#hurt ming

[demaparbat-hp]

“Zuko?” Ming searched for the Prince in his silence. He was staring intently out of the window, mouth blown wide open, eyes distant and awed and sincere. Oh. His whisper was a fragile, breathless thing.

“We're here.”

Ming’s doubts and concerns are hers alone, but that doesn't mean the rest of the Crew doesn't share them. This sudden mission, Zuko's change in attitude, his obsession with the Water Tribes...

Ming tries to discover the root of it all in For the Spirits Chapter VIII: Make You Stay, but will Zuko let her in?

[hualian]

"How can you still smile and apologize to me?" | Heaven Official’s Blessing S2 Ep6 🦋

[hakogyi]

"put the claymore down and help me practise"

[vegaseatsass]

Since I'm still thinking about Ming today... Let us compare Three Mings.

1. Ming when he's Scared*

*caught off guard by domesticity/affection and how much he likes and wants it

2. Ming when he's Trying*

*to fix the shit he does when he's scared, but still seem cool and controlled (of highest priority always)

3. Ming when he's Scared*

*deeply fucking terrified, scrambling, on the precipice of a complete break from sense and reason which he shan't recover from for years

And the thing is, which of these Mings do you think stays with Joe in his bones, in his gut. Which of these Mings are the Mings Joe remembers and thinks of as true?

Ming my babygirl, you have so so soooo much more Trying to try.

[becauseimanicequeen]

I know Ming is a lot of things, and barely any of it is good (at this point). This whole thing, though...

Made me lose it. It's two years later and Ming is still there waiting.

The hope ("no matter how long it takes"), the denial (cooking for Joe every day because he has to come home at some point), the grief (still staying at Joe's place because he can't move on)... That shit fucking HURT.

[maxescheibechlinichacheli]

[xiaosean]

till the end of the moon

“since you don’t value my love... try my hatred.”

[jungle-fae]

Bear with me, it’s essay time because crying about beefleaf while rereading some parts of book 4 gave me a LOT of thoughts and emotions.

The more I think about it, the more I’m convinced that beefleaf were never going to get a happy ending, not because mxtx didn’t want to give them one, but because their dynamic literally makes it an impossibility. I don’t think it matters that He Xuan genuinely cared for SQX as Ming Yi because he is never going to be able to look at them without recalling what they took from him. Sure, he might not hate SQX, and he might actually wish them a happy life, but that life cannot be with him.

And this is taking into account a scenario in which He Xuan didn’t kill Shi Wudu, because even if he didn’t, I don’t think he himself could ever be truly happy with SQX. There is too much pain associated with them, and even though they were not the direct cause of that pain, I think it’s still fair for He Xuan not to want to be around that reminder. Is that fair to Qingxuan? Not necessarily, but neither was any of this fair to He Xuan.

I don’t think they could ever have a healthy relationship built upon a foundation filled with so much hurt, because they would only end up hurting each other more, whether intentionally or not. I think they both know this, and it’s why I personally believe that the ending mxtx gave them is the best we could have hoped for. In the end, I believe it’s clear that neither of them hates the other, but they do harbor a lot of complicated feelings on the matter that cannot be resolved with apology and forgiveness.

For Qingxuan’s part, I don’t think they blame He Xuan for their present situation. In fact, they are adamant in relaying to Xie Lian that He Xuan didn’t do anything to them after the events of the Black Water Arc. However, they also seem intent on moving forward with their mortal life. As for He Xuan, his dropping SQX off at the royal capital, as well as his willingness to give SQX his spiritual power and the fan (regardless of the dire circumstances) shows that there’s a part of him that still cares about them. He has no desire to interfere with Qingxuan’s chances at happiness in their new life, precisely because of that affection, but he also doesn’t want to be around to grieve over what could have been. Because every time He Xuan sees SQX, there will only be regret, both for his inability to see SQX without the attached pain and for the friend (or even lover) he could have had had their fates not been so maliciously intertwined.

Yes, I love beefleaf, but what I love more than the ship are the incredibly written individuals themselves. And I do firmly believe that, in canon at least, they would both be more at peace by letting go and moving on. Not necessarily happy, but at peace.

Now, in another universe, where these two met outside of these circumstances? Beefleaf most certainly sails.

Side note: In a weird way, writing this was actually kinda cathartic because it gave me peace with and acceptance of beefleaf’s canon ending, while still acknowledging that these two definitely had the potential to be lovers. That potential can be (and already has been) explored through everyone’s lovely fan creations.

[whumperer-86]

Young Babylon ep7

Injured and concerned for him

[habizuh-studios]

𝑇𝐺𝐶𝐹 𝐹𝑖𝑐 𝑀𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

I've Held My Heart Close All These Years

Since the day he woke up here and again, and again, and again, he has never felt happiness. Until there is a light, and he's set free. A word rings in his head: Ascension. Out of the coffin after ninety-six years, however, can change a lot. Especially if there were countless people to see it. OR: Xie Lian ascends from the coffin and chaos ensues :)

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I'm at My Highest Peak

"Did you know? General Nan Yang, the martial god of the Southeast, ascended via pure martial might! He didn't cultivate at all, no. He slayed the children-eating beast who lurked in Zhubei forest!" OR: Feng Xin ascends.

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Can't Stop Thinking of You

Feng Xin thinks of His Highness, because even after all of these years, he remembers- and ends up coming to a few realizations. OR: Feng Xin's first love.

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How Can I Protect You, When I Don't Feel Alright?

