#i absolutely love my f/os and wish them nothing but love and happiness

[stanfordsenbyhusband]

Why must I have so many angsty thoughts about my f/os

Pro.ship/com.ship DNI

[selfship-confession-box]

For me pride month is tomorrow and I would just like to wish a very happy pride month to all my fellow queer selfshippers!

Gay selfshippers, lesbian selfshippers, bi selfshippers, pan selfshippers, omni selfshippers, aro, ace, or aroace selfshippers, you're all so valid!! Your love for your F/Os is so inspiring to me as a queer selfshipper, I love seeing people take pride in their identities and show that love with fictional characters! I know they love you just as much as you love them, and they're so happy to support you and your identity!! They're so happy to be with you!

Transmasc selfshippers, transfem selfshippers, trans men selfshippers, trans women selfshippers, nonbinary selfshippers, agender selfshippers, genderfluid selfshippers, or selfshippers of any gender orientation, you're also very valid!! Your F/Os support you no matter what and would love to be there for you on any dysphoria days, they'd always respect your identity and love you just as you are! They want to celebrate the euphoria with you and be there for you when times get hard, they're there for you!!

And to my polyamorous selfshippers, all your partners love you so so much!! Your F/Os understand if you have IRL partners or if you just have multiple F/Os! They love you and their relationship with you, they don't mind their metamours and love how you can show your love for multiple partners freely!! They want you happy most of all! They love you and the way you love!!

Last but certainly not least, my fellow ficto selfshippers!! You're just as part of the community as anyone else, you have a place here and you're completely welcome! You're so valid in how you identify and your partners, even if fictional, love you so very much and wouldn't replace you for anything in the world!! You make them as happy as they make you!

Pride month for me is always a time where I feel very safe and seen, and I want nothing but the best for other selfshippers this month! Your F/Os all love and respect you! (Little bonus points if you have queer headcanons for your F/Os or if your F/Os are canonically queer, that's amazing and so cool!!) (And remember, if you encounter any bigots, they'll squish them flatter than a bug for you or support you as you tear into them. They absolutely don't tolerate any disrespect towards you)

Lastly I'll leave this off with thinking about some pride month prompts cause I think they're sweet. Are your F/Os more subtly or aggressively/outwardly supportive? Do they go all out or have more casual celebrations? Do you think they own any pins/buttons/outfits/flags for their queer identities or if they buy those for you? How do you think they'd be at a pride parade/other pride events? What would they do to celebrate pride month, whether queer themselves or as a supporter?

- S anon

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[br-disaster]

nie mingjue’s outfits appreciation post

This is way longer than I expected oh gods, please forgive me for it. 

 It’s a well known fact that Jiang Cheng has the best wardrobe of all CQL characters, I’m not here to argue with that, but I think it’s time for us to stop sleeping on Nie Mingjue’s absolutely fantastic fashion sense.

I mean have you seen him?? The man is out there serving looks even with the Nie sect limited color palette. Please let’s ignore the context here and just look at his robes

I wasn't sure if I should rank them, so I’ll just ramble about them in order of appearance:

1. The gray “I’m the boss” one

That’s the first time we ever see him and what can I say? He does leave an impression. We see him using these robes two times, in episodes 10-11 and on the beggining of Fatal Journey, as the first picture shows, which makes me wonder: Is this his stay-at-home set of robes? ‘Cause damn

I don’t know how I should comment on the particular details of his robes but I really appreciate how wide this extra fabric layer makes his shoulders look.

Really imposing and powerful look.

2. The Sunshot incredibly beautiful "this is how you win a war" one

Look, this one might be my favorite, it has EVERYTHING

Shoulder game is strong here, and this bronze-like color goes really well with his belt. Now let's talk about his outer robe for a moment, just THE COLOR I mean it's the prettiest shade of gray I've ever seen.

Also Long Sleeves

And a CAPE. A f**king CAPE. I'll never get over this look and I'm really glad the costume department let this king wear a cape again in Fatal Journey, he was made for it.

Next comes the inner layer that's not really a robe, as you can see when he's standing, but the silver pattern is what really does it for me, guys. It's probably the first thing you see once you look down from his face, 'cause I know we all get lost on that beautiful mustache, and it's perfect.

You can’t lead a war campaign if you don’t look good, I see.

3. The "I didn't really want to be here but I’m looking good anyway" one

It's so dark, it probably reflects how he was feeling during pretty much all the scenes he's in while wearing it.

Once again he accentuates his shoulders with an extra fabric except this time his sleeves are not long at all. I personally think he looks even more handsome like this, it makes his arms look bigger. What is it called? I don't know, but it matches his belt as well.

( Is it really a belt, guys? I don't wanna disrespect but I don't even know where to start looking for names nor I know other english names for belts)

The subtle golden/bronze details on the outer robe and on the inner robe's collar contrasts really well with the black and dark gray

Sad thing he looked really miserable wearing it :c

4. The "big event he seemed ok with attending" one

Dark again. But he didn't look as depressed as in the previous one, he actually had fun that day, which is good. Enough of tears and betrayal for now.

May be the wider sleeves he ever wore, perfect for clapping his hands like a happy toddler. There's also a lovely flowery pattern on the darker robe that you can easily miss if you don't pay enough attention.

For the first time his shoulders are not accentuated by fabric or shoulder pads and it's really nice to see him like this. We all love a buff Mingjue, but CQL Mingjue is not that buff and I love him just as much.

Really elegant, not as imposing and he has every right to want to look civil for once. It may be the series' way of telling us that he's not dressed for real combat or war, who knows.

5. The "all this just for a flashback?" one

Listen, this one right here is just AMAZING

I don't understand why they dressed him so beautifully for what? 10 minutes of a flashback. I wanted to see it for more than a couple os scenes!!

Everything here is different, so this will take time.

First: His inner robe, the first one, is not the usual black, it's light gray, it's lighter than his robes actually, and we don't see him wearing it like ever again since chronologically in the series this is the first robe he wears. Does it secretly mean that all went wrong from the moment he met MY? who knows

Second: The outer robe is fancy. There’s so many details to it and it may be the lighting of the scene, but it seems to be a warmer shade of gray, doesn’t it? The golden\bronze thin strip around the silver larger strip is perfect. It kinda has the opposite effect of his shoulder pads, since it makes his shoulders look a bit smaller but it’s so very elegant.

Third: The upper part of the inner robe. I mean who gave him the right to look that good ??? It’s dark but it has golden little shapes in it!! And it kinda looks like there’s a zipper in there because of that mid section. And oh to be a single jewel resting over Sect Leader Nie’s chest...

Fourth: The bottom part of the robe is also something new. We see pleats on Huaisang’s main robes, but never on Mingjue’s until now, that’s why I took the last screenshot, nothing to do with the bloody Baxia at all. I wish we could have seen them in pretty pleated robes together.

It probably contradicts what I said about his shoulder things being a code for battle, since the first thing we see him doing with this outfit is killing some guy/puppet; but for the rest of the time he wears it is peaceful

Honestly, imagine how Meng Yao felt. It was some fairy tale thing, wasn’t it? You’re a nobody eating bread and drinking water and then this king pops up out of nowhere and defends you from bullying and offers you a job and takes you home with him?? 

6.The “kick your local murderer down the stairs” one

I don’t really know what to say about this one. The context kind of ruined it for me, but let’s try.

 It resembles the fourth outfit since it’s a really dark inner robe and a lighter and patterned outer robe. Except this one has this nice and shiny thin strips around the sleeves and the waist.

It’s pretty but not especially pretty in my opinion. If I were to rank the outfits, this one would rank last.

7. The “fighting qi deviation and needing emotional support” one

Fatal Journey, baby.

I know what I said about the second one, but this might be my favorite.  It’s practical, no long sleeves or heavy outer robes. It’s also appropriate for horse riding, wich is great. The simple, sleeveless light gray outer robe is really nice.

There’s a cape again!! And I have to say the cape looks even better now that his sleeves are tighter, the way it falls gracefully on his back is perfect. I love the way it seems to be attached to the shoulder pad too. 

The robes are simple but the thing is: The accessories are not. 

