#i also love just being . suprised

[blobpsycho]

This gif perfectly encapsulates what I love about Tome. All girls have been this gif. Like remember having undiagnosed mental issues and your family makes you go on an outing that should be fun but you’re just pissed off constantly because youre a 14 year old girl? Tome gets it.

Like YOU’RE GOING SOMEWHERE TO DO SOMETHING THAT SPECIFICALLY PERTAINS TO YOUR INTERESTS. But youre a 14 year old girl and nobody will ever take you seriously and you’ve just got this pit of hopelessness in your stomach despite the fact that nothing is technically wrong

so even though youre on an outing planned for you you can’t shake the feeling that everyone is just making fun of you for being so upset over seemingly nothing. These are your friends and family, you deep down they wouldnt do that, but why else would they go out of their way?

They certainly wouldn’t do it for you, right? I mean nothing’s even technically wrong. You’re just being a crybaby and they all must think youre just being a dramatic teenage girl. And you are and you know that you are so why can’t you just get over it and be normal?

And when you finally can’t take the pain that’s screaming in your chest because everything feels wrong wrong and everything is going wrong and everything is wrong wrong wrong you can’t help but cry. And you’re embarrassed and you’re furious and you’re supposed to be mature and you’re supposed to not care but you cry.

Crying feels worse than the growing internal discomfort did because now everyone is looking at you. They’re staring in uncomfortable suprise at what you’re sure is the most unsuprising sight in the world - a 14 year old girl crying. You want to go home but you can’t. You’re 14. You can’t do anything on your own.

You react to the terrifying ordeal of being reacted to the only way you know how - with anger. You monologue through hot tears and sobs and snot how you didn’t even wanna be here and how you just *know* everyone is just doing this to make fun of you and how they should just go on ahead and leave you wherever you are (you know this can’t happen. They wouldn’t leave a 14 year old girl somewhere unfamiliar on her own) and something in you hopes that they’ll yell back, that they’ll treat you like you’re irrational and make you feel justified in your anger.

…But that doesn’t happen. The silence persists but you realize that it’s more contemplative than judgemental. They’re not afraid of you, though you think they should be. Rather than letting them say something sentimental about caring and being concerned or any sappy bullshit that will only serve to make you cry more, you wipe your face on your sleeve continue on your journey.

The day gets better. After everyone gathers that no, you don’t wanna talk about it, it almost feels like nothing happened to begin with- besides the slight exhaustion you feel every time you blink and the intense stress sweat you choose to blame on anything else.

By the time you get home, the day is mentally logged as a good day. You decide - albeit tentatively - that maybe you’re going to be ok. Maybe you won’t be a 14 year old girl forever.

You go to bed and have the best sleep you’ve had in months.

[21st-sinner-of-misery]

“I can tell when one of my subordinates is acting strangely… tell me, whats wrong?” - Outis

[redhotarsenic]

Man imagine whining because I called you a moron when you’re in fact being a moron

[jetskisonyourmoat]

TBHC track by track interview from Radio X

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve listened to this track by track interview Alex did with John Kennedy. Like I used to listen to it everyday and then I’d fall asleep to it. It’s the longest interview we ever got and the one where Alex talks the most, uninterrupted! As much as I love Zane Lowe interviewing Alex, he has this habit of interrupting sometimes which I think is slightly annoying because Alex seems to genuinely like talking to him and tends to reveal more with Zane. Anyway! Every track by track is always great because Radio X have always been big fans of AM (their social media accounts are fan pages atp). This interview one in particular is so special to me! Like you can hear his thought process as he tries to navigate how to best tell a story or how to explain his ideas. And obviously he stutters through a lot of it but I think that’s really endearing and also really relatable because he’s actually putting an effort into explaining things. Also John is so good at just listening, so this feels like a podcast. Side note an Alex Turner podcast would be very interesting, obviously he would never do one but I can dream.

I tried to come up with a list of all my favourite parts but i genuinely have too many! Just in the first 20 minutes he mentions the mantle of the expert and getting ‘into character’, French composers, French films starring ‘Alain Delon’ who Alex has been cosplaying as this whole tour and Fellini’s 8 1/2 which is such a good film. Like I could make separate posts about all of those things. Anyway! Listen to it if you haven’t already it’s a great look into Alex’s mind and insight into TBHC.

[pissfaggit]

Going through it this weekend and something compelled me to watch won't get fooled again 3 times in the last 24 hours; idk that episode is like crack to me fr what's that post about guys having something called the Ultimate Treat- that's what wgfa is for me. I don't even know what to say that could possibly accurately summarize all my feelings about it but yea episode of television that changed my brain chemistry of all time in the tv show that changed my brain chemistry of all time- the best of the best ig idk

[vaginadentatas69]

im gay & i love my boyfriend & im so glad i finally found a Daddy dom who speaks my love languages and theyre so sweet and funny and dorky its like a Dream Come True. truly incredible amounts of dopamine from this relationship. i should have hopped on that dick years ago.