Feng Xin goes on a mission from a mission. Sent by His Majesty, himself, it is top priority and dangerous. But what he doesn't expect is the hallucinations, the intrusive thoughts, the blood, the- OR: How Feng Xin received Fengshen.

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What Suits You Best

Xie Lian has always had a soft spot for weaponry and martial arts, even at the age of thirteen. Which is why it's only natural that he decides which weapon best suits his bodyguard, Feng Xin! OR: How Feng Xin figured out that archery was his strong suit.

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No Longer Alone

“Banyue,” a gentle voice above her says, “Banyue, it’s okay. You're safe. You’re here. It’s okay.” And still, she lets out a sob. But she is not a sad child- how could she be, with General Hua beside her? OR: General Hua and Banyue fluff and comfort for the soul...

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Call it if Our Time is Through

On a mission from Hua Cheng, Yin Yu gets cursed to live in a time loop from a vengeful ghost. That would've been fine... if only Quan Yizhen hadn't gotten involved. OR: Yin Yu has to see Quan Yizhen die, over and over again.

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Take Care of Me

Feng Xin is not sick. And if he is, it doesn't matter! Mu Qing doesn't know what he's talking about at all! OR: Modern! AU, in which Feng Xin is most definitely sick, don't listen to him. Oh, and Mu Qing takes care of him.

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It's Easier to Sleep When it's Warm

Mu Qing tries pulling an all-nighter, but fails and falls asleep at around two in the morning. Luckily, Feng Xin is also awake, and wraps a blanket over his shoulders. Mu Qing looks so at peace... he wishes the man could look like this more often. OR: Medical Student! Mu Qing falls asleep, and Feng Xin puts a blanket over him :)

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My World is Bright

Pei Xiu doesn't hold too much respect or adoration for the gods in Heaven. One of the few exceptions is Lang Qianqiu, who is bright, heroic, competent, brave, noble, and handsome. Although Pei Xiu sometimes wishes he could kiss the worried expression off his face- wait. What? OR: The QianXiu fluff fic that someone asked for! :)

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Though You Embrace it, I Can't Face It

I love him, Feng Xin thinks one day as he stares at the ceiling of his apartment, thinking about his roommate. It’s no surprise that when Feng Xin shoots up, feeling his lungs constrict and grow weak as he shakes with coughs, that a singular flower petal comes out onto his hand. He stares at it. Because, despite the implications, despite how he is willing to die and could die from the pure, unbridled love he holds within his chest, Feng Xin knows that Mu Qing will never love him back. OR: Modern!AU in which Feng Xin has hanahaki.

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To Bring Back the Flame

Mu Qing is a fucking traitor. A selfish, uncaring motherfucker who can't afford to love the same way Feng Xin does. Or at least he thinks so, until when he blows up and takes a step, he's met with someone different. OR: Book 4! Feng Xin travels to the future.

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Revenge is Sweet, Literally

He Xuan had been writing in his diary. He was still planning the perfect revenge plot for the Shi brothers. He’s considered murder more times than not, but something is stopping him. Whether it be fate or Hua Cheng's nagging (he only said it once, but still), he considered other options. With the knowledge that Shi Qingxuan knows nothing of the fate swap, he doesn’t have anything better to do. Then Hua Cheng called him via the spiritual communication array. Zoning back in, He Xuan hears Hua Cheng say something that he normally wouldn’t care for. “... Of course, I wouldn’t dare defile His Highness, but to think…” He Xuan doesn’t care for that- Heaven, he doesn’t even know the context or what he says after, but he suddenly stands up and slams his hands on the table so hard that his bonefish look back at him. And then, he writes. OR: He Xuan, after some thinking, comes up with the perfect revenge plan to anger Shi Wudu.

[raddestrose]

There isn’t a day where beefleaf doesn’t haunt me

(im dramatic and saw sad fanart)

[lunarblossomyuehua]

Hello I am in agony after reading the blackwater arc and in need of therapy now

[muqingfx]

mmMmJHHGv hahahhaahahaha funny

[respectthepetty]

And they lived happily ever after.

James gets the MVP award.

Ming is still my best boy but is looking exhausting. DON'T HURT MY PRECIOUS BABY!

And second wife is my best friend.

End of story. Nothing bad will happen because the story is over. Close book. Stop reading.

HAPPILY EVER AFTER FOR ALL OF THEM!

[gourmetgamer23]

Fic Update ⚡

⚡What It Cost🦋

Chapter 5 - Wherever You Are

・Hua Cheng/Xie Lian (Hualian)

・Rated E 🔞 | 15k+ words

・Cyberpunk AU

😈Smut w/ plot: part 2 of 2

Guys this was the chapter that started it all for me, so excited to be posting it!

[the-almighty-bling]

I WANT TO SEE JOE SMILE FOR REAL :(

I want to see Joe basking in happiness and true happiness. We may have seen Joe smitten and in bliss at the early episodes but as a viewer (with a bird eye view of both sides -Joe/Ming), I know that this happiness surrounding Joe is a fleeting one. It makes my heart break whenever I see Joe happy because how high you are, is how low you can/will fall.

In episode 2, when Joe was kinda teasing Ming about being jealous and Ming chided in and reminded him that he is just a stand in. That was depressing to watch. You see Joe’s bright face, bright eyes go to dark and his body slumping down and becoming smaller.

I want to see Joe smile again and this time round, when he smiles, it’s because he is surrounded by genuine love, peace and a safe place. (And I guess the red flag might be me because I am hoping Ming can give him all that)