#i also have a chem review i need to do

[feidude]

update: so far i did one thing ☝️

[unstablenoodle]

Just graduated, and I’ve been dragging myself by my hair through the last 4 years. here’s advice if you’re new to college:

Basic advice:

Make friends in your lectures. You will know some of those people all four years, and some of them are better at this than you. You’re still capable, but there’s always a bigger fish and you should make that fish into a study buddy

Get a job at a food court/ campus restaurant. You get a free meal, which might be your only one for the day if you don’t have a meal plan. Work can also be a mental break from academics.

Abuse office hours. Annoy your TA. make them scared to see you. TA’s are tired grad students and you won’t have a formal relationship with them: they are students too.

Study advice:

Flash cards are for review and rote learning only. 15-30 minute power review sessions for things you already know. If you’re going over familiar shit, do it in short, repetitive bursts.

Be the bitch with annoying decorative notes. Make it a game, it’ll force you to look at the material more. I will say though, make sure you decorate with purpose.

Those friends you made in lecture? That’s where you get the big studying done. If you’re going for a higher 4 hour long study sesh, bring other people. They know things you don’t and vice versa, so you can fill in the gaps for each other. This type of studying is for unfamiliar or confusing material.

Big study sessions usually only happen a couple weeks out from exams at most. Before exams, your homework is your main means of studying.

Just go to the lecture. I don’t care if it’s at 7:30 am, go. Participation points could be the difference between a B and a C.

TI-84 graphing calculator

Pub chem

If a professor, for some ungodly reason, says you aren’t allowed to work on the homework with other people, fuck that guy.

Your $168.99 textbook is likely a free PDF online.

Date someone who fills in your gaps. I dated an engineer I met in a physics class and it worked beautifully.

Mental health (my advice on this is very specific):

Basic advice: drink water regularly, eat vegetables, exercise. You know all this.

Stay far, far away from any substance called a “study buddy” or something like that

Get a hobby. Actually. Something to do in your free time to keep you from going insane. I personally like knitting and drawing, but it can be anything. I’d say avoid something involving technology because it’s easy to fall into that for hours at a time. Do something that engages your hands and your brain. You might not be creative, but creativity is good for you. Your painting looks like shit? The benefits you have reaped from its creation are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. Good job.

If you are having any kind of hallucination (visual, auditory, presence, etc.), seek professional help immediately. I have lived half my life with the feeling of eyes on me and the presence of people who aren’t actually there and never tried to fix it because I could “work around it.” Just go get help. Hallucinations can also be a symptom of neurological issues and physical illness.

OCD and disorders involving psychosis are aggravated by stress. Your classes will stress you out. Disorders like this are scary and debilitating, so you absolutely need to be in therapy, possibly on medication. They also tend to be episodic, so you may have periods of recovery where your life quality improves. Do NOT be fooled: you still need to be in therapy even if you feel good. Preventative measures are the best measures!!

Social:

Get a job. Work friends are funnier and way more entertaining than any other kind of friend

I recommend a group of 2-4 people you chill with regularly. Movie night with them once a week (barring exam weeks and extenuating circumstances)

Talk with your roommates at least occasionally. It’s no fun living with total strangers.

Do not start smoking cigarettes. A lot of people are repulsed by the smell and it clings to you.

Hygiene. Mainly you should smell good. You don’t have to go crazy with an expensive perfume/ cologne, but shower and always have a decent scent. Also try not to wear stained clothes.

Not sure how useful this is, but it’s the first thing I could think of. I’ll come back and edit if I think of more.

[kiyoitiepie]

My Favorite BL Dramas of 2023

happy new year to everyone who uses the gregorian calendar. we had so much good content come out this year. i'm gonna list my favs. please remember these are my personal faves and may be objectively terrible. do not be alarmed.

My Beautiful Man S2 and Movie

If you ask me this series is one of the best bls of all time. idc idc. im a hira and kiyoi girlie through and through. how many bl's do you know with 2 seasons and an original movie. not those repackaged ones that they try to hand feed us. an actual movie with a plot???? the bar is on the floor clearly. but hira and kiyoi are gonna surpass that bar every. single. time.

Love Tractor

I didn't hear enough people screaming about Love Tractor. crickets tbh. Which is blasphemous in my opinion. How could you be quiet when this lovely bumbling himbo with the dopiest grin is on your screen? look at him!!

Eighth Sense

10's across the board. No question. No notes.

this scene^ BROKE me

Our Dining Table

Ok hear me out. I didn't think this was the best bl in the world BUT it was so wholesome that it deserves a spot. top tier comfort show. It got me through many bad days. Admittedly, there were a few times I purposely put it on bc i knew it would put me to sleep. please don't jump me.

Unintentional Love Story

Now...I'm not a huge kbl person. However, this was really nice. Had a solid plot. I don't remember much abt it but I know there was pottery and I had a good time

Only Friends

This was culture. This was a movement. I will never forgive them for how they treated Boston. Even still, I was there every week ready for the chaos. I had the time of my life.

