#i am also a lucid dreamer

[tetsuskei]

i know in a hybrid au i am a cat because believe me when i say i can fall asleep at the drop of a hat. and yet no matter how much i sleep, its still not enough 💔

[heilos]

Living Harmony AU relevant character sheets/info: Harmony aka the "Tree of Harmony" Stygian Shadow Lock Starswirl the Bearded Somnambula is the next pillar up on the list with an updated design, courtesy of my buddy Ori, and a fresh character sheet from me. Her and Mistmane are the two pillars that ended up getting a species swap with their rewritten backstories for this AU. Bat ponies were super underutilized in the MLP G4 show and the idea of Somnambula and her town being mostly made up of Egyptian fruit bat ponies was super fun to think about. Listed below is some character and story context for these sketches provided by my myself and Ori like usual. Hope you enjoy!

Pillar of Aspiration

Bat pony from ancient Neighgypt

Comes from a village made up of mostly bat ponies with some of the other standard pony races sprinkled in and a healthy population of anubis style diamond dogs

Not a princess, but the equivalent of high nobility in her culture. Had cash to burn and was very generous in giving her wealth to the less fortunate in her village be it money, food, clothing etc...

Was also an advisor to the Pharaoh and Prince Hisan

Her village was trapped in a collective dream by a huge mythical Sphinx that hails from the dream realm. It would have turned Somnambula’s ponies into dreamless husks had she not broken free and solved the Sphinx’s riddles, which were the basis of its magic.

Somnambula’s artifact, the Sphinx’s Crescent Moon, is a trinket she stole straight from the Sphinx’s headpiece. Affixing it to her tiara, it allows her free travel between the dreaming and physical realms. Though, spending so much time in the Dream Realm as a mortal pony has its consequences…

Gained a weird aura about her after breaking the Sphinx’s spell. A small radius around her is folded into dream space, which makes it difficult to perceive her normally. She’s essentially a friendly cognitohazard. Take a good look, because you won’t be able to recall her face later. Lucid dreamers can see past this effect.

Has a somewhat eerie quality to her that she likes to play up. Dispenses philosophical queries just to mess with ponies such as: “Perhaps I am merely a fruit bat dreaming that she is a pony” or “Perhaps this is a dream, you don’t know!”

Has sharp teeth, but they’re meant for biting into fruits. Sometimes will joke about "gobbling" someone up if they get too close

Sleeps like a regular bat by hanging upside down. The bottom of bat pony hooves can grip many different surfaces for this purpose

Firmly believes in making your dreams into reality

Ancient Equestrians would call upon her name for protection in their dreams

Dream walked so Princess Luna could dream run

Somnambula is Luna's favorite pillar and legend

Is celebrated with a statue of her in the center of the town “Somnambula” in modern Equestria. However it incorrectly depicts her as a pegasus pony instead of a bat pony due to wibbly wobbly history record keeping and/or the strange dream like effect that surrounds her

Somnambula’s Weather Abjuration (The Crystalling Part 2 - 16:26) is a spell named after her, though she herself had no hoof in its creation. It’s very likely that this weather ward was made after the perception of Somnambula shifted into her being a pegasus

Somnambula redesign by Orin331

[natalieshifts]

Ways to shift!

DISCLAIMER: Now this isn't full proof, please take this all with a grain of salt because what works for other people might not for you. I want to emphasize that you don't need anything to shift, you just need yourself! I'm am simply going to be listing some ways you can actually shift (like states you can be in) and this was all done by research I have seen on reddit so shoutout to r/shiftingrealities. 𓆩♡𓆪 Without further ado, enjoy the VERY long research that I have done so far!

When you shift realities two things mainly happen: 1. You connect to your DR which is basically just when you visualize and robotic affirm / affirm. 2. Or when you detach from your CR. This is when you get into an altered state of consciousness. Meditation is a great way to help with this, though it isn't needed!

There are different types of states/methods, I'll list the many I have done research on so far. Hypnogogia: This state is the state between wakefulness and sleep. Sleep methods usually use this state because you experience this state while you're drifting off to sleep! Hypnopompia: This is when you first WAKE UP, when you're still very groggy. If you can't seem to shift during sleep methods, use this state when you first wake up if you remember! Lucid dreams: These are super good since you're already detached from your CR self and in your dream world. Though, it can be a little difficult to shift through, it's still fun experiencing a lucid dream and gives you motivation when you experience it. (I've listed ways to get Lucid in my last couple of posts!) Sleep Paralysis: Sleep paralysis is a state of instant manifestation so what you feel, you see, you experience. Hence, why it's so good for shifting. Try not to freak out when you get into this state because it can cause hallucinations (speaking from experience oh my goodness). But super great! You can also go into a lucid dream from there! Meditation: Basically, you get into a meditative state and lose awareness of your CR and gain awareness of your DR. Like the redditor said, This has never worked for me but, it has for a lot of other people!!

What type of shifter are you guys? Meditative shifter

Manifestation shifter

Xenophrenic shifter All my lucid dreamers, astral projecters, and sleep paralysis cool people fit in here.

Sleepy shifters: Hyonagogia and hypnopompia girlies fit in here( 🙋) . Tiredness is a great altered state of consciousness because your brain waves are different from when you're in an awake, alert state of mind.✧₊⁺ Happy shifting!

[vixenvoider]

I ENTERED THE VOID STATE

in this post i will explain in depth how i entered the void state and what i manifested. i will be open to questions but if you ask something that i explain in this post i won't answer it just fyi, so even though this will be long, if you are truly curious i encourage you to read the whole thing. i am sorry for any spelling mistakes or grammar mistakes that might be present.

overall story: i have been trying to enter the void for around 2 months now, and finally entered through a lucid dream. one thing i want to note before i tell my story is that i have been lucid dreaming my whole life (so if you never have, i don't know what good steps are for beginners).

the beginning: my journey started when i inadvertently came across a post about how someone else entered the void state and manifested their dream body and face. i was not into manifesting before, in fact, i actually had a problem with the whole concept of the law of attraction and didn't know there were other types of manifestation and never looked deeply into it. that being said, i have always been an open-minded person and also, a more or less spiritual person. i believe in a lot of "out there" things because a lot of said things have been proven to me (through experiences i find hard to explain so i'm not going to). i'm sharing this to let you know that due how deeply i naturally believe in such things i never really had a problem with my void concept, even though i experienced doubts (so for this area i really can't give much advice).

so after learning about the existence of the void state i searched "void state" on tumblr and skimmed some info here and there on it, what i came across included some basic methods on how to enter the void but i didn't fully understand them yet. that same night i followed a shifting guided meditation but i couldn't really get "into" it, i was a naturally anxious person who found it hard to relax so it just wasn't working, but i did see it through and try my best and i think in the long run it helped me. in the guided meditation i listened to, the person makes you walk through a door to get to your desired reality and even though the meditation didn't work, that imagery worked it's way into my subconscious and i had a lucid dream that night. i did not manifest anything that night but it was on purpose (i think). in my lucid dream i woke up in my bedroom. i looked in the mirror and decided i would change what i saw to a more desired appearance and it worked (i looked exactly like the person i was thinking of), then, i decided (with intention) to open my bedroom door and enter my dream house and it worked. at this point in the dream i thought that entering the void must be super easy since i was already basically close and could have done it there if i wanted to BUT i chose to wake up because i wanted to enter the void when i actually knew for sure what i wanted my manifestations to be. i knew i was going to want a lot if i really thought about it and i also didn't want to actually look like someone else (my whole lucid dream i was more trying to test my imagination and build my confidence). the next day i started making a void state list and writing down everything i genuinely wanted for myself.

experiencing doubts: things started to go wrong after that hahah, after my first beginner's luck(?) experience i was struggling to lucid dream (even though i've always naturally been a lucid dreamer, the times it occurs is still random and i couldn't make them happen) and meditations were only getting me so close. all in all, over the past 2 months i had 5 failed lucid dreams and several close, but failed, meditation attempts. this instilled some doubts in me, especially the lucid dreams, because apparently once you lucid dream it's meant to be quite simple but when i would affirm for the void in my dreams i would just wake up or the dream would continue.

