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God, they're such FREAKS
#i am definitely normal tho#art#fanart#drawing#artists on tumblr#gravity falls ford#gravity falls stanford#gravity falls bill#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#bill x ford#bill ci the triangle guy#bill cipher#billford#grunkle ford#ford pines#gf stanford#stanford pines#suggestive
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i do think it’s quite thoughtful that even though all your men are whores, you still don’t draw anything that would make clown uncomfortable. love the aus btw
There is a fine line between sus and normal stuff- it ain’t hard to be able to make conventionally attractive characters and not make them do anything spicy or even allude to it. There is like this weird expectation that if a character is very attractive, they must be a complete sus magnet LMAO
Though idk how (other) clown would feel that iv started the trend of their child Howdy being buff as shid JDHGDDHDJD-
#He must be so confused about it LMAOOO#if he ever says anything about it I would apologize profusely to him smhhh#welcome home#welcome home howdy#welcome home barnaby#welcome home frank#welcome home wally#welcome home eddie#welcome home sally#howdy pillar#barnaby b beagle#frank Frankly#Wally darling#sally starlet#eddie dear#i wanna draw more normal non au character stuff but I am fresh outta ideas JDHHFHDH#Mostly cause there is a big boom in au creation and it feels a little overwhelming atm#It’s very predictable that this would happen but still smhh#Next thing I post will definitely just be normal stuff- maybe more Wally and howdy per usual#Dunno tho#just have to wait and see what my motivation is JDHDH#Welcome home mob au#I keep almost forgetting to put that tag every time KDJHFHDDHH
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Girl please stop romanticizing obesity, it will literally kill you eventually (and I know it’s not the first time someone says it to you). Like are you even ok? Romanticizing being immobile & being humiliated on the street? Why would you even aspire to this? For some attention of questionable men on this app? Girl they don’t deserve you. This message comes from a place of concern, it is not intended as an insult. You said you want a career in the future, maybe focus on that, I’m not sure how possible it is do all that while being immobile or having whatever condition.
omfg 😭 i apologize for writing little stories to get myself off, i guess?? lmfao. i have a fetish. i state clearly in my bio that this is what to expect. sorry im horny posting anonymously on tumblr.com ???? stop being weird when u don’t even belong in these spaces
#this is so silly#like i really have any choice but to focus on my career#and i’ve literally said before that i don’t plan on reaching immobility#i really doubt i could. i have tummy issues and am literally allergic to garlic#and i’ve also definitely stated before that what i do requires me to have some level of fitness#permits went thru and i have. a massive project out in west TX in september#also. why does this person assume i’m not doing it for myself??#i was fat before posting here. and i will be fat after#i love my body and i’d love it even more if i was bigger#but i’m fine where i am and i’d be fine losing 50lbs too#tho i don’t wanna be under 200lbs bc that’s where body dysmorphia starts#i am predominantly attracted to fat women so. let me be that pls lol#anon. we have one life and i’m genuinely blessed to have attraction to smthn outside of the norm#this variation is normal within a population and i will have a normal life despite what ppl like you think#talk#ask
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DPxDC requested prompt (#7)
(@bearerofendlesspain You know... Only after writing this whole thing do I realize that I had read this prompt wrong... WHOOPS! I read it as "Poison Ivy and Tucker are eating blood blossoms to extinction." and not as what was likely intended which seems to have been more along the lines of... "Batman rogue: Poison Ivy. Conflict: Tucker is eating blood blossoms to extinction." ... Which in this particular context are way, WAAAAAY different ideas! I could have saved myself a lot of distress if I had read it correctly... >.> But ah well! Whoops! Hope you enjoy this anyway! Thinking about a plant going extinct like this was quite distressing for me to write! :D)
"Hey. Thanks for helping me out with this, Tuck. And you know... For keeping all of this a secret from Sam." Danny smiled in appreciation to Tucker as they began to break ground with their shovels. "She would probably HATE what we're doing right now!"
