#i am eating your phone
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Respectfully if you are on a train and take up a table seat and don’t even use it I am eating your phone
#there’s only so many table seats on the commuter railAUGH#4-6 per car it’s a shared table#I get it if the train is full or if it’s super empty and you want a place for your elbows#but if I’m going 45 minutes all the way to the end of the line and you’re only 15 minutes from your stop#and you deprive me of my ability to use my laptop to get some work done before my aderall gives out and I pass the fuxk out#i am eating your phone#biteing it straight from your hand#I will grind the glass into dust with the strength of my jaw#also fuck you to whoever lied on the schedule claiming that it’s very empty#this is not very empty it’s one degree below max capacity#and who the hell keeps deciding to close off whole ass cars#is there something wrong with the car?? do you not have someone to monitor it???#I can see the damn thing is empty let me IN!!!!!!#what’s the point of taxes when the trains still suck#we pay police so damn much why don’t they run the fucking trains#yada yada defund the police acab and all that#I’m so tired ur honor
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replaying mystic messenger is so crazy because why am i gentle parenting these grown men and teaching them how to handle their feelings
#mystic messenger#mysme#jumin han#saeyoung choi#this post is mainly about those two#i get so mad whenever jumin enters a chatroom like get out of my face im not joking I DO NOT LIKE YOU#like i get it blah blah blah CEO with a cold heart trope and you melt his icy exterior But im so tired...#i don't want to explain workers rights to him#or... basic human rights actually#when he goes “jaehee i need you to work overtime again” and my face contorts in disgust and horror as a sitcom laugh track plays in the bac#also seven's route is so frustrating#like there's genuine reasons for him acting cold and whatever and i get it#but i actually dont want to watch you break a robot cat and then change ur pfp to a dark and broody photo of yourself#I ALSO CANT TALK TO ZEN IM SORRY I HATE HIM SO MUCH#zen lovers do not hate me... i am just a simple person#at one point in seven's route he was like “omg there's an explosive in the apartment? i should send a pic of myself to comfort you...”#I CANNOT HANDLE YOU GO LOG OFF YOUR PHONE#sorry wow im really into this game#i played it four years ago and now it's come back to me#also all of my points are nullified by the fact that saeran is my favorite#doing his route is like pulling teeth and eating socks#i say that with love
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whyyyyy is my car payment coming through as like $700 instead of the normal $350 when i paid last month WHY
#... i still haven't fixed the bank account thing. btw. it's been a hundred years and i've been paying over the phone.#i am. about to be Very Fucking Broke for a week and a half. hfasdfa.#insulin today too. might as well die.#hooboy.#overtime this week and then SO MUCH overtime in october so.#i can figure that shit out then.#.... and eat like. so much oatmeal. for a week.#this was such an unfortunate confluence of small paycheck/weird bills#also. have like $200 worth of late fees on that thing apparently. I DIDN'T REALIZE I COULD PAY THEM VIA PHONE because i'm stupid.#and never listened to the entire system message. apparently.#kill me!!!#can pay those next paycheck though. god.#hey vin what happened to never talking about money on your blog again#WELL#it's good that i paid that before going to the pharmacy and sleep HOWEVER. now i'm fuckin stressed.#and will probably not sleep.
