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i wake up and i immediately think abt how awful i am and how much i want to drive off a road and get into a fatal car accident
#everyone i know claims to be my friend or claims to be there for me but its not true#no one actually wants someone when theyre going throigh a shit ton of change#no one wants to be around me. not qhen im so streased out tht im losing weight and hair#my skin is breaking out evetywhere and im having a hard time eating anything more than coffee#and the caffeine dsnt help thts for sure#and im terrible at my new job it makes me overstimulated and exhausts my body even more#than it already is after moving houses#which btw. still hvnt moved the geckos or plants bc idk wgen i'll have time or energy#im fucking done and the world is dying and genocides are still occuring and here i am.#im fucking complaining abt being alive when so many ppl wld love to have what i have. why cant i be happy#why cant i let myself be happy. qhat is wring with me.#i am going to kill myaelf. i am going to drive until i hit a car or tree or something#i am going to do it. i swear tk fucking god.#dl
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originnssssss who remembers origins i Loved origins
#origins smp#i heard theres been like three failed origins revivals WHAT EVEN HAPPENED i was only there for the first one😅#beeduo#otubbo#oranboo#beeduo fanart#i rewatched some origins streams a little while ago oh my god theyre SO FUNNY#DUDE DOES ANUONE REMMEBER THAT ONE STREAM I COUDLNT FIND RHIS ONE STREAM#IR WAS LIKE THE ONE WHERE TUBBO WAS SINGING SUGAR BY MAROON FIVE and they were being really Funny thay shit h#ad me CRYING in 2021 Please i swear this happened imnot crazy but also they might have been separate streams actuallu i dont rememebr its#been wayyyyyyy too long#BUT IT HAPPENED I PROMISE Sorry i've been gone for a while ive been very busy lots of Things going on went to Six flags then jad a surprise#bday party then i had to buy shoes for prom then Go to prom and also i do figure skating and am out like every day idknt have Time im sorry☹#had a crepe yesterday it was sooooo goood im like learning to drive too that shit is boring as hell my dad kept gettign 😑 bc i couldn't stop#yawning DRIVING IS SO BORING its not my fault😭😭😭😭#ok what else ohhhh. y god i locked in SO HARD for this physics essay u guys dont even knowim getting ONE HUNDRED on that trust i just really#wanted to share ok i love you bge#WAIT ACTUALLT SORRU IM LIKE REMMEBERJNG THE ORIGINS STREAMS K WAYCHED#RANBOO WAS SO FUCKING FUNNT IN THOSE STREAMS TOO LIKE I REMEMBER NIKI WANTED TO SEE THEIR BASE and tubbo was like ooh maybe we can put like#water down here for you niki we need a water system and ranwas like Do we though?I WAD WAYCHING THAT .LIKE DAMMMNNNNNN OM LIKE GIGGLING WRIT#ING THIS RIGHT NOW I CAN HEARTHE CLIP HE DID NOTTT WANT HER IJNTHEIR BASE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#I NEED TO FIDN THAT STREAM WHERE IRS LIKE TOMMY AND JACK A D FHEHRE LOKE TALKING ABOUT DUOS AND THEN JACK SAYS THE MOST OUT OF POCKET SHIT I#VE EVER HEARD LKKE I LITERALLU HAD TK PAUSE. H PHONE AND BURST OUR LAUHJIMG MY JAW WAS ON THE FLOORRRRR DO U GUYS R EME ER WTF IM TLAKING AB#OUT IDK HOW TO FIND THESE STREAMS Oh my god u really Had to be there early 2021 that was liye the funniest era of mt life i wlild be#Tearing up from lauhjimg every day I MISS WAYCHING STREAMS LIVE CHAT WAS SO FUNNY I wishe it was archivedI WISH MORE STREAMERS KEPT CHAT ON#SCREEN i defiently understand why most didn't like Wyd when chats annouing ad hell but also Me 3 years later is interested in what the pub#lic had to say.... ok Now bye
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Rating: E Pairing: TK Strand/Carlos Reyes Word Count: 4,125 Tags: Explicit Sexual Content, Established Relationship, Phone Sex “Can you come home soon?” He knows Carlos can’t. He knows Carlos isn’t off until six, and often it ends up being later than that anyway. “Nope. You’re gonna have to amuse yourself.” “Oh, I am.” Carlos swallows. Something in TK’s voice has him pausing and listening a little bit more intently to the background on the phone call. He can hear a soft rustling, and his eyes widen as he slows the car down at a red light. “TK …” “Yeah?” “Are you fucking naked right now?” “Not from the waist up,” TK replies, and Carlos can hear the shit-eating grin on his face. “Oh, yeah, it was really your shoulders I was worried about being bare.” Carlos swears and shakes his head. “I love you, but I’m at work.” “I know. All sexy in your uniform. Do they have to be so tight? I’ve seen other cops, I don’t think it has to be so tight. You just want everyone to admire your biceps.” “Oh my God,” Carlos mutters. He stays halted at the light and grabs the AirPods he’d put into the car’s console, taking a moment to put one into his ear. He’d been bored minutes ago and now he’s thankful he’s alone in the car, but still doesn’t want to risk a passerby overhearing their conversation. TK exhales softly and hums, and Carlos nearly cringes; the addition of the headphones instead of the phone’s tinny speaker makes it feel like TK is right beside him, humming into his ear. “TK,” Carlos says. The light turns green and he doesn’t have a follow up, really. He just feels on principle like he should be putting up something of a fight, even though nothing is stopping him from hanging up and they both know he’s not going to do that. “I’m wearing one of your hoodies,” TK says. “And nothing else?” A giggle comes like music over the line. “Nothing else.”
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I swear I don't know what day it is and did I get tagged? Idk I'm a mess and this week has been a whole ordeal and its like 1am and I thought fuck it. Have some chaos Owen. We all deserve it.