"Yeah, of course, dude! It's no problem at all. The more we get rid of these blood blossoms here in Amity Park, the better it is for you and all of the ghosts in the area! Besides, I never want to even think about having to eat another one of these things ever again!" Tucker shivered at the memory of having to eat blood blossoms to save Danny and Sam's lives.
With that, the two got to work killing the bush of blood blossoms. They were digging to expose the roots so they could tear the plant from the ground whole. That made things easier when they would shove the entirety of the plant into a plastic garbage bag along with the other blood blossom bushes they had already uprooted. Once they were done with this area, they would take all of the bushes they had uprooted over the course of the day and bring them to an incinerator where they would destroy the plant- burning the flowers, stems, roots, and seeds all in one fell swoop. They had to make certain to destroy the whole plant, including the roots and seeds, just to make sure that there was no chance of the bush growing back from just its roots or more bushes getting planted in their place. They had been making good progress in wiping out the blood blossoms in this area. They just had a few more to uproot here and they could move on to the next area! They had been at this for months and were getting pretty close to their goal of exterminating blood blossoms in the whole of Amity Park!
But just as they were pulling this bush from the ground, a beautiful red-haired woman started charging towards them. "What do you think you're doing!???" she roared. The woman was clearly frantic.
Danny and Tucker glanced to one another. "Removing a bush...?" Danny answered, not certain what was going on.
"'Removing a bush' ... Alright, kids, stop what you're going and step away from that 'bush' right now!" She demanded. And while Danny complied, letting go of the plant and backing away, Tucker didn't and instead began to haul the shrub from the ground.
"Come on, lady. We're just removing some weeds. This isn't anything to freak out over." Tucker turned to roll his eyes at the woman where Danny could see but she couldn't.
"A 'weed'? A 'WEED'!!? You really don't have any idea what you're doing do you!? Do you even know what these 'weeds' are!?" The woman was obviously distressed, and growing more agitated by the moment.
Tucker let out a flippant breath. "They're blood blossoms, duh."
"Yes. And this specific species of blood blossoms are native and endemic to the Amity Park area!"
"Okay...? So what?" Tucker wasn't entirely certain what she was talking about.
"And they're an endangered species!"
"Oh... I- I didn't know!" Danny swore, suddenly feeling bad about what he and Tucker had been doing.
"So?" Meanwhile, Tucker had the opposite reaction. "What are you, a botanist or something? Who cares if these blood blossoms go extinct?"
"Yes. I am a botanist..." Danny was watching as the horror on the woman's face was slowly turning into fury.
"Tucker...? I think that you should just leave the plant alone..." Danny cautiously advised.
"What!? After all the work we've put into killing off all of these stupid flowers? Now you're starting to sound like Sam! We've been at this months! No way I'm stopping now!"
"MONTHS!???" That was the absolute last straw. These children have been exterminating these poor, defenseless, endangered plants for months!? Dr. Pamela Isley- more famously known as Poison Ivy- had heard enough. These boys were going to pay. "You might not care about these flowers dying, but I do! The land- The Green does! You need biodiversity in order to have a healthy ecosystem, and these flowers play an important role in that! You can't just go around, carelessly digging up and killing innocent, endangered plants without there being... Consequences."
#dpxdc#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#dpxdc prompts#dc x dp#tucker foley#danny fenton#poison ivy#pamela isley#For the record if Tucker was eating them it would only be out of obligation because Danny asked him to.#I purposefully didn't mention whether Ivy's skin is green here or not. If she has the green skin and the plant controlling powers#just pretend that she's wearing makeup to make her skin look normal because she knew that she was going outside of Gotham.#People in Gotham usually don't question it but people outside of it certainly do!#Also Ivy is DEFINITELY going to kill them. Maybe not right now but rest assured she will poison Tucker eventually.#Also I am SO sorry for making Tucker into such a villain in these! It's not intentional I swear!#I like Tucker just fine! PLEASE give me a request where he can be the voice of reason!#Good luck to the kids tho lol
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imagine you're luce, and you're born the heir to a mafia family. you're mafia-born, and so of course also mafia-raised, and then also a donna-to-be. you're raised to be able to take on the role, to be good and capable at it, are taught to make one of your core beliefs about how the many must come before the few, because the family must always come first. you're going to be the donna, of course you must always prioritize the family above all else, it's your foremost and most important duty.