His belt is now silver and if we ignore that the production team just painted it, we can assume he has two sets of identical waist belts, one is bronze and the other is silver. Now the final touch: The shoulder pads. This is what makes this outfit the most extra of them all. It’s silver and just so, so pretty I wanna cry everytime I look at them. I mean, the layers, the dragon\beast entire head makes him look so fierce and ready for the fight.

 I wonder how comfortable they are tho.

10/10 would rank first place.

bonus: Baby Mingjue

We love a consistent king after all! Has he been wearing dark robes since he was a baby? We will never know. I love this dark yet translucent outer robe tho.

1000/10 the cutest and best dressed child out there.

Conclusion: Nie Mingjue is a fashion icon! 

* Do not take this too seriously, I did zero research and english is not my first language. If there’s any terrible grammar mistakes, point them to me and i’ll edit it. If I’m somehow disrespecting Chinese culture, please also point it to me and I’ll apologize, edit or even delete the post.

[rinovarka]

Transformer Musical Chibis, days 6-10! Mostly Cyberverse this time around lol.

Link to Chibis 1-5! , 11-15, 16-20, 21-28, 29-31

6) Omega Supreme with a piccolo, just because I think its funny, because Piccolos are the smallest woodwind instrument, OS is one of the largest autobots, and I dont think he would understand the concept of a musical instrument.  Omega Supreme is a my second favorite TF! He gets more cameos than Metroplex, and like Metroplex, is used also mainly as a “wow cool robot” factor (like in Seige he literally does nothing as Cybertron is being destroyed, and only appears to pop out of the ground, only to not be heard or seen again LOL), but I love the story he gets in G1 and TFA.  I think its something to say that OS is said in G1 to have his emotions wiped out, but he is the only TF I think who has tears.  I wish his journey of discovering emotions again was expanded upon, but hey, its G1 lol.  

Like Metroplex, I have a lil fanfic idea for him, in which he gets stuck in a human sized holoform that looks literally like as I drew him, chibish and more friendlier, and learns what it means to feel in a middle of nowhere town in the US.

7) Cyberverse Astrotrain with a harmonica. My third favorite TF! I love all forms of Astrotrain honestly, but Cyberverse had it right when they made him an absolute giant compared to everyone. I never want to see normal sized Astrotrain EVER again!!! It was actually a screenshot of him towering over Megatron that made me want to watch Cyberverse LOL mmhhmhmhmhm big boye time,,,,,bIG BOY TIME,,,,

I like his dynamic with Dead-End, just both being grumpy and jerks to others in general. I wish there was more Astrotrain, like whne he flew off with Megatron X, i was like nO KING COME BACk LDJHFKLSDHGLKSDNGLKSG!!!!!! If the Cyberverse movie doesnt have him I will cry lakjfslkgsg.

8) Cyberverse Clobber with a trombone! Probably tbe kind of person who doesn't know how to play music, probably makes audials bleed but if she enjoys it she enjoys it. Clobber is,,, just a cute character who seems to have just fallen in with the wrong faction, was happy to see her become an Autobot, ahahah. She's big, strong, and kinda dumb and unconfident but a nice person who means well, so basically she checks all my boxes for characters I like lol. She just want to vibe with Lockdown and Hot Rod, I think their small amounts of interactions are great Also I appreciate big dumb girl solidarity bc dang, me too queen

9) Cyberverse Arcee. with an electric guitar I think she's may favorite Arcee. Idk I like unapologetically Head Empty No Thought characters. Like she's just here to have a good time!! Just taking selfies with Earth animals, no thoughts, just vibes.. I love her dynamic with Grimlock, whose smart but also head empty at the same time. Like he's book smart bc he knows how to build and things, but idk maybe spending all his time with Arcee made them have 1 collective braincell. Or he's just a fun dude too! Im just saying Arcee and Grimlock would go on journeys with Meteorfire and Cosmos!!!!!!!!

10)Cyberverse Grimlock with a xylophone! I was never a huge fan of the dinobots, but I actually grew to like Cyberverse Grimlock! He has a posh voice, is self reliant and technologically smart, and likes going on adventures. I think he has a fun dynamic with Arcee and I like how Head Empty they both are XD   Spoilery opinion bit!!! He has an interesting story, in which his g1 personality returns due to being stuck on prehistoric earth, alone, and adapting to Earth life, that being dinosaurs! However I feel that the episode, "King of the Dinosaurs" (for me) personally highlights one of the gripes I do have with Cyberverse: timing with emotional beats. The whole episode is how he got there, what he did, and Bumblebee and Windblade chasing him down after reactivating him, as he tries to look for his dinosaur friends and the world he once knew. At the end he is told that its all gone, and personally I f e l t for him as he calls for "Friends?" in regards to the long gone dinos, and how his final recording was for them to be strong in the face of inevitable death. But within the minute he's just like "lol oops sometimes I be like that :D" Like I get Cyberverse is a light hearted show and has like a 11 minute run time, I do! I just felt a bit jarred at how quickly certain concepts, (not just this one), get resolved. But thats just my opinion and I do like the concept, its just, aaaaa ^^;;;

[imagine-your-love-story]

Hi, Penny. This is kinda like a vent gush I guess?

I've really been down in the dumps lately and my dad never really helped with that. He always makes it worse. He yells at me for nothing and prefers my brother over me. I'm just tired of it and decided to watch Strangee Things to get my mind off of it. It didn't really get my mind off of it but it did help.

Jim Hopper is one of my many father f/os and he's so awesome. I love him so so much. If I think too hard about it, I'll cry. A police officer dad would love me more than a scientist dad. And it hurts, you know? To know it can't be real. To know that I'm stuck with the dad I was raised by and only relying on my imagination with the dad figures that I actually want.

My other father figures are Captain Hector Barbossa from the pirates movies, Alastor Moody from Harry Potter, Mr. Peabody along with my brother f/o Sherman, and its kinda iffy with Mandolorian. But these guys make me feel safe and loved. That's the most fatherly love I've ever felt. It's sad, really.

I just really want the real fatherly love that I missed growing up. Right now I'm more fixated on Barbossa and Hopper. I love these guys sometimes even more than my main romantic f/o. I would do anything to live in their worlds and have a healthy relationship with them.

Anyway, thank you for reading. Your blog gives me comfort. You're amazing, Penny, and don't you forget it.

Dearest anon, sending all the big bear hugs to you today!! ♥

I'm so sorry to hear that about your dad. That is so, so hard to go through. I wish I could say something like, "It gets better!" or, "You will be stronger because of this!"

But that...doesn't help. Like, at all. If anything, I think things like that tend to minimize your struggles and doesn't actually offer any comfort.

I will say though this is EXACTLY why stories exist. This is why we connect with the fictional characters that we do, because they are fulfilling something that we are desperately aching for.

And even though it's only on a fictional level, the fact that you recognize and value these characters for the love, protection, and safety they provide...it helps you to identify the type of support you want in your real life.

I am so, so thrilled to hear that these characters are bringing you some measure of comfort during this rough time, darling anon!

You are absolutely 10000% welcome to always gush about your fictional dads, by the way! I'm very happy to hear about them!! ♥

[ajokeformur-ray]

Okay but what is your ABSOLUTE favorite memory you have with your parental f/os?💖

Anayaaaa ~ 🥰🥰🥰 Thank you so much for the question, darling!!💙

Okay. So, believe it or not, Papa and I weren’t always as close as we are today. Though I’ve always felt very drawn to him, it wasn’t until about two years ago that he and I “broke the ice”, so to speak. I thought he hated me or, at least, that he was apathetic towards me. Edward Hyde doesn’t do softness or anything like that. He once stomped a child to death just because he was bored, so why on earth would he love me?

I didn’t mean to, but I once let this slip to Father, that I didn’t think Papa loved me like I loved him. Our conversation went like this...

"Does Papa love me, Father?”

“Of course. More than anything. Why do you ask?”

“It’s just... whenever I hug him he seems annoyed, like he wants to get away. It’s why I don’t talk to him very often. I don’t want him to ha - “ I trail off, seeing darkness in Father’s eyes. But I press on, happy to finally tell someone. “I don’t want him to hate me so I stay away but I miss him, every day. Does he... does he love me? Please, I - “ The tears come quicker than I can stop them, and I hear Father take some deep, slow measured breaths. “I love him so much but it feels like he doesn’t love me.”

