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Lily - A flower meaning purity, life, transience, and remembrance.
Azalea - A flower meaning passion, temperance and elegance.
Rose - A flower meaning humility, admiration, enthusiasm and enchantment.
Sunflower - A flower meaning adoration, loyalty and sincerity.
Gardenia - A flower meaning trust, gentleness, clarity and hope.
Snapdragon - A flower meaning deception, mystery, protection and graciousness.
Dahlia - A flower meaning elegance, creativity, inner strength and positivity.
Strelitzia - A flower meaning paradise, freedom and a sense of exploration.
Tulip - A flower meaning happiness, joy and true unconditional love.
Triteleia - A flower meaning innocence, purity and the perfection of threes.
Gladiolus - A flower meaning remembrance, honor, integrity and persistence.
Linnaeas - A flower meaning duality, fragility and youth.
Hyacinth - A flower meaning innocence, sorrow and sincerity.
Amaryllis - A flower meaning determination, beauty and love.
Lewisia - A flower meaning rebirth, renewal, new beginnings and hope.
Iris - A flower meaning courage, intelligence, faith and admiration.
#the bouquet#I got all the flower meanings#did cherry pick meanings from flowers that have different meanings with different colors#its still the same flower idgaf#I did have this meanings in mind when I chose their flowers#i just realized i could make a more concrete connection between them with just a few words#i like putting characters on the right side don't I lol#i ain't tagging everyone now#thats 17 tags#just bouquet if its everyone#or near everyone
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I just saw some Kokichi hater in the tags bitching about Chapter 4 because of course they are
And they were so mad people ship OuGoku like bro don't come @ me just because you decided to maliciously misinterpret Kokichi and Gonta's plot and relationship
But the funnier part of that post?
They said "At least Byakuya and Nagito never tricked anyone into killing"
First of all: God damn it can you fuckers hate Kokichi without being ableist AF to Gonta I'm so fucking TIRED.
But second of all: NAGITO LITERALLY MANIPULATED TERUTERU INTO KILLING SOMEONE AND ADMITS IT LIKE WTF ARE YOU ON ABOUT??? And Byakuya may have not done that but he sure jerk around everyone in the trial for NO fucking reason in Chapter 2 to try and frame Genocider Syo!!!
Edit: NAGITO ALSO TRICKED CHIAKI INTO KILLING HIM TOO LIKE BRO.
This comparison is just bad!!! And malicious! I'm so tired of this ableist bullshit!!! BEGONE.
#Kokichi Ouma#Nagito Komaeda#byakuya togami#gonta gokuhara#danganronpa v3#danganronpa#drv3#Ableism tw#I'm gonna start tagging most discussions about Kokichi hate as ableism now#Because 90% of the time they include Gonta and we all know how THAT goes#I blocked everyone who liked that post to and noticed an artist I recognized liked it#Upsetting considering how I know them#But like. Yeah no goodbye I ain't tolerating ableism towards Gonta any fucking longer#YEET.
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(agent grayson 2014-2016 issue #1)
i felt like this panel was a good way to show how reading this made me feel.
before i get to what i feel about how it treated midnighter, i just want to say.. i am so sorry to dick grayson and helena bertinelli for being in this comic series. i'm sorry for the spyral plot. i didn't do it but somebody gotta apologize to those two.
as for midnighter? a very long array of me going like 'he would not fucking say that' which i'll explain below. also i didn't miss the chin spike at all and where is my favorite freak's smile when he fights? they made him grumpy.
it feels like some of the dialogue gets close to understanding how he is, but just tacks on pieces he wouldn't actually say. i'll provide an example that ties into another point of why he wouldn't say a particular word for what he said;
original text bubble: "not bad, boy. i can read the electrical activity inside that pretty head. no superpowers. no meatware. but you found me anyway."
how i would've written what midnighter said: "i can read the electrical activity inside your head. no superpowers, no meatware, but you found me anyway. not bad, kid."
see to me, that sounds more like how midnighter talks. he typically prefaces things with statements.
example from the authority (1999-2002) issue #2 with one of his most famous text bubbles: "i know what moves you're preparing to make. i've fought our fight already, in my head, in a million different ways. i can hit you without you even seeing me."