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Not to continue my recent trend of oversharing on tumblr dot com, but I am very much struggling not to feel like I'm doing everything in my entire life wrong at present
#normal things to think after your doctor tells you you need to get a blood test re-taken bc you mistimed your dose#I'm just. I'm tired man.#I've been putting off a phone call for two months#i spend every day lately torn between do I need to go to hospital or am I just unfit and anxious#I rot and decay when left alone but also people are Too Much#I want to Create but I can't get started and when I do I'm just so disappointed with whatever I make#I'm exhausted but I'm awake at 4am bc if i go to sleep tomorrow will start and I'll have to do this all again#and I need so fucking badly for someone to just crush me so hard in a really long hug until my bones realign#and i need to find past me shake her by the shoulders and yell “you're fine! you'll be fine! cut your hair! eat your greens!#take up swimming and also some new pronouns! no one else will respect em but they're for YOU and so is the health stuff#please for the love of fucking god just look after yourself better than i did!“#there's toooooo many fuckin holes in this sinking ship#I need a full body MOT and then to be cradled against the chest of a large gentle man for 12-36 hours#mr. bees speaks
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*guy who doesnt do anything or go anywhere or talk to anyone voice* why am i miserable
#it feels like a spiral that keeps coiling tighter and tighter and youre trapped in it bc bad habits beget more bad habits#and you start wondering if youre lethargic and melancholic bc youre acting like this Or if youre acting like this bc youre lethargic etc#its like..#theres so much i Want to do. and then i dont do it? when theres literally nothing stopping me??? i just sleep and eat (not enough rlly)#and i dont do anything. no chores. tbh im not even on my phone That much it just feels like time is ticking and slipping by and im not doing#the things that i Want to do or Should do in order to get to a place i want to be at.#like bro i dont even brush my teeth properly anymore like how did that happen its like. where am i? mentally??#do i need therapy? medication?? do i need someone to grab me by the shoulders and tell me to get my shit together???? idk....#piksla.txt
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I think it’s mildly funny that I’ve had these as part of my DCA phone decor and they showed up in the Pry/ncess ref sheet (or at least the morning glory). Now I’m going to be reminded of the Bethroned AU when I open my phone <3
EHEHEHE I AM IN YOUR PHONE
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the reference vs the proDUST (product,,,, hehehe) love self advertising in my art class. making a public drawing table was the best thing that ever happened :3
#it was rushed smh i couldve done better#i found an artist that may or may not be my absolute favorite now. i love everything about their art#_level_crossing I LOVE YOUR ART i am going to start doing studies just because of their art#what i dont understand is how they can have digital lineart that looks exactly like it was drawn on paper#HOW DO YOU DO THAT IT LOOKS SO COOL BUT HOW DID THEY ACHEIVE THAT EFFECT#and their rendering is soooo delicious it's like eating a perfect scoop of tiramisu#and im like 80% sure theyre an mttpoly shipper i think#they drew kist art.... they drew horrordust art...... they drew mttpoly art........ what else can i say#aaaaah i cant i love this person's art SO MUCH#i need to get to work. laundry in washing machine. need do. art undrawn. need do. maybe do art study b4. still do. homework. need do.#atleast i have new hwaspho#ok oops i dropped my phone at least i have new headphones! now i can blast my music :3#me when i gave a little figure to my friend that i knew she liked (this is platonic i just want her to like me more)#i asked her out of 1000 how our friendship was..... she said FOURTY/1000#clearly my friend skills are not up to par i must be more engaged and friendly#tricule rant
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Screw you guys *makes a hyperviolent oc because I'm starting to get in my edgy phase*
ALSO YES ITS A MULTIFANDOM OC I CAN STUFF INTO MY FANDOMS FREELY BECAUSE ITS A SHAPESHIFTER
#shit#silly#sillyposting#oc#art#Idk dawg#Edgy#Multifandom#Fursona#Yes i am a furry i will confirm that#shovelwares brain game#Not actually shovelwares brain game its just a furry oc that shapeshifts into alot of styles and fandoms i guess#among us#Eats your organs#illustration#artwork#Lolzers#I got two phones#One for the plug#One for the load