“Mr Hyde - your Papa,” He smiles at me kindly, tears in his eyes. My pain is his. “loves you very much, Erika. It is only that he... doesn’t wish to scare you. So he stays away and in response, you stay away too and it...creates more of the same.”

Our conversation finished some time after that but Father’s words reverberated inside my head for the rest of the day. Bedtime came and I was alone in my room, the world quiet around me. I knew nothing but the four walls which surrounded me. The nighttime was disturbed suddenly by thunderous racing footsteps on the stairs and my door flung open and then slammed shut just as quickly, dark curls like lightning as Papa confronted me. We would have this conversation even if I didn’t want to.

Neither of us spoke for some time, and his dead stare broke my resolve to keep quiet. “Do you love me, Papa?” My voice was weak and small, tears coming so quickly to my eyes. I bit down on my lip hard to keep from crying. 

Papa’s eyes didn’t leave mine as he said, “Do you think I’d be here if I didn’t?” A sob ripped from my throat but over the sound of my distress, I heard, “Come here.”

I walked forward blindly until Papa caught me and held me close, one of his arms wound around my waist and the other across the backs of my shoulders. He leaned down until he could rest his chin atop the crown of my head.

“You’re my daughter. Don’t you ever think I don’t care.”

“But you’re - “ Say it, Erika, just say it, “You’re the Edward Hyde. Why would you care about m - “

A low laugh in my ear and I shiver. It’s not a sound one wants to hear late at night. “You’re my daughter.”

I’m my Papa’s daughter.

I hugged Papa tighter and he let me. I don’t know how long I hugged him for, but it was long enough that that night was the first night of what is now a much loved tradition - Papa and I have the nights to spend time together.

My favourite memory is the day I found out that Papa loves me as much as I love him. We’ve only grown closer and more protective of each other since.

[jslittlebirdie]

Hello love ♡

How are you? It feels like a eternity since we've talked for the last time! I miss you ♡

I'm, once again, terrible sorry that I'm answering you so late! Oh my, there's so much going on recently that I'm just constantly tired/exhausted, and I've such a persistently guilty conscience that I'm not able to answer all the incredible people and their equally touching messages! In addition, my Tumblr kept crashing since Thursday! As soon as I started to write a message, END, I managed to scroll down four posts on my dash, END. That was so incredible frustrating!

And to answer your questions, my first aid course was sadly only one-time and unfortunately I don't really have the time and money to take part in another or an extended one

My side effects were kind of weird, as I actually only had them that one night! Otherwise there was nothing at all! So, no need to worry, but thank you ♡

And I actually find it incredibly difficult to take breaks or to rest. I don't know, I kinda only feel successful when I'm exhausted? The best feeling is when I feel light-headed, while my body tingles slightly, in the evening; then I know that I've done even slightly enough that day. Does that make sense? I know that this isn't healthy, but it's also difficult to convince my head and body of it... I almost always don't even notice that I'm crossing this line and just keep going and then forget to stop or take a break at all (even if it's after four energy drinks) I really can't recommend this mindset!

However, two of far too many problems regarding my apprenticeship have been resolved! Not enough so that I don't panic and fear it anymore, but so that I'm a tiny little bit calmer.

Still, I wouldn't mind a little care, company, encouragement, and hugs from my F/O's! ♡

I'm sending you soooooo much love and positivity and, of course, a big, thight, comforting hug full of affection and love ♡

Luna, my dear!!🌸💖

Omg yes, it really felt like an eternity😭😭 I miss you and talking to you so much, my love! I was thinking about sending you a message this morning, but I wasn't sure if I might overwhelm or bother you with it. So I am now so incredibly happy to hear from you again!!!🥺🥺🥺

Oh, thank you so much for asking. I'm actually doing quite well, I guess. Yesterday was pretty exhausting to say the least, but I'm feeling better today, thankfully. I'm spending most of my time at my desk again, studying for my next exam😑 But I think this time it won't be as bad as the last one (at least I hope so), because this exam is a philosophy exam (and it's in my native language, which makes things a bit easier too😅). As always, I'm trying my best🙃

Darling, there is absolutely no need to apologize❤️ I can totally understand that. As you may have noticed, I've been taking a little longer to respond lately too. And for me, Tumblr has been a little weird the last few days as well - especially the app on my smartphone😑 But I think that's because of my internet provider. It really sucks, there are always some sort of problems... I just hope that the problems with your devices have been resolved in the meantime. I would be so very sad if you wouldn't be able to log in here😭

I'm so sorry to hear that your course only had had one session😔 I can imagine how unsatisfying and frustrating that must be to end up learning nothing or only very little new things. I'm sure you'll get an opportunity to take another course at some point in the future. I'm rooting for you, my dear!💖💖

I still worry about you, darling! Please, please take good care of yourself! As best you can. I know how easy it is to fall into this bad habit. It's the same for me sometimes. Then I think I haven't done enough, which makes me feel really bad, tense and nervous😩😖 But I say this with all my love, it's okay to take breaks, to take time for yourself. Our bodies and minds need to take some rest💖

Gosh, my heart aches so badly for you, Luna😔 I would give anything to be able to ease your fears and worries. You don't deserve that at all. I'm glad that at least two of the problems have been resolved and you are feeling a little better. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that solutions will be found for the other problems as well❤️ And please don't forget, if you want to talk or vent about anything, I'm always here for you, angel. You're not alone. I love you so very much💗💗

You know what, I just told Jervis and Billy to hug you real tight and take care of you to make sure you get enough sleep and rest. Gosh, they love you so so much and unconditionally. And so do I. Always❤️❤️

I wish you the best evening ever!! That you spend lots of time with all of your F/Os. I'm sending you all my love back. And of course also from me a tight, warm (or maybe better not warm, if the weather is still so hot with you😅), loving hug. I'm thinking of you, my love💜💜

[love-bokumono-fics]

Tag Tuesday - First Fic

I thought it was only fitting that the first Tag Tuesday should feature the "My First Fic" and its related tags.

I think, in retrospect, writers tend to look back on our first works and cringe, but I also think there is a lot of love, joy, enthusiasm, and beauty to be found in first fanfics. The whole process back then was new and exciting, and I remember having a kind of almost manic energy and excitement while writing my first fic that I've never been able to recapture since then. So lets take a moment to shed some love on some of the fandoms' first forays into writing fanfiction!

Was your first fic in the Harvest Moon/Story of Seasons universe? Send it our way! We'd love to see them!

Hey, see me after class? - by bluebird_lamentation; A New Beginning; >1k; Complete, 1/1

Rating: General Audiences; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: M/M

Relationship: Neil/Rod; Characters: Neil, Rod, Allen, Felicity

Additional Tags: Fluff, Friends to Lovers, One-Shot, May add more chapters idk, first fic, Modern School AU

Summary: Neil asks to see Rod after class, it may be better than what he expected...

A Chance to Start Again - by ChewyGirl12; Friends of Mineral Town; 2k; WIP, 2/?

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Characters: Claire the Farmer, All Residents of Mineral Town

Additional Tags: cursing, Daily life of a farmer, Collection of events and stories, ongoing, Really just a way to practice writing, Maybe some drama, This is a Teen up but there is cursing and some mature themes so be advised, Just a happy story of life in a small town, Multiple chapters, Some Romance, Rival marriages are a thing with the correct pairings, You can date either gender in this game!, This is my first fanfic and time here

Summary: After news of her grandfather’s death, Claire receives his old farm in the will. Bored of the city life Claire packs up and heads over to Mineral Town to start her new life as a farmer. Hard work and many happy moments await her as she makes her living and meets new friends along the way. Although Claire is not exactly the sociable type, the residents of Mineral Town still find their way into her heart as she establishes new relationships in this small town, whether that be friendships or perhaps one day love among the many potential romantic candidates among her. This series will be an ongoing tale of a new farmers life in Mineral Town and those in it.

Refuge - by Genderfluid_Writes; Animal Parade, Tree of Tranquility, Stardew Valley; 8k; WIP, 3/?