as for calling his head pretty? no. he wouldn't do that. i'll be repeating this as i read this series but he would not flirt or sexualize dick grayson. he never has done that to others before the new 52 from everything i've read up to (i am finishing the worldstorm arc) because it is strictly against his character. he isn't the sort to do that to another man. you want an example of why i say that?
here's a line paraphrased (because fuck ennis and his homophobia) from midnighter (2006-2008) issue #5 that helps support it: "what it means is that i'm only interested in men. one man in particular."
he's talking about apollo. his husband, his sun god, his other half. he's the only man for him and he's an utter sap about it! everytime he sees him he gives him a compliment. he's so in love it makes me so happy to the point i get nauseous in a good way.
so to all the dick grayson fans who've read agent grayson and hate it for dick's sexualization, i just wanted to let y'all know that midnighter wouldn't be doing that to him. in fact, he'd let him know he doesn't deserve it or have to take it for the sake of the job. body talk by kermit_coded on ao3 (ily friend) approaches it exactly how i would've.
so all in all, he wouldn't flirt with dick or sexualize him in any way, and he'd say less of the goofy lines he said in this. not that he can't be goofy, but it's a more.. violent goofy i guess.
so why would midnighter be there following my idea not tying to the garden or anything? well, midnighter hunting down random shit like people put under surgery to become meta bio-weapons still feels up his alley. considering him and apollo did something similar back in their first ever comic appearance in stormwatch vol 2.
where's apollo then? well, he was following up on a lead about other possible meta bio-weapons on his own and then he and m were gonna go out to dinner with jenny q. to celebrate. sadly, the fates (dick grayson) had him get hit with a laser that shot him away team rocket style. now he's gonna miss dinner with his family.
#dc#dc comics#wildstorm#the authority#midnighter#dick grayson#nightwing#agent grayson#buds.txt#hopefully tagging this with agent grayson gets the reach i want.#i love dick grayson's character and i just want people to know midnighter ain't like that. he got treated like shit in this series too.#btw angie heard how it went and got footage of mid flying and after laughing so hard she cried she saved the footage.#of course she left a message asking if he's alright. and now has that footage on the carrier so everyone can watch it.
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thinking about whether or not FL sheds his fluff
imagine its summer and after a long day of dealing with whatever crap goes down in their workplace while having to deal with the ridiculously high temperatures, reader just wants to cuddle with their beastly lover (who just so happens to be covered in 90% metal and would definitely feel cool to the touch) but as soon as they step into their house, they realise something. There is purple fluff on almost every surface of the house and not a few seconds later did the culprit come sprinting towards the reader, bringing them into a hug, delighted to see them after a long day. Reader reaches to pet FL’s fluff only to watch it fall out with the single light touch. At first they immediately retract their hand afraid that FL has contracted some sort of illness that causes hair (fluff?) loss. FL looks at reader questioningly, wondering why they aren’t giving him his usual pets. Reader tells FL to put them down and as soon as their feet touch the ground, they are booking it out of the house and back into the city to look for Zhongli. After finding the man, they explain the situation and Zhongli laughs, telling them that FL is simply shedding his fur to cope with the hotter weather recently. With this the reader lets out as sigh of relief and heads back hime just to find FL pouting, thinking that reader had abandoned him. Reader then apologises to him and exxplains what happened and the situation is then cleared up.
(Imagine reader collecting the fur and using it for some art project)
-Sleepy anon
sleepy anon, i LOVE the way your mind works
Foul Legacy immediately starts purring and nudging himself against you, getting soft purple fuzz all over your clothes- can you scritch him, please? it's scratchy! he shakes his head slightly and even more tufts of it fall out and drift onto the floor, and you just let out a single long sigh, opening the closet to fetch your broom. the next one to two hours are spent gathering every single bit of fluff that you can find, sweeping it off the floor and tables and random corners of your house- how it got on top of the bookcase of all things, you'll never know- and finally sitting Legacy down and giving his fur and hair a thorough brushing for good measure, clouds of lilac fur clinging to the comb and a very happy purring Abyss creature tilting his head this way and that so you get all the right areas. it takes until nightfall, and you're exhausted afterwards, but finally your house is clean and Legacy has shed all that excess fur, the ruff around his shoulders looking smaller but more manageable and Legacy looking very comfy and pleased with himself
so now you're left with a large bag of shed Abyss monster fur- what do you do with it?