(From ALTA which is now 130k with two chapters to go THANK GOD)
They freeze in each others’ arms at the knock on the door and then, all of a sudden, TK is scrambling his naked body under the comforter as Carlos attempts to do the same. It only takes a second for the door to swing open dramatically and Owen’s face to appear, looking far too eager. “Hi boys,” he chirps. “Oh— Am I interrupting something?” “Kind of,” TK says tightly. “Dad, I thought we agreed about knocking and waiting for a response?” Owen cringes slightly. “Might have forgotten that part.” “You might want to remember next time,” TK replies, his voice strained. Carlos wishes he could sink into the mattress and disappear forever. He’s certain this isn’t the first time he’s felt like this, either. Owen has always had a terrible habit of walking in on them in various states of undress and vaguely, Carlos wonders if he should be used to it by now. Somehow, it doesn’t get any less mortifying. “Good to see you, Carlos,” Owen adds, as if it’s a completely normal thing to say while Carlos is cowering under TK’s bedding. “You too, Owen,” he croaks. “Dad,” TK groans. “What are you still doing here?” “This is my house, TK,” Owen points out. “So you might want to think about keeping things PG because even if I couldn’t see you, I could certainly hear—” “Then why did you come barging in here?” TK practically shrieks as Carlos wishes for the sweet release of death. He hopes Owen didn’t hear them crying. Somehow, that makes it impossibly worse. “To make sure you were both okay,” Owen says calmly. “It sounded like you were a bit…emotional.” “Dad,” TK replies flatly. “I’m moving out.” “To where?” Owen asks. “That’s exciting, but you’re going to need a job—” “To Carlos’,” TK declares. “Probably tomorrow. So we can have sex and cry as much as we want without you listening in at the door.” “I wasn’t listening at the door!” “Well, you weren’t trying very hard not to listen!” TK protests. “TK, I think you underestimate how loud your vocal cords are—” “Jesus, Dad!” TK cries as Carlos pulls the comforter up over his nose. Owen shakes his head. “Always been that way ever since you were a baby, son,” he says with an unnerving amount of sincerity. “Came out of the womb screaming and—” “Dad,” TK begs, sounding helpless. “Please leave.”
#ATLA#WIP whatever day#work in progress#tarlos#911 lone star#chaos owen#owen strand#tk strand#carlos reyes
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I'm done- I'm scrolling through pinterest to find posters to print out and here am stumbling upon MY FOR YOU PAGE- and guess what I see- a fuckin.
Why.... WHY- WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS SHIT KEEP HAPPENING TO ME- WHAT THE FUCK- YA KNOW WHAT IM GONNA FUCKING LOOSE IT IM GONNA LOOSE IF I SEE ONE MORE FUCKING TK SHIT ON MY SHIT WHERE IM NOT EVEN PURPOSLY LOOKING FOR CONTENT LIKE THIS IM GONNA- IM GONNA GO GRAB MY BAT IN MY ROOM AND SMASH A GOD DAMN TREE- CAUSE THIS- CAN NOT BE FUCKING HAPPENING
ESPIALLY WHEN I WAS IN A LER MOOD YESTARDQY cause over here where I'm at its 12 on a Tuesday SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IM GONMA DO IT IF THIS HAPPENS ONE MORE GOD DAMN RIME. I HAVENT EATTEN ANYTHINF YESTARDAY IM TIRED AND THIS IS WHAT I FUCKINF GET TO FLUSTER ME TO SLEEP. BUTCH I HAVE ENOUVH TK SHIT IN MY HEAD AND I DONT NEED TO BE FUCKING MYSELF OVER BECAUSE SOME GOD DAMN SOMEONE DECID3E HEY LETS PUT SOMETHING FLUSTERING ON JINS PINTEREST OR INSTA.
COME ON SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK
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Star Wars: The Bad Batch
Season 2, Episode 01: Spoils of War
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I am physically, mentally and spiritually dead because the best boys finally arrived and THIS IS WHAT WE GET STARTED WITH??!!!!!??
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EY it’s this scene immediately
lol we’re starting off great with Echo just straight up faceplanting the water
why does Wrecker sound so scared? there are no heights involved
OMEGA
TECH
HE IS SO BEAUTIFUL HOW IS HE MORE BEAUTIFUL THIS SEASON WHAT
we stan professor Tech in this house
HOW IS HE SO BEAUTIFUL
big brother tech is so cute
YES MY BBY GIRL U GO BESTIE
YEAH HUNTER IT IS AN UNSCHEDULED STUDY BREAK COME ON MAN GET WITH THE PROGRAM
No but that is literally the cutest thing ever
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Tech*in his mind*: How to not get in trouble with Hunter…?
Tech: Oh! Yes! Act as strangely myself as possible!
Tech*on the comm*: WE ARE STUDYING
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stop being the boring dad Hunter
okay he’s a lil fun
but stop
AZI
”The Space Lugs”?
we stan Phee
IS SHE FLIRTING WITH TECH?????? DOES TECH NOW OFFICIALLY HAVE THE SAME NICKNAME AS DIN FUCKING DJARIN???!!!!!! YESSSSSSSSSS
damn she IMMEDIATELY lost interest when he started ranting…. baby boy I would NEVER do that to you
also we stan our aroace king for responding to flirting with an explanation as to why his eyes are brown
THEY’RE GOING TO SERRENO?????
ALREADY!!???
Hunter why so hunty stop
we…. we stan?… professor Hunter?….. in this house??
KILLJOY
ECHOS GOT A NICKNAME REPEAT ECHOS GOT A NICKNAME
it would’ve been so much funnier if it was Bolts tho
but we make do
Hunter is such a fucking protective brother i don’t know if i love it or hate it
omega heard that didn’t she
yeah she did
oh no
what kinda stupid shit is this gonna start
TECH COVER YOUR CALVES I SWEAR TO GOD
I miss the red is Tech’s helmet
WHY IS TECH SHORTER THAN HUNTER THAT IS WRONG
TECH IS SO MUCH TALLER THAN HUNTER WHY ARE THEY THE OTHER WAY AROUND
was I right? did Wookiepedia mix them up??
ooooo clones
they arent TK troopers
Hunter people are gonna see you
nevermind they didn’t
a new captain🥰🥰
what’s happening
maybe don’t secure the cargo and prepare for launch
MAYBE DON’T LOCK THEM IN
MAYBE GET THE HELL OUT OF THERE
STOP THIS RIGHT NOW
OMG I THOUGHT HUNTER WAS GONNA FALL TO HIS DEATH AGAIN
they’re not gonna get to the escape pods are they
they’re straight up in dooku’s palace rn
TECH COVER YOUR LEGS WHAT THE FUCK
DON’T RELEASE THE ESCAPE PODS
hey Omega has been taught well
lol Hunter u need to know how to start a lift without tech
are they just gonna crash down to the surface
yeah
that’s
stop
stop this right now
stop it
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Aaaaaaalrighty that was, a rollercoaster….
IM SO HAPPY TO HAVE THE BOYS BACK!!!!!!
Reaction to episode two coming later today, first I gotta clean my room😫
#bad batch#the bad batch#star wars the bad batch#star wars tbb#clone force 99#star wars#bad batch spoilers#tbb spoilers#the bad batch spoilers#the bad batch season 2#the bad batch season 2 spoilers#tech#bad batch tech#omega#bad batch omega#echo#bad batch echo#hunter#bad batch hunter#wrecker#bad batch wrecker
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First off I absolutely LOVE your content, we need more jikookers like you! I found you from a jikook YT and I've binged like hell down the rabbit hole that is Park Jimin and Jeon Jungkook. Thank you for all that you do!