Bed Friend

It's hard to believe this came out this year. Like ??? But really that shows how much I've established this show as a classic in my mind. BED FRIEND? UEA? baddest bitch in the land?? KING? greenest flag out there???? (debatable but for the sake of my argument lets pretend). It had every element. good plot, great visuals, a little heat. like come on who else is doing it like them?

i just know if me and uea were ever in the same room he would judge me so much

Dangerous Romance

I've seen mixed reviews on this one but I had a fun time. Kanghan is a prissy little spoiled brat, but he's my prissy little spoiled brat. I loved their story progression. Which is saying a lot for me bc I don't like enemies to lovers. like why are we fighting? also "i'm an introvert" is the funniest shit i've heard all year.

La Pluie

this was so shockingly good i wish it got more attention. iqiyi in general really did their big one this year. when it rains you can only hear your soulmate? love!

Laws of Attraction

this was a rollercoaster. i started watching ironically because i thought it would be terrible when i saw the mc go super saiyan. that shit is still hilarious idc.

Love Syndrome III

Now before we start throwing tomatoes...let's hear me out. Nothing has caught my attention this year the way this series did. This was another series I was watching ironically until suddenly i wasn't. It's also just so funny that they released the third one without dropping a first or second. but bad bitches don't need to explain themselves. and YES love syndrome is a bad bitch. let's stop acting like we watch bl's solely for the quality. i don't need marvel cgi to have a good time. sometimes a dollar store wig and the most toxic couple you've ever seen is enough to make some shit shake. if this was released during the tharntype era??? oh bitches would've ate it up. HAPPILY. rant over.

Last Twilight

it's good man. what more can i say? i hope it doesn't disappoint me in the end.

Pit Babe

i'm very pleased. very much so. i know alot of folks went into this show expecting a little teehee. to laugh at the omegaverse racecar show. NOT ME. i've waited for this moment. and anyone who's seen me screaming in the tag can attest. this is a game changer. not just for bl but the fandom community at large. and don't even get me started on their chemistry. babe's smile whenever he's around charlie?? mama and papa?? MAMA AND FUCKING PAPA?? we deserve this and i will bask in it for as long as I can. jeff had better be pregnant by the end of the show.

^ that’s his charlie smile 🥲

[deathmetalunicorn1]

Hi author-san, can I request ror gods reaction when they saw reader doing her school works just a while ago, and then later on they noticed reader was fast asleep on their shoulder. The gods are poseidon, hades, thor, loki, odin, heracles, hermes, buddha. And also can you add apollo if you cant its okay.

-It was the week before finals and you were fried, you’re pretty sure you were half coffee at this point, having ingested so many just so you can stay awake.

-You haven’t slept in what felt like days, your body was screaming for a break, but you had planned on sleeping for a whole week straight once your finals were done, you were so close you could taste it!

-Your family was supportive, knowing how important this was to you, but at the same time they couldn’t help but worry about you, mainly your physical and mental health.

-To remedy this, you all came to a compromise, you would take regular breaks, and they would take turns sitting with you and make sure you stayed awake and periodically feed you.

-You relaxed only a bit, holding your chem biology book in your lap, leaning against (God), reading quietly, occasionally highlighting a word or tagging a page to review again, but otherwise you were quiet and (God) was reading the newspaper.

-He turned the page and felt your head drop against his arm as you sagged lightly and he glanced down before doing a double-take, seeing you fast asleep.

-He smiled softly before grabbing his phone, setting a timer for a half an hour, knowing that you needed a break. He leaned his head down on yours, whispering softly, “I’m so proud of you.”

            -Hades, Hermes, and Buddha

-Hesitated for a few moments, he knew you wouldn’t want to take a break right now, but at the same time he could see how tired you were, knowing you needed the break. After flip flopping for a few moments, he decided to let you sleep, just for a bit, fifteen minutes or so.

            -Hercules and Thor

-Knew you were going to be upset with him, but dammit you needed a break longer than an hour. Was as quiet as possible and helped you lay down so your head was on his thigh before pulling a blanket over you. He silently guarded you for the next four hours, letting you sleep quietly. When you woke up, he was quick to offer you your favorite drink and pastry from your favorite café, having gotten someone else to go and get it, appeasing you instantly, and you had to admit that you did feel a bit better afterwards.

-Poseidon, Loki and Odin

[studyyblur]

day 43/100

woah, it's september's last day tomorrow, the month really flew by, but i'd say it was a nice month, a good decently productive month, even though i need to lock in harder, since i have 3 months in hand and i surely do need to maximize each day to its par, but we're gonna be fine, we're okay ♡

to-do for tomorrow:

day 3 pnc lectures + problem sheet

day 3 ionic equilibrium lects + problem sheet

review notes on wpe + ch. test + more problems

so, tomorrow also marks the end of the second phase of my crash course, which is divided into 7 phases and the next one for math begins 2nd oct and for chem on the 3rd, so i get to be a little lenient with the lectures which gives me more time for problem solving! also october's just such a pretty month, it's very high up on my favourites

yes i'm the kind to have a whole damn lists of favourites that too in order smh, sue me ig

[plantingatree]

Hi do you have any tips for year 12s studying a level biology and chemistry??