well, the obvious answer is to make it into yarn and knit. not that you really need anything knitted right now, given the temperature and all, but it'll be nice once winter comes around again. you have enough Foul Legacy fluff to knit a few scarves, so the first one you make goes to none other than Legacy himself, who quickly wraps it around his neck with a delighted trill, cooing at the familiar texture and scent. he insists that you make a matching one for yourself- that way everyone knows that you're his and he's yours! the last one goes to Zhongli, who smiles warmly as he picks it up and asks what the material is. without missing a beat you just point at Legacy's fur, and have to bite your tongue to keep from wheezing when Zhongli snorts a laugh into his teacup
#genshin impact#childe#tartaglia#foul legacy#foul legacy childe#genshin tartagalia#genshin childe#genshin tartaglia#SORRY EVERYONE I PASSED OUT YESTERDAY I PROMISE I AM ALIVE#legacy asks you to help him every year from now on#you always know the best places to scritch and the best ways to brush out the excess fluff#don't worry anon i did get your request aaaaaaaa#i just spent too long staring at it because i liked it so much#anyways my feet hurt so much grahh#short scenario#other's stuff#sleepy anon#chit chat#i ain't gonna tag this good evening because i don't even know what time it is where i normally am#anyways tomorrow i search for candy for my friends#and it is fukcing WIMDY right now
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having thoughts about how Husk actually has very little left to redeem bc he started his journey of self-change before even coming to work at the hotel, but at the same time redemption isn't even his goal- he ain't even aiming for heaven, he just wanted to be a better person and maybe now with friends and especially Angel, who he supports so much and wants to see succeed, maybe now he has a reason to be a better person
#hazbin hotel#husk#warning I am about to ramble in these tags O7 I have a ridiculous amount of thoughts about this cat bird man#thinking about that word of god from vivzie that Husk is actively fighting his gambling addiction in hell#which besides the pilot we've only seen his gambling mentioned in the past#and idk if it's just because they had to focus on other things but we don't see him drinking as heavily as he did in the pilot#and first few episodes. like he actually wants to be sober#we know he used to be an overlord and we assume that comes with all the terrible overlord qualities#(aka there's no such thing as a good slave owner)#but the Husk we know now has been on both sides of this chain#he knows and respects boundaries. consent is super important to him. this feels like a moral you can't really have to be an overlord#he also sees everyone as more than just what they can do for him specifically. he gets NOTHING out of being Angel's friend#he gets NOTHING out of defending Angel and Cherri during the fight with the Exorcists#he knows when to open up and who to open up to and trust. and he extends a hand to someone in need. someone he ain't even close to-#and if it hasn't changed he is trying to beat his own vices despite not even being a guest of the hotel. he's staff. he doesn't HAVE to#participate in their activities or try to change. he was dragged into this#but dammit he does it anyway#(also if he is still trying to beat his gambling addiction I wonder if the pilot was a relapse. hm)#anyway ig what im trying to say is husk isn't a guest at the hotel but plays the role of a guide for the guests bc he's already#got a very strong and *GOOD* set of morals considering they're in hell#like his level of morals we've only seen /explicitly/ shown in hellborn. and yeah consent and boundaries is rock bottom even for Earth#but they're in hell so somehow the bar manages to be even fucking lower than that so I consider it a win#ALSO THE FACT THAT HE STOOD BETWEEN ANGEL & CHERRI AND THE EXORCISTS??? this mf is willing to DIE for these people#I am 100% sure that if Husk's soul didn't belong to Alastor he would already be redeemed#we don't know what he did in life and we don't know how bad he was as an overlord but we know who husk is /now/#and that person is a pretty damn good guy#he might have some work to do sure but he's already at least started his redemption before the show even began and#we're just seeing the tail end of it#god damn I really rambled in these tags i am so sorry#I just have so many thoughts about him
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the problem is i simply do not want to discuss gale in this shot but he's In It so any post i make about it is going to get derailed because that's what happens when he's in a shot, any shot, but here goes anyway:
curt and bucky just having their own lil nonverbal conversation about how hard curt's gonna kick bryan's ass. because they live in each other's pockets as much as the bucks do and they have their own little nonverbal language, and because it's gonna be curt doing the fighting. bucky knows it. curt knows it. jack knows it.
