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u have a fat arm
WHAT????? ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!??? I literally never even knew that. Thank you so much, brave anon, for informing me what my own body looks like. I never would have known if you didn’t have the courage to tell me anonymously in my inbox. Thank you for your service 🫡 /s
#but seriously I have a fat everything#I am fully aware#and I like my body!!!#it houses my consciousness very well!#so what if it has a few extra pounds on it#every doctors appointment I have they tell me I’m very healthy (except for the obvious chronic illness)#but that has nothing to do with my weight#I think my body is sexy and cool#asks#anon
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Anyone else get really irritated when a dancer you dislike actually has a good performance? Like, ughhhh whyyyyyy lol.
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It's kind of funny to not ship a Greek relationship due to incest. You do you, but have you seen "canon"
oh buddy…..my sweet anon, you recite the deep magic to me?
#yes#to answer your question: it is yes#i am fully aware#that is why i made that joke in the tags. and i am now guessing you prob aware and were being hypothetical in the ask#but i do find my response funny so keeping it#asks#ngl ship discourse when talking about Greek mythology is so funny#Persephone is technically Hades’ niece and yet…..#Most of the goddesses are either the sister or daughters of Zeus (except Aphrodite)#Rhea the wife of Kronos is his sister#like you are not safe from the incest™️ if you wish to delve into any Greek myth iteration#i do find the Hermes x Pdy thing very funny and ngl i can see it#the blood’s diluted enough yeah? 💀#greek mythology
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sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.
i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.
so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.
today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.
and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.
so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.
#autism#actually autistic#adhd#audhd#actually adhd#neurodivergent#im tagging adhd and autism because that is specifically what i have#this post can apply to any neurodivergent people who feel it helps#i am fully aware that neurodivergent includes people who arent autistic or adhd
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managed to do a 27 hour fast. I missed the sick feeling of being hungry
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Are you Team Green or Team Black?
Love, I'm team characters that only get 5 minutes of screentime in the show
#hotd#house of the dragon#team black#team green#cregan stark x reader#cregan stark#benjicot blackwood x reader#benjicot blackwood#bloody ben#hotd season 2#house stark#I am fully aware they are both team Black
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Monkey paw curling for me i spread Lukka propaganda, people like him, but the takes still make me want to gnaw my ankles off
#I am not vagueing anyone really#This is in jest#I mean I am thinking of a specific post but like#I'm not actually upset by it#We're all just vibing enjoying our own things#I'm just glad people seem to finally be looking at#This character with anything more than mild contempt#Just yeah I am not normal sorry#I'm like a dog who's so so so so nice to people#But put me around others and i go feral#That's how I am about Lukka unfortunately#I am fully aware#So I'm just laughing at how even when people enjoy his character#I'm still raising hackles a little bit#I need sooo much therapy is not even funny fgsjdjfhb
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i wrote a big long essay talking about tlt and how it engages with describing the skintones of brown characters its under a read more bc it is so long.