another thing that caused me to doubt the void was questioning some of the stories on here. most of them i initially don't believe anyway because it's known there's many liars in the community and there seems to be a trend of people posting void success stories in an attempt to enter to the void (to act as if it already happened) but they technically haven't in reality yet. that being said, i did have some blogs i mostly trusted and then one day one of the blogs i trusted answered an anonymous ask about a success story and it really looked like they sent it to themselves. the reason i thought this was because the op of the blog spells a commonly used word wrong all the time but it's not a spelling mistake people commonly make (in fact, i know no one who makes this spelling mistake) but then the anon that sent them the success story made the exact same spelling mistake. it made me worry that perhaps there were no true success stories because why was this person who supposedly mastered the void bothering with sending asks to themselves to validate their blog? i mean this was all speculation but it still caused me to think.

that being said again, i still basically believed, i just wavered a little, but i definitely believed enough to keep persisting (because why not?)

the success: finally, after almost 2 months i entered the void through a lucid dream. when i realised i was dreaming i tried to make myself stay super grounded in the dream but i also thought about not taking too long since i didn't want to wake up. i did this because i realised the very first night when i had my lucid dream, i didn't get excited and try immediately, i hung around in my dream for a while and just enjoyed things (as i explained). so i wandered around the dream a bit and just looked at things, touched things, tried to feel the temperature and take note of it and then when i felt calm and not too excited i closed my eyes and affirmed for the void and entered. when i got the void i just said "i have everything on my void list" (a few times to make sure) and then stated i was exiting the void state. the void feels how pretty much everyone describes, you just know it's happening and you are pure consciousness.

what i manifested: my void state list ended up being super long and i manifested a lot of personal things that i won't share, which is what i'm sure would be the same for most people, but i'll include a list of things that others might find interesting or encouraging:

desired appearance (including body, face, height etc)

money (i came up with a plan that of how it would make sense in my country to have acquired it)

got rid of my anxiety disorder (having this was probably the most debilitating part of my life, it's also why i know meditation never truly worked for me since i could never relax and it's crazy to feel not severely stressed constantly for the first time in my life)

got rid of my autoimmune disease and fixed my eyesight (i manifested being healthy overall in general)

feel comfortable instantly, i will no longer get too itchy, feel dirty after a long day, be too hot or too cold etc. (can't really attest to this one yet but i have felt no discomfort)

dream living space and whatever bed i sleep in to always be super comfortable

opinion on the void state: overall the point is that the void state is real and you can get anything you want, getting to the void is also easy but it's just about trying to go for it and not getting discouraged. i don't want to share too much of my opinion on this because i actually find it really toxic. some people will get mad if you say you "entered" or "got to" the void because you technically are always the void, and personally, i don't find these slight changes in language to be important unless you are very sensitive to it. for me, it doesn't matter if i think about the void as something i enter or something i am because i believe it exists and that's all i need to know at the end of the day. if you want to see it as something you are, or a state or anything else, i don't think it matters as long as you believe manifestation is possible, you are the creator of your reality, you get to decide what language or thought process works for you :)

common questions: i'm going to answer some question i feel like i will get if people find this post so i'm just going to answer them here. remember that these answers are just my opinion.

question: how come people don't manifest to end world hunger, for everyone to have money, to become the next "big thing", to be a real life superhero, for everyone to be happy etc. truthfully, i think people do manifest that but i don't think they stay in this reality. a lot of people think that using the void at all means you shift your reality, idk if i believe in that, but i would have to assume the people that use the void to manifest very extreme things ultimately have to shift realities. so this would mean the reason you're not seeing these results is because these people are no longer in this reality. if you pay attention i think you will also notice that most void success stories that seem to come from reliable sources (though this is still all personal judgement) seem to be rather humble, these people just manifest to be the prettier version of themselves, to live in a nice place, to be around good people and other similar things. i think people with mostly humble desires stay in this reality and people with more fantastical desires (to be the most famous person ever, to be a multibillionaire, world peace) go elsewhere.

question: why would someone even have humble desires? i can't speak for every single person but i think it's just the desire to stick to the familiar. we want better lives but also want to feel at "home" still, i wanted to still feel like ME. maybe it seems stupid and selfish but if we really are shifting realities every time then there really is no way to actually solve world hunger anyway, it will always exist in this reality even if you or i personally go to another one. at the end of the day, life isn't fair and i am just grateful to have discovered the void to live happily and am sharing this so you can too.

question: i'm worried about the wrong people finding out about the void state. honestly, me too! but i think this falls in line with my past two answers, if someone terrible happened to stumble upon this post and entered the void, i don't think they'd stay here, they will go to some other reality more likely, so i really don't think we have to worry about someone super evil getting to the void and doing something super heinous or whatever. but honestly i do understand the worry. at first when i discovered the void i thought i wouldn't share my success story once i entered because i wanted to keep the void as quiet as possible. but just remember two things: most people do not know about the void and if they do a lot of them will give up and not persist. second, someone really evil finding it will probably leave this reality (my theory).

question: why do people not show better proof. truthfully, i don't know, for me it's because i really do want to live a private life and a lot of stuff i manifested can't be proven anyway. if i show my bank account, it could be photoshop, if i show my new face it means nothing because i revised to always look this way, i can't prove i no longer have my autoimmune disease and the list goes on. i think people with more dramatic proof also want to maintain their privacy or go to other realities. perhaps there's even been people to show dramatic proof in this reality but they had to revise that they didn't because it was a mistake.

question: do you have any overall tips? just keep persisting. and personally, i think it's okay to try several methods at once. i know some people say if you try several then it "cancels out" like, if you try lucid dreaming and it doesn't work so you meditate it means you don't "believe" lucid dreaming can work for you so then that's why it takes you so long but i think you can just tell yourself "every method works for me so i will just keep persisting". another thing i recommend trying for a few days is setting your alarm to go off at different times so day 1 is 8am, day 2 is 7am, day 3 is 9am and so forth. each day set the intention to wake up BEFORE your alarm goes off, once you successfully start waking up a few minutes before your alarm everyday this is your tangible proof that your intentions are working. this isn't really a method but more so a confidence booster that worked for me to remind myself i'm in control and powerful. if you also try this i think after a few days you will feel more confident intending to lucid dream, for your meditations to work, for subliminals to work (whatever is your personal vibe) and you will get there easier hopefully!

question: did you ever do any official lucid dreaming methods. personally the only way i ever had a lucid dream was by intending before sleeping that i would lucid dream. but methods where you wake up by setting your alarm early and going back to sleep and stuff didn't work for me. i tried but due to my anxiety i would always wake up super alert or even stressed, so i could never relax enough. but they are successful for many people so there is no harm in trying.

[cl4ss1ba33]

HOW TO LUCID DREAM my way ofc 💗💗💗

A lot of people have been asking me how I lucid dream every night, so I decided to make this post to help y'all.

There are many ways to lucid dream, and I'm sure you've heard of them.

Unfortunately I don't have a phone, so I can't really do timers or anything so I do something different. got strict parents smhhh, but its oki cuz im gonna change that in the void .

How I lucid dream almost every night:

I used to lucid dream everyday but i stopped and I hadn't lucid dreamt like in a long time.

Then, I found out we could get into the void by lucid dreaming, so I STARTED AFFIRMING.

1. Affirm And Persist That You Are A Lucid Dreamer, Do Reality Checks, And Listen To Subliminals(listening to subliminals is optional)

I assumed I was STILL an amazing lucid dreamer. Even when I didn't lucid dream, I was like "woahhh look at me being a master at lucid dreaming 💅"

If you want to listen to subliminals then you can do that too.

I listened to subliminals during the day, but if you can during the night then that would be really helpful.

I affirmed throughout the day,

"I am a master at lucid dreaming"

"why do i always lucid dream every night?"

"Why are all of my dreams lucid dreams?"

"As soon as I fall asleep, I always start lucid dreaming right away"

And some more. So come up with affirmations and say them randomly throughout the day, when you are not busy.

Recently I've started doing reality checks, but I do it differently then most people do.

I basically affirm "How many fingers do I have? 12 fingers, This is a dream"

While I affirm I sometimes visualize, but it's not necessary. I do this type of reality check, because you are affirming at the same time as doing a reality check.

So you are affirming that you are dreaming, which will help you lucid dream at the same time as helping you do reality checks in your dreams, which will also help you stabilize your dream once you are in.