Or what you wished you did before your as exams or mocks??

hii!! i hope your a levels are going well so far!!

the first thing i’d say is remember that a levels are HARD. especially biology (i don’t do chem unfortunately). i think the biggest thing to tackle is the heaviness of the content for biology. my biggest tip is to make all your revision resources at a very good quality throughout the entire year. if you haven’t started yet, deffo start now. there is a LOT of content so id recommend downloading anki. it’s a computer software app which reschedules your flashcards for you. it’s important to keep up with ‘due’ reviews to maximise anki’s help in spaced repetition. if you don’t, it’ll build up quick and you’ll forget everything. i can’t explain enough how important it is to go over old content because you’ll get to the end of year 12 and have this absolute mass of information to recall.

make flashcards packs based on the specification points. i’ll show you my anki to demonstrate:

(this is the appstore app btw, u don’t need it you can use the free computer version or website version)

obviously you can make them however you want to, it’s just helpful organisation wise. i’m not sure how much content you have to remember for chem but it’s probably helpful for chemistry, too.

second is to make sure you take advantage of the topic tests your school gives you. it doesn’t count towards your final grade in quantitative way but it does with giving you an idea on where you need to work on, exam technique, and adding anything to your flashcards to make them more mark scheme specific. i can’t explain how much i thank my year 12 self for doing it. you’ll thank yourself too, trust me!!

if your exam board is AQA i really really recommend buying pre-made notes by biologywitholivia. they’re quite expensive but honestly it’s worth it because she’s the only person i’ve found who covers everything concisely and it’s every markscheme specific to AQA. also if you haven’t made flashcards yet it’s very easy to just copy and paste the content onto flashcards (but that will make them harder to remember).

and of course USE THE PAST PAPERS. learning content is important but so is past papers (probs something you’ve heard a million times!)

finally, don’t get stressed out or give up. you can do it i absolutely believe in you!!! i hope this was helpful 😊

also here’s the link to notes with olivia if you do AQA

[jadecitrusmint]

Hello, I'm starting college soon, majoring in statistics. When I mention my course, people often warn me about its difficulty and hope I'll manage to stay through all years. Could you provide tips on how to persevere until the fourth year? And I want to advance study. What should I focus on studying? Also, would you recommend a laptop or a tablet/ ipad?

Thank youu :3

Hello! I got a lot of the same comments when I picked stats as my major🥲

Two things are key to persevering through a stats degree, (1) not beating yourself up when you fail and (2) reaching out for help when you don’t understand something. Stats has a lot of disconnected but continually reappearing topics and you’ll get confused and fail sometime- that is perfectly okay and normal, you just have to learn to let it roll off your back and do better next time! This is when my second tip of reaching out to professors, other students, or uni resources come in. Your professors want you to understand the content (or at the very least are paid to ensure you understand the content)- go to them when you don’t understand something! There is no shame in asking for help.

All calc, especially your multivariate calc, is very relevant to statistics, so I’d brush up on your calc 1 and calc 2 skills if it’s been a while since you’ve used them. Additionally, I’d review probability rules, and basic things like finding means and variances. Later on, you’ll cover “distributional results.” When you get to these, absolutely keep a running list of these results that you frequently look over!

For narrowing down your interests, I’d recommend exploring finance courses, science courses (chem/bio), and coding courses. Statistics is a super versatile degree and there’s a lot of freedom and flexibility!

I would 100% recommend a laptop for two reasons. As a statistics student, you will likely be coding a good bit; mostly in R, but probably in SAS, python, and possibly matlab as well. As far as I’m aware, there’s no software that allows you to adequately code in these languages on a tablet/iPad. Secondly, hand writing on paper is much better for retention. I have an iPad as well, but I only really use it for homework to save the trees from all my scratch work😅 you could accomplish the same effect with a white board and marker. All of my notes (and even sometimes my homework and practice problems) are on paper since you retain the info significantly better. My friends in the stats major who also have an iPad or tablet for notes have also switched to using pen and paper over the years to help with retention since there’s a lot you need to have memorized.

Feel free to reach out with any more questions, and good luck! You’ve got this ~~

[queer-reader-07]

7, 9, 33 and 37 for the ask game 💕

hi J!! thanks for the asks 💕

7. what was your favorite thing as a kid?

animal facts! specifically facts about animals that only live in one place in the world, like how lemurs only live in madagascar

9. whats your favorite love language?

probably acts of service. also words of affirmation but i'm dog shit at accepting compliments

33. whats your favorite current class?

cheating and saying organic chem even though i don't have it this quarter! i've been reviewing & studying ahead for ochem 2 purely because i can and i enjoy it even though i'm not continuing the series until winter (i'm a nerd like that!)

37. where do you go to be alone?

my car. i'll just drive around and blast music in my car. if i need to scream i'll get on the freeway and drive a couple exits down. sometimes i'll go to the park and just sit by the water.

send me asks!!

[curbie]

First week of classes! I honestly haven’t come up with a strategy for studying/going over material beforehand, so I’m kinda testing things out to see what works best for me.

Right now, I’m just highlighting things in the books, putting them into flashcards (already so i dont have to worry about that come exam time), and repeat. However, one of my professors took a WHILE to make the textbook public, so I’m kinda behind in that department. But seriously, professors that make a part of the exam stuff they exclusively say during lectures need to be shot-putted to the sun. Right now, I have only three classes I’m doing this strategy for: Abnormal Psychology, Cognitive Processes, and Research Methods.