if caring about the few too comes at the price of the many, comes at the price of the family, is it even worth it? if the happiness gained from it comes at the price of a greater suffering for others, is there even any meaning to it, even if it's your happiness we're talking about? you understand, don't you?
you're not sure if you do, but you care about your family, love it, want to do right by it once you become their donna, so you nod, listen and learn.
(you don't have to be taught the pain and loss and guilt and anger and bitterness is a fair price to pay for the pain you decide has to be inflicted and the sacrifices you decide must be made, including by yourself. it's the least you could do, even.)
imagine you're luce, and the gift of foresight runs through your blood.
you would not call it a gift. you did not ask for it either. and you'll never come to see it as something wanted by you.
you can see the future, and it happened exactly as you saw it would, so of course it's exactly the way you wanted it to go. you can see the future, and it happened exactly as you saw it would, so of course you didn't care to try hard enough to change it. you saw the future before the shape of it had yet to be breathed into existence, and who's to say it didn't come into existence only because you saw it happen? you saw the future, and it happened worse than it had to for it.
you can see the future, but you still can't make it anything else than what it was always going to be. you can even make the visions happen at your will, but you still have no say on what you see or how much you see. you still can only be the witness of it before anyone else can.
it does mean double and longer the happiness sometimes, means relief and gratefulness and hope beyond words, and it'd be cruel of you to voice out loud your feelings for others to hear the many more times it means something else.
you can see the future, and it doesn't make it any kinder on you than on anyone else, does not give you any more power or control over it than anyone else, but at least you can see the future. you're given the time to make peace with it, to brace yourself for it, to bargain with it, to plead and beg and fight against it however desperately and hopelessly, even if in the end it still happens exactly as you saw it would.
(you can see the future, and it still doesn't hurt you any less than anyone else when it happens, but you don't expect anymore for anyone to hold you any less responsible for it anyway. it would be nice for someone to do it one day, but you understand.)
you can see the future, and you decide it's a kindness to both yourself and others to keep it for yourself as much as possible whenever you can.
imagine you're luce, and your family has this set of rings they've looked after and protected for as long as your family has existed. they're one set of three of the most important artifacts in the world, ones that help in safeguarding its existence and balance. they're duty, the very first one and the most important one your family was created for.
the pacifier around your mother's neck is duty too, and the most important and powerful artifact among twenty-one in safeguarding the world and its balance. it's been passed down in your family too, from mother to daughter. it's duty, but less tied to your family and much more to the blood running through your veins. it's a curse, in fact, as it demands heavy sacrifices the rings don't, and one that can only be tied to the blood running through your veins.
(your mother looks at you as if expecting some kind of reaction from you, and you can only wonder at which point you weren't supposed to see it as a given. duty and sacrifices have been one and the same for you for a long time now. is it even duty if it doesn't require any sacrifices from you?)
imagine you're luce, and your mother dies for duty. she's the donna, and so she dies for your family. she's the sky arcobaleno, and so she dies for the world. she's your mother, but she dies anyway, doesn't fight it either, even knowing she will leave you behind, even knowing she won't ever get to see what you look like all grown-up.
everywhere you look, duty stares back at you, from your mother and the pacifier around her neck, her love for your family and the life she gives up for it, her love for you and how she dies anyway while you're still only a child. duty, from your family members and how they die for you and kill for you, how they do both at your command, how their lives are in the palms of your hands and how they weigh only as much as you allow them to at a time. duty, from the knowledge your foresight gives you and the shackles tied to the blood running through your veins.
your mother's only duty while she lives too. she loves you, but she'd have had to give birth to you anyway even if she didn't. she loves you, but she still gave birth to you even knowing the kind of life you'd have to live, the kind of hands you'd inevitably end up with, the burdens she'd have to lay on your shoulders, passing them down from her own. because she loves you, she finds the resolve to raise you to be able to face all of it head-on and come out on top, but she'd have had to raise you much the same way anyway even if she didn't.