Think smarter not harder LMAOO. But feel free to do whichever reality check you want.

2. Before Going To Sleep: Affirm For The Last Time, Visualize, Reality Check, and Set Intention

In my opinion, the most important part for lucid dreaming is literally right before you are about to sleep, because what you think about before you gts is most likely what you will dream about.

What I Do Before Going To Sleep:

I affirm for the last time saying affirmations I have said throughout the day.

I visualize what I am going to do once I am in the dream:

So for me I visualize realizing that I am dreaming

Reality Checks: counting my fingers and checking if I can breathe while holding my nose

then I make the portal appear

After that I visualize myself affirming that the portal will make me enter the void stating "this portal instantly lead s me to the void" (I'm going try saying "this portal instantly led me to the void" tonight tho to see if it's more effective, comment if you want me to update on this)

Then I visualize walking to the portal and it sucking me in and taking me to the void instantly

After that I visualize that I am in the void, and I visualize myself affirming "I am in the void" "I am pure consciousness"

Then I start affirming for my desires so I visualize myself affirming "I have everything on my void list and void board"

Then, I do/ affirm a reality check at least 2 times

Then I set my intention for lucid dreaming and what I am going to do in the dream

To set an intention I would recommend saying "This is a dream, _____" and stating what you are going to do in the dream. For example I usually state, "This is a dream, This is a dream, stabilize, make void portal, affirm"

After this I usually repeat this whole step again or If I feel like I affirmed enough then I go directly to sleep.

Make sure this is the last thing you do before going to sleep, don't do this and then go on your phone or sum.

It also helps to do this whole process if you wake up in the middle of the night.

And that's it !!!

Lucid dreaming is so easy, so stop overcomplicating it. Trust me if you do this, then you should probably start lucid dreaming after a day !!!

You could even do it that exact day tbh so stop limiting yourselves !!!

You are all literally masters at lucid dreaming so go lucid dream loves 💗💗💗!!!

[maculategiraffe]

also when we were discussing naptime the baby protested that he didn't want to fall asleep because sometimes he has scary dreams. next time I am in charge of naptime or bedtime I might try to teach him the light switch trick. he strikes me as a natural lucid dreamer, he is way more inclined to be active and hands on with real life than I am so taking control of a dream seems like it would come pretty naturally. I think I was in second grade when I started but that doesn't mean he couldn't start now

[calliecwrites]

Shifter HRT, part 6 – The Other City (7 Months)

Of course I’d heard of Hyper City. It’s where almost everyone gets their species HRT. The clinic there has versions for almost every species (though not for shifters). But I’d always assumed Hyper City was a codename, to hide the real location of the clinic, for security or something. And the things people say about it are pretty unbelievable. If you know about the city and want to find it, you will – go twenty minutes outside town, wherever you are in the world, and it’ll be there. That sounds like magic – or a convoluted way of saying ‘if you know, you know – and if you don’t, tough’.

Except everyone talks about it like it’s real. Enough people are on species HRT that someone would leak the real location if it was just a codename. People report following the weird instructions, like it’s the most normal thing in the world. Though when changing species is a thing I’m actually doing, who am I to say this is any less believable?

Well, it turns out it is real. I’ve been there now.

* * *

I find a bus stop the right distance out of town, and go for a ride. I hold my intention in mind the whole way. Then there I am, in some faded little village I’ve only ever known as a name on a map. I wander around, and sure enough, there’s a path between two houses that doesn’t fit in. It’s paved and clean, while everything else here is dusty and overgrown. And it’s somehow hard to look at, like my fixed intent is the only thing letting me see it at all.

I’m used to being in a mind-responsive world in my dreams. Intent is one of the tools in a lucid dreamer’s toolkit – expecting things to change, knowing they’ll change, making them change. But it isn’t something I ever expected to use in the real world. I do a quick reality check – try to push my finger through my palm, and can’t – and that, along with everything else, tells me I’m awake. I don’t think I could be wrong about that when I’m paying this much attention. I shake my head. This is weird.

On the path I catch glimpses of buildings in the distance, where there shouldn’t be any – skyscrapers glinting in the sun. They come and go, like something keeps passing between them and me – like I’m seeing them through swaying trees – but there’s nothing there. Not even heat haze – it’s a cool day. And my own city has a grand total of one skyscraper, so it definitely isn’t that I’m seeing.

Eventually I pass under an arch, and I’m there. Welcome to Hyper City, the arch says. There’s a sign listing the local laws – and one catches my eye: shapeshifters have to be registered. That’s… surprising. I’d heard this place was much more accepting than back home. It’s better than being banned, but… Well, it’s not my problem. I still can’t shapeshift at all – which is exactly why I’m here – so I decide I can ignore it.

I wander the streets. This place – it’s normal – and that’s strange. Where am I? The map on my phone works, as long as I stay zoomed in. If I zoom out, it loses track completely. Is the light here the same? Is the sky the same? Am I in another country – or another world? What would other people see, if they watched me step onto the path that led me here? Where would I end up, if I left the city by another arch, or just walked out the edge?

I stop at wondering how they get internet in a city that exists outside normal space – and possibly also outside normal time. Because, yeah, that would be what I’m thinking about, when I’ve just stepped through a possibly-literally-magic portal to a place that shouldn’t exist. But those are questions for another day. That’s not why I’m here. One impossible thing at a time, please. And today’s is me, mid-transition, and anyone else like me I can find.

My whole body aches – but still doesn’t do anything. I’m taking in so much detail, and can’t use any of it. Phantom limbs come and go all the time, at the slightest thought. Dysphoria is getting worse – it’s the worst it’s ever been. Every time I move, the solidity of my limbs, and how constrained they are, clashes in my head – then for a moment my arms are (mentally) twice as long, and I’ve got three legs and can’t tell how many I’m supposed to have, and I’m stumbling. My mind is so ready for this, but my body is still taking its own sweet time. Surely this can’t get worse. I have to be near the tipping point.

I came here because – I need to know this is real. That it isn’t just me, it isn’t just… delusions. I need to know I’m not losing it. Is that weird? I can feel the changes inside me, I know they’re happening. But I’ve been doing so much of this alone, I need something outside myself, something physical, to connect it back to reality. I need to talk to other people like me – not just online, but in person, where I can see them, see the changes. There is no one like me back home. Even just seeing them might be enough, to know I’m not the only one.

And – there they are, just walking down the street, minding their own business. Even here there aren’t many – but they exist. There’s someone partly-transformed into a bird. Across the street there’s a slime – and my heart sings at this one; surely they’re one of the shifters’ closest relatives. Around a corner, and there’s someone with blue skin and four arms. I’m smiling. I can’t help it. And every time I see someone nonhuman, the phantom limbs come on in a flash, how it might feel to be in that form.

Further into the city, and I’m standing outside the famous clinic, where all of this started. I catch a glimpse of the infamous Dr Erian – lab coat, glasses, balding grey hair. There are more nonhumans here, more of us, than anywhere else – us! I’m trying not to stare, and suppress a wild grin.

Except – I realise – I still look completely human. And, suddenly, I feel like an idiot. The others can’t even tell what I am. I’m just another human to them. My mood plummets. The smile vanishes. A pit opens inside me.

What was I thinking, coming here? Did I really think this would help? Instead, here I am, on the outside looking in, as always. The perpetual outsider, even among my own. I’m used to that. It always hurts, but it’s not surprising, not anymore. Why did I think this would be any different?

Standing here, I’d give anything to have some visible change, something other people could see, instead of it all being on the inside. Any sign at all of what I am. I could have worn my ‘be goo, do crimes’ shirt – that so far I haven’t dared wear outside the house – since that, at least, would have been something. Instead, I’ve got nothing.

The phantom sensations are so strong. I can almost feel them – and I try, desperately, to make them real, by will alone, like I would in a dream. The fluid in me strains – but nothing happens. At last the changed patches on my skin bulge slightly. It’s the most I’ve ever managed to do, and at any other time I’d be delighted, but here, now, it feels so underwhelming. Is this all I’ve got to show for all these months? No one even looks my way.

I want to say something to them – anything – but I freeze. Will I ever have the confidence they have, wearing my inhumanity openly? Will there ever be anything there to see? What kind of fool am I? I take the safe way out – I walk away.