Tae's recent behavior has been the most confusing thing cause its gotten alot worse and and I believe it WILL get alot worse with the upcoming album releases. I always trusted that jm and jk would cut that off if they minded and I know we don't see what happens off camera, but it seems like jimin has been pulling away from him?...atleast according to Tae. Could we take that as them now loosing patience with him? Hybe will push JK cause he's their "golden goose" but they must also know how popular Tk is, especially with media companies using taekook to market cause ofc it trends well and certain ppl *cough cough* eat it up. So do you think they'll try to go extra hard on this TK agenda during promos ( like yoonmin ) and if so how would JK /JM react cause idkk if bargaining to trade off TK content with equal jikook content will work..you mentioned before this is most likely what JK does already. And god why does Tae not just confirm his relationship...I really want to judge him as a friend buttt jikook like, care for him, and know him, soooo I'm dearly trying to stay neutral that this will all redeem itself in the long run...in terms of the absolute vileness that gets thrown at jimin on the daily...I really hate armytwitter😑
Me? On YT? How tf did I get there?!?!
Hybe are stupid. They refuse to utilise Jimin who would bring it all the mulah, and now a possible pushing of Taekook. I am still so bitter about them using Yoonmin to promote Busan. Twice! That shit made no fucking sense.
Again, if hybe do anything with Taekook for Taekookers they are dumb as hell. JJKs and Jkkrs are the ones who are gonna carry the whole thing. I never know whether to count true ot7 Army coz I ain't sure if there's that many left. But tkkrs aren't gonna do dick!
I already talked here about how they never sell out V's shit. They yap all fucking day but never put their money where their mouths are. And some people mad at V's current behaviour think even he knows this.
I am hopeful that if JK is doing his shit now, that means his and V's will not entwine. Which is awesome! So that's all I'm crossing my fingers for anon.
As for how Jikook will deal with this they won't really have a choice. Well, Jimin won't. He's not the one being asked to do stuff with V. Its JK we should be wondering how he will handle this. I think he's gonna have to work really hard on his poker face.
I will say this one thing though. It really is up to V whether or not he wants to confirm his rlship. The fact that they even gave us Paris was a miracle. It should be their call really. I know people are frustrated but he don't owe us dick just coz tkkrs are mental cases.
That being said I will pull out my fucking hair if we get continuous content about Taekook. I swear. I'm gonna go crazy. So Lord please have mercy. Don't let them do this to us.
Amen
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Review of 11x22
I haven't done a fire review since 11x2 lol, but this finale was so amazing I'm going to do it once more. And because then all my incoherent brettsey thoughts are all in one area.
I'm going to talk about all the non brettsey stuff first before getting down to that.
I loved that we got my favourite trio all talking and being friends at the beginning there. I just love seeing them be talking and discussing things, especially as that's the thing Fire gets right over the other OCs. And then I also loved seeing Stella and Sylvie talking at night too. AND then them going to see Amber for Sylvie.
I also loved seeing Stella and Casey, one of my favourite friendships ever. I loved seeing Casey reassure Stella and him immediately coming over to help. (Although Dylan is definitely right, Matt being there wasn't just because of that, but Sylvie too).
As soon as Herrmann got that reading my mind went straight to "mouch is getting hurt" and I really wish I was wrong about that. That ending with Mouch, oof it hurts my heart so much and I swear to god they better not kill him.
Although that shoot out!! Intense and amazing. I loved Matt going to distract and telling Boden he's not his boss anymore technically especially because of Boden's face. I also loved Stella going with, and her two truck boys immediately being like yep us too.
I did also really like Stella talking to Boden, even if I'm not totally fine with why. Although I do like that because of what Kelly's mom said to Stella, it makes sense that this is where her mind would go. I also loved that helping Sylvie with Amber made Stella realise she shouldn't just sit and wait, but that she should go to Kelly. And I really hope TK doesn't decide to leave permanently so that we can see Stella hauling Kelly's ass back to Chicago.
Although I am a little worried that if he does, they're going to try and do a little love triangle-esque thing with Violet, Carver and Stella.
And I adored Ritter being a source of reassurance to Kylie AND that she got into the fire academy!!! My girl is going to be a firefighter!
Brettsey
It is so nice to see that this time Matt gave Sylvie a heads up and then seeing his response to her wanting to adopt Julia and him just immediately getting it and supporting her. And I adored how Matt straight away went with them to go talk to Amber and everything he said to her. That man loves her so fucking much!!!
I also loved that it was clear there's still those lingering feelings. Sylvie talking about long distance with Stella and then just all the looks Matt gave Sylvie. And the way he looked when he heard about the breakup. And oof the look when Sylvie got the good news and how he so clearly wanted to be part of that hug and wanted to be her Person again.
And then that ending scene!!!! Matt talking about their first kiss, and then saying he got the ring a year and a half ago! That it wasn't just a recent purchase but that it was when they were still together.
And I'm just going to cry forever about him saying three kids 😭. Him including Griffin and Ben and also just so immediately accepting Julia. And it's in total parallel to Dylan; Matt is at the same place as Sylvie, he wants a family now and he wants it with her.
Literally at the start of this season I never EVER thought we'd get an ending this fucking perfect. That Brettsey will get a proposal!!!
They obviously still have a lot to talk about, and work out, but I definitely think their time apart, and now with Sylvie starting this journey to be Julia's mom, means that they'll be able to work a game plan going forward. Plus, in a year both darden boys will be in college, they've also settled in so it's not like Matt can't visit a bit more, and they can just have a longer engagement and build up their future together, however that may look. If Sylvie moves to him or he comes back ect.
#ree has thoughts#brettsey#chicago fire#chicago fire spoilers#sylvie brett#matt casey#Stella Kidd#Violet Mikami#is it too soon to start tagging Julia Brett?#or will it be Julia Casey 👀
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Lone Star thoughts:
Why haven’t they just checked how many radios they have?
You’re telling me there’s no security cameras in the firehouse?
When does Owen do his actual job?
When did this show become Federal instead of 9-1-1. Literally none of this is 9-1-1 related expect for the fact that they responded to the bomb going off, but even then it wasn’t 9-1-1 related.
This FBI lady has had no personality and suddenly she’s crying and wanting Owen to call her by her first name. If they kiss I swear.
I get this is the Rob Lowe show, but there’s so fucking much Rob.
Why are they making us want to feel bad for the Nazis?
Why is the FBI guy so okay with Owen and O’Brien helping them. What the fuck?
His family was kidnapped. Calling it now.
Ahh Carlos appearance. Hot. Also, looking good after basically nearly dying recently.
Why is the call out a fun little song? “Fire and rescue🎶 121 122 126 127 128🎶” Am I only one jamming out to this?
We just not gonna define ANFO?
Rafa’s arms.
These things are empty aren’t they?
I’m not scared. They wouldn’t hurt Carlos back to back. Plus we know he’s in future episodes.
Is that TK’s one line for the episode? “I really hate when he does this.”
O’brien’s gonna die isn’t he?
I was right those were fake out bombs. Knew it. Too obvious.
Family was kidnapped knew it.
O’Brien shot. Knew it.
Fucking hell Carlos, yes babe. Also though on a serious note, holy shit. Was that his first time shooting an actual bad guy?