(she doesn't die for you, doesn't fight to be able to keep living with you, and this, too, is your mother surrendering to duty one last time.)
(you're so sick of it, so angry at it, so hateful and resentful against it. you're so stifled by it to the point you've stopped being able to breathe for a long time now. or you would have been if they had taught you how to face duty in this way too.
it's for the better they didn't. a silver lining, sparing you pain that isn't necessary for you to go through. everyone you turn to only teaches you how to keep holding your breath longer, and you listen and learn, obedient and dutiful as you've ever been.
you're grateful for it too. really, you are.)
everywhere you look, there's no room for you to so much as question any of it, let alone anything more. duty is commendable, something you ought to look up to and strive towards, strive to achieve. duty is the right thing to do. of course it is.
(you exhale a breath of relief that shakes you down to your very core.
thank god, it's at least the right thing to do.
you're grateful for it beyond words. really, you are.)
imagine you're luce, and before it even happens, you know the choice you'll make when climbing that mountain, when standing on top of it, when waiting for a bright light to shine down on you from above. you know the choice you'll make then, even when pregnant with your daughter.
it doesn't matter since how long you knew, be it years, months, days, hours or minutes before. all that matters is that before you can even contemplate the idea of making another choice and all its implications and possible consequences, before the thought can even come alive in your mind, you already know the choice you'll make.
(you can see the future, but just because you already saw it, it doesn't mean it's now set in stone.
you can see the future, but just because you're given the chance to fight to change it, it doesn't mean it still won't happen every bit like you saw it.
it doesn't mean it can't still happen even worse than how you first saw it happen because you fought to change it, no matter how already dreadful it originally was.)
imagine you're luce, and before it even happens, you know they'll be others with you standing on top of that mountain. you're the only one who'll know it before it happens.
(because you can see the future.
and oh, you did not ask for it.)
they're strangers, people you don't owe anything to. adults who choose to show up at the first meeting, and to show up to every following mission after that. the chosen seven, whose ambitions and prides lead them to walk the path of the seven strongest too once laid down in front of them.
you don't force their hands in making any of those choices for them. you're not responsible for any of them.
you become coworkers then, accomplices, your hands stained in blood to various extent, but now dipping in the same pool of blood as you strive towards the same goal together. you have each other's backs, learn each other's strengths and weaknesses, learn each other's personalities, likes and dislikes. you keep having to spend more time together as the missions keep coming your way.
inevitably, you come to care about them. even more damning, they come to care about you in return. enough so they'll look after your daughter even after what'll happen on top of that mountain. enough so they'll look after your granddaughter too, warmly and fondly enough she'll call one of them uncle.
you're still the only one who knows they'll stand together with you on top of that mountain, not knowing what'll happen on it like you do.
and you do care about them, you swear you do. really, you do.
(you care about them the same way your mother cared about you, and how she still raised you to have steel in you and be made of sharp edges you know how to use. you care about them the same way you care about your family, and how you still send them to their deaths as needed so the rest of your family you care about just the same can keep on living longer and safely. this is the only way you've had the chance to learn how to care and love.
duty and sacrifices have been one and the same for you for as long as you can remember. it doesn't matter at which point sacrifices came to mean love to you too.
and most of all, you love your daughter more than anything else in the world.)