[dread-knight]

Why do you have to write a story for other people to see it I feel like my brain is being stretched in twenty different directions with all the shit I want to make but low energy & not enough time & my own sense of shame makes it so that I’m not doing anything. Gahhh

[be-side-my-self]

10 characters I am attracted to!

Tagged by @densofyarrow ... ten days ago.

This is really hard because I am rarely attracted to fictional characters? I didn't manage to find ten... also many of them are... thin cases. Also I ship many of them with other characters which will instantly mute my attraction. XD ... so no guarantee about the order.

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#10 ??????? idk I’d probably find another One Piece Character. Maybe just Oscar from Syberia? But then I kind of ship him with Kate so that would be weird too... idk.

#09 Bobby Fulbright - Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney - Dual Destinies (don’t question this............ Bobby ;_; we hardly knew you... or maybe we did.)

#08 Boromir - Lord of the Rings (Book version ... yeah... when I got older he became more interesting? idk)

#07 Vimes - Discworld books (like... It’s him or Vetinari if you’re into men, let’s be real! But also Vimes/Sybil = OTP)

#06 Hannemann - Fire Emblem Three Houses (I do ship him with Manuela but... I dig the gentleman scholar vibes.)

#05 Ponder - Discworld books (I like my men either lawful and/or loyal and/or good and/or so fucking nerdy that couldn't function in the real world)

#04 Vice-Admiral Momonga - One Piece (There is just something about him... idk)

#03 Dedue - Fire Emblem Three Houses (There is a trend of me enjoying to romance the right hand man of the "main characters")

#02 Kuririn - Dragon Ball Z (so the adult version... fml I had a real crush on him... I just remembered that I got really upset when I learned that he was together with Android 18... lmao. I was young. Also in reality I’m more attracted to men who are around my own height... so... that was the first indicator for that?)

#01 Mr. Husbando: Frederick - Fire Emblem Awakening

Please I need me a freak like that. And with freak I mean a battle butler who loves fire as much as I do and is too loyal for his own good.

Damn I wish he was real and I could have him.

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I tag no one, because I don’t want to annoy anyone. But you can always tag me, I don’t mind! Thank you!

Oh wait... @burning-peanut if you want to?

[bandsanitizer]

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[mactheknifes]

i just love fucked up rich people and evil women

[frost-rambling]

Paperjam has some MAD autistic rizz frfr.

[gaypinebabe]

Not that anyone cares but if ktdk Canon I will get a tattoo of dynamy or straight up the ship even tho I hate needles and have a very low pain tolerance

[nicholasgoodgirl]

that was mean- nicholas

summary: nicholas was having a bad week and gave you the silent treatment.

warning: argument, crying, happy ending

a/n: i couldn't stop thinking abt this no joke. so ofc i had to write it out

from late at night till he left early this morning for work nicholas has been either quiet rude or both.

we haven't spoken to eachother or not even silents acts of love. nothing.

he cut his alarm clock off and i tried to give him a hug before he got out the bed and he pushed me off of him "not right now" he grumbled and got out of bed

when he left for work i said 'bye' to maybe break the silence shared between us, but i got no response. it was starting to get lonely. i missed my bestfriend that was also my boyfriend

i had nobody to mess with or someone to talk to about my day.

to stop these lingering thoughts i go back to bed to maybe get my mind off of things.

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i wake up around 8 am which was later than the time i usally woke up around, but today was sorta a lazy day.

it was gloomy not much sun was shining, it rained a little here and there. it was more of a slow day for me so the extra rest was very much needed

i text my boyfriend forgetting about the whole silent treatment ordeal.

me: how's your day going so far?? :)

and to no suprise i was left on delivered and soon left on seen. i messaged him periodically throught the day; hoping that maybe he would reply

it was almost time for dinner which normally nicholas cooks cause he's just better at it, but i didn't know when he was coming home or if he would even do it, so i look up some quick easy recipes and nothing struck my fancy but the pizza recipe. cause how hard could it really be?

i put a packet of yeast into my bowl along with some flour, water, oil, and salt. i let that sit for 30 minutes then im back to cooking again.

spreading flour onto the counter and placing the dough onto it; kneading it into a circle shape. this was harder than i thought

i look around for the marinara sauce and i put it into a different bowl and add a few light seasonings.

i paste that onto the dough, then i sprinkle some alot of cheese onto the pizza and my additional toppings bell peppers, spinach, and mushrooms.

i was so proud of myself especially sense i wasnt the cook, out of me and nicholas. i was really excited for him to try what i made but again i highly doubt he would even eat the food.

i put the pizza away into the oven completely forgetting to set a timer and put on a movie while i wait.

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a smell of burning was the first thing that woke me up. "shit shit shit" i repeat totally freaking out remembering i left the pizza in the oven.

i get a rag and ineffectivley wave smoke out the air. when i open the oven it smelled horrible. i was coughing from all the smoke that had entered my lungs.

i take the burning pizza out and throw it into the sink, and hose it down with the water.

thats when i hear the front door open and mentally face palm. "what's that smell?" he asks "i kinda burnt a pizza that i tried to make"

"of course you did" he mutters sounding unimpressed. "and the fuck you mean 'kinda' you obviously did burn a damn pizza" he gestures to the chunk of charcoal burnt pizza

"it's not like i did it on purposes or something if thats what you think" my tone sounding a bit confronting.