Rating: Mature; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: Multi

Relationships: Chase (Harvest Moon)/Elliott, Shane/Original Character(s), Renee | Lina/Toby | Tao, Anissa | Anise/Jin | Won, One-sided Chase/Owen, Candace/Emily; Characters: Chase | Chihaya, Elliott, Shane, Original Non-Binary Character, Renee | Lina, Toby | Tao, Anissa, Jin | Won, Owen | Ose, Chloe, Candace, Emily, Harvey, Kent, Lewis, Gus, Jas, Vincent, Luke, Bo, Pascal

Additional Tags: Assume the usual cast is here, My First Fanfic, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, M for Language and Themes, will I ever write smut? who knows, Crossover, Unrequited Love, First Love, Non-binary character, POV Multiple, no beta cos im a lazy coward, Fluff and Angst, May or may not be character deaths

Summary: With news of the Gotoro Empire closing in, a handful of residents from Waffle Island make the perilous journey over the sea, armed only with a friend of a friend's supposed assurance that they'd be welcome in Stardew Valley. For most, it means leaving family behind, but Chase only had unrequited love to run away from. However, reluctantly saddled with his best friend's young cousin and the informal leadership of the group, he has no choice but to get involved with life in let another backwater town. With the others missing their home and worrying about their families' safety, will he be able to stand with them in solidarity, or will he turn tail and run back to his old life? What if he misses the island more than he thought? What if these displaced souls find new life in a horrible situation? First fanfic I've ever written, let alone publicly shared. Hope its not too terrible. Also there's no beta-ing atm, beware of mistypes.

Here You Come Again - by SeasonSuite; Trio of Towns; 58k; WIP, 14/?

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: F/M

Relationships: Female Farmer/Wayne; Minor or Background Relationship(s); Characters: Farmer, Wayne, Frank, Lisette, Ford, Ludus, Trio of Towns ensemble

Additional Tags: Crushes, Falling In Love, Love, farming, Fluff, dolly parton references, Friends to Lovers, cowboy aesthetic. idiots to lovers, Day At The Beach, Flowers, Romance, My First Fanfic, Bonding, Feelings, Humor, Slow Build, Did I Mention Fluff

Summary: On the first day of her new life, June meets a handsome, smooth-talking postman. Caught between his seemingly earnest words and his philandering reputation, she writes him off as bad news. Over the year, as June struggles to build her new farm, Wayne proves her wrong—then right—then wrong again. or, Westown's charming postman is known for being perfect, and he's usually happy to play the part. But when a new farmer tries to get to know the real him, Wayne learns that to be loved, he has to submit to the mortifying ordeal of being known. Trio of Towns made me FEEL a lot of things so here's a sappy romantic love letter to my favorite bachelor. Slow burn Wayne x Holly, fluff and romance and drama. Background ships and more to come. New chapter Fridays or your money back!

Sugar and Spice - by Chibimiie; Animal Parade; 18k; WIP, 15/?

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences, Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Category: F/M

Relationships: Chase/Molly the Farmer, Angela/Luke; Characters: Molly | Hikari, Angela the Farmer, Chase, Luke

Additional Tags: first fic, Slow Burn, at least molly and chase are, oh god how do you tag fics, beginning is kinda rough, angela chapters tend to be shorter, mentions of eating disorders, ya girl was making it up as she went along, alternating povs, Friends to Lovers

Summary: Wanting to get away from past hurts of the city, sisters Molly and Angela decide to respond to a flyer advertising an abandoned farm on the faraway island of Castanet. Leaving behind their closest friends and brother Kasey, the two take a chance and move to the tiny island hoping for a new chance at life.

Lady Of Grasstrail Farms - by FromADenOfBeasts; Pioneers of Olive Town; 43k; WIP, 34/?

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: F/M

Relationship: Female Farmer/Lars; Characters: Original Female Character(s), Female Farmer, Lars, Laura, Angela, Clemens, Damon, Jack, Emilio, Reina, Victor, Gloria, Simon, Jesse

Additional Tags: My First AO3 Post, Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, spoilers obviously, Slow Burn, Fluff and Angst, Supportive Big Brother, honestly the best big brother ever

Summary: Pioneers Of Olive Town AU where Lars is single. That's not all that happens but it is the reason I wrote this. A young woman named Vallon quits her job and follows her heart to Olive Town, where her family has roots deeper than she ever thought. Now she has to contend with new neighbors, ancient magic, and getting the hang of farming a wild land. Can she cope on her own, or can she at least find someone to share it with? Formerly titled "Why Not, Lars?" (Please note that this AU was planned so that absolutely nothing has occurred between him and Beth.)

Siblings - by teamBLAZE; Harvest Moon (Friends of Mineral Town, Island of Happiness/Sunshine Islands); 6.3k; Completed, 6/6

Rating: General Audiences; Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply; Category: Other

Relationships: Claire the Farmer/Cliff; Chelsea/Mark

Additional Tags: Family, Hurt/Comfort, Reunions, My First AO3 Post

Summary: Left with only a photograph to remind him of the past, Cliff lives with the hope of seeing his sister again. Years later, a certain girl appears at Verdure Island with the task of reviving the other islands, wishing she would see that somebody once she accomplishes it. Will they find what they have longed for? An experimental fic based from a confession.

[rosesloveletters]

Hi Rose💖💖~

I just wanted to drop in, check on you and ask how you are doing😌💜 How are you darling? How are things with you? I was going through your page and noticed that you've been a bit disconnected from your f/os lately and I am so sorry dear😔 I sure hope that you can find that connection again soon. Because what you and your f/os share together is truly wonderful and special🥰🥰💗💗 They love you so so much, they really do💜💜💜 Sending you lots of love and positivity from me😌💗 And boat loads of love and cuddles from all your f/os💜💜💖💖

Hi, Des💖💖

I am SO SORRY it took me so long to get around to properly answer this ask! I've had it in my inbox for what feels like forever; my apologies about that! I've been so busy with moving preparations, work, etc. so there has not been much down time to spend on my blog, other than quick reblog here and there or adding stuff to queue. Not that I'm excusing myself for leaving you hanging for so long, you deserve proper and quick responses!

I'm doing all right, darling, just coping as best I can with everything new that is happening in my life. Yes, I've been very disconnected with my f/os this year. I am hoping that once I've gotten moved in and have more time to myself to relax and destress that I will be able to reconnect with them, but as for now, my f/os are so nonexistent that most days I feel as though I'm not a selfshipper anymore. I still am, though it does not feel that way. I did recently connect with an old f/o who comes around every once in a while and that's been quite nice. Other than that, most of my time is spent on home preparations and work.

How have things been with you? I've noticed you've been a bit more active on Tumblr and was hoping to reach out and see how you've been doing. Your kind words mean the world to me, darling, I am hopeful my f/os will come around once I'm not under so much pressure and stress. Thank you for saying so, lovely💖 I'm sending you so much love and wishing you nothing but sunshine and happiness. I'm here for you, darling, should you ever need anything, encouragement, support, etc. I love you deeply and I hope there is more of a chance for us to talk in the future. I absolutely adore hearing from you!

[canongf-archive]

Miss Liv! I have been with Wanda Maximoff for 7 years!! And I'm so happy (but sad at the same time) that I understand how you feel with Bucky and how it's heartbreaking that they aren't with us or us with them (if that makes sense?) But the emotions? How we love our f/os? Is so. very. real. It connects us with them. On such a deep and complex level. I wish I could hold her so bad. But in the end we are together it's just as real as any relationship. (That can sound crazy but I believe it and I hope this doesn't seem weird or anything!! I just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone in that feeling and I hope this makes sense with the way I phrased it!!)