imagine you're luce, and this is who you are. this is who you've been raised to be, the only way you've been given room to grow up to be. this is the life you've lived and the kind of life that has shaped you as the person you are now. this is what you've been taught and told is the best version of yourself you could have grown up to be. this is who you ended up being by what you've been taught and told are all the right choices to make.
you're still the only one who knows what is about to happen on top of that mountain. it hasn't happened yet. the fate of the world hangs on what'll happen on top of that mountain, the same world you'll have to give birth to your daughter in. the same daughter you're currently pregnant with.
now imagine you're luce, look me in the eye and tell me you'd know how to even form the thought of the possibility of there being any other choice to make. look me in the eye and tell me you wouldn't look at the only choice in front of you, and know deep in your bones it's the only right choice to make. that it is right of you to make it. because it simply has to be.
(imagine you're luce, and you're not doomed by the narrative. of course, you're not.
why would you need to be when the narrative has painstakingly shaped you all your life to become its perfect, faithful and dutiful sacrificial lamb?
and then, imagine you're luce, and you're even grateful for it, so, so very grateful it held up its end of the bargain too.
truly, you are.)
#katekyo hitman reborn#khr#khr meta#khr headcanons#khr luce#khr arcobaleno#arcobaleno curse#sky arcobaleno#this post is first and foremost for the luce stans girlies#so maybe like. the whole five of us tops 😌#everyone else is also welcome to interact with this post but yes i am a luce stan who's very pro she didn't ever do anything wrong ever#and i know that and i love her for it <3#but also this is not a 'this is why you should love luce too actually' post#or even a 'this is why you should forgive her for the choices she made actually' post#like i totally get how and why one can dislike/hate her. genuinely#but this is a 'you totally lose me if you then follow up by saying she still doesn't deserve understanding or compassion or sympathy or#even pity' post#i mean come on. she WAS standing on top of that mountain too. she bore the curse just the same as them. was as much a victim of it as the#rest of them. in fact the sky arco curse is arguably the WORST of them all so like. yeah#the sky arco but luce specifically to me is such a tragic character is what this post is about#definitely not enough for her to be considered as doomed by the narrative but like#the narrative was in need of (seven) someone to take one for the team and tho it did choose luce without asking for her opinion about it#/she/ then decided that the best course of action was for her to /let/ herself become perfect for the job and like???#i just love thinking about the implications of it and how she might have ended up with that kind of mentality#my girl has never been okay a day in her life and i also will never be normal about it <3#also i might also post this one on ao3 in the following days so it can reach like. maybe a whole two more luce stan girlies 😌
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Are you a proshipper?
what if the world was made of pudding
#sorry ive been asked this exact thing like 4 times and i answer it differently everytime#i dont CARE i dont CARE what people JERK IT TO but that lines up EXACTLY with the definition of proshipper so i fucking GUESS#where im from its called being normal. its internet etiquette to not seek out shit that piss you off. u dont have to care i promise#or call me a freak and block me for the both of us. curate your online experience <- thats also a proship ideal ewwww#unless this is one of those who thinks proship means darkship? in this case that still depends on your definition of darkship#going by mine - u still shouldnt be surprised when i have a fav ship like garyjohn. but no i dont think i like anything more fucked up#sorry i went in tangents but theres absolutely much more i wanna say. its 2:30 am rn and i dont trust myself enough tho.
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OH YEAH JOY AND WHIMSY I SAW A DEER EARLIER!!!