I sit down in a cafe – and instantly regret it. A dragon and a mermaid are arguing at another table, and I try not to stare. Just seeing them, the phantom limbs are back in full force, and I’m almost overwhelmed by the phantom claws and wings and tails flicking in and out of my awareness. If I move now, I think I’ll fall.

In the end I can’t eat anything. I blurt out an apology and a thank you to the staff, and almost run for it. The familiar sensations are there already: clenched eyebrows and jaw, shoulders wanting to hunch over, and the bottomless pit in my stomach – loneliness that would devour everything. Except now, with my sense of form, I’m so much more aware of it than usual. I know exactly which muscles and nerves are involved, and for once, I wish I didn’t.

I stumble back the way I came. I barely notice where I am. There’s the arch – Thank you for visiting Hyper City, it says on this side – and then I’m on the same path, to the same dusty village. At the bus stop, I look back, and there’s no sign now of the city, or the path. The bus comes.

I’m holding back tears all the way home, but manage not to break down till I’m in the door. Then the tears come – and I can feel exactly how my body does it – and for a while I can’t do anything. Eventually I drag myself into the kitchen. I reach for biscuits, tea, anything that might help – and realise, too late, that was a phantom limb, not a physical one, and now I’ve knocked things everywhere, and it’s all too much.

I lie on the sofa and curl up.

And I’m back, here. I’ve been here before. I’ll be here again. Loneliness is the flavour of my life, after all. And what’s the point in doing anything, if, at the end of the day, I’m still always lonely? All connection is ephemeral and fragile – always having to hold back, in case I overstay my welcome – never knowing if I’m too much, or not enough. I always end up here, time after time – desperate, and alone.

I don’t think about it – if I did, I’d stop – I just do it, in the pain of the moment: I call my friend. The one I think is most likely to understand. I tell them everything. What I am, what I’ve been doing, what happened today. I’ve put this off far too long. Our last few calls, it’s been so hard to talk, it’s felt like we’ve been drifting apart, because I couldn’t tell them anything. Not this time. I break into tears again as I pour it all out. They listen. Afterwards, they say, in something like wonder, that there was always so much they didn’t understand about me, about why I did and didn’t do the things I did, and now it all makes sense. I say, deadpan, that there was method in my madness – and then all the tension is gone, and we’re crying and laughing together.

I feel a weight lifting.

Eventually I fall asleep on the sofa. Later in the night, when I realise I’m dreaming, my dream guide is there, waiting. She hugs me. She doesn’t often turn up on her own, but when I need her most, she’s there. She says a few words of reassurance. Would you regret it if you weren’t? And she’s right. She always gets to the heart of it. I’m doing the right thing. She, at least, understands. We both want the best for me – she’s part of me, after all – and though I already know what she’s telling me, sometimes hearing it from another perspective makes all the difference.

I’m crying again, in the dream. I wake up with the tears spilling over into my physical eyes – but the worst is already past. The rest of my dreams are better, the most relaxed they’ve been in weeks. In the morning, I feel almost OK.

I’ll go back to Hyper City. Not right away, but I’ll go back. And next time will be better.

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Dreaming + Shifting

Shifting diary entry #8 !!! (and asking for help again…)

I’ve made posts before about what it means to dream and how that relates to your shifting journey, and here I am doing it again… (also I wish I’ve made more diary entries on here it’s kinda been a while, but I’ve doing A LOT of reflection in my personal shifting journal, maybe I’ll make some of them posts…?)

My whole life I’ve been a dreamer, before I even learned of shifting I lucid dreamt quite often. I would use dreaming as an escape from my life here. My dreams are often intense and vivid.

And they definitely were last night, I had so many dreams it was crazy. But to parts in particular stood out to me that made me want to make this post.

It was later in the night, I originally thought to lucid dream and shift that way instead of doing an awake method (because of something that happened earlier in the night that I’ll get to later)

I think I just forgot that I wanted to that and I didn’t end up saying affirmations as I went to sleep to help guide me into a lucid dream, instead I thought of my DR. And … I ended up having VERY vivid dream of my DR s/o. Like I don’t think I’ve had a more vivid dream related to my current DR.

(I don’t remember what was going on before this) I opened the door in the room I was in and there leaning on the wall was my s/o. Again so vivid so much more detail in this dream. I remember thinking that I felt my stomach drop when I saw him there 😭 I also thought “omg he’s so tall I need to script he’s not this tall” ??? Anyways I think we talked but I can’t remember, I just remember kissing him and us cuddling. I remember sitting in front of him with his arms around me. I think someone else from my DR interrupted us bc we had some place to go, and my sister from this reality did the same?

I remember feeling really sad when I woke up, but I just tried to feel better by reminding myself I can just be there for real 😭

Now for the part I REALLY wanted to talk about. The part that, if anyone reading can help me analyze, I would much appreciate it.

I was gonna do an awake method last night but decide I should sleep for a couple hours then do it. So I set the intention to wake up at like 4, I woke up at like 4 30 but I was waking up before this but just kept going back to sleep and anxiously waking up lol. Anyways I woke up and put on a guided meditation and went for it, but then a couple minutes in I just randomly remember this part of my dream that made me stop my meditation.

I can’t fully remember what was going on before this, but I was in some sort of library/book store and this lady asks me to tell her a cool fact. (?)I panicked and couldn’t think of anything. I can’t remember what happened between this moment and the next but it eventually led to us talking about shifting. She told me she’s an avid shifter, she’s been shifting since 2020. And she told me she’s 24 years old? I don’t know who this woman was, she’s certainly not anyone in my life and not like some shifting “influencer” I like or something? I remember her giving me shifting advice but I just can’t seem to remember what it was!?!? 😭 I remember her comforting me, and telling me stuff along the lines of “don’t worry it is inevitable that you will shift” though. Ugh, I wish I could remember. But this is why I decided to try and lucid dream instead.

But if anyone reading this wants to feel free to analyze this for me, idk what this means for me or my journey. If my subconscious mind keeps saying and doing stuff like this, why haven’t I shifted? What does this even mean for me?

I’ve had similar experiences in dreams, like this one time a couple weeks ago I was dreaming of Star Wars (odd bc I’ve never seen the movies) and I met two guys and I explained shifting to them and they were very curious about it. And I even remember thinking in that dream “should I tell them I shifted here?” (???)

Anyways I feel (slightly) sick to my stomach about the vivid dream I had of my s/o and idk what my other part means…

[thewertsearch]

CC: Soon I will go to sleep and speak to t)(e gods. CC: I will convince t)(em to establis)( a series of stable dream bubbles, w)(ere we can meet in our sleep!

Nepeta was worried about Feferi's long nap, but it turns out she was doing important work. She wasn't lazing around - she was busy, negotiating access to the Furthest Ring for intersession communication.

I wonder what would have happened if there weren't any dream bubbles to inhabit? Would you just constantly be hurtling through the Squiddle Monster Portal every time you slept?

GG: feferi i thought you said you were going to stop using your typing quirk! CC: Did I? CC: When?? GG: i dont know… im sure i remember you said that CC: )(mm. CC: Jade, t)(is is t)(e first time we )(ave ever talked!

Oh?

Jade can't have learned about this from a Prospit cloud - if she did, she wouldn't be so confused about how she knows it. Something else is going on here.

GG: actually GG: i do remember this conversation GG: it was in the past! [...] GG: i dont think i am asleep…. GG: i am not on prospit CC: Yes, you are asleep. But your dream self died, just like mine, remember?

So this is a dream bubble, then? A lucid dream, which takes the form of a location from your past?

If so, that's pretty cool, and also a little bittersweet. The Players can visit their homes again - but only as illusory projections.

GG: so this is a dream? CC: It is a dream, and a memory. It is the past, brought back to life by a witch! It's all those things.

It's clear that Feferi's Witch of Life powers are in play here, too.

Perhaps Witches have something to do with dreams, then. Both Feferi and Jade have unique connections to their dream moons, and seem to have more affinity for their mechanics than the average dreamer.

CC: Wish I could make something like this. Never had the gills for technology.

But Jade does - which cements my assertion that her technological intuition is Space, and has nothing to do with her status as a Witch.