#me: living my best curtbucky life! ✌️#everyone else: gale is there too#me: THIS! AIN'T! ABOUT! HIM!!!#i WILL get over it i WILL get back into ot3 mode eventually i'm just sour for now#will tag with the ship tag later i guess#masters of the air#curtbucky#buck(y) sandwich
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me n my manager are gonna be alone at the office tomorrow after hours and she stunlocked me saying she's getting us dinner and to start thinking about what i want to eat with a lil ;) like ma'am... I'll answer the question but god can i be so fucking real with you right now 😩😵💫 i won't but i want her.. i haven't gotten to be with her in so long I'm kind of nervous (。ノω\。)
i know i won't need to be she is such a sweetie ♡ talking to her is like immediately being enveloped in warmth. ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ i am experiencing a whirlwind of emotions and really looking forward to tomorrow. I'm so happy she's back, i love her
#a coworker being a good friend of mine is complicated bc I'm SO different w my friends outside of work n am rly sweet to/w them#and it is very sweet between us and one of the last things we said irl was that we love each other for the first time (。ノω\。)#and idk yk like the sweetness n closeness n affection to a degree are already there BUT I SHOULDN'T#messy gay workplace antics.. her husband ain't shit though so idk 🤷🏾♀️ she takes care of everyone but has to look out for#herself at the end of the day?? especially rn?? well iiii will look out for her and after her and take care of her 😤😤#(´ . .̫ . `) but god to what extent. whatever feels right i suppose but girl... 🙈💕 i don't knowww#I'm going to continue this back and forth in my head now 🫡 but manager posting has Returned#my moon my stars 😩😩😩 YEARNING!! languishing... 🛌🏾 sick with want.#i would do anything for her#mm#← new manager posting tag
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it's a good thing rhinedottir used alchemy to create her children or there would be a fuck ton of child support to collect from whoever the second parent was
rhinedottir idk if it's necessary to have that many childen.
#textpost#i0m tagging all of them now#albedo#rubedo#everyone else i ain't tagging all that shit#rhinedottir#gold
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I have nothing to say to defend myself.
Just take it.
#self shipping#the thematic whiplash. the just some guy energy below vs the absolute menacing aura above. the cringe on my face.#this picture sure has everything uh jcbdfjdhc *head in hands sobbing*#back at it again with meme redraws because it's the only thing i can draw lately#better than nothing! but still...#also shout out to will ferrel for having one of the hardest faces to draw. my god.#he's the only one i got a reference for. everyone else got drawn from memory and it showssss fbjfbfjfj#buddy the elf#yeah no i ain't tagging him as a f/o. despite the uhh... well.. *vaguely gestures at the obvious red flags*#f/o: king Cornelius (the Horned King)#f/o: Ricardo#f/o: Sturm#avid-art#now if y'all excuse me I'm throwing myself in a bottomless pit. bye 🕳️🏃
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I WISH I WASN'T AUTISTIC
#//v#tag: m#or in the very fucking least i wish i didn't have Generalized Anxiety Disorder#because i know i gotta habe the Conversation with my friend about how i Pissed Them Off#and i have been Nervously Anticipating It since Yesterday#and my Original Interaction was purely Accidental and I could have just Apologized and left it at that#but my FUCKING SYSTEM#because everyone here is too fucking Autistic to handle Conflict Resolution without Digging Their Own Grave#and yeah sure its not fair of me to blame the people in my brain whose roles it is to Manage Shit#but we sure as fuck ain't managing Shit right now
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Henrow blorbo
first off, ohmyfuckinggodyouaresocoolllllllllllllllll
secondly, what ya workin' on currently? <- is deathly interested, yes please please please info dump if you have the spoons
- Ryan
Bonjour my furry friend. At the moment i'm mostly working on getting a job so that i can afford rent, but when i'm not doing that, i'm working on designing some new N-substituted 5MeO-tryptamines (in order to avoid being banned for breaking tumblr TOS, i can't say exactly what for, but if you look up 5MeO-tryptamines, you should see). So far i've only managed to make things that make me super sleepy (and maybe a tiny bit inebriated), so presumably my body is mainly metabolizing them into melatonin. I also have been working on working through the details of making a rocket engine which relies on both muon catalyzed fusion and z-pinch fusion (mostly because even though i know it's way above what i'm probably capable of, i just love space so much i desperately need to see it for myself and i figure that since rockets are so