#not a pikmin post#it’s not often I actually see one!!! I definitely hear them sometimes but I hardly ever catch a glimpse let alone get a photo#it just kind stared at me instead of running away for a few seconds#it looked like it was gonna come up to me which sounds whimsical but it is Not#because usually if wild animals become tame it’s because they might be rabid#but nah this fella was fine. he didn’t actually come any closer and ran off after a few seconds#pleasant fellow. 10/10#and it’s a male deer too!!! I usually only see female deers#look at them antlers!!! so cool!!!#seemed pretty small. must be but a young little fella#keep in mind I know. absolutely nothing about deer#but I just think seeing wild animals is neat. rarely get to see em#a fox once almost ran into me when I was outside writing. scared the shit outta both of us#also seen ducks. those are cool. and some unidentified furry being in the distance#I think it was a fox but it seemed kinda darker than a fox would normally be#coulda been a silver fox but I hiiiighly doubt that. it was twilight so it was hard to tell. oh well#those things are cool as hell tho fr. but it was probably just a cat or raccoon or smthn#also have seen many turtles. and a dead mouse. the dead mouse wasn’t as fun#poor guy drowned it seemed. I gave him a proper burial#aka I shoved it in a hole with a stick because I was too scared to touch it. I’m a true nature expert#I am just yapping at this point GOODNIFHTOOUHHHH IM TIRED
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Like OK so I've been reading a fic with trans wolfwood in it that is so. HONEST. About how it affected him and still affects him. In a way that's very much not an average cis writer portrayal of a trans character.
Like. Either this writer is trans or did plenty of research, but it just feels REAL to me. And it has me thinking about my own way of writing trans Wolfwood.
I'm not there yet. But I've been thinking about it. The ways that what the EOM did fucked him up... but it also acted as HRT that affirmed his gender. So what do you do when you're in a body you don't recognize, but looks much more like a man than ever before? There's some gender euphoria in a way, but dysphoria at the same time bc you didn't grow into this. You didn't watch yourself transition. Suddenly you just Were this, and it's not you, but also it's nice to finally be seen as a man, but it also feels wrong to feel grateful for any part of what they did to you...
On and on and on
You see? This is what I want to think about with him. This is why trans Wolfwood is so compelling to me. It's just so Complicated, he'd have such Complicated feelings about his body and the way he lives with it. He learns this new body, it starts to feel more like his, but he also mourns the fact that he didn't get to watch it grow into this like he should've.
That kind of thing.
#speculation nation#itnl shit#tagging it bc these r things relevant to itnl ww. because. he is trans☺️#TRANS WOLFWOOD MY BELOVED!!!!!!!!!!#i wanna do more research into trans things. ive already done a lot. but like#into the actual physical side of it all. the effects of HRT. all those messy little details that people dont often focus on.#some months ago i skimmed thru this writing guide on how to write trans men. and i think i wanna revisit it#read it more slowly and thoroughly.#bc im confident in my ability to write trans characters. considering the fact that im not cis myself.#but im not a trans man. so there r some Things that i just dont know about by virtue of not having experience with HRT#so. research! supplementing my existing knowledge with the perspectives of the actual people im writing about.#and so it goes when ur writing about an experience that is not entirely your own.#it matters to me to make my writing of trans men as realistic as possible.#even with the messy details that people normally shy away from. Especially them.#i pride myself on my realism as much as is within my means of capturing it.#realistic emotions. realistic reactions. realistic bodies.#i am Going to write a trans wolfwood that is So realistic. as much as possible.#(i keep specifying ww with this even tho vash is trans also just bc vash is a bit more uhhhh not human lol#so the definition of what makes him trans is a bit more loose. still inferred by real life experiences#but he wouldnt have the same sorts of experiences with HRT. or gender expression in general#so i feel less of a pressure to capture it as fully accurate to the real life human experience as possible. if that makes sense.)
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my psychiatrist confirmed that i am in fact autistic
#all of my friends were like 'no really?!!! i had no idea“ listen i know we all know but i wanted to know For Sure#she's very 'aspergers' and 'you're going to learn how to make eye contact' about it because czech psychiatry is... well#but overall the other stuff she said checks out and im happy I don't have to live in constant self doubt anymore#now she's not completely sure i have adhd tho because my attention is mostly normal according to tests#but she's also not opposed to me having both like it's definitely still possible she just wants to focus on mainly treating my anxiety rn#she was like 'so it would make sense that you're living in social isolation'#me with most friends I've ever had in my entire life: :-)#i was like 'no i have friends they just all have adhd or autism too'#i mean i am still socially isolated. i oftentimes feel like other people are living behind a glass wall and i can't reach them#but i took it literally in the 'you are alone and no one talks to you' sense#anyway#i am disappointed none of my friends sent me 'náš auťák' from the czech Grease dubbing#i have many feelings about this but they are difficult to put into words so autism creature gift shall suffice
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The way the new Sonic x Shadow Generations trailer had me literally shaking I'm so. I'm just. I'm. I.