To be honest, I completely forgot about Research Methods until this weekend. Probably because it’s such a BORING class, I don’t really plan on going into research (despite me being an RA in like two labs) because I hate deciding which tests to use for which study. To me, it’s kinda subjective sometimes.

Also, is it just me, or is taking notes during class such a huge waste of time? I think the best method is sitting there, actually paying attention to the information being said in class so that when I go and review later, I remember which parts are important. It makes skimming through past lectures much easier in my opinion. When i take notes, I am NEVER looking at them again. It makes no sense to, why would I trust myself to pay attention to every single word the professor says while I’m busy writing? If I do take notes, I want them to be neat, and usually it would just be extra annotations to the already-given powerpoint slides. The only ever exception was when i took Gen Chem 2, where there was a big thing of notes we filled out as the lecture went on. It was pretty nice, but only helpful for math-based classes.

I don’t have any cute aesthetic pictures right now, but I’m thinking of some cute spots on campus that have some nice views. Stay tuned.

Song of the day - Boute by Au

[11queensupreme11]

i was really afraid that my testing administrators were assholes 💀 since i read those reddit horror stories where someone had to take the mcat in just a tank top with the AC blasting

AAMC does A LOT to prevent cheating though. we needed to scan our palms so they can use our veins as identifiers. to make sure we’re not imposters. since i have long hair they made me lift and shake it, to make sure i wasn’t hiding anything. AND! i heard they make ppl weigh their glasses each time they exit and enter the room (i didn’t see it at my center, but if you have an asshole TA, that might happen)

but mine were chill and let me cross my legs on the chair :D

i joined a prep course since i went a non traditional route (non-stem major) and i needed a bit of help with chem/phys. my knowledge of the sciences is pretty broad, so if i studied “everything”, it would have been a waste of my time. the courses provided teachers and feedback/ someone to ask questions/ 10(?) practice FL exams

and buying the books is good! since they will provide a lot of the information i received in the classes. youtube videos and khan academy are super helpful as well!!

start studying ahead of time if you can! i know school and work make it hard, but it’s helpful to practice CARS everyday/ content review. do as many FLs as you can too! that helps build your stamina since it’s like 7ish hrs. if you don’t join a prep course, a lot of prep sites will provide 1 free FL exam!

i hope this sort of helped!! there are some really good reddit threads that go into more detail about what test day is like/ how ppl study/ etc

THANK YOU FOR THIS!!!

also, when do people usually start taking the mcat? do they do it on their last semester before they graduate??? two semesters before? a whole year before???

i don't know when i should take mine, but i know that physics(?) and chem are on it, so i wanna wait till AFTER i actually take those classes cuz those are the only subjects i haven't taken so far

[natscbi]

<romanticising the least romantic uni work i have ever done in my life>

09.10.23 - 27/100 dop

lectures

reviewed lectures

…part of a theoretical chem question

duolingo korean review

does duolingo just.. give out 3-day free trials of premium?? i’ve had this twice now what’s going on. i’m not complaining btw

apart from still being somewhat ill it’s going well…

10.10.23 - 28/100 dop

lectures

reviewed lectures

duolingo

more theor. chem questions. lord help me

not exciting :(

11.10.23 - 29/100 dop

lectures and review

these FUKCING tchem questions. i cannot keep spending this much time on like one question for the week i have OTHER sets of questions to do i am screaming crying throwing up at all the work i have to do

one (1) greek lesson on duolingo

had to go shopping

pondered existence

(my time management is perfect what are you talking about)

also my immune system needs to get its act together i am a third year i don’t have time for lingering illness. i want that virus ERADICATED

[crowhyun]

Help pls

Uhm, so...I never thought I’d have to get on here and do this lololol (nervous laughter) but I do need some help, so let me guilt trip yall real quick

im just kidding, im not trying to guilt trip yall okay never ever

but im broke, and I need money. My mom has started to force me to pay rent which is lovely right, and the job that I was SUPPOSED to get kinda just ghosted me? Like wth, see the thing is, Igot accepted for the job, right, and I was supposed to start two days ago but I literally emailed my supervisor so I could postpone my start date. Tell me why they were like “you need to have your fingerprints, background check done, drug test done, DMV records, etc etc by your start date”

THEY SENT ME THAT EMAIL FIVE FUCKING DAYS BEFORE MY START DATE SO YEAH I WANT TO FUCKING POSTPONE IT BCS ITS LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO HAVE ALL OF THAT SHIT DONE BY MY START DATE

so yeah, I emailed them that, I never got an email back, and then today I got an email saying that i’m not employed anymore. Like what type of bullshit that’s so unproffesional, it’s prob good that I’m unemployed lol.

Anyways, yeah, so I also have to pay for textbooks and a $200 lab kit for chem i want to jump off a bridge but it’s okay

Now, I’m not forcing you to give me money, I’m just begging (LMAO), but like at the same time DONT GIVE ME MONEY IF YOU DONT WANT TO AND DONT GIVE ME MONEY OUT OF GUILT BCS ILL FIND YOU AND SPANK YOU

So, yeah, I’m planning on putting my cashapp on here and doing that lil donation thing? AND IN RETURN, i will be on here more often and write and post more bcs i rlly want to...