I get Andy’s a villain, but why is he so sweaty?
Wait, O’Brien’s name is Ty? He answered the phone, thought he was talking to TK until it cut… why did they name the character the same thing? That’s so weird.
Okay Andy is being made to do this… Still doesn’t answer why he’s so sweaty.
What happened to Owen being arrested for obstruction of justice?
The FBI agent dude’s actor is really good.
Andy’s actor is great. Like he’s really good. Creepy is hard and he does it well and his emotional part is awesome.
TK having an idiot for a dad is why his blood pressure is gonna be high as fuck by the time he’s 30.
Why don’t you just drive the car into water?
Ah I was right, we’re going into the water.
“Hey Grace, don’t tell my son I love him.” Literally makes a joke instead of anything else.
That was more than 30 seconds.
Uh… sure? Laughing. Okay. Sure. Fine. Sure.
Why are we watching this weird recap thing when it no longer matters? All the people in this scene are arrested. Literally this doesn’t matter at all.
Why are we watching the feds?
Oh my god I don’t care about this at all. So glad this storyline is over.
And they stillllll haven’t said the full name of ANFO this whole time.
The Honor Dogs are like… still bad though. Let’s not forget about the fact that they were branding people.
Yeah this actor playing Andy is fucking crushing it.
Oh my god I don’t care about O’Brien and his family. Sorry, but I don’t.
Owen not bringing enough food for Carlos took me out😂. And thank god we get to start the wedding stuff now. This Honor Dog plot was tired since before it began
#911 lone star s4#911 lone star season 4#911 ls#911 ls s4#911 lone star#911 lone star speculation#911 spoilers#tarlos spoilers#911 lone star spoilers#911 ls spoilers#lone star spoilers
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Lonestar 4x03 thoughts
I don't know how I'm supposed to feel about this Strand and moto cop friendship (can't remember his name)
So he's looking for his nephew, and Strand is trying to stop a terror attack.... okay got it
Carlitos CARLITOS he's worried about her but he's trying to convince himself she's still okay. I just want to hug him
It's hard for me to read Iris as a character, and I think that's probably the point. So i can't tell from one moment to the next if she's upset or not about getting a divorce (or annulment) with Carlos
TK meant well with going to see her!!!!
Captain Strand and this motorcycle is just......interesting lol
Judd Ryder, you look mighty fine in those sunnies dude
Oh so this could be Iris thrown off the cliff?? aaaaand now we've got Protective Carlos Reyes.........sorry not complaining because it's hotttttt
A SEX DOLL???? im sorry but i didn't see that coming at all.......
NANCY IM DYING THIS IS THE PERFORMANCE OF A CENTURY. tk i literally can't with this, judd just looking so bothered by this whole situation.
I love this FBI agent.
OH THAT SMILE. that's a love interest smile. am I even okay with that??? I don't know lets see how this plays out
Damn it Iris is in trouble.........i was hoping this wasn't the plot......
Grace is literally so good at her job I'm always in awe of her skills
oh my god what happened to her!!!!! she's bloody. carlos just hauling her up just breaks my heart
I'm glad she's okay but why does this not feel like the end of the story.......Why do I feel that the detective doesn't think there was anyone to find?? I know weird theory but maybe
So Ty and Strand are gonna play vigilante cop to find his nephew???
It's been 3 episodes and I'm kinda attached to Carlos and Iris's bond already.
SEE, if Iris was assaulted by a man and this isn't some figment of her imagination imma be mad. we stan iris in this house
How is Strand sometimes good at investigating??? he almost gives me Kelly Severide fire cop vibes......not that much credit but a little bit
that Tommy and TK moment was sweet
CARLOS THAT FACE OF YOURS IS KILLING ME
CARLOS AND IRIS HAS ME SO HARD i swear how did two characters get me so hard so fast
that guy is the drunkest
STRAND YOU GOT YOURSELF ARRESTED BY THE FEDS??? damn it
OH so sergeant o brien really is dirty like I thought all along??? yea this checks out. Strand you are too gullible for your own good. bad cop skills OH MY GOD YOU COMPROMISED THE ENTIRE OPERATION!!!!!!!
CARLOS BE CAREFUL
I have a feeling there is some underground bunker in that house.
WOAH I WAS RIGHT!!!!!!!
CARLOS WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!!!!!!!!!
literally, what the hell was that cliffhanger I'm am thoroughly freaked out
i swear he better be okay
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Pookie what the flip is this I'll answer them tho lmao at least I'll try it might be slightly venty so srry about thar
yea most of the time I geuss. They suck a little sometimes but they try their best and I love them
2. My gc with my besties to say gn
3. So. So. So fucking much.
4. Its been getting a lot better lately but some days I still feel actually sickened at the sight of my own body
5. Single..
6. Painlessly. Hopefully much much later.
7. Taco belllll
8. I did soccer for a year when I was 4 and I want to attempt figure skating at some point, I'm really good at goalie in alot of games though
9. No I have two fake teeth that stop me from doing that (lore drop!!)
10. Never been in a fight. Just one sided against me if I wasn't absolutely fucking terrified of getting in trouble I would've beaten the shit outta some people, I suppose the closest thing I ever got was in 5th grade some dude was a repeated bully of mine I can't remember what it was about this time but he fucking grabbed my arm and twisted it like this fucking close to breaking it and I tried to kick him in the balls and a teacher yelled at me 🥰 he had no consequences
11. I mean I'm a Lil confused. I just got out of my first ever real relationship and I'm still recovering tbh. But I had liked my friend for three years previously and I still love him alot but I can't tell if it's platonic or not. I think it is now?
12. O n l y 48 hrs?
13. I hate alot of people tbh but I kinda hate myself for hating them cuz that's normal
14.yea
15. MY SILLY PUPPIES (one is 11 years old)
16. Fucking terrified cuz I'm about to play the second episode of sally face
17. I still have my lip virginity bro
18. HELL SPAWN
19. Maybe. I kinda wanna be a little kid again but also it wasn't the greatest for me outside of my house so I don't even know.
20. bRO PELASE STOP I HAVENT-
21. Nothing lmao
22. Idk maybe someday. Probably one maximum 2
23. Basic ear piercings but God I want more
24. English and science.
25. Yes.
26. Physical touch I need to cuddle up with someone right now I genuinely feel like I'm dying
27. I mean yea and I feel horrendous about it it broke my heart too but it wasn't a healthy relationship and was fucking up both of us
28. YES IN FUCKING FIFTH GRADE- I SWEAR TK GOD- I don't think he understood but like bruh
29. Please you're making me want to grab a knife and take it to my stomach I didn't want too but it needed to happen.
30. Same as sai, the questiond about relationships but for a different reason like God I felt horrendous enough already
31. Sai how fuckin dare you I love u okay ur like super cool and fun and I feel if I met you irl I would've wanted to be friends with you too. But I'm pretty sure I am. I just still sometimes have trouble believing it.