#GNAWING AT THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE#OHHHH MY GOSH#the juxtaposition of showing normal ass Sonic Generations then just#SHADOW IS GOING THROUGH THE HORRORS#SHADOW IS BECOMING VENOM WITH WINGS#SHADOW IS-#OH HI TERIOS??#ALSO I JUST. FUCK DUDE. I gotta get the preorder and prob the deluxe edition I so rarely do that I might have to do it. Just this once.#I'M SO UNBELIEVABLY EXCITED ABOUT THE GERALD'S JOURNAL PREORDER THING#YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND#FUCKING#ALSO THE 06 AND HEROES ACKNOWLEDGEMENT#LOWKEY MAKING ME HAVE A LITTLE MORE HOPE FOR SHADOWS CHARACTERIZATION MAYBE#LIKE IK IT'S DEFINITELY GONNA HAVE ITS OVERLY EDGY ASSHOLE MOMENTS BUT. IT'S SOMETHING#Am a little tiny bit annoyed with them constantly calling Shadow an antihero tho like let him just be a hero#but that might mostly be a me thing#ANYWAYS UH YEAH IM CRAZY. IM SO EXCITED#me when the tags are like 10x longer than the post#sth#shadow the hedgehog#sxsg#sxsg spoilers#sonic x shadow generations#sonic x shadow generations spoilers#ALSO. gonna be real I wish I had a ps5 to play it on#prob gonna have to do it on switch cause I'll be in college :((
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YALL i was eating lunch and i see someone coming towards me so i look up and its the fucking hot TA who i havent seen in person since spring and he was looking so damn good and we chatted for like 20 minutes and unfortunately he is still so fucking attractive i have no self control whatsoever around him i need him so bad
#thots et al#ta saga#i finally got to tell him i started lifting :3 he was happy to hear it#hes highkey exactly what i wanna look like but thats beside the point#definitely unrelated to my attraction to him because i am normal actually#im glad it happened tho cuz it reminded me that we actually do get along a lot of the time and like#just bc sometimes he can be autistically blunt and rude isnt like a reason that he hates me or is being malicious
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my shirt that says "i don't have an eating disorder" has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt
#text#(this is a reference to another tweet i dont have a shirt that says that)#ed tw#weight loss tw#talk about weight in general tw#like yes i eat the same thing almost every single day & have to force myself through every bite#no i dont have an eating disorder#i just have autism and anxiety and its making my life a little bit unliveable at the moment ❤️#i know i also have arfid which yes is an eating disorder but not like. in the way people probably think of if they look at me during#a meal and judge the way im eating and decide they think i have an ed (which i know is anxiety and nobody does that but still)#but i probably wouldnt get diagnosed bc im at a ''healthy weight''#even tho i know that for My Body it's not healthy . i was eating relatively well for a brief period of my senior year of high school#& very briefly my freshman year of college#and i got to around [number] both times#and they were both short periods of time so i still dont know what like. a healthy weight would be For Me and for My body#but i know a doctor would tell me my weight rn is Normal and Good and that if i gain weight thats Bad and Wrong#even though i am definitely not eating enough and not getting enough Fuel For My Body To Work Right#its such bullshit. also i hope whoever invented the bmi kills themself#Well anyway. swagever ive been eating one singular slice of pizza for half an hour so i gotta get back to that
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my mum: you've been doing really good lately. every part of your life is really stable and you seem genuinely happy, it's great to see :)
me, who's felt like ive been going actually crazy bananas insane for months now: yeah haha