GG: why are you here! GG: are you asleep too? CC: Nope! CC: I woke up from my nap a while ago.

Feferi can project herself into Dream Bubbles while she's awake, similar to how Dave was operating both his Selves at once. It's a nifty trick, and a good way to keep the lines of communication open.

GG: then why are you here now? CC: Because, stupid. CC: I'M D------EAD!

...or, Jack has finally sniffed them out.

Fuck.

[phinena]

Are you using lucid dreaming to shift?

Let me help you

Ιɴ 10 dαyѕ, Ι αм ɢoιɴɢ тo тeαcн yoυ нow тo вe α мαѕтer lυcιd dreαмer

Hi, you may be asking “what do I know about lucid dreaming that can make me master it, in ten days?”

Persistence and delusion. I consider myself a master lucid dreamer, because well I am.

I have been lucid dreaming for a while now, and lately it’s been getting easier and easier. So I’m going to tell you exactly how i did it in 10 days, or less. No, I’m not some “I’ve been lucid dreaming since I was child,” person. This is through sweat and tears. I built this sh*t, brick by brick. I found my method and now I lucid dream without even planning to. Mostly because I unconsciously do this method.

You will need 3 things

A notebook or journal

A regular sleep schedule

A strong willed mind

The notebook or journal is to not only document your journey, but also to make sure you are recognizing the patterns in your dreams.

The regular sleep schedule. Yes, this means no more going to bed one night at 10pm and another night at 4am. Find a middle time that can get you the regular 8+ hours that you need!

A strong willed mind. That is for not giving up, and not giving into the negative. Lucid dreaming is tedious at first because you are basically controlling what your mind is doing.

“But Phinena, I can’t dream.”

I would rather you tell me you can’t breathe.

Unless you have CWS, you should be able to dream. Aphantasia is the ability to not see images. Dreams are created through a whole different part of your brain. Though there’s still a VERY SMALL CHANCE that aphantasia effects this.

Now before you even start this method, have a good sleep schedule. You shouldn’t be trying this on irregular sleep schedules because of the way this method works. I would at least have 1-2 days of a going to sleep at the same time, before even attempting this first step.

So I’m going to start with day 1.

Day 1

(Getting your dreams back)

If you think you can’t dream

You’re going to love this method. And by love, I mean hate. And by hate I mean despise, if you like your sleep.

This method is not new. If you’re familiar with WBTB (Wake back to bed), it’s exactly like this, but with a more drastic approach. It will have you tired, so I do not recommend doing this on a day you have something important. School, work, an interview, party, etc. This method will leave you tired and exhausted. But let’s GO.

1.

Get ready to go to sleep. In my experience, I have a routine before I go to bed that starts to really get my mind in the mindset of, “oh I’m ready to sleep.” So do whatever you usually do. But make sure you put your journal next to you. With an intention to recall and write down your dreams.

2.

After you have winded down, set a timer for 1 hour and 25 minutes. If it takes you a while to fall asleep, maybe 1 hour and 35-40 minutes. Make sure this timer is loud and annoying, and not something you will sleep through. If you think you’ll just wake up, and unconsciously shut off the alarm and fall back asleep, set your phone away from you. Like on desk that you have to get up to be able to shut it off.

3.

Fall asleep, But have in mind that you will wake up very soon. Almost like having a nap. This will cause your brain to be more on alert, and won’t make you fall into a deep sleep.

4.

Now that you have waken up from your first round, pull out your journal and start writing what you could remember. If you can’t remember a whole dream, maybe write out certains things you can remember. Like: Ball, Club, dancing, singing, etc. And if you didn’t have a dream or can’t recall a single image, you will be able to recall your emotion. Did you feel happy, sad, confused, terrified, angry. Was the tone of your dreams chaotic or calm. Just write down what you think you felt. It doesn’t matter if what you think you felt was true or not, just write it down. Don’t write stuff for longer than 10 minutes. Just do a quick write.

5.

Return to bed and reset your alarm for 1 hour and 25 minutes. Fall back asleep.

6.

Rinse and repeat steps 4 and 5 until you complete your regular 8 hour sleep cycle. By the time you are done, you will probably have gone through 5-6 rounds of waking up. And you should have 5-6 entries. With your brain being on such high alert, this will cause you to retain your dreams much better. It will make it easier for you to see them and sense them.

7.

After completing your sleep cycle, take out your journal and go over the dreams you had. Try to think back on them, see if you can find missing details you can remember. Sometimes you may find more than you think. Recall for as long as you feel like it, and then go about your day.

The reason you will be doing this, is to get your brain used to being in a light sleep. This will fix your dream recall pretty much overnight. And remember, the further into your sleep you go, the longer and more vivid your dreams will get. Most of the dreams you naturally remember are the ones you have in the last 180 minutes of your sleep. 3 hours.

This is because you are starting to wake up, and your sleep becomes more and more light. Which is why most lucid dreams happen between the 5-7 hour mark of your sleep cycle. This method is preparing your brain to start becoming aware of your dreams.

You have come to the end of Day 1

Take care of yourself

🪐𝙥𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙣𝙖

[esote-rika]

Once Upon a Dream | Spencer Reid

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content: some bad attempts at cozy magical realism, but that's really it

Jet never should have indulged. 

Not in a shopping spree, or alcohol, or the psychedelics the couple from downstairs occasionally like to offer her. No, she had sought company in her dreams.

After her break up with Lucas, she’d begun dreaming of a man. It had been frivolous and harmless at first, vague images of mismatched socks, a purple scarf. Slowly, it had morphed into a man. Having just been betrayed by one in real life, Jet should have put a stop to it then and there. But after the initial anger, Lucas’ betrayal brought upon her a sense of loneliness. With that loneliness came vulnerability, and thus she had let herself succumb to her dreams.

They are harmless, after all, so long as she isn’t sleep talking, and she made sure to take the concoction every night just to be certain. Worst comes to worst, it’s a skilled lucid dreamer who’s also feeling incredibly lonely in real life.

He would not have any way of contacting her, since her inherited protection keeps her safe from being found without her knowledge or consent, so Jet had let her defenses down.

Thus, she dreamed. Often, she could hear him calling out for her, but his voice was distant, the words indecipherable. But Jet knew he was calling for her. And with every night, with every dream, he grew clearer, sharper; the timbre of his voice echoed even while she’s awake and trying to work. 

One night, she dreamt she’s at a park, and he was there, waiting by a bench. There, sitting, his long legs stretched out before him, his socks mismatched and suddenly he was no longer a vague entity. He took the form of a tall man with tousled brown hair. Handsome and statuesque, Jet had expected him to glide, as ghosts and apparitions do, drifting in and out of one’s vision, elegant in his amorphous mystery. 

But he moved with awkwardness, like he felt his limbs were too long, or he’s unsure of how to conduct himself in this hazy landscape. He walked slouching forward, and when he smiled, Jet could make out dimples on each cheek, a surprising softness against the sharp angles of his face. He had held her hand that night, and his touch seemed so solid, so warm, that Jet let him.

That should have been her first warning. His movements are too weighted, too real, to have simply been a figment in her dream. 

But escapism was a hell of a drug, his touch was intoxicating, and her bed felt so damn cold after the abrupt break up with Lucas. Jet had been growing used to the feeling of being loved only for it to be violently ripped from under her, betrayed by someone she had trusted. 

So sue her for indulging in what she had thought was a silly little dream.

The problem was, once they’d made physical contact, it seemed as though a gateway had opened, allowing room for other things. More touches. Words, conversations. He likes to fidget with his hands, and gesticulate when he speaks. His voice is soft, a little high pitched, but with a lilting quality to it, dipping up and down whenever their conversations venture to a topic he enjoys.

He liked to read, he said, and enjoyed Tolstoy. He quoted several passages of War and Peace from memory, spoke with so much confidence that Jet was inclined to believe him even though she had no idea if what he’s even reciting is correct. But the fact that he’d recited such a long text seemed so outrageous, so fantastical, that Jet chalked it up to dream magic. Of course he quotes classic Russian literature, it’s a dream. Anything can happen in a dream. 

They talked, and while Jet can’t remember much of what they were talking about, she remembers the feeling of knowing him, of peering into his soul as he bares himself in front of her, this phantom of a man who seems all too real, yet only appears in her dreams.