32. OURPLE
33. Whaaat noooo- WHO FUCKING TOLD YOU-
34. Last one thar wasn't jusr black was about choso from jjk and it was really silly I'm such a fucking degenerate bro help me
35. My dog clifford
36. Yes oh fuck yes I do and it has given me some of my worst regrets in life
37. Forgive, barely ever turns out well tho.
38. I wish its sucked tbh
39. NEVAH
40. proly when I was like a baby
In skipping numbers too for my brain to work
51. Tacoss
52. I mean technically yes it does I could go into science but I'm sure thats not what you mean, but no I do not believe everything happens for a reason because of some higher power or whatever
53. Played sally face for an hour then texted some friends cuz I was too fucking scared to sleep
54. Fuck no
55. I try not to be
56. None
57. I dunno.
58. Rainy
59. Yesss
60. Yup
61. Yeess
62. Idk alot of things surprisingly anime/friends/kpop tho r all great and video games
63. I like my name but it doesn't always feel like it fits but there's nicknames that help :3
64. STOP THIS
65. Heyyy this happened to me. I politely turned him down and we r still besties I went to his house 2 weeks ago
66. Yes. Same friend. When I went to his house he snorted fun dip and I RANTED to him about kpop for 30 minutes even tho he knows nothing
67. OH FUCK WAIT ONE OF MY BESTIES ID A TRANS DUDE I FORGOT HE TECUNIXALLY COUNTS AS OPPOSITE SEX KINDA IDK CUZ SEX IS LIKE ??? I DONT FUCKIN KNOW IG HIM BUT IF WE DONT MEAN GENDER BUT SEX THEN THE SAME DUDE FROM THE LAST TWO
68. Deepest within the last month was a 3am sleepover chat with my bestie over how mha saved my life
69. Idk
70. Yea at least 10 ppl
@mypinterestgotbannedsoimherenow totally understand if u don't feel like answering these btw they r kinda hard
70 horrible questions ... Fuck it
01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?
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*cries in the toilets for 20 minutes* *my makeup comes off* *cries again bc im ugly*
#its 10 am ive not even been in college an hour#i dont know whats wrong with meeeee i have a disease that makes me start sobbing at the drop of a pin#im upset and angry and now i look bad wven tho i spent forever doing my makeup and i didnt bring any with me to redo it#i wanna go home but all my stuff is at fabios and its only fucking 10am i cant leave lol#i swear tk god i am going to snap#personal
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L*ne St*r Hate Watch 3x07
I nearly completely forgot about this show 😅
Disclaimer: you love the show, I hate it! Don't read this, move on with your life and have a great day.
Eddie Diaz because he's beautiful sunshine:
Surprised with this show that they didn't actually show us the dude splattering on the road sign
Loving this cop with a chip on his shoulder about firefighters
Imagine rolling up and demanding they move a fucking firetruck
HE'S WRITING THEM A TICKET! A TICKET??? NUISANCE OBSTRUCTION?????
Hilarious 10/10 for comedy
A man is sitting in Grace's seat
Of course his name is Dave
I've seen this dude in something but I cannot place him, I'm getting What We Do in the Shadows vibes but I know that's not right (side note - that'll be back on TV soon!!)
Carlos is going to give himself an ulcer one day I swear to god
"red vs blue" kind of like Queensland vs New South Wales but like, with emergency personnel (that's just a little Australian rugby league State of Origin reference for all you Americans reading this)
I genuinely don't care about this
In this scenario, even though it's LS, I am team firefighter because who the fuck wants to be team police? Like honestly
This man HAS EATEN GRACE'S FOOD
Who the fuck goes into a communal fridge and just takes food that's not theirs
Grace hates Dave, this is the only rivalry I care about
Quick life update – I baked a chocolate cake today, absolutely fucking crushing it you guys
THE COP TOWED THE FUCKING FIRE TRUCK????
I feel like this would never happen in real life, but I appreciate how bonkers it is
Oh no Dave's going to jump in on Grace's call and she's going to kill him
Oh wait maybe Dave's proving himself to Grace?
He did still steal her potato salad though so like, he's going to have to make up for that
I hate that we see the 126 bunk room but never the one at the 118
Because you just know Buck and Eddie sleep right next to each other, like, 100%
Judd and Grace make this show worth watching
So they're having a baseball game against the cops which I think is dumb
I have been sitting here eating a bag of chips and not really paying attention
But I can tell you what's going to happen – someone, probably Owen Strand, is going to hit a home run and win the game
Because there's no way the 126 is losing this
Man I really thought they were going to bring in Billy to help them play baseball and I'm so annoyed it's this random medic from last season (remember when Tim got smashed by a lava rock? Good times)
The random medic seems to have stood them up for the baseball game
The song they're using in this scene is the "Mahna Mahna" song from The Muppets -> https://youtu.be/QTXyXuqfBLA
Also it was used in a sunscreen commercial in Australia - "banana boat, it's 30+, banana boat, it lasts for hours and hours and hours, banana boat!"
Anyway what I'm saying is that I think it's a weird song choice
Yo I think the cops are winning
Also I don't care about this baseball plotline but I'm annoyed they did it on LS and not the OG so we could see Ryan in baseball gear
Damn I was hoping TK would get hit in the face with a baseball
They called Nancy "the big whiff" in high school, in Australia that means something very different
Oh the cops temporarily arrested the new medic
Wow baseball is fucking boring
I just know that Owen is going to score the winning home run or something
Oh maybe it'll be Nancy? That'd be a plot twist
Owen is being very supportive of her and not completely terrible so that's a good thing
Oh she did it
And wow the 126 win
Amazing
What a triumph of the human SPIRIT – OH WAIT SOMEONE TRIPPED HER
I think this might turn into a rumble
"You hose jockeys" all right calm down you big turd
Owen threw a punch and now they're fighting, and when I said "this might turn into a rumble" earlier, I didn't actually think it would
The new medic is displeased
His name is Pearce and he is not a team player and he's quit so it literally does not matter
Such a missed opportunity for Eddie Diaz to show off his baseball prowess on the OG, honestly
Dave's either going to prove himself in this scene or not
Oh yeah he's proving himself
Dave's got some issues
Dave's having a heart attack
Dave might die and I kind of hope he doesn't
This has been a literal rollercoaster of emotions
Oh no he's fine, we're all good, everyone can chill
"There's like, a fire, man, but don't worry, it's cool" – hilarious (there's a fire at a marijuana grow house)
Okay so now the 126 is going to prove themselves to the dickhead cop and he and Owen are going to shake hands with a newfound grudging respect for each other
HA THE COPS ARE ALL STONED
Owen is going to rescue the dickhead cop, and then there'll be a handshake and grudging respect, mark my words
Okay so the dickhead cop is stoned off his fucking tits
I was wrong about the handshake, it was a hug instead
Pretty gay, you guys. Pretty gay
This episode feels weird to me, like it's cop rehabilitation or something. The cops were being fucking dicks this whole episode
Oh wait here's the stoned dickhead now
Here comes the handshake, and now he's having dinner with them. I think he and Owen might fuck later
L*ne St*r: After Dark
Oh, Grace is visiting Dave in the hospital and she brought him kale. I'd kick her the fuck out
Oh shit DAVE LIED TO THE SUICIDAL GUY ON THE PHONE ABOUT HIS FATHER COMMITTING SUICIDE? That's ice cold Dave
Dave's joining the day shift, good for him
Grace may murder him yet
Oh they're having a party at TK and Carlos' house
A trophy ceremony ugh this is so fucking dumb
"It's my Mom," TK says in a monotone. "She's dead."
