#i am an angst enjoyer

[ormymarius]

“and this one hates you more than the other one did.”

“that’s not true. come on, little brother. I know you’re in there.”

[whitestone-is-for-lovers]

heyyy here's an episode 34 ficlet that I just found in my docs. it's sad. Imogen POV when Fearne is deciding who to save (spoiler alert, it's not Laudna). also it's on ao3 here.

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The world goes quiet. The world narrows in: two friends, on the ground, dust swirling around in the sudden terrible silence.

Fearne’s eyes are so big as she looks between them, and your mind is a boil of panic. You see in her face the inability to choose, and for you, cruel and terrible as it may be, there is no choice. There is no guilt for you right now, there is no logic or shame, there is only the horrible heat of fear.

You kneel before her. You clutch at her bloodied green skirts and you beg. Please, please, bring her back to me.

Then you are crying too hard to form words, so you fold yourself up at her feet and hope she listens, hope she understands.

…

In the end, she does not listen. She does not understand. She does not save Laudna.

…

Your friends hold you back.

They say so many words, and they pull you down with so many hands. Strong hands as hard as rock, and metal hands that are cold when they touch you, and small calming hands callused from years of holding a sword. You hate all those hands, more than anything. They are keeping you from her.

They say Imogen.

They say calm down, it was an impossible choice.

You, hollow, say not to me.

You are broken, completely, you are shattered on the ground. You are one thousand fragments of a girl. You are nothing without her.

You say Laudna.

They say Imogen, take a breath, and you flail and scream LAUDNA! LAUDNA! — like you can call her back.

You scream so loud and so long that it drowns out all the other voices, every single one, and it’s just you, you always wished for this quiet. You hate it now.

And then there is no more screaming, and you are hoarse and whispering. You are numb and empty, you are staring and cold.

There are no more hands on you, and there are no more sounds. There is no one nearby, except her. You have her head on your lap. Her hair is a mess.

You say no, Laudna, no, no. Come back. Come back.

You say I didn’t mean to. It was all my fault.

You say gods, Laudna, I’m so sorry. I’ll never ask for anything again. Please. Just come back.

[theelmoarchive]

Sanders Sides theory (rant). I know im mainly a mh acc here but I have thoughts i need to get out there

(just fyi this theory is Roman centric, I know most TSS people nowadays are talking ab Orange and Logan so if Roman's not interesting then continue on 🔥🔥)

(Also slight TW, talking ab the sides "ducking out" and depression themes, so yeah👍👍)

Okay so. I was scrolling through Sanders Sides theories and found that no one seems to have this theory, even though I thought the Roman angst enjoyers like me would be writing this all over the place but. Ig that means I need to talk about it.

I've had this theory for years now, since the day I first watched SVS Redux.

I think Roman is going to duck out.

I dont know if I have to explain why but. I mean, just looking at the explosive end SVS Redux had will tell you a lot.

He doesn't belive Patton when he tells him they love him. He thinks Thomas has lost all faith in him in favor of the person Roman views as the epitome of evil. He's been switching views left and right to stay on Patton's side (because Thomas prides himself on his morals), but he always ends up doing something wrong - he always ends up as an antagonist. He no longer believes that he is the one thing that being has kept him stable since "Am I Original?" - Thomas' hero. The only side he has a stable and positive relationship with is VIRGIL of all people. And tbh that could quickly be ruined too. Logan is second, though, but that's EXTREMELY fragile, as we've seen.

Roman always does something wrong and it will and has sent him over the edge. From Roman's perspective, with a very flawed view of everyone around him, he is inherently the thing that flaws Thomas.

+ Roman is really dramatic obviously, so ofc he would do this.

When you look at Virgil's reasonings for ducking out, it seems plausible after everything Roman has gone through recently, too. I mean like:

"I quit. Decided it wasn't worth it anymore"

Why would Roman keep fighting a battle he knows he will never win?

"Well, It didn’t seemed like I was wanted. You all made that pretty clear any time I showed up."

Again, from Roman's perspective, he is constantly and consistently antagonized.

"If I wanted to stand around being insulted, I would've shown up I would've shown up in person like I usually do."

[same thing]

"I actually think you were right to not want me around."

Roman fears that he is becoming the villain (as we see in SVS, SVS Redux and DWIT).

(In fact, Roman has already said something quite similar to that last one in sentiment.

In SVS Redux, Roman says this, which is pretty funny because of the dramatics and the stupidity, and does get shot down quickly, but I am begging you to listen to him.

"The blame falls to me. If you're missing that do-gooder drive... I think It's because I'm in the driver seat... And I'm an awful driver... Perhaps... Perhaps I should let Patton take the wheel.")