"It's smells fucking horrible so open a damn window first off" he took a step closer raising his voice.

"you don't pay for shit so i don't understand why you almost had this place in flames secondly. then you also wanna blow up my phone while im working for crying out loud what do you want from me!" he yelled directly in my face

and im sure he knows by now i hate being yelled at. it's something my parents did and overall doesn't solve anything

i just take it, i didn't wanna fight so i go over to the nearest window and crack it open so the smoke clears.

my eyes watered from all the harsh words he could dish out but not the equal amount of attention "well.. you are- when i was.. ugh s'not my fault" i couldn't get a full sentence out. i felt so belittled in this moment

"im going to bed i don't have time for your stupid ass shit" those words hurt more than he thinks.

he had the most patience for me, always making time for us and now he doesnt.

"that's so mean.. you're being so mean" i wipe some tears that had fallen. i turned away from him silently crying.

the peices of my hair stuck to my tear-soaked cheeks. "wait- I'm sorry please don't cry" nicholas' voice was filled with regret.

i lazily push him away from me but he doesn't budge. his arms wrap around me bringing me into his familiar embrace. "I'm so sorry for being an asshole. I've been having a long shitty week and i know thats not an excuse so you don't even have to forgive me."

"you're everything to me. i swear i didn't mean it." he adds

the unforgettable cruel words he'd said to me earlier shoved ontop of his sweet loving words made me cry more.

i let him hold my trembling body as sobs tore through my chest, each inhale was ragged and uneven.

my hands clutched the material of his shirt "im so sorry sweetheart i never wanna make you cry" he explains in such a low voice, giving my hair strokes in attempt to calm me.

my face still burried into his neck tears now starting to dry away, and my breathing starting to even out. he carried me over to the couch and placed me in his lap

i was drained from all the crying, the tense feeling in my body beginning to melt away when i really started to feel nicholas' touch. my eyes drooped again this time staying shut for longer.

i was too tired to resist the sleep that had tooken over. and being cradled in his arms didn't help.

"I'll order pizza for the both of us alright?" he took me off of his lap and placed me on our couch. then lays one of our throw blankets ontop of me. "can we talk in the mornin'?" is the last thing i remember asking before dozing off.

a/n: can yall tell idk how to make pizza

[tonihatessociety]

Things about the Hazbin Hotel main cast from the Wiki, which fastinate me + my wonderful comments

Alastor

Alastor specifically liking the Stock Market Chrash of 1929 (tf)

Alastor being Bilingual and it being listed next to him being able to do eldritch magic

Alastor being a cannibal (no suprise)

He is canonically flexible

Alastor likes pineapple on pizza (i trusted you)

Alastor being aromantic because no one would be good enough for him in his eyes (is he lying though)

He hates men

Alastor has bad breath

Charlie

Charlie liking Frappuccinos (where does she even get them)

Charlie being friends with literally everyone in the hotel

She also likes pineapple on pizza (literally the most demonic thing about her)

Vaggie

Her abilitys are expressive hair and expressive bowtie

Vaggie is the best dancer in the main cast (Al an Charlie are crying in a corner)

Angel Dust

He dislikes his feet (feel you)

Angel can predict the weather

He has retrectable limbs

Bro just wants to chill in his sweatpants

He plays the Trumpet and the Accordion, allthough quite badly

He likes children (which I find odly comforting)

Angle likes fish

He was supposed to be a father at one point

Husk

He dislikes being a cat (most unrelatable thing ever)

Literally only friends with Angel and Niffty

Husk is fluent in 7 languages?!

Of course he's from Vegas and grew up in a Casino

"A hole is a hole" SORRY WHAT?

Niffty

She likes fanfiction (ONE OF US ONE OF US)

She dislikes good boys and likes bad boys (what else did I expect tbh)

She playes the Tambourine

Niffty just liking MEN

"not a hopless romantic but hopeless in her romatic life" GIRL! girl...

She's literally the only straight person

In conclusion: I just love these characters

[wonder-and-wildflowers]

Dazai canonically rambling about his loved ones at every possible opportunity is so dear to me.

Mori knew a lot of the things he did about Oda because Dazai told him. Akutagawa also knew about Oda and how important he is to Dazai because of Dazai's ramblings. Random, unnamed PM members know about Oda being very dear to Dazai, because Dazai praises him and talks about how great he is.

Chuuya knew straight away that Dazai had been speaking about him to the ADA. It wasn't something he expressed feeling betrayed or suprised about. It was just an immediate understanding that of all the ways they could probably have known about him and his ability despite it being confidential information in the PM, Dazai's ramblings were most likely the reason.

The way that Dazai speaks about Ranpo to quite literally anyone who will listen. To Fydor, to random cops, to Atsushi.

Dazai canonically brags about the people he cares about in an 'omg omg omg my person my people I love them look how amazing they are' way.