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bi-functional · 2 years ago

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“At least I didn’t loose my golden fiddle to some Hillybilly in Georgia”

I heard this audio and immediately thought of @tswwwit ‘s familiar au. This just Feels like the kinda shit Dipper would find out and use as ammo in their argument’s and I mean come on. Golden Fiddle? We already know Bill’s musically inclined! Who’s else would it be?

#this was literally like done in a day #i wanted to try smthn new too #i dont usually use lineart but i did in these so #idk how i feel about it #i also didnt use any references #at all #so #def not my maximum effort #but i wanted to get it down and out and it looks alright #bi.f.art #bill cipher #gravity falls #human bill cipher #billdip #dipper pines #gravity falls au #tswwwit’s familiar au

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newgroundstier · 9 months ago

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peace and love on spaceship lost light :)

#nautica #ravage #transformers #maccadam #nautica my love u r so hard 2 draw </3 #ravage was also hard 2 draw but in his defence i did not look at any reference until like halfway thru drawing him #''yeah i know his general shape. alright maybe i dont'' asfjkdfsdk #n i didnt wanna redraw him so i just messed w/ what i done already teehee #also ravage just uses a regular metal bowl 4 drinkin in da comic but i figured glass ones would exist. .............#idk how well it comes across but i liked the idea so !!!!!!!!!!! i did it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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inkskinned · 1 year ago

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you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.''#bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less.#and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help.#we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

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lotus-pear · 1 year ago

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rewatched bsd w my friend seeing it for the first time and the nostalgia of seeing these two together again hit me like a bus

#literally mom and dad of the agency #dazai and kunikida protect yokohama but more importantly they also protect atsushi #funny story but we were watching in sub and the translations were wack bc when i watched dazai refers to kunikida as his colleague #but in the version we were watching he just called him partner w/o any context it was so fucking funny😭#bro rly just pointed to a random man across the river and was like “oh that's my partner btw!! we can use his money to treat you to dinner!#my bestie made me pause the show and was like “????partner. are they married??? either way it's cute that there's mlm rep in this anime🥺”#i was genuinely holding back tears #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #kunikida doppo #doppo kunikida #kunikidazai #knkdz #lotus draws #SRY FOR THE UNGODLY HR IM POSTING AT I DIDNT WANT TO LOSE THE MOTIVATION I SUDDENLY GOT AFTER WATCHING THE FIRST FEW EPS #IVE WANTED TO DRAW THESE TWO FOR SO LONG IDK WHAT TOOK ME SO LONG😭😭😭😭

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kandigored · 7 months ago

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the mirror pool

so ive been thinking about this au ive wanted to make inspired by the incredible pogd au by @beluvbug for a while !!

this is a very self indulgent au based on pinkie dealing with the conflict of wanting to be taken seriously while also playing themselves down constantly as a way to please others, especially when it come to their identity as nonbinary and their disabilities

i was going to make the first post about this au a little comic but ironically the disabilities have made that a bit hard and i wanted to post something for it

#i cant settle on a name for the au though ive thought of “the super duper pony pleaser” au or “the joker card” au but nothing is sticking #idk but i love this and i loved making it #also yes pinkie too is doggy. dogboys forever #OH also pinkie uses any pronouns except for she/her in this au but has a strong preference for they/them #it refers to themself as “she” in this because their referring to this made up version of themself that didnt have to deal with-#the hardships of being nonbinary and disabled even though they know deep down that its pointless to imagine and im using a distorted-#version of the canon pinkie pie to represent his twisted perception of itself #my little pony #my little pony friendship is magic #mlp #mlp fim #pinkie pie #my stuff 🌠#my art 🎲#img 🎨#me 🐶#g4 #pinkie #oh yeah and its my birthday today 🎉#i also forgot to mention i drew this on jspaint on my phone 👍#so sorry if it looks a lil messy #sdpp au

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pup-pee · 2 months ago

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lalalalaa

#still not 100% on my redstoner design but its an improvement!!!#i think he runs his hands on his tail getting rid of it #when hes not.....licking off his fingers #i think the redstone smeared around also hides his red sun burnmark better so its less off putting 2 his friends #ANWYAYSSSSSS I LOVE U INSANE SQUIRREL MAN <33333 #also team mullet plush used as a referance bc i didnt know what 2 do lmao #also i wanted a referance & like....this is as good as any ok? ok #idk how i would draw his bowtie skin tbh #uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #i would like 2 thank jay from nin jaaaa go 4 forcing me 2 draw goggles a lot #ok im done rambling byeeeee #redstoner #yourpalross #but not rlly i just....tags yk?#anwyayssssssss #mcyt #puppee art

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dustykneed · 9 months ago

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old wounds (+bonus mcspirk fix it<33 i'm not that evil ok)

two wrongs don't make a right. you know this. but you could never have lived with yourself otherwise, so you did it anyway.

at least he's still alive.

(your hands are bloody, dripping with it. some doctor you are. you don't remember if the blood running down your arm is yours or someone else's. he hasn't looked you in the eye since.)

you just wish you could make yourself believe it was worth it.