(2nd sidenote to the Virgil quotes, can we talk ab Thomas' acting again I just love how tired Virgil is in AA. He's so. Troubled. I love him.)

WAIT ALSO I FORGOT TO ADD THIS UNTIL I WAS AB TO POST IT-

"I've always aimed to protect you,"

THIS!! First of all his face makes me so sad BUT SECOND OF ALL yeah. Roman core idk what else to say, you get it right.

"I thought I was your hero."

So yeah.

Anyway, I think the episode where Roman does this will be centered around depression. Without Roman, Thomas is depressed. Let me explain this further.

Roman is Thomas' creativity, imagination, ego, passion, love, wills and wants, hopes and dreams, aspirations and enthusiasm.

Without any of that, what is left? A guy who can't even will himself out of bed, but can still feel the nagging voice of reason and logic telling him how unreasonable he's being. A guy who cant will himself to talk to friends, family and loved ones, but can still feel sorrow for letting them down and worrying them. A guy who can't will himself to pursue creative content that he relies on for a living but can still feel anxious about letting millions of people down and never being able to create again. A guy who cant even make food for himself or brush his teeth, but still knows he NEEDS to take care of himself. A guy whose only creativity is activly trying to disturb and scare him.

So yeah thats really awesome idk.

Furthermore, I think the sides might be SEVERELY impacted.

It has been said many times over the series that the sides are purely figments of Thomas' IMAGINATION. so. Without Roman, I doubt anything would be left. Obviously, if Roman does duck out, I don’t think they'd all immediately just cease to exist because an episode still needs to occur, but I find it likely that they'd all start slowly fading or maybe even "malfunctioning", glitching, putting them on a timer to get back Roman and making it far more tense.

Is this theory weird?????? I feel like it's the natural progression TO ME but I've seen no one even getting near this and im just confused ghfhfhfh. Maybe it is kind of weird and im just too much of a Roman enthusiast. SORRY I LOVE ANNOYING WEIRDO FREAKS!!!! AND IF I WAS HIM ID DUCK OUT TOO BECAUSE NO ONE IS APPRECIATING HIM ☹️☹️☹️ EVEN THOUGH HE'S LITERALLY WHAT MAKES THOMAS DO THINGS. 🙄🙄🙄🙄

Anyway.

I also think it fits really well because of Prinxiety's parallels, such as:

(using the ship name just as a duo name because that's what I usually do I am not trying to push the prinxiety agenda although I am a fan of it ghfyfgfh)

"Thanks everyone... Well, almost everyone."

And

"I mean, it's cool to see you all trying to be helpful. Well most if you, but-"

The only difference in these two is obviously that Virgil just silently ducks out, while Roman has the entire "You make us better" speech, probably effectivly saving Virgil and Thomas, because it seems like Virgil was going to insist.

(Also another sidenote that I think everyone will agree with: WE NEED A "YOU MAKE US BETTER" SPEECH BY VIRGIL FOR ROMAN that is all)

Also. Who can forget.

Virgil saying that he tried to "duck out" and then

"That's a thing you can do?"

😐

Do you understand what I'm saying. Do you. Huh.

Okay anyway.

Idk how to end this I feel like theres still more I wanna say but i forgot. In conclusion: prin up that xiety. Reminder that FWSA was real and not a fever dream. I lied this is actually prinxiety propaganda.

But Hey That's Just A Theory. A really quite depressing and sad theory. Thanks for tumbling down a hill with me 🫶

[ariadne-mouse]

I feel fandom would get along a lot better if there was mutual understanding that liking a character, agreeing with a character, and thinking the character is well constructed/executed are all separate (if often overlapping) positions, each with their separate tastes and subjectivities. Also: character portrayals are intended to make the audience feel things; this is separate from (if often overlapping with) analyzing/appreciating their actions and role in the story.

[goatyuuji]

Credits to @/JosephsPet on twt

HOLY SHIT HOLY FUCK THAT’S SUCH A GENIUS PREMISE…Suguru literally having to fight between his feelings and his motives again but this time it’s about Satoru, not just any monkey non sorcerer this is his Satoru, his only and only best friend…

He was able to kill his parents, but would he be able to kill Satoru Gojo, especially when Satoru being a non sorcerer means that he is at his lowest so reachable not protected by infinity at all, it would be so damn easily to kill him, choke him out but that means satoru needs his Suguru while he is at rock bottom, they both are the strongest together so if Suguru is by his side Gojo can still be THE STRONGEST but it would be so so so simple to exterminate the Gojo, a non sorcerer…

Brain juices literally leaking out of head like Kenny if I think more about this AU