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I got a packet from the social security people I have to fill out and have sent back in--by mail--by the 26th. I got it on Friday. And I haven't looked at it til now, bc I was so stressed out about my dog being sick and i feel so overwhelmed. They want all my medical records from the last year, which I don't have, because I've only started keeping that stuff since I had my complete mental breakdown and she took me out of work. And there's so many pages and so much information they want. They have to nitpick my whole fucking life, before they can decide I deserve health. Being disabled in this country is a fucking nightmare. Instead of trying to hep, the just look for reasons to disqualify you. Because they don't want to help us; they just want us to go away
#america is a trashfire#i can't even leave my house alone#i literally have been in tears every time they call me#bc taking on the phone to strangers gives me that much anxiety#i can't function#i can't remember anything longer than a few seconds#i can't focus or concentrate on anything#i have to set alarms just to remind me to do things like eat or take meds#i forget to shower sometimes. others i'm too tired to bother#i literally went an entire week without showering recently. bc i didn't remember to do it#i am not well#and i just need help long enough to get well#but how am i supposed to get it? if they make you wait 200+ days just to hear if your claim is accepted#how am i supposed to survive until then?#I can't work bc i can't leave home with having panic attacks#i can't file for unemployment bc to do so you have to be actively looking for a job#and to get disability i have to prove that i can't work#i could probably work if i found a job i could do from home that payed enough to live off of#not to mention they want me to list any income from may-july#which i didn't make any working. but my brother lives me and gives me money to deposit for the bills#that are all in my name bc he hadn't established credit when we moved in. and my credit was better back then#bc i couldn't afford to leave home until i was 28. so my credit was literally based off my student loan payments#and they were pretty low bc i did the income based thing#i'm getting my parents to come help me with the paperwork#not bc i can't understand it. but bc i literally cannot remember something i read 30 seconds ago
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okay ventpost time im bored and my period is late
#my mother is leaving AGAIN#to stay with my father#bhai mujhe nahi rehna akele i don't want to parent my brother#i don't want to cook or stress about what to eat and clothes and laundry and literally buying vegetables every few days#well all these things are just surface level but i REALLYYYYY do not want to live alone with my thoughts#i want to study i can't just study on my phone with no adult mere sarr pe khade hoke asking ki itna tv#kyu dekh rahi hai kya hua class kyu nahi attend kari#kar liya try bhai call me immature and childish and pathetic and dependent and undisciplined whatever but mere bas ki baat nahi hai#also ooooh listen to my moms great solution: she'll stay there and dad will come!! to live with us two!! alone!! haha.#it's sk fucking sad and repetitively traumatizing ki i don't even know how to react#my sister is the only kid both my parents like when she stays home things are mostly calm and happy#they dote on her they tolerate us#and they should i love her too but now i feel like crying because i don't want her to stay back just for me??? my stupid mental health??#she's doing enough by staying here till rakhi just because i asked her begged her to not leave me alone mami ke side#she could've fucked off and gone to live her life 10 days ago#it's not fair#the person i love and want to live with.. if she stays she's miserable and her being miserable mskes me miserable#i just. i miss her so much. she already feels so distant and busy and then she'll go abroad and totally forget about me right#who doesn't need all this constant depression holding you back weighing you down when you're living your best life#i hate that there's no solution i just have to grow up and be okay with it#i already got more time with her than i thought she stayed home like 2 years extra cause of covid#3 actually#ab why am i crying it was a good day#also i don't want to make it all about me but like. idk when i was picturing my adult life i was thinking like#night clubs and gay bars and beaches at night#i never factored in real factors like the horrifying fucking country we live in 💀💀#it's just it was the only thing that kept me going the promise of a better future#but now what.#and like#it's feels so stupid now the fact that i sometimes want to like
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Every now and then I remember the times I would mention to my flatmate that I was thinking of buying myself something reasonably expensive (that I had been eyeing up for months and had budgeted for) and she'd tell me that I shouldn't spend that much money on something I didn't need and it would be stupid etc etc while she regularly impulse bought things that cost at least as much and she would use once (while complaining that she was under a lot of financial stress and couldn't afford <$3/week for 2 months for a rental washing machine when ours broke). She is... perhaps not my first call for financial advice