I already left a long comment about this on someone else post but I wish I could study tazmuirs odd little habit of dancing around the fact that Gideon and Harrow are women of color when she describes them, and how this kind of extends to other brown characters
We get a million descriptions for how sickly pale ianthe Silas and cytherea are, what a lovely golden tan corona has, the odd tannish yellow hue of colum, all imagined by her, in her own words, to be white. Then when it comes to Marta and Judith they're called dark like Once in the text. I don't think it's even mentioned for Jeannemary and magnus in the entirety of gtn though I will gladly stand corrected if I missed something. It's such a non factor for them, which normally I would overlook if it wasn't for the aforementioned specificity of how white characters are described on Top of one of the major themes of the book being how John, a Maori man, resurrected a largely Polynesian population and then proceed to rule them using the exact same methods that actively colonized new zealand. Like I just think it's really interesting that in many ways, the story is about two young Maori women completely stripped of cultural heritage, they can't even speak te reo maori they cannot even conceptualize the scale of that kind of loss. Theyve been to earth once and during her brief time there Gideon literally died on it's soil it feels so poignant
Back to them specifically being Not Pale, this is not me saying they would be "less" maori if they were light-skinned that's total bullshit and the entire paradigm exists as a product of European bullshit. My fascination is more with the fact that tamsyn has clearly thought of them as midtoned to dark skinned. I'm going to be really generous and disregard the Tommy Arnold covers- he is a talented artist but he's not the author and Taz stated in an interview that she didn't envision Gideon with an undercut either so he clearly has little liberties he can take and I'm fine with that get your coin dude. For these two I'm going to have to focus on Nona the Ninth, bc for the entirety of gtn, harrow is described as grey, and while I understand that's bc she's constantly under a mountain of white and black facepaint, we basically never get an objective description for either of them. Gideon stand out features are her build, hair and eyes, like a lot of characters, but it could have been pretty easy to throw in a line about how she seems less desaturated than what one might expect from a ninth cavalier, like a rich warm brown, possibly hinting to other characters that she isn't a ninth native
Htn also gives very little to work with, again harrows primary colors are the blacks whites and greys of facepaint and her hair and the reds of constantly sweating blood. The character who's darker skintone is Most remarked upon (also one of the few ever constantly headcanoned) as black, is g1deon. I've actually spoken to a few people about this and there seems to be some actual Mandela effect shit going on where people remember Taz saying he's black despite me never once finding evidence for this. However, this is not a case where I'd be overjoyed to be proven wrong, because g1deon being the one black guy in this entire cast, the one who's dark skintone is commented on the most, being the guy who barely speaks, tries killing harrow with a spear 14 times and then dies offscreen. Not good. Bad, actually
Finally onto ntn, in the beginning chapters Nona remarks her (harrows) skintone is the color of an egg carton. I assume she means the light tan, desaturated brown of the cardboard used in certain cartons, which is fitting for harrow, girls lived in an ice cave for 17 years. This is basically the only word we get on it. I believe a few times the text will say something about pyrrha's (g1deon's) brown Everything; brown skin, russet brown hair, rich brown eyes. that character gets to be viewed and constantly affirmed as a brown character in teh way gideon and harrow arent, it kind of others pyrrha. to contrast camillas hands are called tanned way at the beginning while recording nona's dream, then at the way end it says, "Her face still looked grey beneath its nice normal olive," olive being used to describe her once before in gtn as far as i can see. pyrrha's (g1deon's) skintone is one of her most notable features, its brought up to a noticeable agree the text wants you to keep it in your mind when you think of the saint of duty; "Most of Pyrrha was the colours of the building site: deep dried-out browns, dusty hunks of clay, rusted metal." "Pyrrha wouldn’t burn any colour other than her deep cool brown." "Nona took the water from Pyrrha’s brown, work-chapped hand and even sipped it" "Pyrrha had carried Camilla to bed in her big brown arms like Cam weighed nothing" "Pyrrha said, “Thanks, Nums,” and drained the whole thing. Nona,fascinated, watched the brown column of her throat move as she swallowed." its just notable to me when alternatively with nona you'll get a line like "Camilla didn’t say anything to that either, only rubbed her wrists where the tape had been. Nona’s skin was already back to its nice normal colour." like just the vagueness in nice normal color, we get one line about what shes supposed to look like in the beginning and thats it