absurdly expensive, the only way i'll end up in space is if we can get a whole new generation of ultra-efficient rockets (for example, given p-N14 fusion, if we manage to get 1% or more (i don't really expect more than 0.1% max, but still) of the hydrogen fusing with nitrogen, we'd be able to put 150 tons on the moon from earth with only using about enough fuel to fill a small car (instead of needing a skyscraper sized rocket to send maybe 30 tons)). Now, if it were as easy as my calculations show it to be, i can't imagine how there are any rockets flown that aren't fusion, but seeing as i haven't even made a working proof of concept yet, i'm not in a position to criticize the thousands of aerospace engineers who are working on conventional chemical rockets. I love fusion because it's simultaneously so easy (i live pretty close to an old uranium mine where i can actually pan some uranium out of the creek near me, then use that uranium to make a neutron source (B10(α,n)) which is really just fusion between helium and boron, happening at room temperature because of how high energy the α particles released by uranium are) and so absurdly difficult (without catalysts like muons, it requires absurdly high temperatures and pressures that almost always take more energy put in than they can give out). Anyway, i've also been sorta working on studying a material that a while back i got way too excited over and may have called a room temperature superconductor (almost certainly not the case), but in an attempt to make it more pure and study it for real i've been trying to work on the exact calculations of its composition and finding a better way to heat it up to high temperatures (i might just put it in a flat-bottomed flask, especially since it finally warmed up enough for me to go back outside where the fumes released by its production won't make folks mad).
And then there's the biological experiments, currently with electroceutical tissue modifications since most of the other projects i have planned require me to have a gene printer capable of reliably printing genes thousands of base pairs long and i'm not sure when i'll be able to build that. The most recent thing i've been working on is really exciting because if it works it means that i've successfully done something that has never been done before to a human body (and given the long lasting pain in that part of my thigh, it seems very possible it is working), but i'm hesitant about sharing what the project is because i don't really want folks putting gap junction blockers, calcium channel blockers, and sodium channel blockers into open wounds without knowing how to do it safely and correctly to get the desired results and not just a really messed up wound. If/when this experiment turns out well, i might give directions in private, but i'm still somewhat hesitant due to the risks inherent in this (the biggest and most likely is literally giving yourself a form of cancer, something i'm not eager for others to risk). Soon i might try chemical dedifferentiation of skin cells (thinking on my back or upper arms) followed by some mildly dangerous experiments to test how reliably i can make it turn into other cell types. And while i haven't made good work on it in a while, i've also been trying to make something similar to shimmer from arcane (ideally not addictive or harmful to the user, but most importantly the quick energy burst, decreased pain, and increased regenerative abilities (obviously it won't be anywhere near as dramatic as in the show, so calling it shimmer may not really make sense, but it is where i got the inspiration)).
Then i suppose there's the battery project i was talking about in my last post, and i'm also trying to learn how to make alcohol under my desk (i mean, it's super easy, it just doesn't taste great). There might be a few more things i'm working on but rn i'm super eepy and have talked about a lot already. If this seems like i'm doing a lot or impressive, also note that i'm actively failing out of college (for my own pride: the material is super easy and mostly i already know it, i just can't stand wasting so much of my time doing homework that doesn't help anyone or anything) and not yet working a job, so i have a lot of time and so much free brainspace to think about and do all this. I also work very slowly on each thing because i keep bouncing back and forth between all of them and almost always end up adding new projects before i've finished the old ones and so i almost never see a project all the way through to completion (at least some of the bio projects are just sitting in my body and i am just waiting to see how they turn out in the next 2-3 months, so those necessarily will see completion, even if it's failure). I really hope i see the fusion rocket to completion because if i don't think i'll ever be able to see the earth from afar or the moon from up close.