That was her second warning. The conversations were too specific, the dreams too vivid, too consistent – nearly every night, if she’s asleep by eleven in the evening. 

And because she is a witch, she knew better than to let it get to a third. 

Thus her spells began. Regular salt is usually enough, but it isn’t working with this man, so she crushed up some charcoal, blessed it with moon water, and mixed it with salt. This she put in a jar, filled with basil, and sage, then sealed it with her favorite candle. Kept it on the windowsill to guard her. She stopped sleeping at eleven, staying awake until past midnight. She wasn't sure if the time played a part in it, but she wasn't about to take any chances.

Somehow, she still dreams of him. But the dreams are softer after that, and when he speaks, he sounds as if he’s far away.

“Maeve?” he had asked one night. 

Jet knew she shouldn’t have answered, but she laughed and told him, “No, who is that?”

The look on his face had been so distressed she almost wished she could take it back.

“I’m —” she almost gave her name, but she caught herself just in time, stopping just as her lips form the syllable of her name, “I’m not Maeve.” she says instead. 

She squeezed his hand, and he didn’t return the action. Oddly, it sent a pang in her chest.

The next morning, she made even more black salt and made a circle of it around her bed. Enough, Jet thinks as she carefully tipped more black salt over her window sill, this is getting too far. Get out of my head. 

She never should have indulged in the first place. But here she is, desperately trying to block out whoever this man is because it’s completely ridiculous to be getting cozy with someone in a goddamn dream. She should know better than that. It’s weird and cliche and she’s not going to use some apparition of her dreams as a rebound for her failed relationship. 

Jet groans. That’s it. She’s sad over her relationship ending, and now her dreams are growing weirder, more vivid, a reflection of her baser desires. 

Unfortunately for her, the protection can only go so far, especially since the man from her dreamland rendezvous holds no ill intentions.

When the scent of honey began to permeate her apartment, Jet had smiled. Honey meant Leni. Again, it was something that just was, this instant association between her sister and the citric, sweet scent. She called Leni that night, with the intention of telling her about what happened with Lucas.

“The bastard made me the other woman. I can't believe I was fooled for six fucking months,” Jet grumbled, a little tipsy off the mulled wine she made. She hadn't meant to make this conversation all about her, not really, but once she heard Leni's familiar voice, it felt like a dam had broken, and the words all came spilling out.

Leni laughed. “Please tell me you kept a lock of his hair. We can do some really fun things to him.”

“I already did,” Jet said, “I made sure his socks will always be mismatched when he most needs them to match. He was always so particular about those fucking socks, god, I can't believe I didn't catch that he was living a double life.”

“You were always a bit of a fool when it came to love.”

“Bitch. You're supposed to be on my side.”

Another laugh from Leni, tinkling through the phone, and Jet's apartment is flooded by the scent of honey. So warm and sweet, it was almost sickening. If she had been in better spirits, she would have noticed right there that the smell was beginning to cloy. That Leni's answers, despite being characteristically witty, were short and quick.

“I’m always on your side Jet, but that doesn't mean I can't call you out. Listen, I have to go, okay? It's getting late and I have an early morning tomorrow.”

“You have the opening shift again?”

A pause, and then a hasty, “Right, yeah. I do.”

“Mm, thought you hated being the one to open the cafe.” Jet mumbled, downing the rest of her wine. The fragrance of her room was almost heady, saccharine honey mixed with tart wine and the bag of potpourri.

“Just some things I have to take care of,” Leni replies quickly, “Take care of yourself Jet. I love you.”

“Love you too.”

The smell of honey doesn't let up. Even the man in her dreams noticed it.

“Did you know that an average hive has about 50 000 to 60 000 worker bees populating it?” He told her that night, his voice hazy and distant, “And each bee has 5 eyes. So that's roughly 250 000 eyes in one hive!”

He’s barely corporeal now. Jet imagined she appears just as ghostlike in his dreams as well, which means her spells are working. Despite the muffled quality, Jet could still hear his excitement when he shared the fact. It made her laugh, but she's too distracted to continue the conversation. 

Did she miss home so much that it has begun to seep into her dreams? Is this some sort of cry for help? Spiraling after being scorned? 

Maybe she needed a break. Maybe she should see Leni.

“I have to go home.” she announced, and before the man could respond, she woke up to the nauseating smell of spoiled honey. Stuffy from contamination. It filled her lungs so deeply she shot out of bed with a coughing fit. She opened her phone. 

3:12 in the morning. 

And then, a message from Melissa, the co-owner of the cafe that Leni manages. For some reason, dread fills her chest and stomach, coiling like a snake about to rest after a meal. Jet opens the message. It's a link to some news article, with the words “We're safe, but I thought you should know.”

Biting her lower lip, Jet clicked on the link. 

Oh shit, she thought. She bit down on her lip hard enough to draw blood. It comes out overwhelmingly sweet -  honey.

Fuck. Lenore, why didn't you tell me?

The bus ride back to Massachusetts is relatively stress free. Jet had taken a quick leave from her job, which earned her some side eyed looks as she took the rest of the week off on such short notice. But she didn't care. 

She needed to get back home. Needed to see her sister. She read through the news article again, gnawing on her lower lip. A series of murders, all connected to the cafe.

Melissa had assured her that Leni was safe, but it didn't stop Jet from worrying. Murders. Plural. And her sister hadn't told her, even during their phone call.

Pettiness had won out, and as soon as her leave was arranged, Jet had hopped on a bus back to her home state without telling her sister. Let her be surprised, Jet thought, her nose flooded with the scent of honey. It followed her everywhere now.

She stared at the news article on the phone, committing every word to her memory. Pretty soon, the smooth pace of the bus pulled her to sleep, her head resting against the window in a position that was bound to leave her with a crick in her neck when she woke up. 

She had been in such a hurry that she forgot all her protective salts and crystals in her apartment. As sleep takes her, she's seized by a vision of the man she’s been meeting in her dreams. 

In sharp, crystal clear focus.

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intro post whoopee!!!

hi guys im lucid :D you can also call me daylin i don’t really care but i may be like woah how do you know my name (i will forget about making this post 2 seconds after posting it) also I AM AN ADULT im 23 and i do not use pronouns just use my name pleaseeeeeee if you have a disability that makes words hard to process i understand if that’s difficult you can just use they/them instead

i am part of the zodiac system! however this is MY blog. alters may speak on here if they absolutely must but this blog is mine and belongs to me!

first off just getting this out there if youre proship, zoo, pedo, incest supporter, endo system supporter, any kind of discriminatory against protected minority groups, and anti-otherkin, shoo. dont want you here youre not welcome. bye bye my content isnt for you.

immmmm an infp-t 4w5 sanguine-melancholic existential-intrapersonal-visual learner seer of heart prospit dreamer true neutral rogue shifter airbender and dragon type trainer for all you personality label freaks

i like to DRAW!!!!! this is an art blog!!!! i will only post art here, all of my reblogs will be on @rigormortisorwhatever save for the posts my close friends make that i want to support here. sometimes i will post just text but thats only if i really need to let you guys known something or im answering a question

my commissions are OPEN!!!!!!!! dm me for commission info im too lazy and busy to make a sheet

if my requests are closed that means theyre closed dont ask me to draw shit please and thank you

im AUTISTIC i am on that mf spectrum been diagnosed since i was three. for me this means im not naturally fluent in social norms or what’s expected from an interaction or how to read others very well. i am also horribly inept at understanding boundaries so please if you are to set one with me give me an explanation as to why or else i freak out. i also have heavy special interests and find it really hard to turn the conversation away from something im fixating on or specially interested in. i also have extremeeeee sensory issues and a hard time being completely flexible when im comfortable in a routine so just be patient with me man adjustments are hard for me. my empathy is also extremely low and im a really really high masking person so if i come off as well versed or allistic just know that i either took a million years to format the right way to say things or i am entirely going off a predetermined script and will fumble if caught off guard. other important stuff ive got adhd bpd cptsd and major depressive disorder which all those combined makes me really flaky when it comes to responding or follow through. i may not reply to you for like 500 years or maybe i will be gods speediest most motivated soldier. just don’t expect me to be a readily available fully capable robot ok?? ok.