towards the end during the broadcast, nona gets her first clear look at kiriona, described as: "warm-coloured skin that should have been a similar brown hue to Nona’s, except that there was something wrong with it." break out the champagne its official
Obviously, dying takes some color from you. If anything, gideons desaturation should make them More comparable given the egg carton comment and harrows general state of constant anemia. Has Nona gotten darker during her time on new rho? Was Gideon lighter than the cover led us to believe? We don't know. We well never know, which is odd, bc these books fucking love purple prose about people's appearances. We have like seven different synonyms for the shade of ianthes hair. New words for black have to be invented in order to convey harrows eyes which are Black, not the dark muddy brown of someone like ortus. It's less that I'm bothered by the text not hyperfocusing on their skin and more it picking and choosing when it will laser focus on a detail like that, and how often it's skipped over to the point that I like, constantly see people draw harrow as incredibly pale, which is very different from being light-skinned
Finally, I know people can dismiss this as like an audience interpretation thing. I know I actively draw harrow darker than Gideon which I know isn't canon. But this is less about Fandom response to the text and more the text itself and how it's like. Afraid to say brown. near the end of ntn i found One instance of it referring to gideons "slim brown hand" on nonas cheek and that is direct as it gets. even her other like, strongly non european traits are sort of danced around. her nose is "a nose that was the complete opposite of Nona’s nose, one that put her in mind of those big poison desert cats Born in the Morning was crazy about." a very fanciful description, you have to infer that nona means that its probably flat and wide, also giving us the information that harrows is most likely narrow and straight, possibly downturned. im not opposed to this, especially given the character talking about her is nona, but then you get the following paragraph:
"Her skin was very much dead-person skin, ashen and tinted the wrong colour around the nostrils and the mouth. But even if she hadn’t been dead, Nona was critical. Her eyelashes were very dark, but short and curly, whereas Nona thought all eyelashes should be long and straight (her own eyelashes were long and straight). The corpse had too much mouth and a dimple (nobody in her home had a dimple). You could not, at least, see the veins in her eyelids, which were heavy and cold and deep-set. But Nona thought it was going to be a shame to go from being so lovely as she was to being so—redheaded."
its a very frank description. dimple, curly lashes, red head, dead skin, probably a wide mouth. her nose is contrasted against nonas nose, which is also never directly described, and then compared to a fantasy animal we have never heard of until right now
kicks rocks. there isnt a point to this. the series is almost over, there is zero reason to like, knock on taz's door and ask why she did this or that. it doesnt stop me from loving the series, and the insinuation that noticing this means i must dislike the series is frankly insane (real thing that happened). if someone got the impression that harrow was white given how shes described i wouldnt blame them honestly, its most apparent she isnt in the third book (with the cover art being incredibly ambiguous) and a single blog post from taz mentioning shes maori, immediately followed by an "oh i dont care how you see the characters" addendum, which i think is like. an odd thing to tack on bc them descended from kiwis is like, very integral to the story, and gideon being the daughter of the maori man who took everything from her she didnt even know she could have and the (presumably, given her name and a very brief description) maori woman fighting to get that world back its like. damn. it feels a little important. that the audience knows theyre maori. like a little. it feels intertwined with the whole thing about john using european standards of imperialism and general aesthetics to hurt his own kid. actually.
#tlt meta#hi im black but not maori or kiwi so thats where im coming from with all this#i am fully aware some fans of color will disagree with me thats chill this is just where im at#i have never been a fan of being cagey with how a character looks#it feels like. idk kind of leaning into the fact that the audience wants a blank slate to project onto#and with her being So specific about it like this guy is nz chinese these two are tongan these two are mixed maori this guy is pasifika#it just kind of intrigues me like do you have reasons why as to each one specifically or did they jsut kind of. happen upon you#spring up fully formed#this isnt like a 'tlt is bad' 'you should feel bad if you thought this character was white or black' thing#its strictly about how the text communicates certain ideas and how the audience reacts to them#were kind of primed for . a waifish snobby pale aristocrat. ianthe is Right There harrow being white or pale feels like a natural assumptio#but it is. directly contradicted by the text. and done in a way that can be easily ignored
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Channeling my inner Sammy Lawrence tonight, boys. (And by that, I mean doing my work while hating that I'm doing my work.)
