#i am Emotionally Unwell

[zozo-01]

[the-dormant-ocean]

After years of work, I finally got hired as a writer for Link Click and they ask me to present a story idea for one of the episodes to the other writers.

It causes an immediate uproar. One of the writers starts to immediately grab everything at arm's length to hurl it at me. Two fell off their chairs and others fainted from shock.

The only ones left who are still verbal scream at me at the top of their lungs: "For it to happen at least someone from the main cast needs to have been stabbed!" "Captain Xiao needs to find at least 12 other colleagues dead!" "We would need to have 2 other death scares!" "Don't you know it's against the law for them to be happy?!" "Does the meaning of being doomed by the narrative ring any bells to you?"

I am promptly being dragged out of the room by security, kicking and screaming. They throw me out into the streets and tell me that I'm fired.

[omoon1117]

Have broken down sobbing multiple times today. Shout out to Bella and Pedro for being the common factor each time it happened.

[abandonedaccount1234]

WEtv's been playing 9-1-1 all day. I forgot how emotionally turbulent season 5 was to actually watch. I literally repressed the severity of Eddie's PTSD.

WTF. I have cried every episode since the Christmas one.

It's honestly a little cruel.

[captain-hyde]

What happens when I have no anger left to feel

All these terrible things happened

And all I can do is yearn for the days when they hadn’t happened yet

I wouldn’t be me

But would I be better off?

[illcitaffrs]

SIXTEEN DAYS AND MY BABIES ARE COMING BACK TO ME 🥹🥹🥹

[notsofriendlyfriendlyreminder]

RANT ABOUT A CZECH SONG AND RDR2

So I used to have a editor phase (kpop,rdr2,witcher,genshin) and I always had that thing when you hear a song and just imagine an edit to it SO HERE I NEED TO VENT.

I know there is a very slim chance someone who speaks czech will read this so I'll provide translation but there is THIS song:

AND OKAY IT'S NOT EXACT BUT hear me out let's translate some of the lyrics alright bear with me. (the song is sung by two guys, younger and older so that just also helps)

The name translates to Wings of soap, and icarus reference BUT BUT we're for this- the first part I wanna look at is pretty much Arthur Morgan:

Before the strings break again, and what was etched in is absorbed the lifeboats disappear and just for me there are no left

!!!HE IS RUNNING OUT OF TIME HE IS TRYING TO SAFE EVERYONE THEY LEAVE ON LIFEBOATS BUT HE IS DYING THERE IS NO LEFT FOR HIM

The chorus is Arthur and others who stood againts Dutch because:

Have wings from soap and melt, When they're betting that the next phase is the end

THEY KNOW it's the end, they can all just guess when it will end.

BUT WE CONTINUE to the part when John realises that Arthur WILL DIE, there is no way out, but he has a chance to get away because Arthur will make sure he does:

So modestly without protest He takes off his life jacket Before the clock stops ticking And seconds are night following And now he's breathing harder I now know what has been hidden And I'm in no rush I know there is one for me

AND IN THE END there is a part when it pretty much can be Hosea and Dutch or the whole gang:

There was time for everything Before silence of the voice came Before came the first steps Of our last verse

I am not a huge fan of czech songs but some of the older ones just HIT IN THE RIGHT SPOT I remember this coming out but IT'S TEN YEARS OLD JESUS.

[wonusite]

his arms are getting as big as mingyu's im going to pass out

i just want to chomp on them wtf 🫠

[lazyfox411]

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[anakin-pilled]

im just a girl, im not supposed to suffer!!!!!

[shatterdome-underscore]

Haha, oh boy, the emotional trauma sure is flashbacking tonight, boys

[only-finch]

Just arising out of my cave to say *ahem* excuse me what?

[beescake]

lovee

[mr-babygirl]

[haunted-xander]

tbh one of, if not my absolute favorite part about ffxiv, is the small little moments/sections where nothing super big or like. Plot Important happens, but that give both the characters and us, the players, some much appreciated down-time to just. Feel things. And to process what's happened and what's going on or to just. Let us exist, in the moment. In a much more grounded and human way than when there's Big And Important Things happening.

The biggest(imo) and earliest example of this is right after the Waking Sands get raided in ARR, and WoL turns to the church for guidance. The entire section of us helping them gather and bury our fallen comrades, and especially bringing Noraxia home to Little Solace so she can be laid to rest in her homeland, by her own people and in their own cultural ways, was so so important to me.

Because it wasn't just replacable allies cast aside for shock value anymore, it was real. These deaths were real and meant something. I got to actually process what just happened, and I got to watch Banana go through it right with me. And not only did it make it feel real, it also gave me a sense of closure. These people, these friends, are dead, but they also got to be treated with the respect they deserve and laid to rest properly.

And that, more than anything else, made me want to save the world. It's grounded and grounding. This world, and these people, meant something to me, the player.

And there's tons of stuff like that throughout the game, especially in shadowbringers and endwalker.

In shb we have, for example, Lyna venting her anger and frustration after the sin eater attack in Lakeland. She's on her knees yelling on the verge of tears while punching the ground, so furious at her helplessness and powerlessness, at everyone having come so far yet set back because some megalomaniacal tyrant deemed it so.

In ew we have Urianger being approached by Moenbryda's parents, who confront him about not confiding in them about his grief. When Bloewyda starts to scold him, he of course reacts guiltily, believing they blame him, only for him to be completely caught off guard when she instead goes in to hug him, telling him he should have let them grieve with him. And he just. Breaks down. He's been holding these feelings, this grief inside him all this time, and now that he is not only told it's okay to let it out, but by her very own parents at that, he just can't keep it in anymore. He cries for Moenbryda, right then and there, being held lovingly by her family.

And the thing is, these scenes aren't necessary, strictly speaking. The plot at large could go on without them, the events that happen around them are not changed by these moments in any way.

But still, they are so so important, to the world, to the characters, to the players. Everything feels real and impactful now, every death means something, every tragedy, every person, feels real.

And that, to me, is what makes this story so special.

[alderaans]

I do not care that you did not recognize me when we first met. This time I recognized you first.

Alchemy of Souls (2022) – 1.01 / Alchemy of Souls: Light and Shadow (2022) – 2.08