(also, if you want an astrology or tarot reading, I could do those as well, I do them for ppl a lot I have good reviews, just $5 each...heheh)

[koravelliumavast]

I posted 4,761 times in 2022

That's 4,731 more posts than 2021!

2,053 posts created (43%)

2,708 posts reblogged (57%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@dustbringermoash

@lordofscars

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I tagged 3,814 of my posts in 2022

Only 20% of my posts had no tags

#cosmere - 727 posts

#brandon sanderson - 619 posts

#stormlight archive - 479 posts

#books - 241 posts

#mistborn - 221 posts

#kaladin stormblessed - 186 posts

#adolin kholin - 155 posts

#tlm spoilers - 149 posts

#kelsier - 129 posts

#the lost metal spoilers - 116 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#chem lab practical. this is one of the exams but i’m confident that i may know what i’m doing but i also don’t know what it’s about exactly

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Screw the whitespine uncaged THIS is one of the best parts of words of radiance

See the full post

688 notes - Posted April 29, 2022

#4

When people bash tua because every seasons the same and why is it another apocalypse and blah blah blah just admit you’re boring and don’t like fun and the irony that no matter what they do to fix the timeline and shit, they’re still going to have an apocalyptic world ending event caused by one of them.

747 notes - Posted July 16, 2022

#3

I love that almost instantly after the Percy Jackson book was announced that people were like Percy could just say I saved you like a shit ton of times, you offered me immortality easy but COLLEGE LETTERS is where you draw the line and make me go on a quest?

754 notes - Posted October 19, 2022

#2

Probably The best Stormlight Archives review I’ve seen because it’s complaining about everything that I liked about the series but it’s also hilariously true:

“This book is mind-bogglingly bad. I'm always looking for fantasy books and I knew this was very popular so, after a few years I've decided to try it. I can stomach the childish depiction of characters but I cannot bring myself to accept the utter idiocy of the setting. The opening is painfully bad: an all powerful assassin kills a king and his guard by having superpowers taken straight out of videogames. Then we are introduced with the hero, who, of course, rejects the greatest conceivable honour in the world out of pure spite. He is then spared his life out of sheer plot armour, and the reader is left wondering why he hasn't been killed for constant rebellion. His mates are all killed, but he survives because, oh, he's sooo special. Slaves are paid a living wage so that there is a way for the hero to earn money because it's needed by the story. When the hero screws up, his senior officers are killed immediately but he's instead given a chance to survive, and, not very surprisingly, he does. Then there is a war in the Shattered Plains: for six years the warriors, instead of fighting, go looking for overgrown shrimps to steal the enormous emeralds that grow inside of them. I kid you not, this is the primary purpose of the war: not beating the enemy but killing the shrimps while they're pupating (to turn into what, an enormous blowfly?) before the enemy slays it. The entire strategy works like this: the entire army is sitting idly, wearing fashionable scarves and drinking wine. A horn sounds in the distance announcing that a shrimp has been found. The warriors scramble to arrive first, before the enemy but, more importantly, before the other commanders. The moronicity of the portable bridges defies belief. The idiocy never seem to finish: soldiers with organic armour, illiterate kings with learned wives, even the regular storms that make magic. The hero, of course, discover magic that has been hidden in plain sight for countless years. In a specific kingdom, people live with feet constantly in two inches of water. In another, people eat horns and shells. For some reason, on a different planet, people know of Japanese katas. I could go on for hours: avoid this book.”

875 notes - Posted May 23, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

You know what isn’t talked about enough? The fact that Adolin is terrifying. Because in fanfics Adolin isn’t super scary but Adolin made his enemies summon fearspren when he was outnumbered 4-1. In Sadeas’ pov after the duel it says that Adolin TERRIFIED Sadeas.

976 notes - Posted October 1, 2022

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[lasttree-garsennon]

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#uh no you can't you can get one for a bike that doesn't have gears but not for a car unless they recently changed the rules

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Orange

I want to get to know you too

26 notes - Posted November 20, 2022

#4

@mujhe-rone-do what THE FUCK are you doing up

29 notes - Posted December 3, 2022

#3

okay so like

first tehre was a lot of confusion abt which subjects we had

then somehow out of three two subjects students already got fixed and locked

so when the third subject teacher asked who wanted to do this one day before the festive vacation i raised my hand

and she picked everyone except for me and one other girl

she picked the girl sitting DIRECTLY NEXT TO ME and not me

nd im very good at SST btw i love social science and i get good grades in that out of 20 i got 19.5 last time so im validated too

and

i was like what no i am gonna do this

so i approached her and said "hi helo i wanna do this" and shes like "we have like 7 ppl already..." but i insisted so shes like "okay ill keep you as an extra" and drew a line under my name and put my name along with the other girl whom she had not picked lets call her s

so

then

she forgot (??) to put me in the gc in which they were discussing it

but she put s

lmao

and it was the vacaction and i dont have my own phone nor the teachers contact info

so i just. didnt know till after the holidays upon which i appraoched her and asked why i wasnt there and shes like oH oOPs or whatever and tells me i can help out if they need anything

so i went there but the kids just basically made me gvethem my statinary and then treated it like trash

and then disrespected me (whole diff incident) upon which i got mad and called a kid who had been dismissing me very much a problem and then i felt bad cuz i usually dont do shit like that like i just

dont say mean stuff back

but i did

anyway so

none of the kids, all of whom were in my class, reminded her i was supposed to be there too

idk if they forgot or what but s was literally next to me she knew she approached the teacher at the same time as me

so like. wow. after all my effort, after almost dying with the sleep deprivation and work load im just. forgettable. lmao