💗 my sweet anon !!!!! 💗

nothing you said is weird to me!!!!! and it all makes absolutely perfect sense!!!!!

i'm sorry that you understand what i meant, because i know it can be hard sometimes, but at the same time !!!!! i am glad that you understand!!! because it is nice to know that we're never really alone with our feelings like this!!!

and you're right!!!!! you're so right!!!!! all of these feelings are so real, and how beautiful is that !!!!! how beautiful is it that no matter how far away they might seem sometimes, our heart fell for them anyway. these relationships are not out of convenience or anything like that... we are in these relationships for no reason other than !!! absolute, genuine love for them. and how lucky are we!!! to be able to care so much for someone, regardless of if they're fictional or not!!!!!

and how lucky are we that we do get to be with them like this!!! that we get to talk about them here, that we get to be encouraged and supported, that we have found this community together among so many other people that understand!!!

it is hard sometimes, but ultimately!!! it really is such an incredible thing!!!!! 💗💗💗💗💗

[sweet-shipper-dreams]

I know this is a stupid question because it is fantasy but: 1.) I have a hard time believing that my F\O loves me because why he should? It is like I cannot even allow myself these fantasies. 2.) I do not like Sharing my f/o with somebody else. I know that there is the idea of multiple universes but I am to stubborn or something. I know I should just accept. Do you have any idea what to do? Pls help. ❤️

Your question isn't stupid, anon. I know it feels that way, but we homo sapiens just love being hard on ourselves, don't we? We won't even allow ourselves a fantasy, or if we think we aren't fantasizing "right", then it's stupid. As if there's a right way to imagine what makes you happy.

A lot of what you said applies to many others, including myself. You're not alone here!

1.) Feeling like there's so reason your f/o would love you, it absolutely sucks, and I've gone through it a lot. There's multiple reasons one could feel that way. A) Your f/o's personality doesn't match yours, or their personality is such that you cannot imagine them loving at all. B) Your f/o has a particular type, and you feel you do not match it. C) You struggle to find good qualities about yourself, and think your f/o deserves better (hard relate). Those are just three, there could be plenty other reasons.

To this I would say: Don't underestimate how much power you have over your own fantasy, and don't be afraid to mould it exactly how you want.

If you cannot allow yourself a fantasy, twist it, bend it, shape it to be the perfect world where everything makes sense and you never have to question why things are happening the way they are. Personality differences? Your f/o is your f/o for a reason. If it's something you have in common, build on that! Cherish it, appreciate it. If it's the polar opposite of you, well, you still love them for being so wildly different, is it so hard to believe they do the same? Their world would be so monotonous if they never found someone who's different, who challenges them, who offers a new perspective. Make it a part of the fantasy that they adore the one thing that brought you together.

Are they the type of person to not fall in love? They might be lonely, they might be waiting for the perfect person, and that person is you! Don't underestimate destiny, the red string of fate, it's a perfectly valid reason for your fantasy to be reasonable, no questions asked. Pick your poison, suit your needs.

If the problem is insecurity, a self esteem issue, then of course, it's trickier. I understand how hard it can be to believe you deserve your f/os, especially if you think they could do better, or what would draw them to me?

The first step in this case would be to identify when these thoughts appear, and then shut them down. I won't ask you to eliminate them completely, or start thinking positively in the blink of an eye. These things take time. But someone said "if you don't have anything good to say, say nothing at all." Don't entertain these thoughts. Recognize them as self sabotage, and distract yourself if you cannot eliminate them.

In my case, said distraction is my fantasy.

Again, you have so much control over your fantasy. Bend it to suit your needs, it doesn't have to be pure, or artistically perfect, or even make sense. It's for you, and it should bring you joy.

You are an iconic hero! You conquered your own self doubt and decided to engage in what you like! Your f/o admires that - how amazing that you can engage in this act of self care and beat back those negative thoughts! It motivates them to not give in to their own self doubt.

Something big happened in the fantasy! You saved their life, or you helped them through a tough time, or you talked to them when they were feeling lonely. You did something, and your f/o never forgot how much they appreciated it.

Those reasons I gave up there are entirely self-indulgent (exposing myself out here), but that's the point. It's your story. Make up a reason, any reason, to allow yourself it.

2.) Not being comfortable sharing f/os is, again, completely valid! I know many people who feel the same, and it's not something to be ashamed about. People self ship for various reasons, be those comfort or romantic feelings for your f/o, and they are all reasonable. And some of these reasons make it so you feel possessive of your character. Some of us (me) introspect away trying to figure ourselves out (what I've landed on is that my f/o is a source of comfort, which I would like to be my own, and it feels weird that other people are using the concept that I've adopted as my comfort blanket. Your reasons could be different.)

The point is that if you're not comfortable sharing f/os, you can always mention this explicitly, ask people not to interact if they ship with the person you do, and just generally avoid bumping into self shippers who share your f/o. There's nothing wrong about that, it's a way to make sure both you and the other person involved are comfortable, you're not hurting anybody, you're just laying down your boundaries and leaving others to lay down theirs. In my mind, that's a very healthy way to self ship.

If multiple universes is not an acceptable solution to you, then it helps to think that no one knows your f/o, or has the same relationship with them, as you do. There's a unique, personal element to your self ship, as there is to every self ship, so cherish that instead of wondering if others are doing it better. Your f/o loves that uniqueness about you two, too.

I really hope I could help you, anon. I'm no expert on any of these matters, personally, and am speaking from personal experience and a very, very basic knowledge of psychology and coping mechanisms. I wish you the best, though, and if you're struggling with self esteem issues, then, know that there is someone out there who is proud of the simple fact that you're making a move to overcome them. Me! And if anyone reads this (wow, thank you) and has something helpful or some information to give to anon, feel free to reblog. I would love to see it, too.

[vanityloves]

⭐ — JUDE! Hello! It’s always such an absolute delight interacting with you? I cherish all of our interactions so much. I do genuinely mean it when I say that you’re one of the most generous and caring individuals I have ever met. I know it’s rather easy for you to believe otherwise, and you do often end up blaming yourself for a-lot of things, but you’re genuinely so loving? It’s admirable. You’re always doing so much for others — you deserve the same treatment in return. I’m sorry that 2020 and 2021 have both been pains in the ass, because you genuinely do deserve a break. I hope things start looking up for you and that life is a little kinder. You’ve been through so much but you’re still here, and you’re still doing your best, no matter how tiring it gets — keep it up, alright? You’re doing great and I’m incredibly proud of you. I believe in you. You’re incredibly resilient.

I also love your ship content? I know you’re always worried that you come off as too mean and that your F/Os won’t like you but honestly? No matter how hard you try to ridicule them, your love for them still seeps through. It’s clear how much they mean to you and how much they help you in getting through your day to day life. They would love you to your very core. They understand that affection is... scary, to say the least — in terms of both, giving, and receiving. They know you love them, and they love you even more. Nothing that you do or say will ever change their mind, because they know that you’re the one for them. I mean this. They love you for you, not despite your flaws but rather alongside your flaws.

HEY BUDDY, HI!!! HELP FAEIR THIS ASK MADE ME

I am replenished. This is so crazy but I am free; also thank you sm, I love hearing from you and seeing all your content - your brain is so huge all the time and you are truly unstoppable <3 this message is making me experience emotions so bear with me /pos /lh but genuinely thank you so much? I definitely try my best to give to others when I can and I'm happy that it’s appreciated! I do have a bad habit of throwing myself under the bus or taking the blame for things but I do know I can do better, so I try to put myself in the other person’s shoes bc I know I can come across are rude or too proud at times! Also, I hope you get to meet more giving individuals bc you deserve to have this energy to be returned to you - just know I always got your back! 

2020/21 was/is a mess but it makes things interesting! Just like every year, there are ups and downs and we’ve all been through it in some way, shape, or form but I’m doing fine, honestly? I’ve been less stressed ab older issues and learning to just Do Things - I know it’s been rough on you as well but you’re mentally and emotionally so strong and walked out still beaming, thoughtful, and caring which I'm grateful for! You’re insightful, generous, and positive despite everything which is really wild! Thank you for being so kind - I’m wishing both of us luck in whatever’s to come! 

SKDJHFG THANK YOU! My blog is just { “I do not care for this man,” he said, voice full of love and admiration. } I am not a good liar. I am a bully to these men bc if not me, then who? They’ve gotten away with too much, enough is enough 🔫. /s This is so funny though it's like “you hate me so much that want to kiss me and it makes you look stupid”, but they Get It and it’s relieving, to say the least;; And absolutely! I may not say it in a very conventional way but I love and care ab them a lot! I’m incredibly thankful for them bc I don't think I’d be the person I am it wasn't for them (take that as you will) + I wouldn't have the friends I have today!