#sometimes i forget that 'being in total control of my emotions at all times' isn't just my cringe lore & is actually something im good at#like wdym my MUM said this. girl im experiencing horrors over here!#i got really offended by it? ilke i just smiled at her and agreed but inside i was like HELLOOOOO CAN ANYONE HEAR MEEEE#i just genuinely feel like i am so detached from myself and im entirely manipulative and i micromanage every facet of my personality#and change it day-to-day person-to-person and not in the Normal Human Way but in a crazy insane I Am Manipulating People Way#& it's a CONSCIOUS thing & like. idk who the real me is idk if there is a real me idk if id like her if i saw her idk if im a good person#but i look like im doing fine. i seem really stable and happy atm according to the person who knows me better than anyone#like that's the extent of my control on myself. even my mum cant tell. HUH#idk i feel like im being dramatic bc last week and this week ive definitely been feeling a lot better#and like maybe i was just having some sort of months-long episode but that doesnt negate the fact that while i was IN it no one could tell#not even the closest people to me that see me every day in the same house where im most vulnerable could tell#that's like. worrying surely. maybe. i think. whatever im just saying shit at this point#i always do this tho i go 'i fundamentally base my self-worth on how little i share vulnerability with people#and it's been a constant part of my personality since childhood that i dont talk about my feelings' and then i get SO pissed off#when people dont realise im going through shit. like girl what did you THINK was gonna happen. look inwards#hella goes home
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when i died god said you wont go to hell youll be a girl-adjacent Sex Alter in a transmasc system
#sys#system posting#plural#i love our transness. dont love peoples general discomfort and inability to incorporate he AND she into their vocabularies#i love our transness i love our collective bigenderism i wish people could be normal about it#i dont need them to see me i dont need them to respect me i dont need them to get it. but i DO get irritated when they dont#u kno????#like im trying so hard not to get upset abt it anymore but all i hear is he he he he sir sir sir sir boy boy boy boy when im out#when the masc fronters r out in the world tho its a lot of she she she she maam maam maam maam#wish we could swap places but i am not one to go in public and interact w ppl like the mascs in my system r 💀#its sick ans its twisted but at least we are a hot beautiful quilt of transgenderism#stazi speaks#i think im rocking w the demigirl label a little bit bc im definitely a girl of some kind but w a lil xtra smthing
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went to a dispensary in the city today with my irl bestie and then when i got home from work i proceeded to get super high for the first time in a long time because i have been so incredibly stressy and depressy 24/7 and i needed to chill tf out
10/10 recommend, i’m still kinda high tbh but not as much as earlier because it’s wearing off 😂
#⟡ — kayleigh’s yapping#the best part is that the gummies i got weren’t super disgusting!!! 😭 👏🏻#i have had a lot of bad experiences with weed gummies in the past re: them tasting absolutely vile#but these ones are good; you can definitely tell they’re not normal gummies but it isn’t super gross 👍🏻#definitely going back to this dispensary again though because it was absolutely delightful#and the people who work there were ridiculously nice and fun 😂 ✨ it was very strict and serious at the same time tho 🤷🏼♀️#ANYWAYS i am going tf back to sleep 👋🏻
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Damn I should have gotten this guys phone number today
#he's a coworker and a really cool guy#he definitely has a crush on me and ngl I'm kinda into him too#I AM POLYAMOROUS I AM NOT CHEATING ON MY HUSBAND#he was actually the first one I told about it#anyways I should see him tomorrow too so I can just get it then when I'm not dealing with the tags#they're sending three boxes this week and I'm fuckin annoyed about it#normally we only have one#it's a huge sale changeover week tho so I get it#it's just also my first week as the department head so... yeah I got a lot riding on this#they're not gonna demote me cuz they know I'm capable#it's just me wondering if I'm capable (and I am)
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