Do no harm but take no shit it's good you said some mean stuff to them and your teachers an idiot

Also you're not forgettable not to me

31 notes - Posted November 12, 2022

#2

ahhghgdhgaha i very tired today but i lots of tasks to finish

ill just tell you what i have to do and then update you with how many i finished if thats okay; if it's not just ignore this ask

finish textbook russian revolution

friend 1's early christmas present readied

friend 2's ''

finish cover 1 of TMOD

finish chem homework

english entrepreneur assignment

of this i have done eactly one aka chem homework i got other tasks done which i didnt write down tho

It's okay if you only manage to finish Chen homework today I'm proud of you

63 notes - Posted November 24, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

HELO HELO how does one flirt with a cis boy

in theory i know how and usually i can but i have exactly 1.5 weeks to make this work and i need it to go well and hes a hyperactive adhd as FUCK bitch like me so we bOTH KEEP GETTING DISTRACTED AND LOW KEY AWKWAR CUZ WE DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO

HELP PLEASE HSKHDKS

Sorry kid you came to the wrong place

I know exactly nothing about flirting

Let alone het flirting

129 notes - Posted December 3, 2022

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[mportal]

I uh…accidentally went wild on this one 😅 Having worked in the field, I can say most of this would never happen (but unfortunately not the costs info, depending on the drug), but it was fun to write anyway

Once upon a time, you wanted to be a research scientist. Not a doctor, as your parents had hoped (a brief stint as a junior EMT had helped you with that decision), but something medical where you might be able to help somebody. You were only two years in when everything fell apart. Cancer took your father early, and stress made a shell out of your mother, finally taking her a year later. Student loans kept you in school, but they weren’t a joke, and suddenly all that mattered was graduating on time with a workable degree that would get you a salary immediately. Failing Orgo 1 a second time made it all the more urgent.

The communications school was always accepting students from other majors. They even accepted all your current class credits.

It was an easy call.

Several years later found you languishing at a desk job. With your (limited) chem background and handful of summer internships, the pharmaceutical advertising agencies had snapped you right up. It was interesting work, and it paid the bills, but there were only so many ways to market oncology drugs without getting demoralized.

Coffee in the morning and wine in the evening helped. And the bonus you got every January for growing the agency’s contract with your client certainly never hurt.

You were in the middle of trying to grow that business right now, in fact.

“How long until we get the first shots back for review?” your client asked.

You bit back the urge to snap that you were literally still at the photoshoot, weren’t you? and gave them a well-rehearsed sympathetic look instead. “I know there’s a lot of pressure for the new campaign, and we’ll get you the initial shot list as quickly as we can. I can’t know for sure until the creative team takes a look, but probably Wednesday.”

“Wednesday!” Your client took a breath and ran a nervous hand through their hair. “Wednesday. Okay.” They took another breath. You could see how hard they were trying to control themselves. Seemed like the feedback your boss gave on their temper during last month’s review was having an effect. You wondered how long that effect would last. “Okay. But if you have a working shot list earlier than that and want to send it my way, just between the two of us, I’d be happy to give early input.”

You smiled easily and unfeelingly. “Of course. If I get a working list,” which you would, “then I’ll pass it over,” which you wouldn’t. Well, maybe a few photos that you knew would be favorites. But the timeline was already crunched and the creatives didn’t need to worry about an extra round of feedback to incorporate.

You looked at the executive team posing in front of the company logo and bitterly wondered what they were expected to turn around by Wednesday.

“You’re still planning to take some shots in the lab, right?” your client probed, cutting in on the thought.

“I saw you approved the budget. Did you also get the permissions?” You looked at your client when they didn’t answer right away. They were on their phone, probably checking to see if the lab manager had responded. Seemed a bit late to be doing that, but they controlled the money so you didn’t comment.

Your client looked up at the ceiling and sighed. No permissions, then. Cool.

“Look, forget about the permissions,” they eventually said. “The revenue tied to our campaign last year made this year’s research budget, so I’m giving you my permission.” You were pretty sure it didn’t work that way but, well…small pharma companies worked fast and loose compared to more established ones, and it would be on your client if anything went wrong. Plus, you really didn’t want to sacrifice this year’s bonus.

“Can you send that to me in writing?”

Your client was tap-tapping away on their phone even as you spoke. Yours buzzed in your back pocket. New email.

“Done,” your client said.

They led you up three flights of stairs to a glass cube containing more glass cubes all sitting in the middle of an empty floor. It was very futuristic looking, like a lab built expressly to impress investors and management.

The photographer ate it up, and you had to admit the first shots through the outer walls were already looking promising. And the next set of shots from inside the lab were even better. So what if you had to wear some protective suit that wrinkled your new blazer all while suffering frustrated side glances from the bothered scientists? You’d be out of there soon enough.

“How about a shot of the new manufacturing array?” your client asked, pointing through a locked door. “It’s in the inner room.”