I was spoiled for this so it's not a shock, but fuck do I have some feelings about it – like, she's barely in the fucking show, she's just had a baby at like, 50 years old, and they fucking killed her? They've fucking KILLED HER?
It just pisses me off because I don't care about TK and Owen, and the whole next episode is going to be about this and you know it's going to be a total fucking shitshow. If they wanted to have a relapse storyline for TK – which I feel like this is where it's going – then they could've done it with the breakup? Or like, his near death experience, or something?
Unless the plan is that they're going to give the baby to TK to raise because the father is dead as well, but honestly, whatever the plan is, I think it's dumb as all fuck and I'm mad about it.
Lisa Edelstein deserves better and this reminds me why I hate this fucking show.
Sure, it has moments, and I'm invested in Grace and Judd's storyline, but they pull this Grey's Anatomy shit and I'm like, first of all, fuck you. Fuck you for randomly killing off a character who is barely even relevant to the show just to give TK and Owen some man pain; just because you were too lazy to come up with some other storyline for them.
Killing characters willy nilly is lazy fucking writing and this show has been guilty of that before (hello, zombie Tim) and they're doing it again. It just smacks to me that they have no fucking idea what they're doing, where the show is going or how to write for any of the other characters except the two white male leads.
It's fucking bullshit.
This has been a rant.
Eddie Diaz to CLEANSE:
THE MAN LOVES BASEBALL, THIS IS SUCH A MISSED OPPORTUNUITY
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So, let’s talk comics again.
Previously, I showed off the transition between seasons 1 and 2, and how it cut off about three quarters of 01 content.
(Also, since that cover was scanned, it has come apart from the rest of the book, and now I have two halves of cover for this comic. Alas.)
The comic series for 02 must have been handled by different people, because it’s ever so slightly different to the anime. But, uh, the quality is about the same as before.
This is a cute detail to include, even if the scene that this is from didn’t appear in the comic. You can see that it’s the actual photo that was taken, with everyone staring at the egg! How nice.
TK, Kari and, weirdly, Izzy are missing from this. I’d chalk it up to all three of them showing up in this story, but Tai does too, so who fuckin knows.
This is their first appearance, no scene of TK and Davis or anything. Of note is that Kari doesn’t insult Davis, maybe he’s less of a douche in this version. Also: “football”, not soccer. Different markets, I suppose, but I know that we call it soccer here in New Zealand, so????
“YOUR BROTHER IS AWESOME AND I WANNA BE HIM”
Davis Motomiya: Disaster Bi.
Oooo, an almost swear? “Oh my God” seems a bit risky for a kid’s comic.
This art style is adorable! Much better than the 01 version, even though they appear in the SAME COMIC.
BELIEVEABLE DIALOGUE. Although hey, there’s a “damn” there! They must have had their big boy pants on for this translation or something?
I really like “UH OH” as a sound effect.
(...ignore that spot above Kari’s dialogue there, it doesn’t seem to be on the actual comic so it must have been a scanning oopsie.)
Here’s these guys’ introduction! Why is Cody there? Who knows!
Also I was wrong, this mention of Izzy is his only “appearance” in this one, so why didn’t he get to be in the age-up panel up there? How rude.
(He appears in the next one, so they weren’t going for any “ooo what does IZZY look like!” suspense kinda thing. They were just bullying the poor kid.)
Hey look, a panel from the show! I don’t think that one actually shows up in this episode, though, weirdly.
Yolei why are you reading someone else’s email? Rude.
The dialogue immediately before this is Kari saying “Not all of us can go!” and then this happens, immediately proving her wrong. This version of the story just utterly blitzes through the plot points, doesn’t it? No hesitation, just action. It kinda takes the charm out of it a bit?
Not entirely,
but a little bit.
Now, I say that, and then I have to present to you my absolute favourite panel from this mess.
...I
I’m so glad I took a break between the last comic and this, in retrospect, because it means that I got to have the last avatar up for a while before I changed it to this. IT’S TOO PERFECT I LOVE IT
The egg is just on a fucking path, I guess. Why not?!
...
Well, that’s another strong contender.
Davis inherently understanding this all notwithstanding, this sequence never fails to crack me up. What was your thought process here, Davis? Why the sassy? Why did fear not happen? Who are you???
Now, you may have noticed some sequence breaking here - by this point in the episode, we should have our little blue friend by now. This is the biggest difference between the two versions.
In the anime, they discuss the egg a bit, try to lift it, and Davis succeeds. Veemon is born, they throw around some introductions, and then Monochromon shows up and ruins their day.
In this version...
...this happens, somehow.
I don’t understand
THERE HE IS I LOVE HIM
...and then his birthday is IMMEDIATELY RUINED.
HOW IS THIS THE FUNNIEST THING EVER
I just... I don’t know what to say that could add to this situation. This is the funniest damn thing to ever happen and there’s nothing that I can say that could make it funnier. Between every expression that Davis makes, the fact that they forget that they’re in mortal peril because a little blue man appeared, poor Veemon’s triumphant debut being interrupted and losing all of his momentum, the fact that you can hear the nonexistant music grind to a halt for this one moment, and the fact that even the Digimon Emperor and Monochromon are given pause... fucking hell this is my favourite moment.
“im 12 seconds old and what is this”
dshgkjhdjl Veemon you absolute fuckup. Never change.
There’s a minor plot hole in the dub, where Davis shouts “Digi-Armour Energise” without knowing that phrase, the second episode confirming that they have to shout that and Davis didn’t just make it up. In the original version, Veemon tells him to shout it, but his line was changed for the dub. Interestingly enough:
It’s preserved in this version! Along with the basics of the line that they changed it to in the dub! Weird. Were they going off the original script, or was there someone on the writing team who noticed that?
The fight goes slightly differently, but the basics are the same.
This panel is cool as fuck, tho.
You know what? I am ready for a new adventure. Let’s do it.
(Does Davis have a tear in his eye there? CUTE)
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When the fuck WILL I GET A BREAK FROM TK SHIT- I SWEAR TO GOD.