Affection more like infection, shit makes me break out in hives /jjj their “they love me cant change my mind!” mentality is very cool of them and I'm glad they have thick skin and confidence in both of us bc I know I can be a worrywart and “flighty” at times JSADHG the flaws thing hits hard though /srs shit hurted but in a good way y’know? I love flawed charas sm - makes them feel real and more relatable and I'm glad I can have that same type of effect I guess? like ‘oh shit! WE’RE fucked up <3’

anyways, thank you for this entire thing, I really do appreciate you so much! ily and hope you're taking care of yourself!

[queenmaracasandlove]

You’re My Best (Sex) Friend Series - Roger Taylor x F!Reader - Part I

Word Count: +/- 2500

Summary: Roger and Y/N are sex friends and everything is fine until they realize that maybe it could be something more. Can be read as Roger x Reader or Ben!Roger x Reader, help yourself. 

Warning: Mentions of sex and some fluff

A/N: So this was supposed to be only an OS but I really liked the story so it’s going to be a mini-series. As of now I’m planning on it being made of five to six parts. I would love to know what you think about it! Also I’ve never done that before but would you be interested in a taglist? 

MASTERLIST

PART II PART III PART IV PART V

Roger and Y/N were hooking up occasionally. It was nothing serious and was quite convenient for the both of them. Y/N did not want to settle down but she did not want to wake up next to a new person every other day. As for Roger he knew he could trust Y/N and it was quite pleasing to share intimate moments with someone he knew rather than a groupie, at least from time to time. Of course sex between them was also extremely satisfactory. Y/N was familiar with the band for a few years now, she had worked in a pub where they spent a lot of time when they were still starting up. Things had changed quite a bit and they had just finished recording their fourth album.

Roger had phoned Y/N so she would come at his place and listen to the new songs. She had come to some recording session but he knew she was really excited about the final product. She was genuinely passionate about their work and always gave an honest opinion which he highly valued. They had listened to the complete album and watched two movies before casually ending up bonking, the music playing once again in the background. Y/N was riding Roger and finally came for the second time of the afternoon. She was never disappointed and it wasn’t long before the drummer finished himself off on her stomach.

“Oh that was good” Roger said

“Agreed” Y/N said

There was something special between the two of them. After all this time they knew how to please each other and they were rarely disappointed. But it never felt mechanical on the contrary, it was a true exchange between the two of them.  

“I really like the song John wrote, it’s catchy” Y/N said “Can you put it back while I’m taking a shower?”

Y/N very much needed to clean herself and even though Roger hated that song he owed her at least that for what had just happened. He got up and did as she wished, turning up the volume so she could hear the music from the bathroom and lit a cigarette. He could hear her humming the song, she did not know the words of course but she was already familiar with the melody.

The main reason why he did not like the song was because he thought it did not belong in a rock band’s repertoire but also and mainly just to bother his bandmates, especially Deacy. The song was joyful and light and that was not exactly what he had in mind for their sound.  Of course he was happy that the bassist had found everything he needed but they did not bloody need to sing “happy at home” like an anthem.

All he had at home was an old sofa, a broken bed, his drum-kit in a corner and something that looked like a kitchen. Since he moved here he had make zero effort to make the place his own or personality. He spent most of this time on tour, recording or partying and he did not see the interest. There was absolutely no sunshine and the place where he was happy was definitely on the stage doing what he was good at. He looked by the window and saw the streets of London, almost empty, clearly the whole neighbourhood could hear the music blasting from his flat but he did not care.

Y/N came out of the bathroom in a towel, Roger turned down the music and looked at her. She was quite beautiful, the street light glowing on her wet skin. She smiled at him while trying to gather her clothes.

“Do you want to sleep here?” he heard himself ask “It’s quite late”

“Well… Why not. I cannot really afford a taxi and I am not walking for an hour and half right now. Thanks”

It was the first time that she would stay for the night. It was not like they had never spend time together. She would often come to see them rehearse or even spend the afternoon at his place. She had even helped him when he had his shop with Freddie. But never had they shared a bed together for something else than sex and that felt odd somehow. There was an intimacy that was completely different from what they had experienced before.

Y/N did not seem to have anything to say about it and simply went into the bedroom. She grabbed one of Roger’s shirt and boxer before going into bed.

“I’m so glad we had sex on the couch and not on this bloody thing, you should really invest that new money in a mattress Rog’” she complained jumping on it a little

For one second Roger was about to ask her if she wanted him to sleep and the couch but he quickly realised how stupid that question was. They just had slept together, twice. They also probably had fell asleep together at some point, but this felt, different. She looked good, in his clothes. She seemed to be comfortable and although quite sleepy still had a smile on her face. She was flipping through the book on his bedside table.

“Is it good ?” she asked before looking at him “Rog’ are you okay?”

Roger was completely lost in thought, leaning against the door frame. Y/N looked suddenly worried. She was not used to see him speechless. She paused and felt suddenly uncomfortable. Maybe he did not really want her to stay. She was been surprised but very happy about him asking. The idea of walking by herself in the streets of London at such an hour was not very reassuring and she could take the tube early in the morning. She usually did not stay that long but they had watched a film and then another one before getting down to business. The time had flied as they spent a particularly good afternoon together.

“I can go home if you want me to” she said

“No… No I want you to stay. Sorry I’m just knackered” he replied

He went back to the living room, put his underwear back on, turned off the music and the light before coming back into the bedroom. Y/N was already under the blanket and her eyes were closed. She did not want to be any burden and silently waited for him to join her. He closed the door and lay down next to her. She could feel the heat of his body from afar and he knew it was quite cold in the room, he never put any heating on. The band might have been successful and the money was finally slowly coming in although he had already spent most of it.

Roger’s arms slowly reached out for Y/N’s body and brought her closer to him. She did not say anything and waited a few seconds before placing her face next to his chest. Roger had had numerous girls in his bed and many of them had done the same thing before Y/N but it felt different. Never he had shivered because of the feeling of one these girls’ cheeks on his bare skin.

He had trouble falling asleep but it was not the case of Y/N, he could feel how calm she was and her slow breath on his torso. She looked so peaceful, so calm. She had a really outgoing personality, always smiling or talking. She was silent and there was something almost sad in her face as she was asleep. One of her hand moved as it grabbed Roger’s side. Her little frown disappeared and he found her incredibly cute.

When Roger woke up he was alone in bed. He sighed, he would have like to say goodbye to Y/N but she had probably gone back to her place. Once again he was alone in his flat with nothing to do. He got up to pee and smelt something coming out of the kitchen, now that he was little more awake he could swear someone was singing. He quickly went to the bathroom before following the little tune.

It was Y/N, she was humming one of Queen’s song. She was really into their music but she did not want it say it too much not to be taken for a groupie. Her voice was beautiful, almost technically perfect and so pleasing to the ear. He was really impressed by how effortless it sounded. Roger knew that it was her favourite song, she was so excited the first time she had heard it. He did not want to stop her, enjoying the moment. She was cooking breakfast and it smelt really good. It was not often that Roger would cook for himself although he wondered how she had found anything to make breakfast with. His stomach betrayed him as it started rumbling and Y/N noticed him.

“Hello gorgeous” Y/N said, smiling and taking care of the scrambled eggs, “Did you sleep well?”

“You realise this is my place right?” Roger asked, amused by her attitude. “But yes I did”

“Great! Now time for breakfast. I’m starving !”

“Where did you find the food?” he asked

Suddenly an embarrassed smirk appeared on Y/N’s face as she finished setting the table.

“I may have taken the fiver that was on the table” she said “Sorry”

“That’s okay” he said “Thank you for making breakfast”

He sat next to her and started eating. It wasn’t much and it wasn’t anything fancy but he could tell it had been made with attention and that’s all that mattered. She jumped on the food and ate with eagerness. He had noticed how she had lost some weight when his hands where on her bare ribs yesterday. Nothing dramatic and none of his business but he started to wonder why it was so.