#like I get that you're financially stressed but also it feels a bit rich to complain about it when you're on student allowance (not loan)#and your parents still contribute to things for you even though allowance is supposed to be for people whose parents can't afford to help#and you get multiple scholarships a year even though you're technically not eligible for half of them anymore but then as soon as the money#comes in from those you spend it all on a brand new dress for your sister's hen's do picnic because you can't wear the same dress as you#will for the actual hen's night or the wedding. Better buy a full price one at an expensive store instead of looking in a single op shop or#borrowing one from one of your three sisters who are all roughly the same size#god life must be so tough for you getting the same amount of money as the rest of us on student loan except you only have to pay back half#like the only money you have to live off is the same as what the rest of us get + scholarships (plural) plus what you earnt in your summer#internship? how could you possibly survive??#anyway I am NOT a fan of people who are like 'oh you say you have no money for rent but you have a phone?' because that's bullshit#and the whole 'millenials need to stop eating avocado toast so they can buy a house' thing is also bullshit#however. If you pay $60/week for a gym when you have access to the free uni one (or any other gym in the country is like $20)#and you buy uber eats multiple times a week for like $30+ each time despite having a premade meal in the fridge. and you get multiple#scholarships which mean you are arguably among the more well off students. AND you impulse buy things that cost over $100 regularly#then maybe the problem is not that you don't have enough money to split the rental costs of a washing machine (<$3 each/week)#maybe you are just bad with money#which is fine like it's not like it's unfixable it's just annoying when you act like you're worse off than people whose only money is what#they get from student loan each week so they eat beans on rice for dinner for a week#because that's all they could afford (yes I know people who did this. Yes she complained more than them)#so no I don't think I'm gonna be taking financial advice from you babes because one of us has entertained the idea of a budget to help with#finances and it's not you xx#(she turned down offers of financial help/advice/books to borrow from multiple people multiple times. I 100% get that you might not want to#talk to people about it especially your friends but we had multiple books on finances lying around the flat which she always said she didn't#need. And then she'd continue to complain that she didn't have enough money#god forbid you suggest something like going to a cheaper gym (or worse. The perfectly fine free uni gym!)#again. Her gym cost $60/week for most of last year until they brought in a student discount which was 'only' $45/week#the next most expensive gym chain I can find costs maybe $30/week for the highest membership level#to get what she was getting she would only need like a $20 membership#BUT to be fair she wouldn't get such strong culty vibes at any other gym#lol anyway sorry for the rant. I could keep going but apparently you can only have 30 tags and this is the last one
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i wish apple updates, ANY UPDATES, that change one small thing in the worst way possible while giving you no option to take it back, already having taken my info, my data, my privacy, now demanding what little joy and dignity I have left, a very much i hope you perish with fire on your skin and water in your lungs with the knowledge no one will ever love you and no one has.
#morg rambles#why is there an arrow telling me im using caps lock#did you chucklefucks forget there is a literal LIGHT that GLOWS when i am using capslock#did you fucker mouth breathing shit eating worm guzzling FREAKS not LET YOUR MIND PROCESS that when i am TYPING and i FUCKING SEE the lette#IS IN CAPS#I THEREFORE KNOW IT IS IN CAPS#I DO NOT NEEEEEEEEEEED#IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FROM#FOR AN ANNOYING LITTLE SCREEN ARROW TO TELL ME#i do not nEEEEEEEEEED for my phone is now AUTOMATICALLY blur my OWN FUCKING IMAGES for my wallpaper#WHY#would you make it a two click process TO SEND MEMES OR PHOTOS OR VOICE MEMOS when it was always A ONE CLICK PROCESS#i feel like they SNIFF out whatever actually works and then REMOVE IT WITH GREAT HASTE BECAUSE GOD FORBID WE HAVE JOY AND DIGNITY IN THIS#TECH FUELED NIGHTMARE#I WILL RIP OUT YOUR SPLEEN#IF NOT FOR THE FACT I KNOW THERE IS GREAT PAINS ON THE OTHER SIDE I WOULD SWITCH BEFORE YOU COULD BLINK#i do not need the minds behind this to perish i need them to DIE with FIRE ON THEIR SKIN and WATER IN THEIR LUNGS#i need to get this out my system before i start foaming at the mouth in unbridled agony#that is all#thank you for coming to my ted talk#fuck apple#fuck updates#rambles idk idk
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Uhh.... pretty sure this skill has 1 coin only and not... whatever is going on here.