I HAD TO WATCH MY BROTHER RIGHT CAUSE MA DIDNT WANNA SEND HIM IN TO DAYCARE (daycare is Jack ass in the box by the way) CAUSE HE HAD A STUFFYNOSE OK Let me just put down the Capps rheir we go. So here he was watching the grand Mackey kicky whatever the fuck its called Mickey mouse? Ans ya know im doin ny own thing. All of a sudden I dexide to glance up and ya wanna know what I year on the tv.
Ya wanna know what my holy fuckin ears heard?
"Guhua that tks" *breaths in* just yestarday my two friends were being mean to me- I still haven't recovered AND THIS IS RHE BLOODY SHIT I HAVE TO HEAR AFTER THAT
BUT OH DONT WORRY FOLKS IT AINT FUCKINF KVER YET WORAE COMES TO FUCKINF WORSE WHEN YA NEED IT. BUCKLE UP CHUCKLE UP CAUSE IM GONNA TWLL YA SOMETHINF ALL THE LEES ANS LERS AMD MY SWITCHY PALS KNOW ALL TO WELL.
aftwr a couple hours after the "incident" my sis comes out and my brother LOVESS my sis. I'm not too good with kids especially when their are the baby toddler age but ya know. So they come out holdem and coldding and then I hear "hkw do I do I this little piggy?"
And let me just say if I had somethin in my hand that moment they said that it'd be on the floor-
I who is very VERY substical to fucking teases ESPECIALLY BABY TAUNTS DID NOT FUCKING WANNA HEAR THIS LITTLE BABY PIGGY SHIT. I CAN NOT TELL YOU HOW MANY TOMES ILL BE IN MY ROOM MINDING MY OWN GODDAMN BUSINESS AND HEAR THAT GOD AWFUL LYRIC.
AT THAT MOMENT I JHST I WANTED TO RUN IN MY ROOM SCRWAM HID UUUNDER THE COVERS TO HIDE MY BLUSH AND FLUSTERED ASS AND READ FICS WHICH WOULD DO ME WORSE
HOWEVER- however however I COULDNT FUCKIN DO IT ans be being the good fucking actor I am replied with a cocky tone "what! Ya don't know how to do it?! Seriously?!" Of course I would know BUT I AINT PULLIN THAT SHIT NO FUCKING WAY.
so ultimately my sister tried lookin up. Brother got distracted and it THANK FUCKING FULLY DID NOT ENDED UP HAPPENING
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reckless but honest words
However much TK had thought he’d grown used to his parents’ shit, he’s far from prepared for the next words that come out of his dad’s mouth.
“We’re - that is to say, your mom - well… We’re having a baby.”
ao3 | 2.3k | title from anger by sleeping at last
TK narrows his eyes as he walks into his parents’ house, the trepidation that’s been building throughout the day coming to a peak as he spots them waiting for him on the couch. His dad had texted earlier, specifically requesting he come home tonight instead of going to Carlos’s, and while TK hadn’t exactly had any objections, it had given him a bad feeling.
His suspicions are instantly confirmed when he sees his parents’ unnatural postures, the way they’re smiling at him just a bit too widely. He walks in cautiously, feeling weirdly like he’s heading into a trap, though there’s nothing in the room that would outwardly suggest so.
Just his mom and dad, and how they keep looking between him and each other, like they’re in on some sort of joke that TK’s the butt of.
“What’s going on?” he asks, easing himself into an armchair. They share another glance - giggling, for god’s sake - and clasp hands.
“TK,” his dad starts. “Your mom and I… We’ve got some news.”
TK eyes them warily, his mind instantly flashing to the possibility that his dad’s cancer is back. He dismisses the thought almost immediately - they’re far too happy for it to be that - but he also can’t think of what else it could be. Maybe his mom is moving in permanently? Which… TK wouldn’t be opposed, but he’s not sure how much longer he can cope with their bickering, and he’s barely here half the time.
“Do you want to tell him?” his dad asks, but she shakes her head and waves her hand towards him.
“Go ahead.”
And however much TK had thought he’d grown used to his parents’ shit, he’s far from prepared for the next words that come out of his dad’s mouth.
“We’re - that is to say, your mom - well… We’re having a baby.”
They grin at him, waiting expectantly for…congratulations, TK guesses? A hysterical laugh bubbles up in his chest, and he’s barely able to push it down, clamping his jaw firmly shut until he feels like he’s in control again.
“You… You’re serious,” he says eventually.
“Well, it’s hardly the sort of thing you joke about,” his dad says, laughing a little. His mom swats at him, but they’re both still smiling, both still acting like this isn’t incredibly fucked up.
“How long have you known?”
“A while,” his mom admits. “We weren’t going to keep it, but then we thought about it and we realised that we both want a child. Another one.”
TK barely notices her hastily added-on amendment. He gets what she means - he’s not a child, and hasn’t been in many years. He’s more stuck on the fact that they’re choosing to bring another child into this pressure cooker of a household, and not seeing anything wrong with that.
Even when he’d been a kid, TK had felt like he was being pulled in every direction, constantly caught in the middle of their arguments. The feeling’s eased now he’s an adult, but only because he knows he has places to escape to when it all becomes too much. He hadn’t had that growing up, and this new kid won’t have it either.
Maybe he’s being too unfair on them; maybe they can pull it together after all. But, having borne witness to their behaviour these past few months, TK kind of doubts it. Knowing them, they’ll have decided to keep the kid by way of an argument.
And TK knows it’s far from his decision to make, but he can’t help but question them. “Are you sure you’ve thought this through?” he asks.
Their faces drop, smiles faltering as they look at each other, seemingly having a wordless conversation. His dad nods encouragingly, and his mom turns back to him, reaching across the gap between them to take TK’s hands in her own.
“Honey…” she sighs. “We know the risks, alright? Lord knows we’ve both done enough googling. But I’m healthy, and I know what I need to do to make this pregnancy as safe as possible, and we truly believe we can beat the odds. It’ll be fine, I promise.”
She smiles hesitantly, and TK just gapes, not quite understanding how she’s managed to miss the point this badly.
“That’s not what I… Wow.” He presses his lips together in a firm line, standing up abruptly and dropping his mom’s hands. “Okay.”
He shakes his head and turns to go, but he’s stopped when they also rise, effectively blocking his path.
“Where are you going?” his mom asks, frowning in confusion.
TK feels a twinge of guilt, but he pushes it away. “Carlos’s.”
“Now, hold on a minute there, son,” his dad says. “I thought you could stay here tonight, we could have a meal as a family for once. You’re barely here these days.”
“Wonder why,” he mutters, though clearly not quietly enough judging by the way his dad flinches. TK can’t bring himself to care. “I’m going,” he says, louder this time. “I’ll see you at work.”
He squeezes past them, and makes it to the door before he’s stopped again.
“I thought you’d be happy for us.”
TK freezes, hand on the doorknob. “I am,” he lies through gritted teeth, and he doesn’t need to look to see the disappointment written all over his dad’s face. “Congrats.”
