one in the future.

I go on here and bore all of you, haha!

One. Just one. There's no need for more than just that one, and it has to be that one in particular.

I used to be a very bad insomniac but nowadays I fall asleep as soon as I lay down. I don't remember my dreams, mostly, but when I do, I share them here, like the one with the thrift store that I shared (or am yet to share with all of you depending on when the queue will post it) today.

XENA. WARRIOR PRINCESS. MY QUEEN. MY ICON. THE MOMENT.

Wait, I don't have a picture of it right now. Didn't think this through, but it's a funny case, I'll show it to you once.

TWINBED - Trouble I'm In. I think I've seen it in a fanmade video once or it was in a movie I've seen, I can't remember anymore. It meant a lot to me at the time because of the relationship I had back then. Thinking back, he was horrible to me, but I still love the song.

Good so far, about to make lunch!

<3

not a dream

Hey everyone, I've thought about some cute questions for you to answer so here they go, leave the answers in the replies or reblogs and tag people who you want to answer said questions as well. You don't have to answer all of the questions, no pressure, answer the ones you like if that's easier for you!

What's one thing that your friends say that applies to you? Like a quirk or something they know you for? Something they associate with you always?

Who inspires you in your life? I don't mean a celebrity, but a person you know, brag about someone incredible that is your inspiration.

Who do you consider to be your favorite person and why?

What's your favorite kind of animal? If you lived with said animal, what would you name them? If you have said animal, what is their name?

What color is your most recent obsession?

What's a little decor item that you want to own in the future?

Do you have any mundane but cute "talent"/thing you can do? Something just slightly unusual but also completely usual?

Do you like fashion? What kind of a dresser are you? More casual? Fancy?

Do you wear makeup? What's your go-to makeup look? If you don't wear makeup, have you ever thought of wearing it?

Recommend us one movie that the critics/public didn't like that much when it came out but you personally think is a hidden gem!

What show are you watching right now? Recommend it to us!

Have you ever watched an anime? If yes, which one?

What's your favorite kind of art medium? Recommend us an artist or show us an art piece (could be music, painting, crochet, whatever) that you really love!

What do you like to do when you are bored?

How many pillows do you sleep with, if any?

Do you have trouble with sleeping? Do you remember your dreams a lot or forget them as soon as you wake up?

Who is one cool character in something you've seen in your life that you hyperfocused on at a time in your life.

Show us your current phone case!

Recommend people a song that has meant a lot to you sometime in your life and share us the story about if you'd like.

How has your day been so far?

UwU - I love you!

[if-mirrormine]

homecoming (the remix)

summary: grayson's pov of the call he receives from nora in chapter one.

pairing: grayson x mc

word count: 982

based on these two posts, 1 & 2, and this ask (in this order): if its not bother uhmmmm the full Drabble for grays reaction to the call n his ya know pov when he actually got there n saw mc 😶

**unedited//it's 4 am and i tried my best :)**

traffic is slow. grayson sits in the driver's seat, one hand on the steering wheel and the other in his hair. kelsey sits next to him, fiddling with the radio.

"where are we going?" she asks as she switches the radio station, listens to two seconds of the song that's playing and switches it again.

"nora's," he replies, glancing at the radio briefly to see his partner flick through stations without even looking at what's playing.

"i don't want to go to nora's," she grumbles.

"then why did you get in my car?"

"dunno." she seems to settle on a station and sits back in her seat, though not ten seconds go by before she reaches for the buttons again.

with a grunt, he reaches over and switches the radio off completely, silence blooming in its place. "i'm not in the mood, kels."

she huffs, crossing her arms over her chest. "forgot i was in the presence of detective grump today."

he takes a deep breath, his own rebuttal burning on his tongue when his phone rings. glancing at the screen, he's sees that it's nora and he's quick to answer it.

"hey, nora," he says. "i'm on my way, i've just left." he glances briefly at his partner and he begins to question whether his choice to let her come along on today of all todays was the right one. "i've got kelsey with me." his phone being connected to his cars bluetooth, the sniffle that comes from the other end of the line is damn near deafening and grayson looks at the radio in concern as if faced with nora herself. "nora?"

"grayson," she says eventually, her voice cracking. "i think... i think i'm having a stroke."

"what? what happened? where are you?"

she takes a shuddering breath and for the second time in his life, grayson prepares himself for the worst. "it's... mc. they're here."

kelsey looks at him, brown eyes blown wide and he's positive his own expression of shock mirrors hers.

he pauses, taking another deep in a poor attempt to calm his racing heart. "what do you mean, nora?" he says slowly, though the underlying urgency in his voice betrays him.

"they just... showed up," she says, taking another shaky breath before speaking again, fresh tears woven into her words. "please, grayson, i don't want them to disappear again."

grayson's own catch in his throat. the day he's longed for all these years has finally come and yet he can't find it in himself to do anything, say anything, almost as if paralysed with the fear that it's not real after all. how many times has he had this exact same dream? how many times has he woken up in a panic, hope coursing through his veins, only to relive the same heart break over and over?

someone's saying his name but too far away for it to really break through to him. he can already feel that same familiar hope swelling in his chest, filling his lungs, threatening to suffocate him and he wills it away. he wants it gone, because if there's no hope, there'll be no pain when reality comes crashing down.

he's suddenly pulled from his thoughts by kelsey's voice. "we're just five minutes away, nora; we'll be there soon," she says. "i promise."

the call ends and the woman in the passenger looks at him, eyes blazing. "what the fuck, donohue? the love of your life randomly appears again and you just check out?" he looks at her dumbfounded, his lips parted but the words lost. she waves a hand in front of his face. "hello? drive the fucking car, grayson."

when she doesn't get a reply out of him, she huffs and throws her seatbelt off before climbing out the car. he watches as she stomps around the front to his side, rips open his door and pulls him out before marching him to the passenger side and shoving him in. she then appears in the driver's seat, something muttered under breath that he doesn't quite catch before she starts the car, speeding his bmw down the street to their destination.

it's only when kelsey's pulls into the driveway that he snaps out of it and he jumps out the car before it's even come to a full stop. he hears his partner curse behind him but he doesn't stop to wait for her as he bolts for the front door, jist barely knocking before letting himself in. he rushes down the passageway, stopping just short of the living room entryway when he sees them. them. in front of him, in the flesh. and the hope reaches its peak.

they look up at him and a frown immediately takes shape on their features. "grayson? what are you doing here so early?"

his legs buckle beneath him and his knees slam into the hardwood flooring but the pain doesn't even register in his mind. because it's real, they're real and he can finally stop searching.

they've rushed to his side, words that he cannot comprehend leaving their lips as they look between him, kelsey and nora. funny, since he can't stop looking at them. they're so... beautiful. exactly how he remembers them. everything is perfect, as it should have always been, and he finds that after so long, he feels truly and utterly happy.

as if slow motion, he sees kelsey's hand reach out to them from behind him, a worn and folded paper slipped between her index and middle fingers that offers to the mc. he watches them take it from her, unfold it and look it, he sees their eyes widen in shock. and just like that, reality hits after all and his perfect bubble pops.

kelsey speaks up from behind him, her words hammering the final nail in the coffin. "mc... you've been missing for the past ten years."