#limbus company#limbussin'#this happens sometimes which is really minor inconvinence#though the bug where your skills turn white does grate on my nerves#my phone is small and my eyesight is failing. how am i supposed to know whether or not someone is using their defense skill instead of atk?#also started canto iv and so far the enemies are not ‘im about to distort rn’ levels of hard#i will probably eat my words later though lmao
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#like I’m sorry#I love my best friend so so so much and she’s perfect and kind and has gone above and beyond to be rational and to be there for me#and I get it she’s an autistic woman and has faced adversity and has had to go on medical leave and that’s hard#and I’m not being dismissive of her struggles#but it makes me so angry because her parents unconditionally love her and her siblings and have always made her feel that way#and has never worried about money as a kid#and yeah her relationship with her parents isn’t perfect of course#but she literally cannot understand domestic violence beyond just reading about it in a book#like she did everything she can to understand and relate#but sometimes I want to scream because I feel so alone#because no one in my life fucking understands why I’m the way I am#and I’ve been struggling the past two months really badly with coping#I’ve had to go to the doctor to ask about PTSD and not like the tik tok OWO kind#but the I was in a car crash as a kid with my dad as a drunk driver and I keep getting flashbacks in my daily life to being a small child#that are impacting by daily life and interactions#and like I feel so fucking alone#and to hear from my friends ‘your right this is horrible and toxic but lots of people go through this’ ISNT FUCKING HELPING#I don’t want to hear that it’s normal I want to feel fucking safe in my bedroom without my mother blowing up my phone or calling the cops#I am unwell and I’m so stressed and I’m so sick and I can’t cope with this and none of the therapists I’ve tried to find handle ptsd#especially not therapists of color#I’m angry and I’ve been getting worse over the past two months#and not that it matters but due to ^^^ reasons my birthday has always been insanely fucking bad for me#like depression watch bad. when I turned twenty I was vividly hallucinating while walking around campus for a week straight having#flashbacks in class and I had to be taken out of the auditorium because I was physically unwell and couldn’t stop crying and shaking#and I told my friend I didn’t want to celebrate I just wanted to sit on her couch and not be alone and she fucking ditched me#because an emergency with a different friend came up the night before#like I have a history of suicidal ideation traumatic flashbacks eating disorders and self harm and I’m asking you to be with me on a very#upsetting day and you call me the night before telling me we have to cancel because another friend is having a bigger crisis#and like you don’t even feel a little bad about it??#I’m just upset and scared and I’ve got a doctors appointment tomorrow and I’m not in reality right now and that’s scary
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crazy how many people just. don’t know how to be an audience member at the theatre.
#i’ve seen people on their phones. people tearing into their snacks. people talking full volume behind me.#like y’all. shut up. sit down. get off your phone. eat quietly if you’re going to eat. it’s not that hard#am i a bit of a snob??? maybe so. but like. come on.
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going to go lie in some grass and scream into the dirt or smth and see if things are a little better after that
#nothing like waking up at 6am to study for an exam that you are unbelievably fucked for and then getting a call an hour before said exam#to find out that a friend of yours is missing. bc. that’s. so .#and i’m not even in the same fucking county. what am i supposed to do about this#and i was told by a mutual person who i am no longer friends with bc of a falling out that was similiar to this lmao and woah#idk if u’ve ever answered a phone at 11am on 2 hours sleep. half high from exhaustion. 2 a person talkin to you with Hate in their voice#but it’s wild#if i ever die from a curse or smth it’s bc of her#i am so v bad with not being able to do nothing and i can feel myself shutting down and can and don’t want to do anything to stop it#just got to get through these exams and hope that she’s found and ok. i just. idk. i’m just tired and i want to hug her and have her tell me#about her gf who i find so annoying but she loves and steal her socks bc they have cool designs and watch spiderman like we’re 15 again#three days. three fucking days she’s been gone and no one told me#i want to not have to miss ppl. i want to not have to do another reading in a church. i want to refuse to eat her terrible baking. i want to#listen to her tell me everything i do wrong in life even tho that’s kind of awful. i want to sleep. i want. i want#ignore this i just needed to get it out so i didn’t give out to ppl where it wouldn’t do any good#at least i found out what was being hidden from me lol#delete later
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