He’s gone before they can get another word in, just barely refraining from slamming the door behind him. His skin itches, his whole body jittery and on edge, and TK briefly laments the fact that he’s in no way dressed for running. He has clothes inside that he could change into, but there’s no way he’s going back in there now. He’ll just have to stick it out until he can get to Carlos’s.
Getting into his car, TK has to resist the urge to hit the steering wheel. But he doesn’t trust his parents enough to think that they aren’t watching him from the window, so he simply starts the ignition, driving away without a backward glance.
*
Carlos is surprised when he walks in, pausing his meal with the fork halfway to his mouth.
“TK,” he says, frowning. “I thought you were staying with your parents tonight.”
“Me too.” TK scowls, tossing his keys into the bowl and making a beeline for the bedroom. He feels bad for ignoring Carlos like that, but he’s worried that if he stops to think, he’ll snap, and Carlos doesn’t deserve that.
Carlos must follow him up the stairs anyway, as when TK looks up from yanking his spare running clothes out of the drawers, he’s standing in the doorway, the picture of concern. He sighs, sitting back on his heels, taking a moment to collect himself.
“I’m sorry,” he says. “I just… They asked me over because they had some news, and it sort of threw me. I needed to get out of there.”
Carlos nods in understanding. “Is it your dad? Was there a problem with the cancer, or something?”
“No, nothing like that.”
“That’s good, right?” Carlos is looking at him with those wide, worried eyes of his, and TK feels a little bit of his anger drain away at the sight.
“That part is, yeah,” he allows. “I’m not sure the same can be said for the rest.”
“Wanna talk about it?”
TK hesitates, then rises from the floor, shaking his head. “I will, later,” he promises, “but right now I just need to be alone.”
He quickly changes and grabs his headphones from the night stand, though he stops in his tracks when he catches sight of Carlos’s pained expression.
“Hey,” he says, crossing the room and cupping Carlos’s face in one hand. “I’m not shutting you out, I swear. I need air and some time to think, that’s all. Promise I won’t do anything stupid.”
He smiles and holds his pinky out, and Carlos huffs a brief laugh. He links their pinkies and meets TK’s eyes, searching his face. “I’m holding you to that, Strand.”
TK presses a kiss to his cheek. “I’ll see you later.”
*
He doesn’t know how long he runs for, but by the time he gets back he’s winded, and his thoughts are no less scrambled. The lights in the living room are off when TK walks in, but he can see a soft glow coming from upstairs that lets him know that Carlos is still awake. He’s sitting up in bed, reading, when TK manages to drag himself to the bedroom, having already showered and changed. He holds an arm out in invitation, and TK goes gratefully into the embrace, leaning his head on Carlos’s shoulder.
Carlos absent-mindedly traces circles on TK’s arm with his thumb, a silent comfort that TK relishes in.
“My mom’s pregnant,” he says eventually.
Carlos freezes. “Oh. That’s… Wow.”
TK chuckles humourlessly. “I know.” He sighs. “I feel like I shouldn’t be mad, but I can’t help it. I mean, I knew something was up, they’ve both been acting cagey for ages, but I just… I never thought it would be this.”
“I think you’ll be forgiven for not expecting it,” Carlos comments drily.
TK hums, fiddling with the sheets. “It’s not just that, though. I’m pissed that they didn’t tell me, sure, but I’m less mad for me, and more for this kid. I know what it’s like to grow up with them, and you’ve seen how terrible the past few months have been. I can’t believe they’re seriously going to put another kid through it all.”
“Maybe they’ll work things out,” Carlos suggests, though even he sounds doubtful.
“I want to believe that. But…”
“But?”
“I don’t think they even noticed it,” he confesses, voice quiet. “I was so alone as a kid, but Mom had her firm and Dad had the firehouse, and I was just...there. I know they loved me, but that doesn’t mean they were great parents, and I don’t think they realise even half of what they did. They’re having this baby because they want the good times back, and they’re forgetting just how many bad times there were.”
Carlos squeezes his shoulders. “Shit, Ty-”
“You know it’s part of the reason I became a firefighter?” TK asks. He should probably feel guilty for interrupting, but it’s like some dam has broken inside of him and it’s all coming spilling out whether he wants it to or not. “I’d see my dad with his crew - with this family he’d built at the firehouse - and I just… I wanted in. I wanted my family back, but I couldn’t have that so I settled for inserting myself into his.
“It sort of worked, I guess. We were close. But he’s never been a father to me, exactly, not in the way I needed. I’m okay with it now, but I’m worried the same is going to happen all over again.”
Carlos waits, but TK’s done this time, gritting his teeth against the emotion welling up in him
“Have you spoken to your dad about any of this?” Carlos asks.
TK scoffs. “I tried. Remember my identity crisis after I got shot? I went to him and told him, but he just turned it on me and started talking about 9/11 again. It’s like, I know how bad it was. I know his whole house was killed, and I know how badly that hurt him. But I was seven, and I lived through it too. It’s not the same, I get that, but I did. I think he forgets that sometimes.”
He groans, slumping down further into the bed - and, by extension, into Carlos. “I sound like a dick, don’t I?”
Carlos is silent for a long time, and when TK looks up at him, he’s worrying his bottom lip, brows creased in a frown.
“I think…” he starts slowly, turning his head to meet TK’s eyes. “I think you’re being perfectly reasonable. Everything you just said… I can’t even imagine, Ty.”
TK stares at him, startled by how firm, how fervent Carlos’s voice is. There’s anger there, too, and it’s strangely comforting to know he’s not alone in his frustrations. Even so, TK feels the need to reassure him.
“Hey,” he murmurs, lightly touching Carlos’s arm. “You know I’m okay, right? I’m over all that.”
Carlos sends him a doubtful look.
“Mostly,” he amends. “Besides, I have you now, and the team. I’m not the one who needs to be worried about.”
“I’ll always worry about you,” Carlos says, but he sighs, relenting. “You should talk to your parents, though. They need to know how you’re feeling, especially if they’re going through with this.”
TK shrugs non-commitantly. “Yeah, maybe. Not like they’ll listen to me.”
Carlos sighs. “TK -”
“Can we not talk about this anymore?” TK interrupts, turning pleading eyes on his boyfriend. He’s tired of thinking about his parents, and he feels more than a little guilty for taking over their evening complaining about them, like he’s done far too many times before. He points to the book lying abandoned at Carlos’s side. “Tell me about that?”
Carlos sends him a look, emphatically letting TK know that he’s not going to let him push this away, but he does eventually pick up the book. “I don’t think it’s something you’ll like,” he warns.
“You like it,” TK says. “That’s enough for me.”
The brilliant smile Carlos sends him is almost enough to make him forget everything else that happened tonight. And when he starts talking, TK closes his eyes and lets Carlos’s beautiful voice wash over him, chasing any other thoughts from his head.
It’s peace, of a kind.
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