uuueeehhhmmm my special interests are pokemon, homestuck, geography, taxonomy, my ocs, ikea, and personality psychology. i guess i also am specially interested in dragons because i like and think about them more than all of the above and have to incorporate them into everything but its less of an ill infodump to you interest and more of an i want to be surrounded by this thing because it brings me extreme comfort because it feels like me.

i am otherkin im a dragon and i look like this:

i will also represent myself like this if im feeling it:

yes i know i am not actually a physical dragon and im not a spiritual kinner i kin for identity purposes and the fact that i feel some pretty intense crippling species dysphoria idk ive been like this since i was 5 i don’t really have memories of my life where i wasnt experiencing animalistic behaviors and instincts

my favorite music artists are s3rl twenty øne piløts nine inch nails muse onerepublic thefatrat glass animals ajr the living tombstone romanceplanet basshunter and italobrothers my favorite medias are the httyd movies pokemon homestuck rick and morty invader zim infinity train gravity falls rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead doctor who my little pony fim dont starve and the mcelroy brothers content

heres some more characters i represent myself as:

ok BYE

[newtkelly]

my relationship with the name tommy

the primary reason i want to talk about this is because i’m fascinated by it. this is truly one of the few times in my life i’ve been able to (paradox incoming) consciously understand my subconscious. through my hyperfixation with tommy kinard, i’ve actually been able to tangibly see the way my brain deals with trauma.

so funny story - my step father’s name was tommy. he died in 2022, and i hadn’t seen him since my mom left him in 2020. he was a deplorable person. he was predatory, alcoholic, freeloading, toxic, and verbally abusive. i lived with him in good times and horrible times. he, among several other factors, made growing from a tween to a teenager to a young adult a very tumultuous experience in my family’s apartment. the experiences in that apartment have shaped me into the person i am—a person who values independence, someone with a clean, friendly, welcoming, homey home. it makes it very easy and rewarding to stay on top of my shit when i remember how i had to live at twelve and fifteen and nineteen. stories for another time and i am always open to chatting about it. you wouldn’t believe, or maybe you would because you lived like that too.

tommy would send me on guilt trip spirals while he drank bottles of hard liquor and slept all day. he yelled at me in ways my own parents never have or ever will. i don’t think i will ever tell my dad what my mom allowed to go on in that place because it would fuck him up. she only left him after all us kids moved out and there was no one else to blame for the horrible energy in the household. tommy had bouts of productivity and kindness which always complicated our relationship because i am a peacemaker and i abhor conflict, but his crashes scared me. sometimes he stained the bathroom with wine-purple puke. the first time i ever got sick from alcohol, i was sixteen and who do you suppose supplied the sangria?

there are lots of stories, but what i really want to talk about is the human brain, or at least my human brain. something very nuanced happened to me when tommy kinard became the object of my affection/brainrot. at first, you can’t imagine how difficult it was to immerse myself in fic. i legitimately couldn’t. that name meant one thing to me. the only way you can understand what that is like is if you’ve ever shipped a character who has the name of someone in your immediate family or circle. for example, you probably don’t want to read your sibling’s name in a sex scene. i didn’t know how deep i’d even be able to take my interest in him because of it. so… i trained myself. somehow. it wasn’t very conscious, but it happened. in my waking existence, the name tommy started to mean tommy kinard. the association shifted. tommy kinard is the only tommy i think of now, at least on a surface level.

the side effect of this is that i started to dream about my step father a lot. i guess in the process of trauma blocking, i banished him to my subconscious, and there he was (and is) for the first time in a very long time - a main character in my dreams. and along with him, the apartment i grew up in. probably on a weekly basis.

i am an avid and vivid dreamer. it’s one of the things that probably interests me the most about life in general. i know my sleep cycle perfectly, and i think it’s probably atypical. i can tell you that my peak REM cycle happens right before i am due to wake up in the morning. that helps a lot with remembering dreams. also, i’m a light sleeper, and that actually lends itself to “lucid dreaming” which i trained myself to do and did a lot when i was in college. so anyway, what’s really enamoring to me is that because i consciously think/read/write the name tommy on a daily basis, my brain is tricking itself into thinking that i’m thinking about my stepfather and that i need to process the trauma that i moved to my subconscious. also, the dreams aren’t necessarily negative in nature most of the time (but not all of the time). in fact, on one amusing occasion i must have really mixed my signals because he came out as gay at a birthday dinner for my twin siblings.

hey - if you made it this far, thanks for reading! i haven’t really spoken to anyone about this because in my family, we don’t bother giving him the satisfaction of being a conversation topic. anyway, i HIGHLY recommend the human brain. it can do some really complex shit. also does this make me the most devout tommy kinard stan? i literally erased a person for him so i vote yes

[punk-void-experience]

𝕷𝖚𝖈𝖎𝖉 𝖉𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖒𝖘, 𝖁𝖔𝖎𝖉 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕾𝖙𝖆𝖇𝖎𝖑𝖎𝖟𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖍𝖔𝖑𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌.

Now, big title and all… that must mean I know what I’m doing, right? A tutorial if you will. Well, that’s not the case at all lol.

I’ve been a lucid dreamer for quite a while now, though it’s not an every night thing or I wouldn’t be here right now because I would’ve figured stuff out.

Not that I’m a popular blog by all means if you see the engagement of my posts, but! I came once again in hopes someone more knowledgeable and experienced than me would help.

My void journey is ever changing, I’ve changed my goals, my methods and my reasons. I’m aware the void is real, I’ve been there before but as many others, it happened when I wasn’t aware the void was a thing.

Now I’m on the road to enter it through a lucid dream because my ADHD won’t let me meditate for the life of me. I’ve lucid dreamed a handful of times and I seem to know now what works to induce them (though I need to work on it and confirm) and that’s where my doubts come.

How do I stabilize the whole thing?

I am at the point where I reach lucidity quite quickly into the dream, like last night… but I also get out of it just as quickly, like last night. How do I make the blur go away? How do I make the void thing happen? I get conscious and immediately go into void mode but for some reason it doesn’t happen??? Like, it kicks me out or the blur doesn’t go away.

Should I ask a dream character to take me there? I’ve tried portals but alas they didn’t open. Maybe it’s just me getting too excited and that becomes a problem? Help.

[mittensdragon]

Where are my reality shifters at?

Tarot Card Reading — Where am I on my shifting journey? 

“The range of our knowledge of reality is limited by our pre-existing beliefs, assumptions, and expectations.” —  Cynthia Sue Larson

Hello my peoples! I have come back from a long break, but I come bearing gifts! Today we have a reality shifting reading for all of my shifters 🥰 I hope you find this reading helpful for you today and that it assists you on your shifting journey. In this reading, many practices can pop up that are not reality shifting but somehow relates to it, such as astral projection and lucid dreaming! So let’s be open minded to that. 

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Pile One: The Cloud

Release

Big fluffy and red. Dreamy, very dreamy. I feel peace and like I’m floaty with this one. Perhaps your reality is a waiting room, or maybe you are a lucid dreamer. Whichever resonates, this pile is for you! Although it doesn’t have to resonate for this pile to be yours too. I am in a poetic mood today. :) let’s begin friends.

I’m not sure why, but I am getting something about being LGBTQ+. You may be a part of this, or you may be a supporter because you have family or friends who are. Either way, there is something that has to do with being LGBTQ+! If so, welcome, you are loved and accepted here.

Your cards are King of Hearts in reverse, The High Priestess, and Three of Wands. Just to reassure you, cards in reverse do not mean something is wrong or bad. In fact, I feel like the King of Hearts strongly suggests that this is someone you used to be, not who you are now. I feel like this leads you back to the LGBTQ message, which at some point in your life you were holding back a lot of… well you. This isn’t just LGBT, it’s all of you. Maybe you were holding strong beliefs that were hard to let go, stubborn is what I hear. But at some point, that was just enough for you. I see someone, like leaving a place with some luggage in hand. Like they were simply just done.

By leaving you became who you truly are, who you are meant to be. The High Priestess. Im hearing a goddess, go queens. Live the dream. 💜 

You became strongly intuitive, you follow your heart, you let yourself be guided instead of holding back. You let yourself be happy. You were probably guided to finding astral projection, lucid dreaming, and reality shifting. It became your thing. With The High Priestess I’m definitely getting night and dream vibes so maybe you’re practicing Lucid Dreaming and lean more towards astral projection. I’m strongly getting astral projection here. 