You tried to peer into the room but strange disks embedded in the semi-transparent walls obstructed your view. Even so, you could make out the vague silhouettes of researchers bent over their tables and the slow moving mechanical arms they controlled, but could see nothing of what they were manipulating. “Can we really go in there?”

“Absolutely. The new corporate campaign needs to be striking. Completely different. We need shots of the array.”

You shrugged. “Sounds good.”

But it wasn’t good. You had been in the industry long enough to know that, though it was easy to ignore when the reward was high. And when your client was so practiced at making the alternative unpleasant. Purposely forgetting everything outside driving results for analytics reports and budget meetings had become second nature. It was survival. But reality didn’t forget. Diseases didn’t grow content. Nature, true nature, didn’t discriminate. A body was a body was a body.

The mistake was a simple one. A hand on the wrong surface at the wrong time, a delayed reaction, a broken vial. Easily understood, and unforgiving all the same.

You woke up in the hospital. First, the nurses and doctors came to talk to you. Then some executives came. Then the lawyers.

Your photographer was dead. Your client was dead. The scientists who had been working the inner room were all dead.

But you? You were healthier than you ever had been. Supposedly because of your smaller frame or something to do with genetics—or was it a combination of the two? They weren’t sure—the concentration of the aerosolized therapy was sufficient to overpower your body’s immediate immune response.

Your earring holes had healed. You had grown back your appendix. The scars on your knees from years of soccer were gone.

They wanted you to sign a contract and promised to keep the police out of it. After all, the deaths had already been ruled accidental and the company executives had been advised on a settlement cost, so no one had to be blamed. It could be written off as an unfortunate tragedy and nice company tax break... provided you cooperated. And there would be benefits if you did, of course.

You had a bachelors degree, a used Honda civic, a rented 2nd story one-bedroom, and a handful of plants. You had no close family left, no kids. No pets since Marshmallow, and that was back in high school. Your boss would wonder what exactly had happened, but that was easily handled. And maybe the guy you had been seeing would, too, though the way you left it after last week’s disaster of a date, maybe he wouldn’t.

There was no one to fight for you. And, honestly, not much to fight for.

It was an easy call.

Cooperation turned out to mean moving into a very nice apartment in their on-site facility, maxing out your disability time, and then quitting your job, all under the advice of the company lawyers. You went in for weekly blood tests and tissue samples, and took whatever pills they handed you, but you received a nice monthly stipend and endless amenities. It was all worth it, according to the executives. A very neat and mutually beneficial contract, as stated by the lawyers.

During your weekly exams, you tried to be unaffected by the looks the treatment team shot at you. They hadn’t worked closely with any of the researchers that died, but they still seemed to have opinions about it. In your free time, you worked hard to ignore what felt like constant buzzing under your skin and slept fitfully in an unfamiliar bed with overly starched sheets. You didn’t have to worry about accidentally cutting yourself with kitchen knives or careless burns from the curling iron anymore, but you cooked less and less and never dressed up. There didn’t seem to be any point.

Within a few months, their research had been launched forward by a decade. Before you had even adjusted to your new reality (unending guilt and isolation, no longer needing to wear contacts) they were already moving the therapy into clinical trials.

The first time you met one of the patients, a trial participant, willing and desperate and considering themselves so lucky, you felt like maybe there was a point after all.

She wasn’t much older than you, but she had a family and she wanted to live. And when she learned about your role in the study, she hugged you and thanked you profusely. Her gratitude felt unearned. And it didn’t seem right that you would live, and she wouldn’t, unless she received the treatment (“Your treatment,” she had called it). If she received it. And if it took, rewiring her immune cells and fibroblasts and everything else just like the researchers (who were left) thought it would. And it did take, for the participants who ended up in the right trial arm. It took quickly, too, within days.

But not for that young mother, apparently. Two weeks later, she was still coming in for tests. And she didn’t improve. And, eventually, she was admitted.

You spent more time together after that. As you got to know each other, you worked up the courage to ask if she had been in the control arm. She gave you a weak smile.

“Nope. I was one of the lucky ones. Just not lucky enough. I’m too far along for the treatment to work, they think. If it were years down the line, after a few more trials, when they get the concentration right, closer to how it is in your body…then maybe it would work for someone like me. But who has that kind of time?” She laughed. You didn’t.

“It’s ok,” she said, comforting you and wasn’t that strange. “Really. Maybe just by being in the study, I’ll have helped them make a better treatment. Maybe in a few years, it really will work for someone like me, because of me. That’s not so bad.”

But it felt hollow. It felt like somewhere someone had messed up, switched your fates. If only you could have given her your healing ability. If only they could match the concentration of the treatment to what was in your own body. The thought gnawed at you.

It wasn’t an easy call. It felt right, though. Or, you thought it did, at the time.

It had been years since your EMT days, but you started to pay attention during your usual blood draws. You asked more questions. You watched when they swapped out your friend’s empty blood bags, trying to fight the ongoing bleeds as her body slowly shut down.

You waited until you felt something close to confident, and slipped in at midnight. Nursing staff was minimal. The physicians were on home call, disturbed only in emergencies. You had your own pass. You were there all the time, after all. You were under contract.