#light's spot#god I love having the knowledge of playing an instrument#but I hate when I'm forced to play it#like fam#I know I can't hit this note#you don't need to hear a recording of it just to tell me#I am fully aware
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Ok it's been 24 hours and my official post-mortem is literally just "Elizabeth Warren was right: Democrats should have appointed an Attorney General who was committed to prosecuting Trump and everyone who enabled him, cleaned house of Trump's appointees, nuked the filibuster to pass DC and Puerto Rico statehood, and prioritized dealing with corruption"
#us politics#2024 election#2024 presidential election#kamala harris#donald trump#joe biden#elizabeth warren#I've been saying this since literally 2019 and I will continue to say it until someone listens to me#(and yes I'm FULLY aware that the filibuster was Manchin and Sinema's fault#I ALSO am fully aware that Schumer and Durbin did FUCK ALL to force their hand on the issue#utter failure to wield both hard and soft power on that and basically every other issue#they should absolutely resign or be primaried)
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So you know the whole fanon trope of Bruce just paying off people’s student loans? Like “you look sad. Would no more student loans help?” to every random person on the street?
Well, what if Tim picks up something similar?
He and Bart are at a coffee shop and Bart is sad about something and the barista gives him extra whipped cream. Tim likes it when people take care of his friends. How can he repay her? Well, it looks like she biked to work today, and based on the way her hair is blown and the direction the wind was that morning he can figure out what direction she came from. So, biking distance that direction, he figures out the most common rent price for that area, adds a little just to be safe and tips that much.
Or, he almost drops his coffee but a mid-to-late-twenties guy catches it for him and hands it back to him. Tim is too tired to say anything but a mumbled thank you, but he does register the university logo on his hoodie and the name on his ID badge. Later that morning he takes a few minutes to find out what he owed in student loans and drops the money in his bank account and sends him an email thanking him.
Like, it’s all incredibly invasive. But all the Gothamites he does it to just coo about how much he’s like his (adoptive) dad and the non-Gothamites are too busy being confused and grateful to get too upset. Maybe one of his friends/siblings tries to explain to him that it’s a little creepy and weird and could be taken the wrong way, but he just gets confused so they let it go.
Just, let him be adorably weird in a benevolent yet creepy way.
#the gremlin nerd child has too much money and just wants to help people#(I am fully aware that this is incredibly fanon. I still love it though)#batman#batfam#tim drake#tim drake wayne#bart allen#young justice#yj98#tim and bart
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Samantha Béart: yeah so Karlach isn't like. A totally good person. She's certainly not evil, but she's definitely flawed. There is a dark side to her that she doesn't want you to know about, and not only has she done heinous things in the past, she's still fully capable of doing heinous things now. Her happy-go-lucky attitude is 1000% a trauma response and this woman absolutely NEEDS to go to therapy because her mental health? It's in shambles
People online: puppy :)
#karlach#ammending my tags i am fully aware sam has said karlach is chaotic good#you can still be good but not be TOTALLY good.#also the people tagging this post with 'ya shes puppy!!!' have completely missed#my point. flew right past ya. ruffled your hair it flew so fast over your head#this post is explicitly making fun of people who just think she is puppy :)#bg3#headcanons
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the way my jaw is simply on the floor (x)
#when I tell you someone at my job literally stared at me I gasped so hard oh my JESUS CHRIST#also yes I am fully aware people have already posted this but I told myself I would never reblog shit without sources LMAO#byler#will byers#mike wheeler#finn wolfhard#st cast#st bts#st5 spoilers#stranger things
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LEE KNOW - GIANTS
#no but why would they do this to us#i am fully aware that these colors is a big mess but oh well#lee know#tw flasjing#stray kids#bystay#linosource#createskz#dancerachasource#meltracks#melontrack#mimotag#dreamytag#usersemily#usersa#usertsu#usernoona#fornini#ultkpopnetwork#*
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guys? guys? guys hello? hi? what? what??? i scream desperately into the void. no one is listening. a stray tribble hits me in the face.
#im sorry#genuinely this is embarrassing#also i am fully aware this is old news#fuck you i do what i want#i can repost old news as if ive just heard it for the first time#star trek tng#qposting#qcard#this is america damnit#just watched deja q btw it was really good#i made the text rainbow
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