[sketchy-scribs-n-doods]

i'm a little sad at how sparse steddyhands and stizzy art and writing is on here now after the finale (thankfully, i am still digging through the couple thousand fics up on ao3 so i'm not totally bereft)

because during the airing of the season there was new stuff in the tags every day, sometimes even every few hours, but i think the finale really punched all of us in the face

there's lots of good stuff from before s2 to go digging through of course, and ao3 and twitter still have some new art and fic and memes if you go looking for it, but the difference from before and now seems a bit stark

don't misunderstand me, this isn't me being defeatist, just being a bit melancholy (and mad at the s2 finale tbh lol) about it. shout out to the regulars i see in the tags still making stuff and posting jokes, ya'll are doing the most and i wish you all the passion and motivation and time to create in the world <3

[miraluking-respectfully]

felix being referred to more or less exclusively as "your soldier" in-game speaks to how little the writers put into his character beyond his noggin full of sith secrets & his relationship with the consular; still, i do find it kind of sweet and funny, in a way. he's not a republic soldier, not even your personal bodyguard; he's your soldier. the consular is a small nation-state in and of herself

[the-lark-ascending69]

Robin and I share the experience of having straight friends give you terrible advice on dating girls and, because I love projecting my problems onto Robin, I feel the need to explore Steve being so ignorant of the lesbian experience that he keeps giving Robin worse and worse advice, as if they were on the same social position and under the same risk-reward conditions when it comes to the dating scene.

And Robin, despite instinctually knowing she shouldn't take any risk, listens to Steve because she's lonely and desperate and he's her only friend, and, as expected, following his advice goes terribly wrong 🥰

[basicallyjaywalker]

Secret Santa Fic :D

I shared this w/ Oli much earlier but they gave me permission to publish it so!!!

Here is my gift to @tornoleander for @spinjitsuburst's Secret Santa event!

Pspsps come get your AO3 link

Title: Arms

Genre: Hurt/Comfort w/ Angst

Characters: Jay and Cole focus, but appearances from Nya, Lloyd, and Kai!

Length: 3,349 words

[revvethasmythh]

actually crazy how much I'm enjoying the heroic durge path thus far. like it's actually a shame I always hear people talk about durge as something they save for an evil run because if you are an angst enjoyer, this is simply one of the finest vintages I've had in a while. like, the limitless internal conflict, not knowing who you are, not knowing if you want to know who you were, trying to be a good person but fearing you never can be. Something is forcing you to do terrible things and you can't control it, so where does that end? is your determination to be better than your impulses stronger than the monster inside of you? what happens if you lose control and just keep falling? that's SEXY. that's fucking catnip for me personally, I'm literally living my best life rn

[queerfables]

I think I'm gonna have to become Good Omens fandom's sole Metatron stan just for the bit. Actually my boy did nothing wrong when he manipulated Aziraphale into leaving behind the love of his life for a soul crushing lost cause. It was sexy of him and he should do it again.

[pineappical]

Some angsty Jamie Tartt would be so special to me if u want to draw that. Or just regular Jamie. Love that funky little dude.

i actually waited to answer this ask till i made more progress with this mini comic im trying to get through because i dont feel like taking requests rn, but i am drawing jamie in the comic so ToT;;

[todayisafridaynight]

YOU MAKE THAT POST AND DON'T SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON EVERYONE'S OPINION ON SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG???

I MEAN IT'S SUCH A NICHE FUCKING TOPIC LMAO I DIDN'T THINK ANYONE WOULD CARE

but anyway here's the Egregiously Simplified version of Everyone Is Forced To Play Ten Routes Of Shadow The Hedgehog And Has To Give Their Opinion Afterwards

[maoisarap]

ᡣ𐭩 . anime - episode eighteen: judgement, part one

episode nineteen and twenty are after these next few... oh no... soon comes the mao isarangst :(

(time to cry again when it comes to re-giffing i suppose-)

[ishouldstopdaydreaming]

I'm rewatching it again and

[murderboisblog]

OH MY FUCKING GOOOOOOD YOU'RE RIGHT!!!!!!! Premier scholar of the Fox/Ren ratio over here - he becomes scared little fox boy again and it totally freaks out his captive 😭😭

Now I'm just imagining like - we're chained to the wall and fucking microchipped and genuinely incapable of leaving, but Fox is curled up with his head on our lap begging us to stay QAQ

I bet that's actually a huge part of why he wants a long-term pet, even if it's subconscious. He needs to let that side of him out and it needs to be with someone who's not part of this high-class professional world he belongs to now. He can't trust those people with Ren.

I will be adding that to my business card lol

Soft lil fox boy takes up so much of my brain I stg, I just wanna squeeze him tight and tell him it’s going to be okay. He deserves so much better than he got T^T

Ren is such a delicate part of him, he needs someone gentle and nonjudgmental, his loving little pet is just perfect for that 🥰