Your friend’s room was dark but she knew it was you immediately. “I can’t,” she said, when you made the offer. “Okay, I can,” she relented, when you reminded her that her daughter’s graduation was coming up.

The needles slid in with almost no resistance. Within minutes, it was all set up. Your blood came flooding out, and her body eagerly accepted it. It was fine. It was right, you told yourself. And not a bad way to go, if that’s what it came to.

You woke up in the hospital. First, the nurses and doctors came to talk to you. Then some executives. Then the lawyers.

She was dead. You weren’t. After almost bleeding out, your body repaired the needle hole and replenished itself. Your friend’s body went wild in its immune response, something the doctors called a cytokine storm. Your healing factor hadn’t been enough, not at the concentration they found in her body, not at your relative sizes.

The idea had some merit, but she was going to die anyway, your usual doctor whispered to you as you sobbed into a scratchy hospital pillow. But it had been recklessly done. Unthinking, unstudied. He looked at you hard as your breath came out ragged. Maybe if she had been smaller…he trailed off, finished checking your vitals, and left. When you finally gathered the strength to sit up, you saw he had left a jello cup on your bedside table. It was red. You liked red.

When the lawyers came back the next morning it was with the executives. That was new. It turned out to also be bad. Someone had talked to the media and you were going to be transferred into government care. What did that mean? No one knew, but it was all over the news. The truth about the freak accident at the lab, the freak lady who wouldn’t die, the company executives’ freakish decision to conceal deaths and progress and money.

Your doctor came by again later to check on you. He left another jello cup.

They’re sending you to the military. Get out, read a piece of paper folded beneath it.

Midnight, and the hospital was a skeleton crew. You didn’t have a pass anymore but it didn’t matter. You opened your room window. Below you was the back alley between the old main building you were in and the newer outpatient center. It was dark in the space between, secluded, with only a dumpster. You were pretty sure you could line yourself up right.

Even if you couldn’t, it was still an easy call.

You jumped.

You are a supervillain with healing powers. The only reason you are labelled a supervillain because the American healthcare system is intimidated by you.

[ardbar]

yall can ignore this i just need to actually contextualize all of the work i have to do. By that I mean I'm going to speak to myself like an idiot with no time management skills getting a lecture form a parent.

Okay so you have math homework due on wednesday and friday but they're probably only like 3 questions and its just hypothesis testing and you're great at that statistics is easy. You should probably do both of those tomorrow between comparative politics and English. Wait bro don't forget the math quiz next Wednesday

You also have a decent amount of philosophy work to do. For instance a reading and homework on Thursday. While not necessarily due this week you should also do the homework that is due next Tuesday and thursday to get a head start. You also have the philosophy project but you are going to do it throughout next week because that's how its built. Dont you dare wait until friday to finish it we don't have the time for that shit.

There is also Poli sci shit you have to do. While there is no reading due next week there is a project. While it's technically due decemember first we both know you aren't going to actually get any work done over thanksgiving break and I'm not letting us spend the little time we get to see our family and friends researching the history of china and vietnam we aren't doing that shit. Also its a group project and you don't want to seem lazy now do you? Great so you'll get the project done by next friday.

Now we come to the real bitch of it all. We have a paper due next friday and you haven't even started. I don't care how quickly you can write an essay or how much bullshit you can do to bend any number of souces to fit your point we are going to actually spread out the work load. WE have managed to get a perfect score on literally every assignment so far you aren't going to ruin that by being lazy and not wanting to work. You went on a heated rant on one of the assignments complaining about how peer review is shit, remember that? The prossfor commented back that you might just be a better writer that most of the kids in the class. Do you want to prove him wrong? Do you want to seem like all of your prior performances were just flukes? If you fail this know what else do you have?

Every single one of your motivations and goals have been someone elses. You have no dreams or big overarching goals that you picked yourself. But for once in your god forsaken life you took initiative and decided something for yourself. You moved across the country because you wanted something new, right? What will people think if you can't deliver good results? What will you think about yourself? You don't want to be someone who's all talk, someone who failed when they tried to spread their wings.

Look I get it having so much to do in this short of time feels like a lot and is overwhelming I'm literally you I don't want to do any of it either. But we have to. Not only is education a privilege and should be treated as such there are people with a lot harder majors then us who have to do way more work. You don't want to be a fucking chem major do you? Yeah i didn't think so. We should be happy that we have to do essays and research projects instead of stupid labs. Remember struggling with those bio tests? Remember the 70 on the chem final? That could literally be our life if we went into stem be happy that we are a liberal arts kid.

The best I can offer you is we do no more work today and get started on all of it tomorrow. IF and only if we promise to actually use our time effectively, no wasting time on tiktok. I know our ADHD makes it difficult to work but imagine how nice it will be when all of the work is over. We'll have so much time to waste by doom scrolling on tiktok.

P.S

also bro don't forget to submit the request to add the second major. I know it sounds like it will be a lot of work but it will be really cool and pretentious to say you are a political science and philosophy major. Doesn't that sound like fun? You love being a little shit who thinks they are worth a damn purely because you are decent in school, that's like your whole gimmick that and being a bitch. Also your profsor literally told you he would be your advisour if you need one, that was so nice of him. You don't want to ignore his good will now do you? Yeahhhh so get your shit together