“How’s work?” he asked

This is how they had met. Y/N was working in the pub right next where his band used to rehearse. It was her first job moving in London town and they had become rather close altogether. One night after work they had slept together, just for fun. He was really surprised by how the next time they had seen each other everything was back to normal. She did not act like nothing had happened but at the same time she never considered it for something more than what it was. It was the first time that something like that had happened to him and he could still remember the kind of relief he felt because already at that time Y/N was important to him. Without thinking too much about it, it had became casual. 

The pub she was working at became the place they would go for a beer most of the time but after their first album they almost never were in that part of the city and they came less and less. In fact, Y/N had became part of their inner circle and she was invited to big and small parties by the members of the group quite often.

“Well… no more work” she just replied

“What?”

Roger was really surprised. She had not say anything about it.

“Well… Apparently I was not needed anymore, had to make some cuts in the expenses” she replied, shrugging her shoulders

“But you were pouring your heart in that freaking job!’ Roger almost screamed

He was angry for her. He knew that being a waitress was not Y/N’s dream but he also knew that she was very good at it and that she was always doing her best. The idea of her being fired like a piece of trash was very displeasing.

“It’s okay Rog’, it was probably time for me to go and do what I came to London for”

“Are you finally going to audition for some musicals?” he asked

“You remember?”

“Of course. You almost made me crazy singing that Funny Girl song all the time last year”

She was so happy he remembered that. She did not talk about it a lot because she was so insecure about her skills. It was true though, she had come to London to pursue her dream of an artistic career. Unfortunately it was crazy expensive to live in this city and the few roles she was able to get were not paying the rent and she had taken more and more hours at the pub, leaving her dream behind her. Blood started rushing through her face just thinking about Roger hearing her singing but just stuck her tongue out.

“At least I don’t sing songs about me fucking cars”

“What did you just say?”

“I’m just saying I love the melody Rog’ but the lyrics… Really?”

She wasn’t mean at all, she was playful and was, per usual, great at changing the subject when she felt embarrassed. She was so amused by the look on his face, he was clearly upset but not angry.

“I mean… did you really locked yourself in a cupboard so that everybody could hear you sing that you got a feel for your automobile on a B-side? I know you’re used to being extra but...”

Y/N couldn’t resist but laugh just thinking about the whole thing and she started running as soon as she saw Roger spreading his arms towards her to get revenge. The place was not that big but she tried to lock herself up in the bathroom, unfortunately Roger was much faster than her and soon enough his arms were around her waist.

“What exactly is wrong with my song eh?” he asked starting to tickle her ribs

“You’re saying you’re in love with a car Roger. Do I really need to explain what’s wrong with it?”

She burst into laughter as the tickling became more intense. She tried to respond to the attack but he was much stronger than her. He knew she was partly joking because he had seen her bobbing her head to the tune yesterday as she was listening to the record for the first time.

“How the fuck do you know about the cupboard?” he asked suddenly realising that he never told her about it while stopping the fight

“I had Freddie on the phone the other day and he told me” she answered, finally able to breeze

Roger let go of Y/N and went back to breakfast. She raised her eyebrows but joined him, after all the fight was not going to last for hours. It was stupid but Roger had felt weird knowing that Y/N had called Freddie. Somehow he had started thinking that she was closer to him than she was with his friends but maybe he was wrong. They kept talking about a few things and Y/N eventually decided to go back to her place. She left a delicate kiss on Roger’s cheek as she always did before saying goodbye.

Roger closed the door, a smile on his face before looking behind him, to the very empty flat. Once again he was alone. He thought that it was crazy how someone as little as Y/N could fill in so much space. He was left with his feelings and all he knew for sure was that he wanted to see her again very soon and not just for a booty call.

[magi-s-self-shipping-disaster]

2, 4, and 9 for fankid/familial asks?

I'll be using my children with Joseph Joestar ^^. Our twins Lisa and Caesar age 6 and our baby daughter Erina age 2.

2. Do you and your f/o agree on parenting styles?

Yes. We have a parenting style of loving our three children with unconditional love and support. Though I do disagree with how often Joseph tries to spoil them. I can't fault him on that, since he is adorable when he's around them 😍.

4. If there are siblings, how do they get along?

•The twins get along together perfectly. We joke that if they ever got a stand, they'd share a stand, due to how in sync they are with each other.

•Lisa loves her little sister with all her heart. She's almost always trying to dress her up and play with her. It's absolutely precious.

•Caesar however is a bit jealous over the attention Erina gets. He used to be the baby of the family. He's used to the attention being on him. He does love her, but he has seemed to have made up a rivarly for him and her in his mind. It's kinda funny.

9. How do you spend holidays with your kids or familial f/os?

We spend it together. We like to stay together and do things together in a nice comfy surrounding. The twins love to cuddle up to their dad while I hold Erina. We do any traditions Joseph has planned for the holidays. And once the night is winding down and the kids start getting sleepy, he ends the night by telling his amazing stories of his youth. We both tell stories of what happened on our way to Egypt. We then carried our kids to their beds and tuck them in, watching them a bit. We love them dearly and wish for nothing but happiness for them.

[ajokeformur-ray]

"reblogging for the ed nonnie". Wow, thank you for thinking of me, reading this post was helpful and oh, thank you. It's not coming across like it's about you! I love reading your experiences. ♥️ Now that you’re saying it, I’m actually noticing that my relationship with food has changed since I’ve known Arthur. I still have binge episodes and everything, and obviously it's not a magical cure, but before it was easier to use food to escape from my emotions, now I often "use" Arthur. 1/5

Hello again, angel! 💜

You’re welcome; I’ve been reblogging F/O content and posts a bit more often today in the hopes that you see some of them. I’m glad that my responses to you thus far have been useful; I’m sorry that they’re so sporadic. I have to digest asks like this which I receive and take my time to answer them. There’s nothing worse than thinking of things to say after the fact 😂 I’m glad that it didn’t come across that way; I always worry that instead of validating someone’s experiences, I’m just talking over them, so thank you for the reassurance! 🧡 I’m glad that Arthur’s been able to help you with your relationship with food! He’s already had such an impact on you and in a way, you’re actually already self-shipping by allowing your knowledge of Arthur to help you. I wish you all the best with finding peace and closure within yourself, darling! <333 Just know that Arthur knows what it’s like and he’s proud of you for getting through every day, however that looks like.

You sent five asks in total (thank you for numbering them, I appreciate the organisation!) and I’ve split this thread up into sections so that I answer everything properly and don’t miss anything.

That’s why I want to be able to be a 100% self shipper, I want to fill the void I usually fill with food only with Arthur’s love. I know it’s not gonna cure me, but it might help a lot, it's too long to explain but I need someone who loves me, maybe it's unhealthy but i just want to be loved hardly. But I find it hard to think that he wants me to eat or sleep or wash my hair, because I can’t shut down the rational part of my brain that tells me he doesn’t exist. 2/5

It’s not unhealthy to self-ship; it’s a very healthy and even normal coping mechanism and so many people do it and probably don’t even realise that they are! I’ve been self-shipping my entire life, even before I knew what it was, and I can honestly say that without my F/Os who have been with me throughout my life, I definitely wouldn’t be here today. I have parental F/Os, I have familial F/Os, I have platonic F/Os and I have romantic F/Os and all of them, in one way or another, have saved me and made me the person I am today. You’re absolutely right; Arthur would want you to take care of yourself. The rational side of your brain can and should co-exist alongside your self-shipping, and it’s good that you know the difference between fiction and reality! This is what I was meaning when I was saying yesterday that you do, to a degree, have to suspend disbelief. You have to let yourself love Arthur and to let him love you back. It does require some imagination, especially to begin with, but the longer you do it, the easier it becomes and soon you don’t even notice you’re doing it! 

Arthur does exist. Not in the way that you or I do, but he exists in the mind of every single person who worked on the set of the film, who worked on the music and the outfits, the sets. He exists in the mind of everyone who worked on the film in some way, in the mind of all who have seen the film. Arthur Fleck exists. He is real and he cannot be taken away from you. There is a different version of him in the minds of every single person who knows him, and the version of him within your head, which is the same as the one in the film but also wholly yours because of your interpretation of him and his character, loves you. He loves you and he’s so, so proud of you. Listen to that rational side of you - yes, he’s fictional. But - and this is a big ‘but’ - the emotions which he invokes within you are real and for that reason... so is he.