#idk#answer to your ask#i hope this is mostly complete#also wow this is long#that's what she said#i'm kinda surprised how many projects i have#i don't often count them#but yeah here they are#i promise i'm not trying to use this for evil#also college kinda sucks because everyone assumes you know nothing and are incapable of learning#not saying you shouldn't go but just that in my experience it ain't worth it#you can learn so much more from the internet and free courses offered online (oer and mit opencourseware are good starting places)#also now that i've shared these projects i hope that makes me feel more accountable and have more need to actually finish all of them#i have so much schoolwork i gotta do and probably won't#1.37 gpa first semester was impressively bad#legitimately went into college thinking i would be challenged and enjoy it but now it's like#“wow i know all of this and yet i am required to spend 8+ hours on homework each day in order to pass even with perfect test scores”#anyway sorry that probably sounds like i'm being super annoying#these tags are getting super long#byeeeeee
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#tag talk#I feel good cause a new friend at work said something about how my boyfriend hasn't talked much to him since meeting me#And I was like uh oh I do not want to be that bitch#and I know he's been trying to organize some kind of game might and I was like rip you can't get him to play stardew valley with you#and I don't like stardew valley so I was like hey what about minecraft? because if I get them playing together on a realm then It's fixed#so anyway now I might have a new server and friend group to play with and hopefully I'll be less in the way of the preexisting friend group#because I'm really conscious of when I'm the reason stuff goes poorly so I don't wanna be a reason friends don't hang out anymore.#cause that shit sucks. jealous girlfriend type can go die I ain't about hogging people I don't feel good about it.#I just want everyone to get along and be friends#I'm putting in the work to learn bedrock mechanics. that's how committed I am to this. I hate variations on an established base.#it's the autistic in me for sure. I loathe multiple versions of songs. there can only be one true version. one right answer. all else is bad#so the slight discrepancies between bedrock and Java drive me absolutely nuts bonkers up the wall#I read a really good twilight fanfic and it rewired my brain and now I'm forever mixing up which is cannon and which is fanfic#because my brain immediately booted the version I preferred less and installed the new fanfic version as the correct right version#anyway. I'm hunting tutorials that actually explain the mechanics and taking notes so I know how to adjust the designs for aesthetics#because you need the minimum mechanical base to work before you can ad lib a building style and design onto the structural framework#I figured out the iron farm mechanics so tomorrow I think I'm gonna work on gold farm stuff. and redstone I just want to learn myself
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there’s one on here currently and they’re bringing back up old controversy (jashshipping)
Yeaa I saw that. They also seem to post a bunch of CJ related things, so I might make the daily photos one since there isn't one for just CJ screenshots/photos
#im gonna be a fait bit busy today so I cant make it rn#also wont be making it tomorrow as there's another strike happening then [ill make a post on that later too btw]#but i want there to be an account just of stuff from the vids or of the ones he posts on twitter#as for the shipping thing#i wish ppl wouldn't be so rude with things sometimes man#my stance is basically the same as CJs. interpret it however you'd like just don't show it to ppl who are uncomfortable with it#also don't harass or be a dick to people who do or don't ship it#im glad it died down since then at least & that there's not a bunch of hate going around#this fandom is simultaneously really nice to be in & also really draining sometimes#tho it definitely isn't the worse. ive been in a lot of ones that are a LOT worse than here. big & small#place is actually quite nice mostly. despite some things that deserve needing to be called out [like some of the ableism toward Heart]#I think things would be a lot better if people just let others do their own thing. as long as its not like. fuckin illegal or offense#or against CJs boundaries. just let others vibe out in there own corner#ain't that what we all said when TH purists complain about CJs covers? No ones forcing you to consume the content. is all good#just stay where you're comfortable! if anyone's forcing you to look at their stuff then they're the issue. and that goes both ways#again just listen to what the guy said. don't show it to people that don't like it. don't harass people who do it don't like it. an like#just be groovy#sorry for the rant this has just been on my mind for months now#im generally very neutral on things but i hate everyone just yellin at each other when there doesn't need to be yelling in the first place#again this place is hell of a lot better than other spaces ive been in#its a main reason this is the first fandom I've actively participated a shit ton in#im actually using discord & talking [a bit] to other ppl for once lol#idk man i like it here. Just don't make a reason for people not to like it here#again apologies for the rant op. this has just been on my mind for some time & i really don't want shit being blown up again#also apologize if anythins spelled wrong or sounds like nonsense#shitty keyboard + dyslexia + not being able to edit tags can make dumb results lol#moss rants#[atlas asks]