It seems you probably stumbled upon reality shifting last and you’re pretty new to it and definitely excited, I’m feeling. I also saw something about YouTube, so maybe this is how you found out. Definitely on the internet for sure. In the Three of Wands, it shows three little angel babies, and I feel this strongly represents you when it comes to reality shifting. I’m getting the impression that you don’t know where to start, you’re excited, it’s something new, and you feel like you’re everywhere. Just take a deep breath and slooow down.

You are being called to this and are receiving the help and guidance you need to succeed. I feel like this is something you can definitely flourish in, if you are consistent and determined enough. It may be a struggle now, but I know you got this.

In order to allow yourself to succeed more in this though, there is a person you need to let go of. I feel like this person is really confusing you, they are all you are focusing on right now but it’s just really confusing and they are holding you back. I feel like this person shows you one side and then completely flips at a different time. I’m getting like a sweet in private and tense in public type of thing or vice versa. Either way, this isn’t healthy for you and it’s something you need to let go.

I’m seeing someone sitting in criss cross position, holding their intertwined hands to their chest and then releasing this energy, opening their arms wide to release it into the air. And allowing peace into their hearts. Maybe this is something you do or could do, maybe meditation will help you let go of this confusing person and allow you to move one. Because you deserve to be at your highest. Don’t settle for less. 

Thank you for joining me today and allowing me to present this message to you. I hope this helps on your journey.

Pile Two: The Kitten

Growth

Hello pile two, welcome to your reading. Here we have Ace of Hearts, Ace of Swords, and Strength. I’m getting that you all have very reserved personalities, and you are very careful about what you want people to know about you, which is why I’m not getting too much info as I did with the previous pile. And that’s okay! I’m only getting the message that you need to hear, and that’s what is important.

You may be or may have been someone who was very emotional, for some reason I’m hearing “chaotic” but that may not resonate for most of you? We will see. It seems that you were always not sure of yourself, like your actions and I’m getting a lot of self doubt in general. You may have gotten pretty emotional when someone would doubt you and this would kick you down bad. It’s something you definitely relied on. I saw this in like a high school, so maybe you were a teenager when you used to be this way. And this definitely held you back from doing a lot and experiencing a lot. 

There is some sort of gap for me here, like a missing piece of the puzzle. But I feel like you know what I mean when I say that a certain situation made you flip. Maybe you were able to spend more time with yourself alone and this changed you completely and I mean drastically. Like people you knew would be surprised as to who you’ve become. You are more self-assured and confident in yourself. I’m seeing a mirror, so maybe you do affirmations in the mirror that help you move on throughout the day. I’m also seeing make up too, I feel like you just really had a glow up. 

Now you definitely approach things in a different way for sure, but how does all of this fit in with your shifting journey? It could be that this is something you manifested, maybe you shifted to this reality where you were more self-assured, or actually, maybe it is something you want to do. Whichever resonates with you best. 

Whether you have already achieved this growth or are going to, I know that you will turn out to be the best version of yourself. Like the strength card, you have no fear or doubts about anything and approach things in a better way than you did in your past. 

This definitely has a lot to do with your growth than reality shifting, so maybe you are simply taking a break from it in order to work on yourself. To make peace with yourself and this reality that you are in. Maybe you are coming out of the obsessive faze where everything is about reality shifting and constantly hydrating yourself, making tons of scripts, lifa apps and you just ended up tiring yourself out. I get it, I’ve been there too, but being so hyper fixated on shifting will not get you to shift. But you know that ;).

An opportunity either will present itself or has presented itself for you, now whether this has to do with shifting or not, I’m not too sure. It may be a job opportunity that keeps you busy, and with The Star in reverse it seems that this opportunity will come when you are pretty much drained. If it has to do with shifting, you’ll probably get the opportunity to shift when you’re already tired and end up exhausted again. This ties back in to how you used to be, overexerting yourself to the point that you just can’t anymore. 

Don’t do this :(

If this is related to a job, it could be that it’s well paying but you won’t have time to practice what you want to anymore which will leave you drained. Not even enough energy to do your regular routine in the morning, not enough rest to function properly throughout the day. If this happens, please ask yourself, is it really worth it to risk your mental and physical health for a job?

I hope this reading has helped you on your shifting journey and gave you a little push. Have a great day/night! 🖤

Pile Three: The Doll 

Letting Go

Hello, my wonderful peoples, welcome to your reading. I hope you find today’s pick a pile helpful and that it resonates for you! Let’s get started.

Your cards are Eight of Swords, The Chariot, The Lovers in reverse, Princess of Pentacles (Page) in reverse, Two of Hearts (Cups) in reverse, and The Magician.

I am seeing a theme about love and romance here, but since the two cards are reverse and the Eight of Swords at the start, I want to assume that there was a lover that was holding you back. Perhaps you felt trapped in this relationship, it was something difficult to get out of before you gathered the courage to leave, The Chariot. I feel like for some time you did not trust yourself because of this lover, and maybe you still have a hard time with that. This relationship killed your inspiration.

Something tells me that you used reality shifting as a way to escape from this relationship, but because you felt trapped here, they were holding you back from your true potential. It's possible that you had a few readings and signs before this and now that led you to leave “captivity” is what I’m seeing here. That or it was something you’re considering now, and this is confirmation.

Whichever it may be, it really seems important for you to know that you are very capable of reaching your true potential, you can do many things, it's just something you have to unlock within yourself through a lot of healing and inner work. You can shift, you can astral project and lucid dream. It may sound cheesy, although true, it takes practice and persistence. 

Right now, you are in a state of whether you should trust your senses or not. It’s like something is blocking your intuition, preventing you to go further and stopping from being your best self. This is that “stuck” feeling we see earlier.

There’s a feeling of “sudden realization” as well, so maybe it's something barely coming to your senses.

This does feel short! But it feels like this message was definitely some clarity you may have needed. 

Thank you for reading! 🖤

[konniesreality]

KONNIE! I have something to share!! Okay, so these past few weeks I have been trying to get lucid dreams. I used to have them pretty often during the pandemic because of my unhealthy sleep schedule. Fast forward, the new normal came, and I had to change my sleeping habits—I couldn't remember my dreams nor get lucid, sad, life has been hectic and busy, I couldn't find the time, and so on. Since I'm on a Christmas break, I've decided to go back and reclaim my ability to dream lucidly. I was starting to lose hope, but THIS MORNING! I had a lucid dream!

Okay, so in the dream, my ex-friend was in the dream; he came up to me and was very friendly with me; it shook me, and THAT made me realise I was dreaming! Once I realised I was dreaming, I didn't bother to do reality checks. I tried to compose myself and not get excited. So, I asked the dream person (my ex-friend) to guide me into the void. This mf... He looked at me and was like, "No," and told me, “You're a sicko."?? BREEHH?? I was bamboozled, and yeah, I woke up... HAHAHAH, it was annoying, regardless! I am only looking at the positive outcome of this odd experience. I. HAVE. A. LUCID. DREAM..So I want to tell a detailed experience: The first time I woke up, I couldn't remember my dream, I woke up and did chores and went back to sleep (ig WBTB?)

Okay, but the night before, I listened to subliminals and affirmed before I went to bed. I used a lot of lucid dreaming subliminals but the one I mostly listen to are from cloudparty, enchanted workshop, leviathan, Gemini, and.... kira...

I don't affirm that consistently but if I do, I do it with feelings. Here are the affirmations I used:

My subconscious helps me have lucid dreams! My subconscious helps me achieve lucidity! I am becoming more conscious of my dreams with each passing second. It is easy for me to realize that I am dreaming in a dream. It is easy for me to tell when I am dreaming in a dream. It is easy for me to control everything in my dreams. I am always aware during my dreams.

I also listened to a yoga nidra meditation the one with the 20-minute long video? And when the part where you affirm, I affirmed: "I am an excellent lucid dreamer"

I hope this will help other people who are tapping into the void via lucid dreaming!

Wow congrats and that’s awesome!! I hope this inspires someone!!

And yes I’m yoga nidra when you affirm something there it will manifest!!