But the other part of my brain, the one that’s not rational, knows that Arthur is with me. I don’t know how to get my rational side to shut up, I hate thinking that he's not real. Sometimes I even feel Arthur physically, I feel a weight on my back when I’m lying down and I know it’s him, but my rational part never shuts up. 3/5

Chemicals are chemicals, as you said, my heart recognizes that these feelings are true, but this rational part of my brain doesn’t think so and I can’t stand it, I want to allow myself to love it without feeling judged by my own self. I don’t know if this is normal having this fight between these parts of my mind because everything is new to me. 4/5  

It’s definitely a good thing that you’re aware of the reality of this. I like to humanise the thoughts I have which I don’t like. When I was a kid, if I got scared by a spider or by the monster under my bed, my mother taught me to humanise it - to say hello, to talk to it. Give it a name. It’s a technique I still use now, when there’s a spider I find at 3 AM and I get so scared I just start crying and I can’t move. So, in this case, tell yourself something like, yes, I know that Arthur isn’t real. But he’s real to me. He loves me and he’s proud of me. Repeat it as many times as you need to. Eventually, you’ll be aware of the reality, of the rationality, but you won’t care, because so what if he’s fictional? You love him and he makes you happy and he loves you, too. I’m glad that you can feel him physically, sometimes; there’s a rational explanation for that too but I don’t much care for rationality when it comes to something as personal as self-shipping. As long as you know what’s real and what isn’t, that’s all that matters. This conflict within you is normal, I promise, and it’s a good sign! I’d be concerned if you weren’t able to tell the difference between fiction and reality. When those thoughts arise, say hi to tell and then tell them to shut up, otherwise you’ll make yourself miserable. Trust me. 

I didn’t know selfshipping was a thing, I found out when I joined the fandom and I’m still finding out what it is, I need a teacher 😂 Thank you for being worried about me, although I’m sorry I'm making you worry, and your words are not empty! Reading your reply made me smile a lot and made me feel understood and seen. Thank you for spending your time for me and for being so kind ♥️ 5/5

asdfghjkl; I hope that I’m able to help you in even the smallest of ways! As I said, I’ve been self-shipping even before I knew what it was so it’s something which comes very easily to me. You’re welcome; I definitely am worried about you but it comes from a place of care. Thank you for reaching out; Arthur and I are so proud of you! I’m glad that I could make you feel understood and seen, that’s the very least that you deserve! <3 You’re welcome, my love, and I wish you all the best. As always, I’m here if you’d like to discuss things further. Take care 🧡

[asktheraggededges]

If you woke up knowing that today was the day you were gonna die, what would you do differently?

‘Ave one last cold one wiv da boys. Strap meself wiv boms and dakka and knives and flash gubbinz and go bakk to da jungle. Put a fukkin gap in em wun last time.

[subject smiles very very slightly but says nothing]

Get my affairs in order. Fill out all the appropriate paperwork so as not to be a bother for anyone. Leave my possessions, the few that there are, to the appropriate people. My Corporal, My Commissar and what little family I have. Take my shotgun, and slip away quietly. Find trouble. Keep fighting until my time comes.

Call bullshit. Fuck what you know. Fuck fate. 

I was born in to this world kicking and screaming and by fuck that’s how I’m leaving. Let whoever, or whatever is responsible for the injustice at removing me from this plane of existence suffer for what they have done.

A last glass of the good stuff.  A little cake, maybe if it was there. Apologise to everyone.

I’d..I’d tell her how I feel. 

Fuck it, I’d kiss her.

Not cool to do so, but..nothing to lose, right?

Smoke ‘em if you got em. Go down fighting and looking sharp. All I’d want.

Already.

[subject gives a small, bitter laugh]

I wouldn’t even be allowed to feel relieved. I’d just end up worrying about them.

No sense worrying about it. I’d try to instruct people. Get someone - maybe Ike or Mags to look after my gardens. Grab some edibles and drift off into space. No big fuss. No big deal.

J’know? I would love to have one last gallop. Not fussed. They’ve all been wonderful. Clean up, dress up. And have one last drag and a brandy as I watched a sunset somewhere. I think, perhaps, that would be an acceptable end.

Mama would worry so much. Who’d look after my little ones?

I would do everything I could to make Angie happy one last time. But, then she would know something was up and she’d be sad anyway. Its a conflict. Best to do, nothing. Just…business as usual. Leave her a note if I can find the words.

Your sister.

I’d imPArT the SuM of aLL my kNOwLeDge to soMeOne. 

MayBe the SpEcK.

SpEnD tiMe wiTh tHe bOss. SoMe tIme with Grisholm. KiSS him AGAin.

fInALLy..I wOuLd see NaDa. InSisT that sHe cONSUME me in fuLL. So thAT my deATH and the MAGNIFIcence of My PowEr is NEIther CorRUPted or causes TrOUbLe for thOsE I caRE abOUt.

Forget the hearse cause I’ll never die!

I got

Nine lives!

Cats eyes!

I don’t know. I don’t. Die fighting, please.

I’d do my duty. Same as always. If I had time for a last drink and a roll in the hay, sure. But there are things to be done and people die every day. Cogs keep turning. Shove it, keep walking.

Fool question.

It’s a conflict. On one hand, I would love to be surrounded by these guys, the people I care about, before I go. For the last thing I see to be their smiling faces. But that’s kind of selfish, you know?

I think, so long as it was worth it, I’d find my peace with it all. Dying taking down a really big dude, or giving my life to save a bunch of others, I’d be okay with that.

On the understanding that no statues get built. No places get named. Don’t even write down what I did. Tell people of what I did only if they ask. Whatever happens, don’t let anyone call me a fucking hero.

Let the water be taken from me. Then commit me to space. or the earth. Whatever. No day should be any different. 

Look after him.

Behg pess ahp. A bawnk.

Destroy what’s un finished. Spend time with Wes. My main wish, however foolish and unlikely is to die as myself. Send a message to Briton so they can collect my armour. A little music. Some port if someone can spare it. 

I bagel know. 

I float it would be very beautiful to hold close first friend best friend longest time only friend Zune.

I bagel be leaves I can be by the grand big golden couch. I have nothing to go there with. No ticket. No bottom of the shoes.

So there is no thing for me after the adjserious or solemn in manner or appearance.

If the last thing I hear is her. if the last thing I feel is her.

I am fine with this. it’s okay.

Hmmmmm?

Hm. Upload everything. Absolutely everything. My mind, my thoughts, my dimensions and physiology. Multiple terminals. Even onto nebulous data transmissions. Some one will find it. Maybe someday some mad man will find a way to make me again and I can pick up where I left off. Hope. Hope for humanity and technology and the harmonious fusion of both…that is what I believe in. It’s worth believing in.

[subject pointedly doesn’t look into the camera and is barely audible]

I wouldn’t do a goddamn thing different.

Shit, man. I don’t wanna think about stuff like that! Come on! There’s ALWAYS a way.

I’d only tell Jonny. I’d do whatever she wanted me to do from there. If we spend all day in bed, so be it. If she collects my thoughts for the future because, for whatever reason she thinks they’re valuable, so be it. If she just wants me to leave quietly, so she doesn’t have to see me die, or feel me die so be it. I understand the revolting world of war and the worse world of politics. I wouldn’t know what to do.

Stiff upper lip. Let it mean something. Let it be dignified and purposeful. keep smiling. Keep singing. It’s a drop in the ocean. I don’t want any tears. The sun will rise. Humanity will prevail. Play up and play the game.

Is not likely. I am invincible! 

But should worst come to worst. Let me die knee deep in stupid baby enemies or with Solnishko in my arms.

No alternative acceptable.

I..I dunno. Heh. Uh.

I guess…take off all the passwords.. hand out some data chips. 

Just…give access to all the data…the writing, the footage the sound bytes..

All the …stuff..for lack of a better description that will let anyone who cares know who we are. Or who we were. Let our story be known to anyone who wants to know.

Maybe they’ll learn from it.

Maybe they’ll find it interesting.

That’s ah…all I I’d really like..

KAEL TORNIC

Doug Boyd/ Masaya Onosaka