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so yee i think i'm gonna be working on writing a little more even if it's just gonna be blurbs for now since i didn't feel so heavy from the attempt like i did for the last ???? i don't even remember how long i had been on hiatus from writing tbh but i know it's been a long while
who knew that it would take a massive trauma served with a big break from writing and kpop in general (but still listening to the music cuz that's what matters to me), seeing a dentist and going to be seeing a doctor too, and thinking about going back to school again aswell and getting balls deep into anime again while reading more fics for other fandoms i'm in to make things less... intimidating? idek if that's the right word to describe it but this is nice and things are starting to feel good again
#the blurbs are most likely gonna be hella sporradic when posted since i just whipped out this jihoon one only a few minutes ago#after looking at some geto edits on tiktok and i also gotta mention the monster fucking cuz i get it now#the veil has been lifted from my eyes and i can understand it better now and you have ice planet barbarians to thank for that#so if i make some posts about monsterfuckers i'll tag it for the ones who don't wanna see it cuz i know it ain't for everyone
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God. Trying to catch up on FanFest and the SECOND Amanda Achen popped off with “Flow” I burst into tears, god. god. Fucking hell. This weeb game got me so good ;_;
#not tagging the typical fandoms so as not to clog shit since fanfest is popping OFF right now#but god. god. soken and everyone he drags into this music is SO dangerous for feelings#i'm not okay#i haven't even PLAYED 6.4 because depression#but i CARE SO MUCH when the music gets me and it GOT ME#i am fucking weeping and it ain't even noon
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also a legit favor to ask
please don't pray for me. it honestly makes me uncomfortable
i try not to bring it up cause i don't want to be an ass but... like i'm nothing, i don't believe in shit cause i just kinda don't care what comes after, too much going on here and now to deal with (too many people in trouble that need help and that's... that's the question that interests me... how to help, i just don't think about stuff after death enough to have an opinion and it's not like i'll know)
like understand, i don't like bringing this up cause i see too many of those asshole atheists that shit on prayer when it's like... buddy, i ain't gonna tell other people how to live their lives
but you gotta understand the context that stuff exists in, of very much a vocal portion of us christians wanting to do exactly that, tell me how to live my life based on things they believe but i don't... that's it, that's why i prefer not to be prayed for
cause i don't believe and just... lotta times where my views aren't respected on faith, at least on the big scale by certain groups, so for me... if there's a god (which i got no opinion on in either direction) i'd rather not have my name in their ear... i ain't part of nothin, i ain't asking for help or salvation, pray for all the people really suffering in this world instead cause they're the ones who need help
so listen, i'm not gonna get mad if you pray for me, i'm just tossing it out there that it's not my thing and it kinda makes me uncomfortable
just in a mood where i feel like saying this is all. not about anything or anyone, just a thought i forget why i even had it... it's just not for me, and if it's real important to you that's fine, but it's not for me
(clarification: anyway; i hope the take away from this post is what i want it to be; that if praying for me really makes you feel better that's fine, but it's not what i care for, though my opinions aren't solid enough that it's like hurtful or something)
#if i were gonna be anything i think i'd be jewish#for many reasons; one being a i grew up around a bunch of jews i really liked; like i said; i found my dreidel from elementary school#but second cause stuff like hallelujah with lines like 'maybe there's a god above'... that resonates much more with me#the questioning; the saying i don't know the answer and i never will i can only stumble blindly#if that were a question i wanted to ask; i think judaism is where i'd find the thing that most felt like how i feel about stuff#but i'm not jewish and i'll never be; mostly cause i'll never ask to learn and join#legit even since i was little my feeling was kinda 'i'm not jewish but i kinda wish i was'#which may sound like a strange thing with all the antisemitism in the world#but that's the honest truth... that's how i felt when i was small and it's how i feel now#but i'm not ever gonna be; i'd never try to convert... it's not the path for me#i'm nothing; even agnostic... it describes me best; but i'm just not big on labels#i yam what i yam; and i suppose i ain't what i ain't and i ain't a theist or all that interested in the afterlife#...most i can really muster is putting it out there that any of my past cats will always be welcome in this house#mm tag so i can find things later#i got like 2 scenarios i'd like from being dead; and one is to stop existing#don't need that for everyone else; they all go to heaven or nirvana or whatever that's wonderful#i need to be done though#second option you don't get to hear
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